#this is so fucking sweet. Thank u. I love you random citizen

[sarioh]

While you are gone just saying i love you tumblr user rio sarioh

i love u too anon i hope u are doing well.......i am sorry for disappearing but im on my ethoslab arc right now (absent father)

[spotsupstuff]

I'VE COME TO RELIEVE YOU FROM THE HOARDE OF BEPPI LOVERS

this is your free ramble pass! feel free to use this ask as an excuse to ramble about whatever random crap you feel like rambling about

hmm..... how about... broadening the worldbuilding horizons a lil with some of the filler Iterators. here's the list of names that i'm slowly workin on to develop into enough of people for my tastes

most well defined of these rn are: Orion, Spore, Gem, Expiation, Rustle, NAE NAE BITCH (Embrace), Vapor and kind of Sadness

with Presence being... finished on account of literally being just IKEA memes the Iterator. that was sister's idea, not mine jglksdmcklsd he's a hippie during the day, creepy fuck during the night. one never knows what's goin on with him, but he's usually sweet n helpful. probably stands in dark hallways with a knife in hand right next to Notos tho. it also has a knife in hand

Orion's Pathway is slowly gaining on importance and characterization!

(quick concept doodle, very much subject to change yet but the mark is most likely gon stay)

he's the 3rd eldest Iterator of the Eo group, finished and brought online about 190 years (Or Honestly More, Fuckers Big n it is all very early on yet) after Boreas' construction. bein the Third means he actually got to socialize with Boreas' antisocial bum (and Zephyr too). all of the Iterator social business that Boreas doesn't wanna deal with he throws at This Kid until Euros comes around. then the two get to share Boreas' "i really don't wanna do this, here you kids go" shit

Orion might look all cool and stuff, but the idea of him wasn't actually even born out of the constellation/myth originally! the idea and also color palette all (will) come from the czech chocolate by the same name

fuckin Love this shit. and just like Orion Chocolate Shop's milk chocolate, Orion's Pathway is a sweet, soft kid that is just a delight to interact with. unlike Boreas, he's an actual angel without any blemishes. he's like the Prince Charming (cinderella 3) of the Iterators... he looks up to ol' Bee a lot <3 his voice claim is Ebucs as of rn

Orion is positioned here on the map (aaaand das Spore right under him <3):

which is Important cuz this darling fucker actually has lore that is very location specific

he serves as something of a physical border/something of a custom office(???) to the Frost's Promise group. works well with how much of a geographical choke point that there is. originally, this wasn't the case including his whole helmet look, but if u caught the whisper of that one war with Iterators in it that i mentioned, then this was it. that changed Orion from a regular Iterator to something of a border guard. the war was between the Ancients of the Eo group and the Frost's Promise group. it happened in the first quarter of Gen 2 ages, so Fish was already around but not Euros

he doesn't actually have a sword n a shield with his puppet, that is mostly mural and such stuff, but the helmet was added to make him look inspiring to his citizens n intimidating to the enemy whenever his image would be projected for whatever reason

he's also something of an old school Phone Operator and had the unofficial title of being the Chief of it just because of his age. after Euros shows up and gets the full hang of the communication systems + handling of the Aeolus Root, most of all Orion's Phone Operator privilages are stripped from him ("oh thank the void." he says, overworked and tired and so excited to get some time for himself. this little hyperactive red fuck is gonna handle it all Just Fine)

stuff for some other filler Iterators:

• Spore's whole thing was that she was originally meant to be one of the first medicine focused Iterator facilities. her placement in the shroom place was done on purpose because as we all know shrooms can get a lil funny in the RW universe. this went wrong though, when the spores of the shrooms got into her systems and started parasiting on her neurons similarly to cordyceps with ants. that is what those jellyfish lookin things stuck on her are!! parasitic neurons already tryin to take her over

a big part of Mission Self-preservation in her case was saving her from the fate that we see her succumbed to at the start of the Ascending Notos comic - her voice claim is something like... Fluttershy but with a Minion from Despicable Me effect/feel to it??? this is the real blorbo of the Eo group fuck everybody else • this is NAE. NAE is a bastard

