#this fic is my entire personality now thanksssss

[dawnbreakersgaze]

First let me just-

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ‼️‼️‼️

🥹🥺😩 okay now that that's out of my system can we just talk about Grey calling you Angel for a fucking second real quick because IM- YOU- I WAS-

I didn't know I needed that in my life???!? I had to take a minute to just let those synapses connect because it's so sweet and the whole 'angel of mercy'/medical staff thing I'm like aahhhh~

And please the intern and Yv roasting him a little at the end 🤣 This was so cute and I'm so so incredibly humbled and grateful that I could help inspire more Greyson fans! This one definitely has a forever spot in my heart, like you have no idea ♡

Cardiology Runs on Caffeine

Figured I'd go ahead and contribute some to the Dr. Greyson fandom, inspired by @dawnbreakersgaze ! So enjoy.... this?

Third shifts can suck. Especially third shifts in retail. You have to hope that all of the stores you need are open by the time you get off work, or you have to keep yourself awake even longer to take care of errands, or wake up hours before your shift. Phone calls and appointments interrupting your sleep, killing your social time with non-third-shifters. 

Despite all of that, you wouldn’t trade third shift for the world. Sure, you get some… interesting customers, the occasional drunkard, but you also get the hard workers who are doing their best to keep things going till morning. The medical professionals, the students, the drivers, all of whom are so grateful that you’re still open. Those are your favorite customers. 

Just as you were thinking over that fact while tidying up behind the counter, you lifted your head when hearing the bell at the entrance to the cafe. 

“Welcome!” You greeted, just like always, only to get more genuinely excited when recognizing the familiar wavy brown hair from the doorway. “Ah, Dr. Greyson!” You greet, going to the counter. The poor man looked tired, but that didn’t stop him from offering you a brilliant smile that made your cheeks flush slightly. “Would you like your usual, or something new?”

Grayson hummed as he considered the offer. “Let’s go with a surprise.” He answered, nodding to himself as if to solidify the decision. 

You let out a small laugh as you started to get everything out, listening as he started to absently hum to the music playing on the radio. “Is this the start of your shift, or the end?” You asked curiously. How much caffeine does he need?

“It’s the start, and I have a feeling it’s going to be a long one.” He answered honestly, leaning against the counter to watch you work, even with your back to him at the moment. “But at least I’ll be starting it on the right foot, with some of your amazing handiwork to get me going.” By his tone alone you could picture the adorably confident grin on his face. 

You laughed at his flirtations, glancing over your shoulder at him, hoping your face wasn’t as flushed as it felt. “You flatter me, doctor~” 

You two fell into a comfortable silence as you worked, the radio filling the quiet. You did a few little tricks as you worked since it’s been a slow night and you can’t help it, really. Dr. Greyson is such a kind person, but well respected. The kind of man you can’t not like. Something about him compelled you to impress him, in what little ways that you could. 

It didn’t take long before you were offering him his cup, going through the usual transaction. “I know it’s easier said than done, but try to take care of yourself where you can, okay?” You asked him, glancing up from the register. “This might come as a shock, but I actually enjoy having you come by.” You teased, your smile widening to a more proper grin when seeing the tell-tale signs of a blush on his cheeks. 

Success!

Greyson let out a sheepish laugh, rubbing the back of his neck as he finally picked up his drink. “Aww, you flatter me!” He insisted, trying to keep his fluster from being quite so obvious, and failing spectacularly. 

You just grinned, settling your cheek in your hand. “I just speak the truth.” You returned playfully, knowing that you need to send him on his way soon… but you’re enjoying his company so much that you’re hesitant to remind him of the fact. Unfortunately, you know that you can’t be that selfish. 

“As much as I’d love to keep you all to myself, I should probably let you get going. Let you go be an awesome doctor, saving lives, all that amazing stuff.” You encouraged, even playfully moving your hands to shoo him out. 

