#this is the only art ive shared here please be nice

[ignoretheaceinthecorner]

The fish man has my brain in a vice grip

Rambles under cut lol

I never thought I'd get so attached to a roblox game in my life, it's literally the only one I play

I AM AFRAID OF THE OCEAN AND SEA MONSTERS AND I DOWNLOADED THE SEA MONSTERS TRY TO KILL YOU UNDERWATER GAME

It doesn't scare me anymore (the game, the ocean definitely still scares me) but for a while I would need someone even to just be in a call bc I'm a lil baby.

My favorite designs/characters are Seb, Eyefestation, and the Void Lockers! Might draw them too if I feel up to it

Very fun though, if you've been thinking about playing, this is your sign. Play the fish game. Get shot by Sebastian after trudging through 50 doors bc you wanted to annoy him, it's fun! They give you an achievement. He makes fun of you when you die, the spite drives you onwards!

This might out my tumblr since I've posted this elsewhere too lol

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm in the middle of a knitting project right fucking now, and I'm already looking at other projects to do. I'm not even close to finishing the current project and I'm looking at like three others. It's a real problem

[osiiiris]

Ghost Fanfic and Fanart Masterlist

✶ You can find all my profiles and activities related to Ghost in this Linktree.

🚫 Requests closed 🚫

A few but easy dos and don’ts:

Can I use your art as a phone/tablet/pc wallpaper? Yes, no need to ask.

Can I repost your art in another platform? Yes ONLY IF you ask first and properly credit me.

Can I use your art as a logo/merch/cover for my personal projects? It depends, but it is mandatory to ask and discuss it with me, so we can find the best solution for both.

Can I write a fic or create an art inspired by your works? Yes of course, if you ask first, properly credit me and share it with me because I’d really love to see your creations 🥰

Can I tag you in something I have done and I’d like you to see? Yes of course, I’d love that, no need to ask, just tag me or send in DMS/askbox :)

Can I ask for a commission? I don’t do commissions. Everything I do is available for free (unless you want to buy physical merchandise on my Redbubble shop). I occasionally do free requests from asks, but I am currently off for that. I only do requests for my close mutuals for now. Check the requests status on top of this post.

Asks are always welcomed, likes are always nice, reblogs are beloved, and comments makes me very very happy. Please, don’t be shy 😌

Now, here is what I write and draw about:

✶ Papa Emeritus III

IYRIN - Terzo x OC [Multi chapter COMPLETE]

An Angel in human form gets kidnapped and brought to the Ministry by a group of drunk Ghouls. Papa Emeritus III is summoned to solve the delicate situation and avoid a diplomatic incident with God, but things take an interesting turn. Chapters: 10 + 1

>>>> Wattpad | AO3

South of Heaven - Terzo x OC [IYRIN spin off - COMPELETE]

A group of rival satanists attacks the Ministry. Iyrin, now a fallen Angel, is struggling with their new demonic condition, and things between them and Papa Emeritus III are not going as they both expected. Terzo’s revenge against the rival satanists during a Metallica concert only makes things worse. Chapters: 3

>>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

No peace in Hell - Terzo x OC [IYRIN sequel - Multichapter]

Whatever God does, the Devil does better.

>>>> Wattpad | AO3

The night of the witch - Papa Emeritus III x F!Reader [One shot]

Papa Emeritus III has asked you to be his altar for the day after ritual. Somehow he manages to make you accept, but before there is a “private lesson” you have to attend to get ready for your role…

>>>> Wattpad | AO3

The thing that should not be - Terzo x Omega [One shot]

Terzo is the 20 year old last heir of Papa Nihil and he’s definitely not having fun at his father’s birthday party. Luckily, a big Ghoul is around to save the night…

>>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

The cigarette - These nights always end like this. [Ficlet]

Nothing more than a short rambling of Terzo’s personal way of saying goodbye after a night of love.

>>>> Tumblr

The Third Law - Terzo x F!Reader [Multi chapter - COMPLETE]

Terzo Emeritus is temporarily forced on wheelchair and crutches due to a knee injury. You have to take care of him and his house for a month and a half. Nothing you haven't done before, you’d think. Well, think again. Chapters: 11 (including Prologue and Epilogue)

>>>> Wattpad | AO3

Armat Victoria Curam - Teacher!Cardinal Terzo x F!Reader [One shot]

Cardinal Emeritus III is your Latin teacher, and he catches you daydreaming during an important private lesson.

>>>> Tumblr | AO3

✍🏻 COMING SOON:

[?] Papa Emeritus III (x occasional OC) [Multichapter]

Risen from the death by his brothers Primo and Secondo, Terzo Emeritus is sent to live out of the Ministry, with the task to plot a coup against Papa Emeritus IV military regime. life outside the Ministry is definitely not what he expected.

Devotion - Papa Emeritus III x all Ghouls [One Shot]

I am here to serve, Your Unholiness. Whatever your will may be, I am ready to fulfill it.

✶ Papa Emeritus IV

Kids temp - Copia x F!Reader [One Shot]

Papa is going to have a day full of meetings and he had been working tirelessly on bureaucratic stuff for days. He must be so stressed, but you are there with only a cup of coffee to relieve his spirit. That can not be the only contribution you can offer to make him feel better, right?

Part I - Kids temp >>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

Part II - Dinner time >>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

Horror Vacui - Copia x Phantom Ghoul [One Shot]

Papa Emeritus IV is getting older and tired, but Phantom, a freshly summoned Ghoul who needs to be trained to the new world, is always by his side to relieve his aching soul.

>>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

✍🏻 COMING SOON:

The winner - Copia x Reader [One Shot]

Copia lost his last chance to win a Grammy. He thinks he is a loser, you think differently.

✶ Multiple Papas

Terzo once told me… - Cardinal Copia x Papa Emeritus III (non related) [Multi chapter COMPLETE]

A tormented, angst-filled one-sided love story between two lifelong friends and how they ultimately destroyed each other. Chapters: 4

>>>> Wattpad | AO3

The Devil in your details - young Copia x young Terzo [One Shot]

It was a more or less ordinary evening, an oversized T-shirt, and a possibly too excited Copia. That's what it took to end up in bed together, and for them to enjoy it. No major reason, no jealousy, no trauma or music, because that's where the Devil lie: in the details.

>>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

Cocoon - Cardinal Copia x Papa Emeritus III (non related) [One Shot]

Just Papa Emeritus III and Cardinal Copia enjoying some alone time in their new residence after a long tour. Work outside, cuddles in.

>>>> Wattpad | AO3 | Tumblr

✍🏻 COMING SOON:

Midnattssol - Cardinal Copia x Cardinal Terzo (non related) [Multichapter]

Cardinal Terzo Emeritus is back at the Ministry after five years of cardinalate in Poland, in time for the Midsommar celebration. Cardinal Copia is happy to see him again… maybe a bit too much.

