#this is a fuckoff long ep

[swan-orpheus]

THE MUSIC. 

Watching Andor with breakfast. We’re on Ferrix. And my brain just shortcircuited. Must hit pause. 

VELCINTA LIVES!!!!!!!!

The floor is lava is canon. Except well, more like electric shocks, I suppose. 💀💀💀💀💀

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again

by god it sure has been another week!!!

listening fallen straight back into comforting familiar music, here’s bo en’s track Miss You off the EP Pale Machine, find out more at waypoint.zone/boen . this track is like moving through a bunch of different rooms at the chillest pre-party ever. not quite lo-fi beats to study and relax to, but a very chill vibe. 

reading this essay from Roxane Gay about quarantining with her fiance made me tear the fuck up. 

In many ways, distance makes a relationship easy. When your time together is finite, you’re generally on your best behavior. Every night is date night — sexy restaurants, exciting theater, museums, fancy parties, hot dogs at three in the morning from Chelsea Papaya, our favorite lesbian bar and booze in plastic cups and grinding on a tiny dance floor surrounded by people 20 years our junior. You don’t really settle into any ruts because you’re always on the go, go, go. Before any cracks might start to show, you’re apart again and missing each other and hearts are growing fonder. You get quality time together and quality time alone, the best of both worlds.

this is probably obvious to long-time mutuals, but i am someone an old therapist once called “chronically independent”. i am a person who needs a lot of space and alone time. if i ever have a long-term partner i live with, i expect there will be a lot of adjustments necessary to my horrible night-owl bachelor lifestyle. anyway this made me tear the fuck up bc it’s just Nice my god do i hope someday to love someone as much as Roxane Gay loves Debbie Millman, but also bc it’s like hey! they’re making it work! maybe i can make it work someday! frantically clawing for any sense of stability by projecting everything onto a nebulous imaginary future partner is not a healthy coping strategy but it’s what i’ve got today. 

watching dipped my toe into The Midnight Gospel but found it fucking insufferable. is the animation cool, even if it’s very dense and the action gets hard to follow? yes! episode three is about a ship crewed by cats and a fish in a bowl who pilots a robot body, and that’s just fucking fun to watch.

however, this is adapted from a podcast. since moving to central massachusetts, i have identified a broad category of aging white liberals who are really really earnest but also won’t shut the fuck up about their own life experiences, and we tend to irritate the shit out of each other. in a similar vein, the podcast genre of rambling-interview-with-one-person-about-how-they-got-to-where-they-are is not a genre i enjoy (except in very rare instances).

critics have hailed it as the anti rick and morty, and i think that’s an accurate take. i like pendelton ward’s work broadly speaking, and i like when animation takes risks and embraces the strengths of the genre, but this irritated the shit out of me and that’s fine, it’s not for me. chugging along to the next thing, which is probably finally finishing black sails

playing the giant fuckoff itch.io bundle is a touch overwhelming. i have bounced off a lot of things and discovered my laptop refuses to run some things. a real priority for future kay with a job and a safe place to hunker down for the winter and six months of grace on student loans will be acquiring something a little beefier. probably not a full on gaming rig, but i have been looking very covetously at desks that accommodate dual-monitor setups. look at this giant stupid thing. i want it. look at all those Drawers and Compartments.

i have also been playing a lot of mahjong solitare as a way to turn my brain off enough to listen to podcasts but i don’t have anything fun or exciting to say about that. it’s solitaire with mahjong tiles, we all know what it is.

making bought a new qsnap frame. it got lost in the mail. ordered a second frame from a different supplier. started a new thing that’s a glitch remix of the old thing that actually fits in the existing 8x8 frame. profit?

[chofitia]

Let’s Experience Guardian, Ep. 5

Two updates in one week?! What is this sorcery? (It’s my circadian rhythm being wonky last Friday and doing my usual update for Sunday.)

