#this has so little of raph because those two so rarely have any friction

[yellowhollyhock]

Roches songs Donny analysis

Us Little Kids

Two three four

Humpty Dumpty go Humpty Dump dah dah dah

Remember how Donny likes to take apart the toaster? I imagine he was the kid who took apart whatever he could get his hands on. Probably sometimes his brothers' toys. His intention was always to put it back together! Chances are that didn't always end up happening.

I think, considering how little they had to call their own, breaking each other's things would be a big deal for the turtle tots. Maybe especially Donny, as much as gift giving is how he expresses himself. Whether he breaks something or something of his is broken, it cuts a little deeper than it probably should.

I get so sad

Just thinking of you

All the good time we had

I hurt your feelings

You hurt my feelings

But we had fun too

That's not so bad

SAINW. Mikey 'where the shell were you?!' Leo 'Raph. April's guys didn't say anything about you being here.' Raph 'Don? No way!' (zero anger towards him no questions immediate relief and acceptance. I'm fine) Things were so tense and in such a short time there was only so much he could understand, let alone do. I imagine he's a lot more sensitive about their relationships after that incident.

At the same time though--this never happens. No matter how much thy fight (they all do sometimes) this family has each other's backs. We had fun too--that's not so bad.

Is there a reason

These things happen

Like a snow day in July?

Sometimes I might cry

But then I snicker

That's the see saw

You and I

This really makes me think of Mikey. The idea of a see saw, like wow you really crossed a line this time, no we're not talking I'm annoyed--wait no please keep laughing keep smiling the world is so dark I need the light in your eyes. Forget it I'm not that annoyed.

Snow day in July--Leo going cold and being on everyone's case after Ch'rell goes to prison, when it seems like they should be relieved and celebrating.

See saw, us little kids, see saw

Look what we did

Watching the sun go down on a game

I wish we made up

I wish we made up

Sun go down on a game--Battle Nexus. Leo gets poisoned, Master Splinter's in prison--okay problems solved. And Mikey is the Battle Nexus champion! That's... good and bad. hoo boy forget being annoyed about him bragging how are you going to deal with what this causes between him and Raph. "I don't wanna see this."

Donny always seems particularly sensitive about conflict in the family. Doesn't like to be around it. Rolls his eyes and pouts. "One big happy family" <- the most sarcastic and bitter sentence we ever get from him I think. Normally his voice is like honey but boy his expression can be vinegar when he's upset.

Cool thing though--they did make up! They do make up, every time. His family deals with a lot of grief, but this isn't one of them, this particular regret. They always stick together

there's a lot he doesn't tell them

don't have to make up if you never fight can't fight if you never bring up problems

Wherever you are

I hope you're happy

Is that a stupid thing to say?

It is the simple things that matter

Perhaps I'll find you another way

Remembering what it felt like when Leo was away with the Ancient One. Also, thinking about Cody after Fast Forward. And Kirby, and Sydney, and the Ytlantians. I'll find you another way.

Leo most of all, though

Watching the sun go down on a game

I wish we made up

I wish we made up

Down down down

I feel lonely

Off and on now

But didn't I

When I was younger

Stand in my shadow

Without a friendship

Little worried

What I'd become

Can you imagine how the way they grew up affects them as adults? It's all great to think as one, to fight like a well-oiled machine. Until you have a job and you're trying to change the world but you're just one rusty gear turning uselessly. The turtles depend so much on each other--they had to. But then when they're adults with sever trauma, going separate ways because they just have different ways to go, all of a sudden no one can know what they're thinking just from sharing a look. Raph isn't here to speak up if something's unfair, do you even know what you think is unfair? Mikey's not here to be your resilience, you had a sense of humor you're sure you did, where is it? Leo's not there to be your courage--you always believed in your brothers, you always believed in yourself. Right? Or were you just borrowing his belief?

Shadows are a ninja's friend, but spending your childhood there has consequences

See saw, us little kids, see saw

Look what we did

Watching the sun go down on a game

I wish we made up

I wish we made up

Down down down

I wish we made up

I wish we made up

Hey, there were good times. There are good times ahead. That's what see saws do. Down and back up