#this coloring is so ugly which is why im posting today and not saving to drafts.

[matcheadz]

THIS IS NOT A TUTORIAL

So I like to draw. That much is clear. In fact, I went to school for it! For an exorbadent amount of money, actually. Well, not drawing. Animation specifically but thats not the point.

I like to draw, but for a long time I felt like I couldn't because my 'process' was rather ridiculous. Or at least, I felt like it. I still sort of feel like it. I want to remind people here that your process doesn't have to look clean or pretty or whatever, because nobody (unless you go to an art college in that case just get in the habit of saving custom layouts for projects, trust me) is going to see it.

I call my sketchbook my 'shitbook' because its full of stuff that will never see the light of day. Blind contour drawings. Random mixtures of shapes. Observational drawings with little notes to myself. Don't worry about those 'aesthetic journals.' Fuck 'em, I say. Life is messy as shit, let your sketchbook show that.

So today I wanna show you the absolute mess that is my process. I like to take screenshots during a painting or sketch that I feel is pivotal in my learning process so I can see if I took the right direction or not. As a result, I have a ton of these .pngs lying around. Lets look at one:

What the fuck is that? EW! THATS UGLY! Hold on, what about this one:

Hmm, well what about this- wait what the fuck is this

These are all thumbnails/sketches from IT projects I did maybe two or three yearrs ago. These never saw the light of day, save for maybe a joke post or to a partner involved in a project. These were for me to look at, to carve out. These don't have good anatomy. They're not the final composition. Sometimes they're in a completely different style. Point is,

These are my versions of thumbnails. It's how I plan my shots, my layout, my composition, my expressions. Is some of it pretty? Maybe? Is most of it absolutely vile? YES. And I love it that way. The dirtier the better, as I like to think. Its a thought process. I want my thumbnails to look like I'm thinking so I can combine those thoughts. For example, I'll show you the last Vergil painting I just did and all the steps I did with that. Look at this ugly little motherfucker:

This is a strange sketch considering the final product. What I did here was look at the 'jinx pose' from Arcane and be like "hmm. Vergil?" and tried to use the perspective and anatomy. it did NOT work out in this sketch because as you'll see in a second, the rough colors did not work for me. But in this specifically, I focused on the musculatory anatomy of his shoulders, because I knew that was going to be something super defined and important to understand with how odd his vest is. So here are my flats. Sorta:

So at this point I'm clearly focused on the face and my file is still named Vergil Thirst Trap Lol and something clearly isnt working with my perspective. His head and arms are huge, and Vergil might have a grabable waist for some of you but this isn't it. So At this point I'm done with my first sit down and I step away. I come back the next day (during work hehehe) and I get to this at the end.

Alright! Color is looking a little better. Arms are more sculpted and while I'm aligning myself to my sketch more than anything, I'm also very closely looking at my pose reference, thinking about anatomy and my color palette. I step away (I clock out) and I take a minute to look at it. Its... looking better? But theres something off still about that perspective. At this point I'm a little frustrated with this vest and its weird rules. So I bare my teeth and gnash at it:

WHOA WHY THE FUCK HE LOOK SO WEIRD HERE?? Cause I flipped the canvas after painting and didn't realize how odd it looked oops. We'll do some fixing but that face looks nice for now and I think im better understanding the contrast I need through some actual photo editing. So let me tell you the story of Vergil's hair. Its a sad one. It will enrage you. This man had four different itterations. Most of which I can't show you because I painted over them so many times. But heres a screencap of the one I thought was gonna work.

Its NICE. I liked it alot. But the I realized this was not the way things were heading. Hair too swaggy. IMO anyway. I was slowly editing the name from Vergil Thirst Trap lol to Vergil to Vergil has mommy issues. and this hair? It matches the lightning well, but this was more Vergil Fucks. so what was the end result of the body?

more or less this (Those buttons didnt look like that I just realized this screenshot is fucked but you get the idea.) I did some composition editing, some contrast play and more effects, but this was pretty much done. So, like, shit gets messy. Thats not even counting the layer of overlapping reference photos I used because I don't use art boards like a normal person. shit gets messy! Let it get messy. Just clean up when you're done and hopefully you get something you're proud of >:)

[namchyoon]

the only fit to ever (for @jimimn ♡)

[cowboylarries]

thanks for tagging me @sunflowrhaz​ !!! this is a long tag game and so i finally learned how to put more under the cut, just for this post! but i had a lot of fun learning about you so i thought i would repay the favor <33

i am tagging some of my new besties @buttfucklarrie @dependsonwhospitching @corneliaswalls @otblou @sryluvidrc and @curly-headed-one but of course, no obligations <3333

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my lockscreen is one of my favorite pictures of the moon that i got off of twitter and now i feel bad because i can’t credit the artist!! and the last song that i listened to is finder by cyrus reynolds and folial which was in little women. i don’t normally listen to soundtracks of movies but i really really liked this song. and finally harry as a frog is my last saved picture (thank u ana!)

four songs ive heard today

1. colors by black pumas

2. take some time by wilderado

3. ouroboros by family and friends

4. now im in it by haim

seven comfort films

1. cars

2. parent trap (1998)

3. pitch perfect

4. tangled

5. grand budapest hotel

6. the good the bad and the ugly

7. deja vu

get to know me

name/nickname: dillon, dillie, dill, dilby, dee and then basically anything that begins with the letter d (digiorno, dollop, dilbert etc)

star sign: sagittarius

favourite bands/groups: 1D, wilderado, lord huron, the 1975, mumford and sons and most recently haim

favourite solo artists: novo amor, katie pruitt, hozier, clairo, phoebe bridgers, lennon stella

song stuck in my head: leave the door open by silk sonic 

last movie: infinity war

last show: criminal minds

when did I create this blog: the very end of 2012

what do I post about: 1d and my larents plus a lot of art!!

last thing I googled: how to spell digiorno

other blogs: none that are active but i technically have a photography blog that i havent touched since 2017

do I get asks: sometimes! 

why did I choose this url: because i love cowboys

following: 171

followers: enough :)

average hours of sleep: 7-8 (i’m pretty proud of that!)

lucky number: 7!!!

instruments: i used to play piano and violin but i do not anymore

what I am wearing: sweatpants and a tshirt that my college gave me in lieu of a grad ceremony :/

dream job: i do not dream of such things 😩😭 (same lauren!)

dream trip: morocco, italy, peru, zanzibar (i mean basically anywhere out of the us)

favourite food: pad thai!

nationality: from the united states

favourite song: i cannot choose!! i just posted a bunch of song recs so i guess if you are really pressed check out my song rec or music rec tags

last book I read: homegoing by yaa gyasi

three fictional universes you’d like to live in: psshhh i don’t know basically anything other than actual reality?

[badwolfwrites-sometimes]

Drawn Together: Chapter 16

I may or may not have forgotten to post this chapter here for a while... Anyway, there are 5 references to other pieces of Hetalia work, see if you can get them all right. 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18923374/chapters/57211975

♡~Feli~♡: Ludwig

Ludwig: Yes?

♡~Feli~♡: Im sad

Ludwig: Why are you sad?

