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puckpocketed · 4 months ago

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weird/bad interactions always remind me about the good things. feeling very sentimental under the cut <3

housekeeping

The gist of this is that I'm very grateful every day my first encounters with hockey on here were primarily with kraken lb and sharks lb. You can stop here if you aren't in the mood for an essay LOL

I'm thankful in general for everyone who has ever welcomed me into their hockey spaces for giving me role models to emulate. I feel especially thankful after such a strange, off-putting experience in a new tag just now.

On the off-chance you're the person who took a screenshot of my post to tell me to leave your space and you're reading this: thanks for the chat, no hard feelings and no grudges held. If you're one of the people who uncritically reblogged that post... I can't tell you what to do with your blog but dog piling is a pretty good way to bully people and drive new fans, artists and gifmakers away from your community.

I'm not here to guilt people into being friends with me. and honestly, I don't want friends who would do that. I sincerely hope you grow and the next new fan you encounter gets a warmer welcome than I did. I know most people in the tag aren't like that, but I think I'll shelf that team for now. (my quest to fall in love with 32 teams carries on!)

Anyway, I get pretty mushy about my friends and communities semi-regularly on here so it’s not anything people haven’t heard before, but it’s MY blog and I get to write love letters to my teams and their communities if i want!!!!!

kraken

I take my cues from the way people in this tag treated me. The warm welcome is something I'll always think about, no matter how my relationship to the team and the community at large evolves over time. Sparking my interest in writing again, making new friends, and learning about The Beautiful Game was such a highlight during my summer last year. I am very very tender about this team and community. It’s hard to talk about them sometimes because it’s like… my feelings are so big <3 they are eating me like a soup dumpling. my head is being ripped off and my soupy insides are being sipped <- don’t know where i’m going with that....!

I confess I often feel overwhelmed and lost in the hockey tumblr space as someone who doesn’t participate in shipping/rpf and isn’t attracted to men, but I’ve never felt like people wanted me out because of it. Thank you for accepting me, and accepting the way I love this team and sport.

sharks

Tiny but mighty!! the kraken crossover likely contributed a lot to this, but I've met such amazing people in this tag. We may have different/conflicting opinions about non-sharks teams but we are united in our love for this flop train and my life is enriched by it. Would not commit to a months long research project with any other people ! Mwah <3

There's a whole iceberg's worth of things to say here. I'm trying to keep it short otherwise it would be like.... a whole post of its own LMAO.... i should definitely write a puck-mortem on the primer work one day.

But to give anyone reading this an example: I still think about a sharks writing prompt challenge where the organiser went out of the way to include non-shipping/nonfiction works in their list of acceptable submissions. I won't name or @ anyone in this because that's sooo embarrassing aslkjasdkljdjkl but. we exchanged a few messages about it, and learning that they did that specifically to make sure people like me were included genuinely made me tear up.

I love u sharkudablr <33

kings

Somehow even smaller. Many of us don't have LAK as our primaries, and honestly why would we? The community tinyyy... and only recently we're coming back to life it seems. I really can count on two hands every active kings blog I've met and interacted with. But I value every 6 note post so much <3 also we may be very funny for real actually. incredible memes and collective sense of humour. The memes and gifs and photo edits + reposts are so important to me .

I love our kings, our little family, our little liveblog tag. The way I follow LA is unlike how I follow any other team. they really are my eldest daughter, in that I am holding them to SUCH high standards. Perhaps because out of all my teams their fate seems the most uncertain? Are we on the verge of collapse ? are we cup contenders? are we ever gonna escape the round 1 time loop? <3

I hope one day we're as big and warm as my other beloved team tags. I think we're on our way :)

golden knights

another small but close community. I'm so grateful I saw Adin Hill go ultra instinct and got interested in this team <3 aside from saving me a bit of heartbreak during the trade deadline, I've met amazing new people.

Also, loving this team makes for a great litmus test + rent lowering shots. To be loud about enjoying this team is to filter unserious people out of my tumblr experience <3 Those who were wishing injury on m.stone in particular and those who were uncritically repeating conspiracy theories, thanks for exposing yourself during playoffs. Those who are in the tags of my vgk gifs saying how much you hate this team, thanks for exposing yourselves. I do not go out of my way to be spiteful on here, I think it really does no good. but I fear I don't want to sit with you at lunch if you are doin all that!!

what's really special to me is how our community is small and safe. it is the safest I've felt in a hockey community. I am so happy our discord is place I can go to without fear of seeing one of my other teams/players randomly smeared, I love that it was started with the express intention to avoid simply repeating the unfiltered hatred we experience in other spaces. building with purpose, choosing to be kind... i think that's also something I want to take and run with in my own community building efforts. thanks for being bold enough to be different <3

caps

Quickly rising up from babygirl-in-laws (hi Lucky!!) to BELOVEDS. I think the Dubois trade might be one of those inflection points they talk about in sci-fi movies where they gotta time travel and change the future :) I was already sort of eyeing this team and had a few friends/mutuals who followed them, but the incredible caps fans who have reached out to me to share their love of their team really sold me.

I love talking hockey with everyone I've met. I love the goofy vibes. i love the essays in my inbox. I love that people read the essays i write back. <3 When a link to a video didn't work for me (required a log in) a caps fan simply screen recorded it and posted it. When I asked about the power play I got completely serious hockeypilled answers <3

There is something to love about every team, but I'm finding a huge part of loving them, at least for me, is the people you love them with.

everyone else

If i haven't mentioned a team I like or people I've interacted with it's because there are too many to recall in one go and this post has gotten a lot longer than I originally intended <3 trust that I think of you warmly and often. every person who has ever sent me an encouraging word, discoursed with me about the game and the narratives, and every note on my silly gifs and art - appreciate you more than I can express. you all make being on here such a cool experience.

I hope i love hockey for a long time and keep meeting new people <3

#waugh.............. feeling warm in this chilis tonite.....#puckposting #puckdiaries

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lululawrence · 4 years ago

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Can u please be nicer on ao3? Maybe you should try answering people's comments

when i read the first line i was honestly flabbergasted and wracking my brain trying to figure out when in the world i wasn't nice on ao3 ever. because i honestly truly try to be nice to everyone always, even when i'm angry or frustrated or people are going after those i love and want to protect. if there was a time i WASN'T nice on ao3, i wondered if it was maybe because my comment had been misunderstood or someone saw me razzing an author i'm good friends with and they didn't get that we are close and i said what i did with so much love and appreciation, you know? like what??? did i do???

but then i read your second line. and please forgive me if i come off as rude in my response to this, because honestly i'm in a pretty bad spot mentally and emotionally in general right now, but PARTICULARLY today, and this ask triggered an anxiety response in me. so. i'm trying really hard to word this in a way to educate without being condescending or mean, but i might not succeed.

firstly, thank you for your comments i'm assuming you've left. i'm also assuming they were nice comments, in which case extra thanks. i'm sure i'll send you effusive responses on ao3 when the time comes.

secondly, please understand that sending an ask like this, on anonymous no less, is incredibly entitled. writing is not my profession, i receive no compensation for my works that i post for free online, and as a part of that it is not required of me to respond. i do my very best to reply to every comment i receive, but it is not always in a timely manner, because i have other priorities in my life. all of which leads us to my third point, which is:

writers do not owe you a reply to your comments. end of. there are no other qualifications or quantifying modifiers to be added to the statement. is it nice to be acknowledged and know your comment was seen? sure. but do they OWE you one? hell no.

in fact, i'd like to offer you a suggestion. a way of tweaking your thinking about the comments you leave on fics. instead of looking at comments you leave as being something that deserves a reply from the author, think of your comments as your way of paying the author for the gift of their time and talents that they have shared with you by posting their fic. that's how i think of the comments i leave for authors. i'm giving them my thanks for the words they've shared! i want to help THEM feel as amazing as they have made ME feel when i read their fic. in fact, my hope isn't necessarily a response from them, but instead my hope is THE GIFT OF THEM SHARING MORE FIC WITH ME. i'm a selfish bitch in that way and i always want all the fic to read. i never want that well to go dry. one way i can ensure that doesn't happen is by supporting authors and being kind to them and spreading all the love and excitement i can about their writing in the hopes that my words will inspire them to share more.

because whether they reply or not, i GUARANTEE they are seeing your comments. i PROMISE they are. and for all you know, your comment might be the one that keeps them writing even when their words aren't coming easily or when they are tempted to give up.

but, again, please remember that no matter what, these authors (including me) don't actually owe you anything.

the rest of this is going under a cut, because honestly my reply is already far too long and i have a LOT more to say now that you've gotten me started.

now, all of this in mind, i'll explain to you why i'm not great with keeping up with comments made on my fics the last couple of years. i don't owe you this explanation any more than i owe you a response to your comments, and i'm honestly not sure you deserve this explanation either, but i'll still offer it anyway. it'll help me feel better knowing i at least put this out there, whether you care or not, mainly because if i don't do that it will cause me greater anxiety having you possibly think i am not responding to people because i feel all high and mighty or that i think i'm better than the comments or whatever the fuck kind of motivation you're attributing to me to see my lack of a response as something "not nice" towards the commenters.

i'm not sure if you've noticed, but i put out a lot of fic. like a lot. a lot of words and shit. i love writing, it's often my therapy and a way for me to help keep my anxiety and depression and ptsd at bay.

now, more personal shit for you, i've got three kids ages 9 and under. the oldest has adhd which we have yet to find a med for that helps to the extent she needs without side effects that aren't healthy for her to continue with, she also has anxiety, AND she's extremely gifted and starting a new program at a new school, all in the midst of a pandemic. and all of those situations exacerbate her anxiety! huzzah! she's also dealing with the beginning of her tween growing up shit, which is great fun because it means where she used to be pretty damn understanding of her younger brother, she is finding it much more difficult to. because the second oldest? he's autistic with some pretty significant gross motor, speech, and socialization delays that have only been exacerbated because of the previously mentioned pandemic. PLUS he transitioned from his special needs preschool to a fully integrated elementary school for kindergarten last year and then had to deal with all the ups and downs of the switch from e-learning to hybrid to all in schooling when everything in him screams for a normal schedule he can rely on to keep his own anxieties and fears and struggles at their minimum. and that youngest child? he was born in january of last year. he STILL barely leaves the house and has only met other children in close range a couple of times because, once again, pandemic!

add onto all of this my own mental health issues, the fact that my husband ALSO battles major clinical depression, adhd, and anxiety, AND we live with my parents who have their own health issues, both mental and physical. i run the home for our house of seven. i keep this place functioning, fed, clothed, clean, and everywhere we need to be for all of our five million appointments every. fucking. day. there is a REASON i've been borderline burnt out for the last fucking year and a half.

now, for fun, i have fandom shit. i love it here, even if it is a dumpster fire on the best of days, and getting to be a part of the writing community is so very lovely. i adore it. honestly, it's because of those friendships i've built with other writers that i have been able to keep writing and have found just how helpful it can be for my mental health. but i'm REALLY. INCREDIBLY. BUSY. i hardly have time to get on tumblr for just a quick swipe through my dash most days. i put off asks so long i forget i have them. i don't have the mental and emotional capacity to talk to people on here or interact fully a lot of the time. but i do my best to do so and be kind while i'm at it even when i don't want to be.

then, on top of that? i also run fic fests like @wordplayfics and help friends run their own. because not only am i a writer, i'm a reader. i LOVE fic. fic has saved me soooooo many times over the past seven years that i've been here. i want to do what i can to support other writers the best way i can, which is to provide a space for them to create their works that welcomes and helps promote them, but also by doing my monthly fic lists and pocast highlighting what i've been able to read, reblogging their fic posts, and then commenting and kudosing their fics too.

sometimes i get really fucking down on myself because i'm so behind on replying to comments, but my brain is very much a "if you start this, you have to finish it" kind of a brain, and i feel even WORSE sometimes if i reply to comments on some fics and not all of them. but i do my best and reply when i can. i was actually really fucking proud of myself because i had a couple days to myself in june, and i spent hours replying to comments on 20 of my fics. when you have almost 150 fics (i think? i don't even know how many fics i've posted by now), that is only scratching the surface. but i tried and i was so so happy i did that many fics at once. it's exhausting, though, and takes a lot of spoons for me to reply to them in mass like that plus time consuming. so i tried to be happy with those 20 fics and the comments i responded to there and told myself that when i ha a moment to breathe, i'd go and work on replying to some more.