[?] - All Papas x Mother Superior F!Reader [One Shot]

You are the Ministry’s Mother Superior. One of your duties is to please every Papa as best as you can. Luckily, that is one of their duties too.

Headcanons & ramblings:

Emeritus Family backgrounds

Copia is a sugar daddy for his Ghouls

Papa’s playlists

Terzo and children

Under the Ghouls' mask: I / II

Random ramblings

Papas in Italian cities: Primo | Secondo | Terzo

Fanarts

Check out the tag #OsirisBC-fanart.

That’s all for now. Take care and stay lubed 🔥

All dividers by @saradika-graphics

[ifuckingloveryoshu]

I have Lesbian Thoughts for Ryoshu againt beacase there's so many Contempt Awe Ryoshu arts. Her collar jutting out, I want to reach and pull it close. That slick back hair, the white part shirt thing. I like her white shirt. I don't want to touch her white shirt but its just such a nice look on her. She just pulls off the whole look. What else can I say. Her smile on the art too, she's so cool. I don't know what to do, I don't want to touch her body, I want to touch her clothes and just stare in her face with this specifc EGO. If I were able to cup her face in my hands, I would start crying for her even letting me do it. Its precious. But why is it doing this to me? Everything about how Ryoshu makes me feel is unnatual. I've never felt these things about any fictional characters I like. I only feel this intense about one other person in my life. Its tearing me apart. The rest, if not all this post is, I don't know how to word it, thinking about thinking about Ryoshu. Nothing of substance.

Having any intense emotion for me is unplesent. Adoration and Hatred bring about the same twangs of pain because it's difficult to deal with them. It shakes me to my core everytime I see her. But she's not real. I don't need her to be real, it's way better she's not real. I don't know. I had a post before, I privated it because I felt embarrased, I felt like I shared too much personal information on that one. Undoubtily, my infatuation with her has gotten me out of my shell, altered my thinking and my day to day habbits. Im still stunned that ironically the introverted loner character got me to be more social and my obsession with her and only her keeps me away from dangerous people. Its only been four months? She's sucessfully been a part of my life longer than my previous ex. And excerpt from that previous post.

"Yeah, I appreciate the people around me but I feel like I don't show it good enough, but if I went out there and showed it, I might get too clingy or overwelming, off. Or from my end, it's superficial. I know what its like to feel abandoned but I still do it even if I don't mean to. But I don't replace people, I still think about the people who've left my life. Having and expressing these thoughts in this way makes me warry because my previous ex was like this. Ive been speaking a lot recently about being honest and truthful and open, its not, Ive been more open then I have the rest of my days living, absolutely too open, its still terrifying. I swear I know about privacy and keeping myself safe, just please let me keep this. Its the inbetween of not being too annoying to directly message, and no ones obligated to respond, or to read, or to do anything. Its void. Burry. No ones telling me to post anything I just don't know at times. I hate my own words."

Limbus Company and my infatuation with Ryoshu helps me cope with my traumas. Huh, is it like the bar friends senario where everyone is reliant on that bar and their drinks, and were all addicts. Time is finite and everything is temporary. This too one day will enevitibly pass like everything else, and that's scary to me but it doesn't mean I'm not enjoying my time here now. She's just neat. My eyes are watering. I didn't think or say anything deep or complex. Ha. And all it took was for someone to post an image of her I had already seen onto another server. How dull I am. Ha.

[yuichiroswife]

𝐭𝐨𝐩  𝟓  𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠  𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬,       share  the  top  songs  in  your  playlist  that  most  inspire / represent  your  muses  the  most.    bonus  points  if  you  include  lyrics  to  go  along  with  it.  

i . Final Girl (feat. Slayyyter) — Graveyardguy

Yeah okay, well here's the twist. I'm a stone cold cunt, a killer bitch. And I'll break your heart, I'll make you sick. And I'll rip you apart from limb to limb. You'll learn right now I don't play nice. And if you hurt me once, I'll kill you twice. And I won't go first, Drew Barrymore. Cause I'm the last bitch up. The final girl.

ii. Undertaker — Graveyardguy

Cause we're both sick and twisted, We love the sadistic. So why don't we fuck for our lives?

Cause when I'm kissing you, I taste the kiss of death. I'll have what's left of you, Until there's nothing left.

iii. Are You Afraid (feat. Graveyardguy) — Rocky Gray(?)

You saying that you're not the best for me. That you'll be the death of me. Don't need your love, I just need right next to me. I want you obsessed with me. Feel what I feel. You're a curse not a blessing babe, Til' you start undressing me. Tell me the truth now, yeah? Are you afraid of me? Cause baby you're scaring me. I feel your teeth in my neck. You rip the clothes off my back. You're driving me crazy, I might die. You got me screaming for my life. Deadly and dangerous, oh my. Tell me, are you afraid?

iv. Brutus — The Buttress

My name is Brutus and my name means heavy. So with a heavy heart I'll guide this dagger into the heart of my enemy. My whole life you were a teacher and friend to me. Please know my actions are not motivated only by envy! I too have a destiny. This death will be art. The people will speak of this day from near and afar. This event will be history, And I'll be great too. I don't want what you had, I wanna be you!

I always knew I could be the one, Though I feel the endless pain of being, And I am scorched by the sun? Of humble origins and born of the cursed sex. My name is Brutus, but the people will call me Rex.

v. How to Make a Monster — Graveyardguy

My stone cold heart was never meant to beat. Now this corpse of love is rotting in the street.

I know you wanted me to be your lover, But we were never gonna be forever. Told you once, but you don't remember. Told you twice, but you won't surrender. You better check under your covers. I'll grip you up and I'll pull you under. And that's what happens when you make a monster. I've gotcha.

Cause you gave your heart, To a boy who will fuck it up. And you fell in love, With the thought that we'd last forever.

Tagged by: @tenebrispxnea​​

Tagging: @s-talking​ since I was tagged in this a long time ago and forgot about it in my drafts and I can’t think of anyone else to tag at the moment.

[ss-trashboat]

I posted 1,502 times in 2022

That's 1,171 more posts than 2021!

