#this is just me ranting cause I’m on my period and angry lmao

[soldierandawar]

The only reason that I’m tired of the buddie talk right now (and I’m buddie hive so don’t try to whack me) is that all of this talk may lead to nothing. There’s nothing being promised. there’s no clue to whether anything will happen this season or at all. But what’s happening? The flames are being stoked.

Interviews are being stripped down to quotes that exclude context to what’s really being said. & so what happens if buddie isn’t actually ever a thing (even though it could’ve been and I curse the day fox turned it down.) what if all this talk and hype from the fans leads to nothing? Some of yall buddie folks are not normal.

The issue is that bi!buck has turned into this perceived confirmation that buddie will happen. & I blame Tim and these journalists the most for it. Tim is playing in our faces tbh lmao. Obviously using stuff from fanfic and including it in the show. & these publications are looking for clickbait and engagement. It’s really grinding my gears.

& on the part of the fans, some of this chatter is overlooking the absolute refreshment that is this buck arc. Because a lot of you can’t take your buddie goggles off long enough to appreciate it. And the other half has made all this about Tommy. Im out here defending a white man who’s already a fan favorite. This is blasphemy. This ain’t the buddie show. It’s not the bucktommy show. It ain’t the Buck show either. There’s a whole ensemble happening around these people.

[butwhatifidothis]

bless you for this work, honestly. I first was exposed to this game through fanfic and genuinely loved some of the versions of edelgard that writers have developed, and then took on the game starting with the Deer and thought “hmm I’m clearly not seeing her perspective in this timeline though cause I have an outsider view and everyone keeps saying they agree with her in principle,” and then played CF and recruited everyone I could and it was one of the most jarring narrative experiences I’ve ever had, seeing so many characters veer wildly OOC. I was prepared for a villain run or a secretly-good-but-misunderstood or a forced-into-desperate-actions or a bloody-revolutionary route but what I got was just so bizarre that I honestly felt like crap and was just pushing through at the end to get it over with— like the actions I was presented with as a player were super dark but the framing was so happy as to be disorienting (like Ignatz being excited about the fall of the Alliance). thank you for your time and energy laying some of this stuff out! it is very validating and helps me feel less disoriented to have someone acknowledge the disconnects, haha.

Aw, thank you so much! That’s actually very similar to how I first saw Edelgard - I hated her in-game, but reading some fic before playing through/watching through the rest of the routes had me wondering if there was something I was missing to her character that made everyone love her so much. She was very interesting in some fics, and her portrayal in AM softened me up to her some! I thought playing - or watching, in this case - her route would be that final push I needed to like her as much as everyone else did.

But then I watched a cutscene/support movie for CF (those longass ones that are like 7 hours) and saw how just... evil, some of her actions were and most of the characters acted, how weird they were being compared to GD and AM, how angry Rhea was at Byleth’s betrayal, how shocked and dismayed Claude was if you kill him, how distraught Dimitri was at his death scene, combined with everyone’s happy-go-lucky personas, and I was just baffled.

It honestly had me hooked - sat through the whole 7+ hours in one sitting (and as someone who usually can’t sit through a 2 hour long movie that’s sayin’ somethin’ lmao). It was like you said one of the most jarring things I’ve ever seen. When Edelgard lied about Arianrhod I was legit shocked, and when she bold face lied about her assault on Garreg Mach - how she said she gave them time to evacuate when we know as players who’ve played other routes that she was spied on and discovered to have been amassing her men to join together during the two weeks grace period before the assault itself - ngl I straight up yelled WHAT. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from her, and not for the first time either. 

This is the character that stole the hearts of so many? This character, who compares herself to someone willing to murder his own men - hell, his own son - to get vengeance for someone who’s dead? Who never tried to make up for the fact that she used Demonic Beasts to accomplish her goals, knowing how they’re made? Who helped in Flayn’s kidnapping? Who knew who killed Jeralt and said nothing, ever? Whose response to someone rightfully calling her out on her violent conquest is a childish “no u” (and yes, I’ve seen plenty of translations from the JPN text itself, and from what I’ve seen the ENG ver. just simplifies an already dumb sentiment into the dumb phrasing it deserves)? Who lies to her friends and never comes clean, even when it comes to a mass killing like at Arianrhod? Who calls Nabateans “creatures who can merely masquerade as humans at will,” beasts, an inherent enemy to humanity that must be put down for the good of humans? Who’s blatantly wrong about history, who calls the near end of an entire race a “simple dispute”? This one? If I’m being honest, I don’t see how any player who didn’t play CF first could possibly play her route and come out thinking that she was the good guy at all - CF almost made me go right back to hating her - hell, my sister does hate her, full stop, and she played AM first! The route where she’s the most sympathetic!