♡~Feli~♡: Mirror me is ugly ♡~Feli~♡: I have these dumb fat cheeks and this stupid baby face and this fat body ♡~Feli~♡: No matter how hard i try i cant lose them ♡~Feli~♡: Ill never be manly enough for girls to like me

Ludwig: Feliciano are you crying?

♡~Feli~♡: Ofc im crying ♡~Feli~♡: I just look so dumb no wonder ppl call me stupid

Ludwig: Okay, take a deep breath Ludwig: You only look ugly to yourself because you are crying Ludwig: You aren't dumb and you aren't ugly Ludwig: And I am pretty sure there are some girls out there that will like you Ludwig: Have you eaten anything today?

♡~Feli~♡: No ♡~Feli~♡: Im already fat enough i dont deserve more food

Ludwig: Feliciano Ludwig: Losing weight isn't about not eating at all Ludwig: Not that you have any to lose, you look perfectly fit in your pictures Ludwig: Once you stop crying go eat something Ludwig: You will feel much better

♡~Feli~♡: But ill still be fat and ill still have this stupid baby face

Ludwig: They are alright Feliciano Ludwig: They are barely noticable Ludwig: Now will you please go eat something

♡~Feli~♡: Okay

Ludwig: Good Ludwig: I am worried about you, do you think we could have another video call?

♡~Feli~♡: Let me dry my tears first

Feliciano took his time calming down. He made himself some tea and grabbed the leftover pizza from the fridge. Today, he was alone in the house, a feeling that worsened his melancholy. There was no one to hold him and cuddle him and tell him that things are okay. There was no one to yell at him and tell him to pull himself together and do something useful in life before whispering to him that he's beautiful. Feliciano craved those moments today.

He didn't even warm up his pizza before eating it like it was straight out of a famous Italian restaurant. His tea left forgotten as he dined, only the soft smell of cinnamon strong enough to calm his nerves down. It wasn't the time to be depressed, he had Ludwig to talk to. Finishing off his pizza, he grabbed his tea and retreated to his room, turning on Skype.

♡~Feli~♡: Okay im calm you can skype me now

Ludwig: Alright, let me just turn on my laptop

A few minutes later, Feliciano got the Skype notification on his computer. Accepting the call, he was met with the usual Ludwig business, bringing a smile to his face.

Ludwig was dressed properly, nothing too fancy, but also not in pajamas like Feliciano was. His hair was neatly slicked back and his room as tidy as always. Same couldn't be said about Feliciano.

On top of wearing pj's all day everyday, Feliciano was tightly wrapped up in a thick blanket like it was in the middle of winter and not plain old May. His eyes were still noticeably red and puffy, but Ludwig wouldn't comment on that even if it killed him. To add to the sad wintery atmosphere Feliciano had going on, between his hands, he was cuddling a colorful cup covered in stars.

Said cup was the first thing Feliciano noticed Ludwig was staring at. "Do you like it? I made it myself when I was a kid." He smiled.

Ludwig nodded, clearing his throat. "Yes. It really fits you, I must admit."

Feliciano giggled, feeling a bit of a sting from his eyes. He will probably have a headache in the morning.

"Are you feeling better?" Ludwig continued. "Did you eat anything?"

Feliciano nodded. "I had some leftover pizza so I ate that. And now I'm drinking tea to feel good about myself."

"Good. That is good."

"I guess."

"Do you feel better now that you had something to eat?" Ludwig asked, his concern for Feliciano noticeable in his voice.

"Yeah, I think. Sorry I worried you like that."

"Don't be. If anything, I am glad that you spoke to me about it. I know how you feel. I was a chubby kid too."

"How did you lose weight?"

"I didn't. Growing up, my weight just transferred into muscles and I trained for a while. None of it went away."

"Well, that's comforting." Feliciano sighed sadly. "I can't keep a training schedule to save my life. Especially now that I am out of school and do nothing all day."

"You just need something to push you to do it." Ludwig said. "How about a dare?"

"A dare? Are we playing truth or dare?"

"We can if you want to."

"Okay. What's your dare?"

"I dare you to do 3 pushups every day for the next month."

Feliciano nearly spat out some of the tea he was drinking. "Three?! I can barely do 1!"

"It is a dare, you have to do it." Ludwig almost smirked.

"Only if you do something as well."

Ludwig was about to start regretting his decision. "What is it?"

Feliciano thought hard for a while, before coming up with a challenge long and hard enough for Ludwig to do it. "You told me once you weren't much of an artist."

"Yes." Ludwig was definitely regretting playing this game.

"I want you to paint me a picture of what made you happy that day. Every day. For the next month." Feliciano smirked.

"Does it have to be a painting?" Ludwig meekly asked. "You know how busy my schedule is."

"No, but it has to be colorful. And I want them sent to me by 11 p.m. ever day."

"You really like challenges, don't you?"

"You dared me first. Now you have to do it too."

"Fine." Ludwig relaxed in his chair. "It is my turn I believe." He took his time thinking about the perfect question. "If you could only see one color for the rest of your life, which one would it be?"

Taken a bit by surprise, Feliciano thought for a while, looking around to spot a color which stood out the most to him. The sea was calm today, that got his attention, so calm it was almost calling for him, so, so very... "Blue." He said out loud, without realizing it.

"Somehow that doesn't surprise me." Ludwig's voice pulled Feliciano out of his trance. "I would like to see brown mostly."

Feliciano's face almost twisted at the word brown. Why brown? It doesn't even stand out that much in nature, it's just darker orange and an ugly mix of colors together. "Why?"

Ludwig smiled. "My dogs are mostly brown." Well that explained a lot.

"I should have expected that." Feliciano laughed. "My turn. Have you ever had a girlfriend?"

An awkward question to ask Ludwig, Feliciano noticed. His cheeks have gotten a shade or two darker than usual, something that would probably go unnoticeable if he wasn't so pale. Regardless, Feliciano just had to know.

Ludwig breathed in. "No. I don't even have a female friend that isn't family to me."

"You've never dated?" Feliciano asked in surprise. And Ludwig was so good looking?

Ludwig shook his head, slightly embarrassed. "I get it that I haven't, but you? Look," Feliciano started, "when I come to Germany, we'll go hunting for ladies so that neither of us are single ever again, okay?"

It was no use in arguing over girls with Feliciano, so Ludwig just gave in. "Why are you so obsessed with them anyway?"

"Is that the next question?" Feliciano asked.

"Yes."

Feliciano thought for a bit. "I think it's because I have multiple personalities living inside of me." He pointed to his chest. "One is your regular flirty Italian, the other is a sad bastard and the third one is just a huge lesbian."

Ludwig laughed, but Feliciano continued. "I think we all have a female part inside of us, mine just happens to like girls more than normal."

"Okay, if you say so." Ludwig still had to recover from his laughing fit.

"Also, lately I've been having these strange dreams. Like, one time I dreamed I was stuck in a dreamworld and it was all really beautiful and nice, but I would die if I stayed for too long. And you were coming to save me." Feliciano rambled. "Would you come save me from the dreamworld, Ludwig?"

"Of course I would." Truth to be told, Ludwig wasn't following Feliciano much.

