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Keep calm, and drink soda
[CW for blood and gore and vomit] takes place a day or two after emizel was sired. just two boys adjusting to a shift in their daily norms. would YOU drink your homies blood? still not used to writing fanfic so any and all advice IS appreciated. i hope u enjoy.
There were very few things that Soda enjoyed more than well, drinking soda. It was a hobby, an interest, a comfort. And by extension there were very few errands that Soda would look forward to more than the occasional soda run.
The gas station closest to the Demons hideout had stopped selling Faygo entirely about a month or two ago, and it was near impossible to find it anywhere else. The closest place was now this janky little Shell gas station, lovingly titled the Shady Shell, that thankfully sold more flavors than any of the other ones ever did.
It made the hour and a half walk here entirely worth it. Even if this side of town made his skin crawl. Normally he would ask someone to accompany him on this daring little quest, but everyone at the hide out tonight just seemed too tired, too preoccupied, too uninterested.
He knew not everyone really got the soda thing, but they were accepting of it for the most part. Soda is something that, clearly, Soda really loves, but he knew not everyone else was into it.
Which was fine, of course. They didn't need to get it. But, still, sometimes Soda found himself wondering how much of it was a bit, and how much was him.
Emizel gets it perfectly though. He would've been the first person Soda would ask to go on this soda run with him, but, well. He's been preoccupied too, with the whole vampire thing.
It's been a bit more than a day since Soda had last seen his close comrade. For a friend that he saw just about everyday, going without him this long left him feeling a little emptier.
That was fine, though. Emizel had shit he was working out, he had things he needed to do. It's not like he could go out in the day anymore, so of course Soda wouldn't be seeing him at all the usual times.
It was a lot of weird and heavy magical stuff, it made Soda think about those superhero shows. Where the hero needs to keep his identity hidden from everyone. Family especially. He knows how much of a piece of shit Emizels dad is, so he hoped that Emizels home life wasn't stirred up all stupid-like over this.
He hasn't told anyone else, about what happened that night. For the last 2 days, Soda would spend time with close friends and not let them know a thing about what happened to Emizel so, so recently. Why he's so suddenly absent, so distant, so.. off…
'Maybe his dad's just giving him a hard time', he would say, hoping to smother their questions. The less questions they ask, the better. At least until this vampire stuff gets figured out a bit more. Should Emizel wear a disguise when he goes out at night now? Just like a superhero? What kind of hero outfit would Emizel have anyways? Soda figured it would be something really cool.
If anyone could figure out a way to balance all this vampire stuff, and all the leaderly responsibilities that come with being the biggest dog in the Demons, it was Emizel for sure. That guy is so seriously cool.
He was sure this rough patch would even out, and they would weather the next rough patch together no problem. There was really nothing to worry about! All Soda has to do is stay positive, and well, drink soda.
As Soda walks quietly down the crumbling sidewalks of this dreary hive of strip malls and shops, he goes to pull his backpack around to his chest, fumbling with the zipper in the dark. Which was a little annoying, considering the tab of his zipper had fallen off forever ago. He really needed to get around to fixing this damn thing. Maybe another ziptie and a soda tab will do the trick.
Humid air hangs heavy in the night, the sidewalks still somewhat warm after a hotter day. The diesel-soaked air provided enough warmth on its own that Soda had considered taking his jacket off a few times, only for the occasional, annoyingly sharp and chilly breeze to brush by, reminding him to keep the thing on.
Tripping only once and only slightly on an uneven sidewalk, Soda manages to pull a bottle of Faygo from his backpack, a smile glowing on his face. Another short fight with the zipper seals up the bag, and he slings it over his shoulder again.
His flavor of choice tonight was actually the Red Pop, the tried and true, the absolute classic, one of the best Faygo flavors for sure.
But, this kind wasn't actually his favorite. Normally he would stock up on the cotton candy ones, but something about the last few days had him craving the red stuff.
Securing his backpack all the way, he goes to crack open the bottle. Just the clack and the hisssss of the fizzy drink were enough to lift his mood.
Not that his mood needed lifting or anything. Of course. Sure he missed his friend and sure he found himself wondering what he’s doing and where he is and if he's okay. Maybe sometimes he found himself wishing they talked about funeral plans more.
Emizel talked up all sorts of crazy funeral ideas for himself, usually involving the use of his dead body as an inconvenience for others. Outlandish and hilarious ideas, like filling it with explosives and tossing it into a busy road. But what would he want seriously? What would Soda ever do if he just stopped showing up one day?
He had to swallow down all these unnecessary anxieties, so he took a swig of his soda. Sweet, bubbly, comforting. He felt better already! Just stay positive, and drink soda..
It was a lovely night out, and he didn't come all this way planning on letting it go to waste. There was a place he was heading towards, a particular alleyway in this particular place that led off to a particularly tall concrete ledge.
