#this is such a huge thing for me you don't even understand T_T

[veilder]

Oh my goodness!!! Well, I somehow missed the occasion, but the other night, one of my fics, The Nearness of You, surpassed 1000 kudos!!! Holy shit, this is blowing my mind!!! o_O I legit never thought I'd ever have a fic that popular, wow! I just wanna say thank you so, so much to everyone who read and left reviews and kudos on that and all my fics, it truly means the world to me? And, since I never actually posted that fic to my blog here (I wrote it before I really started using Tumblr a lot), Imma take the time to do that properly in a minute, lol. So look out for it as my next post. XD

Thank you again, everyone. I wish I could do one of those like authors who does a giveaway or something for big milestones but I know myself well enough to realize that ain't gonna work, omg. XD But even still, I'm always happy to talk about prompt ideas or anything with y'all, so if you have any, you can for sure shoot them my way! XD

My very first chapter fic, my first attempt at a romance, my first romcom... and now my first fic to break 1k. Thank you all. Truly, thank you. ❤️💙❤️💙

[samsblades]

the idea of deer Hybrid!Sam has awakend so many things in me (thank you beatleswishes) just like. Deer Hybrid!Sam with a Bunny Hybrid!Reader 😔. He thinks your ears are so cute. You ask if you can touch the sharp tips of his antlers and he lets youu. I imagine Dean to be a Wolf Hybrid or some type of predator and he teases you about being a rabbit sometimes and then you give him a reason to actually be scared by you. It results in him teasing you less and more lightly and you softening up and teasing him too. Sam and the reader being so perfect for eachother. The both of you indulging in healthier food. And other not so adorable thoughts about this pair🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🫶 . My neurons are colectively trying to write more about them but i don't have any other ideas rn 🧍‍♀️

P.S : I hate the common, helpless, dumb, innocent, bunny reader so mf much, my reader is always going to be someone who's intimidating and really smart!!!!

-Yours, 🛻 anon

omg this is so cute T_T it's actually adorable i love it!! hehe i love all these ideas so much and if you have more that come to you later, i'll love to hear those too!!

the two of you being in love with each other's ears especially <33 and his antlers of course :,) crying why would they be so cute and hot at the same time... sam being obsessed with your bunny tail though??? hehehe

i love the idea of bunny!reader being intimidating and actually getting dean to back off somewhat (not totally of course; he's a huge tease by nature lol. but now you get to tease him back hehe)

and yeah, i understand if bunny reader being innocent and a little dumb is for a specific theme or concept, but it's definitely not my favorite/can be overdone or overexaggerated. it's occasionally enjoyable to me if done well, i find your idea of bunny reader way more appealing!! (esp because that type of bunny reader is generally also presented as fem lol) but yeah, i think i like a sort of mix of the two because it creates some contradiction and complication within a character! i love reader who can be a little awkward and maybe even clueless about some things, but who's also very intelligent and has an intimidating side to them too hehe <33

[silantryoo]

as much as im annoyed by the potential implications of the mhj/hybe drama i do feel like theres way too much speculation rn ... rlly doesn't sit so well with me that everyone is bashing on mhj alone (im not supporting her either though) and not bang sihyuk too. some hybe stans rlly js worship the guy and idk why . its not like he's innocent too. like those texts from him are so annoying too. abt if she's satisfied that nwjns is so popular and also abt trying to rival aespa / bp alone ...

hybe has sm power and r known for their mediaplay so i rlly do wish people would keep that in mind instead of doing their own speculation to bash on mhj . we don't know fs if she's the reason behind seunghan, youngseo, etc .... it seems so forced that everyone just collectively is making stuff up on their own theories and pissing on her. like im all for it when everything's done with but it's giving misogyny to me ughhh idk how to explain it eitherr without sounding like a mhj stan I PROMISE IM NOT TAKING HER SIDE T_T i just cant help but feel like poeple find it easier to hate and bash on women sometimes. even me scrolling x nowadays feels so annoying. literally feel so bad for illit and nwjns rn.

personally i was a teeny annoyed that illit had a similar image to nwjns w their nostalgia/coquettecore (also though just seems like cute/youthful concept is making a cb in general in kpop) but only because their songs on super real me were the exact type of songs i liked most from nwjns (super shy, hurt etc. the softer less peppy songs compared to hybe boy) so it bothered me that there was an implication that nwjns might be forced to distance itself to a more differing concept to keep some contrast btwn the two ... but ik that's not illit's fault at all (literally love the girls sm im a runext fan ^^) i feel like i can understand the upset that illit was getting a similar concept when every other grp before illit in hybe had more defined concepts seperating each other. but once again that's all hybe's doing ...... seeing the choreographers supporting mhj too makes it seem like not even the nwjns team or even all the staff were on board with the references in the choreo either...

anyways i do hope this controversy doesnt impede on either grps promos :( and i rlly hope everything gets sorted out... im srsly hoping this doesnt turn into a 5050 situtation again but with nwjns i was so upset when that happened . was curious on what your thoughts were or if u were keeping up with everything?

the way im coming back to reply to this first thing after my exams is insane, but this nwjns thing makes me so angry for all the idols under hybe. both parties j cares sm ab money that they're blindsided by the potential of ruining their idols careers, mental health and images. mhj is being stupid and hybe does seem to be doing anything to protect nwjns (as far as we know. i could be wrong).

