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nancylou444 · 3 years ago

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I tried to be nice

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THEM: hi! thanks for the answers I really appreciate the discussion. normally if someone ships something I don’t like or something like that, I’ll just leave them alone but.. just to be clear I completely respect all of your opinions, even agree with some of them, even if we might disagree on the incest and Castiel haha. So I don’t mean any disrespect with this at all, please let me know if I’m out of line though!

But... I saw some things you said, and they come across to me in a way that I don’t think you intended? I feel really awkward sending this haha, you’re very nice and I don’t think you said anything on purpose, but I just.. wanted to let you know that some of the things regarding your opinion on certain characters come across not very well? I don’t think it’s intentional or anything, and I don’t mean to call you out at all which is why I didn’t want to point it out in the replies y’know?

Don’t get me wrong though, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with not liking castiel or destiel. I’ve been watching the show for a while with my dad, and he isn’t a huge fan either, I don’t think that’s a problem :)

I’d continue without waiting for a response but I don’t want to say something you’ve already been told, or continue without knowing if I’ve said something out of line already 😅

ME: I'm kind of distracted dealing with my Mom's rehab center. But you can keep going.

THEM: Alright! I’ve tried rephrasing this a million times but I don’t know how to make it seem not antagonistic. I promise I don’t mean that you’re doing it intentionally, it’s just, uh a lot of your criticism of spn feels like it could be read as homophobic? Again I don’t think YOU are I just wanted you to know it kind of reads that way!

That sounded so confrontational. I really don’t mean it that way 😭

ME: HOMOPHOBIC? Really? A lot of the 'proof' your fellow shippers use border on stereotypes but you think I'M homophobic? Considering my top two ships are Wincest and Malec. Yeah, sounds confrontational.

THEM: I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that. I guess there’s no other way to say it, but I understand why you feel accused. What do you mean by proof..?

Also I don’t really think having gay ships means you can’t be homophobic. *I* used to be homophobic years ago, and I’m a gay person!

ME: How old are you? https://nancylou444.tumblr.com/post/154098904136/a-guide-to-dean-winchesters-imaginary-bisexuality

THEM: yeah this is starting to get frustrating. I’m gonna be real with you, why does it matter if people think dean is bisexual? like, bottom line, that is my question for you

and your answer will determine if your veracity is homophobic. why does it matter that some people think dean is bisexual. not the fans or actors or writers or anything. why does it matter that some viewers will watch, and they will think dean is bisexual?

ME: My problem isn't that some people think he is bi IN FANON, my problem is that they want CONFIRMATION OF A FANON SHIP. And that some people DENY how the show ended. These same people think that fake weddings are more canon than the FINAL EPISODE.

THEM: I get what you mean, but how is it a fanon ship when it’s confirmed romantic from one side, and interpretable as mutually reciprocated in Latin America? (I’m going to disregard the bit about the wedding, because I’m a firm believer in Neil Gaiman variety death of the author. Also that’s just people having fun with fanon, who cares?)

ME: Confirmed romantic?By whom MISHA, who wanted to sell necklaces? Have you never said 'i love you' to a FRIEND or FAMILY member? The dub is not canon, so don't even try using that as proof. Death of the author is just another way of saying MY VIEW OF THE SHOW IS SUPERIOR TO HOW THE CREATOR WANTS TO SEE IT. Jensen has said many times that the ship isn't canon and that Dean is straight. But it's better to believe what Misha says because he agrees with you. You think somebody is bi because of how they sit or the color clothes they wear? That would make YOU homophobe.

THEM: LOL You know what? I change my answer. I looked through your blog and you ACTIVELY and viscously hate Cas, Charlie, Claire, Kaia and the implication that Jack may not be straight. You’ve said Cas coming out as gay and in love with dean makes the rest of his actions predatory, compared him to a teenage girl, called him creepy, and openly rejoiced in your idea that dean looked ‘disgusted with him’. You said that Claire is awful, that Kaia is a wooden plank, that they ‘shoved them together’ for ‘woke points’ and said that Jody saying Claire was IN LOVE WITH Kaia ‘doesnt count’ and called it ‘lip service’. And it doesn’t end there! After all this, you said that you preferred the old better s4 Claire. Is it because she was ostensibly straight? Are you uncomfortable with queer women? And then you have the audacity to use these characters (Claire and Kaia and Charlie) as reasons to epicly own the Hellers and claim they already have represention. You are a completely disingenuous bitch and I don’t care to be nice to you anymore! I don’t feel AT ALL charitable toward you anymore, and I don’t care if you have gay ships. Gay people aren’t here for you to fetishize! You CONSTANTLY mock and ridicule jokes made by queer people regarding deans bisexuality or Cas being gay or any number of things. You constantly reaffirm that Dean is straight and call people who think otherwise delusional and disgusting, while you think dean is in romantic sexual love with his male sibling. You are openly hostile to the idea of non-binary jack and were pissed that Alcal endorsed that. You devalue Jack’s value and relationship to Cas who is, textually, his father figure. I have NO reason not to think that you are homophobic. I don’t care anymore! You’re a huge bitch and, judging by your prior responses and posts, a genuine dialogue regarding queerness in spn is impossible. You regard any instance of canonically queer moments ‘lip service’ and so regard it. You actively hate every canonically gay character and degrade them using traditionally homophobic tropes and stereotypes.

Feel free to explain how you aren’t homophobic. I’m so sorry if I got the wrong impression.

ME: Wow I see your true colors have come out HELLER.

THEM: Idc if you think I’m mean. Go ahead and make a post about me lol, have fun with it. Give me a moment to respond to your paragraph it’s... a lot to dissect.

I’ll touch on your comments about the dub and the Spanish language in a moment. First though

I ’m gonna be real with you, I don’t think you know what death of the author is. Neil Gaiman’s variety of the dead author principal is that once canon ends, the story belongs to those that consume and engage with it. That’s... also literally the theme of supernaturals final season. Anyway I really recommend you read up on death of the author and Neil Gaiman’s takes on fanon. It’s a fun way to consume your media, and in the end that’s what I’m here for.

I don’t care what Misha says, and I don’t care what Jensen says! I think they are both queer because I have eyes and watched the show. I think it’s a lovely narrative that is supported by canon, and it’s fine if you disagree with that

On your last sentence there... lol. It’s a common joke in queer circles that gays can’t sit properly, specifically bisexuals. Same thing with the clothing, it’s a SUPER common joke for example that lesbians wear flannel. Maybe you need to go outside and talk to some normal, non-incest shipping queer people. But what do I know!

And finally... ‘the Spanish dub isnt canon’

I am literally cuban. My first language is SPANISH. my entire household speaks Spanish, and my family past 1st cousins don’t speak any English. My Boricua cousins have watched supernatural in full for years, and they watch it in Spanish. Do you think America is the center of the universe? Do you think our media is somehow less than yours, that our interpretations of English language media isn’t valid? What, do you think we are idiots who don’t know how to analyze literature and media? Do you think the people who work at Telemundo, people employed as dubbers and translators, you think they do a worse job than the American crew?

Why, because they aren’t American or don’t speak English? ‘Te amo’ said to a non family member is, in 99% of any instance, ROMANTIC. it’s something you say to your spouse in serious situations like weddings!! Even MARRIED people don’t normally say te amo, everyone uses te quiero unless it is very serious or romantic in context.

All of my family who are Spanish language, they heard dean say ‘y a yo ti, cas’ and think that they were in romantic love. Sorry dude! The United States might be the center of your universe, but Latin America is HUGE. Spanish is one of the most spoken languages in the WORLD. In fact, more people speak Spanish than English. Sorry that you seem to hate gay characters SO MUCH you have to say an entire language somehow isn’t valid to consume media in!

ME:

Obviously this heller is batshit crazy.

Some of those things she thinks I said just show she has no idea how to follow a tumblr thread.

You are a completely disingenuous bitch and I don’t care to be nice to you anymore! I don’t feel AT ALL charitable toward you anymore, and I don’t care if you have gay ships. Gay people aren’t here for you to fetishize! You CONSTANTLY mock and ridicule jokes made by queer people regarding deans bisexuality or Cas being gay or any number of things. You constantly reaffirm that Dean is straight and call people who think otherwise delusional and disgusting, while you think dean is in romantic sexual love with his male sibling.

Wow.

I have NO reason not to think that you are homophobic. I don’t care anymore! You’re a huge bitch and, judging by your prior responses and posts, a genuine dialogue regarding queerness in spn is impossible. You regard any instance of canonically queer moments ‘lip service’ and so regard it. You actively hate every canonically gay character and degrade them using traditionally homophobic tropes and stereotypes.

Where have I hated canon gay characters and degraded them using tropes and stereotypes? The bitch has me confused with HER FELLOW SHIPPERS.

Gotta love how she is defending the Spanish dub. Hit a nerve did I?

It’s a common joke in queer circles that gays can’t sit properly, specifically bisexuals. Same thing with the clothing, it’s a SUPER common joke for example that lesbians wear flannel. Maybe you need to go outside and talk to some normal, non-incest shipping queer people.

Now who is using stereotypes?

#destiehellers #batshit crazy #your headcanon doesn't mean shit dean is straight #dub doesn't make it canon

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rambling-rabbit · 4 years ago

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My Raven (Vampire Diaries oneshot)

Word Count: 2k

Pairings: Elijah x OC, and then Klaus x OC

AN: I forgot this is based on two songs: One Headlight by The Wallflowers (though I really like The Ready Set’s cover) and Snuff by Slipknot. I went through some stuff in high school lol. And that’s a reminder; I wrote this like 6 years ago. I heavily edited it, but I don’t think it’s a great piece of writing by any means. Anyway, I hope y’all enjoy!! :)

(I also think I wrote another part to this, so if anyone wants that I can dig it up)

So long ago, I don't remember when.

That's when they say I lost my only friend.

"I can't lose you, Elijah!" I yelled after him, black hair whipping around as I frantically tried to catch his face through the trees. He couldn't leave me, not like this. He promised. "Please, don't go." I could hear the vulnerability in my voice, where it hadn't been present in years. I felt sick to my stomach; he shouldn't be able to do this to me. I can’t believe I thought I was getting my happily ever after.

They say she died easy of a broken heart disease,

As I listened, through the cemetery trees.

"I'm sorry, my love. I must," his voice whispered out of the trees and I tried to follow him, but my legs were stuck like cement to the grass. The compulsion wouldn’t even let me sink to the ground to cry. "Our love is forbidden, and you are not safe with me." That didn't stop him from asking me to marry him, though, did it? "Don't fret, I will find you again." The overwhelming freezing sadness I had felt before was leached out of me and suddenly replaced with an anger that shot through my system, burning my blood. All I had done for months was fret about him; his father was out to kill him and he was finally deciding to leave me behind! I clenched my fists at my sides and breathed in slowly.

"Don't lie, 'Lijah!" I yelled out into the void, my voice stronger and clearer than before. "This is our goodbye forever." I could feel the heavy truth of my statement ring throughout the clearing. Sudden soft footsteps sounded somewhere to my right, but I resisted the urge to look at the man who had toyed with my heart for so long. "What are you waiting for? Leave already." My voice held no emotion anymore, even as tears dripped down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry," Elijah said again, sadder this time, and my heart cracked at the ridiculous amount of sincerity I thought I could hear in his voice, "I love you with all of my heart." I resisted an urge to snort, feeling a manic need to start laughing. If he loved me that much, he wouldn’t be doing this, and we both know it. "I give you my word that I will find you again," I gasped in a breath. His word meant everything to him. I immediately crushed the sprout of hope I wanted so badly to let grow in my chest. "Good-bye, my Raven." Then, he was gone, and the world around went black.

I looked up a few minutes later to see a new figure standing at the tree line. I got up mechanically and walked over to him.

"You seem different," he stated, smirking, no doubt having heard my and Elijah's conversation, "I wonder what could have happened?" This bastard, the man I had always thought of as a brother. How could I have been so stupid as to never see the monster inside. Every emotion in me seemed to bubble up all at once, it was overwhelming. I couldn’t focus, it felt like my brain and heart were being ripped out of my body. Closing my eyes, I focused on the absence I had been holding onto before. Meeting his eyes again, I could see he was taken aback at the coldness inside.

"Oh, nothing," I bluffed, turning around and walking away, "Just found a reason to turn off my humanity." I glanced back at him and smirked, the same smirk I had always seen on his face. I had learned from the best.

It always seemed such a waste,

She always had a pretty face.

I wondered why she hung around this place.

I woke up with an immense headache, again. My dream faded fast, but I knew what it meant. I glanced around and noticed my clothes strewn everywhere, but his were nowhere to be found. The shower turned on, and I silently moved into the middle of the floor. That dream could only mean one thing. 'Lijah was searching here. He couldn't find me so easily.

It was my fault he was so close. What was I thinking, crawling back to this bastard again? I sent a look of disgust at the door, even though it was fully directed at myself.

Using vampire speed, I picked up everything and got dressed. The skinny jeans came back on, along with the blue tank top and leather jacket. My sneakers were found in a vase and I had to pause for a moment to wonder when that happened. My nose crinkled as I realized the clothes in my own hotel room would have to stay there for quite a long time if I plan on getting out of this city before Elijah finds out I'm here.

If you love me,

let me go,

and run away before I know.

I could see the entrance to the hotel lobby. Freedom was in sight, mine for the taking. He wouldn't be able to question me on last night and Elijah wouldn't find me. Perfect.

"Hello there, love," his British accent almost made my knees buckle. I tell myself it's because it sounds so much like his brother's.

"What do you want, Klaus?" I asked snottily, trying to be nonchalant and pretend that nothing happened between us only a hand-full of hours ago.

“Why so cold, darling? Once upon a time we were almost siblings.” He gave that smile, the one made of slicing malice that gave a glimpse of the monster hiding inside. Although it seemed strange that he would bring up my previous engagement instead of the previous night, something about Klaus’s demeanor let me know that he’s the reason Elijah found me so quickly.

My heart is just too dark to care.

I can't destroy what isn't there.

“Yes, but unlike Kol or Finn, I don’t like you.” I answered, putting a bland smile on my face as I tried to hide how anxious I was to sprint out the door and never look back.

"Harsh, love." How does he know I love when he calls me that? I flinch inward at my own thoughts; now is not the time to get distracted. There isn’t anything to love about Klaus. He's a monster, murderer, and there's not a scrap of humanity in him! "I just came to say good-bye, Raven, since you seemed to have forgotten." I held my breath when he paused, watching that stupid smirk creep across his face. "But, about last night -"

"No!" My face heated at the thought of where that sentence was going, and I frantically glanced around, glad I hadn’t attracted too many stares. "It was a moment of weakness and it shouldn't have happened." Images from last night zoomed through my brain and I was incredibly glad that vampires couldn’t blush.

"Now, see, I would believe you," Klaus took a few steps closer until I had to look up at him, "if this was the first time." He paused to see if I would interrupt, his dark eyes searching mine, but I wasn't entirely sure what to say. "May I remind you of just a few months ago when we didn't leave my room for three days except to hunt? Or how about New Years?" he was talking low so no one around would hear, but my advanced ears heard everything perfectly. He brought up some fair points, but I could never let him know what those nights meant to me. I laced my fingers behind my back so he wouldn’t see them shaking as I focused on breathing evenly. "And let me just say, the best was probably the night Elijah left you." Klaus's voice turned even colder than mine had been. The blood drained from my face and my mouth went dry. He had no right to bring that up. The worst night of my life played in my mind over and over again, bringing back the pain and the heartbreak that made me turn my emotions off in the first place.

I went to finally say something--what, exactly, I wasn’t sure--but this time he shushed me. "Just, give in and be happy. That's all I want from you, Raven. Be happy." He coaxed. There was an odd sort of tone in his voice; I would call it sadness, except Klaus was incapable of such a human emotion. "Don't keep running away every time we meet up." My breath went shaky as I thought about it. Being with him was as natural as breathing, even as he set my blood on fire and everything in me screamed to hold on tight and never let him go.

Klaus, the beautiful and blonde vampire, who could massacre a village and then turn and look into my soul with such softness it hurt. Why was it so hard to say no all of a sudden? It wasn't compulsion, but that was the only explanation for why I hadn't run away already. He was the reason my life ended, the reason I don’t have anyone to care for. He doesn’t deserve any compassion, not after everything he’s done. I shouldn’t want to lean in and press our lips together, order him to take me back to his room. I should care that Elijah is here, searching for me, and for the life we never got to have together. My head is spinning, and that wave of emotion I pushed away so long ago threatens to pull me under again.

If you still care,

don't ever let me know.

"I can't." The words sounded forced and weak, even to me. I clear my throat and look into his crystal blue eyes. "I can't." This time it comes out more firmly, and I can see a dash of hurt behind his usual facade. "Elijah was my true love.” The lies tumble from my lips, but I find strength in their falsehood. “Anything with you was done because of weakness and because I was emotionally unstable. Goodbye, Klaus." I pick up my bag and start walking away with my head held high. After all, I learned from the best.

We'll run until she's out of breath.

She ran until there's nothing left.

She hit the end,

it's just her window ledge.

Klaus sped in front of me and stared into my unemotional brown eyes. I could see the panic on his face for that split second, as if he really didn't want me to go. There was a world of words he was conveying, all too much for me to comprehend. Then, his features flattened, he stepped aside, and I walked out, trying not to show how surprised I was that Klaus let me see past his wall of emotional protection, even if it was only for a moment.

The second I was outside, tears started streaming silently down my face. I loved Klaus, almost always had. Ever since the night 'Lijah left, when he tried to help me pick up the pieces. I’ve pretended to forget how his actions affected me that night, but it was the first time I had felt alive since becoming a vampire. I thought my love for him was like a brother until that night, when I found out that my love for Klaus was so intense it scared me.

We wouldn't ever work, though. I sniffled and wiped my eyes as I stood against the wall outside the hotel. It would never work out. He was only after me as an ally. At least, that's what I keep telling myself. He was all for the kill and the power. How do I know he won't just kill me when I'm no longer useful? I can't trust him. My excuses feel weak, but they’re all I have.

Not bothering to glance around, I take off, already picking my next destination and leaving all of my problems behind.

If you still care, don't ever let me know...

#vampire diaries #fanfiction #fanfic #klaus mikaelson #elijah mikaelson #songfic #oneshot #klaus x reader #elijah x reader #rambling rabbit writes

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fymagnificentwomcn · 4 years ago

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t’s truly something how all princes/sultans in tmck are so pressed…I get their life isn’t easy, but all that blaming & truly how it can affect everyone’s perception. Murad even accused his mother of faking an assassination attempt on her life, incredible *sarcasm of course*. And Atike was just his cheerleader most of the time, ugh. All that blaming by people who even weren’t there. Thanks for writing that piece!

Aww thank you so much! This piece is my magnum opus I guess lol (Link here:https://fymagnificentwomcn.tumblr.com/post/610970504341405696/no-she-isnt-the-whole-evil-k%C3%B6sem-thing-isnt )

Murad’s angry 24/7 & gets so ridiculous with blame-shifting – he would need a good anger management therapy LBR.

