#this connection came after I saw a video of him earlier in the evening and then was reading and it mentioned shining star

[kingofmyborrowedheart]

Pedro Pascal dances like Elaine Benes.

[bontentrio]

SO KISS ME

my first post ever! yay! and it’s because i saw this tweet and i just HAD to write about it. who knows? maybe i’ll just keep writing whenever i get ideas

tw: none + fluff! (not proofread, i’m writing this on a whim) + slightly suggestive in some of them?

keep in mind that is literally my first time writing so be nice if you leave feedback <3 plus english is not even my first language

SEONGHWA

“MWACK” “MWACK” “MWACK” sounds filled the room, followed by soft giggles that came from the beautiful man underneath you. the sun was going down, and the last golden rays hit seonghwa’s face just right, making him look so heavenly you just couldn’t help but kiss him. one thing led to another, and you ended up kissing every single spot of his face.

“love, what’s up with you?” he asked, brushing a stray of hair that fell on your face.

“you” *MWACK* “are” *MWACK* “so” *MWACK* “beautiful” *MWACK MWACK MWACK* you said between kisses.

“but so are you, it’s my turn now!” he exclaimed, switching positions so now he had you caged underneath him. you giggled, holding his face with your hand and caressing his cheek.

“how did i get so lucky?” you asked, more to yourself than him, interlocking eyes with him.

seonghwa’s eyes softened, and proceeded to kiss your forehead, your cheeks, your nose, and finally your lips. following the order of kisses you did on him.

“that’s what i ask myself every single day” he whispered, going straight back to your lips to taste you even more.

HONGJOONG

you missed him. you woke up in the morning and the bed was cold, no sign of your boyfriend nearby, just his shorts and random shirt he wore as pjs on the floor. you went to work, had coffee with a friend and went back home, just to find an empty apartment once again.

you weren’t mad, you knew hongjoong had responsibilities as ateez’s leader and music producer. and you were so proud of him for that, but it doesn’t mean you don’t miss him. so you decided to pay him a visit to the studio, where he said he was gonna be at, earlier by text.

you found him sitting cross legged in front of his laptop with his headphones on, moving his head slightly to the beat of whatever song he was working on. you smirked to yourself, and thought of a little revenge plan.

you sneaked up on him, wrapping your arms around his torso and kissing him loudly on his cheek.

“AH! baby what are you doing here? don’t scare me like that!” he exclaimed, taking his headphones off and turning his chair around to look at you. he wasn’t angry though, you noticed the little smile on his face.

“i missed you, i want cuddles” you said, pouting. his eyes softened, and his hands left his laptop to wrap around your middle, bringing you closer to him. you were towering slightly over him.

no words were exchanged, the way your eyes interlocked said everything. as if there was a string connecting you both, you leaned in at the same time and shared a sweet kiss. he broke the kiss after a bit, but you needed more. so you left little pecks along his jaw, corner of his mouth, cheeks.

“i missed you too” he smiled.

YUNHO

“babe i need your help with something!” yunho suddenly exclaimed, making you lift your head from your phone with a confused look. he had just finished getting his makeup done for the music video.

earlier that day he asked you to come with him to the venue of ateez’s upcoming comeback. he said you were his “good luck charm” or something, and looked at you with those pretty puppy eyes of his. how could you say no?

you stood up from your seat and approached him. he immediately wrapped one arm around you, while the other hand held a lipstick tube. you raised an eyebrow at him, not following what he meant.

“i need you to put this on and kiss me” he giggled. “the comeback concept is love, and we were asked to take pictures with kisses all over our faces”

“but-“ you attempted to say. “and i really don’t feel like having wooyoung or mingi kiss me when i have you, the one i love the most in the whole wide world, here with me” he interrupted, shaking you slightly as to dramatize the seriousness.

again, how could you say no? he was giving you the same puppy eyes from this morning. you took the lipstick tube from his hand and applied it to your lips. wrapping your arms around his neck, you pulled him closer and kissed him on his cheeks, forehead, jaw, chin and nose. eveywhere but his mouth.

“you missed a spot, babe” he said, pouting. “atiny will kill me yunho!” you argued, giggling. “fine, but take your pictures first, then i’ll reward you”

damn those eyes of his.

YEOSANG

you were convinced your boyfriend was an angel. like an actual angel that fell from heaven or something so magestic that you could cry. he wasn’t doing anything special per say, he was simply enjoying the sun on one of the balconies of kq’s building.

few moments earlier yunho had appeared and hugged him suddenly, earning a confused look from yeosang. since the cameras were rolling, you surpressed a laugh. specially when he didn’t notice said cameras, and simply appreciated the hug from one of his members.

when yunho and the cameramen left, yeosang went back to the balcony, returning to the same spot and enjoying the sunlight once again as if nothing happened. he didn’t notice you either! so you decided to sneak up on him from behind and pressed the cold drink you were holding on his face.

“y/n! you surprised me” he exclaimed with wide eyes. you giggled as he took the drink. you kissed his cold cheek in response, and enjoyed the sensation against your lips. so you kissed him again. and again. and once again just in case.

“what’s with everyone today?” he asked, blushing due to your actions, but turned to face you properly. “you are simply so adorable yeo” you said, kissing him on the lips.

he returned the kiss with a smile, blush impossibly more evident.

SAN

“5 minutes until you have to get on stage! get ready!” a staff member yelled. everyone was making the final touches to the outfits, mics, earplugs, makeup, etc.

“darling come here quick! i need my good luck kiss!” san suddenly exclaimed, and you hurried up to him with a big smile on your face. “you don’t need luck san, you always kill it up there” you said, kissing him slightly on the lips.

“give me a proper one! i didn’t even feel that” he argued, bringing you closer with one hand while fixing his earplug with the other.

you rolled your eyes at him and stood on your tippy toes, not wanting to bring him down to your height because a staff member was still finishing the final touches on his pants. you kissed him again, lingering a bit more than the last time.

“that’s more like it” he muttered “but i’d like one more, just for extra precaution”.

“2 minutes everyone! go!” the same staff member from before yelled. the one fixing his pants stood up and left, work done.

you quickly wrapped your hands around him and brought him down to face you. not only did you kiss his lips once more, but also you kissed him all over his face, carefully though as to not ruin his makeup. satisfied, you pulled away and rushed him to the door.

“done, now go! you’ll be late!” you exclaimed, smile not leaving your face. he looked a bit dizzy, a look of longing evident in his eyes. he was, in fact, not satisfied, and wanted more.

“SAN! it’s time!” seonghwa called from nearby. san shook his head and bit his lip.

“thank you for the extra measurements darling” he said before rushing to the stage.

MINGI

“i want to play a game” you said suddenly, sitting up on your shared bed and throwing your phone behind you. mingi looked at you with a raised everybrow, hand pausing the small touches on your leg, but sitting up nonetheless.

“you are like a math genius right?” you asked, smirking, knowing the answer. the questioning look was more evident on his face now. “i like math, i don’t know if i’m a genius though” he said.

“for every right answer you get a kiss. deal?” you asked, getting closer to him and wrapping your legs around his body. his hands immediately let go of the ipad he was holding and instead embraced you, nodding.

“let’s start easy. 6x3?” you asked. “18” he replied, miliseconds after your question. he earned a kiss on his cheek.

“4x5?” you continued. “20, come on baby you said i was a genius, give me a little more”.

you rolled your eyes and gave him another kiss, on his other cheek now. “fine, 6x7?” “42, i said give me more!” he exclaimed. you kissed his forehead.

“okay! okay, 7x8 minus 6?” you asked. he took two seconds at most to think, before replying “50. pay up”. you kissed his neck this time.

“5x9 plus 10 minus 7” you said. “38, you’re making this easy on purpose as an excuse to kiss me right?” he asked, smiling while bringing you even closer to his body. you giggled “maybe, who knows? i like smart people”, you said, kissing him on the lips now.

he immediately kissed you back, deepening the kiss. his hands started caressing the small of your back while your hands flew to his hair, tugging it slightly. after a while, he broke the kiss.

“hey baby?” he asked, pecking your lips. you hummed in response. “the answer i gave you was incorrect, the real one was 48. just tell me you want kisses next time”.

WOOYOUNG

“do you hate me?” wooyoung asked, crossing his arms. you laughed while you finished applying gloss over your lipstick. you looked at him from the mirror, he had a big pout on his face.

“babe you know i don’t but if i kiss you i’ll ruin my lip combo! and i have to leave in like” you stopped to check the time on your phone “7 minutes”.

you were going out tonight with a couple of friends, and ever since you started getting ready wooyoung has been clingy. not in a possesive “don’t go” type of way, he just genuinely enjoyed your presence. when you started applying your lipstick, he was entranced by how good the color looked on your lips. which led to him asking for a kiss. reason why, you now have a pouty wooyoung standing crossed armed behind you.

“enough time for kisses! you can apply your gloss again later” he said, caging you between the vanity and himself the moment you stood up from your seat. you turned around and rolled your eyes. “i’ll kiss you later! promise!”

“nooo, i need one kiss now or else i’ll die!” he said dramatically, earning a genuine laugh from you. his face came closer to you, and brushed his nose against yours “please?” he begged.

you can’t say no, not to him at least. you kissed his lips lightly, as to not ruin your lipstick too much. it was enough to leave a faint mark though. as to what happened next, you just couldn’t help yourself: you started kissing all over his face, definitely ruining the lip combo you worked so hard on. but he just looked so pretty with that color all over his beautiful face!

once you were done with him, wooyoung checked himself on the mirror and smirked. “tell your friends you’ll be late, i want to see how this color looks on other parts of my body”.

JONGHO

it wasn’t a normal sight to wake up from your nap alone, and find out that your boyfriend left your side to cook. in fact, you could count the times you saw him cooking with one hand, and it was usually food yeosang asked for.

the smell that came out from whatever he was cooking was amazing though, momentarily making you forget he was even there in the first place. but of course, not for long, since you had a clear view of him chopping some carrots while looking extremely attractive. how can this be possible? you asked yourself. never in your life had you felt so atteacted to someone who was cutting vegetables.

you walked up to him, wrapping your arms around him and kissing his neck. “that smells amazing love” you said between kisses.

“oh you’re awake? i thought i’d have to wake you up myself” he replied, pecking your lips before returning to the carrots. he also tasted heavenly, and it was just a small peck. so you turned his face back to you again, and kissed him deeper, your tongue tasting his lips more.

“the taste is so good too jongho, you should cook more often” you said, breaking the kiss and pecking his cheek. he started blushing, hard and unable to say anything back. every time you both kissed left him speechless.

“thank you” he managed to say. so you did what everyone should do when your partner is a blushy adorable mess: you started kissing him everywhere. cheeks, lips, nose, neck, shoulders, everywhere you could reach.

“yeah i think i should cook more often” he managed to say again in between your kisses, forgetting about the vegetables and the simmering pot, while wrapping his arms around you and allowing you to keep doing your mischief.

[intuitive-revelations]

Theory: Something serious is up with the TARDIS

I had been wondering about this all series, but after Rogue today, it's finally been confirmed that something's going on with the TARDIS (on top of all the other arc threads going on!).

The moment I picked it up was in The Devil's Chord, where the TARDIS makes a strange groan and creaks after landing back in 1963. Ruby thinks it's from Maestro, but the Doctor says it's "something else". As of today it's happened again, twice! Once in the episode itself, once in the next time trailer. The exact same sound effect!

Someone on reddit pointed out a few weeks ago that this sound appeared even earlier too, in Wild Blue Yonder (notably also when we first saw Susan Twist, had gravity changed to mavity, and welcomed the Pantheon into the universe). Each time, it's also had attention drawn to it. Here's a video of each scene, followed by a direct comparison of each sound:

(I did have a quick glance to see if it appeared elsewhere, maybe even during Flux. As far as I can tell however, Wild Blue Yonder seems to be the only non-S14 appearance.)

What's more, going back to that Reddit thread, someone pointed out what the Wild Blue Yonder script says about this moment:

And then the TARDIS seems to moan. The Doctor fascinated. DONNA: Is it working? THE DOCTOR: I think so. Strange. He reaches out, touches the TARDIS, wondering. And that 'strange' will come back to haunt him, one day. But now...

(Suddenly the TARDIS freaking out over Donna's spill might make a bit more sense...)

So what the hell's going on?

Well, between a trailer scene and some news that just came out a few hours ago as of writing this, I think I may have an idea. Given it's based on trailer footage uploaded and then removed from YouTube, I'll put it below beneath a read more:

In a removed Disney+ teaser trailer we get two frames of the Doctor screaming out into space (with Mel behind him). Except it's not from "his" TARDIS:

It's the f*cking memory TARDIS!

And here's the thing. Not only was this trailer scrubbed from the Disney+ and BBC channels, but in the other trailers, this clip is entirely different! Not only is Mel gone, but the TARDIS interior is now Fifteen's own, and the TARDIS is in a different, generic region of space.

Just before this, we also see a similar nebulous region of space matching the unmanipulated clip.

But why on Earth is this such a big deal, that the BBC/Disney would go full MCU and give us a deliberately altered clip? The only previous time I remember Doctor Who doing this was for Series 10, hiding the plot point of the Doctor's blindness. It's not because of Mel, who literally appears in the released trailer. It's also seemingly not because of the background, despite it also being altered (unless the two moons are a clue with the planet being Gallifrey or something - the thought had occurred to me - but that's such a tiny detail, and we also only see one sun). Instead, it must be the Memory TARDIS. But why?

In-universe, I have no idea. On one hand I'd be delighted to get some answers as to its nature. Assuming it's connected to the groans we've been hearing, then it could be the TARDIS undergoes some sort of metamorphosis into this state? But we've seen the TARDIS change all the time, whether for safety, to recover or whatever. I also can't imagine general audiences are falling over themselves to find out the in-universe explanation for a Classic Who re-release framing device. Not to mention, apparently the sound will go on to "haunt" the Doctor...

...maybe the TARDIS straight up is taken out of commission in some way? And the Memory TARDIS isn't the same ship, but the Doctor's way of saving the day without her? Maybe even remembered into existence Fitz/Amy style?

Out of universe however, it's just been announced yesterday that we're getting more Tales of the TARDIS.

And not just more omnibus stories with past characters returning for in-universe commentary... but with Fifteen and Ruby! What's more, it's apparently a one-off, right before the finale (but, note, after the first part next week).

Which means it's important. Possibly extremely so, given the edited trailer scene. It might even serve as an interquel, given Fifteen and Ruby are somehow in it.

I've seen two common theories. Either a) it will be Pyramids of Mars, and we're getting Sutekh in the finale (presumably with Fifteen and Ruby partially because of bringing back Elizabeth Sladen obviously not being an available option - and even if you thought up another character, eg. Luke, I doubt Tom would be interested, at that point anyway), or b) it will be something tying into Susan returning.

Honestly between the remaining trailer clips (eg. sandstorms and dusty planets), a tease RTD supposedly gave in DWM, and an old interview with him where he supposedly floated the idea of bringing back a Classic Who for a finale and airing the original serial on BBC3 beforehand, I'm kinda leaning towards the prior, even though it wasn't at all on my radar.

However, this still doesn't actually answer what's up with the TARDIS.

It could quite literally be anything. However, here's a few ideas, some reasonable some weird, that I have come up with:

Old age / stress. This is a weird one, but oddly enough something I had thought of once in the past, and I just saw someone else come to the same idea on Reddit. The idea is that while the Doctor has a new regeneration cycle and now a good few years, if not decades or more, of rest and recovery, the TARDIS may struggling in it's own right (especially if it is somehow old enough to have once been the Fugitive Doctor's). However, while this could be something interesting to explore, and I think isn't entirely mutually exclusive with other options, I can't imagine going anywhere near a storyline of the TARDIS itself 'wearing thin'. Besides, if we did, I like to imagine it would have been foreshadowed with size leakage, as per Name of the Doctor.

Relating to the above, could it be something linked to the TARDIS splitting in The Giggle? However, the sound starts before then (not that that means much to the TARDIS, but still).

Laws of rationality breaking down. This one makes the most sense in a lot of ways, between the expanded universe (particularly Christmas on a Rational Planet) and Flux, we've seen the TARDIS cannot survive in an irrational universe. While time has stabilised for now, we're still seeing magic and other Old Time forces encroaching in on the Web of Time. I'm a bit torn with this one however, as while it works from a lore and writing perspective, plus matches with this starting in Wild Blue Yonder (right after the Mavity incident... interestingly), it seems odd it's not more connected with what happened in Flux? Why are the sounds and effects on the TARDIS completely different?

