#this is what happens when we (aroace) get an interest in figuring out wtf the Attraction Deal is btw. we have much knowledge

[mantisgodsdomain]

Ok we realize we just wrote like a whole tag essay about this but we just realized that we can pare it down to "either no or no but in a way where people probably still talk about thinking theyre hot anyways".

[aurorae-system]

self-imposed ask game question answering as a system exercise!

Answering ones we know we have an immediate answer to. I'll probably challenge myself to answer harder ones sometime soon :] ~

3. How do you figure out who you are in the moment?

Usually we do something or react to something in a way where we're like "Haha [alter] would totally do that" ... "wait a minute—". then we try to Feel Our Vibe to confirm it. sometimes we can, sometimes we can't.

7. What’s sexuality like for you? Does having multiple parts affect your relationships?

It's a fucking mess </3. We don't have nor have we actually ever had a romantic relationship, but it's certainly made crushes and pining extremely difficult to navigate.

Some of us love the idea of romance. Some of us are neutral about it. Some of us hate romance and think it's stupid/fake/etc. Then some of us like exclusively men. While some of us are bi. Some are aroace. Some are aro w/ sexual attraction. Some are ace w/ romantic attraction. Some have no idea and don't care.

And before we were aware of the system, this made romantic endeavors practically impossible. Oh I really like this guy... Ew no I don't?! Love is a lie, I'm never getting involved with romance. Love is what makes the world go round, I need a partner!!! Man, that girl is really attractive. Yeah I just can't see myself ever being attracted or being interested in women. It's never happened, soooo. And so on lmao.

12. Do any of your parts have special relationships with eachother? Would you like to share about some?

Yep! We have two littles who are twins, and then they also have a little sibling! So 3 of our littles are family. That's the only relationship/connection any of our alters have with one another that we are aware of.

13. Do you have parts that oppose eachother? (In views, personality, ect)

Oh god yes. Honestly that's what kinda got us to start questioning being a system. We'd share an opinion with friends, or make some type of comment on something. Then later (sometimes even that same day lmao) look back and go "Huh? Why did I say that... I don't think that. Like at all. Wtf...?" We could still remember doing it, but it was like... It didn't feel like "I" had said that. I had just chalked it up to BPD for awhile until I finally had more Realizations, lol.

14. Who’s the part that is most likely to deal with high-stress situations first?

Hmm... either Nine or Locke, probably. Though it depends what the stressor is/what happened. Because Night gets triggered to front usually whenever the stress is specifically someone doing something that violates our boundaries, values, self-respect, etc. Which does happen in this house often lmao.

While Nine is our primary protector and fronts in either more general stressful events or events where it wasn't super interpersonally sensitive. Though he almost always handles interpersonal arguments and assertive communication.

Locke is kinda... tbh don't really know what his deal is exactly. He seems to front when we really need to not be emotionally there At All. His emotions are very dull, but they're still there. He's just calm and regulated. It's extremely difficult to rile him up. This seems to happen in stressful situations where no action on our part is needed. We don't need to actively protect ourselves because we either won't need to at all or don't need to yet.

18. Are there any reoccurring themes or symbolism in your system? Would you like to share about it?

The only one I can think of is wearing earrings KDJNSJD. Like, almost every teen and up alter has earrings, even (or especially) the guys. Does kinda make sense personally. For some reason as a kid I just... really loved the idea of earrings and getting my ears pierced. But I never could.

25. Do you know what your parts look like? If so, how do you visualize them?

Most of them, yeah. Usually it starts out, upon discovery, getting flashing images in my head on a few main physical characteristics. Typically hair color, vague hairstyle, and a facial expression. Then I try to focus on that to get a clearer image and/or acquire more details on other parts of their appearance. Lastly, I go to picrew and just kinda trial and error the rest. Try and let them tell me what to pick or otherwise push me in the correct directions. Then if they eventually front, it may get refined by them.

27. Has anyone ever told you something you did or said without you knowing?

YEAH LOL. It hasn't happened too many times, but it's happened. Typically it's about sometime in the relative past, though.

