#this isn’t even the only part that made me go 😟

[b1rdeyes]

If you want a break from crying about go2 and mitski may I humbly suggest crying about go2 and the classic dire straits song "Romeo and Juliet" lyrics https://g.co/kgs/tizafj

:((

[gunnrblze]

Mischaracterizations are prevalent in fandoms. I'm curious, which ones of the CoD:Ghosts franchise bug you the most, and make you want to pull out your hair once you see them in fics/other materials?

This question created several additional thoughts, so I’m putting all my yapping below the cut lmfao.

Tbh it doesn’t bother me a whole lot except when it’s a large part of said character, or one of their only canon descriptions/facts/etc. I think it’s great for ppl to create what they want, esp when a lot of the ghosts have little/no info so we quite literally have to make shit up and fill in the likely blanks, but if you’re straying so far from who a character is…😟

Like, Keegan is described and shown throughout the game as being a very quiet man…so it does make me side eye when people portray him as this talkative guy, or someone with a really big personality lol cause that’s just not the vibe. That’s why I rb’d that thing, because I was thinking about how he’s the most popular ghost by far, and I think a lot of those fans aren’t necessarily into the rest of the ghosts game (and they don’t have to be, just an observation). I think that’s why so much of the content made about him outside of the actual ghosts fandom seems out of left field, bc people just kinda take a hot character and do whatever with him (which again, is fine, free will in fandom is good and necessary). I also think that’s why so many people get him confused as being part of other CoD games, because they aren’t aware of where his character even comes from in the first place.

Now this may be a bit of an unpopular opinion bc I know a lot of ppl hate some of the smut aspect that’s written about these characters, because they include themes that are/seem ooc, but I’m gonna be honest…that part doesn’t bother me so much because at the end of the day, people just want to put their fantasies and ideas onto hot masked man…and I get it lmao. Not to say im necessarily gonna read it, esp stuff with hard kink type shit, but it’s more so bothersome when people mischaracterize them because they don’t pay attention to the actual canon character in other fics/materials.

That’s why I kinda separate smut fic from everything else a bit, because a lot of smut I’ve noticed, especially with Keegan specifically, is written ooc, because making it canon/character correct isn’t the point, the sexy time shit is. Now I still prefer reading smut that seems largely in character lol, but I do have to defend the larger idea here that it’s not a crime to write an ooc smut fic because half the time…the smut is the main focus, not the canon/implied personality of the character.

I completely understand the shock of seeing certain smut in the first place (talking about the more fucked up shit here…), especially when it’s then placed on a character you know and love, but it honestly doesn’t bother me that much-and maybe it’s because I’ve been on the internet for too long💀- but that’s kinda the point of fandom I think…doing whatever pleases you, having an outlet. That’s the type of smut I think is very obviously written with the idea in mind, and not necessarily ‘would the character do/behave like this?’. Because yea, these ghost boys would most likely not do all these fucked up things, but I think people still deserve the freedom to write it, and they’re going to anyways lmfao (IF you’re tagging disturbing content correctly, you owe people that much!)

I’ve been having those thoughts for a while now so I had to yap them out of my head lol, but to answer the actual question, aside from Keegan, I hateeee seeing the Walker fam mischaracterized. I think because (it seems) they have more info available on them compared to the other ghosts, so when I see people just giving their personalities a 180 I’m like…Hesh would NOT act like that😩. Especially with Elias because he’s my husband obviously…so people missing larger parts of his character or stuff that’s implied about him makes my eye twitch a little lol.

Also, I don’t typically see a whole lot of ooc stuff for the ghosts in the first place tbh (minus Keegan, bc he has reached the CoD masses of course). Because we’re a smaller fandom, and I think people tend to stay in character more in smaller fandoms (at least from what I’ve seen) because there’s so little content available on characters, and it’s like we’re all clinging to what we DO know about them lmfao.