It was a run-down little space, littered with trash and shitty trees and those bushes with just too many goddamn ants in them. But the view was fairly nice, overlooking a massive deformed intersection. A particularly stupid one, at that; about 3 times a week you could witness a gnarly crash at this spot. Soda always heard people saying that LA folks can't drive, but he was just starting to figure that maybe no one can drive.
That was the place he really wanted to go to enjoy this soda, and he wasn't too far off from it. Just a few more blocks, and he would be there.
Oh wait, didn't he still have a bag of chips in this backpack somewhere? Hell yeah, he couldn't wait to sit down and relax with a good soda, a good snack, and a good view of the night.
Living as a Demon had its fair share of stresses. He felt lucky to have this life, but he knew well that it could be better. That not everyone has to worry about survival the way they do. That not everyone gets injured on the regular and not everyone has to worry about being sick and never getting better.
Living is hard. But it's finding the small moments of joy that make it all worth it. Dying would be scarier anyway. He didn't want to die, and he felt glad to feel so confident in that nowadays.
The sudden THUNK of something slamming into the ground just a block away from him, jolts him out of his thoughts, all his gears screeching to a halt as he freezes in place. What the fuck was that?
It looked like a person, laying flat on the ground with only their head and shoulders peeking out of the alleyway ahead. Fuck. He hated this side of town..
Anxiety churns in his stomach as he debates just turning around, but the way the victim reaches an arm out, attempting to crawl away; it made his heart ache aswell. he's no goddamn fighter, but he couldn't just leave someone like th-
The body is suddenly yanked back into the alley, snatched at a startling speed. It didn't feel exactly real, how could something vanish so fast? It reminded Soda of something from a horror movie, or whatever. What the fuck was that??
His foot takes a step forward, before the rest of his body notices its rebellion and locks down again. Was he seriously going to investigate that? He could just walk away and take another alley. But that was the one he was supposed to turn down! All the other alleys are either walled off or gated off and he wasn't about to go climbing over a damn wire gate. His soda would get too shaken up! Fuck!
Another foot goes in for another step forward. He's gotta get the fuck out of here. He could hear more commotion in the alleyway, a scuffle, a skirmish. He could hear someone cursing through a choked breath. A loud and nauseating crack echoes out from the alley, and yet, Soda takes another step forward.
This was stupid, he shouldn't be getting tangled up in someone else's business. What if something happened to all this soda?
Thankfully, it was that thought that actually got him to pause, and take in a deep breath. It wasn't worth it, maybe he should head straight home.
Atleast, that was the thought his heart and mind were about to agree on, until a particularly familiar grroowwwwlll bleeds out from the alley.
Emizel?
All reason immediately evaporates as Soda makes that connection in his head, stepping right up to the corner of the brick walls, and peering around to investigate.
There was a body on the floor, face down in a puddle of red, head split open in a way that reminded Soda of a smashed watermelon.
But standing over that body, was the familiar, blackened coat, and short blonde hair, of Sodas closest comrade, Emizel.
Despite the carnage on the floor, Soda couldn't help the smile that lights up his face. That was Emizel! That was his boy!
But before he could get over just how happy he felt to see his best friend, something else caught his eye. Movement, behind the dumpster closest to the vampire boy. A person, rising out from the shadows with a glinting baseball bat clutched fiercely in their hands.
"Oh fuck, look out!" Soda speaks up, and Emizels gaze immediately clicks over to him, silencing Soda with just that startlingly red stare.
He had forgotten just how uneasy those red eyes made him..
The attacker, silent and professional, rushes up behind Emizel and CRACKS the metal bat downwards onto his blonde head, the sound ringing out like a gun shot in that dark little alleyway.
Soda cringes from just the sound of the impact, but was amazed to find that the bat had warped under the force of it!
The attacker hardly had a chance to process his mangled weapon before Emizel whips around to retaliate.
It looked like he had just swung his hand at his opponent, so the way a shower of red spills outward from the slash, catches Soda completely off guard. The monster boy had cleaved an excruciatingly massive gash up from the attackers right hip, to his left shoulder, the slice spewing with scarlet.
It wasn't until Emizel had pulled back his arm, that Soda could process the way it had darkened with more than just blood, distorted into an odd, spear-like shape.
The victim hardly had a chance to yelp before that blade swoops up into his chest at the speed of a snapping bear trap, plunging through meat and bone with disturbing ease, and forcing blood and viscera to erupt outwards. The red patters down onto the concrete behind, the sound similar to rain...
With another low, inhuman snarl, Emizel brings the twitching, dying body closer, until that signature squish of teeth sinking into fresh meat bleeds outward into the space.
What a disgusting sound, Sodas first instinct was to simply avert his eyes, but as the sound persists, he resolves that he has to do something.
He finally steps out into the alley, and speaks.
"Hey ma-"
He could hardly get two words out before Emizel suddenly rips its teeth away from its victims throat, tearing out a hefty chunk of jellied meat, and slamming the remaining fodder onto the concrete floor.