often bitches about how stupid his name is. then two weeks after the Mass Ascension his arms just kinda Fall Off and he's like "OOOOOH. OOOOOOOOH. *OOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!* WELL *SOME-FUCKING-BODY* IS GIGGLING FROM THE BOTTOM OF THEIR VOID STAINED BATHTUB, AREN'T THEY. MOTHER. **FUCKER.**" - he's Euros' neighbour and his Mechanic at that time came to help Sparrows out with the 1st Rot situation. Euros likes annoying him a lot • Gem in an Eye is going to be based off of a witch a lil, she's gonna do shit with ✨ crystals ✨ (she's an asshole) • Sordid Expiation will be based off of a nun and will be bitchily religious (unlike Fish who is funnily religious- he's like a conspiracy theorist while Expiation is all serious bleeeeegh boooooo 👎) - Gem and Expiation have a playful rivarly going on, crystals vs religion. with Spore in the friend group, medicine joins in, but when she gets worse with those parasitic shrooms she stops joining in on the play-arguments • Raspy Rustle's voice claim is AnnenMayKantereit and he is a Sweetheart. he and Reed get mistaken for each other often because of the initials n they might end up havin similar chat clrs too. both find it very funny • Vapor is based around the vaporwave aesthetic and is Notos' neighbour. so you have this goth bitch who doesn't care for attention and right next to it is this pastel neon chillax'd music star who cares a LOT for attention (like that one meme with the houses...). her mark is that vaporwave sun and it's splattered all over her face instead of just on the forehead • Sadness is based off of Sad Machine by Porter Robinson- her clr palette will be sampled from the album cover n her voice claim is That song as well. she's closeby to Fish and Likes Writing Poems :')

[heckinhacker]

Sett's NSFW Alphabet?

Sett’s NSFW Alphabet!! oh boy~

A/N: First of all, fuck you because you knew I’d be eager to write it fully klaqbwgj3wegbwekhgb (not really ily) 

Second of all, thank you for requesting that completly knowing that I’d go apeshit for that. So, here goes nothing…~

A= Aftercare (what they’re like after the act)

Affectionate. He caresses your bare back with his hand gently, looking down at you with slight smile. Truth be told, he’s too lazy and comfortable to move anywhere now, and he wouldn’t let you either. He just wants to stay that way. Maybe sticky from sweat and maybe cum but he wouldn’t give two shits. He wants to be warm and close to you and he will be.

B= Body part (favorite body part their own or their lovers)

His own - Muscles. That’s the source of his power and result of his hard work! 

His partners - Chest. He loves to just put his face close to his partner’s chest and hear their heartbeat. Calm or quickened because of acts, no matter in what situation he just loves to do that! 

C= Cum (anything that has to do with it)

Anything…so. He loves to cum on your face. It’s like claiming that you’re his even though you and he’s the only ones to see. 

D= Dirty secret (Pretty self explanatory)

He jerked off while watching you having a shower. You didn’t knew, he used the moment. He would say he feels bad for it…but he doesn’t feel bad. 

E= Experience (do they know what they’re doing)

Hell yeah he does know. He had slept with many women before (in male cases he can be kind off unexperienced…but still, he’d like to get experienced with his partner ;) ) but when he became official with you, he used all his experience on you. 

F= Favorite position

“Upstanding Citizen”, he loves to have you around his body, lifting you up, when you have your legs wrapped around his hips. He doesn’t have to support you by having your back against the wall, he’d only do that when things get rough. 

G= Goofy (how serious are they)

He’s mostly serious, but when he wants he can crack up joke or two! He never were serious with anyone earlier, so making jokes only with you is special for him. 

H= Hair (grooming habits)

He complains about being too hairy, but his vital parts are well-cared for. He doesn’t let his hair grow too long or curly near his penis. He’s no perfectionist, he just wants to keep things clean and nice while being with you. 

I= Intimacy (in the moment romantic or rough/dirty)

He’s more on rough/dirty side, but can slow pace down and focus on the moment, sweet words and such. 

J= Jack off (do they masturbate and how often)

He does pretty often. Only when you can’t be with him out of reasons. When he knows he can be with you he just wouldn’t masturbate, he would go ahead and have sex with you. 

K= Kink (kinks what they like possibly unusual)

Bondage - he likes to have you tied up, unable to move, under his will of whatever will happen to you next. 

He has voice kink - he’s really sensitive to sounds, so you moaning his name or in general drives him crazy. Whine, be pathetic and plead him, moan, scream, more the merier, he’d love that. 

Orgasm control - he’s awful and strict to it, but he enjoys faces you make when you’re close, when you’re denied to cum, and when you finnaly cum. 