but see, that again causes anxiety and guilt. because i haven't replied to all of them. and that anxiety and guilt can cause me to put it off further OR to put off important things like feeding my children or getting sleep in order to finish it, so i have to make myself put things into perspective and ensure i'm doing the important things, like taking care of myself and my family, first.

and then, i have a moment where i CAN go ahead and reply to comments... but i also have MANY fics that are on deadline and i actually have a schedule. a SCHEDULE. for when i'm going to focus on which fics. i can spell it out for you if you really want. i made it back in APRIL to make sure i didn't sign up for too many fic fests because there are so many going on right now that i want to participate in, but i know i can't do all of them so i had to pick and choose. and when you are SO overscheduled and busy that back in APRIL you had to figure out what fics you would focus on at what time to ensure you got everything written when you wanted to through THE END OF THE YEAR, more choices have to be made.

for example. my writing time and time for myself came down to only one evening a week for ALL fandom things i'm doing and a part of right now once the kids were out of school for the summer. it quickly became apparent that for my own self care i needed more time, so i worked with my husband to find two other days i could carve out at least 30-60 minutes to myself to write every week. and i did. but if i'm already only getting that much time and have committed to those fics and fests and things that you're running etc, you have to choose am i going to use this time to try to squeeze in some comment replies? or am i going to write? and i choose to write. simple as that.

so yeah. see it as selfish if you want. see it as mean. you can honestly see it as whatever the fuck you want, but for me? i know that as soon as i possibly can and i can breathe freely for once and not feel like i am constantly drowning in my day to day life and am doing pretty well when it comes to my fic deadlines and getting started on those christmas cards i'm once again going to be making by hand for everyone on tumblr who chooses to sign up for one this year out of the KINDNESS of my heart and the love i really do feel for so many of you, then i promise i'll be on ao3 catching up and commenting. my friends laugh and make fun of me for it sometimes, because they will sometimes get 10-12 replies to their comments in a single day. they know that's how i work. i WILL reply to every single comment i get, no matter how old it is. but for the love of all that is holy, do NOT add to the anxiety and guilt i already feel over it. the only place that will get you is the ask/comment getting deleted if it's a good day, a fucking long rant like this one if it's not, and a block if it's a REALLY bad day.

if you're asking me to be nice on ao3, then i ask in return that you also be nice by not demanding things of people that they are not in any way obligated to give.

#long post #rant #i almost deleted this #but you sent it on just the right day and instead i let loose #this is unedited and unbetaed lmao but ENJOY #or don't #whatever #writing stuff #i should tag it #writing SHIT #but that's not really a tag i keep cause who wants to keep track of the negatives #not me

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bayrut · 4 years ago

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what are ur thoughts about tumblr user seasurfacefullofclouds1

i loooooove sea @seasurfacefullofclouds1 so much for so many reasons and i could never formulate them properly but here we go

she is the reason why i’m still a louie, and why lots of us are still louies. she gets so much hate yet she is always polite to anons and never bitter

she’s so smart i love her so much

she’s so kind and thoughtful and if i’m having a bad day i know i can message her and she’ll listen and give good advice or if she doesn’t have advice about the situation she’ll send me funny tweets or posts or tell me a story? like idk she’s just so sweet

i love reading her thoughts about industry and stuff like that i think they’re very interesting

when she followed me i almost screamed, and also i was so shy because in my mind she is one of the Three Big Louies and also i thought rip my blog is a mess she will hate it and unfollow a day later (like you know how i post just random stuff not even louis sometimes) and yeah she didnt unfollow and also i messaged her once to say hi and i felt awkward about it because she’s sea and i was a tiny blog but she was so kind and sweet and tbh she’s like my fandom mom i love her

she occasionally makes edits and they’re very cute and i can’t find a link rn but if she sends me one i can link it!

she is so smart irl

she has so many useful links and masterposts in her pinned posts and the pages on her blog??? a queen

i think she deserves the best in life, for real.

although she is amazing, she does have a few flaws, for example, she thinks louis’ nipples are too small, she prefers louke over louli, etc

also, sea doesn’t know this but i love coming up with theories about her (harmless ones, usually just with my a couple of friends, like sanju and lee).. i once sent her an anonymous ask that says ‘are you louis? i think i connected the dots’ but now i know better. she isn’t louis, she is oli. she basically confirmed it by saying she has ginger hair. i’ve connected the dots

yeah so sorry this reply is a bit short and doesn’t cover all the points but please know that i love sea a lot, i owe her a lot fandom wise, and if she ever needs me to fight people for her i definitely would

send me urls on anon so i can give u my opinion on them

#i'm sorry sea this description doesn't do you any justice #asks #seasurfacefullofclouds1 #an anonymous louie

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yume-fanfare · 4 years ago

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hi i am that anon from like 29th Dec (last dang year) who said i read ur tsuki no hime and loved it and that u understand Aizou. i have read more of ur stuff since then and now i NEED to ask you for writing advice, on both characterization and general writing tips since I didnt mention it before. Sorry about that! i just forgot i sent an ask and i do not get notifs at all (or does anon asks not get notifs?) Also, ART STUDENT! That's why the nice art and art leaning!! I feel smart for sensing it

oh yup, tumblr doesn't send notifs for anon asks! but i'm glad you did see the answer anyway

this post is hideously long, so answer under the cut!

so, on characterization: it is mostly a matter of what would they say, rather than what you want them to say. the joke about "the characters do what they want to" instead of what the writer wants is pretty much true if you want them to be in character lol (that's why sometimes a little bit of OoC isn't too bad)

checking the source material is the most important thing: look at prior similar interactions the characters have had and how they reacted

this is kind of hard with LIPxLIP, as there aren't that many translated texts about them but with honeyworks the most canon and reliable thing to use as reference are the mvs. the mvs are drawn in a way that can pretty much be understood even if you don't have the lyrics, and sometimes it's even better if you can't read them, to properly focus on the images better

look at their expressions closely: while aizou is always explosive in his anger, yuujirou often has a more indifferent expression. so, when they fight, aizou is probably the one to blow up first while yuujirou maintains his composure better. it's kind of the classic "this was only a brief passing panel but i am going to expand on it" www

but the thing about fanfiction is that it's always a bit of a character analysis in itself. you don't start writing having already a color-coded folder of possible situations and reactions a character would have for each setting. you just throw the characters in a scenario and then think from there onwards, and eventually you'll be able to have the folder of situations and what you think their reactions would be like. (though, this links back to the prior point, if the characters have gone through a similar situation in canon, use that as guide! plus, finding little references to canon when reading is always fun)

for general writing, i'm going to mostly talk about my own experiences and process! i'm in no way a professional though

the basic is reading a lot. not just books but also fanfic. in fact, since you're writing fanfic, i Encourage you to read fanfic. even if your story ends up novel length, the way of treating the story is different from that of an actual novel. for example, because you're working under the premise that everyone knows the characters already. the general style of fics is different as well.

in fact, the style is the main reason i'm saying this slfkslfkslkf

read a lot of stuff and find a style you like. think of it as sewing together pieces from here and there to make a frankenstein amalgamation: this person's metaphors, the comparisons from here, the descriptions from there

personally, i adore the "long one-shot with a long title formatted (like this)" fics that are mostly feelings and descriptions and as little dialogue as possible, and some that occasionally play with the "show don't tell" rule, and some months ago i read a book whose descriptions amazed me because you could feel what the character was focusing on the most, rather than being general descriptions of the situation (i actually have a lot of thoughts about descriptions but that's a post for another day). but also i really like dialogue and plot-driven stories, descriptions can get boring and before trying to break rules, you have to be really good at following them

but, let's go step by step: developing an idea

for this i'm going to mostly reference the multichap i finished a while ago as an example

i started with just a few vague concepts in mind: non-idol au with aizou who does some sport and likes music but is insecure about his singing and yuujirou who does some music related thing and encourages him to sing in a way that's somehow related to the hozier song to noisemaking (sing), because it's what inspired me to write in the first place

then, from then onwards i wrote down what would happen in the first chapter of the story bullet-point-list-style, including things like the roommates part or the clubs the boys were in (at first yuujirou was in the choir club lol the change was a last second decision that idk why i took) and then bits of dialogue here and there that would be The Turning Points. those first dialogues were for the fight at the end of ch 1, the apology-date in ch 3 and then some vaguely unused ones for the "yuujirou encourages aizou" part, as those were the first key moments i thought of

because, since it's enemies to friends to lovers, an important aspect was character development

not all fics have character development bc not all of them are long enough (if you're aiming for short and sweet then there's no need). but if they do, i recommend you write down how the character was at the beginning of the story and then how they were at the end and then fill in the middle later, think of what those key turning points that made the character change were (the more little things you add, the more gradual it'll be)

samishigariya illustrates this very nicely: the song starts and finishes with the same lines, but the ending ones feel more light-hearted. the beginning has pre-arisa ken and pre-getting-along-with-yuujirou aizou, when they were the lonely people the title mentioned, and the ending, when they're not lonely anymore. the in between can be seen in depth during the other songs: ken before arisa was a playboy who didn't take love seriously, but after meeting her he realized that games were not all there was to love; and aizou used to be quite cranky and high-key a loner, but then he "meets precious things and knows of love". i will not elaborate on that because this isn't an aiyuu post but Oh You Know

for the fic, aizou would go through that same process, more or less: someone who doesn't really form meaningful connections with people but who, in the end, would end up having quite a bunch of people who care about him as his relationship with yuujirou advances too

since the relationship was the main focus, i wrote a very simple outline for how it would develop throughout 5 hypothetical chapters that was just: 1. civil w each other but mostly bad > 2. bad > 3. half friends > 4. pining > 5. date

and then with that in mind and the bullet point list, the final basic outline ended up like this:

there were scraped ideas and ideas that made it in later, but i believe having a simple outline, a bare skeleton to add things to, is important. stories need continuity, development requires a prior buildup

it's especially important in multichapter fics where you post as you write, you need to have a more or less clear idea of what's going to happen because you can't ignore scenes you've already posted

shorter stories don't need it as much, you can think as you go, but it's still helpful to know where you're going with things to avoid getting stuck

and, on getting stuck: don't be afraid of deleting things. if you can't figure out how to continue things, then delete the situation and start again. it might feel like you'd be wasting time but in the end, it is so much better than being stuck on the same scene for weeks

in fact, you don't have to write in order. jump to the next scene and you'll figure it out later. you Can write the scene you want to write and then build everything else around it

it's normal to write a scene and then realize it would make more sense later in the story, or that it would be better if you added another scene earlier, or sometimes you just find it easier to jump from one part of the story to another. rely on your outline to keep track of what you've written, what you have left to write and what's the best way to arrange your story. make your story understandable

which bring us to editing

there's a lot of much better posts on editing stories, but yeah ctrl+f is your best friend: don't repeat yourself too much. and be sure to vary sentence and paragraph length, as well as sentence structure, to give dynamism to the writing

now, i've mentioned before the show, don't tell rule, but i'm going to talk a bit more about it because it's quite important

once again there's a lot of posts that explain more in depth what it is, so i'm not going to expand too much on that, but, very basically, try to avoid things like "then some time passed and they became friends". explain it: what happened exactly? how did they become friends? if it's important, show it to us, instead of summarizing

since things like these make the story longer, it also gives room for more development and proper explanation for things that happen

for example, the fic was originally going to start with them already in the room, and the whole situation would have been explained in a single paragraph somewhere, but by actually adding the scene where they first arrive to the dorms and argue with the lady at the main desk, the story flows better and it let me actually describe their first meeting

and uuuhhh i think that's all? this took super long to write i hope i didn't forget any super basic stuff lol

i want to add that for enemies to lovers i greatly recommend this post bc it's super good but yeah i think that's basically it, if you have any more specific questions just shoot me an ask

#god this is so long #how should i tag this #tutorials #i guess #anonymous #preguntas

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deunan403 · 5 years ago

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Oh my gosh your ‘the name is English’ fanfic is so good. Any advice on getting like. The distinct voices of each of the characters? I’m just dabbling in homestuck fiction and I think I got Dave and rose and jade. But John and the alpha kids are hard

(Edited: I kept thinking about the mistakes I made in this explanation so I’ve finally gone back and fixed them pfffft, Also like... I think I might’ve misconstrued the kind of answer anon was going for, in which case, only the very end end of this long ass response is useful. Welp.)