And there’s one scene that portrays his character in nutshell:

Doctor: you cannot drink anymore wine, Your Majesty.

Murad, literally 5 minutes later: Yusuf, bring me wine!

Murad in 1 minute, another example:

Kösem: Don’t marry Silahtar to Atike, you also have another sister and if you do it, it will end in tragedy!

Murad: No worriez, I’ve thought about Gevherhan, I will marry her to Kemankeş ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I mentioned a lot of blame-shifting in my previous posts, but he even at moment began questioning his mum about Gülbahar and whether she truly committed treason (and Gülbahar herself admitted to it).

Even when Atike asked him for permission to take children with her & Kösem to vaqf, he was totally okay with the idea, but later after kidnapping snapped at his mother that it was HER fault for gaving taken his sons there & began threatening her with exile far away. Charming as always.

Honestly, he’s like a broken record. In all his arguments, while Kösem has her logical arguments, his only argument is usually “I’m the only/rightful owner of Ottoman Empire, “I’m the shadow of God on Earth. Like dude do you realise how boring you are???

Don’t forget how mad he got when Kösem wrote to Kemankeş to have a backup plan if Murad died and Bayezid wanted to take the throne, which could have meant danger for other Kösem’s sons. After all, she didn’t take it from nothing, Gülbahar told her about assassination attempt to come & it actually already had happened by the time Murad received the letter. Yes, dude you are not immortal, you could have been killed, and life goes on you know? It doesn’t mean your mother doesn’t love you or is not going to mourn you, but she also needs to take care of your brothers and state ffs. He’s truly obsessed with this idea that after his death life will (unfortunately in his view) go on – which is also meaningful since Kösem reminded him like two episodes earlier that state was going to remain even with both of them dead. And well we all know the “masterful” idea he conceived just before his death.

And it’s clear how even some of his siblings fear him – Gevherhan was scared immediately following the announcement of Kösem no longer being a regent (especially since he did in a way to put blame on his mother for recent events to prop himself up, and he was also engaged in state matters at that point). Kasim also immediately fears being locked up in kafes or even executed. Judging by their conversations, despite problems going on, last 10 years were a peaceful time for their family.

As I said, out of all Kösem’s opponents only Handan and Derviş weren’t worse than her, and she was the only main player that never engaged in mass slaughter – Safiye, Halime&Co., Gülbahar&Sinan, Murad, Turhan - all did.

Same with Atike – she was a baby when when her father died, didn’t even spend her early years locked up as Ibrahim…. she’s honestly so blind it’s painful. The scene where she jumps at Kemankeş for trying to talk sense to Ibrahim not to appoint Genie Master as chief judge… please your brother is now acting contrary to Imperial law and it’s asking for further disaster if Cinci increases his influence among ulema by bringing people who pay him into it & it’s good Ibo is controlled in this way… nah, it’s actually necessary. And how you jump from this to your mother I have no idea either. A true performative “activist”, who talks about protecting her brother, but all is limited to talking & exposing her moral superiority, while it’s not supported by any real actions helping him.

Well, you got your revenge on your mother for killing the husband who despised you, acted against your youngest brothers at that point, and likely was only praying you wouldn’t follow him also into afterlife.

I also forgot to mention one more example of Mu/rat manipulating the narrative – when he tells Atike following the failed dethronement attempt & Kasim’s death that their mother had lied to her and tried to kill him – he was after all put in kafes, he should be aware nobody planned an assassination attempt, bah he KNEW the whole plan from Sinan… and yes, Kösem being so adamant that nothing can happen to Mura/t cost her Kasim in the end.

Atike herself was aware that Mu/rat would have killed her brothers even if the dethronement attempt had not happened as she told him to his face after Kasim’s death and she stated that he had made the decision long ago. Later however she got the letter from Murad informing her who killed Silahtar and she even released Traitor No. 1 Sinan to spite her mum 😂.

I suppose princes at this point led the hardest existence because they were closed in kafes, unable to get decent education&experience or have families (maybe they were allowed to have sex with cariyes, but contraception had to be used or even abortion if the concubine of a sehzade has got pregnant) but at the same time they weren’t certain whether they wouldn’t be killed because the switch to anti-fratricide was pretty new&the times were turbulent. Osman clearly broke Imperial law by getting fetva from military judge to kill Mehmed, and Murad killed the biggest number of Ahmed’s sons obviously (yeah more than in the show because not all princes appeared in MYK, though we don’t know the exact number of Ahmed’s sons, Murad definitely also executed Suleiman, most likely his full brother). I laugh when people go about “rule-breaker” Murad. Wow by getting back to law that has already began to run its course, clap clap.

Murad was king of hypocrisy and it’s also a historical fact. As Halil İnalcık states in his book Ottoman Empire: The Classical Age: “ The tyrannical Murad IV was a habitual drinker and at the same time the most ruthless supporter of the prohibition againt alcohol”. Mu/rat tried to make use of religion in his attempts to drill absolute obedience, but he wasn’t a religious person himself & definitely tried to take from religion what it most suited him, while ignoring other things, e.g. he kept decreasing zakat, aka income tax that goes to charity. A small bit of trivia: apparently he was a big fan of Machiavelli’s The Prince, there were even some rumours that he translated the book himself (we can only imagine he also took from this book what he wanted 🤪 ).

Similarly Turhan manipulated the narrative, also in a hypocritical way – remember her going like: “how many padişahs you killed?” and she was the main force behind Ibo’s death… the moment Ibo told her that she “was a coward who hid behind his mother’s skirts”… it was clear he was doomed. There was explicit anger on Turhan’s side here. Not only because she felt insulted by him, but also because she felt a need to prove both to him and the world that she was capable to be on top without Kösem’s support. Not to mention all her actions leading to Ibo’s situation, also her ordering Mehmed to sign his dad’s death order was so chilling “I don’t want dad to die”. Well, now let’s play morally pure, especially while murdering elderly (very elderly lbr :p) Haci in again a brutal way, including twisting his neck. It’s not even that she removed a padisah – she actively worked to make him crazier and for his rule to be total failure, it wasn’t even about her, Ibo or Kösem – whole nation suffered because she was impatient to take power into her hands./BTW pity we skipped the time period when they were both Valides and we know both tried to get rid of each other, without harming Mehmed/ And frankly even with Kösem it was a terrible & undeserved backstabbing because also Ibi criticised Turhan for this saying his mother always “loved and protected her, did so much for her” and I doubt Ibo was biased here considering that he was also on bad terms with his mum at that moment.

Later the situation truly calmed down & later princes could live much more peacefully because the practice of killing truly went out of style and also later there were less and less restrictions on princes and they could for example travel abroad with the reigning padişah. For example, Sultan Abdülaziz took princes for a European trip and they even had a chance to meet Queen Victoria.

And I laugh when people blame Kösem for “failing to protect the princes” instead of you know, blame the actual killer. Ahmed truly replenished dynasty, while Murad axed a number of his brothers, at the same time of course used his own propaganda. It is true that Murad executed the favourite of princes, Bayezid, during celebrations following the successful Revan campaign. Similarly, when Kasim was executed someone spread rumours about the prince impregnating a number of concubines & it was before the Baghdad campaign when even setting out on it Murad had to display his “splendour and glory”.

Show-wise I legit one read that Kösem killed Ahmed because she spared Bulbül following Safiye’s attempted coup lmao. It’s not like Ahmed wasn’t there when she made the decision & it’s not like it wasn’t Hümaşah who after all got Yasemin in, and I doubt anyone could oppose an Imperial princess anyway – she would have found another servant. And Bülbül later saved Kösem’s kids, so… scapegoating truly is in some people’s blood lmao.

I love how MYK played with the idea of historical representation & creation of narrative, how people “see” and how different factors might influence their perception & creation of narrative. And also how S2 put into different perspective some stuff from S1. I admit there were some things that back during first watch of MYKS1 made me go WTF? that I later understood when compared/contrasted with MYK S2. It’s clear that they truly planned a lot of the whole show back in S1.

It’s sometimes interesting how narratives may be created and repeated even without evidence supporting it - there is no historical evidence that Kösem took part in Osman’s dethronement, yet it is something that often pops up even in “historical articles” for example. People deduce since Kösem later became Valide quite soon because Mustafa’s (or rather Halime’s) reign didn’t last long, know Şehzade Mustafa’s (Suleiman’s son) story, and some rumours about what Ottoman women did to secure throne for their children, so they see getting rid of one’s stepson to claim throne for one’s child as logical and usual in Ottoman system, even when there is no proper evidence backing it up. Because it seems natural and logical, so why not make it more spicy? We know next to nothing about Mahfiruz, but there is this “Betty vs Veronica” trope, so suddenly we learn that Mahfiruz was Kösem’s opposite, not politically involved or ambitious, but gentle & sweet, and even details like light hair pop up as opposed to Kösem’s dark hair (sometimes of course it is also extended to good vs. evil). Taken from where, other than fitting a known trope? Or when she’s presented as some sort of Mahidevran vol.2 as having as close relationship with Osman like Mahi did with Mustafa, perfect prince and jealous stepmother Kösem. I know some of the stuff is also derived from Western, orientalist plays, but those are obviously not sources and should not be treated as truth. And sometimes it it even repeated by historians. For example Uluçay, who was very against Sultanate of Women & pretty much propagated a lot of rumours (and new approach to the period truly changed a lot of how academia writes about these women now). Let us look at this quote:

Taken from: Necdet Sakaoğlu, Famous Ottoman Women.

It’s clear what narrative Uluçay chose for his research.

It’s common practice to sometimes fill in the blanks (and sometimes even change stuff) with known cliches, tropes, and narratives.

It is truly a topic for an extended discussion, so I will stop for now, but when it comes to Ottoman history I do recommend Daniel Piterberg’s Ottoman Tragedy. History and Historography at Play, which shows how the same event may be even differently presented in historical works depending on chosen narrative that is often rooted in current context.

#magnificent century: kosem #muhtesem yuzyil kosem #muhteşem yüzyıl kösem #kosem sultan #murad iv #answered #mods opinions #yeah again slowly restarting blog #I hope you missed my ramblings yhy #idk what's happening with read more cut ffs #so #long post

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rabbitsparklez · 5 years ago

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“I love you, more than you will ever know”

Alright, I’ve said this before as a reply to something I reblogged a little big ago, but I’m putting in a separate post and adding to it. (I’m not counting this as plagiarism because it’s my own post lol)

Apparently to some people, in Tangled: the Series it almost kind of seems that Rapunzel doesn’t show as much love towards Eugene as she did in the movie, but that doesn’t mean she loves him less than she did in the movie. They’re just used to each other and more casual with each other. Okay, she isn’t as much of a dramatic romantic as she was, but the movie is where we got the most dramatic parts of their relationship so far: The realization that they loved one another, and the trauma of Eugene’s death. It was in those scenes where Rapunzel shows her strongest affection towards him. Now, it’s not like she’s going to spend every second of every day focusing on him, (heck it isn’t even healthy to be that obsessed with someone). If you are referring to the fact that she sometimes pays more attention to other characters like her parents or Cassandra, I understand why you wouldn’t like that, but still, I strongly believe that she loves him more than she loves anyone and I’ll explain why.

After seeing the movie, where Rapunzel and Eugene are the two protagonists and almost have equal importance to the plot, you would expect that they would do everything together, fight side-to-side always, and be extremely close in every episode, but that isn’t exactly the case. Rapunzel is the main character in the series and Eugene isn’t given as much credit as he is in the movie. Does that bother me? Yes, sometimes it kind of does. I would LOVE it if the show gave Eugene a lot more importance considering his critical role in the movie, but in terms of romance, Disney Channel has its limits. I still would like to see more interaction with Eugene as a character, but that doesn’t mean that Rapunzel loves him less than she did. Some fans are upset that Rapunzel and Eugene don’t seem to have as strong of a connection as they did, but I know that that’s not the case. Again, the writers can’t make it too romantic because of their limits, but that does absolutely not mean that their bond is weakening. Rapunzel, who has a lot of other things to worry about in her life, doesn’t quite show him as much importance as he shows her. I sometimes do really miss the extreme love and passion she showed him in the movie, but I know that with all of the surroundings in her life - Parents, leadership, betrayal, responsibilities, trauma, etc - that she has to balance herself among all of those things. Rapunzel has a lot more to think about in her life than Eugene does in his. Rapunzel is pretty much the core of Eugene’s life, but he is more like one of the many different important things in her life (I emphasize the important though).

But by a lot of things, I believe that she loves him more than she loves anyone. She knows that he is basically the foundation to her independence and freedom, and that she wouldn’t have anything if it wasn’t for him. A few people seem to think that Rapunzel is pushing Eugene aside to please Cassandra, but even so, there is no way on earth that she is doing that because Cass means more to her, because in terms of honesty, Eugene means a lot more to Rapunzel than any of her other friends. He is pretty much shown as her favorite person, even though he isn’t always the center of attention. He is the first one who she runs to when she needs a hug, the first one whom she decides needs a birthday party, and the first one who she talks to about when she thinks there’s something wrong (such as when she thinks Shorty is suspicious in “Mirror Mirror”) . She relies on him to sit in her windowsill with her to talk about things with and bring her cupcakes, because she understands that he will do anything in her favor. She knows that he will be patient with her and do all in her favor to make her life as manageable as possible, because he promised her that he would be patient with her in TBEA. Not only that, but she knows that he has faith in her. He openly expressed that he had faith in her in “Lost and Found”, and afterwards throughout the show, he very clearly does. Rapunzel had spent her entire life as a dependent person, who never had a chance to show herself as strong, and someone who believes in her to an enormous extent showed up and brought out the best of her.

Also, if she ever “set him aside”, especially for reasons related to people like Cassandra, I am pretty sure that it was because she knows that Eugene already accepts her for who she is. The fact that Rapunzel often gave into what Cassandra said does absolutely not mean that she is more important to her than Eugene is; quite the opposite, actually. If you grew up with little siblings like I did, you may have noticed that your mom was a lot less strict and directed a lot of things towards the little kids. She didn’t do that because the little kids were more important to her, but because they weren’t mature enough to understand that the world didn’t revolve around them. The older kids didn’t get everything they wanted because they were mature enough to accept what mom said. Alright, that is a little bit of a weird comparison, but it makes sense. Eugene is like the “older kid”, who knows and understands that not everything in Rapunzel’s life is about him. Cassandra, on the other hand, is like the “little kid”, who needs to learn that Rapunzel can’t make everything about her, just because she’s her friend. Eugene, being the most patient person in Rapunzel’s life, never ever pulled her leg to get her pay more attention to him, and Rapunzel realizes this. She knew that if she listened to Eugene, she would have made Cassandra angry and there would be a bunch of drama, but she trusted Eugene to be patient enough for her to deal with Cassandra. Now we’re seeing that Rapunzel isn’t putting up with anyone telling her what to and what not to do, and that is one of the causes of Cassandra’s friendship to slide downhill, which basically shows that Cassandra can’t accept Rapunzel’s independence. Eugene is the opposite. Eugene and Cassandra were Rapunzel’s two close friends in Season 1, but I have noticed that they show the opposite effects towards Rapunzel. While Cassandra constantly brought up Rapunzel’s defects, like her bad decisions and her naivete, Eugene always brought up her good traits, and sees her as an independent, responsible woman. Cassandra ultimately was the one who turned against Rapunzel, while Eugene is the one who will continue to stand by her forever. To summarize this, the fact that Rapunzel did not center all of her attention to Eugene is the result of her trusting in his patience. I am not at all saying that giving someone attention is bad, but in the cases I’m referring to, where the princess is everyone’s center of attention, Eugene is showing respect by giving her the space she needs, and doesn’t want her to have another thing to worry about - that’s the last thing Rapunzel needs. Rapunzel shows by her understanding of Eugene’s good qualities of patience and respect that she loves him a lot. (Again, this is not hating on Cass as an individual character)

Even though they’re not engaged yet, I’m positive that Rapunzel and Eugene both know inside of their minds that they will get married some day, but just don’t admit it. They have so much devotion, trust, respect, and love for each other that there’s no way that they will not be there for each other in the future. In TBEA, Eugene, as I said, promised that he will be patient with every step Rapunzel takes. In BTCW, and on multiple other instances, Rapunzel emphasized that Eugene positively will be in her future no matter what. They often discuss things that highly express “later in our lives together”, such as wedding ceremony decorations in BTCW, and having kids in “You’re Kidding Me”. At the end of “There’s Something About Hookfoot” Rapunzel pretty much labeled Eugene as “that special person”. Both of them know that they will never, ever decide that they don’t work out; they know that they are constant partners and will always be.

That was a long essay, but I’m just here to say that Rapunzel basically shows in multiple ways that she loves Eugene more than anyone, even if you can’t see it right away.

#TTS #Tangled the Series #Rapunzel #Eugene #New Dream #Rapunzel x Eugene #Eugene x Rapunzel #rabbitsparklez #explainmybrain

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surveys-at-your-service · 4 years ago

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Survey #278

“they will seduce you, get through the door; then they bite you in the neck, leave you bleeding on the floor.”

