#this kind of stuff is catnip for my autism

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weird mnemonic time: i have trouble telling 성운 (nebula) and 은하 (galaxy) apart. now whenever i have this issue i think of how the german word for nebula literally means "star mist", and 성운 uses the character for star, so they match,...

[ryan-spinel]

30 days of autism acceptance 2020

April 12: social skills and communication

April 13: autistic troubles and what helps me

( for now on , I’m just going to do 2 of these every second day. I’m just lacking the motivation)

When it comes to my social interactions, I’m usually a social butterfly. When I was younger I was so social. That I say stupid things from time to time. Which made me a victim to bullying. I always feel like I’m going to say something wrong, and when someone reacts negatively to what I said, I feel hurt. I feel like that in some ways I’m so straight to the point, people get offended for my opinion towards them. When I got older I haven’t done that lately. I’m always very polite to people and try to make friends. I feel like what is the hardest for me, is small talk, breaking the ice. I can feel really awkward when something doesn’t go as planned. When I comes to people, I don’t want to many friends. I just what a unique group of friends where we can’t do stupid 💩 together. Now I have friends and I like spending time with them. Their kind and fun to be around. But at the back of my mind, I still feel lonely. I feel like that I like all my guy friends, there’s just no connection. Maybe it’s just a boy thing, I’m a guy to so I don’t think what I said was sexist. I know not all guys are like that and I’m one of them. I would just like to have that one girl in my life where someone really knows me, inside and out. As someone who does have autism I can be a romantic, and some people on the spectrum can be, some just don’t know how. All I what to do is cuddle and do fun things and laugh and cry and stuff. I what to feel my heart longing for them everyday. I do believe in soulmates, and there is one out there for me. Someone special, someone with a tender heart and full of love. I know that red string of fate is on my finger, and attached to someone special. And before I finish this paragraph. I what to thank the following people for changing my view on love forever. @kloaa, @fireopal-tash, @swrmaul, @tanger-catnip, @notmahmapuu And @spinelwritings. Their art and stories touched my heart like nothing I’ve seen before. 🥰❤️💓💗💞👏🏻👏🏻🤩😊 You guys keep working on your craft and turn it into something magical.

When it came to troubles of having autism. There were a few, just when I got older I outgrown them. I remember when I was younger and my ears were sensitive in the auditorium at my kindergarten. A teacher said to my parents if I should where headphones. They said I didn’t need them. I a way I thank my parents for that, because it thought me at a young age to adapt to things better. It may not be the case for everyone, but it was for me. I remember my teacher saying to my parents when I was around 4 years old, that I wouldn’t be able to drive because of my Aspergers. Now I can drive, because no one stays the same, we grow and change. Now that I think of it I may have told you this story. But I’ll leave it in anyway. Right now the only problems I face is my fear of bananas ( no joke I can’t stand the smell, the look and I feel nauseous everytime I’m in a room with one) and some social interactions. Beside that I’m pretty good.

Thank you for listening to my LONG story, and I hope everything is going well for you guys. See you next time.

[the-force-awakens]

I was tagged by @alwritey-aphrodite to do this, thank you hon!

Favorite time of the year: autumn, ofc! it's the time of year where the weather is bearable, where you can feel the significance and potential in the air like magic, and it's the time of year I feel the most like myself.

Comfort food: grilled cheese has a soft spot to be sure, but also mac n cheese too. and pastas! mm. pizza is good too.

Favorite dessert: apple or pumpkin pie! I'm not big on desserts because I don't have a big sweet tooth but my god I will go to bat for pie. Walmart had NEITHER the last time we were there and I consider this a personal fucking offense.

Things you collect: anything to do with poe dameron tbh, stuff about england, books on the paranormal, and pops!

Favorite drink: irish breakfast tea, water (basic, I know, and we're out of bottled water so I'm suffering bc the Taste Of the Tap Water Isn't Pleasant For My Autism), sweet tea, coca cola (hi space mom), lemonade, HOT COCOA BELOVED I need to get some, and root beer. Also I had some cool blue Gatorade last week and forgot how damn good it is so that too.

Favorite musical artist: florence + the machine, queen, imagine dragons, halsey and taylor swift are probably the ones I have most songs on spotify for. but atm it's definitely f+tm

Last song you listened to: willow tree march by the paper kites (I'm listening to my fall playlist! I'm very soft for this song bc i discovered it the same time I met my current group of friends back in 2017 here in tumblr dot com so it reminds me of all them).

Last movie you watched: multiverse of madness and it was so fucking good, so much better than I was expecting? I like that it felt like a comic book movie and the horror elements of course I ate up. I love that they didn't try to water down the ridiculousness of a comic story to make it more palatable for neurotypical mainstream audiences. It looks, sounds, and is paced like a comic book and I fucking loved it. Let Raimi do more movies!!!!!!!!!!

Last series you watched: *error noises* my memory isn't good. I'm pretty sure it was Moon Knight though because I rewatched The Friendly Type again last weekend because I was sick and needed the comfort lmfao. Last one I watched all the way through was, again, Moon Knight because I rewatched it with my mom (it was her first time watching it). Before that, I watched the first season of only murders in the building :')

Series you’re currently watching: well we were watching s2 of omitb but my folks got tired of it ldndksksl. I might try to finish it but idk yet? Aside from that, I'm still painstakingly making my way through the west wing (Josh Lyman I WILL kick my executive dysfunction for u)

Current obsession: *glances at my blog* I think it's kind of obvious nfjdfhd. Moon Knight is definitely one of my biggest spins right now, alongside Poe and the sequels. I think at this point I have to admit to myself that Oscar Isaac's filmography has slid a little ways from 'hyperfixation' to possible 'spin' as well. That guy's like catnip for the asd crowd and also the asexuals what's up with that.

Dream place to visit: so many places are you kidding? England, New York, New Orleans, and Rome!!

A place you’ve been you want to go back to: there's a comic store about an hour drive away that has sO MANY FUCKING COMICS IT HAS SO MANY BACK ISSUES but we haven't been in absolute y e a rs and honestly I want to go there so badly again and flip through the back issues and maybe find some mk stuff 👀

Something you want: currently a nap because I couldn't sleep last night lmfao. I'd also like to get to read more of seraphina bc I keep. saying I will and getting distracted (same goes with princess and scoundrel), snuggles, and pops of Marc & Steven to put by my bed...my heroes.

Currently working on: is it really fucking cheesy to just say myself? It's been a difficult year of really struggling to process the amount of bad that happened in such a short timespan for me (one of my pets passed away in january, I got and then promptly lost a job bc I was hoh), and the depression hit bad. I'm just a little bit proud of myself for where I am now (standing up for myself more, being more cautious with my energy & time), but I still have more to work on terms of really beginning to move on and find confidence in myself again and accept all the parts of me, even the oddest neurodivergent things about myself.

I tag: the usual mutuals, if they wanna do it <3