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go-to-the-mirror · 1 year ago

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the thing about tongues & teeth is that i barely ever think about it from the singer's perspective, it's always the other, always the victim, but god look at it. think about it. i'm a monster and i have blood on my hands and i'm going to hurt anyone who gets close but get close anyway, please. ignore the risks. i'm telling you not to but i need you to know that i need you.

#tongues & teeth #the crane wives #my lonely rambles #im having a bit of a moment about stuff #this is also abt the doctor but like. whatever

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mwagneto · 10 months ago

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something something. rose using the fact that the doctor never mentioned sarah jane as 1) a way to insult her 2) something to get insecure about wrt her own relevance to him vs donna using the fact that he never mentioned mel to highlight how he never shares anything and never stops even though he desperately needs to just Talk About His Shit

#ALSOOO DR TELLING MARTHA AND DONNA NOT TO FIGHT AND #DONNA IMMEDIATELY BEING LIKE YOU WISH IDIOT!! UGLY ASS DUMBASS!! HI MARTHA HIIIII HII <3 HELLO #donna i would die for youuuuuu😭😭😭😭#this isn't me dissing rose she's a child even if i think she was in the wrong w the sj stuff. coz like again. child #it's just such a cool contrast like ohmy godddd besties.......#also like im still mad abt the sj thing coz you have her rightfully calling out the dr for #travelling with an infant and then rose is just being mean to her for being 50 like oh my god💀#whatever anyway. hot take ?#doctor who #dw lb #10th doctor #14th doctor #doctordonna #my dumbass forgot to post this it's been in my drafts for like a month

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 11 months ago

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yazs faith in my fic mostly amounts to no alcohol and vegetarian jelly babies and vague religious anxiety on occasion, partially bc i dont know a lot about islam so i dont really have a lot to work with and partially because the show doesnt really give us a whole lot to work with either

but i do kinda like how, especially in this current fic where i give her a sort of explicit eating disorder past, that like, the main ways that god ends up playing a role in her daily life this way is through what she puts in her mouth or not

if the doctor is restrictive, emotionally psychologically nutritionally, and the master is excessive, yaz sort of hovers in the middle, pulled at from both sides

seduced by restriction vs seduced by excess. swallowing your anger vs spitting it out. desire and consumption and the way the human and the holy meet in the fallible body. you can become the doctor by acting like the doctor. you can make yourself holy by Doing The Right Actions

#i dont know.........which religions that fits and if theres overlap #the doctor isnt..............................a god. but. idk. vaguely divine sometimes #what if i want to eat her. what if she explodes. what if i explode with the desire to eat her. what if i eat her and she explodes inside me #its probably insensitive to...........literally everyone #muslims. bulimics. bulimic muslims #lesbians #but im not here to write that story im here to write my yazs story #i would have liked if they had given me more to work with though #like those rules or whatever they have for muslim astronauts #wouldnt it have been fun to see that #i wouldve loved for yaz to like try to keep track of the time of day and also in what general direction earth is #wouldve loved to know how she feels abt it all #if only to mirror with the master so we could extrapolate stuff abt him too #i suppose theres stuff abt him. those halos in timeless children right?#but also bc now i mostly just have my own feelings to work with #and my own feelings abt god are a little bit atypical i think perhaps who knows #are anybodys feelings abt god typical #are there typical god feelings? probably not #as many gods as there are bodies i think #which means a little bit of god dies with every body #whatever. my own feelings are christian probably which i dont think does yaz justice

