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im the fucking eepy sleeper i cannot get my sleepy ass out of bed before noon but auugghh i have shit im putting offfff regarding testosterone shit bc i gotta go in person to register as a patient at the stupid ass clinic bc their online form to register is fucked and theyre just like haha well just come in person then like... ok... yall should literally fix that bc i couldve had this done ages ago online but ok... n its rly inconveniently located but i dont wanna put it off til my off day but i cannot. get up early enough to make some odyssey to find this fucking place before work . honestly i don't even feel good about going to this one clinic and their waitlist is 3 months long and i need to be able to get t refills much sooner than that but i just genuinely do not know what else to do. i guess i need to look into online services bc i've already been on it for 10 months so i just need someone to give me refills but :( i just do not know how anything works with it and it's rly hard for me to get any shit done around working full time bc i'm exhausted as fuck all the time and barely have any time in my free time so idk what the fuck my plan is when i run out like idk. i need to also try some other shit i think might have a chance of getting me some but i literally do not have time or energy outside of work to dedicate to playing phone tag with my pharmacy back home about trying to convince them to send my old unused refills here bc i know it's gonna be a nightmare that would be a full time job in itself. fuuuckfgjjnfj thinking of having to deal with this shit for the rest of my life of like oh yeah literally who i am as a person and in the world emotionally mentally and biologically hinges on the medical system literally the worst most unreliable shit we have
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looking at super old drawings of my ocs is a little painful not gonna lie
#its all from wayy back when i thought id be a writer and not an artist. so i was like. 'lol who cares if it doesnt look how i imagine in my#head haha!' and now im like. shakes you. why did you do that#idk its crazy like now my mental image of my characters and their actual designs is closer than ever. because i actually put effort in. but#i couldve just done that sooner??? but nooooo now i have so much outdated work.... like god damn. i need to redraw some of this stuff or#something because like. now it just seems like my ocs came out of fucking nowhere gkdknfskjfsjfn#several people have now asked me like. 'oh wait u have ocs?' ive had them for years. theyre just so different in design and i posted them so#rarely back then that like. how could anyone be expected to know..... ANYWAY. ive been doing the oc-tober stuff this month so hopefully they#are all Established Characters to u all. that being said. i am lagging behind at the moment oopsie š¶#anis gaymer moments
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Let's try to get this final live blog on my station 19 rewatch done. I'm currently laid up on my couch in mild pain but unable to do anything else.
I don't really like flashback episodes but i want one for the premiere since we are jumping so far ahead. I hate that this episode starts with a fight. But damn knowing what the fight is over, i love how loyal andy is to maya in this episode. Something ive wanted for her and the team. Qnd also jaina looks gorgeous.
The fire scene yay another fire on the fire show lmao. Feel like we missed some last year which im sure was covid related.
The marina scene ugh chefs kiss. I love how happy and giddy they are. I do wish we couldve gotten to see some of their month apart communication and their quarantining apart those two weeks when carina got back. I wrote a little something related to that and i may share before the premiere of season 5.
The quiet moment between carina saying her morning was better than those 6 weeks and then asking about mayas folks was a beautiful and real moment and i love it. So brief it could be overlooked but great choice for team.
The little bit of danielle and stefania that was them and adlibbed in this episode was so great also.
I love that rhey addressed how everyone was able to attend maskless and how safe the wedding was keeping the real world element in. Also vic love you and your chicken dance comment makes me sad that we didnt get it.
Vics parents trying to talk to her about theo is so cute.
Poor lawyer she'd be good for dean.
I understand some people dont come out until late in life but that is hard to hear that you havent loved the person youve been with for decades like you do this new person. That would hurt me so much to hear, like i couldve been with someone who is my great love if youd told me sooner. I love/hate this storyline for travis family.
Ugh if this fire had gone on any longer those poor kids and elderly couple.
Haha andy you should wait until someone answers the door for you when visiting almost newlyweds or people who've been seperated for 6 weeks lmao.
Also maya's excuse and none wet (shower) sex hair i love it.
Ugh sullivan trying to defend himself makes me so upset.
Bailey giving ben hell about second and third opinions is funny, like i figure shed be all for it.
Inara and marcus leaving jack is sad. I hope we still get to see marsha in season 5. Also if they do pair jack and jo itd be a bit ironic. I mean jo too had an abusive ex like inara.
Also jack and his marsha have similar eyes, itd be something if it came out she really was his mom.
I dont understand how maya hadnt settled on what to wear she's queen of the clipboard lmao. Just goes to show how some things throw us off course. Also i totally get her saying her outfit choice will define her forever. I judge my look in my wedding photos all the time and feel like other people do as well.
Why do i feel like this exchange between maya and carina was mostly adlibbed? It just feels so fun.
This poor family and ugh i couldnt imagine having to make the tough calls of firefighters/fire captains.
Love that all the fire crew helped put the wedding on.
I understand travis emotion here.
How'd this conversation about maya's folks get started with andy???
I love that maya and andy's friendship is restored. Also famous last words maya, dont speak the bad juju into existence.
Dean you shouldve spoken up there.
Why the chief there? I live in a city and the chief aint showing up for a house call that needs a few units. At least not until fire is out of they for some reason cant get it out.
Lmao maya freaking out about wearing the same thing as carina. Andy therapizing maya is funny.
That poor boy.
The dad comments to ben are beautiful. Also love that so many of the team know how dean feels about vic.