L= Location (where they like to get it on)

Place doesn’t matter to him. He’d watch more for your comfort, but  when he’s too needy he would “force you” to have a round in the bathroom or in his office. 

M= Motivation (things that makes them tick/turn ons)

Your sounds make him go pretty quickly. Moans, humms, it gets more intense when it’s close to his ear. Moan to it and he’s shivering over you with pleasure. You can also gently caress him behind his ear. 

You don’t have to ask him twice when you need him, really, but to get him go easly without asking…

Make him jellaous. On purpose or not. He’d go craycray if he would catch anyone else hitting on you. Or you hitting on someone else with obvious reason - to make him jellaous. 

If it was by accident, by someone else’s wish, he’d be rough with you but he wouldn’t treat that as a punishment, just a “friendly reminder” that you’re all his. 

If it was by your initiative, he’d be even worse. He’d slap your butt a lot, pull your hair, punish you, forcing you to call him “boss” and plead for mercy. 

No matter what happens out of jellaousy, you’re full of hickeys and bitemarks. You’re welcome. 

It’s easy to turn him on with wearing his clothes. No matter how tall you are, he’d be taller for sure, so his clothes would cutely hang on you. He finds it hot and adorable. 

N= No (turnoffs or absolutely won’t do)

No Daddy kink for ya. Sorry poor babies, he just wouldn’t like it and will ask you to stop with groan if you’d try to call him ‘Daddy’. Boss is more like it, but Daddy is a big fucking no. 

O= Oral (receiving or giving and how skillful they are)

He can make you cum multiple times with his mouth ONLY. He’s skilled as f u c k. 

Recieving is okay-ish for him, but he’d enjoy more of handy-work or getting to it right away. He loves to be inside you and feel warmness of you much more,

P= Pace (how fast they are and how long they last in bed)

Fast, very fast, lasts long. Sometimes you have to ask him to just stop for today. Depends on his whim if he’d let you rest or not. 

Q= Quickie (do they prefer fast and hard)

Quickies are one of things which makes him excited, espeically in public places. He wouldn’t give two shits about being caught, but your reactions and just the risk is a big hell yeah. 

R= Risk (do they like to try new things)

Yeah, just no daddies in his surroundings. You get him?

S= Stamina (how many times they can go and how long each round lasts)

As earlier mentioned, he can go all night long, noone can count. You have to be patient AND constant with him. (I hope I used this word well lmao)

T= Toys (are they game for using sex toys on themselves or lovers)

He’d use toys on his lover, but don’t get anything near his body. 

U= Unfair (how do they tease or do they enjoy suspense themselves)

He’s such a tease sometimes you’d love to slap him for denying your orgasm for the fifth time in a row. 

Tease him back and it’ll be a tease competition he’d most likely win. He never loses, after all. 

V= Volume (are they loud, what sounds, and do they talk)

Talks a lot, but when he’s close he only grunts. You won’t hear him moan out loud though. 

W= Wild card (random sincannon of any sort)

He once was so harsh on you you had some bruises on your shoulders and back. He thought that looked hot as hell. He wouldn’t hurt you on purpose, but the sight, knowing you enjoyed everything he was making to you and having rewards like that just satisfied him. 

X= X-ray (what’s down below in dem pants)

Heeee’s huuuuuuuugeeeeeee. Thick, long, he’s surprised you can take that fully. He’s that kind of lover who will satisfy you that much that later on it’ll be hard to replace him. 

Y= Yearning (sexdrive level)

He’s needy. You sometimes can have a few days of sex in a row. You have one session, you spend your days like normally, and when the night comes you’re back at it! 

Z= Zzzz (do they sleep after if so how quickly after)

He sleeps after so peacefully you always melt when you see his finnaly calm expression. He’s so relaxed and he’s not frowning like he does in work. Sight is magnificent. 

