#this is highkey a flop im sorry

[zweiginator]

give us more of forbidden love au patrick!!!

here is the link to the last part, in case anyone needs their memory refreshed!

cw: talk about unwanted pregnancy, abortion

patrick lifts his head from the dashboard; it feels like all his blood rushed to his brain but he still can't think. doesn't know what to say or how to make you feel better. because he feels like shit. and he feels awful because you're going through this too, and so much worse than he is--but how could you keep this from him for so fucking long?

his temples ache, and patrick rubs them with the pads of his fingers. his palms are clammy so he wipes them on his legs.

"are you serious?" patrick asks. it's all he can think to ask. maybe just to get it out of the way. for him to realize he isn't dreaming and this is real and here you are with his baby, gestating in your body.

"yes, i am." you want to yell at him. but you know it wouldn't do any good. how could he ask you that? why doesn't he fucking care to hug you or tell you it's going to be okay? it's hard to look him in the eye, but you do it.

"do you want to keep it?"

there isn't a bite to his words and you can tell he's genuinely asking. he doesn't know what to do, how this will look. well, he knows it will look fucking horrible. given how adamant both your and patrick's fathers have been about despising the other. it was ingrained into you, programmed from a young age, like a chore that didn't make sense but had to be done nonetheless.

it's either a scandal for patrick knocking you up out of wedlock, or a scandal when they find out you chose not to keep the baby. there's only a tiny sliver of a possibility that it can stay completely out of the public eye. and, maybe it's possible, given how both sides have an interest in keeping it hushed. except the media doesn't. and neither of you are even sure they're not there now, snapping pictures, or waiting to ask for inside scoop, sliding the woman at the front desk a fifty dollar bill.

"i don't--no."

"you don't know?"

"no, i dont want to keep it." you say, softly. meekly. patrick has never seen you look so helpless.

he looks at your stomach. obviously, it doesn't look any different. but a tinge of melancholic guilt stings his chest like an electric shock. to think about a baby, his baby growing inside you.

but you're both too young. stupid to think you were immune to the natural order of the world. why didn't patrick use a fucking condom?

"this shouldn't have happened. the baby." you mutter, looking up at patrick. a tear falls onto your nose and patrick wipes it with his thumb.

"i know, i'm sorry." he mumbles.

"what do you think we should do?"

"it's not my choice to make."

it's frustrating to you how patrick isn't taking a stance. isn't being a fucking man and telling you how he feels, what the plan should be. you roll your eyes.

"can you just--say something? you're acting like a fucking robot."

"it's--" patrick groans. "i'm not going to tell you what to do with your body. i know it's my baby too--but i don't know. i think if you don't want to keep it then don't."

but you weren't so sure. neither of you were. you had been ready to talk to patrick about abortion, gung ho about not wanting a baby at this point in your life. but a sadness hung in the air that wasn't there before you brought up that word.

"maybe we think about it. for a little longer." patrick tucks a strand of hair behind your ear.

you sniffle and nod your head.

"your family will hate me."

"yours already hates me."

and weirdly enough, you both felt as if you could take a full breath after admitting maybe you did want the baby. the hard part would be hiding it, and eventually, finding a way to break the news not only to your family, but to your whole fucking city as well.

[greenunoreversecard]

Plsss do another part to the fic ‘A koala and it’s tree’ the concept is so cool!!

a/n:I had at least half written and then my phone fucking deleted the draft I want to cry so hard I'm in mourning. Also sorry it Took me a minute to comr up eitheir a idea for the plot of it

Teaching a old Dog new tricks (task failed succesfully) ->Alastor x teen!platonic! Reader

(Pt.2 of a koala and its tree)

You sigh, dragging yourself along behind Alastor and Rosie. You don't understand much of what their saying, as their speaking like it's the early 20th century. Which, to be fair, they are from then.

But you could barely understand a word being said, due to missing ao much previous knowledge about slang and terms and shit. And you were so bored and

What if-

Oh ho ho! Bingo!

A wonderful idea indeed.

---

You sigh loudly, feet hurting from all the walking you've done today and plop down on the couch next to Angel Dust, and alastor sits on a arm chair across from the both of you. You smirk, setting your plan into action. You make sure your loud enough for Alastor to hear you.

" did you see that new video? No Cap I'm going to be for real it's lowkey giving try hard you know like? I'm just being real like I really don't vib3, like girls not giving main character.. and like, Miss ma'am you are not slaying you are not giving it is not the vibe like, twas not a glow up but a glow down. But it is kinda sus how she treated Kim like, big yikes. Not loving the energy. And That outfit did not understand the assignment. It was basic and it sent me"

Angel looks at you wide eyed for a moment, you nudge him and side eye Alastor hoping he gets the cue. He does.

"I for real was just thinking that, like bitch be deadass with me you did not leave your house like that. But that tea was piping hot and bussing. And the fact Jennie had no rizz? Bitch please, you acting all that and ended up capping, highkey a flop."

"THATS WHAT IM SAYIN BITCH LIKE-"

You glance at Alastor, who's wide eyed and with a strained smile. If you could guess it would probably be a mix between strange curiosity and slight horror.

"I- pardon?"

You smirk. Mission accomplished.

---

A week later you sat Alastor down, explained some simpler slang words and terms to him.

He didn't didn't to get it, bit when he told angel "Bitches be slaying, queen" you think he got some of it, but not the way he was supposed you.

You almost coughed a lung up from the amount of laughing you did, and vowed from thst day forward you were never going to correct his usage if it meant funny shit like this happened again.

[ppan-kyu]

Thank you 💙

I’ve gotten a mind-boggling amount of response to my Dadgil Week drawings both here and on twitter and I would just like to thank everyone!  💙 💙

The whole replying system on tumblr confuse me a lot so I haven’t answered what people have written to me underneath the art but I promise I read everything and I try my best to even read the tags  💙 

Day 3′s drawing will be late, might not be finished until tomorrow but I’ll do a double update then to make up for it! 

Thank you all again 💙 💙 💙 💙

[sailorhyunjinz]

Imagine skz realizing their s/o reads smuts about them .... sksksksksk

PLEASE I SO WANNA DO A HEADCANON ON THIS 

LEZ GO HEADCANON/REACTION (i swear i know the difference i just dont know what to call these LMAO)

Warnings; SMUT!!! mentions of rough sex, mentions of pegging, mentions of threesomes, mentions of degredation, sub/dom!skz x gn!reader

bangchan

“o-oh”

he just needed to check the weather on your phone or smth

but was instead greeted by hardcore smut with him choking and fucking the reader

I MEAN,,, HE KNEW 

BUT STILL VERY SHOCKED 

“why dont you read the cute like fluffy stuff? like going on dates by the beach or getting a dog together or something?” 

you try to act innocent like “read? i do read book with those themes if you didnt kn-”

“no i mean the things about me”

realisation just HIT 

“chan,,, how much did you read??”

“maybe like 3 or 4 pieces, all very rough??”

smile through the pain, you’re busted and theres nothing you can do about it lmao

minho

“here i am,,, thinking my partner was so excited over news articles but no,,, oh no they reading about wanting to dom me. never baby”

he says it in such a serious tone so you’re cracking up, half embarrassed, half amused.

but he doesnt even blink

“also why the fuck does changbin get to fuck but im stuck jerking off in a random ass corner?”

so defensive

justice for minho in fics

starts judging how its written

“the writer doesnt describe my handsome face?”

changbin

“Y/N!!! COME HERE!!”

you skip into the room, your buff boyfriend sitting infront of your computer scrolling through a smut post you hadn’t bothered clicking down

“this is pretty hot not even gonna lie”

you punch him playfully on the shoulder but it doesnt make him move an inch

“c-can you not?! thats invasion of private property!!”

“ ’ah fuck yes changbin, im yours’ doesnt sound like private property”

you slam the computer screen shut and walk out but he grabs your wrist

“do,,, do you wanna try?”

“try what?”

“you know,,, recreate those,,,”

hyunjin

“b-but im right here?”

so confused??

like why would you need to read about having sex with him

WHEN HE WAS THERE??

rolls his eyes and starts making fun of you 

“y/n wants to be called a whore!!”

but then discovers smth really kinky that you like

idk like being tied up or restrained or smth

eyebrow wiggle 

“hey y/n i just wanna test something” 

you’re cooking food and you nod

he takes both of your hands behind your back and CLICK

mf had handcuffs behind his back 

“WH- HYUNJIN WHERE DID YOU EVEN-?”

he leans in real close to your ear, pressing his chest against your back

“dumb baby didn’t know that i would have found out, hm? reading those dirty things behind my back every night”

jisung

“my dick is not small”

you’re like wtf,,, he just says it randomly while you were grabbing a snack from the kitchen

“in that story you’re reading, it says that i have a small dick”

FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU LEFT THE DAMN PHONE UNLOCKED

you cant even say anything, you just frozen, with a packet of crisps in your hands

“what more stories are there of me? are there any with me and a big dick?”

“JISUNG, SHUT UP”

felix

GIGGLY BOY

he vibes with it but kinda pouty because why didnt you tell him what you wanted to do in bed

baby starts worrying that maybe he’s not good enough :((

highkey loves the sub fics OOP

“y/n, i wanna try this”

he says, showing you a fic about him getting pegged/buttfucked

you’re all like static tv noises at first cause how the fuck did he even find out

but ya know,,,, it opened door ;))

seungmin

“do you want to fuck my bandmates?”

bruh you choke on your mf water

“w-wha? why would i-”

“especially jisung, theres just countless links of jisung smut in your history”

you’re impressed over how calm he is?? 