"Aw, thank you. Anyway, that's not even the weirdest. I dreamed about this guy Steve one time, only he wasn't actually a guy but some alien creature. And he had this big mansion and I was stuck in there and I couldn't escape and it was so horrifying." Feliciano shivered at the memory of his dream.

"I must admit that it does sound horrifying. Especially if you happen to be claustrophobic." Ludwig said. "Now that you mention it, I've been having some strange dreams as well. And for some reason, you are always in them."

That peaked Feliciano's interest. Not that he wasn't interested in the first place. "Oh, I wanna hear! I wanna hear!"

"Well, one time I was a pilot during World War 2 and I was stationed in Italy and I met you, but then something happened and I had to leave. My plane crashed and I was imprisoned and you came to save me, then..." Ludwig stopped. "I don't recall what happened next, but it ended nicely, I think. I just remember flying a Messerschmitt Bf 109."

"Mrs. What?" Feliciano asked.

"Messerschmitt. It was a German fighter plane in World War 2. It was a rival plane to Spitfire and had a yellow nose."

Feliciano laughed. "I'll forget it's name, but at least I'll know it had a yellow nose."

"That is all you need to know." Ludwig continued. "Then I had another dream and it was poker themed. I was the king of hearts and you were my queen. That is pretty much all I remember from it."

"You must think so highly of me to make me your queen, I'm flattered." Feliciano giggled. "What do you think these dreams mean?"

"No idea, but I wish I knew. Maybe, they represent our bond with each other as friends."

"Maybe. Maybe they are telling us of our past lives and all that. Like your war one."

"I want to stop you because if you start talking like that, we will never leave the topic of dreams."

Feliciano laughed, glad that Ludwig was listening to him by stopping him from going too far with his talking. "When will you come to Italy, Ludwig? We could have so much fun."

"As soon as I have some more free time, I will pay you a visit."

"Yes! We can go on tour of Rome and I could show you the Colosseum and The Pantheon and Bocca della Verita and I could show you our beaches and we would have so much fun!"

"You sound like you have already planned everything out."

"That's just one possibility. I could give you a tour of all of Italy if you want. You just have to come here first."

Ludwig attempted his nicest smile. And failed. Feliciano was so excited about all of this. "Would you show me the Rialto Bridge as well?"

It would be a lie to say Feliciano's eyes didn't glow at this point. "Of course I would! And maybe you can bring your girlfriend, if you get one in time, and you can do the kiss scene from the book! You can even get married! Can I be your best man, please?"

"You will have to fight Gilbert for that position. I doubt he would just give it away."

"Gilbert, you are a worthy opponent. But I must take you down for the sake of providing myself the glorious Best Man position." Feliciano delivered the speech. "I can do best wedding speeches, I think Gilbert is already losing."

"We will see." Ludwig laughed. "But wouldn't you want to be your brother's best man?"

"I'm the odd one out, they got each other. Aside from you, I don't have much options on who else to have as my best man." Feliciano sighed.

"Well, that is really sad. I probably won't marry at all, so if you get married, I can still be your best man." Ludwig said.

"Really? You'd do that for me?"

"Yes."

"But what about Gilbert?"

"I admire you for believing that he would get married, but I doubt that would be the case."

"Harsh truth." Feliciano laughed. "I hope Lovi can get married. If not here, he could get married somewhere else."

"One day it might be possible."

"One day when the world isn't as hateful as now. I think he'll hate having to be married outside of Italy."

Silence fell upon them, just as the front door of Feliciano's house slammed shut. A soft, but loud voice could be heard. "Feli! I'm home!"

"Romeo is home. I'm not alone anymore." Feliciano commented.

"Do I suddenly not exist?" Ludwig asked, a bit offended by Feliciano's statement.

"No! I meant that I'm not home alone anymore. Don't go anywhere, I'd be sad if you stopped existing." Feliciano corrected himself.

A sound of footsteps coming up the stairs could be heard, but Feliciano failed to hear them.

"I won't be going anywhere then." Ludwig said, just as the door to Feliciano's room opened.

"Hi Feli." Romeo greeted. "Who are you talking to?"

Feliciano jumped slightly as the door opened, but smiled to his brother. "Ludwig. Come say hi."

Romeo did as he was told and greeted Ludwig. "Hi Lud."

"Hello." Came a response.

"Feli, nonno said he'll be coming home the day after tomorrow. We should probably prepare Lovi just in case." Romeo said.

"Good idea. I'll be down when we're done and we can plan the thing out." Feliciano responded and Romeo left him to wrap things up with Ludwig.

"So nonno is coming home soon. Which is bad. And we need to prepare Lovi for it. Which is worse." Feliciano explained the situation to Ludwig, seeing as the latter didn't know much Italian.

"I see. Basically, you get to be a pigeon again." Ludwig remarked.

Feliciano laughed, partially glad Ludwig still remembered that from a couple of months ago. "Probably. Maybe it works out okay in the end, but I doubt it."

"I am here whenever you need me. Except when I am at college or at work, but other than that..."

"Thanks." Feliciano laughed. "I gotta go. Me and Romeo have to plan this out carefully."

"Before you do, it is Romeo and I. Remember it."

"Yes, yes, Romeo and I, okay. Talk to you later, Ludwig!" Feliciano said, waving goodbye to Ludwig.

"Good luck!" Ludwig simply said and gave Feliciano a small wave before ending the call. They talked for good 3 hours, but to Feliciano it only felt like a couple of minutes.

He walked downstairs to discuss things with Romeo. Getting his brother and grandfather in the same room again won't be easy and Feliciano just hoped it would turn out okay in the end.

[beesmygod]

netflix’s new horror movie “bird box” sucks ass and not in a funny, enjoyable way: a review

first im going to preface this review with this: im sick. i caught a cold on the way home from reno and spent the day recovering watching this garbage instead of doing anything that required a working brain. i knew i wasn’t going to get anything mind-blowing but “bird box” teeters heavily on “insultingly bad” instead of just “bad” and it kept me mad about having wasted two hours of my life for a solid 24 hours straight.

so if this review doesn’t make sense, its partly because im sick, and partly bc this movie doesn’t make sense. this review is also impossible to structure because i dont even know where to begin. maybe here: the directing is derivative, boring and bad. its like watching paint dry. the whole movie looks like your grandma’s house smells.

to re-iterate: this movie is 2 hours long. i’ll save you 2 hours by telling you that you never see the monster, ever. sandra bullock admitted to laughing out loud repeatedly on set at the monster when it was revealed to her which lead to it being cut from the movie. if we had seen the monster, maybe the movie would have been bumped up from a d- to a c+ just because the mental image of a long green baby with john malkovich’s voice is pretty funny.

the bird box, probably

for a movie about a monster, this movie has a serious monster problem. in that the monster is not a problem. the monster (which is never given a name in the movie) can’t seem to actually do anything to you if you don’t look at it. its only power seems to be making you kill yourself when you see it (unless you’re crazy which, thats a whole other kettle of fish. give me a minute). so if you don’t look at it you’re fine? there’s several points in the movie where the monster is physically close to them but doesn’t actually do anything except beg them to take off their blindfolds and look at them. its almost pathetic. as far as i can tell, the monster’s only powers are to make leaves fly upward for no reason (i.e. to indicate its in the area without the camera having to focus on anything specific) and yell at you. but, like, as long as you don’t take off your blindfold (and somehow, people do in this movie) then you’re probably fine.

