#this is honestly just funny to me. im just sitting here writing a linked universe fic and someones telling me to kill myself anonymously
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dead-in-a-damn-ditch Ā· 17 days ago
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you're disgusting. an utter failure. fuck you. go kill yourself. we all hate you here. stop pretending like it'll get better. pull the trigger
wow ive never gotten anon hate before!!!! so weird
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blorbosondeck Ā· 4 years ago
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fic rec masterlist
canon divergent/finale fix its
Anamnesis
THIS! FIC! this fic lives in my head rent FREE it is so good and it makes so much sense in the narrative that the shitty finale concocted, as to why they wouldn't mention cas or anyone else and its just. so good and they write chuck in the most villainous way that i love!!!
"Chuck is depowered, Jack is the new god, and the world is free. Dean and Sam get into the Impala and chase down the miles on an endless highway, and their story is finally, finally their own to follow. At least, that's what Dean tells himself. But the diners and motels and painted interstate lines are blurring together and the smallest details keep catching at his brain like tiny fishhooks and he can't quite shake the feeling that not everything is exactly as it should be. Fix-it/alternate series finale. Canon-compliant through the end of 15.19."
Sunset Sound: Stairway to Heaven by @adhdeancas
GOD FUCKING CHRIST this is so good and sweet and im such a sucker for team ups and reunions!!! its 3:30 am rn and i just finished it and i love it SO much it made me laugh a lot and the last few chapters i had the stupidest grin just plastered to my face
The Closer the Star, the Greater the ParallaxĀ by @rocksaltsā€‹
repressed bastard dean submits to the mortifying ordeal of being known and receives the rewards of being loved but only after some miscommunication i LOVE this i read it last night and itā€™s a fast favorite. my interests have overlapped and i am INTO it
ā€œWhen Dean sits down to watch some bullcrap Discovery Channel episode with Cas, he doesnā€™t expect to actually learn anything. Except, with Cas explaining, he makes an effort to connect the dots.ā€
Don't We All Deserve To Be Happy?
VERY sweet and a VERY good pick me up. all around feel good fic!!!Ā 
"Post-canon fix-it, divergent from 15x19 where Jack stays and Dean doesn't die and Cas comes back and everyone is happy. Take a shot every time I'm salty about the finale."
Keep Your Love Alive
okay. okay okay okay this may be my favorite finale fix it just because of how well reasoned it is. like this feels what should have happened i love it SO much
"Dean gets to spend eternity sharing beers with Bobby on the Roadhouse porch and riding around in his Baby with Sam. Heā€™s at peaceā€¦ or he feels like he should be. But a few things nag at him: Where is Cas, and everybody else Dean had been hoping to see in Heaven? Why does he feel like heā€™s stuck in a loop, reliving the same memories over and over again? And who are the strangers wearing Samā€™s and Bobbyā€™s faces?"
The GoldenRod RevisionsĀ by @aethylasā€‹
this is one of the most well written things ive ever read. the script format DID make it feel more real and honestly? this is better writing than this show deserves. the finale that could have been ā™„ļø
ā€œA rewrite of Supernaturalā€™s final two episodes, expanded into a five episode arc - in which Chuck needs to be defeated, Castiel deserves to be saved, and the characters in this story get a very different ending.ā€œ
AscendĀ by @wanderingcasā€‹Ā 
THEE finale fix it fic!!! written by the AMAZINGLY skilled and talentedĀ @wanderingcas !!! itā€™s 50k of angst and hurt/comfort and pure bliss
ā€œSomething in the world is wrong.
Demon activity is rising where mysterious black substance oozes and unusual ecological events are shaking the world. Dean, grief hanging on his shoulders, restlessly searches for answers that might lead him to the Emptyā€¦ and to Cas.
But what Chuck wrote canā€™t be undone. The narrative thread pulls Dean along, forcing him to comply. Because once a story already has an ending, it canā€™t be rewritten.
Or can it?ā€
Things Happen (They Do, And They Do, And They Do)Ā by THEEĀ @sobsicles
i KNOW everyone has already recommended this and likely youā€™ve all already read it. but it has to go here bc REPRESSIOOOOOOOOON i LOVE this so much it is one of the most perfect things iā€™ve read. are you bisexual? did you have a kind of weird relationship with your best friend and not realize that how you felt about them wasnā€™t necessarily how other people felt about them and you were maybe a little bit in love with them but were too repressed to realize it? youā€™ll feel seen. maybe a little too seen
CloserĀ (isn't close enough)
are you a sweet and sappy yet horny bastard? do you like cas exploding light bulbs? you will like this.