Greyson laughed more heartily this time, leaving his usual tip for you as he got ready to leave, holding his free hand up in surrender. “Okay, okay, I’m leaving. But you need to take care of yourself too, okay?” He insisted, even pointing at you in playful ‘warning’ as he stood at the door, his grin never faltering. 

You offered him a salute in response, your amused giggles music to Greyson’s ears as he finally left to finish his walk to Akso. He already felt refreshed, and he hadn’t even tried the undoubtedly amazing drink you’d made for him yet. 

You hummed in content as you watched him go, your sorrow that your time with him today was so short gradually getting overshadowed as an idea began to form. 

And oh was this going to be beautiful. 

For the rest of your blissfully quiet shift, you were working on your little plan. Scouring your messages for information and prepping the materials. Perhaps this was some wild overkill, you aren’t even entirely certain if you could get away with it… but there’s only one way to find out! 

So once your shift ended and your coworker was there to take over for you, you gathered the drink carriers you’d just finished preparing, and headed in the same direction that Greyson had gone down just a few hours ago. You knew he worked at Akso Hospital, in the cardiology department, so you didn’t have to look completely foolish trying to figure out where he worked. 

Despite how brief your interactions always end up, you still managed to learn a lot about him and his coworkers, to the point you actually recognized some of them when they came in the first time at his suggestion. It still makes you chuckle, remembering their shocked and mildly concerned faces. Greyson had gotten such a kick out of it when you told him about it, to the point he had accidentally snorted hot coffee up his nose since you hadn’t timed it well enough. You still feel bad for that, no matter how much he insists it’s fine… 

Seeing Akso in front of you, you took a deep breath and walked in. The sun was just barely coming up, and honestly you were tired. But you’re also determined. Besides, if you’re tired, what of the doctors and nurses you’ve gotten to know here? 

Speaking of, you beamed when recognizing a familiar face at the front desk. “Yvonne!” You were quick to get to the front desk, careful not to spill your trays, setting them on the counter to let your wrists rest and to grab one of the cups out. 

“Well fancy seeing you here!” Yvonne returned, genuinely seeming surprised, but eyeing the cups hopefully. “I’m going to hope that you’re here to be an angel of caffeine, and not as a patient?” She asked, glancing up to you again. 

You nodded with a laugh, offering her a cup with her name on it. “I’m not here as a patient, no. I just got off work and thought it’d be fun to surprise everyone I could with a little ‘pick-me-up’. Greyson mentioned he had a feeling it was going to be a long day, so…” You trailed off as your cheeks warmed, offering a sheepish shrug to finish your mini-ramble. It didn’t help that Yvonne was grinning at you in such a cat-like way that if it weren’t a hospital, you’d be inclined to cover her face. 

“Wait here, dear. I’ll get Greyson to come down for you.” She reassured, picking up her work phone to call him up. You couldn’t quite hear what was being said, but you had a feeling you’d find out soon. 

As expected, Greyson didn’t take long to make his appearance. It was a little strange to see him all geared up, white coat and all. But it also seemed fitting. Really cemented the whole doctor thing. He looked downright exhausted now, your expression softening in sympathy. The fatigue didn’t last though, his confusion replaced with excitement when seeing you. It almost reminded you of a puppy, if you were honest. 

“What are you doing here?” He asked, though it wasn’t accusatory. A little concerned, but not upset in the slightest. 

Instead of answering him immediately, you pulled out his cup from the drink trays, offering it to him with a smile. “I come bearing gifts.” You teased lightly. 

You may as well have just told him you hung the sun yourself, with the complete and utter joy and gratitude that he was looking at you with. 

He accepted the cup easily and took a sip, letting out a content hum at the taste. His usual, exactly as he likes it. “You are a godsend.” He breathed, noticing the rest of the cups. “Are those for the others?” He asked, looking to Yvonne as she took a pointed sip of her own sweet caffeine concoction. 