SO FIRST OFF, I am insanely flattered anyone is asking my advice on how to write Homestuck characters because these are some of the most difficult characters I’ve ever written. Thank you so much! These kids each have an insane amount of dimension to them and I completely understand why they come off a bit intimidating to write correctly. I don��t even think I do that good of a job, lmao. Anywho, I’mma go ahead and apologize in advance because I got a little carried away with my advice. When I get to explaining things I like to over-explain and hope you just pick out what ends up bein actually useful to you. There is... a lot of shit under this cut, so be warned.

Hello! Welcome to this wordy as fuck space under the cut. (Edit: It won’t format correctly so ALL this bullshit under the cut. Thanks tumblr. SMD plz). Unfortunately I can't describe the way they talk without deconstructing a little bit on how I view each of their personalities because a part of me insists it's better to provide context and examples, so again, I'm sorry for these unnecessarily long ramblings. Skip to about the center of each paragraph if you want to focus on speech pattern-specific things, eheheheh.

John's pretty difficult for me too because his vernacular slate isn't as colorful as everyone else's, but this is kind of what I've come to understand about him: His general reaction to everything is a mixture of chipper and blasé--going with the flow. He kind of became the “straight man” in HS to combat the way everyone else was reacting to the wild shit that eventually went down. At face value, the way he talks makes him come off as a simple dude -- what you see is what you get, which isn't necessarily true. He's honest about his feelings but at the same time it seems like he has difficulty processing and understanding them, which makes them come through much milder than what you'd expect for the situation. It's probably why he absorbed his dad's death very slowly and got hit hard when it finally processed that he was gone for good. But not many things get all the way through his initial blaséness which actually makes him kind of callous in that he can give oddly indifferent responses to things others would consider a big deal, such as when Terezi died in front of him. He looked at her corpse and was just like "Eugh. She's so weird." Like damn dude, that’s cold. Ain’t like she bled to death or nothing. Anyway, some speech pattern specific things I keep in mind when I write him: He doesn't use a lot of big words, sticking to casual, simple responses, most of them positive or enthusiastic sounding. He sometimes uses old man speech and idioms, like Jake but toned down by like 85%. He's a bit slow on the uptake, points out the obvious, and says things that he thinks are clever but he's either completely missing the mark or being lame in general, not to say he can't sometimes be particularly sassy/savage, especially when it comes to his immediate friends because he knows them and can see through their bullshit better than he can with other people he doesn't know that well. In the chat client, he likes to divide combined words like "what ever" and "time line". If you're being canon compliant, he adopted some chat quirks from Vriska after they dated, such as multiplying punctuations by 8 for emphasis!!!!!!!! (edit: Ignore this last part. I think I may be thinking of a dead john, lmao.)

Jane's also a little difficult but easier than John since speech-wise, she's more of a balance between him and Jake + if they were super skeptical about everything and cared about being smart. She's actually kind of a wild card to me, because sometimes she has probably some of the most realistic reactions to the more ridiculous things in HS, but has grown used to equally ludicrous happenings such as the assassination attempts on her life in her intro. She also tends to wear her heart on her sleeve, and has quite the temper. She tries to override her more emotional responses with good southern manners because she's polite, god dammit! When her short fuse isn't ignited, her bottomless passion fuels her cheerfulness as well as her fearlessness. She's also pretty inquisitive, about the world around her as well as towards her friends, asking them questions to understand what they may be dealing with better. She tries really hard to be reasonable about things but struggles with letting other things that may be in play ruffle her well-kept feathers. Speech pattern-wise, she vacillates between speaking like a normal teen and a grandma, to a way lesser extent than Jake. Initially, she tries to keep it prim and proper--sophisticated like a southern suburban housewife with an interesting hint of embellished self-narrative like she's the protagonist of a Noir comic (like here), but when real shit starts to go down, she gets quite a bit more casual (like when they're on their quest slabs here). That is to say, I wouldn't say her normal way of talking is something that doesn't come naturally to her because it totally does, but she loses most of the laciness because short and to the point is better, which is the case for any of the kids with more flavorful quirks. She tends to steamroll over other people when she gets passionate about a topic, but when that's not happening, she's actually super accommodating, to the point of viciously ignoring her own feelings so she can be a voice of reason. In the chat client, she uses toothy emojis like :B.

Roxy, on the other hand, comes pretty easily for me because she's really similar to one of my closest friends and speaks much the same way we do when we're chill. We're also from the south, where much of the youth talk like Roxy does, lmao. Roxy is probably the most accommodating of any of the kids, readily bending over backwards to cater to her friends' needs and letting her own needs take a backseat, which probably leads to a lot of resentment she keeps buried. But she's still the chillest one, taking just about everything in stride before and after her alcoholism. She tends to get sad before she ever gets angry. And if she does get angry, it's usually only frustration at others for being difficult. Communication-wise, she's the most shorthanded--thinking and living in chat-speak. She's all about living her best life and taking care of her family so things are fun and peaceful. She wants to be super sure of herself (like Dirk) because she wants to be reliable. When talking, she likes to use a bunch of metaphors (again, like Dirk), and she tends to casually throw in a lot of puns too, such as when she tells Jake that they're still "humanated" when he asks if he's alienated her too. The nature of her responses is typically pretty flippant, even when things are serious. It's probably obvious that getting comfortable with general Ebonics will help a lot when writing her. In chat client, I try to remember these things: typos only happen when she's drunk--when typing her drunk, I avoid actively trying to give her slurred speech. Instead, I kind of let my fingers type a little more haphazardly and leave the typos I made that sound like mistakes she would make. She only tries to correct a small portion of her typos, more frequently the closer she is to sobriety. When she IS sober, her shorthand isn't consistent. One sentence she'll write "u" and the next, she'll write "you". Same thing with "2" and "to" or "4" and "for", etc. She'll cut out unnecessary letters in words, use typical chat abbrevs, and only use singular letters in place of a whole word, like "y" for "yes". Also uses smileys and other signs like <3. She's super fun for me to write because she comes away with a general feeling of "lmao" if that makes any sense.

Jake I'm always worried I'm doing wrong but he seems to be the one people love my characterization of the most so far, lmao. So I guess I must be doing something right. The thing about Jake is he wants to be the "likeable character". He takes what people want in a guy and molds that into this garbled persona. So when he talks to others, even his friends, he tries to be super agreeable, positive and supportive, regardless of the subject matter; he’s always talking these people up to make them feel good about themselves so that they enjoy conversing with him. But the reality is that he's extremely (but not necessarily intentionally) self-centered. He also aggressively ignores anything negative or forcefully turns it into something positive even when it doesn't make sense. He only tends to express frustration when others (Dirk) are being difficult; I don't remember if he ever actually gets angry in the comic?? He also likes to express surprise/amazement at things (a lot more than the other kids do at least), at the beginning of his responses, even when someone says something that's particularly obvious. The thing that gets me about Jake is that his superficial shell is so impenetrable, I don't think that issue was ever really fully addressed, much less fixed in HS, which leaves a lot of questions about his character & several different but valid interpretations of him by the audience. He may very well actually just be an oblivious idiot who's suffered brain damage one too many times (there's not too many pieces of supporting evidence to negate this) but I personally like to think Jake is far more complicated than that. I mean, look at how many convos he's grabbed the helm of and steered into a completely different direction just so he doesn't have to deal with something. His speech is probably the one I have to look up references for the most because he uses a fuckton of idioms you'd only hear one’s well-meaning but probably unintentionally racist poppop use, and a weird mixture of western/country and british vocab + bro speech he probably adopted while talking to Dirk. This is one list I find super useful when trying to find words to use (bless this person), but I still have to google a bunch of goofy phrases and words to be sure I'm not exhausting my material. One thing I know I do wrong when it comes to Jake's speech is use modern British slang such as "bloody" and "bloke", which is something he absolutely never does but I use them anyways because... idfc, I guess, idk. lol, I acknowledge it so it's fine.

Dirk is probably the one that comes easiest to me because he and I behave and talk pretty similarly. Either that, or I just like to think that and I'm just projecting while writing him completely wrong, lmao. Either way, Dirk hides behind the fact that he's super chill and levelheaded when really he's a nervous paranoid wreck. He's always thinking and overthinking about everything and he never gives himself a god damn break. He calculates every response he gives so it comes off exactly the way he wants it to, so when it doesn't because he's caught off guard, you get to see these little snippets of this dude freaking out underneath. He's a neurotic control freak that makes sure the flow of conversation stays on a set course he wants it to or else he gets either uncomfortable or pissed off. He skirts around anything that might get personal to him and dismisses any focus that sheds light on his own emotions UNLESS he feels, again, that he can control that flow of conversation. Or he's already emotionally compromised. Either way, he avoids conditions that might catch him actually being vulnerable because he's just too fuckin' proud. He likes to make a lot of comparisons, using extended metaphors and milking the fuck out of them if he can get away with it because the more he talks, the more he feels in control. He likes to smoothly play along with people he finds are being ridiculous, like Jake and Caliborn, or even just because he knows they'll know he's just playing along like Roxy. That's a key thing for me actually--how much he likes to fuck with people and how inelegantly he takes it in those rare cases someone successfully fucks with him. His speech seems to be a balance between Rose and Dave, a chill bro with access to the biggest vocabulary ever. I encourage aiming towards sounding like a pretentious asshole when writing Dirk because that's what he is all the time sometimes. He likes to Dirk-splain because more often than not he knows exactly what he's talking about, but he also doesn't realize his Dirk-splaining is something no one needed or asked for. Even though he's acknowledged and now resents the ludicrous size of his own ego, he still struggles with not stroking it at every opportunity. He’s a super capable, reliable guy and he knows it, but the reality is that much of what he plans for doesn’t work out. It’s only when he and his friends are really in the shit and he doesn’t have time to think that instinct takes over and he ends up doing some hella amazing things (Unite: Synchronization). That’s why his whole thought process of being better off alone is dangerous--he’s capable because he has people he loves relying on him. (I went off on a tangent unrelated to speech here. I’m sorry. I got a lot of feelings about Dirk and his selfishness vs. his selflessness, lol)

With all that, these are some general notes I try to abide by:

The ramblers of the kids are Dirk, Dave, and Jake, the former two especially when they're anxious. Dave's definitely the worst in that regard. The Striders both act like they wanna come off as men of few words and both fail miserably; it seems like being forced to live in verbal silence for a good portion of their lives gave both of these social wrecks a stigma against any gaps in conversation. Jake on the other hand rambles because he's self-important, not unlike Dirk. It's almost like he's not sure how else to contribute to the conversation if it's not about movies or himself.

For me, it actually helps that I think Dirk and Jake may both be on the spectrum. (I'm sorry if the following offends anyone who is on the spectrum, but this is just my general experience talking to people with those conditions). It certainly explains why their joint communication is so shit and why they either both give long-winded explanations that no one really asks for, or extract themselves from conversations they don't have a good foothold in, the latter being way more common for Jake (I hint a little at all this in my fic, moreso for Jake via Dirk's observations). They both want to be heard but may have difficulty being good listeners because their heads are already filled to the brim with things that have been cycling since before the other person has started talking.

On a final note, I find it pretty important to note the changes in each character's demeanor and way of talking after certain things happen. A glaring example is the Alpha Kids' behaviors after the batshit candy juju episode they all had. When Jake's broken out of his glorified, overwhelmingly positive fake self-image, he's actually very self-critical. However, his self-centeredness is hard to break out of, so when he broods on all the flaws he'd ignored in favor of being the guy everyone likes, he directed all of his nervous energy into finding reassurance from Roxy. (This self-deprecation could've also been born from his constant need to be agreeable, so since he thought everyone considered him to be a piece of shit, he felt the need to agree that was the case. Depends on how you read it.) Roxy had a shorter fuse and was a bit more snappy and resistant to dealing with Jake's ridiculousness. Jane remained calm and acknowledged she can be a bit too stubborn and self-righteous. Dirk finally took a step back from the details and absorbed the big picture of his problematic expectations toward his friends and himself. It’s just something to keep in mind if you fear you’re getting kind of OOC with their personalities. It’s natural for people to behave different based on changes in their mood, so don’t be afraid to experiment.