“s-smut? pffft,,, i dont read that,,,”

he pulls out his phone cause he took a picture of what you were reading and you just wanted to sink underground and stay there forever.

“I quote; ‘jisung grabbed his leaking cock an-”

“IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY I WAS JUST CURIOUS, SPARE MY EARS”

he just chuckles, looking up from his phone with his sharp eyes

“should be me instead...”

jeongin

“wait is that the new volume of that manga?”

he says all pouty before he jumps on top of you, you lying on your stomach on the bed, deep into the story until you scrolled down and boom

the smexy scenes started ;)))

you quickly scroll up again but he’s all like;

“wait scroll down,,, im pretty sure i saw my name”

he grabs the phone out of your hand and runs away

“WAIT PEOPLE WRITE THIS ABOUT ME?!”

flops down on the floor out of embarrassment 

and you flop down on top of him

just a pile of embarrassment

[tojiswh0re]

𝖉𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖘 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖏𝖏𝖐 𝖇𝖔𝖞𝖘

the original poster of the gif is @waifubuki​

a/n hey guys sorry i’ve been off for a wshile but im back!! highkey very sad that season one has finished :/ but i CANNOT WAIT for mr. toji fushiguro to get animated. as always poc/gn inclusive!! also there will probably be a part 2 :)

characters; nanami kento (id let that man do anything to me), gojo, megumi

warnings: just fluff and gojo being an annoying shit

KENTO NANAMI

the amount of tiktoks ‘ive seen about cooking dates... but im getting strong pottery date vibes. you’re sat on a stool trying to shape the clay into a vase structure but it just keeps flopping. nanami is watching you struggle as his just sits there completed. he sighs and moves his stool behind yours. he wets his hands and places them on top of yours to help them mould the clay. ‘like this..’ he whispers into your ear. his chest pressing against your back. every so often he ‘accidentaly’ presses your hand to much and deforms the clay so you have to start again.

SATOROU GOJO

this man loves to play board games. like you can’t defeat him and it’s annoying as hell. then he’ll proclaim he’ll go easy on you but just ends up obliterating you and he enjoys it so much. he enjoys watching the way your face contorts with anger as you hear him chuckling at your loss. if you get too frustrated and go to leave he’ll grab your hand and pull you onto his lap. if you try leaving he’ll just grip you tighter until you give up.

MEGUMI FUSHIGURO

dates with him would just be relaxing. sitting with him in his dorm, him between your legs as you play with his hair. some chill music playing in the background. you may decide to go on a short walk and every so often he’ll spin you around with a blush adorning his face. his heart flutters hearing you giggle and seeing a grin form on your face. you then would grab drinks from a vending machine and do a little swap to taste the others if you get different drinks.

[volleychumps]

bro im am: in love with literally everything you put out and i've had this probably really specific, self-indulgent request and am highkey scared it'll flop because not much can relate but it's been living in my mind rent free: remember that one episode where hinata talks to a classmate, saying how it'd be cool to have a band cheer for the vball team?? Well, it gave me an idea, so how about boys of your choice with a musically adept s/o?? she's part of the school band which frequently performs in tournament matches to cheer. her talent made her pretty well-known, though fame can attract both good and bad people—what happens when a guy from the opposing team gets a little too friendly? headcanons or scenarios is also up to you, and feel free to make s/o a crush instead (they aren't dating yet) if that makes the writing process more flexible! thank you so much, and have a lovely day/night!

 VolleyBoys with a Crush on Singer S/O

~ when you come and perform at one of their games in order to give school spirit, you’re approached by someone from another team because of your talent, leaving some less than happy boys

format: scenarios

genre: fluff

- includes: Suna, Semi, and Matsukawa 

Warning(s): slight cursing, possessive volleyboys 

Playing with some characters I’ve never really wrote for before, let me know how I do! 

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Suna (main vocals)

“You’re staring.” 

“Go give your attention to someone who cares.” Suna’s lazy tone was a bit more snipped than usual as the cheers from the crowd finally died down, irritation evident in his tone as Atsumu smirks. The dark-haired blocker could pretend to be as uncaring as he wanted, but his tone gave him away. 

“Mad Y/N’s getting all the attention?” 

“Nah, he’s pissed because he can’t hog her all to himself anymore.” 

Suna rolled his eyes, Osamu merely shrugging alongside his brother as the three towel off in the middle of a break point for Inarizaki’s school band to make their performance. He hated that he loved seeing you up there, a light sheen of sweat on your forehead from the performance, your hair tied back with a wide smile on your face- 

he hated seeing everyone see you. 

“Yeah, so how’s that going for you? How are you two not dating yet-” 

“Kita-san, I think Atsumu and Osamu have questions about the play.” Suna cupped his mouth as the twins stiffen.  The dark haired spiker waved mockingly goodbye as his teammates were snatched by the collars, focusing his attention to what he had orginally been quietly watching. He tilted his head as you struggled to open the top of your water bottle, peering at it with a pout before he scoffs, beginning to walk- 

“Need help, sweetheart?” 

Suna stopped. 

You blinked, eyes widening as Kuroo Tetsurou easily twisted the cap off, handing it back to you with a naturally sly grin. He reaches a hand to the back of his neck as you smile in thanks, tilting the water back. 

“So the kitty can sing?” 

“Kitty?!” You choked on your water, noting his school colors before flushing. Why on earth was the Nekoma team captain flirting with the lead singer of the school band for Inarizaki? 

“I’m guessing you liked that.” Kuroo chuckles, patting your back in a more-than-friendly manner as you continue to cough, and your bandmates whistle, pretending not to notice the attractive captain’s advances. 

“Untrue. Don’t you have a game to play or something?” There’s no malicious intent behind your words, so Kuroo’s grin turns into a soft smirk as he begins to lean a little closer- 

“Gross. You’re all sweaty.”��

A towel is pressed to your face, Suna unfazed as you complain against the material. You feel the back of your head touch his chest as Suna pulls you into him with the towel pressed on your face, sharp eyes narrowing ever so slightly as Kuroo’s feral ones remain amused. 

“Looks like this kitten is domesticated.” 

You break free for a second, popping out of the towel successfully. “I’m not a kitten!” 

“Sure, kitten.” Kuroo winks at you again, beginning to walk off before sparing a glance to Suna, nodding once in amusement. You remain distracted, spinning on your heel to face your friend in embarrassment and confusion. 

“Why would you-?!” 

“Hey.” Suna tilts his head, dull eyes staring into yours as you find it a little harder to swallow. 

“What?” 

He bends down to your height, flicking the tip of your nose as you begin to protest- 

“Good performance. Come meet me after I rock this cat’s ass in this match, yeah?” His palm is warm on top of your head as you find yourself nodding stupidly as he brushes past you to a smiley Atsumu, sharp eyes searching for Kuroo Tetsurou. 

“So how’s it going?” 

“Go to hell, Atsumu.” 

“Is he blushing, Osamu?” 

“Yep.” 

Semi (Guitarist)

“Out of your league.”

“I literally haven’t said anything.” Semi shoots back at the redhead, and Tendou grins as he also watches your jogging-away figure as you head back for the stage. A scarlet bandana was now tied around your wrist, Semi’s eyes darting everywhere as Tendou’s grin turns sinister. 

“Oh? Y/N-chan, will you wear my bandana so I can brand you? I’m begging-!” 

“Do you want to punch him or should I?” Semi snips, and Goshiki slowly stops Shirabu from raising his hand as Ushijima props one eye open at the situation from his concentration. 

“Why’d you give it to her then?” Taichi asks, genuinely interested as you bop your head to the final song atop the stage, fingering the strings of your guitar with a small smile at your new goodluck charm. 

“Are you kidding me? Those two are always joined at the hip, I knew one of them was in love with the other.” Shibraru doesn’t miss a beat as Ojiro chuckles, having noticed that as well. Semi scoffs over the music, as if that were the craziest thing in the world. 

“Y/N L/N? As if.” 

“Have fun convincing yourself.” Ushijima closes his eyes again just as the song ends, and Semi’s cheeks begin to flare up as he grabs his hair in frustration, an annoying pounding in his chest. 

“Well, don’t take too long now.” Tendou sings, looking at an entertaining sight. “If you don’t want Y/N, do you think the pretty boy from Fukurodani wants her?” 

Semi stalls, thinking Tendou was playing another one of his mind games before looking as well, mouth drying at the sight. 

Akaashi Keiji had offered you a hand as you propped your guitar, making your way off the stage easier as you had seemed worried about getting down before. 

The setter’s throat tightened as you accepted, a smile tickling your cheeks as Akaashi helps you off the stage in a gentlemanly manner. You stumble slightly, giggling as Akaashi fondly steadies you by the waist, complimenting you on your performance. 

“I could never do that, L/N-san. You’re very talented.” 

“It’s really nothing...” 

Semi felt it then. Too used to watching from so far away, yet always close enough to keep you in view. 

But you stood close to him. Mere minutes before, excited gleam in your eye as he tied the bandana around your wrist, and you had locked eyes with him. It was only for a few moments, calloused fingers almost inching towards his- 

“Y/N. I give you this crap and you don’t even use it?” Semi was annoyed, dark eyes flaring as he bounds over to the two of you as you blink in confusion, his teammates watching the spectacle with slight interest. You flush as Semi’s eyes harden in the direction of Akaashi, who’s head tilts slightly. 

“What-?” 

“Shut it. I’ll do it if you won’t, why’d you even ask?” Semi clicks his tongue as he unties the bandana, pooling your hair into a makeshift knot before barely glancing at the blue-eyed setter, focusing his attention on your hair as he stakes his claim. 

“Something you needed with our band captain?” 