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bunnihearted · 22 days ago

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#so i have an appt. to the psychiatric department for personality disorders tmrw...#and like i tried sending a self referral to them last year lmao #and they only said that heyyy you're doing amazing sweetie you are high functioning 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻#then i've ben to the health care center and since they think they cant treat me bc it's too severe they've sent referrals to other places #which have all declined me... so they also sent one to the psychiatric who sent a referral to this pd department #who that time also said that they can't accept me #so the therapist at the health care center like idk exactly but she sent a report on how they didnt handl my case properly #which made them call on me for an evalutation appt.#but i have 0 hopes. i honestly think the entire psych care is fucking lame and bullshit #i highly doubt they're even equipped to treat personality disorders #& even if they are theire budgetis getting cut bc ppl love having rightists ruling the government .... which means no funds for healthcare #anyway. PLUS it's a man.... -_- which reducuses my chances of being taken seriously even more...#i also hate talking to male therapists/psychiatrists... no fucking thanks. but i have to </3 #i just really dont wanna go. like im gonna have to put energy into trying to argue for my right for treatment. w ppl who should inferstand #UNDERSTAND* i hate typing on my ipad ffs. they should understand my personality disorders..#bit health care proffessionals are horrible ppl and dont give a fuck abt their patients lol. so they're only condescending and rude 🤢🤮#i hate being in these environments bc everyone treats u like shit. the receptionists are so fkn rude and almost outright mean and insulting #the doctors and therapists and psychiatrists are all bullies who look down on u and make u feel small and worthless #so im really dreading it... but im also at my wit's end. i am missing out on my entire life. im desperate for help #even if i wholeheartedly believe that these worthless wastes of space wont give me any treatment i'll still need to go and try #then ig i'll just have to keep pestering the healthcare system. i might wventually even have to start going to the psych. ER so they put #that on my records and like idk. that costs money tho. plus from everyone i've heard from...#being at a psych ER esp when your situation isnt dire is awful and hell #my cousin who had been ther after a sui attempt had said that it 'scared him straight'#and that it was so terrible that he did everything to get back home as soon as possible and do whatever to never end up there again #so yuh... i'd rather not!#i was supposed to (my own decision) to write a list with ALL my symptoms and bring and be like LOOK MONGREL!!!#but since i suffer from avpd...... i havent. i procrastinated and now it's too late whoopsie. i'll just have to wing it fuckkkk 🥴#ofc it also has to be 8.45 .. so early in the morning for me im so mad ahhhhh i dont wanna go i am throwing up and screaming #but atp i'd have to pay $35 myself for not going so that will motivate me enough to force myself to go

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thecoolerliauditore · 3 months ago

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oh this is one of those. we're trying to not be weird about women and that makes us even weirder about women things. cool

#random thoughts #harley and montoya and barbara all being friends is the most random thing in the universe #what do these three have in common other than just. being female #barb and montoya finee whatever but why the fuck. would harley be their old friend. if they met through work and hit it off then fine but #like are there no other psychologists in gotham #especially weird to me cus of gothams weird doctor to non doctor ratio like. you already had harley namedrop scarecrow #just make barbara like. a med student or something if you desperately need her to be aged up #right now it feels much less like they aged barb up and more like they aged everyone down.#why is harley so. weird about asking montoya out. adults can be nervous blah blah blah but. idk maybe i still dont understand dating #also really not a fan of where they're taking harley here idk. i feel like. if this is where we're going jsut. just make a new character ?#i was kinda. sigh whatever abt clayface. catwoman isn't my favourite version but she's catwoman #firefly was cool actually like unironically liked that guy but he. yeah #but this may as well not be harley so far im so. awhh annoying fan sauce

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doctorwhoisadhd · 9 months ago

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who in the torchwood team would hate nardole the most.

#torchwood #doctor who #nardole #dr who #dw #cannot figure it out #the one (1) thing im sure of is this: andy and nardole would get along SO well. they would LOVE each other. they meet like‚ ONE time in the #presence of at least one torchwood team member & like INSTANTLY hit it off in the background while whoever it is investigates smth and when #theyre done they come back to find nardole nd andy having a very quietly intense discussion abt smth extremely mundane & the team member #is like that photo of ben affleck with a cigarette. & then gwen finds out later that nardole and andy meet up every week to play mah-jong #also nardole would NOT fuck andy theyre just friends. and both of them get defensive if anyone ever suggests it.#in particular nardoles response is: (in a high and mighty tone of voice) 'actually. i dont sleep with cops thank you.' andys like 'whats #that supposed to mean' (a little offended) and nardoles like 'no a-dog its just a bit too messy for me‚ what with the legal system and all.#i dont do lawyers either. beyond clingy you know how it is' and andys like 'yea you know what thats reasonable i guess'#ari opinion hour #also andy DOES NOT KNOW THIS but thats the only thing preventing nardole from trying to fuck him like a bird doing one of those #weird ass mating displays. thank god for this also because it means we are all spared from whatever That would be (which‚ awkward‚ mostly)#ALSO YES NARDOLE WOULD HAVE A NICKNAME FOR ANDY BY THE END OF THAT FIRST CONVERSATION. IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY.

