#this is a cry for help to my boss

[aquarines]

it's because your always on that damn email

[knightinink]

The first time Fizz messed up an act, Cash blew up on him, shouting & cursing every worst possible thing one could say. It took everything within Fizzarolli to not break down crying until he was in Blitzo’s arms, & Blitzo hates it when Fizz cries.

It breaks his heart more than anything.

[blitzwhore]

Hold on, man... I'm having Thoughts and Emotions...

What if Stolas and Octavia made plans to watch the solar eclipse together on Earth to make up for not seeing Azathoth's tears? And maybe Octavia suddenly suggested inviting Blitzø and Loona over as well, since they were all together that other time, too?

And when Blitzø sees the awkward text from Stolas inviting them (I'd understand if you're busy or would rather not come, but Octavia seemed keen on the idea of seeing Loona again), he isn't sure he wants to go, because things with Stolas have been so weird lately, and he's deeply in denial about the feelings they have for one another. But Loona kicks him in the butt about it because he's being stupid, and so he reluctantly texts Stolas trying to sound as nonchalant as possible (shur y nut, portal plz) while freaking out inside.

And he doesn't know what he was expecting as he crossed that portal, but a mountaintop above the clouds is definitely not it.

“Thank you for coming,” Stolas says, and Blitzø can't help but notice the way Stolas bows to him—and then he pushes that information aside, not knowing what to do with it. “I hope the localisation is fine, and not too cold. Anywhere else would've been too crowded.”

“It's whatever,” Blitzø shrugs, and hates the way some of the light leaves Stolas' smile. He's only been here for half a minute and he's already messed things up.

Next to them, Octavia is explaining the intricacies of solar eclipses in detail to Loona. Absent-mindedly, Blitzø notices the way Loona softens around Via, but keeps it to himself, not wanting to be kicked in the nuts. Instead, he looks around for a semi-comfortable stone and plops down on it, wincing when Stolas sits carefully by his side.

He's searching desperately for something to say when Stolas announces, “Look up, everyone, it's about to start!”

At first, Blitzø notices nothing. Well, nothing but the mild discomfort of staring directly at the sun.

But then he sees it. The moon—a corner of it, anyway—overtaking the powerful star. And, for a second, he can't breathe.

Of course, the partial eclipse lasts long enough that conversation sparks up again, though awkward and sporadic. Stolas asks about work, Via talks about the moon's mountains. Blitzø tries to quieten the voice that says he doesn't deserve to be here.

But when the total eclipse nears, they're all too entranced to talk. As darkness washes over the sea of clouds below them, the seconds seem to slow, and each of his heartbeats thrums through him, echoing in the ground underneath him. He's one with the earth and the sky, and, when it all goes dark, the whole universe stops breathing with him to experience this.

He only remembers to breathe when, in the complete darkness, he feels thin, long fingers curling around his own.

Too entranced to remember all the reasons why he's not allowed to want this, Blitzø squeezes Stolas' hand firmly back.

They are one. Of course they are. How could they not be, when the sun and the moon themselves are?

It's less than two minutes before the sunlight begins regaining its territory and washing away the darkness, but it might as well be a lifetime.

A lifetime he spends with Stolas' hand clasped firmly in his own, surrounded by their daughters, marvelling at the vastness of the universe. Feeling like, maybe, they're all insignificant enough to deserve all the love they can find.

But, inevitably, the moment passes and reality settles back in.

Blitzø doesn't want the moment to end, but, of course, the moment doesn't care. And, too scared to keep holding on to a hope that feels as fragile and ephemeral as an eclipse, Blitzø lets go of Stolas' hand.

[waittheydontloveyou]

Im ok. Promise. Just felt like something different. Cut over a foot off and currently Teal(green/yellows in there bc I don’t know wtf I’m doing and it’s patchy and I didn’t buy enough bleach but I’m impatient and yadayada). LOL

[going-balls-deep]

[synth-spinner]

It's honestly so scary how much peters story is kind of paralleling his otto's story in the first game with the descent into rage, violence and possibly evil due to an obsession over a goal coupled with a really unfortunate personality altering external force that they still want to keep because of the power and assurance it gives them.. and then also their mentees will have to fight them because there's no way miles isn't going to have to battle peter with his electric powers at some point and it's gonna be such an INSANE parallel I will start crying and afterwards what's gonna happen how's peter gonna deal with that huh. If he realises the parallel and what he just did do you get it do y-

[arabellaa222]

when it's gonna be my turn, don't forget me

I honestly haven't been feeling like a real person lately idk what's wrong w me atp. I feel trapped in the restaurant. way way way behind everyone and like no matter how fast I run I'll only splinter and shatter. there's no catching up. I'm deeply forgotten and lost. I can't make this sound poetic. it is what it is <\3

hoping that the greatest of them have felt this way at some point so it's fine I guess (with a stone hard throat ofc)

[whaleiumsharkspeare]

Me: *googles “is it okay to take a mental health day from work” because I pretty much never call off work unless I’m actually sick but I had such a terrible day today that I just kinda want to take a breather but doing so makes me feel guilty*

[crplpunkklavier]

not to be totally #uninspirational but being disabled sucks actually and it makes you not able to do some things that youd really wish you could do. disabled, if you will

[maespri]

my habit of refusinf to do palaces/dungeons in more than One go in persona 5 is causing me SEVERE PROBLEMS IN MY PERSONA 4 PLAYTHROUGH

[jvstn0th1ng]

WHY DID I WATCH THE FULL MOON. MY FRIEND TOLD ME NOT TO WATCH IT AND THAT ID BAWL MY EYES OUT. (did I listen? no.) ☹️

[thisbisexualbrainrot]

pls send me Stolitz fic recs im very sad

[imsorryiscrapedmyknee]

HELLLPPP SHE LOOKS LIKE ALASTOR FROM HAZBIN HOTEL IM CRYING

[ilkkawhat]

HE NOW HAS THE CLASSIC OUTFIT ON THE SHORE OF CAULDRON LAKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[deathsmallcaps]

I swear. I comprehend I’m not the best teaching intern in the world. I also was not the best camp counselor, cashier, and so on. But if my observer gives me so much criticism that I cry again I’m going to be so motherfucking pissed.

Especially since she’s asking me to stay late just to review me. While I have family visiting. And I’m gone for most of the day. And my commute is over half an hour. Which isn’t bad around here but still.