#this is probably more in depth than u wanted but . im love my gods

[guilty-pleasures21]

hi pookie i hope you’re doing great ☺️!! ik u said i could request an au for the heretic princess so i came back for that 🫣(it was such a good fanfic i js couldn’t resist😭) i was wondering if we could maybe see how miguel and y/n are doing in the future? im not too good at ideas so if it’s too vague im sorry😭 and obviously if you don’t want to u don’t have to! thats all, happy holidays!!🎄❄️💞

Shites! This ended up so long, I needed to split it into 2 parts 😫! But I guess it's proportional to the time I took to respond to you? I'm so sorry!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

I just had a really hard time coming up with ideas! I knew I wanted to show them going through a tough time, but I was struggling so hard, babe. Just know that I really care about each and every request I get and sometimes I take AGES to respond to them because I don't want to pump out some half-arsed bs just to keep my counts up or whatever.

The heretic princess

Original story

BONUS

Part 1

Part 2

Warnings: Difficulties during pregnancy. Some angst that will be resolved, don't worry (I'm a firm believer of happy endings 😊).

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     Candles flicker around the hall, bathing the large space in a warm glow. An emissary from the Hittite empire had arrived in your kingdom the day before and, needing the negotiations between you to go well, you’d welcomed him with an extravagant party once he’d recovered from his journey. You force a smile onto your face as everyone laughs at something the emissary has said, doing your best to ignore the bile pressing against your throat in response to the smell of the seasoned meats in front of you. 

     You’d never had such troublesome side effects when you’d been carrying your first two, but you’d found yourself struggling with your current pregnancy since the very beginning. Meena had waved away your concerns, reassuring you that it probably just meant that you were carrying a girl this time, and Iset had warned you against letting Miguel think of you as weak or unattractive in any way. But their words had only made you feel more isolated, drowning you in a sea of loneliness that pulled you deeper into its depths every time you swallowed down your exhaustion and fixed that perfectly radiant smile back onto your face. 

     Miguel brushes his fingers along your side, his arm curled around you in the way it always is whenever you’re seated next to one another. And the bile pushes against your throat more forcefully this time. You inhale deeply, forcing some air into your lungs, and eventually, the feeling recedes a little - enough for you to be certain that you will not be treating the visiting emissary to an unwelcome view of the dinner you’d just had. You curl your fingers around your husband’s and lower them, taking care to keep your movements slow so he won’t realise what you’re doing. You let out a soft breath of relief when he absent-mindedly begins brushing his thumb along the side of your buttocks instead, still completely oblivious to your discomfort. Then you turn to face him, sliding your hand along his shoulder and up to the side of his face. “Darling?” 

     “Hmm?” His entire body lit up at the sound of his wife’s sweet voice and he grinned widely when he turned to face you. Gods, three years and he still couldn’t believe that you were his wife! His sweet and kind and beautiful and intelligent best friend, and you were his wife now! “What is it, my love?” 

     Your smile turns genuine when you see the admiration shining clearly on his features. Your husband had kept his promise to remain devoted to you and you alone, silencing any suggestions of a second marriage so firmly that even his mother had stopped trying to shove Dina in his direction. You had already given him two sons, after all - two heirs - and you supported him better than any old advisor ever could, strengthening your diplomatic relations and increasing the prosperity of all your people equally. You stroke his cheek with your thumb and Miguel leans closer to you, his eyelids lowering slightly as his gaze falls to your lips. A soft laugh escapes your throat and you move your hand to his chest to stop him from pressing his lips to yours. 

     “I think our baby is getting a little tired from all the excitement,” you joke, placing your hand over your swollen belly. “I should get some rest, my darling.” 

     Miguel nods and begins to get out of his seat. “Let us go.” 

     You stop him quickly, tugging him back down into his chair, and force your features into a reassuring expression. “You should stay here, my love. Keep an eye on the ambassador and make sure he remains entertained.” 

     You flash him a knowing look and Miguel straightens in his seat, taking your words seriously. “Of course, my darling. Though I will not keep you waiting for too long. I will make sure the ambassador is fully entertained before I take my leave as well.” 

     You slid your fingers up the side of his neck and into his hair and Miguel grinned as his eyelids fluttered shut at the pleasant feeling. He loved how elegantly you always carried yourself, your movements careful, your touch gentle. He opened his eyes again and his heart leapt into his throat when he saw how close your lips suddenly were to his. He leaned forward to press his lips to yours and found himself lingering there, his mouth parting slightly as his tongue requested entry into yours. You obliged him and he smiled as he kissed you, delighting in your sweet taste and the softness of you in his hand as he squeezed the flesh at your hips. You’d put on a little more weight this time than during your first two pregnancies and he almost couldn’t handle how adorable you looked with your cute cheeks and your plump body, all filled up with his little baby. Gods, you were perfect. 

     You swallow down your protests and press your lips together to keep from frowning: it would be a disaster if Miguel mishandled the situation and prompted the ambassador to take offence at your leaving early. But your best friend had always been extremely stubborn and though you were the only one capable of managing his temper, there were some things even you were unable to persuade him of: like granting you a single moment to yourself to breathe.

You adored your husband, of course, and thanked the Gods every morning when you woke up beside him and every night when you fell asleep by his side, but you’d felt absolutely wretched since you’d started showing and, despite your handsome husband’s kind and loving words of affection, you wished you had just a single moment to yourself to cry. But queens did not cry. Especially ones whose position continued to be threatened by the beautiful, untouched and unimpregnated young women milling about the room, all of them unabashedly parading themselves in front of your husband under the instruction of the few advisors still trying to gain control over the young king. 

     You move to stand and Miguel quickly leaps to his feet, wrapping you up in his arms to help you up. You lean into his touch, grateful for your equally strong and loving husband, and reward him with a kiss to his cheek after straightening. “I love you, duckie.” 

     His entire body heated up rapidly in response to your … everything, really! Gods, he loved you so much. And he bent over to give you a careful hug. “I love you too, kitty. I promise I will not be long.” 

     You giggle softly, reassured by the wide-eyed look of promise on your husband’s face, and pat his arm before finally retiring to your chambers. 

     You lie on your back in bed, the curtains drawn over your windows to block out the midday sun. Thankfully, your presence wasn’t required in the hall this morning, the only thing on the agenda listening to the pleas of petitioners needing help with some trivial issue or another. Miguel had brushed your hair away from your forehead to press a kiss there when you’d told him you were feeling tired and calmly reassured you that it was perfectly fine for you to get some rest. You’d let out an exhale of relief at his unbothered response and settled back into the pillows gratefully. But then Meena had rushed over to you, panicked by the King’s casual mention of you feeling rather tired today and request for her to look after you as he’d walked out the door. You’d patiently assured Meena that you were all right and just needed some rest, barely holding back from snapping at her in irritation, and finally, she’d left you alone. 

     You inhale deeply and shift in position slightly, trying to get comfortable in spite of your aching back, and eventually, you find the perfect position. A small smile creeps onto your lips as the pressure of carrying your baby slowly eases, and you notice yourself start to drift off, your body taking advantage of having the entire bed all to yourself. Then, “mama! Mama!” 

     Your eyes fly open at the rapidly loudening sounds of your children racing down the hallway to your bedroom and you blink away the tears that form at the corners of your eyes. Of course, you loved your children, they were the most precious gifts you had ever received from the Gods! But you were just so tired and so uncomfortable and all you wanted was a few moments of peace and quiet. You sniffle softly as you push yourself to a seat and lean against the headboard, then you force your lips into a smile as the door opens and your sons bound into the room. 

     “Mama!” Rio exclaims, climbing up onto the bed and crawling excitedly over to you. You hold your hands out to him in encouragement and he giggles happily when you cuddle him into your side and press a kiss to the top of his head. Your first son was an easygoing child, blessed with the unbothered temperament of his father - and all his looks too: soft, brown waves, deep-set copper eyes, a handsome little smile that even the old Queen couldn’t resist. 

     “Ma-ma,” your second son, Rafael, carefully vocalises. He’d just turned one and had started trying to form words, imitating whatever sounds his brother and parents would make at him. He was a little more fussy than your first, but he absolutely adored his older brother and followed him everywhere he went. You spread your free arm wide as Miguel lifts your baby onto the edge of the bed and Rafael toddles over to you eagerly. He lets out an amused laugh when he falls over onto the mattress, but he maintains his determined pace until he’s tucked safely into your side. 

     “Hello, my darlings,” you greet your children and husband, your exhaustion fading away slightly as the happiness of being with your family overcomes you. “What brings you here at this hour?” 

     You look to Miguel for a response and he grins at you proudly, clearly delighted by his own ingenuity. “They missed you, my love. And besides, I thought seeing them might help brighten your spirits.” 

     He sank on the edge of the bed and waited for you to congratulate him for his idea. You loved your children and always seemed a little lighter after spending some time with them, no matter the situation. It hadn’t completely escaped his notice how much of a toll your current pregnancy seemed to be taking on you, and though you didn’t seem to want to share the true extent of your difficulties with him, he would still do all he could to make you feel more comfortable. 

     You give your husband your best attempt at a grateful smile: he was only trying to help, after all, unceasingly showering you with his attention even when you felt like nothing more than a wretched cow. “Thank you, duckie. How thoughtful of you.” 

     He sits up a little straighter, basking in your praise as he always does, and you turn your attention to your sons. “How are you doing, my little babies? Is everything good?” 

     “Everything’s good!” Rio repeats, smiling up at you. His gaze jumps to your enlarged stomach and he turns onto his side to study it curiously. “Mama good? Baby?” 

     “I am good, my love,” you lie to your son, tensing up slightly when he places a cautious hand on your stomach. “Baby is good too. But be soft, okay? Baby is very soft, so you must be soft too.” 

     “Baby is soft?” Rio questions, his eyes sparkling at the tidbit of new knowledge. “I like soft! Soft is good.” He keeps his movements gentle as he glides his hand across your belly and Rafael quickly tries to follow suit, not wanting to be left out. 

     “So, regarding the Prince of Assyria’s visit,” Miguel begins suddenly. “I was thinking perhaps we could arrange it for next week?”

He continues speaking after that, but you’ve stopped listening. Next week?! You’d barely said goodbye to the Hittite ambassador and already, your husband was planning to host another important guest?! You pull in a breath, trying to tamp down your frustration, but suddenly everything overwhelms you: your children gliding their warm little hands across your stomach, their incomprehensible shrieks of excitement pounding at your ears, your husband raising his voice to be heard over them and, oh god. You clench all your muscles as the smell of what was probably meant to be your lunch glides in through the door, the mixture of spices and meat turning your stomach uncomfortably. 

     “Miguel!” you exclaim suddenly, unable to stand it any longer. “Can you stop?!”

And the room falls silent. Your sons pull their hands away from you and bury themselves into your sides, terrified by your sudden change in demeanour: you never raised your voice. They gaze at their father with wide eyes, waiting to find out what he’d done wrong, and Miguel stares at you in shock. 