It immediately whips around to stare down Soda, red eyes glowing with reflected light, and with hardly a chance to process the moment-
-It's immediately right infront of Soda.
A gasp lurches from Soda's lungs as he almost stumbles back in shock. How was Emizel so fucking fast?
Other than that single step back, Soda was frozen in shock, his tongue buzzing with the physical pain of such a startling jolt. 'White boy jumpscare' is something that came to mind, but while usually such a thought would evoke some sort of laugh from Soda, this time it offered no such comfort. Okay maybe it did a little.
Emizels snarling face was only inches away from Sodas. Its eyes were wild and unnatural, teeth menacingly sharp and reddened with so much fucking blood. It was everywhere, coating most of his face, smothering his shirt and his coat, and absolutely choking the air with its thick, metallic stench.
Soda would gag if he felt he was safe to even move. He felt like he was locking eyes with that of a creature, something he would only ever see in his nightmares or in scary movies. But it was real. Those monsters are real. And his best friend is one of those monsters. His bestest friend in the world...
His mind was skewered on that unnatural glare, completely frozen with anxiety. Stalling too hard to come to a proper conclusion, Soda instead falls back onto what Soda does best.
"H-hey man... You want some soda?"
He very gently presses the opened bottle of Faygo into Emizels chest.
The two boys stand there for a moment, locked in a tense, silent pause, before the monster boy finally peels its gaze down to the bottle.
It's quiet, for a few seconds, the gears turning in its head. Until the monster blinks, and its eyes clear, and Emizel processes the sight of the bottle.
"Oh, fuck yeah dude, is that the Candy Apple Faygo? Man, that stuffs my favorite!" Emizel smiles as he goes to accept the bottle, and immediately takes a massive swig.
Soda tries to disregard the way his hands were still shaking. "Uh, n-nah man, its just Red Po-"
The words are bit off as Emizel suddenly retches, a heavy flood of red blood and red Faygo spewing out onto Soda, as the vampire boys body entirely rejects the fizzy drink.
The shock of getting fucking projectile vomited on had snapped Soda out of whatever daze he was just in, and it seemed to snap Emizel out of it too. Soda backs up with a groan, looking down at all the blood and bile and pop on his shirt and coat.
"Ohhh fuck dude, what the hell??" He cringes, not even wanting to try smearing any of it off with his hand.
Emizel was coughing, still holding out the Faygo bottle, but hunched over as his body dared to convulse again.
"Ohhhhhh fuck, ohhooohhh fuuuuucckkk" he grumbles towards the floor "Fuuuck I’m sorry dude, I don't know what fuckin- oohhhgg shit,” He coughs and groans, offering the bottle back to Soda.
Soda was still staring at his messied coat with a displeased grimace, but looking up to meet Emizels eyes...
There was a guilt on Emizels face that Soda didn't see too often, and it helped wash away that irritation he felt. This sucked, but Emizel was probably going through a lot more.
“It’s, uhm.. don't, don't worry about it, man..” Soda decides to reassure him, offering a sympathetic smile, and a hand on Emizels shoulder, as his comrade spits out the remaining blood and bile.
"Fuckin hell… I’m uh, I'm sorry about your shirt, man."
"What? Nahh it's okay man, don’t worry about it." Soda shrugs, taking the Faygo bottle back. "I mean, are you okay man? That uh.. looked like a pretty crazy fight."
Emizel was rubbing his eyes, smearing more blood across his face as he seems to be collecting himself. he spares a glance back at the carnage behind him.
"Ah.. yeah.. I thought I uh.. I thought I saw that one fucker from uh. That one night. Yknow, the one that uh.." He snaps his fingers, as if trying to summon back the memory. "Vampire bitch... Anyway after that I just kind of, uh.."
He seems to space out again as he looks around. It was as if he was just woken up from a deep sleep, like he was certain he had just known what he was doing, but found the dream escaping him. "I guess I just.. went crazy on these guys. I dunno, they're Fangs anyways." he finally shrugs it all off, but Soda still felt unsatisfied by the answer.
"Oh.. huh…” is the only response he manages to scrounge together. Sure they were Fangs, but did they really deserve.. all that? It just seemed a bit brutal, even by Emizels standards.
He found his eyes wandering over to the split-open head. It was mostly red and bloody, but even in the dark, he could still make out some of the finer details of the gray jelly seeping from the gash. A human brain. He wondered if his own brain looked the same on the inside..
“So what are you doing out here, man?” Emizels question helps Soda pull his eyes away from the gore, instead looking over to his bloodied comrade.
Emizel looked messy and even exhausted, but his drowsy gaze was focused on Soda with a worried expression.