[nein-pirate-lords]

Tagged by the ever lovely @wildnoutinwildemount!

nickname?  Josie is short for Josephine! Named for my Grandma Josie whom I never met, who was also named Josephine.

zodiac sign? Taurus! Mess with the bull and u get the horns, bb. I recently found out that my moon sign is Cancer, and learned a lot about myself, ahaha. Or at least found a super in-depth analysis that was spot on.

height? 5’5

hogwarts house? I am and always will be a hardcore Hufflepuff. I wanted to be a Gryffindor so badly as a kid, though, and everyone thought I was a Ravenclaw just ‘cause I got good grades askljfh.

last thing you googled? -sweats- In a stunning show of just how boring I am, aha, it was actually for work. I had to Google NNA LLC because that name appeared on my museum’s credit card bill and I was like “what dis.” Good news, y’all, our credit card wasn’t hacked, lmfao, it’s the National Notary Association!

favorite musicians? Oh GOD. I go so much by individual songs, but if we’re talking about artists I always come back to... Marianas Trench, Imagine Dragons, Taylor Swift, The Score, The Killers, Sara Bareilles, American Authors, OneRepublic, Halsey, Hidden Citizens. Disney and musicals technically aren’t actual artists but I always go back to my select favorites from time to time.

song stuck in your head? Mostly various songs from the musical Hadestown. That TROMBONE.

following? 104

followers?  189

do i get asks? I very, very, very rarely get asks. I’m not a huge personality, though, so I never expect any though I’ll happily answer! Usually when I do get an ask from an ask game, it’s someone I know and I try to return the favor. <3 I was actually super heckin surprised to get this tag!

amount of sleep? I actually do okay with sleep. I probably sleep less than I should but I always try to get more than 6 hours a night. I never nap unless it’s an absolute emergency or I’m in the car.

lucky number? I’ve always been dumbly superstitious about the number 6 and 36 (6 squared!). It’s actually because my cousin was an AMAZING football player, a phenomenal quarterback who would have gone pro or to Notre Dame if he’d been, get this, half an inch taller. We would travel to Ohio to watch him play ALL the time, through his high school and college years. His number was always 6. So I just associate it with good memories and his skill.

what’re you wearing? Um... pajamas. Which consist of boxer shorts and a white shirt with a cat face on it from a buddy of mine’s comic. I bought it to support her but it doesn’t fit right so I just wear it to  bed.

dream job? Hm. To some extent I’m already working for my dream employer, which is the Illinois Holocaust Museum! But I would love to work in Collections&Exhibitions to help research and create the actual exhibits. On the side, being an author.

dream trip? BERLIN. SLOVENIA. ROME. Fffff.

instruments? I used to play clarinet a long time ago and piano. I bought an ukulele when I was in Hawaii forever ago and started to learn? But I really don’t know much.

languages? English, and honestly I’m a fucking dumbass and that’s it. I could probably read Latin if you put it in front of me, and Italian. I know some Italian from college but it’s fuzzy.

favorite songs? This changes on a daily heckin’ basis, ahaha.

random fact? When I was a kid, I couldn’t make it through the Children’s Museum haunted house with the lights on, and spinning rooms freaked me the FUCK out. (Like where you’re walking on a boardwalk surrounded by the spinning walls/cylinder.) BUT, last year, I conquered my fear and went through several haunted houses and actually enjoyed going through with people that I felt comfortable holding hands with and holding, ahaha. Spinning things still fucking get me, though. (I was in one and actually froze, I couldn’t move, but then we were getting followed by one of the workers who was meant to freak you out and he came up behind me and actually scared the shit out of me and got me to move, ahaha, so thank you random scary stranger in a Slenderman bodysuit!) That was more of a story but this has been TMI brought to you by Josie kthnxbye.

aesthetic?  HMMM. Standing looking out over a body of water (ocean, lake, river, etc.), the smell of Earl Grey tea, deep greens, blues, grays. Protest marches. The “light side” lobby of our museum (ILHMEC is SUPER fucking intricately designed architecturally). Women’s soccer, football, screaming/excited crowds. Stadium food. MASSIVE PILES OF DICE for D&D. Hugs. Quiet woods, hikes, sweet wines.

tag 21 (Sweats, I’m going to have to cheat because I don’t think I know 21 people that I’d feel comfortable tagging, but I’ll go for 12 and pretend the numbers are switched!) @temporarily-alone @brilyeon @averybritishsomething @starfallentribute @kromaek @riley-actualtrickstergod @zannakat @lionsocks @tanobear-goddess-of-the-night @kennywolf7 @hawkbmwblack @adultingblonde

[greyofjakku]

Tag Game(s)! Lol I’m so sorry

 So, I was super confused b/c I got tagged on like A TON of different tag games haha. So I combined them all into one post? Fuck me, I guess lol