Absolutely no problem!! This account was made specifically to rant and rave about the fandom’s shit taste and the game’s inconsistencies (like I love 3H to bits and pieces but oh boy is there a lot to rant about, for me it’s like Bleach - a nice mix of good and bad where I love and write about the good and can vent about the bad for hours lmao), so I’m glad it gave you some validation! (:

[quasieli]

top six: fictional characters that give you gender envy, flowers, little things that make you happy and d&d moments :D

Ooh lotsa questions!

Gender Envy:

1) Bow from She-Ra (2018). Something about buff athletic dude who wears crop tops and is soft as hell is very Gender to me.

2) Vax from Critical Role. Pretty boy, kinda goth rogue? That’s sexy as hell and I wish that was me. 

3) In a wildly different idea of gender envy, I’ve been thinking about it lately and @quantum-lesbian’s character in the Frostmaiden game I’m in with them, Ambrose, is Big Gender. Beautiful non-binary drow with a starry and kinda witchy aesthetic that dresses super grandly and ostentatiously no matter the occasion? Yes please.

4) Pete from The Unsleeping City, specifically season two. I adore season one Pete but season two Pete that works in a queer bookshop and has a teapot arcane focus, is artsy and is unapologetically a trans man who doesn’t give a shit about gender roles? Sign me the fuck up.  

5) Beau from Critical Role. Buff GNC lesbian mixed with academia, but like academia from the prospective of a grad student with ADHD trying to learn everything about their special interests? A+, I love her and I’m jealous. 

6) I’m gonna cheat a lil bit for this last one. I know the prompt is fictional characters, but Julia Lepetit and Jacob Andrews in their Hitman streams? Simultaneously both of them were Gender for me. Jacob esp felt like that for me, which is weird cause dresses can make me dysphoric, but I am also slightly envious of the Dude in a Dress type of gender presentation. 

Can you tell that I’m a confused trans masc enby

Gonna put it under the cut from here cause oof, there’s still a lot more.

Flowers:

1) Big slut for Sunflowers, always have been, always will be.

2) Fun fact, my dad’s family used to own a flower shop (in like the 70s, so I never got to see it :(), and one of their big things was hydrangeas. My dad has always loved them and now I love the snowballs too!  

3) A recent favorite, the Baker’s Globe Mallow. It’s a type of flower that only grows from the soils of forests that have been affected by wildfires. It’s a simple little flower but I love the idea of something beautiful rising from the ashes after tragedy. A little dramatic, but I’m queer, ofc I’m dramatic.

4) Roses are another important flower to my family (Rose was a family name for a couple generations), and ya know, they’re a classic. 

5) There’s this beautiful magnolia tree in front of my house that blooms with the most beautiful white and pink flowers every spring, and it’s one of my favorite things to see every year. 

6) There’s so many different types of Lillies and they’re all very pretty, but the Purple Stargazer is prob my favorite.

Little Things That Make Me Happy:

1) My cat, Maddie. She may be a cranky girl at times, but she is also very sweet and will always be my baby (even though she is 12). 

2) Not a little thing really, but my best friend. Just getting a sweet/silly text from her or the two of us chilling in a room, sitting in a comfortable silence because we just like being together, nothing better. 

3) Baking, esp if I’m doing it for others. I’m not much of a sweets person myself, a little treat every once in a while type person, but I love baking. It’s a very relaxing process for me, even when it can sometimes get stressful, but seeing people enjoying something I made, especially something that brought me great joy to make, is simply the best. 

4) In the same sorta vein, crafting and other art, but that’s a bit more personal. I love making things for others, but art, particularly drawing, is something I do more for me. It’s such a great feeling when you can get into a really good art mood and just sink yourself into a project. I love it.

5) My plush toys. Yes, I am a 23 year old, no I will not stop loving my plushies. I just got a few new friends, which I made a post about recently, and they such good cuddle buddies. However, there is one king amongst them all. I have this old, beat up christmas puppy beanie baby, on his tag named Jingle Pup, but I just call him Jingle. I had one version of him since I was like 6, but he currently lives on a shelf cause he is very beaten up and fragile, but his “brother”, who I got when I was 8, is still in kinda good shape and is currently chilling on my chest as I type this lol.