“Nope. Just glad to have been of some aid. Then...” He nodded to you, but Semi could see the slight disappointment in his eyes underneath the cool atmosphere Akaashi held up as he walked onto the opposite side of the court. 

“...Sorry Semi.” 

“For what?” Semi questioned, feeling the embarassment beginning to creep up on him, heat tickling his cheeks as he watches you shuffle a bit from the proximity. He felt you shiver once his fingers accidentally grazed the back of his neck, causing Semi’s voice to get caught in his throat. 

“Not using your bandana correctly...” You mumbled, the tips of your ears turning pink as Semi watches in bewilderment. A lilt tickled the edge of his lips as he finished tying the scarlet material, leaning down from behind you so his forehead touched your shoulder as if he were exhausted. You tensed up before relaxing, enjoying his touch. 

“Don’t worry about it.” 

Matsukawa (drummer) 

“How far do you think I can go to piss off your little fanboys?”

“Why are you even over here?” 

“Moral support, princess.” Matsukawa grinned into his water bottle as you half-heartedly help him wipe the sweat gathered at his neck, your friend flicking off Hanamaki and Oikawa in the distance as they make romantic gestures with their hands as they go unnoticed by you. 

“You look like you’re dead tired and it’s only halfway through the game.” You note, handing him back the towel as Matsukawa grins, leaning a little closer to you from his spot next to you on the edge of the stage. 

“Careful, you might make me think you care about me.”

“Of course I do.” You don’t miss a beat, already distracted with slipping your drumsticks out of your pocket. Matsukawa’s jaw slackens a little as you get up, nudging him with your foot to get off before shooting him an easy smile. 

“We’re friends, aren’t we? Even though you’re kind of an asshole.” 

The brunette recovers quickly, Matsukawa smirking as he slips off the stage as you settle back into your drumset. 

“You love me, princess.” 

“Yeah yeah, go swat a volleyball around.” Your tone is teasing as your bandmates begin to fall back into place, and Matsukawa mockingly salutes you before walking back to his team, ignoring the involuntary replaying of your words in his head. 

Of course I do.

He was oddly quiet as Hanamaki teased him, watching as your band fell into a beautiful rhythm led by your hands. Agitation grew in his stomach as it mixed with his stupid crush on you, wanting nothing more than to let all your little fans to become severely disappointed because of him. 

Matsukawa Issei was a very possessive man, but it was an underlying kind of possessive. The kind of posessive where he silently protected you from those who were attracted by your talent and style, or the kindness in your smile or witty comebacks- 

“Uh, Matsukawa?” 

“I don’t give a fuck if you think you’re going to be the best man at mine and Y/N’s nonexistent wedding-” 

“No.” Hanamaki grinned, jutting his head in your direction. Matsukawa didn’t even realize the song had ended, watching as Atsumu Miya had picked up your hand, bringing it up to his lips flirtatiously as you stared wide-eyed as if you had busted a fuse. 

“Yep. My bad, there will be no wedding.” Hanamaki clasps his shoulder, not realizing the impact of his teasing words. “Because Atsumu Miya’s gonna get her first if you don’t step up your game, bro.” 

But Matsukawa didn’t reply with some witty comeback, still watching as Atsumu brushed a strand of hair behind your ear. He didn’t like it. The embarrassed look on your face, the awkward smile on your lips, the laugh in your throat- all caused by someone who wasn’t him. 

“How about ya show me how to play those drums sometimes?” Atsumu had taken a step closer, and your fists had clenched as you felt yourself at a loss for words. You had opened your mouth to reply, but all that slipped out was a yelp.

Matsukawa easily threw you over his shoulder, grinning relaxedly at Atsumu who’s flirtatious grin had digressed back to a flat line. You knocked on Matsukawa’s back with embarrassment in your stomach, but the brunette made no move to put you down. 

“Sorry, I’m her agent. She’s gotta go meet with her fans.” 

“Issei!” 

He ignored your chants to put you down as Oikawa and Hanamaki slowly clap as he brushes past them and out the gym doors, a pounding in his ears. 

“Why are you doing this?” You question, now in an empty hallway as you hear Matsukawa scoff, still not answering your question as he continues to walk with you slung over his shoulder. 

“Issei.” 

“I told you I wanted to piss of your fanboys, didn’t I?” 

“Tell me the truth!” You raised your voice just as he put you down, and Matsukawa looks at you for a second, your back hitting the wall as he towers over you. 

“What?” Your voice was smaller now, feeling like you’ve shrunk under your friend’s serious gaze that was usually anything but. Matsukawa’s hand touches the area above your head, leaning into you so your noses are barely brushing. 

“Tell me, princess. Do you still want the truth even if it ruins our friendship?” 

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[wonderland-in-bloom]

a feeling of warmth during the coldest of winters

[octavinelle trio x mc!reader]

so technically this can count as my day four of my 30 days of twisted wonderland huehue -3- i present to you a floofy yet very short oneshot with our beloved mermen 

story under the cut :))

YOU were happy. no, no. you were excited. no, wait. you were elated! the point was that you couldn’t sit still and stop fiddling with your fingers as five pm almost rolled around. the winter break started a few days before and to be honest, you were homesick. you missed the scent of your comforters, your fluffy pillow you always hugged when you felt lonely, and a warmth you always felt when you were at home. as you spent these past few days with grim, he could obviously tell that there was something up. he tried cracking up jokes a few times or cuddle close to you during the night as you sat by the fireplace, but he knew that none of those things worked. 

although ramshackle dorm was somewhat warmer, you still felt cold. it was a whole different atmosphere. you felt even colder because some of your closest friends went home, and basically left you stuck in night raven college. heck even all of the teachers and staff went back. grim was fed up seeing you act this way. he was fed up that you would always frown or smile a smile filled with sorrow. he wanted the usual, always cheerful (y/n) back, so that’s what he was going to do. the other day he sneaked out of the dorm to head to octavinelle, as the three informed both you and grim that they weren’t heading home for the holidays. grim begged for the three of them to try and do something to cheer you up. he even wanted to sign a contract if it had to lead to that. alas azul knew a thing or two about being all alone so he came up with a plan. 

you were wrapped in a blanket when you heard a knock on the door of your bedroom. you were shocked once it opened to see the leech twins. “good evening, (y/n)-san.” jade spoke first. “hiya koebi-chan~” floyd chirped. grim clung onto floyd’s shoulders until he finally jumped down and stood beside you. “azul wanted to invite you over. tomorrow. at five pm.” you bit the inside of your cheek. oh no, what trouble did you get into this time? “don’t worry koebi-chan! you’re not in trouble. we just decided that we should do something together!” you paused. “wait...what?” the two smiled. “(y/n)-san. grim here was worried about you. and to be honest, so were we.” jade commented. “so we decided that we should all spend time together! aren’t the holidays about spending time with the ones you love anyways?” you felt somehow warmer, and it wasn’t because of the burning fireplace. the one you love. it does have a nice ring to it. “so! we gotta be there tomorrow at five okay, (y/n)?!” grim beamed. you scooped him up in your arms and practically squeezed him in a bone crushing hug. although your first meeting with grim was...unusual and you honestly thought you’d hate him, all these changed within the span of a few months. you loved your furry little friend and you were so thankful to have him by your side. 

“hm, okay! i’ll see the both of you then, then.” you smiled. “i’m sorry you have to walk out all this way!” you started to panic. jade and floyd only chuckled. “it’s alright, (y/n)-san. the only payment of apology we’ll except is your presence at our little gathering tomorrow.” you hugged grim tighter. you were much happier than before. “mmh!” the two of them said their goodbyes and started to head back to octavinelle. “(Y/N)!!! (Y/N)!!! CAN’T BREATHE!” grim struggled underneath your gasp. you gapsed before you abruptly let go of him. “ah! sorry!” you panicked as he took deep breaths. that afternoon, grim was happy to see you smiling once more. not a smile filled with sorrow, but a genuine one. you couldn’t even sleep that night. you were longing for five pm for the next day to just roll around so you could spend time together with azul, the leech twins, and grim. 

and now here you were in your pajamas with a bag in one hand and your blanket and pillow in the other. grim had a red scarf around him which was way too long for him as it dragged behind him and he was trying his best not to trip on it. when the both of you arrived in front of the mostro lounge, as you were about to knock, the door already swung open. “(y/n)! welcome.” azul spoke from all the way in the bar. you gave him a little wave as you started to head inside. you and grim placed your things on top of a table and was greeted by jade and floyd while doing so. “please help yourselves.” your eyes sparkled as azul already prepared an array of food carefully positioned on top of the bar area. you and grim didn’t hesitate to dig in and the other three boys joined the two of you. 

while you were eating, you talked about the most random of things from school work to ‘who’s more likely to’. after cleaning up and feeling like going into a food coma, azul led all of you to his room where he already had a whole set up going. his room was huge and so was his bed. he also had a huge tv set up in front of his bed. floyd suggested that you all should watch a horror movie. as much as azul and grim didn’t want to, they agreed to hide the fact that they were actually scared and they just wanted to show off to you that they weren’t. floyd and jade sat at the edges of the bed while you were sat in between azul and grim. “hah. this is nothing, i’ve seen plenty more horror movies.” azul commented once but when a jump scene came out he screamed so loud it could probably be heard from the main campus. azul and grim actually snuggled closer to you, and whenever the scary parts were on, azul buried his head on your shoulder, shielding his vision from the screen. floyd and jade were actually entertained by the movie and not scared at all. and thus by the end, you all ended up sitting closer to each other than how you were originally.

jade then mentioned how you should all try to get your minds off of the movie with some good old board games. this was azul’s time to shine. i mean, he did join the board game club, so this was the time to show off his skills. with floyd not wanting to lose and having the same competitive nature as azul, he actually won almost all of the rounds. it was a tie between azul and floyd in all of the games you played actually. from monopoly to uno to some normal card games. by the time you were done, you had a sobbing grim (because he was jealous he never won), azul and floyd arguing over who was better at board games, and jade pouring you a glass of hot tea. you all were having so much fun that you all failed to realize that it was almost midnight. grim was already fast asleep from all the food, jump scares, and sobbing, so he was tired. he literally just flopped on the bed and passed out. 

azul then shut the lights and started to head to the bed. you were in the position before when watching the horror movie. you slowly started to drift off into sleep when you felt a warm sensation overcome you. floyd was hugging you in his sleep. grim was also clinging onto your arm. azul and jade also got closer to you. you missed this sensation. this warm sensation. not physically because of the weather or atmosphere, but just genuinely, a feeling inside you. you felt like your old self again. happy to be in night raven college even though you were far away from home. snores erupted all around you but you didn’t mind. you shut your eyes tightly and slept with a smile glued to your face till the next day. your friends really would go lengths to make you happy and to make you feel warm, even in the coldest of winters. 