Do you believe in dream symbolism? If so, do you ever look up what certain things in your dreams may mean? Some, yes, others, no. A lot just seem way too random to have stories behind them, but just as well, some dreams are obviously stemmed from our experiences, fears, desires, etc. Who was the last person who exploded on you? What was the reason? I have no idea, but probably Mom. Is there a certain name that keeps popping up in your life, like a name that many people you know have? No. What is something you have a "love/hate relationship" with? What do you hate about it, and what do you love about it? The first thing that comes to mind is technology. I grew up way too dependent on in despite my mom being a good mother that really tried to limit my time of it. It just never worked. Almost everything I do involves a computer. Through the Internet though, I’ve made spectacular friends, discovered great things (coughcoughmark), it helps me through depression and stuff… but I nevertheless hate how attached I am to it. Sometimes I feel like I’m so disconnected from the “real” world, “real” experiences, but then again, I also believe tech is a part of the “real” world. Idk how to really explain it; I have such mixed feelings. Do you like things that are cliché or not? What kinds of things that are regarded as "cliché" do you like? Sure, especially romantic cliches. I’m just such a sucker for that kind of stuff. What was the last quote you read somewhere, and who said it? “Speak your mind even if your voice shakes,” Ruth Ginsburg. We truly lost a hero. Have you heard any song mash-ups (when they put two or more different songs together) that you like? If so, which? Oh, quite a lot, I love those! The first one that comes to mind is “Centuries” by Fall Out Boy and “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in 2014? Well, this is old. But anyway, I had one. How often do you say ‘lol’ in a computer or text conversation? Quite a bit. Idk, it just changes the tone of what you’re speaking. Whose hoodie did you wear last? My own. Have you ever listened to music you hated just to fit in? Ha ha… not devoutly, but I’d explore “cool” metal bands to try to get into. I didn’t make myself listen to them if I didn’t like ‘em, though. What’s an interesting fact about you that not many people know? Hm. Well, I don’t consider it “interesting,” but very few people (besides the Internet lmao) know that I essentially stole my then-best friend’s boyfriend by mutual flirting to the point he broke up with her and wanted me instead. I cut that shit the fuck out once he told me he loved me. It’s one of the things I’m most ashamed of. What do you want to do after high school? I’m long past high school, and let’s just say things are NOT going as planned lmao. At all. I had such, such a different vision. Do you do anything embarrassing when no one is home? No. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state/country, would you? I deadass want to move to Canada but am unwilling to move so far from my family. How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa? I don’t know age; it’s funny, I tend to remember things by school grades versus my age. Even in this situation, though, I’m not positive. Towards the end of elementary school, maybe? Do you have any saved texts? Yes, from Sara and Ashley. Do you ever play online games with your friends? Which one(s)? Once upon a time, my friend/”big brother” Sam and I would play WoW together every day and just chill out over Skype. He helped keep me company during my worst depression. We haven’t played together in quite a long time, though. I should message him. Which emoji did you use most recently? The upside-down smiley face on Facebook. Who was the last person to cry in your presence? Mom, probably. Or one of my nieces or nephew. Do any of your friends have small children? Yes. One of my closest friends had her son not even two weeks ago. Do you ever wear accessories in your hair? Which ones? No. What kind of fruit do you like? A good chunk of it. Strawberries, apples, grapes, pineapple, bananas, peaches… Is there anything you've always wanted to do that you've never told anyone? *shrugs* Maybe. Do you flush the toilet with your hand or your foot? ”I use my hand at home and in other people’s bathrooms, but I use my foot in public washrooms.” <<<< Same. What is your Myers-Briggs Type Indicator? (Ex: ENTP): INFP. Do you read any blogs? If so, which ones? No. Would you rather have curvy legs or skinny legs? I’d prefer to have an in-between. What is your favorite game show? Family Feud with Steve Harvey. How many times a day do you use the restroom? Hm. Depends on how much I drink. What was the last thing that made you cringe? Idr. What is your favorite ‘80s movie? I’m not sure, given how I don’t tend to recognize movies by decades. Do you have your own car? No. I don’t drive. Who was the last person who drew you a picture? I commissioned someone on deviantART to draw My Child Jaw and it is so FUCKING beautiful. Would you rather hold a scorpion or a snake? I love snakes, so guess. How do you usually get your exercise? I don’t, but that’s going to change when we FINALLY fuckin move. I’m going to walk as much as I possibly can because we have a sidewalk. Who are your godparents? Idk if I even have any. Are any of your siblings married? Three are and one is engaged. What does your phone case look like, if you have one? It came with a plain purple one. What is something you can draw really well? I think I’m pretty good at meerkats. Best field trip experience? The zoo in the 5th grade. One and only time I’ve seen meerkats irl. What is the most amount of money you’ve spent on a meal before? Idr. It’s very rare I can pay for anything because I don’t have an income, but with gifted money and stuff, it was probably when I paid for my mom and I to eat at Olive Garden. I don’t recall how much it was, but OG isn’t cheap, so. Who was (or is) the teacher that gave you the hardest time in school? Idk. I had good teachers. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen outside of your house? I don’t know. Nothing exciting. Do you ever feel self-conscious when you eat around other people? Not really, no. There are cases where I do, like if I take too big a bite or something, but generally I don’t. Everyone has to eat. What is the worst thunderstorm you’ve experienced? I recall one in particular during my era of being terrified of them when we were on the way home from a friend’s house and there was INSANE lightning. I was crying so much in the back seat. I think I have experienced worse ones, that’s just the one I remember because of how much it terrified me. How quickly can you write an essay? Pretty damn quickly once I get into the groove of it. Have you ever had problems falling asleep in class? No. What bug frightens you most? Oh yikes, idk. A lot of bugs scare me, honestly, particularly if they surprise me. Probably rhinoceros beetles. Are your parents supportive of you? Very. Have you ever participated in a mock trial, or a real trial? No. Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed/bedroom? lol oops Have you ever had sex on your bedroom floor? How about your living room floor? YIKES this survey getting frisky but anyway idk. When you kiss someone, do you like to play with their hair? Yeah. Do you regret sleeping with anyone? No. Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? No…? Your hair is just gonna get messy while sleeping. Have you ever asked anyone out? Do you prefer to do the asking out, or wait to see if the other person will ask? Yes. I don’t really have a preference. Have your parents ever disapproved of anyone you had a relationship with? Not to my knowledge. When’s the last time you ran? HUNNY Brittany doesn’t RUN. Have you ever stayed online for a long time waiting for someone? Oh yes, I did that A LOT with Mini back when we were younger and RPed together like every day. Who or what sleeps with you? Roman, my cat. Would you wear a boy/girlfriend’s clothes? I somehow wound up with quite a few of Jason’s pj pants?????? But anyway yeah sure, I would. If it fit, anyway. Do you return your cart? I am a lazy person. But not that lazy. Do it. What noise do you hear? I’m currently listening to NateWantsToBattle’s cover of “Feel Good Inc.” Would you survive in prison? No. No. I know I’d try to commit suicide. Do you remember the last movie you saw while on a date? The IT remake with Girt. Have you ever cheated on someone? No sir. Do you kiss on the first date? I never have, but not saying I wouldn’t. BUT I most likely would not just because I reserve kisses for someone I really, really like. Usually by the first date I wouldn’t know that yet. Are you into sports? Nope. Have you ever used your bra to hold things like you would a pocket? HAHA I don’t think so. Who knows a secret about you that no one else does? My ex-therapist. What is your longest relationship to date? 3 ½ years. Who ended the last relationship you were in? It was brought up by her, but it came to be a mutual decision. Have you ever gotten back with an ex? No. Who was your first prom date? Jason. Have you ever dated someone more than three years older than you? For less than a day. Have you ever been used? I don’t think so. Do you like when I guy takes you by surprise and kisses you? This is making quite a few assumptions, but anyway, if we’re in a stable relationship, generally yes. It’s cute. Would you be more likely to date a redneck or a goth? My dream partner would be a goth, hnnnnnnnnGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Has anyone ever sung to you? Yes. Do you like massages? EW don’t touch me like that unless you’re my s/o. Have you ever been skinny dipping? No. When was the last time you spent the night at someone else's house? The last time I was at Sara’s. What scares you more, spiders or snakes? Spiders. Does it matter if a guy has a sense of humor? If he’s a romantic interest, yeah. Would you ever get implants? No. Have you ever had a crush on a sibling's friend? No. Have you ever dated someone with a child? No. I’m quite sure I wouldn’t. Have you ever dated someone of another race? For less than a day. Have you kissed anyone today? No. What was the last topic you read about? I beliiieeeve… Metallica’s new album. Have you ever participated in a fundraising campaign? I think? Again, I don’t have an income though so I’m unsure. Do you know how to knit? No. What’s your go-to order from KFC? I don’t go there. What was the last album you listened to in full? Oh man, there’s no telling. I generally don’t do that. Do you use pepper to season your food? Sure, that’s a common enhancement. Do you know anyone who has an unusual pet? Probably somebody. Have you ever known anyone who was homeless? My mother, Nicole, and I technically were at one point, we just had spectacular people let us live with them until we got a new place. Did you have a treehouse when you were younger? No. One does not simply build a treehouse in pine trees. Have you ever played Magic: The Gathering? Guys. Guys. For many many months now I’ve been dying to and idk why. That game was one of Jason’s favorite things in the world and so he taught me it how to play, though I never fully got it because there are a LOT of rules. When I had my PS3, I had one of the Duels of the Planeswalkers games, and I miss that shit. What are your thoughts on role playing games? Fun fun. What is a band you can't stop listening to right now? I’ve been seriously into 3TEETH lately, as well as Solence. Have you ever had a panic attack? LOTS!!!!!!!! Have you ever entered a talent competition? Naw, I don’t have an exceptional talent. Are you indecisive? Ridiculously so. Are you smiling in your Facebook profile picture? It’s actually one of my brightest smiles I’ve ever taken a selfie with. I look way happier than I am lmaooo. Describe your hometown. What's it like there? Small, notoriously dangerous. Do you have any expensive hobbies? You could say photography given the various lenses and other materials available, plus editing software subscriptions. What is the oldest online account that you still use? My email, probably. What was the last video game you beat? I wanna say it was the last time I replayed Silent Hill 2. Long time ago. What's your favorite Studio Ghibli film? I actually haven’t seen any. Have you ever been really passionate about something but then lost interest? If so, what was it? Yeah, sure, like various entertainers/bands/musicians, TV shows…

#survey #surveys #quiz #questions #questionnaire

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bisexualgendryas · 6 years ago

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jonsa + gendrya soulmate/soulmark au

(not gonna really write it till I’m done with the bodyswap but I was imagining a scenario where getting soulmarks, which are house-related, from a witch is like, a tradition among nobles (esp in the Riverlands) and thought of an interesting thing imo. this got....a LOT longer than I thought, I expected to literally just write up a smol outline and uhhh yeah there’s some more than that. some is almost written like an actual fic lol. here y’all go tho.)

at some point when the Stark Kiddos are young, like a couple or a few years pre-asoiaf, Cat brings up to Ned how her father had taken her to get a soulmark, and that her house Stark mark was part of why her father reached out to Rickard (though this is also evidence it’s not the most accurate, as engagements generally would be made with the eldest children, in her case Brandon, when she did ultimately fall in love with Ned, but whatever. it’s a tradition, and she’s taken the concept to mean that daughters would be wed to better husbands, and since she’s got two daughters that’s pretty damn important to her.)

so Cat takes Robb, Sansa, and Arya on a trip to a woods witch in the wolfswood. Robb never has a mark show up, and Arya's takes a really long time, long enough that Cat practically forgets and when she asks later Arya says she hasn’t noticed one (she has a small stag, but she doesn’t want her parents to have a reason to marry her, let alone to a prince, so she assumes a little white lie won’t hurt. later, after having met Joffrey and Tommen, she still stands by that, even though Tommen doesn’t seem horrible).

Sansa’s mark, though, is...problematic. more problematic, even, than Cat knows, but still problematic enough that along with the weirdness of her only other potentially marked siblings’ situations Ned and Cat decide that they’ll just arrange marriages for Bran and Rickon (and the others) normally...because Sansa has a little three-headed dragon on her back, saying that their poor daughter was meant to bind them to the exiled house Targaryen.

Ned suggests perhaps it had been meant to be Elia’s son, knowing better than to up and admit that they have a Targaryen at Winterfell, and Cat tells him that the marks fade if the soulmate dies - if the gods had meant her to love Aegon, the mark wouldn’t have shown itself, so surely it means Viserys.

Sansa can’t see it herself, so, for the most part, she forgets it, though she’s careful not to get too much help from her handmaidens with bathing and such. Shae’s the only one she explicitly tells, and they get to be sad about her lost chance at love - but then, perhaps there’s someone else out there, Shae suggests, for the mark remains well after Westeros has gotten word of Viserys’ death. perhaps there’s a bastard out there, or perhaps it means Daenerys. Sansa thinks neither would be quite so bad, certainly not as bad as Joffrey, but clings to the idea of a bastard - she had a bastard brother, after all.

her mark does fade, at one point, years later, after she’s been wed to Ramsay and he’s forced her to explain ‘herself’. “your mad dragon prince is gone, my wife. he’s not coming to save you, no one’s coming to save you,” he mocks, but when Ramsay leaves the castle to fight Stannis off, she saves herself, with a few helping hands. in the chaos, it’s Brienne who notices, a few weeks later, that the mark has returned to her back. surely that means Ramsay was only lying to hurt her, or even that the magic isn’t accurate (which would really be fine with Sansa, because the whole thing hadn’t really done their family good), or maybe even that he really had died and there’s some other resurrected bastard out there, but really, what would be the chances?

(it’s really not important to her anymore - she’s long since known no one will marry her for love, so what’s the point of her childish hopes for it? she just continues to hope for her family, and most of those hopes are answered, even if things are very different than they used to be.)

she, like their parents, had thought that Arya didn’t have a mark, and while Arya is uncomfortable when Sansa mentions her own soon after their reunion, Sansa doesn’t jump to thinking she’s been wrong, only that it’s related to their displeasure about Jon giving up northern independence - until Arya says she thinks the marks are “bullshit”, because she has one and hers hasn’t even ever disappeared, and there aren’t any Baratheons left, not even princess Shireen, not even Robert's bastards, who were all hunted by Joffrey and Cersei soon after Robert's death...but Sansa has always wanted and deserved love, so perhaps there is some Targaryen bastard out there. Arya will concede on that point and that one only.

for a couple months, at least, that is.

Sansa gets the whispers from one of her handmaidens that Arya's taken a liking to one of the smiths, and soon enough, Arya is up in arms because she’s spent years ignoring her little stag mark and has just found out that the blacksmith she’s, well, courting, is in fact, Robert’s bastard, which means...any number of things, none of which she’s sure how she feels about. but Sansa encourages her to tell him about the mark, because she just ran away from her soulmate on what could possibly be their last night alive. if Jon is with his love, and many others were, too, shouldn’t Arya spend the night how she wants, with someone she loves?

“I already hated the idea of losing him - of losing anyone - but if I never have to see that stupid stag mark after tomorrow, I...”

“you’re stronger and more stubborn than anyone else I know, but I imagine any man who loves you could come close. what if you both live? what then?”

“what if it’s not even him?”

“only a few moments ago, you told me you wanted to be together without even knowing. why wouldn’t it be him?”

it’s not really what Arya wants to hear, but she leaves anyway, seemingly accepting that that’s Sansa’s final answer, and Sansa goes to find Theon. the sisters reunite a few hours later, up on the ramparts as the castle finishes what battle preparations it can, and while Arya doesn’t give Sansa any details before handing her a dagger and telling her to go down to the crypts, she confirms that she went back to him, if only for the one night.

it’s not the one night, though, because they do survive, and while she’s happy for Arya she still has to try not to be jealous, even as she encourages Arya to marry her soulmate, while her own is nowhere to be found.

then, Jon puts himself in between them and Daenerys for what she dearly hopes is the last time, and Arya decides they need to talk about it - privately.

he says, again, that he’s not a Stark, and they both fight him on it, but Bran does not. Jon looks to Bran and Bran looks at Jon and says it’s his choice as though they’re supposed to know what that means, even though Jon is the only one who does. and so, Bran tells them that Jon is not their father’s son, but their aunt’s - and Rhaegar’s.

their first moments are full of too much emotion to name, and Sansa’s swept up in Arya’s insistence that Jon will always be a brother to her, and gathered up into hugs, and then it’s the moments after, when they’re all silent, standing there with Ghost between them and tears in all their eyes, that she realizes what that means about the sigil on her back. and from the concerned glance that Arya meets her eyes with when Jon turns away from them, Sansa knows that she’s realized too.

#jonsa #actuallyjonsa #gendrya #sansa stark #arya stark #things by charley

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alj4890 · 6 years ago

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Guess What

Part 2 of requested unexpected pregnancy prompt for Matt and Addison.

Part 2

(Matt Rodriguez x Addison Sinclaire) Choices Red Carpet Diaries Fan Fiction. Part 1

A/N This idea has taken a life of its own and I am sorry for that, LOL. I think it might only have two more parts left until everything is resolved. Halfway there!

tagging my two Matt and Addison shippers, LOL @krsnlove and @hopelessromantic1352

Addison wished she could pace. Turbulence was keeping her prisoner in her seat. She looked over at Thomas sleeping next to Amanda who was reading. Holly and Ryan were talking in low voices. Matt was working on a crossword puzzle.

"Seven letter word for impossible escape." Matt muttered.

"Trapped." She responded.

"It fits." He looked up at her and noticed how stressed she was. "Hey, it will be okay. You need to relax. It isn't good for you or the baby."

She groaned softly. "I know, I know. I can't help it. My family will either love you to pieces or hate your guts. There is no middle ground with these people."

"Is this why you insisted we bring backup?" He motioned to the other two couples.

"Yes. I don't doubt you being wonderful. I doubt my family being able to see it." She rested her head on his shoulder. "My dad and brother are not going to be too happy with us becoming pregnant before the wedding. They are very old fashioned in their thinking towards me and my sister."

Matt pressed a kiss to the top of her head. "We will just remind them they are going to have a grandchild. Hopefully the excitement over the evidence of our actions will overshadow the action."

Addison started laughing. "You can say sex in front of my family. No need to practice a way of avoiding it."

"Who's practicing? This is how I had to explain it to my mother and grandmother." He smiled as she laughed harder.

"They seemed to like me even though we precipitated the wedding." Addison began to worry that not only was her family going to be disappointed, but possibly his had been acting that they were thrilled over her becoming a member of the family. His grandmother had even called her, precioso.

"They can't hide their true feelings. They adore you." He reassured her.

Three hours later, they arrived in the ski resort town. After renting cars, the couples followed behind Addison and Matt. They arrived at a large ski lodge and all stepped out.

"Your family owns a ski resort?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah. My grandparents built it. My parents inherited it and one day my siblings will have it."

"How come you won't have it too?" Holly asked.

"Because I never wanted it. I made sure my parents left it to Adam and Abigail in their will." Addison took a deep breath and led the group into the lobby.

"Wow! This is gorgeous." Amanda exclaimed as she took in every aspect. The lobby was warm and inviting. Large beams of pine from the outside were exposed inside. A fireplace with a decorative wrought iron screen was surrounded by various rockers, chairs and sofas.

While everyone was taking in the outdoor ambiance, two squeals were heard.

"My baby!" An older version of Addison ran up and hugged her daughter tightly. Another blonde rushed over and hugged her.

Addison led the two over for introductions. "Everyone, this is my mom, Alicia and my sister Abigail."

They welcomed the Hollywood group warmly with hugs. Matt and Ryan grinned when Abigail blushed and stuttered around them.

As they stood talking, Two blonde haired men walked in. Alicia smiled and called out to them. "Look who's here!"

The one that had to be her brother ran over and swung her into a hug. She let out a laugh and introduced him. "This goofball is my older brother, Adam." Her father came by with a huge smile. "And finally, my dad, Drew."

"Drew?" Thomas blinked in surprise.

"Short for Andrew." Drew explained. "With all the A names we have, I was more than willing to avoid it." He shook everyone's hands and narrowed his eyes on Matt. "So you're the boyfriend?"

Matt nodded. "Yes sir."

Drew remained silent for a few moments. Matt began to feel the need to squirm some under the close scrutiny.

"It is good to finally meet you." Drew said warmly. He clapped Matt on the back. "Been a fan of your action movies for a few years."

Addison relaxed when her father turned to her and gave her a big hug and kiss on top of her head. She looked over at her sister. "Where have you put us?"

"Only the best! The Hunt's have our presidential suite. The Summers' are in the royal suite. And Matt is in our grand suite." Abby handed everyone their keys along with maps of the resort.

Addison noticed her brother and father picking her bags up. "Where are you taking those?"