6) Again, not a little thing, but it’s important to mention; D&D. The game itself is such a joy, but truly the best part of it is the people. I love creating stories and memories with people through this weird little game. Truly one of my favorite things to do.

D&D Moments:

These are all gonna be personal moments, rather than anything from actual play shows/podcasts. RC is Reforged Campaign, where I play Saube, and FM is Frostmaiden, where I play Sparks.

1) RC - Meeting Mahety, Saube’s girlfriend. We met her way back in session 12 and we are now up to like session 73. Saube saw her and was immediately big heart eyes at her but also felt a bit awkward and shy. So, being a game a dice, I decided to roll. 10 or higher, Saube would talk to her, 9 or lower, she’d stay put. I rolled a 17, 17 is now a lucky number for me. I love Mahety and I’d die for her. 

2) FM - This was an insane fight that should not have been so crazy, but in a fairly early session, my group went up against an angry druid and her awakened animals. So much batshit stuff happened in that fight, and we unfortunately lost our bread loving bard (RIP Agneyis), but one of my favorite combat turns happened in this fight. Our artificer, Omaren, has a robe of useful items and one of the patches on it creates a large pit. Thinking quickly, Omaren tore off the patch, slid it under one of the dire wolves we were fighting and created a looney tunes style pit under it, allowing us to take it out easily via pot shots. Such a clutch move and such a funny visual, especially because the dire wolf kept failing the checks to get out of the pit.  

3) RC - Saube’s Zebrith (I will never remember how this actually spelled RIP). So, for context, Saube ended up with a death curse (long story) that mechanically meant they had disadvantage on any death saving throws. Scary as hell, need to get that fixed! So, Saube and their party had to be smuggled into another country to talk with some religious leaders of a goddess known as The First, the goddess of death. They were told that Saube would have to go through the aforementioned ritual, which included her soul leaving her body for a short period of time. During this ritual, her friends had to call back to her, to say things that would bring her back to her body and I still cry thinking about that game. That ritual was not only important for Saube bodily, but spiritually as well. After that ritual, Saube officially became a cleric of The First! 

4) A real sappy one, RC - Saube meeting all of her friends. Anyone who follows along with the rantings on my blog probably knows how important this game is to me. I met this random group of strangers on tumblr and formed a D&D party with them and now, a year and a half later, I honestly think it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I know that sounds silly and dramatic but not only has this game brought me so much joy and comfort, but I also gained a group of really amazing friends who have been nothing but amazing since day one. As much as Saube knows she can depend on SICL, I know I can depend on my group of weirdos lol. We both love our friends very much and even though we’ve all been through some crazy shit, we wouldn’t change it for the world.    

5) RC - Just playing Saube in general. I really didn’t intend for it to be this way, but Saube is very much a reflection of myself. She is the first long term character I have ever played and so much of me is in her. I try not to treat D&D like therapy, because that’s unfair to my DM and fellow party members, but playing Saube has allowed me to work through some of my own problems, especially social anxiety, in a lot safer of an environment. It isn’t so much that I’m asking this game to help me fix my life, but playing out these scenarios that, in the real world, would make me anxious or make me freak out, I can stop, take a moment to breathe and work out these issues in a way that makes sense to me. Playing her has led me to understanding myself a bit better, as well, and that’s truly such a wonderfully unexpected gift from this whole experience. 

6) Lastly, a silly one: RC - Getting a crit 6. The last session of this game got real interesting. Saube’s party ended up in the ethereal plane and magic got real fucky there. So, any time any of us tried to cast a spell, we’d roll a d20, not look at the result, and then try to guess what number rolled. The closer to the number, the better the result. A few times, a few people managed to get within like 3 or 4 of their roll, but oh the power I felt when I rolled a 6 (on Saube’s die!) and guessed it correctly! So, not only did the spell (Bless) work, but it worked super well. So instead of getting +1d4 to attack rolls and saving throws, Saube and two other party members got +2d4 to attacks, saving throws and skill checks. So powerful I broke the rules of D&D lmao. 