(yawl, jsyk i obv dont have ALL the information. from what ive seen online and the articles ive read, this is what I THINK. ME. youre free to think smthn else, whether i agree or not.)

i def thing that bang hyung sik (bhs) isn't innocent either. although min heejin (mhj), in my opinion, is more in the wrong j based on the treatment of other idols, bhs seemed to provoke her, and on top of that, the company seems to blindly support ppl and give them a platform so long as they make profit for the company. ive been seeing a lot of ppl saying hes j human but youd think theres a reason why mhj got kicked from sm, yk? and you j took her back in w open arms.

hybe is v good at media play fs. its their forte, and ppl seemed to stray from the from the main problem. mhj is using nwjns as a weapon. hybe probably is doing the same thing w their other groups too, dont get me wrong. ppl seem to forget that this entire issue isnt "drama", its a legal battle ensuing between a huge corporation and its subsidiary. hybe has infinite power compared to ador. its horrible on both ends.

the thing is tho, mhj has consistently been showing the public red flags. the lyrics of 'cookie (ik she didnt write the lyrics but shes the ceo. she got them approved)', the portraits gifted to her of naked underaged girls, her obsession w olivia hussey (who happens to look like minji), her treatment of sm employees, her past work w shinee (sexualization of underaged taemin), etc. not to mention her extremely (at least in my eyes) inappropriate relationship w nwjns. the gifts shes gotten them and how she uses their emotions as a weapon. if bhs did that, everyone would be up in arms.

i dont think (for the most part) this is misogyny. i think ppl alw had a weird feeling about her. at least i did.

idt its good to speculate on ppls departure tho. youre def right ab that. the lsfm hate train (esp the coachella one) most likely has nothing to do w mhj. and i do agree that hybe copied or was at least inspired by nwjns, but idt illit copied them. illit and nwjns have a very 'pinkpantheress' sound, the uk early 00's bedroom pop genre. however, nwjns is more y2k and illit is more dream-like, ykwim? hybe was def inspired by nwjns tho. i think a more fitting one would be tws tbh. their sound is v similar to me (emphasis on to me) than illit.

dont get me wrong, it's incredibly shady and the way that a lot of staff are on her side makes me think that hybe was leeching off of the success of nwjns. it referenced all girl groups under hybe tho, lsfm and fromis, but there was def more nwjns references.

what im worried ab the most are the groups, esp nwjns. lsfm has been going thru their own struggles and rn this isnt the best for them, but theyre not extremely involved in the situation, not like nwjns and illit. illit, from what ive seen, has majority of the success and recognition from overseas. however, their success in korea'll take a huge hit. itll def take a toll on the girls mental, considering they j debuted and this happened.

nwjns is the worst off. theres a chance they might leave w mhj if ador does pull away from hybe, which isnt in the groups best interest. mhj's press conference and overall attitude is gonna affect their upcoming release fs, and their proximity to mhj herself is worrisome.

hybe doesnt seem to be doing shit to protect their artists, they're j protecting their name. theres no statement on or for illit, no statement on malicious comments for any of the groups (that i know of).

tldr: min heejin and hybe are both at fault. dont take sides of either, take the side of the idols.

sorry, im j so passionate ab this. the shit ive been seeing online has been making me mad. after getting back from the lsfm hate train too... as mad as i am at mhj, hybe GAVE her that platform. if the things they claim is true, and if the speculation is true, they alr knew from her past employment that she was shady. its their fault for allowing that.

[darknessisafriend]

My review of Dragon Age the Veilguard

(Nothing related to Joaquin this time ahaha) also some SPOILERS AHEAD! Once again that's my own personal experience with the games <3

My general impression: A solid 8/10, really enjoyed the game overall, I want to go through a second playthrough already. My impressions my evolve up or down with time as well.

What I loved in the game:

Artistic direction, such beautiful maps and environments, i'm not the kind of players to take screenshots and here I couldn't stop ahah.

A game that gets also quite vertical, you have to climb, jump, feels quite free and fun

The character design options, including gender diversity, wide options

The game is not bugged at all (I played on PC, it flowed perfectly)

You really get a feeling of Mass Effect 2, build a team for a suicide mission, action based, for me it was positive, huge ME fan

The combat was incredibly fun, you have so many options, such cool moves, I played a mage necromancer, and I would do it again. I also played from the Mourn Watch and it will probably remain my favorite

You can see the impact of your decision in the game, you can see things changing with time so you get a sense of threat, of emergency or hope

The story itself was really cool, like the vilains were amazing, they had a crazy aura and even Solas remain the king of sass

Act 1 and 3 were my favorite, so tense, you go everyowhere, you don't know what's going to be the outcome, etc, loved it

There are a lot of references in the game about the previous games, characters that you see again, if you played the other games it does feel reeally nice and if you didn't play the game that's okay as well^^

That secret ending! OMG I hope we get another game I'm really curious and it could change a lot of things

What I like less, things that could be better:

Gosh I don't know how to describe it ahah. First, romances, I wish we had more content (Lucanis water love making scene T_T), like in DAI (banter included) we had about 50 min (smthg like that), of content with our LI. In DATV it's about 20ish minutes, and I felt it a bit even though I had a really nice romance that will be my favorite as well which is Emmerich, he is so well written, and our son Manfred T_T also there was nudity and here not really, my rook wore underwear, it's not something super important but still it was suprising after MEA and Baldur.

I saw one post about this on Tumblr and I kind of understand what they meant. The post said something like you are the leader of the time and yet you feel apart from your companions sometimes, you see them hanging out, even flirting, in some cinematics you are like okay I leave you guys hanging out! I didn't feel like my companions truly appreciated me except Emmerich and Bellara a bit. like they didn't reach out to me in my room, we didn't hang out, have a game of wicked grace or such, no they were doing they book reading club, cooking chores and such but not rook. Idk I felt a bit left out sometimes compared to DAI where first of all you could not get along with a companion (like slap the egg) but I was bestie with Dorian and that could be felt!

I love my Rook really, had great fun, got attached and such but it's not like my inquisitor. I got so emotional to see my inky in DATV and all I was craving was to play her again, to see her more. Even if her not being the protagonist is well justified; I couldn't help but feel illegitimate, she should have been by the side of Varric, she should have been acting with Dorian in Minrathous, it was her fight. I struggle a bit to understand why Rook was better for that, maybe because he wasn't emotional attached to Solas (even if he kinda grew on him)

I romanced Solas in my last DAI playthrough and so I kinda had a closure and a nice one at the end of DATV (a few tears fell) BUT I also love romancing Dorian for example and I wish he had a cinematic with Inky of seeing each other again after years appart. Others romances as well, have some followup.

I love Hanz Zimmer, I was so hyped! and h edid a good job but turns out I wish Trevor Morris had been back for DATVn felt more epic, it got into your guts.