"Home of course!" Her mother said, wrapping her arm around her. "We've missed our baby girl."

Addison looked apologetically at Matt. He smiled and kissed her cheek. "It's okay." He whispered.

She turned her head and noticed her father and brother frowning at the exchange. She quickly kissed his lips. "I will see you at dinner." She reluctantly left his arms and followed her family.

A couple of miles west of the lodge, Addison entered the large log cabin that had been her childhood home. She took a deep breath and smiled at the mixture of pine and cinnamon that filled the air. "I've missed this."

Her mother beamed as she rushed into the kitchen. "Don't move! I made your favorite." She hurried off and returned with a bowl of chocolate cobbler

Addison took a bite and closed her eyes. "Mom, you could make a fortune off this."

Her brother and father came downstairs after putting her luggage in her room. "We will see you at dinner, Shadow." Her father said with a smile. He hugged her again and went to finish the accounts.

Adam grinned at his sister. "I have a few more things to take care of, Runt. Will be back before you know it."

Addison rolled her eyes at the nicknames and curled up on the couch with her cobbler and glass of milk her mom brought her.

Abby came into the room with her own bowl of cobbler and groaned when her phone started chiming. "I have to go. Ian is back." Her cheeks turned pink when Addison began to tease her. "Shut up Shadow!" She said with a giggle. "One day you will have your own husband that I can mess with you about."

Addison smiled and held her left hand up. Her mother and sister stared at the diamond ring and screamed. They pounced on her and all three were talking over each other.

"I can't believe my sister is engaged to Matt Rodriguez!" Abby squeezed her in a hug.

Alicia was wiping her eyes. "My baby is getting married! I have so many to call. I can't wait to tell Marie."

Addison began to laugh. "Are you still trying to one up the neighbor?"

Her mother stuck her nose in the air. "I don't know what you mean. I'm simply spreading the news that my incredibly talented daughter caught one of Hollywood's most handsome leading men."

Abby grinned. "She did the same when Ian proposed." She mimicked their mother's sweet voice. "Abby not only received her MBA with top honors but she also managed to get the handsome park ranger to propose after only a couple of dates."

Alicia scoffed as she took the empty bowls to the kitchen. "Can I help it if my beautiful girls are not only successful in their careers but also manage to capture men who are the envy of all others?"

Abby shook her head and hugged her mom. "I gotta go. What time are we eating?"

Alicia checked the time. "In about three hours or so in the private dining room."

Addison quickly sent out a group text to everyone with the time. After her sister left, she told her mom she was going to take a quick nap before dinner.

That evening, Addison waited in the lobby for Matt and her friends. She smiled when he stepped out of the elevator. Matt hurried over to her and kissed her. "How are you? Did you tell them?"

She looked down. "I told my mom and sister we were engaged. My dad and brother had to go back to work and I was so tired I went to bed."

"Good. I wanted to be there with you when you told them." He placed another kiss on her lips. They heard a throat being cleared.

"Dad!" Addison squeaked. "We were just waiting on the others to come down."

He narrowed his eyes at Matt. "Your mother told me you had surprising news for me."

"I do. Matt asked me to marry him." She held her hand out and showed her father the diamond ring.

Drew's smile grew. "This is wonderful news. Congratulations to you both!" He hugged his daughter and glared at Matt over her shoulder. "If you break her heart there are spot out here where no one will ever find your body."

"DAD!" Addison exclaimed.

"What? I'm only giving the same speech that your grandfather gave me when I became engaged to your mom. From what he told me, his father-in-law did the same thing. It's tradition. I even gave it to Ian and he knows the woods better than anyone." Drew shook Matt's hand and patted his back. "Welcome to the family."

"Thank you." Matt looked at Addison and his expression softened. "I love Addison with all my heart."

"Aww!" Alicia exclaimed as she overheard that. She hugged Matt and kissed his cheek. "That's all we ever want to hear from those that marry our children. You will understand one day when you have your own."

"Sorry we're late!" Holly said as the last came over. "Some people recognized Ryan then they recognized Thomas."

Amanda grinned at their disgruntled expressions. "I volunteered for Holly and I to go on, but they wouldn't hear of it."

The group walked into the private dining room and saw Addison's sister and her husband talking to Adam. After introductions were made and congratulations given over the engagement, everyone sat down to dinner.

Conversations flowed easily between the groups and there was much teasing. Ryan spared Matt no mercy as he entertained the group over how lovesick he had been over Addison and how clueless she had been to all the signs. He was so caught up in his stories that he let slip the secret not knowing it was still one.

He raised his glass in a toast. "Here's to the little Rodriguez we will meet in a few months. I can't wait to see which one if you he or she is most like."

Silence fell over the table. Matt took Addison's hand and faced her family. "Not only are we engaged, we found out that we are having a baby."

Drew and Adam's faces were turning red with anger. Alicia had her hand over her mouth as tears formed in her blue eyes. Abby's mouth was hanging open in shock. Ian stood and shook Matt's hand and kissed Addison's cheek. "Congratulations you two.” He smiled down at her. “I expect to be the baby's favorite uncle."

Alicia let out a sob. She rushed around the table and hugged them. "I'm going to be a grandmother! Andrew, we--"

"You got her pregnant and now think since you asked her to marry you that this makes it all right with us!" He yelled. "You have got some nerve coming into our home and expect us to--"

"Dad! It wasn't like that, Matt--"

"I was planning to propose before I found out she was pregnant." Matt defended calmly.

"I can vouch for that." Ryan interjected. "He wanted to propose as soon as he found out she had feelings for him. Had to tell him to wait--"

"Clearly he didn't wait." Adam responded. His blue eyes flashed with anger. "You took advantage of my sister and will probably drop her as soon as you return to California."

"Adam!" Addison stood up and began to shake with anger. Tears fell down her cheeks. "Matt is one of the most honorable men I know! He would never--"

"Addison, calm down honey. It isn't good foe you and the baby." Matt said softly.

"So honorable that he doesn't bother marrying you once he knows you carry his kid. I bet--"

The fight raged around the table. Amanda leaned close to Thomas and whispered in his ear. He nodded and stood up. "THAT'S ENOUGH." Everyone froze. "Sit down." Those standing took their seats.

He folded his arms and addressed the table. "Addison and Matt are engaged. They are also expecting. Nothing will change that. They came here to share their joy with the people that should be the happiest for them. They also came to gain your advice and suggestions for a wedding and becoming parents. If you persist in this antagonistic behavior, I can assure you that they will leave. Now, treat them both as the decent adults they are."

He sat back down with a last hard look and felt Amanda pat his leg under table. He laced his fingers with hers and waited for someone to say something. Matt held Addison in his arms as she quietly cried in his arms. Alicia glared at Drew and stood up to go to her daughter’s side. Abby followed her while shooting disgusted looks at her father and brother. Ian, ignoring the looks of betrayal from the two male Sinclarie’s, followed his wife and mother-in-law.

Matt looked up at the two men. “I know we could have planned everything better, but this is how it is. I hope for Addison’s sake and our child’s that we can find a peaceful way to be in each other’s lives. I would like to be considered a member of your family but I will not pressure you into accepting me as such. My family already considers Addison as theirs so you need not fear anyone shunning her.”

Drew stood up and threw his napkin down. He turned and left the room without another word. Adam watched him leave and sighed. He stood and looked at his little sister and mumbled an apology before leaving.

#choices red carpet diaries #choices fanfic #matt x addison #matt rodriguez #addison sinclaire #choices thomas hunt #choices rcd

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lizzybeth1986 · 7 years ago

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Quick Thoughts on TRR Book 2 Chapter 12

• We’re now in the second half of the book. Shit’s officially gonna start going down fam.

• OMG this post turned into a monster-post. I’m shook.

• The chapter is titled “Family Ties”, which is interesting because there ARE so many filial relationships being explored in this chapter: Hana and Xinghai’s bond, Liam simultaneously supporting and standing up to his father, Maxwell and Drake finally making peace over the consequences of their siblings’ actions.

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HANA IS HALF-CORDONIAN? It makes even more sense now that her parents (or her mother, rather) would want her to marry into nobility.

• Leo’s mother has also been described as being from a minor noble house. From what Leo and Liam tell us, nobles from minor houses don’t spend a lot of time at court, and generally don’t have a lot of the advantages that a house like the Nevrakis’, Beaumonts or Madeleine’s house do. I wonder if Hana’s mum’s obsessive training was a result of her wanting Hana to have a part in noble/courtly life - for whatever sentimental reasons - and have the advantages that she may not have had. How does Xinghai fit into this equation? I’m even more confused now but I LOVE this possibility because it’s even better than the cardboard cutout villains some of us (me included, I admit) were originally imagining.

• Hana’s mom is out of town for festivities? What festivities? TELL US PIXELBERRY.

• I mentioned last chapter that the father would probably be more grounded and chill than the mother, and that’s exactly what they showed us 😎

• Interestingly the word Hana used for speaking of how her father felt about both her broken engagement and not getting Liam last season was “worried”. But when she speaks about success in court she clubs her parents together. What IS the dynamic between Xinghai and his wife?

• Maxwell is doing a lot of wiggly lettered words this chapter 😂

• Hana that dress has a THIGH HIGH slit. Are you sure your dad will approve? 😂

• Only four days and I’m so done with the Maxwell-Drake feud already.

• I really like Xinghai so far? He relates to the MC on how to deflect the attention a scandal provides and admires the MC’s concern for Hana. This statement I think needs more elaboration in the coming chapters:

Is he referring to Hana’s phone fight with her mother here?

• PANDAS

• SO. MANY. PANDAS.

• PANDAS. AND CORGI. TOGETHER.

• Okay, just two pandas. BUT STILL.

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It occurs to me that not only does Liam like animals, but he also seems to have a way with them and is sensitive to some of their moods. I mean he also bonded with the corgi pretty quickly. This man 😍

• Xinghai: …and that’s why they call a group of pandas an ‘embarrassment’.

Maxwell: Who ever thought I could have so much in common with pandas?

😂😂😂😂 Oh Maxwell. Never change.

• I miss Bertrand 😢

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THIS STORY IS SO BEAUTIFUL 😭😭😭 Having kiddie Hana look all happy at the sight of a newborn panda is something I didn’t know I needed in my life 😍 I have a feeling Xinghai is someone who can’t have a lot of family time owing to his work, and tries to bond with his only daughter when he can. Maybe her mother does the lion’s share of the upbringing, laying pressure on Hana and having a lot of expectations of her.

• I like how Olivia gets all flustered if you choose the friendly options xD

• Also @ladynevrakis pointed out that Liam and Olivia have never featured in a diamond group scene together so far, interestingly enough. Liam was not present during the fondue party or the street food scenes, nor was Olivia present at camping (understandable) or the panda reserve. Hmm.

• Drake. Enough complaining about food you don’t like just because it looks a certain way. I can understand it in Italy coz they probs gave you itty bitty bits that didn’t fill your stomach but THAT THING Hana’s showing you could feed an entire army. You haven’t even tried the damn thing. I wouldn’t have had such a problem but this is becoming a pattern with him honestly and I can do without it.

• What is this dish called? It looks GORGEOUS I’m so hungry now. I mean crispy noodles and bell pepper and is there rice too? YUM.

• I’m still a little suspicious of Regina, but I do love the tiny interaction we see between her, Constantine and the MC when Constantine collapses. She acts quickly and dolefully tells the MC that she is to keep this a secret from the court. Very protective. I admire this side of her.

• Liam individually takes the call to bring the MC to the hospital and to tell her the truth. Not just because he loves her, but also because it isn’t fair to keep her further in the dark since she has already seen it happen, and because she deserves answers. This is very in-character for Liam. Things that disturb him, distress him, come out only when he finally feels there is no other way around it. Same happened with his revelation about his mother’s death. He brought it up only when he felt there was no other way to alert the MC to the dangers of the court in general.

• As predicted earlier, the circumstances of Constantine’s abdication back in Chapter 10 of Book 1 come out now. I was right - and then wrong (or maybe half-right lol idek anymore) - about him dying. I assumed he was dying through most of Book 1, then wondered if there were outside influences that he thought Liam would be fully equipped to handle instead, but it turns out both reasons factored into this decision and all the ones taken thereafter.

• …exactly how effective a monarch was Constantine? 😐 Esp if his enemies have grown BOLDER during his reign?

• Looks like the rot isn’t just within Cordonia but outside of it. @feisty-mary pointed this out, and mentioned that there is a chance we might encounter Francesco from Italy again. Bertrand stated that he and Liam’s mother were friends. Hmm. Interesting.

• “Inexperience can be seen as weakness, and weakness, even in appearance…especially in appearance…could be fatal”. I don’t like Constantine, and I hate what he did. But I find this statement of his very interesting. Where is this coming from? From his experiences with Leo’s mom? From Liam’s mother’s murder? From seeing Leo not adjust to court very well? From the circumstances surrounding the previous assassination attempts? What? I have so many questions about this fam honestly.

• So Madeleine is seen as a better ally, and Olivia is seen as “too rash, especially in light of her family’s history”. This has as much to do with their families as with them. We know very little about Madeleine’s family, but we do know that 1. Her dad is practically royalty, 2. Her mother, no matter her behaviour, is still from a respectable noble house, and 3. Regina, the woman who eventually reigned as Queen the longest alongside Constantine, is Fydelian. Meanwhile, we know that the Nevrakis family have been 1. Largely viewed as traitors to the Crown by insiders, and 2. There is a possibility that Liam’s mother was still alive when they were killed, since he mentions that his “parents” were with him when they found Olivia alone in Lythikos. My pet theory is that they were actually loyal to the crown and tried to warn Liam’s mother, but were framed and killed off before she could truly get the message about how unsafe she really was.

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This moment is a true game-changer for Liam. Thus far, we have only seen glimpses of Liam wielding his powers. We’ve seen it in flashbacks given by other people, in the way people act around him. This is the first time we are actually seeing him take a stand in front of the MC. When I talked about Liam being focused on eliminating the rot in the court, this is what I meant. He hears Constantine out, yes, but he also calls him out on his excuse that he had no choice. Constantine always had a choice. Liam spouts out some of the most powerful dialogue I have heard in this book so far: “You act as though you did not have a choice. But you made a decision about what you were willing to do. What kind of king…what kind of father…you wanted to be. Here is mine.”

• Liam’s point is this. It’s not just that he is “above” the ugliness of the Cordonian court. Or that he doesn’t want any part in it. He is not just saying he will not become his father or lower himself to that level. He is saying he will eliminate that rot from its roots, even if it means having to confront his sickly father on what could be his deathbed, and get him to own up to his actions.

• Not many people are going to discuss this, so I might as well put it out there. This can’t have been easy on Liam. At all. Having to go to the father you loved, respected and trusted, who you know is going to die soon, whose suffering you have witnessed firsthand…and stand up to him and tell him to take responsibility for his actions - that is not easy on any child. It takes a lot of fortitude to do what he did, and I’m legit salty that I won’t see as many posts on this as I will see kink jokes (I love the kink jokes, no question, but not when I see very little serious discussion on him as a character? Even with the news of the assassination attempt and how it affected Liam, I saw very very little discussion going on). I’m also legit salty that hints have been given throughout the books of what he’s like as a monarch and a man, yet he will still be called a 'flat’, 'boring’, 'bland’ character. He may not be what some people are looking for but you cannot deny that his development has been consistent, and has been deep. It’s still incomplete and there are still things about him left to explore, but what we’re getting is a man who is struggling with everything he has ever been taught to believe. This is the man many people have been calling 'pushover’, 'stupid’, 'weak’, 'spineless’ post the Book 1 Finale, and Book 2. Yet here he is, standing up to the man who was once his king and is now his subject, and telling him that he will NOT become his father, or do the things his father has done.

• I don’t think MurderKing works as a theory. It was a great crack theory that got certain things right, and that people began taking seriously as Book 2 progressed, but that’s as far as it goes for me. Was it possible Constantine would be involved in the scandal back then? Sure. But this theory also involves him in the death of Liam’s mother and Leo’s mother’s disappearance. Especially given the revelations of the last chapter, I feel like having him be responsible for everything would be too simplistic and tie the plot-ends up together too quickly. It makes more sense for different forces to be involved in different aspects of the conspiracy: Constantine was definitely involved in dragging the MC into a scandal and blackmailing Olivia, but other people over the years were involved in destroying the stability of the royal family and the peace of Cordonia.

• Constantine’s main reasoning for not admitting to orchestrating the scandal in public is that it would make Cordonians lose faith in Liam as well. WELL DUDE YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT BEFORE DOING THIS SHIT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

• Time to catch hold of Tariq and convince him to clear the MC’s name.

• I hope the MC TOOK Liam’s permission before telling the group about what went down at the hospital. Ffs. The guy didn’t even admit it to you until there was no other way, shouldn’t you have asked him first? 😐

• The MC is free…or so we’re led to think.

• “I suppose in times of war or conquest, the Nevrakis rulers were known to eat in dire circumstances…” (I’m paraphrasing here) O God Olivia you make a walk to the night market sound so dramatic 😂

• I’m shipping Drake and Olivia every chance I get xD

• Hana Lee: The Human Embodiment of Yelp, Burrp and Zomato 😍 She’s literally a walking food recommendation blog.

• Good Lord I’m glad Drake and Maxwell made up. That fight was beginning to test my patience. I did like it very much though because Drake finally admitted to realising the sacrifices Maxwell made, and that even his original decision to keep quiet about Savannah’s whereabouts came from a respect for Savannah’s wishes. And Maxwell for his part acknowledged that keeping people in the dark was really a misguided option and he should have known better.

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The mysteries never cease in House Beaumont. I recall @feisty-mary saying at some point that there is a possibility that allies to the Crown were being leeched of their strength one by one, and that the plight of Beaumont House could also be attributed to this. Only time will tell what secrets our sponsor house still holds.

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Pixelberry…TRR writing team…I’d like to know who wrote this dialogue 😑 Prince? PRINCE??? She’s never called him that even when he was a prince why the heck would she start doing it when he’s Cordonia’s KING?

• Bastien’s here for positive reasons, given that the cliffhanger indicates danger. If they’re going to end the chapter with super-tense music, an angry Liam and a parting line that reads “what are Bastien’s intentions?”, chances are you will get the exact opposite.

#the royal romance #king liam #king liam the sexy #trr hana #trr maxwell #trr drake #trr olivia #trr constantine #trr xinghai #trr book 2 #cordonia #trr quick thoughts #quick thoughts

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koganphrancis · 7 years ago

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Ian Used To Do Better Stuff With Vans OR There’s Another Hour Of My Life I Won’t Get Back

This episode was dumb dumb dumb as fuck-and even more pointless than that. The ONLY redeeming quality in it was that it was completely Terror-free. Read on, if you dare. My recap of Season H8 Episode Dear God Why Isn’t It Over Yet-or 11, if you want to keep it short.

As usual, I’ll get the others out of the way as quickly as I possibly can.