now, if you’re “crazy” (I KNOW YOU’RE ALREADY ASKING QUESTIONS HOLD ON) then looking at the monster turns you into a stereotypical evangelist for an eldritch horror. you run around saying “crazy” things that read like enemy npc chatter in ps2 era survival horror game. for example:

then, you spend all your time trying to get people to look at it by holding their eyes open. “bird box” does not bother to explain what “crazy” means in this context. according the the story, roving gangs of tokyo-drifting escaped asylum patients rule the post-apocalyptic landscape of the pacific northwest. its impossible to tackle how many layers of like morally wrong it is to yet again shove the mentally ill into the role of antagonists  (im getting exhausted just thinking about piling up all the reasons this is so fucking bad) to the point of making them a fucking enemy class. its almost more succinct just to point out that “bird box” thinks mental illness is an on/off switch you toggle rather than a spectrum. i know this movie is a relic of the past (dec 2018) but i feel like this is such a basic fact about the world as we know it today that the decision to ignore it makes me wonder if the writer was operating under the assumption that horror monster “rules” need to be clearly defined as though they were conceived for use in a videogame.

if_crazy=“yes”,  then bird=box 

speaking of the titular “bird box”: the movie is called that because they literally keep birds. in a box. the birds tell you when the monster is coming, so you can put on your blindfold. but heres the thing: the monster makes GGGGRRRRRROOORRORORO sounds nonstop when its running around in the area. you know when it’s coming. you can hear it coming from a mile away. so there’s really no point in having, a bird box. at one point the monster is so loud they can’t hear the birds over its roaring. whats the point of the birds? as it turns out, the birdbox, is useless. much lIKE THIS MOVI

this movie is a never ending cascade of cliches and stolen plot points, characters, ideas. it steals from “the happening” (blatantly, its the same movie right down to the ugly color scheme of every frame), “dawn of the dead”, “pontypool”, “the mist” and pretty much every post-apocalyptic monster movie ever. bd wong is confirmed as a gay man literally 2 minutes before he dies on screen. the black comedic lead dies next. a pregnant woman is introduced and you’ll NEVER guess what happens to her. you could set your watch to this movie. its pathetic. 

welp, he’s dead

i’m going to link this guy’s deconstruction of the weird incestual overtones that are also impossible to miss and interpret without wanting to die. 

im getting exhausted again. this movie is not fun bad. this post is to serve as a warning to the curious. in fact, im going to spoil the end for you, so you truly understand why i’m so fucking mad. i want you, right now, to imagine based on what i’ve told you what the most hackney, cliche, stupid, moronic ending twist could be to this movie about a monster you can’t look at. fully form it in you head. dare to imagine the dumbest thing you can.

ready?

YOU SEE

[pbjpuppy]

4, 18, 22, 24, 31, 40, 50 for the oc ask meme

yes. YES. IM GOING TO TALK SO MUCH THANK YOU ROMAN

4. A character you rarely talk about?

*SWEATS*. SO MANY OF THEM, 

but UHHH in particular... I feel like a lot of Mansion charas other than Vinny don’t get enough of a spotlight!! Spencer, Giovanni, and Absinthe all kind of chill in the background (especially Spencer I always find struggles to be much more than “Vinny’s little brother”) 

18. Any OC crackships?

I ALREADY ANSWERED THIS ONE W BAILEY/CHERRY WHICH IS MY FAV BUT I am sure theres more. OH speaking of Spencer I used to ship him with Vinny’s jock friend Axel!! I even drew some art for it a WHILE ago. I should bring that back it was really cute. Jock himbo and cryptic little ghost man    

22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how?

Now THIS is an interesting question...  I think. I can’t honestly think of any examples off the top of my head BUT I feel like I have a lot of OCs who would be very easy TO mischaracterize, especially in Blackbirch, bc everyone is written to be very like, subtle and complOH I KNOW WHO. 

Kevin, the first dude who Cherry killed. Most of the time it’s assumed he’d be like an overt, obvious creep, but he was unfortunately deceptive and very friendly despite ACTUALLY being a disgusting person. If you were to meet him without knowing his deal, you’d never know how awful he was. He doesnt DESERVE to be like. cared about or characterized correctly but Yknow 

24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?

I THINK... This is another very good question. I’d have to say... Vinny. The way he’s written to be fiction aware he’s “already met me” and has some STRONG opinions but still he’s a very important character to me and I think it would be really nice to talk to him 

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

Whimsy is five years old and would have the most endearingly ugly blog theme ever. It would be like 100% saturated colors that do not match and her icon (if she figured out how to set it) would be a picture of a carebear. she would make posts that were like “dear tumblr today i saw a bug and i wasent even scared it was gren and had spots love whimsy” and it would be ADORABLE. she would follow jenn and nobody else 

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

*POINTS AT PROSE AS A WHOLE* TBH... everyone there is so creative and lovely and i love interacting w everyones ocs and being allowed to infodump abt mine and all the inside jokes and dramatic RPs and WAA its so good i love prose 

50. Give me the good ol' OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

OH GOD OH FUCK UM now I’m still thinking about Whimsy blog. Its like that one post about how kirby and yoshi would send each other nonsense emails with pictures of fruit attached its exactly like that 

I actually HAVE a whimsy blog url saved but i never used it HJJFHKDG 

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE QUESTIONS I HAD A BLAST 

[lovemesomesurveys]

Did the best moment of your life happen at summer camp? I didn’t go to summer camp.  Do you get tired of fakebook? Fakebook, ha. It’s whatever. I don’t spend a lot of time on there, honestly. I just spend a few minutes a couple times or so a day scrolling through the feed and “like” some stuff.  Are you a poser on facebook or are you real? I don’t post a lot of personal stuff on there. I actually rarely post anything at all anymore. Like I said, I mostly just scroll through the feed “liking” stuff. I sometimes share a funny or relatable post, but that’s about it.

Are you a people pleaser? I mean... I don’t want to upset anyone or having any confrontation. I’m usually pretty agreeable with most things to avoid any issues. I’ll go along with what they want to do even if it’s not what I want to do (for the most part). I just don’t want any problems and it’s just easier to do those things. So, according to Psychology Today, avoiding conflict, agreeing with everyone (or pretending to), and finding it hard to say no are some of the top 10 things people who are people pleasers do. Another is not admitting to someone that your feelings are hurt, which is also me. But then also I’m not someone who has to be liked by everyone or seeks everyone’s validation. I feel like I do those things above because of the whole confrontation/avoiding conflict/not wanting to cause any issues thing and not because I want to be liked by everyone if that makes sense. Not to say that I don’t want to be liked, but... I don’t know. Whatever, you get what mean. Or maybe you don’t. *shrug* 