ā€œthe one where they finally talk about what cas said before the empty took himā€
You and Your Husband
it is exTRMELY sweet!!! repression dean strikes again <3
"Five times Dean corrects someone about his relationship with Cas, and one time he realizes he doesn't need to."
Tall Grass
miscommunication and a slowburn! despite being written in 2017 and finished in 2018, it feels like a fix it. ft. plant obsessed cas <3Ā 
Invictus
a LOVELY and short (relatively) finale fix it
ā€œThey saved the world. They're free. It's done.
Except it's not, and carrying on is the last thing any of them are thinking about.
They still have someone they need to save.ā€
Unchained Link
post finale- itā€™s a great case fic and i am compelled i want more!!!
"It's after the end of things. Life continues on while Dean is "livin it up" in heaven. But it's never that simple, is it? A freak occurrence sends Dean into another time stranded back on Earth. And he thought his hunting days were over. But, no worries. His knight in shining armor comes to the rescue. Hijinks, therefore, ensue."
fun and time unspecified
Ladies and Gentlemen, This is Love Potion No. 5
very funny and sweet! miscommunication at its finest ā™„ļø
"Cas gets drenched with a mystery potion from the ā€˜love spellā€™ shelf and... Dean has a sneaking suspicion, angel or noā€” the spell may have taken effect. And Cas might be in love with Sam."
The Way We Were
Y'all. It is so good its a great mix of funny and serious- extremely fun to see dean as like a base bisexual
"Dean and Castiel pose as a couple to gain access to a gated community known as 'The Glen', a pleasant if secretive location that the boys believe might be linked to several dead bodies showing up over the years bearing signs of ritualistic sacrifice. All seems well until Dean's memory is affected from an incident during a solo exploration, leaving Dean convinced that their cover story is true. Castiel is left trying to resolve their case without taking advantage of an increasingly enthusiastic Dean"
While You Were Sleeping
this is basically just the movie but replacing sandra bullock with cas. this is my comfort movie and imo, one of the most perfect rom coms. the fic isnā€™t finished but i still have the tab open on my phone and i will straight up go back and re read it when i need a pick me up.Ā 
aus/rewrites
The Harvelle Gospels: Offscript
i know everyone ever ( @jewishcharliebradbury ) has recommended this fic. and for good reason go fucking read it
ā€œThe Apocalypse is averted, the angels are in Heaven, and Jo is free from the threat of possession. Somehow it couldn't be farther from a happy ending.ā€œ
absolute riots
An Ineffably Profound Bond
i honestly would have put this in the finale fix it section! look. i know. i know you've been burned by crossover fics before. but this is Thee good omens/spn fic you want. its funny as hell and immensely satisfying. im weak for everyone working together tropes and that is this
"After Chuck sets 'The End' in motion, the remaining members of TFW make a miraculous escape. Not willing to waste any time, Castiel comes up with a plan to travel to one of the other worlds to try and get help from the angels there, but after a fight with Dean, it's the hunter who gets sent into an alternate universe,with seemingly no hope of return.
When a mysterious human with a heavenly weapon shows up in Aziraphale's shop, he and Crowley learn that their world is not the only one. Now it is up to them to decide whether or not they want to join forces with the human and help him save his world or simply find a way to send him home."
Somebody Up There Likes MeĀ byĀ @lafilleredige
cas is hit with a spell that turns his vessel into a woman, hijinks and sexuality crises ensue etc etc sam is a supportive and bitchy little brother and its all SO fucking funny and also. horny as hell i love it i love it i LOVE it
ā€œā€™Dean doesnā€™t want to talk about your breasts, itā€™s making him uncomfortable because he hasnā€™t acknowledged the complex fluidity of human sexuality.ā€™ā€œ
Stray Cat Strut
a long crack fic that IS one of the funniest things iā€™ve ever read and i canā€™t explain why. itā€™s so ooc but its so funny that i donā€™t care. if you need a laugh you gotta read this
"Sam and Cas are immediately in love with the adorable kitty they find outside the bunker door, and occupy their time planning how to convince Dean--who they believe is off sulking after a botched hunt--to let them keep their cat. Along the way, Dean learns to use a litter box and hears some confessions he maybe wasnā€™t supposed to hear, all while realizing just how much he loves Castiel.