Carl’s still illegally under-aged married, and this week he tells Kasammi, “I don’t think there’s any skin left on my dick.” Yeah, they made that point last year when they had to keep taking it off after his misguided circumcision. Not that the show is referring to THAT, of course. They refuse to acknowledge any plot point that has gone before. He and Kas take a wild tour through his before the show started past and I have no idea what the point is-is it to show us she’s truly insane because none of the horrors of life on the mean streets scare her? Or to show us that Generation Z doesn’t experience reality because their whole lives have been instantly posted on screens of electronic devices? I don’t know and I don’t care-quit trying to be fake deep, Shameless, if you even are. I can’t tell. The only (maybe) pertinent point of Carl’s story this week is he tells Kasammi after her hundredth shit fit on the subject that he won’t go back to military school and in the previews for next week it looks like the family (or at least Frank) will try to help him sneak away to do just that. Yawn.

Debbie loses three toes-Frank chops them off for her. Before that, Debbie is shown signing her 16 year old self out of the hospital-WHAT? She’d need a parent or guardian for that. Anyway, apparently Debbie’s not on any kind of welfare or insurance. And doesn’t know that Ian could’ve gotten the money for her expensive surgery to attempt to save the toes by going down on the old couple just twice. What is it with this show and cutting off toes? They’ve done this before with the body they got to stand in for Aunt Ginger. I’m so sick of the recycled plot points!

Speaking of which-Snore’s old man is out of prison so Lip gets him to fight him to violate his parole and send him back-did this new writer guy not see Yevgeny’s christening episode or is he just really into plagiarism? It was such a fizzle to a going nowhere story to begin with. I think the guy playing Snore’s version of Terry even had some of the same lines but I’m too lazy to rewatch and try to catch them. If we were supposed to hate this guy like we hate Terry, it didn’t work. And Lip was no Mickey showing up to defend people that mean something to him either-it was all a weak as fuck imitation. And it was odd that Lip chose to call the guy out for “beating women” when he lets himself get beaten when he has sex with Eddy. Who the fuck is he to judge? Maybe ten year old Snore didn’t get that her parents were having consensual rough sex that got too violent and ended in death-but the show’s not that deep.

Snore’s telling of her mother’s death once again played like someone complaining about not getting the last bottle of nail polish in their favorite shade at Walgreens or something. If she’s been so traumatized that she can’t put any emotion into the horrific memories that’s fine, but then I would argue that she wouldn’t be terrified of her dad coming after her either. Snore just can’t emote OR imagine what it would be like to be in that setting, I’m sorry.

And here’s what had me super pissed-Snore tells Lip she was 10 when her mom was killed in front of witnesses (Snore and her brother-she specifically says they both testified against him) and her dad’s already out on parole? We don’t know how old Snore is now, but surely no older than 25 (and probably not even that old, but whatever), so the show is saying her dad got out in 15 years max, which is the time Mickey was sentenced to for NOT killing Sammi? Fuck off.

Also, why would the cops not even consider the father’s side of the story that Lip instigated the fight? Lip has Eddy’s niece record the fight on his phone, and after it’s over he goes over to her and asks her how it looks or whatever, and she says Snore’s father threw the first punch. Wouldn’t the cops question why a little girl was filming two men on a porch BEFORE a fight started? Snore’s father must have Mickey’s public defender for a lawyer. Fucking show should’ve shocked us all by having Lip get locked up for premeditated assault.

Fiona meets with a lawyer (Janice from Friends, but she’s not as funny in this, sadly) and as soon as she said Fiona could lose both the apartment building and the Gallagher house I knew that storyline had jumped the shark and somehow next week all will be miraculously fixed-no way will the Gallaghers ever lose the house, that’s another plot point that’s been done to death. At first I was thinking they’ll either come up with some fortuitous traffic camera footage showing that the guy jumped off the roof intentionally, or that Hugh Laurie would show up in a cameo as Dr. House and say that if a man “fell” off a roof that high, he’d have a hell of a lot more damage than one broken ankle, but no, the show isn’t going to even get that clever-they’re just gonna have the family cave and be willing to settle with Fiona if they get custody of her dog that suddenly she’s so worried about in this week’s episode. She’s never shown that level of concern for any of her siblings.

Frank has a tedious, boring couple of scenes about his “retirement plan”-he has a baggie of 3 stolen Social Security cards and anyone can see a mile off that the cards would’ve just been replaced by their original owners-they’re not like a set of fingerprints and you only get one for life and if you lose it someone else has your entire identity. THEN they set up next week’s recycled/stolen plot to have Liam and Frank rip off Liam’s rich friend’s family just like Carl and Frank ripped off Liam and Carl’s gay foster dads-it didn’t work then, it won’t work now (and why didn’t Frank do hard time for that grand theft?).

Svetlana and Vee and Kevin have a scene at a fancy (but not as fancy as the show was trying to tell us it was) bar that was a pathetic echo of both Ian and Mickey’s hotel bar scam AND of how funny the show used to be able to be. Later Svet goes to humble herself to the other hand whore to find out how she snagged a rich fiance and discovers that the dude she’s about to marry is senile as fuck and Svet is going to step in to replace her, which is what I predicted the first time the hand whore showed up. I will give Shameless credit for making me laugh unintentionally-since I’ve been picturing the “old rich dude” Svet was going to wind up with as John Wells’ fantasy version of himself, seeing the old dude in an adult diaper and thinking he’s Wells was very satisfying.

Do I finally get to Ian now? Do I have to talk about his bullshit? There’s a scene of him in bed alone while the newlyweds are having sex in the same room, signalling that he’d rather be there than at Terror’s house, LOL. Then it’s the next morning and he goes down to breakfast with his Bible in hand, but no pills. Is that supposed to be significant? We may never know...

He gets to the “Church Of Gay Jesus” and there’s so many “fans” there it’s like Beatles or One Direction footage. The minister guy gets through the crowd to him with a big young guy and tells Ian the rando is “Bic” and he wants to help (I didn’t know the guy’s name till I saw it in the closing credits, I really thought his name was “Dick” and they were making a “big dick” joke, but no, I guess they were making a “Bic lighter” joke instead). Ian and Bic instantly have more chemistry than Ian and Terror but it’s unintentional I’m sure-the actor playing Bic probably has taken acting classes and knows to look an acting partner in the eye, instantly making him more engaged than Terror’s ever been in a scene.

The minister guy tells Ian, “Your life is no longer your own.” Which first of all, I’m just not buying that all these youths have just been waiting for a messiah to show up and they’ll follow him anywhere, and secondly why was being with Mickey not Ian anymore, but he’ll give away his entire life for strangers? Fuck you, Shameless. (and speaking of his entire life, does he never have to go to work anymore? Also, Fiona turned him down when he asked for a ride to the church-for once she had a good reason, that she had to pick up Debbie-but why is the show acting like Fi does things for him all of the sudden? She DID give him a ride last week, and that was very OOC of her.)

There’s a kid trying to get Ian’s attention-he needs help getting away from his parents who have hired men to get him back. At some point in the proceedings some guys jump out of a van and drag the kid into it. Ian runs to the front of the van before it can pull away and goes all Chris Pratt in Jurassic Park, holding up his arms and not letting it advance. The unintentional humor here amused me no end. Then Ian lays down in front of the van and I actually said aloud to my TV, “Just run him over.” I’m that done with this storyline and this show-just kill Ian off at this point, it’d be a mercy.

Ian’s there on the ground with his arms thrown up over his head (not that the driver could even see him down there, right in front of the van) and we see that this time Shameless didn’t bother covering up Cam’s real life Sailor Moon tattoo. SO LAZY. All the other kids lay down around the van too so it can’t go anywhere The 3 dudes in the van give up and let the kid get out.

The kid is 14 and the minister guy tries to talk sense into Ian, saying the parents have a legal right to their kid and they, more specifically Ian, can’t keep the kid. Ian agrees to talk to the kid’s dad who tells him the parents aren’t bigots, they don’t care that their son’s not heterosexual, but he’s been living on the streets, doing drugs, and prostituting himself. Then the father says, “We believe he may be mentally ill,” and Cameron (and yes, I mean Cameron, not Ian) makes a reaction face to that, but what it means, again, nobody knows.

Ian goes to talk to the kid where they have him hidden away in the Mickey Wedding Venue basement. Ian tells him what the father told him, and the kid says they keep bringing him to a church (is that Ian’s trigger? Churches? and if so, why?), plus they have him see shrinks who have put him on meds that knock him on his ass and he can’t get an erection. He adds, “That’s what they really want-so I can’t have sex with another boy, you know? Ever.” Ian says, “Well you can’t stay here. You have to find someplace where you can be safe, where you can be yourself.” WHAT? I don’t understand. For one thing, isn’t that LITERALLY TERROR’S JOB? To take runaways and provide them with a safe place to stay and a plan to get their lives back on terms that they can live with? I don’t ever want to have to side with Terror, but this episode is basically saying that Terror’s way is right and Ian’s way is oh so wrong and misguided. What the fuck? Secondly, isn’t that what Ian THINKS he’s doing? Why is he telling the kid HE has to find someplace safe? Ian has literally been in this kid’s shoes-he knows there’s no safe places for someone even younger than he was when he got back from the army, living on the streets. Anyway, after Ian’s lines the kid says, “Will you help me?” but Ian doesn’t answer one way or the other.

I totally didn’t get this scene-why the writer had Ian say nothing. I could see if it was to show Ian was getting more and more manic and now is on the downside of that and is becoming too depressed to speak to people-but then where’s his energy for doing anything coming from, plus the story isn’t SAYING he’s manic or depressed, and Cam and John Wells said Ian’s storyline is bold, audacious, great, etc and I don’t think either of them would’ve said those things if the payoff is just going to be that Ian needed his meds adjusted. And why does Ian maybe believe what the kid is saying and not the dad? Again, this IS Ian’s story! Mentally ill, unable to help himself, and unwilling to take his pills! I wondered why Ian didn’t at least give him a version of the Monica “you don’t have to change for them” speech, or his own “you don’t have to fix me because I’m not broken” speech or why in the name of all that’s holy didn’t he tell the kid, “I’ve been exactly where you are-on meds that were supposed to help but made me feel like crap plus I couldn’t get it up-but that’s because they take time-you need to take them to get stable and then you’ll find what works for you and have no problems having sex again (since apparently Ian’s never had an issue since beating Mickey up at the dugouts).” AND the kid’s only 14-does Ian maybe want to advise him that feeling like he needs to be having sex that young to the point where he’s willing to run away and do it with anyone might be part of his symptoms?

Ian COULD be so helpful here, but no. At this point he is literally putting at risk kids at even greater risk.

Later Rando Bic shows Ian that the van’s back behind the church. Ian says, “Get the kid,” like he’s The Penguin and Bic’s his trusty lieutenant. It was so dumb. The kid is used as bait, and when the 3 guys jump out of the van Ian pops up behind the group and starts yelling. “My god’s a faggot! My god’s a dyke! My god is trans, a junkie, a whore!’ Then the van blows up. “We will not be victims!”

What the hell is he on about? That’s a serious question. None of this is making sense. God isn’t human, so Ian giving the Christian god human attributes makes no sense. “We won’t be victims” of WHAT? Gay conversion? This kid’s dad said he isn’t trying to convert his gay son. What is all the yelling and the explosion about? And to get back to the explosion for a moment: That had to be Ian’s brilliant plan, and it just makes me miss Mickey talking him down from stupid shit like that all the more. Bic is the one that actually lights the fire (get it? BIC?) but how did they even know that all 3 guys would get out of the van this time? Based on the first failed attempt to drive off with the kid, wouldn’t it make more sense that one of the guys would stay at the wheel and keep the van running and they’d take off the minute they shoved the kid inside before all of Ian’s disciples could block it again? Before I rewatched the scene this morning I actually wondered if the story is going to be Ian is guilty of killing one of the guys, but then I saw it again and all 3 did get out-but I still don’t think Bic could’ve seen them from where he snuck around to light it up. And I bet we don’t see Bic again-he was randomly thrown in because of course Terror wouldn’t have helped Ian carry out any plan that wasn’t his own. But it’s funny that they couldn’t have him in the episode because everyone, even the shitty writers, know there’s no way Terror could talk Ian out of it like Mickey would be able to.

In the scenes for next week, Terror shows up and asks, “Is Ian around?” and Debbie answers, “He’s not here.” Terror says, “There’s a warrant out for his arrest.” Wouldn’t the cops have gone to Ian’s house FIRST? Where would they have even found Terror to be asking about Ian since Ian doesn’t officially work for the Youth Center or the Church of Gay Jesus. More lazy writing, can’t wait for the whimpering end to this crapfest of a season.

#Spoilers #Recap #Season H8 Episode 11 #Disco isn't dead but that van sure is #Ian had his first Mickey kiss in a van #Ian gave Mickey a Spiderman kiss in a van after a night of fucking fantastic sex #In a van #Ian should know to show a van respect

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kyuu-rereads-umineko · 7 years ago

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Ep6, Chapter 9 (Part 2) & 10

Love Trial time! (warning: this is not a very good post, honestly. Ep6 is proving to be a struggle to write posts about, even this late into it...)

Eva and George are... in front of the mansion, I think? Eva’s clearly not happy with George and Shannon getting engaged, unsurprisingly.

Oh wait, no, they’re in front of the guesthouse, actually. CLOSE ENOUGH

“...Did you sleep with her? She told you she was pregnant to force you into a marriage, didn’t she?!” fucking OUCH

George states that he’s “a strong believe that chastity is to be preserved before marriage.” That matches up with their date in Ep2, so...

Eva asks why they got engaged, and George replies, “I asked her. She accepted. What more could be needed?” Eva disagrees, of course.

“What about her parents? Relationships between the two families? Are you some stray alley cat, or are you Ushiromiya George?!” Even putting aside the dramatic irony of this statement, it’s... interesting. I’m guessing Eva’s just talking in terms of general issues, as opposed to issues with Shannon x George.

George states his desire to “build his own country and castle from scratch” like Hideyoshi did, and Eva angrily replies that it wasn’t easy, and he was “often saved by luck and coincidence”. George replies, “And he got through it because he had a wonderful life partner by his side... you. Sayo is the kind of person who’ll support me and make me be reborn as an even stronger man. You’ve praised me for becoming the adult that I am, but that could never have happened without her.” Tohya loves Yasu, writes love letter to her in form of his forgeries, etc.

Eva asks if he plans on “betraying the feelings” of a woman they met with at a marriage meeting. He replies that even though the two of them went out (due to their - or at least his - parents’ insistence), they “never even looked at each other.” Eva objects, and George replies, “You want me to marry her because it will benefit you. You aren’t pushing that engagement for the sake of anyone but yourself.” SHOTS FUCKING FIRED

Eva starts crying and screaming about how she and Hideyoshi have always been thinking about what’s “best for George.” “If I didn’t care for you, we wouldn’t be having this fight! [...] Don’t worry, we won’t do anything bad to Shannon-chan. After all, it’s thanks to her that you’ve grown so much... We won’t forget that. So leave the rest to us... George...”

George turns his back, seemingly torn on what to do, then says, “Alright. I think that’s enough. All my life, you’ve done a great job raising me, and I’m grateful for that. When I have children and become a parent... I’ll become a parent like you. I’ll be the kind of parent most worthy of respect in the entire world, one who can truly fight for his children’s sake.”

“I think it’s about time you learned... to let go of your son, Mother.”

“Let’s forget that you’re my parent and let our true intentions ring clear... The reason you want to choose the person I marry... is for financial reasons, public appearances, and... so that you can posture in that still-continuing quarrel between you and your siblings. You have no other reason.” I’d forgotten just how few fucks George gives in this scene, damn. He declares that she’s “a wall, a trial, standing in the way of the future he’s trying to grasp.” “Now I’ll overcome the final barrier... you!!”

EVATRICE TIMEEEEEEEE

I don’t really have a lot to say about this sequence, other than yay fantasy battles.

Having said that - After getting beaten around a bit (okay, a lot), George stands up, saying, “I cannot count the number of things I’ve learned from Sayo. She taught me... courage and chivalry, how to be ambitious and witty and humorous, and just a little stylish. It’s ironic... Almost all of the things you say are so wonderful about me... didn’t come from you at all.”

A bit more fantasy battle (now with martial arts!), and George kills Evatrice... then straightens his glasses and says, “I know you’re somewhere over there, Gaap.” lol

“I have something to ask of you.” Gaap responds kinda flippantly, and George’s response... well: “The threat in his voice held the solemn presence of a king who could control demons. That presence made Gaap gulp, and she licked her lips before bowing respectfully to his back.” I don’t remember the parallels between George and Kinzo being commented on much outside of Ep4, so this is pretty interesting, to say the least.

“I like hot guys, but I like monarchs even more.” lol gaap

At George’s request, she moves Eva’s body to the VIP room in the mansion, and leaves Evatrice’s staff behind. George steps on it to launch it into the air, and catches it in his hand, whereupon it disperses into gold butterflies. GETTING A LOT OF EP4 VIBES HERE

In the gameboard meta, George declares his “part” to be over, and Jessica is shocked that he decided to go after Eva for the love trial.

He replies, “It’s the person who loves you first in the world... and the last one you have to separate yourself from. ...That’s what it means to leave your home. This is the courage I need to show to take Sayo as my wife.”

Ah, right, the nature of the trial is mentioned here. “So that the love of the pair will stand true, offer up the life of one person by your own hands.”

The narrative compares it to Beato’s test in Ep4, which is... interesting! I hadn’t thought of it that way, but I suppose it kinda is similar, just with “your own life” and “your lover’s life” automatically excluded (well, except in Battler’s case, but).

“For the versions of themselves to whom the game board was the only world, this was a tragic parricide... but to these ones who stood around the game board in this witch’s smoking room, it was nothing more than a movement of the pieces, representing George’s will to overcome his parents.” meta gonna meta

After a moment’s hesitation (during which Zepar and Furfur almost declare George and Shannon the winners), Jessica volunteers to go next. “Alright, I’ll do it... I’ll show you that I’m serious about Kanon-kun!!”

Meanwhile, during a break in the family conference, Kyrie’s wandered off to a hallway on the second floor of the mansion. “I need to regain my spirit and support my husband, even if I’m not allowed to speak. ...That’s the duty I’ve won.”

HI JESSICA

Ooh, that’s interesting. Jessica decided to basically wander around the mansion and kill the first person she runs into, and Furfur describes it as “Jessica’s roulette of fate.” battler u aren’t a very subtle writer are u

...Though she’s still not committed to actually going through with killing anyone, so she ends up asking Kyrie for advice. “Sounds nasty... Love that can only succeed by using the others as a footstool.”

“I think I see where you’re going with this... Something like this, right? ‘How far is a person allowed to take advantage of others to find happiness’?” Ooof. That’s... painfully accurate - not for Jessica, but for Yasu. The question she’s constantly asking herself, wracked with guilt over being torn between George, Shannon, and Battler...

...Though, granted, Yasu’s circumstances are a bit different to Jessica’s here, but.

