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chaicoqui · 6 years ago

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Favorite lyrics - thank u, next edition.

Ariana Grande latest album thank u, next released on February 8th, 2019.

imagine -

Kiss me and take off your clothes

Imagine a world like that Imagine a world like that We go like up 'til I'm 'sleep on your chest Love how my face fits so good in your neck

needy -

(the whole song tbh)

If you take too long to hit me back I can't promise you how I’ll react

Lately I've been on a roller coaster Tryna get a hold of my emotions

And I'ma scream and shout for what I love Passionate but I don't give no fucks I admit that I'm a lil' messed up But I can hide it when I'm all dressed up I'm obsessive and I love too hard Good at overthinking with my heart How you even think it got this far? This far

And I can be needy, way too damn needy I can be needy, tell me how good it feels to be needed I can be needy, so hard to please me I know it feels so good to be needed

Sorry if I'm up and down a lot (Yeah) Sorry that I think I'm not enough And sorry if I say sorry way too much You can go ahead and call me selfish (Selfish) But after all this damage I can't help it (Help it)

I know it feels so good to be needed

NASA -

I'd rather be alone tonight You can say "I love you" through the phone tonight

And when I miss you, it'll change the way I kiss you Baby, you know time apart is beneficial It's like I'm the universe and you'll be N-A-S-A

Give you the whole world, I'ma need space

Bottom line Usually I would love it if you stay the night I just think I'm on another page tonight It ain't nothing wrong with saying I need me time

bloodline -

Don't want you in my bloodline, yuh Just wanna have a good time, yuh

Not tryna make you all mine, yuh

fake smile -

Another night, another party, sayin' hi to everybody I’m sorry, it's time to leave, I gotta leave now

I can't fake another smile I can't fake like I'm alright Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah) And I won't say I'm feeling fine After what I been through, I can’t lie Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)

Fuck a fake smile, smile Fuck a fake smile, fake smile

If I'm hurt, I ain't gon' lie about it Arms crossed with the attitude, lips pouted If I'm mad, I ain't gon' lie about it Neck roll with the attitude, yeah

bad idea -

(I didn’t like this song much)

make up -

I like to fuck with you just to make up with you

'Cause the way you be screamin' my name

Make me wanna make love to you

At the end of the day, boy

You know that I'm 'bout to wake up with youI love it when we make up (Yeah eh eh)

Go 'head, ruin my make up (Yeah eh eh)

ghostin -

I know you hear me when I cry I try to hold it in the night While you're sleepin' next to me But it's your arms that I need this time (This time)

You been so understanding, you been so good And I'm puttin' you through more than one ever should And I'm hating myself 'cause you don't want to Admit that it hurts you

I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again Over him, mmh I know that it breaks your heart when I cry again 'Stead of ghostin' him

Though I wish he were here instead

Don't want that living in your head

He just comes to visit me

When I'm dreaming every now and then (And then)

in my head -

Painted a picture, I thought I knew you well I got a habit of seeing what isn't there Caught in the moment, tangled up in your sheets When you broke my heart, I said you only wanted half of me

My imagination's too creative They see demon, I see angel (angel) angel Without a halo, wingless angel

Falling, falling, but I never thought you'd leave me Falling, falling, needed something to believe in, oh I thought you were the one But it was all in my head It was all in my head (Skrrt, skrrt)

Yeah, look at you, boy, I invented you

Wanted you to grow, but, boy, you wasn’t budding Everything you are made you everything you aren't I saw your potential without seein' credentials (-entials) Maybe that's the issue (Yeah, yeah) Said maybe that’s the issue, ah Can't hold that shit against you, ah Guess I did it to myself, yeah Thought you were somebody else, you

7 rings -

Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch Who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage? Rather be tied up with calls and not strings Write my own checks like I write what I sing, yeah (Yeah)

You like my hair? Gee, thanks, just bought it I see it, I like it, I want it, I got it (Yeah)

Wearing a ring, but ain't gon' be no "Mrs." Bought matching diamonds for six of my bitches I'd rather spoil all my friends with my riches Think retail therapy my new addiction

Whoever said money can't solve your problems Must not have had enough money to solve 'em They say, "Which one?" I say, "Nah, I want all of 'em" Happiness is the same price as red-bottoms

Yeah, my receipts, be lookin' like phone numbers If it ain't money, then wrong number

I don't mean to brag, but I be like, "Put it in the bag, " yeah When you see them racks, they stacked up like my ass, yeah

Ain't got enough money to pay me respect

Ain't no budget when I'm on the set

If I like it, then that's what I get, yeah

thank u, next -

(the whole song’s bop lbfh)

