#this account hasnt been around that long but i sure have

[xx-psych0-rabbit-xx]

Re: the zan post and her projection, i'd love to hear abt that one👀👀👀👀👀q

YEAH IVE BEEN WANTING TO TALK ABT THIS

so basically smth that becomes v notable looking through the in character tweets by zan regarding the other dream friends, is shes v competitive n has quite the ego abt herself:she can recognize n acknowledge others skills rly well but her conclusion is either "well im better (angry)" or "well im better (excited to beat them)", this gets taken to a new absurd when introducing adeleine, where she immediately starts talking abt how shes hiding behind her canvas like a child n therefore does not know ~the path of strength~ n can never beat a ~battle-hardened warrior like herself~, n then she proceeds to keep downplaying adeleine even when shes showing new skills n seems excited to fight her after noting ado n ribbon were dancing around like its showing her some kind of lesson.generally she seems to take anything she perceives as weak or cowardly rly personally

so i was thinking like.i feel theres smth to be said regarding her strength fixation? when you take her backstory of having attempted suicide at a young age into account? suicidal ppl often feel helpless n weak, specially when theyre again, v young, so i could def see this all started from her trying to cope w that through just becoming the strongest n most confident, specially when her role in the cult was hyness' choice, so hed likely be giving her a lot of positive attention from succeeding in combat, smth she seems to rly want (from one of her playable screens) bc she absolutely adores him n would consider his opinion n approval like holy words (kanji used in jp straight up implies she idolizes him n generally anything regarding her feelings on him is so extreme in the original text lol)

so her issue w adeleine is just.ados a weak child who hides a lot, which feels like looking at a mirror to her bc thats her spitting image of when she was like that, which zan absolutely despises bc she spent so long "fixing herself" from that n the only way she can rly process this is by projecting n thinking theres smth inherently wrong w adeleine so she keeps bringing it up n up n how much better she is until she.i dont know honestly i doubt shes going anywhere w this beyond trying to make herself feel better by deciding to fight her lol.iirc adeleine has a splash effect w some of her attacks which zan is extremely weak to bc shes literally kept alive by electricity so i doubt ados in any real danger of getting beaten up

which brings me to smth i wanted to bring up bc as always extremely amusing zan has this huge ego shes a super strong warrior when her boss fight is designed to have multiple oversights regarding safe spots or spots where shes vulnerable to attacks n in the jp pause screen its said she uses her speed to "toy" w her foes like shes so sure shes got this shes messing around for her own amusement n she throws a huge fit when she loses n blows up the station w the cults own allies inside n laughs at your face abt it.thats just so funny oh my god.shes not even as good as she claims n shes a violent sore loser abt it

oh n ig this makes her weakly calling to hyness for help when she loses the second fight hit even worse since shes so confident shes so strong but at this state shes resorting to believing hell save her again.thats lovely

tl dr zan partizanne wants to beat up a child bc like most kirby characters she has a weird ego but shes getting mentally ill abt it.idk sorry ado but hyness hasnt complimented her in like a week n shes getting unstable

[nervousbreadpuppy]

too scared to put this on any of my public accounts but i dislike israel because i am a jewish person.

barely held together stream of consciousness below.

first and foremost, genocide is wrong, no matter who commits it. there is no such thing as a justifiable genocide. this should be reason enough to not support israel.

but also, israel erases jewish culture. israel pretends it is jewish culture. which is not true.

i think most people are familiar with the fact that colonization destroys both the colonized culture and the colonizing culture, a la "white people have no culture". you claim parts of culture that are not your own, because everything is part of you. the point of colonization is to crush and absorb everything. and you distance yourself from your original culture to claim whats left.

i saw a video taken in israel, where people were asked what their favorite israeli foods were. answers ranged from israeli breakfast, to falafel, to, confusingly, empanadas. none of these answers, besides the breakfast, are israeli im origin, however the elements found in israeli breakfast are mostly typical in western culture.

the reason there is no such thing as an "israeli food" is because israel hasnt been around as a country long enough to create its own cuisine. israel had only been around for 75 years. so israeli food is mostly just food from the countries around israel. and western food.

but there is jewish food! i know this. ive grown up around this! latkes, challah, hamantaschen. even foods not exclusively jewish were made and popularized by Jewish immigrants, like brisket and fish and chips.

the insistence on "israeli" rather than jewish is based on the need to legitimize israel. which makes it even more heartbreaking that israel is seen as the end all be all of judaism.

modern hebrew was invented only at the end of the 19th century and yet it is one of the national languages of israel. yiddish is being spoken by less and less people.

jewish culture is erased by israel.

another reason is the idea of separatism that is used to justify israel.

honestly, separatism just does the oppressors work for them. "oh lets just move all the Jews to their own country so we dont have to deal with them" very progressive isnt it? especially when theres already other people living there.