“aren’t the holidays about spending time with the ones you love anyways?”

yes. indeed it is. spending time with the ones you love brings a warm sensation. a warm sensation you can always feel in your heart. although far away from home, it seems as you’ve found a new home. home isn’t a physical place or a specific location, but perhaps, it is wherever the ones you love are. 

♡

yes i would love to spend the holidays with the twst bois *sigh* it would be a dream come true. anyways how are u guysss :)) stay safe and stay at home alriggghts! stuff here has really been getting out of control and im lowkey highkey worried, but hey, at least i’m doing my part at staying at home and being a responsible citizen. once again, stay safe!!!

love, a♕

[changbeens]

I wish I could have been a cute anon to cheer u up but there’s no anon mode and that’s okay hehehe highkey don’t really know much abt gif making but I think your gifs look cool and like,, I feel like victon content creators are underappreciated the same way victon is I kinda feel u even tho I’m not really a content creator? Sometimes u just wanna feel validated but there’s no one there to give u what you want I like what you do💫

dhdjfjjd also ignore spam notifs I wanna like your gifs

SHIT WAIT SORRY I DIDNT KNOW YOU MADE OTHER GROUPS GIFS I DONT REALLY KNOW IF YOURE A VICTON STAN BUT IM STILL GONNA LIKE UR GIFS

sorry about that, i switched off anon a few days ago cos any time i’ve posted about being sad about content, i get mean anons telling me exactly why i suck. i’ll switch it back on in a few days maybe, then you can be a cute anon

there are some victon creators that are thriving right now and i’m truly thriled for them. i will admit that i am jealous. i’ve been making victon content on this blog for over a year now and feel like a complete failure. i have a solid 1,000+ people that followed me purely for victon content (thats almost half my 2,200+ followers) and i still struggle to get 50 notes unless its gifs of seungwoo with his shirt off and even that content flops for me now. it is what it is i guess. as long as victon are getting exposure then i shouldnt complain

lol yes i am a victon stan. they’re one of my ult groups and seungwoo is one of my ult biases. this blog only became so multi after my victon gifs started flopping harder than ever lol

[unclejuho]

🚨 Weewoo weewoo 🚨 You've been held back by the love police! 👮 Say something nice to 10 of your mutuals and pass the message around 👮 Let's spread love not hate ❣️

ooaabhjdbhj this took me so long to answer but here i go!!! im late!!! and im repetitive!! but all these people make my heart go u*u

@jaevoon  ((((her name is liz?????))

liz,,, you were like the solid first person i came to talk to on tumblr bc of your stupid lizard youngbin ask n then made the greatest decision to watch about time with the squad. i love your loyalness to jaeyoon, your even more loyalness to doyoung and your tags that always make me angery wheeze. and uh. i guess youre actually most loyal to yoelin, h u h. your soft huevos tag says it all. and i love your personal blog

@rowoonst

moving on to my next target, dear miss dawONSt,,,, i cant compliment you the same as liz bc loyalness, dont know her. im actually surprised roro is your icon. guess you really love seafood huh ;))) i love your face and your love for all your mans. like.. your obsession with shownu sim is still my favorite thing about you, but recently i havent had the pleasure of seeing him in the chat,,, hmmm,,, maybe you and liz should do your next spam with shownu sim.

@cheondae

louise im feel like i always say this but youre lowkey my absolute favest blog on this entire flop site… i know we dont rlly talk but dbhjbhbh youre such a dear mutual to me???? like you just make my dash the best it can be and ugh. i love your love for sf9 so much its so cute and so pure and god youre so funny and also. french??????  je aime a french bitch!!!! anyway yea you make me soft and i just highkey always wish to remain mutuals bc when we do talk its so much fun and you always make me smile so much  ♡♡♡

@sunnpils

SAMMMMM UGH… my sweetest???? my loveliest?????? i just have a soft heart attack whenever youre online in the chat bc like. i love talking to you ashhjsbhs honestly??? youre so easy to converse with it feels lovelie. youre so cute and your gifs are!!!! so good!!! and so much goals!!! honestly you deserve to be the top tier blog out of all the rose, day6 and got7 blogs if youre already not!!!! i love you sam!!!

@rapperravioli

LARA SO I KNOW WE HAVENT TALKED IN A WHILE EITHER which is all bc of my dramatic switch of blog styles but i love you so much and asdbbhsj youre my favorite ravi stan ever???? who honestly deserves HIM so much??? if not you deserve more which… how is that even possible tbh… but omg youre always so cute and so nice to me nnn,, even though lettuce is your favorite food (ill never forget it im sorry i just)) youre one of my favorite people on this stupid site abhabhsh. honestly i hope you do get to see ravi bc i havent asked you yet bc if you dont i may actually cry… your instagram is also so PRETTY LIKE i get a heart attack whenever i see you on there i sometimes forget youre a 100/100 goddess like… i love you so much

@baektoyoo

OUR QUEEN OF TALENT??? OF DRAWING??? OF BEING SOFT AND JUST????? BEING so amazingly sweet im??? bawling???? ugh im still smad we couldnt meet up when you were in holland like.. i need me to go to canada asap… ugh i love how nice you always are to everyone plus,,, your cartoon drawings… im actually obsessed.. i cant believe youre actually gonna make me a juwoon one someday too… sO NICE.. and like i just love you so much asdbhahbsbh youre always so sweet and you just make my day when i see you on my dash its actually a bit embarrassing but shhhh… i also love sassy soph that we so rarely get to see ;))))

@hwiyyoung

another QUEEN??? just (hwiyoungs) queen of general being the most amazing??? oof em i have so much respect to you and everything you do like. your gifs are so amazing and youre overall so nice to everyone and just. whenever you rb a post of mine and compliment smth i do i just get giggly and proud and ugh you make me so happy!! plus youre so cute and asdbhjhb i love talking to you… also your selfie tag gives me butterflies hows the aesthetic like that. do you remember when we all trolled you as ems 8)

@javajaeyoon

ALE??? MY SWEET ALE WILL YOU ACTUALLY SEE THIS??? omg alex honestly the first thing i think of is us voice calling and just. shbjhadhbj talking to you is so much fun ugh… im smad we havent talked in a while but ALL IN GOOD PEACE since i know youre busy and go you.. so good at staying away from the web.. anyways alex i love you sm ugh.. youre always so funny n so cute and hhhhhh i just thought of your selfie n i choked again that hair was on fleek and youre so gorgeous!!! you and youngbin jaeyoon would be so cute im sure of it… my otp 8(((((

@woodawns

miss sflop9???? my dearest inseong anti?????? my gOOD hwi stan friend???? my UNNIE??? sahdabbahds god.. or should i say,, heol??? omg shi talking toyou is so much fun n we’re always the same with our spams.. n our thirst abt our mans even tho you say you hate inseong n all he stands for but i KNOW DEEP DOWN in your bONES you love that guy a whole much! also its so funny ahsbjd your love for drama… a true kpop stan… ugh i know you dont like showering me with love but ill continue to shower you with my love till the end of times bc thats just how it be!!! heol youre just so funny n im glad we r talking like we r because you make my days a lot more progressive hhh and im glad to be sharing these fine men with you.. even if you call juju zaddy which. im still not on board with but whatevs!!!!!