Now all Dean has to do is convince Cas and Sam their new pet cat is actually him before they do something crazy--like neuter him!"
canon compliant or slight canon divergence
Give
by @doublestuffedimpalaĀ post season 7 episode 7, kind of ambiguous ending but truly a cas is happy to bleed for the winchesters fic
Punch Like BonesĀ 
short, post 5x04 homoerotic moment that i wish weā€™d gotten
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offshore-writes-blog Ā· 7 years ago
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searching for a roommate: maybe also love
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soulmates!auĀ  (part 1/?)
genre: lots of angsttttt
pairing: Mark x OC
inspired by prompt: (iā€™ll add the link of the list when i find it)
8. ā€œYouā€™re so fucking hot when youā€™re mad.ā€
100. ā€Youā€™re my soulmate?!ā€
note: i havenā€™t proofread this im sorry. another part is coming soooooon. forreal though.Ā 
they say that your soulmate and you sometimes have the same birthmark on your body or some inscription just appears onto your skin one day; the exact same as your soulmate. but iā€™m convinced that soulmates donā€™t have to romantic. they really donā€™t. i think my friend ray is my soulmate. heā€™s funny and so smart. heā€™s also so gay. like makes out with his boyfriend in front of me; hinting that i should leave our apartment. he can literally read my mind; how could that be? weā€™ve been friends for years. weā€™ve been through everything.
when heā€™d come out to me the day weā€™d both come back to our hometown after a semester at our separate universities; we spent the night crying; him at being free and me because he was finally feeling like himself. heā€™s seen me through every speed bump in my life and still loves me. so like? isnā€™t that what soulmates are??
i tread quietly into our shared apartment; hoping that ray and his boyfriend (ed) are asleep or at least out of the living room. yeah, so weā€™re in a big city now but the rent is crazy; despite somewhat promising careers; we canā€™t afford an apartment without each other. Ā 
letting out a sigh of relief, i put my bag down onto the couch. the apartmentā€™s empty like they hadnā€™t just wordlessly told me to get the fuck out of here two hours ago. iā€™d gone to a local coffee shop; to get some writing done. (im a journalist but what i really want to do is write a goddamn book; about anything that makes me heart ring)
the next morning, i wake up to an empty apartment again; strange. assuming that rayā€™s slept over at edā€™s place, i start my morning routine; a quick workout and heading into the shower. iā€™m not called in today so i can actually have breakfast today. normally, iā€™d be out the door at 5:30am for the 7am news or outdoor braving the weather to prove to the entire city; that YES it is bad out there; please stay at home.
iā€™m in the middle of humming to myself as i clean the apartment. although weā€™re not that messy, we could be cleaner. i hear the keys jingle at the door and look up expectedly to see ray, of course. ā€œhey!ā€ i greet; pausing the music on the speakers from my phone.
ā€œheyā€¦ā€ closing the door behind him, he puts the keys down by the table at the door. lips pressing into a thin line, he walks up behind the couch. Ā 
uh oh. this is trouble. i let go of the broom and watch him; waiting for him to say something. only the couch between us; shaking my head slightly at him to say hellooo? speak now
ā€œed and i were talking last night ā€¦ā€
ā€œjust talking?ā€ i raise an eyebrow and he chuckles softly but continues
ā€œwe were talking. and it was like really romantic.ā€ he pauses and looks at me again; trying to read my face i know it. but i dont know what he wants to see because I'm just listening to him intently. ā€œweā€™ve been together for almost a year now, arista.ā€
is this going where i think this is going? i wanna be happy for ray. i really do. but my breath gets caught up in my throat. like i can barely get another breath in. so heā€™s moving out. and iā€™m going to be alone.
his brows are furrowed now, reading my face. ā€œari, please.ā€ he pouts, coming over to me; pulling me into him. ā€œlook, we want to move in together.ā€ he finally says it but he already knows i know. ā€œand we donā€™t have a definite date, alright? thereā€™s no way iā€™m going to just leave you.ā€ i nod and pull away; trying to not look so pathetic.
ā€œitā€™s fine.ā€ itā€™s not. i nod but i know he knows i'm not. but if i say iā€™m fine maybe heā€™ll feel less guilty.
ed is rayā€™s soulmate. they both have the same birthmark on their left arm right below their elbow and to further confirm it, they also have another shared inscription on the crook of their necks; just a number; 15. edā€™d been wearing a number 15 jersey when ray saw him at our local coffee shop. edā€™d played lacrosse at uni so he still wears it when heā€™s feeling not so good. that day heā€™d been getting coffee after binge-drinking the night before over an ex. itā€™s like meant to be. i remember ed pausing as he entered the shop with me. like he could just sense his soulmate was there. Ā 
to be fair, he and i also shared a birthmark. on the bottom of our feet, itā€™s shaped like a heart but itā€™s faded more and more as the years went by. but it doesnā€™t bother us. weā€™re best friends till we get to the other side of life; really. so i really believe soulmates arenā€™t just romantic.