Something to do with the Doctor's fobwatch. In Rogue, the Doctor blames the sound on indigestion. We know we're getting more Timeless Child related stuff - could this somehow be linked to Thirteen dropping the Division biodata module deep into the TARDIS? Would be a weird time to pick this up though, and I'm not sure exactly how that would have had such an effect.

The most actually likely, but least possible to theorise about: it's something time-wimey to do with Ruby, the villain(s) of the story, and/or Susan Twist, especially given this started after her first appearance.

Regardless, I'm just excited to see what's up with the Memory / "Remembered" TARDIS, because it's seems we're about to learn something...

[lichenes]

OMG I'M SO GLAD SOMEONE IS WRITING ABT SKI AGGUUUUU. there's so many joost fics (which I love) but I've been looking for aggu fics in the depths of the internet for soo long ( ´_ゝ｀)

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anyways, can i please request something where the reader catches the eye of aggu during a concert or smth, and the whole interaction between them is cute and flirtatious? ski aggu is a BIG ladies man, so, reader is obviously falling for his pick-up lines ect. thank you!! ^3^

Literally! Where are the Aggu fics?? I've seen edits of this man with 19k likes on tiktok and literally noody is posting abt him here!! Anyway! Once again, need him biblically. I'm a sucker for irl scenarios :"") Loosely based on that one video of sbd holding Aggu's hand; jealous. Enjoooy<3 CW: flirting wc: 686

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The crowd, alongside you, was singing the lyrics to “wie du manchmal fehlst”. You were standing in the first row, mesmerised by Aggu’s form. Throughout the night he would run around the stage but during this song he walked closer to the crowd. You realised at that moment that he was making a beeline for you. You quickly thanked your earlier self for wearing something revealing and extended your arm towards him. 

When your fingers connected with his own your brain short-circuited. Suddenly the room started spinning. You were literally holding Aggu’s hand. You kept singing hoping your singing skills were satisfactory, if he heard them. He looked down at you and gave you a smile as if to reassure you that it was happening in real life. You saw his grills alongside the grin he flashed you and my god, did he look good from that point of view.

He moved around near the crowd for a moment more and went back to his usual theatrics. You got a video of him holding your hand which might’ve been the happiest moment of your life so far. He moved away from you after a moment of closeness to get close to other fans, avoiding holding hands with anyone else. The song was one of the last ones he performed so not long after he said his goodbyes he walked backstage. 

After the concert Aggu posted a story in English pertaining to the person who held his hand. It so happened to be you. You dm’d him, sending the video as proof if he wanted it. He didn’t answer quickly. Your anxiety was rising with each passing hour. Suddenly when you were just about to go to sleep, you heard a notification. “How’d you like the concert?” 

You couldn’t believe this. “I loved it!! I honestly was sooo happy when I got the tickets and-” You stopped for a moment, deleting the message entirely. “It was lovely!” You tried to seem nonchalant but it couldn’t be denied that you were fucking texting The Ski Aggu. He sent you a voice message.

…

Holy shit. Did he expect one back? What did he say? What was even going on?! “Mmm, glad you liked it. I couldn’t help but notice such a beautiful person among the crowd.” It was only a few seconds long but it made your heart flutter like a ballad sung by the greatest singer to ever live. You gathered all your courage and pressed ‘record’. You rambled for a minute straight and when your phone buzzed with the message reaching its full capability you decided against sending it. ‘Okay. We can do this.’ You thought about what you wanted to say and attempted to try again. Then a message popped up. “Hesitating gorgeous?” 

…oh my god.

“I wouldn’t dream of it.” You responded, quickly regretting your decision. He saw the message and started typing. “Good.” Your heart stopped for a second. You pressed record and began rambling once more. Sent. Okay. Alright. “You’ve got a voice as gorgeous as your face angel.” The answer came quicker than you expected. He sent another voice message. “I was thinking, maybe you’d like to meet up today? I heard you’ve got great clubs here.” 

You were frantically getting ready, suddenly forgetting how to do eyeliner and what clothes suited you the best. “I’m here.” You read the message in your notifications. You brushed your teeth quickly and ran out the door, almost breaking a leg on the stairs. You saw him in his car waiting, scrolling through tiktok. He was wearing his usual clothes and you started feeling a bit too overdressed. His reaction to your appearance swept you off your feet. 

“Hi dov-” Looking up from his phone he saw what he would describe as the embodiment of the word breathtaking. His jaw almost went slack from seeing you in those clothes. “My goodness, you’re even more beautiful now. How’d you do that?” You blushed. “Tried my best with what I have.” He looked at you with lust in his eyes. “Oh and you’ve got so much.” 

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[tojiwrd]

5: fate is fickle ; gojo satoru

pairing gojo satoru x fem!reader

summary when satoru breaks off your engagement, you understand and accept it. but when he marries someone else, you don't understand because he didn't want to be tied down.

content warnings mentions toxic family, mentions of forced marriage, emotional infidelity, bad friends (:((), and i think that's it! lmk if i missed anything

word count 3.7k

a/n i think this is my fav chapter so far lov you guys sm thank you so so much for the support on this!!

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Spending more time with Suguru after months of occasional contact was easier than you assumed it would be. You, usually accompanied by Reina, would go to his art gallery in the evenings with a cup of coffee for yourself and him. It seemed too similar to old times, but you always chose to ignore the video reel of memories that pressed play as soon as you opened the glass doors to the gallery of how you and Satoru went there for the mere purpose of annoying Suguru.

This was one of the days your elbows were resting against one of the thin marble tables in the basement—which, you had to admit, was crafted to perfection to be Suguru’s space in his gallery—and mindlessly scrolling through your phone while he worked on his laptop. 

“Yo.” You heard him call from his desk just a few feet away from you. “I have to run out to pick up a late shipment. I’ll be back in like—twenty minutes? You can stay here, we'll meet up with Nanami once I get back.”

Nanami Kento was another new addition into your life, and you’d be lying if you said he wasn’t the most exciting one. It wasn’t that you hadn’t heard about him before—you had, occasionally from Satoru who was his acquaintance back when they were classmates—but he was fresh and new which made it a lot easier to open up to him. You, Kento, and Suguru had plans for dinner tonight with Reina, too, who backed out a few hours ago because her mother had arrived from her month-long trip. 

“Yeah, I’ll be fine. Go ahead,” you replied, sending him a small smile over your shoulder as he gave you a short wave, gathered his car key, and went upstairs. 

You just continued swiping through your phone, replying to some text messages from earlier this week that didn’t particularly mean much. You’d spent the past few days at home to only sleep, choosing to spend time with Reina, Suguru, and Nanami. You had been in touch with Shoko, too, but hadn’t found a time to meet up with her since she’d gone abroad for an internship for a couple months. Still, it had taken you a long time before you finally began talking to the friends you had that were connected to Satoru. 

You heard the small ding of the sound the system made when the door before the basement unlocks through the keycard and furrowed your brows. It hadn’t even been ten minutes since Suguru left, there was no chance he was back. It was followed by heavy thumps of footsteps going down the stairs, and you only had to see the black lace-up shoes to know who it was. 

You wanted to scramble for your things and hide underneath a table, but you didn’t have enough time because Satoru saw you the exact moment his face came into view when he stepped on the third-last step. 

“O—Oh. I didn’t know you were here.”

You tried to clear your voice, to pretend that this situation was no big deal. Of course, running into your boyfriend of three years and fiance for a few more months who broke it off with you on a random Tuesday was, in one way or another, a big deal. “He left to get a shipment. I don’t think he’ll be back soon.”

For some reason, for some fucking reason he walked closer to you. You had said that Suguru would take a while because you wanted Satoru to take the hint and leave, not so he could step towards you—closer and closer till you could look into that sea in his eyes almost clearly— and take a seat three chairs down from you. No. You didn’t want him near you, especially not after the night on the balcony. 

“Guess I’ll wait, then.” His voice was honey. It was so smooth, so soft that your ears would feel warm whenever he spoke. 

“You can just call him.”

There was always something you believed when it came to Satoru ever since he began pursuing you before your relationship: he was persistent. He would leave little notes all over your room that you’d find in drawers days after they’d been placed, asking you to go on a date, to give him one chance. Some notes, you found days after you went on said date with him, and that was when you realized how he truly was persistent. It wasn’t just when it came to you, though. When you, Satoru, Suguru, and Shoko went to a bar with an indoor mini golf area, it had taken all three of you to manipulate the ball’s trajectory when he wasn’t looking just so he could pass the hardest route. It was two in the morning and you were ridden with sleep—it wasn’t your fault. When Satoru put his mind to something, he almost always achieved it. 

“No point. I’ll just wait—I haven’t seen him in a while.” Just as you knew, Satoru wasn’t backing down. 

You didn’t know his motives, and you’d tried really hard to not dig deep into his actions to try to find out. Satoru always haunted all your questions, he was like a ghost within your body constantly testing you, trying to get you to question why he did what he did. 

You remembered that you and Satoru were once a blank page, not an entire book that had come to a tragic, unfulfilling end. You tried to erase every word, but they were written in pen and the traces always lingered. So, the only thing you could do was close the book and keep it somewhere far from your sight, but you couldn’t do that when he showed up in front of you. Not as a ghost but as a person, reminding you he was still here, real and moving, and he had pieces of you that you would never get back. 

“I’m leaving,” you murmured, deciding that you had the choice to leave it all behind. To leave him all behind. He could haunt you from within, but you couldn’t let him materialize once again into your life. 

“Y/N, stop,” he said, arms reaching out to you when you walked past him to go to the staircase but stopping as though he realized it was wrong. 

And you replied, “What?” because even though you knew you shouldn’t, a part—a big part—of you was still left in his car where he asked you for the engagement ring. A part of you still couldn’t let him go entirely because you were never good at leaving things behind.

“I want to… apologize,” he began, running his fingers through his unkempt hair. He lifted his hand when you opened your mouth, beginning to say something, and he said, “You don’t have to say anything, okay? Please, just give me five—two minutes of your time. I just need to talk to you.”

And like he told you to, you didn’t say anything because if Satoru wanted to talk for five—two minutes, then you would let him. 

“I got married,” he said, as though he was in a daze within his own mind. You scoffed, but didn’t say anything. “And that… that was fucked up. You didn’t deserve hearing about the engagement three months after I ended ours.” 

Although it was all true, although you had relived all those moments inside your head, hearing Satoru say them made them real. This wasn’t Reina helping you get over him, this was the him you tried to get over for months. It was humiliating knowing he knew exactly what he did, though there was no doubt he didn’t before this. He knew better than anyone how you felt without talking to you because he was there, holding your hand when a stray tear left your eye as if he was still yours.

You still didn’t say anything.

“I met Hana a month before I ended it with you.” You weren’t sure you could hear this. If somebody held a knife to your chest at that moment, you probably would still stand still, completely silent because there were no words left in your mouth. “I didn’t intend on getting engaged with her, Y/N. I meant it when I said I felt I couldn’t be tied down but—” He paused, as if he didn’t want to continue. 

And he didn’t continue, at least for a few minutes that felt like long, grueling hours. 

“But she was new, and I hadn’t felt that… newness for so long. Not since I’d met you. And she said things, Y/N, that made me think we couldn’t get married, that we couldn’t work.” His eyes looked at your face, and it was equivalent to a thousand needles piercing your skin because he waited for you to say something, to agree? But you couldn’t, not even after he had broken you completely and left you on the side of the road like you meant nothing. Because in your stupid, twisted head, you could have worked. If he wanted. 

He continued, taking your silence as a cue. “When I ended it with you, I—I didn’t want to. I swear. You deserved better, and I realized that I didn’t deserve to be anywhere near you. I couldn’t look at you without feeling guilty about the second-thoughts I was having because another girl made me rethink.”

This wasn’t what you expected today, was the only thought swirling through the tendrils of your mind.

“You don’t have to say you understand because I don’t either. I’m not sorry for ending it with you, Y/N, because you didn’t deserve me after all I did, after all I thought about us. But I am sorry for lying to you and, in a way, making our relationship seem meaningless because you probably thought I moved on too quickly.”

“You did,” you said, surprising yourself with the finality of your words. But you couldn’t take it back now that you had made yourself an almost-coherent member of this conversation.

“What?”

“You did move on, Gojo. Too quickly. I don’t think that, I know that and you do, too.”

He tugged his lower lip between his teeth, and you looked anywhere but at his downcast face. It was hard to admit it to him because you couldn’t stop your words, not when he was piling on brick after brick preparing to tumble it all down with you on the other side. If you stayed there any longer—

“I liked Hana then, but the marriage wasn’t what I expected.” You leaned back against the wall, placing some more distance between the two of you. Satoru seemed as though he was clutching at the flimsiest of straws to keep you there, to let you let him talk. “My father—he pushed for it and after losing you, I didn’t fight against it. I thought a marriage like this would hurt less than us getting married and—”

“And what?” you prompted.

“And having to end. I don’t know—I didn’t want us to fail, Y/N.”

You smiled wryly, understanding there was nothing more left for him to explain. “Okay.”

“Okay? That’s… it?”

“I didn’t question why you did what you did before, didn’t try to get answers. I’m not going to change after you’ve given me those answers I never asked for.” At that point, you were looking to find any words to make a swift exit, but you still remained rooted in your spot. 

He sighed, fingers reaching up to pinch the bridge of his nose. “You’re saying you would rather not know?”

Of course, you wanted to know, but you had kept yourself from looking for answers. You knew that whatever ran below the surface of Satoru’s flimsy, no-good, unbelievable reason to end your engagement would hurt, and you were always good at taking what he said at face-value. Obviously, you were right but that didn’t grant you the satisfaction of a person whose beliefs were just proven right would. 

“I’m saying I’m over it, Satoru.” Your voice was convincing enough. "And if you want a successful marriage, maybe you should tell your wife that you got involved with her while you were engaged to me. I'm not the only one who you should be apologizing to."

As soon as you turned your back towards him and headed for the stairs, the door on top clicked open and Suguru gave you a wide smile and wave when he saw you on the other end.

It was funny, real fucking funny, how on a random Tuesday, every question that had plagued your mind like a ceaseless tornado over almost two years was answered by the harbinger of pain himself. You had been so deeply lost in your own soul, and even a person drowning felt uneasy when pulled back up into the air. Satoru pulled you out and now, he stared at you as if he was a friend who offered you a single piece of a chip because you were starving while he ate an entire packet of it. You weren’t sure how he felt but, with the way he looked at you, you were sure that some immature, adolescent part of him that’s growth stunted in middle school truly believed he had done you right. By telling you the truth two years later. 

You didn’t notice Suguru had walked down the steps and taken notice of Satoru and was now flashing his eyes between the two of you as if you were a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. You weren’t. 

“Satoru, man. What the fuck are you doing here?” Suguru asked, and you should’ve made your way up the stairs and away from them but you stayed put. Your mind somersaulted, making excuses for yourself to yourself that you had plans with Suguru anyway, and you would leave with him once he makes Satoru leave.

“I just wanted to hang,” Satoru replied, shrugging his shoulders. 

Suguru inhaled a deep breath and you could see the corners of his ears turning a dark, angry shade of red in annoyance as he stared his friend down. “Just leave for now, dude. I’ve got plans.”

You didn’t look at Satoru, but you felt his gaze on you as his footsteps reached closer to the stairs. You moved, not wanting to have any unnecessary contact with him. As he reached you, he halted his steps and looked at you and you could have buried yourself right then into a hole because you hated this. 

“I know I’m not in the position to ask for anything but I want to tell you, again, that I really don’t want you to hate me. We don’t ever have to talk again, if you don’t want to, but please don’t hate me.”

You looked at his eyes, then stared at him for a moment longer. You laughed, it was bitter and held a certain form of venom you had never shown Satoru, at the sincerity in his features. “Say what you just said but slower, just so you can also comprehend how utterly senseless you sound.”

A hint of annoyance flashed across his features before he tamped it down and shook his head. He started heading up the stairs, not bidding Suguru or you a goodbye, and you sighed in relief. 

“Y/N, I—” Suguru started, but you cut him off by pushing him by his shoulders in annoyance. “Woah, woah. What did I do?”

“You didn’t tell me!” you exclaimed, your voice finally coming back to you after whatever-that-was. “He cheated, Suguru! And you didn’t tell me.” You were saying your thoughts exactly as they leaped through your mind, barely comprehending that you had resorted to punching—albeit lightly—Suguru’s chest as you closed your eyes. 

Everything was blank, and for a moment you were convinced you had lost a wire inside your brain throughout this entire ordeal. 