(0:00) So the streaming site I’m using (ViewAsian) is saying the servers are overloaded. Well, crud. Let’s see how long I go before something craps out.

(2:15) Uh, looks like the subtitler didn’t subtitle the episode card. My two semesters of Japanese say that the character in the middle is “five”. Hurray for me.

(2:57) So we start off with family drama this time. So, who gets to be the victim? Is it the asshole son? Please let it be the asshole son.

(3:08) Yo, if pink goo starts coming out of that faucet...

(3:37) Okay, so it was the asshole son. No pink goo, which makes me glad. Though... water-based antagonist this time? Invisibility? Or will it emphasize water’s flexible nature and have shape shifting, too?

(4:54) ...they aren’t. They’re really not going to go there. Also, “Dragon City” does sound cooler in Chinese. (Though that’s probably because I’m not used to hearing it and that makes it more “unique”.)

(5:22) I thought it was a coffee maker, actually. But popcorn’s nice.

(5:58) Is this note-taking going to come back to bite Guo in the ass?

(6:36) Again, I can totally see Zack doing this exact same shit. More kudos for @jukeboxhound.

(7:00) I think @mcmansionhell commented on this bathroom before.

(9:20) And this is where the site crapped out.

(10:21) “Animal instinct” lolwut. 

(10:42) ...they’re going to go for “the butler did it” as a red herring?

(11:48) Wow, that was so not subtle.

(12:56) Not gonna lie, I would really love to have a big-ass soaking tub and the time to soak in it. This episode is turning into some kind of special torture for me.

(13:20) Where is that portal to hell puddle comic thread when you need it?

(15:00) How the hell can Zhu Hong be on stakeout in that huge fuckoff Hummer?

(15:28) Water demon? ‘kay.

(15:51) The hell is that steampunk shit?

(16:19) So he was homeless? Does that mean Dixing / Undergrounder / Underworlder / what ever the hell would be a good name? (Also, it’s super fucked up that “destitute” automatically means “supernatural creature” in this series.)

(17:37) It’s adorable that you thought that would work.

(18:43) “Whatever it takes, I will protect him!” Sorry. Also, “stalking”?

(19:07) Ah, crap, this is foreshadowing the endgame, isn’t it?

(20:32) That’s... kind of flirting?

(22:13) I have to get it into my head that “somewhat sepia” equals “flashback” for this episode.

(22:13) And this is where the site crapped out again.

(24:26) Why not take him to the tomb? Yes, yes, heated moment and it would kill the tension.

(24:33) Uh oh, you really shouldn’t have let them start putting the pieces together...

(24:48) It might be a little... late... for that?

(25:16) What is up with all of these fake-ass-looking rings? I guess it’s so that the audience can’t ignore them and realize they’re Important...

(25:48) Dude, wrong answer. Also, why do the two families want their kids to get together? Is it like a pact so that everyone’s tied into this has some blood on their hands?

(27:00) Wow. That was... quick. It would’ve been nice to see more of this misunderstanding on-screen... Also, really nice of Xiao Jun to give Huang a robe.

(27:00) And this is where the lag monster decided to eat my stream. And where I began to curse my sloth at not watching this series sooner, when it was more convenient.

(28:32) For a moment, I thought there’d be some Kylo Ren bullshit.

(28:45) Oh, but that doesn’t count for outside influence, does it? That poison, tranquilizers, or some sort of specially-tipped arrows, like silver or something?

(29:08) Oh, that swimming pool certainly isn’t going to come into play soon, is it?

(29:28) Wow. That was... being... prepared. Unless...

(29:58) That’s... kind of... fake...

(31:09) Guo? What’s going on?

(31:38) Oh. Oh. That explains that one scene in the opening, doesn’t it?

(32:52) Yeah, empathy for people that still exist tends to do that.

(33:11) Oh, hey, not!Ardyn.

(33:24) I wonder what @ninjatwins would say to this?

(34:40) I hope everyone took notes. This is going to be important later.