Thanks for attending my ted talk 💋

[the-duchess-of-domination]

College Tummy Tales

due to popular demand, here is a comprehensive list of all tummy-related events that happened on campus this semester (these are all 100% real, i promise you 😭😭😭)

1. this literally happened last friday. i live in a sophomore dorm with my roommate and best friend. we live in an all-gender wing, so me and her are constantly patrolling the hallways because really weird stuff happens at night. last friday we heard some activity near our door, and we decided to be nosy and see what was happening. we came out into the hallway and saw our RA standing near the bathroom, and this twenty-year old guy we live across from sitting on the floor (he’s SUPER cute, like he’s got that shoulder-length middle part haircut and is generally just really friendly and playful. i think he’s a theatre major). anyway, he was curled up on the floor with a bottle of ginger ale and he looked absolutely AWFUL. we asked if everything was okay and he cracked this really weak smile and told us the fish from our dining hall made him sick, and he puked and felt really dizzy and had to sit down on the floor. our RA passed by and got really worried about him and just stayed with him until he felt like he could walk back to his dorm. my roommate knows about my interests (she’s SO FUNNY and supportive) and she was like 😏 girl you gotta take care of him. i didn’t want to overwhelm him so we let him rest. i ended up texting him later and asked if he was feeling better, and he said he was and thanked me for checking up on him. i guess the moral of the story is don’t eat the fish from the dining hall.

2. i am friends with a lot of male theatre majors LMAO. this story happened like, a month ago and isn’t as eventful, but another cute male theatre major is in my ballet class (he is the ONLY guy in my ballet class), and one morning he was sitting out from dancing and i came over to talk to him. COMPLETELY UNPROMPTED he LAUNCHED into a monologue about how bad his stomach hurt that morning, complete with the moaning and groaning and everything, even like, sitting up and showing me his stomach and pushing it out. i was so stunned i just started laughing and he jokingly was like “why are you laughing at my pain????” and i was like “idk i guess you just saying the word tummy as a grown man” and he was like “my tummy? my delicate hurting tummy? my sore little belly?” i swear to god, the male theatre majors are built DIFFERENT.

3. on the topic, men seem to feel really comfortable just using the word “tummy” in general, which i find amusing. i can count a couple of occurrences of men using the word tummy for comedic effect, using phrases like “tummy ache survivor” or “having a tummy ache and being a very brave boy about it”

4. this next one happened in the dining hall and i thought someone would find it amusing. im not huge into burps, but last week this big boisterous frat guy kept burping SO LOUD in the dining hall. it was so fucking obnoxious and the burps were so long and sustained. i kept looking over to give them the stink eye, and the guy had like, 5 empty plates, so ig he was a little full and gassy or something because LORD. hopefully he didn’t eat the fish 😟

5. this last one is the real kicker. in one of my design classes there is this cute, chubby redhead that sits next to me. before class started he had begun complaining to no one in particular that he woke up nauseous that morning. im a really friendly girl so i guess people just feel comfortable sharing things with me, but during class this redhead leaned into my ear and whispered something. like ballet, i was so stunned i asked him to repeat it, and it turns out my ears did not deceive me. he said “i have a tummy ache” into my ear, and my eyes widened and i just couldn’t believe it. i asked if he was hungry or something and tried to offer him a granola bar from my bag, but he turned it down and said he was going to eat something after class. but WOW. im still in disbelief about that one.

anyway, that’s all i can think of for now. me and my roommate have a counter called “X amount of days without a man telling [my name] about his stomach.” so far we’ve only made it 2 days because that halloweekend guy in my poetry class made me have to reset the counter. anyway, love my roommate 💖 the other day she was like “girl you’re only attracted to him because he had an upset stomach 🤨” and i DIED because she’s so right. the bar is so low, boys.

[saintobio]

i know i’m being petty right now but i hate sera for coming into gojo’s life 😟 it felt like he and y/n had a good past together (back when the mom was in the picture) and i’m willing to bet they were like those kids who made promises before about marrying each other. but then gojo’s mom left and his dad has been nothing but abusive and he learned to find solace with sera.

some other thoughts:

i love how y/n thinks gojo never thought about her the entire weekend but it seems like she’s been in his thoughts most of the time. i could tell the mf is feeling conflicted right now lmfao. good for him. he deserves that internal turmoil.