“Hey, listen,” Suguru said, his arms reaching out to gently grab onto your shoulders. “You kept on saying you don’t wanna dig deeper and all that bullshit once the two of you broke up. And you were doing good, Y/N. You know how long it took you to start acting like yourself again? Four months. I didn’t want to ruin your process because you were healing.”

You gritted your teeth and said, “You had no right, Suguru. And you had no right to assume when I moved on because it didn’t take me just four months. If your—if your fiance cheated on you and didn’t tell you, I wouldn’t keep it from you.” Your voice trailed off as you stared into his eyes, and that was when you’d realized you truly couldn’t rely on him because he was Satoru’s friend first and yours second. 

You had—in great fashion—run away from Suguru’s art gallery before he could even form a defense to your words. At that point, you were sure he wouldn’t be showing up to dinner with Nanami because that would not be a good moment for the three of you. You had dug for your phone and texted Nanami, telling him that you’ll be at the restaurant in ten minutes to which he’d instantly replied saying he’ll be there in five.

It didn’t take long for you to drive and reach the restaurant, which is why you were sitting across from Kento who looked more curious than anything. You tried to avoid his watchful gaze, though he didn’t say anything. That might have made it tenfold uncomfortable because he often came to his own conclusions, without asking any questions, and ran with them. 

“Stop staring,” you muttered, fingers absentmindedly flipping through the menu. “And decide what you’re going to eat.”

“I already know,” he replied, unmoving with his stare. 

“You and Geto fight?” he asked as soon as you’d both placed your order with the waiter. He raised a brow when you tilted your head, feigning confusion. “You can tell me, I don’t give a fuck.”

You laughed at the lightness of his words. “Why do you think we fought?”

He let out a chuckle, barely audible, and took his phone out. “Because he isn’t here? And because he texted me and said ‘sorry, can’t make it.’ And he said you two were coming together and his text was sent the same time you said you were on your way.”

“Okay, genius,” you drawl, resting your arms casually on the wooden table. “I guess it could be considered a fight,” you admitted.

His eyes flickered with the slightest hint of interest but it was gone the next second. “Oh, yeah? Lover’s quarrel?”

“God, shut up.”

“Don’t go thinking I’m God just yet,” he muttered, a smirk playing on his full lips.

You threw the napkin in front of you at his face which he, unfortunately, caught with his hand. “Me and Suguru aren’t even friends like that,” you said, almost believing it. Truth was, it was the heat of the moment and you wanted to clutch at every strand of dignity to make it seem like what Suguru did didn’t hurt, alongside with what you now knew Satoru did, too. 

“Uh huh,” Kento sarcastically went along. “So what happened?”

You debated on whether or not you should tell him the entire story, knowing that he was friends with Suguru and sort-of knew Satoru. But there wasn’t anything wrong with confiding in a friend, right? You chose to give him bits and pieces from the day—about how Satoru, your ex-fiance wanted to talk and give you a whole rundown of how he pretty much fell in love with another girl while you were engaged—which slowly got you talking about the few months after the breakup and Satoru’s new engagement. By the time the two of you were about to order dessert, you had told him pretty much everything—not without being prompted though. As soon as the two of you moved on, he’d say something like that fucker’s so stupid. What did he say after that? It was almost like a conversation with Reina, but with Kento it felt different. 

He’d look at you every so often while you talked, a glint present in his eye that usually wasn’t there. He’d run his fingers through his blond hair and slightly lift the direction of his eyes to meet your eye, and if you hadn’t been shit-talking your ex’s best friend, you would’ve felt the warmth radiating through your body under his gaze more. 

“I meant it,” Kento started, chewing the last bit of the cake you forced him to order. “That Gojo kid is stupid for that shit.”

You laughed, biting your lip to contain the blush that crept up your cheeks. “Calm down, otherwise I might start to think you like me.”

He looked at you with a blank stare then tilted his head to the side, as if trying to read you. “You’re dumb.”

“What?”

“You actually think I’m not interested in you?” he asked, then laughed as if it was the most preposterous thing he had heard. You thought about it for a moment, and realized every attempt at flirting he made, you brushed off as a joke. That’s just Kento, you’d kept on saying to yourself. You’d ignored every attempt he made because the waters after a three-year-relationship were tumultuous, and it was never your first thought that Kento was truly interested everytime he made a comment slightly suggestive.

It took you a moment to realize you still had to reply to him, and in that moment you allowed yourself to feel the warmth underneath his gaze. “What?”

“I’m not saying I’m about to drop to one knee and propose or something. I’m just telling you there’s interest present.”

You weren’t surprised; only Kento could make something that people always shy away from saying seem so easy. You smiled. You weren’t sure if this could work, and you weren’t even sure if this conversation would ever lead to anything in the future, but it felt like a welcome recess from every other part of the random Tuesday. For a moment, it was easy to forget Satoru, Satoru’s betrayal, and Suguru’s behavior. Kento had come into your life during, what you’d consider, a limbo period where you were still navigating the almost-two-years-ago-breakup and its aftermath. He was fresh, and he was new. Perhaps that was the newness Satoru was talking about.

And maybe there was something innately weird about Kento, someone who was interested in you, to listen to you talk about your ex and then tell you he’s interested in you, but you’d always been a fan of the unexpected.

“Don’t go all quiet,” he murmured, twirling his glass of water around absentmindedly.

“There’s interest on my end, too.”

[taruusmoon]

BABY DON’T CRY TONIGHT

Pariring: Bada Lee x Jessica Dal (OC)

Genre: angst

Warning: angst. Used of Korean name Dal which means Moon.

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Jessica had always been confident; she had grown up with a father who encouraged her to be better and a mother who told her every day that she was an amazing kid. Since she was a child, many of the people around her supported her, and some children held her up as a role model. Her future was promising, or so she had been told by one of her maternal aunts who had the gift of palm reading. 

     "You will be successful, but you are destined to suffer for love before you are completely happy” she once told her when she visited her family in Colombia for the first time after a while at the age of fifteen. But at that time and until a month ago, Jessica had not believed what her aunt told her. Of course she believed in fate and the gift, but five years earlier she had met the love of her life and was completely sure she would not suffer for love, or so she thought. 

     In 2018, five years ago, Jessica came to JustJerk to be part of the staff, YoungJ discovered her potential, and along with him, so did Bada Lee when she first saw her audition at the academy.

Bada was by far one of the most promising dancers at the academy; her career was on the rise, and for Jessica, it was inevitable not to feel a little attracted to the girl. So when they finally met officially, the connection they had even before they spoke to each other became even stronger. Without being able to help it, only a year later they became best friends, but the feelings grew even more beyond friendship, and while they were in Japan due to an academy competition, Jessica confessed her feelings to Bada under the sound of windchimes, and it was reciprocated. 

    But now, six months after the competition in Japan their relationship has changed, and Jessica doesn't know the reason. But she stood there in the corridors of the academy looking for her girlfriend after walking in the pouring rain with a waterproof jacket that barely covered her.

Carefully Jessica took off her wet black jacket, placed it on the floor, trying not to get the floor wetter, and then turned her gaze to her girlfriend. Bada was leaning against the large mirror that covered one of the walls of the practice room. She had her legs crossed and her eyes closed. She knew Jessica was in front of her, but she didn't feel like talking. It had been like that for the last month. 

     “I saw Howl coming out of the academy, and as soon as he saw me, he looked down” Jessica said as she slowly walked towards Bada. Lately, it was the only way she had to approach her girlfriend so as not to make her uncomfortable or make her leave. “Was he with you? Did you talk about anything?”

     “No.”

Bada opened her eyes and stood up. Jessica stopped in the middle of the room, watching the other girl head over to the stereo to unplug her phone and start picking up the cables. She had been practicing all afternoon, creating choreography for a future academy video. 

     “I heard Tata say that you and Howl have been hanging out lately. I don't mean to pry, but I'd like to know what you're talking about; after all, you haven't spoken since...”

     “Since you and I started dating” Bada interrupted without looking at Jessica.

     “Yes, seven months ago, to be exact.”

Both were silent for at least a minute. Bada had many things on her mind, but mainly the conversation she had with Howl a few minutes ago, and Jessica was beginning to despair about the whole situation they were going through. About a month ago, her relationship with Bada had started to decline; the girl was hanging out at the academy, no longer accepting her invitations for dates, and talking to her had become almost impossible since she wasn't answering her texts or calls. 

     “Hyeokjae has been having a hard time, Dal” Bada finally spoke again, and Jessica felt a little strange to hear her call her Dal after a while. “He confessed his feelings to me.”

     “Yeah, but we knew that before we started dating.” Jessica crossed her arms and clenched her jaw. She had a sneaking suspicion that the conversation was going to lead to a new fight. 

   “I thought it was a simple attraction, but he's really in love with me; he's been suffering because of us, and he doesn't deserve it." Bada slowly turned to face Jessica from a distance. “We've been spending time together, and I think I realized something.”

Jessica swallowed hard, then took a long breath. She frowned slightly and began to deny. Without answering anything, she turned to walk in the direction of her jacket. She was ready to leave and avoid the conversation that was coming; if she ignored him, it wasn't going to happen, and she was willing to play the blind girl’s role if it meant that Bada wasn't going to leave her. 

     “I think we should take some time, Dal” Bada muttered with a trembling voice. Jessica paused with her eyes fixed on the door, her back to Bada, as she clenched the sleeve of her sweater tightly, wondering what she had done wrong to end up like this. "I'm not saying we're going to end it but I think we should back off a little, at least until Howl gets over it a little and...

     “Do you love me, Bada?” Jessica blurted out suddenly, turning around with glassy eyes and a lump in her throat, causing the other girl to frown a little confused.

“I don't think this has anything to do with what I said before.”

      “Except that it does. because I'm sure I love you but I'm not so sure you do because if you did, you wouldn't be asking me something like this.”

      “Howl was my friend Dal.” Bada wrinkled his nose as she blinked rapidly to keep tears from forming in shis eyes. Somehow, she thought Jessica would agree to give herself some time and understand her decision. 

     “He was my friend too! My best friend in fact, but I chose us, I chose you” Jessica pointed an accusing finger at Bada inching closer and closer. So answer me!

      “I'm sorry.”

      “I don't want you to apologize!”

“Then I don't know what you want!” Bada shouted, looking straight into the girl's brown eyes, which were flooded with tears. “I just can't take it anymore, Jessica. It's not just because of Hyeokjae; everyone hates us. The looks of dislike from people at the academy, from people who used to be our friends.” Bada frowned, not knowing what else to say as she ran the back of her hand across her cheek, wiping the tears that fell from her eyes. She couldn't figure out at what point they stopped being Dal and Bada—the ocean in love with the moon— She felt her heart break. “I don’t know what else you want from me”

Jessica closed her eyes in frustration, the mere fact that Bada called her Jessica managed to make her tense up immediately because she never called her that; she always called her Dal or some affectionate nickname, but the last few days—since Bada had started talking to Howl to be exact—the cute nicknames and the Dal had disappeared, and now she managed to understand the reason. And there was also the fact that what Bada said was true; since seven months ago, when they had started dating, their former friends stopped talking to them; each and every one of them took the side of the "hurt" Howl. The looks of dislike towards the two were hurtful, but when Bada wasn't around, Jessica got the worst of it because, behind her back, she could hear many calling her insensitive and a traitor.

“Do you really wonder what I want?” Jessica asked with a trembling lower lip, not waiting for an answer. I want you to tell me that you love me. “I...I was friendless because I was selfish to fall in love with the same girl my best friend was in love with” she paused for a moment to take a long breath to quiet the sob that was struggling to come out. Bada averted her gaze to the wall behind Jessica, pursing her lips and feeling more tears fall down her cheeks. “And I know I'm a shitty person because of that. I understand and accept it, but I didn't regret it because I had you, and that was enough. But now you come to tell me that Hyeokjae feels bad and he doesn't deserve this.”

     “Jess...”

     “They put his happiness and mine on a scale, and you don't even hesitate to choose him. I didn't doubt for a second to choose you, Bada. You wonder what I want? The truth is, I don't think I want anything from you anymore.”

The two were silent again for a few short seconds. Bada not knowing what to say because her decision is final, but the pain that settles in her chest makes it impossible for her to say it loudly, Jessica inwardly prepared herself to give the last blow, almost sure that it will be in her favor. 

     “I'm not going to give you time." Jessica said, her voice trembling, "There are only two choices, Bada; you're done with me for good or you choose me. 

     Bada stared at Jessica without saying anything, and after long seconds, when she finally found courage, she approached her girlfriend to wrap her in a tight hug. Silently apologizing for what she was about to do. Jessica could breathe easily again; however, she couldn't help but feel selfish again, but the warmth of Bada's arms made her forget a little. 

     “Forgive me Jessica” Bada whispered, pressing her cheek against her girlfriend's hair. Then Jess' heart started up again, beating frantically against her chest. “Please, forgive me.”

     Carefully Bada took Jessica's arms to remove them from her waist, and with crystal clear eyes, she looked down, meeting the reddish eyes and confused expression on Jessica's face. Without a word, Bada cradled her girlfriend's face in her hands, closed her eyes tightly, and pressed her lips against Jessica's giving her a kiss that tasted of pain and tears. Neither of them moved for long seconds, both knowing it was their goodbye kiss.

      “Why are you doing this, Bada? You wouldn't be able to do this to me” Jessica threw her head back and whispered with tear streaked cheeks. “I'm never going to forgive you.”

     “I know, I'm sorry, i don’t want you to cry for me.” Bada ran his thumb over Jessica's cheeks, wiping away the tears while biting her lower lip trying to keep her own sobs and tears. “Please, don’t cry anymore”

     With a slight pitiful smile, Bada took a step back and walked past Jessica, who kept her gaze fixed on the mirror, watching as the girl picked up her practice bag and then headed for the door.

     “If you go through that door, there will be no turning  back." Jessica blurted out in a plaintive tone of voice and almost in a whisper, making Bada stop with her hand on the door handle. She hesitated; it was more than clear to her that she was not sure about what she was going to do, but the decision was made, so she opened the door and finally crossed it. “You... You will regret it, but it will be too late.”

Is this what a broken heart feels like? Jessica thought as she brought her hands to her chest and then let out a painful moan that filled the room. As soon as Bada had closed the door behind her, her chest began to ache more intensely than before, her legs faltered until she was on her knees on the floor and sobs began to come out along with hot tears. She didn't know how long she stood with her face pressed against the floor as she cried but the door suddenly opened again.

      “Jessica!” Tatter's muffled cry echoed through the room, and she immediately ran to her friend to take her in her arms. Bada had looked for her in the other practice room and in tears had asked her to go with Jessica. “I need you to breathe Dal, please don't cry anymore.”

      “I can't Tata, why do I feel so bad?”

     Taeyoung closed her eyes and squeezed Jessica tighter, she felt bad for the girl in her arms, and also for the other girl she knew was on the other side of the door being hold between Lusher’s arms.

      “You're going to be okay Dal.”

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N/A: just some angst to present Jessica before i drop the first ep of the rock band au🙇🏽‍♀️. Eng is not my first lenguaje so I’m sorry if something it’s not grammatically correct.

Hope u enjoy it

[6rookie-writer0110]

I still don't understand about love

Olivia Rodrigo x Male Reader.

Request - The reader has Asperger syndrome and when he has an attack Olivia's voice calms him down, so when Olivia goes to give a concert in his city the reader wants to attend even though the crowds make him nervous, the concert goes smoothly, the reader is very happy and goes to where the meet and greet is going to be, the reader is already nervous there but when Olivia approaches the reader they get along very well and connect, Olivia realizes that the reader is different and wants to know him more, so Olivia tells the reader that if he can wait for her, once they are alone they talk and begin to know each other.

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I don't have Asperger's syndrome or know anyone personally who has it. I did my research to understand it better. But I hope it came out right in the story.

Earlier in the day, you had an attack and to calm down you put on your headphones. You are on your phone and you go on YouTube, you type in Olivia Rodrigo and you start to watch her music video. Her voice starts to calm you down and you like everything about her. After watching that video, then you watch another video of her. Your mother knocks on the door and walks in, then you take off your headphones.

“Y/n, I got this for you. It's a late birthday gift” She said.

She gives you the envelope and you start to open it. You take out the tickets and you start to read it over and over.

“Is this a mistake?” You asked.

She smiled and she shook her head.

“No, it's not a mistake. I know how much you like her music and it calms you down. I bought the tickets and VIP passes months ago, but the post office took a long time to deliver them.

“I don't know what to say,” You said.

“The show is tomorrow. I know loud noises bother you, but I know you will have a good time” She said.

“Thank you,” You said.