This response was so unnecessarily long, ha. Do you get irritated a lot? All the time. I’m very moody and irritable. What’s something you’ve realized about yourself lately? Nothing new. Do you know a lot of idiots? No, but I hear about and read things where I’m just like....yikes, wtf is wrong with some people? It’s alarming. Do you want a puppy or a kitty? Aww I love puppies, but I have a doggo and one is good for us. Do you hate that some people are stuck-up? I certainly don’t like if someone is stuck up and rude to me. Or really, just that way in general to people. It’s not a cute look. I hear the horror stories from people I know who work with the general public and wow. People can really be just so unnecessarily rude and cruel.  Would you rather be poor and humble or rich and snooty? I definitely wouldn’t want to be snooty. Can I be rich, but humble? ha. I’d be appreciative. I’d give back. I wouldn’t think I was superior to or above anyone just because I had money.  Do you know any humble rich people? I dont know any rich ppl, lmao . <<< Ha, same. Do you hate the millennial stereotype? I don’t pay much attention to that stuff. Does your religion or spirituality teach you to love your enemies? Yes. Do you love your enemies? I don’t have any enemies. Do you struggle to love your enemies? Do you get bullied frequently? I’m my only bully. Do you often wish you could go to sleep and not wake up until something good happens? As hard as it has been these past few years, I wouldn’t want to miss everything. I wouldn’t want to wake up one day and my loved ones are all much older, or worse. I wouldn’t want to miss the important things in their lives.  How many people do you know who are suicidal? I don’t know. You don’t always know that about a person. Do you read advice columns? No. Have you ever used a dating site? Nope. I’ve never had any interest in doing so. Do you want a fairy godmother? No. Do you enjoy watching talent shows? The only one I watch is The Voice. Which cartoon character would you want to play you in a movie? Wait…if there was a cartoon character playing me, then wouldnt they simply be modeled after me? <<< Good point. What is something you do not understand? Why I’m like this, the things I’ve gone through/are going through, life... a lot of things. Do you think cars are ugly? Some are. What is your favorite musical? Sweeney Todd. Are you ok? “I’m nooooooooot okay. I’m not okay, I’m not o-fucking-kay.” Do you ever feel God’s presence? Yes. Do you believe in angels? Yes. What is your favorite magazine? I don’t read any. What color hair did your favorite Barbie doll have? Most of my Barbies were blonde, but I had a few brunettes.  Who were you rooting for in the very first season of American Idol? Kelly Clarkson. Do you believe in miracles? Yes. Have you ever been to a tea shop? Yes. If there were a tea shop in your city, would you go to it? *shrug* maybe. Do you still have your Christmas decorations up? Yes. It’s barely January 2nd, chill out Old Sport.  How many pairs of jeggings do you own? Zero. Do you have any memories that are painful? Plenty. Do you make a habit of taking risks and stepping outside of your comfort zone? Ha, nope. Is your life boring? Yes, but I don’t have the energy or motivation to do much and I do like doing the things that I do. It works for me. What is your favorite thing to follow on tumblr? Blogs that post stuff related to my various fandoms, relatable and aesthetically pleasing things, and of course surveys.  What are your favorite Pinterest boards? I’m not big on Pinterest. I go on there sometimes to find cute pics and wallpapers for my phone, but that’s about it. Is your Pinterest profile cluttered? No. Like I said, I don’t much on there. If I find photos I like I just save them to my phone. Do you wish you owned more board games? Yeah. I love board games. Do you wish you had visitors more often? No.  Do you hate our culture? Lol, this jst reminds me of that one post thats like “no U live in a society. I live at my mom’s house”. Except in my case, its my dad’s house. And like I said above - I feel rather shielded from the world at large. Its almost as tho Im watching a movie unfold from afar <<< I can relate to that.  Do you live in the USA? Yes. What accent do you like best? British or southern accents. What are some things you would like to do this summer? Ew, I am NOT thinking about summer. It’s barely January, please let me enjoy this winter weather. What are some things you love about spring? The rain. Are you feeling optimistic today? No. When was the last time you did something that made you feel stupid? I feel that way a lot because of things I have and haven’t done and the ongoing, lasting effects of those things.  Is there anything that you’re questioning if you’re allergic to? No. Do you believe everyone should be treated with respect when you first meet them? I’m polite and civil to everyone I meet. Do you hate that nobody cares? About what? What websites shut down that you miss? Xanga was great for surveys. I’m also sad I lost all the surveys I did on there. What were your favorite websites when you were a teenager? I spent a lot of time on Myspace. There was also this Jonas Brothers website that had message boards and a chatroom, which I spent a lot of time on as well.  What was the best class you took in high school? English and Spanish.  Are you happy? No. Would you ever enroll in a college class just for fun? No. I’m done with school. I have no desire to go back, not even for just an elective. Do you feel free to be yourself? Yeah, pretty much. This is me, take it or leave it. Do you stand up for yourself when needed? Depends.

[rmpmw]

Does nobody care that Facebook looks like ass?

Sweet holy Buddha, is this really the future that Mark Zuckerberg is damning us to? Below is a screen shot from the big Facebook announcement today, snipped from a slideshow on Huffington Post along with the not-at-all-hyperbolic front page headline (above) declaring that this clusterfuck of ugly fonts and colors is “the way the future should work.”

Dear friends, I beg of you — look down at that page of horrors at the end of this post, and then ask yourself: Really? Can this really be true? Is there really anyone in the entire world who finds this user interface to be attractive?

After all the work I’ve done? After four decades of my Bauhaus-inspired radical minimalism and easy-on-the-eyes simplicity, this nightmare of buttons and icons and random colors, this messy electronic ransom note — this is the future? Do you have any idea how many hours, how many full days and weeks, that I’ve spent agonizing over the amount of white space that should be put at the edge of a screen? How many sleepless nights I’ve spent tossing and turning, my mind racing with decisions about type faces and kerning? And bezels and chamfers?

And now this. This world of shit and poor taste is where half a billion people choose to spend their time.

I look at Facebook and I feel the way I imagine I.M. Pei must feel when he looks at some giant public housing project. You just sit there going, Why? Why do this? Why make it so ugly when for just a tiny bit more effort you could make it, if not beautiful, at least not horrific?

I look at this page and I feel a migraine starting to come on. I feel dizzy, and get tunnel vision, and I have to go sit down on the floor in the child pose and just clear my mind.

It hurts me. Do you understand? It physically friggin hurts.

But this, we are told, is the future of messaging. All of these feeds (IMs, SMS, email) streamed into one giant steaming mountain of crap. Dear friends, this isn’t a product. It’s a punishment. But apparently there is nothing that any of us can do to stop it.



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Friday, November 12, 2010

We have not delayed iOS 4.2, and there is no WiFi problem with 4.2 on iPads

Despite what you may have read on idiot blogs like Engadget, we have not “delayed” the release of iOS 4.2. What we have done is reset our ship date to a future date that has not yet been determined. That’s not a delay. It’s a date change. Also, contra Engadget, the new software is not having “issues” or suffering any “serious looking connectivity bug.” What Engadget seems to have stumbled upon is a new feature that enables the iPad to rapidly connect and disconnect to a wireless network, thus saving battery life. The switching takes place at a speed that is actually faster than the speed at which neurons fire in your brain, so that to the end user the rapid connecting and disconnecting is not detectable. We call it Neuron Switch and we’re actually super proud of how amazingly awesome and mind-blowing it is, and we’ll be shipping it when we feel the world is ready for it, which might be today or might be some other day. So, Engadget? Get your facts straight. And next time, maybe call us before you just print something. Peace.