ā€œguys, this is it.ā€ i announce, coming out my room with my laptop in my arms. ā€œthis city is full of creeps and iā€™ll never find a roommate.ā€ i hear the two of them sort of pause their conversation and chuckle at me. plopping down between ed and ray on the couch. ā€œlook at this!ā€ i gesture to my screen. iā€™d posted an online listing about a roommate but so far, everyone iā€™ve contacted have been dodgy. they didnā€™t want to give their job descriptions or thought i was being distrustful when i suggested an interview.
ā€œyouā€™ll find someone.ā€ ed tried comforting me awkwardly; patting my back as ray rested his head on my shoulder.
god i wish i could be mad at the two of them. how dare they be so in love!! they were being awfully nice about only moving in till i found a new roommate.
//
itā€™s fucking storming outside. the wind is crazy. and now i have to act like i didnā€™t just spend 20 hours straight writing up an article and head out to report the fucking weather.
itā€™s 4am when i get the call. iā€™d only gone to sleep 2 hours ago. begrudgingly i leave the comfort of my bed and start getting dressed.
itā€™s 5:30 when me and the camera crew are at the ferry pier; where the wind is the strongest and most obvious.
ā€œyou look like absolute hell.ā€ i hear one of the cameraperson comment about me. weā€™ve worked together for years now so we have some rapport and honestly, i donā€™t disagree. i still scoff and raise my finger at him.
theyā€™re putting some make up on me inside the van now. i even have to change inside this tiny van so itā€™s just me and the mary; one of the crew. she helps out with everything behind-the-scenes.
ā€œhey hey hey, whatā€™s that?ā€ she quickly points down as i sit topless with only my bra on. i look down to myself; seeing as her fingerā€™s pointing on the top of left boob.
ā€œwhat?ā€ i say and look closer; she does too. ā€œwhat is it?ā€
ā€œis that a mark?ā€
ā€œiā€™ve never seen that.ā€ i comment quietly.
ā€œitā€™s shaped like a heart.ā€ mary comments and smiles too cutely at me; teasing me. ā€œitā€™s a soulmate thing!!ā€ she finally exclaims as it registers to her the same moment it registers to me.
is this a soulmate mark?
i donā€™t really think about the mark again. i have a lot on my plate. a job and searching for a roommate that isnā€™t going to kill me in this big city.
////
but one night, weā€™re letting loose. one of my friends grace is hosting a big party. sheā€™s dating his hotshot up-and-coming stylist-turned-model guy who goes by the name bambam. immediately, i hear the dudeā€™s name and iā€™m intrigued. i get my hottest (and probably sluttiest) ensemble and head to the club theyā€™re holding the party. i canā€™t remember what the partyā€™s for but i remember being invited so i go with ray and ed.
the club exudes really expensive and mysterious vibes. god i cannot even imagine the price of these drinks. thank god weā€™re here for a party. i note to myself. through the sea of people, i make it to grace. she has a gorgeous figure beside her, who i assume is bambam. we hug briefly before she introduces us to him.
ray, ed and i share pleasantries with the couple and they gesture over to another private area. ooooh so this is where it gets interesting. the private area Ā i see a booth and vaguely recognise the faces and head over. i finally recognise jackson and jaebum. i know through mutual friends and we have spent a couple of wasted nights so.
ā€œarista!ā€ jackson shouts and we hug each other tightly. ā€œgod where have you been?ā€ he asks, looking at me after pulling away. he gives a little nod to ray and ed too; giving lil bro hugs.
ā€œiā€™ve been busy with work.ā€ i finally say, still kind of hovering over the round booth; making my way to jaebum while ray and ed sit beside jackson. jaebum and i hug briefly and he gives me this look. ā€œwhat?ā€ i say as he moves a little and lets me sit inside the booth on his other side just between him and jackson; while the other is occupied by a face i donā€™t recognise.
ā€œyou act like we donā€™t have jobs.ā€ he teases with a little smirk. i smack him and click my tongue. ā€œbut seriously, where have you been?ā€
ā€œwell, rayā€™s leaving me.ā€ i announce dramatically and all eyes land on him. ā€œiā€™ve been trying to look for a roommate whoā€™s not going to kill me or grope me.ā€ i explain and the rest of the table laughs a little. suddenly my eyes land on a few faces iā€™ve never seen. ā€œiā€™m sorry weā€™re being rude.ā€ i say. ā€œiā€™m graceā€™s friend, arista.ā€ i extend my hand over to the guy on jaebumā€™s other side.