     You never yelled. No matter how frustrated you got, no matter how far his power-hungry advisors or jealous mother pushed you, you never raised your voice. Definitely not at him. He studied you curiously, unfamiliar with the way your features had scrunched up in irritation, and watched silently as your expression quickly shifted into one of horror.  

     “Mi- Darling,” you begin, an awkward laugh sprinkled through your words. Oh Gods, what had you done?! How could you yell at the King?! The man who still had a line of girls waiting for him outside the palace even despite the wife and two young sons he adored more than anyone in the entire world! You shift in your seat, preparing to move across the mattress and get to your feet. “My love. Duckie, I-” 

     “Stop,” Miguel commands you, his voice soft, but firm. Your stomach gives another uncomfortable flip at the unreadable expression on his face and tears spring to your eyes when he reaches forward to take your children away from you. “You should get some rest, darling. Say goodbye to Mama, babies. We will have some lunch and then go see the horses. Would you like to see some horses, Rafael?” 

     Rafael babbles happily as your husband carries him out of the room with one arm, your older son’s hand clasped in his, and you swallow down a sob as your husband continues to shoot you a vague expression while your sons wave goodbye to you. 

     Finally, you’re alone, exactly as you’d wished for. Only now, you find yourself regretting every second of it.

[twistedastrology]

🌊my take on neptune🌊

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LOOK at that gorgeous fucking planet man-

i wanna start this with a little tiny disclaimer that my take on neptune is very different from the usual and kinda flips a lot of shit on its head so my bad if this makes no sense to u but i wouldn't be uranus ruled if i didnt do shit crazy different would i 💔💔

THAT BEING SAID!!!!!! LETS GET INTO IT BABEY!!!!

let's start with what I'm dismantling-

in modern astrology, neptune is often considered the higher octave of venus and is known as the planet of spirituality or higher love. ive seen a lot of ppl say that neptune is associated with hollywood, which makes no fucking sense to me but whatever yknow to each their own-

neptune is also known as the ruler of pisces, and is exalted in cancer, the sign the moon rules.

I am about to flip a Whole fuckton on its head here so strap in and give me ur brain for a second 💔💔

neptune, the god, is the roman counterpart to poseidon, and poseidon rules over the sea, storms and earthquakes- generally very chaotic stuff-

poseidon's egyptian equivalent would be Seth, or Set. Seth was the god of chaos, storms, earthquakes, generally very chaotic stuff again.

Seth was also a trickster and, in egyptian mythology, overall kind of an asshole (since he literally chopped up Osiris into like a billion pieces and then scattered him across the earth so- idk kind of a dick move ngl)

but that's what he did!! that was his thing!!! he was the god of chaos!!!! gods of chaos are gonna be kinda assholes!!!!

But what does this mean for neptune- well this means that Neptune would be Seth (and neptune is known for it's deceptive qualities)

now keep that in ur brain as i go off on another tangent that will eventually circle back around to this one-

another proposal i have that may be shocking is that to me, Neptune is the one that rules Cancer, and the moon is the one that rules Pisces.

stay with me here hold on hear me out 💔

since ive been quite literally twisting the fuck out of astrology in my head and debunking cancer myth after cancer myth, I've come to find that cancers are a much more volatile sign than we give them credit for- or at least Can be-

they're not crybabies by any sense of the imagination, and like i said in my post abt cancers and rage, they feel anger more heavily than anything. they can also be very chaotic because they're cardinal water (think tsunamis).

now they're not all bad, dont think im tryna paint em as villains dawg i am literally a cancer rising/mars- but they have a distinct dark side to them that is Not to be fucked with.

cancers are often considered the "mothers" of the zodiac, but that has been watered down to "they're good with kids and probably want kids"- when cancers were Initially considered the mothers of the zodiac, they were talking abt cancers are the Guardians of the Zodiac.

not the galaxy-

now i will say, if a cancer has children, they will be VERY protective of them, but not in a helicopter-y way. more like in a "if you say something bad about their children or threaten to harm their children in any way, they will most likely punch you in the face and knock you out."

they wont bitch at you or be polite about it, they will probably break your face- BREAK YOUR FUCKIN FACE TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!

now, where do cancers get that rage from? who around here borders on being or Is a god of chaos in the zodiac................. seth.

neptune is a much darker, more volatile planet than we give it credit for, just like cancers can be the same- But at the same time, they can both be very pleasant entities-

cancers can easily be some of the nicest people you've ever met, they're incredibly loyal and would probably go to war for you if you meant a lot to them, and they can be VERY and often times Are creative and artistic in some way.

neptune can be a very rewarding planet to work with, it can be incredibly creative because of the depth it represents, and it can put you and guide you on your path to and through spirituality.

neptune ruling cardinal water makes much more sense in this light than it ruling mutable water in my opinion. a planet as potentially volatile as neptune would NOT be mutable.

all of this also comes partially from my slightly different idea of what higher octaves really are- ive seen people say they're the "large scale influence" planets, but i think they're quite literally just the more powerful versions of the planets they're the higher octaves of (so they can and do affect the large scale, but that's not ALL they are).

so the moon in this case would deal with our conscious emotions, our humanity, that level of stuff- which makes more sense for pisces in my opinion- the moon would be more along the lines of the emotions we Think we should feel (mutable) and therefore do- the moon is how we may have Learned to feel, among many other things.

whereas neptune is our deep, inner self. our subconscious emotions, the feelings that penetrate our very soul. neptune is our shadow self, but it's also our higher self. just as the moon has a dark side, neptune has one too, but neptune's dark side is infinitely more painful.

this role switch also makes much more sense at least in my chart, because when looking at the moon as being my chart ruler, my co-ascendant would be pisces, which never made any sense to me- so i chalked it up to "oh well my moon is 1° pisces so it's basically aquarius i guess" which DID make sense

but my moon is still in pisces. My neptune, however, is firmly in aquarius, which explains perfectly why i feel so much more aquarius coded than anything else.

im also like 99% outer planet ruled, mercury being the only inner planet that dominates my chart- my most active planets are mercury, saturn, uranus, neptune and pluto 😮‍💨

HOWVEVEVR!!!!!!

i wanna say that whenever i switch everything up like this, i still find value in normal astrology and often combine it with my twisted version to get the most accuracy possible- so while my neptune and uranus are in mutual reception (aquarius/pisces) but i believe that neptune rules cancer, i still feel that mutual reception but i also still feel the neptune/cancer influence, especially since my ascendant literally starts in the neptune decan of cancer.

and this makes my chart make a lot more sense in terms of neptune too-

if this makes absolutely no fucking sense at all to you then that's fine!!! this is just my personal view on neptune and i honestly still associate a lot of My View of neptune's traits with the moon, which is why i incorporate a multitude of different perspectives into how i interpret everything and it gives me accurate meanings so i see no problem with it-

once it stops being accurate, then there's a problem, but we're not there yet so it's ok 🙏🙏

ultimately u can kinda just take this as food for thought if nothing else!! and if u read this far into my yapping session, god bless fr 😮‍💨 (i am not religious. HAHAHHAA)

[lunarle-old]

I was gonna put something here but decided to check ao3 first and THABK GOD I DID cuz that was hands down the best chapter ever. Im gonna say the other thing i wanted to say in a different ask because I need to talk this out soo uhh here comes another yap session from me :3

Just the first sentence made me actually scream (my poor friend was a witness of this as i sent her dozens of voice messages qwq) because oh my GOD ORPHAN KOKICHI!!! AAAA!! This is making me super duper happy because JCJDJFJDJD KOKICHI ive read alot of kokichi pov fics and I can assure you you are NOT mischaracterizing him and anyone who thinks so missed the whole point. He is being PSYCHOLOGICLLY TORTURED!!@@?! HE IS NOT OKAY GUYS!!@@%!! I did notice how the mastermind acted a bit differently each time but I thought it was just dependinf on tsumugis mood i was NOT EXPECTING THIS!! HELLOOO?!?#$&!?!? the tho8ght of there being more of them ooohj you are so SO clever your ideas just feed into mine and UDHDHJDJS i dont think theres a time i wqs ever even slightly dissapointed with ypur writing because it ALWAYS HITS THE RIGHT SPOTS and ooohh it just keeps getting crazier and I finally found something where I am the target audience and it is making me gen so happy JXJDJDJE oh and don't even get me started on the END?!?!? HEELLOOO?!?! Shuichi my poor little baby oh my god I am going insane AAA I am so not prepared for what shes about to do to him i have a teensy weensy feeling they are gonna get tortured together and that is.perfec.iom AND LITERALLY ONE OF THE THINGS I WROTE. I like roleplayinf my silly ideas and then if its good enough i write it out and there was this one wehre likee im not gonna rsmbke about thst now but basically THAT. Like they have ti make choices and watch eschother suffer and OOOHHH THE DESPAIR!!! And also. The last sentence. ??. I REMMEMBER THAT PIC YPU POSTED. STRAITJACJRTB KOKICHI. THAT WAS THERE. I feel like this is important since it was mentioned in the official art AND OH i am SO excited AAAAAAA

Well....thats that....i really hope i dont annoy youbwith my long ass asks i just like showing how much I LOVE your storys and ideas by writing out my thoughts LOL i do wanna draw something about thus but it is late and I do wanna write another ask about the thing I was originally gonna say SOOOO that can wait till tomorrow TwT BYEE!!

(*^▽^)/★*☆♪ I love these long asks!!! Don't worry!!

It was probably cus I finished the chapter at like 3am when i was insecure and anxietyridden that I felt so nervous about it but it sounds like it came out okay! :P I realized that the only time I've ever rlly gone into my Long Standing Kokichi Backstory(Fanon) was in m5 with that girl, so I figured now might as well be the time to explore it more in depth ゜゜(´O｀)°゜

:O That . Roleplay writing story thing. Sounds SUPER INTERESTING omg I love roleplaying!! ♪ヽ(´▽｀)/ i rp with my girlfriend and currently im on my #316th streak of reminding her to respond. its success rate is stagnatingly low

Tsumugi's Mood seems to have been a big part of everyones assumptions so,, I'll tell u this. There are very specific "styles" of torture each person will do. The violent one prefers to be physical, the cruel one (also known as "doll whumper" in my notes ;3) prefers things on a more psychological standpoint, but will definitely lash out if they lose enough patience (hence them dislocating kokichis shoulder QwQ)

i cant say much more than that cus i fear i have a story to write and i cant give out "spoilers" or whateverrr but . time will tell!

Thank you so so much though!! Im super glad ur enjoying it lol (*＞∇＜)ﾉ

[starlazergazer]

Hii!! I’m the anon who asked if u had an ao3, and I’m sooo glad I can have all your fics in one PDF thank u so much 🙏 I can quickly pressed the download button so fast. youre genuinely one of my fav anakin fic writers in the entire galaxy (far far away). Your writing is so so gorgeous and complex, and it just feels soooo real—how each person has their own depth—so much thought is put into every word and how it’s framed.