“Oh, uh, yknow, just a soda run. Decided I would stock up on some Faygo from the Shady Shell.” Soda shrugs, his eyes flickering down to the opened Faygo in his hand. The top was covered in regurgitated blood. unnaturally blackened blood…
“Are you.. okay, by the way? Other than the whole..” Soda gestures vaguely at the gruesome crime scene. “Are you hurt?”
The question has Emizel pausing to consider. He straightens his back and stretches his arms, as if trying to detect any pain from any possible injury. Nothing seemed to be bothering him though, and after a second, he decides to shrug.
“Nah, I'm all good.”
“Oh.. That's good, I uh…” Soda found himself looking over Emizel aswell, searching for any wounds the monster boy might be simply disregarding, as he often does.
There was a fairly gnarly gash on his shin..
“Hey uh, I was actually gonna go hang out by the ledge down that way. Yknow, the one with the funny intersection.” Soda says, gesturing off towards where he intended to go. “Wanna come with?”
Emizel looks back that way, before turning back to Soda with a big smile on his face.
“Oh hell yeah I do! I love the funny intersection!” he starts to walk down the alley, about to step over the body of the broken skull, when Soda speaks up.
“Uh, hey, shouldn't we uh.. Do something about the.. uh..” He waves a hand over towards the bodies, trying not to look directly at them.
Emizel spares the corpses an inconvenienced glance, and a sigh, but ultimately shrugs them off. “Ehhh I'll just dump 'em in a dumpster again.. That's what I've been doing anyway.”
“And you're not worried about, like, anyone finding them?”
Soda anxiously watches on as Emizel paces around the body with the torn-out throat, licking the blood from his own mouth. Was his tongue always that long and pointed? That's neat, and normally Soda would point it out, but he was a bit.. preoccupied right now
“Nahh not really. I haven't had anyone bother me at least.. Anyone been bothering you?” Emizels eyes finally flick back over to Soda.
“Nah, I'd say things are actually more lax than usual. Anything that would end up being trouble’s been pretty much crushe- er, killed- destr- stamped out, by uh, by you.” Sods was cringing with every attempt to find a word that didn’t make his stomach turn, but Emizel didn’t seem to notice or mind.
Emizels eyes were currently a bit more focused on the body laying before him. He had that weird look on his face again…
“Uhh, yeah, yeah that's good that uh, no troubles coming back to you guys…”
There’s a moment of quiet between the two as Emizel stares at this corpse, and Soda was about to open his mouth to fill the silence, but Emizel speaks up instead.
“Hey uh, why don’t you go ahead of me? I’ll uh, I'll meet you at the place.” He suggests, pointing vaguely off down the alley, but not removing his eyes from the kill.
Soda certainly hesitates, his eyes narrowing before he even forms a thought. He opens his mouth to object, but then his eyes flicker back towards the body.
“Are you gonna eat this one too?”
The question leaves Sodas mouth as soon as it comes to mind.
Emizel pauses, and considers, before giving a shrug. “I don't see why not. Perfectly good blood.” He reaches down to grab his kill by the shirt, the one with the split open head. As the corpse rises from the concrete, gray matter drips and sloughs from the crack in its skull. Once again, Soda felt the need to look away, and yet his stupid eyes remained fixated on the horrendous sight. Emizel looks over the spilling brain of his meal, licking his lips curiously. “Dude, what do you think would happen if I ate his brain?” Emizel asks, looking back over to Soda with a wild, bloodied smile. Something about that look made Soda shiver, but.. Not really in a bad way… “Uh, I.. Dunno…. Eating a persons brain is how you get like, mad cow disease right? But you might also be immune to disease.. Are you immune to disease?” “Uhhh, I don't know yet actually. I'm still figuring out how much of this is like video games,” Emizel says, rubbing the back of his head as he idly sways the body of his kill around, watching the blood and gore drip and drop from its broken head. “Eh, I'll chance it later.” Without another word or thought, Emizel goes to sink his teeth into the shoulder of his kill, a pleased growl radiating from him as the blood gushes around the bite. More fresh blood upon less fresh blood upon old blood upon older blood. Just so much fucking blood. Soda thought he was used to seeing blood, but this… this was just egregious. Was he really starting to get used to this? It’s just blood after all, and it’s not from his comrades, so it's… fine… He finally manages to pull his eyes away from the gruesome sight of Emizel feeding, but his eyes instead wander down to the blood on his own shirt. Emizels blood was strange, darker than usual, and carrying a different scent. Something about the smell of his blood was more savory, more appealing than the standard metallic miasm. His shirt was smothered in it, his jacket was coated in it, and his opened bottle of Faygo was also splattered with the deep red ichor. Ink swirls within the bottle of red fizzy, spreading out into all sorts of odd patterns. It was a lot of blood. He was certain a lot of it came from however many people Emizels been feeding on. With how much hes been terrorizing the Fangs in just the last few days, and with how nonchalantly he feasts on his kills, who knows how much blood hes actually ingested… Soda swirls the bottle, watching the blood inside thin out into strands, dancing within the bubbly soda as they gradually dissipate, fully assimilating into the drink. A bad idea chews at the back of his head… The sound of ripping flesh once again knocks at Sodas head. He doesn’t look up this time, but he knew Emizel was just playing with his food again.. Did blood taste good to a vampire? Did some blood taste better than others? What did Sodas blood taste like? What did Emizels blood taste like? There's a visceral snap of something among the chewing and ripping, very clearly a bone or a joint snapping out of place. It made Soda shiver a little. When did his heart start pounding? There's an animal standing only 8 feet away from him, feeding on its kill. That animal is a person, and so is its kill. He wanted to know what vampire blood tasted like, but he already knew what human blood tasted like. It hung so densely in the air, he could feel it forming a vile film over his tongue. The blood of a person just like him. Eaten by an animal that eats people. All this stress was no good. This bile rising to his throat was no good. This creeping anxiety was no good. He's friends with an animal that eats people. Would it eat him? This weird feeling was no good. Maybe it will never eat him. But it needs to eat people. This worry was no good. He needed to wash this awful taste from his mouth, replace it with something sweeter. He needed to keep his head clear enough to be there for Emizel when he needed to be. He needed to hold a light to these shadows. And he needed to stay positive, and drink soda. He takes a swig of the open Faygo bottle.