So why is travis getting dressed separately than the rest of his team. I mean i know its because he doesnt know about Dean's feelings and pushes vic to give theo a chance as well as allow theo and travis to talk but come on. He wouldnt get ready separately.
Also what was the point of theo going to that room if not to get ready. Sorry just annoying.
I wish carina had had someone mention andrew to her. Whether ben, bailey, maya or even any of the fire team who worked on the call with him during the crossover awhile back. Her grief during this day of happiness should've been acknowledged, even with just a remembrance table for him amd other family she lost to covid.
I do love this beautiful moment with vic though saying this isnt all just for maya.
Oh my how i love the maya confronting her father. She is the brave i want to be. Also what she says to her mom, yes chefs kiss. However when her mom shows up at the wedding, really the woman couldnt grab a nice shirt or dress to wear on her way out or on her way to the wedding.
I also love the look of pride on maya's moms face both at the house and the wedding.
Im sad we probably wont get any moments of her living with marina due to the time jump.
Ugh the choice that cost maya her promotion but ahouldnt have.
Also with all maya's options for clothes, couldnt they had dressed her mama in something borrowed from maya. Lol im sorry it bothers me so.
Vic's song for the intro is beautiful. Barrett has a beautiful voice.
Maya is so happy her mom is there and i love it. Also in my head at least one person videoing is doing it for the greys family who couldnt make it to the wedding for carina.
I also love maya singing along with vic to carina.
Queen of the clipboard forgetting to write her vows is special and funny. I love carina talking her down from a panic attack. Also her simple vow is beautiful and how carina who probably did write her vows saying we're good instead of reading them after seeing maya's mom in attendance and the look shared is everything.
I truly believe that was the moment she 100% knew maya had changed from end of season 3, was definitely all the way in. She knew what it meant for maya's mom to be there.
Love the dance montage and improved marina kiss.
Another healing theo and travis talk.
Sullivan just cant let it go and ugh trying to justify it. I just cant, still not over it. Even if he isnt captain in season 5 it still isnt right.
Sullivan you cant say you have the teams back then saying you can control them and throwing maya under the bus. Those are contradictory.
This jack and andy conversation is interesting.
This marina conversation is funny but sad when you know the end of the episode.
Its so funny that so few people know about Miller's feelings at this point.
It'll be interesting to see the travis, vic and theo in season 5.
Ben and bailey are so cute.
Wish we couldve had conversations at the wedding with maya and her mom or carina and maya's mom or the 3 of them.
Inara is so wise. I hate this for all 4 of them.
Gotta love the ole grab em and pull em back to kiss them and let them know how you really feel tremmett moment.
Too late dean, they tried to tell you.
I love marina dancing in the background ugh sullivan and the surrera rehashing.
Time for the horrible news ugh.
Everyone just looking at marina and knowing is horrible.
Great season, great episode and im looking forward to whats next.
Thank you to everyone thats been following my rewatch blogging, and for all the kind comments. I appreciate it so much, made the summer so fun.
#station 19#marina#maya bishop#carina deluca#maya and carina#maya x carina#andy herrera#robert sullivan#dean miller#ben warren#jack gibson#inara#victoria hughes#travis montgomery#maya and carina station 19#carina x maya#miranda bailey#theo ruiz#emmett dixon
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ghost!tommy au masterpost #2
ghost tommy au masterpost part one
I made another one. w hhh
au summary: tommy loses his final canon life during the explosion right after the pogtopia vs. manberg war
Nobody really knew where heād gone either - Tommy had allegedly gone āmissingā after the festival. In Lāmanberg, everyone figured that while it was odd, since tommy would usually be running down the Prime path shouting, or just being generally loud and annoying... he was just... missing. Nobody had seen him all week, but everyone had thought they were the singular individual who hadnāt seen him lately. Eventually when one of them asked where heād been, everyone came to the consensus that they werenāt the only ones who hadnāt seen him. At first, they thought he was just grieving, since he spent the most time with wilbur. But then ghostbur shows up, which, while was a pretty sad/happy moment, it raised some sort of unease....Ā
.... and then, ghost tommy shows up.
I put more details under the cut!!! enjoy pain yall
feel free to send asks about... well, anything! if you found something interesting here, share it! if youāve got a completely unrelated idea, share it! i like to read your asks. I promise iāll answer... eventually... (the five asks in my inbox @ me: š)
courtesy of @gheysnakelady and their great ideas šā¤ļø(you have so many good ones!!!)
current table of contents:
ghost tommyās appearance
relationships with the rest of the sbi
ghost tommyās memories
other ghost tommy stuff (misc i guess)
a) presenceĀ
b) connectionsĀ
c) blue/yellowĀ
d) body found
āāāpranksāāā
dreamon hunters...? (become basically bootleg ghostbusters. but just only one of them.)