[aclassiguy]

nobody’s gonna read this but i’m gonna rant a little as an ex-fundie kid with a perspective on unconscious bias re: thedas’ religions. (i’ll grant you i do not have encyclopedic knowledge of dragon age, so i’m commenting based off what 90% of people know - the games)

If we’re assuming that every interaction concerning the religions in Thedas is intentional, it’s genius. It represents real world religious dynamics so well. But that’s also assuming we’re going to be allowed to confront those religions; otherwise, it’s just a carbon copy with no purpose but to reflect reality. You’re duplicating problems, without offering avenues for solutions or even criticism.

I want to leave this uncut in case a piece of it actually caught someone’s eye for some reason, but I’d feel bad if I did that.

I’m actively agnostic. I have no problem with other people being religious. I react quite negatively to both active and passive attempts at conversion. I know a LOT about Christianity. I know some, though not as much, about other world religions.

We can pretend all we like that Thedas is a world completely separated from reality. “Lighten up, it’s just a game.” I can, however, point to direct parallels between game concepts and real world concepts that I find quite troubling (Blackwall’s plot, certain wartable missions, Descent DLC), I can expound on those at length as well. And of course it’s just a game, and you can stab people with no consequences and all that - that’s fine. Stabbing people in a game isn’t likely to make you think it’s OK to stab people IRL. But a game has the power to subtly reinforce existing biases which can cause real harm.

Christianity is a dominant world religion. In fundamentalist circles, one of the tenets is to spread it to as many people as possible, to save them from themselves. Even casual Christians adopt this attitude when they tell you how sad they are that you’re not Christian, because they think you’ll be happier as one and can’t fathom how you’d be happy without god. I can get REAL deep into Christian psychology, but I’ll spare you. The thing is, this is an insidious train of thought that has been beaten into the world by its victors. Monotheistic religions are treated more seriously than pantheons. The Bible is held as separate and more holy than “myths,” which are treated as little better than Harry Potter novels. Religions that encourage non-Western behaviors are treated as scary, deviant, and oppressive - to be obliterated before they dare to try converting precious Christians - DESPITE Christians actively trying to lure those believers away from their “scary” faith and into Christianity. They think their own religion is more normal, or their own culture is more normal. All of this leads to many, many Christians (as well as your average Westerner) holding really racist, xenophobic views they don’t perceive as racist or xenophobic.

SO LIKE - I’ll just make a bulletpoint list:

Andrastianism = Christianity (esp. Western brand)

Evanuris = Pantheistic religions

Qun = Eastern philosophies

The familiarity and diversity is fine. There’s pros and cons to each religion, just like real life. Thedas is fun because it takes aspects of discrimination like racism and sexuality and pretzels it to be same-but-different. No matter your background, you have the chance to get really involved in the ethical dilemmas provided, the visceral experience of being insulted and responding to insults with pride, and it’s fun to read something new and feel some kind of vindication if you had a suspicion before.

What irritates me currently about the religions is that every time I get a little taste of “Okay, finally, we’re acknowledging the damage a religion like this can do,” I get kicked right the fuck back. I spent so long hating the Chantry more and more because it started to become clear to me the intentional abuse being directed at literally anyone who wasn’t a non-mage human, and even then they abused their own followers to exert further control over mages for personal gain. (Seriously, FUCK the Chantry.) FINALLY, Exalted Plains acknowledged that the Chantry steamrolled over the elves in a brutal slaughter, where Sister Whatserface tried to blame the elves for being “too far from the Maker” but she was a good person for “showing them more mercy than they deserved.” Clear signals that Bioware intended it to be taken as it was - an unjust crusade. Then what do they throw in my face? Some documents intending to show that the elves were “also at fault.” Excuse me? I’m sorry, excuse me?!

Elves had already been the subject of extensive oppression at that point, and given the racist goddamn teachings of Sister Whatserface and ALL THE DIVINES, I can hardly blame the elves for being just a little testy with the humans sticking their noses into their lands trying to force them to convert to Andrastianism. “Equally to blame” my ass. This is a pebble against a boulder. And yet I’m supposed to treat it like some kind of shocking revelation. Ooo - should I turn these documents in to the Chantry to exploit the elves some more, or should I give them to the Dalish, who then react with shame? There’s no just option: have the Dalish explain why maybe elves would be just a little angry, and have my Inquisitor go “oh yeah, that makes sense. kbye”

Finishing up with the Dalish, we get told by some pride demon ass lying fucker that all the Dalish gods that these poor widdle uneducated primitive elves worship were essentially slavers. Hahah. WHAT. Sorry. WHAT. You’re going to make me play through a game with my character’s religion shat on or flat out ignored at literally every turn, and my vindication is to be told it’s all fake and my ancestors were idiots for ever believing? Canonically? Really? When do we get told that we checked the Fade and the Maker wasn’t there and don’t these humans look pretty dumb now?! Or is that too risque because Andrastianism is a little too close to Christianity?