I just read your latest fic, Separated, and my god I SOBBED. It was SO good. I was listening to sad songs too, to get more into the mood, and it made me cry even harder. My heart just dropped out of my body when Reader and Anakin were saying their last words towards each other through the call: they were so emotionally close but so physically far from each other. How they were imagining a different life where everything was more softer and happier, that living handle their souls more gently, when in reality one was killing her, and the other was walking towards a path of destruction? AARAAGGH IM GOING CRAZY WITH YOUR WRITING (COMPLIMENT). I can’t wait to see the second part and how you plan to execute the follow up.

Btw. Do you have any tips on how you can finish writing stories? You write so much and it’s all such high quality. How do you do it? I have so many ideas but I never actually commit to it. I have this idea where Reader is also on par with Anakin’s skills as a mechanic except she gets extreme motion sickness, which I think would be so funny considering she’s good at building ships but not flying them.

(I really hope you’re okay with me posting this I know your first message was sent anonymously so I wasn’t sure but if you’re not definitely just let me know and I’ll get rid of it) but Oh my god I sobbed reading this 😭. Genuinely this is the biggest compliment I’ve ever received and it means so much to me I’m positively overflowing right now and a little upset I cannot find the words to properly express how much this means to me. I already go back through some of the messages Ive received periodically as a little pick-me-up but I already know this one will be revisited weekly it just means so much to me the way you’ve picked up on everything I’ve tried so hard to do well in my writing making the dialog and situations and characters feel real and complex and messy ugghhhhh I love you so much this means the world 🫶����

As far as writing tips for finishing stories I have many cause it’s definitely something I struggle with all the time lol! I’d say the biggest thing for me is to focus on just getting something down rather than finishing a certain work. At any one time I have four or five word documents open on my computer because I’m regularly only writing a scene or a piece of dialog or literally just an idea. A lot of the time I get halfway through something and decide I hate it but keep it there anyways. What usually ends up happening though is I take ideas or scenes from all the different pieces and drop them into my “main story” if I think they fit well so it all works out in the end but just writing (even if it’s not related even remotely to what you feel like you “should” write) is ultimately what’s important.

I also regularly skip around when I’m writing. I find I like writing the big plot points or bits of dialogue the most so a lot of the time I write those first then fill in the gaps later. Finishing a story is a lot less daunting when you already have all of the big pieces in place and just need a few tiny bridges to bring everything together.

Lastly I would say again just get something down on the paper. I’ve written a lot of really bad stuff lol and sometimes I can feel it while I’m writing it and there’s a part of me that wants to just delete it and start over but having the ideas down on the page is always 100% better than having nothing and editing the crap out of what you already have is way easier than starting over from scratch.

Anyways that’s probably way more than what you wanted lol but I really hope it helps! I think just remember this is supposed to be fun, if you’re getting frustration or exasperation out of it more than anything totally feel free to take a step back. I’m known to go MIA for months at a time cause I have periods where I just am not feeling it and forcing myself through it does nothing for anyone.

Seriously though thank you thank you thank you I’m so absolutely overjoyed that you like my writing enough to want to keep it in any form it means the absolute world to me! Also good luck with your potential fic! Tag me if/when you finish it! I’ve been wanting to do a mechanic reader fic forever but never gotten far enough into actually planning it out to start writing anything so I’d love to see your take on it

[freakurodani]

top 5 haikyuu moments !! (can be particular scenes or episodes or arcs) :D

OKAY!!! so i had to gather visuals for this one bc i have many feelings about this!! I went for scenes that no matter how many times i watch, they never lose their magic for me, no matter that i know theyre coming, it still takes my breath away and makes me roll around with delight, these most of these i feel like are probably pretty obvious ones, they were meant to be impactful but ough, if they dont tear me up in the best way

SO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1.

I mean, what can i say??? what IS there to say?? theyve been teammates for a few weeks at this point, but hinata has given all his trust to kageyama and in turn, kageyama promised to use it to its full potential. its also a promise for their rivalry!! like, okay okay okay think about it, with the context we have with Kazuyo, kageyama has *already* decided that hinata is going to be his someone better! he sees it innately and he wants to draw it out of him, and he's, hes trying to be *hinatas* someone better too!! do u understand *shakes you* do u see what i mean!!! i mean, im sure u do, im definitely not the first person to go insane about this and ppl have probably also said it in a way thats smarter than me but just, ough

2.

its,,,, its,,, the acceptance of it all,,, i just think about how *alone* kageyama must have felt after his grandfather passed, we see and know that hes not good at connecting with people. hes bad at communicating and hes sensitive and he's scared of getting complacent. like, the all youth camp arc and atsumu calling him a goody-two-shoes is kageyama struggling with how he is changing, how hes trying to incorporate the influences he's gotten from his betters, and he cherishes it, but he's also felt like the advice he'd been given didn't also mesh with certain parts of himself. or, thats how i read into it, anyway. he tries so *hard* to be what ppl need him to be, and he's *so scared* of being rejected again. and this is hinata (and the rest of karasuno) telling him "HEY! we like you! we think you're smart and you dont have to shoulder connection all on your own! let us help you connect with us in a way where you feel comfy too :)" and then they talk about how they want communication! and it works!! and i just *rips into a pillow with my teeth*

3.

HINATA'S PERFECT RECEIVE!!!!! so the inarizaki match is probably my favorite?? there are so many good moments but *this?* you wanna see me go insane? do you want smth thatll make me tear up? every time!! its just!!! a beautiful culmination of all of hinatas hard work that he's put into during the year! its his change of mindset! its his growth!! he's fallen a level deeper in love with volleyball and ive fallen a level deeper in love with his character

4.

halo around the moon <3 Tsukki's block, his hard work, his character arc and development and everything is just *chefs kiss*. i remember the first time i watched the show, i,, *hated* tsukishima, and i think we definitely arent supposed to like him at first, but GOD does that turn around!! and this moment just feels so *earned* and *epic* and in the end HE STILL ISNT SATISFIED!!!!! he STILL wanted more!!! this point was worth 100 god fucking damn!!

5.

im talking about the inarizaki match again!! but this time with a focus on Tanaka, who kind of struggled with this match! he was in a low place during it, felt stagnated and lame. Tanaka, as a character, i would say is best characterized by his mental fortitude and stability, funny enough. He's wild, but i think part of his visual design lends that as his base (since he's often compared to buddhas/monks). But in this match, we get more depth, we see him falter and struggle! it takes more than just a slap to his cheeks to get better (tho tsukishima does point out that he gets out of his depression pretty fast) but like, tanaka uses meaningful cognition to break his rut, and its also just like, advice that I've seen used for stuff like any kind of creative block as well. The visual during the animation, he's climbing up the stairs, he's slowing down, he's coming face to face with a canyon, a plateau. He sees two options, give in, or push forward and he picks "the cooler" one, and struggles forward, forces himself ahead! and kageyama backs him up too, by not letting him back down, assuring him that his usefulness hasnt reached its end and AUGH I LOVE A TEAM YALL

okay thank u so much for the excuse to ramble about haikyuu moments that mean everything to me <33333

[misqnon]

i stopped reading usosan fanfic for this (actually i was happy to stop bc it was smut and i wasnt in the mood to read smut but was too lazy to look for non smut)

I KNOW.. PLEASE .. why does only sanji get to be free .. im so sad for them. reiju the literal (former) child soldier and pudding with no one to care for her and love her. i assume theyll come back in the cover stories. .. please oda... pls..

"UR RIGHT NO SHAME….PUTS MY YAOI PROUDLY ON THE FRIDGE" YEAH!!!! YEAHHH!!!!

NOO AHDNSBF.. i can relate though i always do exactly what im warned not to do

"it was all me. next i will be asking the size of katakur- [gunshots]" NOO HOW COULD THEY SILENCE U LIKE THIS ... dont worry I'll ask in ur place

u cant put improper french in ur fanfic!!!!

reading the water 7 arc when usopp splits always kills me inside... it hurts so bad. i hope that if/when sanji and zoro fight, its THAT emotionally impactful. like all the hidden meanings and . angst.. i want good angst. if they do actually get into a fight To The Death, i dont think anyone but luffy could stop them. i could also imagine theyre fighting to the death and like . what stops them is someone in the crew is put into mortal peril and theyre forced to work together (bc that's always how it goes). what they should actually do is sit down and talk about their feelings... with a mediator perhaps....

"but why does shuggy feel like one of the most likely to me." IT DOES TO ME TOO!!! like the subtext... is there... it is so much There.

"that is canon shuggy to me. oda doing it kinda halfheartedly in a roundabout way for laughs but the fandom is popping bottles (we popping the BIGGEST bottles when shuggy happens tomorrow-)" YEAH i think even if this is the case its a win. canon gay old guys??? who have been pining after each other (well mostly shanks pining after buggy) for what .. 25 years?? that would be amazing..

"do u think zoro will get more development of him as a character by the end of the story?" i do!!! i think he needs a bit more depth tbh. like he is a wonderful character and im not saying he should have a sadder backstory or something but. to me rn i think hes a bit more two dimensional compared to the rest of the crew. like yeah simplicity is wonderful but i think to me hes less.. of a simple character.. and more like a character that needs to have more emotional highs/lows. i know i could love him so much more if i just ... knew him better. anyways i think its coming bc there have been some realizations involving his character? backstory? recently. and i assume oda knows that he could use more emotional depth. stoic and aloof characters are fine but i think the real appeal is when u get to see into their mind for a second and understand who they really are as a person

sexualize him to the point the audience wonders if hes actually a woman

thank u for watching my 4kids sanji video. i actually have like 5 videos saved of trace heatfist because he is so weirdly attractive in the 4kids dub but i will spare u. also idk if uve heard 4kids luffy but imo his voice is way better than the funimation dub???

"WHILE CONNECTED to a GIANT PROJECTOR…THIS briefly flashed on the screen before i frantically clicked away. no one saw but i. i did." this is EXTREMELY FUNNY. i really enjoy embarrassing stories because i find my own embarrassing stories very funny (when i tell them to other people)

brainwash everyone into believing sanji one piece is gay in SOME way.. ur doing gods work

i love how not normal u are about him

"(nodding) no go on what animal parts" see if u had read dungeon meshi i could reference it and everything would be so much easier, BUT YOU HAVENT /lh /teasing

ok but i have been obsessed with animals since i was a kid (especially lions and wolves (special interest go brr)) so probably lotta lion parts... because theyre cooler looking than wolves. and also just give me wings for good measure. i want to fly. nevermind that wings are meant for lightweight creatures. these are magic wings. its one piece..

i saw u post abt nightcrawler and i was never really into x men but hes pretty

i stared at the law comic... for.... like... 10 minutes.... rhank u ... for putting that onto my . feed

YEAH HES 6'3. actually hes the shortest warlord, tied with boa hancock. 6 feet tall is short in one piece

"gay art markets" already intrigued.