412 posts created (27%)

1,090 posts reblogged (73%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@chrissybxo

@ss-trashboat

@sybilius

@zumo-san

I tagged 1,449 of my posts in 2022

Only 4% of my posts had no tags

#wrasslin - 743 posts

#queue - 610 posts

#my beloved - 387 posts

#trashy yells - 180 posts

#my art - 105 posts

#wrasslin yells - 86 posts

#traditional art - 72 posts

#fan art - 72 posts

#trashy watches tag league - 66 posts

#wrestling fan art - 54 posts

Longest Tag: 124 characters

#ive known salty for close to 12 years now cause i started talking to her cause i loved her art back then and she was so nice

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

and here we draw hands and shirts for adam cole bay bay ~

29 notes - Posted February 17, 2022

#4

Wrestleblr Secret Santa

welcome! this is just a fun little thing to spread some serotonin this holiday season. not necessarily holiday related, but something to pick up our spirits this holiday season ~

here is the form to fill out (i hope it works i haven't made one before lol). there's something for everyone here: writers, gif makers, editors, all artists welcome!!

i will be accepting applications for a week so they will close at midnight est on december 4th. then i will start assigning people! will be done through tumblr messenger so if you're not cool with that let me know please.

pieces are due to your partner by the end of the year, december 31st, but you absolutely can post sooner! if something comes up and you're unable to complete, let me know! we will have an option to be a back up artist, and i will also be a back up artist for anyone that's unable to complete on time.

most important, have fun! this is a super casual thing (i've never thrown one of these before so it's a learning process lol) so enjoying yourself is the most important thing. let me know if you have any questions, and share to tell your friends!!

43 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

#3

happy death before dishonor day, part two. beloved boi yoots, cause ofc i had to get all those emotions out of my system oof

45 notes - Posted July 23, 2022

#2

hey guys

so i wanna put together a fund of sorts to get night back to the states for a con in february. not much has been fleshed out as they're just announcing people, but there's a sentimental one for night and i just really want this to happen. cause who knows when we'll get to do this again. and i just. really miss my best friend

i know this is a long shot, especially before the holidays, but any little bit helps. i'm linking my ko-fi here that has the goal. i have some tiers set up as well as commission options. i'll also add the art i have for sale over time too.

share and tell your friends. let's start 2023 off great for night <33

55 notes - Posted October 18, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

babe made me a sheet to make things easier to share, but im taking sketch commissions! these will be on smaller paper, around 5x7 and 7x9, and can be shipped to you! only one person per page tho as they're smaller. will also do non-wrestling. these are for trip funds so please share and tell your friends!!

68 notes - Posted June 22, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[castlebyersafterdark]

But it's fascinating looking at what he decides to post and share. Because sometimes I think... why do that? I look and it makes me happy but I wonder, why these moments?

wahhhh the thoughts in THIS post are soooooo up my street! only today i was tempted to post something recreational on social media for the first time in years (i only use it sporadically for my work) and i had a little talk with myself about exactly what you asked: who is it for?

this is a question i ask myself about so many things in my life, from what i wear today to what i want to do with my whole life. its a great question! a good psychology question.

ive also had people i love say its nice to see what i chose to post on insta back when i did (mainly in covid times), theyre seeing through my mind and wondering, just like you are about your fiance, vinny (🥳). i always find it interesting when you can see some artistic influence in their posts, if they dont sound like the person you know irl.

and honestly, today, it was a feeling of WOW this is a beautiful day and beautiful pic, and i want to cement it somehow by putting it online. its almost like the act of sharing is addictive, even though i never felt that great when i noticed the views ticking up or even the comments. lets face it, most social media comments are boring af. i much prefer long form chats with friends, and on here lol! i didnt post it in the end. what would it have been for?

so let's swing this back to our boy noah. i am not someone who ever posted thirst traps or even pics of my face, i just always think it's got an 'I'd like validation please' vibe that makes me cringe. but many do post themselves! and noah is a public figure. his face and personage is his brand, so if he wants a presence and maybe more modelling gigs, posting his face is a good idea. but i do also think the boy has a little vain streak that someone like finn, for example, doesn't. no shade because its always connected to deeper stuff - possibly insecurity, very human, very valid! to me, noah's possible insecurity manifests as a need for the attention. whereas finn's manifests as avoiding attention. so this year, noah leaving sm has been a great change and growth for him - can i live without this?

and likewise finn has been leaving his comfort zone by diving into things (like modelling and perfume ads) that clearly feel fish out of water for him. theyre both fascinating.

so i looked at that finn acc noah followed, and it seems to be one of the more lowkey ones - it doesnt have an obvious searchable username like FINN WOLFHARD FANS or something lol. its niche. so thats... yeah. haaaaaaaaa. and its also fan engagement rather than posts of finn's professional photoshoots and stuff, so noah clearly appreciates the Real Finn. 🤭 but theres also pics of finn with other friends and castmates a lot. so it almost seems like the equivalent of scrolling a crush's FB wall, seeing what theyre up to without you. cos finn doesnt have an acc where he posts his life, does he? and we all know there's like zero pics of noah and finn hanging out together lol. so noah won't be spying pics of him and finn together. maybe his camera roll is already full of that 🤭 but otherwise, smells like doomscrolling. oh boyo :(

once again i cannot stop rambling.

Getting to this one finally!!!

It is very worthwhile pausing and re-evaluating what we share and why - all good points and insight. Social media is a good tool for showcasing work if you have a talent or field that benefits from a visual - I sometimes miss having an art account that was public, but I think I also like keeping it as something private for those close to me until maybe one day I change my mind and decide to do something with it. I go back and forth and right now I sit with keeping my hobby a hobby, no temptation to make it more than it is. I really kinda simplified my life in the last few years if that makes sense? Choosing when and what to share publicly has been a big challenge but something centering as well. Different needs for different people!

The act of sharing IS addictive, and I can admit that about this blog in general. Me at the beginning, eating all my words, "I don't want to make it too personal, but..." and here I am now, sharing so much. It was a discomfort with the fandom, though, and not knowing what this corner would be like, and the jarring nature of having people actually send me messages where before - it was kind of isolated on this site and when I sought online interaction, it was always a bit hostile on places like twitter or reddit. This ended up being so so different. Every day, entirely unexpected.

Swinging over to the boys! Funny, I was someone who in the past posted for attention. I'll say it! Thirst traps and all the cringey like, part of why I won't share myself online anymore - if my friends share candids on private accounts, totally fine. But having my life hyper documented, by my own hand, just really freaked me out at one point. All done with that. So it's interesting being a big fan of celebrities where we hang on the edge waiting for a glimpse, and I do!! I totally do! Being a public figure for sure - that's kind of necessary to a degree. And a little vanity is ok - can go overboard. Balance. Sharing things, keeping other things personal. "Can I live without this?" That's everything. Healthy.