Then there’s the reaction to the Qun. I have loved Qunari since Sten. I honestly think it’s a really cool concept and I would love to explore it more deeply. I also LOVE Sten. Sten seemed so calm and generally fairly accepting, although he had his own flaws. He also had hidden depths - push aside the fronting and you get his cookies and chocolate loving sweetness. (If people hate him, again, come see me after class so we can have a chat on why you stan Blackwall but not Sten?)

But it seems like the Qun is falling victim to the world needing a reliable villain. What was once a mysterious system of beliefs existing outside the concept of the Maker or Dalish gods is increasingly this Scary religion that oppresses women and mages in barbaric ways, and is treated as horrible for trying to spread their religion to other lands (allow me to remind you of Exalted Plains and why every person in the game seems to be Andrastian by default, or at least Andrastian-sympathetic). It’s essentially playing up the fears that makes people uncomfortable with Eastern religions, relying on xenophobia to make them hateable enough that you don’t accidentally end up with too many Qun sympathizers in the playerbase. Even though you can play as a Qunari in Inquisition (hell yeah), you aren’t allowed any kind of Qun background. It’s understandable in some ways, plot-wise, but baffling in others. How much cooler would it be to have access to Qun beliefs like the Dalish has access to the Evanuris?

And now they have the Qunari poised to be the result of doing horrible dragon-blood experiments on elves by MORE slavers, and their religion’s entire purpose is to limit their horrible dragony desires to murder people, but now they want to subjugate others to live under their rule of law to make a horrifying monotone culture. Aren’t these scary-looking Qunari even more scary? There’s a reason to hate them now, they’re canonically more violent, just like the dragons! (Do not get me started on how dragons are treated. Actually, do, I have a lot of thoughts on that too. lmao) REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Then you have the Tal-Vashoth, not only defectors who found fault with the philosophy who are then hunted relentlessly by the believers, but also twisting back on themselves to be crazy violent, therefore simultaneously a condemnation of the Qun and an affirmation of its necessity to keep Qunari from being violent. Where are the defectors from Andrastianism? Literally every ex-fundie Christian kid I know has had a sex and/or drug-fueled meltdown period after having their core beliefs and foundation obliterated. Why do we have all these pure innocent Chantry Virgins, but no defectors? The only atheist you get to meet is your own Inquisitor, and you have a HELL of a time through the whole game as a result of it. (Though I will say the payoff at the very end of the game is so very worth it.) Almost ALL of your companions nag you about why you don’t believe you’re Chosen. I have yet to play as a believer, but I haven’t seen any indications I would be criticized for it.

And so what of Andrastianism? Is it fakery? Lies? Canonically brought into existence to oppress people? The product of slavers?

NOT YET.

Any criticism brought against Andrastianism is neatly and shortly thereafter countered, not by an untrustworthy member of the Chantry but by some word-of-god canon itself. The Maker stands, silent, valid, unchallenged.

There’s nothing wrong with presenting these complex scenarios, but if you don’t have the time, resources, or courage to REALLY plumb these depths, give everyone fair criticism (and it is not fair to ding the predominant world religion with the same criticisms as you level against a dying minority religion), don’t bother. You make the real world problems worse.

[jungshiii]

i really need to rant :((((( so i has this friend and for a while she was probably my best friend and then she got a girlfriend and she’s changed to much but in a bad way like she’s literally kind of horrible now? but her girlfriend is lovely! I don’t understand how she has become so bitter and selfish and angry in such a short period of time when things seem to be good for her? and she’s blaming the new distance in her friendships on everyone else but she just works and spends time with her gf

I know how hard it may be to see someone you care about completely change in front of your eyes and not recognizing the new person you see. I really have a bad list of things that happened to me when it comes to friendship dewhbw lmao i could write a book. 