20 Question Tag Game

I was tagged by this lovely! @mysonkylo (Lol Nat I just kept your formatting)

1) name: Sarashkya/Sarah (but I don’t go by these - I go by Ara :P ) 2) nicknames: Ara 3) height:  5′7 ft/173 cm 4) orientation: bi bi bi *blasts Justin Timberlake* 5) nationality: WITH THAT NAME???? Must be Polish :P 6) favourite fruit: Peaches??  7) favourite season: fall 8) favourite flower: honeysuckle 9) favourite scent: cotton sheets 10) favourite colour: grey 11) favourite animal: PORG! no? then a kiwi! (THEY ARE REAL)

12) coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: coffee 13) average sleep hours: uhhhh....6? 14) dog or cat person: BOTH. BOTH IS GOOD. 15) favourite fictional character: Ben solo/Kylo ren, Rey, Padme, Khaleesi, Elizabeth Swan, Carina Smyth, Loki, Black Widow, Moana, and I could go on and on and on 16) number of blankets you sleep with: one sheet, one comforter, and however many damn blankets it takes to keep my anemic ass warm 17) dream trip: right now??? I’m homesick, so back to Kraków. Any other time? The fjords of Norway 18) blog created: December 2015/January 2016 but wasn’t super active/writing til August 2017 19) number of followers: 1.3k - and love every last one of you smol beans <333 20) random fact: I'm adopted 

Get to Know Me Tag 

The beautiful lovelies @absolutereylogarbage @evilsquirrel18 @ridingbensolo tagged me in this. Thank you, loves!

Since I’ve already done it, I’m just copying and pasting here again. 

Name: Sarah (Full Polish Name that My Parents Were Probably Drunk Picking Out: Sarashkya)

Nickname: Ara

Gender: Female

Star sign: Pisces

Height: Same as Daisy Ridley - 5′7

Time: 6:16

Birthday: March 18th, 1999

Favorite bands: AC/DC, Queen, Mumford and Sons, Of Monsters and Men, + tons more

Favorite Solo artists: Halsey, Zolita, Cobi, Camila Cabello, Dua Lipa

Song Stuck In My Head: “Kill For You” by Zolita

Last Movie I Watched: The Last Jedi

Last Show I Watched: The Office!!!!

When Did I Create My Blog: Right after I saw TFA in December 2015 (SO IT WAS DECEMBER)

Last Thing I Googled: Kiwi baby (lol they’re so cute)

Do I Have Any other Blogs: My main is @melancholymists and I also have an autumn/winter/photography blog

Do I Get Asks: Yes, about fifteen to twenty a week (if I check lol)

Why I Chose My URL: Uh, pretty self-explanatory. “You know I can take whatever I want.” - Kylo Ren

Following: 640

Followers: 1.3k

Average Hours Of Sleep: 7-8 on weekdays, but 9-10 or sometimes 14 on weekends lol

Lucky Number: 8 or 9 I think or maybe 12

Instruments: Violin and Viola

What Am I Wearing: Sweats

Dream Job: Writer/translator/professional traveler and blogger

Dream Trip: lol this is weird but Russia :)

Favorite Food: Homemade piroshki

Nationality: I consider myself Polish despite living in the US for University

Favorite Song Right Now: Everybody Gets High by Missio

New 28 Question Tag

Tagged by the lovely @chromiah

Name: Sarashkya/Sarah (But I don’t go by this I go by my nn)

Nicknames: Ara

Gender: Female

Star sign: Pisces

Height: 5 feet 7 inches

Time: 6:07 PM

Birthday: March 18th

Favourite bands: Twenty Øne Piløts, Imagine Dragons, Queen, ACDC, The Beatles, Kansas, The Smiths, Missio (Does this even count as a band? IDK but goood shit)

Favourite Solo Artists: fuck fuck fuck fill this in later Ara u stupid idiot just remember who u goddamn like

Song stuck in my head: Everybody Gets High by Missio

Last movie I watched: The Last Jedi (haha)

When did I create my blog: December 2015 or January 2016 but wasn’t active/writing until this past summer

Do I have any other blogs: Yes! 

Do I get asks: Yes, mostly reylo smut requests haha. But I also get a lot of lovely asks from you amazing smol beans <33333 They make my day, honestly.

Why I chose my url: U know why

Following: 640

Followers: 1.3k

Average hours of sleep: 6 (I’m going with 6...)