I always thought I had a really good memory, and to my knowledge I did. I always shocked people with remembering minor things in surprising detail. And I never had any trouble with memorization when it came to assessments in school. I liked to refer to my memory growing up as "semi photographic". I could study a piece of paper, say a page from a study guide, for a few minutes and I'd have it memorized. I could visualize it in my head and read it from that visualization with very high accuracy. I could remember and recall things I heard, or parts of them, almost exactly word-for-word. But it didn't seem to be 100% on par with how photographic memory was usually described.

So when someone referenced something I supposedly did, like, 6 months–a year ago, and I can't remember ANYTHING about what they're talking about, it was very unnerving. Something that many others also very clearly remember me doing. Sometimes I would think they're messing with me if it was just one person. Like yeah right. If I have no memory whatsoever of doing that, I obviously didn't actually do it. I of all people would surely remember.

29. How many known parts do you have, if you can count?

As of 1/1/23, I am aware of 18 alters, not including me.

Because uh... I honest to god do not know if whoever I am is the host, or if maybe "I'm" just the persona we've masked as for like almost a decade now. Like a bow on a present, if that makes any sense. Am I [Host]? Or am I an already known (or unknown) alter masking and just using the name we've gone by for 8+ years now?? No idea!!

[rainbowgod666]

(Loud pop)

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Lumine & Aether: (HAREM INTENSIFIES)

Childe: definetively bi. But would choose lumine if they could. AETHER MURDERHOBO ONII-CHAN CANON.

Venti: dont fucking ask how he tamed dvalin.

Ei/raiden shogun/raiden shotgun/baal/etc.: yae miko turned her gay lol 🥰

Yae Miko: CHAOTIC PANSEXUAL (kinda like my self-insert oc, but without the surprisingly high libido) (yeet)

Bennet: soft boi. Also probably in a (very gay honestly) relationship with razor. Yes its the tenderest sweetest thing ever and iT MELTS MY POOR HEART

Razor: he puts "wolf" while wagging his tail a lot looking at you like ⁰^⁰. Look at him hes SO CUTE. AND HES A STAND USER. LOOK AT HIMMM

Albedo: now that i think about it, they're probably aroace, and i mean in the "is not interested but not even against it. Hes too busy doing something else to be horny" way. Also they 100% have autism: Fear of destroying a country if they lose control? Isolationist but craves contact? Is basically W.D.Gaster?? DRAWING SKILLS??? Boi in italy you would have bonuses granted by Law 104 i tell you (yes that law is a massive meme here and i LOVE IT)

Kaeya: just really flamboyant. Ironic considering his Cryo element

Diluc: a mystery i tell you. Dude looks like he doesnt care. Heck does he even KNOW about gender identities??? Cause i know that he will respect pronouns and whatnot, since hes more worried about you paying

Zhongli: maybe gay???????questionmark? He just rambles way too long about the past (and that osmanthus wine thing was A ONE TIME THING and its still a meme) (leave his old arse alone fr)

Hu-Tao: trust me. Once shes done with you you will understand WHY she runs a funeral parlor. Girl is wacky i tell you

Scaramouche: aside from the VERY FUNNY HAHA "WE ARE NOT REFERENCING QUEEN IN ANY WAY SO NOW HES HYDRO LMAO" SITUATIOn hes in. I think hes the "im whatever gender makes you gay" thing. Which is funny because the INSTANT he isnt full topping he LOSES IT. Like dude wtf aether is still confused as to the noises you made that one time. What the fuck. Its somehow more bearable when youre insufferably smug cause THAT has meaning at least

Collei: amber

Amber: collei

Yes i ship them. Its yuri and its lovely.

Also collei straight up called inazuma cringe. Like holy shit girl you are too based

Fischl: okay "prinzesshit der götterfuckerung" can yOU PLEASE GET TO THE FUCKIGN POINT YOU WATERED-DOWN BETTER VERSION OF ASUKA EVANGELION?

Candace: CANDACE DI-

Thoma: straight and doesnt hate. If anything hes the matchmaker!