Think you're right about the fan account, there's an angle there I hadn't considered. Because let's say there is/was something there with him either crushing or wanting to enjoy looking at his guy - where else is he going to look up a bunch of photos of him? Google isn't personal. There's a fan-curated space with everything good all in one spot. Crush scrolling. Relatable. So human. But with the privilege of having your famous crush also crushed on by many so they do the work gathering info for you hahaha

Love to ramble, no one here should ever apologize for rambling!!! I am the crown prince of rambling ceaselessly hahahaha

[pokeheros-drama]

"not everyone realizes their mistakes no matter how much growth, maturity, and years in between if they're being cheered along for every bad decision they make."

i can see this but i feel like its rarer and most people do. but im not saying cheer them along. but yeah, whether or not you cheer them along i agree some people you just cant help.

sorry after reading these replies, im thinking i really worded this horribly. "it's not going to make them stop doing the wrong thing, and i thought the goal here was to help them? and if thats not ur goal, still how is it helping for you to block them?" yeah i think what came of most wrong here was the "still" and instead of "i thought" i should say "for me" 

let me reword this: it's not going to make them stop doing the wrong thing, and for me the goal here was to help them. for ur goal, how is it helping for you to block them?

mb i was really tired when i wrote that and i wrote it really aggressively and like everyone should only have a goal of helping them, but no i support other goals you guys arent inclined to help some random kid.

"at the end of the day you need learn to respect their choice and right to block ppl that they do not like."

i realized i came off wrong, hopefully what i said above fixes this. i got from reading this, that you wanted to not associate with them, and blocking them meets this goal. thats kinda what i mean to ask.

"the block button is free anon, sometimes even with advicing them against it, theyll still think their actions are right."

yeah! again the goal i got from this is not wanting to associate with someone who may think using ai to make art is okay. me personally, blocking them wouldnt do anything for me unless they're posting feeds about their ai art. i agree ai art is wrong but id still give them a chance and if i see them continue to use ai and show it off then its a block for me too.

"You must live a pretty nice life"

okay i hope what i said above fixes your thoughts that i never block people. but here's what i have to say for you: please don't make assumptions about other people's lives. usually when people say things like this, i dont feel the need to share but i will this time since its online and i hope you can learn from this. when i was 11, someone told me "my life must be perfect" because i offered to help them with something. well the night before my mom threatened my dad with a knife and honestly ive been through a lot worst since. but having someone tell me "my life must be perfect" the next morning was really the cherry on top. and i didnt even say anything, because im the kind of person who hides all my emotions and tries to forgot about them. ive got a lot of friends, but i dont think i ever really had that friend who i trusted enough to tell my real problems to. i try to act happy on the outside no matter how upset i am, so most people do assume my life is perfect irl. but its not, and everytime someone tells me this it does gets to me. everyone doesnt know what you're going through, and that's fine. but it doesnt give them the right to make assumptions. so for someone who barely knows me, except for a few things i said online, please dont make assumptions.

sorry for super long post again

[rinhaler]

PLEASE I LOVE RAMBLING ITS SO FUN AND THERAPEUTIC!!

Omg so I’m on the second season I’m so hooked!!!

oolala my tall queen u would have to look down at me (pretty much everyone does) fjdbdjdj I’m 5’0 rip my bf is 6’4 we look so stupid side by side 😭

Stopppppp pls pizza is my fav get outta here!!! Or tomato soup….man I love soup. Omfg don’t get me started on tuna my dad loves it and I want to rip off my nose everytime!!!

Holy shit we really are the same I was gonna get a masters in art i even got a scholarship to this fancy pants school but I literally had an actual mental breakdown my last year of high school sooooo….oopsies!! But everything worked out in the end so it’s whatever I still love to paint and draw it’s helps me destress a lot! I remember when I was little I’d make flip books with my drawings and make stories to go with it there’s this specific one I remember it was a cat that got ran over but came back to life and had a knife??? I gave it to my grandma and she was like 😨 that’s great sweetie!!…I’m gonna go put this on the fridge….right over the trash can. GAHAH no but she was floored I do remember that lmfao

Omfg I use to read fanfic about avenged sevenfold and escape the fate I was obsessed with them it was embarrassing dudjdkdjdh and then once I got over into anime when I was like 19 I was absolutely flabbergasted by how nasty the smut was it made my heart soar!!!! I think I started writing when I was like 12 lmao mostly poetry and songs but then in like 10th grade I wrote like a 200k novel it’s trash but my god it’s so angsty and dirty what on gods green earth was 15 year old me thinking?! ( I know exactly what she was thinking and it’s only gotten worse 😈)

Thank you sooooo much for sharing that with me eeeee it’s so nice to chat with u!!! Mwah! 💕🧋

omg thank you for sharing all of this i cant believe how similar we are. I ALSO LOVE TOMATO SOUP IT'S MY FAV SOUP (it's the only soup i like lmaooo) omg you'll have to let me know ur thoughts when u finished the christmas showdown arc and stuff bc that's where i left off! ive read the manga but it's been years so i dont remember SHIT

[estradasphere]

tagged by @charlottan for 6 albums ive been listening to recently ^-^ thanks!!!

1. gangpol und mit - the hopelessly sad story of the hideous end of the world (bitpop / glitch pop)

thanks baxter for making me aware of this one. very very charming and catchy and unique!! love the cute quirky bleeps n bloops and robovocals contrasted with the kinda dark story. very surreal katamari-esque vibe to me. not always in the mood to listen to this one but i've been replaying it a lot lately. (...i wish i could find a copy of this album art that isn't JPEG'd to hell, but regardless.) favorite song: the only sure thing about luck is that it will change

2. radiation 4 - wonderland (mathcore / avant-garde metal)

found this one a bit ago from doing one of the "5 obscure bands" hyhtb posts. not really doing anything that other mathcore bands haven't, but still has found a special place in my heart. i just can't help but love obscure myspace-era bands with little/no high-quality footage. and they dressed in labcoats onstage! - how can you not love that!!!!!!! one of the few Very Loud And Screamy albums that i am somehow always in the mood for despite generally not liking that sound (along with tub ring - zoo hypothesis). favorite song: love through tapeworm hooks

3. humming urban stereo - very very nice! and short cake (lounge)

found through one of tumblr user kitschke's daily reviews. her thoughts ended up being about the same as mine - it's nice lounge with some eccentric sounds/samples. except i'm not as put off about scully doesn't know being on the album 3 times because that's my favorite song on it :p not much to say, i just like it! relaxing favorite song: scully doesn't know (korean version)

4. general patton vs. the x-ecutioners self-titled (experimental hip-hop)

wait, this album isn't called joint special operations task force? shit ive had it tagged wrong this entire time. anyway, i've been revisiting this one lately... not a hiphop buff so im not sure how to describe it but i love the glitchy scratchy parts and loads of sample usage and the little shining parts of Actual Song (we'll paint this town / wake me up in heaven / fire in the hole / etc) to grasp onto before it goes right back to being a mess of samples and glitchiness. basically the spasmodic nature of fantomas except its hiphop. whats not to love favorite song: "we'll paint this town" -- throat and phonograph fire support coordination measures (TPFSCM)