Lucky number: 8, 12, 4, or 48 I think

Instruments: Violin and viola; I also can sing and I took opera for a long time before quitting lol

What am I wearing: A jumper and joggers bc its fucking cold as hell outside and I got fucking hives from how cold it is, goddamnit

Dream job: Actress

Dream trip: Norway fjords

Favourite foods: “You’d be better off asking me what I don’t like because I just love food” - Chromiah

Nationality: *blasts Mazurek Dąbrowskiego* POLAND! (but US citizen now too)

Favourite song right now: Everybody gets High by Missio (I’m obsessed)

Favorite movie: I can’t do this - there’s too many

Favorite actors: Adam Driver, Tom Hiddleston, Johnny Depp

Favorite actresses: Daisy Ridley, Gal Gadot, Keira Knightley, Kaya Scodelario, Nikolina Konstantinova Dobreva (AKA Nina Dobrev - I don’t like her too much in TVD though, sorry guys

ANOTHER 28 Question Tag

The ever so lovely @somewhere-over-the-reylo and the beautiful Rosie @reylofic tagged me in this <33 (also Rosie, your nickname is my favorite animal!!! :P)

1. Name: Ara

2. Nicknames: Ara

3. Gender: Female

4. Star sign: Pisces

5. Height: 5.7”

6. Time: 6:21 PM

7. Birthday: March 18

8. Favorite bands: Twenty Øne Piløts, Imagine Dragons, Queen, ACDC, The Beatles, Kansas, The Smiths, Missio (Does this even count as a band? IDK but goood shit)

9. Favourite Solo Artist(s): FUCK ARA JUST REMEBER B4 YOU POST THIS

10. School Status: First year of American university at Princeton

11. Last movie I watched: The Last Jedi

12. When did I create my blog: December 2015

13. Last thing I Googled: ‘That one Luke meme’ lol

14. Do I have any other blogs: @melancholymists

15. Do I get any asks?: yes and too much smut haha ;P

16. Why I chose my url: idk man I just did it

17. Following: 640

18. Followers: 1.3k

19. Lucky number: 4, 8, 12, 9, 48

20. Instruments: Violin and viola; singing

21. What am I wearing: sweats 

22. Dream job: Actress

23. Favorite tumblrs/best friends: ya’ll if I start tagging I ain’t gonna stop but @ifoundkylo was my main OG hoe

24. Things I’m obsessed with: reylo, daisy ridley, adam driver, adam driver’s fine ass, adam driver’s 8 pac (I knew he was shredded), the SNL adam driver skits, adam driver’s dog, adam driver’s work with the armed forces, adam driver’s left tiddy, adam driver’s right tiddy, adam driver’s arms, kylo ren, adam driver’s voice, adam driver’s “ah, you do”, adam driver.

25. Fandoms: star wars, marvel, riverdale, got, acotar/acomaf, tmi, etc.

26. Favorite song right now: Everybody Gets High by Missio

27. Pets: A demonic cat from hell that I love too much named  Tygrys or ‘Tiger’ but she is also called “Kitten whiskers”, “Sweet beans” and “Smol bean”

28. Favorite character in Star Wars: My emo trash son and galactic fuck up Kylo Ren/Ben Solo

10 Question Tag 

Tagged by the lovely @kyloxreyx - also message me anytime bae ;)

Name/Nicknames: Ara 

Star Sign: Pisces afffff

Height: 5′7/173 cm

Hogwarts House: Slytherin

Dream trips: Norway fjords

Average hours of sleep: 6

When I made my blog: “I made this side blog like a month after TFA came out because reylo was the sole reason I came on tumblr.” - Meleah (SAME THO)

I hope that was everyone’s??? I’m so sorry if I didn’t do one of them - just message me or something I guess lol

And I’m not tagging bc all these people who I would’ve tagged already tagged me haha. If any of you want to do this, be my guest!

