#this isn't getting published

[trannydykepuppybot]

The quickest way to my heart is essay no citation needed.

[inkskinned]

my father told me he read it, but he hasn't read it. that's okay. my friends keep picking the words out of my throat.

someone once told me that the more trigger warnings that go on a book, the better it is. i didn't mean to write something with so many conditional phrases - i was writing about what i felt while being a human. sometimes you are a person and sometimes you are a statistic. sometimes it is falling upwards and sometimes it's sliding back down again.

my father tells me that it will be difficult to get people to read it. i didn't like the idea of a singular genre. i'm not going to lie to you - it is actually a difficult book to get through. i change the rules in it. it's not poetry or prose explicitly. it's neither false nor reality. i give you the tools to "solve" the book, but i let you do the thinking. my father says people don't care to think. i don't know about that - i think we just, like, enjoy reading.

the thing is - i was tired of stories about survival where someone with depression goes to therapy and wakes up okay. i didn't live like that. i was tired of books about violence, where the gore of what i experience was splashed in glitter to lick off the page. like, i was a person, you know? i had a life and a job and a family. and in books, i watched my story get ripped up so people could explore the viscera of my body. so they could feel good. my brother once called it inspiration pornography. we had walked out of a suicide-prevention seminar, both of us disgusted while the increasingly-elated presenter kept listing methods-of. i remember the look on my brother's face. like i would tear that man apart given the right time and place.

my father says that kids these days. he warns me against writing about things that are too-serious. he says that they don't want it. i don't listen. he does make me take out a scene from the book where i go to church after having sex with a woman. it used to be the 7th scene in the book. i don't think he's read further than that, it rocked him too hard to continue.

it's a book about being queer. it's a book about being raised catholic. it doesn't have monsterfucking, i'm sorry. it's just about, like.

at some point you have to choose to stay here. and then you do have to stay here, which takes practice. this is about forming the habit. this is about what happens after you've already started doing the work. because, like. you keep going. you have to. and it's like. very imperfect.

i should make a post on instagram. i should make this announcement less bittersweet. but like -- i'm giving it you, specifically, because i think you know why i had to write it. you and me. this little community.

body's a bad monster. here's the link if you're interested in ordering.

[tippenfunkaport]

That viral post that's going around about how people who write "book quality" mlm fic are too "normal" to publish and have real jobs so only "weird" people publish their "shitty" fanfic is so completely out of touch with reality and I am giving a massive side eye to everyone reblogging it.

Not only is it completely, easily verifiably untrue (you cannot enter any professional writing space without tripping over a dozen grizzled scifi writers who got their start by filing off the serial numbers and publishing their Star Trek fanfic even going back decades ago??? it's a whole thing?? plus how can you look at the mlm category on Amazon right now and say with a straight face that people aren't publishing shitty Spirk and Stucky fanfic??? Oh, honey...) it's also the perfect example of this kind of sneering elitism that true artists would never sully themselves by seeking profit, they do it only for the purity of the thing that always somehow leads back to, "no one should be paid to make art, actually."

The only reason you're seeing more published fanfic right now has nothing to do with the idealistic purity of your hypothetical government employee written smut of the past vs the debased scribbles of those awful straights of today and everything to do with the fact that a) self-publishing has created a voracious readership that wants a ton of content so it's become a viable, flexible income stream for many, especially disabled people b) anyone can publish now with self-publishing tools so there are less gatekeepers and c) lockdown got a lot of people into fandom and therefore writing who never tried it before.

And if you really think there's no "shitty" published mlm and no "book-quality" m/f writing out there that started as fanfic, then you are clearly not a reader so why are you even talking about this?

[scribeofmorpheus]

everyday i learn more about joplin, everyday i wish they just cancelled veilguard or took longer to make the joplin project they envisioned.

i think i'm just gonna put all the blame on anthem atp.

[article link]

if they were in such a rush to make me5, why didn't they just go ahead with that project and then make da4 after--if the funds allowed for it?! i bought the artbook and that literally just made me go down a spiral.

like... this hurts me so much man.