THATS SO COOL AJJDHSDJ.. i have been to a few anime cons and i dont remember?? ever seeing any law's??? its very sad .. i went the year before last year i think. i did see a huge furry one time (at the anime con). they looked like they were 7 feet tall. it was really exciting. and intimidating. that weird mix of the two. i am 5'3 for reference.. like wow. u are huge.....

"i love ur insane thoughts pls continue to share."

"i will do the same someday when i am less shy and ashamed of my unhinged fandom thoughts" pls do!! share ur own!! (when ur comfortable!!) i will not judge .. this is a judgement free zone. and also a shaming free zone

"such as making zoro amvs to abba in my head on the way to therapy." u are so powerful...

"thats a line my therapist actually said in response to something i did once." ur therapist sounds cool wtf. i never got a cool therapist

YEAH I SAW PPL TALK ABT IT SO I RECOGNIZED THE POSSIBLE CROCODILE.. i saw someone say croc was gonna be... some white dude.. and internally i was crying.. how could u do that to him

thank u for ur sacrifice

(watched the video) omg its prozd!!!! i love stuart.... Stuart.. stuart little.. ???? no wonder he got along with mice

YEAH I HEARD THAT TOO?? LIKE WTF IS HAPPENING... its cuz crunchyroll is funding ...

did my meme image come off as ambiguous. i asked my friend if it was ambiguous and they said no.. but i had nothing wlse....

robin canonically having touched (crushed) franky's balls for an extended period of time is so weird to me. thats what i think abt when i see naked franky..

p.s. i will add u there... my discord is something like. stupid.. stinky... or something... i dont remember. u saw the doflamingo snail just remember that. oh wait i also have my name as my name. ok. i forgot about that.

send me ur sanji pics .

rowan i am honored 

ok that gives me a question tho. i feel like u mentioned sanuso before and im curious. do people?? have ships with characters in them that they dont like?? like before i converted u. i feel like i could never like a ship that had a character i disliked in it. or at the very least i would grow to like both the characters

THE COVER STORIES i didnt think about that!! yes…oda please…i know u havent forgotten about reiju bc u put her in that one really fruity chapter cover with tashigi for some reason…

to all the haters that i dont have….but my silence. for $5,000 a month,

APPARENTLY NOT the french in my fic is all now double checked….to my embarrassment 

TRUE IT WOULD BE LIKE THE USOPP SPLIT…and yea. that moment WAS a lot. i think i teared up. there are a lot of “crewmate almost leaves the crew” moments and i think a fight between two strawhats (which has also happened before! but usually at least one of them is luffy!) could feel similarly. i like ur interpretation of how it could go too…there’s this trope in zosan fanfics where robin ALWAYS is all up in there business trying to mediate them and i both love it and hate it lmao. like yea she probably would notice but also why does she always gotta be ur guys’ therapist….and in canon. for a moment like that. it would probably have to be luffy wouldnt it??

oda: haha guys i made buggy gay isnt that Funny

the fandom: [hooting and hollering]

I AGREE COMPLETELY ABT ZORO. HE DOES NEED JUST A BIT MORE EMOTIONAL DEPTH. MAKE HIM GO THROUGH SOMETHING…stoic and cool characters REALLY DO need a moment where they ARENT STOIC AND COOL to be more well-rounded…and zoro hasnt really gotten that since that one time he cried at baratie like a thousand chapters ago (literally). and that was a very brief moment. he and robin can be similar and enies lobby is what made everyone love her more…when is zoro’s enies lobby. i dont actually need an entire arc like that for him (i mean i'd love that but i dont expect it) BUT AT LEAST GIVE HIM SOMETHING!!

“sexualize him to the point the audience wonders if hes actually a woman” already there babes 🫡 just doing my part

DID. DID THEY ACTUALLY CALL HIM TRACE HEATFIST IN THE 4KIDS DUB…ARE U SERIOUS RN…IVE NEVER HEARD THAT BEFORE PLEASE SAY SIKE. i just looked up luffy’s voice as well AND I LIKE THE VOICE ITSELF A LITTLE BETTER?? BUT THE VOICE ACTING IS….HM. 

THE GALLERY I WORK AT IS SUPER CHRISTIAN I THOUGH GAY SANJI WAS GONNA GET ME FIRED ZJBFVHDCSKJ it was. it was so funny afterwards tho. i will share embarrassing stories like my life depends on it

“i love how not normal u are about him” 

IM SORRY MY FRIEND KEEPS TRYING TO GET ME TO READ DUNGEON MESHI BUT IM TOO BUSY READING ONE PIECE 😭😭😭 lion…and wings…so u want to be a griffin 👁️

not 6’3 and shortest warlord. dkjnvkjnfvkj

i love the gay art markets. also NO LAWS?? I THOUGHT HE WAS SUPER POPULAR…DIDN THE BEAT OUT ZORO IN THE POPULARITY POLLS ONE TIME

“i will not judge .. this is a judgement free zone.” WRONG bangs my sanji gavel. 

my therapist IS very cool she makes fun of me but in a good way and also makes me laugh. and i make her laugh. bc i am ridiculous. i got very lucky

i dont think theyve made any casting choices for s2 publicly yet so…we will See..

STUART KILLED ME but so did “HIS NAME IS LUFFY! THAT’S Monkey Luffy” its been playing in my head. also sanji’s love for mice/rats makes me fucking insane bc its the cutest thing on earth. that scene where he’s completely enamored by a rat that’s sitting in a woman’s shirt and he is completely ignoring the woman. for the rat 😭 SANJI LOVES MICE MORE THAN WOMEN CONFIRMED-

no but i saw clips of that scene and about cried. same to that mouse wedding he attended in a drawing request oda did kfnvkjd. can u imagine the first time they get rats in the galley and they’re all expecting sanji to freak and kill them and then they walk in and he’s made them tiny stir fry and is calling them cutesy names. they would be like. 😮

also all the fan content ive seen where ratatouille is his favorite movie. ANYONE CAN COOK!!!!! 😭

AMBIGUOUS?? I DONT THINK SO? I liked it. we turn a sad into a frrAAANKKYYYYYYYY

and god i try not to think about it but also. ROBIN WHYYY WAS THAT THE FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT OFFFF SHE IS INSANE. SHE’S SO WEIRD.  

EVIL(ER) CROCODILE NX KJDC

I ADDED U ON DISCORD!!!! sanji pics…breathes in…i will add a couple more here but. should i send some on discord as well. is that how i break the ice. images of sanji with his ass up in the air (my collection)

also check out how much this dude can cry!!! (laughing but also crying):

[duskstarskies]

getting into classical literature to understand minecraft youtubers is always going to be funny to me. yeah we’re like that <3

and here’s a little board ? thing ? i made of his character… he looks more cute than menacing but its probably bc *i* think hes more cute than menacing lol. u want to give him ur rare items sooooo bad

but anyway. to respond to ur rb:

yeah i rlly like that. E’s strictness on his moral code. i want to see E in a situation where hes forced to question? confront? this morals of his. esp considering this is bliss. the conquer and every-man-for-himself server? OR MAYBE I JUST WANT MUGM AND E TO BE ON GOOD TERMS AGAIN. T__T

the only way e would ever truly give up on mugm is if mugm personally killed E. and even that might not be enough. that quote is so lethal what do you MEAN you still hope you can see him as something other than a villain. after all THAT? def building up to ecorridor snapping … <3

and like, the genuineness of mugm is sooo interesting considering the info we’re given is biased from BOTH sides. considering they’re edited videos lol. was it just a reactionary response? E is feeling betrayed bc he spent so much time trying to paint mugm in a good light. and it was kinda hard! he had to put a lot of technicalities to his proof! but even then… i do think, at least a tiny bit, he was genuine. like not to get all rpf about it but rushing home to log in and save ur team mate is kiiinnnddaaaa prettty genuine. and e’s test of if mugm would drop everything to save him being the test he unequivocally passed is so. 🥹 that’s GOTTA count for something right?

mugm is like if a sprout was nurtured then stomped on right after. or if the sprout was planted in an active war zone. i believe in him tho. go my mugm… let’s hold onto the hope he lets kindness and love into his heart together…

i hope u liked the visual LOL… i rlly liked the shapeshifting and smoke attributes that u talked about. i think it gives him alot more depth. and he can prob shapeshift freely but i also thought it would be interesting if he instinctively shifts to a form whenever his gem is activated. for like theatrics or whatever! i def learned alot abt painting wings. avian mcyters forever….

and yeah ur point abt bliss becoming repetitive. at first i did not differentiate between the fragments, obsidian, etc etc. it looks like the next progressions are gonna be the same w the scarcity (eye of ender, emeralds??😭) i was thinking stuff like randomized cap on energy for ppl. or certain gems only working in certain biomes. or idek. they should do more dealing with gems i think its untapped potential. (apparently theres gods and lore abt the gems involved which is ??? idk how to feel abt it. i realized i like stories abt the ppl rather than having third party entities aiding the plot. but we’ll see)

also watched puki’s video… YEAH. YEAH. that was a banger line lol. like they somehow managed to come back all those times😭. all from sheer determination too. (ALSO IM MAD THE “COLD WARS” GOT DELETED THEY MIGHT THINK ITS BORING BC THEY COULDNT GET CONTENT OUT OF IT BUT THATS BULLSHITTTTTTTT i had so much fun watching ls s4 info wars there was no fighting! it was eclipse’s worst moments! 3ht being messy! pangi being so fed up w everyone! like!!!!! omg i got so mad when he said that.)

and side note i love how it was ember who burned the brotherhood’s witherfight stash, and it’s so cool bc her name is quite literally EMBER… i really like her, i think i might watch her pov next as she was the one directly confrontational w these more powerful players. like i feel she’s the only one directly standing up to power. and i am reaaaally interested in her story :3

ur last para yessssss. beautiful way to put it. they can justify their actions all they want but they cannot change the fate that’s given to them. love bliss smp <3

+ mugm gif i made… just had an impulse to.

heyyyi noticed ur pfp is mugm and ive been pretty blisspilled lately and i wanted to ask u to talk abouut him bc he is rlly rlly rlly so interesting to me. ive only watched the yt videos which r up to prog1 but i lovvvee how the root of bliss’s conflicts are based on power and control, like over the netherite/fragments/obsidian. kind of diff from ls in that there’s genuine scarcity. it brings the worst out of everyone and it encourages doing the most to obtain these things (even exploits…hehe). mugm got a taste of having this control, he dies in the void to represent the emptiness of feining over power. then he has a change of heart but STILL ends up having to assert power over ppl, but ends up weak and spawnkilled BC of this change of heart. like there’s never winning for him, so he’s going back to what feels familiar: villainizing himself and chasing after control. funny hes forced to play along with what the universe wants from him. i have yet to watch puki and some other povs like wailable so i wanted to ask u abt some of that as well! bc well bliss tumblr dead as freak…