Greyson looked to you again as you nodded, more sheepish now. “Who I could remember, at least. I don’t know if I’m allowed to take them back or not, though…” 

Greyson and Yvonne both looked at each other for a moment before sharing a nod. Yvonne took just a moment to provide a visitor badge for you, though she instead passed it to Greyson, who very gently settled it on your shirt. He made sure you had plenty of time to stop him if you wanted, but you were too flustered and surprised by the flurry of movement to actually intervene, not that you found yourself inclined to stop him to begin with. 

“So long as you don’t go far, it should be fine.” He reassured with a grin, grabbing one of the trays. 

You took the cue, picking up the other tray and following him as he led you out of the waiting room. He held the door open for you, leading you down the hallways. As expected, the hospital smelled very… clean. Sharp. But not unpleasant. Though, maybe that’s thanks to having the warmest person next to you, beaming at you. “Now, what prompted the surprise visit?” He asked curiously. 

You flushed, focusing on your tray because you feared you might combust if you looked up at him as you answered. “You mentioned that you had a feeling it was going to be a long shift… I figured you’d have a pretty good sense for when to expect long shifts, and my shift was pretty slow. So… I thought it’d be fun to make drinks for as many people as I could remember.” You shrugged sheepishly, glancing up at him again. 

Greyson’s expression had softened, but his smile never faltered. “That’s real sweet of you, y’know that?” He asked, even if he wasn’t really expecting an answer. 

Not that you were really given an opportunity to answer, one of the interns you’d made a drink for stopping you two in the hall. 

“Oh, hey!” They greeted, surprised as they looked between the two of you, glancing at your visitor’s pass for just a moment before looking to Greyson curiously. 

You let Greyson explain that you had brought drinks for some of the staff, checking the trays to figure out which cup went to the intern. As a result, you were oblivious to the intern realizing just how well you and Greyson were getting along. They didn’t dare comment on it, of course, but… they couldn’t deny it, either!

So instead they just thanked you profusely for the drink before hurrying down the hall again, likely having more stuff to take care of. 

Greyson led you to the nearest break room, setting the tray down to sort through them and figure out who got which cup. You’d even made a cup for Dr. Zayne, even if you aren’t entirely sure if he was going to be here tonight. He’s such a workaholic, you wouldn’t be surprised if he was. 

Greyson hummed softly as he sorted the cups, then turning his attention to you. “You’re an angel.” He told you, leaving no room for argument, but his tone was gentle all the same. There was affection lacing every syllable, and a weight to it that you couldn’t quite place. 

It had your face flushing despite yourself, rubbing the back of your neck as you looked away again. “It’s just… it feels like a little thing I can do to support you guys… you work so hard to take care of everyone.” You tried to explain. 

Greyson chuckled, considering for a moment before wrapping one arm around your shoulders to give you a small hug without overwhelming you, squeezing you into his side carefully. “That’s sweet of you. We do this job because we want to help people, but small acts of kindness like this help us get through it a little easier.” 

Glancing to the clock in the room, he honestly started to pout. “I should go ahead and let you head home, though. I don’t want to keep you up too late, and I can go ahead and distribute these to where they need to go.” He offered, his arm still around you as he led you out of the break room. “This really was an awesome surprise though, angel.” He hummed playfully, running at how flustered you got at the nickname. 

You couldn’t help but elbow him in retaliation, though you were careful not to risk doing actual damage or anything. Clearly you didn’t do any damage, based on the laughter that followed your ‘attack’. 

“Whaaaat?” Greyson whined playfully, still grinning as he looked down at you, holding his hands up in surrender. “I’m just telling the truth! You’re amazing, and it’s a fact!” He insisted, opening the door to the waiting room for you again. 

You were so distracted by Greyson’s teasing that you didn’t notice Yvonne and the intern watching you two from the front desk as you shoved Greyson again, even as your own laughter started to bubble up. “Oh shut up!” You fussed, trying to calm down at least somewhat. 

Greyson just looked proud of himself, playfully acting as if he were seriously thinking over the instruction before shaking his head. “Naaaah.”

You snort, rolling your eyes and waving him off. “Go back to being a smart handsome doctor.” 