All that being said (I lied about that final note), I go back and reference the comic a lot when I’m unsure whether I’m representing a character accurately. It’s a good habit to double-check yourself. If you’re unsure how you’re writing a response but wanna move on, write it the best you can and then come back to it later and revise after reading a few conversations that include that character.

Most importantly of all: the thesaurus is your fucking best friend of all time. Fuck everyone else. The thesaurus is your god damn hero. I find “define:”ing words on google actually super helpful when trying to find synonyms that work better for me.

But that’s it! I hope you found at least a few things helpful in that word splurge of fumbling analyses. And thanks a bunch for reading my fic! It’s not super popular so it’s reassuring to know there are people out there who really enjoy it. Keeps me trying to update regularly at the very least.

#anon #deunantalks #hs #deunanrambles for fuckin days #stfudeunan #ask

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cherryonigiri · 5 years ago

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6 + a couple other questions! Where do you usually draw inspiration for your writing? If you could only keep one work of yours which would it be and why? What's a writing tip that you think every writer should know? Also, cheers to 600! Can't wait until you reach the next milestone

Mooshua darling you are an angel thank you so much, also I kinda went a bit long/rambly here but I hope you don’t mind <3

6. Describe your personality in 3 words or less

Sensitive, passionate, caring.

Sensitive - this is both a good and bad thing. I’m very sensitive/attuned to the emotions of those around me, and I will bend over backwards to make sure people feel comfortable around me or accomodate their preferences. It matters a lot to me that people don’t feel that I’m intruding and that I come off as respectful not rude. On the flipside, my close friends tell me that sometimes this makes me act like a doormat/total pushover but I’m working on trying to be more assertive/confident in myself.

Passionate: if i’m interested in something I go all in. Like either I have zero interest or I’m going to research and try to know everything I can + engage with the topic. Ex. this blog, or my love of anime/k-pop what I’m studying (history, sociology, biology). I just get so excited about these things and I just want to always know more.

Caring: I’m just genuinely invested in seeing people be happy? Like IRL or on tumblr whenever I see someone is having a rough or bad day I just feel terrible because I want them to feel good about themselves/what they’re doing. I suppose this comes out as mom instincts lmao. I. JUST. WANT. U. ALL. TO. BE. HAPPY.

Where do you usually draw inspiration for your writing?

Ummmm - usually it’s a song or piece of music or a quote. Not everything turns into a songfic but usually I’ll be listening to a song and daydreaming and a visual/idea will just come to me and I’ll write it down? Also my own dreams, bc apparently even in my sleep I SIMP for 2D men.

If you could only keep one work of yours which would it be and why?

Ummm that’s a good question. Out of my published works? Probably When and Where, just because it’s the thing I’ve poured the most into out of what’s on my blog. If we’re talking about ALL my writing, then it would have to be my cumulative paper for my history course last semester. I wrote a paper on race and medicine, and how Chinese immigration into the United States was impacted by outbreaks of the plague during the late 1800′s + early 1900′s in Hong Kong/European colonies in Southeast Asia. Like I am so proud of that damn paper I literally spent so many hours perfecting it. Also not gonna say anything, but a quote I’ve resonated a lot with is “history rarely repeats itself but often rhymes” *cough cough* N E WAYS interpret that how you will.

What's a writing tip that you think every writer should know?

Your first draft should be shitty. There I said it. Like - people think that I magically vomit out amazing prose or whatever but like my GOD if y’all read the first full draft of ‘when and where’ you would legit hate it. If you can’t think of a way to write it that works well, write the most “tell-y” sentence - just literally write down what happens and go back and fix it to make it sound flowery/angsty/pretty later. Ex. for example the quote “Because you can only see me as the finish line, not as someone who runs beside you.” was originally “y/n thinks about some kind of metaphor where she is the end goal and tooru is leaving her alone as a spectator.” Bottom line: IF YOU’RE STUCK, WRITE OUT WHAT YOU WANT THE SENTENCE TO SOUND LIKE/FEEL LIKE/COMMUNICATE AND MOVE ON. It’s so much easier to edit, revise and add on, if you have the whole thing out of paper. If your first draft bugs you that much just do a rewrite, but getting the whole plot/scene out onto a piece of paper or in a document is so so important, especially if you feel like you write slowly!

#🍒 night #alice's friends #mooshua

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kae-karo · 6 years ago

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things i’m grateful for

okay preface: i hate the reason thanksgiving was invented ofc but i do love the concept of taking a day to sit back and remind myself of the things in my life that i’m grateful for so here we go (and pls i encourage y’all to take some time and do the same) anyway feel free to read below the cut if y’all want way too much insight into my personal life lmao

my friends

without question, my experience both in the phandom and like in life in general has so massively improved thanks to these lovely people and i can’t say i’d be as happy a person as i am without them

of course my incredible gcs (jolly best friends and dickmates, “moderate sex references”, we have goldfish memories, katashen, and the gc that always changes names lmao) and the lovelies in them @thereisnobearonthisisland @philsroots @uselessphillie @daliensgrandads @severaltortillascollector @dnptrqsh @dip-and-pip-trash @transhowell @dreamdilddy @hey-itskxt @dreamdilddy @freckliephil @philsdrill @phloridas @lovestillaround @legdabs @amczingphil @phantasieslide @maanjha @manialester @sleeplessnightwithphan @phandumb @imnotinclinedtomaturity @auroraphilealis @ineverywordisay @glitterydanandphil @kerasines @workinprogress91 @merridewhoo @natigail @swissfuckingcheesegdi @phastelpink @stick-it-to-the-phan @phanarchy

my dearest friends irl with whom i never spend enough time and often bail on bc i’m tired of existing around people, but who never fail to be lovely and kind and wonderful friends anyway. i’ve known them for eight years now and i am so lucky to have found them and to still be friends with them

a very good friend of mine who taught me everything i know about customer service and just being a diligent person (she’s also literally the reason i link everything so uhh thank her lmao) who i consider my lesbian big sister and who i’ve been so so lucky to get to reconnect with and will get the opportunity to work with starting in december and who even remembered one of my fave bands like after literally two years when i only mentioned them one time i love her

my family

whomst thank fuck are not on this hellsite but i love them all dearly

my sister who’s like still figuring her life out and doing a way better job of deciding what she enjoys doing than i ever did and like she’s younger than me but it’s a constant lesson that hey look it’s good to be true to yourself and do what you want. and i’m so grateful that we don’t fight the way we used to, that we’re like partners in crime and that she actually likes spending time with me and thank god she’s not gonna see this bc she thinks i get too sappy sometimes but i gotta make up for hiding her glasses when we were younger and literally forgetting about them for two weeks okay <3

my parents who have always been steadfast supporters even when they don’t love my choices. without them, i wouldn’t be where i am today, i wouldn’t have the level of independence i do today, and honestly i wouldn’t have learned to find the strength to follow my own path. i also can’t thank them enough for supporting even when they don’t understand, like they literally do not understand dnp but my dad found out they were doing ii and asked if i would want tickets for christmas and my mom always asks about my writing

my grandma who, bless her soul, has been completely alone without my grandpa for two years now, after having been with him since she was sixteen, who reminded me (unintentionally) that people who are suffering from mental health issues (she’s had depression for years now) can so greatly benefit from having someone reach out. i’m grateful for our weekly calls where we just catch up, because sometimes i go for a year without seeing her in person (usually just for the holidays) and it’s good to know how things are going with her. i’m also eternally grateful to her for reminding me that people are just people. my parents often talk about her as if she’s some one-dimensional character who only has a handful of (negative) personality traits, and it’s nice to get to know her on my own

the rest of my extended family, who, although i’m not nearly as close to, are still always fun to see during the holidays, and i’m immensely grateful that i don’t have the kind of family that i dread seeing. there’s always entertainment, overflowing alcohol (not that i partake, but everyone else has a fuckin blast with it), and laughter and although i occasionally feel a bit outside the circle (lots of cousins getting married/in relationships/etc and uhhh can’t relate lmao) i never fail to look forward to seeing everyone

y’all

yeah ik it’s cheesy but i do really appreciate y’all so much? like. i just read this note i made to myself abt something unrelated a year ago but i’d offhand mentioned that i was so so thrilled to have almost a hundred people following me. like it just blew my mind that so many people were interested in what i had to say, in my writing at the time, etc. and now,,,,,i mean. jfc i can’t even begin to fathom what i must’ve done to deserve all of y’all, and to deserve you all being so kind. like since the minute i joined tumblr i saw/heard horror stories of mean anons, of people being rude for the sake of it, etc etc. and like. of the literal thousands of asks i’ve gotten, i can count on one hand the number of even vaguely unkind ones. it just makes me so immensely happy to know that such lovely, kind people want to participate in this blog. so please know that i appreciate the existence of every single one of you not just uwu bc u follow me and that’s what i’m supposed to say or w.e but bc you’re out here making a positive impact on the world and on me, and you’re the kind of lovely person that i’m so glad i have the pleasure of existing alongside

dnp

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ u knew it was coming, but honestly i am grateful to them as people

they set such fantastic examples for how to be good humans, constantly donating their time to good causes, reminding us to take care of ourselves, and doing their best to figure themselves out which yes is so incredibly important bc it’s this amazing example of how people aren’t any perfect shiny version of themselves, they’re real and raw and imperfect and that’s why we love them???? and by extension, that teaches us self love and love for others

that’s another thing i really didn’t realize at first - how much self-hatred i was harboring, how much internalized homophobia (toward myself! never others) and how much i just accepted about the world (heteronormativity, misogyny, the lack of diversity in media, the list goes on) and a lot of things said by both dnp and by the phandom have helped open my eyes to things like that. and dnp helped me realize that being ace isn’t a bad thing??? which was such a horrible thing i’d held onto for years and years

so i’m so grateful to dnp for existing, for being who they are and how they are and for encouraging the wonderful kindness and acceptance that they want to see in the world

my therapist

and to daniel and depression for convincing me to see one. i’ve let go of a lot of the baggage i was holding onto over the time i’ve been seeing my therapist and i’m grateful to her for, well, doing her job. and for doing it well, and for asking the questions that i didn’t think to ask, to get at things i didn’t think about before. and for reminding me (not directly, but by virtue of her existence) that honesty is one of the most important things to me

my job

or just generally the jobs i’ve had over the years that force me to interact with people, because it’s taught me that nobody’s ever angry or upset for no reason, and that people who are angry or upset and mean are not mean because they’re actually trying to be vicious but because they’re suffering in some way. so it’s a daily reminder to treat everyone with kindness and not take things personally, because ultimately most people are not intentionally vicious people. and i’m grateful to my job for reminding me how meaningful it is to me to help others

#privilegecheck

i think it’s important at this point that i stop and remind myself that i was born with a lot of privilege that makes my life immensely easy compared to others. i’m grateful for my upbringing and the ways that i’ve benefited from my privilege, but i need to acknowledge that i have benefited. not everyone is as lucky, and i need to be mindful of that in the things i do and say, and in the actions i choose to take, and - when i can - i should be using my privilege to help others

and finally, my greatest of thanks goes out to the fic writers, the gif makers, the edit makers, the phan artists, and all the other lovely people who make this community so wonderful

#thankful #kt

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taesthetes · 7 years ago

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Hey I just need to get something off my chest and idk why I’m dumping this all on u but u seem like the nicest person on tumblr that I know but if ur uncomfortable or anything pls feel free to look over this. Lately I’ve been trying to stay away from bts and the fandom bc I feel like it’s toxic for me. It’s not like where I listen to them and follow them and obsess on a religious level but I feel like I’m more occupied w them than I should be. 1/?

After all they’re all just humans who get tired and lonely and miserable and aren’t perfect, yet we idolize them and depend on them for our happiness. Of course we should support them, but it’s to the point where it’s frickin ridiculous, like nothing exists without bts, u know what I mean? 2/?

And I’m at the point of life where t depends on me to make my own decisions and make choices that will shape my future, and I really don’t want to look back and regret wasting time watching videos and thinking about things that will essentially have no impact on my life. What I like about bts is that they seem to have a deeper motive behind just simple Kpop, but I think I’ve taken that too far to an extent where it’s become my excuse. 3/?