5. portishead - dummy (trip hop)

listened to as part of an album exchange thingy in char's server (thanks eve!). i looove the atmosphere, so much that i dont mind that the album as a whole feels kinda samey to me? its got this kinda dark and gloomy feel to it but its also so dreamy and vibey and... yeah! beats are good vocals are great. just let it wash over u favorite song: sour times

6. high castle teleorkestra - the egg that never opened (avant-prog)

obviously not a recent discovery, but i'm never Not listening to it. in case you somehow have been following me without knowing what this band is, it shares 3 members with estradasphere and is one of the best things ive ever damn heard (EXTREMELY biased). i'll try not to gush about it too much here but its so complex and beautiful and simultaneously retro and innovative and i love the scifi themes and yeah!!!!!!!!! HCT SECOND ALBUM PLEASE I NEED IT. favorite song: the days of blue jeans were gone

whoever wants to do this do it!!!! i have tagged you in spirit. go forth

[crabdab]

had to look on my past feelings about it and see what has changed or not. it is easier to define a zine as what it isnt. i share questions ive asked or seen while defining zines.

i think a short summary it should to be:

self made: put together yourself or by people (referring to contents)

self distributed: put out by the individual (vs a publishing company)

does the making include going to a printing studio, online or in person, and having them make your copies? or only using your own printer or xerox machine in the local library? to me, it is “i printed/made copies myself, or went to a printing studio online/in person”. some people like to have a nice glossy finish on their final work and thats okay. sometimes the medium ask for it, such as photography or digital art. as long as the final distribution is done by the individual, then i think it can still be considered zine. you totally get bonus points if you are having a fellow zine maker print it for you. i do think an element of tactileness should be part of making a zine, no matter where or who that comes from. you should absolutely learn basics of printing to print a zine by yourself at least once!

are digital zines still zines if there is no tactile element? sure, because they fall under self made, and self distributed. i think tactile element or "DIY" is very very very important when it comes to making a zine for yourself. but having tactile element be a definition of zine, excludes digital zines, so i would not use that to be a definitive requirement of what is/isnt a zine.

when does a zine stop being a zine? is everything self published a zine? age old question. here is a thread (<-link) to read about it. these are some answers that make me think. (please do not go arguing with them, this is food for thought). i do think this is one of those things where some people kinda butchered the original intent, to an extent, and why its harder to define now, and trying to causes a heated debate. see: original definition of bullet journal and how the community is having the same problem of defining what is/isnt a bullet journal vs an art journal or scrapbook or junk journal etc.

Actually, there is one of my own i can give of when I think a zine stops being a zine. Zines should not have a barrier of entry of any kind when it comes to the making of, but especially if its skill associated. In a nutshell.

do i have other personal thoughts on zines? yeah you suck in my book if you have any requirements to participate in a community zine. maybe dont call that a zine.

anything beyond what i've typed will bring boiling hot water on me and i dont want that. im not here to debate, only share some of my own thoughts. thanks for reading if you got this far :)

What is a zine? Come up with a definition in your own words.

Add your response via reblog, make your own post, or submit a post!

[iladkaren]

THE CONSIGLIERE: Chapter III

Pairing: Mafia!BTS x Reader

Summary:

You should have said no.

Chapter I

Chapter II

Chapter IV

Chapter V

Chapter VI

Chapter VII

“Hey!” You stopped in your tracks as soon as you heard that familiar voice. This was the third time you encountered Hwan Ji-Hye. “Y/N, fancy seeing you here.”

You turned around, a little too fast as it turns out. It almost gave you a headache, but luckily, it wasn’t too painful to deal with.

“Hi, you too…” Your eyebrows scrunched in confusion. You never told her your name. Why would she be talking to you?

Sensing your confusion, she immediately defended, “ah! I asked for your name from your professor." She explained with a slight laugh. When you still hadn't moved or responded, she continued, "Sorry, sorry. It's just…"

You slowly nodded. Weird. You started to make small talk as a polite act. “What are you doing here?” You mentally facepalmed. Of course, why wouldn’t she be here? This is a mall. It’s a public place. People come to buy stuff and spend money here.

If she thought your question was ridiculous, she didn’t show it. “Oh, I’m just taking a day off before I take the early flight next week.” She rolled her eyes as she clearly shown that she dislikes early flights as much as you. “I guess it’s a nice day out, don’t you think?” She glanced at the clear blue sky, looking at peace with no clouds whatsoever.

It really did seem like a nice day outside. The sun was shining brighter than ever, illuminating the city.

Your eyes lightened when you remembered there was going to be an art event in Milan handled by the very woman you’re currently talking to. You wanted to go, of course. It would be an extra point to your curricular activities, but you couldn’t even afford the hotel, much less a flight ticket. You gave her a smile to hide your frustration. “I see.” Your eyes narrowed as you tried to come up with something witty to say. Unfortunately for you, you’re always bad at improvising.

She returned your smile, but eyed you for several seconds. You awkwardly shifted from foot to foot as she was looking at you like a Guinea pig this second time around. “You should come.” You widened your eyes at her. Certainly, she was joking. The Hwan Ji-Hye was personally inviting you to an event managed by her. “I mean, it would benefit you. I’ll let you in on a secret.” She leaned onto your left ear. “Only selected people are invited.” She winked at you afterwards. Oh my god. How does anyone do this? How do normal people do this all the time? Is this how they manage their stress levels?

A deep chuckle escaped her lips, making you jump slightly. She laughed again, and you found yourself mirroring her. What an odd sensation. It almost seemed… normal. Almost.

You blushed. So she really was inviting you personally. “I don’t have the money for it, unfortunately.” You finally shared your frustrations as you looked down in embarrassment.

There’s one thing about you. You can’t stay mad at someone for long, especially not someone who looks so pretty with a smile. Her gaze pierced right through your soul. You felt yourself drowning in her irises.

“I’ll shoulder it.” She said suddenly. She grabbed your shoulders and shook them excitedly. Your heart skipped a beat. No one had ever treated you this way. At least not since you were young. There was no need for her to be so affectionate towards you, although it’s kind of flattering.

“What?” You bowled over by the extravagance of the free ride. It was almost too good to be true.

“I’ll shoulder it.” She repeated. Of course, you heard her the first time, but you didn’t tell her that. “I’ll even pay for your hotel room.” She held your hand gently. “I really want you to come.”

This time your stomach fluttered. You swallowed hard. ‘Please say no.' you pleaded silently in your head. You were scared. A big part of you actually wanted to go. But, then again, this could get serious. And you definitely didn’t want that.

But then again, what harm can it do?

But why?

Why does she have to be so damn nice to you?

Just a simple answer would suffice. You didn’t ask her to give you this opportunity. Yet, here she is, giving it to you anyway.

In all honesty, you weren’t sure if you should accept.