Yoimiya: too busy recreating the new years eve in naples every time something even REMOTELY worth celebrating happens. But honestly i dont think she would mind the gender (AKA: neither aro or ace, just really, really, REALLY fucking busy)

Ganyu: n ö p ü l l t ö d ä y . . .

SuSbedo: has definetively "fooled around" with the original. Which hey, now Albedo knows why people love his hair: they really are really soft and fluffy

Paimon: at least ONCE she fantasized about both aether and lumine. And when she figured out what people mean with "eating out"... apriti cielo as we say here in italy

Arlecchino: too ashamed from when I called them "undertale AU looking ass". IT WAS A COMPLIMENT DUDE YO ASS CRAWLED OUT FROM @jakei95'S XTALE AND YOU STARTED SLAYING CMON DUDE I DONT EVEN HAVE GENSHIN IM SO SORRY

Furina: has definetively fantasized about their personalities. Good lord girl get a life 😐🙏

Cloud Retainer: way too many people are attracted to her, she aro and probably ace because, well. She Literally Asks Wtf Is Wrong With You. STOP BARKING-

Baizhu: gay, but in a "orochimaru in boruto" way. On that note, they would be friends (baizhu didnt commit warcrimes but hey, snek fren :3)

Kazuha: trust me, he has been r i d i n g the canadian aether joke without the canadian and the joke lololol for a long time coming

Lyney: hes trying so hard to rizz the player up its unreeeeeal🤣🤣🤣 dude we get it you wanna fuck aether and SO DOES 90% OF THE FUCKING CAST

Lynnette: same, but shyer and for lumine. Also everyone really w a n t her

Beidou: has made girls realize they're gay WAY TOO MANY TIMES FR. She wouldnt mind a girl herself tho

Barbara: girl has Idol Problems. Like she doesnt get it at first and is like "THE FUCKIGN STATUE IS RIGHT THERE YOU (insert swearing) (on that note, get her away from alcohol holy shit how can such a cute thing repress so much ANGER and VIOLENCE)" but then she gets ir and is like "Ooooh... now i get it. Shit"

Rosaria: shes probably the reason why Girls In Nun-like Drip is a thing in r34. Fr girl 🙄

Tighnari: uh oh! Its the Internalized Homophobia~ (gay but will always deny it)

Chongyun: needs to control emotions or else he explodes

Xingqiu: the thing that makes chongyun explode (and hes way smaller than chongyun ifyouknowhatimean( ͡° ω ͡°))

KoKomi: so many KoK jokes like holy shit. Anyways if any girl were to have a schlong its her, beidou, or...

Ningguang: old wina aunt that just wants to lay down (on someone lol) (yeah she has loneliness problems)

Aloy: (gestures to the entirety of horizon zero dawn) do i even have to say anything?

Eula: wants vengeance

uhhh hcs for sucrose bennett and noelle?

ooh okay lets go

sucrose, lithosexual recipromantic demigirl (she/it)

bennett, aroflux homoflexible transmasc genderfluid (he/they)

noelle, pan lithoaroace cis (she/her)

wbu

[eddy1895]

Y'all nobody cares but I kinda literally just figured out (which it should have made sense especially since my friends come to ME specifically asking about names of lgbtq labels and identities so they can figure themselves out) but I think I'm aroace. I had a long term boyfriend and I loved him to bits like I loved him I just.. it just didn't click with more physical stuff I just didn't get it. I was very confused as to why I just wasn't there (if that makes sense.) I've been reflecting on the relationship since we've been broken up for a bit now and I've realized. I'm just aro. Literally after ALL this time. Like before I knew what aro was back in the day I just didn't experience things my peers did. I was certainly aro then. And after being so confused I just figured it out. I'm certainly aro now! Like yeah I have been interested in people before but it's never been as strong. I just I loved my partners when I was with them but it was just incorrect?? Idk. I just didn't have as much passion for more touchy stuff. Like shit would happen and I felt like cool can we watch Jacksepticeye's playthrough of undertale again?

Idk it's just kinda nice. Understanding wtf is wrong with me. Not saying that aroaces have something wrong with them. It's just I felt so different idk...