ā€œmark.ā€ he speaks and his voice sounds smooth. like really smooooth. strong but also soft? i try not to show that iā€™m into his voice and look over to see another girl beside him.
ā€œjennie.ā€ she smiles at me and my breath is taken away. sheā€™s beautiful. both mark and her. actually everyone on this table except me. thank god my outfit looks hot and is compensating for my lack of actual natural beauty.
ā€œyou are gorgeous.ā€ i blurt out, kind of losing myself in her eyes. wow. girls are amazing. ā€œsorry.ā€ i say almost immediately and jennie smiles shyly but something about her aura tells me sheā€™s confident. like sheā€™s kind of a force to be reckon with.
ā€œis this why all the blind dates havenā€™t worked out?ā€ jackson finally says. ā€œweā€™ve been setting you up with guys.ā€ he nudges me, laughing.
ā€œthey donā€™t work out because you set me up with guys who are exactly like you and it makes me think of you.ā€ i roll my eyes, sipping his drink.
ā€œyou think of jackson on your dates?ā€ jennie teases now. ā€œmaybe you two shouldā€¦ā€ she adds with a few blinks, smiling mischievously.
everyone at the table groans except mark and jennie. the two of us look at us with amusement and i notice mark finally smile a little wider. our eyes meet and i feel my heart stop but look away.
ā€œjennie, donā€™t get us started.ā€ ray finally says. ā€œthese twoā€¦ā€
ā€œletā€™s not talk about this before iā€™m at least 20% tipsy.ā€ i run my fingers through my hair; already having a hard time having to explain what weird things jackson and i have done.
weā€™ve never dated. iā€™ve literally had a crush on jaebum since the three of us started partying together. jacksonā€™s been nothing to kind to me. everyone thinks heā€™s this joker whoā€™s wild and just funny. he is wild and funny but heā€™s a hard-worker and so compassionate about people in his life. he took me home when i saw jaebum hook up with girls on our many nights of partying. and people just didnā€™t believe that we didnā€™t fuck. so it was just easier to not deny or really say why we always end up together after a night of drinking.
after a couple of hours later?? time is an illusion i donā€™t even know but grace and bambam finally join us. (probably having entertained the other 100 of their guests) weā€™re all a couple of rounds in with our drinks when they do join us. iā€™m being a little too giggly now. but i canā€™t control it.
ā€œas the only people in a serious committed relationship,ā€ ray pauses and looks at grace. ā€œno offence.ā€ he continues. ā€œray and i have decide we will not participating in this round of dare or dare.ā€ the whole table groans at them feigning annoyance.
grace whines a little but the two of them stand firm. they leave for the dance floor; giggly too. theyā€™re totally go bang somewhere, i acknowledge in my head. but i guess i said it out loud because everyoneā€™s laughing.
ā€œalright alright alright.ā€ bambam finally says as he and grace take up where ray and ed had been sitting. ā€œletā€™s get started.ā€
//Ā 
i think itā€™s form of ptsd because iā€™ve completely blacked out what happened last night. after ed and ray left. i donā€™t remember a single thing. but iā€™m home. thank god. i'm still in my clothes from last night. this navy sparkly body-hugging dress seems ridiculous now as the daylight seeps through my curtains.
what the fuck happened i wonder as my headā€™s pounding. i walk out to see jackson and ray at our breakfast bar.
ā€œwell good morning drama queen.ā€ ray greets with an amused expression; seeing me walk out my room and jackson also turns his head to see me.
ā€œoh no what did i do.ā€ i'm limping.
ā€œwhat didnā€™t you do?ā€ jackson teases as he chews.
ā€œseriously tell me.ā€ i nod, with my head down, looking at the kitchen counter.
//
ā€œi dare you to kiss the person who you want the most. at. this. table.ā€ jennie yells through the music to me. my heartā€™s beating fast. a dareā€™s a dare. the drinks help me brave this. i turn to face jaebum whoā€™s just watching like the rest at the table; amused. then i look around the table like iā€™m thinking about it. but i already know i want to kiss jaebum. my eyes go to stranger mark. his lips are pursed as he watches me a little too intensely. even in my inebriated state i know markā€™s intensely looking at me. i wonder if itā€™s because i feel spellbound whenever i look at him.