A friend of mine changed like that when we first started high school, you know, new friends, new world, new you, which can be both good or bad, but in my case she took the wrong path as well. I’m so sorry this happened to you too, it must be hard to deal with this situation, since tbh idky a change like that happened when even her gf is a nice and sweet girl. A lot of people tend to blame those around them for everything bad that’s happening because they don’t realize that they’re are the cause of it. And that’s even worse because it’s hard to make the understand what’s really happening right then and there. I really don’t know her situation, but sometimes changes like that might be for other personal reasons she might have never talked about.. that had a bad influence on her, maybe, since nothing’s wrong about her group of friends.

I really hoppe this situation will improve soon for you, and that everything will be fixed. 💕

sleepover with me 🌜

[percivore]

I can’t believe i actually forgot how awful this girl I went to high school with was, like thinking back on some of the things she did (with or without me present) were just so unbelievable to me now, it was like she wanted to be the ‘it’ girl from movies and wanted to be loved and worshiped but would actively and purposefully hurt others. Like lying stealing from and hurting others is what got her off. She was so cruel to people she didn't even know would catfish young girls not for the sake of money or anything else but to hurt them and make them feel terrible. I feel so incredibly bad to this day for not standing up to her, like I think its really hard for people who know me now to believe that I wouldn’t tell someone like this off or at least not associate with them. 

Like this was in the myspace days, and she had logged into my account and changed the password and of course I considered her my best friend and I didn’t even think for a second she’d be behind it and started to send messages to people from it to try and make me look just as awful and cruel as her. I had breifly dated her now husbands brother for a very VERY brief time, and her then friend started dating him instead which literally did not bother me in the least and I had been with my current partner for at LEAST 3 years by that point. She sent him messages from this account that I no longer had access too saying that he should dump her and that she was ugly and that we should be together. Which obviously caused a lot of issues between me and this girl and this same girl who sent the messages had the nerve to call me and ask why i had done it. Like I was even with my partner when she called and we both just laughed about it cause we both knew she’d done it. 

Eventually she was caught out (only after she’d stolen my mums $300 hair straighter which my mum got back) which after I made a decision to not associate with her anymore, was she caught out for all the awful things she had done to people and I’ll never forget her coming to me for help and I just felt so incredibly bad for her because she’d dug herself a hole so deep where everyone knew what she was really like how cruel she was and how much she just loved to fuck with people, if she hadn’t been so lean and skinny i know she would have actually physically hurt people if she had the ability to do so. 

Like some of the things ive heard of her since (lying about being pregnant and having abortions, placing false restraining orders on people, lying about how long she had been with her partner for, just stealing things like my hair straightner and my dildo at one point lmao which was gross af) like I literally cannot express how much this girl hurt me and others around me, and hearing that she’s had a child and is married It just places this terrible feeling of dread for her little girl. 

like sorry for this super long rant i stumbled upon her fb the other night and it was just sooo much flooding back to me and there’s way too much to type and so much that I don’t even really remember over a period of a 10 year friendship I just wish I had’ve been older and more mature at the time to at least try to stop her I guess?? I’m just so happy that things worked out and i ended up not being friends with her and with people who love and care about me and would never even think to do some of the terrible things that she did, and probably still does.

* I didnt even mention the thousand dollars she’d stolen from a mutual friend of ours locker as well just like hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

* I ALSO FORGOT SHE ACTIVLEY TRIED TO BREAK MY PARTNER AND I UP ON LIKE 5 DIFFERENT OCCASIONS and on one i confronted him (because she claimed he’d been talking about me negativley in his group of friends lmao who were also my friends sooooooo) and when I told him she got angry that we communicated about it and that he had a go at her like lmao I just cannot think of a more toxic person.

[sherlocktfp-blog]

The Final Problem

I don’t normally post things like this, in fact I made this tumblr account purely because I need to speak my mind. Please do agree/disagree/reply to me about this and I’ll be happy to listen. Basically, this whole week I have been so angry and disappointed with the Sherlock fandom, because of the way a small minority have been behaving after Sunday’s episode.

 Now I just want to say, before I go on, that I completely understand that there were huge plot holes in TFP, and of course that’s due to the writers, so this isn’t me defending sloppy writing. This is me defending two writers, who’s characters, I believe have been completely misinterpreted.