Anyway that's my thought 1h after finishing the game, maybe other points will come out later, but I just needed to share my impressions ^^

[ibusukiss]

Boueibu Rewatch

Thursday's for the Boys! 8

Season 2 - Episodes 10-12

CW: I dont like s2 very much and talk about it pretty openly, please don't read if that's a bummer for you

Episode 10

THE HOME STRETCH YALL

tawarayama being piloted by womsan is me after work

maybe ive been watching too much of game grumps playing danganronpa but why does binan land immediately make me think of the theme park in danganronpa 2

deadpan, without looking up, my gf about yumoto: 'why is he screaming'

i just realized how strange it is they made the choice to make it a cloudy day - like its so normal for anime to automatically go 'oh theme park ep? its sunny!' but...its cloudy! im reading too much into this!

i dont hate the 3d shockingly but in this era 3d usually meant they were running out of time to animate haha

YEAH YUMOTO BACKSTORY NEEDS DRAMA TO BE EFFECTIVE hmmm i wonder what they couldve been forshadowing

probably the most nothing monster in the whole show

omg its seitokai <3

at least they know theres a ton of exposition lmao

p sure the crab guy is jakurai?

NANDATTE moment, iconic

En said yeah yall can talk to my lawyer

ok. gora sleeping beauty moment does slap i must say

Episode 11

oh boyyy more backstory

good to know theres deadbeat dads and bullies in space

i do LOVE the twins kinkshaming eachother lmao

aaaaAAA the student coucil music makes everything ok <3

ok kinshiro's bed placement has such terrible feng shui

oh boy weirdly sexual dadacha torture time!

this episode is wild actually

dadacha omorashi fanfic when oh wait its canon

the composition of a lot of these shots is so fascinating, they were definitely running out of time to animate...boys are all standing so close together. and some things look really good! im wondering if they got help from another studio or animator or smthn

god i keep remembering the plot as it happens.....

i must say im proud of them for not using any 3d for the idol moments, that wouldve been a huge bummer

ah yes classic dead boueibu

seitokai!!!! yay!!!!!

the show immediately gets better when they show up

KINCHAN LEGGGGG

AKOYA PRETTY HAIRRR

aaaand the ep is over

Episode 12

hhhhhh one more;;;; i can do it;;;;

kinchan i miss you no 3 meters disagrees

"the seitokai doesnt sing" just say we couldnt pay hiroshi kamiya enough for him to sing again this season

oh wait;;;; they did use a bit of 3d :,)

imagine if HK spent this much time on kyoata backstory T_T

i am sitting with the seitokai watching all of this passively rn

ok vepper calling them Bimbos is very good

LOVERS QUARREL

aaaa kinchan so cute, hes all red

'have you ever been part of a show where the writing sucks' a little too self-aware there

i dont even know what theyre fighting about at this point

kinchan thanks for the help with understanding whats happening

akoya wouldve loved having those wings :(

i made it;;;;; i made it to the end;;;;;

the good news is i never have to watch s2 again!

in all seriousness, i know boueibu is supposed to not be taken seriously, so my expectations of s2 are impossibly high. i am glad there are those that get enjoyment from s2 ^_^

OVA next week! then HK time! Ata's beautiful face! in 2 weeks!!! yippee!!!

[randomgentlefolk]

CPC CHAPTER 157

I'm— I just. SOB BLAINE AND FREDERICK??

Ooh!! I should've expected this room to show up in her dream. I'm guessing that it has something to do with the reflections in the sugars?? In the chapter where Frederick and Gwen was in this room, their sweet moment was interrupted by Gwen seeing her reflection in one of the sugar. Maybe the reflections will tell her something regarding her view of herself? Or maybe they will instead warn her about what's happening at the Palace's hall? (By that I mean the war)

Or perhaps...We will see Frederick?

Okay, moving on to the war—

Bruh they gotta STOP finishing each other's sentence it's driving me crazy and slowly taking my hope away from Blaine T_T

I still have my hopes on Blaine, but it's fading away veryyyy slowly. I'm trying hard to believe in him tho. Good thing I have fanfics and my imagination to help me cope through this :')

Also HECK YEAH IT'S SHOWDOWN TIME!!!

May I just say, I love Jamie speaking in Wingdings XD. I tried to translate it but weirdly it didn't translate into an understandable sentence/word. It's just gibberish.

Curtis with a broom...HE'S SO COOL?? Never underestimate butlers real (Curtis, Alfred)

Lorzanna moment!! They are adorable :D Also they are soooo gonna kick Leland's butt.

Also everyone should just use Laverne as a defense strategy here, just saying. It seems to be really effective.

Leland's threat kinda takes my interest here. What do you mean "or else I will"? Do you mean you can just literally stop what's going on right here right now? Then why not just do it now? Or by that does he mean he's going to punish the Plaid Princes in the dungeon again...or worse? Uh well at the very least all I know is LELAND SUCKS.

GO, LANCE, GO!! Betray your bs of a father and stop your big brother from succumbing to the dark side!! I have faith in you :') Honestly even though Lorena don't really understand Lance's fear of Leland and calling him a coward kinda stung, but at the same time it's kinda a wake up call for him? I guess??

Oh yeah, sorry for ruining the moment here but I've been thinking about how sick his new scars would be like it would be shapes like an X and that's so cool?!

Yeah I gotta agree with Lorena here, that was kinda creepy Leland... But Lorena's throw was amazing. Like dang..that spear must be heavy as frick and she throws it with a huge strength?? Lorena = Undyne confirmed?

Beckett to the rescue!! :D love that guy. Hopefully the misunderstanding between Maria and Gwen will clear up though :')

And lastly...the one I'm ejwnsuehw about the most...

Blaine c'mon man Blaine wait listen to me dude wait wait wait. Stop okay stop don't do this 😭😭 Literally go meditating with Whitney bro THIS IS NOT YOU. I don't think i can change you at this point but literally you don't even want to change. And this is the most difficult part because no matter how much you want to help someone, it's pointless if they don't even wanna help themselves. I'm really hoping he would get redemption arc especially because of what Isolde told him in chapter 144.