Bts are seven people who have worked hard to deserve recognition and truly deserve it, but they’re also seven men who have separate lives from me that I have nothing to do with. They’re people that I’ve never even met and I don’t know tbh, we only see the filtered and edited sides of them. It just feels wrong to look at the packaged versions of them and expect them to live up to my expectations or fantasies. 4/?

There’s also the aspect that they’re kpop idols, as in regardless of how different and unique they may be, they’re still going to follow the formula and act like idols who are polished and made as perfect as possible. The whole industry is based on us going crazy over their looks and dance and singing and whatever, and it’s so messed up to me that we r supposed to like them for something so superficial and in genuine. 5/?

Idk if I’m making a lot of sense rn. I just don’t think it’s right of me to force them into a mold that I’ve created in my mind and then get disappointed when they don’t comply, and expect them to be something different when this whole time, even I’ve been idolizing them based on their appearance and talents. 6/?

And then there’s the fandom, filled with a variety of people from all different backgrounds, races, ages, genders, etc. and while it’s cool to have something in common with someone, I’m just tired of having army be the only thing that defines me. When I meet someone that likes bts, it’s as if I personally don’t matter, like it doesn’t matter if I killed someone as long as I like bts. 7/?

I don’t know how to phrase this … the diversity and tolerance is amazing, but at the same time, I’d like more genuine friendships than fangirling over someone’s biceps and thighs u know. Lately I’ve been kind of falling out of listening to bts and stuff, but I find myself continuously going on social media so I can keep up with them in habit, more than being interested. I deleted Twitter and unfollowed all bts accounts on insta and tumblr, but without it I feel like I’m missing something 8/?

It’s just a cycle of me trying to discipline myself, not being able to do it, and getting sick of myself for being so pathetic. Even with fanfic, ur writing for example is literally better than like an average author, but I feel so stupid to fantasize about someone without even knowing them first. I don’t have a problem with fanfic, it’s more like I have a problem with myself reading fanfics. 9/?

I know most of my problems lie with myself, not bts or the fandom, so that’s why I’ve tried to bottle it up and pass it on but it’s really making me miserable. I know going to a fanfic author who I don’t know personally may not be the best idea, so pls don’t feel pressured by this message to do anything or say something. I think writing out my feelings and venting has made me feel a little better. 10/11

So I’m really really sorry for forcing this on you, and don’t feel obligated to do anything!! Thank u for ur amazing writing like always, and have a restful and amazing day!!! 11/11

hi, honey bee, it’s totally okay to talk to me about anything you want and also, you’re incredibly sweet for thinking that i’m the nicest person on here, thank you :’) but i really understand how you feel towards the whole fandom and bts.

yes, bts are just humans who get tired and lonely and miserable and aren’t perfect, but rather than idolizing them, it’s perfectly okay to like them for who they are as people and for the music they produce. it’s okay to appreciate someone for the work they do, like how we enjoy artwork and appreciate the artist for creating them or how we like the flowers planted in the park and appreciate the gardener for planting them.

i wouldn’t say that my happiness depends completely on them, but they do make up a little part of it because their music makes me happy. and music is supposed to make you feel things. their funny videos can make you happy, and that’s okay, too. i see stanning bts as a hobby i enjoy at times, not as my only source of happiness, because there’s so much more that makes me happy, like flowers, food, art, etc. however, depending on one thing for happiness is unhealthy, so i do agree that an obsession with bts is bad. there’s nothing wrong with supporting them, but yes, having a mindset that only bts exists is unhealthy. i just found this post that better explains how stanning a group is good and bad through the psychological point of view, and it’s pretty interesting! :D

i don’t think you’re wasting time watching videos of them. if they made you happy at the time, if they made you laugh when you were sad, then it was worth it. unless you’re choosing to watch videos 24/7 and neglecting your family, friends, academics, job, health, etc. then i don’t think it’s necessarily bad that you’re watching videos. it’s like watching your favorite tv shows or playing sports. it’s just another hobby. it has an impact on your life because it makes you happier.

i do understand your concern though as you move into a new chapter of your life. personally, i’m not as into them as i once was back in high school anymore. i did spend a good deal of time writing and posting a fic about them once a week. it really changed when i went to college though since my priorities and time commitments changed. i think you might be more occupied with them when there isn’t something else to fill that aspect in your life if that makes sense? i wasn’t particularly academically simulated in high school, so i had a lot of time on my hands even after spending time with friends and doing clubs. i got into kpop because that’s something easily accessible and it’s entertaining. but with the freedom that comes with college and harder classes, my time is filled more with going out with friends, studying, painting, spending time with my roommates, etc. and bts got less of my time.

yes, bts are people with separate lives who you may never meet, but that doesn’t mean you can’t appreciate and like them for what they do. and, they might not show everything about themselves to the public, but we can learn from the good examples they do show, such as their UNICEF work and lyrics that talk about more than just romantic love. i personally think that most of what they show is genuine, but there is a line to be drawn between enjoying the work they do and believing they are gods. but yes, i do get that their personas to the public can be fake, which is a bit /: because yeah, there are people who are in love with them and dedicate their lives to them, but we really don’t know who bts actually are.

i think, rather than idolizing them, it’s better to see them as humans and as people just like us. that tends to take away any fantasies or expectations i have of them. yes, they are kpop idols, and that’s their job. they’re just working to make a living doing what they love. yes, the industry is built upon the fans, but it’s like that with any music artist or celebrity. i think it’s okay to like bts, but not to the point where your love for them surpasses the love you have for people who are actually in your life.

and you’re making sense, don’t worry! i hope my answer makes sense, too. i think every fan goes through where you’re at right now. i had felt that way about bts and exo before, but i moved on from that and now see them as people whom i appreciate. it was just a process for me, but i think it has to do with me filling my time with other things and spending time with people i thought were more important, and my love for kpop is now just something that brightens my day a bit if i ever need it.

some fans can be very… enthusiastic, but that might just be because they don’t have anyone else to talk to about bts. but yes, i get what you’re talking about. sometimes, it’s exhausting to just talk about one thing all the time and be seen as just a bts fan, and not as your own person. but even myself, i think it’s exciting to find someone else that listens to kpop since for me, there aren’t that many people around me who do. but after the initial excitement, i’ve made many friends through our mutual love for bts. as friendships grow, we talk about other interests we have and other things we like, so we don’t always talk about kpop. many of my friendships started from a mutual interest, whether it be bts or art or a mutual dislike for a teacher or class subject haha, but it grows from there as we talk about other things and get to know each other.

it’s fun to have someone to talk about comebacks and mv’s with, but yeah, i get that there’s more to talk about. maybe you can try introducing a new topic? or going out with friends who don’t listen to bts? and hey, we can be friends if you want :D you can talk to me about your day, your favorite foods, your favorite tv shows, any pets if you have them, anything else you want! i haven’t listened to bts for a while now either, i only follow their official account on instagram, and i don’t check my tumblr for days, even months during the school year. i don’t think you have to cut them out entirely to the point where you feel like something is missing. but if you are no longer interested in them, do you have any hobbies you can use to fill up that missing feeling? maybe baking or cooking? drawing? going out with friends?

and you are not pathetic!!! you don’t have to cut off something entirely at once. it takes time, but you’ll get there. and omg alsjdhflaksdhfd thank you for saying that about my writing :’) and there’s nothing wrong with reading fanfiction! please don’t feel bad for reading it. fanfictions are just like any other stories out there, except you already have a face and a name for some characters. i personally don’t read them for the idols featured; i read them because the writing is so much better and there are so many more interesting concepts involved in fics than in books i can get from the library.

and please don’t keep your feelings bottled up and be miserable ): you can always come talk to me if you ever feel this way. and if you have one, we can swap kakaotalk id’s if you want to talk since it might be easier to text that way :) or you can send in more asks! it’s always good to talk about your feelings, even if it isn’t comfortable at first. even if it’s not me who you talk to in the future, i hope you are able to share your feelings with someone else and not keep everything inside. you deserve to feel happy. and i’m happy to hear that you’re feeling a little better! you’re always welcome to vent into my inbox (or you can direct message me; i have it turned off for those i don’t follow, but if you send me an ask with your url, i can message you first, so we can talk that way, too, if you want!)

you don’t have to apologize; i’m just very glad that you’re feeling at least a little better now! i understand that there’s a struggle that comes when you’re dealing with something that’s been a part of your life for so long. your feelings are valid, and i have definitely felt this way before, and it’s always good to talk it out or have someone listening. and thank you so much for liking and reading my writing, sweetpea 💕 i hope you have a lovely and relaxing day as well! i hope you’re doing good, and you’re still feeling better today, honey bee 🌻💘

#replies #anonymous

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reprobii · 7 years ago

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Can you tell I made this header image in 5 minutes with MS Paint?

Anyway, I hit 101 followers somehow while on hiatus. I’m not back yet, but I’m in a sappy mood and wanted to appreciate all of you who have stuck with me!

I don’t want to clog everyone’s notifications, so @ everyone who’s for some reason decided this blog was worth following, I want to let you all know I’m super glad you’re here and I hope you’ll continue to enjoy my (rare) content! Even if we don’t interact, I’m always open for ooc chat or plotting. You’re all lovely and I can’t believe this many people share my love for this bratty demon child! <3

some special mentions under the cut:

@mxlignxnt I swear one day I’ll actually act on our threads and the asks from you festering in my untouched inbox. Thank you so much for having the patience to deal with me and my many absences! I can’t wait for Amelia and Sitri to bond more over... serial killers. And cookies. Many cookies. If she ever wants a bodyguard against Jackson, she knows who to summon!

@gaeuul you, friend, have the patience of a saint. thank you for following me across blogs no matter how good i am at blog hot potato. We haven’t talked but I do remember you’re super sweet and I wish I was online more to bask in your warm presence <3

@mysaldate If I ever go to Germany, I swear I’ll hit you up! I’m still jealous that you live in a CASTLE. and actual castle! but anyway thanks for the follow! If you ever decide to rp a MO character on a blog lmk! sorry I’m such a bad conversation holder! But feel free to pop in my IMs anytime!

@solomonseal We haven’t talked much since I found you like. the day I disappeared but your portrayal of Solomon is A+ and I hope to interact more in the future! Keep up the good work!

@craveii/ @goldenvelleity My gosh, you’re one of my go-to friends in rp. From makeup advice to life venting to angst/fluff plotting, I love you and Janna (and sometimes Ignes) so much! Your writing is Quality and so is your portrayal! Janna is a fabulous character and I look forward to seeing you develop her more! I’m also warming up to Ignes, but that’s thanks to you and how you keep sending me pics of her cute af outfits. Thanks for sticking around... in inactivity and in prolificness. That’s not a word.

@aevyntyri @bruciared / @vetrorosa / @aigida Did I miss any??? HROKI u are my love and I will love you across time, between the gaps of our absences. I hope you’re doing well and being happy and loving life, wherever you are! You get my angst and you’re such a good writer? I gotta lie down to recover every few paras when I read your replies like god those metaphors. what a gem. i adore your muses and you, hroki!

@kapisola / @ara-memoriae ANGST FRIEND. We really need to stop making our muses suffer. Doesn’t mean we will though. Seriously, though, you’re an A+ mun with A+ muses. Literally I randomly think about your muses throughout my days sometimes. I will defend Nero to the end of time and love Allisae enough to emcompass galaxies. I love our plots so much and I love you more <3<3 I hope life becomes as beautiful for you as you are lovely. Also you are an A+ artist. mmm those Alli sketches. what a goddess.

@occultmisfortune / @therapcn CAE another love. My student friend, I look forward to the day we can talk and not be StuDying. I go to you with my awkward stories from school, OCs, problems, and you’ve somehow decided to not block me yet. Truly, I appreciate your presence in my life, both ic and ooc! <3 I know we don’t interact on this blog but... I would feel bad if I didn’t mention you anyway!

@desiderium-eden Suzu! You are a Gem. Honestly reading your writing makes me laugh every time, without fail. Plus you’re such a talented artist! Much jealous here. Eros is... 80% of Sitri’s impulse control and I love it. Let my boy fight someone. Something. Anything.