Thought I'd end up with Sean But he wasn't a match Wrote some songs about Ricky Now I listen and laugh Even almost got married And for Pete, I'm so thankful Wish I could say, "Thank you" to Malcolm 'Cause he was an angel

One taught me love One taught me patience And one taught me pain Now, I'm so amazing I've loved and I've lost But that's not what I see So, look what I got Look what you taught me And for that, I say

Thank you, next (next) Thank you, next (next) Thank you, next I'm so fuckin' grateful for my ex

Spend more time with my friends I ain't worried 'bout nothin' Plus, I met someone else We havin' better discussions I know they say I move on too fast But this one gon' last 'Cause her name is Ari And I'm so good with that (so good with that)

She taught me love (love) She taught me patience (patience) How she handles pain (pain) That shit's amazing (yeah, she's amazing) I've loved and I've lost (yeah, yeah) But that's not what I see (yeah, yeah) 'Cause look what I've found (yeah, yeah) Ain't no need for searching

One day I'll walk down the aisle Holding hands with my mama I'll be thanking my dad 'Cause she grew from the drama Only wanna do it once, real bad Gon' make that shit last God forbid something happens Least this song is a smash

I've got so much love (love) Got so much patience (patience) I've learned from the pain (pain) I turned out amazing (turned out amazing) I've loved and I've lost (yeah, yeah) But that's not what I see (yeah, yeah) 'Cause look what I've found (yeah, yeah) Ain't no need for searching And for that, I'll say

Thank you, next (thank you, next)

break up with your girlfriend, i’m bored -

You got me some type of way (Hmm) Ain't used to feelin' this way (Mmm-mmm) I do not know what to say (Yeah, yeah) But I know I shouldn't think about it Took one fuckin' look at your face (Hmm) Now I wanna know how you taste (Mmm-mmm) Usually don't give it away (Yeah, yeah) But you know I'm out here thinkin' 'bout it Then I realized she's right there And I'm at home like, "Damn, this ain't fair"Break up with your girlfriend Yeah, yeah, 'cause I'm bored You can hit it in the mornin' (Mornin') Yeah, yeah, like it's yours I know it ain't right But I don't care (Care)

You can say I'm hatin' if you want to But I only hate on her 'cause I want you Say I'm trippin' if you feel that But you without me ain't right (Ain't right) You can call me crazy 'cause I want you And I never even never fuckin' met you Say I'm trippin' and it ain't right But you without me ain't nice (Ain't nice, yeah)

#ariana grande #thank u next #favorite lyrics

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scarletscreamo · 6 years ago

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The Way I Loved You - Connor Murphy x Reader