She smiled then she left your bedroom, she went to cook dinner. You stare at the tickets for a while then you start to think about what to wear. Now, you start to think if she should sign your CD or poster or both.

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The night of the concert your mom went with you. You slightly feel a panic attack but it starts to go away. With the VIP passes, you have to go in early to meet her. There is a line and everyone goes into the room to meet her. People that are ahead of you quickly went up to Olivia. Everyone is smiling and taking pictures with her. Olivia starts to sign posters and CDs then she takes more pictures with the fans. Slowly she starts to walk toward you but you don't stare at her eyes. You are starting to feel even more nervous, and you bite your bottom lip.

“Hi, I'm Olivia. Do you want me to sign your CD or poster?” Olivia said.

You don't say anything at first and she waits for you to say something. She thinks you are cute.

“After the show, I could meet with you again if that's okay,” Olivia said.

“Yes,” You said.

You look at her for two seconds then look away, then you look away.

“Okay, I will meet you after the show” Olivia smiled.

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You and your mom go to watch the show. You are enjoying the show and you sing along to the song, in your head.

After the show, you did go backstage and you waited for her on the couch. She arrived ten minutes later and she started to smile at you. You look at her for a few seconds then you look away.

“You don't have to be nervous,” Olivia said.

You nod

“I have Asperger,” You said.

“I don't know what is it,” Olivia said.

“A lot of people don't know what it is,” You said.

You are avoiding her look but she is still smiling.

“I first saw you was in High School Musical: The Musical. I like listening to you sing” You said.

“Thank you for liking my music it means a lot to me” Olivia smiled.

You nod and you can't help to smile. Olivia asked for your phone number and you are freaking out but you don't show it.

This can't be real. Wow, Olivia Rodrigo wants my phone number.

“Why?” You asked.

“I want to get to know you, Y/n but only if you let me,” Olivia said.

“Okay,” You said.

She grabbed her cell phone and gave it to you. You type in your phone number and name. You are still freaking out about it and your heart starts to race. She sent you a text and you saved her phone number.

“You can text me anytime you want and it can be about anything. I have to go to another city in a little bit, but I hope we can get to know each other” Olivia said.

“Mhmm,” You said.

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2 Months Later… You always text Olivia about your day and text how you feel throughout the day etc. She does the samething with you, she told you about new projects she is doing. You know her favorite movies and favorite food. And she knows about your dislikes and how to calm you down when you have a panic attack.

Olivia has searched online what is Asperger's syndrome. She read many articles and watched videos about the topic. But you and Olivia got to know each other a lot through texting. Olivia caught feelings for you and she wants to tell you but not through texting.

Olivia- I had to do interviews today. Did you eat your lunch?

You- yes and no. They didn't cook the chicken correctly. I like your new album

Olivia - I'm happy that you like it ☺️😘

Olivia called you on FaceTime time and you answered the call…

“Y/n, in the past two months, I got to know you better. And I like you a lot and I want us to be more than friends. If you don't feel the same way, I understand” Olivia said.

You ended the call and you are processing what she said. Olivia is confused as to why you ended the call. You start to breathe a little too hard and you feel your heart racing.

“Did I hear that, right? She wants to be my girlfriend” You said to yourself.

You start to walk back and forth in your bedroom. Again, you started to talk to yourself.

“She likes me” You smiled.

You called Olivia and she answered the call.

“Sorry, I did that. I was in shock, that someone like you likes me” You said.

“Oh, that's why you hung up on me. Do you like me?” Olivia said.

“I like you a lot. But I don't understand about love or feelings in a relationship. I-I never had a girlfriend before. When I tell someone I have Asperger's syndrome, everything changes” You said.

“That doesn't change how I feel about you. I did my research on Asperger's syndrome, so I can understand better” Olivia said.

“I want to be your boyfriend,” You said.

“It’s official, we are boyfriend and girlfriend,” Olivia said.

“Yeah,” You smiled.

——

Olivia has a few days off, but she wants to spend time with you. You are home getting ready for your first date and your mom is happy for you. You are feeling nervous and you hope she won't change her mind, about being your girlfriend. Olivia went to pick you up and she is smiling at you.

“You look beautiful. I-I got flowers for you. They said girls like flowers and the flowers are fresh, my mom made sure” You said.

“Thank you for the flowers, they are beautiful. I rented a private restaurant for us” Olivia said.

Olivia thought it would be a good idea, to have fewer people and paparazzi around you and her. She doesn't want you to feel overwhelmed and have a panic attack.

“I’m ready to leave,” You said.

“Let’s go” Olivia smiled.

Olivia took you to a small nice restaurant. She sits across from you and you admire her beauty. You are feeling emotions that you never felt before. It took you a while to figure out what you wanted to eat, but she didn't rush you to order. You like that she didn't rush you to order something fast or something you don't like to eat.

“Y/n, I'm going to Grammys this weekend. Do you want to go with me?” Olivia said.

“Really?” You asked.

“Yes, I want to go with you. But it could be overwhelmed you and you might get a panic attack. But I will be there for you and I won't leave your side. I don't want to pressure you to go if you don't want to go” Olivia said.

“I will go with you, Olivia,” You said.

Your hand is on the table and she gently touches your hand. You like her touch, it's soft and it calms you down. You were feeling nervous but she made you feel stuff, that you never experienced but you liked it.

You and Olivia ordered the food. While waiting, she talks about the color dress she will wear for the Grammys. Then she asked about your new hobby.

After dinner, you went to see a movie with her. During the movie, you did something bold you held her hand. After a few seconds, you loved your hand away.

“We can hold hands” Olivia whispered.

You nod. Twenty seconds later, you hold her hand and she doesn't move her hand away. You can't believe that she is letting you hold her hand.

✫ ✯ ✬ ✫

The night of the Grammys… Olivia picked you up in a limousine and you can't stop staring at your girlfriend.

“Y/n, you look very handsome,” Olivia said.

She kissed your cheek.

“You are beautiful and I like your smile,” You said.

She blushed and she smiled again. You follow Olivia to the limo and it's huge. On the way to the Grammys, she noticed that you were starting to have a small panic attack.

“Baby, it's okay I'm here,” Olivia said.

She moved closer toward you and you are breathing hard. The limo arrived at the Grammys but you are hesitating to get out of the limo. She gently touches your cheek and she starts to sing and it's helping you calm down.

“I love you, Y/n I really mean that” Olivia said.

“I-I… I don't know what love is” You said.

“I know. You don't have to say it back right now, say it when you are ready” Olivia said.

“I’m sorry I didn't mean to ruin your night” You said.

“You didn't ruin anything, I mean it. Can I kiss you?” Olivia said.

You don't say anything and she will be your first kiss. You lean and kiss her on the lips and she kissed you back, then she smiled.

“I have strong feelings for you, Olivia” You said.

“I feel the same way” Olivia said.

She kissed you again. She told her assistant to take you to the back door, to avoid the paparazzi. But Olivia had to take pictures and do short interviews, but you wait inside for her.

——

Since the night of the Grammys, you and Olivia are still going strong. When she has time off, she will go see you. But you and Olivia still text a lot when she is traveling for work. Olivia doesn't mention your name in the interviews, because she wants the relationship to be private. She doesn't want your mental health to become bad when paparazzi start following you everywhere.

[songbirdseung]

my secret / lee heeseung

wc: 7k

It may not be all fans dream but it was certainly yours. to be noticed by your favorite idol, even if it only was the acknowledgement of your comment on their weverse lives or a reply on your post. Something so simple could have brighten up your day and mood. But you wanted to be remembered, not just seen. To make a long-lasting impression.

The first time you felt like the luckiest girl in the world when your best friend came into your room and showed you two tickets for enhypen's fan meet. You asked no questions but jumped out and went to hug her. The next following days were filled with anticipation and excitement, but then again it was like the days led on and went by so slowly.

The countdown on your calendar seemed to move at a snail's pace, each day dragging on as you and your best friend eagerly awaited the fan meet with ENHYPEN. You spent hours watching their music videos, practicing the fan chants, and discussing what you would say if you got the chance to talk to your bias. Your heart raced with excitement every time you thought about finally meeting them in person.

As the day of the fan meet drew nearer, your best friend surprised you with an envelope. Inside, there was a handwritten letter that read, "To my partner in ENHYPEN crime, I couldn't have asked for a better friend to share this adventure with. This is just a little something to make our day even more special." Inside the envelope, you found matching ENHYPEN-themed shirts, and your eyes welled up with tears of gratitude.

On the day of the fan meet, you and your best friend got ready together, helping each other choose the perfect outfits and doing each other's makeup. You couldn't believe how lucky you were to have a friend who understood your love for ENHYPEN so deeply. The excitement was palpable as you headed to the venue, clutching your tickets and wearing your matching shirts proudly.

Little did you know that this fan meet would be the beginning of an unforgettable journey filled with laughter, tears, and cherished memories.

You were seated two rows behind the main stage where the members were. The site in front of you was something you never thought you'd actually see and experience. you have gotten so used to see your favorite artist through a screen but now, they were in front of you. Slowly, your eyes land on your bias, lee heeseung.

As the music and their voices filled the venue, the vibrant stage lights illuminated heeseung's face, casting a surreal glow upon his features. He was every bit as mesmerizing as you had imagined, even more so in person. The energy and charisma he exuded were magnetic, drawing you deeper into the moment.

As Heeseung started to sing, his voice washed over the audience like a soothing wave, carrying with it the emotions and passion that had initially captured your heart. His every note seemed to resonate with your soul, and you couldn't help but be moved by the raw talent and dedication that had brought him to this stage.

Lost in the music and the enchantment of the moment, you found yourself swaying to the rhythm, your heart pounding in time with the music. It was as if the distance that had once separated you from your favorite artist had vanished, and for those fleeting moments, you felt a connection stronger than any screen could ever convey.

"Looks like your about to cry" min jee nudges you from the side. you both chuckle and you explain how surreal the feeling is, the feeling is mutual, and the conversation eventually ends as min jee squeals as she made eye contact with her bias.

After the small performance of their songs, the boys sit down to converse with their fans. You and Min Jee still feel excitement bubbling in your veins from the earlier exchange. Heeseung, who had noticed your emotional reaction earlier, spots you among the crowd and offers a warm smile.

As the Q&A session begins, fans eagerly raise their hands, and Heeseung points to you first, saying, "I saw you earlier during the performance. You seemed really moved. Would you like to share what touched you the most?"

Feeling a mixture of nervousness and gratitude, you stand up and take the microphone. "Well," you start, your voice trembling slightly, "it's just that… your music has always been a source of comfort for me. When I listen to your songs, it's like escaping into another world, a world filled with hope and happiness. Seeing you perform those songs live, it's like a dream come true."

Heeseung's eyes light up as he listens to your heartfelt words. "Thank you so much for sharing that," he replies sincerely. "We put a lot of love and dedication into our music, and it means the world to us to know that it touches you in such a profound way."

As the conversation continues, the members engage with fans on various topics, from their favorite memories to their future aspirations. You and Min Jee find yourselves caught up in the lively atmosphere, sharing laughter and stories with fellow fans.

And in the midst of it all, you can't help but notice the occasional glances from Heeseung, his smile never fading as he chats with the audience. The surreal feeling from earlier has transformed into a beautiful memory, one you'll carry with you forever as you continue to support and cherish the connection you share with ENHYPEN.

"The next portion of the fan meet came along, the one-on-one talk with each member. As you approached Heeseung, your heart raced with excitement. He greeted you with a warm smile, making you feel instantly at ease. The way he focused all his attention on you, as if you were the only person in the room, was both surprising and heartwarming.

You had prepared a list of questions in your mind, but as Heeseung looked into your eyes, all words seemed to escape you. Instead, you found yourselves engaged in a spontaneous and genuine conversation. Heeseung shared stories about his life, dreams, and the journey of ENHYPEN so far.

His humility and sincerity touched your heart deeply, and you couldn't help but admire him even more. Before you knew it, your allotted time was over, but not without Heeseung promising to remember your face and your support, a promise that filled you with an indescribable joy.

As you moved on to speak with the other members, each interaction was just as magical and unforgettable as the last. Sunghoon's playfulness, Sunoo's infectious laughter, and Jake's thoughtful words all left a lasting impression.

The memories you had created during those precious moments were indeed treasures that would always bring a smile to your face, and you knew you would cherish them for a lifetime. Eventually and unfortunately, the event had come to an end. On the car ride home, you and Min jee had nothing but good things to say, already reminiscing on the fan meet you both just experienced.

"you girls are so smitten for those boys" your dad offered to pick you both up but what he didn't expect was you two in the backseat love crying over the members and the event. when you reached home, after washing up, changing into your pajamas. Min jee hands you your now signed album, you both scan the newly signed album with the messages each member wrote.

Laughing, you looked at Min jee with tear-streaked cheeks, your voices still trembling with excitement. "I can't believe we actually met them," you admitted, holding the album close to your heart. "And they were so sweet!"

Min jee nodded vigorously, "I know, right? Sunghoon even gave me his signature heart!" She pointed to a heart-shaped doodle next to his autograph, making you giggle.

As you both continued to flip through the album, you couldn't help but relive the moments you had shared with ENHYPEN. Each message from the members felt like a cherished treasure, a reminder of the special bond you had formed during the fan meet.

"Look what Jungwon wrote," you said, showing Min jee the message from Jungwon. 'He said he hopes we keep supporting them forever.'

Min jee smiled warmly. 'We will, won't we?'

You nodded enthusiastically. 'Absolutely. We're their fans for life.'

Continuing, y/n spots numbers written on Heeseung's page, she stops and looks at the numbers that happen to be a phone number, written by side it "keep this a secret, yeah? text me whenever". eyes widen and followed by a scream by Min jee, she begins to hold your shoulders and shakes you. "Omg, excuse me! Heeseung gave you his number!!"

Eyes still locked onto Heeseung's phone number, you felt your heart race with excitement and disbelief. His message was clear - he wanted you to reach out to him. It was a secret connection, just between you and Heeseung.

Min jee's second scream brought you back to reality, and her enthusiastic reaction mirrored the excitement bubbling up inside you. She shook you, and you couldn't help but giggle at her infectious enthusiasm.

"This is incredible! You have to text him right now!" Min jee exclaimed, her eyes sparkling with delight.

Your mind raced with a mix of emotions. Should you really text him?

Min jee seemed to read your thoughts and grinned mischievously. "Come on, y/n! You'll never know unless you try. Besides, it's a secret, right? So, even if it's just friendly, you won't embarrass yourself."

With a deep breath and a smile, you nodded, determined to seize the opportunity. "You're right. I'll send him a message tomorrow. But for now, let's keep this our little secret."

The two of you shared a knowing look, sealing your pact of secrecy with a mischievous grin. The excitement of the day, combined with the secret connection you now shared with Heeseung, made it difficult to sleep that night. Little did you know that this phone number would be the start of an unexpected and incredible journey that would bring you even closer to your favorite ENHYPEN member.

As the morning sun filtered through your curtains, you tiptoed out of the bedroom, careful not to wake the still-sleeping Min jee. You couldn't help but feel a mixture of excitement and nervousness about texting Heeseung.

In the kitchen, you decided to whip up a special breakfast to share with your family and Min jee. You prepared pancakes with a side of fresh fruit and brewed a pot of coffee. The aroma of breakfast soon filled the air, and you couldn't help but feel proud of your cooking skills.

Meanwhile, an hour away, Heeseung stirred in his sleep. He had fallen asleep with his phone clutched in his hand, eagerly waiting for your text. His heart raced as he dreamt of the possibility of hearing from you, and when he woke up and realized no message had arrived, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of disappointment.

Heeseung rubbed his eyes, setting his phone aside for a moment. He decided to get up and start his day, not wanting to dwell on the anticipation. Little did he know that the message he had been waiting for would soon make its way to his phone, bringing a bright smile to his face.

Back at your place, the delicious smell of breakfast soon roused Min jee from her slumber. She wandered into the kitchen, her eyes still half-closed, and a sleepy smile tugging at her lips. "What's that amazing smell?" she mumbled.

You turned to her with a grin, holding up a plate of pancakes. "Breakfast is ready, Min jee! But first, let's have some coffee, and then I have something exciting to tell you."

Min jee's curiosity piqued, and she eagerly accepted the coffee you poured for her. As you both sat down to enjoy the meal, you couldn't help but feel a sense of warmth and excitement for the day ahead.

"so, i sent him a message, just a simple good morning" your bestfriend almost spits out her coffee.

As you nonchalantly mentioned sending Heeseung a message, Min jee's reaction was anything but subtle. She nearly choked on her coffee, her eyes widening in shock as she tried to process what you had just said.