TBC: to be touched upon in the next masterpost/page set
relationships with the rest of the smp
a) SAM SAM SAM BIG BROTHER SAM AAA; b) the cabinet + lmanberg... hhh tubbo n big q,,, fundy and niki,,, dream,, the badlands... i need ideAS
reactions to the reveal (at some point... big oof)
.... a revival? phil no -
1. Ghost!TommyāsĀ Appearance
(should... should I be calling him ghostinnit now? yall use that term a whole lot...)
before he meets anyone (excluding ghostbur and maybe philza. some others mightāve seen him lingering around certain places, faintly), he looked simultaneously exactly as he did before he died, overlaid by his prior deaths (an sword/axe(?) to the back when trying to escape dream during eretās betrayal, an arrow wound that goes in deep, and currently, visible blast marks and the wither effect). He hadnāt figured out what he looked like yet, other than the noticeable vision problems, but when he did, he did his best to change his form (itās my current theory that ghosts look like what they want to look like - ie. ghostburās nice yellow sweater being a choice on his end).Ā Itās an effort, to lookĀ āokayā, and when he goes off the rails, there are hints to what he looks like.Ā
itās mostly because... Tommy remembers his death vicariously. Ā All of them. This is not a good thing.
when he does meet people, his form is slightly transparent, but he looks almost normal. thereās that new hairstyle, which really isnāt a stylistic choice on my end ;ā] ... there is a lot of sooty(?) grey patches on his sleeves, and a large black mark smack dab in the middle his shirt. The wither markings on his hands arenāt clear, but that they are there is visible. He hates the wither effects the most - no matter what he does, how hard he concentrates, they. donāt. go. away.
Heās got hair over his eye, like wilbur. Gets uncomfortable when itās joked about, because thatās a part of his face thatās.... yknow.... and he canāt hide it otherwise
Since ghost!tommy is more emotionally gripped than ghostbur is, unable to let go of the past and all the memories + emotions from it (while ghostbur lets go of it Very Easily), his form shifts a lot. Not only to hisĀ ādeath formā (all of his canon deaths on one ācurrentā form), but to that of the different arcs - dirty long sleeves for pogtopia (itās cold in the ravines, and he donāt got a coat), ripped revolutionary outfit (eretās betrayal and the arrow both happened here)... and during his more mellower moments, a green bandana that goes around the neck. Heās constantly changing in clarity, too. Itās hard to focus on him at times.
2. Relationships with the SBI found familyĀ gang: pain
did you really think we could have nice things in this au? if so... ouch
Phil
tommy did see him sort of as a dad/some sort of older figure to come to for help. but phil has a history of not exactly being a Dad. sure, he basically adopted techno, and wilbur definitely saw him as a dad, but for tommy, itās an unspoken relationship that they shouldĀ be like that, that phil shouldĀ have his back, that tommy can ask phil for help. yet, they donāt. Phil showed up way too late in the game to make an effort on all of the impacts the wars and pogtopia and wilbur have created, and maybe tommy resents him a little, for leaving him and his brothers alone on the server. maybe tommy saw wilbur die by philzaās hands, moments before he did the sameĀ point is, tommy was never aĀ ādifficult childā persay, he made all of his complaints loud and clear. philza didnāt expect to do anyĀ āunderneath the underneathā with him... and didnāt feel like tommy needed the attention all that much, since he could basically occupy himself.Ā
Think of it like this, at least in my au, that phil was never meant to be a dad. He just chose to be some sort of strong figure in the boysā lives (found family!!!!) - but he was a survivor first and foremost, and sometimes it shows. His habits rubbed off on his boys, and that shows too - him avoiding talking about Big Things with ghost tommy is reminiscent of how ghostbur dances around questions, and being pressured into doing things is reminiscent of techno.
Tommy, on the other hand, felt as if phil always favored techno, and if not techno, then wilbur, over him. itās okay though! he doesnāt need phil, heās a Big Manā¢! Look at him... dealing with... a war... exile... funky brother problems... more war... okay maybe if phil showed up sooner things wouldāve been better but he didnāt so tommy had to be the bigger man! thatās... thatās okay...? hmm. okay maybe heās mad at phil a little bit,,,,
techno
ahh, complicated relationships *rubs hands*.Ā
tommy was proud of his brother, at first, the way only little brothers can be, bragging about their cooler bigger bro - that, and tommy lowkey thought thereād be someone to help him with wilburās decline. haha NOPE. techno donāt do emotional. thanks,,,,,
on the other hand, all ghost tommy can remember is techno being the unspoken favorite, the favorite child, the favorite brother, teasing and feelings of inadequacy (techno wasnāt a bad brother, though... just... better). And thenā¦he remembers techno showing up well into wilburās long decline, technoās silence when he couldāve used someone to speak up for him, technoās passiveness towards the paranoia, technoās stoicism when all tommy wanted was someone to be strong, someone else to be the better man. instead, the job was left to him. why was it always left to him? he wasnāt supposed to do all of this, right?
Techno doesnāt feel all too bad about it, before tommyās death is discovered. He thinks that the impact of the statement was made through humiliation and violence enough (tommy being pinned down, the hero speech, the ruined victory, etc). What did tommy expect, using the Blade like that? honestly, technoās a little offended, that tommy thought he could use his brother that easily, like some weapon made of more skill than any of them know what to do with. Techno had made his opinions very clear on government, and then they go on to appoint another one? (even though, it was sort of clear that the goal was toĀ āgo backā to the old lmanberg, government and all) so tommy kinda had it coming. besides, heād respawn and theyād go back to normal.
but then wilbur dies, permanently, and techno has to watch his brother come undone into something else barely reminiscent of what he was momnents ago... ghostbur barely even resembles the wilbur techno used to remember. death matters, on this server, which is two blows in themselves that techno will have to deal with. and then... tommy doesnāt respawn.
techno was sureĀ heād seen tommy around lmanberg. albeit, like, kinda quiet, but maybe the kid was going through rough times since wilbur died. it wasnāt like techno was going to talkĀ to him about it or anything, since his presence probably wouldnāt be welcomed anyway. tommy was kind of immature, in that regard - heād be really annoying and yell, like he always did when something didnāt go his way. that, and he wasnāt exactly welcome in lmanberg anymore...