There were a few beats of quiet as everyone registered what you had just said, Greyson finding himself starting to flush almost as much as you had earlier. You, on the other hand, thought you could combust right then and there with how flustered you were. 

“Um… have a good rest of your shifts!” You quickly said before hurrying out of the hospital, mentally kicking yourself for such an embarrassing exit. 

Yvonne was the first of the trio still in the hospital to speak, turning her chair towards Greyson and quirking a brow. “So…. you’re going to ask them out, right?”

[hoe-imaginess]

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ALSO: I got a lot of requests in the last few weeks and just wanted to post a general reply in reminder that my ASK BOX IS CLOSED! Not accepting any requests right now, sorry! I delete any that come in

i BEEN A YEEHAW BINCH SINCE DAY ONE GORLLL. we stan 4am whataburger in this house 

I do!! I used to have gold but it got kinda expensive in comparison to what I was charging for ko-fi’s. If you don’t have that extra $6 a month it’s not worth it boo ):

Ahhh congrats! Sorry I’m so late!! I think it’s always worth it to stick with the original blog since you’ve accumulated followers there, and you never know if they’re going to miss out on the transition to your new one. It takes some time to restructure a blog but it’s definitely worth it to keep the original

the amount of HIM’s in One Piece is unbelievable I whore for everyone

I’m doing ok!!!! I go a little crazy indoors but I’m keeping myself busy <3 my immune system is shit so I’m on utter lock down, but better safe than sorry

@thychi​ 

I keep up sporadically with the manga!! I stopped watching it when I caught up a few months ago, think I ended on Whole Cake? I know what’s happening currently but I haven’t read too into depth in the Wano arc. I usually just... pop into the spoilers tags... to see Law... bc I love him... 

@ithecrystaldragonheart​

Mito and Hashi are a powerful duo. Mito has a lot of brains cells she has to share with Hashi but that’s ok!!!! I do think Tobirama and Mito would get along too!

Basically tbh he sees one thing out of place and he must destroy

i’D HEARD IT WAS A REALLY BAD CHAPTER. this is a late response but MANGA READERS THAT ONE WEEK... we were all a mess (and no I haven’t watched but I’ve been recommended to do so quite a lot so I’ll hop on it soon!) 

Hmm!!!! I actually find a *shorter* first chapter is a good way to hook the reader without making them claw through too much writing to get a sense of what’s going on. Like, if I see a first chapter is reallllly long I sometimes have to do it to em, and scroll a bit to the middle to see what’s going on, and to double check that it’s a fic I want to take the time to read

1300 words isn’t too much though!!! Omg I’ve written much longer first chapters lmao. If you feel weird about it you can maybe find a good place to split that 1300 into two chapters?? But definitely make sure it’s split in a good place. It’s always good to leave the reader wanting more. If you can end on a short cliff hanger or a tense moment, that’s 10/10

That being said it would probably be wise to make the rest of the chapters of a similair average length. I’ve read fics that have shorter or longer chapters and it’s not bad (unless I’m grieving because it’s too short AND I REQUIRE MOREEE) but it might help you with actually planning your plot

I DON’T!!! But I want his ninja dick so bad. Maybe i’ll whip something up for him soon. For the culture 

When you sent this a while ago it actually inspired me to pick it up again!! I’m fixing it so it comes up with more accurate (?) results since I think the first one was so messed up. Everyone kept getting Madara sksksks. It’s still in the works but I wanna post it again! They’re super fun to make

AHHHH THANKSSSSS!!!

It’s so hard trying to keep a character that you love IC because... i want him to not be as much of an asshole as he is in canon... so unfortunately I gotta let him be an asshole sometimes. On the other hand, fortunately he’s such a minor guy I get some room to explore w him and I really hope it pays off, so thank you!!!

Girl, eye—someties

did Itachi Uchiha send me this

(i love u too)

RIGHT!!! i would have never guessed. Like, if Kishi could see us... he’d be fucking floored....