#NO MAIN TAGS WE DIE LIKE ROADKILL#WOW ISNT IT WEIRD THAT YOUR BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOOOLE WORLD EATS PEOPLE NOW#ISNT IT WEIRD THAT YOU KIND OF WISH YOU WOULD BE EATEN. EXCEPT NOT RLY BC U WOULD DIE. MAYBE HE COULD HAVE A NIBBLE#i might come back to ramble in the tags more later. STAY TUNED!!!#OKAY IM BACK TO RAMBLE. FIZZFAGS SEAL O APPROVAL IN THE TAGS U MEAN THE WWWOORRLLD TO MEEEE#THIS IS ALL YOUR FFAAAUULTT UR THE ONLY REASON THESE LOSERS ARE ROTATING IN MY BRAIN SO SO FAST#I DO INTEND TO WRITE MORE!! AND I DO INTEND TO LET IT GET WEIRDER#Iwanna make a lil chapter two w them hanging out at the funny intersection while soda maybe tries to patch emizel up.#wouldnt it be fucked up if u saw ur best friend get bled out n then sired right infront of u#and wouldnt it be fucked up if ina vampiric daze he almost sinks his crazy shark teeth into your throat#and wouldnt it be fucked up if you kinda wish he did. like not in a weird way or anything its not weird its not weird at all#RAAHH IM SO HAPPY THAT PPL LIKE MY WRITING STYLE N MY CHARACTERIZATIONS ASWELL IT MEANS SO MUCH TO MMEEEE#NICE WORDS GIVE ME SO MMUCH POOWWEERRRRR RAAGHGHHH!!!thank you guys for being so niceys to me#ive also been thinkin abt writing Post Suckening fics. EXCITED FOR SEASON TWO. in the meantime what if theo had to put up w shenanigens#one shenanigen for example being emizel going feral and attacking a comrade.#then theo needs to stake him n pull him aside n set him straight or something. set him gay. whatever.#ive also had an idea in my head. BC GABRIEL IS TOTALLY INSIDE OF EMIZELS BRAIN NOW#could u imagine doing acid or shrooms w ur homies n then suddenly ur nemesis is showing up in ur fractal hallucinations#anyway i think thats all da ramble i got in me. thanku for enjoying my writing thank yooouuu
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they were so insane for this
#fe owain#fe olivia#fire emblem#dont think this game has a number assigned tf do we call it. few????#who rly gaf about this game honestly (i did. bought every single dlc.)#BUT UGH. CROSS GEN AWAKENING SUPPORTS. AND THEY WERE VOICED!!#this one was my fav. for obvious reasons. owain and olivia friendship… omg… like bro that is ur aunt 🥺🥺🥺#its so cute… owain’s probably like ‘wow olivia ur so kind and nice. now why is your son Like That’#i wish he couldve talked to cordelia too but whatever. we got her with luci instead i’ll take it#i wish more second gen awakening kids made it in tho… yall have no idea how heartbroken i was when inigo and sev didnt make it in#and i was like ‘the next warriors game for sure!’ :/
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abstractober day 22: heart of hearts
#abstractober#abstract art#abstract#my art#i love just. putting in colours and seeing what happens#sometimes what happens is a horrid murky mess but other times its. actually nice#edit: wow and then u look at what u drew on ur phone and its WAAAY saturated and yellower#i hate digital screens they should all look the exact same as my dingy laptop screen#if this looks rly yellowy to you please imagine it not being so yellowy
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u will never believe what i got today
#i got him online unstuffed bc a rly nice person on depop sold him to me for a good price#and then i stuffed him + got the pumpkin costume today!!!#legit soooo happpy i’ve been kinda sad lately#shark noises#also i do not use tumblr anymore wow
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a single glowing star
ijust really like this small area and the song that plays in it
#for the love of god brad forgive yourself#thats kinda what that whole sequence was about right#my stuff#lisa the painful#lisa the painful definitive edition#lisa the definitive edition#brad amrstrong#lisa armstrong#this started as a doodle to remember to draw it better later and i accidentally put work into it#i rly liked the marty boss sequence thing theres so much to talk about from beginning to end#and so much to draw for#miguel being nice to the definitive edition wow!!!!!!! yes i grew up#lisa rpg
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#it is Feeling Ugly hours#this is so dumb to post this here#like my blog has grown a ton in the past month#but i'm just sad#and like feeling rly bad about myself#body is fine i guess but like#nobody likes my face#it's a take it or leave it face#no one's ever like wow i love your face#i consistently get like cute in response to face photos#which i read as ugly but they're too nice to say anything else lol#just like one time i want someone to see my face and be like#oh my fucking god you are so beautiful#just feeling real ugly#and those abandonment issues are acting up#wahhhhh i'm not pretty wahhhh#shut up#this is so lame#just shut up