@blasianbutterfly what an actual sweetheart! I love Sam! She is so Soft and just... ahhghfhhfh I’d patronize her bakery just to get my daily dose of positivity from her. almost as Soft and sweet as you bby

@positivepianist I don’t even think we have a thread on this blog but again, whatever, I’ll take any opportunity I can get to love on you! You are honestly one of the kindest, sweetest people I have ever had the honor of knowing. Please have more confidence in yourself! I love your writing, love your portrayal, love chatting with you! I hope you’re doing amazing!!! Take your time with activity!

@tsundere-yurio gosh, one of my oldest rp partners from wayy back when I was just peeking into the rp community. even if we both have spotty activity, I’m super grateful to you knowing that I can disappear for a few months and come back and still have our threads intact, or at least the Ship with Isa and Yurio. Your threads are easy for me to write with and honestly are such good chicken soup for my writer soul, like your prose is somehow both easy to understand and vivid and ic? Minty, you’re the genuine article! I love to write with you and look forward to future interactions ic and ooc! <3

@embersiisms jack is... a pure Soft Boi and so are you! idk how you’re so active on here. it’s incredible tbh how one can be so quality? and so prolific? Unsolved Mysteries. i don’t like cake but Sitri will eat...all the cake. all of it. he will singlehandedly keep Jack’s bakery afloat... once he decides to cooperate with me as a muse.

@yurvtchka @blue-eyes-white-kaiba idk if you’ll see this since you’re on hiatus but! i will always be appreciative to you for being one of my first rp partners too! I’m still shocked that someone so Quality is still a mutual? amazing. your icons are beautiful and so are you <3 your writing is super captivating and i hope you’re doing great wherever you are!

@cruelseraph omg, you’re such a great example of the mun is not muse mantra! your portrayal of Michael is absolutely flawless, and yet you somehow are as nice and chill as Michael is... not XD. We haven’t talked in a while but I every time I see the little green dot next to your username I hope you’re doing well! If you come back, I would love to interact again!

@diaboliktheology Val was my third try at an rp blog, and honestly I was so not confident with my portrayal of him that if it weren’t for you, idk if he would have even been a main muse, short as the duration was! I love plotting with you and just chatting ooc! I consider you my tumblr rp Mom tbh, and your writing and blog is? goals? Yui is such a darling, and it’s easy to see why you write her so well - you’re just as kind as she is! I plan to return to Val at some point... even if it’s just for the Val-Yui friendship bc that’s.... pure, good stuff right there. I love it so, so much.

@inferno-principe/ @theo-cratic / @count-glenstrae you’re a super cool person with an amazing muse! Si is so well-developed and I love his sass tbh even if Sitri doesn’t. It’s admirable that somehow you can do both very interesting prose threads... and hilarious crack ones. I’m grateful for your follow and I look forward to future interactions!

@oshikakei yuuto is a Good Boy. I love your writing and your character, he’s very well-rounded and has a lot going for him! thank you for tagging me in stuff! can’t wait for sitri to get stabbed

@amorettos your muses are A+ like they have. so Much Backstory and yet are incredibly likable despite their flaws. as a mun you’re very approachable and also I envy the SoCal life based on pics of your food. somehow you can Art AND Write? unbelievable. anyway thanks for following me across blogs and! thank you for gabe

some more special mentions to the people who have stuck around! thank you for everything! your follow means so much to me!

@electorofhell @archxviste @shatteredtoxins @thepaganking @sclbstmord @vasilciix @imey-chan @pozbilind @noxiivs @backstagebaae @sunshowxr @grand---duke @otxme @g--cnocide @dxllisms @nocturnalbun @underhisdivinity @raguel-angel-of-justice @basicallyuriel @distortedfairytaledreams @thelambsofiscariot @of-rivia @locksfate @skullcrxsher @conseille @unladylikc

#//since I'm not popular - I'll put on airs!#//ooc #*sobs* i love all of you

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lavend-ler · 7 years ago

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C, I, M, U!

C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will.

Honestly? Most of my NoTPs are just ships I’ve never liked. I’ve always hated Onc*st, Kl*nce, Pap*rhat, Wid*wTr*cer and others. All of these ships contain tropes I just despise and I can’t never get into ships like these

I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?

Oh God……….Undertale…….. I despise Undertale at this moment, I can’t stand it. Because I know it’s a good game and I have good experiences but the more I think about the fandom the more it pisses me off. It’s insufferable and I mean it. Also just some personal experiences and realizations made me really hate it

Also Steven Universe but not really the fandom but the fact that I’ve been reading a lot of criticism about certain characterizations and choices they’ve made. And it really made me see this show in other light and yeah, I don’t like it anymore

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

I would love ot be friends with Mat Sella. He just seems like the guy who would listen to you, give you advice and you’d just have the time of your life hanging out with him. Also Wendy Corduroy, cause she’s just the coolest person, spending time with her would be so great. Same with Alya Cesaire, she would be such an amazing friend!

(butit’snotlikeIwouldalsodateallofthemeventhoyouallknowthatIwouldlskjdbnkdfjl)

U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.

Once-ler - my babe, my darling, the absolute love of my life……He’s amazing. He’s just the perfect example of everything I love. I love how he’s an optimist dreamer but he has the special edge. He’s just so sarcastic and confident, I love it. I love the fact that he’s such a talented guy but not just in one thing. I love his energy and charisma, everything he says makes you appreciate him more and you’d just do anything for him. I love that he’s flawed. He’s an asshole, he’s guillible, he makes really bad decisions. I love how emotional he is. It’s a flaw sometimes but sometimes it’s such advantage. You just know that everything he does, he means from the bottom of his heart, and it’s so amazing. I love his snark and wit. Everytime you see him, all charming you can’t help but to fall in love with him. But then you realise, he’s such a huge dork. He dances all the time, he’s always humming or talking in sing-song, he’s childlish, he’s not very confident in some things about him, he’s clumsy and lanky. I love his design so much??? Fuckin kill me but I think he’s genuinely good looking, I mean hell yeah. And he’s just so pretty?? His fluffy hair and beautiful eyes and how lanky he is and how he dresses…….. And then goddamn, you think about how tragic he is and it just always breaks my heart. How the only thing he needs was a genuine love and affection and just……………How he was treated all his life? You can literally see the effects of the abuse in how he reacts and acts. This is such good writing. I think he’s just written beautifully and animated (I love how you can see all his quirks in his body language! It’s wonderful). Okay, okay, I know, it’s long as fuck and I could go on and on but really……He’s absolutely perfect for me, I love him

Raymond - oh my God……….the moment he was on screen, I fell in love. The way he was animated, his attitude, his voice, fuck, even his theme, made me fall for him instantly. He’s absolutely extra in every sense of this word. He’s just amazing in everything he does and just holy shit. You know if you’d just tell him how you adore everything in him, he’d agree, he’s so full of himself. I love it, I love his confidence and how he knows he’s just made to be perfect. I love how flamboyant he is, how he adores the evil plans, and how he has fun with everything. He knows he’s better than you, and he’s just so proud of it. But here’s a thing - he never comes off as annoying for doing so. He’s charismatic (I’ll just say, I love charismatic characters so much dsfkjbkl), he’s talented. And i love his motives so much omg. His stupid sports theme?? I swoon. The fact that he loves roses? Fuck yeah, make everything rosy. And I love his gentler moments as well, how he cares so much about his family and the things he does. I love him. I love that evil green Phinedroid with all my heart, I can’t wait to see him again

Lena “Tracer” Oxton - okay I could talk about Tadashi, but hell, I wanna talk about Tracer, my lovely wife, my whole heart. As you can imagine, I just love everything about Tracer. She’s just so lovable! She’s optimistic and nice to everyone. She just sees good in everybody and that’s amazing. But she’s never one-dimensional. I hate how fandom shallows her down, when she has so much too her. She’s optimistic, but she has her limits. I mean damn, she can insult others and be very snarky, when she wants, pfft. All she wants is to change world for the better, and she takes every chance she has. But she’s also ready to call out things she hates. She’s just so playful and makes a lot of jokes, it’s so cute. I think the beauty of her comes from the fact that she believes in good in everyone. She’s determined and is willing to work hard for her goal. When you play her, even if you don’t do as well, she encourages you to keep trying. She’s beautiful in every sense of this word, and I really really love her.

#ask #perrytheplatypusgirlmain #wow now that was long #sdfkjlbndfkjb #but you just know I can gush about my faves all I can #esp Once-ler #I mean damn.......his section is long as hell but I still have so much to say about him #I could talk hours about how I love the Once-ler and yuo all know it #thank you!#onceler #mój menszu #slam dunk #Like Sanic But British

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dreamin-of-somewhere-else · 7 years ago

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Get to Know Me ☆

I was tagged by the amazing @u-snavi, thanks for that! ♡

So this tag asks for some things that I have yet to decide if I want to address out to the public here on Tumblr. (Basically I’m just living it up in here being a bit anonymous). So yeah, might not give you a straight answer on some of them, hope that’s okay :)

1) Name: I should probably figure out an alias for myself, that’d be cool.

2) Nickname: Well, my real name is too short to really make any nicknames, but sometimes I get called Special K. My friends and I used to have this weird thing when we would call each other by our first name + the first letter of our last names. The first letter of my last name is K and then it just sort of turned into that.

3) Height: 5′10. I hate it, but at least I have some guy friends that are my height or taller and then a few girl friends that are my height, so I’m not completely alone up here.

4) Orientation: straight

5) Nationality: I’m from somewhere cold, let’s just say that. It’s currently a snow storm outside.

6) Favorite Fruit: I live for fruit, basically. Mango, pine apple, apricots, peaches, all melons, grapes, bananas (but only if they’re yellow with a bit of green) etc.

7) Favorite Season: Summer, I think. Basically because I live up north and summer has the most enjoyable temperatures, it never gets really hot here. But all seasons are beautiful imo.

8) Favorite Flower: I really like roses and forget-me-nots too @u-snavi! I also like sunflowers and peonies, but I don’t really know which one is my all time favorite flower.

9) Favorite Scent: Summer rain. Or maybe when something is freshly baked, not only because I like food, but also because I think it’s super cozy.

10) Favorite Color: Turquoise.

11) Favorite Animal: Cats? Pandas? Tigers? Dogs? Giraffes? Zebras? Mini pigs? Otters? Foxes? Hard question.

12) Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate: I’m not a huge coffee drinker, but I like some stuff. Tea and hot chocolate are both awesome, I have at least 1 cup of tea each day and hot chocolates are for when I want to spoil myself.

13) Average Sleep Hours: Weekdays maybe 5-6, weekends preferably 12-13 lol.

14) Dog or Cat Person: Cats, I think. I basically grew up with one and most of my family members have one. I like doggos too, I’m just not that used to them.

15) Favorite Fictional Characters: Sam and Dean (I literally can’t choose), Chandler (friends), Steve (Stranger things), Allison (Teen Wolf), Spencer (Pretty Little Liars), Stefan (Vampier Diaries), Charlie (Glitch), I could probably name more.

16) Number of Blankets You Sleep With: One, a fluffy one.

17) Dream Trip: I’ve fortunately traveled a lot (to a lot of the countries in Europe for example). But I would love to go on a coast to coast road trip in the US, travel to Australia, Ireland and Portugal would be cool, different places in Asia. I love traveling because you get to see new stuff, so traveling anywhere where I haven’t been (and where it’s safe) would be cool.

18) Blog Created: October 10th 2016 (that sounds so long ago).

19) Number of Followers: 2575, which is sooooo cool you guys, thank you. I don’t know why you follow me haha.

20) Random Fact: According to a personality test I did a while back, I’m 51% introverted and 49% extroverted. No wonder I’ve never really known if I was an introvert or an extrovert.

Tagging (if you want to do it): @rosie-winchester. @assbutt-still-in-hell, @super100012

#get to know me #facts about me #tag game

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azza1dlou · 4 years ago

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No I am definitely not dreaming in fact my eyes are pretty much wide open

Two I scrolled past your blog and found that you're pretty much more invested and focused on hating on larries rather than supporting Louis or the boys if you're even a one direction fan- and I think that's a bit of hilarious tbh cause like wow I knew us larries are famous but blogs dedicating themselves to us? Oof-

Three This post in anyways does not seem to have any connection regarding to you or any antis whatsoever because m speaking to my fellow larries out there so you can clearly see you're presence and your opinions were not that much of importance or needed thank you very much

Four you clearly seem to know very much about what Larry thinks of us, do u know them irl? Do u speak to them? Do u have any proof that they indeed hate larries? Pls they even follow larry accounts oops. So you think you know what they think about us huh? Well pls talk to them and send me Ss on your convo discussing about how annoying larries are- you better have them by tomorrow because if not that makes you a bit of a story teller.