Oh! I almost forgot. Let's look into the fast pass section!

So first of all we have Blaine vs. Frederick :') but what takes my interest the most is.. The Prince vs. The Prez... Obviously the prince is Blaine, since it uses singular noun and in the thumbnail we see Blaine and Prez. But what caught my attention is "the Prez..." the prez what? The prez club? This could be something regarding cpc, or maybe Prez creates a new group? I can't wait for it to upload :D

Well that it's for today, now let me just sob on the floor while holding my plaid clothes in front of my cats again.

Mono out! (But still in to hear your thoughts)

[tobiasdrake]

So, this is Yakou's wife. No name's been given for her yet and I don't remember if we got one for her before but I like her already.

That's one thing to call homunculus experiments, to be sure.

I want so badly for her ghost or homunculus or whatever to be the one to cure the ferals. Her genius intellect stabilizing the defective homunculi would be the ultimate posthumous mic-drop on her shitty fucking boss.

Neurodivergent people are brilliant in their own way but lousy with information classification. I struggle constantly to remember what I am and am not allowed to talk about with my own work.

The chemistry between these two is fantastic. They had the whole goddamn game to make Yuma/Kurumi happen and I'm already more invested in this romance than I ever was in that one.

I mean. If this is for something as benign as a job offer, then there's no reason for Yakou to turn down a cool mil.

Of course, just because he's probably from the UG labs, doesn't mean his intentions are as simple as that. If she's on the cusp of brilliant research that could change the course of the homunculus competition, then this could be an assassination. It could also be an either/or offer. Work for us OR we'll have you killed.

And now she wants Yakou to claim incompetence.

She's not exactly hard to find. She's not bunkered down in a safehouse somewhere. She works at the biggest megacorporation in town and then goes home.

I'm tentatively with Yakou on this.

She doesn't know what's happening on his end of things. But. Like. He's supposed to have his leg broken by mafiosos for failure to pay his rent, so that she can avoid being mildly inconvenienced for an hour?

If we're meant to believe the guy's dangerous then this conversation shouldn't have started with her going, "Oh, he just wants to offer me a job. I'll go see him right now, let's go." Something broke down in this dialogue exchange.

Protecting you from what? Having to say no to a job offer? One you were entirely willing to go turn down in person five minutes ago?

Cool. You come with me, we'll tell the client that, and then he'll pay me my million and we bounce. I don't understand why this is suddenly such a big deal.

Unless he is sketchy as fuck but you were the one who said it's fine, he's harmless, this is no big deal at all. What changed between now and one cup of coffee ago?

This conversation took a huge tonal shift without any accompanying shift in the stakes. What is happening right now.

Sell her out to what? Do we both think that he's going to kidnap her? Or kill her? Or something? Because it's plausible but it hasn't been raised in conversation as a likelihood. Again, she was willing to go five minutes ago. She's the one who said this was fine.

And then Yakou takes the worst of both worlds. I will not collect the million for finding you but you should still take the job anyway.

What is happening in this conversation. T_T

Despite the weird turn this conversation took, their chemistry is still great. I like this ship. I hope it saves Kanai Ward.

Well, let's get--

While Yakou whines about losing out on his payday, MOTHERFUCKER FOLLOWED US HERE. He knew we wouldn't complete the job. That's a bad sign.

THAT'S WORSE. THAT'S A WORSE SIGN.

ASSASSINATION. I HAD IT AT ASSASSINATION.

Well, at least now we have an established threat so Yakou's efforts to protect her won't feel so out-of-the-blue.

KICK HIS ASS, YAKOU! Not words I ever expected to say out loud but this is a decrepit old man. He's probably even more pathetic than Yakou.

No, physics. That cigarette definitely fell straight into the guy's mouth while Yakou was gloating.

[panelshowsource]

HEY NOW...

aw thanks anon!! i did post my gif resources a while ago but i can post an updated one of these soon and include some psds! my gifs really aren't that good tho anon — if i'm being honest, i don't really spend that much time on colouring like i could — so if you can find someone PROPERLY good (usually a film/tv blog, as you can imagine) they may have really expert tips 🤔

as someone who has been at the ugliest end of reddit & discord tv/britcom fans' trolldom (too nice a word, really), and lived through the fucking unending years-long era of that one incel's rule over the panel show subreddit, i understand the reticence to participate in those spaces — even though, these days, they're mostly pleasant enough and subs that supply downloads (tv_bunny is life) are more or less transactional. that said, the purpose of this blog has always been to service the people who can't or don't torrent — who a lot of reddit & discord tv/britcom fans don't have the patience for, but i digress — so it doesn't bother me that a lot of my followers don't know reddit as well as i do. no worries!

omg! recently i watched after life (i love kerry godliman!!!!!!!), dara ó briain's new special, and i've also been doing my biannual re-listen of the entire horne section podcast because it is so fucking impeccable chef's kiss! i was catching up on guessable but it's really, deeply, truly mid, so i kinda gave up for a while and switched over to breeders (martin freeman agenda continues). otherwise non-panel show things, some films like close, return to dust, un beau matin, etc. — but that's for my main hehe i'm someone who wishes i could watch 10000 things in one day T_T

hahaha i do get asked this a lot!!! like you there's just so. many. and i often chicken out of substantially answering this because if i forget anyone i'll kick myself SO hard later

but

back in the day i answered a similar question about some non-comedians i want to see on taskmaster AND I SAID AMELIA DIMOLDENBERG AND IT CAME TRUE

LIKE

MY BRAIN 🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠🧠

SO MAYBE I CAN MANIFEST THINGS LET'S TRY 🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮🔮

this is personal to me, of course, and i'm considering people i really love + who i think would be really fun specifically on taskmaster, so in a somewhat priority order...