[survivorcordillerablanca]

Episode 8 Confessionals

This is long overdue but I've been busy because my brother got married woooo! Okay so FINALLY WE MERGED! Jordan and I survived the hell tribe and we made it here. We had to lose Jay which absolutely sucks, I feel terrible for voting him out but I did what I think was the right thing. The biggest piece of news is that I was literally on the merge tribe for like 10 minutes and ended up FINDING THE IMMUNITY IDOL!! I WAS SO SHOCKED I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT!! I haven't told anybody about it but I might....MIGHT....tell Jordan about it to show that I do trust him after wavering so much on my decision about potentially voting him out. We have an auction coming up, I hope I get something really cool from it! Bryce told me that he was the one that gave me the idol but Zach told me that he was the one that pushed for him to give it to me so I'm thankful to the both of them for that. I think I could get good with Carson, Zach, Bryce and Charlotte. Katie and I have bonded over our love of true crime, she's super nice and her connection to Jordan Pines is incredibly strong so we can do this. I believe that Copa isn't dead just yet. 

finally got into an alliance with charlotte and chris

i bid well at the auction and got a nifty apple that lets me sit out for a round #blessed

Finding out someone I want to work with is an Amy Schumer fan.... maybe shouldn't work with them :/. Jk!! But am I even DKSFJSD

zack just sent me this message "and im in kuang si (it’s a main season, if you know what those are) asdjfk" I dont know how to respond to that

Merge sweet merge! Okay so I'm officiallly in an alliance with Katie and Charlotte. We're the Senior Citizens. Katie is playing up to Jordan that she doesn't have any allies in hopes of him telling her any potential people from Ulta who might flip. Meanwhile I have to PUBLICLY pick 3 people to go to the wishing well with me. Obviously taking the Senior Citizens, but I then decided on Bryce because he was the only person not mention by Jordan as someone he thinks he's working with. Immunity just happened and as of right now I feel content with my score but some people are insane and will destroy me. I really hope I win because I feel like I'll get cut as soon as the opportunity arises.

me two days ago: I should probably try to be less hostile towards JP. me today: DISADVANTAGE GOES TO JP. i'd say i'm sorry but that would be a lie.

am i up to date on confessionals 

hope i dont go home probably should have used my advantage 

We merged!!! and im stressed as hell. i have NO idea what im doing. chris won this wishing well thing in the auction and took katie, charlotte, and bryce. so it set off alarms to me and zach so we're working on the me/willow/zach thing we were planning on before, we just have mroe of a reason now. the plan is: vote jordan pines this first round (even though hes trying to talk strategy with me and if eel bad bc i told charlotte to use the disadvantage on him) recruit luke and katie and vote chris out at final 8 and thats our plan so far bc... its hard to plan things in survivor! yeah i have no idea i hate the merge especialyl when i know where NO ONE sits

Whose got two thumbs and flopped at immunity? THIS GUY. But it's all good. We have two clear outsiders in the form of luke and Jordan. I feel bad because I genuinely like luke. I'm hoping we can get rid of Jordan and then I can swoop up precious baby luke to use him to get some of the ulta's I'm not close with out. For now, me, Katie, Carson, and charlotte are going for Jordan unless something drastic happens. 

I'm tired and I've been essentially goating myself this game yikes 

So at this point, it's the morning of the first merge tribal. Exciting? Yes! Nerve-wracking? Yes! Willow won immunity. I lowkey was going to force a tie because I know any intellectual could get 5 at most (Willow's smart, so I just expected it) then her comp adv. of -2 would ensure her a win since 3 is theoretically impossible. SHE GOT TWO! Good on her though! I overall chose not to snatch her score because I felt really bad, and it was with someone whom I potentially was going to work it or would work with. Speaking of, Willow, Carson and I formed a trio alliance. We both comprehend that the two Copa need to go soon. I think it'll be Jordan Pines this vote. However, a) I don't want Luke to go JUST yet, as we can utilize him, and b) the votes might flip and ADIOS me! I also have worrying speculation of an alliance including the newbies. This is purely because of whom Chris decided to take on his little... trip to the wishing well. It's just a little suspicious, considering Carson admitted to me he talks to Chris relatively every other day, so it was shocking. Nonetheless, it's a game decision, doesn't matter much.. My game plan from this point forward is to just try to be fairly more social. I've been talking to Chris and Katie a lil more. I'm on relatively good terms with Luke. Carson and I are best buddies. Willow is a LEGEND! - then we have Bryce, a king who I don't talk to much but is iconic. Charlotte, a literal icon. Jordan Pines! (that name along speaks for itself). It's going, I guess. We'll see ^-^

So I finally found the wishing well thing and I completed my task yay!! I can now see who votes who for one tribal but idk when im gonna use it tbh. I think I'll tell carson about it b/c hes my number 1. But for this vote i'm hoping itll be easy and be one of jordan/luke just gotta talk to the other ulta people.