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i got so angry about the AB remaster i drew this
#maplestory#satsuhart#angelic buster#tear#sorry i have to go off about it bc i dont wnna make a separate post about it#im so angry about every single aspect of the new design and art holy shit#simplified all her patterns but added more colours to her main outfit resulting in a rly shitty colour palette#even got rid of her cute peach pink hair with yellow gradient for some bullshit pink/blue hair dye#the bows are drawn SO badly they look so cheap and the added colour looks terrible . her og outfit never even had pink#and dont even get me started on the weapon and the addition of hearts to her design HOLY SHIT im so mad#like before it very clearly had a fantasy 'idol... who Fights' vibe but now she just looks like any low budget jp idol#fkin ruined the look of her soul shooter i used to like the design so much now it looks like a knockoff kids toy that would shoot bubbles#WITH A HEART >!>?!??!?! im gonna kill something#im also so mad theyve fully rounded out her eyes and ADDED HEARTS?!?!?! like i really liked how she had sharp kinda dragony pupils#but thats all gone now SNZZ i can only hope they at least make adjustments to her outfit before release bc wow its terrible!#drawing her again after all these years made me re appreciate how nice her outfit is altho its not like i ever stopped thinking that.#it was always nice#shes cute without being overbearing about it but now its dialed up to 11 i hate it i hate it#everytime maple remasters an illust i lose a few years of my life like seriously they havent put out any nice remaster visuals since 2013#(RED explorers and they werent even visual remasters in the general sense)#like WAH at this rate im gonna be so pissed off when they get to heroes remaster. theyre gonna butcher my boy and my girl and my#ok im stopping for now but rly. hope ppl are loud enough about their contempt for this bc it didnt work enough for explorers remaster#NOTMYANGELICBUSTER
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merrill knows what sex is. she has had sex. she likes sex its just not an active interest of hers the way other things are. i like to imagine learning this makes varric faint
#it is rly funny how many ppl assume merr is like. a mega virgin#she doesnt get dirty jokes most of the time but those jokes are being made in a second language#and also like. shes just austistic SGDFKLHGCF#shes like 'anders i know u hate me but i need spells for sex' and everyone is like wow shes a sheltered baby she doesnt understand fucking#varric: what are you making daisy?#merrill: well i've been seeing a nice person in the alienage so im just mixing some tel'ivarlin#varric: [visibly struggling] and what's that?#merrill: oh its just a tea that'll ensure i don't get pregnant!#varric: [falls over]
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i saw all those asks about inedible things so i feel as your friend its my duty to warn you against eating shea butter . the texture is very pleasant but it is NOT worth it you will feel slightly ill and the texture isnt as nice as it looks . still nice though .
k-kai.. they got you too? dramatically falling to my knees as i tilt my chin skyward and crystalline tears streak my face as i feel the last bit of hope diminish from my soul
#istg can someone come into my inbox and talk abt actual FOOD THAT THEY ENOJYED EATING#LIKE WOW THIS BOWL OF RAMEN WAS RLY NICE#I WANT TO HEAR THAT. NOT THIS.#KAI WHY WERE YOU EATING SHEA BUTTER :(((((#lotus’s asks
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updated scugsona design (again)
kept the nightcat look, but added back in some original touches like the antenna
I'll likely either keep this look or swap the speckles for something more like skunk stripes (or both? I could switch back and forth??)
#rain world#rain world art#slugcat#rw slugcat#eliasart#elias.sona#two whole art things today wow#so nice to be able to draw on my pc again I missed it#rly need to clean up my desk still tho
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I don’t know if I'll ever get to write the rest of the story (big plan on my wall chilling there for a year+ if not two+ that I never managed to finish lmao) I thought I’d post the little I got for a first chapter of a Silver-centric Forces AU I had.