"What?! You sent him a message?!" Min jee exclaimed, her voice a mixture of excitement and disbelief. "Just like that? A 'good morning'? Are you serious?"

You couldn't help but chuckle at her reaction. "Yes, Min jee, I did! I mean, he did give me his number, and it's a secret, right?"

Min jee recovered from her coffee mishap and leaned in eagerly. "What did he say? Did he reply?"

You checked your phone, but there was still no response from Heeseung. "Not yet. Maybe he's still sleeping or busy with something. It's okay; I'm not expecting an immediate reply."

Min jee sighed dramatically, her eyes gleaming with excitement. "I can't believe this is happening! You have Heeseung's number, and you sent him a message! What if he replies with something super sweet?"

You blushed at the thought, but you tried to keep your expectations in check. "Well, let's not get ahead of ourselves. We'll see what happens. For now, let's finish our breakfast and enjoy our day. Who knows what surprises are in store for us?"

With that, you both continued to savor your breakfast, the anticipation of Heeseung's reply adding an extra layer of excitement to your already memorable weekend.

As the day progressed, you and Min jee went about your errands, trying to keep busy to distract yourselves from the anticipation of Heeseung's reply. You two shopped, enjoyed a leisurely lunch, and even visited a nearby park to relax and take in the beautiful weather.

Meanwhile, Heeseung's schedule was jam-packed with idol duties, from interviews to rehearsals and meetings. He hadn't had a chance to check his phone, which lay forgotten in his dressing room.

It wasn't until late in the afternoon that Heeseung finally had a moment to himself. He picked up his phone and noticed a notification indicating a new message. His heart skipped a beat as he saw your name on the screen. He quickly opened the message and read your simple "good morning., it's y/n for the fan meet yesterday"

A warm smile spread across Heeseung's face as he composed a reply: "Good afternoon! Sorry for the late reply. How's your day going?" He hit send and waited anxiously for your response.

Back at your place, you felt your phone buzz with a notification. Your heart raced as you saw Heeseung's name on the screen. Min jee, who was sitting beside you, leaned in eagerly to see your reaction.

You read Heeseung's message and couldn't help but smile. "He replied!" you exclaimed, showing Min jee the message.

She squealed with excitement and leaned closer to read it. "What are you waiting for? Reply, reply!"

With Min jee's encouragement, you quickly typed out a response, sharing details about your day and how much you enjoyed the fan meet. As you sent the message, you couldn't help but wonder what this unexpected connection with Heeseung might lead to.

"Gosh, you're so lucky, why didn't sunghoon give me his number" min jee laughs as she looks at the smile you hold as you text heeseung

You chuckled at Min jee's playful jealousy. "Well, Min jee, maybe next time we'll both get lucky, and Sunghoon will give you his number!" you teased, a mischievous glint in your eyes.

Min jee grinned and shook her head. "I can only hope! But seriously, this is amazing. I'm so happy for you, y/n. Who would've thought that a simple fan meet could lead to this?"

You nodded, your smile reflecting your own amazement. "I know, right? Life is full of surprises. And the best part is, it's just the beginning."

With that, you resumed your texting conversation with Heeseung, and the excitement of your newfound connection with the ENHYPEN member filled the room.

As the days turned into weeks, and those weeks into months, your online friendship with Heeseung continued to flourish in secret. You found yourselves texting, calling, and video chatting regularly, sharing details about your lives, dreams, and everything in between. Your connection deepened, and you both cherished the bond you had built.

However, the reality of your respective lives and responsibilities remained a significant barrier to meeting in person. Heeseung's demanding schedule as an idol and your own commitments made it challenging to find a suitable time and place to meet. The fear of getting caught, the potential impact on Heeseung's career, and the invasion of your privacy by fans added to the complexity of your situation.

Despite these challenges, your friendship remained strong. You found solace in knowing that you had someone to confide in, someone who truly understood you. Your secret connection became a source of joy and support for both of you.

You often wondered what the future held for your friendship, whether you'd ever find the right moment to meet in person and openly share your connection with the world. But for now, you both treasured the special bond you had, a secret friendship that continued to grow stronger with each passing day.

"How's you and Loverboy?" Your best friend hands you your snack and sits by you. "Loverboy? we are just friends" Min jee looks at you disappointed and crosses her arms "just friends? y/n you are fumbling the bag" she jokes. "Will my ship ever start sailing?" she continues to tease you.

You couldn't help but chuckle at Min jee's teasing. You took the snack she handed you and shrugged playfully. "Min jee, you and your ship fantasies. We're genuinely just friends, I promise."

She pouted in mock disappointment, giving you an exaggerated sigh. "Well, fine, but I'm still holding out hope for that ship to set sail someday."

As you chatted with Min jee, little did you know that Heeseung's fellow ENHYPEN members had also noticed a significant change in their oldest hyung. During a break from their busy schedule, Sunghoon couldn't help but comment, "Heeseung, you've been in a great mood lately. Anything special going on?"

Heeseung tried to hide his smile but failed miserably. "Oh, just some good conversations with a friend," he replied casually, not wanting to give away too much.

Sunghoon raised an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued. "A friend, huh? Is there something you're not telling us, Heeseung?"

The other members joined in, exchanging knowing glances and teasing smiles. They had become experts at reading each other over time, and Heeseung's change in behavior had not gone unnoticed.

Heeseung chuckled, realizing that he couldn't keep it a secret from his bandmates much longer. "Okay, okay, maybe there's someone I've been talking to."

The ENHYPEN members erupted in excitement, bombarding Heeseung with questions and playful teasing. He couldn't help but laugh at their enthusiasm, all the while wondering if someday, he would introduce you to his bandmates, officially blending his two worlds together.

"Is y/n the one that came with that pretty friend? what was her name...Min jee?" Sunghoon starts thinking deeply. "I should've gaven her my number as well" Sunghoon whines. "wow, you both found someone within ENGENEs at the fanmeet" Jay says.

Heeseung couldn't help but chuckle at Sunghoon's lament. "Well, you can always ask her for her number next time," he suggested with a teasing grin.

Sunghoon sighed dramatically, leaning back in his chair. "I guess you're right. Missed opportunities, man."

Meanwhile, Jay added his own perspective. "It's pretty cool, though, that you both found someone within ENGENEs at the fan meet. Who would've thought?"

Heeseung nodded in agreement. "Yeah, it's been quite an unexpected journey."

The conversation continued, with the ENHYPEN members sharing their own experiences and stories from fan meets and interactions with fans. As they reminisced and talked about the unique connections they had formed with their supporters, Heeseung couldn't help but think about the special bond he had with you, a connection that had grown beyond the typical idol-fan relationship and had become something truly meaningful in his life.

When you thought the moment would never come again, you met heeseung once again just by a coincidence. You and min jee were roaming the street of Seoul and spontaneously took it upon yourselves to go to an amusement park. It was a weekday, so there wasn't as much people as the weekends would have.

As you walked around the park, Min jee's eyes landed on cameras and staff. Heart stopping, Min jee pulls you to the side and whispers in your ear. Your own eyes then travel to find the site she mentions, then it hits you. it's heeseung, ni-ki, jake, and sunghoon filming something at the amusement park.

You and Min jee exchanged wide-eyed glances, barely able to contain your excitement and nervousness. It felt like fate had intervened once again, bringing you face to face with Heeseung and the ENHYPEN members in the most unexpected way.

"Do you think it's for an EN o' clock episode?" Min jee whispered, her eyes sparkling with excitement.

You hesitated for a moment, your heart pounding in your chest. The fear of causing a scene or disrupting their work crossed your mind. "or a En Log" you whispered back.

With cautious steps, you and Min jee made your way farther to where the ENHYPEN members were filming. You couldn't help but smile as you watched them work, appreciating their dedication to their craft. As you stopped watching from a far, you and Min jee failed to notice that certain eyes had finally landed on you. Unbeknownst to you, Heeseung had a sudden urge to look around and see if anyone familiar was in the vicinity. As his gaze swept the area, his eyes widened in surprise when he locked eyes with you.

Time seemed to stand still as Heeseung's gaze met yours. For a moment, he couldn't believe his eyes. It felt like a scene from a romantic movie, the world fading away as you and Heeseung locked eyes in the middle of the bustling amusement park.

A warm smile crept across Heeseung's face, and he subtly nodded in your direction, acknowledging your presence without drawing too much attention. It was a silent but meaningful greeting, a secret shared between the two of you.

Min jee noticed the exchange and nudged you excitedly. "Y/n, he's looking at you! Heeseung is looking at you!"

You turned to Min jee with wide eyes, heart pounding even faster. It was a moment you had never expected to happen again, a chance encounter that felt like destiny was at play once more.

Seeing that you and Heeseung couldn't do much more than exchange smiles and subtle nods in a crowded public space, you turned to Min jee and suggested that you should head somewhere else. However, it appeared that your best friend was equally captivated by the attention of Sunghoon, who had also taken notice of her.

You chuckled at the sight of Min jee being distracted by Sunghoon, realizing that fate had its own plans for your friend. With a knowing look, you decided to let her have her moment and turned your attention back to Heeseung.

Heeseung was now laughing at something Sunghoon had said, and the camaraderie between the ENHYPEN members was heartwarming to witness. Despite the distance and the limitations of the situation, it felt like a small, beautiful moment that you shared with Heeseung.

As the day continued at the amusement park, you and Min jee enjoyed the excitement of the rides and attractions, all while stealing glances at the ENHYPEN members whenever you could. It was a day filled with unexpected encounters, secret smiles, and the joy of being in the presence of your favorite K-pop idols.

As you and Min jee chatted and enjoyed your time on the viking ride, you remained blissfully unaware of the surprise waiting behind you. The ride was half-filled with other people, creating a lively atmosphere as the ride swung back and forth.

Little did you know that Heeseung, Ni-ki, Jake, and Sunghoon had purposely chosen to sit behind you both. They exchanged excited glances, their plan to surprise you and Min jee carefully orchestrated.

As the ride began its swinging motion, you and Min jee laughed and held onto your seats, completely engrossed in the experience. You could feel the wind in your hair and the adrenaline rush as the ride reached its peak and then swung back down.

Meanwhile, Heeseung and the others watched your reactions with eager anticipation. They couldn't wait to see your surprise when they revealed themselves. It was a daring move, but they couldn't resist the chance to make your day even more memorable.

As the viking ride came to an end and the safety bar released, Sunghoon couldn't help but voice his complaint. "Ni-ki, why did you drag me into this?" he exclaimed, causing Min jee to turn around in shock.

Min jee's eyes widened as she realized who was behind her, and a surprised but delighted smile graced her face. "Oh, hi," Sunghoon greeted her shyly, offering a polite bow.

You couldn't help but chuckle at the playful exchange between Sunghoon and Ni-ki. Turning around, you greeted the other three members who had sat behind you, your cheeks slightly flushed with shyness.

"Hey, it's nice to see you all again," you said, trying to maintain your composure.

Heeseung, too, had a faint blush on his cheeks as he met your gaze. "Yeah, it's been a while," he replied, his smile warm and friendly.

The unexpected reunion in a public setting made your hearts race, but it also filled you with joy.

As the day continued, you found yourselves in a more private area with Min jee and the four ENHYPEN members. It was a situation you hadn't anticipated when you set out for the amusement park, and yet, here you were, sharing a more intimate moment with your favorite K-pop idols.

The setting allowed for more relaxed and personal conversations. You and Min jee exchanged stories and laughter with Heeseung, Ni-ki, Jake, and Sunghoon. It was as if you were all old friends catching up, despite the initial shyness that had marked your encounter.

Heeseung, in particular, seemed genuinely happy to see you again and was eager to hear about your experiences since the fan meet. He asked about your favorite ENHYPEN songs and moments, and you shared your thoughts and feelings with enthusiasm.

Min jee, too, was having a lively conversation with Sunghoon, who had a knack for making her laugh. The atmosphere was filled with a sense of camaraderie and warmth that you had never expected to experience in such a private setting.

As the day drew to a close, you couldn't help but reflect on the unexpected turns of fate that had brought you here. Meeting Heeseung and the others again, in a more private and personal context, was a memory you would treasure forever.

Min jee's curiosity got the best of her, and she couldn't help but ask Heeseung and the others about what they were filming for and why only four of them were present.

Heeseung smiled warmly, appreciating her interest. "It's actually a special project we're working on, but we can't reveal all the details just yet," he explained. "And as for the four of us, sometimes we split up for various activities to keep things interesting."

Ni-ki nodded in agreement. "Yeah, it's a surprise for our fans, so we have to be a little secretive."

Jake chimed in, adding, "But we're glad you asked! We're always excited to share our work with ENGENEs."

Sunghoon couldn't resist teasing Min jee a bit, a mischievous twinkle in his eye. "Don't worry, it's not a top-secret mission or anything. We just like to keep things mysterious."

Min jee blushed at Sunghoon's playful teasing but couldn't help but smile. "Well, I can't wait to see what you guys have in store for us."

Heeseung couldn't resist the opportunity to tease Sunghoon further. With a mischievous grin, he turned to Sunghoon and said, "Speaking of secrets, I remember someone here wanted to get Min jee's number earlier."

Sunghoon's eyes widened in surprise, and he sputtered, "Wha—Heeseung, why are you bringing that up?"

The other members laughed, thoroughly enjoying the playful banter. Heeseung continued to tease Sunghoon, "Come on, Sunghoon, don't be shy. You thought Min jee was interesting enough to want her number, right?"

Min jee's face turned a bright shade of red as she tried to hide her embarrassment, while you couldn't help but chuckle at the amusing turn of events.

Sunghoon, in his good-natured way, finally relented, "Okay, fine, maybe I was curious, but it was just friendly curiosity, I swear!"

The teasing continued, creating a lighthearted and enjoyable atmosphere among all of you.

As the day began to wind down, responsibilities and schedules started calling for both you and the ENHYPEN members. It was time to say goodbye.

Heeseung, with a warm and reassuring smile, stepped forward and said, "I know we have to go, but this won't be the last time we meet, I promise. We'll have more chances to spend time together."

His words filled you with hope and happiness, and you nodded in agreement. "I'll be looking forward to that, Heeseung."

Min jee chimed in, her heart full of gratitude and excitement. "Thank you all for making this day so memorable. We'll be cheering for you, as always."

With heartfelt goodbyes and promises to meet again, you and Min jee watched as Heeseung, Ni-ki, Jake, and Sunghoon headed off to their next destination. As you left the amusement park, you couldn't help but reflect on the incredible day you had shared with your favorite idols and the newfound certainty that your paths would cross once more in the future.

The months continued to pass, and your beautiful secret friendship with Heeseung and the ENHYPEN members only grew stronger. You cherished the moments you spent talking, sharing stories, and getting to know each other on a deeper level. It was a unique and cherished connection that you considered yourself incredibly fortunate to have.

Your friendship with Heeseung had become a cornerstone of your life, a bond that brought you happiness and comfort. The more you got to know him, the more you realized how wonderful he was, both as an idol and as a person.

Meanwhile, it seemed that Min jee and Sunghoon's connection had evolved into something more than just friendship. Their budding romance brought a new layer of excitement and happiness to your circle. You couldn't help but smile at the sweet moments they shared and how their feelings for each other had blossomed.

Heeseung's feelings for you had deepened over time, evolving from a mere crush into something more profound. He had been planning to confess his feelings for a while now, and the moment had finally arrived. However, his fellow ENHYPEN members were quick to notice his distraction and teasingly referred to him as "lover boy."

As Heeseung stepped into the recording booth, Jay couldn't resist the opportunity to tease him. "Okay, lover boy, stop texting y/n and record your part," Jay quipped, earning a round of laughter from the other members.

Heeseung playfully rolled his eyes and replied, "Why don't you tease Sunghoon as well? He's the one who wanted Min jee's number."

The members continued to laugh, but they also shared knowing glances. They could tell that Heeseung was genuinely smitten, and his confession had been a long time coming. They respected his feelings and knew that, ultimately, it was a beautiful part of his life.

As Heeseung put on his headphones and began recording, he couldn't help but feel a mix of nervousness and excitement about what lay ahead. The possibility of sharing his true feelings with you filled him with hope and anticipation, and he hoped that, just maybe, you felt the same way.

Receiving Heeseung's text around 5 PM, your heart raced as you read his message. The anticipation of what he had to say filled you with excitement and a touch of nervousness. Heeseung's words conveyed urgency, and you couldn't help but wonder what was so important.

You quickly replied, agreeing to meet him at the location he mentioned. As you got ready and headed out, your thoughts were consumed by what Heeseung might want to discuss. The evening air was cool, and the city buzzed with life as you made your way to the designated meeting place, your heart pounding with anticipation.