ā€œhurry!!!ā€ bambam yells and I'm pulled back into the game.
grace and jackson throw me a knowing look. but they know I'm a bit too prideful to lose the game. so i face jaebum again and pull him by his shirt collar. i want to kiss him so bad. i look at him and his eyes widen a little and his usual smirk is misplaced from his face. then i let go.
ā€œi give up.ā€ i shrug. this is the first time iā€™ve given up on a dare. iā€™ve possibly made an acquaintance bust in their pants by riding their thigh but kissing jaebum? i canā€™t do that. when you forfeit a dare, youā€™re out of the game. something in me snaps and i get teary eyed and leave the table, pushing past jaebum and mark. this is so so soso embarrassing.
i avoid the booth for the rest of the night. jackson and grace find me in the toilet sobbing. why am i even crying? god.
ā€œdid you see his fucking face?ā€ i say through my tears. ā€œlike me wanting to kiss him was so absurd and bizarre.ā€
ā€œbabe, no.ā€ grace hugs me. ā€œhe was just surprised. ā€˜cause you and jackson are so tight.ā€
ā€œyeah, graceā€™s right.ā€ jackson croaks and pats my head. ā€œcā€™mon, you donā€™t wanna waste your night in here.ā€ he says and that makes me smile.
iā€™m drunker than iā€™d been an hour ago. i'm in the middle of dance floor now with ray and ed; the losers of the dare and dare. although i feel a pair of hands on me, i just keep dancing. i kind of want it to stay. i just want to not remember that jaebum doesnā€™t like me and will never see me that way.
the next thing i know, iā€™m being scolded by jaebum outside the club. after heā€™s pulled me out the toilet after seeing me in a very compromising position.
ā€œarista, could you try to be more responsible?ā€ he says with exasperation. ā€œyou donā€™t even know that guy. whatā€™s going on with you tonight?ā€ he softens at the last part.
ā€œi am responsible!ā€ i whine, pushing him. ā€œpeople hook up at clubs all the time.ā€ i yell. ā€œiā€™ve seen you do it! right in front of me a hundred times.ā€ iā€™m yelling but my voice cracks at the last time.
ā€œpeople do it. i do it. but you donā€™t do it, arista. i know you.ā€
ā€œwhat the fuck do you know?ā€ i push past him, annoyed. i canā€™t even gage how angry he is because of how intoxicated i am.
ā€œarista, youā€™re not going back in. iā€™m taking you home.ā€
ā€œlook, iā€™m going to screw that guyā€™s brains out then we can go.ā€ i say mindlessly. god drunk arista is that bitch.
jaebum grips onto my wrist. ā€œarista.ā€ his voice is low, trying to hold in his anger.
i jerk my head around to see him. his nostrils are flaring a bit i remember thinking he looked beautiful. his hairā€™s a bit of a mess after a long night. his chinā€™s pointing out now; heā€™s mad. even drunk me knows thatā€™s a sign on his face of anger boiling. but i canā€™t help it. i giggle.
ā€œyouā€™re so fucking hot when youā€™re mad.ā€ my voice comes out differently. but i feel a small smile on my face. my hands want to touch his face but heā€™s holding one of my hands already.
he drops my hand and looks at me incredulously. he wants to laugh. ā€œgod, you are so drunk.ā€ he still doesnā€™t believe that i like him. just because i'm drunk.
ray comes out the club just in time. before i can fuck the situation up even more. ā€œitā€™s okay jae, i can handle this drama queen.ā€ he breathes with an easy smile; like i hadnā€™t just been pouring my feelings to him.
//
ray and jackson console me rest of the day. so my lifeā€™s kind of messy now. at least i have a job i love. i spend the entire day ignoring my phone. if i was a mess like that in real life i donā€™t even want to see who i texted what to.
//
itā€™s a couple of nights later. iā€™m finally home from work. the apartmentā€™s empty and i anticipate that this is how itā€™s going to be the rest of my life. eventually, iā€™ll make ray move out (even though he says he will wait for me to find a roommate but itā€™s been a month of searching and still nada) and iā€™ll live alone being broke because this apartment is too expensive but also too comfortable to leave.
when the door bell rings, iā€™m in the kitchen cooking, stretching my neck to watch the tv from there. who is that? i try to remember if iā€™d ordered anything recently. and as i look out the peep hole, i'm startled.
itā€™s mark.