Five you antis talk too much on how we label harry and louis but guess who's labeling who now? You're not lesser of a prick thank you

Six there is nothing pathetic about blue and green hearts 💙💚

It's symbolizes the ocean the sky, the forest and the grass, etc. And of course green and blue are also amazing colours of they eyes

For example like

Louis 💙

Or Harry 💚

Either way it's not pathetic at all infact it's a beautiful combination

Like for example

💙💚

Seeeeeeeeee? Told ya anygays it's so beautiful 🥺🥺 m actually really pretty awed

Seven if larries piss you off that much- it's so easy to just stay on your side of the internet love it's not hard to avoid it I mean of course here in Tumblr you're gonna stumble upon Larry posts because you're blog literally is focused on Larries so I suggest you create a new Tumblr account or just altogether change your focus of topic 🤗

Eight, everybody says that larries are what makes the one direction fandom toxic but I don't think that's true at all- yeah some larries are pretty much toxic I can sadly admit to that, but if think what makes the one direction fandom toxic is the fact that people can't seem to leave each other alone

We Directioners used to be one big family but now we got so many issues so many antis attacking larries all over again, we got ot4's attacking Zayn the things is Antis need to calm down and Larries need to stop sometimes especially if they're crossing the line and involving families and going into Livestream and constantly asking about Larry that's annoying

People are so invested in labels than just caring about the boys. Some Antis and Larries mixed will probably be friends irl but because they bling to certain kind of groups they're like no way they're dumb asf.

You're one of those people who is actually more invested in calling out larries rather than supporting and loving the boys or if you're not a 1d fan- Supporting and Loving Louis

Loui not Harry never said they hate larries, you are the one who's putting words in their mouth

Don't look down on larries and call us pathetic when our fandom is smarter than you and can make you delete your social medias and go cry to your mama, larries can be very mean and very kind at the same time.

Why can't you accept and respect the fact that people believe in different things than you do? For one is it wrong that we ship Larry? Or is it not wrong but it is to you because we are shipping LARRY?

I don't have any problems with antis not believing in Larry as I said in my last last posts I completely understand why they think so that way- but I do have a problem if antis like you can't come off their high horses and learn to shut their trap.

This is a LarryStylinson/One Direction blog for Open Minded directioners and Larries. You're opinions aren't welcomed because this blog is not dedicated and meant for you nasty people and your criticisms.

Don't bother me again and don't come at Larry blogs and attack them for believing in things you don't- don't call us pathetic too because pathetic is meant to describe you.

Now kindly fuck off my blog, I don't want you here. TPWK x

I feel like this is exactly how larry will well- "come out" I've always thought about it and well I don't really think they'll go around and say theyre gay yknow? Like a simple hug a pic, a green heart tweet or a blue heart tweet, I mean what do u guys think?

#one direction #larry stylinson #larry is real #larry is fake #reblog #tumblr #antis get off my blog #byeeeee #i dont want you people here #the disrespect smh #smh

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groundramon · 7 years ago

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🌟 Teen Titans or My Hero Academia 🌟

Teen Titans:

Character I first fell in love with: Robin was my first favorite character in the show. But between Terra and watching the middle of the Trouble in Tokyo movie and later being EXTREMELY disappointed with the bullshit “oh it was just ink so its okay!!” trick they pulled when i finally watched it all (i know i shouldnt have expected anything more from a show but….HE SHOULD STILL DEAL WITH THE RAMIFICATIONS THAT HE HAS THE /ABILITY/ TO KILL, DAMN IT. THAT’S INTERESTING CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT AND PLAYS INTO HIS CHARACTER ARC EXTREMELY WELL. FUCK THE TROUBLE IN TOKYO MOVIE [I dont hate the trouble in tokyo movie tbh but IM FOREVER ANGRY AT IT] he kinda fell from grace. He’s still one of my favorite characters though because damn, his arc in the first season is amazing enough to make up for my personal feelings about him lacking character development in other seasons. He’s also a really well-constructed version of a trope to the point where he’s actually a proper subversion of the trope, which is ironic because the very thing that makes him so great of an example of the trope done well is sticking to the trope literally (he’s the literal embodiment of a hero focused only on their job, but he’s SO focused on it that it makes him a super fascinating and complex character)

Character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Tbh Terra?? Apparently somewhere I had heard that Terra was evil or had a sneaking suspicion because when I saw her first episode had recorded I was like *squints* but then I watched it and was like “….thats not what I was expecting Terra to be like. Okay.” and then by the moonlight scene I had fallen in love. I cried like twice by the end of the episode. Have you ever been so overwhelmed with love for a character that you just cry because I have. Also Starfire, idk she really grew on me in later seasons. I could never hate her since she’s not a mean-spirited character but she did feel a little bland until she got more character development. I’m still sad she didn’t get more character development, though; I’m still really confused about her backstory and if Teen Titans ever got a reboot (a proper, serialized one) the season better fucking be about Starfire (and the Terra cliffhanger too, but still)

Character everyone loves but I don’t: Idk I like pretty much all the titans fine. My least favorite would probably be Beast Boy but I cant even say “I dont like him” because he’s got so much wonderful development and depth to him for a trope that usually pisses me off. I also probably dont like Raven as much as other people but she’s still one of my favorite characters.

Character I love but everyone else hates: TERRA yall are just spoiled with Zuko, SHE CAME FIRST U FOOLS (I could make an argument about what factors can/do contribute to the reason people hate her, some unspoken rules about fiction and others bigotry-based, but thats a post for another day and also not everyone who dislikes terra is going to dislike her for those reasons so…but tldr there’s an explanation for the common “i think she’s annoying” that stems from an actual unspoken rule about fiction so I actually in a way understand where they’re coming from)

Character I used to love but don’t any longer: I kinda already addressed Robin, but I still like him. Also Slade because in season 1 I was like “holy shit this is a badass villain, I like him a lot” but then in season 2 he made me cry. Fuck you slade

Character I would kiss: Platonically or motherly? Terra 100%

Character I want to slap: SLADE

A pairing I love: STARTERRA IS??? SO GOOD?? its my rarepair and i came up with it and its mine…other people can have it too though thats fine. Pls make my rarepair a not-rarepair. Tbh that’s the only thing I really ship in Teen Titans; anything else is a “aw that’s kinda cute”, the ship below, another rarepair I haven’t thought of yet, or a “wtf why would you ship that”

A pairing I hate: I really, really dont like BBRae. I dont know if hate is the right word because there’s nothing wrong with it, but….ghah. I dont like ships that stick a quiet kid with an “annoying”/super talkative one. Like I said there’s nothing wrong with it, please dont call BBRae abusive lmfao its not (contrary to many pairings of this nature, BB actually takes steps to rectify his mistakes when he goes too far with Raven), but I just dont like ships where one individual or both individuals find the other(s) annoying. Idk I feel bad for Raven whenever the show puts her in situations where she has to be annoyed, I’d dare say she could have some sort of sensory issues besides just being an introvert and being an introvert with sensory issues myself I can tell you that not having down time and/or being around crying children is SUPER PAINFUL. I just feel like both of them would be happier as friends and with partners that fit their personalities and temperaments more.

My Hero Academia:

Character I first fell in love with: Tsuyu, I watched BNHA mostly because of Tsuyu tbh

Character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Kirishima?? I looked at art of him before and he looked angry but he’s such a fucking sweetheart?? you’d think he’d be like conceited and angry and energetic and want to punch everything, like a less violent/cruel version of Bakugo, but he’s like the opposite?? I love him so much

Character everyone loves but I don’t: BAKUGO. I’m sorry but your screaming son pisses me off. I dont like angry characters

Character I love but everyone else hates: Tbh I dont know if anyone hates the characters I like? Kirishima is underrated though. Draw Kirishima in something outside of Bakushima you cowards.

Character I used to love but don’t any longer: Uhh I dunno? Aizawa? I thought he would be more charmingly pessimistic based on tumblr posts than he actually is, and I just found him to be needlessly cruel to his students in the show. Like there’s strict, and then there’s being a jackass to people that you have legal power over.

Character I would kiss: idk, platonically speaking I just want to comfort izuku and/or izuku’s mom tbh

Character I want to slap: Hmm sometimes I want to slap All Might for never saying what Izuku really, really needs to hear but not always. Otherwise Endeavor, hes a jackass. Also Mineta would be here but slapping is not all Mineta deserves. Mineta would enjoy being slapped by me. He doesn’t deserve that. He deserves nothing. Not even oxygen.

A pairing I love: HEY HAVE I MENTIONED HOW MUCH I LOVE DEKUSHIMA LATELY? BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE DEKUSHIMA. Honorable mentions: Tododeku, Tsuchako, The lion guy x the invisible girl (sorry too lazy to look up their names-), Iida x Deku and/or Todoroki x Iida and/or all three together and happy, and tbh Ochako and Deku is really cute too, mutual puppy love is my favorite type of overused romance tropes. It’s so innocent and pure. PS feel free to mix and match todoroki, deku, iida, and kirishima because honestly? they’re all good, esp polyamorous ships.

A pairing I hate: BAKUDEKU this one i can safely say i hate because like ?? What bakugo did is not fucking “playful teasing”?? This isn’t Klance or BBRae (which btw im tentative on Klance for the same reason as BBRare but Klance has improved in-canon a little so I’m more on-board now), the characters don’t share a mutual annoyance with each other that eventually blooms into friendship and mutual respect. From what I can tell, in the manga currently, despite being quite a ways along in the story, Bakugo still doesn’t treat Izuku well even with him mellowing down a bit, and in his current position in the anime? Bakugo is straight-up an abusor of Izuku. Making Izuku fear for his life/safety around him, regularly impeding Izuku’s own progress for no good reason, literally telling Izuku to die…is this really what yall want to romanticize?? You can say “oh but he’s nicer in my version of the ship!! uvu” but you still looked at an extremely toxic bully-victim relationship and said “hey, there’s romantic potential there!” and idk about you but I find that to be pretty bad and pretty much romanticizing abuse.

Thanks for the ask!!

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midnightmemory66 · 8 years ago

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The 11 Get To Know me Tag

i've been tagged (once again) by my wonderful friend, @eubii

thanks, sista <3

Rules: 1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. Tag 11 people

1. Do you have any kind of mental illness? nothing that i know of, honestly. my friends probably think otherwise, but no, no metal illnesses :>

2. How did you find tumblr? oh d0000d, i actually have no idea.. i guess i saw tumblr posts someplace like we <3 it and i thought it was interesting so i joined and i have been hooked ever since

3. Pineapple on pizza or not? YES!!! DEFINITELY!!! IF THERE IS ONE USE FOR PINEAPPLES, IT'S TO PUT THEM ON PIZZAS

4. Best place to be? dunno man, wherever i'm comfortable i guess? sometimes it's my bed, sometimes it's outside, it differs really. but i guess if i had to choose one place, it would be my home <3

5. Do you write? i try to, yes, but i'm really bad at it and i don't usually finish anything so yeah, there's that..

6. What makes you happy? oh, that's a good one ^u^

one thing for sure is music. i don't think there's even a word that woukld describe how happy music makes me. probably like solid 45% if my happiness is music. other 45% is my girlfriend, she makes me super duper happy and is just as important for my overall happiness as music. the rest are just things such as friends, books, art (even tho really shitty) and other stuff

7. What was your first fandom? damn, actually not sure at all.. i guess you could say the one direction fandom? if we're talking like "proper" fandoms, that is. but i actually consider my first fandom the supernatural fandom, so that counts as well, hopefully

8. What was the first band you were fan of? man, that might actually be the jonas brothers.. i mean, i basically grew up on disney, so it would make sense

9. Did you ever do something that made you think all of your friends hated you? happens to me all the time, tbh. like.. whether it's saying something wrong or doing something disappointing and such. it sucks, but yeah..