[threeracha]

random tags!

tagged by: @hyuunjins  ! thanks gf

1) 5 favorite groups?

stray kids

loona

nct (dream is my fav unit tho LMAO SOFLSDKJF)

a.c.e

ikon

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

hyunjin

hu zhibang 

kim jiwoo

kim byeongkwan

kim jinhwan

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

uh well AT THE MOMENT stray kids have my HEART but a.c.e, nct, and loona r like HELLALLALLAA UP THERE

i love stray kids bc......idk...........cAN ANYONE REALLY EXPLAINLOVE ;_____; their style of music drew me in it was super DIFF and idk i think whats most attractive to me is work ethic???? they all work hard evidently and i found that :( super :( admirable :(

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

i ult kim byeongkwan and hwang hyunjin 💗💘💓

i loVE kim byeongkwan sO MUCH he’s sos os sososoos hilarious but like in an incredibly stupid way like ijust want to shoVE HIM ACROSS THE WORLD BUT HE ALR IS BUT HES SO ANNOYING I LOVE HIM :( and i love how he can dance, sing, and rap ALL REALLY WELL and his dancing is my fav like :( his style is super CRY to watch u kno u kno 

and i LOVE hwang hyunjin for PRETTY MUCH THE SAME REASON LIKE LKSFLSKDFJ his humor is prob more like me tho irl im kinda HELLA BITCHY but in a (O U KNO I LOVE U) way u kno? and hyunjin seems to do that kinda teasing too which is <333 and and and he’s also really shy like asc hyunjin.......LMAOOOOOOOO my heart was THROBBING FOR HI M HES SO SWEET!! + his dancing is hella smooth & he looks so happy when he gets to dance <3 ugh yall my heart jUST HURTS writing all this ive NEVER SAID ALL THESE NICE THINGS ALL AT ONE TIME BEFORE WHY AM I ABT TO SOBBB

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

anything predebut park woojin is literal Gold

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

© idk why he looked so funny n cute here and I HATE HIS HATS BUT HE LOOKED SO SMOL N SLKDFJLSDKFJSLKDF

and i love when byeongkwan wears pink LSKDJFLSKDJF + his hair style /color here is super cute :~~~)

7) 5 Favorite Kpop MVs

loona (kim lip) - eclipse

unb - only one

monsta x - dramamama

nct dream - go 

red velvet - bad boy

8) 10 Favorite Kpop songs?

I HAVE A LOT MORE THIS IS ONLY A FEW :’((

only one - unb THIS SONG IS SO ;______; u kno

shine - pentagon OMG tbh wooseok singing the chorus is srsly the KILLING part for me i love his voice :(

rosy - loona (heejin, gowon, olivia)

bad boy (cover) - jooyoung ( IJUST HEARD THIS TODAY AND I INSTANTLY DIIIIIIIIIIED ) & I LOVE TH E ORIGNIAL DOES IT COUNT AS ONE

like this - pentagon

love tint - hyeongseop euiwoong

갖고 싶어 - wanna one

love scenario - ikon

third eye - stray kids

your name - wanna one 

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

GOODAYOQUEEN”S CHANNEL ANYTHING NCT IS SO FUNNY

10) Favorite content creator within the fandom?

@hyuunjins 

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

stray kids is most LMAO i barely post but i swear this is as active as i can gET

then a.c.e after

& tryna post nct n loona but ;;;; i get lazy LMAOSFLDKFJ

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

F(riendly convo with) - hu zhibang <3

M - hyunjin !!!

K - byeongkwan LMAOOOOOOO omg but like only in a joking way ... 

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

omg I WOULD LOVE TO BE BFFS WITH HAECHAN AND LUCAS AND CHENLE LSDKFLSDFJLSKDJF theyre all so weird could u 🗣imagine🗣 BUT ALSO HASEUL AND JOOE MY WITTY QUEENS

14) If you could date any idol, who?

i think kim jungwoo is like IDEAL boyf material hes so soft and makes rlly lame jokes but ye he soft :( also hwang minhyun :( the most Perfect man ever

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

pentagon’s recent positive album is super BOPPIN

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

neither LMAO well im not sure what a hard stan is but like LSKDFLSKDJF IM DEF NOT SOFT ALL THE TIME YIKES

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

JUNGWOO he’s a sucha SOFT

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

HYUNJIN ! LUCAS ! NEEDA STOP !!!!

19) Favorite vocalist?

kim jungwoo ;; honey vocals Extreme

20) Favorite Rapper?

i dont think u can ever go wrong w sik-k !

21) Favorite dancer?

omg’s yooa and ace’s byeongkwan ::))

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

hyunjin: LIKE I MENTIONED we b teaSIN ppl but also heLLA SHY LSDkjflKSDJF OMG but diff: he makes it CUTE ;;;;

byeongkwan: UHHHH prob bc we both are hella annoyin and dumb LMAO but again DIFF: I MAKE THESE FEATURES UGLY

23) The mot beautiful trait any idol can have?

WORK ETHIC!!!AND MORALS??? like IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN BUT LSKDFJLSKJDFLKSJDF hate when idols r problematic abt certain issues LSKDJFLSKFJ:SDK:SDF:SKDF:SDKF:SLDKF:SKDF: not to shade or anyth LMAOOOOO 👀

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

NCT BOSS n GO n STRAY KIDS DISTRICT 9 n PTG SHINE LATELY LKDSjfLSKDJF also basically anything shinee LKSLSDKJFLKSJF

25) Your worst wrecker?

choi chanhee from the boyz :( + basically ALL OF NCT LKSJFLKJSF + CHUUUUUUUU (well .... she is wrecker turned bias lMOAOAO)

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

once kpop groups rememberwhere the middle of nowhere in the US is,,, perhaps,, but not yet rip :( wanna one is coming like 3 hrs from where i live...idk if i’ll have my life savings gathered for it in time 

27) Favorite choreo?

LMAO twice’s likey is the only choreo ive ever rllylearned and its really fun tbh LSKDJFLKSJDF 

28) Favorite live performance?

WANNA ONE LA DOLCE VITA ITS SO GREASY N SLEEZY ITS AMAZIGN LSKJDFLSJDF

29) Favorite debut mv?

boy - the boyz omg i had a tbz blog predebut and was D ED at debut

30) Recommend a rookie group

stray kids!!!!! loona!!!! 