(35:33) Oh, so are we talking about not!Ardyn now?

(36:58) The fuck?

(37:28) Speak of Cao Cao, and Cao Cao appears.

(37:36) OH MY GOD THEY DID (Though I was waiting for “We live in the same building/complex/down the hall from each other”)

(38:31) What the hell.

(38:46) Guo. Stop.

(40:41) So Chu... you want to tear it all down?

(40:46) Is that a bug bug?

(42:16) Mirror thing? Welp, that’s for next episode.

[belladxne]

RWBY REACTION FOR EP 10

I haven’t even finished the intro and I can already tell it’s gonna be another episode where I can’t get more than a few seconds loaded at a time and I have to pause to buffer constantly.

Awww, Oscar, buddyyyy. I appreciate him he’s so smol.

...can these people find whatever the hell Ozpin is somehow??? How is one of them here??? and also leave Oscar alone he’s just smol???

If they share memories now Oscar shouldn’t ever have to ask “who is that” about someone Ozpin personally knows about tbh.

Just sort of cries on Qrow. Because I am always crying on Qrow, literally always openly weeping directly onto him.

Oh noooooo the sad bike.

“Do you know why?” “I think I have a pretty good idea.” well at least he’s not THAT dense, last ep I was like GUYS COME ON THIS IS OBVIOUS.

oh no the flashback has started im not ready iM NOT READY TO SEE SMOL BABBY REN

DON’T DO THIS TO ME HIS SMILE IS TOO PRECIOUS TOO PURE I FEEL A PHYSICAL PAIN IN MY CHEST NOTHING BAD SHOULD EVER HAVE HAPPENED TO THIS BABY

“Little Lie” TOO CUTE ILLEGAL

LET 👏 MY 👏 BOY 👏 HAVE 👏 HIS 👏 FLOWERS 👏

This must be one of those small sweet villages where everyone knows each other and sees each other as practically extended family if she’s willing to let her child run around on his own with money at that age.

im CRYING “I WANT ALL THE PRETTY FLOWERS AND ALSO A GIANT SWORD BUT IF I CAN’T HAVE THAT I’LL GET DAD SOME SAKE” this is a boy who knows what he wants I love him.

OH NO OH NO NORA

L E A V E  M Y  B A B Y  G I R L  A L O N E

of course my baby girl bit people i Love Her but shE’S SO SMOL AND SAD SAVE HER

Oh shit Ren’s dad is Hot I know where Ren gets it now damn

“Sometimes the worst action to take is no action at all” look man you broke up the little bullying ring and that’s nice and all but you could have offered the clearly homeless little girl some actual food or stopped her from running to help her so I didn’t see you taking The Most action either

They just be leaving their kid all alone all the time no wonder his parents died and he didn’t they were probably across the fucking city from each other 90% of the time at this rate

Okay also as evidenced by Qrow’s muttering last episode, the poison is clearly giving him nightmares, and then these two are sad and worried, what I am saying is yeah there’s no way grimm wouldn’t be attracted to this Most Pathetic of parties

This is a Good Talk and I’m glad for it but it’s hard to focus on it when I can’t hear through myself crying on Qrow y’know

SHE IS SO SHORT AND JAUNE IS SO TALL I’M LAUGHING this is me with all of my friends

the video stopped loading for the umpteenth time once the flashback started so in theory if I don’t watch it nothing bad happens to Ren’s family and he grows up happy amirite...