Arriving at the private restaurant, you were greeted by a guard and a staff member who had been expecting your arrival. You exchanged polite greetings and engaged in some pleasant conversation as they led you to a private room within the restaurant.

As you entered the room, your heart skipped a beat when you saw Heeseung standing there, a bouquet of flowers in his hand. The warm and inviting ambiance of the room, coupled with Heeseung's presence, made the moment feel incredibly special.

A smile spread across your face as you approached him, your heart filled with a mixture of excitement and curiosity about what he had to tell you. The sight of Heeseung waiting with flowers added an extra layer of romance to the evening, and you couldn't wait to hear what he had in store.

Heeseung smiled warmly as he handed you the bouquet of flowers, the colorful blooms a vibrant contrast against the dimly lit room. He took a deep breath, his eyes locked onto yours, and he began to speak with a sincerity that melted your heart.

"Y/n," he began, his voice filled with a mixture of nervousness and determination, "the reason I asked you to meet me here tonight is because there's something I've been wanting to tell you for a long time, something that's been on my mind ever since we first met at that fan meet."

Heeseung paused for a moment, searching for the right words. "I've come to realize that my feelings for you go beyond friendship. Y/n, I care about you deeply, and I can't help but have these strong feelings for you."

His confession hung in the air, and Heeseung's gaze never left yours. He had bared his heart and soul to you, revealing the depth of his emotions. Now, all that remained was your response to his heartfelt confession.

You didn't want to keep him waiting longer, so you responded in a way that left you in shock as your own body took over. You leaned over and kissed him on the cheek before replying "I like you too Heeseung"

The room seemed to hold its breath for a moment as you leaned in and pressed a gentle, affectionate kiss on Heeseung's cheek. It was a gesture that conveyed your feelings more than words ever could, and it left him pleasantly surprised.

A warm, radiant smile lit up Heeseung's face as he heard your words. "I'm so glad to hear that, Y/n," he replied, his voice filled with happiness. "I've been wanting to hear those words for a long time."

The atmosphere in the room shifted, and the connection between you and Heeseung felt even more special. It was a moment of shared feelings, unspoken emotions, and the promise of a new chapter in your relationship. The beautiful secret you had shared was now a beautiful reality, and you couldn't wait to see where this journey would lead you both.

Around 9pm the date had ti end and now you were heading home. The ride home was nothing but solace and peace. You admired the city lights and the ngiht sky through the window, not noticing Heeseung admiring you. With a smile on his face and a camera in his hand. Documenting the start of something new.

As the car pulled up in front of your home, the warm and romantic date came to an end, and you found yourself in Heeseung's company car.

"Okay, lovers, time to say goodbye for now," the manager joked, earning a laugh from both you and Heeseung. His manager, with a playful grin, decided to give you both some privacy and stepped out of the car.

You turned to Heeseung, and there was a comfortable silence for a moment as you cherished the memory of the evening. Heeseung reached out and gently held your hand, his eyes filled with affection and gratitude.

"Thank you for being here with me tonight," he said softly. "I can't wait to see where this journey takes us."

With that, you exchanged a sweet, lingering goodnight kiss, and Heeseung watched as you entered your home, the promise of a new chapter in your relationship filling your heart with joy and anticipation.

The following month reminded you that this was not all sunshine and rainbows, yes you were very content and happy with what you and heeseung had but now you had more worry about getting caught since you have been meeting up more.

Sharing your concerns about the increasing risk of getting caught with Min Jee was a relief. It felt good to confide in your best friend, especially since she was experiencing a similar situation with Sunghoon. As you sat together, you both found comfort in knowing you weren't alone in facing the challenges of your secret relationships with the ENHYPEN members.

Min Jee nodded sympathetically as you voiced your worries. "I know what you mean, y/n. It's tough to balance our feelings and the need for privacy, especially when we want to support them and enjoy our time together."

She continued, "But remember, we've been managing it well so far. And Heeseung and Sunghoon, they're both understanding and careful about it too. We just have to be cautious and trust that things will work out."

You felt reassured by Min Jee's words, and the bond between you and your best friend grew stronger as you navigated the challenges of your secret relationships with the ENHYPEN members together.

You both shared a laugh, finding humor in the series of events that had led to your secret relationships with Heeseung and Sunghoon.

Min Jee playfully flipped her hair back and grinned. "I guess we must be incredibly good looking to catch their attention," she said with a playful wink. "But hey, it's not just about looks, it's about the connection we share with them."

You nodded in agreement, still amused by the twists and turns of fate that had brought you to this point. "Absolutely, it's the connection that matters the most. And it's been a beautiful journey so far."

You and Min Jee shifted your focus from romance to more pressing matters, like finishing your thesis paper. With determination, you handed Min Jee your laptop, and together, you dove back into your academic work.

As you worked side by side, tackling your research and writing, you couldn't help but appreciate the balance in your life. While your secret romance with Heeseung was a beautiful and cherished part of your journey, your academic goals and friendships were equally important. It was the blend of all these aspects that made your life rich and fulfilling, and you were determined to succeed in every aspect, both in love and in your studies.

You thought back and mentioned how Heeseung proved to be a loving and supportive boyfriend, and his presence in your life was a constant source of reassurance and comfort. He never let you bear the stress of the situation alone and was always there to uplift your spirits.

Whenever you felt overwhelmed by the pressure and expectations of keeping your relationship a secret, Heeseung would be the calm in the storm. He would hold your hand, look into your eyes, and tell you, "We'll get through this together, Y/n. Our love is worth it, and I'm here for you every step of the way."

His words and actions were a reminder that your relationship was built on trust, understanding, and unwavering support. Heeseung's love gave you the strength to face the challenges and uncertainties of your unique situation, and you cherished every moment you spent together, no matter how secret or hidden it had to be.

the end~

(extra: Underneath a starry night sky, you found yourselves on a quiet rooftop. Heeseung had planned a surprise for you, a romantic evening that would create unforgettable memories.

As you both stood there, the soft glow of city lights surrounding you, Heeseung took your hand in his, his fingers gently interlacing with yours. He pulled you closer, and you felt the warmth of his touch as he wrapped his arms around you, enveloping you in a tender embrace.

"Y/n," he whispered, his voice soft and filled with love, "being with you is like finding my own little piece of paradise. I cherish every moment we spend together, and I can't imagine my life without you."

Your heart swelled with emotion as you looked up into Heeseung's eyes, the moonlight reflecting in them like a sea of stars. "Heeseung," you replied, your voice filled with affection, "you are my light in the darkness, my anchor in the storm. I'm so grateful to have you in my life."

As the night breeze rustled your hair and the world seemed to fade away, Heeseung leaned in, his lips gently meeting yours in a sweet, lingering kiss. It was a kiss filled with all the love and tenderness you both felt for each other, a moment of pure connection beneath the starry sky.

In that moment, you both knew that no matter the challenges or secrets that life may bring, your love would always shine brightly, just like the stars above, guiding your hearts together.)

[accio-victuuri]

CPN : Same phone case timeline 🗓️📱

just when i thought the posts i’m making on here to archive all the candies couldn’t get any weirder, this happens. lol. i have to say that the cpn about the phone case has really become more popular ( and notorious ) than i thought it would be. it just seemed so common to have the same plain-looking case as someone — but if you really look at the variables, you’ll notice that some things don’t add up.

this is all speculation/interpretation/opinion in the pov of a bxg. the timeline is real tho.

I decided to make this because it seems like what we know about it’s first appearance is all wrong. initially, this was noticed w/ ZZ @ Weibo TV & Movie awards then we kept our eye on it. However, recent “developments” show that it was earlier than that.

• A fan found a photo ( i won’t repost here cause it was sneakily taken at a public place ) of Bobo back in 6/2022 as well as 8/2022 where he was already using that phone case with a card slot. his phone case design in recent years ( late 21-23 ) has really been difficult to place since he rarely ( never ) takes mirror selfies anymore or even takes his phone out in public.

I found this additional timeline explanation that says WYB’s assistant during CQL was also using a phone card case at that time. We don’t know the connection or if he is still in close contact with WYB and they used the same one. In ZZ’s vlog from 8/22, he was only using a clear case. He changed his phone in September so that’s when the new phone card case was bought, and he got one ( allegedly ) for WYB so they can really match. The one he used in 6/22 was him ( wyb ) starting the “trend” of the phone card case and ZZ was not onboard yet.

• 9/2022 to early 10/22, I’m using this month here cause in 2/2023 we got the SBMS behind the scenes video. There is a scene there where ZZ shows something on his phone to BBH, he was using the phone case already. We just didn’t know. Filming for this drama was around late september so i’ll add it to the timeline.

• 11/29/2022 ZZ was spotted with the phone case during the WB TV & Movie night. At the time, we were just clowning that he was texting WYB 😂

• 11/30/22 WYB was photographed on his way to Wuzhen and he had his phone out for a moment. We caught what his phone case looks like and that it’s the same as ZZ’s.

• 12/6/22 GG was photographed at the airport and he had his phone in the open, which is unusual. like bobo, he doesn’t take it out especially at the airport, but it was like he was confirming something to those of us who pay attention.

• 1/22/23 WYB attends a roadshow for Wuming’s release and fans saw him seated very close to the screen and alone. You can see he had his phone on his lap and it looks like the phone card case. but again, it wasn’t clear. the cinema was dark. then he didn’t take it out again.

• After this, we see the phone case on ZZ’s side a couple or times especially in video out takes shared by XZS for his photoshoots + work related filming. At this point, it was already identified with him especially by his fans and those who follow him.

• 4/27 Gucci Cosmos, ZZ shares a photo where his phone case is visible and it doesn’t look like the same one. This seems like an outlier. I’m not sure if he used it to match his outfit ( which is gray ) Or if this is even his personal phone ( but i think it is ). We will have to wait and see for future glimpses of his phone to see if he changes back. I’m seeing this as more of an aesthetic switch to match the event.

• 5/11/23 WYB shares photos on IG and we finally get a clear picture of his phone case and that it is what we think it is.

• 5/12 All the talk started about Bobo deleting the photo and cpfs linking it to being about the couple phone case.

• 5/13 The topic of the same phone case went on HS and fans from all sides came out to give their explanation.

• 5/19/23 after all the “controversy” XZ studio still includes a clear photo of the phone case for their Euro Trip photos 📷 Showing that they don’t give af about all the issue surrounding it.

• 5/20 HZT ( the actor who plays LQR ) posts a douyin of the same style phone case and it’s — so suspicious 👁️👄👁️

AND WELL THE SAGA CONTINUES. I think this is not the last time we will see it or maybe it will morph into something more.

A few clowning points:

• You may see some discussion about wfs on wyb’s side knowing about this as early as june of last year but they never said anything. They probably saw us speculating about wyb’s phone case when they already know the truth. lol. I can’t say for sure that they are purposely hiding something, maybe they didn’t think it was important. but i can see the ones who keep an eye out on xz on their side probably just chose to keep quiet. turns out, cpfs are the last to know about candies. 😂😂😂😂

• @rainbowsky pointed out here how this type of case may not be typically used in CHN. All because the card slot is almost useless. The way they pay is by their phone. They don’t need a train ticket or whatever for transportation too cause they have private vehicles. It’s like they both or maybe one of them went to the apple store ( in person or online ) and they saw that — decided to get a couple case. I’m thinking this is ZZ. My CPN is this is connected to WYB’s sudden use of an apple watch. The watch is good to keep track of your health so maybe ZZ gave it to him and while he was there “shopping” decided to get a phone case too for them to match. just boyfriend things. ssssshhhhhh 🤫

• THIS IS NOT THEIR USUAL TYPE OF phone case. If you’ve been following them for some time or have seen their photos with their phones out, they usually go for the ones with a design on them. of course, the style is more on their preference. So this sleek and almost simple type of iphone case appears to be a compromise for both.

but like, the “simple” or low key design has been more ZZ’s style. that’s why cpn is he bought it for them.

examples below ⬇️⬇️⬇️

• In the past, they usually changed their phone case for a specific month or season. That’s why I think ZZ’s “change” last April was only for the event ( but i could be wrong ). But for the both of them, using the same one for one year ( guessing here but most likely this is how long ) is unusual. You could say they are too busy / the case is good so why change it / they don’t wanna use graphic cases anymore/ etc etc the list of reasoning can go on and on. but you can’t deny that it’s out of the ordinary.

I think it really helps laying things out like this so we can see what is happening behind the scenes. what are the outliers. what other possibilities are there. what fits or not. usually candies are simple and clear, but some are not and needs more time to take apart and make sense of. whether you believe this or not and take it as candy is all up to you. 🫶🏼

It’s another YIZHAN Mystery. 🕵️‍♀️

-END.

[certified-ni-ki-lover]

Gamer Idol

ENHYPEN Ni-ki Oneshot

SUMMARY: You’ve been into video games lately but you’ve been getting bullied cause of your username. But then you seem to make a friend. But is it possible to catch feelings for someone over a screen??

Word count: 779

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“UGH,” you said throwing your headphones on your desk. You had just lost a match. Your entire team didn’t help you at all. They just used you as a sacrifice. You could still hear them laughing through the headphone even when you weren’t wearing them. All that because your username was based on a K-pop idol. They constantly made fun of it. & to be honest it was hard finding teammates who would back you up in matches because of it.  But you never changed it. You liked it & it made you happy. It was based on your bias from your favorite group, Ni-ki from ENHYPEN. He was around your age & you loved how clean & precise his dance moves were. You loved everything about him. He made you happy. They all did.

Your thoughts were interrupted by a ‘DING!’ sound. You checked your computer & you found a message notification. “You’re an engene??” woah. This was the first time you met someone else who was a fan. Or at least you hoped it was a fan. “Yea” you replied. “Cool, so am I” “Based on your username I’m guessing your bias is Ni-ki?” you smiled, relieved that they actually were a fan & not a hater. “Yea, he’s my ult bias as well” “Woah cool” they replied. “What about you” you asked “it’s Ni-ki as well” they replied. “looks like we already have some stuff in common.” You both chatted for a while & then exchanged ig’s so you can chat. You learned he was a boy around your age. His name he said was Nicholas. He was Japanese & liked dancing & soccer. You were glad to have made an engene friend.

It became common for you guys to play together & he would always defend you from people who made fun of you. He was very nice & you both connected really well.

One day you both were just texting & he asked you,

You were so excited. You’ve been developing some feelings for Nicholas because he was always so nice to you. & he was incredibly funny. & you both had some stuff in common.

Day of the concert

You got dressed & were so excited to meet both Nicholas & Niki. Little did you know a surprise would be waiting for you.

You arrived at the venue a little earlier since first was the fan meet. You were shaking the whole time while waiting in line. You nervously gave each member your album talking to them, holding their hand & cheering them on for the concert & reminding them how much you loved them & appreciated them. You passed by all of them, giving them a smile & made it to Ni-ki. For some weird reason, he wouldn’t look at you in the eye. You thought he didn’t like you because he kept avoiding your gaze & seemed nervous.

You were a little upset at the interaction but made your way to the concert arena. You were dancing, singing waving your light stick with all the other engenes present & you had a blast. & you made a bunch of new friends which you loved. After the concert ended, while people were slowing making their way to the parking lot, you remembered Nicholas was also here. So you quickly texted him.

You looked up from your phone around you. The place was almost empty except for some staff & some people in the washrooms. Then when you looked back straight again you saw Ni-ki walking towards you. You started freaking out. Then he came close to you & told you to follow him. You just quietly went behind him. Then when you both were alone he pulled up his phone showing it to you. It was your text messages with Nicholas. That’s when you realized “Y-you’re…” “Yea” he said nervously, scratching the back of his neck. “I’m sorry I lied to you” “The staff told me that’s the only way I could make friends online” You were speechless & just tried comprehend everything. “Y/N I get it your shocked but the reason I told you was because when we used to play together I used to have so much fun. I realized I really like you” “Ni-ki I had fun too” you said smiling at him “& I realized a few weeks ago I kinda like you too” you said shyly. Ni-ki’s eyes grew wide “REALLY??!” “well then do you wanna go out for ice cream or something with me so we can get to know each other much better?” he asked nervously. “I would love that,” you said smiling.