@jikseu

I SAVED THEBEST FOR LAST???? my lovlie inna!!!!!! im lov you forever!!! and you know no one can take that away! i hope you know im always here for you and you can always come to me

[christicnborle-blog]

hey friend sorry if this is super dumb but i just wanted to say thanks for doing all ur streams?? like,, a) its a cool way to show boots u cant share and ive seen a bunch of shows i wouldntve otherwise but MAINLY b) ive made,, like,, so many friends?? and have like a Group?? and its a rly lovely feeling and i realized recently that i almost def wouldnt have it if you didnt stream All The Time so just,, thank you,, ily,,

OH MY GOD??? I LOVE YOU??? I WOULD DIE FOR YOU???? highkey thank you to everyone who came that first LB stream??? bc if it was a flop lmao i wouldn’t have done another stream like ever ok. IM SO HAPPY I GOT TO KNOW YOU THO THROUGH THE STREAMS AND LIKE??? I’M HAPPY YOU’RE HAPPY AND I’M GLAD YOU MADE FRIENDS BECAUSE WHAT WOULD TUMBLR BE WITHOUT FRIENDS. it’s been nice to have a squad. i like the squad. i love you guys i would die for you guys. highkey i love doing the streams too because i love sharing what i love with people and REALLY?? IT’S A GOO WAY TO SIT ME DOWN AND WATCH SHIT IF PEOPLE COME BECAUSE I WOULDN’T HAVE WATCHED GHD IF IT WAS UP TO ME ON MY OWN. SO THANKS GUYS. really idk how to be coherent. i love you lucas

[rainbowkpop]

MLM Sub!Vernon Headcanons

a’ight here wo go!

ok imagine his BF being like 5~7cm taller then him, w/ a grunge /punk rock / all-black style and bleached flat white hair

and if you see them standing 2gether vernon would look like the soft and smol one cuz he is

and when they cuddle BF has vernon’s head like nuzzled into his neck, and when he calls him vernon kinda like looks up w/ the biggest puppy eyes and BF swears in his head that vernon’s perfect cuz omg how can his heart survive that

but then it’s vernon’s turn to be smitten cuz BF says i love you in the most casual, tired/groggy voice ... like shit

and vernon suddenly smiles so wide and bright, that he made the evening back into day

ooo but then one night vernon comes back late from practice/schedules and he’s upset and really down and just flops onto the bed

and BF like comes into the room carefully ‘‘is everything gucci?’‘ like no everything’s noT GUCCI

‘’ i was just reminded how we’ll probably hide forever, ‘cause people wouldn’t accept us and if they found out  it would ruin seveen teen and ple-’‘

and BF just interrupts him and pulls him into a bear hug

and vernon actually teared up cuz he wants the people to know how much he loves his bf???? and how amazing he is’??? like??? how can he be so perfect????

but he smiles when BF just sits there next to him, holding him and gently rubbing circles into vernon’s back and he knew in that moment that he was absolutely in love with his BF

after like 10mins of just staying like that vernon calms down and BF sits him down for a serious talk about the issue and after that vernon’s feeling better ‘cause he found out how BF sees the situation and is amazed at how mature BF’s opinions on it were ‘’and wow i love you’‘

.....

ok domestic daily!vernon x bf

i can really imagine them sitting on the couch late at night, playing games both tired af and knowing they’ll regret staying up in the morning

but will they stop?

god no!

like at 2am they’re in the middle of a heated game (not that you perv) and if you didn’t know the truth ( that they’re soft BFs ) you would think they hate eachother because the amount of cursing and screaming at eachother

which is ofcourse not coming from the heart like they could never actually say that to eachother and mean it, god no

.....

ok Engrish speakeu! BF

If BF spoke english it would be 10000x better cause they would scream at eachother in english

and they both know joshua would kill them if he heard

but since joshua wasn’t there, they don’T CARE

...

but what if joshua is present?

god bless their souls and help them

ok jokes aside, imagine them being really close (especially if BF is a foreigner) and having a lot of english conversations which are just confusing for the rest of seventeen

but otherwise vernon knows the second 95′ line the rest of 17 find out he’s dating, the teasing won’t stop

and i can actually imagine 95′ line sitting him down like boi what are your intentions with our son *serious dads and mom* and BF would honestly be scared af probs cuz idk who’d be scarier of the three

...

ok Jealous!Vernon

it was a free night for 17 so they went for drinks in a karaoke

and ofc the underage members weren’t allowed to drink

so vernon got really upsettii spagetti when the other memebrs - including BF - got drunk

like how did joshua even get drunk would 4ever be a mystery to everyone

but basically Joshua and BF would be lowkey (read as: ‘‘highkey’‘) drunk and unintentionally very touchy with eachother

like

the karaoke is a small room

how dafuq did 17 expect to fit in 14 people

esp w/ dk and mingyu who are just taking up alot of space with their height???

but anyway back to the point

vernon saw all the BF on Joshua (or switched, whichever you like ;) ) action and he wasn’t impressed

and he was starting to get mad cuz he was bored and all the underage members were bored

and while joshua and BF sang together horribly vernon started pulling BF to sit next to him but bf was like noO I WANNA DANCE, U WAnNA DANcE? I WANNA DanCE! LOOK JoSH IS DANCING, IMMA GON’ DANCE W HIM YESSS

and as i said before, the room was packed af

like your private space was also the next person’s private space

so BF was basically grinding on fusing with joshua with how literally close they were

....

and i think we all know how the night ended

... vernon had to drag BF’s drunk ass home , thats what happened but BF was ofcourse being an annoying drunk like noO I WANNA GET TURN! IM GONNA GET SO TURNT! U WANNA GET TURNT? LEZZZGET TURNTTT!!!!!!111!!1100!

like there’s no help for that

vernon was literally praying that a car doesn’t hit them as he dragged BF home

and the legend says that BF slept on a couch for the first time in their relationship that day

....

...

..

OK THAT’S IT! I originally wrote this for my best friend, but i decided i loved this too much to not post to tumblr so this happened!

And like i knew this was quite a series but i didn’t know it’d be this long! [thats what she/he said ;) ]

ALSO!!! Sorry for any typos, i didn’t proof read as this was rushed :( [EDIT: I proof read it and got rid of any typos i noticed, but i might have missed some]

Ok but for reals, thanks for reading if you did! If you enjoyed it feel free to request (if requests are open) ! :)

Ty again!

~Aven

[danisnotofire]

hey im going to orientation in a few days and im rly nervous abt starting college, i was just wondering if you had any tips or any ~advice~ bc im like, lowkey freaking out ((also i also stage manage and i love musicals and astronomy (sry i was snooping around your about page)))

hey!!! ok i am so so so sorry this took so long lol i actually just went back to school myself to help out with a pre-orientation program and we’ve been having like 17 hour days so i’m Exhausted and haven’t had a lot of time to really give a thoughtful answer (UNTIL NOW). some of this is gonna sound cheesy, but this is Emma Danisnotofire’s Official Real List of Pro-Tips for College, so if it’s on here it’s true. that being said, i go to a medium/small school (4,000 students) in the middle of fucking nowhere, so some of my experiences are gonna be a lil different. most still apply. 

first off, it’s TOTALLY OKAY that you’re nervous. i know when i went i was highkey freaking out even more bc everybody else seemed to be just excited and i felt like i was the only one actually losing my mind from how scared i was. i didn’t sleep at all the night before i moved in. being scared is fine. you’ll probably be scared for awhile after you get there, too, and that’s absolutely okay. i remember it took me a solid few weeks for me to stop feeling nauseous from nerves whenever i woke up. i promise i promise this will go away. you will settle in and you’ll make friends and you’ll figure out where everything is and how things work, i PROMISE. 

second, once you get there, don’t be afraid to talk to people!! i know that sounds super cheesy and unhelpful, but seriously. talk to your orientation leaders!! they’re usually upperclassmen and 99% of the time they had to APPLY to get that position, and it’s because they’re so so excited to meet you!! i’m a mentor for this pre-o program (it’s arts-focused), and we all had to apply, and every single other mentor is super passionate not only about the arts but about making sure the incoming freshman feel comfortable and happy and at home right off the bat. we want to like you!! talk to us!!! talk to each other!! at my school, (bucknell), orientation is actually pretty fucking legendary (it’s 5 straight days of just. nonstop activities), so getting to know your group is always nice. good conversation starters include: compliment something they’re wearing/have done, mention pets, ask about what classes they’re taking. that’s usually where i start when i’m talking to my kids!! 

okay, now for some Actual Tangible Advice. most of this is actually taken from when i gave my friend natalie some advice about college, but it’s still applicable to you!! i’m putting it under a readmore bc It’s So Very Long, I’m Sorry, I Really Hope This Helps/Makes Up For Me Not Answering For So Long

-if you can, get a microwave. if you can’t, it’s nbd because there’s probably one in your dorm somewhere. but it’s really nice not to have to put on shoes/socks to go make ramen at 3am

-INVEST IN GOOD SOCKS!!!! srsly omg you’re never gonna wanna go anywhere barefoot, and dorm heating/cooling can be tricky. i treated myself to a 5-pair box where they’re all different classic art pieces. they’re GORGEOUS and super nice for when i can’t find my flip-flops.

-also, if you have birks. bring them. they are also good for sliding on when u really have to pee in the middle of the night and can’t for the life of u find anything else. also everyone i know wears birks casually (i have a 20 dollar pair of fake ones from american eagle lol)

-OLD NAVY HAS FLIP FLOPS 2 FOR 5 DOLLARS. they make the BEST shower shoes and also they come in so many lit colors they’re the bomb digs. these are also good if you don’t have a pair of birks

-if your dorm doesn’t have it already (most dorms don’t) BUY A SCREEN FOR YOUR WINDOW!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY if u hate bugs you do NOT want them coming in when all u want is some fresh air. my roommate last year brought one to school bc i didn’t even think about it and it was a LIFESAVER.

-if you can, get one of those febreeze scent things you plug in. if you aren’t allowed, there’s this thing called a scentsy that basically melts wax and it makes your room smell SO. GOOD. idk how much they cost but honestly you will be thankful you have it if you can get it (candles work too but most dorms don’t allow candles)  

-you don’t need a huge plastic shower caddy!! you can get a softer one and then hang it on a hook outside the shower or loop it around the shower knob. they’re probs better than a big hard one bc they won’t fill up with water and you can stash it easier. (i went with a big plastic one and it’s a hassle lol). however, if you already got a big plastic one, that’s cool too bc sometimes they come with a removable second smaller caddy, and that’s good for putting your phone in outside of the shower to play music.

-lofting your bed is super nice bc it gives you a little more privacy from your roommate (and privacy is so so so rare in college, esp in a dorm). it’s also nice bc if you’re up there and a friend walks into your room (which is bound to happen with dorm living, which is where i’m assuming ur living as a first-year) they won’t immediately see you, which gives you a few seconds to get ur shit together before they see you.