10. What are you afraid of? life

11. Thunderstorms or Sunshine? thunderstorm. even though i love those kinda aesthetic sunny photos, grey, gloomy days with thunders and lightning bolts are my favorite as they represent my life and soul

12. God or the devil? neither? i guess? is that an option? well, it is now

13. TCC (teacher crush community) or TCC (true crime community): What do you think of the relationship between them? whut? i'm sorry i have no idea what that is, and to be quite honest, neither sounds like something i'd be exactly interested in

14. Rain or thunderstorm? both at the same time <3 but i will have to go with rain, if i'm not walking to school at the time, that is :D

15. Love+hate or complete boredom, but without hate? totally love+hate. i can't stand boredom and it wouldn't be fun without hate anyways

16. A war for the right moral or no war but a bad government? as much as i hate wars and shit.. i don't think it's a good idea to have a shitty government. plus, if the war actually did lead to better morals, that would be amazing, so i would take risk

17. Nietzsche or Kant? i only know nietzsche, so i can't really compare, but i do like nietzsche so i'm just gonna say him

18. MBTI or Hogwarts House test? i love, love, LOVE, both, but sadly, hogwarts have to go. the thing is, the hogwarts house test is very limited and doesn't really tell you much about you as a person, whereas mbti tests are divided into much more smaller groups that really tell you things about your own self, some that you wouln't exactly expect yourself to have, but do end up relating to most of the time, and that's the main reason why i'm choosing mbti tests

19. Swearing or puns? generally speaking, i like puns more, but i use swear words more. most of the time because my language is dumb and isn't exactly.. suitable for making puns. PRAISE ENGLISH AMEN

20. Psychopathy or sociopathy? probably sociopathy, since it's way less harmful than psychopathy, for the most part. i do enjoy fictional psychopaths though, for example our lovely teacher, jeffershit <3

21. Family or friends? somehow, i have a bettter relationship with my friends (?) i dunno why, i just feel way more comfortable around them when it comes to really personal stuff and that's one of the main reasons why i'm choosing friends over family

22. Sheriarty or Destiel? DESTIEL!!!!! I'M SORRY ERBI, BUT DESTIEL IS JUST MY THANG

23. What is your biggest obsession right now? (Whether a book, song, character, could be anything really!)

currently, i have to say life is strange is my obsession <3

24. Would you say you’re more lawful or chaotic? (according to moral alignment)

i'm a true neutral ^u^

25. Recommend us one song you love!

oh, calamity! by all time low. that song is literally my most favorite song by them and it means a lot to me

26. How do you feel about “more colour more pride” ? (see:https://morecolormorepride.com/)

well, i guess they meant well, but i share the opinion that lgbtq+ should stand for every single member of this community, no matter their race, and i think that if they really wanted to make everything even, they should have added a color for all the races, not just black and brown color (wow, a white is speaking, could you believe that?) okay, no, let's just keep the original pride flag and no one will get hurt

27. Would you say you’re more dominant or submissive? Generally speaking.

i consider myself a fairly submissive person, though i do not mind taking the dominant role

28. What is that one character quality you look for in others?

the ability to listen when i ramble and help when i need it

29. What is that one character quality that repels you?

rudeness and being mean in general. i can't stand that

30. Which language would you love to learn?

ALL THE LANGUAGES!!! but maybe korean? it's a really interesting language, plus i'd love to understang songs without needing captions xD

31. “I wish I were more…”, fill in the gap!

smart, pretty, skinny, talented, likeable, funny, intelligent, useful, more of a better daughter, you name it

32. “I wish I were less…”

stupid, me, emotional, shitty, useless, ugly, alive (sometimes)

33. Write a short message to whoever comes to your mind, you don’t have to address them, just write what would you want to tell them! :)

hi. i guess you will know who you are, you are actually two people i adress this to. thank you. honestly, thank you so freaking much, for what you do for me. thank you for listening to my rants, making me feel somehow better about myself, assuring me people care about me, that what i feel isn't all bad and hopeless, thank you for that. thank you <3

now it's my turn for to write eleven more q's

here goes

1. if you could go back in time and change one moment in your life, would you?

2. do you like popcorn? if yes, what kind is your favorite?

3. which fictional character would you like to spend a day with?

4. you have been offered a lifetime supply of your favorite thing, whatever it is, but you would have to give up one of your most precious memories. what would you do?

5. are you afraid of the dark?

6. have you ever experienced deja vu? what was your reaction?

7. do you like sarcasm?

8. what personality trait would you change about yourself?

9. is there a song you would just send to hell and destroy it forever?

10. have you ever been caught cheating on a test/exam?

11. are you more like your dad or your mom?

again, thank you erbi for tagging me ;>

and as i certainly don't have eleven people to tag, i will just tag anyone who is interested in joining me on this wonderful journey this tag is <3

i would never forget to tag my lovely mom though, right @ayo-jin ?

#GetToKnowMeTag #tag #qanda #g and a

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eubii · 8 years ago

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Music Tag!

Another personal tag coming your way! This time about one of my (and I’m sure that other’s as well) biggest passion - music. This topic is really something that I couldn’t resist even if I wanted to. Thanks a lot @midnightmemory66 for tagging me! ♥

Rules: Just add 5 questions of your own if you wanna

1. Who is your favourite artist right now? Thanks to a lovely post on tumblr I tried to listen to K. Flay’s High Enough and right now I’m on a total K. Flay marathon! Even though High Enough is not her usual style her usual style is absolutely amazing! Love her raw lyrics, love her rudeness and honesty, love her voice, love her uniqueness. I’ve been trying to listen to every song of hers available on the internet. Highly recommend. You won't regret it!

2. Who is your favourite artist of all times? I want to say Lana Del Rey as much as I want to say twenty one pilots. Really can’t decide on this one. Love them both little too much! I’m going to probably choose twenty one pilots, since I know every single song by them and there’s none I don’t like.

3. Genre you absolutely despise? I can listen to pretty much everything! If the song is interesting and not boring then I really don’t mind the genre. bUT I don’t like the heavy dubstep. That just sounds like awful harmonizing of instruments. No real melody, no real lyrics - I simply can not count that for music. For a better image of what I’m talking about I think that Turn Me Off by Black Lions is the prime example.

4. Genre you love? I love indie! Some people will debate that it’s not really a “genre” and honestly I can agree but it’s definitely not the same as the usual mainstream music. Instead of genre I’d say like “type of music” or “type of interprets”. I love almost everything indie. The only band I can’t really get into are The 1975. Maybe that’ll change with time! :)

5. First song you learned by heart? Look... I’ve been thinking about this a LOT and I just can’t remember. Whatever answer I’ll give will end up being the wrong one. So I’m just going to answer the first song I learned on piano and that would be “Chválím Tě Země má” (=I praise you Earth mine) - it’s a Czech song and I still have weak spot for it ♥

6. First song you learned by heart in foreign language? Oh God... Well... If we won’t count those songs in English textbooks then it’d probably be Bad Romance by Lady GaGa (I’m certain everyone knows that song). I remember understanding like one word from the whole lyrics (”ugly” if you want to know) and then I was like ‘wOW One day I’ll be able to understand the whole lyrics that’d be so cool!’ and so I kind of decided on learning them even though I understood nothing! And the most crazy part is that I learned it :D That song still fits (almost) all of my otps so, my inner shipper was showing off at so young age.

7. Your favourite lyrics? I want to get a tattoo of my favourite lyrics one day (hopefully!). And I can’t really decide which I like more so I’m going to give you both: “After all only so much we can say, words can lose their meaning once you walk away.” - Hollywood Undead - Lion “No one else is dealing with your demons meaning maybe defeating them could be the beginning of your meaning, friend.” - twenty one pilots - Kitchen Sink

8. Favourite song? This. Question. Should. Be. Illegal. It’s extremely hard to choose only one song bUT Kitchen Sink by twenty one pilots gives me that feeling like no other song and I definitely have the deepest connection with it.

9. What does music mean to you? Honestly music means everything to me. I know that everyone seems to think that people are exeggerating when they say that music is their life but to be fair I can agree with that statement. Music is incredibly powerful, I’m certain that the way you feel can be effected by music and it can be hugely effected. Speaking for myself I’d describe music as a sort of my own room. Especially when I listen to it with headphones. I’m an absolute dreamer so it doesn’t give me any hard time to forget my surrondingq and with music on it’s even easier. Now, I don’t know what do you imagine under “forget your surrondings” but with me is it exactly what it sounds like. I can forget where I’m, who’s there with me. It gets super emberrassing sometimes because I can just lip-sync in a subway full of people or I can dramatically spread my arms to the tune while walking down a crowded sidewalk. Music seems to consume all of the outside noises. I don’t see world the same when I look out of my window with no music and with music on. Suddenly it’s like even the slightest shaking of the leave makes the biggest sense and falls completely in sync with everything else. Music is my comfort zone. You could put me basically everywhere as long as I’ll have my heaphones I’d survive everything. There are probably not things I won’t do, there are just things I won’t do without music. I’m certain that I could even bungee-jump if I could detach my feet of the ground with the rythm of a song. Music is really like a little room. I can close the doors, I can leave them open, I can close all the windows and let the breeze flow into the room, breathe it in, let the gentle sound fill my chest and clear my head, I can let people in or I can just close isolate myself and let no one walk through. I do not leave my house without my headphones, I do not pause song even for one second while outside if I’m alone. I need people to talk to me and if there are no people then I need music to whisper in my ear. Anything but silence. There are songs which I can really feel in my heart, soul. There are songs which make my heart beat into the rhytm, let my lungs fill and deflate into the rhytm and I just can’t stay still while listening to a song. There are just so many things the tune makes me feel that I need to express them in anyway possible, whether grimacing or dancing or simply gently stomping my foot. Also music is the main (and only) source of inspiration for me. Every single thing I wrote has it’s origin in a song.

10. Song you don’t relate to at all but you still listen to it? I think that there are plenty of them but the first one I can think of is Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time by P!ATD. I have an alcohol intolerance, I’ve never done drugs (and I don’t plan on doing them), I despise parties and partying in general and yet here I’m singing “Champagne! Cocaine! Gasoline!” at the top of my lungs ;))

11. The most depressing song you know? That question gave me some hard time! There are so many candidates but in the end I decided on: Suicide Note by Johnette Napolitano. To show you why, here are some lyrics: “ I wanted to believe As I watched your world Crumble in your hands (...) I wanted to believe You would win The war in your head That I did not understand” Yet another song I know thanks to tumblr.♥

12. The happiest song you know? Oh my God and I complained about the most depressing one, silly me. Song which makes me incredibly happy all the time is High by Young Rising Son. But song with absolutely pure lyrics, liberating, reconciling, self-caring is Fear And Loathing by Marina and The Diamonds. “Now the time is here Baby you don't have to live your life in fear And the sky is clear, is clear of fear “

13. The song of your childhood? That one was the hardest so far!! All the czech songs aside. In the end I’m going to say I Like It by Enrique Iglesias and Pitbull. Please keep in mind that I’m not a native speaker so I really didn’t understand the lyrics and I wasn’t aware that I’m singing about cheating on your partner :’). This song was like mine and my friends anthem. We played it in my friend’s dad’s car at the full volume. Passing by drivers had to love us.

14. Song that reminds you of part of your life and what part of your life is it? I wanted to answer Ferari by The Neighbourhood because the first notes fill me with the exact emotion I was feeling when hearing it the first time live. I can clearly hear the screams of the fans just before the band got on the stage, no matter how many times I’ve already played it. But I’m going to go with Swimming Pools by Troye Sivan. About like month ago it just started playing in my headphones when I was in a tram and it was like an absolute trip to past to August of summer 2016 and September as well. I haven’t got the best memories asociated with this song but that doesn’t mean I don’t love the tune to the core. I could never hate anything by Troye to be honest!

And I’m adding:

1. Recommend us one song!

2. Do you or did you play any instrument? If so, which was/is it?

3. Artist(s if it’s a band) you haven’t seen live yet and you’d love to see them live?

4. One song you relate to the most? ( Currently or all the time - your pick :) )

5. Shuffle your music library and put the first song here:

Tagging: @deduction-of-sherlockholmes ; @harrisonatemyapplescruffs ; @mylockedforgood ; @morporkianhobbit (thanks for liking my blog omg! ♥ ;u;) ; @eislinn ; @babyboy-tyler ; @scarrlet-raven Hope you guys don’t mind getting tagged! And everyone else who feels like doing the tag then consider yourself tagged! I’d love to read everything about everyone’s taste in music :)!

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