“Are you sure?” You leaned slowly to her, feeling like this was illegal. It did feel illegal because obviously there was no formal invitation. Ji-Hye just suddenly invited you out of the blue, and in the middle of a busy mall, no less. It might seem suspicious. It was also a little unfair that she offered herself as well.

Her smile grew larger as her eyes twinkled. You couldn’t believe this was happening.

“Yes, I’m sure.” She nodded confidently. “I won’t take no for an answer.” She looked at you in high gear. If her intentions were anything but pure, you knew she would have made some kind of attempt to convince you.

Maybe she really likes being rich. Or maybe she really hates having to depend on others. Either way, the way she’s acting isn’t very trustworthy.

But at the same time, she does seem sincere.

Your mind was split. The first half was that maybe she was right. Attending the art fair would probably benefit you, plus you’ve never been to Italy. This was a once in a lifetime opportunity. But the other half was telling you that you shouldn’t. You didn’t want to be indebted to her, or to anyone. Also, you still couldn’t figure out that gut feeling that saying yes was a bad idea.

You didn’t know how exactly to react. Should you just tell her no now? Tell her that you don’t want to go? That it feels like a waste of time? You didn’t really know how to respond without sounding rude or selfish.

“Don’t worry, you do not need to pay me or anything. Just come. Be my plus one.” She assured you as if reading your mind. Well, of course she could read minds. That’s why she’s Hwan Ji-Hye. But you’re glad that you weren’t able to read hers. She doesn’t seem like she would take kindly if you tried.

That last part reminded you.

You were conflicted. You really did want to attend the event, yet you don’t want to put the person who invited you in any sort of jeopardy. Even though she didn’t say anything offensive, you still don’t trust her fully. You still had questions.

Is it a yes or a no? Do you even want to go?

Pregnant silence. You didn’t know what to say either. She already decided that you're coming, anyways. What could you possibly say against something that’s already been decided.

She stared intensely. She must've noticed your hesitance. “Well?” She looked at you expectantly.

How does she do that?

“Okay.” Your voice barely came out above a whisper. It sounded more like a squeak to you.

You should have said no.

Chapter I

Chapter II

Chapter IV

Chapter V

Chapter VI

Chapter VII

[wu-kongs]

i literally just stumbled upon ur acc randomly since i was looking for wukong enthusiasts and ! it has been a very nice blast reading through your lmk art reblogs and *especially* your writings!! theyre really good, im in awe of your writing style — also, ive seen u do a few answers to asks giving songs so please correct me if im doing this wrong i dont use tumblr often HAHA but could u share your insights of the songs “the moon will sing - crane wives” and “rises the moon - liana flores”?

hello yes that is me resident wukong enthusiast i wear my crown-combination-jester's jingly hat proudly

i'm elated that you like my writing so much! especially since i feel a little lackluster about them. it helps keep me going! sorry i took so long to respond, everything else unfortunately comes first before goofy fun times on tumblr

the song thing was actually me asking for 🥭🍑 song recs, of sorts, and then it sorta spiraled out of control with me sharing what i thought and how it related, to people asking exactly that. it's kinda fun! it was really draining, but yours is the first i've done in a few days, so i'm refreshed! welcome to the party pal

about the moon will sing, it's a good reflection of how macaque apparently came to view himself: the moon in the shadow of the sun, and we all know that the moon only shines because of the light of the sun. it's hard to know if macaque naturally ended up like that or if it was some malicious act by wukong that may have left him in the dust.

this song reflected off macaque is very i am the victim here and you gave me no other way to be but that. i wonder if macaque saw his existence coming second place ahead of him and sort of accepted that as his fate (despite how angry and bitter he seemed about it in "shadow play")—Instead I made a bed with apathy

the third verse—

Name your courage now We could have had anything, anything else Instead you hoarded all that’s left of me Swallowing your doubt Like swords to the pit of my belly I want to feel the fire that you kept from me

—faces a macaque who clearly feels wronged by what happened between he and wukong. that's what it's really all about isn't it? macaque feeling wronged (and of course being murdered will do that to you, i think he's a little in his rights to be pissed about it).

about rises the moon, this song is... really beautiful. it very much encapsulates a macaque who is on the path to recovery and healing, him accepting what has happened to him and knowing that as bad as it was, it will not always be that bad. he will suffer bad again, but it won't stay so—

But after sunlit days, one thing stays the same Rises the moon

without more elaboration, i picture him a field of flowers that gently undulate in the breeze, glowing from the soft light of the full moon. him, palms pressed back as his weight rests on them, and his head is tilted to the sky, eyes closed, letting the wind caress him and ground him—Oh-oh, close your weary eyes / Breathe, breathe, breathe

here, he's at the point where his trauma and anger no longer control him. it's not perfect peace, but it's peace within his reach, and he will now always strive for that.

[blxetsi]

I was curious if you’d be up for headcanon of adopting Gabi Braun, or what it’s like being her older sibling?

If not maybe just Pieck relationship headcanons

Please and thank you

im so sorry im getting to this so late 😭🤚 ty for requesting ‼️

‼️CONTENT WARNING: SPOILERS FOR SEASON 4 AND CHAPTER 139‼️

adopting gabi braun headcanons (canonverse)

characters: gf!sasha braus x gn!reader, platonic!gabi braun x gn!reader, fatherly!levi ackerman x gn!reader, platonic!falco grice x gn!reader

warnings: death, angst, hatred for kids (fuck them kids‼️), peepaw levi 😁👍

- uhhhhhh,, your relationship w gabi had a very rocky start. Lol !

- it all started when your friend eren jaeger decided to run away to infiltrate marley causing the survey corps to go get him just as a war was declared between your countries, and then two kids snuck onto the airship you were using to escape and shot your girlfriend. and she died. Lol !

- you had a lot of hatred for gabi in the beginning, and it was understandable

- you blamed her for shooting sasha, but you also blamed yourself for not being able to save her.

- you were a trained medic, you were supposed to save people, and yet you couldnt even save the woman you loved. it was like a slap in the face, like god was playing some cruel joke on you

- you remember sitting against the wall with sasha's blood staining your hands. you could barely process what happened at the time, and then levi came

- he sat next to you, taking a handkerchief out of nowhere seemingly, and just wordlessly wiped your hands down.

- your relationship with the older man was never defined, even today, but you both cared for each other

- the next time you saw gabi, was in that restaurant, niccolo had attacked gabi and falco, injuring them both, and said she killed sasha

- your blood went cold, you felt so many things, the grief you had pushed down in favour of your job, anger, fear, among other things

- niccolo had said there needed to be justice, he said that gabi should die for what she did, he tried to get sasha's father to kill her, and all you did was stand there.