OH MY GOODNESS HI. HI. YES MY PFP IS MUGM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I am strangely attached to him. EVEN THOUGH I NEVER TALK ABOUT HIM. this ask just made me jump up and down for joy because yeah. where are the bliss smp fans on tumblr... (funny thing is i got into bliss before lifesteal... blaming bliss for dragging me back into mcyt i hate it here! slash j.)

okay. so disclaimer... i know far less than you think i do LOLLLL i've barely watched any bliss s3 aside from puki's prog1 video. i haven't even finished watching mugm's vid on prog1 LMFAOOO (i'm a fake fan) it's just really really long... probably should do that before answering an ask about him but. We Ball. i have a really bad one-track mind when it comes to things so. apologies. i know much more about s2 though (i watched ecorridor, mugm and wyll's povs) so im mainly gonna talk about that

i find it really difficult to make conclusions that i'm confident about on mugm's character because there's so little content to work with in terms of streaming i guess? bliss streams tend to be more grindy/just doin things instead of actual lore but i might be overgeneralizing because i've watched probably like 2 bliss streams ever. most of the content is found in yt videos, and you probably know from ls how biased and Incorrect (for the sake of a clear narrative) videos can be.

i feel like i'm navigating a dark forest with a blindfold on if you know what i mean. i'm kinda just gonna conjure this up from my very foggy memory of the vids... it's been a hot minute. insert that one post that goes like people be saying things so definitively like i think it depends. please feel free to disagree or add ur own thoughts i would love to hear them ^_^

"i lovvvee how the root of bliss’s conflicts are based on power and control, like over the netherite/fragments/obsidian. kind of diff from ls in that there’s genuine scarcity" "funny hes forced to play along with what the universe wants from him"

I LOVE THIS. really interesting how server plugins across different smps shape the type of characters that end up dominating and being the most powerful. bliss is a breeding ground for selfishness and competition and backstabbing because of the scarcity. mugm ends up the way he is because bliss is such a cruel place to be. its so much worse than lifesteal. 

a pattern i've noticed with bliss is the "we have one of the [item needed to get the Big Thing; eg. netherite/wire fragments/obsidian] so we can withhold this and use it for our own benefit." one piece, even among like 8, can change the whole direction of the narrative. power and control is so fleeting in bliss because of this. plus the fact that an entire team of people can work together to collect wire fragments but still, there's only one golden gem. and it will end up in one person's hands. 

it's a universe where you have to fend for yourself. the universe pushes you into not trusting anyone. the bliss universe is genuinely horrific to think about existing in. like when i tell you watching some of those wire fragment drops had me on the EDGE of my seat… 

moving on. my mugm characterization is heavily structured around his skin. idk why i just think it fits his character so well. pitch black with a white question mark. in my head he's like a black blob of smoke with only one eye visible (this idea is stolen from bliss artists' general consensus on his character design) and a question mark eerily looming over him like a protector. the reasons why i think this will be revealed below

the first mugm moment that comes to mind is in e's video where mugm chooses to turn against e (who has spent the first 30 minutes of the video gathering evidence to clear mugm's name) because he "hated being seen as the villain". something along those lines.

my first thought: that's a really shitty reason. why does mugm let go of people that genuinely care about him (ecorridor) in favour of superficial labels that appeal to the server but not himself? it's never himself because he lacks self-respect. his identity is built on being good at pvp. good at being feared. good at killing. he's more of a weapon than a person. he doesn't respect himself (as a Person) enough to be confident in who he is underneath the black smoke that obscures his whole body except for the one eye.

the black smoke is a defense mechanism of sorts. representing how being powerful protects him, yeah, but prevents him from being truly seen. his conversation with e is honestly. terrible. because he’s unable to be vulnerable and express why he did what he did. e is a nice guy. he really did care about mugm. i think he would’ve been understanding if mugm explained himself. i like to entertain the idea of there being a parallel universe where things could’ve gone so differently. 

this is where the question mark comes in. he plays into the server's idea of him instead of trying to resist. because when everyone thinks you're evil and terrible and unforgivable, what's the point in trying to prove your own innocence? so why not be a good villain instead of a half-baked one? the question mark symbolizes how he's unsure of his identity. he changes so easily based on how he's perceived by the people around him. that's also where the black blob of smoke headcanon comes from. he takes on the shape of whatever box the server chooses to put him in. he has no clearcut edges, and he's defined by what others think.

(and what's tragic is that e was so close. he was so close to gathering all the evidence and presenting it before mugm sends any idea of that out the window. e was so close to saving mugm. the evidence basically says in big red letters “hey i would fight for you no matter what the server believes. i believe in you. and who you are.” but e never gets to show him.)

and when he dies to the void after falling from an end gateway, everything comes crashing down because he had no stable sense of identity to begin with. it's not even an honourable way to die. i think that was the perfect ending for his s2 character tbh. like you say, it's the emptiness of pursuing power. who is he beyond power? he's nothing he thought he was. he's weak. he's not the deadliest player anymore. he's left with nothing to his name. no armour, no gold gem, not even himself anymore.

there's no eyes on him, at least the eyes that once feared him. they become more like condescending looks. like he’s worth nothing. the server thinks of him as the pathetic guy who lost, instead of the deadly player he once was.

control is fleeting. mugm loses it all in the blink of an eye. 

i talked ab mugm w @610glo and she suggested the idea of shapeshifter mugm. he takes on the morals of whoever is closest to him at the time. which i wish i thought of first because it makes a lot of things Make Sense.

mugm’s change of mind happens when e’s away on vacation. without e by his side, he loses sight of who he is. of who he could be (Not evil and terrible) but it’s so easy to resort to violence and killing because yeah, “[he goes] back to what feels familiar: villainizing himself and chasing after control” (even though you say this about s3 but i think its applicable here as well. he always circles back to the same thing. at his core, he is a weapon before a person). e and mugm are so doomed. i hate everything

the shift from who he was with e, to who he becomes in wyll's presence, is so quick. it's a shapeshift. it's whiplash to e, and only e (because i think. e got the closest to knowing who mugm really was) for the rest of the server? nothing's changed. because mugm's always been evil to them.

i don’t think this would be complete without talking about the gamebreakers and wyll but. i’m mad blanking rn and i can’t think of anything substantial ………ahh. the way mugm reacts after wyll’s betrayal is oughghhgjdhgsdkf. runs from a fight for the first time. like ever. the whole server is on his ass. he’s flying along the world border, more alone than he’s ever been.

“if i die, i die. but i’m not dying to [wyll]. i’m not gonna let him have his happy ending.�� (i think this is from wyll's video)

he’s not sad, really. he’s just stubborn about it. mugm’s downfall starts here, i think. having wyll kill him would basically be handing over all his power to him. he’d rather run, and look like a coward, (arguably a worse fate) than do that. there’s basically no way out for him at this point. and we know how the rest of the story goes… just desperate attempts at delaying the inevitable. 

anywaysssss tysm for the ask! i’ve always wanted to make a post about mugm but never got to it... this was the push to make it happen hehe

[candlewitches]

noumenia?

its a monthly holiday/celebration for the new moon!! technically its 3 days! deipnon on the last sliver of the moon, noumenia on the first day of the new moon, and agathos daimon the day after

on deipnon you make an offering dinner for hekate (and in theory place it at a crossroads but a lot of modern worshippers if they observe deipnon at all offer it at their usual altar/shrine) and purify the house which for me usually just means cleaning my room rip

observances of noumenia vary a fair bit from what ive seen but in general you set the pace for what u want to do that month so like.. in theory if you’re productive on noumenia and start new projects and make offerings, the next month will be fruitful and productive as well! its also a good time to make plans for any other offerings, rituals, or holidays for the month!

and agathos daimon i am not super familiar with bc i only just started observing deipnon and noumenia a few months ago but the gist is its to honor your agathos daimon or the spirit of your house! so you make offerings to the agathos daimon and for some people you would also include ancestor veneration on this day

[sabo-has-my-heart]

Helloo astraa

This is my first time req on ur acc :33 so may i have a story please between f.reader x law angst, where reader died while giving birth to their child, law is a dr so he was there. If u r not comfortable with it im sorry and dont worry about it :333 thank youuu astraa

Warnings: angst, reader death, Daddy!Law, infants, gn!child

Word Count: 1360

I hope this is about what you wanted, also, I'm not crying, you're crying!

Looking down at the infant in his arms, Law tried to hold back his sobs. They looked so much like you. Why couldn’t he do anything? He was the owner of the op op fruit, a skilled doctor, he was the surgeon of god damned death!… death… you were dead. The mother of his child, the woman he loved… gone. You’d barely had time to see your child, a small smile crossing your features as he brought the bundle over to you. He’d tried his best, he’d wanted to save you. The moment he noticed the complications, he’d started to work frantically. You’d just asked him to see your child, you just wanted to see your child one time. Maybe you knew that you were dying, maybe you knew that you’d never get to see your child grow up. Finally, the sob escaped his lips as he held his child closer, trying not to hold them too tightly as he clung to them. He fell to his knees, he couldn’t do this without you, he wasn’t a father, he wasn’t nurturing, he’d lost his parents when he was 10 and Corazon when he was 13! He didn’t know how to be nurturing! The crew had promised to help him, but that was of little comfort, not when you were gone. A whine and wriggling in his arms drew his attention, looking down at the bundle. Had his sobs woken them? Were they hungry? What was he supposed to do? Law slowly got to his feet, exiting his room. Bepo, Shachi and Penguin would probably know what to do, hell, any of his crew would probably have a better idea than he did. He knew the scientific ins and outs of taking care of a child, he could tell you how much a child should probably eat, how much they should weigh at certain milestones, the chances of them getting sick, what to do when they got sick, the best things to feed them for the most nutrients, he could tell a person all of the technical necessities of taking care of an infant. But a baby wasn’t a scientific experiment, they needed love, they needed care, they needed… they needed you. You would have been better at this. He knew he could be cold and stand-offish, he showed a certain kind of affection for his crew, and he’d shown you affection, but it was different. He didn’t smother you in kisses like some people, he didn’t praise you constantly like Straw hat’s cook, didn’t hold you constantly or snuggle with you all the time. You’d never minded, simply enjoying the moments you got. His arms wrapped around you as he fell asleep, a soft kiss to your forehead when you made sure he wasn’t overworking, telling you you were beautiful in the privacy of his office or your room. Could he raise a child like that? With so few obvious affections? Would they hate him for not saying he loved them more? Would it affect their emotional and mental growth? Once again, he knew the technical and medical knowledge, but he had no idea how to apply it. It didn’t take long for him to find Bepo, the polar bear mink taking care of various minor chores around the Polar Tang. Fuck, was this even the kind of place he should be raising a child? The machinery, the life of a pirate, the frequent darkness in the depths of the ocean. Bepo took one look at the squirming infant before leaning in and sniffing it. Right, that was probably the first thing he should have checked for, why hadn’t he thought of that? He seemed to know exactly why Law was standing in front of him as he waved for Law to follow him. Law wasn’t the only one on the ship who was distraught, the entire crew had loved you, you were a mother before you’d ever even gotten pregnant, just a different kind of mother. The grieving man followed Bepo into the kitchen, watching as he heated some milk up.