 Since Sherlock began, it’s obvious him and John have had ‘moments’ (for example the ‘you’re unattached, just like me’ scene) and many others, but just because the characters have had these moments, does not necessarily mean that they are in love with each other. In the scene I mentioned, the way I interpret it, is John, the fragile, mentally and physically wounded solider, who has probably seen many people he was ‘attached’ to die in a war, has found the perfect opportunity to live with somebody who he will not become involved with, so there’s no risk of losing them like he’s lost others. Now some Johnlock shippers see this as John flirting with Sherlock, which I can totally see, but don’t agree with. And both of these opinions are fine. I obviously know that characters aren’t real, and I actually think that you interpret characters depending on your own life experiences, and the people you’ve met. Which leads me on the the whole ‘representation’ argument. 

This could be me overgeneralising, but the majority of people who believe Steven and Mark have ‘queer baited’ this season are part of the LGBT+ community. (This isn’t me discriminating, it’s just an observation). Now, not being part of the community, I can absolutely agree that there is such a bad/lack of representation in the media it’s shocking, that in the year 2017, shows still can’t seem the grasp the concept that there is more than one sexuality and there is more than two genders. So I can see why you all hoped so badly that Johnlock would become canon, to finally get some proper representation in a really popular show, THAT would be groundbreaking, and I aplogise that it wasn’t canon, we all know the pain of our OTP not being canon. Unfortunately, that doesn’t make it okay to become abusive towards others. Of course, be angry, be upset and feel betrayed, but don’t take it out on anybody else. 

But anyway, one rant aside, I have no problem with people shipping Johnlock, at all. And if there was clear, romantic and solid evidence in previous series/the series 4 trailers that John and Sherlock would eventually become canon then yes, of course, that is queer baiting. Period. Sherlock and John’s relationship is subject to interpretation. If it was canon in the books then I would totally understand, but there is no hard evidence which is why it’s so easy to see their relationships in different ways. At the end of the day, everybody will always interpret things differently. But that doesn’t mean you are right, and that doesn’t mean I am right either. Some things just need to be ambiguous. 

But every single piece of evidence that ‘proves’ their romantic love for each other, is subject to interpretation. They are two, quite frankly odd people who are very awkward and show emotions in different ways. That does not mean they’re secretly in love and are eventually going to be together. So the main point I’m, quite badly, trying to make here is that if you want to slate and boycott the show for it’s bad writing this season then go ahead, because no Sherlock fan can deny the fact there were many plot holes, that’s fact. But what I won’t stand for is people who are abusing the cast and crew of the show, by saying nothing but awful, negative comments about the show as whole, just because something that wasn’t even definite, didn’t happen. It is just not fair. They worked their butts off, trying to get Ben and Martin to find time to film, writing, producing, editing and making the show we’re all supposed to love. Please don’t boycott the whole show because of one episode.

We all know how unlikely it is we’ll get a fifth series, but with all this negativity towards the cast and crew, it’s looking even more unlikely.

Lastly, I know the ‘who you really are doesn’t matter’ line is causing a LOT of controversy, and I can see why some people are taking it offensively. I see my self as quite an empathetic person and I totally get how shattering it must be. But to me, it meant the complete opposite to what people think. I think Mary was saying who you ‘really’ are doesn’t matter, because you are still you. Nothing defines you unless you want it to, you’re human and you’re living right now and that’s what really matters.

Thank you if you actually read all of this lmao I just needed somewhere to get my thoughts out. At a time of indefinite hiatus, Sherlock fans should stick together, no matter who you ship and what you believe in. X 

[kishimotomasashi]

Please continue with your rants about Sasuke’s parenting. I like hearing your thoughts

Lmao, I mean, I say I could talk about it all day not because I have anything new to add, it’s just the whole situation just makes me… really angry. So I think about it periodically, complaining about it to my sister (who gets tired of it, lol), and occasionally fume inside my head.

For example like, I’m gonna be bold here and say that I really don’t believe it is 100% Kishimoto’s fault that Sasuke sucks at being a dad, or even his fault at all, because when you don’t get this traumatized and mentally damaged person any help of course he’s not gonna be any fit for parenting, it’s consistent with how he’s been written, and also who wants to raise a child with a woman who’s never left you alone and who you never loved anyways.