- your body went on autopilot, barely listening to mr. braus' speech, you watched as kaya pointed a knife at gabi, and you listened to her wails of agony as you blindly led mikasa, armin, and gabi to a different room

- you were scared of yourself, for what you were thinking. did you really want a kid to die ? she did kill your girlfriend, the woman you wanted to spend the rest of your life with, the woman that shared her food with you, the woman that held you when you got scared at night, the woman that promised you that after the war you two would live on a farm together, and have a family of your own.

- but she was still a child. she didnt know any better. you were conflicted in your feelings, especially after hearing what niccolo had said, but it all just emphasized what was already known to you. she was a child

- your blood was pounding in your ears, and you could faintly hear gabi asking your comrades if they wanted to kill her. when armin reassured her they didnt, she looked to you and asked "what about them ?"

- you didnt answer her, and continued to lead them down where eren would be meeting you all. you were supposed to drop them off, but eren made you stay, and then a fight broke out

- you dont remember when you did it, but you held gabi in your arms, shielding her from the fight. you think you needed to be held more than she did

- things got more complicated after that, and slowly the hatred you had for sasha's killer went away, until all you had left was a hole in your chest from guilt and sadness.

- at fort salta, you thought you were going to die there, next to your friends. you thought you'd become a mindless titan, like connie's family

- but you didnt, well you did, but only for a short time, and when you turned back, you reunited with your friends

- looking around for gabi, you saw her tackle falco into a hug, which made you smile

- "y/n !" jean called, you remember looking behind you in confusion, he sounded distressed, but you understood why when you saw sasha saluting the three of you

- you felt your legs move on your own, and you ran closer to her, before stopping about a meter away. she was dead, you knew she was dead, but she was there, wearing that goofy smile on her face and looking at you as if you'd hung the stars in the sky

- she looked at you. "you did good." hearing her voice felt like a dream. your mouth felt dry, and your jaw opened and closed like a fish before you felt tears sting your eyes. "i love you."

- she nodded, before looking at the sky. "i know." she replied. sasha looked back at you before giving you a soft smile. "you know what to do now." before she disappeared in the debris

- you knew what to do, so you did it

- you found levi sitting against a rock, and when you leaned down next to him he muttered something. "i saw erwin again. and hange. all of them." you nodded. "i saw sasha." he looked at you, and gave you the closest thing to a smile. "i guess we're both at peace now."

*****

- three years later, you've become a school teacher in paradis, teaching young children how to read, to write, and basic math. you teach them about art and music, and nature. its nice being surrounded by children all day, kids are lovely.

- you live with gabi, falco and levi, in a small house inside wall sina. levi's legs have gotten weaker with time, causing him to use a wheelchair and crutches. he's given up on his dream of a tea shop, but is content with the life he has now.

- gabi and falco have gotten more rowdy with age, but they've both matured quite a bit. they make you proud

- you send letters to sasha's family. kaya is growing up, and has taken over archery just like her sister. niccolo is living with them now.

- you'll never be able to let go of sasha, or what happened to her, but the pain in your chest has dulled immensely. you think about her sometimes, when youre in bed alone, wanting to feel the warmth of her body in your arms, you know you should move on, you get teased about not having a new girlfriend, even levi has made comments about there being "plenty of fish in the sea"

it was a late night, on a friday. you were grading spelling tests at the dining room table, one lone candle being your source of light. your pen moves swiftly across the different pieces of paper, adding check marks or x marks when needed, adding a note at the bottom of each test, before adding a smiley face on all of your students' hard work. it was tedious, but it needed to be done, and you had to remember to bring them in on monday, you couldn't forget like last time.

you heard footsteps coming down the stairs. they were soft, and slow, and at first you thought it was levi but realized it couldn't be since you couldn't hear the soft tapping of his crutches on the stairs. they came down to the bottom and stood there, it was gabi, dressed in a light pink nightgown that came down to her knees, and her disheveled hair in the braid you did for her before bed.

you pushed your reading glasses to the top of your head. "what are you doing up ? it's late."

she shrugged, and walked over to sit across from you at the table. gabi grabbed the stack of papers that you already graded and shuffled through them, giggling when she found a misspelling.

you rolled her eyes. "don't laugh, they're six."

she shook her head. "i was spelling ten times better than this when i was their age."

"uh huh."

"are you calling my bluff ?"

you chuckled. "maybe. you should be in bed though."

"why ? it's not like we have school tomorrow."

you shrugged. "i was thinking we could go on a picnic outside the walls. it gets stuffy in here."

she nodded. "that would be fun."

the silence came back for a while, until you finished grading and set your papers aside.

"you know, i hear you sometimes." she whispered.

you looked at the brunette in confusion. "how do you mean ?"

"when your in bed, sometimes you cry."

you scoffed, and leaned back in your chair. "yeah well, i try to muffle it."

"i don't think ive ever apologized to you," she started. her eyes welled up with tears and her hands shook on the table. her cheeks and nose became pink as she held herself back from crying. "i know i feel bad, and i regret killing her but, i've never actually apologized to you for-"

"don't." you said. you kept your eyes on your lap, you felt your throat growing tight. "please gabi, don't say anything."

"i need to apologize-"

"you don't. you killed her. she's dead, the war is over. it's done. just let it go." you said, your voice wavering.

"have you let it go ?"

your head shot up to her. "i lost the woman i was going to spend the rest of my life with. she promised me a safe home, a farm, and a family. and she promised we'd grow old together. and that didn't happen. i grew up with her, i've known her since i was twelve, we started dating when i was sixteen. of course i haven't let it go, gabi."

gabi looked shocked by your outburst, but nodded. she understood how you felt, and she felt so guilty. "you don't forgive me do you ? i get it, i really do. i'm sorry."

you shook your head. "gabi no, i do. i do forgive you. i just, i can't forget it." you whimpered, tears started streaming down your face and you choked back a sob. "i loved her with all of my heart, i still do, but i don't hate you-"

gabi rolled her eyes, tears coming out uncontrollably now. "you should. i killed her, i ruined your chance of a happy life ! she was your family and i-"

"gabi no !" you exclaimed, cutting her off. at this point you both looked like a mess, and you were worried you woke up the boys. you grabbed her shaking hands in your own and held them to you. "you are my family. you are. so is falco, and so is levi. i forgive you, and i love you with all of my heart." you said, a sad smile on your face. her eyes widened at your words, before she started sobbing.

you got up from the table to come to her side, and held her in your arms as she cried. her arms wrapped around your shoulders while she dug her head into your neck, tickling you with her hair.

you rubbed her back and cradled her head while shushing her. she sobbed out a muffled "i love you so much y/n." that you chuckled at.

"i love you too so much." you whispered back.

it took a long time for gabi to calm down, but when she did you still held her, rocking her and yourself back and forth slightly. you two moved from the chairs down to the floor, funny enough.

you kissed the top of her head before talking, the only noise in the room being your whispers, her sniffles and the living room clock. "you know reiner's coming home soon. are you excited ?" she nodded against your skin and sniffled again, clearing her throat too.