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

love scenario - ikon (tbh me since this song was released tho SLDKJFLSKF) also 갖고 싶어 - wanna one <33

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

@himeaegyo @realstraykids @felixeslee @kimwoojin @reosian @thestraykid @hyunnlix @hyunsungg @bangchant @nuwuest

[awkward-whiteboy]

ANON ASK question

Sorry, Tumblr Mobile fucked up and posted it when I meant to save as draft

1: Name David 2: Age 19 3: 3 Fears dark, heights, someone staying in my life 4: 3 things I love Pugs Pandas Memes 5: 4 turns on Dimples, manors Eyes Booty 6: 4 turns off rudeness Controlling overlyobsessed egotistic 7: My best friend @rinkatai @aesthetichalestorm @bookerdewiit @pokemoncardinal and many more 8: Sexual orientation Male 9: My best first date Meeting her at wendys during her shift 10: How tall am I 6″2 11: What do I miss Being happy 12: What time were I born 4pm or 2am 13: Favorite color black 14: Do I have a crush Yes.. On someone I cant have 15: Favorite quote “I’m David and I’m a fucking piece of trash” - @awkward-whiteboy 16: Favorite place my mind. It’s dark, but I feel at home 17: Favorite food Potatoes breadsticks and chicken noodle soup 18: Do I use sarcasm Nope 19: What am I listening to right now People complain about  their exam grade 20: First thing I notice in new person Eyes 21: Shoe size 11.5 22: Eye color Hazel 23: Hair color Blackish brown 24: Favorite style of clothing Whatever I wear 25: Ever done a prank call? Nope 27: Meaning behind my URL I’m awkard white and a trash boy 28: Favorite movie Cure for Wellness 29: Favorite song Too many 30: Favorite band Too Many 31: How I feel right now Depress 32: Someone I love I rather not say publically, message me 1 on 1 33: My current relationship status ^^^ 34: My relationship with my parents Okay 35: Favorite holiday Leif Erkison 36: Tattoos and piercing i have None... YET 37: Tattoos and piercing i want? I got a guitar quote thingy I am saving to get 38: The reason I joined Tumblr Because I like pissing people off, and when I joined, straight, white, males were the most hated people on tumblr. 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? .... This is too dark to write about, plus someone is reading over my shoulder as I write this. (MESSAGE 1ON1 FOR MORE) 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Nope, dont remember really ever getting any 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Nope, wish I could 42: When did I last hold hands? Don’t remember 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? either 4 mins or 30 minutes 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? guys shave their legs? 45: Where am I right now? Michigan State University 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? No one probably 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Both, when im not at college 49: Am I excited for anything? Nope 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Sort of. I don’t share everything 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? All the damn time 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Don’t remember 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Happened before... just cry... again 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? ALOT OF PEOPLE 55: What is something I disliked about today? I have my hellhole class 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Living: Nikki Sixx Dead: Carl Sagen 57: What do I think about most? why people hate me 58: What’s my strangest talent? eating an ungodly amount of sour candy, and chugging lemon  juice really fast 59: Do I have any strange phobias? not really 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind. I’m ugly 61: What was the last lie I told? I’m okay 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chat, which ends up being no camera 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I take a class about this stuff. So I know way too much about this stuff 64: Do I believe in magic? ^^^ 65: Do I believe in luck? ^^^ 66: What’s the weather like right now? cold, and warm #puremichigan 67: What was the last book I’ve read? College textbook. (I really love it) 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? I think?  69: Do I have any nicknames? CHEF GODDAMNIT DAVID 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? broken toe, 71: Do I spend money or save it? both 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? nope 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? a girls jacket 74: Favorite animal? panda pug 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? crying and studying 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? ALLEN.................. 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? High Hopes 78: How can you win my heart? Be nice and show me pictures of pugs and have sour candy 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? “Goddamnit David” 80: What is my favorite word? FUCK and other words 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr I don’t really have favorites, I love all the people I reblog from and those that do the same to me :) 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Don’t listen to me 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Probably 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Invisibility and mind reading 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Who I love 86: What is my current desktop picture? a graveyard where a tombstone says “Here lies Davids hopes and dreams” 87: Had sex? Yee 88: Bought condoms? Yee 89: Gotten pregnant? NO 90: Failed a class? Currently I am xD 91: Kissed a boy? Nope 92: Kissed a girl? Yep, 6 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yes.. Bad memories of them 94: Had job? Legally.. No 95: Left the house without my wallet? Yep, just did yesterday 96: Bullied someone on the internet? Never bullied, furthest I went was being a bitch to a kid on an online game. kid said if his father hears one more swear word he is grounded, I said “Well you’re father sounds like a lil bitch” 97: Had sex in public? I plead the 5th 98: Played on a sports team? A long time ago 99: Smoked weed? Yes 100: Did drugs? 5th again 101: Smoked cigarettes?^^ 102: Drank alcohol? Yes, a long time ago 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Nope 104: Been overweight? Nope 105: Been underweight? EVERY DAMN DAY 106: Been to a wedding? Yes, at least 5 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Nope 109: Been outside my home country? Nope 110: Gotten my heart broken? way too many times. Do i have a heart stil? 111: Been to a professional sports game? Yep, a few 112: Broken a bone? Yes, pinky toe 113: Cut myself? I don’t know..

114: Been to prom? TOO MANY BAD MEMORIES.....

115: Been in airplane? Yes 116: Fly by helicopter? FTTTFTTTTTTTTTTT yes! 117: What concerts have I been to? Motley Crue 2x, Alice cooper 3x, Deep Purple, Edgar Winter Band, Iron Maiden, FFDP, Valraven, Wayland, StoneSour, Alter Bridge, and Skillet. Might go see Judas Priest in winter 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Nope 119: Learned another language? German, and a little Russian 120: Wore make up? Yes 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH yes 122: Had oral sex? Yes 123: Dyed my hair? Yep, I suck at it 124: Voted in a presidential election? Sadly 125: Rode in an ambulance? Nope 126: Had a surgery? Nope 127: Met someone famous? A few people 128: Stalked someone on a social network? Yes, for their protection. 129: Peed outside? Yea 130: Been fishing? Yep, I like it for the quiet 131: Helped with charity? Yes, Red cross and food banks 132: Been rejected by a crush? :’( Atleast 5 times 133: Broken a mirror? Nope 134: What do I want for birthday? someone who will understand me and not judge

Ask me stuff :3 (ask as anon though)

[survivor-rebelsvsroyals]

EPISODE 6:Sorry hosts and viewers but we're keeping the inactivish girl. -Ryan M

My new tribe kinda slaps? It’s just nice playing with people who have the fight to win. We fucking S L A Y E D Jeopardy. Ken Jennings who? It felt so good helping my tribe win. For this reward comp I’m a little worried because we have a good system but if someone doesn’t show up, we’ll all hit 5 and be screwed. Also poor Glo, she’s just out here doing her best. She’s cute, but I don’t want that to carry her to the end like it did in Mongolia.

Finally have my computer back, so I can start writing confessionals as I think about the game. It sucks that Chloe was voted out. She was definitely my #1 ally in the game, so seeing her leave just sucks. And now I am on a tribe with 4 Royals who would be happy to vote me out the second we get to tribal council. I doubt my social game will let me leave here alive if we go to tribal. Instead, I just have to make sure we don't go to tribal. I need to put in all my effort in the next immunity challenge lest I want to be in the VL watching the rest of this season.

* a little later*

I've been socially active with Seamus and Amanda today. I hope I can grow a tight bond with them in order to keep myself safe for tribals to come. Especially if I manage to get to merge with a tight three. I'm praying that things work out because I need this for my own sanity.

It’s truly like babysitting this tribe lmao Like I know this is reward but how fucking hard is it to post on time. I worked a 9 hour shift today and still posted on time when I said I would. We have the lead, like why squander it. Also, I’m hoping we win out to til merge because I really don’t want to go into a tribal at swap in the minority. I feel like I might be making myself a target bc I’m being a little aggressive with this comp BUT I regret nothing.