simply moving somewhere else does absolutely nothing to combat antisemitism. i dont want to live in a world that isn't safe for me. i dont want to stay in one place. i want others to accept me. i want to exist wherever i want without being targeted just for existing.

the end goal should never be separation. it should be integration.

and lastly i hate the fact that jews are expected to support israel unconditionally. not even just by antisemites, but by other jews.

almost every jewish space i have access to in my real life supports israel. if i want to have any community i have to condone that. if i even say anything i am excluded from the only communities i have in real life. and that sucks.

judaism is about asking questions. its about critical thinking. so why is this the one topic we're not allowed to ask questions about? why is this the one topic we have to accept unconditionally?

i get it. we're exposed to antisemitism a lot. I've been relatively priviliged in my life. i live an area with a large jewish population and i am not very visibly jewish. i have not had to deal with a lot of antisemitism. i admit that.

but israel does not represent all jews. criticizing israel is not criticizing judaism.

anyways if you made it this far im sure you have the time to donate to one of the many palestinian fundraisers going around on this app.

also friendly reminder that i am not an expert and my opinion is not everything. i am just a person on the internet. block me about it if you need to.

[jacksgreysays]

Omg thank you for the innsights!!! I also find Naruto hard to write and I personally find him very annoying lmao. Bleak!primadonna au is amazing because it builds on the last big conversation shikako and naruto have before he leaves, in the land of birds, where shikako tells him to find a better solution then years later in a similar situation (avenging a twin!!!) he can’t. We all know that if shikamaru is not okay, shikako is also not okay. And if shikamaru died shikako would burn the world for him. Also this is your ‘verse, but i headcannon that after the war the twins find a bit more balance in their relationship (not amazing but not a cold war either) and without shikamaru, even if she hasnt needed him to orient her in this world for a long time, post canon without him she just loses her need/will the be a ninja. Nothing matter anymore. She has been close to breaking for a long time already in canon and i just think she was closer to breaking as a person than everyone realized. Also i think tsunade would find it naruto is the one who mismanaged his ninja and deprived konoha of it’s seal master and jonin commander in the same move. Like i think she would totally ask him if losing shikako, purely as a resource (sensor, seal mistress, political, reputation, former anbu) is worth the slight to his morals? Like to tsunades reign she was probably one of her most valuable resources and the loss of such a resource is not to be taken lightly. But she 100% thinks shikako was rash and foolish, but thinks naruto should have had the foresight and known shikako better.

Also i headcanon that shikako resigned from anbu under kakashi, so she never swore absolute loyalty to naruto, which i think would be a very interesting dynamic, especially if he tries to use the tattoo function to (like the hyuga main line!!!!!!!!) to remind her of her vows and his orders and will and then she just turns around and reminds him she was never anbu under his command. (Like i don’t know if this is in character for naruto at this stage of his life, but naruto loves to remind people of their responsibilities and doing the right thing so???). Ahhh delicious delicious conflict!! (Hope i didn’t step on your toes or anything, i am like 99.9% sure i will never write anything in any form for this so it’s all up for editing/interpreting/ignoring) i love this verse and your writing thank you so much <3

Hi again, anon! Let's keep this bleak!primadonna AU brain rot party going! :D

Because, oh my god, I agree so much.

Naruto is hard to write! Or, well, he’s hard to write in such a way where his naivety/stubborness is charming/endearing instead of annoying/ridiculous :( I think SQ does thread that needle pretty well in DoS, but I think there’s also a reason why Sasuke has more “screen time” than Naruto even if you take into account the whole “Naruto is traveling with Jiraiya and Sasuke didn’t defect.” Even in the fandom, there’s more fanfic with Sasuke than Naruto because he’s just so difficult to write him well! He is a moral compass in a fandom that loves nuance, RIP.

I also think that the twins find a better balance in their relationship, especially because so much of Shikako’s secret keeping was because she wanted to keep Shikamaru safe from the incoming S-rank threats. Now that the war is over, no more S-rank threats (theoretically) and so significantly less secrets that need to be kept from Shikamaru. (She does still keep secrets, because I think that’s just how she functions, but a lot less than before.) But yes, definitely for her to be so blindsided by his assassination and then being denied her right to avenge him IS so final straw for her that she would just snap. Like I said before, it almost would have been understandable to her if their dad had been the one assassinated or, at least, Shikamaru would have been alive to slow down Shikako’s immediate, brutal revenge, but for her to lose Shikamaru after EVERYTHING they’ve been through? Like if it were the Akatsuki or something, then she’d almost understand it—or, at least, it would be justified for her to take out that level of S-rank threat. But some weird political bullshit trying to get Temari to go back to Sand, and then when Kankurou sends the councilors over as weregild, Naruto DENIES her that justified revenge? WHAT?! HOW DARE HE? It truly would be a betrayal to Shikako that Naruto would hold his own moral opinions above the Nara clan’s political/legal right to mete out whatever punishment they choose for the Sand councilors that killed their heir.