It's been sitting here for months it's almost sad, let's get it out here as a treat
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A rough, cold, metal hand jolted Silver back awake.
“You’re starting to get on my nerves, boy.”
Silver glared down at the table, his loosely closed hands catching in the blurry edges of his vision. He put every inch of his concentration into keeping his psychokinesis inactive. If he showed even a spark of it, or a trace of a light under his painted hands, he’d never get out of here. If he would ever anyway.
They had kept him down on his chair awake repeating the same questions over and over for way too long, and his lack of sleep frankly made words take more energy than he was willing to put in.
And that static that had taken over his mind the second they had carried him into the Tower… this place was full of Phantom Ruby copies, wasn’t it?
Frankly, he couldn’t remember anything out of this room. He knew they had broken down his front door, he knew they had dragged him inside, he knew they had brought him in here… but how long it had taken or how anything beyond this room had looked like, he couldn’t recall. He’d forget why they brought him here if they kept him long enough.
“Don’t make me ask you another time.”
“I already told you,” he growled. “The Infinite showed up, and she vanished.”
Silver had never thought of it twice whenever his mother vanished. Some days, he’d wake up and she’d be nowhere in sight, or she’d go out mid-afternoon only for him to find her asleep in the morning. Never at the same time, never the same length, sometimes accompanied, sometimes waiting for another, sometimes alone. It only ever took one glance from the mink, one second of that soft look in her eyes, and Silver knew she’d soon be gone for a while.
But he had always known better than to ask where she went, and she had known better than to tell him.
He hadn’t thought of it any more when The Infinite had showed up, assuming she’d use the confusion to leave, as she had before…
Until it had been five full days of absence and his door got broken down as he prepared for bed.
The hard hand gripped his head quills, forcing his gaze up toward the harsh lamp and the red mask glaring him down.
“Where was she going?” hissed the rabbit, mask almost making him look covered in blood.
“No one knows where anyone goes when The Infinite comes…” grumbled Silver.
“It wasn’t about The Infinite and I think you know it.”
“Even if it was the case, I don’t know where she went.”
The rabbit slammed the hedgehog’s head down on the table. “Where was she going?”
Silver took a deep breath to keep his hands dull, faking to swallow with difficulty. “I don’t know.”
The rabbit’s voice grew again, making Silver’s fuzzy mind ache. “Where was she going?”
“I don’t know!”
The rabbit practically threw Silver’s head down, turning to his colleague in the corner, arms crossed. “Let’s get the bucket.”
In forty-eight hours, his answer hadn’t changed. As his front door was kicked open and three pairs of armored hands grabbed onto him to ask about her whereabouts, his answer had been clear.
I don’t know.
As they dragged him to the tower, flashed a light in his eyes, and asked of her whereabouts over and over, his answer had remained the same.
I don’t know.
And as they grabbed him by the quills, dragged him off of his chair and shoved his head down in a bucket filled with water over and over, he yelled the same three words.
I.
Don’t.
Know.
The cross-armed rabbit didn’t move from his spot as Silver was thrown down coughing. “This is useless, he doesn’t know.”
“Then what are we doing with him?”
A pause, and both rabbits brought their hands to their heads, fingers brushing the red mask.
The one standing above Silver let out a huff, and firmly grabbed Silver by the back of his chest fur, the sudden yank pulling a hiss out of him. He stomped out of the room, dragging Silver along in the darkness.
What had happened? How had these two even gotten their answer?
The static in his head grew too strong for him to wonder any further, closing his eyes at the dizziness taking over him and shutting out any other noise.
Eventually, two doors boomed open, and his face met the hard, dry ground. He sat up with a groan, looking back at the Tower’s closed doors.
He simply sat there for a while, staring at the still doors and wiping his nose, reddening his hand. He wanted to get up, but his legs had grown numb, and it was like he had forgotten how to move them.
The sky darkened, and several cold drops fell on his quills.
He should at least walk under the roofs.
He stumbled up, trailing his feet to the first street. He kept going, passing by the provider points, though his eyes remained glued to the ground. He walked and walked, wandered around the city for a while, letting the rain run over him until the silliness of the scene sank in. No one went out on walks when it rained, especially in this part of town; the roofs out here leaked on the outside; the parts that didn’t sit on top of the interior were never worth repairing.
…Wait. Why had he gone on a walk if it rained? Had the rain started midway? When did it start?
His mind felt light, as if he had suddenly rid himself of an annoying itch that had made him want to scratch his brain directly, an itch so bad that not feeling it made everything odd and empty.
He stopped as a speck of white appeared at the corner of a wall. He looked up, meeting with wide crimson eyes. Lithium.
“...Silver?”
He silently looked back at her, legs and jaw stuck in place, as if trying to collapse, yet unable to.
…Why was he under the rain again?