besides, if tommy had a problem, heād make it clear himself, right?
wilbur/ghostbur
Thereās a lot tommy isnāt willing to talk, about wilbur. What could he even say? more than half of the things he did, challenges he stepped up to, were to make Wilbur proud (as he remembered him). He hated losing, because he liked winning more, sure, but also because he wanted to make wilbur proud of him. See: the bow duel, giving up his disc for freedom.
but pogtopia wilbur, well... things only got worse. sometimes, things looked a little better, but over time, tommy learned to expect what came after. even with techno there, tommy was always left to be theĀ ābigger manā - in the aftermath of the festival, the pit, the final pet war - no matter how much he lost, it was always him having to move forward from that point. nobody really helped. it was just tommy and wilbur, and the sound of silence in the ravine.
tommy saw the final explosion of lmanberg as both the ultimate betrayal (the worst thing wilbur couldāve done, couldnāt he have waited, phil was here, surely phil couldve done what tommy spent months trying to do, what techno wouldnāt do, why couldnāt wilbur have this?) but at the same time, he... figured wilbur would pull sometime like this. at this point, the victory mightāve lightened his spirits a whole lot, but he spent months with wilbur aloneĀ and in the course of the preparatory week, wilbur didnāt miraculously get better. tommy wishesĀ he did, and he can wish all he wants, but deep down, he knows that he didnāt. the others mightāve not noticed, since they werenāt there for that long.
as for ghostbur, itās... awkward.Ā
With ghostbur, heās stuck between wanting to reach out to his big brother and stay away due to aliveburās memory living in constant loop in his head. Sad as it is to say, he was sort ofā¦ relieved, when ghostbur revealed the extent of his memory loss. after that point..Ā if ghostbur remembers all the happy bits of their time on the server, surely he could help fill in the gaps?Ā
Ghostbur was kind of the first person he saw when he resurfaced, and ghostbur then couldnāt really understand the gravity of the situation, nor who tommy was because of how he acted and looked before. tommy didnāt approach him either, mostly out of fear and anticipation. (he couldnāt imagine this of all things, being stuck with wilbur for all of his undying days, hadnāt he had enough?)Ā
At first, itās awkward. He doesnāt know what to say, or when to say things, and heās a lot quieter than in life, so itās noticeable. He meets Ghostbur, who greets him with joy, until he realizes that Tommy is dead. Memories of the manberg v pogtopia war arise, and he flees. He does not come back, because looking at Tommy hurts. tommy doesnāt get it, really... but.....
and every moment after that, the way ghostbur looks at him, with the guilt in his eyes, the way that he looks away, unable to bear looking anymoreā¦ well, tommy is starting to think ghostbur remembers a lot more than what heās willing to let on (heās afraid he is). If wilbur doesnāt like him, thatās notā¦ thatās nothing new, anyway. itās probably one of the few things that didnāt change.
3. Ghost Tommyās Memories
Going by the HC that theyāre caused by how you feel when you die.Ā ie. Wilbur dies happy because he is relieved by Phil stabbing him. That he can rest, while Tommy gets the opposite. Wanting to live but having it so cruelly taken by a loved one that you trusted, only feeling pain and betrayal and the feelings when they had while dying is the reason why they only hold certain memories.
Basically: like Wilbur, only remembers memories associated with a type of feeling. However, unlike Wilbur, Tommy only remembers the bad things.
Ghostbur suggested to phil, who in turn, suggested to tommy that he recorded his memories in a book, like he did! thus, tommyās āWhat I rememberā book: which is full of stuff he just wants to remember
Dream Good Times (this is just a lie, haha... but refers to the time (read: blank space) before the first disk war)
jokes! (when you make fun of someone, even in good jest, itās possible they wonāt take it that way themselves.)
My home (because itās been griefed and destroyed so many times at this point)
The disks (not what they sound like though, just that they were apparently important, that he fought for them. he canāt remember what they sound like)
My pets (pet wars. canāt remember whose pet was whose. he remembers mars, though. he talked to mars a lot, on days that pogtopia was quiet... empty...)
the duel
Winning the war (trading the disks for freedom)
Lāmanberg (manberg)
ā¦ Tubbo (? ...dying at the festival.)
Techno & WilburĀ (and phil, and what they did to him, and what they didnāt do.)
pogtopia hanging out with friends (there was nothing good about pogtopia, so he crossed it off and wrote the most blandest happy thing he could replace it with. he wishes pogtopia was just that)
the pit
winning the war (the victory, the explosion his death. if you ask why he wrote it twice, he just.. hesitates.Ā āwe won, right?ā you might nod along, assuming his memory was just being faulty, that all he could remember were the two victories, that like wilbur, nothing beyond the election/exile registered... but you could also note that neither of thoseĀ āvictoriesā really felt like winning, in the end. consider the cost...)
i have a secret second list for hisĀ āactual memoriesā. i call it āthe list of grievancesā. i am so clever haha
4. other ghost tommy stuff
since ghostbur had to go and add some stuff to ghost Loreā¢, i guess ghost tommy now melts in the rain and snow. not that he really... cares...
other things! these are ideas, idk...
1. presence
maybe whenever he gets near someone, the temperature drops and people feel overwhelmingly negative emotions (ie. sadness, pain, anger, guilt, etc). the intensity of the sadness effect depends on the person or if the person is near - the more that person had done, the more they felt.
Wilbur just feels like melancholy. nobody really notices, since itās .... well.
