#this isnt directed at anyone Ive been in a jealousy spiral about lots of friends for a while and just bottling it up

[tiredclemont]

Something I realized yesterday is during periods of depression (i.e. right now) my jealousy will sky rocket. Mostly because I feel like I'm losing control and that if I'm not constantly entertaining to my friends they'd leave for someone else. So in an attempt to balance my habitual clinginess I'll isolate myself and then that makes it WORSE because then I'm not talking to ANYONE and that makes it seem like my fears have been validated.

But then I realized what I was doing and reached out to several people. And whaddya know, they're still my friends even if I'm not a constant source of entertainment.

I think my point is that jealousy is a real human emotion born from insecurities, and that's okay. It's what you do with those emotions that matter. It's also completely fine for your friends to have other friends because that's just how humans work, it doesn't mean that you're not also worth the time.