#this made me so euphoric

[imsofreakingtired]

Girl you're the most wonderful writer like EVER to exist!!!

How do you do that like I'm genuinely confused your writing gives me butterflies like I'm a bried on her fucking honeymoon???

The way you can make my heart ache and just in a split second make it all good again...like are you a wizard or something?

Oh my god I wish I found you sooner how did I live without your writing you little amazing human being😩

No requests because your probably busy but if you wasn't at some point I'm begging you to let me know because oh boy I have IDEAS and plus: please please please continue you're like THE BEST

like the way you make sentences and with the words I use and know and make them a whole story?you have superpowers your mind is like...perfect

Gosh I could praise you all nighttt and I have gym tomorrow morning with little to no sleep and I'm hooked up on your blog

Seriously....

oh my god.

hey @bbybhr i just want u to know that whenever i have a bad day in the future i'm gonna remember this message and it'll single handedly restore my happiness

...but also, please sleep!! 😭🙏💙

[beescake]

im a sollux kinnie and ur art is great. like a delicious meal. 1 million courses. my compliments to the chef.

AOGHHH TYSM I REALLY APPRECIATE IT

in gratitude i present a little guy doing setup for the first time 🐝

[thefishdeath]

Never feel more masc then the times I try to look fem

[thefleshyougoveggie]

getting correctly gendered by someone who doesn’t even know you’re trans is so euphoric to me

[ilikebobcuts642]

Fuck it bro, Trans Bruno

I hc that he has an extremely androgynous voice that helped him transition (without needing t or surgery) in the long run

(I’m a trans man btw so please don’t turn this into something weird. This post is basically self-therapy to me, nothing else.)

[uncanny-tranny]

I think sometimes, people can be intimidated by the idea that as they transition, they will stop feeling euphoria or happy in their gender, and I think that's assuming incorrectly many times. It isn't that you completely stop feeling those feelings, but they might change and grow and even grow in intensity as you start transitioning the way you want to.

I've been transitioning for years, and I find that when I am lifting, when I am helping people, when I am creating, I feel so much more euphoric because now, I feel more free to truly hone these skills and crafts.

I think for some, they've internalized the idea that if they are not completely and utterly happy all the time, ecstatic to the nth degree, that says something about the viability of their transition or even their transness. The impulse to cover up your feelings, to be fearful all the time of your own self will only alienate you further from yourself. It's okay to not be sure, but I worry sometimes if that is inhibiting people from what they want.

[gorkaya-trava]

I hope when putin finally dies I'll be the first one to make a destiel meme about it

[trapper-faggot]

Some shirtless selfies from last night

[darkxwolf17]

POV autistic dogboy shows you what its been drawing the last few minutes

[cowpokebeetle]

one thing I wish I saw in trans representation more was having hormone discorders/etc. i don't think I've ever even seen a trans masc with pcos in a show or anything! or a trans fem with hormone deficiency!!

[sapphosboy]

Was talking today with a friend about how monumental it was for me as a trans person and a lesbian who was uncomfortably presenting feminine, to meet my butch best friend in college, and how just being friends with them, and hearing about their experience as a butch really allowed me the space to feel comfortable exploring my own gender expression and identity, and how I feel like I’m a more complete person for having known them because they made me feel so incredibly safe in the journey and I now feel so much more comfortable presenting the way I want to and not the way I expect people to want me to, and the friend I was talking to said that I was that for them. So dress as faggy as you fucking want to and be as loud as you want to about it. It’s your god-given right to be DRIPPING with dykery and transgenderism because you never know if you’re going to be that lightbulb moment or safe queer space for someone!

[markiafc]

i don't have sophisticated words of andrew/eddie, i wish i did. they're sharing something really, really beautiful and sad between them. and there's a nebulousness about it too. the ambiguous quality about the cavern, this multi-dimensional event with multi-truths. that they're 11 or 12, suffering from fatal injuries due to a bad accident in the woods; what does a severe concussion, or a huge and deep fucking cut from "ass to shoulder" do to a kid? that, live or die, they had to spend three long days in complete darkness together - waiting together, rotting & starving & dehydrated & shitting & pissing together, in a shallow pool of water sapping away heat. under immense pain and stress, they did reach out for the other and clung close. the overwhelming intimacy & one-ness borne out of survival. children who became emotionally and physically conjoined, to outlast the odds.

the supernatural element is another defining dimension to it, too. the unexplained darkness that really, really wanted to ruin eddie so luring him into the woods. then into a womb-like pit, without light, to...... kill him and eat him ("he had been consumed") and puppet his body into raping andrew. some evil thing, which acts as a general metaphor for exploitative and abusive systems, wanting to literally isolate the boys; to hurt them, murder them, violate them, possess them. reading it as a predator feels right.

knowing the curse is a reproductive tool, mechanism that transforms the unrelated into blood-related family, is also important. it is used to induct individuals into the family "consensually" "or nonconsensually". the process being metaphorical and literal sexual assault traditionally between a husband and wife, where an extreme marriage occurs. the wife who receives the curse from the husband, and it renders her into blood family. there is also an incestuous tradeoff going on - the fulton man sacrifices his sister in exchange for his wife becoming real blood - wife becoming sister, wife equals sister.

in context of this, andrew and eddie is forced to recreate the dynamic as children. eddie who's dead/dying and possessed, rapes the familial status into andrew. inducts him into the fulton bloodline, cuts him off from his original one (see "before the cavern, he’d been close with his parents. after, he’d been close with eddie.") andrew as eddie's strange child bride, by unnatural forces. it fulfills the husband/wife condition.

then, in exchange, the curse kills eddie's parents. which directly leads to eddie's adoption into andrew's family, as andrew's legal brother. it's another marriage, a material one, on top of the supernatural wedding ("we shared the insurance", etc.) like andrew, eddie's severed from his family and inducted into andrew's. they become brother/brother.

from then on, a pseudo-incestuous sadomasochistic power dynamic locks in for them at that young age. exacerbated when eddie doesn't remember what he did to andrew, just some suspicion or feeling he'd had attacked andrew or hurt him in some irrevocable way. that eddie is responsible for him now. and andrew remembering everything, but he "pretend[s] unto amnesia" that nothing occurred. withholds every piece of information from eddie who desperately needs to know. just because andrew wants to run away and erase it all.

both of them have power and control to leverage over the other - and they make full use of that throughout childhood, teenagehood, young adulthood.

there's something emotional at the core of it. andrew and eddie being ravaged by the curse was awful, painful. but the violating union saved their lives, healing their wounds and sustaining them through a three-day nightmare. the great duress forced them to transgress all sorts of boundaries so as to achieve great intimacy, great comfort and love in the moment. and it's thoroughly impure but everlasting. them forever cursed ("that grim weight would nest inside of [andrew] until the end of his life").

[solidwater05]

I have a blanket on my lap and I looked down and thought it was a skirt somehow

[candy8448]

So when i made my bigender pin i felt super happy and euphoric abt it for the next day but my genderfluid one isnt making me feel anything

And you know how im bigenderfluid because my gendered feeling vary in strength every once in a while

I think i just cant relate to my labels and thus feel haopy abiut my pins because my genders are kinda just switched off today, like im feeling agender?

[forourtomorrows]

doodles doodles doodles + sidi joostis

[pawsnifferpup]

you’re a dog ofc you have a knot! plus it gives me a nice pawrest~

literally screaming i'm//// how do you expect me to handle this