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stormyrainyday · 6 months ago

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i have GOT to stop eating things i'm allergic to these foods are not giving me energy all they're doing is making my tummy hurt

#allergic to eggs and gluten #but i had ramen like 6 times in the last week #the pms cravings got my ass #also allergic to vanilla and beans and pineapple and a handful of other things #it wont kill me but the fatigue and stomach pain really isnt worth #not to mention the nausea #i wonder sometimes if i don't have crohns disease at all and just have these food allergies #bc my endoscopy only showed mild inflammation #technically i have microscopic/indeterminate colitis but if untreated it evolves into crohns or uc #and so based on my symptoms they call it crohns and are treating it as crohns #anyway since the inflammation was on the microscopic level it's entirely possible that it's just food allergies #which is still autoimmune mind you #but has a much easier treatment than crohns does #and i've noticed since i stopped gaffing abt my diet again my stomach hurts im having diarrhea im nauseous #hell my joints and head hurt again too #BUT i also havent been taking my meds so idk #i should talk to my doctor but i dont like him #so idk what to do #it's whatever

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red-revival · 26 days ago

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There are definitely things to be concerned abt with kids tech use and how devices are designed now in a way that takes advantage of this for profit.

However. Some of these stories are very obviously to me not a technology issue, but a mental health issue. Whatever tech problem they're dealing with probably isnt helping maybe exasperating it or an unhealthy way to cope with it sure but I really dont think tech is the root cause there...

#if a kid in your family starts self-harming whenever they're not playing on a device; its most likely not the tech.#bring them to a doctor or a therapist. please. chances are theres something else going on and the tech is a coping mechanism/distraction #if that kid were born a decade earlier they'd still be like this with books or art or puzzles or whatever non-electronic activity #I know because I was that kid. with books; with art; with colouring books; puzzles; running around in circles; anything at all #I had undiagnosed/untreated ADHD. at 10 I developed severe depression; which also went untreated because I wasn't taken seriously abt it.#and it was never the books or the art or the puzzles or colouring or running or hell even a DS that was the problem.#they were coping mechanisms and distractions; and while it was unhealthy to be completely reliant on them; they weren't the root cause #just a desperate grasp for any stimulation to fill up my brain so there wouldnt be room for suicidal ideation

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gemharvest · 2 months ago

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Hmmmmm I might be developing facial hair. Which like, the gender euphoria of that aside, I might have to bring this up to my mom cuz idk. Idk if this is a sign of something I should have checked out or not.

#ramblings #uhhhh ok i dont talk abt this a lot Karl Lore Time #ive had some noticable Stash going on w my upper lip hair for a while now and i have had to pull more coarse hairs from my jaw #and thats was like. normal i think that was normal #but im starting to notice darker hairs around the side of my face where like. sideburns would be as well as #the corners of my jaw yk. and its starting to like. Compound the more i notice things #feeling two emotions at once. joy at seeing myself get hairier (which. yay proof im Fucking Trans) and dread that this might #be a sign of something i should have checked out #tho im also scared of talking to my mom cuz im Fat and i dont wanna go to the doctor and have that come up. in any way #bc of reasons more complicated than i wanna bother with in the notes of my own post #euh. whatever. im gonna go back to living in the moment nd not thinking abt it. until it becomes harder to ignoreirhhhhhh

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ozlices · 10 months ago

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doctor apt was shit but the ladies at the desk were cool and set us up for a better, nicer doctor next month so. we'll see how that goes but i can say i've never been so fucking flabbergasted in my life at the bullshit coming from a doctor's mouth and with the amount of medical trauma we have that is seriously saying something.