And then on the other hand, I know that’s still no excuse for him being absent, and I get mad at Sasuke especially when I re-read Gaiden and Sarada just looks so heartbroken and left out, she’s just a kid, she just wants to get answers and she barely even gets them and it’s all resolved with a gesture that’s been meant to put distance between two people, and I’m sure that Sasuke does truly love his daughter but he’s doing such a bad job at showing and is basically doing an Itachi 2.0

I’m also really pissed at certain parts of the fandom, and I hope people don’t do this anymore cause I’ve stopped seeing it (Maybe cause I filter a lot) but I’ve seen a lot of anti ending posts calling Sarada a “spawn” and laughing at the fact that Sasuke doesn’t seem to care about her (he cares about her he just sucks at being a dad) and blaming the girl for his unhappiness and it puts such a sour taste in my mouth, Sarada never asked for any of this, she never asked to be born, and this actually makes me angrier at Sasuke out of spite. Also saying “Boruto isn’t canon” doesn’t make it any better guys, because yes it is canon, yes Sasuke is a terrible father, please acknowledge this no matter how much you hate it.

So yeah, this is what goes through my head occasionally, lol.

[emwoodsen]

a messy rant, on my life & failed expectations

I’m a strong person. I don’t even know how I do it at this point, I just kind of deal.. with any & everything. I’ve been scarred beyond imaginable measure this year, yet I’ve managed to look past it & keep living. Sigh, I don’t know anything anymore you guys. Hell I don’t even know that I know myself, cuz she been acting wayyyyy outta character for the past few years lol. But what I do know is, God is good

I can’t wait to get my law degree & just give myself the biggest/fattest hug humanly possible to give oneself. I’ve held myself more times than I ever imagined I’d have to. I’ve been there for myself more times than I can admittedly say. And although not as many times as I ideally would’ve loved to, I’ve pushed myself & achieved whatever goals I set my mind to.

Idk man, but I’ve got me so much that letting people in is hardly an option for me anymore. I’ve had people fail to meet expectations countless times and it’s just like, the lowest of expectations as well. Literally the littlest things. I’m quite the me-person, so I automatically tend to deal with my shit on my own more often than not, and without sharing. But it’s just like, sometimes it’d be nice to not need to share before people know to be there. It’ll be like the sweetest thing on the planet if just for once, I just had people come & be there for me, not because I came to them, but just because they could tell that I needed it. Okay I get it, no one’s in my head & can read my mind. But like I’m not crazy to expect these little things every now & again. Those that know me, know me damn well. If I’m laying low & shutting the world out I’m not fucking crazy for doing that. It is evidently not me. Shit is clearly not right. I also don’t need to completely confide in you to have you be there for me. Or maybe it’s just me, & I’m expecting too much. But like if someone I care about is hurting, and I inferred this or even had it explicitly told to me, without details as to why, I will still be there for that person, & as much as I can..in the best way that I can. I don’t need you to tell me whatever the issue is before I give you the necessary love, care & support, because that ultimately won’t stop me.

It’s just interesting you know, because to the best of my knowledge, whenever I’ve had people need support, I’ve given it. Whenever I’ve felt they were hurting, I’ve tried to be there, in the ways that I could. And it’s just like, it’s rarely been the case for me. I do not fucking care that I shrug my shit off or put up a strong nonchalant front because let’s be real, if someone’s hurting, they are hurting. It doesn’t matter what they say to you or don’t say to you. If you know the person well enough, you should care to know that the person is not okay and be there for them. Like yo it’s not fucking rocket science. Lmao I’m like angry now 😂 I didn’t think this would be quite rant-y, but it is what it is lol. It just fucking hurts so much.

I never talk about expectations. I’ve never spoken about this, hardly having people be there for me. But here it is. I also don’t even converse with many people. Relatively speaking, my circle is quite small. Not only relatively tbh, my circle is small, period. I get it, people are different, and not everyone will offer you a shoulder to cry on. I get it because I’m not that kind of person myself. But that’s not all there is, there are so many ways to be there for someone, from things as little as silent company. Mate like literally just being there goes a long way. Of course it’s no one’s duty to be supportive & caring (unless you’re my mum and/or dad), I know that. Hence my never addressing this issue. But like nah, it sucks so much. It seriously hurts. And perhaps I’m inherently the cause, as I’ve often kept to myself, or presented my problems in a joke-like manner, idk. But it’s with taking all this into consideration, I’ve said what I’ve said. It’s whatever though, it really is lmao. Perhaps I’m finally able to address it because I’ve made peace with it & will expect little to nothing from now on. That’s not to say I won’t still do the needful haha, got nothing but love for those close to me, and I’ll always try to be there for them in the ways that I can. I’ve found that in the grand scheme of things, any action, no matter how little, goes a long way.