2. connections to things?
maybe heāll be found at certain locations, like his house/jukebox, the election podium, pogtopia, etc, etc... just, ghosting...
4. maybe heās not actually dead
3. have some blue .... or yellow
either:
a) ghostbur gives tommy some blue to hand out, trying to be nicer to him anyway, likeĀ āgive people this, it makes people happier if you give them something to drain the sadnessā!! but when tommy tries to hand it out, itās already fully blue. If asked if it was supposed to be transparent, or why itās already blue, or etc, he responds withĀ āno it's always been blue for me!ā because when heās givenĀ it, it turns blue instantly. maybe he seems little sad it doesnāt work on him, but it must be because heās a ghost, right?
or
b)Ā maybe he makes yellow that gives people happiness (it turns transparent as itās used), but when he holds it it stays yellow.... because really all it does is draw up previous feelings of contentment, but... can't feel happy if you've never felt it before :ā]
4. his body discovery
his body can be found where it was last... left. since he didnāt respawn.
They find him while cleaning up the rest of the rubble. and it's evident how he died, because there are wither marks, explosion burns, and... a final injury that mustāve been the killing blow, since thereās no way he wouldāve survived that. it's evident he suffered, but not from the killing blow. his face has that... expression. he looks as miserable as his ghost does, at times (contrary to wilbur's exact opposite). maybe techno is there. they're not sure if tommy just got caught in the crossfire. they think he did, because he was buried under all of this. who would have ... intentionally done this to him...? while he was trapped?
maybe techno approaches to see what everyone looks so wicked out by. and he sees his brother or more like, what was left of his brother. oof.
5. Pranks: completely out of chronological order i guess... BUT I WANTED TO INCLUDE IT AAA
tommy isnāt... peaceful. heās not at peace. heās surrounded by the people who he can remember taunting him, hurting him, betraying him, all he can remember feeling is anger, grief and resentment - how longĀ do you think heāll play nice for? even though he wantsĀ things to go back to normal, either he feels like heās much too dead for anything to ever be the same, and/or everyone ... moved on pretty quick, huh.
tommy begins to prank the server, like he used to. but thereās a pattern to it, and it quickly devolves from seemingly light-hearted to borderline malicious and definitely inconveniencing/annoying.
ghost tommy filling dream's current base/go-to-residency (since this man canonically homeless) with clay... and then, later, other blocks, like tnt, obsidian...Ā
he sets up multiple jukeboxes when dream goes to sleep and have them all play cat/melohi at different intervals at once, kind of like. "you wanted this so bad, now eat itā.
misplace sapnap's current pets (if he has any). fill sapnap's house with horses, cows all named "h" names, and eventually turn it into an elaborate aquarium filled with tropical fish.
Georgeās house gets scrambled: like the blocks all get swapped and stuff, or replaced with lime wool/clay. maybe fill his house with alarm clocks or something? idk
He's hesitant about techno... so one of his earlier steps is: collaborate with sam with the horse maze (who sees it as a bonding activity! fun for the whole family!), but in the books, on the last page of all the books, he writes notes like "you know what you did" and stuff idk, i gotta come up with 8 of those. at the end, skeppy brings back the books and the hornse and techno's like haha i didn't write those books! and skeppy says, that makes sense! why would your write this... (he assumes the first few are threats, but then they reference techno in diff ways, so he gets confused), and then techno's like: wait what
maybe he probably releases all the horses n cows and other things technoās got. or relocates them (cause he still cares about animals, he doesn't want to hurt them... he's not sapnap after all)
at first it's funny, normal. then it's annoying. and then it becomes worrying. it elevates in destructive tendencies, and also escalates in amount so people start going "tommy this is so annoying"-> exactly the reaction he wants, so he continues -> "this isn't funny anymore, tommy!" well, it never was supposed to be :)
....and they realize suddenly that none of it was meant to be a "prank" or a joke, tommy genuinely was trying to make their lives as hard as they did him.
ALSO EDIT: i bring you: dreamon hunters! part two! tubbo n fundy fight over what to do with ghost tommy, as tubbo doesn't think there's anything wrong with tommy (itās his best friend, of course nothingās wrong!), while fundy thinks he's a malicious poltergeist (with all the pranks.... thatās... thatās not tommy. tommy isnāt that spiteful... is he? )
#dream smp#dream smp au#ghost!tommy au#ghost!tommy au masterpost#2/?#warning: this is a LOOOOONG post#h#tw death#tw death mention
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summary // you found your pile of ālettersā to hyunjin that contain thoughts that have never been said and decided to write to him one last time.
pairing(s) // hyunjin x gn!reader, hyunjin x oc, slight minho x reader
genre(s) // angst, letter ficĀ
warning(s) //Ā mentions of food, themes of being forgotten, vulgar wording, humiliation, overthinking
word count // 2.0k
author's note // happy birthday @noya-sannnnā !! im sorry this was so late hhh you know how i am irl,, but i hope you enjoy this! i love you so much, jane <3 i apologize for the many grammar mistakes gn. i recommend listening to iuās ending scene while reading this! btw y/n/n means your nickname.