Queen!!! I do!!! I don’t have much up rn but I got 234232 Word docs with WIP fics that I hope to post at some point, ty ilysm 

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@any59​ ty ty!

Ahhhh!!! thank you!!! It was my biggest project to date <3 

(HxH spoilers below vvvvv)

I don’t really think Feitan is... so far removed from his emotions (Like Meruem) that he would really need to change that drastically for someone if he really liked them—that being said, he’s not going to change, either. If by change we mean he’s suddenly as enamored and endearing with them as Meruem is with Komugi... then I don’t think that’s going to happen regardless. We kinda see Feitan being a good and decently considerate comrade to the Troupe, so that would obviously extend to this girl/boy, maybe with a sliver of extra fondness if we’re talking romantically. But otherwise, Feitan seems like a “you get what you get” type of guy, that would inherently be *tender* with someone he liked, but not so tender that he’d have to have a whole philosophical/personality change

Ok now I’m confusing myself aksjdhfkjs. Basically:

Meruem had to like, undergo some existential shit to get where he was Komugi. I think Feitan already has the capacity to care for someone, even if his way of caring isn’t exactly rainbows and butterflies. So it’s not like he has to change. He just has to find the right person that doesn’t 1) get on his nerves and 2) get on his nerves enough that he’s gonna kill them

Feitan is a simple man. You piss him off. You die. You don’t? Ok. He’ll be nice

I did!!!

Thank you for accepting me I’m glad to be here

akjdhfakjshfsj i know this was a serious comment but when i first read it I wanted to laugh asdhfkasjhf the “ap lit” inclusion sent me. What was so horrible about ap lit that this girl thought she was dying? Ap lit will really get you

(But I know!! I’d forgotten I’d taken it that morning! I have one of those cute pill organizers and I thought I’d taken it out but did not...)

Forgive me!!! I felt dumba fterwards hence why I deleted the post. Do not worry! This is the dose I was prescribed. I figured I would get some really manic reactions when trying a new dosage so now I know that’s not gonna work lol 

ajkshdfkjshfjksa izuna wants tobirama’s death to be as quick and natural as possible

thank  you!!!! I didn’t think you guys would like them so much <3

@blackstrawberrynightmare​

It’s been so long since I watched Psycho Pass or even looked into anything about it so pls take my thoughts with a grain of salt but:

I’m gonna say probably not? He’s one of those typical antags that have such strong ideals that... I don’t think even if the corrupt system was taken down he’d be entirely absolved of his ideals, or at the least, of the journey he’s taken in pursuit of those ideals. I don’t think a guy like him could ultimately settle down once the dust clears, and especially not with a lover or a family or anything like that. If he did want to lead a normal life it would probably be in seclusion

Thank you!!!!!!

skjhasjkdfhajkhsd they would never. Only room for one tongue on that body and they’ll fight for their tongue rights

Ahhh yeah my master post is so bad I swear I’m gonna fix it one day—I don’t think I have one of Madara!

I do not ):

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A/N: I was actually really feeling like Remus or James imagine but this request my dear @meteorslunatic was just so good to write. Hope you like it and hope you wont freeze to death (even though it’s colder here). I don’t know what self worthiness means and I’m too lazy to go on Pons but I hope it’s in there and I laso hope there isn’t much grammar mistakes. Enjoy. 

PAIRING: Sirius Black x reader

REQUESTED BY @meteorslunatic: Hey bish💕 if you have time , please write a Sirius x Ravenclaw reader jealousy angst with a sweet ending because 1. You're good at this 2. Your friend here is ridiculously thirsty for SB fics Possible plot : him getting jealous of how close the reader was to another Ravenclaw and having a fight with her ... along with some self-worthiness issues Thanksssss TIJANA IM FREEZING

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You could say that sometimes being in love wasn’t butterflies and rainbows. It was fighting. A lot of fighting.

People, friends, kept telling that it was not worth it if you and him always fight. Not like that the two of you were together, you two just simply didn’t know what you were. A couple, friends...something inbetween?