-HOWEVER!! there are a few downsides to lofting ur bed. the major one is that it’s a pain in the ass to not only get up there, but also to lug your laptop/charger/snacks/etc up there, and once you’re up u probably aren’t gonna wanna come down. also, i don’t know if you drink, (which btw totally cool if you don’t!!), but there was definitely one time where i was too drunk to climb into my bed (i know, i know, several bad choices were made that night and i regret all of them), but thankfully my roommate last year was a fucking goddess though (a definite Mom Friend) and pulled all my sleeping stuff down to the floor lol. it’s rare that something like that happens, but it’s definitely something u wanna take into consideration.

-college is infinitely emotionally taxing. face masks and shower bath-bombs (you put them on the floor of your shower and they slowly dissolve and release whatever scent they are) do LOADS to make u feel better. face masks are also good bonding with friends!! 

-some other self-care college tips: cafes will usually have either hot apple cider in the fall, or you can get steamed milk with vanilla in it and it’s very soothing and gentle and calming. i got it a lot when i was sick just bc it was warm and not difficult to stomach. 

-also baking. if you get a few friends and bake something, it is 1) bound to be hilarious and 2) everyone who walks by will love you. we once made cinnamon buns, except instead of individual ones we made one big disgusting MegaBon, and we still talk about it to this day. it’s the name of our group chat lmaooo

-you can literally never have too much storage. plastic bins, crates, etc. never too much.

-you will leave college with so much more stuff than what you came with. holy shit. you will also get so many t-shirts??? see above. you’ll need storage.

-college is also the definition of ‘Everything is Happening All The Time’, and ur probably gonna make friends who try and do Everything. it took me super long to internalize the fact that it’s okay to like, say no to doing something and take a nap instead. not all the time, sometimes its good to force urself out of your room, but you can stay in on a saturday every once in a while! it doesn’t matter. 

-that being said, do try and go out of your comfort zone a little!! i was definitely not the type to do this in high school, but these days i’ll sometimes go to frat parties!! they’re actually really fun when you go with friends (and always go with friends!!!). it doesn’t even necessarily need to be parties either. audition for a capella. stage manage a show. do a club sport. there’s so much you can do!! (i actually didn’t follow my own advice here last year, i was too terrified to do a lot of things. i did theatre though, which ended up taking up most of my time anyway, but i still wish i had done more, hence why i’m doing this program right now! don’t be like first-year me. be better!)

-HOWEVER here are some (frat) party tips: girls can usually get into parties much easier than guys can, but either way don’t try to go out until around october/late september. the first few weeks back are for upperclassmen catching up with friends . go with a group, and STAY with your group. please. no girl left behind. they usually only serve shitty beer, and ofc you should keep your eyes on it the whole time. if you put it down, just go get another one instead of picking that one up again. also, invest in a shitty coat/gross pair of shoes specifically to wear to the frats. the floors are gross, and you’re probs gonna end up storing your jacket behind a trash can in the winter bc it’s too fucking hot inside the room to keep it on. (is this coat thing just a bucknell thing?? this might just be a bucknell thing). 

-more drinking/etc/stuff: know your rights. RAs are not allowed to look through drawers/open closets when doing room searches, so if you have wine or anything, make sure it’s hidden in somewhere they’re not allowed to touch.

-THIS IS SUPER IMPORTANT: if someone has drank too much, BACKPACK THEM. get them into bed while wearing a filled up backpack. it prevents people from rolling over and choking on their vomit. i cannot emphasize how important it is for you to backpack someone. if you can, stay with them to make sure they’re okay. also, don’t be afraid to let them throw up before they go to bed. it helps. they’ll usually feel better. 

-if you can, get a job that lets you sit down. receptionist, librarian, etc. these are the best, bc sometimes you’ll get the  chance to study or get paid for doing nothing. also? receptionist looks SUPER good on a resume. also? money is nice.

-LOCK YOUR DOOR!!!!! I LEARNED THIS THE HARD WAY WHEN SOME WEIRD SENIOR BOY WALKED INTO MY ROOM DRUNK AT 3AM AND WOULDN’T LEAVE. also, you’ll make friends in the first week that you won’t necessarily want to be friends with later on, but they won’t get that message lol. again, lock your door (learned that the hard way, too)

-for future semesters, if you can’t get into a class right away it REALLY helps to email the professor!!! seriously, 9 times out of 10 they are more than happy to let an extra person in, because there are always students who drop the class within the first week or two. that’s how i got into astronomy my first semester, and i’m now a teacher’s assistant for it. so. really, it helps.

-the best way to be better friends with people is to just, get meals with them. honestly. make a group chat with some people and whenever ur getting dinner or lunch or whatever just throw out a ‘hey anyone wanna get food with me??’ text. 90% of the time someone will come with you.

-speaking of meals tho, ik this is the number 1 thing people tend to say, but it’s tRUE. nobody cares if you eat alone. it too me SO LONG to internalize this, but it’s totally fine to do!! it’s actually really nice sometimes, you can bring homework or your laptop and get some work done. it’s not even with meals, either! you can study alone! you can walk places alone! you can go to the gym alone! i was always terrified of being seen alone bc i thought people were gonna think i didn’t have friends or w/e dumb thing my anxiety had me feeling, (i still struggle with that lmao) but in reality you just look independent and cool!!! also, it helps to be content in the fact that you have friends and it doesn’t matter if people THINK you don’t.

-get a reusable water bottle. i got a plastic one for like 12 bucks, and i use it DAILY. if ur walking a lot, it helps keep you hydrated. also, it gives you something to do in class. also, you can personalize it with stickers and stuff (you can do the same with a laptop case). i p much take mine with me EVERYWHERE.

-this was also hard for me to internalize, but u gotta remember the fact that it’s okay not to be who u were in high school. like, i gave up some of the things i was into in high school in favor of some other things, and it took me awhile to figure out that i wasn’t like, betraying anyone, if that makes sense?? like, i started going to frat parties and actually having FUN at them??? (something i NEVER would have been into in high school, but here we are).

-also, grades are very different in college. i freaked out when i wasn’t getting a 4.0, because that’s who i was in high school, but then i kinda put it in perspective. i ended with a 3.67, which is still dean’s list. you’re not going to be perfect, bc chances are you ended up at a school with people on kinda equal intelligence levels as you. don’t freak out. 

okay that’s pretty much it!!! i can def come up with more stuff tailored to certain things/etc if you want me to talk more about this stuff!!! i love giving college advice and talking and helping people feel better about this whole thing bc i know it’s hard and scary

[back-in-wyoming]

9:57 PM. I'm stressing out bc im doing extemp speech at the speech and debate national qualifiers which. i've never done before and i don't know any details abt it it's just. bad. stress. (ALSO im highkey excited into the badlands is coming back on sunday!!!)

not familiar with that show (but i have seen commercials for it and it looks cool af)i do, however, know a little bit about speech and debate qualifies. this was part of my speciality in college. and i gotta say,

you can do this, nonnie. if you practiced out loud, if you rehearsed, you’re good to go. there’s only so much you can do. if you find yourself stopping, take a breath, collect yourself, and continue on. watch out for vocal cues like “um” or “uhs” and if you feel yourself shake, keep your hands on the podiumi’m sorry if you already knew this. point is, you can do it. my speech professor once flopped in the middle of her speech and tbh, she was one of the most eloquent people i’ve ever met. she did better later on xD

you got this. take your time with it, yeah?

Anonymously tell me what time it is and what you're thinking

[ts-crossroads]

Episode Nine - “I’m An Indecisive Mess” - John

I really hope that this is the round that we get Julia out. There's one thing that I do not tolerate, and that's people who LIE ON ME. Julia was in on the Ned vote the entire time and wouldn't even own up to it after the vote until I confronted her on it. I went from trusting her the most to not trusting her at all. This round is crucial. From what I've gathered, the other side wants to take out Sam and I can't lose another ally. I need to keep numbers on my side so that I can gain back control in the game. Ryan wants Sam out because she got mad at him on call and apparently made a chat with him the first round of merge and then voted for him. Julia somehow knows that Sam and Autumn are voting for her (probably Ryan) so she wants them out too. It comes down to Dane and John. Dane told me straight up he didn't want to vote Sam out, so I think he's good. But John is being weird. He wants Julia out because I told him she called him shady a bunch of times but he's constantly worrying about what Ryan will think. STOP PLAYING RYAN'S GAME! I need John to side with us regardless if Ryan agrees or not to make this move.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XS5jlv-lEcQ

I think im gonna go pray to the godess an calm down. I honestly feel like im being paranoid. I mean do I trust the 6 alliance anymore? No. Hell no. Do i trust some of them? Yes. Rebecka, haley, an ryan. Autumn has been asking who people are voting, so it makes me think sam may have the idol, or that sam dosen't and autumn just wants to ride majority. So im hoping this is the case. Still nervous but, ya know.

At this point in the merge nothing really exciting is going on anymore it's kinda easy sailing since I'm in majority and then have my own alliance within that one. Jake sam and autumn are just sitting ducks at this point and then the rest pluck one by one 

So last vote was almost a success. I wanted to get to the end without a single vote cast against me, but what can you do when we have bitter betties? Okay so i have 10 minutes so my plan overall right now is to blindside Julia with Rebecka, but Ryan doesn't know that and he's supposed to be my f2 but he was fake to me before tribal council so I'm not trusting him atm. I'm going to pretend that Rebecka isn't flipping and I'm acting defeated that my plan isn't going to work out, but it will. 