[10/01/14, 3:55am]
dear jinnie,
hi there! it's y/n <3 i hope you're doing okay - i mean of course you are pfft anyways, just writing this short letter (more like paragraph)Ā sort of as a venting mechanism? for things i cant tell you about lolĀ im not so sure how you would call it, since you're so much better at words than i am. basically were like:
hyunjin: ow a brain freeze!
me: haha brain go brrrr
anyways haha yea <3 it's 4am so like,, ill see you at school!
signed,
your loser,
y/n/n
[15/02/14, 12:34am]
yo heartthrob!
im back with this kinda stuff haha it's been a whole? week? since ive written one of these so like yes..hi! i just wanted to say thanks, for today. you really know how to cheer me up huh? you really outdid yourself by setting up that little picnic for us. congrats on making the strawberry cake so perfectly <3 this day will always stay as a core memory in the back of my brain. you're too caring sometimes,,, istg you'll pay for this [maybe hugs?] >:)Ā
signed,
your partner in crime,
y/n/n
[30/02/15, 01:29am]
jinnie-senpai~~
LMAO you hate me calling you that, doesn't change a thing though. hehe,, nways i hope you enjoyed your birthday present :) i got you that really cool skateboard that you wanted. i worked my ass off for that in my mother's garden so like,, you gotta thank me for that a thousand times :D nah jk, its a sincere gift, from me to you. i rarely do this for ANYONE so consider yourself lucky to have a best friend like me -3- also, seungmin is likeā¦.kinda the cutest person ever. introduce me to him pls, thank!
signed,
<your bestest friend3,
y/n
(p.s. you're kinda cute too,,,, ig,,, still stinkee tho)
[13/04/15, 9:04pm]
hey 'baby' (HAHAHA ihy for this)
i hope your day was okay! i didn't see much of you today (which was sort of a bummer but wtv) so likeā¦. uh yea. you told me you were doing okay over text, which kinda surprised me because like?? we always video call lol this is kinda the first time,, but its okay, i trust you! (i really hope youre doing alright tho, i'll beat anyone up if they make you sad >:( ) you also called me 'sweetheart' today which was likeā¦. omg wtf haha????????? that was so weird to me for some reasonā¦ a good kind of weird :D we haven't done those kinds of nicknames in a while soā¦. happy to know that they're back in session <3 i talked to the new girl today, she's really cool! like she knows the bean song on tiktok so like its a total win heh, ill introduce you to her tomorrow! you'll love her a lot
signed,
your 'lover',
y/n/n
[08/06/16, 10:23pm]
hey howl (hehe go back to that movie night we had)
this spring break sucks so much,, esp because youre not here (you still couldve brought me along :'[ ) but wtv i hope youre enjoying yourself. ive been hanging out with yeonnie lately and i found out she likes conan grey too like pls i love her sm. can we adopt her?? please???? she told me you guys have been video calling too and that makes me so happy!! you two are getting along so well aaa my precious babies </3Ā
what if you developed a crush on her? hahaā¦..jk unless?? (no jk dont shes all mine, stay away >:) ) anyways, i hope the three of us hang out soon. maybe go to that ice cream parlour where they serve the best cookies and cream?Ā Ā
signed,
your daisy,
y/n/n
[19/07/15, 01:23am]
peepee poopoo hello
heyheyhey!! (heh, haikyuu thingz) i hope youre doing okay! i mean sure you are, with everything going so well. also i feel like you're not telling me something. maybe it's just me? is it? i hope it is because you tell me everything,, we've been talking less these days but its okay! i know how busy you are, especially with your dad always bugging you,,
also, i think yeonbin likes you :0,, she keeps talking about you whenever we hang out. don't get me wrong, its not bad that she likes you but...something doesn't feel right. i feel like i'm being the third wheeler here and like ugh idk. haha laughs yea i think its just me.. im sorry, i didnt mean to do you like this,, anyways, ill see you soon + her too ofc- yall are inseparable lmao
signed,
your moonlight,
y/n/n
[23/07/15, 01:56am]
greetings, kind sir
lol more like mean sir but like aight KSKSK,, anyways,, how have you been? we haven't really talked in a while,, our convos are always so short with it being one-sided :/ i wish you were online more. yeonnie is ignoring me,, do you know why? i think you do,,, but when i asked you just said you didnt know. did i do something wrong? pls tell me..Ā
she blocked my contact the other day and she won't even smile at me when i pass her in the hallways. its,, sad and stressful especially because she was the only one that would genuinely talk to me. i hate to say this,, but i miss you. us, hanging out like the best trio we are, yknow? but i dont think you miss me the same way. sorry, im getting out of hand. i know im just overreacting. im just gonna sleep ig,, good night! sweet dreams,,
signed,
your pink lemonade,
y/n/n
[25/07/15, 03:25am]
hi there
i heard you and her got together?? congrats, jinnie! im so proud of you,, especially because you never had even considered getting a girlfriend a few months earlier lmaO you really woo the ladies huh? anyways,, i hope you've been well since we last talked,, how many days has it been?? i would say nearly a week or so but honestly it feels like a hundred years,, considering you and i used to talk every day. but you have her now to keep you company.
keep this a secret but can you possibly tell me why it hurts when i see her? or when i mention her or even think of her?? is it because she's connected to you? but.. you're my best friend, so why? is it because i miss you? is it because im alone now? is it because you left me with a simple 'i have to go now,, bye y/n/n.'? im not sure either. im being silly, i apologize. ill figure it out sooner or later. sweet dreams, jinnie
signed,
your asswipe,
y/n
[25/07/15, 04:30am]
jinnie
it's because i love you.Ā
signed,
your butterfly,
y/n
[??/08/??, 05:??am]
you
i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smile. i miss your laughs. i miss your funny faces. i miss the way your eyes twinkle. i miss th way you would make me happy just by doing the bare minimum. i miss the disaster you made when cooking breakfast. i miss the night when you snuck me out just to go to that pretty lantern event. i miss when you would call out my name everytime we met. i miss when we would share earbuds in train rides. dont you get it, hyunjin? i miss you.