He is sensible and so incredible And all my single friends are jealous He says everything I need to hear and it's like I couldn't ask for anything better You stared into the mirror at yourself, gently smoothing the skirt of your dress. It was you and Evan's 6 month anniversary. After everything that happen with The Connor Project and his lying, you ended up forgiving him in college, despite the false hope he had given you about your ex boyfriend's social life. You heard a familiar soft knock on your door and rushed over to answer it. You opened the door to Evan standing there with a bouquet of lilies. "Happy anniversary, dear." You smiled fondly taking the flowers as he stepped inside, "These are lovely Evan. Thank you. Let me put them in a vase and then we'll go." "Make sure you-" "Snip the ends." You giggled, kissing his cheek. "I know babe." You headed to the kitchen and grabbed the gardening scissors Evan had gotten you on your fourth date. You began snipping the flowers and placing them in a pretty vase filled halfway with water. He opens up my door and I get into his car And he says, you look beautiful tonight And I feel perfectly fine We finally got outside and Evan, as usual, opened the car door for me. I got in shooting him a grateful smile. He got in the driver's side and began driving to our destination. "You look beautiful tonight, (Y/N)." I smiled at him even though he kept his eyes firmly on the road. "Thank you Evan. You look quite handsome as well." But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name You're so in love that you act insane And that's the way I loved you You couldn't help but think back to your 6th month with Connor. You nervously played with your hair as you waited outside your house. Your parents didn't like Connor very much so you always agreed to meet him outside. Finally after what seemed like hours of fiddling with your clothes, Connor's beat up truck finally pulled up. He got out and walked around the car, his eyes glimmering with a certain emotion you couldn't quite place as they rolled over your outfit. You walked over as you took in his slightly cleaned up look. Non-ripped jeans, a plain black t shirt, and a grey hoodie. That was about as fancy as Connor could get. He immediately wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you into a feverish kiss. You giggled into it knowing he did it solely because of your mom watching out of the kitchen window. He always loved shoving your relationship in their face. He pulled away when both of you were completely breathless. "You look cute." You smirked at him playfully. "Just cute? I spent at least 30 minutes on this outfit." "I'll tell you, you look like trash next time. Be grateful." You laughed lightly as you opened his truck door and climbed inside. Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you You pulled up to your usual spot at the local park. It was long closed but you knew where to get in every time. Connor pulled up the broken bit of fence allowing you to get in first before following closely. He put an arm around you leading you into the small wooded area of the park. He then got behind you and covered your eyes. You quickly grabbed his hands trying to pull them off. "Connor! I'm gonna run into a tree!" He clicked his tongue disapprovingly. "So little faith in me. I'm hurt really." You giggled as he pressed his chest to your back and guided you. "I didn't mean it like that you dumb ass!" "Rude." He uncovered your eyes and you let out a gasp at what you saw around you. Your little clearing was covered in fairy lights and had a small picnic in the middle. Connor rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. "I know it's not much but-" You tackled him in a hug. "Connor, it's perfect!" He gave you his usual half smile before leading you over to the picnic. You spent the rest of the night cuddled up eating the fast food he had bought. It may not have been perfect for every girl but it was perfect for you. He respects my space and never makes me wait And he calls exactly when he says he will He's close to my mother Talks business with my father He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable You and Evan decided to visit your parents for Thanksgiving. Your mom greeted him with a hug and your dad immediately pulled him into a conversation about college. You watched with a heavy feeling in your chest. You always got this way when watching your boyfriend and parents interact. It felt like something was off but you never explored the ideas further in fear of what you might find. Your mom pulled you into the kitchen to help with dinner. "You know, Evan's a really nice boy." You gave your mom a side glance as you cut up the carrots. "Yeah..." "Nice husband material." You choked on air giving her a flustered look. "Mom! Evan and I aren't that serious!" "You've been together for almost a year (Y/N)! When will you be serious?" You paused at that looking back to your task. "Definitely not now." She stared at you for a long moment. "Is it because of Connor?" Your whole back tensed at the mention of his name. "What?" "I'm just saying, it's been 3 years and you should be more than ready to-" "Don't!" You turned to her with a volatile glare. "Don't you dare talk about him, about what we had, like it's a simple breakup! You don't know anything about what happened between me and Connor!" She blinked at you in surprise as you stabbed the knife into the cutting board and stalked off. You headed up to your old room which was still the same as you left it. You walked over to your bed and sat down feeling under the edge of the bed until you found the small envelope taped to the side of the frame. You pulled it out and opened it up pulling out the letter and picture that resided inside. You stared at the picture of Connor's half smiling face with your lips pressed against his cheek, with a lovely view of the night time city behind you. You smiled sadly as you looked at it, thinking about the day it was taken. But I miss screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name You're so in love that you act insane And that's the way I loved you You pulled Connor along eagerly as you walked through the fair. Connor had been feeling particularly down that day and what better way to cheer someone up then a fair? You gasped as you spotted a Ferris wheel. "Let's go on it!" He grumbled reluctantly as you pulled his dragging feet along. You got in line and ended up in a red car going up slowly. You watched the sunset with wide eyes as you leaned against Connor. He put an arm around you instantly causing you to look up at him. "Sorry about being a depressed fuck all day. I know this is supposed to be our date night." You smiled kissing his cheek. "You can make it up to me by letting me take a picture of us." He half smiled rolling his eyes as you reached the top and stopped. "Fine." You cheered and pulled out your phone leaning up and kissing his cheek as you snapped the picture. You knew you couldn't exactly pull him out of his depression by force but small outings like this really felt like they could help. Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you "God, why are you so annoying?!" You glared at Connor strongly despite the hurt in your chest. "Why are you so depressing all the time!? Just once I'd like to not have to drag my boyfriend out of the house just to get him to smile at me! Just once I'd like to have a boyfriend who wants to go out and show me off not keep me like a dirty secret!" "Well why don't you go find one then!? Maybe you can date someone who isn't a shitty boyfriend who doesn't even know why you bother to stay!" You immediately calmed down seeing the hurt written across his face hidden by a thin veil of anger. "Connor..." "Just leave already!" You reluctantly left him alone knowing it was usually best to let him calm down a bit before trying to talk to him. You headed back to class knowing that if you skipped another one they'd become suspicious. If only you had stayed with him, you thought pitifully as you stared at the picture perfect couple forever frozen in their happy state. He'd left school after that fight and never came back. You found out the day after that he had ended his own life. They found him in the park, at your spot with a bottle of pills. You knew there probably wasn't much you could've done but you never could stop the if only's. He can't see the smile I'm fakin' And my heart's not breakin' 'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all You finally went back downstairs after putting the envelope securely in your pocket. Evan met you at the bottom of the stairs with a worried look. "You okay? Your mom said you had a fight about... him." You put on your best fake smile, one you wore a lot around this time of year. "Yeah I'm fine." He smiled back sadly, kissing your lips quickly. "Just tell me if you need anything." You tried to feel something, anything; a rush of warmth, nerves, a feeling of comfort, but his kiss did nothing to you. And you were wild and crazy Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated Got away by some mistake and now You remembered what you felt the first time Connor kissed you. You had been arguing playfully about some horror movie you had just watched... "I'm telling you, they would've lived if they just accepted that their kids were insane." You scoffed at him. "Is that what you would do to our children at the first sign of trouble? Just write them off as insane." He smirked with raised eyebrows. "If they put our pet goldfish in a sandwich then yeah!" You tried to continue glaring at him but you broke and began laughing with him. You didn't even realize he had begun leaning closer to you until you felt chapped lips press against yours. Your stomach flipped and tied itself in a knot as you kissed back, cautiously putting your hands on his jaw. You chest felt warm, your heart was exploding with feeling, your breaths felt as if they made your chest tighter and tighter each time. You both pulled away for a moment looking at each other before you quickly pulled him back. You continued this for what seemed like years, pulling back only to allow yourselves to catch your breath before pulling each other back in. It was rushed and frantic, but so full of adoration and emotion that you couldn't help but want more. I'll be screamin' and fightin' And kissin' in the rain It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name I'm so in love that I acted insane And that's the way I loved you You stared at your bedroom ceiling in the dark as Evan slept soundly next to you, unable to stop thinking. You looked at the time to see the bright 2:46 am lights staring back at you. You sighed silently getting up and heading downstairs. You grabbed your jacket on the way out the door and walked down the familiar streets to the park. You smiled slightly when you saw that they still hadn't fixed the fence. You pulled it back and snuck in. You followed the familiar pull until you ended up at your clearing. You sat down against the tree, surprised to see your little makeshift cross was still stuck in the ground. You pulled out the envelope from your pocket and pulled out the letter. You opened it slowly revealing Connor's neat handwriting. Hey. So if you're reading this, that means I'm dead. I guess I'm just not strong enough to make it through this. Face it, no one else cares, hell maybe you don't even care. Who's to say? But I will always care about you. You were the first person to tell me I mattered. The first person to truly even act like they cared about me. I will cherish every moment we spent together. And don't you dare blame yourself for this. I know we just had a fight and you're probably thinking 'what if I stayed' but it was pointless from the start. I'm a lost cause, (Y/N). I won't ever be fixed. So please try to move on from me. I know it won't be easy but hey, when have you ever taken the easy route? Forever yours, Connor. (God, that sounds gay). You chuckled through your tears as you pressed the letter to your chest, to your heart. "God, Connor. You really were a romantic, huh?" You let a small sob as you looked to the cross next to you. "I know you said to move on but how!? What we had... I'll never even get to know if it was... if you were 'the one', y'know? It was something we had to work for and you weren't exactly prince charming but it was real! It was something we both wanted, something that made us happy! And now..." You deflated slightly leaning your head back to the look at the trees. "I'm with Evan... and he's 'prince charming'," You drawled out sarcastically scowling slightly. "He's perfect. All my friends are jealous, my dad is practically adopting him, and mom... she's asking when we're getting married. I tried to say we weren't serious but it's been a year! She was right! If not now, when will we be serious?" Breakin' down and comin' undone It's a roller-coaster kinda rush And I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you You winced as you woke up feeling a sharp pain in your lower back. You blinked your eyes open to see you had fallen asleep in your clearing. You sighed getting up slowly and glancing down at the makeshift cross in the ground. You blinked in surprise when you saw a flower sitting there. It's the same flowers that grow here every summer but it was the middle of November. You slowly picked it up and carefully put it in your hair smiling slightly. "Is this your version of a sign Connor? Saying to stop being stupid." "Stop being stupid babe. You look great with flowers in your hair." You could almost hear his voice in your head. "All you have to do is try. Just tell him the truth. You've lasted this long, right? And you do feel something for him... just try harder." You swallowed the lump in your throat and decided to head back. When you got back Evan immediately pulled you into a hug rambling about how worried he was when you weren't there. "You could've gotten hurt or worse! Don't do that!" "Evan!" He stopped talking giving you a worried look. "We need to talk." He nodded sitting down with you on the couch and holding your hand tightly. "About what dear?" You sucked in a breath before explaining your feelings to him softly. Everything, from your struggle with accepting Connor's death still to your feelings for him, even the fact that you want to work things out and actually try to be with him. You didn't know why but as Evan began explaining that he had been feeling something similar but more related towards his old feelings for Zoe, you felt as if some weight had been lifted and like someone was smiling at you from across the room. When you looked up you half expected to see your mom but instead you saw nothing but a glimpse of an old grey hoodie. And that's the way I loved you I never knew I could feel that much And that's the way I loved you

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