Okay so I haven't made a confessional since reward was posted. I was stressed about immunity bc I tied with jake and then I lost the tie breaker, which sucks. But I think I can work something out. I found another half idol so NOW I HAVE A FULL IDOL! I am playing it tonight. I don't know who is voting with me or against me, but I don't think I have the numbers and I am NOT going home with an idol. Ned did it and I would rather waste it than take it to jury. Me Jake Autumn and MAYBE Dane and MAYBE Rebecka are voting Julia, but I'm not confident enough to trust them. Everyone else is voting me so. Also, I need to stop crying about Ned and Bryan. Time to start playing the game. I am ready.

I'm an indecisive mess. 

Okay tribal just happened. I'm sweating a lot. I wasted my idol basically. I did get votes, but only 4 of them. There were 4 for Julia and then I voted for Ryan. If I would have voted for Julia and not played my idol, I would still be here AND have an idol for the future. But since I switched my vote, it tied and then my idol made her go home. It's hard bc a part of me is pissed that I wasted it. But another part of me sees a light in the distance. Autumna and Jake are the only ones who know I voted Ryan. Not even Dane knows. Right now, Coffey and Ryan think it was Rebecka. This hopefully will cause them to trust her less. But Dane's crazy advantage may mess us up right here. There is no immunity. Dane can sit out of tribal tomorrow, be immune, and not cast a vote. Or he can come, vote and potentially be voted out. He told me that he is too busy and he is sitting out, which sucks. Now there will be 7 votes. And I know Haley, John and Ryan won't vote with me. My only hope is Rebecka. And either way, none of those 3 believe that she voted with them. Julia got 4 votes. The obvious solution would be me, jake, autumn, and dane. They would never assume I would throw away a vote to ryan, especially how low I am, numbers-wise. AND there was a voting confessional for Julia (I think Autumn wrote it) but it said "this is for imperium" and i have literally cried to ryan and john about how sad i was seeing ned then bryan go back to back. They most likely think that was me. I think this then created distrust among them and rebecka, so hopefully we can pull her to our side. I think the smartest vote this round will be Ryan. He has had it out for me for a while and he has the closest connections on the other side. Let's face it, he is holding the other side together. John and Haley are not close, but Ryan has been playing both of them against us. I'm stressed whew. I'm lowkey mad at Dane for skipping, but it makes sense for his game so I don't blame him. I just need to work on Rebecka right now. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LtkSVB5MpwU

Never thought I'd be able to say this in Crossroads but I'm in the majority and the dog days might be over!!! http://cdn.playbuzz.com/cdn/812ff861-5e39-403c-899c-9e6e33e7d36c/d5504a1c-f8e2-4028-96f6-6b038180e644.gif Highkey told Dane before tribal that I'd hang him out to dry if he flipped back to voting Sam and voted Imperium out for the 3rd time. And we all know I'm cracked enough to deliver soooo we stan tough love haha. He's still cancelled, BUT John and Ryan can enter jury before him/ they already have 3 strikes. I'm so done with John I can't even; he has no backbone and all his does is flop and lie. How are you gonna say we should work together every round and then ghost whenever it's time to vote or when I ask you what's happening? Fakest person in here and he's voted someone Imperium the past 4 rounds; I want him gone so bad but I gotta maximize Dane not being able to vote and put the target on Ryan

 Also y'all saw Owen use his admin powers to blow up my game on camera by reminding everyone that I'm on Imperium and that the tribe has voted out Imperium the past 3 rounds right? OK COOL JUST CHECKING http://i.imgur.com/uN6iEBs.gif So if the tribe speaks this week and I suddenly go to jury, do me a favor and riot cause Owen is rigging for the uglies thanks

My sleeping meds are making me miss this whole game Bc I'm always SLEEP rip 

Everyone is still trash and thus they are still cancelled. Ryan and Haley are pressing me about the vote and I'm like what is there to talk about?? Y'all been coming for my side of camp the past 4 rounds. Flattery will get you nowhere. In other news Rebecka and I are officially on the same side/ working together!! Our parents Duncan, Mitch, and Amanda are probably so proud. Also I think Dane is done flopping and is back to being trustworthy?? But never say never Also John is going home tonight because he can't stop lying, constantly flip flops, doesn't have a backbone, has voted someone Imperium out the past 4 rounds, etc. It's funny cause I like John as a person hahaha; he's just doing too much and he needs the Boardroom's permission to do anything. The Boardroom would be John, Ryan, and Dane because anytime me, Jake, or Sam try to talk game to them, they say "ok I'll talk to the guys" and disappear for 4 hours. Then they come back like "ooh uhhh I don't think Dane/Ryan/John is on board" or "yeah I still don't know what I'm gonna do" when the vote is due in an hour. Anyway, I'm tired of building each round around what The Boardroom may or may not do. NOW LET ME OUT OF THE WOODS DAMMIT IM OWEN https://i.pinimg.com/originals/a4/76/7e/a4767e9175f6fd603aa51d12b23c1ddf.gif

Hi VL!!! Sorry I didn't start talking to y'all until recently because I only recently learned that vl confessionals are a thing that I'm allowed to do lmao. Anyway you guys are in for a treat tonight- people swear they're going home even though they're not getting votes while others aren't even talking to me and I've already used majority to seal their fate. So a lot of games and drafts are getting wreckt tonight and you don't wanna miss it. Watch Crossroads tribal tonight at 10 pm EST!! 

Tribal is happening soon. I'm very nervous. Me, Autumn and Jake originally had a plan to get Ryan out, but apparently he has an idol he wants to use tonight, so we had to switch our target. Hopefully he still plays it. We are voting John out, and Rebecka is telling us she is with us, so hopefully he goes 4-3. Dane isn't voting with us so we can't rely on him to save us this time. Haley came to me earlier and asked me for a name. It was really weird. I know she went to Autumn and Jake as well. I don't know if she truly is desperate in this game or she thinks she can actually get information out of us. We told her Ryan, and she says she will write down any name at this point to not go home. There are 2 scenarios that could happen from this. 1. Haley goes immediately to Ryan, he plays the idol on himself and it is wasted. or 2. She votes out Ryan because she is so desperate to not go home. Then we vote out John, and then Ryan is left and knows that Haley flipped on him. Having those two here and not trusting each other would be great. I feel like Ryan has such a handle on John and Haley and we really need to split him away from those two. It's scary to think about the future, because I don't know if I will be there. A part of me wants to start planning my FTC speech and my f3 (which would most likely be Jake and Autumn) but Haley told me a few hours ago that John and Ryan were voting for me this round too. They think it's safest because my idol is gone. Now I' m stuck with just 2 coins that I'm impatiently waiting to exchange them for something. I'm really annoyed at Ryan and John constantly going against me and my side. I understand why Ryan is, I flipped on him and voted him out when we technically did have an alliance together (even though my heart wasn't in it). I just don't understand why I can't get along with John in this game. I have done nothing wrong to him. All I have done is listen to him and be lied to ever since merge started. It sucks that he has been so against me, especially because I thought we were good friends outside of this game, but he wants nothing to do with me, and he wants me out of the game so badly. I'm definitely getting votes tonight. I just don't know how many. Me Autumn and Jake are voting for John. If Rebecka joins us, we have majority. I just worry about any idol plays. It's getting to the end and people won't have much longer to use them. I need to compete hard in this upcoming immunity if I'm still here. Also I don't think me voting Ryan was the worst move anymore. Haley today told me that she thinks Rebecka voted for him, and I knew Ryan and John already think that. Also, another thing, I'm nervous that I may have lost some trust with Autumn and Jake over having the idol. Because I told Jake in pms first and then hours later he was like maybe we should tell autumn and I'll pretend I don't know, and I was like that sounds great. So I told them. But Autumn was a little hesitant with me when I told her. I hope it was just shock and not betrayal she felt. I really need these two to make it in this game. I couldn't even imagine having to strategize with Haley or John. 

Sooooooooo, I decided to make a move this round by pushing for Julia to go. I love Sam and Autumn but they want John out and are working with Rebecka to do it and I can't vote out John. I brought it up to John and Haley and then talked to Ryan and they seem down to do it. Rebecka seems to be extremely close to Dane, and Dane seems to have ties with just about everyone in this game...except me. I'm sorry but why should I vote out John who's always been honest with me and talks to me over Rebecka who hasn't bothered talking to me all game. I need to take some power away from Dane before he takes us all out.

Wow what a twist! Definitely didn't see Julia going home last night definitely miss her psycho ass. People are all on edge and think they are next to go and people don't know who has idols anymore in this game or who has half. I just hope we can keep the numbers and john, Ryan and myself will go to finals.

https://youtu.be/Unb-Fl7JsUQ

[survivormysticfalls-blog]

Dear Diary.

After settling into their tribes for the night, the tribes fought to make the best flag. Tensions were high but the Lockwood tribe ended up losing and coming to a conclusion of voting Christian out.

Abel:

Y’ALL COULD HAVE WARNED ME BEFORE I SENT THAT UGLY ASS VIDEO. okay whew, both veronica and francesca are ignoring me. I’m going home first boot, can i go back to the petrova tribe oop nvm fran just responded catch us in the f2.

Colin:

Um first and foremost thank u guys for not doing a google form confessional thing otherwise I would have had to die.

Anyway this is a really cute game so far!! But my tribe seems really??? Awkward in terms of tribe dynamics. Like it’s already dead and the game started less than 2 hours ago. Part of it seems to be because most of us already know each other (except for Jess rip it must be really weird for her).

I don’t really feel like I get along THAT well with Andie, Carson, or Matthias though so that makes it weird for me. Like I know them but I don’t know them?? Also I’m pretty sure they’re all super outspoken and loud about their moves and opinions so that will probably get really fucking messy, especially on a tribe of 5. Idk, this tribe is fucking weird.