robert webb

stephen mangan

robert irwin

catherine tate

jessica hynes

miles jupp

simon amstell (preferably on the same season as jessica hynes because about 15 years ago (literally) i used to watch this clip religiously, and i'm sure that has something very specific to say about why i am the way i am but we don't have time to psychoanalyse me rn)

larry dean

ed byrne

holly walsh

diane morgan

daniel radcliffe

charlie brooker

hugh laurie

susie dent (omg i was CACKLING at susie, who is never on panel shows(!!!), being on the same episode of guessable as nick helm — and now i kinda wanna see her on the same series of tm as nick helm muhahaha)

kayvan novak

limmy

paul foot

bill bailey

lawrence chaney (i also love the vivienne of course! but i think lawrence may be more fit for tm while the vivenne is more fit for something like celeb juice; btw just watched her on guessable with ivo graham, and ivo calling her "viv"...omg...it did something to me...it really did...again, we're not talking about why i am the way i am)

vic reeves

the sexted boys

some other randoms people i'd certainly be happy to see, even if they don't make the priority manifesting roster — ahir shah, adam buxton, danny dyer, jimmy carr, graham norton, matt berry, glenn moore, maggie aderin-pocock, gary delaney, hal cruttenden, rhys james, huge davies, josie long, alasdair beckett-king, gino d'acampo, julian barrett, and tonsss of actors but we'd be here all day

i don't think there are many people i vehemently do not want to see on the show. while there are of course a few comedians i just don't like, and if taskmaster puts another tory politician on the panel again i'll fucking write in with my upset, the disappointment i typically feel if and when i see a new lineup is more along the lines of "meh they're fine but they took the place of someone i'd much rather see". but tm is also so good at introducing us to people we may not have seen much of before — and then we love them, so i trust the producers and alex a lot!

🔮 MANIFESTING MANIFESTING MANIFESTING MANIFESTING MANIFESTING MANIFESTING MANIFESTING 🔮

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[cg-twys-daycare]

I'm so sad I don't have a CG or anyone like that at all T_T I wishing had somebody to talk about my plushies or cuddle with and eat cute snacks and stuff...my friends know but the usually don't even talk to me when I'm regressed :(

Also I don't know why but I feel a bit embarassed about it and also a little invalid because I don't fully go into kid mode when I regress? Like I can "turn it off"

- @lilbugzvamp

Oh sweetie!

I think that's a huge reason why there is such a huge age regression community on here. It's a reason why I made this account. If you ever feel like you want to chat, my messages are open.

No matter how you age regress, your regression is valid! It's okay to have feelings of embarrassment about things that people, even friends, don't understand. Sometimes, they need more education about the topic, and sometimes, they are not willing to communicate how they feel. It's all up to have you mentally feel when telling someone about this very vulnerable identity about you.

Your regression is yours. It can be very individual and as unique as you are.

[divorcingjimmatthews]

huge spoilers for s2e8 forest for the trees!!

okay watching this episode upset me NGL :'))) so much bad stuff happened the whole "get hurt in your dreams" thing is terrifying and so are the cicadas (boyd's worms were larvae?). we saw the community get splintered all through the second season so it doesn't even feel like they're all together in this like it did by the end of s1. each group is up to their own thing and not talking to each other because they don't trust each other—it hurts

seeing that some of the attempts that the characters made at connecting or reconnecting through the season actually failed was very painful. it really feels like things are getting broken beyond repair and i hate that feeling. at least we have the really cute and soft situation going on with ethan, julie, victor and mrs liu—ethan and julie telling victor about the internet was literally the sweetest and funniest thing. my heart is so full of love for this man

jade and victor

speaking of victor, it's understandable that he has been withholding information. he literally thinks that trying to leave will get everyone killed. it's also understandable that jade got so frustrated with him—he thinks that not trying to leave will get everyone killed. given the new terrors that are brewing, it's a good thing that tabitha was there to gently nudge the answers out of victor. yay tabby!

jim and randall

as for jim—i'm just gonna say that i've seen people on the main FROM server call him tinfoil jim and it didn't not get a chuckle out of me, LOL. he said that he wasn't gonna let this place turn him into someone he's not, and that's good, both he and jade are clearly struggling back and forth against the effect the place is having on them and i'm rooting for them to come out on top, but dammit, sometimes it just hurts to watch.

jim, couldn't you have waited until you could touch base with tabby about this? and the "interrogation" scene... what are you even doing, jim... T_T at least he's realised it now, let's just hope it wasn't too late

boyd and donna

the whole thing happening with team boyd is the biggest point in favor of victor's approach—did he bring all that shit along with him back from his quest? :') what is even the point of being able to kill the monsters if you've got much worse threats around now, that can get you inside your home and hurt you in your dreams. the whole thing is making me so anxious that it's basically making me want to agree with victor and donna and say that living out your days in the town the best you can is the best case scenario here. anyway—i guess that ship's sailed now. they gotta find a way out...

not even gonna talk about randall cuz im so disappointed istg T_T

EDIT: thought i should make it clear that i don't think what's happening to jim is his own fault. he would not be this close to his limit if donna and team boyd didn't keep everything under wraps. they should realise that what they're doing is causing the opposite effect of what they were hoping for. the issue here is that they don't trust their own people, they only trust their own judgement, and that's pretty fucking bad. and it's a self-fulfilling prophecy too because they've got people like jim looking insane because they're acting on incomplete or deliberately skewed information. i understand that they're dealing with more than anyone should have to be dealing with but damn. mistakes were made man :(

EDIT 2: i'm so worried that boyd is going to die because "nevermind i'll tell you later :)" is so ominous like ellis you're in a story!! there may not be a later!!!!

[specialgradefckr]

dear author,

I am OBSESSED with BYHTD, I'm down so bad for the way you've created your characters that at this point it's interfering with my sanity, my work, my studies, my sleep AND I CAN'T EVEN BRING MYSELF TO EVEN SLIGHTLY DISLIKE YOU FOR IT!! and talking to you is the closest I'll ever get to speaking to your characters.

And God knows i desperately want a conversation with satosugu right now. It is so bad that I've read part 1 about 5 times and pt 2 about 10 times (but not the entire thing. I pick bits and pieces that i want to re read.)