And yeah, Tsuande definitely thinks Naruto made the first mistake. Shikako reacted extremely to it, which was a mistake as well, but the FIRST mistake was definitely on Naruto for that reason.

I love the headcanon that Shikako resigned from ANBU under Kakashi—less because of the “oath to the Hokage” thing, but more because of a matter of timing? Because the reason why she even joined ANBU in the first place is because of her rapid promotions and also the fact that her (and Sasuke’s) reputation(s) were growing much faster than their skill. They needed to be able to gain experience without having a major target on their backs while also leveling up skill-wise enough to match their reputations. So by the time Naruto would have been Hokage, there’s no need for that subterfuge anymore. Shikako’s time better serves Konoha by being open about her movements/missions/abilities. I see it a lot in Kakashi-centric fic, but the idea that after the Uchiha Massacre in particular, they really flaunted Kakashi’s reputation around as a sort of “see we still have a Sharingan and it’s sooooo powerful, woooow” kind of thing to the point that they wouldn’t even let him do ANBU missions anymore because they needed him doing missions under the Sharingan no Kakashi PR as opposed to the (semi-)anonymous ANBU Hound.

Like. If Naruto is to a level of being Hokage, then Shikako (who in all practicality, is the better Hokage candidate) is similarly such an overt S-rank nin that being in ANBU would, if anything, hinder her abilities since she’d have to anonymize her skills.

I also don’t know if Naruto would try to use the tattoo function in that way—although, that would absolutely be such a… hm… not dark arc, per se, but a “you have crossed a line and we can never go back to what we were” sort of thing. Like in a desperation to just get her to listen he tries it and it doesn’t work but that fact that he even tried it. I don’t think it does torture/pain like the Caged Bird Seal, but it probably does a “pay attention to me” type of thing. Like if the Hokage needs to signal their ANBU guards without being too obvious about it kind of thing. So it’s more of a “hey, listen, I’m about to drop a secret mission on you” than a “you must submit to my will or else” but I think it is the chakra equivalent of grabbing someone’s arm when you’re in the middle of an argument which is sort of like escalating from words into potential violence. Especially if the argument started as Shikako to Naruto, former teammates and childhood friends, both feeling betrayed by each other and mourning Shikamaru but then Naruto trying to use the ANBU tattoo to make her listen to his side suddenly brings in his Hokage status and how legally he can do whatever he wants—it is a military dictatorship, after all, “peace” or no—but then it also highlights the whole issue of this bleak!primadonna AU which is that, legal or no, Shikako literally can do whatever she wants due to her power and ingenuity.

Oh, the Hokage says these people are going to jail instead of receiving the capital punishment? What, is he going to protect them personally 24 hours a day for the rest of their lives? And so what if he does? Shikako’s far sneakier than that. What obstacle has Shikako ever been up against that she couldn’t solve eventually? And it’s so easy for her to do harm, she often has to actively curb her more harmful ideas, it’s so much harder for Naruto to enforce his incorrect decision than it is for Shikako to enact hers. Which, again, the whole issue of this AU.

Anyway, anon, I really appreciate your enthusiasm for this weird AU I made. It makes me so happy that other people are thinking about it as often as I do :D

[thisisyourprincipalspeaking]

You know the whole being single for too long and not married talk falls back on Chris and his team if that was the push for this weirdness. They literally used him wanting to be a family man as PR during Marvels days. Like its been said numerous times they made his personal life part of his PR image which is probably the biggest mistake. It doesn't make sense. If him and his team thought he needed a certain image to get good roles then they're dumb and not good at their jobs. How many A-list men have been dating around or single but gotten serious good movies. The biggest example being Leo, the man has never been married, never dates women his own age, has had numerous girlfriends over the years yet he literally gets the best roles, works with the biggest directors, and is a box office success. It's because he didn't rely on his personal life and nor did he care about what the media says about him, and he never talks about his personal life even if everyone around him is, There's always articles written about his age gap relationships and he gets comments from the public but he hasnt changed to look wholesome or like a family man.

Other than a few media publications no one gave a shit about Chris being single for too long or dating around. That was something him and his team brought attention to with saying things like he wants a wife and kids, a wife to take care of, wants to carve pumpkins, etc. Yes celebrities do use their personal life as PR but they also have other things to offer in terms of PR. For Chris it was calling out Trump and the good guy/family man image thats pretty much it, and both backfired on him because they took it over the top to the point he couldn't live up to it because thats truly not, 100% who he is. Sure he could have those interests and qualities but he also loved to party taking his past partying proof into account, going out, getting high, being a bro, loves sports, Marvel PR made him into the wholesome, being a homebody, dog lovin guy. Before Marvel and even in the early years of Marvel he went out a lot and partied a lot. I think that is one of the reasons why he moved back to MA, because he could get away with a lot of things there that would otherwise be all over entertainment news in LA.