HOLY SHIT THAT WENT TOO BAD TOO FAST FIRST MOM’S ALL “EVERYTHING’S OKAY” AND THEN MOM WHAT MOM THERE IS NO MOM JUST A PILE OF RUBBLE

MY POOR SON

I saw The Beast but we know from the symbol that it was Raven’s tribe that did this, so #Conspiracy Theory Time while I wait for the video to load, can EVERYONE from Qrow and Raven’s tribe shift into some kind of animal and someone can turn into a giant fuckoff beast that sucks???

this is THE WORST TIME FOR MY VIDEO TO START LOADING EVEN SLOWER

YEAH WHATEVER THE FREAKY HORSE THING AND THE FREAKY THING RIDING THE HORSE WERE I’M NOT FEELING IT

I love bow and arrow action though I’m gonna focus on my love of archery instead of my physical pain in my heart

NORA MY BOOR BABY SHE’S CRYING AND SHE’S SO SCARED I WANT TO PROTECT HER FOREVER

ren stop CRYING I CAN FEEL MY HEART SHATTERING I HATE THIS LET ME CLIMB THROUGH MY COMPUTER SCREEN AND SCOOP THEM UP AND PROTECT THEM PLEASE I’VE NEVER FELT SO HELPLESS IN MY LIFE THEY’RE JUST BABIES LEAVE THEM ALONE

OH HEY was that his aura activating for the first time, his semblance activating for the first time, or both??? Either way I’m die??? And I’m love him??? and I’VE NEVER BEEN PROUDER OF ANYONE IN MY WHOLE LIFE. SOME DAY I WILL HAVE A REAL CHILD AND I WILL BE MORE PROUD OF LIE REN IN THIS MOMENT THAN ANYTHING MY CHILD EVER DOES I’M SORRY SWEETIE BUT YOU JUST CAN’T TOP THIS.

lies facedown on the floor and weeps openly and sob-sings YOU’RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME, YOU’VE BEEN MY FAMILY, EVEN WHEN ALL OTHER HOPE WAS GONE

Lie Ren, my infant son, is already a better and braver person than you will have been, ever, in your entire life, and he deserves Better, and I’m love him,

SO ARE YOU TELLING ME MY SON’S SEMBLANCE IS THE ABILITY TO CALM OR MASK EMOTIONS OR LIKE... ANYWAYS IM DYING SQUIRTLE THIS HUG IS EVERYTHING I’VE EVER NEEDED OUT OF MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE

“I’m scared” “Me too” IM SO SAD PLEASE IM GONNA LITERALLY DIE if you don’t love Lie Ren you can get the hell out of my fACE

is this fuCKIGN the orIGIN OF HER OBSESSION WITH HAMMERS

OH NO I RECOGNIZE THIS THIS IS THE TUNE OF BOOP

“We’ll keep each other safe” I’M LITERALLY GETTING TEARY EYED I’M FEELINGS THINGS I’M GOING TO DIE WHO GAVE THEM PERMISSION TO DO THIS TO ME I HATE

“We never get the easy path, do we?”

they’ve come such a long way and i’m so sad i’m SO SAD I WASN’T EMOTIONALLY READY FOR THIS “You okay?” “Mmhm. You?” “I’ve got you here, don’t I?” IM LITERALLY GOING TO DIE HIS SMILE I HATE EVERYTHING

omfg “I suppose there’s only one way to find--aGH” im crying

NORA PLEASE DON’T TELL HIM TO WAIT, FOLLOW HIM, DO NOT SPLIT UP OR LET EACH OTHER OUT OF EACH OTHER’S SIGHT EVER AT ANY POINT PLEASE SPLITTING UP WAS DANGEROUS ENOUGH ALREADY

Sure, walk in to the blood-or-something-splattered weapon graveyard cave, great idea, LIKE I UNDERSTAND THAT THAT’S YOUR DAD’S ARROW BUT PLS BE SAFE BE SMART

Okay so the thing we all thought was the symbol of Raven’s tribe WAS some sort of track... so does it actually tie into her tribe or did she just fuck up that village and it came of its own accord because of the negativity? I mean, we were told that is exactly how grimm work, so.

akjsfjsgdhsSKDGHSGH LEAVE MY CHILDREN ALONE LET THEM HOLD HANDS IN PEACE DON’T BE AWFUL TO THEM OR NEAR THEM OR AROUND THEM OR TO ANYONE THEY KNOW LEAVE EVERYONE ALONE