“Do you know how to feed them, captain?” Bepo asked, holding the warm bottle. How to feed an infant, first the child needed to… no, that was what all the books said. This would be the first time he’d fed them, the crew having taken care of the infant for the first few days while Law screamed and sobbed over your death.

“I think so.” Law said simply, gently taking the bottle. He took a shaky breath, hoping that he was doing this right. It wasn’t all about technical terminology, he needed to… what were you always saying? Go with the flow, don’t plan, just feel it out, it’s okay to not know exactly what you’re doing. More tears streamed down Law’s face as he watched his child drink, instantly quieting down. They looked so peaceful, reminding him once more of you. His heart ached as he remembered that same look of peace on your face. He barely felt the large polar bear hugging him, too absorbed in watching his child, in his memories of you. Why couldn’t you be here with him? Why you? Hadn’t he lost enough people in his life? Apparently not, since you had been ripped away from him. The infant soon decided that they’d had enough, Law handing the bottle to Bepo to take care of as Law saw to his child’s needs. This was going to take some getting used to and, despite his desire to take care of the child on his own, it was going to take the help of his crew. He was still their captain, he was still a pirate, meaning that for the time being, he still had other people to look after as well. Law began to wonder about raising the child on the Polar Tang once more. They’d have a bigger family than if he settled down on some island, they’d grow up surrounded by and smothered with love, none of his crew would allow the child to come to harm. Would they be safe though? He was a notorious pirate, wanted across all four blues and the Grand Line. It wasn’t like pirates hadn’t had children before, and not all children of pirates were hunted or hated, but this was the only ‘thing’ he had left of you, what if they were put in harm's way? You’d have known what to do, you always knew what to do. Once more, he tried to hold his child tightly without hurting them. Cradling them in his arms once more as yellow eyes looked up at him. His eyes, seemingly the only thing they had that marked the child as his. Maybe that would change as they grew older, no, he wanted them to look like you, just like you. They’d never be a replacement, and it would be a constant reminder, but he wanted them to look like you, just as beautiful, just as kind and loving. That’s what he had to do, he had to raise them to be like you, not their looks, you’d never care about their looks, but who they were. He wanted them to be just as kind, just as smart, and sweet and giving. They’d be just as accepting and loving, just as utterly amazing, even if he had to change to do it, even if he had to be more outwardly affectionate or loving, he’d do it for them, he’d do anything for them. Just like how he’d done anything for you.

[starscelly]

I'm over here begging you. For the love of all that is holy, please talk to me about Tyler Seguin and the new dude, Mason Marchment !

anon i would LOVE to discuss tyler and mush !!!!! im very sorry this will probably be super long winded and incoherent. but u shouldve known what u signed up for with me tbh

FIRST i wanna say if ur looking for like. in depth analysis or many Moments of theirs i would very much recommend taking time to scroll through teex’s 2791 tag it is a joy and pretty thoroughly covers all of the stupidity from this season and i feel like they r like pioneering the 2791/smush insanity. that being said. allow me to talk my shit for a moment dkfsdjkfs.

i just think its Fascinating that in the past few years tyler has for sure like, turned down his usual vibe of constantly hamming it up for the camera and getting super flirty with all these guys etc etc. it is, i think, far less present these past few yrs than before. until mush got to this team lol. i feel like he’s really been brought back out of his shell (definitely also helped by the new coaching staff, his recovery from injuries, finding a new role on the team, their success etc, but) and we’re starting to see this silly tyler that we know and love again!!! the first thing i can really remember of them being particularly fun flirty and cringe together is the sandwich video (this is prolly wrong, but off the top of my head), but their chemistry has definitely been there all season. like even before we were exposed to this type of behavior, they’ve been on a line together All Season, even when they could not get a good third guy to fit on their line, deboer clearly knew there was something working between them. which like, we all saw the first few games of the season. obviously he’s correct lol. 

so they have good chemistry on the ice which is a super plus, and we’ve seen time and time again how close they are as people - mush being insane concerned about tyler’s injury, constantly saying they miss the other when they’re injured, the sandwich video, tyler “interviewing” mush with his drink, etc - and they just have a lot of casual affection for one another. but i have to say. my favorite thing is how stupid i feel for not realizing that they’d be an obvious pairing the second mush got traded here lmao. if you look at a long line of Tyler History he fits PERFECTLY. a feisty, huge, dark-haired left winger???? that is his MO, at this point (all 4 traits have applied to his like Closest or most notorious connections, but if u wanna take out “huge” we got marchy on the b’s, if u wanna talk ancient history we have tyler brown back when he was young young idk how feisty he was, but either way these are like. quintessential traits he loves). (this is a bit tyler heavy, on account of i just know more about him in general than mush, so sorry about that lol) but he very much just wants someone he can make fun of / laugh at, someone who would probably kill an opponent for him , and someone who is a huge cringe loser who will do anything to make him laugh. and mason for suuuuure checks off all those boxes and more. and if that is what we needed to bring back the silly, god bless mush, because he succeeded and Also made me adore HIM at the same time. despite all his mess and penalty minutes fjldsfklds

this is like. super long winded i am so sorry. but if there’s anything specific u wanna talk abt with these two cringefail losers Please feel free to message me or send another ask or whatever. i can’t even begin to unpack how deranged i feel abt them sometimes !!!

[toukawings]

I'm going to be basic and ask for a character bingo on Gingka and Madoka. Give the thoughts on the main duo!

GINGKA!! MY BOY!!!!! i LOVE chars like gingka tbh. i know the whole deterimned spiky hair boy is a trope thats overused but honestly i like gingka the most in all of these tropes? he struggled to fully connect with pegasus and his friends in the beginning and ended up bonding with both of them insanely and i love gingkas impact on all of the other characters. everyone has a crush on gingka

hes adorable and i love that he's a little dumb sometimes but still a really great champion and i think he fits the top blader really well. i think he got done dirty and a bit overlooked (not u guys btw) and failed to kind of understand his struggles and why he overcame them. also pegasus is so fucking cool? i think gingkas deeper than he seems because there's alot of times where gingka struggles to have faith in his bey but he learns and i really like that abt gingkas character. he doesn't win ALL of his battles and that's okay; he learns instead!

MADOKA <3 i dont care what anyone says EVER. she is my GIRL. madoka has always been that character where whenver she comes on screen im like oh my god its her . i loooovve her design shes adorable and i really wanted her to have some really strong bey, which i wish they added (seeing shes literally a specialist in beys and could probably create like. the strongest one). i wish she had a little more depth and also we need a personal madoka appreciation day. she's kind of like the amy rose of this series (positive). i also like her friendship with tsubasa and the boys. also she's dating hikaru (real)

[pr1ncessm00n]

Update!!

Hi, everyone!! thank you so much for all the support and compassion. i'm sorry i've been kinda MIA for two days lol. that's kind of shitty of me to just not drop an update on Sunday and then disappear. but here's an in depth explanation as to wtf i've been doing and whats going to happen!! tw: heartbreak, depression, academic struggles

so obviously most of my chapter got deleted. i am actually almost done with rewriting it and i think it shaped out to be better than what i had previously written. i think by at least the end of the week it should be out, and it's VERY long just to make up for sunday's non update!! so i've been working a lot but thankfully my days off start tomorrow. i have a lot fo academic stress bc of some personal issues regarding my school quite literally fucking my schedule up and pushing my estimated graduation date back by oh... a few fucking months! great! literally hate that !! so ive been running around like a headless chicken trying to fix what wasn't my fault. sigh, i guess it should be resolved in a week or so, but as you can imagine i am so stressed about it. what makes me angrier is that it was not my own error. like to have to fix an issue that i did not cause?? i swear the staff at my school makes our experience harder not easier.

secondly, don't be fooled lol. i am writing this with tears down my face listening to harry styles and the aot season 3/4 theme song endings on repeat for almost 30 minutes because i had to end my 4 year relationship. that's a whole story for another day, but i don't think i will be okay mentally for a long time. he was my best friend and my first real love, so yeah. i might make our own love story into a fic or something just to cope but as for now thats another thing i have to deal with now!! my heart hurts a lot !! it's always the things you least expect. the worst part is it really isn't either of ours faults... or choice. i don't want to go into too much detail because even tho he's not on here and y'all don't know him, i want to respect his privacy. but the main reason is he has become very depressed, and even though i tried to help him as much as i could theres just some things you can't fix as a partner. i wish so much that i could take his pain away but i can't, i just can't.

sorry for that weird rant lol. it was a mutual decision, but it still hurts regardless lol. he was my bestfriend and lover in one, and i don't know how im going to continue my boring routine without him lol. but don't worry, i'll still be writing. if anything i'll probably write more. it distracts me, soothes me and is. great outlet. i don't plan on abandoning tumblr anytime soon lol.

thank you all so much for the support you guys are seriously the best group of people/fandom space i have witnessed in all my years as a fangirl. and i was around for 2014 tumblr so thats saying something. you guys have motivated me a lot to write more and improve, and i actually feel heard on this tiny blog (altho u have managed to make it not so tiny any more in the span of such a short few months?? im literally at 420 followers and i was at 300 a few weeks ago?? wow. im also about to hit 500 notes oh god.) you guys have literally given me so much inspiration and im so grateful for the friendships ive made already!! i have plenty of requests in my inbox to work on as well. im also creating a tag system so stay tuned!!