I feel like I’ve been too MIA I’m kind of just ready for a tribal so I can get a little blood on my hands! Sorry I am the most boring player ever I’ll post something juicy tomorrow

I'm glad that we won the reward challenge. It must be a good omen for the next one, but I have to put in twice as much effort! I'm not planning on being the next one booted, so this tribe needs to pull its weight and get to winning!

Well I don;t know if I am coming or going or who is with me and who is not. I was lost on reward challenge and posted few times but they all offered to help me lol So how is my game ok I guess but I feel lost in a wilderness cause I think lots of these players know each other very well and I am lost

I feel so bad for Chloe. I stopped talking to her after Seamus told me she was debating between voting for me or Amanda. I feel like we all felt like we liked Chloe but we've spent so much time together. And also maybe a pagoning or w/e would be a little fun!!!! She's so sweet I wish she started off a royal.

Well I just BOMBED that challenge.  I love to read but suddenly my mind went blank and I could only think of books with long titles! HAHA.  I majored in art in college for a year and suddenly I forgot every color in existence! Hopefully the other tribes blanked so we'll be safe. 0:-) If not... maybe the royals will stay together but no lie, I've been talking to John and Lachie more than Pippa and Ryan.

I'm happy two tribes are going to tribal. Because I really want to see them vote ugly people out!!! But also if we go to tribal nbd Raffy goes. He's completely okay! But I love Seamus and Amanda and I think I can also get Anabel to trust me come merge time. xo

I am praying to god all-mighty that we win

WE LITERALLY COULD'VE WON IF ANABEL DID EVEN HALF THE CHALLENGE!!!!! I was so down to get rid of Raffy... still could... I like Anabel. But... I already feel bad about voting out Chloe and this time it's like... obvi Ana deserves to be voted out... ugh 

I hope the 5 movies Glo could muster up in 60 seconds were all of the Twilight franchise movies

*Dan comes back ten minutes later*

Okay but real talk, 5 movies??? Glo you could only name 5 movies in 60 seconds? If she had done as well as Asya and gotten 28 we wouldn’t have gone to tribal. I really pray I can get Dane or Linus to team up with Asya and I. I mean if it comes down to it and I have to vote out Asya, I guess she better get those bags packed!

I am so pissed that we lost. We easily could have won this competition if Anabel had participated, but she's evidently bad at time management. If you knew you were going to be busy the next day, why wouldn't you do the challenge the night it was posted? I'm so over it! For once, I didn't want to have to go to tribal, but now I can't even have that. Not only that, but I'm pretty sure that I am the target since I am not a Royal which is utter bullshit. Hopefully my social game has paid off and I have bonded enough with these people, but I am not too sure about that. I'll just have to put it all my effort into saving myself, or my game is sunk. Pray for me.

* a little later*

I think I can get Seamus. He and I have talked a lot during the limited amount of time we've had together. I want to consider him an ally, but I'm not sure if he hasn't been doing this with everyone else. My target is going to be Anabel for three reasons: 1. She is a winner (literally won last season) which makes a threat going into merge 2. She singlehandedly lost us the challenge 3. I haven't personally talked to her a lot so she's the easiest to target for me I want to get everyone on board, but I need to not pester them. However, I cannot just let the vote casually go towards me either. I'm not going out without a fight

OK SO. glo sucks at challenges. like it’s real bad. which is good for me. cause linus is like he doesn’t have any allegiances or whatever to old arioi and just wants to succeed so like. let’s cut the dead weight. obviously dan is down and that’s all we need. i’d like to get dane on board too but it’s not necessary. like really, i just wanna keep my no vote streak. which means if dane and glo vote for a manahune, it’s dan and not me.

Seamus brought up Anabel's name to me which is a good sign. He also told me that I shouldn't worry about being the only Rebel, and he is open to keeping/working with me. I hope he's telling the truth. Apparently, he's only talked to me about the vote, so I am hoping that's a good sign. Now I need to approach Amanda and Ryan. If one just votes for Ryan, then I should be good.

*he talks a lot*

Amanda seems open, but reserved. She's acting noncommittal which is worrying for me. I have to speak with Ryan later and get him on board. Keeping this tribe together will help me going into a merge. I'm just hoping Amanda joins my side and not Anabel's, in the end. There is still time to save myself.

So tribal council is coming up soon and I legit have no idea what I'm doing. I'm pretty sure I'm going to get voted out tonight since I'm spreading myself too thin. I have a couple ideas going on through my head and I can't decipher which plan will be the best to project me moving forward. The first plan I have is to stay royal strong and vote out Asya. I have Glo and Linus as fellow Royals to make the majority. If I do successfully blindside Dan and Asya tonight then we have the majority going into the last pre-merge stage. However, Glo isn't the strongest in challenges and this could result in us going back to tribal council. If we do go back to tribal council then there is the chance that Dan can pull out an idol and take me out. If we don't even go to tribal then there's no chance of me rebuilding the burnt bridge with Dan prior to going to the merge, resulting in another person coming after me. Also continuing into merge, I imagine I'm at the bottom of the royals tribe. People can "like" me but that doesn't necessarily mean that they want to work with me. I'd be continuing this trend of saving people that don't want to work with me. The other plan in place is for Linus and I to team up with Dan and Asya to vote out Glo. If we are possibly merging after tonight then voting out Glo in my opinion is one of the smartest decisions. She is very well liked and she's a very loyal player, I don't think she will ever be targeted and it'll be an easy flow for her to get to the end of the game. Also, Linus was telling me that Anabel talks to Glo A LOT, and that lowkey just reinforces this idea that I created of an all-winners alliance existing. If we have another tribal stage I don't imagine that it will be a double trial again so getting rid of Glo (the weakest competitor on our tribe) might be the best decision for the tribe. Also with getting rid of Glo, this helps solidify some sort of allegiance with Dan + Asya. Going into the merge with Linus, Dan, Asya would open up so many doors. Dan and Asya are very close with the rest of the Rebels plus, Dan and Amanda are high school friends. I spoke to Dan and I think we'd possibly team up to take out Ryan M. Ryan M. always plays these games personally and votes out Dan, and now that him and I are not on great terms Ryan will target me. I explained that to Dan that neither of us would win with Ryan M. still in the game so we need to pull strength and get him out together. Plus we matched on Tinder one time so that'll help build some trust with Dan. Right now I think the benefits of voting out Glo outweighs voting out Asya so I think that's how we'll go. You can't predict the future but I can outweigh the pros and cons and keeping Dan + Asya on my side while pissing off the Royals majority might benefit me more than being a sheep led to slaughter

I lied to Raffy about not voting him... I mean he's not dumb he probably has a string inkling. I just feel bad . Like Anabel deserves to go home but I think she'll save me in the future. Plus she has beef with Lachie we can feed off of. I'm sorry Chloe and Im sorry Raffy. Sorry hosts and viewers but we're keeping the inactivish girl.

So Um the votes landed on Glo? Super easily? So I’m assuming I’m getting blindsided

I think I should be good for this tribal. Everyone has given me their word that they are voting Anabel, and Seamus seems trustworthy. I just hope my trust his well-placed.