And then the music cuts out, as Kyrie tells Jessica that, as painful as it might be to have to cut short George and Shannon’s relationship, not fighting for her own love will be even worse.

Ange cuts in, mentioning finding Kyrie’s notebook sometime after the incident. “It was... practically a book of curses... it cleared up several questions I had vaguely felt back when I was six.”

“When I was six, it seemed as though my parents were very close and had no problems. ...And though I thought it odd that Onii-chan lived separately even though he was in our family, I accepted it as the way things were.”

As was shown in Ep5, it’s explained that Kyrie was effectively Rudolf’s “business partner.” “Though she served as Dad’s right-hand person, she slyly got rid of the other women in the shadows... It was only a matter of time before Mom would succeed in her love.”

Kyrie explains to Jessica that Asumu showed up, and was “good at triggering Rudolf’s protective instinct.” “Bit by bit, Rudolf had started to need a woman who could stay quiet and soothe him... without making him think about anything complicated.”

“I am ruthless and intellectual. Rational and economical. ...In a plank of Carneades situation, I would push the other person off without hesitating. ...I thought that was the kind of partner suitable for him.” kyrie gonna kyrie

“Yes, I did get the position of his business partner... But before I knew it, Rudolf-san had grown a need for a mental partner, someone who could heal his heart. Though I foolishly claimed to be the intellectual one, I never noticed.”

And then both Kyrie and Asumu became pregnant, though Kyrie wasn’t even aware of it herself until after Rudolf and Asumu had already gotten married. “Once she got her hands on Rudolf-san, she didn’t let go.”

Kyrie reflects that she at least wanted Rudolf to acknowledge her child - which he was apparently willing to do, going as far as visiting her in the hospital even though Asumu was giving birth on the same day. She calls him an awful man, and... I can’t say I really disagree, to be honest!

Except... she supposedly ended up having a stillbirth instead, while Asumu gave birth to Battler. In hindsight, the answer’s literally right there, isn’t it? We get it stated in red in Ep4 that Asumu isn’t Battler’s blood mother, and both here and in Ep3 it’s stated that Kyrie and Asumu had the same delivery date. Coupled with how strongly Battler and Ange resemble each other... yeah.

“Kyrie had fallen from Rudolf’s partner to his second wife... and then, unable to even give birth to the bond of a child... she tumbled down... to merely being his mistress. I can’t imagine... how much she must’ve hated Asumu and that kid... Battler.” Ange mentions that she was (understandably) shocked to find out just how much Kyrie likely hated Battler.

Back on the board, Kyrie tells Jessica that she only regrets one thing. “It’s my arrogance I regret. ‘Rudolf-san is already mine, so I’m completely safe... I’ll never lose to that Asumu girl.’”

Kyrie warns Jessica against being naive about her love, and that the regrets she’ll have if she doesn’t take it seriously enough “will make her crawl through hell.” Jessica is, understandably, speechless upon hearing of how harsh the “true form of love” is.

“Right now... I would do anything to keep Rudolf-san by my side. [...] If he wished it, I might not even hesitate at murder.” KYRIE GONNA KYRIE

Aaaand Kyrie flat-out says that she would’ve killed Asumu herself, if she hadn’t died on her own. Battler, are you having fun writing your mother like this...?

Kyrie laughs a bit and apologizes, not meaning to scare Jessica like she had. BIT LATE FOR THAT I THINK

“I don’t know what your love has been like, Jessica-chan... but if you have a rival and neither is willing to back down, you can’t let yourself become complacent. If you do, you’ll end up like me.”

“...For the sake of love, a woman should be willing to kill at least once in her life.” KYRIE NO

“Love really is like playing with fire. Anyone can play easily and lightheartedly... but when you mess up and get burned, that scar stays with you your whole life.”

I just want to let that line stand on its own.

Kyrie turns to leave, wishing Jessica good luck... and narrowly avoids getting her face smashed in. She’s quite nonchalant about Jessica trying to kill her, but... y’know, Kyrie. Who’s surprised at this point?

“Come now. If you had come from the guesthouse to get a book from your room, you wouldn’t have come through this hallway in that direction.” kyrie holmes

More fantasy battles, now with math! I do find it interesting, though, that George and Jessica ask for help from Gaap and Ronove, respectively, given Ep4.

At any rate, Jessica kills Kyrie in Krauss’s study, gets angry at Zepar and Furfur, etc. etc... And starts crying as she asks Kanon if she did anything wrong. Jessica...

Elder joins in on complimenting her. “Very impressive, Jessica! That ‘closed room murder’ just now was wonderful enough to fascinate even a witch like myself.”

Zepar and Furfur dance around a bit again. “Come, speak up!! Who is next?! Who will take the next trial?!”

#kyuutext #umineko #umineko no naku koro ni chiru #dawn of the golden witch

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theepolynesian · 8 years ago

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The Elf and the Dwarf (ch. 7)

Overall Summary: Erebor was reclaimed and the line of Durin had not ended. You were an elf and now that your quest was over, you didn’t know what to do especially since you gained feelings for a certain King Under the Mountain.

Chapter Summary: You find out information that was supposed to be the highlight of your life, but it turns out to be a dampener on your mood. On the positive side, you finally get to meet Dis.

Categories: Humor, Romance, Angst

Pairings: Thorin x Fem!Reader

Previous Chapter: Chapter 6

Next Chapter: Chapter 8

A/N: Finally another update nearly one month later. Lol. I’m starting yet another series and I should probably stop starting series since I already have like four of them that aren’t even close to being done lmfao. Next series is basically the life of being Thorin’s sibling lol. Anyway enjoy. Next update will probably come like next month sorry. I'm trying to finish it I promise but like yea

With the party in full blast, you look around, making sure that there are no threats. Dwalin chuckles and pats your thigh. “Lass, relax. You are not the only elf around meaning that they are sharp senses all around. Enjoy the night and mahal take off your weapons,” Dwalin says, making you laugh.

You do as he asked and look around again. You feel so isolated being up here. Sure, you had the members of the company, but you liked to socialize with other dwarves. Dwarves and men. Those you’ve never met before. You stand and make your way to the guest. First of course, the elvenking and the king of Dale. You stand side by side with Thranduil.

“Y/n,” he says, nodding his head slightly.

“King Thranduil. I did not expect you to be here,” you reply. “If I were to peacefully live with dwarves, I would have to appear at the coronation of their king,” he replies and you nod, accepting the answer as you look around the crowd. “Bard tells me that you have a particular interest in the dwarven king,” he says and you turn to glare at the man.

His eyes widen a bit and he takes a sip of his drink, walking away. You shake your head at the king. “I have no interest in Thorin” you say, turning your attention back to Thranduil.

“Good,” he says, also taking a sip of his drink and turning to look at the crowd. Your eyes narrow on him. “I don’t see how this is any of your business,” you tell him and he looks at you out of the corner of his eyes. “You will find that everything you do is my business,” he says and you turn to fully look at him.

“Please do tell me how,” you say, annoyed at the fact that he thinks that he has any say in your life. He may be a king but you were not one of his subjects.

“Have you ever wondered who your real parents are?” he asks, not even turning to look at you. That makes you stiffen. You had not told anyone. Your father assured you that not even your siblings knew that you were adopted. So, if you’re siblings didn’t know, surely King Thranduil wouldn’t know.

“How do you know that? My father hasn’t even told my siblings,” you say. “It seems that you are less sharp than I originally thought,” he says, taking a sip of his wine. You look at him carefully and it clicks. Your father would never tell anyone about something that was yours to tell so that means.

“Why did you leave me?” you ask quietly and that catches him off guard. He didn’t expect that question to come out. Well he did, but he wasn’t expecting that to be the first question.

“Surely Elrond has explained it to you,” Thranduil states, not even bothering to look you in the face and that makes you angry. “Look at me when I’m talking to you,” you exclaim gaining attention from the others. He finally looks you in the eyes. “You left me!” you exclaim. “It was not safe-,”

“You left me and kept Legolas! You cannot possibly use the excuse that there was a darkness in the forest and it was not safe. You kept Legolas and gave me to someone else! Why?” you exclaim and he turns away from you and it’s then that you remember what Lord Elrond had said. You were part human.

“That’s it, isn’t it? You hated the fact that I was part human. That I was such a lowly creature. That is why you got rid of me, isn’t it?” you ask him and he doesn’t answer you as tears gather in your eyes.

“I see. Well, I believe this is yours,” you say, removing the chain from your neck. It was given to you by Lord Elrond as a keepsake from your parents. It was the engagement ring give to your mother as a gift from your father. You grab his hand and place it there.

“You know. I thought that if I ever met my actual father than I could possibly forgive him and come to love him, but knowing that it’s you and why you left me in the first place, I don’t think I can. Goodbye, milord,” you say, bowing and leaving the king on his own. His hand closes around the ring. The ring that he made himself for the one he had loved before he met his one. He watches you go back to main table and regret fills his being, but he ignores it, opting to find Bard once again.

Back with you

“Y/n? Is everything alright?” Bilbo asks as you take your seat between him and Dwalin. You still had the revelation running through your head and it just made you sadder. Your dad did not give you away to keep you safe. He gave you away because he didn’t want you.

“What? Yeah. Of course. Why do you ask?” you ask him, straightening yourself out and trying to push the negative thoughts out of your heard.

“Well the last exchange you had with king elf didn’t look too good,” Dwalin says and you shake your head. “I’m fine,” you say as you feel a tap on your shoulder. You turn to find Fili.

“Can I speak to you?” he asks and you nod, removing yourself from the table yet again. You both walk around for a bit before finding a private area. Of course, you’re still within eyesight of everyone, but far enough to where they couldn’t hear you.

After a few moments of awkward silence, he clears his throat.

“I am sorry about what I had said earlier. I meant none of it,” he tells you.

“I know Fili, and you did have a point, but everyone left me. Sure, I chose to leave Erebor, but only to go to Dale and I never once got a visit from anyone. You say that I was a part of the company and that I should be up there celebrating with you and yet it was like I was not wanted. Absolutely no effort from anyone except Bilbo and it hurt so damn much Fili,” you tell him, letting all your feelings out, but still keeping your tears in check, “you had absolutely no right to be mad at me after you all left me.”

“You left us first! Don’t forget that! You left us!” he exclaims, pointing a figure at you accusingly. “Because it was either stay there and be called a traitor by someone I love or leave to a place where I would not die of a heartbreak!” you argue back.

He retracts his hand, immediately moving it to rub his face. He sighs. “I’m sorry. Look at us, we travel together for seven months no argument, but one month a part and we’re getting into arguments one after the other. It’s like we’re an old married couple,” he jokes and you smile a bit. “I guess we are, aren’t we?” you ask him and he also cracks a smile.

“Mahal, I’ve missed you,” he says. “I missed you too, my little lion man,” you tell him.

“And I’ve missed that-” but he doesn’t finish that sentence because he’s tackled into a hug. Of course, his reflexes are still pretty quick which causes him to catch himself and the dwarrowdam that’s attacking his face with kisses.

You giggle a bit as you watch him try to keep a straight face. “Amad!” he whines. The dwarrowdam pulls back and pinches his cheeks. “Why’d you attack me? You’ve been here for the past two weeks and yet it’s like you’ve just seen me all over again,” Fili whines, wiping his face.

“I just like to embarrass you,” she replies, pinching his cheeks before turning to you. You take in her futures quickly.

She looks almost exactly like Thorin but with straighter hair pulled into a beautiful bun. Her beard is longer than Thorin’s and looks way softer and so pretty.

“Your beard is gorgeous,” you blurt out, hand twitching, wanting to feel it. You restrain yourself and she sends you smile. “Thank you. I’ve never been complimented on it before. The other women here elves give me strange looks when I pass them,” she tells you. “Well, I think it’s gorgeous. I’m y/n by the way,” you say, holding out your hand. “Lady Dis, Fili and Kili’s mother,” she says taking it.

You smile at her, your earlier anxiety of meeting her melting away.

“They must get all of their good looks from you,” you tell her and she smiles at you before turning to Fili.

“I like her,” she says and with that, she whisks you away, making Fili go back to the head table.

“It’s seems like amad got a hold of our elf,” Kili says as Fili takes his seat back. “I barely got ten minutes with her. I think it’s because y/n complimented amad on her beard,” Fili huffs and that causes Thorin and Kili to laugh.

“Well your mother has never been complimented on her beard before. Especially by an elf. Let her be,” Thorin says, chucking at his sister. For some reason, he knew they were going to be best friends and that is everything he could ever ask for.

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fire-fira · 8 years ago

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Tag game

I was tagged by @lovelylangst

rules: Write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people Long ass post.

LAST… [1] drink: Grapefruit juice [2] phone call: my fiance @radioactive-earthshine [3] text message: either my fiance or one of the other people in my class [4] song you listened to: Novocaine by Fall Out Boy [5] time you cried: Night before last? I know I was laughing.

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: Yeah, just my fiance. [7] been cheated on: Nope. [8] kissed someone and regretted it: Nah. [9] lost someone special: If you mean family, then yes. Otherwise no. [10] been depressed: Low level, never chronic, and I’ve been able to work through things on my own or with my fiance’s help. [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: I’ve never even been drunk. I can’t stand the smell of alcohol, to say nothing about the taste.

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS: [12] Greens (usually a forest or jungle green is at the top) [13] Reds (the brighter the red is the more it has to be in combination with other colors) [14] Black, gold, or brown (kind of a toss-up for me)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: Absolutely. [16] fallen out of love: No. [17] laughed until you cried: Hell yes. See my earlier point about crying. [18] found out someone was talking about you: Yup. I tend to leave an impression. [19] met someone who changed you: Not within the last year, no. Well no wait, I lied-- I had an awful teacher at this time of year last year who was so terrible that she was the perfect example to me of what not to do as a teacher. [20] found out who your true friends are: Nope. I’m pretty close with all of my friends and I’m the sort of person who doesn’t put up with ‘fair weather friends’. [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: My fiance.

GENERAL… [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: Uh, most of them? I’m not on facebook all that much anymore, but most of them I’ve at least met face to face. [23] do you have any pets: My adorable ball-of-fluff cat known as Rainy Mazama. [24] do you want to change your name: lol Already did. It was a pain in the ass and I wouldn’t want to do it again. And I still occasionally get mail and things with my birth name. smh [25] what did you do for your last birthday: Went to lunch with my fiance, my mom, my grandma, and my older sister and then proceeded to be ignored by my mom and grandma for the majority of the lunch. It sucked. Red Lobster is garbage, and note just in case anyone is curious: it’s a shitty move to take someone out to lunch for their birthday and then proceed to act like that person isn’t even there. [26] what time did you wake up: 10-something? Daylight savings time, UGH. It would have been 9:00! [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: Just finished watching the first episode of the new season of Samurai Jack, and spent some time on tumblr before crashing. [28] name something you cannot wait for: Season 3 of Young Justice! (I am desperately hoping they bring Eddie in.) [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: x-mas, and she was just as garbage as ever. [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: That my fiance and I weren’t so damned poor and that we had a house of our own built to our specifications. (I miss having easy access to my miniature library.) [31] what are you listening to right now: At the moment just random house noises and the sound of either the washer or the dryer going. [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: My brother-in-law (my older sister’s husband). He’s one of the best brothers-in-law ever btw. [33] something that is getting on your nerves: People bigoted and/or abusive jackasses. [34] most visited website: Tumblr and Ao3 both. [35] elementary: Was one of the poorest in the district when I went. [36] high school: Was shit when I went there (though some teachers were really good), was also one of the poorest in the district, but now has improved so much that the New York Times apparently raved about it recently. [37] college: Working on my master’s. [38] hair color: Darkest-brown, almost black, with random silver hairs scattered throughout. (I’ve been getting white/silver hairs since I was 8, and I’ve got this pale patch of hair near my left temple that is going to look really freaking cool whenever it finally goes white or silver.) [39] long or short hair: LONG. (Down past my butt tbh.) [40] do you have a crush on someone: Nope. [41] what do you like about yourself: I like that even with all the crud I’ve been through that I still do my best to do the right thing. I also like the fact that I continuously work to get past any biases I might have. [42] piercings: NOOOOPE. [43]blood type: I don’t even know. I just know that it’s not my mom’s blood-type. [44] nickname: Just my first name, Fira. Though there is my Salish name, in which case it’d be t̓ixʷlm nc̓icn. [45] relationship status: Engaged. [46] zodiac sign: Pisces-Aries cuspal, and for Chinese-- fire tiger. [47] pronouns: jhe/jhur or they/them, either way. [48] fav tv show: I have too many tbh. [49] tattoos: Not opposed to the idea, just haven’t thought of a design that I’d want to live with for the rest of my life. [50] right or left hand: Lefty!

FIRST… [51] surgery: I don’t know. I think there was something to do with my ears when I was a baby? But that might have just been something only my older sister had to deal with. Idk. [52] piercing: Never. [53] best friend: My fiance. [54] sport: Does roughhousing with your older sibling and beating each other senseless with padded fake swords count? [55] vacation: A camping trip when I was about 7 or 8. The instance I’m thinking of I’m pretty sure I’m mixing it together in my head with another time. Maybe one of those times I was 7 and the other time I was 8. Idk. XP [56] pair of trainers: I don’t think I ever had a pair of those shoes.

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: Nothing (I need to go get something to eat. lol) [58] drinking: Nothing (Same) [59] i’m about to: Eventually get my butt completely out of bed. [60] listening to: An obnoxious room-mate babbling in the hall (and I really wish she’d just shut up). [61] waiting for: My obnoxious room-mate who my fiance and I have dubbed ‘Alfredo-gate’ to shut up. [62] want: To not have to think about homework or the fact of how this quarter has gone down the tubes, for Alfredo-gate to shut her freaking trap, and to have a month or two to just focus on nerdy things (it’d be nice to be able to pause time). [63] get married: To my fiance, absolutely. If it were anyone else, heeeeelllll NO. [64] career: Ideally? Teaching at the college level in gender studies. If I had some classes to focus on nerdy things that’d be cool though.

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: Hugs. Kisses are weird to me. [66] lips or eyes: Eyes. Always eyes. [67] shorter or taller: Doesn’t matter. [68] older or younger: Doesn’t matter just so long as the age gap isn’t too huge. [70] nice arms or nice stomach: I don’t care. I prefer the person. [71] sensitive or loud: Sensitive. Loud can have its uses, but there is a point past which it gets to be too much. [72] hook up or relationship: Eeeeeehhhhhh... Let me put it this way--if my fiance hadn’t been as persistent as she has been (not that I mind now), then I wouldn’t be in a relationship. There’s no way in hell I would get into any sort of relationship if the other person wasn’t @radioactive-earthshine. [73] troublemaker or hesitant: A little bit of both. I have my devious streak, but I usually think through the possible consequences before doing something, just to be certain that I think it’s worth it.