I just. Is Suguru jealous of SATORU now? Would he cave in now? Will SATORU even go along with the plan anymore?

Also also also, I love love LOVE LOOOVVEED how 50% of suguru's brain was just all about ensuring that satoru doesn't open his mouth. You've shown him sooo desperate I NEED TO PHYSICALLY SQUISH YOUR CHEEKS FOR DOING THIS AMAZING THING WITH YOUR CHARACTERS KSKAKZJXC

Also, now i finally understand what you meant by it when you said reader has agency. Bcoz DAMN MINTING MONEY OFF OF THEM SCRATCHED AN ITCH in me after part 1's heart wrenching twists and turns.

If you played chess you'd be a grandmaster.

another ask from mid-january that i'm just now getting to kfhglshdg sorry BUT I AM GETTING THERE! even though i think i've talked about this series a ton already.

i was super happy to receive this ask, it was so fun to read through your thoughts and commentary!!! bro i feel like a LOT of people are actually invested in the BYHTD storyline and it's soooo motivating,,, love you guys <3

let's see if i can't answer some of your burning questions without giving too much away hehe

for who suguru is jealous of - well, he definitely wanted to fuck you, and satoru got to do that while suguru mostly just watched. and in their twisted minds, you carving your name into satoru was basically a love confession - one that suguru didn't get.

so as far as The Plan is concerned, who knows. the plan was to make you go crazy enough to make the first move - as far as satoru is concerned, mission accomplished (or is it? you did leave, after all).

suguru's pride was definitely a huge focus point in part 2, i liked being able to get in his head and expand on it, and i'm glad that it's incited all these strong feelings from everyone,,, suguru becoming byhtd fan's most wanted man (negative) lmao

he DEFINITELY hates the idea of like. satoru spilling all the beans and putting him in a spot where he has to either confirm or deny. because as long as suguru doesn't tell you "i'm not interested" or "i don't want you", then he's got some kind of plausible deniability. he never lied to you about his feelings. he was just waiting for you to come to him.

but he can't even pretend he's waiting for you to come to him if he denies any feeling for you. so he re-directs. he mocks you, brings satoru into the conversation bc he knows it'll make you jealous.

i also feel like i did a good job of both giving the reader agency, and also showing how you get absolutely nowhere with it T_T

everyone gets what they want, technically, and also no one gets what they want... so the story continues~

[samsblades]

sam is so oxford university in autumn/winter coded to me, like i js know he’d love the radcliffe camera library n like being on the balcony bit overlooking everything n everyone n js thinking abt what they’re thinking abt n recognizing everyone is different n i feel like he’d a magdalen or brasenose boy. honestly he’d go to the colleges founded in like the 1400s bc i feel like he’s rlly into old architecture

also he’d deffo js like go roaming through his college n he makes it a routine n now it’s his second yr at oxford that’s how he’d come across an ethereally beautiful girl who’s in first year (you) crying bc the food in the food hall is so shit (i remember i went to magdalen college on a skl trip like 2 years ago n it was a slab of chicken n some chips with broccoli n a pot of gravy) and also apparently from what ive heard first years dont get a kitchen in their accommodation so they hv to eat in the food hall every night for first yr.

so he and u become friends, go out drinking, u study wtv u wanna study n obvs he does law so yous study together like all the time, and when i say all the time after like a lecture u call each other n its like “yeah let’s meet here” or “already saved ur seat in the library” and its so cute. or if its like getting dark early n u dont feel safe hes like “stay where u r i’ll come get u” even if hes like on the other side of campus he’s js such a lil cutie pie

then eventually he invites u over to his dorm (u guys r in the same college) n u guys cook and together and hv set nights together after a while and u both start dating and he graduates a year before you and goes back to america but at the beginning of ur last year u put ur name down for a PhD scholarship wtv thing at stanford n get in so u guys r reunited n live happily ever after

also fun fact: the oxford scenes in saltburn were shot in brasenose college and obvs some harry potter was shot there

genuinely though oxford is such a beautiful place it’s my dream uni, like i went to christ church too and it was so pretty, magdalen was pretty too there was like a lake and we walked past like a field with animals on it (i forgot what they were but it was either sheep or alpacas) and u can walk all over the place

-💽

I COULDN'T AGREE MOREEEE he is so oxford coded, esp for the colder months. sam is sooo autumn core <33 i do not understand all the references here but! i'm sure they're all facts, and i hugely agree he'd like the school's with old architecture like that !!! which on a side tangent, i think he'd like my school too bc of the old buildings and the campus is so pretty! (but would not fit him academically too well LOL... not intellectually simulating enough i fear, though i do think he would've liked. a liberal arts school hehe)

anyways!! FIRST YEAR CRYING ABOUT THE FOOD LOLLLL THAT'S SO FACTS SO ME CORE... I HATE MY SCHOOLS DINING HALLLL T_T and yeah he would absolutely always come get you and walk you where you need to go when it's dark! even if you don't ask. like especially when it's at a regularly scheduled time, he knows your whole class schedule, so he'll come get you when your class is done if he's not in class himself!!

MMM the idea of you getting your phd at stanford is so cute!! i love it i love it <333 literally happily ever after, i need that shit hehe <#

no because oxford is SO beautiful ofc i've never seen it in person, but i've ofc seen it in movies and pictures and it's such a dream. i have faith you'll make it to your dream school!! with all the sheepies and alpacas and the pretty lake!

[cameheretorepent]

Karma hit harder than a muhh

Hello ol' kindred spirit, It’s been quite some time. I've wanted to reach out at times and reply more but felt unsure if it was the right thing to do. On a personal note, things have been a bit rough on my end, but I guess that’s just the way of the world these days, isn’t it?

I wanted to take a moment to express my heartfelt apologies for how things played out between us. I genuinely miss the friendship we shared, especially my bond with N. She became an incredibly close girl friend, someone I deeply valued during a time when I felt I had no one else. Her sisterhood meant a lot to me. And the Court gaming sessions were the highlight of many days. I really miss the excitement of our friend group as it was something new and special for me. I think I've expressed all this to you before.