Hopefully this quiet isn’t permanent and the tribe wakes tf up soon. I hope I’m wrong and I hope I can actually grow to like my tribe, bc right now…. I don’t oops.

Veronica:

michal is in my tribe and i can die happy.

Christian: 

I'm gonna do first impressions of everyone.

Stevie: He hosted me in a flop org for three weeks zzzzzzz. Hopefully he'll want to work with me. Jev: I literally don't know him! Zakriah: I don't know her? either. Zakriah is a girl right? Because I can't be the only girl on this tribe. Jordan: ...............................................That's it. I already have a first impression of him, and it's more than enough. 🙃 Thanks for putting me on a tribe where I literally know no one. :/ I guess I gotta do what I do best, and start working on my social game.

Zakriah:

Hi I'm first boot, I hate my tribe, its ugly. Christian removed me as a contact like last month and Stevie is a bitch idc and the rest are who? So ya I'm yawning can someone say something in there like hello I hate five person tribes gimme randyyy

Matthias:

Andie- He's sweet, we played before very nice. But like I think he'd turn on me if it benefits him he did it before  Carson- THEY SEEM FUN! we're chatting a bit theyre ok Jess- Queen of dinner Colin- They’re in GLEE BB and like we havent talked at all ok gooodnight.

Randy:

What really grinds my gears is that these whores are deadass so lazy so INACTIVE and then theyre like "can u make it lightere uwu". I hope you know that I'm in the shittiest tribe I’m the best there

Andie

 I fucking hate carson because he's doing fucking nothing to help, like if you want a fucking rose on the flag do it your fucking self I'm pretty sure we’re going to lose immunity and I'm going to get first boot because no one wants to fucking do anythingI TELL THEM TO ADD STUFF TO THE FLAG AND THEY MAKE IT LOOK LIKE FUCKING SHIT

Christian:

My tribe: "im busy" "I'm in class until 10" "i only have paint" Me: is actually making a decent flag on Snapchat. SNAPCHAT 🙃

Veronica:

im blowing up my game its ok

[2/27/17, 7:22:52 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: [2/27/17, 7:20:37 PM] Francesca: I like mind for its meaning, yours for the appearance [2/27/17, 7:20:39 PM] Abel: i like both [2/27/17, 7:22:57 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: YOUR MEANING IS STUPID [2/27/17, 7:23:00 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: WE AINT FAMILY [2/27/17, 7:23:04 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: AND IF U WATCHED THE SHOWS [2/27/17, 7:23:11 PM] Abel: dahdadhadsadhjadjh [2/27/17, 7:23:12 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: THE BROTHERS TRIED TO KILL EACH OTHER ALL THE TIME [2/27/17, 7:23:14 PM] Abel: ITS A FLAG [2/27/17, 7:23:20 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: IM SORRY I AM FRUSTERATED [2/27/17, 7:23:37 PM] Abel: BUT WE AINT GONNA KILL EACH OTHER TILL F5 [2/27/17, 7:23:47 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: I JUST WATCH THE SHOW [2/27/17, 7:23:48 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: AND I CANT [2/27/17, 7:23:51 PM] veronica [ hoenn host ]: IM SORRY [2/27/17, 7:23:57 PM] Abel: LMAO

i love self destruction

Abel:

I’m still shook that Veronica popped awf the way she did about Twilight but I’m glad she’s passionate about something. Fran is nice idk not much to say about her. Brandon’s mood message implies that he’s a straight white male so he’ll be the first to go (followed by Luke), I have literally 0 thoughts on Michal but he comes off as one of those gays who’s scared of vaginas idk. We are so fucked.

Andie:

Stevie:

Okay I highkey think I'm screwed here. Barely anyone talks to me and I just don't know how tribal is gonna go

OOP MAYBE NOT!! Jordan is telling me about how he doesn't like Christian. Now I know nothing about the relationships these people on my tribe have with each other. So either I'm being played right now or Jordan may actually be down to vote out Christian. We would just need one more person and he mentioned Zakriah could be down for it. I need to talk to the other people on the tribe to see how real all this is, but for now I will believe I have a shot of making it past this first vote.

Christian:

Okay I'm voting zakriah. That's what two people told me. I better not be first boot!!!!!!

[survivorjohto]

Ep. 3: “Is it a bird? Is it a plane? Oh! No, it's just my wig” - Duncan

Wow... the villains... they're a mess. A total mess. The Kylie vote was understandable, but this last one? Wow. If it wasn't obvious that Jordan and Ben are a duo then it certainly is now. I don't know the dynamic of the Akunin tribe, but it's one thing for sure, it's messy as fuck. But one thing is for sure, and that is BRANDON CAN NOT LINK UP WITH JORDAN AND BEN. AT. ALL. Brandon, Ben and Jordan are friends in real life (?) I think i heard that, but it's going to be what Kanto was. Ben "using Jordan as a meat shield" and him having this disgusting god complex and I can't let them all link up at merge. The other thing I'm worried about? Sara and Lily. Lily is supposedly with Jordan, and as much as I love Sara, her track record shows she's a Jordan Pines stan as well. I'm not letting that happen either. So if Lily doesn't go soon, Sara will have to. I'm sorry love, but it can't happen. I told Brian about my advantages. He doesn't seem to be that invested, but with Sara seemingly going to be going in the opposite direction, I have to have plan B. Plan Brian. I want to trust Sara because she's my ride or die in this series, but I keep seeing her go to the dark side and it makes me so nervous. But my plan if we lose, convince everyone to vote Brandon. Duncan is the alternative, but I'd rather Brandon go. He's talked to me the least, and he's made it pretty clear we aren't going to be working together. So bye, sorry you flopped.... again? One thing is for sure, and I'm not sure if I've made this clear. Jordan Pines, if you think coming for me in this game means you will win, you've got another thing coming. Brian and I may be a duo, but you and Ben are too. I have an idol and the only thing he has is a few McNuggets short of a happy meal. Also I'm me telling Brian about how I'm writing a confessional and so I send him a pic of the screen and now he can read the whole thing UGHHHHH. I'm so dumb. But I love the kid so... whatever.

Tag yourselves im no one talking to me about tribal besides Billy!

Is it a bird? Is it a plane? Oh! No, it's just my wig :/ Hiiiiieee! The heroes are finally going to tribal council, so this could potentially be my last confessional <\3 I'm glad I made although probably minimum bonds, some small bonds with people in the early days of the game. Hopefully enough to where people wouldn't want to vote for me the first vote we go to. I thought about wrangling up all the misfit early boot she like myself, Brandon, Chrissa, and a couple others, but I don't feel like it would even last for a round tbh. So before we even lost the challenge and told him I wanted to work with him, which is true. I just need the big whigs to protect me until we merge or swap. So I have no idea who's going home, I'm at a "anybody but me" mentality. I'm not throwing out any names and am going to let people come to me about the vote. I'm going to sit back and just watch how it plays out and pray I'm not first boot.

so we won the challenge woo hoo, me and lily killed it and now a hero is going home. Ummm things are iffy on the villains tribe now with that big split vote, i was on the right side of the numbers and am a pretty useful asset so like I am not worried about things going bad for me yet. Mark my words I'm Jordan Pines, I will eventually screw myself over somehow this game or it wouldn't be a pacific islands season, but I am not expecting me to do anything stupid yet. I'm with me lily ben and jay are tight, Kendall is there too though a little sketched out after she lied but flipped back. Isaac Frank and Karen can do wahtever I guess. Either way not bad. Not bad for jordan at all

i hate to do this to brandon but if he isn't social what am i gonna do about it... all i can do is make sure i am safe, like he should have been talking to people.

I highkey feel bad because I don't really think anyone deserves to go over me, but I'm here to play the game, so I'm not just going to go home 1st and be okay with it.  If I do go first, that'll suck, but I'm not going to be like, "OMG IM ROBBEEEDD ROBBBEDD!!!!" because I'm not around enough to really not have the target on me.  I think Billy told me to vote for Brandon, and I'll double check it with him, but if it is Brandon, then um... sorry, Brandon.  You seem awesome, and I hope that we can talk after this is all over.

Anyway! To catch y'all up I'm in an alliance with jordan and Kendall and also with jordan and isaac. Last vote apparently there was an Indian influence I guess u could say as to why suddenly the vote went from Ben to Stevie. And lowkey I'm kinda pissed bc Ben will listen to jord and I know Stevie is his own thinker like he won't be up Jordans ass. Anyway I'm gonna keep pretending that I'll go along with Jordan's plans bc the more safe he feels the more fun it'll be to vote him out.

Heres a confessional so i dont get a strike love you guys <3

I feel so bad that Brandon is going home.  Like I haven't had too long of a convo with him, but like he seems super cool and sweet.  He's asked me like who is spearheading it, and I just dodged the question because I honestly don't want to tell him too much to throw me or Billy under the bus.  We're already probably in hot water considering how many people know about us being a thing in the past, and if I ever hear Billy's name come up, I'mma be like, "Hey, vote for me instead!" because Billy deserves better.

i've been so tired all day asdfghjkl but at least i dont have a tribal to worry about!!! what an iconic thing, me still being alive after 3 tribals in pacific islands, along with having an item finder and an idol huh how iconique

I want Jordan Pines to choke like wow. He threatened Kendall based on another game and apparently the only reason why Stevie went is because Kendall has to flip like bye THATS A SICKENINGLY LOW BLOW. I refuse to drink Jordan Pines' koolaid like I'd rather be voted out next than ever work with that binch.