anyways, i feel so blessed to have such attentive followers and readers and you guys literally make me laugh everyday. its not just about notes or followers to me, but its so amazing how through tiny screens we can all share our love for some 2d characters and how for some reason my writing has struck a nerve with some of you. i love you all <3

emi

[chihirolovebot]

hi!! I just read the new chapter of sleep awake and I'm just like, photosynthesizing?? Because it was so good and it kept me on edge the whole time?? /pos

like I'm in love with how you write the reader because they're so unique and the way they've grown is just incredible. You see them go from not living for themselves *to* finally living for themselves, if that makes sense. It was just so obvious that the reader just needed a certain "push" so that they can grow into their own person and so many people has helped them do that and it's just so sweet to see the reader like make friends with everyone and start living for themselves y'know. I love the reader's friendships with everyone and most importantly Kokichi and the reader's relationship. I love how everyone around them just kinda like sees that something is going on between them especially that one scene where Shuichi finds the reader in the library after the whole korekiyo trial. (sorry just tryna make this spoiler free as best as I can-) I just adore this book sm. The lastest chapter was so nerve racking because I was just like "oh god what if kokichi comes back and sees reader-" but Luckily that didn't happen- I love that the reader also came up with a plan on their own because that's just so girlboss of them. I will admit though that I am very scared about the upcoming trials especially with chapter 4, 5, and 6 because there's just gonna be so much happening and I'm excited to see how the reader is gonna react to it all, especially chapter 4 but man let me tell you how pumped I am for chapter 5 for obvious reasons. I don't know if you plan on changing that trial up but it doesn't matter because it's gonna be so fucking good and like I said before, seeing the reader react to it all is always gonna be on my mind and I can't wait to see how it all ends. I always remember you saying you were gonna change up chapter 6 which is also gonna be in my mind too because that's something that's obviously gonna make me on the edge of my seat. Oh and I can't forget about the aftermath of the game too, that's gonna be fucking exciting to see as well. Anyways this book has made me love Kokichi even more than I already do and now I'm kinda starting to like Kaito more too. Oh and I can't help but think about how Kokichi is feeling as well, especially after korekiyo's trial, we all know Kokichi hates killing but since *Spoilers* the reader did it in self defense you can't exactly blame them, and im sure Kokichi knows that. If the reader didn't fight back they would've been killed and I'm sure that Kokichi wouldn't want that either, which is why his feelings are probably all like "jsjsjfjsjdjcndb" if that makes sense- and the reader is to conflicted about their feelings, not only for Kokichi but also for their whole plan and stuff. My theory is that if everything stays the same in chapter 5, they're gonna finally realize their feelings for Kokichi. (which is ansgty but yolo-) because in the story they get asked if they like Kokichi but you don't see the reader really giving a yes or no answer, which is why I think they're confused, and they also mentioned that they never liked anyone in that way before which is also gonna make you confused once you actually do start catching feelings for a person. I just can't get over how amazingly written they're dynamic is and I can't wait to see more of them together. And writing this while listening to "I won't say I'm in love" is giving me a bit of kokichi x reader vibes-

Anwyays again I'm sorry for ranting again, I'm the one who asked if kokichi was the love interest in the story and that was also the night I spent reading it all which was a very fun way to spend my night. I don't really feel comfortable with turning off anonymous so I was wondering if you do things like *insert emoji* anon like I've seen other blogs do-? I'm still a bit new to Tumblr-

oh wow, thank u so so much. i just. wow. this comment is os long n in depth im gna try to respond to everything u have said!!

the reader in this story is like. unspeakably important to me because in a lot of ways they represent myself and the kind of journey i wish that i could realistically go through. i dont wanna get too deep into it or make it angsty but i will say that a lot of the stuff they struggle w reflects my own state of mind a lot of the time n i justttt. find it very comforting n overwhelming that their struggle resonates with u too. im very glad their journey seemed somewhat poignant to you, because i rly did put a lot of work into make it realistic and cathartic. 

im super super excited for the second half of this story!! i have a fuckton of ideas bouncing around that i really need to nail down and start making a plan that isn't just a skeleton plot but im mainly focused on chapter four for now? i will definitely say that the end of chapter four will be a major turning point for the story, in terms of the reader and their relationships with everybody. and without spoiling anything the end of chapter four and chapter five has the potential to be the darkest the story has ever gone imo? idk if i'm decided on what EXACTLY is going to happen but yeah, it'll be pretty messed up im sure. 

you're pretty spot on with kokichi's feelings for the reader regarding after korekiyo's trial. he's basically in the midst of a major conflict and i guess undergoing the kind of ephiphany he never really had to face in the game? we know that he detests killing and sees it pretty unanimously as indefensible, which IS a fairly naive mindset in the grand scheme of things (which is why i love kaito calling kokichi naive in chapter two and kokichi just being. fucking flabbergasted. because as much as he is smart and perceptive he IS kind of naive in the sense of moral compass). it's also theorised that kokichi let himself die in chapter 5 because he couldn't rly cope with the guilt of what he did to gonta and miu which is maybe something i'm going to touch on a little? idk, some of the brilliance of his character relies on the ambiguity of it. so we will see. 

but pretty much, there was nobody kokichi truly trusted in the real game. shuichi was the closest but even then it couldn't have been worth much, kokichi never went to him for help or told him any of his real plan, his ultimate hamartia and cause of his downfall. BUT of course the reader has become that for him, they are probably the closest he has gotten to trusting anybody in this game and he's shown his hand to them a lot and grown to genuinely care for them, and now they have in his eyes done the worst thing imaginable. so he's in a place of trying to reconcile that i think. i know he's been fairly absent for a couple of chapters but this storyline of how he's feeling will get a lot of clarity pretty soon, i pinky promise! 

obviously i will not comment on chapter five in the interest of spoilers but i can also confirm that reader is also super confused about their own feelings. personally a symptom (???) of my own autism is conflating platonic and romantic feelings. on top of that, it's probably the furthest thing from their mind, plus with how much kokichi puzzles them, PLUS the fact that they have nothing to really compare it to having never liked anybody romantically? yeah it's not looking good brev. 

PLEASE don't apologise for rambling!! i rly thoroughly enjoyed reading this n i've been thinking abt it a lot for the past few days trying to write up an answer to do it justice. i rly hope ur seeing this and that ur having a lovely lovely day!! and also yeah i do emoji anons, the only taken ones I THINK are 🦋 and 🐇 so u can pick anything u like my lovely <33 i hope to see u in my inbox again sometime soon!!

[mayaree-darling]

Hiii. First time anon here, im madly in love with your sukuna fic, its so well done and immersive!!! If its okay, what is sukunas reaction if his vessel is a dense but really jefferey goldblum level of sensual? Qjdw im so sorry and thank u for ur time!

You got me in the first half, not gonna lie. And then it all went downhill from there. Glad you loved Annoying Brat, anon! 

Oh god. This writing blog is all family friendly content except for the excessive swearing. I’ll try my best to answer I guess???? Can’t get really in-depth into that so I hope you’ll forgive me for that

sorry if i didn’t answer correctly too ajdabnsdn

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Sukuna and a Dense (& Sensual) Vessel!Reader (HCs)

Warning(s): Swearing. Implied explicit content I guess???

i don’t think Sukuna would be as bothered by it as we want to think

the guy’s a cursed spirit

meaning, he was born from one of humanity’s worst emotions (most likely bloodthirst or desire to inflict pain on others)

so a dumbass that’s more on the not-so-innocent side of things?

he’s fucking used to that, mate

you’re not as bad as some of the humans he’s dealt with (/killed)

if anything, he'd see it as a chance

not only were you pretty stupid, but “having an excessive affinity for desires of the flesh” or some shit is definitely cursed spirit-making material

bro would become this weird-ass wingman of sorts whenever y’all weren’t under any of the sorcerer’s supervision

and since you were dumb as fuck, you trusted in this wise ass king people spoke so highly (terrified) of

just giving you pointers on how to hook up with people

like yeah sure 

he hasn’t been around in a thousand years

flirting game was all over the place the first time he tried doing it

“Go on, brat. What are you waiting for? Are you actually questioning me?” “I don’t know about this, Sukuna...” “What are you hesitating for?” “I just don’t think walking up to someone and telling them “I’d love to be crushed between your thighs” is a good idea.” “You were thinking it, brat, don’t make it seem like it’s all my dumbass idea.” “Yeah, but???”

amazingly enough, watching it happen around him and all that

Sukuna actually gets the hang of 21st Century flirting faster than you do

bro was a pro in fighting but he was smart and strategic

not to mention, again, that he is a curse

he just knows how humans work no matter how much he hated them

he was one, after all, and being a cursed spirit, he was probably made into one because of a human

so yeah bro hooks you up with people

and it works (scarily enough)

mostly it amuses him when Gojo has to pick you up after staying out far too late (or just disappearing from school in general)

Gojo would give a small lecture on trying not to stay out far too long or the higher ups would try and get rid of you again (he knows you’re not completely to blame for even half the shit you get into)

Sukuna whispers that he won’t let it happen though he’s having too much fun fucking around with your life

might offer to “help” sometimes if he was a special kind of bored

remember the hand-mouth thing he can do?👀

so yeah. Sukuna gets a kick out of corrupting the fuck outta you and he laughs when the jujutsu sorcerers can’t do anything to stop him

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AHAHAHAHAHA I’M SORRY BUT THAT’S ALL MY HEART CAN TAKE HAHAHA

[fullbusterfantasmic]

Love Potion ♋️ Chapter 4.7

Rated M

It’s all NSFW (As it should be)

1,933 words

A/N: The first position mentioned is called the butterfly or some shit (maybe?) idfk but I like it, & the second is the reverse cowgirl. Formatting is wonky, I know please look past it.

🌬Gray’s POV

The shine her eyes had held has begun to rapidly be overtaken as the (e/c) darkens, while she beckons me closer.

Her mouth is right beside my ear as she says;

“Ravish me...lay your claim on me...let every touch from you send me reeling, and begging for more...show me everything you’ve imagined doing to me and lastly...share every feeling you’ve kept hidden from me”.

The intense requests she made ignites a fire somewhere within me. Flames are rapidly consuming the protective layers of ice I’d long ago placed over my heart. Barriers erected after Deliora’s first attack, reinforced following the death of Ur...gone in an instant. Her tongue runs along the outer shell of my ear, lips placing a kiss to my temple. Pulling away, she then collapses back onto the pillows behind her, now surveying me through darkened, heavily lidded eyes.

My teeth clench as the familiar darkness begins to surface and my internal struggle begins. She asked for it....so why not give it to her? I shouldn’t...I....I’m ready to...no I NEED to let her in that now open space within my heart, within my very barren soul.

You don’t know what you do to me...

✨Your Pov

Im nervous...

I may have asked too much, it was too soon for me to come on so strongly! He still has yet to look at me, and his long bangs obscure his eyes from view.

“Gray I-“

I began to try and retract my previous statement but he interupts me. “From the very first moment I laid eyes on you I thought you were the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen....and the most dangerous...” he moves out from between my legs, motioning for me to lay on my side. “ I knew if I got close to you I’d end up falling for you and that would put you at risk...”. One of his legs now rest underneath mine and my other rests over the top of his.

“Try as I might, I couldn’t force myself to get or stay away from you; somehow we always end up spending time together” he pauses, pressing a kiss to my temple before continuing; “ -and now we’re here...”.

The room is growing colder once more, goosebumps cover my exposed flesh and I lightly begin to shiver. My entire body is shaking by the time his voice reaches my ear; “With all that being said...I’m done explaining myself, and I’m done talking”.

“Now I’m going to fuck you senseless, this entire town will know you’re mine by sunrise” The vow is whispered to me in such an intimate way, it has my internal walls fluttering, before clenching around nothing. That is soon remedied; A surprised turned pleasurable cry slips out from between my lips as Gray effortlessly slides into me.

This position is a first for me, and experiencing it with this god like man...Said position has quickly become a “10 out of 10, must do again”. He holds my body so closely against his, and somehow those skilled fingers are still roaming up and down my sides. Occasionally pausing their ministrations to ghost across my chest or rub tantalizing circles Into my clit. The angle in which he thrusts into me puts the head of his cock in the perfect position to hit my G-spot each and every time he bottoms out.

