#this isnt exactly an erasmus

[its-ohsoquiet]

y’all are telling me... choosing a high pressure university environment... will make me feel pressured? and stressed??

[sheaeaterr]

from researching for my project to researching about the courses equivalence...

i always wanted to go to uni just because of the chance of doing the erasmus program. didnt look too much into it once i got into uni at all. then with covid and the fact that i was a first year student i didnt have it in mind at all and now im in the second year and next year (new semester september 2021) i can participate in it and i still want to despite the pandemic. and im choosing countries based on the fact that scarlxrd will be on tour lmao. so, the thing is, i need to check the courses of the unis of the agreement that im interested in and send them to a professor so that he tells me about the equivalence,and here i am in a rabbit hole of searching uni > accomodation offered to students > transportation from there to the spot (or city first, and then to the spot) that scarlxrd will be performing in. literally thats all i want for my near future. all that i have the willingess to do. I do not see myself as a uni student who is working hard to learn stuff and get a degree and then find a job in my field. i have other things i want to do, truly. This only feels like a burden and it affects all planes of my being. Seriously the only thing that makes studying and getting this degree seem like it's a good idea to try and get it done is that it will supposedly allow me to find a job in the field🤡 we all know what that means. Plus the field isnt exactly what i want to work on at all. Only thing i like about it is the beginning part maybe where you could work at a hotel as a receptionist maybe ugh seriously the job i want to do inside this field is just work in service. Just wanna be inside a cafe/restaurant/this type of space for 6-8+hours a day. like idc make me a waitress please or a receptionist which is like the beginning kf where u could work with such a degree and guess what? Then u can advance higher in management or sth which I DONT WANT. NO THANK UM IDONT WANT SUCH RESPONSIBILITIES AND BORING OFFICE SHIT. also i wanna work as a barista and guess what i could just go somewhere where they offer training programs and pay and get a fucking certificate and hopefully work as exactly that. Little dream come true. And have time to make a good effort to learn how to (and maybe someone to show me how to) use a sewing machine and FINALLY experiment and make my own clothesssss (my soul is aching) and make art. And waste energy and time on nothing that won't bring any feelings of happiness and fulfilment to my spirit