"i hope he brings me a gift or something." she whispered back, her voice hoarse. it made you laugh, and you had to cover your mouth to keep quiet.

"they're going to shiganshina district for a couple of days, to visit mikasa and eren, and then mikasa will come with them to the capital."

"do you miss her ?" she asked.

"so much. i miss all of them, but mikasa is a close friend of mine, she holds a special place in my heart."

"do you think you and levi will go to the meetings between the marley ambassadors and the jaegerists ?" she asked.

"maybe, if they feel as though they really need us."

you sighed through your nose, which was a bit stuffy from crying. "after we turned back into humans, i saw sasha again."

gabi lifted her head up from where it was resting on your shoulder. "what ?"

"yeah, i saw her ghost i think." you looked down on her with a smile on your face. "she told me i knew what i needed to do, and then i went and got levi and you and falco." you paused for a moment, thinking about how you would word what you were thinking. "i did what i needed to do, i got my family together." gabi's eyes widened. "sasha promised me a family, and although this wasn't the family i had envisioned, it's still a family nonetheless. i believe her last gift to me was you, falco, and levi. and i am so grateful to have you all in my life."

gabi smiled before hugging you. she opened her mouth to say something-

"oi !" a deep voice came from the top of the stairs. "you two woke me up with all of your crying. go to bed." before your heard the creaking of the floorboards and the closing of a door.

you chuckled before standing up, pulling gabi with you. you walked her to her room, and even tucked her in, you both exchanged 'i love yous' and 'goodnights' before you retreated from her bedroom, closing the door behind you.

across the hall, levi stood leaned on his doorway with his arms crossed together. "that family speech, that was cute." he commented. you rolled your eyes at the older man. "were you listening in on a private conversation ?" you teased.

the ex-captain scoffed and looked away. "go to bed y/n. we have a picnic to go on tomorrow." before closing his door.

you chuckled to yourself, remembering how you brought up the idea to him that morning, and he only replied with a curt "we'll see" before sipping on his morning tea.

you went back to your own room, and got into your bed. you turned on your side, and looked at the space you always left open for sasha, and brushed your hand against the pillow.

"goodnight love."

uhhhhh doesnt feel like my best work but whatevs 😁👍 enjoy my comeback to tumblr 🤩🙏

requests open mfs ‼️

[millsv2]

"Twitter" Ramblings

I just did a big thread on twitter that I'm gonna cross post here because idk I feel like it has some good thoughts. Sorry if it sounds a bit weird here since it was a bit disjointed and cause its Twitter posts™

For Context: I, in my immense worrying, decided to go through my entire following list on twitter and try to see if they had a tumblr or art station to follow in case Twitter really does truly burn to the ground.

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Yippie! ive hit the point of worrying that im now actually scrolling through every person i follow to see if they have a Tumblr or Art Station or w/e the fuck

I ended up finishing this last night... all 1,527 people i follow... absolutely deranged behavior... but now i have the peace of mind that i follow a decent chunk on another social media...

I wont lie everything thats been going on with [Twitter] because of HIM is legitimately deeply concerning to me... No other social media works like Twitter does for artists seeking employment... Like i know im not popular [on Twitter], but it widens the base to connect with others

and having said base immensely increases job prospects. Literally my friend recently got a job with the assistance of Twitter connections (and i couldnt be happier for them). Its a very real thing, and unfortunately to my knowledge, no other true social media has anything similar

Like sure you could make the case that its on Art Station or LinkedIn too but to me those are far too professional and more just "gallery sites". Same with deviant art and New Grounds those are also just gallery sites I have a gallery, its my portfolio website.

I think if things really do go to shit, I of course still wont delete my twitter... but any actual interaction with people will be greatly reduced and mostly move to tumblr, even though my following is way tinier [on Tumblr]... It'll mostly become "i just share art [on Twitter] and thats it"

I know people are making Lists and such to keep track of people but like... when a site is becoming actively hostile to you for not spending money on it??? i dont want to spend my time here...

again this isnt the "im leaving cya bye forever" post im still sticking around till everything truly burns to the ground... but i definitely needed to set up alternate places to share my work far sooner (other than instagram cause lord i hate insta)

If thoughts do end up getting shared [on Twitter] after everything (stuff like this) itll probably just be crossposted from tumblr since it has a button to post to twitter (idk how it works though lol)

So again, to all the people that follow me and enjoy my work. Please follow me on other social media. My links are on my website at the top right.

I just hope it turns around for this site

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I know following doesnt matter as much here on Tumblr (the site literally does not show your follower count to anyone but you)... but i genuinely hope i can get back to even my small twitter numbers... Like dont worry im not a massive clout chaser or anything...

but posting into a void to only receive interactions in the single digits really does fucking sting.

Like at least on Twitter or Insta i can post stuff and will average around like... 30-50 likes on a post... which of course isnt a lot, but its nice seeing my friends among them and the occasional new person and hoping that seeing my work at least made them smile to see it. anyways im just hoping anyone that followed me on twitter will find me here and that i can make some new friends with people here too.

[bookofmirth]

I think a lot of people on here if they’re not on Twitter also don’t really realize how malicious it is out there. Half of their content is screenshotting people’s posts and making fun of it. They’ve moved over to fanfiction and making fun of gwynriel stories, taking pictures from ao3 and roasting it. A certain part of the fandom online is going out of their way to find content against their views and to make fun of it. This is not creating a safe space for content creators at all. Ive definitely encountered fanfiction or art I don’t like even within my own ships and I just ignore it. I never go out of my way to find fanfiction of a ship I dislike to make fun of. There’s a difference between commenting on theories you don’t like, or calling out bad behaviour and sharing peoples stuff around maliciously. it’s extremely disheartening to see a whole side of the fandom using their energy to make fun of others that don’t agree with them.

Um, what the actual fuck. Why are people so disgusting???

I knew about Twitter, obviously, with the screenshotting to make fun of other people. It's happened to me. They also tend to stalk the same tumblrs to make fun of, it's like a pathetic hobby. And for people who are here or IG but not Twitter, they don't really realize how toxic that part of the fandom is. It's really, really gross.

For anyone curious, go on to twitter and search "gwynriel". It will only take a few minutes to want to run away screaming. So I just don't go there.

But I made that comment about fanfic on an ask kinda sarcastically?? I had no idea that people were actually doing that.

There is zero reason to behave this way. These people are miserable. And this is why I'm done being nice about it! I don't care what people do or don't ship or what theories or whatever they like! Don't be an asshole!

I dropped out of high school so someone please tell me - is this what it's like??? I have a sneaking suspicion that this is what it's like. The maturity level after acosf came out dropped to -17.

I am legit curious though - for people who haven't scrolled through the twitter fandom, take a look. Is it what you expected??