It was just you and your classmate doing some reasarch. It was a project the two of you thought of in class becasue if being a Ravenclaw meant anything, it was that there was never too much goals to have.

“ And by any mean do you think if we add pearl powder, will it expload or dense the mixture?” he asked, smiling and standing behind you.

He was so close, you could see his goggles from the corner of your eye and feel his breath below your earlobe. You didn’t know whether you were uncomfortable or if it was just his presence that made it so hot all of a sudden. You knew your cheeks were growing red but you still kept your focus on the earth your plant was burried in. “ I believe not but if it does than we are in shit ton of troubles.” you let out a laugh, slowly letting the pearl dust fall from your palm.

“ Your laugh is adorable.” he grinned and felt his hands place themselves on your waist.

Feeling your hips burn from the heat his hands provided, you slowly turned around and whispered.“ Colin...”

“ (y/n)...” he grinned, his hands pulling you a bit closer.

“ I- I like someone else.” you placed your hands gently on his and pushed them away.

He sighed, smiling and stepping back. “ It’s okay. But a guy has to try.”

“ I-I’m-” you tried to speak but he only smiled widely at you.

“ Don’t be, (y/n). I know when no is a no.” he beamed, showing his dimples and took the epruvette in his hands and starting to pour it into the plant.

---

After the project was succesfully finished, the two of you left the greenhouse and started walking down the hall. You couldn’t help yourself but feel slightly bad about how you handeled the situation and how reasoning he was in return becasue Collin was nice and kind, yet he still wasn’t Sirius.

“ I’m really sorry about what happened in there.” you tried to applogise again.

“ Don’t be. Whoever that guy is, he is lucky to have you.” he smiled and you smiled in return. “ And if it doesn’t work out, you know where to find me.” he winked, causing you to roll your eyes and playfully push him away.

“ Yeah, right.” you laughed and stopped at the corner where the two of you had to part ways. “ Thanks though.”

“ For what?” he smirked, quirking an eyebrow at you.

“ For the project...” you paused, avoiding his eye contact. “ And being so reasonable.”

“ You’re welcome.” he smiled and opened up his arms. “ Can I at least get a hug if not a kiss?” he smirked to which you replied with a short laugh.

“Yeah.” you smiled and wrapped your arms around his neck, feeling the heat rise to your cheeks again.

“ See you in Muggle studies.” he smiled again before walking away and disappearing around the corner.

You however had Divination so you had to walk the entire castle to get to the other side but before you even had the canche to walk around the first corner, you were grabbed by a strong grip.

Frightened at first, you were prepared to kick and punch the person who has just pulled you from plain sight but seeing his gorgeous eyes, casued your heart rate to slow down. “ Sirius! What the hell!?” you loudly whispered, smiling at him.

That smile though quickly faded as soon as you realized he didn’t share the same excitment as you. “ What the hell indeed, (y/n)?! “ he growled. “ What do you think you were doing?!”

“ Uhm, walking. “ you practically spat out in front of him.

“ With the Ravenclaw!!”

“ What?!”

“ Hugging him..blushing and laughing with him.”

“ Ha!” you scoffed unbelievably, crossing your arms over your chest. “ Are you really jealous right now?!”

“ Does it matter?! Are you cheating on me?!”

“ Cheating on you, Sirius. We’re not even together!!” you now shouted, not even caring if anybody heard you.

“ So you did?!”

“ I never said that! Oh my God, Sirius!” you ran your hand through your hair and scoffed one more time. “ What are we?” you asked him calmly but impatiently.

He was quiet. Completely quiet.

“ Tell me, Sirius. Are we together, huh?” you raised your voice and approached him, chest to chest.

“ I don’t know. You tell me!” he stood his ground and kept glaring at you. “ I told you that I want to be with you. But you-YOU...” he pointed his finger at your chest. “ You said you weren’t ready for something more. YOU said you needed more time to think and imagine how I felt when I told you I loved you for the first time and you didn’t say it back.”