[??/??/15, ??:??am]
asshole.
please tell me that isn't true, please. you're too kind to do these kinds of things, right? + i was your best friend,, then, why, why did you hurt me like this. i didnt do anything wrong.. you couldve just told me you didnt like me,,, why did she have to tell me? out of all people.Ā
youre so pathetic for this,, i thought you were brave, bold - but youre just a fucking coward. i loved you, i really did. and i realised too lateā¦ im sorry. she,, i shouldn't have talked to her in the first place, right? i bet you knew she humiliated me, in front of everyone. of course you did, you were the only one that knew. you told her. fuck, i hate you so much (yet why do i long for you on a night like this?). you know how much that'll affect me and yet, there you are, laughing about it with her.
signed,
fuck off,
you know who i am.
[31/08/15, 03:41am]
ah, jinnie
please tell me this is just a nightmare. please, please. stop just reading my texts, please answer them. jinnie. i miss you so much. i dont care bout her, please just let me be in your arms. i dont care if you love me back, please just talk to me at least. tell me what i did wrong,, jinnie,, please,,, clear these tear stains on my cheek with kisses.
signed,
your fuck-up,
y/n
[15/09/15, 04:59am]
jinnie
why do i keep crying because of you? its been a few weeks since everything has happened. please, nothing has changed. i still love you the same even with all the hatred i have pent up in this stupid brain of mine. i wish i could just walk back in time, to where it all began.
when i first met you in third grade and you pushed me while playing soccer or maybe when we took those ridiculous prom pictures, remember those? i hope you still have them,, because i do too. i hope the pictures of us on your wall still hang there,, it'll remind you of the happy times. hm,, maybe you don't need them.Ā
you already have millions of pictures with you and her,, i bet you printed some and replaced those with ours right? sly dog.Ā
signed,
friend,
y/n/n
[04/02/16, 12:57am]
hey
i went to the park today and saw both of you being happy. it's nice to see your smile again. im sorry i didnt go up to you,, i just thought it would be awkward. when i heard that adorable laugh of yours, it made me realise that i lost something special. but it's okay isnt it? as your happiness matters more than mine.Ā
signed,
y/n
[06/01/20, 08:00pm]
dear hyunjin,
im doing fine here. how about you? gosh,, how long has it been? years? since we last talked to each other. i havent heard from you since. i would just like to say i still think of you sometimes, when watering the plants or dancing while making pancakes. sometimes i think you're here with me too, just being the pals we were.Ā
sometimes i'd see you out, just reading a book in the park or buying pasta sauce at the grocery store. it's nice to see you having a stable life. im not sure if you're still with her or not, but its good to know that you still have that large friend group. also! you're never gonna guess who im dating--
it's minho! do you remember him? the one that i used to hate,, uh yeah. he asked me out the other day- you may wonder how tf,,, i too do not know how tf but he gives the best hugs ever. he gave me the love i wanted from you. he stitched my heart back together after it broke,, i love him so much, jinnie..
it's snowing,, do you remember when we would skate on the frozen lake in front of your house? are your parents well? i wonder if your mother still has those earrings i bought for her birthday. i never told you this but your laugh and hers sound so similar.Ā
i would just like to say thank you, for everything. you were a big part of my life, up until now. when we see each other after this, we would just be strangers. maybe flash a little smile or give a little wave whenever we greet each other but nothing more. some memories of us would flow in every now and then but it'll just be a short teaser. well, i'll be going now. smile for me, okay?
signed,
the one that loved you the most,
y/n.
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sorry i didn't get to this sooner, i havent been on tumblr much at all & school has been a lot
ok so white het (or supposedly het but we all know the truth) dudes get THE BEST writing hands down in tw. stiles, liam, jackson and theo??? all of these characters have detailed backstories and nuanced personalities.
stiles, for example, has adhd, often comes across as awkward and jumpy to other people. he has an insane work ethic when it comes to figuring things out because he overcompensates aggressively for the wellbeing of others, after being traumatized so much by his mom's passing. he often forgets to take care of himself. and yeah this is standard writing but for teen wolf standards it's fucking amazing.
liam has abandonment issues because his birth dad left (i think???) and his family was afraid of him for his IED. he struggles to trust himself and his own judgement and often relies on other people, most notably scott, mason, and theo in 6b.
jackson's parents don't seem amazing, and he was also adopted. he demonstrably has self worth issues as he is constantly jealous and insecure in seasons 1 and 2. he uses his porsche and lacrosse status to prove himself to others, but that can only go so far. the entire reason he became the kanima was because he was kind of fucked up. he even develops and starts to care a bit through season 2. also, i know jackson is bi. but they clearly made that decision all the way in 6b, so that's why i'm not counting him here.
theo wasn't amazingly done, i honestly get most of his depth out of my personal interpretation and the few breadcrumbs jeff left behind, but 1) he only had 2 seasons, and 2) cody is only white PASSING, he's mixed white and penobscot. so that honestly strengthens my case. (also yes i know white passing doesnt equal 100% white but im mixed white and inuit myself and society has treated me like i'm white my entire life so it makes a huge difference.)
there are more well written white guys (haha triple w) notably derek, stilinski and isaac, but i don't want to be here all day.