As much as I'd love to reconnect, I believe it might not be the wisest choice at the moment. I came here to repent. Looking back, I realize my actions were deeply wrong. Going behind N’s back and lying to everyone was a mistake I deeply regret. It caused a rift in our connections, and for that, I’m truly sorry.

My recent ending of a painful relationship triggered the regrets I've had to the forefront. I found out that he was engaging with other girls behind my back, under the guise of 'friendship', which has completely and utterly shattered me. However, it was a huge culmination of a series of red flags – his interactions with other women, his online onlyfrenz/waifu habits, and all the untruths which I can't even begin to fathom how much omitted information there was. I feel angry with myself for ignoring my intuition and turning a blind eye because I was in love and feared being abandoned. The pain and loneliness is crushing and unbearable on top of leaving me with a heavy heart and no one to confide in.

I hope this doesn’t come across as a pity party; it’s just the current reality I’m navigating through. Writing this amidst my tears is oddly therapeutic, allowing me a momentary sense of relief. The universe said sike tho, cause I'm sobbing again. lol curses T_T

Your message response, even just reading this, means a lot. I appreciate your kindness, understanding, and confidentiality. I hope life is treating you well, despite the challenges it throws our way. I am sorry if me sharing is disturbing anything. I am sorry if I am intruding. I just...am feeling broken and lost and deeply exposed rn on top of that. Yeeeek I don't even know if sharing all this was the right thing to do, but i just want to say THANK YOU and I'M SORRY I AM CONFLICTED AF ABOUT SO MUCH RN, HEARTBREAK IS A MOFO xD -AND SCENE! *exits stage left* *cries into pillow*

[elaichoi]

PLSDJJIDS I WAS THE OPPOSITE like i didnt wanna pay money but also like i had to have it to reach my fullest potential 👹👹👺

yes exactly i burnt out big time OTL cheers to being *less* mentally ill in the near future ^3^

that's totally understandable,, from the way i see it a majority of the asian population that goes by undiagnosed is v large,, and i'm not basing this off of any actual studies though i know there are some out there- but rather just the role culture (at least in most east asian cultures is as far as i'm qualified to speak for lol) plays in mental health makes diagnosis and treatment,, idk and just going by undiagnosed makes me sad that there are ppl who think this is the norm and that it's something you are expected to get over bc it's something "everyone goes thru" :( i very much relate on the front of gaslighting urself/being gaslit into thinking u just can't handle struggles that "everyone else manages to manage well" n that rlly sucks im sorry beb </3

DAMN LOL we r on the same boat on the same river 🥲 my little tiny snowball also started out w family problems and oh my god my mental health has come out of its hiding >o< i remember my counselor describing it as an unvented pressure cooker lmao

don't answer if you don't wanna, but do you still feel that way in the sense of repressing ur emotions? like refusing to acknowledge it ? i think i was like that for a small period of time but now im like the complete opposite which is like half miserable half not lmfaoo i will forever be the biggest advocate for anyone getting therapy even if u think u don't need it,,, but!! i also know its a big step and may not be accessible for some :<

no yeah cus i feel so gross and overwhelmed and like not in control of things and so ill start spiraling if i dont get up and take a shower ^_^

not throwing pity confetti in your face, just as someone who can relate at least in some ways, big kudos to u for having so much patience to put up w everything bc it must b very hard not to lose ur marbles all the time,,,, standing w u solider 🫡

OH TRUE I FORGOT AB THAT UGH BARF i remember ig always fucked up my video quality saur bad even after rendering n shit T_T

aaa goodluck bae<3 hehe yeah i always rlly want to after seeing so many pretty edits jdksdkf i might i might we shall see :>

STOPITNFSISD I WISH I COULD INSERT A REACTION PIC BC UR RIZZ GAME I HAVE NO WORDS HAHSDJJJ

mental health is such a fuck up like it's like a ticking bomb the way it can go off at any point of life and the urge to ghost everyone, im so ashamed fr

yeah like most of asian countries i feel like. in our culture mental health is seen as something that is seen interjected with "adulting" like when you grow up you're supposed to feel like this and it's your duty to like make peace with it and if you try to seek help for it your family members kinda take it like a failure like you couldnt even deal with this? there's just a whole lot of stigma surrounding it and on top of that, therapy not being that widely available in south asia is a huge problem.

bro pressure cooker, im glad to know you're actually very up front with your feelings now. it's always better than bottling them up, at least you don't feel like a stranger to yourself either, my issues make me feel like an imposter within myself like it's hard to distinguish between things that I feel like I'm making up and the other things that's fucking me up.

YOU ARE SO NICE I AM WITH YOU TOO MY SOLDIER ILY!!!!

lmao ngl I was like those scenario and concept editors right I would have continued to edit bc my edits were like THSIE most beautiful scenes in kpop mvs but I stopped bc the resolution was ASSS THAT TOO WHITE ASSS!!!!!

OMG i wonder how i rizzed u up 😩😩😩😩

[a-mag-a-day]

MAG 53 - baking something with all those apples I cut in the kitchen

Love that a lot of the episode titles have two meaning or are outright puns. Crusader here referring to the tank and the knight corpse.

Another I had a bit of a hard time following. I think the voice acting is really fitting here, but the frantic tone messes with my ability to process what's told.

Gloucestershire… British pls… why? Just… why??? T_T (Knowing that this is a trick pronunciation I would just say "Gloshshshshsh")

"I was the gunner. I’ve always had good eyes, you see, and you really need that for the gun." - Good eyes you say…?

3:29 " The Italians had unsurprisingly taken a page out of Rommel’s handbook", right at "page", someone turns a page! The VA actually turning the page of the script or intentional soundscaping (since there is more paper rustling to come)?

"Then I saw it: a flash of light, a twinkling glint of sun from the enemy tank. In the back of my mind, I knew what it meant: the sun reflecting off their own binoculars" - music is playing at this part and I don't understand why? xD Usually music accompanies something spooky happening. While this is a scary situation especially hearing someone burning to death without any way to help them, I don't know if it's mean to be supernatural spooky stuff? I mean it's an Eye statement, binoculars would fit that bill, but otherwise?