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ghostliied Ā· 7 years ago
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Character in general: Honestly, when I first started to RP Red so long ago, I came to realise that Fire, is in fact, NOT Red at all. Like I had the general understanding that or Red and Fire are not the same thing. but for me, it was more on the idea that??? they could be?? in the same universe?? like that for me was something that I found really hard. IDK why? I jut dissociated them so much that it got to the point where I simply didnā€™t like Fire? Another reason for me disliking the muse was because I just didnā€™t like him as a character concept. IDK. I guess there were some that caused him to be an ā€œalternateā€ or ā€œUNDERDOGā€Ā  version of Red and I was like no please stop.. um?? no?? Like idk how to explain. Fire and Red are two completely different people, and most people were like well Red is nonexistent to Fire. while others just thought that Red and Fire came from different generations and wouldnā€™t have kNOWN of each other.Ā  That and likeā€¦ the personalities were so vastly different imo that I just couldnā€™t comprehend Fire as a muse???? Like there were so many things happening that I just shut myself out from considering Fire. I was SO (and still am at times) dissociated with Fire because I just didnā€™t have any good reason to attempt any interaction. Like I am sorry to say that, but itā€™s the truth and I hate it, but I genuinely always have a hard time trying to like a Fire muse because people arenā€™t vary forward or clear about wtf is happening. Like to me sometimes I feel like Fire is a canonised/glorified self-insert. and Iā€™m like??? please help me understand this boi, is he a canon character? is he an OC? like what is his story line? where tf does he fit in life and in general.
How they play them: So you know How I just took the time to literally question everything about Fire above? yea well allow me to say that while I still question him, I still think what YOU have for Fire makes me appreciate the fact that you took the time to sit down with him and be likeĀ ā€œyo i wanna write Fire today.ā€ Like?? Idk if that makes sense but no really, Iā€™m terrible with reading the interactions, but I LOVE reading up on his bio a lot, it makes me genuinely happy and proud that you wrote it because itā€™s clearly written in a way where iā€™m like, wow this is actually something I can follow? And for somebody who was able to hold the path steady and show me the way, Iā€™m very appreciative for it. Because yes, please I want to read more about Fireā€™s history and I would actually love to write with Fire now that I have SOME understanding of him. granted, Iā€™m still confused, but at least I am not confused to all hell and youā€™ve written Fire in an understandable way for me. I thank you.
The Mun: Yo, the mun?? I love the mun lol. Ye buddy, I do actually appreciate you lol. I mean, itā€™s also been how long since we last talked and I mean even remotely saw once another on the dash?? oh WAIT, pulling up my Red blog now, I can see thatā€¦ you commented on this post hereā€¦ AND IM LAUGHING SO HARD. YES HELLO WELCOME TO ANGST LAND. and THEN, looking back on your tag on my moon blogā€¦ andā€¦.Ā WAIT IM SCREAMING WTF THIS AU RIGHT HERE HOW COME THIS WAS NEVER A THING OMFG SO HELP ME I WILL LOG BACK ONTO MOON FOR THIS AU PLEASE. I know its not for Fire but likeā€¦??? also??? I love the fact that we havenā€™t really interacted or talked much ooc but??? like??? idk??? jsladhfdfs honestly I think I need to be reminded on what exactly we have done like RP wise because I didnā€™t think we spoke much to begin with and??? shfd while I really did appreciate you, we also never really got the chance to likeā€¦ FORMALLY sit down and talk. Itā€™s sad but Iā€™m now happy cause now we are talking and interacting again and I never realised that you wanted to do something with me like alghfdbsl omg /)~(\ If I had known then I would have probably come in your ims to bother you 24/7. You just seem like such a chill and sweet friend and im??? honestly??? I really do enjoy your presence though. Its why I write a lot for you because i want to show you how much I appreciate the fact that you took the time to write your muses and whatnot. Like hello, you have really good ideas. So well thought out. Youā€™re so funny too and super lax and chill and im??? I only wish I knew you better friend!! I hope you know that youā€™re more than welcome to come and msg me anytime. :) like stahp being so mysterious lolol its a bit of a wonkyĀ ā€˜do I approach you or should i wait for you to approach meā€™ and we have this mutual thing going on but idk how to describe it in words. But yes. Many much good and quality and all of the things.
Do I:
RP with them: yea I have yet to make a reply for Calem. OPPPS. I have bad timekeeping. I SWEAR i have it drafts i am so so SO sorry its taking me forever to do a simple reply. Life is saying fuk yu unfortunatel.y
Want to RP with them:Ā  OMG FLAILS MY ARMS BACK IN THE GENERAL DIRECTION ABOVE TO SHOW THAT LONG WRITTEN AU POST I LINKED. *coughs* yes.