the part where gojo thinks it’s better to let go of sera… like my man, do it please, for your sake and hers. i know the whole “you and me against the world” thing sounds romanitc as fuck but let’s be real, it’s tiring lmao. like, are you just gonna keep fighting to prove your love for the rest of your lives? that’s so sad. love shouldn’t be like that. there are sooo many people in the world, i’m sure sera would find someone else who will actually fight for her and who could give her a good life that’s not only rooted in material wealth

i think gojo loves the stability that y/n provides by being with him. and not just with regards to their companies. he obviously has abandonment issues and everything he’s had so far—his position in his dad’s company, his forbidden romance with sera, among others—are fickle and unstable. his dad always threatens him with yuuta taking over the company. he and sera cannot be together. gojo’s always walking on thin ice and y/n is that stability that he never had, which is why he keeps clinging to her, which also by extension makes him confused about his feelings, because he wants to hate her, but like he just said, he “finds it hard to.”

the last part is driving me crazy. actually, all the gojo past crumbs are driving me crazy. when the mom said that he would talk about y/n so much to nana??? it feels so much like right person, wrong time but idk. lots of stuff happened in between. they grew apart, they experienced grief (y/n for her mom, gojo for his, and for his abuse) so obviously they’re not the same person anymore. the nightmare scene made me realize just how much of a broken person he was. doesn’t justify his actions of course, but fuck, i could just imagine the terror and fear of being left behind by your own mother into the hands of an abusive father.

going back to something more positive, i really loved y/n’s time with toji at the mall. i love how he’s so supportive of her, even going so far as to reserve a space in advance for something y/n might not even end up pursuing (tho i hope she does pursue it!). and when the givenchy sales person called her mrs zenin i fucking howled lmfaooo. it also made me feel sad tho because it’s such a stark contrast to y/n as mrs gojo. i know toji isn’t set up (i think) to be a love interest, but i hope they become really good friends (and that stupid gojo better not feel jealous; he has no right to after he went gallivanting with sera). i hope she also attends one of his business meetings lmao!

that said, this chapter was amazing so thank you for writing it! and for always taking the time to answer our asks! i always enjoy reading through everybody’s theories and i’m glad i accidentally took a nap last night and ended up waking up at 5 in the morning because it meant i got to be here right when you posted the chapter shsjjsks. but also sorry for such a long ask 😭 hope you have a great day today!!

you guys rly know how to make a writer cry with all these amazing theories & analyses!! like wtf u have a better grip of the story than i do JSNSJD u guys see beyond the lines written in every chapter and it makes me so sooo happy 🥺

anyways, these are all great !! u organized your thoughts abt the series very eloquently to the point that i don’t even have to add anything more <3

[sad-b-lack-g-irl]

You’re lying if you say you are...

Welp, insomnia has kicked in and I’m overthinking sooooo here we are.

I have said this before and I’m only reconfirming it because I really want to change it: I am not happy.

