#this is the only time ive gotten the appeal of yaoi

[apokalyptiskgengangare]

@fryken this is your sort a thing

A moment ago, I stumbled upon a most amazing phenomenon. Something so incredible, I mistrust my own judgment. Look.

DRACULA 1931 — dir. Tod Browning

[dandeland]

TL;DR: i’m going to drop all of the billford reblogs ive been too scared to make over the years, block #triangle divorce if you don’t want to see it, peace and love.

You know, from early days of fandom harassment over billford, i’ve gotten into the habit of, rather then reblogging billford posts to call attention to myself, liking them and then saving them to my drafts so i can enjoy my collection without anyone judging me. This has been going on for a LONG time, and by now i have a MASSIVE hoard of billford art and memes and posts that i’ve just… been holding on to? And i’m starting to feel like i should maybe try catering my blog a little more to myself then to people willing to block me over toxic old man yaoi.

It’s been WILD seeing billford trend number one for MULTIPLE WEEKS IN A ROW, especially when nobody is even acknowledging the whole ‘portrayal is romanticization’ thing that was the common view of top gravity falls artists for…. Years? Even with the revival, i’m STILL just adding things to my hoard rather then reblogging them. It’s hard not to get over the fear of judgement.

But i’ve realized that this is my blog, and i get to choose the post, and maybe being disliked by a couple of strangers on the internet won’t kill me. So, as a birthday gift, i have decided that I will open the billford vault. I am cueing up every post to release at the exact same second. I will not tell you when it will be. Could be tonight, could be next month. I’ll only make sure its when you least expect it.

You can, however, be safe from the Hoard by blocking the #triangle divorce tag, if you don’t like the ship for any reason (all valid!!!) or if you just don’t want to see it for whatever reason its fine!

Im gonna be rbing billford normally after this but ill always use that tag. Also if you are a minor and you follow me and you haven’t already PLEASE block the #18+ tag. And i’ll try to put #cw abuse on anything that portrays the more psychological horror art in case its triggering. Either way i’m totally cool with whatever you do or don’t engage with, i’m doing this for me and to face my own anxieties and i totally get that what i like is not for anyone!

Obligatory no i don’t ship it because i think they could be ‘wholesome’, yes i know its abusive, yes i think its one of the realist portrayals of an abusive relationship in media and that is the appeal. I don’t ‘ship’ things because i think characters should be together, romance doesnt even really appeal to me, mainly for arospec reasons. i like ships for Angst, Horror, and Crack, and billford has all of the above. It’s one of the only ships i care about in any fandom. I don’t think it should be treated any differently then normal horror. And i also love ford’s recovery from bill arc and learning to move on more than anything.

[noxiatoxia]

Ummm first of all can I just say how much I fucking love your blog??? Ur brand of ouran themed bullshittery is ✨✨ immaculate ✨✨ and it's harboring empty space in my brain like a stolen jewel stg. also it is so fucking cool to see a fellow hikakao shipper out there in their morning glory like I just fucking shdudjdenkskaanhsuehdbn.. i've recently gotten back into my old ouran obsession and looking around the hikakao portion of the fandom all I see are a couple of tumbleweeds out of my peripheral rolling across a long since vacated dirt road like what the fuck its so hard to find people as in love with these characters as I am and I NEED to talk to any person ever about it or I will go insane. I just??? Have so many thoughts and feelings??? And I have a shit ton of aus and theories and monologues if you're interested :)

sidenote, but I also wanted to say that I LOVE your art style!! I love how simplistic but recognizable it is? It's hard to explain but it's just so visually appealing because it's detailed in all the right ways like seriously it's great :)) I need art tips so bad rn and ur stuff is straight BITCHIN like you can anatomy?? Hoowwww?? :'''))))

Anyway ur blog is basically the musical doodle ear worm to me except instead all I can hear is the shissou beginning guitar riff

THIS IS SO FUCKING NICE....THANK YOU!!!!!!

It's actually really interesting how many people have come to me about this, about being one of the Only active ouran posters esp hikakao. and like. im honored. hikakao is like the grandfather of twincest and i am so honored to carry the torch forward. yes i am 2 decades late to the party but hey i am with every fandom. and i like it that way tbh, i like being in a small fandom and just making connections with other people who share the same intense passion as i do with a goofy series. so ur message means a lot!!

ALSO YES I'D LOVE TO HEAR YOUR HIKAKAO THOUGHTS OR GENERAL OURAN THOUGHTS THEY OCCUPY MY BRAIN 24/7 PLEASE......PLEEEEASE.....

LIKE. there are SO little hikakao content and tbh theres barely ouran content IN GENERAL and when there is its tamaharu which FAIR I UNDERSTAND WHY i love those funky dudes but....gimmie our roots. i wanna see hikakao and hanimori. TAMAHIKAKAO??? everyone sleeps on that ship. i know most people wont do the two former bc #incest and its not 2007 deviantart anymore but i will not back down. i am in the yaoi war fighting on the side of unhealthy codependency.

also i'm siper thrilled you like my art!!! that's very flattering you find my art style recognizable! anatomy is hard that is for fuckin sure and tbh ive been drawing my whole life, so a lot of it just comes with time. i can give you some tips if you'd like, but really, everyone is different. every artist learns differently, draws differently, and there's no one correct way to draw a picture.

something that really helped me get better at art is to make an "art inspo" folder on your phone, laptop, or a discord channel in a priv server. when you come accross art you really like or find useful to study, save it. maybe you like the style, or how the colors blend, or how an expression was drawn. maybe the artist drew a really good arm or a difficult pose. save the art and study it and learn from it. this helps me immensely personally as i am a very visual person. i learn best by doing, second best by seeing stuff visually laid out in front of me. im sure youll nail it one day!!!!