The whole “I’m finished talking now” line was absolute bullshit! As soon the smug Ice mage was balls deep inside me, did the sinful whispers begin. Dear God! That deep husky voice alternating between uttering the most endearing things, having my eyes growing wet with tears. Only to make a flawless transition into speaking the most obscene and sensual promises (or threats), have my face continuing to burn red.

I was an absolute wreck.

“You should see yourself right now...Completely fucked out of your mind, slobbering all over, and tear stains coating your cheeks...yet still so breathtaking”. My enthralled lover may no longer be whispering, but the chill of his breath on my neck is still ever present. I don’t speak, I knew my ability of coherent speech had vanished long ago.

Gray doesn’t need my words to go off of now, not when my breath hitches and my body jerks involuntarily. “This one will be....number four right?” He sounds so proud. That wasn’t really a question, and I wouldn’t of answered it even if I could have.

As much as I craved release, my pride urged me to deny it. A small voice inside my head is saying; “Ignore the relentless tingling of your clit, the tight wound knot in your stomach, the pressure from that magnificent cock sinking itself into your deepest depths...”.

Dammit ___________, get it together!

You are a proud Fairy Tail mage; A living embodiment of strength, determination, and destroyer of adversity! You’ve let this man turn you into putty within his hands, he thinks he owns you! Now it’s time for you to reclaim your pride and turn the tables on him!

Who am I kidding?

🌬Grays POV

“Holding back now are we?”

I can’t help but tease her when she’s trying so hard to hide the fact that I have her teetering on the edge of bliss. She lets out and annoyed huff and I poke one of her inflated cheeks, making sure my cock is buried inside of her as far as it can go.

“You take my cock so well baby, you’re already starting to shape to me on the inside...you’ll be my perfect little cock sleeve in no time” I murmured before giving her another nice dark love bite to match the one on the other side of her neck. “I know you want to drench my cock some more” my ice coated finger flicks against her clit before circling over it.

“Hah!” she shrieks at the frozen contact to her bundle of nerves, involuntarily jerking and in turn slamming her hips backwards, burying my dick inside her once more. The tip of my head just barely makes contact with her cervix, and then her walls suddenly contract, clamping down around me. I have to give every effort to not paint them white as not only her ecstatic wail reaches my ears, but I look down just in time to see her lightly spritz the hand id been using to play with her clit.

For a moment my brain begins to short circuit, and then it just shuts down completely.

✨ Your POV

That was....incredible.

Several minutes pass with my mind reeling from the intense orgasm I’d just experienced. It’s like I’m drunk, but not from the alcohol I’d consumed earlier. Drunk from the dopamine flooding my brain, and my heart swelling with overwhelming feelings of love. Love....love for the man currently sharing my bed.  Before I can turn to Gray and embarrass myself with a bunch of post orgasm love drunk rambling, I remember something....oh my god.

I sober up and am slammed back into reality almost instantly. My face begins to burn and I Stifle a cry of humiliation as I realize; I’d just squirted all over his hand! That’s never happened to me before! Gray hasn’t said one word...he’s been silent since it happened! He probably has a look of disgust on his face, I can’t bring myself to look and see.

I try to move,, intent on getting away to take refuge on the other side of the bed. His arms immediately constrict around me, “Oh no you don’t, you aren’t going anywhere!”.  Suddenly he’s flat on his back keeping a firm grip on my hips as I’m forced to straddle him. Glancing over my shoulder I see the proud smirk he’s wearing, then he speaks; “Never had a girl do that before...I like it” giving me a wink afterwards. “Sh-Shut u-up” I mumble as I return my gaze to the wall in front of me, breathing deeply in attempt to calm my palpitating heart.

“Y’know normally I’d give you a little break but... I can’t...not after seeing you do that” he pauses, and I can’t see his eyes roaming over my back side, but I feel his hands slide down from my hips. Then a sharp SMACK resounds around the room, followed by my startled gasp. “Ride me...now!” a fierce growl preludes another sharp smack to my other ass cheek.

I don’t even bother to stop the excited shake that over takes my body, the sudden change into this demanding demeanor is thrilling! Keeping my back to him, I’m quick to position myself over his length and begin to sink down on it. The soft mewl I emit is drowned out by a hiss as the tip of his dick slips between my lips. “That’s it...good girl” he praises as he begins to rub out the red marks on my ass.

Eager to please I get straight to work.

Albeit a bit awkward at first, but Im able to get a steady rhythm going in no time. “So much better than in my dreams...fuckin’ hell __________ your ass is perfect! Yeah that’s it babe, bounce it just like that” Gray mumbles appreciatively, completely enamored with the sight in front of him. “Dream about me often do you?” I tease, throwing him a smug glance over my shoulder. “More often than I’d ever care to admit, now turn around and face me would you?.

I do as he asked, rotating my body to face him. He gently pulls me down towards him and I stop short, my face now inches above his own. My stomach feels like it’s filled with butterflies at the sudden closeness. Unsure of what to do I quietly whisper an awkward sounding “Hi”. A wide grin appears on his face as he responds; “Hi” followed quickly by a chuckle at my sudden awkwardness.

Now we’re both smiling at each other like complete dorks, and I’m compelled to lean forward and kiss him. I resume my ride as his tongue curls around mine, quickly losing myself in the passion of this moment. Gray is quick to pick up the slack, thrusting his hips upward each time mine sink down. The atmosphere in the bedroom has changed, we both feel it. When I say his name again it comes out in a breathy whine.

His eyes reflect an emotion I’ve never seen in them before and his tone is gentle when he says “I know baby, hold on just a little longer for me”. Strong arms wind themselves tighter around me, drawing my body in as close as possible as he speeds up the pace of his thrusts. “I want to feel you gush all over my cock when I finally get to cum inside you” his lips are on mine again, kissing me passionately while bouncing me up and down on his cock.“That okay with you baby? Do you want me to fill up this tight little cunt?”

My confession comes out quick and shameless; “Yes! God there’s nothing I want more right now, I’ve wanted that for ages!”.

“Tell me, who do you belong to now snowflake?”

“YOU! I belong to you now Gray”

“Tell me you need me”

“I need you, I never want to be without you, so please just-“

“Tell me...” he pauses, placing a hand on my cheek and staring into my eyes.

“Tell me you love me”.

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What we do in the shadows rewatch part 4

The farewell needed its own recap. So i love how the super slumber send off basically begins with Nandor whining ‘i thought this was going to be more about me but whatever’ when Colin revealed he was crying cuz be thought Nandor was just avoiding his party.

Someone pointed out the last two seasons he and Colin Robinson spent a lot of time together. Im not sure if that was more friendship than connivence but they did. Colin was with Nandor when he seen his ghost off with John which was a pretty big moment. So for his last words to him to be basically hey this is my attention whoring time (even after being told it was Colin’s bday and previously roasting him to death that he didnt know his name) and Colin’s to be telling Nandor to eat shit (while correct) was really sad.

I think it also says how little thought vampires give to consequence. Laszlo couldnt even remember Nandor’s name when hed been gone a month. Must be a Liza Minnelli style coping mechanism. We werent told when Nandor joined up with Laszlo and Nadja, but it has been at least 200 years as they came to America with Simon the devious. Colin Robinson was said to have come with the house, and assuming he had some pre adult form that would be at least 80 years ago. So when he really thinks Guillermo will be around in 100 years it shows they just have no concept of actual time.

I think it could be said the whole arch of season 3 comes down to this ep with Nandor being a depressed weepy baby, and Colin dying but the others minus Laszlo not knowing it.

I have a new theory of little consequence: u know how some of these vampires look like that star trek guy? David Cross’ character is one. Hes said to have burned the library of alexandria (with another guy). So hed be quite old, probably 1000 minimum with Nandor being 700-750. Maybe as they age they get more alien looking? The barren was about this guys age and he didnt look well pre burnt. Sire is the oldest and is mentioned as having aged into that sad dog gargoyle form.

Another thought of no note: i want that woman’s red cape. God damn thats a cape!

Im also 100% convinced on rewatch the supreme vampires heard Nandor’s whining ie the dick thing was just to mess with him. Also loved Donal moaning about eternal life when he cant have been a vampire for more than 30 years. And while i know shes dead i am so waiting for at least a throw away line that theda bara was a real vampire in this world…or nadja in disguise.

A lot was made of Guillermos face during the dick squeezing. That was some funny shit. But Nadja had the same look. The Guide, unaware hes not dead, just seems down for the show.

Also other fans have noted and i want to know why too: the gloves? Guillermo puts them on to board up the room only then removes them. Is this a handyman thing i dunno or wtf is that about?!

At the banquet there are about 5 vampires for Colin’s bday. They arent mentioned beyond that. One looks very 1910s woman. Id wonder if that was his apparently still living mother, but in guessing not given she doesnt appear at the bedside. It was said they got the house (with Colin in it) from an acquaintance who is never named. Wonder if its any of these people.

And sorry Nandor, now its no longer about you.

Ive mused on what Laszlo knew in my previous rants. I maintain he genuinely knows no way out of this for him. I think this was one of the best twists ever. Laszlo has always been pretty much as Nandor ranted: lazy with a silver dick in his mouth (well not silver now ouch). He gave no fucks just literal ones. Hes been a fun ride for the past 2 seasons but beyond loving his wife and pitying Sean, he hasnt had much depth. This to me is reminiscent of that tho given his reason for killing Jesk all those lives is he makes Nadja cry, not that he cares she wants to bang him. Sean goes from ur wife should strangle u with ur own asshole to my stinky cheese. He actually cares about people around him rather he wants to admit it or not.

Colin is dull, but he drains to live not live to drain. Laszlo even let him think he was hanging with him cuz he was lonely with Nadja busy, not cuz he felt bad for him. Season 1 they cared so little about the man that came with the house they didnt know where his room was. Now when told hes dying everyone but Nandor is immediately upset.

Before the news their all ‘fuck that guy’ but given that news yeaaah they cared. They just dont like to show it. Guillermo probably interacts more with him than shown given hes a daywalker. And i think even tho Colin Robinson was being a smart ass with that ‘we’re all family’ line in the Casino ep, Guillermo actually said it first in the season premiere. Maybe Colin wasnt being smart…he just wanted to fit in being smarmy too.

Seriously Matt Berry prbly wins this season, and Laszlo is a teddy bear sorry bro. But u know…given the resolution of the ep…i think there may be a lot of Nandor regretting his behavior in the finale. He was always a teddy bear too and made a horrible mistake before realizing nope he dead. That will prbly shock him out of his whininess for the finale. And prbly is also what sends him on his eat, prey, love journey. Or at least inspires him to.

That also leaves fertile area for ghost Colin, as Nandor not being there prbly hurt him, it is unresolved. Plus the obvious fact he never learned how or why he was an energy vampire. If his mother is a dif form he may know thats coming, but she could also be a full vampire. We have no idea the rules here.

But man that fart laden death was hard. And a brilliant piece of writing to boot. Alright that concludes my recap…4 days to go!