#this format sucks mb💀💀

[degenerateshinji]

that one grocery store omake

(@thelittleprinceconfirmed i stole your shirt its mine now)

[causenessus]

THANK YOU REE FOR FILLING MY NOTIFICATIONS I AM ALWAYS SO HAPPY TO SEE SOMETHING FROK U!! DON'T BE SORRY AT ALL <3

❥ started writing

since forever!!! my sister first introduced me to fanfics so many years ago <3 maybe probably around like fifth or sixth grade! i honestly still have so many notes written down for story ideas from different fandoms over the course of the years LOL

❥ started blogging

i've literally come back to tumblr like three times it's so funny 💀 I probably first made my account in 2017?? mb?? and then definitely the second time I came back it was in 2020, and then came back again at the start of 2023 I believe with a completely new user and everything

❥ followers

i'm at 998 followers rn LMAOOO this is crazy I'm so grateful for each and every single person that follows me and am literally flabbergasted people have notifications on for me <3 I'm trying to think of an event or something to do yk for 1k followers!! but I just have no ideas or I'm scared it won't get a lot of participation 😭 which is why sometimes I post extra things (my self indulgence-y is thru the roof) as my special milestone posts

❥ communication

i have so much social anxiety and am super introverted 😭 I think it shows a little bit bc I've always been a super apologetic and quiet person!! still am in person but it's a little easier for me online although I still suck at like posting things other than my writing on my blog. like I want to post random rants or just things going on in my life which I've been getting better at but sometimes I just get scared bc I'm like "why does anyone care 💀" I love interacting with people though!! followers, readers, mutuals, anyone <3

❥ likes

i'm so thankful for any interactions!! it does not matter to me what that looks like, I totally get being terrified of reblogging bc I still get that fear so it's not a big deal to me. it's always fun to see like comments/what people think in the tags yk but that's just bc they make me giggle and it lets me know what people think!!

❥ requests

my requests are always open!! it's always such an honor that someone would come asking for me to write out their ideas yk but like ree mentioned i won't force myself to write something i'm not feeling (or i'll ruminate it on months and see if i can cook up something)

❥ writing

I LOVE WRITING!!! i've become completely self indulgent lolol like i think when i first started posting for hq my headcanons lowkey blew up so i tried to follow that format but then i stopped caring and also eggy came into my life <3 and i started writing smaus which have been so fun!! like honestly in my entire life of writing i have never finished a work. i always lose interest or motivation but now i have three completed works!! my older writing honestly used to be a lot more venting/therapeutic/comfort stuff i needed but atp...i've repressed my entire childhood...i keep trying to tap into those memories so i can write deeper stuff BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER ANYMORE LMAO 😭

❥ works i'm proud of

definitely new grounds and cold kisses!! i had so much fun writing them and ofc i've been gushing all over love notes which is an upcoming smau <3 also my headcannons for atsumu and oikawa not being playboys (honestly my recent works is my entire list of works i'm proud of, there's a reason binary stars isn't on it LOL)

tags (if u so desire!!): @eggyrocks @kitnootkat @cr4yolaas + anyone else that would like to!!

Behind the scenes of a Tumblr Writer - Tag Game

Hey there, I love behind the scenes and since this is something that's rarely talked about, let me start the chain... if you feel uncomfortable with a question, just skip it. You can add some if you want as well.

Started writing: I wrote my first Harry Potter fanfic at age 10. Started posting around 15,16 years old. I'm now 31, so...

Started blogging: I started on a German fanfiction site around 2010/11 I think. Might have been earlier too, but back then I was mostly reading, no posting. I really started when I got into One Direction (very late, tbh)

Followers: Currently at 961, which is wild to me. I don't even know that many people IRL. I convince myself that half of them are bots tbh, so I don't freak out all the time.

Communication: The people I talk to regularly are: a few writers who answered after I constantly reblogged and commented on their works and a few people who commented and reblogged my work. Writing and blogging on here can be pretty lonely, depending on your personality and the time you're active (I'm from Europe and a lot of my followers seem to be living in Northern America, so there's the Timezone thing) ... And I found that the best way to strike a conversation is to reblog, comment, and to not be shy. I do wish I got more asks, though....

Likes: I actually filter them out. I have 793 original posts up at the moment. It doesn't give me anything to know how many likes a fic has other than to tell me which characters are liked more than others or maybe that one fic does especially well. My activity only shows me comments, asks, reblogs with tags, and answers to my own asks. I live for the tags and the comments.

Requests: I love talking to people about ideas. That's how I started the plotbunny game because I have so many ideas and so little time. And sometimes an idea just doesn't want to be written out fully. Requests are fun because YAY, I get some mail... but then I freak out because I don't really know how to write this NOW and then I freak out because it's been a week already, two weeks, wait, two months? I'd rather have suggestions where people tell me vague things like "I'd love to read something about this side character" or "Have you ever considered this character with a soulmate trope"? because then I don't have the feeling of failing the request when I write it a little bit differently.

Writing: I am a fast writer. I know that's one of my talents. I can churn out a oneshot of 1k words in less than an hour. People read slower than I write. That can suck sometimes because you've just posted this and you want to know what people are thinking but they're not as fast as you are. I do have a lot of ideas. I want to write constantly but my brain doesn't always want to. I am trying to respect that.

There are also certain things that I just feel wrong writing. I cannot write anything suggestive (I also don't like reading it) and everything past that gives me panic attacks. I can hardly write mean characters and jealousy feels so wrong to me that I cannot write it. I've also overdone it with the soulmark trope and now I feel like everything I write about it feels lifeless.

I write best in the mornings before going to work, but I don't have much time there. I don't need special music (but it helps), but I need to have at least some energy left and at best, no distractions. But I have been writing for over 20 years, so I will say experience helps a lot.

Tagging: @revasserium @shoulmate @lemurzsquad @screamin-abt-haikyuu @toomanygoldfish @satorisoup @emmyrosee @reverie-starlight @alienaiver and @writingsofanomnivore and everyone else who wants to join