[link to video where comment is from]

[unrelatedsideblog]

Is it One Piece AU?

Is it Sora, Warrior of the Sea AU?

Is it WENP boldly monetizing Vinsmoke family drama?

I don't know

Plot twist: It's Law's SWotS self-insert fanfic (fan comic?)

[cooking-with-hailstones]

I love it when I suddenly get a bunch of notes on my Earthsea posts

Like hello fellow tumblr tag searcher, seeking anyone else who's going feral over these people. Welcome. Glad you're here.

[parasitoidism]

Jonathan, Walter, & Isabeau- Shin Megami Tensei IV Official Artworks (English)

[ratgirlexe]

Every time I see someone clamoring for an HDG story with a concept that I’ve written about I always feel so weird. Like. Do I tell them I have a story with a transmasc in it? Or with someone who’s non-binary? Or with a Puppy-girl? Or that my story has cute nonverbal sex? I’ve seen people on here and in the discord saying they want these things but it feels wrong to be like “oh I wrote something with that! Try it out!” I don’t want people to think I’m advertising or being rude. I just want people to have a fun time and it seems like if they like those things they might like what I’ve written but I don’t know.

Anyways if you *are* interested in those things, maybe try my HDG story “Myosotis”? You might like it. But if not, that’s okay too.

[fancyfade]

I honestly do think sometimes 2009 era damian just says shit to see how dick will react and every time dick takes it super seriously damians like smh.. failed again

[ddarker-dreams]

n darling hurting blade's feelings as she should .

[harbingersecho]

you will accept chaos, by choice or by force!

[that-butch-archivist]

as a baby butch i really appreciate your blog,, i feel so lost sometimes esp as a black butch as i haven't seen many sources on other studs,, so just having these lists is really awesome :)

Hey, thanks so much for reaching out, lovely to hear from you! I'm glad the lists are helping you, honestly that's everything I could have hoped for. Unfortunately, I have also found that it's strangely difficult to find material on black butches and studs ... but I am on the hunt nevertheless! As of the past two weeks a few more black lesbian anthologies have arrived and I have a few more lined up that I hope to procure soon--all this to say that I hope to present more material to you that suits your interests in the days & weeks to come. I hope we both can find good stuff for you. :)

(Which, speaking of ... if ANYONE out there happens to know where the treasure trove of black butches & stud lore is, I would happily trade my best cheesecake and/or cookie recipes for this knowledge. I can also provide manual labor and cleaning services.)

[fictionadventurer]

The worst part about reading in a genre where you have low expectations (in this case, Christian historical fiction) is that when a book impresses you, you have no idea if it's actually good or if you're just overly impressed because it was a fraction of a degree better than the usual garbage.

[writeouswriter]

Girl, help, the book authors are trying too hard to be "hip" with the fleeting "teen lingo" and trends again, immediately dating their works before they're even released

[angstigone]

week of inactivity

hey guys,

just heads up, I doubt that I'll be active next week as it's my full on vacation and ngl I don't feel like I belong to fandom spaces as a writer anymore.

I am absolutely one for 'you curate your experience on this godforsaken platform' but I can't lie: I am just so tired of being a fanfic writer. I have done it for more than five years and it has just gotten worse through time.

it's the fact that I sometimes receive comments that'll be like drive-through orders (somebody recently was like 'oh I'd like if you could write longer fics', I am sorry I doing an internship and the lack of feedback makes it difficult for me to write).

either way end of this rant: I am tired, I love writing but it sucks to publish and I'll be mostly off this week as I want to focus my energy on relaxing and not being stuck on silly thoughts.

love yah.

[measureformeasure]

i havent finished that video so this isn't about that but i think the real and most obvious criticism of the big boom of The Modern Feminist Novelized Retelling of ancient greek myth/lit is how every person considered a prominent contributor to the genre is white and (almost always) british or american