#mine #medical trauma//#not a soul in the medical field is ever fucking learning we're a system when we get the amount of bs we do #for having one of the most common mental disorders & taking the most common prescription for it.#the amount of misinformation MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS spew abt adhd is genuinely horrifying beyond our comprehension #i do not even wanna think abt the amount of bullshit we'd have to deal with for pursuing a professional dissociation disorder my fucking go #she rly said u dont need ur adhd meds every day #i have patients i give 30 day prescriptions to that last them 3-6 months!#& we were just. sitting there. utterly horrified.#how are u even a practicing doctor at that point u cannot be serious #she also said she has a policy where she refuses to prescribe controlled substances w/out diagnosis paperwork #which like. whatever thats fine #but we were not told that ahead of time & she proceeded to give us an appointment THREE MONTHS LATER #like.................... literally basically just trying to sign us up as another sacked experiment bitch i do not fucking think so #what the fuck

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ikilledamanforthisurl · 2 months ago

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i know hating on Kai Winn is like lame and uncool and nobody supports women's wrongs of me but she's like if they put my mother in my television

#ikildaman shut the fuck up #“doctor...... i wont forget what you said today” stop vaguely threatening peop;le im gna facking hit something #punch me in the face already the constant social tension drives me to incise #also shes literally a villain hop off my dick abt being a hater thats what im slurpposed to do #how is cunning conniving malicious vindictive delusioned vaguely-spiritual insufferable white lady like a genre of person #oh and blonde. you cant forget that part #its genuinely so uncanny seeing kai winn do her thing its like the writers had my mother in their lives #like i know every person fulfills a genre of person and whatever but its just so. specific. UGH!#someone made a garak watchlist someone should make a kai winn watchlist #recent events make it salt the wound #ds9

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macbethz · 11 months ago

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Images that aged like a fine wine

#like ok I literally can’t get over this. I LITERALLY LIKE HIM N DONNA IS ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVS. HOWEVER #it’s CRAZY to be like he gets special treatment bc he’s my little guy #also someone said if chibnal had done this ppl would have been so mad and I can’t stop thinking abt that. lmao #HERES THE THING TOO I thought it was stupid but whatever when I saw it and then seeing everyone act like it was a genius move online is #what pushed me to be like. ok now I’m mad #cause like it’s doctor who it does silly stupid bad choices all the time. but usually people don’t gargle it’s cock over it. anyway #warlock wartalks

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 11 months ago

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okay listen i do think the scene is very adorable and i would not change it but i AM a pedant and a definite article is like by definition not a pronoun is it

#'pronoun' is becoming a word for like a gender thing rather than a grammar thing and #it makes for some kinda nonsensical sentences sometimes #i guess you can make a neopronoun that is 'the'#but like 'my chosen pronoun is the definite article. i am always The Meep' okay that doesnt say anything abt your pronouns tho?#and what they took that to mean is that the meep doesnt use pronouns only the meeps whole name #which is like. great. but thats not what the meep said really is it??#or when the doctor goes 'oh i do that'#like. very cute. very adorable. i love it. but also babe no you dont?#you just take whatever pronouns people give you?#you dont even insist on 'the' before doctor when people call you they skip the 'the' most of the time!#anyway. pedantry

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re-velogs · 4 months ago

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i think the craziest thing about the clinical trial ive been in all summer is its at my primary care where i get my hrt and stuff through & in the binder theyre maintaining for me is a big sticky note that says HE/HIM in all caps AND they asked my preferred name on day 1

and not once the whole time have i been gendered or named correctly even once. by the nicest people in the world. genuinely i think its because the main nurse is one million years old and like. not really entirely all there . imo . but still like thats crazy idc if i get deadnamed or misgendered or whatev but like at least dont ask me if ur not gonna care LOL