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The Nicholas that was mentioned here has nothing to do with &team Nicholas. I just picked it cause it’s kinda close to the name Ni-ki & the photo I used for the ig msgs is not anyone I know, i just found them on Pinterest

Hope you liked reading it! & I'm currently taking requests & is always open to suggestions to improve my writing💟🙏

[skania]

Warning really long read SORRY! I'm new to the fandom I started by watching episode 1 but dropped it for weeks until I saw reels comments and pictures going crazy with Akane. I picked it back up and started the manga after, Akane and Aqua of course became my favorite characters as I was able to personally connect with them through struggles I also faced. Your post have been very helpful as theres not to many places that aren't filled with negativity surrounding these two characters. These two characters have struggled so much and I can see how much they've come to truly care for each other especially when no one else was there. I wanted to share my thoughts with you but hesitated because I feel like they might not make sense. If it doesn't make sense please dont share I'll understand lol

"Kurokawa Akane is a child who takes you there Arima Kana is a child who brings you back"

This tweet from august 2021 from the author Aka Akasaka has alot of people trying to figure out the meaning, many interpret it and paint Akane in a bad light. When I first saw read it I just found it wierd how it was worded and how everything Akane has done for Aqua is always misinterpreted and they try to make her look as a bad person when she's actually far from it. It really got me thinking and this is my interpretation..

In chapter 51 we see how Akane has figured out the twins could possibly be Ai's secret child she got from her character analysis assumptions. She saw how badly it still affects Aqua and sympathized with him she herself knows the feeling of not wanting to worry others trying to take on the burden by yourself, she knows he cant talk to no one about the incident since it would expose Ai's secret. Akane truly cares about Aqua wanting to be the one by his side and helping him share his pain wanting to take her role of his girlfriend more seriously.

That specific tweet came out august 5 2021 the same day chapter 52 was released. The title of chapter 52 is called "boyfriend girlfriend" and at the beginning the editor note says "Where and how is Akane looking after the sick Aqua?" The chapter starts with Akane cooking a full course meal for Aqua and everyone there. We see the director and his mom complimenting her cooking then the directors mom says something that catches my attention she says "AQUA-KUN! SHE'S A KEEPER, HON! EATING DELICIOUS FOOD IS HAPPINESS ON ITS OWN YOU KNOW?" We then see Akane trying to feed Aqua but he ends up eating on his own we see him thinking its good and even blush alittle. During that time Akane is thinking to herself how she wants to help Aqua with his pain/burden just like he had saved and supported her. After we see Aqua lighten up allowing her see old acting videos of his she finds out from the director how he's been having his PTSD attacks when he acts and remembers his past experiences like earlier that day. She notices his performances are prepared in advance with no emotion behind his acting. Akane then asks Aqua why he's doing theater/acting work as its connected to his trauma. He tries saying she wouldn't understand and won't tell her why but after telling him how hes being contradictory he opens up and says well "What If My Goal Was To Kill Someone?" And how the person was high up in the entertainment world had to keep climbing in order to kill them he then asks her "What Would You Do Then?" Aqua was expecting her to not understand him and probably a negative reaction but to his surprise Akane replies "I'd Kill Them With You." with a smile making his negative emotions go away from his eye and even telling her not to say that lightly. Akane acknowledges if it's him he must have a reason and even if hes truly evil she'd still accept him for who he was. She says how she'd happily carry the sin even if the relationship was only for business purposes making Aqua say she out her mind. Akane then says how she wants his help as her boyfriend against kana and himekawa as she doesn't want to lose and Aqua realizes he should help her as her boyfriend. Even tho Aqua knows emotional acting is hard for him he's willing to practice and take it more seriously to help Akane.

After reading many assume its about the revenege part but i don't think thats it..yes aqua does mention it but he never actually asked her to help him though out the duration of thier relationships Akane finds the dad by coincidence. That chapter shows how they are getting closer and wanting to support each other. So i started thinking about the editors note and what the directors mom had said "Where and how is Akane looking after the sick Aqua" shes cooking for him to make him feel better and it did! The directors mom says how eating delicious food can make you happy and though out the whole manga the word "HAPPY" has always been associated with Akane and Aqua. Even in chapter 50 before his PTSD attack when thinking about happy memories his first thought was Akane related then Kana then the idol group. In every star eye color change he's had Aqua has thought of her as part of his happiness!='( So i was think what if the tweet maybe meant "Akane will take him to Happiness" because we actually already saw she did and he was fighting so hard not wanting to leave it but had no choice to protect her. Aqua is no longer there so thats when I started thinking about Kanas part. After recent chapters i started thinking what if Kana is going to help Aqua get back with Akane in the end. I'm thinking how tho then when I think bout how she's so similar to sarina and Ai what if she confesses to Aqua making him finally understand how he truly feels. The reason i also think this is because in the play arc when princess Saya(played by akane) dies Tsurugi(played by kana) helps in bringing her back to life and reuniting with Touki(played by Aqua). The play has alot of similarities to characters and even to the story you can link stuff together. In the Spur interview mengo says how Aka is a demon of analysis and objectivity.

So to end this my interpretation of the tweet is "Kurokawa Akane is a child who takes you there(Happiness) Arima Kana is a child who brings you back(to akane)"

Hi anon, welcome to the fandom! I wonder how many of us would've dropped ONK if it weren't for Akane and Aqua 😂

Thank you for sharing your theory with me! You explained it very well, so please don't worry about it! I have to admit that it has never occurred to me to read Aka's quote that way, my own read erred on the side of caution. But I mean, if we're here to ship, we may as well have fun while we're at it, right? And your take is so much fun! It's truly a Galaxy Brain interpretation of Aka's statement, and I can only imagine how many minds would be blown by it.

It really is funny how many people interpreted that statement to imply something negative about Akane, when Aka never said that had to be the case 😂

I'm thinking how tho then when I think bout how she's so similar to sarina and Ai what if she confesses to Aqua making him finally understand how he truly feels.

I've been thinking something similar!

The reason i also think this is because in the play arc when princess Saya(played by akane) dies Tsurugi(played by kana) helps in bringing her back to life and reuniting with Touki(played by Aqua). The play has alot of similarities to characters and even to the story you can link stuff together.

Yes!! I'm expecting that scene to be foreshadowing as well. We'll just have to wait and see how Aka plays it out 😂

[midnight-battiness]

[Vid ID: A news interview with Team 7, with all of the members of said team taking turns speaking about a mysterious mission regarding their whereabouts.]

...I've managed to figure out what exactly was going on that resulted in my teammates' disappearance. But, before that, I should clarify why it has taken so long to return to the public face.

Due to the severity of the situation and those that were involved, we weren't quite able to walk around Noe Town and declare that there is a supposed mythical Pokemon that is now living in the area.

NOT SUPPOSED, IS! Do you NOT know what a Shaymin is?!

Wave... Not now. We have to remain professional during the report. Because of how serious the situation was, everyone involved was asked by the Guild to refrain from using public communications of any kind, just in case someone was put in a compromising position that required us to speak aloud about the details. I've only gained access to both my phone and Connection Orb earlier today due to this reason.

...As it turned out, the Pokemon that asked us to assist xem on a mission, had been working for...

...someone unknown to us Rangers... and wasn't made fully aware of their true intentions.

David? Would you like to take over for a while? Thinking about that scenario still makes me a bit sick...

Don't worry about it!

Like Chris said, the Pokemon, who's name and species we're withholding for the sake of xer safety, was working for someone that... wanted us dead. It was an honest mistake, as the true perpetrator, we now realize, is spectacular at convincing others to work with them.

Specifically, the criminal asked of the other Ranger to lead us into an area where they'd be able to do what they wished to us. As revealed by the Ranger, xe was originally meant to only kidnap Lucas Cubone, expecting the rest of us, as his teammates, to follow shortly after... Which we did.

If it weren't for Chris turning back to ask Dad for permission, I think we would be in a much bigger problem than what happened.

Don't give him too much credit, he didn't even know something was up!

I-I wasn't even aware of what was happening, until it w-was too late to do anything ab-bout it. We were t-trapped with no way out, just like last time. It was scary...

But then Chris came by, w-with Jayden and Mr. Lupin too!

Since no one else has mentioned it, I will.

While we were in the cave, we ended up finding a Shaymin. You know, THE Shaymin. The Pokemon that everyone thought was fake???

After everything was dealt with, we saw them moving funny, and we were LEFT OUT of the meeting, AND weren't able to talk to Shaymin in that time! Only Chris and Lucas were able to go in the building! They didn't even want to tell me about what it was like!

Confidential. And please, you have to how some formality in a situation like this.

...

...Anyways. As it turns out, once we've brought the Shaymin in for interrogation, it was revealed that they were in a similar situation to mine, being an amnesiac. They only remember having a headache prior to the situation that they were found with. However...

I don't believe they're a human. This has horrifying implications, as this proves that Pokemon can lose their memory through natural means, as well.

Due to their unfamiliarity with the world, and the similarities that I happen to have with them, I've been asked by Claude Samurott to take care of him until his memories come back. They claim that their name is Jasper, and it appears that they-

-WANT TO BECOME A PART OF OUR TEAM!!!

Wave-

[The video ends with Chris attempting to cover Wave's mouth with his wing before the Buizurret said something potentially unruly, cutting to a static screen.]

[akaikali]

Hello! I just finished reading "Are You Mr. Schadenfreude?" on Ao3! And dare i say it is the best fic I've ever read yet, LIKE I'M NOT KIDDING the amount of suspense, thriller and horror.. I was at the edge of my seat and not to mention how well written the whole story is and the lore itself is just so 😩😩😩.. I am not familiar with vocaloid and even the music video (sorry!) itself but I did watch it just after reading the fic and how impressed I was that you came up with your own version and even wrote it in a MONTH 80k words and all, kudos to you <3.

I was having goosebumps throughout reading the fic! I LOVE the dynamic between wonhan and especially I've been addicted their 'This Man' album since it was released and how they were stuck together like glue and the moments they share together was adorable and as a jeonghan biased myself (i have 6 biases actually hehe) i love every bit of it and I fell in love with the characters and the fic itself. Another thing I'd like to point out is the way you portrayed their relationships that can be interpreted as romantic and/or platonic so that readers can enjoy more of the story. Aside from wonhan, i also adored the dynamic each members have with each other and then there's verkwan VERKWAN FOR THE WIN! I was devastated when both of them died and I was awestruck to find out that seungkwan did it to avoid vernon from suffering the same fate with the others and that my friends is love and if that's not love I don't know what is. I was saddened that all of them have met their deaths whether they were murdered or have ended themselves BUUUUUT HELLO THE PLOT TWIST??? I was clearly not expecting for wonwoo to wake up and then it goes back to beginning but then I understand it was his turn to break the cycle like wonwoo was the real mvp here, basically the whole story was supposed to be in hoshi's timeline but man's was sidetracked and ended getting killed earlier in the story (still love him tho but a huge facepalm for him). At the beginning of the fic I was caught off guard that jun had died immediately like it was so sudden but I was pleasantly surprised to find him still alive the end and was working below the church to try and help his friends and speaking of the devil... I really can't put my finger on it but since the beginning I've been very suspicious of minghao, but I did suspect either jeonghan or wonwoo to be the devil but I was more suspicious of minghao and the scream I let out when it was actually him who the was the devil though I have to admit it was pretty conflicting but in a good way lol.

It was fun spotting easter eggs all throughout the fic that connects with gose and for real though the fic was definitely a mix of bad clue, don't lie and ego as the og lore is similar to a mafia game and I absolutely ADORE how you came up with your twist. I'm gonna be honest it was the BEST read, I've been so invested in a fic before like how invested I was in the fic and not to mention the endless roller coaster of emotions I've read throughout, you really did pour all your hard work on this one and I really really appreciate it!!! ('appreciate' is an understatement) There are a lot more words to say but I think I'll stop here, I've been rambling too much lol. Please excuse my English as it's not my mother tongue.

HELLO???? OMG THIS IS SO SWEET IM GONNA SCREAM

I'm so flattered oh my lord I was kicking my feet and giggling as I read this you're SO sweet

I'll be totally honest, there was one specific scene that really made me want to write this and I actually drew it here. This was the catalyst for this whole fic I saw this scene and I was like "wonhan. i need to draw wonhan like this" and yeah here we are. honestly I was NOT expecting it to be like 88k, I thought I'd have barely enough for 30k 😭😭

Wonhan has been a new recent obsession for me (same as you, This Man really made me go OH HELLO WONHAN) their dynamic reminds me a lot of a ship I like (wangxian from MDZS, jeonghan reminds me of wei wuxian and wonwoo reminds me of lan wangji). I actually wrote a wonhan fic based on wonhan (and I'm gonna add a chapter to it soon as well ehehe)

Writing their relationships as ambiguous was so nice as an aroace person who feels strong feelings that aren't entirely romantic but not platonic either. Jeonghan-biases unite, as I was writing it I literally went "if I'm in love with him, everyone is in love with him". Verkwan are sooooo they're so soulmates (in whatever way)

Wonwoo being the one to figure it out is kind of like him in Ego because he figured out almost everything but he just got caught by the time limit. If it weren't for that, I think Wonwoo could have figured it out.

As for Jun, I really love seeing his caring side because he cares SO MUCH for the members. That's why I wrote him quietly helping his friends because that reminds me of him in the early days, even when he couldn't communicate, he was always silently helping everyone.

As for Myungho, I wanted to channel the energy he had in Bad Clue because the final confrontation between him and Mingyu was sooooo like it had me SWEATING. But at the same time, I couldn't make him ACTUALLY want to hurt his friends, Myungho would never do that. Hence the binding ritual ending I came up with. But I'm so glad you like my plot twists!!

The Easter eggs were my favorite part everytime I wrote one I was giggling a little bit.

Thank you so much, seriously, I'm so glad you enjoyed it so much, especially since I think this was probably one of my favorite fics I've written, so it makes me so happy that you like it so much!!

(Idk how much svt I will write other than my ongoing kpopfic Only You and adding a chapter to my wonhan fic, but I'm glad you enjoyed this!)

[channeleven]

Revisiting The Secret of NIMH 2

 A long time ago I did a review of The Secret of NIHM 2. In that review, I essentially echoed the complains others had over the film, many, many others. Called it a cash grab, fan fiction, hits harder when time after you see others basically saying the same thing and you feel partially responsible.

Of all the things to hold Nostalgia Critic accountable for is influencing general perception of movies for years to come, whether he was the loudest voice at the time or did it earlier than others where traction would be had by that time. The Secret of NIMH 2 is among his many casualties and they're still trying to recover, held back only by a number of washouts who forgot what year it was. Wanna know what got me to review this movie? A Nostalgia Critic type review that was released on July 24th... 2024. Yikes.

I was on the fence when it came to NIMH 2, but then I saw a video created by my good buddy Timey that defended the film, and credibly as well, and if you ask me you should check her video out first.

Now, for the movie in general, is it really as bad as people claim it to be? To that it's a resounding... sorta. There are some issues with this movie, but half the time people focus on less important things or just go solely by its connection to the first NIMH alone, if not regurgitating everything Nostalgia Critic said just differently enough to not make anyone side-eye.

I'm just saying, if Bobsheaux were to do a review of this movie, I imagine him just copying Nostalgia Critic's points questioning logic where it doesn't need to be questioned, use a rat puppet in his place and maybe charge two dollars just to watch it. He can't possibly be that destitute.

Whatever I may say about this movie, while it's not great, it's not the worst movie ever, not even close to being the worst sequel, a guilty pleasure at the most, and if you want an idea to what that's like for me, here's a list of my personal guilty pleasures: https://letterboxd.com/channeleven/list/guilty-pleasures/

But shameless plug aside, there's no better place to start than the beginning... of the film... 's inception.

Background

The Secret of NIMH 2 came out during a period where video/DVD rentals/purchases were on a continual rise. Companies like Disney would begin putting out sequels for the sell-through market in order to capitalize on the success of their properties. Lacking the same budget as the movies they followed (why put in extra effort for the home video market in the event ticket sales outdo rental payments, and the whole shebang behind shares?

While a lot of these sell-through movies aren't great, at best don't have the same staying power as their theatrical contemporaries, I mean companies weren't making fine art here, they were out making a profit, a necessary evil for them, you'd be a fool to expect anything more. But you don't have to always see it that way, if these movies made up your childhood or you can look past the obvious dips and enjoy a movie for what it is, more power to you, I'd probably relate depending on what movie's on the table anyhow.

Back on topic, The Secret of NIMH, the first, its success cannot be understated. Breaking new ground when it comes to storytelling and having gorgeous animation to boot, I can see why a lot of people loved that movie, and MGM would feel the same to the point they would try to continue it in some way, but with conservative spending.

The Secret of NIMH 2 was the second to last movie put out by MGM's animation division, one of four to be exact. MGM Animation originally produced a sing-a-long series of tapes, along with a handful of cartoons based on IPs they owned at the time. But regarding the movies, they first began with Babes in Toyland, which I only saw the latter half of and became one of many films that I could never figure out until recently.