The white rat jogged the few steps separating them and brought him in a tight hug.
“We found your place ransacked, we thought they had gotten you!” Despite the surprise in her voice, she kept her words quiet, almost whispers. “Where were you? What happened to your face?”
Where he had been… where had he been? It seemed like he had walked in the rain for days if not forever. And what was wrong with his face…?
“I… can’t remember.”
Lithium pulled away, looking into his eyes for a moment. Her image blurred as his eyes unfocused on their own. He blinked it away. Wherever he had been, he hadn’t slept much.
“What’s the last thing you remember?” she said.
“My bed.” Or was it his? “And making myself dinner.”
Lithium frowned, that serious frown when her mind turned into a corkboard full of pictures and red threads. It must have been a while since that had happened, right?
“How long has it been since you found my place ransacked?” said Silver.
“Three days.” She patted his shoulder, slightly pulling. “Come on, let’s get you to my place, Pops will be relieved to see you.”
#silver the hedgehog#Sonic Forces#Sonic AU#Sonic Forces AU#Forces AU#wow the text editing on tumblr is horrid#or at least on mobile#Calling it an AU is extremely important bc at the moment written in this post Silver never went to the past#the events of Forces is his first time traveling back and iirc it's by accident but he decides to take advantage of such an opportunity#I think I made everyone older too so he and Tails were both the same age I think? not 100% certain of that though#I do know I was gonna explore and focus on he and Tails developing a nice friendship it's fun to give him different peeps to grow with#before I started rly liking Espilver believe me or not he was having a different Big Friend™ every story#there's even a trace of one somewhere in my docs where this friend is Espio and it's really 100% platonjc#still like that story I go back to it sometimes#But yeah Silver's future in the first chapter/s was super important in this specific story's case and it was fun to develop#sadly the rest of the story is stuck in back-burner hell#I can't figure out a couple of things but it's some VERY important points so it blocks the entire thing#also this meant Silver was gonna be the rookie and it's funny to think abt#Gadget was still gonna be there I think but he wasn't the rookie no more#rambling#rep writes
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just finished the most intensive part of my pilates teaching training ahhhhh i think i'm actually really excited to teach in the future and that i will actually rly love it :')
it's kind of scary bc i have no idea what my career / professional life and my salary (lol) will even look like in the next year or so but quitting my corporate job was the best decision ever
#i'm actually feeling so hopeful for my future rn#i rly thought i was going to be tied to a desk job for the rest of my life bc i made a good salary#but like?? wow fulfilment is so nice too
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Recently I watched through all of Codename: Kids Next Door so here are some colored pencil drawings I did :]
As a bonus, here are some doodles I did to figure out poses. There’s nothing for Numbuh 1 bc I originally thought I could do it without sketching it first (I was wrong)
(Mainly putting these here bc I rly liked the original sketch of Numbuh 3 and I want ppl to see it)
#hehe oh looks Scottie’s posting set again wow#anyways I binged the entire series#very nice it’s very funny#plenty of thoughts not enough confidence to voice them#but! I can draw#I only partially stylized them w the outfits and such#just know this is like the first time in drawing half of them#also these took up half of my second to last sketchbook page so. appreciate it. plz#is codename: kids next door#knd#numbuh 1#numbuh 2#numbuh 3#numbuh 4#numbuh 5#Crab Doodles#also you can’t rly see the height difference bc of the individual pictures but don’t worry. I made numbuh 4 short
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had th best stream i'v ever had last night by miles (n not jus bc the stats <3), ty everyone ;v;
(tysm Milk n Roo for rbing th going live post <333)
#forgot to check this last night#24 UVs was a surprise wow#this might seem small to anyone else but normally i'm a 1-2 average max viewer channel lol#most my friends n moots showing up was rly nice. love yall :'> /p#i was so nervous to start stream. but once yall started popping in chat i felt a lot better. even tho there were more ppl than i'm used too#(did feel like th most boring strimmer ever tediously drawing th fishnet leggings tho lol)#gonna try n stream more often <3#didderd talks#(started fkn#nodding off a bit near th end lmao#idk if it was noticeable lol)
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There's literally no reason for me 2 send u this but it's so funny how u respond to an ask and then write an entire novel in the hashtags 😭😭
i knOWWWWWWW anon u don’t need to call me out like this (◞‸◟;) i try not to but it’s become such a habit that the tags almost feel empty and wrong when i don’t have much to say >.< i usually use the tags to vent or ramble tho LMAO like,, it’s stuff that isn’t especially important or relevant enough to the ask itself to be included in the ‘main answer’
#does that make sense#wow i cannot believe you’re out here calling me out like this in my own home on a thursday morning#(◞‸◟;)#hahahaha but yEAH#it’s just extra thoughts rly#bonus content#a peek into clari’s chaotic mind#>:)#hope ur having a nice day!!!#pls stay safe n drink water!!#inky.bb#clari gets mail
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