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? Nope. [75] drank hard liquor? Nooooope. [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? Thankfully no. [77] turned someone down: Yeah. [78] sex on first date? Pfffft. Never even had sex. [79] broken someone’s heart? I think so, but I’m not sure. [80] had your own heart broken? Nope, unless you count some of the crap I realized when I was in my own personal hell (things like my room not actually being mine and just being the place I was ‘allowed’ to occupy, etc). [81] been arrested? Thankfully no. [82] cried when someone died? I tend to go numb first. Tears do eventually kick in, but it’s not my immediate reaction. [83] fallen for a friend? I’m engaged to my fiance... who is my best friend... who I’ve known since high school... and who I love so much that despite being flamingly ACE and ARO (yes in all caps on both of those, I would be amazed if there was anyone more painfully ace and aro than I am), I am going to marry. If that’s not ‘falling for a friend’ then I’m awfully damned close.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? Most of the time. [85] miracles? Idk [86] love at first sight? Eeeeehhhhhh.... Debatable. [87] Santa Claus? The actual historical figure, yeah. [88] kiss on the first date? For me, no. For others, depends on the people involved. [89] angels? Nnnnnnnyyyyyyeeeehhhhnnnnn.... Iiiiiiii dunno. This is one of those things for me of ‘I don’t know if it exists or not but if I saw it then I wouldn’t deny its existence.’

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: Angela. [91] eye color: Hazel green. [92] favorite movie: It depends on my mood, but for the moment I’m going to say the ‘80s movie Enemy Mine.

I tag: @radioactive-earthshine, @weirdnonsensefandomstuff, @dizsasqua, @mr-mustache-penis, @coredesignixandnekonee, @puddingmcmuffin, @kitsuberry, @crashtacular, @sounddrive, @hookahpop, @linzerj, @embracesadness, @lifeofblink, @shadowboxmind, and anybody else who cares to do this, just say I tagged you.

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teachanarchy · 8 years ago

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“I think the computers have complicated lives very greatly. The whole, you know, age of computer, has made it where nobody knows exactly what’s going on.”

—Donald Trump, Dec. 29, 2016

The night of Donald Trump’s electoral victory, as journalists and pollsters sat stunned, alt-right trolls on the online imageboard 4chan were declaring ecstatic victory. The election outcome was, for them, the culmination of a long-orchestrated campaign they had dubbed “The Great Meme Wars.” “Will we ever experience something this great again?” an anonymous poster wrote on the site’s “politically incorrect” imageboard, the post accompanied by a twist on one of the site’s more popular characters, Wojak, the character’s MS Paint-rendered visage outfitted in Nazi SS gear. “The meme wars of 2015/2016 are over and we are the winners.”

Who were these self-declared winners? A bizarre allegiance of online trolls, experts at manufacturing memes—the jokey, absurdist images, often overlaid with text, that are copied and spread endlessly with slight variations by people online. Through memes and the clandestine net spaces they used to share them, these trolls met and formed a Frankenstein political bloc out of adult My Little Pony fans, furries, anime enthusiasts, self-described “masculinists,” disgruntled video gamers, Neo-Nazis, white nationalists, xenophobes, neo-monarchists, reactionaries, old-school racists, and nihilists in search of edgy lols. They were coronated the “alt-right” by white nationalist “leader” Richard Spencer, and referred to Trump as “God Emperor” on Reddit, where they made the r/The_Donald forum into one of the most popular on the hugely popular news and web content aggregation site.

As trivial as it may seem, The Great Meme Wars and the chaos it wrought on social media likely had a very real effect on the 2016 election. By weaponizing their memes, berating their targets with aggressive rhetorical strategies, and generally acting as outrageously as possible, the so-called alt-right gained the acknowledgement of both Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump, hijacked the mainstream media, and dragged the national Overton Window toward their extremist views in the process—all from the safely removed distance of their crusty keyboards.

They may have won the battle, but according to their opposition—some of which is located in the Northwest—the Great Meme Wars are far from over.

“I try to clean up messes, but I also try to create them,” a woman named Addy says over the phone as she prepares to relocate from her lifelong home in the Midwest to the Northwest, where she says she will be “safer.” The line goes silent for a moment—the sound of distant gulping and a staticky video barking something about counter-terrorist operations in the background. “I’ve got to tell you something real quick as I chug my Mountain Dew, because yes, I’m a memer. I’m not the alt-right, but I still drink Mountain Dew. Anyways, yeah, I actually consider myself more of a ‘social hacker’ than a memer. Every hacker is either addicted to chaos or addicted to order. I myself am addicted to chaos, but I’m chaotic good.”

Before she came out as a trans woman, Addy (who asked Seattle Weekly to withhold her last name) spent a lot of time on 4chan and took part in the same early troll culture that would, many years later, form the alt-right. “I was the embodiment of 4chan,” she says. “I would say anything just to get a rise, do anything just to get a rise. I don’t even feel comfortable talking about the person I used to be.” Then something changed. Addy’s sibling married a black woman; along came two new black nieces; and soon Addy had a biracial child of her own. “I started realizing I was a racist, a sexist, all these things. It wasn’t hard to admit that—it was empowering to admit that, because once I did, I could destroy it. I’ve been on a warpath ever since.”

She left 4chan and began spending more time in another meme-making community she found on Facebook. There she would start her own page to distribute her own memes. She named the page Lettuce Dog and adopted a logo that is, indeed, a head of lettuce fashioned to look like a dog. Just a month after Addy began Lettuce Dog, in the fall of 2015, she had amassed 9,000 followers. Today, roughly a year, four months, and 1,700 memes later, that number has grown to 93,000. On a decent week, Lettuce Dog’s memes will reach 1 to 3 million people using the same troll tactics Addy learned from 4chan and often sparking fierce political debate in the comments.

Take one simple meme she made in November. Featuring a stock photo of two Jet Ski riders carving through ocean waves, a message is written in goofy blue font: “It’s time to get EXTREME about destroying white supremacy.” The nonsensical image was liked by 2,100 people, shared over a thousand times, and resulted in conversations between Addy and upset commenters about white guilt and the definitions of racism and white supremacy.

According to Addy, when she began Lettuce Dog on Facebook, there were only two types of meme pages. “There were really stuffy, obnoxious social-justice-warrior pages—completely humorless, very angry white allies complaining about things,” she says. On the flipside there were “dank” meme pages—pages that “were on so many layers of irony, just totally out there, playing with the human mind.” With Lettuce Dog, Addy had decided to combine the two forms and create what is likely the first “dank social-justice page.” Countless others followed the same path until dank social-justice pages constituted their own subculture, known as “Weird Facebook.” As a collective, these pages reach somewhere in the tens of millions.

While plenty of Weird Facebook pages are largely apolitical, the community overall tends to have a far-left bent—its memes are often anti-capitalist, fiercely pro-LGBTQ, social-justice oriented, and sit on a spectrum that ranges from anarchist, Democratic socialist, socialist, and Marxist to full-on communist. Collectivism is a central tenet of Weird Facebook. “Individualism is terrible and inevitably going to die,” says Addy, who self-identifies as an “anarcho-collectivist,” but isn’t shy about espousing explicitly communist values and ideas in her memes.

Via Lettuce Dog

Weird Facebook content creators typically don’t care to take credit for their work, preferring to remain anonymous while posting to pages with names like “Gangster Popeye,” “G a Y L O R M O O N S a Y S” or “I play KORN to my DMT plants, smoke blunts all day & do sex stuff.”

The community is also structured in a collectivist framework—they don’t compete, but share each other’s content freely, cooperating in an effort to drive fans to each other’s pages and help grow each others’ audiences. They do this because memes live and die by the masses, their strength and potency directly tied to how many people are engaging with them rather than the prestige of any individual creator.

By their very nature, memes represent a violation of traditional notions of “ownership.” Everything from trademarked intellectual properties, pop-culture detritus, watermarked stock photos, random cyber-garbage off Google images, and AP news photos to the very structure of past memes themselves are on the table for endless remixing by the masses who share them and participate in their creation. As a result, “normies,” as meme-culture outsiders are called, might not even be able, at first glance, to decode a meme—the result of a cascading, mutating series of Dadaist in-jokes and symbols whose agreed meanings that, while somewhat fixed, are also incredibly fluid, largely guided by their makers’ intuition rather than any logical plan.

“When you log into the Internet, you’re plugging your brain into millions, billions of other brains,” Addy says. “The Internet is a giant brain, just like a neural network.” She claims her most popular memes have come to her in visions not unlike those of religious mystics. “Sometimes I feel like the Internet wills me to make certain memes, like I’m plugged directly into the zeitgeist.”

Addy isn’t the only meme-maker at Lettuce Dog. Like most of the other Weird Facebook pages, hers has a decentralized structure with a number of administrators, a collaborative practice that results, often intentionally, in a more diverse array of voices.

Although it’s impossible to know the racial or gender makeup of the alt-right or trolls in general due to their anonymity, researcher Whitney Phillips, who spent six years infiltrating, observing, and interacting in troll spaces for her 2015 book This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things: Mapping the Relationship Between Online Trolling Culture and Mainstream Media, notes that “what is empirically verifiable, however, is the observable fact that trolling behaviors are gendered male, are raced as white, and are dependent upon a certain degree of economic privilege.” Alt-right politics, while all over the place, hinge largely on white identity politics—thus the opposition on Weird Facebook often relies on and prides itself on its rainbow coalition of counter-trolls to fight those same tactics.

Via Cory in the Abyss

In addition to Addy, a white trans woman, Lettuce Dog’s three other contributors are a digital artist (a white cis-woman), an Instagram manager (a white cis-man), and a black meme-maker named Cory in the Abyss, who runs his own Weird Facebook page as well.

After admiring each other’s memes and their shared politics, Addy reached out to Cory and asked if he would join the Lettuce Dog team as a writer/content-creator, agreeing to cross-post his page’s memes to hers as payment. “It’s a really intersectional process,” Cory tells me. “I’m not up on trans issues, so Addy kind of makes trans issues more visible for me. On the other hand, I help her see race issues in a way a white person might not see them. So we compliment each other’s shortcomings politically, but it’s all propelled generally in that same far-left direction.”

Via Lettuce Dog

Cory started making memes after growing frustrated with his original arts medium of choice: poetry. “I felt frustrated with its ivory-tower elitism,” he says. “With a poem, you might get published in a journal, and then a few people in academia might read it. When I make a meme, I post it, and almost right away it reaches thousands, sometimes hundreds of thousands of people. It’s immediate, and honestly, probably the most pragmatic way to reach people now.”

Via Cory in the Abyss

Another Weird Facebook page called Eses Be Wilin was born of a similar spirit. “A friend of mine from central California started the page, and I asked to join as an admin when it had maybe 100 likes,” Jorge Bustamante (who asked Seattle Weekly not to use his real name), tells me from his Seattle home. A “Latinx ghetto cultural empowerment” page, it has amassed 27,000 followers in the year it’s been up. “Eses Be Wilin started in the midst of the Trump campaign—I got involved because I feel like Latin American oppression arises every election cycle, and I wanted to show that what many might perceive as the bottom of the barrel of Latin culture is actually a very rich culture. There’s a lot of Chicano pride pages on Facebook, but we were the first to bring meme-ing to that culture and that audience, which is why I think the page took off so quickly.”

Bustamante and his friend began with a central-Californian Chicano cultural focus, but they quickly added a Dominican admin, a Puerto Rican admin, and a Guatemalan admin in an effort to represent the wider Latin American experience. Like Lettuce Dog, Eses Be Wilin peddles primarily absurdist-humor memes, but sprinkles in memes with political, resistance-oriented motifs as well—memes that address Western imperialism, colonialism, police violence, the Zapatista movement, and the United Farm Workers movement.

Though Trump was the main reason Bustamante felt prompted to make memes about Latinx culture, he chose the form as his medium for a separate reason—declining faith in mainstream media’s issues coverage. “One [outlet] I stopped following recently is CNN,” he says. “I used to read them every day, but I haven’t in months because during the election cycle, the front of their website every day was some inconsequential shit regarding e-mail scandals or some mean thing Donald Trump said. That was it, just the same shit back and forth. There was nothing to learn at that point—I started to feel like real news was becoming inaccessible. I think that’s why a lot of people are turning to memes.”

Media analyst Andrew Tyndall released a report on Oct. 26 noting that from the beginning of 2016 to the time of its publication, ABC’s World News Tonight, the CBS Evening News and the NBC Nightly News had devoted a mere 32 minutes total to issues coverage—defined by Tyndall as coverage which “takes a public policy, outlines the societal problem that needs to be addressed, describes the candidates’ platform positions and proposed solutions, and evaluates their efficacy.”

What dominated instead? The endlessly controversial exploits of Donald Trump, who earned 327 minutes of coverage, a third of the year’s total airtime, and “more than the entire Democratic race combined.” Tyndall’s report focused on only three major broadcast news programs, but Donald Trump’s stranglehold on the media’s attention across the board—print journalism, web journalism, blogs, television, radio, mainstream media, independent media, alternative media—and the corresponding lack of substantive issues coverage were observable to anyone who consumed any kind of news this past year.

In her book, Phillips proposes a somewhat radical thesis about the media and trolls. The trolls who lurk on Facebook, Reddit, 4chan, and Twitter spewing vile racist, xenophobic, and misogynistic transgressions—the ones the media consistently deride as societal outsiders—actually fit very neatly into the contemporary cultural landscape. In fact, they simply mirror the methodologies of a mainstream media that thrives on controversy. “Not only do these outlets give trolls precisely what they want—specifically, a national platform—they validate the impulse to troll,” Phillips writes. “As sensationalist media have proven again and again, these behaviors work, and not just for trolls. The behaviors also work for mainstream media companies, since stories about trolling translate into page views, and page views translate into advertising revenue, and advertising revenue is the lifeblood of any successful media organization.”

Trump laid out his understanding of this very phenomenon—albeit in its analog form—three decades ago in his memoir The Art of the Deal: “One thing I’ve learned about the press is that they’re always hungry for a good story, and the more sensational the better. The point is that if you are a little different, or a little outrageous, or if you do things that are bold or controversial, the press is going to write about you.”

In fact, many in the alt-right refer to The Art of the Deal as The Art of the Troll.

Trolls hit the big time—with assistance from the media—on Sept. 12, when hillaryclinton.com published an article with the subhead “That cartoon frog is more sinister than you realize.” The frog in question was Pepe—who began his life in Matt Furie’s Boy’s Club comic series from the mid-2000s, a collection of which was published last year by Seattle publisher Fantagraphics. The comics follow the stoneriffic adventures of four anthropomorphic animal roommates. In one comic from 2008, Pepe is caught peeing with his pants all the way down. When confronted by his roommate about it, he responds, “feels good man.” Pepe’s smiling frog head, with the words “feels good man,” became an innocent icon on the Internet and a fixture of early meme culture, endlessly remixed onto countless bodies expressing a range of emotions (“feels bad man”).

But on 4chan, Twitter, and r/the_donald, an army of “alt-right” trolls began churning out an incredibly high volume of incendiary “smug” Pepes (Pepe smirking with his hand on his chin). Some were simply of green, Pepe-fied Trumps or Pepes wearing red “Make America Great Again” hats, which Donald Trump and Trump Jr. both retweeted. But many more were Nazi Pepes—Pepe as Hitler, Pepe as SS officer, Pepe holding guns to the heads of minorities and women, and Jew Pepes, drawn in the style of anti-Semitic WWII propaganda posters.

With the help of Pepe’s cartoon grin, the alt-right was winning.

“For the past year and a half, they destroyed us in memes,” Bustamante says. “They beat everyone in memes this past election—they made so many, they made more than us, they made so many effective ones. They were better content creators. It doesn’t matter if they’re politically inept or living in their mom’s basement, what matters is they’re outwardly expressing this train of thought, bringing together people with vaguely similar interests to congregate in the same space on the Internet.”

The sheer volume of these memes yielded real results—the unparalleled level of activity most evident in the engagement on r/the_donald. Thanks to Reddit’s algorithm, the questionable content at play on that subreddit was thrust to the front page. The domination was so intense that Reddit decided to change the algorithm on June 15 in an attempt to present its general users with some semblance of variety.

All of this, of course, was “just about having fun,” as alt-right media platform Breitbart wrote in March. Then Clinton declared that Pepe the frog was a white nationalist symbol, akin to a swastika. In one fell swoop, she both legitimized a band of trolls and officially handed it sole ownership of a powerful meme. “Everything has been weird since the day Hillary talked about Pepe,” Bustamante says. “I think that was a very dark time for memes. From that point on, everything the alt-right did was validated.”

Two weeks later, the Anti-Defamation League officially filed Pepe the frog as a hate symbol. The alt-right were thrilled at the “triggered” media. The Hill, Vanity Fair, Talking Points Memo, CNN, The Economist, MSNBC, and countless others took the bait, drawn to the story’s literal cartoonish extremes. Suddenly swastikas were everywhere, and the alt-right, previously a fringe web group, was a household name.

The coup, in turn, further revealed the increasingly low bar of mainstream media coverage. In one instance, Chris Matthews on MSNBC exclaimed that “the green guy there has become a popular symbol of white nationalism—I didn’t know this! I’m learning! […] I know none of this stuff! But I now know it. I just learned it today,” admitting his lack of knowledge and context of the meme in a rush to brand it a hate symbol. The first article that comes up in a Google search of Pepe, a Los Angeles Times article on Pepe as a hate symbol, doesn’t even get the name of Furie’s comic correct, calling it Boy’s Life, similarly exhibiting a lack of real knowledge or insight while simultaneously handing its ownership to the alt-right. Following the newfound legitimization, white nationalist Richard Spencer seized a media spotlight and became a “spokesperson” for the “movement,” which until then had been little more than an online mob.

Soon after the Pepe episode, it was revealed in The Daily Beast that Palmer Luckey, the almost-billionaire creator of the Oculus Rift virtual-reality headset, which is Facebook-owned and has offices in Seattle, was the secret backer of a pro-Trump, anti-Hillary “meme magic” nonprofit campaign called Nimble America which filed for a 501(c)(4) in September. Inspired by the success of the provocative Pepes, Luckey sought to fund a group of meme-making trolls he was in contact with so they could churn similar content out on social media full-time. Posting on r/the_donald as “NimbleRichMan,” Luckey wrote “we’ve proven that shitposting is powerful and meme magic is real. So many of you have asked us, how we can bring this to real life,” promising to match donations to the upstart meme organization dollar for dollar.

“There’s all this ‘fake news’ now,” Cory in the Abyss says, “and in a way we’re also ‘fake.’ The difference is, with our memes, we have an agenda, and there’s no pretense about those agendas. The exciting thing about memes now is that we’ve kind of become like pirate news—we don’t represent an institution or an establishment. The left can troll too.”

While the alt-right may have outpaced the left in the first battle of the Great Meme Wars, Weird Facebook has seemingly become the most formidable, viable challenger to the movement’s nihilistic, irony-drenched tactics. Many collectivist memers revel in the historical precedent the communist Soviet Union set on the Eastern front in WWII when defeating the Nazis’ fascist empire—images from which admins of Weird Facebook often weaponize as memes in their own battles against the alt-right. But as Phillips wonders in her book, if “certain forms of trolling can be justified, is the righteousness of a particular act compromised if it replicates precisely the cultural logics it seeks to dismantle?”