Maybe I’m just reacting to what happened today with the Moon, but I’m sad as fuck. The weather is no help because where I live everything is really super fucking depressing in the winter, but whatever. I went to this dinner thing for this lady who goes to my church and the Moon was there, but he completely ignored me. And that shit hurt. But I guess it’s kind of expected since he has a girlfriend and the whole going to prom thing. But it’s kind of wild to me. It’s crazy because I felt like we broke up but we weren’t even fucking dating. And it’s crazier that this past Thursday he congratulated me on college stuff really casually. Although, he did unfollow me on Instagram, which I know it’s like really sis you know he unfollowed you. But, like, yea 🤷🏾‍♀️. I unfollowed him around New Years on Instagram and Snapchat because I was trying to figure stuff out with myself and seeing what he was doing only made things worse. But yea then we had a chill period where we were cool and more open about our feelings than before, but then he got a girlfriend. So now it’s awkward and he’s ignoring me. Plus I feel like he’s pissed that I unfollowed him, so he unfollowed me and now we are completely severed. But we can’t be because we go to the same church. Although I feel like I’m going to try to miss church a lot just so we don’t have to awkwardly interact. Also because I want to avoid people at church who know about us and then his girlfriend because they talk. Church folk always talk. This is rough. I really want to get out of this phase of life. And now I really, really want a boyfriend. And not just because he now has a girlfriend, but I feel like I’m someone who’s meant to be in a relationship. Not that it would define me, but I give to other people so much I need someone who is going to be there to give to me in a way that, to me, would be more intimate. Idk sounds weird and needy, but that’s how I feel. Like I can’t cuddle with someone who isn’t my boyfriend/a boy that I’m taking to because it wouldn’t feel right. Also I think the connection of someone who isn’t directly or uncontrollably involved in your life is comforting. Like a guy I could just lay in his arms and talk to without worrying about what expectations he has of me or me having to maintain a certain level of energy all the time. I also want to find someone that I can talk to about anything, and now I’m just saying anyone in general. Like let’s sit in a car at night and talk about life, or let’s FaceTime and laugh or cry or something. I feel my social interactions are based in certain time frames and that sucks. I can’t really do that with people at my school because most of them wouldn’t have the conversations I would want to have and then the ones that do I feel like they would be annoyed by me or be too busy doing stuff. It’s a really sad and hollow feeling 😟. Whatever I guess I can figure it out in the summer, or at college 🤷🏾‍♀️. Oh and I’m having really scary impulsive thoughts about breaking a limb or having a part of my body cut open or being in a really bad accident or like someone close to me dying and idk what to do. I would like have those thoughts and then psycho-analyze myself. I have come to multiple conclusions including the fact that I probably need to see a therapist, but also I am last resorting myself to the idea of the only way to feel like I’m still alive is to feel pain. It’s very scare to think of myself as not being alive and needing to prove it through pain, so I’m in this really weird double consciousness of one side of me having theses thoughts and the other talking myself out of it with self analysis 👀. All I’m saying is I’m a little nervous that that second side of me won’t do enough convincing and then I’ll have a huge slice in my hand, but hopefully that day never comes.......

—A ‘Concerned’ Black Girl

[clatterbane]

We end up ignoring other physical pain too because we’ll just get told off anyway, right?

Because people don’t want to hear it and it’s not “that bad” since everyone’s telling us our other pain isn’t “that bad.” We end up going years with a herniated disc, joint pain from hypermobility, or pain from an injury that didn’t heal well.

Maybe especially those of us who have also spent years/decades dealing with chronic conditions which have gone mis/undiagnosed--and/or dealt with some serious and sometimes extremely dangerous symptoms repeatedly dismissed, too often with outright gaslighting around that. While autistic, and already more likely to be subjected to such harmful assumptions.

How would you know when it's really a situation worth risking ridicule over, in order to seek urgent medical help? 🤔😟😵

That would be roughly how I personally came within a hair of dying last summer--additionally complicated by all the official Plague Time warnings to avoid tying up a deliberately underfunded/understaffed medical system already at breaking point, unless it was a "life or limb" situation.

As it was, I was lucky (and frankly stubborn) enough that it WAS only part of a limb in that most spectacular instance so far.

(With the initial problem itself pretty much precipitated by longer-term shitty treatment of a serious chronic illness, but I do not need to get started on that right now.)

But, the main thing that got me commenting more on this topic? Also being reminded of how often the results of this type of gaslighting then get turned around on us as supposed evidence of Autistic Deficits. Maybe especially by non-autistic "experts". 👿

That was another one of the things that made me almost blow a gasket, trying to deal with that Autism Mental Health Services dude who called me out of the blue to ask a buttload of intrusive questions.

Besides not even seeming to understand that any type of burnout is a thing which we too frequently have to push through?

At one point, how did this guy try to expertsplain the fact that I did lie around at home desperately sick for weeks before reaching the (very correct!) conclusion that I was highly likely to die soon if I didn't risk an A&E trip ASAP?

Nothing like any of the factors Actually Autistic people were talking about, through the main link there. Nope, sometimes we are just basically insensible and "underreactive" to pain/illness--because autism, that's why! Intrinsically. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Yeah, that is the quality of too many outsider attempts to explain what's going on with people they've already decided are categorically unreliable narrators/perceivers of what is going on in our own lives. Often coming from those who DO have too much power over said lives, which they are invested in misunderstanding and misinterpreting.

Kinda feeding straight back into the OP's main point, yeah.

This shit can have some serious consequences. Which are regularly affecting real, living human beings who matter as much as anyone else on this planet.