Okay so I think its just gonna be the easy vote of Jordan? Hope its not too easy and im not too complacent

Here's the thing. Anyone who has ever played with me before, or knows me, knows that I pretty much play the same game. I stick with my alliance and only turn on them when I need to ... I'm not one for cannibalizing the alliance too early. But ... I'm bored. Everyone's quiet, no one's exciting me, and I really just want to watch the world burn. Do I like Jordan? Eh. Will he make the season more exciting? Absolutely. If I can convince Katie and Carson, or maybe Zach, to vote for Jordan ... the game will flip upside down.  I'm here for a little Chaos. 

is Jordan gonna die tonight? the answer probs wont surprise you as YES. AHHHHH. IM GOING HOME FUCK FUCK FUCK ME, FUCK YOU RYAN TEDDY PALMER. I am trying to save myself but i may be all out of lives.

I'm watching Shookstralian Survivor and writing a confessional, I hear this episode is iconic so I'm preparing! Michelle is winning btw! Okay so back to Cordillera Blanca...I didn't win immunity...Jordan didn't win immunity which means that both of us are vulnerable at tribal and one of us could potentially be going home tonight which is worst case scenario. As of now I think the votes are going to Jordan and I would be open to playing my idol on him but I would need to be 100% certain that I'm not getting votes because I DO NOT want to idol myself out. If I lose Jordan this round I do still have my Golden Monkey Idol to fall back on at the next tribal council so hopefully that work out in my favour. Right now Jordan and I are trying to pull in Charlotte, Katie and Zach to make a majority of 5 so that we can take over this tribe. Stay tuned...;) 

Did Jordan just save himself? MAYBE?????? If all goes according to plan,  me zach luke, charlotte and carson will vote for chris and blindside him 5-4. So #letsnotkilljordanpines

Omg so I have a randomized vote this round which really sucks but I sent in a fake vote so if people ask I can hopefully trick them also I'm shook I won immunity with4 guesses

So... charlotte wants to flip and zach does too which.. i gues?? djksd we with jordan andl uke.. a VERY tight duo pretty much, and its gonna be hard to break that, so we cant let them get far. but getting chris out right now?? idk if its right. im still a bit bitter over him not taking me to the wishing well [3:59:22 PM] Jordan Pines: same here <3 [4:00:34 PM] carson: (y) if i hear anything i tell u but just know I'm down with u lukle charlotte and zach [4:00:46 PM] Jordan Pines: same here <3 also jordan sent the same message to me twice which.. kinda shady but like i hope its not anything bad?? if he rats us out i dont think im the biggest target but like.. ya never know in this game. also idk if my social game is good bad or whatever, buti m hoping its good and it can propel me to a victory?? zach keeps saying hes my lapdog andj ust.. uh i dont want that i want to be equal allies. whatevs?? idk. also willow's vote is apparently randomized from what zach said and charrlote found where the iodl was hidden but it waas found so someone else has it... so idk. IDK i feel like flipping on the entire tribe and doing 5-4 the first vote is soooo risky. im thinking that me/zach can tell willow we're voting chris even though her vote is randomzied so she cant rlly do anything?? she doesnt talk  a lot of strategy because she takes awhile to respond but she's cool and id definitely say i trust her more than most people here. like bryce, i cant read him or chris. katie's cool but i feel like shes a bit fake to me like saying how much she trusts me when we dont talk that much?? and charlotte/jordan/luke just give weird vibes idk. only person i trust 100% is zach ig uess because we talk 24/7 and hes cool. hope this vote can go as planned, and im still kinda having cold feet, but like... i dont wanna lose jury votes so i either commit or go home.

hi can i have an episode title i came up with someone very clever here it goes: Why are all my tribe mates children like hey whats up welcome to lord of the fucking flies.

So this vote for the longest time was going to be Jordan. I was going to stick with it, but knowing me, I don't like boring games and it'd be predictable to do that. Charlotte came to me about voting out Chris. Not that directly, I guess, but mentioned flipping. I was down for it, but I wanted to talk to Carson. LUCKILY, she wanted to include Carson to, so we made an alliance ^-^ I believe right now the vote is sailing for Chris. I feel bad but it's the game, and you gotta do what you gotta do. No hard feelings. The game is tough. WHY DO I PUT MYSELF THROUGH THIS ALL THE TIME ARGHGH