But I swear that Roger Corman took the design of Humpty Dumpty for Aladdin and the Adventure of All Time.

This was followed with An All Dogs Christmas Carol which is based more on the All Dogs television series, something that Bobsheaux never even touched upon in the slightest, at least as far as I know. Anyway, that and NIMH 2 came out the same year before ending with a mousified Tom Sawyer in 2000.

NIMH 2 was directed by Dick Sebast. Sebast primarly did work as an animator for Disney productions like The Rescuers and Winnie the Pooh, later doing work for various Hanna-Barbera and Ruby Spears cartoons among other small roles. On one hand, he was involved with X-Men Evolution and even directed nine episodes of Batman: The Animated Series, those that at the very least aren't considered to be on the lower end. But on the other hand he is also somewhat attached to shows and movies I'm not particularly fond of, here's looking at you Sonic SatAM and Ultimate Avengers. The last thing he's credited to is the DreamWorks movie Home, where he was not credited, but chances are he doesn't mind that.

The film's story is credited to three people. Sam Graham and Chris Hubbell appear to be a writing team, sharing nearly the exact same credits. They had contributed in some capacity to the writing of films like Oliver and Company and The Little Mermaid, they wrote a later season episode of the Beetlejuice cartoon, four for The Real Adventures of Johnny Quest and wrote the teleplay for Night of the Twisters. But like Sebast they also have a BTAS connection, writing for one episode of that series, you wanna know what it was? You ready?

I've Got Batman in my Basement

Yes, what is generally agreed upon to be the worst BTAS episode of all time, you have them to thank for that.

But what about the third person? Jymn Magon is attached to quite a bit, but for more notable ones he was tied to Quack Pack, a product of its time at best, and was also attached to cartoons produced at DiC entertainment's French division Les Studios Tex, handling The Wacky World of Tex Avery, hated as that show is and serving as the headwritter for Archie's Weird Mysteries, a show I thought was cool, but then realized it's an E/I show using a cool premise to trick people into learning things. As far as other movies go he wrote Casper: A Spirited Beginning and Casper Meets Wendy, all two of those live-action Casper TV movies, An All Dogs Christmas Carol, I mean granted he did the story and part of the screenplay for A Goofy Movie, but you wanna know what else he was involved in?

Titanic: The Legend Goes On

Yet another punching bag of many years ago, he served as a consultant on it just for the record. If you want my opinion on the film there's an uncut version that, while not a great movie at least is better held together than the more commonly spread cut version.

As far as the cast goes it's a who's who of celebrities who were falling or fell off long ago and are looking for some easy money. Among them being William H. Macy, Ralph Macchio, Harvey Korman, Eric Idle, and we do get two returning actors, Dom DeLuise who was clearly never picky when it came to movie deals, and Arthur Malet in his final role... before he would retire and die in 2013.

I also wanna single out Meshach Taylor as I used to watch Designing Women reruns, but you may recognize him Mr. Wright from Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide. And speaking of Nickelodeon actors, the second, or third if you count the 1994 pilot Arnold Shortman, Phillip Van Dyke was also in this. Also Hynden Walch, who you may recognize as Penny Sanchez from ChalkZone... and nothing else. But something tells me her presence here and what she became known for later on had given her some slack relating to who she played. Lastly, it's important to note that the voice of Mrs. Brisby, Elizabeth Hartman, had passed away under very dark circumstances. She was played by Debi Mae West in the film, and she is perhaps best known for playing Meryl in Metal Gear Solid, and she does a decent job in this movie for whatever it's worth.

If it wasn't obvious before, Don Bluth had no involvement in this movie, but whether he was on or not wouldn't affect the quality of the movie because throughout the 90s he had begun to lose his touch. You may argue Anastasia was an outlier among his more mediocre movies, and that MGM greenlit this movie because the Bluth name was more or less redeemed for a time, but that's a stretch. You already know how this movie turned out, so I'm not gonna go into the impact, it's a byproduct of trying to be like the biggest reviewer out there and share his opinions on movies, and it's never going to stop. I'm delaying the inevitable by rambling on and on about behind the scenes stuff, I should stop.

Okay, the movie, finally

As something different, I'm gonna do my best to try and explain the issues people have with the movie, it may not work, but it's different.

NIMH 2 would center on Timmy, a character who served a purpose in the first movie, but was otherwise relegated as part of a goal had by Mrs. Brisby to help him, while contending with the rot... whatever the first movie was about.

The movie would begin with a recap of the first, and this is where red flags are raised for most people, as it presents Mrs. Brisby's husband Johnathan as the main hero. As much as I'd love to bitch in the name of a cartoon rat, I think I know what they're going for here. Mrs. Brisby is the main player in the rest of the first NIMH movie yes, but Johnathan Brisby was the one who helped free the rats from NIMH, giving them the means, the will, to start their own civilization, he may've even lent a hand in the creation of Thorn Valley.

You may say Mrs. Brisby was also instrumental in helping Thorn Valley, I mean you may be right, but don't act like Johnathan had no influence either, if anything I give the movie props for trying to provide extra focus to the rest of the Brisby family, bar certain stretches. And in the case of Timmy, who spent the entire first movie sick, it's a good way to better flesh him out, what more is there to him?

Now, his selection as the rats' golden boy is kinda forced, I'll give you that, and some claim it should've been Martin in the lead, as Don Bluth also would've suggested, but I also see what they're trying to do here. Timmy is just coming into life with a greater purpose, and he feels he isn't ready for it. Martin who had more experience feels he is better suited for what's in store for Timmy, which would be a setup for what happens later in the movie.

As far as him being the chosen one, I mean I get citizens of Thorn Valley expressing optimism and fate for the next in line in the Brisbys thanks to their help. A little overblown, sure, but these reviewers going on and on about how Mrs. Brisby is a god they prey to you'd think they'd see something of her in Timmy. That would explain that celebration at the start of his arrival.

As for the cautious nature of Mr. Ages, he has faith in Timmy, but wants him to work to earn his reputation, to not just base himself solely on the achievements of his family alone, to have the experience and discipline to back it up. You don't become a hero in a day, you gotta work your way up. At least that's what I feel like they're going for.

Along with Timmy there's also Jenny, who is considered to be one of the film's few objective positives. She has enough personality and tact so she wouldn't feel out of place, as well as some importance to the plot. She had escaped NIMH and would inform Thorn Valley's higher ups about what's currently happening. For when they refuse to act on it and for those who say they should throw caution into the wind and do it... you wouldn't last one presidency, if conflict is the first thing. Yes it's ideal to help, but as the first movie shows, there will be bodycounts, and the rats escaped NIMH to live.

Oh but, building up Timmy. Perhaps he wasn't ready yet and his training amounts to protecting Thorn Valley from outside dangers, and that them going back to NIMH may lead to NIMH finding their way to Thorn Valley.

Up to this point I've ignored the musical aspects, and yeah... the songs are pretty bad. On paper they're decent, but in practice... you know what, no, I'd still take off-key singing over the autotune or swapped voice they used in The Loud House Movie. It seems like the songs are used just to help bolster the length, or because that's what kids were into, even if it doesn't fit in the context or tone of the film that came before.

I mean say what you will about Ferngully 2, at least it began as a musical of sorts.

Now as for Jeremy who is seen helping to scam forrest animals by pretending to be the Great Owl, I dunno, I guess they had to have him do something and justify him being within reasonable distance so he could rejoin Timmy and Jenny. So basically plot convenience, guess they backed themselves into a corner with that.

Getting to NIMH, remember how Martin acted earlier on? And how even more we were led on to believing one particular scientist was the big bad? It's a good ol' bait and switch, sorta. Anyway blah blah blah, evil Martin, agreement, blah blah. The rest of Thorn Valley would arrive, presumably realizing Timmy and Jenny were gone they would set out to find them and then they were like, fuck it, we're here, we may as well see this through, fruitless to go back now.

Alright let's talk about this. Martin was jealous that he was not considered to be sent to Thorn Valley, early on it was shown he knew where it was, hence how he could get out there. One can assume he traveled to NIMH to prove himself by stopping them, and either he got caught and experimented on, or his selfish desires led him to become corrupted.

Martin being the bad guy actually has more weight than people want you to believe. It plays a part in Timmy's character where he cares deeply for his family, Martin especially, so to realize the one behind all of this was his own brother, it hits hard. Compared to it just being a generic scientist that few of them know beyond some aspects, it gives this film one above sequels/d2v movies by representing an emotional connection, you don't get that as often, and while that is offset by a very goofy song it's still there.

It also says a lot in regard to Timmy's character, where he would be willing to help his brother even in spite of his corruption, "I have my brother back!". For his bravery, proving himself and potentially destroying NIMH for good, he is given a statue alongside his father for helping to bring the rats to where they are now, literally and figuratively.

Of course some of you may say "Wait a minute where the fuck is Mrs. Brisby's statue for the millionth time!?"

Alright I'm gonna be real, I'm aware of what she has done in the movie, benefit of the doubt to naysayers that maybe she did enough to warrant one. Maybe it's an oversight, maybe the extent of what she did was big but not statue big, she wasn't trying to prove herself against Johnathan Brisby, she was just trying to help her family and those close to her and faced her own journey to do so. I don't know, I really don't know, but there's a reason somewhere, I can feel it.

Animation

The animation in this movie is about what you'd expect for a straight-to-video film, not amazing but above average compared to others like it, and those others typically came out in the 2000s whereas this came out in 1998. It's not bad, but not mind-blowing and people would turn the other cheek given this is riding off of a movie best known for its animation.

Final Thoughts

A lot of people really hate this movie, and for a time I did too and I made a review to that effect. But the fact that even to this day people are still complaining about this movie and bringing nothing new most of the time it comes down to the same thing... it's getting old, and maybe this movie isn't as bad as Nostalgia Critic made it out to be.

The Nostalgia Critic had a negative impact on movie reviews, you can owe the reputations of certain films to him. For instance Garbage Pail Kids was more relatively obscure until he did a review and got more people to talk about it. The same effect occurred here as well evidentially as few could do anything more than just echo what Nostalgia Critic said in the name of a movie, of all things.

Once you take that away, you're left with a movie that, yes, isn't great but is far from the worst movie of all time, let alone one of the worst sequels. I'm being blunt here, because after seeing the same reviews multiple times and looking more into the movie, things just don't add up. Is this really that bad, or are we just regurgitating what we heard before with no variation? Only credit I can give to this is that most of the time they don't throw Don Bluth into the discussion, and since this movie came out as he was still alive there goes that go-to.

There's more to a movie than what you hear from the reviewer of the week, and people need to have the confidence to go against the grain if there is something that is getting missed. High risk, high reward.

[notebookmusical]

I will try to sum up some thoughts but don't want to make too many predictions or anything. I'm sure there will be some surprises and maybe subjects and sounds I'm not thinking of..which makes it fun! I think the genre listed doesn't really matter and never really does. I mean even Folklore has some pop and she is a pop artist so I don't bother paying attention to it. I just get folklore vibes from the title I guess and the poets connection..otherwise she could've called it something else. So that makes me very interested in the title song and where the title came from and how she picked it. I am confused why it wouldn't start with that song..if it seems like the album is telling a story but idk. Starting with a collab is also a first so I would be interested in that one..will it be a collab like Exile where she wanted a male perspective maybe? I actually just thought of that now lol..before it just reminds me of Endgame. Idk if that fits honestly. I think it could be a single..like I said similar to Lavender Haze vibes, which didn't quite feel like an opener either, and I doubt we would get a pre released single. Although Post can do different genres such as rock or rap which makes it interesting. I will make sure to listen to his recent album which I never did, before this comes out. I enjoyed his last album. But it must fit with the album or else they could have collabed on a vault song. I'll have to listen to Florence's album again too. I see what you mean about the album, which kinda shocked me that people felt that way because it doesn't quite seem like such a personal breakup album to me with some of the titles but people think the opposite. Titles like fresh out the slammer and Clara Bow and the Manuscript don't seem as similar and personal as titles from Midnights to me which felt directly her life. These seem like putting herself in a story almost or I said it could be like what she did in rep with fresh out the slammer. Even but Daddy I love him has a Lana or No Body No Crime vibe to it..but idk. I don't want to overthink it. There's also been debate about the aesthetic or department being academics or being like a police case where she's giving evidence. That honestly would have never occured to me at all lol. I honestly didn't think of that as a lyric..omg. also some of the titles seem so hard to imagine as lyrics in a song lol. I just picked a favorite from each side, but liked side D the most I think. After thinking about it more, I think my favorites are the tortured poets society, so long London or Florida with Florence, who's afraid of little old me, and Clara Bow and the Manuscript. I always seem to like her last songs and wonder if the bonus track adds to the ending. But I like them all and excited for the album! I hope we can find out more info about it somewhat at least.

i saw a rumored list of who worked on what songs earlier — not sure how valid/real they are, but i am very, very intrigued by it! i keep trying to call it "tortured poets society" instead of department 😭 sooner or later i'll get used to it. i haven't listened to post malone much, maybe i'll do that for one of my upcoming album of the days! i wonder which songs will be a single on this album, and if we'll get any music videos. do you have any predictions? i feel like i'm at a blank. i saw someone talk about the evidence thing which i didn't think of but think that's such an interesting theory!! sorry this was a shorter reply; i didn't realize i hadn't replied and wanted to reply to you before i go out of town this weekend 🤍 hope you have a lovely weekend and talk to you soon!! xx

[mydisneymoment]

on june 1, the love of my life was diagnosed with acute promyelocytic leukemia cancer. but believe it or not- it was a relief to find out. lemme rewind a bit, on may 20th, he showed me some crazy big bruises and his gums were bleeding continously after he flossed. we decided to give it a week and see if the bruises would naturally go away- at this point i didnt really think anything of it, he's a biker and hella active so i thought that he may have gotten the bruises from biking and maybe didnt realize. the gums were weird but again- i didnt think too much of it. a week later, a few more bruises popped up and earlier in the week he had told me this walking heart rate had gotten up to like 150.. which was quite alarming cos like i said, this guys an athlete. i told him he should make an appointment asap and he said the next appointment was in august. he had done some research and he thought it was his liver, panic started to settle in but it was my sisters grad weekend so i knew we'd be seeing family who are in healthcare. regardless, i told him that he shouldnt drink this weekend and til we knew what was up. we shared what he was experiencing with close family and friends and they're expressions had us really worried. after his cousins bday dinner, we went to the ER the evening of may 28. the er was filled will bottle rock attendees and that was a time in itself. we got in at 9pm and didnt get seen til 1am. they checked his blood and the results were crazy low. we got checked into the er, they took some more blood and then after waiting a couple hours were notified that those numbers were critical and he was being checked into the hospital. the next day he received two blood transfusions and a bone marrow biopsy. the day after was a ct scan and we were just sitting ducks waiting for the bone marrow results. on the morning of wednesday may 31st, we found out it was leukemia. now we were informed that our local hospital didnt have the right specialists for his disease and that we would be transferring to ucsf that evening and we were checked in that night. at queen we were told that it was forsure apl so naturally i was in shock and another wave of fear hit when we got to ucsf when the nurse told me that they were running tests to see if it was apl or aml. my world started spinning again but i tried to hold my composure and stay strong for my guy. naturally- i took a walk for "water" and broke down in the hallway. note- i actually brought our water cups out and asked one of the nurses to give it directly to me- but she freakin dropped them in the room!! those were my cover girl cant you see im fucked up lol. they took 13 blood vials from him and gave him a potassium transfusion- the first time i heard him in pain. pain immediately enveloped me, to see my guy hurting. i did my best to massage him and distract him from the pain. when the nurse came in to change out the bag- i had completely lost it and told her it was hurting him, she was able to slow the drip down and it was better. safe to say no sleep was had that night. when we woke up- they had given him a full body ekg where we saw his heart and liver, he opted for a pick line that connected straight to his chest so they could directly connect the ivs and take blood from that instead of them picking him with a new needle everytime. he got another bone marrow biopsy- they wanted to do their own research- i was able to sit in n watch and after they confirmed to me that it was apl and then his main doctor came in that day as well and confirmed his diagnosis, gave the game plan and set the ground rules. i wasnt in the room during this time but his parents were and recorded a video of the doctors for me. the three of us were in the family room together where i plugged in and listened to the diagnosis. i didnt really have time to breathe before his dad started game planning. i had a full blown panic attack and could not think and the self doubt settled in. looking back on june 1st, it feels like it was a whole week in one day.