Very soft at 5:33, very briefly at 6:58, 7:49 - scraping sounds (at 7:00 with a knock, like making a period with a pencil) and paper shuffling like someone's taking notes? Gertrude perhaps? I think this is indeed intentional soundscaping.

10:10 also shuffling can be heard. All throughout the statement there's a bit of shuffling here and there, I think it fits very well.

"but instead there came the scent of something else. All that, at that point I had no idea what it was but I would have described it as not unlike wood." - Paper and Papyrus is made of plant fibers ¯_(ツ)_/¯

"It should have been pitch dark. Though there was no light at all filtering through into those underground caverns, but it still – I could see everything. " Good eyes indeed.

"At the same time I suddenly got the most intense feeling of being watched, like a thousand eyes turned to me at once." <.<

"From within its huge, flowing hood I could see nothing except a single lidless eye." - I think that one is the inspiration for the Eye of the Entity Tarot designs which are in the Rusty Quill merch shops.

GERTRUDE "The bronze grate over the entrance to the archive." <.<

WALTER "I have just now. That funny turn I took on the way down the stairs, I felt it again. All those eyes watching me." - <.< (I absolutely love this Archive lore in this episode.)

"There’s even one unnamed contemporary historian that describes the mob attacking the Serapeum not as Christians, but using a phrase which roughly translates as “those who sing the night”." - Worshippers of the Dark attacking the Archive? It would make sense, they are complementary. Things unseen and things seen.

"What was it? A guardian of some sort? Or perhaps… perhaps… it too was once an archivist." - Ok, so on my first listen I already had a suspicion that Archivists are not just people in an archiving job. Jane called Jon "Archivist". Also before I reached this episode my sister once called me "Archivist" and I was already like "Why would she do that if there wasn't a deeper meaning?". Hearing Gertrude contemplating, if this creature was once an Archivist, confirmed my suspicions.

Martin being a blessing once again! <3

"I just worry. You needed five stitches after you “accidentally” stabbed yourself with the bread knife." - My sister visited me just two days ago and she managed to stab herself with the bread knife XD Nothing severely, but it made me laugh. Also, Martin totally doesn't believe Jon here…

Ok ok, Martin asks Jon, if he wants a sandwich! I understood this like "Should I get a sandwich for you while you stay here and I go alone". And then Jon says he's coming with Martin! He totally didn't have to do that? Does he think Martin would poison the sandwich? I mean, Martin could poison every cup of tea he makes, so don't think Jon's thinking of that. Keeping an extra eye on Martin? Personally, that's my headcanon: This is where Jon starts going on lunch breaks with Martin. At first under the pretense of more surveillance and trying to find out more about him. But eventually he starts to just enjoy it and keeps doing it, especially after he finds out what that letter to his mum was about (in like 3 episodes). I mean, it would make sense, right? Why would someone think of the two of them "being close" otherwise?

"It reports an explosion in Alexandria which destroyed several buildings in the vicinity of Pompey’s Pillar and killed 17 people. Official investigation determined it to be a gas mains explosion" - THAT FUCKING FORESHADOWING!!!!! Biggest weakness of an Archive - gas mains.

Those damn gas mains are always full of spiders

[chaos0pikachu]

👄 for the ask game- happy Valentine’s Day! 🌈💖

oh damn I'm not prepared lol uuuuh okay so

👄- fav kiss (recent or all-time)

Oof, I'm gonna name a couple I think b/c I can't pick and I never said I wasn't a cheater!!

In not particular order:

Jack/Rose (Titanic) - the reunited kiss, after Rose jumps off the life boat and runs back to Jack. I'm actually a big fan of Titanic, it's one of the best films in cinema history IMO both thematically and on a technical level (everyone who argues about the stupid door or Rose not seeing her husband but Jack at the end doesn't understand narrative fight me).

Kinn/Porsche - episode 06, fuck do I have a thing for starcrossed kisses? Anyway, this kiss was peak, episode 6 in general was peak but this kiss was really the climax of the episodes story. I've seen a lot of "kisses that lead into a couple becoming a couple" but this one was special. I love the emotions in this kiss, Kinn giving Porsche an out, and Porsche kissing him essentially goodbye. I LOVE that Porsche leaves he doesn't stay, he breathes Kinn in and then leaves resolved. I always low-key wanted a fic of what-if Porsche didn't come back (but Kinn was still saved just by the other bodyguards) now that the story wrapped up and we know what Papa Korn was hiding (his freaking MOM) and how Porsche leaving, going into hiding, would change the following events of the season (Papa Korn, Tawan, etc)

Kurt/Blaine (Glee) - UGH I hate listing this one b/c I actually don't like Kurt and Blaine as a couple anymore. Like most things on Glee they became intolerable and out grew each other as characters. BUT - but, Glee is the reason I even found tumblr, and honestly, watching them kiss live was an experience. So for sentimental reasons like, I have to add them. Like folks might not remember but Kurt and Blaine were a HUGE deal back in the early/mid-00s there wasn't another same-sex couple like them at the time. I remember when they were on the cover of Entertainment Weekly, like the EXPLOSION in the media and with fans after Teenage Dream really can't be undersold. And their kiss was an EVENT both in fandom and the larger media. So I might dislike them as a couple now, but we'll always have that episode.

Utena/Anthy (Revolutionary Girl Utena): Okay so, legit, I'm actually not a huge fan of RGU the show was kinda boring tbh but the film was better and honestly I never thought they'd let Utena and Anthy kiss but then they did and it blew my tiny pre-teen brain to pieces. It was like when I read FAKE and saw the word "bisexual" for the first time. I just never seen two girls kiss, I didn't even know that shit was allowed. Utena and Anthy aren't my go-to anime lesbian couple (that's Haruka and Michiru but they never kissed in canon, Haruka kissed Sailor Moon but not their girlfriend rip T_T) but like Kurt/Blaine I gotta spot them for what they gave me as a kid

This was fun, sending you off with smooches of your own 😘😘😘