let's move onto the poc/non het guys:
i'm not a scott anti. i just don't think he works that well as a protagonist. in seasons 1 and 2 i can actually say for sure he was well written and worked, but seasons 3 onward, jeff kinda lost his touch with scott. like in 1 and 2, there were personal stakes in the plot for scott to deal with, CONSTANTLY, which made him a really interesting protagonist since he was just an unexperienced teenage boy, but 3 onwards there really wasn't, he just had to stop the bad guy because he had to stop the bad guy and save everyone. and that just isn't personal enough for a good protagonist. they DID have void stiles, stiles being erased, scott taking the benefactor money, and the whole alpha pack thing, but the alpha pack thing was just one of many people wanting to kill scott because hes the true alpha, not personal reasons, and EVERYONE ELSE was worried about void stiles and stiles being erased. honestly the ghost riders thing made lydia seem more like the protagonist. as for the benefactor money, that was solved in one episode. so i can say jeff did do well with scott in 1 and 2, but after that he became a protagonist because protagonist do good, and there wasn't enough for me to be invested in scott anymore.
also side note: why the fuck did mr d**gl*s say scott would 'make a good nazi youth.' scott is HISPANIC. does jeff davis know the nazis weren't only racist against jewish people or should someone tell him???
a lot of people see mason as stiles 2.0., but i feel like he couldve been a completely different character by the end of the show if they actually tried with him. as much as i love mason, he did fall into the 'black best friend who only exists to help their white friend' stereotype. mason had no personal hurdles in the show that weren't fixed in one episode. and that's not only an instance of lazy poc writing, it's an instance of shit writing in general, because MASON WAS FUCKING POSSESSED. where the fuck was the follow up from that???? how was he completely okay in 6a??? if sebastien had some of mason's memories, shouldn't he also have some of sebastien's? or at least have some nightmares about them? or something???? mason's also one of the nicest tw characters, so i really don't see why the guilt of being the beast and doing nothing about it didn't absolutely fucking destroy him to an extent. he clearly overcompensates with help like stiles, but not even just supernatural help. like he does homework help, basically acts as the group therapist, and there's gotta be a reason for that. and absolutely none of that gets explored whatsoever. it literally makes me so fucking mad like you guys have no idea
ethan was a decent enough character for what he had to do in the plot, but they don't really explain why he's more benevolent than aiden, and he just kinda hangs around. aiden was arguably the more interesting of the two and he had more internal conflict going on, while ethan really only existed to contrast him and try to tell him to be good or whatever.
not that ethan himself had to be anything other than that, but i don't remember danny or corey doing too much either. i get that ethan, danny and corey were all conceptually side characters who really couldn't have gotten much spotlight, but that's the writers' fault. we never had a same sex couple in the MAIN cast of teen wolf, which we didn't necessarily need to have, but it just feels a little off that all of the mlm characters are sidelined, and the wlw characters are basically nonexistent.
white women:
okay so the women are where it REALLY gets bad. like i typed a lot about mason and scott because jeff gave us enough detail on them for a good writer to make decent characters out of them. the walls of text are gonna be more like fences here. small wire fences that you can climb over with little effort.
first of all, lydia is obviously an outlier. she does get development. but once again, like scott, by season 3 they don't have any more development to give her. the only time she got to be a character again, and not just there to do whatever banshee thing the plot calls for that somehow reveals the information we need, is 6a. and even then, HER ENTIRE 6A PLOTLINE REVOLVES AROUND A GUY. it's nothing about her personally. she's just trying to get everyone else to believe stiles is real, because she wants him back.
allison is used as a macguffin for scott in season 1 and 2, and then dates isaac in season 3. she literally never gets to be her own character, and i can barely think of actual consistent personality traits that she has. i thought she was cool but they didn't do anything with her. i mean she overcame her family but they didn't really give her any personality while doing it. the closest thing i remember to a character moment for her was when she was in the elevator with stilinski and cried about everything being fucked up and her grades dropping. and i LOVE that scene. did we get more of that??? no.
poc women:
okay so hayden gets a little backstory, i'll give her that, but she never really struggles in the plot. EVER. do bad things happen to her? physically, yeah, but emotionally??? she seems upset at the end of 5a/beginning of 5b, but bounces back from every other horrible event like it's nothing for some reason. personality wise, she's a little snappy or whatever, but they didn't give her much to do besides make out with liam. she had a ton of potential with just her sister taking care of her and the whole chimera situation, but they didn't really do anything with her.
kira was adorable and awkward, and she's my favourite girl on the show personality wise, but once again, they gave her no real room to grow in the plot. and then they kicked her off by sending her to the desert and didn't even tell arden until the season was done!!
all i remember braeden doing was showing up and shooting things. that is literally everything i can say about her character. i'm not kidding.
in conclusion, i guess my main problem with how jeff writes anyone who isnt a white guy is the lack of internal conflict. they don't show any of these characters overcoming their own demons like they do the white guy ones.
you also don't NEED representation (although it does matter and is good/honestly expected to add in a suburban hs drama since poc/non cishet people happen to exist) but jesus if youre gonna do it at least put as much effort into your marginalized characters as your cishet ones. don't make a divide between how much development characters of equal importance get. unless you want your writing to come across like this.
this is my hot take and i will elaborate on it if asked to (also lydia is kind of an exception but not by much)
honestly shouldve made another one below the skeleton with poc women
EDIT: AND THEN ONE BELOW THAT WITH WLW
lydia's dead grandmother and that one bi girl with the immediately dead gf is not enough jeff
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