According to Lettuce Dog, the answer is a firm yes. “So, remember, I’m chaotic good,” she says. “Trump and the alt-right are chaotic too—chaotic evil.”

For Addy, a core value separates Weird Facebook’s trolling tactics from that of the alt-right’s. “I’ll intentionally make a meme that I know will stir a lot of controversy and anger a lot of people,” she says, “but with the express purpose of empowering marginalized people.” Early on, when Lettuce Dog was first gaining in popularity, Addy posted a meme that began to get “tons of shares.” Although the meme was well-intentioned, as most of hers are, when a Mexican man reached out and explained to Addy why he thought the meme was offensive, she had to make a fateful decision: “Should I be a white asshole, tell him to shut up, and keep the successful meme rolling? Or should I not be a prick, and make another that’s less offensive?”

The answer wasn’t obvious at first. Her time in the extreme, taboo-breaking culture of 4chan had trained Addy to place edginess above all else. But she decided she was done with that. “I deleted it, apologized to him, and have continued to run my page that way,” she says. “Now with the Internet, we’re all sharing one collective mind, so to hurt any part of that collective is to hurt the whole collective—to harm me. The 13-year-olds typing the n-word on YouTube don’t understand how much they’re hurting themselves.”

The alt-right is seemingly of a different mind when it comes to such empathy. Yet there is another area where Addy and her fellow memers hope to replicate their enemies: how to harness memes to hijack the media, use it against itself, and seize a national platform for their politics. “We don’t want to be edgy in a troll-comment way,” says Lettuce Dog admin Cory, “but edgy in that our memes stand on the edge of many different seams, make you think, and hopefully push you towards a better ideology. I think they’re the cultural foundation—the memes are the pre-body politic.”

And indeed, the loletariat did begin to rise just this past weekend. The Meme Wars took a decidedly sweet turn for Weird Facebook on Inauguration Day, when alt-right “leader” Richard Spencer was caught on camera during an interview getting punched in the face by a masked member of a black bloc. In an act of “meme magic,” the punch landed right as Spencer was beginning to explain the enamel pin on his lapel— “It’s Pepe, he’s become kind of a symbol … ” Smack!

In less than 24 hours, the clip had been remixed hundreds of times and shared by millions. In various iterations of the clip, the audible thud of the punch synched to the snare hits in “Born in the USA,” “Blue Monday,” and others. Still images of the violence were Photoshopped alongside images of Captain America and Indiana Jones punching Nazis, an activity memers presented as “American as apple pie.” “I’m afraid this is going to become the meme to end all memes,” Spencer later said on Periscope. “That I’m going to hate watching this.”

“I think what we’re going to see now is a lot more anti-imperialist, anti-colonialist, anti-fascist content creation,” Bustamante says. “While people with those trains of thought have always been underrepresented under the neoliberal U.S. government and the media, I think approaching this far different flipside, being the alt-right and Trump, we’re going to be the new fighters in terms of content creation—primarily through memes at this time.”

Bustamante’s one reservation is Facebook’s own algorithm—which itself caught flack last summer for its seemingly arbitrary censorship of “inappropriate” memes and the pages that host them. The flashpoint for the criticism was a popular meme featuring a photo of a goose whose head appeared to be on fire—in reality, it was simply an illusion, created by a campfire in the background. Regardless, Facebook censored the meme, deeming it “graphic content.” Many follow-up memes highlighted the absurdity that mainstream-media images of bloodied Syrian children and the bodies of drowned refugees were allowed on the site, but this goose with a fake flaming head wasn’t. A 100-page strong “Meme Alliance” emerged to challenge Facebook’s policy and the algorithm.

Yet even without the alliance, it seems foolish to think Facebook could ever truly quash the flow of memes. Thanks to the masses, and Weird Facebook’s leaderless, collectivist structure, the memes will always find a way. But if there comes a need to go further underground, Addy, for one, has an idea.

“We need to start a hacktivist group called Unanimous,” she says, “and all wear Guy Fieri masks.”

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Do you still talk to the person you last made out with? yeah, it’s my boyfriend so we definitely do talk lol!

Have you ever seen your best friend cry? i have.

What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid? my mom made me (makes me) take multivitamins and d3 pills.

Did you get any compliments today? yes, my boyfriend called me cute :)

Have you ever gone to court? no.

Are you friends with your neighbors? i used to be, but not anymore. i still wave when they drive by, though.

Favorite color?

yellow!

How long has it been since you’ve seen The Lion King?

a year or two.

When did you last hold hands with someone?

earlier this week.

Who could that have been?

my boyfriend!

Have you ever thrown up from drinking?

nope.

Have you ever smoked weed? no.

Done any illegal drugs? no.

Toilet papered someone's house? no!

Have you ever had a crush on your sibling's friend? nah, my siblings are all way older than me.

Have you ever gone to a beach? i have, many times.

How good is your eyesight? i believe it’s 20/80. i can see without glasses, but not well.

Would you ever want to swim with the sharks? no way.

Would you say if I told you I was in love with your brother? i’d say he’s married lol.

What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been on an airplane without changing flights? about 6 hours.

Have you ever been out of your country? i have.

What’s the best wedding you’ve been to? my brother’s wedding. it was on the shores of the river and the reception was in a barn, so they had cool decorations and a very rustic theme.

Would your parents get mad if you got arrested for fighting? they’d be super mad.

Ever been in love? yes :)

Who have you texted today? my boyfriend and some of my friends.

Any sexual stuff happen in the past two months? nope.

Is your phone right next to you, or at least close by? it is.

What windows are open on your computer right now? the tab i’m writing this on, the account of the person i took this from, the survey that i copied, a random date generator, a cartoon website where i was watching a show, a list of productive stuff to do (because i’m bored), and a tab of me asking how to do something on my email.

Anything you would like to say to someone? nope.

Last place you went besides your house? starbucks.

Is your phone a touch screen? yeah.

What was the last movie you watched? guardians of the galaxy.

Do any of your friends dislike each other? yep lmao.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason? of course! no reason is a terrible reason.

Are you in a good mood? yea.

Do you think exes can remain friends? yes, if the breakup was friendly.

Were you single on your last birthday? nope.

Do you follow rules or break them? i try to follow them.

Are you currently looking forward to anything? i’m looking forward to college.

Could you go a day without eating? i could, but i wouldn’t be happy.

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

zero.

Do you scream stuff out the car window?

uh... no lol.

Has anyone laid on your bed besides you? yes.

Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nickname? definitely nickname. i don’t like my actual name.

Do you ever want to get married? yes definitely!

Is there someone who makes you blush when you just say hi to them? no, not anymore.

How was your Saturday night? it’s friday evening, but last saturday night was fine lol.

Are you one of those people who are always tripping over things? nah, i’m not THAT clumsy.

Do you have a friend that you’ve always been attracted to, even though nothing’s ever happened between you? yeah, but i would never do anything with him. i just find him attractive.

Would you ever consider taking evening classes in anything?

yeah sure!

Are you the type to make situations awkward?

unfortunately yes.

Would you ever like to run/work in a joke shop? nah, that doesn’t sound fun.

Are any of your friends gay? Is it “obvious” in the stereotypical sense? i have gay friends but it isn’t obvious other than them mentioning it and talking about it.

Do you have any traits that you obviously inherited from your parents? i definitely do. i’m a leader just like my dad haha.

Are you still in touch with people you went to primary school with? a couple people, yeah.

Have any of your friends gotten engaged recently?

noo were all teenagers haha.

Would you ever drop everything and go traveling for several months?

no, i would definitely need to plan it out first.

Has anyone ever seriously suggested that you need therapy?

yes, and i got it tehe.

Have you ever had a negative encounter with the police? What happened?

nope.

Have you ever lied to a crush in an attempt to impress someone? i don’t believe so.

What’s your favorite thing to cook/bake? Do you eat it often?

i’d say meringues, but i only make them a couple times a year.

How do you flush the toilet in public? with my foot.

What color are your bedsheets? they’re yellow.

Favorite horror movie?

i hate horror movies, but if i had to choose one, i’d say thirteen ghosts.

Are you considered the weird one?

yeah lol.

Have you ever met anyone famous? no.

Birthday? november 12.

Do you wish you were someplace else right now? yep.

Do you like math? i like it, but only when i understand it. i hate it when i don’t.

Myspace or Facebook?

facebook. myspace is dead.

Do you have T-Mobile?

nope.

Do you have any talents?

yes! :)

Are you multitasking right now?

yeah i’m facetiming my boyfriend while i do this.

How many pairs of shoes do you own? over 20.

Do you have your wisdom teeth? i never had any.

Last concert you went to? my own band concert.

What’s the second word on the last text message you received? the last text message i received was one word.

Can you count to 20 in another language? yes!

Do you know anyone with a missing toe or finger?

nope.

Where’s the last place you took a bus to?

school.

What was the main character called in the last film you watched?

peter quill.

What would you name your pet snake if you had one?

rosco.

Do you like peanuts?

i do.

What’s the tastiest thing you’ve ever tasted? i have no idea, but probably something my mom made.

Do you have more dreams or nightmares?

more dreams.

Do you have any fancy dress costumes? If so which ones?

a costume with a fancy dress? i have a princess costume from when i was little -- i believe a hot pink dress -- but i don’t fit it anymore.

Have you ever gambled? What was your biggest loss/win? no.

Is there anyone, other than yourself, that you consistently look to for approval? What is it about this person that makes their opinion more important than others’? my boyfriend; i care about his opinion a lot... maybe TOO much sometimes.

Are you registered to vote this year? Do you intend to vote? Is there anything about the process of voting/elections that bothers or upsets you?

i’m too young to register, so i don’t intend to vote, but i do next year when i’m able to.the election process just seems so competitive and more about politicians tearing each other down than lifting the country up.

Where do you typically shop for bras and underwear? Do you tend to keep it simple, or have a variety of different items? Have you ever gotten a professional bra fitting?

i shop for both at target. i keep it simple. i have not gotten a professional bra fitting.

What (if any) types of x-rays/scans/other diagnostic tests have you had done? Was anything found?

i had an endoscopy earlier this year to find out what was wrong with my stomach, but everything was fine.

Has there ever been a movie that impressed you so much, you’ve watched it multiple times? For you, what makes a film really impressive?

i thought mean girls was impressive because of its ability to be so realistic and relatable... but i have low standards haha. impressive films tell a complicated yet easy to follow story and are really immersive.

Were you breast or bottle-fed as a child? If you plan to have children, which do you think you’ll choose? Do you think one is really better than the other?

i believe i was both. i’d probably do both as a mother. i think either works fine, it’s just the preference of the mother.

Do you find that you have become more selective in terms of friendships as you’ve gotten older? Did the friendships you thought would last over time end up that way?

yes, i have. i used to want to make friends with everybody, and although i still do like befriending the people i know, i only get close to people i know will make me happy and be good friends. the friendships i thought would last for years turned out to be rotten.

Let’s start off blunt, have you done anything sexual in the past 12 hours? nope.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? i hope my boyfriend does.

Do you like where you live? i like the neighborhood but not the area or the state.

What’s bothering you right now? the fact that i’m stuck at home.

Ever been called a bitch? yup.

Are you nice to people you dislike?

i’m not mean, but i’m not nice.

Have you ever cried over a text message? yeah lol.

Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo? no.

Have you ever liked someone older than you? i have.

What color are your eyes? blue.

How did you get one of your scars? i fell into a cabinet.

Do you like the snow? only when it’s falling and fresh. after a day or two, it’s gross.

Is your bed comfortable? very.

Does it bother you when someone lies to you? of course.

What are you doing right now?

this survey and talking to my boyfriend.

Where are you?

my bedroom.

Do you set an alarm every day to wake up? yep.

When you get yelled at, do you yell back or let it go? i usually argue back tbh lol.

What's the most expensive thing on your bed? probably the mattress itself.

What's wrong right now?

my boyfriend just left :(

Do you have pets?

yeah.

How was school?

it was fun while it lasted :(

February, how was your love life?

great!

Do you think it’s disgusting for girls to drink alcohol and get drunk?

i think it’s disgusting to get sloppy-drunk no matter your gender lmao.

Think relationships are worth getting your heart shattered?

of course! it gives you experience and it makes you happy.

What’s bothering you right now?

the fact that i’m stuck inside (again).

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? definitely.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger? when i was litle, yes (oops).

Last text of the opposite sex that messaged you last? "scrambled” lol.

How do you feel right now? hungry, tired, and content.

Is the person you last texted single? nope.

What time is it right now where you live? 7:12pm.

What’s the last song you heard?

grieg piano concerto in a minor tehe.

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?

no, that’s messing with time and space and it’d be too dangerous.

Do you like to cuddle? always.

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? a boy.

Are you easily scared by horror movies? yup.

Does someone like you right now? yes!

Are you friends with any of your ex-boyfriend/girlfriends? no.

Are you anyone’s first love? uh-huh.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter A? no.

Are you looking forward to anything? yes!

Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing? i have.

Do you miss someone? very much so :(

When did your last hug take place and with who? with my boyfriend, in a parking lot (lol).

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now? yes.

Do you tell people you’re okay when you’re really not? sometimes.

What’s the last reason you held someone’s hand? because i love him (and he grabbed it first).

Are you lonely? Be honest. a little bit.

Last thing bought? a vanilla bean creme frappuccino from starbucks.

Last text sent? "what kind of eggs are you eating”.

Last text received? “scrambled”.

What has made you happy today? seeing my band over video chat.

What has made you sad today? the world shutting down.

What room are you in? bedroom.

Last thing eaten? a taco!

Last thing you drank? water.

Anything bothering you? i think this is the third time i’ve answered this question lol.

Last reason you kissed someone? i love him.

Do you have an iPhone? yes.

Do you bite your nails? If so, do you wish you didn’t?

nope.

Did you shower today? yes.

Are you wearing anything that’s not yours? no.

Where did your last kiss take place? in my boyfriend’s room.

Do you shop at Urban Outfitters? no, there isn’t one by where i live.

If you look up, what’s the first thing you see? the ceiling.

Do you ever want to fall in love? yes.

Do you like to wear makeup? yup.

When was the last time you saw your best friend? right now.

Do you believe that there’s good in everybody? yeah.

What are you excited for? college.

Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? didn’t i just answer this lmao.

Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? yea, it gives me stomachaches so i have one verrrry occasionally.

Do you dance in the car? when a good song comes on, yes!

Have you ever cried because you were so happy? i have.

Do you study better with or without music? with, but it has to be quiet instrumental music.

Ever been in love? ya.

Have you ever attempted to write a story or novel?

yes!

Would you rather have perfect hair or perfect skin?

perfect skin.

What was the last band or artist you saw live in concert?

trans-siberian orchestra.

What’s your middle name?: grace.

How big is your bed?: twin-sized.

What are you listening to right now?: my boyfriend’s video game.

What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?: i feel like this is a scam lmao.

What was the last thing you ate?: a taco.

Last person you hugged?: my boyfriend.

How is the weather right now?: warm and windy.

Do you drink?: no.

Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed walked out of your life? definitely.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?: water.

Do you prefer pasta, salad, or coleslaw?: pasta.

Do you find smoking unattractive? very.

Where’s the last place you went besides your house? starbucks.

If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for? for my mental health to be better.

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?: probably, yes.

Do you eat breakfast daily? i do.

When you and your friends are out and about do you usually get dirty looks? no.

Is there anyone you couldn’t live without? uh-huh.

Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater?

my boyfriend, my sister, and my sister’s boyfriend.

What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?

i just notice it but i don’t do anything about it.

Do you like to cuddle? yea.

Do you like your cell phone? i do.

Do you love where you live? love the neighborhood, don’t love the area or the state.

Would you go out in public looking like you do now? yes, i look cute.

So, what do you want for your birthday? maybe a new phone.

Has anyone ever sang to you? ya.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? hopefully, yes!

Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober.

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? not personally.

How do you feel right now? hungry, tired, but content.

Does any part of your body hurt right now?

my elbows hurt from my carpet.

Are you a mean person? no.

So, what if you married the last person you kissed?

that’d be lovely haha.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?

i have.

Do you plan on moving out within the next year? yes, to go to college.

What are you listening to at the moment? my boyfriend’s video game and the peepers outside.

What color shirt are you wearing? pink.

Can you leave the house without makeup? yup.

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? no way.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? yes!

How many drugs are in your system? just my anxiety medication.

Do you currently have any bite marks/hickeys on your body? no.

Do you usually answer your texts? yes, albeit sometimes a little late.

Do you call anyone baby? my boyfriend.

Who was the last person to text you? my boyfriend (again).

Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? no.

Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 days? no.

Is it easier to pretend everything’s okay for you than show emotion? usually, yes.

When is the next time you will kiss someone of the opposite sex? probably a few weeks :/

What’s your current mood? content.

Do you have to sleep with a television on? no.

Do you think you are a good person? i do.

Are all of your friends virgins? nope.

Are you wasting your time on the person you like? nah.

What do you want right this second? food.

If you were offered to smoke some weed right now, would you accept? no way.

Can you control your dreams if you realize you are dreaming? no, i wish though. that;d be cool.

Is your phone fully charged right now? it is not.

Are you afraid of roller coasters? yes... i wish i weren’t though.

Do you think you can last for an hour without talking? mhm.

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 7 days? yep.

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? yea.

Do you know anyone else with your name? yes.

Last person who gave you a ‘good morning’ text? my boyfriend.

Do you think you will ever get married? someday, yes!

Have you ever watched a movie in another language? yeah.

Who’s was the last vehicle you rode in? my mom’s car.

What did you purchase last? a vanilla bean creme frappuccino.

What are you listening to? i’ve answered this so many times already.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? yes.

Are you an alcoholic? no.

Is anything bothering you? answered this already as well.

Who was the last person you texted yesterday? my boyfriend.

Do you like pizza? yes i love pizza!

Do you open up to a lot of people? yeah lol.

Who has seen you cry the most? my boyfriend probably.

Are you scared of snakes? nah they’re cute.

Is there anything in your past that you’d like to try again? many things.

Do you like falling asleep to the sound of the rain?

ya.

Have you ever just laid down outside and stared at the stars?

i have.

Do you have any scars? some, yes.

Are you afraid to answer sexual questions? nah.

Can you read other people’s expressions? i like to think i can, but i probably can’t.

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house? nope.

Are you imagining someone naked right now? no.

Are you wearing a necklace? Who got it for you? no.

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on someone that treated you badly? yes :(

What color is your underwear, seriously? it’s gray.

Do you walk around naked when no one’s home? no.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? yes.

Would you walk into Walmart naked for $16,000? no way.

Who are your last five texts from? my boyfriend and my friend.

Have you ever sacrificed something for someone you love? yea.

Think to the last person you kissed; have you ever kissed them on the ground? yes lol.

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? i can’t go anywhere.

Is it cute when a girl is immature? not really.

Do you have a condom in your room? no.

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