“ Because it’s a big word, Sirius! We have this- whatever this is- for three weeks and you told me you already love me!” your voice started to shake a bit you kept your focus on him and not on your voice.

“ Because I’m not denying what I feel, (y/n). I don’t say it just because I want you as my girl but I say it because I am truly in love with you!”

“ But everything is going on so fast!”

“ It has to! Do you think we have to in times like this! If a war is going on out there!”

“ Sirius!”

“ Are you trying to break this off?!”

“ What?! No!” you felt panic take over, your heart sped up and your mind suddenly became blank. “ He’s a friend Sirius! Can’t I have a friend?!”

“ Not a friend who makes you blush! ”

“ You are not someone to control my life, Sirius Black.”

“ Than who am I, huh?!” he shouted, keeping is expression flat. “ Who am I to you!?”

“ I-I..” you stammered, confused and lost from the yelling.

“ Because if I’m not anyone to you then why don’t we just end this, if it’s so hard for you!” he kept shouting and you felt your blood boils inside your veins.

“ You know what, Sirius?” you locked your eyes with his in complete rage. “ Maybe we should.” and with that you grabbed your bag from the ground and slung it over your shoulder, leaving him alone in the shadows.

---

It was not supposed to happen like this but it did and it broke your heart. You didn’t want to end it. Not with him. Yes, the two of oyu fight a lot but that doesn’t mean it’s over.

He just makes you so furious when everything you say or do implies that you don’t care about him. You do. Too much actually.

Because when the two of you don’t fight, you laugh and have the most amazing time together. It’s different being with him than with the others. He is just the most joyous person you have ever met. He’s fun and honest, humourous and such a bad influence. But you love it because nobody could pull it off as good as he can.

You knew he felt the same about you. You knew he loved you but for some reason you felt he didn’t know what he was feeling when he spoke those three words to you. So, he sent you a letter. A letter to see you outside your tower.

“ Hey.” you walked from your own tower and was ready to greet him with a hug but he kept his arms against his body. It wasn’t only that but his eyes were different. They were red swollen and his cheeks were still showing traces of tears.

“ Walk.” he kept his voice low but dominant.

And you did. You walked with him in silence, complete silence.

It was unusual for the two of you to be walking in almost dead air. It was almost suffocating to walk in so much stillness and not speak a single word to pierce the silence of the night.

You reached your hand and brushed it against his, but he quickly pulled away. “ Don’t touch me.” he spoke and you almost thought your heart completely broke. It squeezed you in your chest and formed a lump in your throat but no tear escaped your eye. You were strong enough to hold it in.

The two of you walked to your bench. The bench.

It was cold and freezing but the only thing that you focused on was the silence and the tension between you. “ So, now you won’t say a single word to me?” you asked but he kept quiet.

His hands were in his pocket and his lips pursed together, keeping his thoughts to himself.

But you couldn’t. You embraced him in to a hug. A hug you have never given to anybody but him. A hug of how much you really cared for him because you did but never told him that.

“ What do you want from me, Sirius?” you spoke quietly. “ If you’re mad about something we need to talk about it?”

“ I’m not mad at you. I’m sad.”

“ Sad?” you quirked an eyebrow.

“ You just make me so confused about what I’m feeling. Because you can make me mad and happy at the same time. You make me want to scream and storm off yet also kiss you and hug you...” he drifed off and you took that as an opportunity to interlace your fingers with his and kiss his cheek.

“ I don’t want this to end, Sirius.” you spoke softly against his jaw. “ I just want you to give me some space and trust in this relationship.” you continued and brushed your nose against his strong jawline. “ I am here to stay.” you spoke softly and before he could reply, you cut in. “ I’m here to love you.”

His head quickly turned to you, his wide beam showing off his dimples. “ You-you-”

“ I love you, Sirius Black.” you smiled and let your fingertips wander up to his cheek.

“ I love you too.” he spoke more louder than you, pulling you into a tender kiss before cupping your cheeks and leaning his forehead against yours. “ And I’m here to stay as well.”