What is my;
Overall Opinion: yes, good, den/den. Much amaze. Such Quality. Iā€™m love. Iā€™m also really happy that we are actually talking, Iā€™m sorry Iā€™ve been a shy bean. but yea, honestly, at this point, Iā€™d follow you on any blog of mine. yus. huggles you tightly.
**Note: Munā€™s answer are all to be completely honest. Donā€™t send url if you donā€™t want brutal honesty
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starlitdoodles-blog Ā· 7 years ago
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omg for a moment i freaked out bc i couldnt find ur rotoa blog wtf im sorry what happened dawg
i cant believe u freaked out over being unable to find me
its a dream come true
i am blessed
ur still my art senpai ok shut up let me squee in peace
and OKAY SOĀ 
ITS TIME FOR YAā€™LL TO KNOW
THE STORY
OF WHAT HAPPENED
WHEN I LOST MY BLOG.
tbh im just gonna copy/paste what i sent to a friend because Iā€™m too lazy to write it in coherent paragraphs and honestly, the way i said it was hella funny
so yeh itll be under a cut cuz its long
SO ME AND @ashenemberrs RIGHTweā€™re talkinand Iā€™m telling him how I wanna watch the Emoji Movie onlinebecause i dont wanna waste my money on seeing it in the theatressony doesnt deserve my fucking money for that shit movieiā€™ve seen the reviews, and i know its shitbut iā€™ve got this morbid curiosity about mei need to see how bad it is with my own two eyesso he links me to a place to watch it righti open the link, but dont watch, cuz i wanna be funny and make a post about it, saying if i die, thats whyAND THEN IT HAPPENSI GO TO TUMBLRTRY TO POSTAND THEN Iā€™M FORCEFULLY LOGGED OUTIM JUST ā€œ????????ā€SO I TRY TO LOG BACK INIT SAYS IT NEEDS ME TO VERIFY MY E-MAILā€œ??????????????ā€ INTENSIFIES, BUT I DOIT SAYS IT NEEDS TO BE VERIFIED BECAUSE THEREā€™S BEENĀ ā€œSUSPICIOUSā€ ACTIVITY ON MY ACCOUNTCOOL, WHATEVER, I DID THE VERIFICATION THINGYTHEN IT JUST TAKES ME TO THIS ERROR PAGE, SAYING THEREā€™S A PROBLEM OR WHATEVERā€œ???????????????????????????????????ā€ INTENSIFIESASH SUGGESTS I MIGHT NEED TO CLEAR MY COOKIES/BROWSING DATA, SO I TRY THATBUT IT JUST PUTS ME THROUGH THE WHOLE VERIFICATION PROCESS THINGY AGAINSO IM JUST??????????SO I TRY TO SEE IF IM STILL LOGGED IN ON MY PHONEBUT IT FORCEFULLY LOGS ME OUT THERE TOOTHIS IS WHEN THE PANIC STARTS TO SET INI GO TO THE EMR SERVER TO FREAK OUT ABOUT IT IN THE VENT CHATAND THEN I GET PPL TELLING ME THEY CANT GET TO MY BLOGIVE DISAPPEARED FROM FOLLOWER LISTS, AND WHEN HOVERING OVER MY NAME FROM REBLOGS, IT SAYS Iā€™M DEACTIVATEDI TRY TO GO TO MY BLOG PAGE MYSELF, AND THEYRE PROVEN Ā RIGHTYEAH NO Iā€™M HIGHKEY PANICKING AT THIS POINTand trust me, Iā€™d been checking my e-mail, and there was just nothingnothing but the verification e-mails iā€™d received to confirm my e-mailSOI GO TO TUMBLR SUPPORT THINGY AND E-MAIL THEMAND THEN WONDER WHAT THE FUCK IM SUPPOSED TO DOit was my home boiĀ @snoteleks-milk who suggested i make another account my new main to spread awareness and for just in case my blog doesnt come backbc they said theyā€™ve seen some people get their blogs back, while others donā€™tso iā€™m just sitting here, drawin my awareness thingyand trying not to d i ewhen ash suggeststhat losing my blogwas cosmic retributionfor trying to watch the emoji moviecuz the universe knewit was so horribleit could kill a godand apparently iā€™m not allowed to dieso yeahmy blog got shanked because i wanted to watch the emoji movie >B((((((
that just about sums it up.
i know this explanation is a mess but its the funniest version of this explanation that iā€™ve given and i am unwilling to not have it on the internet forever
so take it
satanā€™s blog was erased because he tried to watch the emoji movie
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