#also the mortifying experience of being partially nude in front of a stranger like day one but we domt need to talk abt that yet #i hate. doctors so much idk if i have like Medical Trauma or whatever but i sure dont seem to have a good time in clinical settings!!#AND THIS IS THE PLACE THAT MIGHT REMOVE MY UTERUS. WHICH LIKE YAY AND ALSO ... PLS BE NORMAL #medical #vent #im fine im just like. Thinking Abt It bc the trial ends at the end of august

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homingpigecns · 1 year ago

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this is like a sadgirl pathetic post but this guy i met recently at work was like, very direct and polite in being interested in me and i've been feeling him out bc i literally do not know him well enough to have an opinion but i can't like. he is so normal and nice. hes like a nice normal guy. every time i text him he doesn't say anything weird and he's extremely nice. what the hell. he's literally so nice. WHY. does he like. me???? like what's wrong with him that he specifically is interested in me????

#this is not even a low self esteem thing but shdhsbdhsdh every girl in the world is so pretty . me??? why?????#literally the day i met him & he asked me out i barely spoke to him was mind numbingly stupid and crawled on the floor on multiple occasion #i cant text this guy bc every time i have to answer im like. this guy is so fucking normal. me??? hes interested in me???? WHY????#everyome i try to convey this to is like :// aww he thinks ur cute. stop overthinking. WHATS WRONG WITH HIM #he specifically asked me out by asking the relief nurse what my name was and she offered to give him my number if i was ok w it #I WAS AT WORK..... I JUST SAID YES...... and i was like ok this probably will not go anywhere. he probably wont even text me #he texted me while i was commuting home literally he was still doing cases........#did i mention i was digging through garbage. literally he was like sorry the surgeon yelled at u she gets so flustered and ir was like no #she yelled at me bc im stupid. did u not notice that im stupid. this guy -- NORMAL -- literally saw me at my lowest and asked me out......#brandon oscillates #brandon what abt the guy at work u had a thing for I KNOW. im so torn however sjsbdbdhdbbx we are like actually coworkers #this guy if i see him every now and then in passing occasionally in the same room. that guy is my coworker for real #it cant happen. also dbxshsdhshdhe he has a 9 yr old hes too old for me. idk his relationship status but i dont think hes married.#also hes out of my league. also my other coworker told me he thinks hes gay but that hes closeted but that coworker is filipino so #mildly homophobic. i also told him to never tell anyone else that. i dont think hes gay. whatever.#i will miss my impossible crush as my hobby but this guy is nice and ahdhs its psychopathic to give him my number and then reject his date #can u imagine #whatever. im doing high school now i guess. the relief nurse is sooo proud of herself #shdbbd literally when i came back from lunch that day my scrub was like THE DOCTOR LIKES U!!!#and i was lkke omg really??? she doesnt think im stupid???? but it was this guy. and she did still think i was stupid #u know i have concert tickets for next thursday but shdhsd i literally have had too many experiences this year #i am trying to sell tgem #personal

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doctorwhoisadhd · 2 days ago

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this is so. fucking stupid

#ive got it on 1.75x speed which is honestly too fast but god this is intolerable #its so overly serious like who ASKEDDDDDDD #and also like. it does the thing where the doctor has to persuade some fuckin historical figure to do the thing that actually happened in #history and its like oh my GOD shut the fuck up #that trope fucking sucks if you dont do it right and honestly i think its a godawful trope #and everyone needs to stop fucking using it UNLESS its funny like it works if its funny eg 11 telling nixon to tape everything #but not if its serious if its serious its just condescending tbqh!!!#also its like blah blah WWII history whatever the FUCK and donna doesnt know anything about the historical figures involved #like doesnt even know the names and the doctor is lowkey like Donna whats wrong with you this is YOUR PLANET #but it comes across as so condescending bc 1) it is 2) also lowkey smells of misogyny 3) i myself dont know who the historical figure is so #it just comes off as so idk. just so annoying like shut up its not like its winston fucking churchill #like. i looked and the guys wikipedia page is short as fuck AND under external links theres a documentary abt him from cambridge that #literally calls him ''d-day's forgotten man''#so its like. why the fuck are you acting like i should definitely know exactly who he is then....... are you stupid................#the nemonite invasion #ari opinion hour

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