This whole RL cap and family guy image was going to be hard on anyone since not many people are actually like that. In his own words his first time voting was in 2016, so he isn't someone who had vast experience or understanding in politics but because of Trump. He called out Trump, people started associating him with real life cap and making him trend, him and his team used that to their advantage but then he goes on associating with racists, pulls back from actively calling out more politicians as if they weren't anymore trump like leaders left and people don't care anymore about his website or his thoughts.

If him and his team based all these recent actions on wanting a career change and better offers then theyre furthering the mistake they made years ago. Theyre still using his personal life as PR instead of just having him prefect his craft and go out for better roles. I can guarantee you audiences don't give a crap about an actor's personal life unless it's something major like racism, sexual assault, things in that nature. Most people arent wasting over $30 on a trip to the movies because of an actors personal relationship status. no production company/house or directors do not care about an actor's personal life otherwise many actors wouldn't have jobs of that were the case.

you make some good points but i think many times we forget that these types of stunts, whether they be based in a celeb's real-life situation or entirely fabricated just like a film role, are not necessarily constructed for advancing the image a celeb has with his/her fans. even their public image to the gp isn't a big concern in my opinion. these things (i think) are drummed up to increase analytics and to appeal to film executives.

[abbysratking]

I’m rereading “i can't escape, or so it seems (i'd run away, shes in my dreams)”, and I can’t help but wonder what an au version of this would be where Abby is the one who remembers and not Ellie

Thats my favourite of the fics I've written on this account, so I can tell you I've thought about the same thing a Lot, so beware the long post!

My headcanon goes one of a few ways, but my first thought is that Abby would be so startled that she would stay in soldier survival mode and leave as normal, and have to track Ellie down later. Then its a back in Jackson AU, where Dina would probably factor in a lot since Ellie would be floating around trying to fix them. Lev would probably be a bigger part of it too, since I think he would get on great with Ellie and soften her up a bit while Abby is having a horrible time reckoning with what to do and getting more and more visions. Abby also likely wouldnt have as much faith in the visions as Ellie, since she hasnt (as) recently completely torpedoed her life with her own actions, and has a kid to look out for, but shes too curious to do nothing so i can see her sending Lev on a lot of 'talk to ellie and find out what shes like' missions. Eventually they would end up in a bad situation, Abby risks herself to keep Ellie safe, and Ellie - maybe after being rejected by Dina for the millionth time, because Dina deserves better - is so confused that she starts fixating and it goes from there.

My second idea is that Abby would pick Ellie up by her scruff from the sea and try to keep her alive by force until she can figure out what to do. Ellie would be a lot harder to romance in this AU, but shes been broken down enough by that stage that I'm sure they could form a perfectly terrible relationship from there! But yeah something about Abby being very devoted to fully feral Ellie who kinda hates her does call to me. Basically it would probably be a lot more fighting.

Thanks for the ask Anon! So glad you like that fic, I love putting the girls in some Situations ❤️

[someone-called-efg]

before this happens again i decided to draw what i saw and experienced a little over a month ago so incase anyone has anything similar theyre not alone at least, and if its some kinda 'only me' thing, than at least it's documented.

i dont really know what kinda tw to put for this, but assume anything given its about a near death experience

so, back just before valentine's day, a demon somehow ended up in my bedroom. me, wanting to prove im not a coward, did exactly that, and firmly declared my beliefs in the being who created all (for the sake of the post im gonna call said entity god) and its not a lie, even from a young age ive been a strong believer even to the point of getting in trouble for it (i.e. getting in trouble for calling out hypocrisy and trying to do something about it despite being the only one to try) and while my faith has had a lapse when i was a teen, it since got resparked. so, adamantly that the idea of having no faith seems bazar to me.

so, all this to say, when the demon was in my room, it knew i wouldnt give up my faith.

however, one thing ive said on occasion to family is that i dont fear death, and thats still true to an extent. sure, ive had near death experiences before, but ive always been of the opinion that as long as youre right with god than you have no reason to fear dying. and imo that just means not being an asshole.

so, the demon found out i genuinely dont have any fear of death or dying and decided to try to call a bluff that wasnt even there. so, with all its might, it killed me

this is roughly what i believe it looked like, as it gave off this sense of dread i ccouldnt really shake off when in its presence. (yes, the stick figure is meant to be me for size comparison) everything else beside the thousands of mouths was a void. the mouths glowed an inviting white, but as you see, when i got closer, it lead to a void like pit that was its true mouth, rows upon rows of pointed teeth jutting to the center that only got darker and darker the closer i looked.

then, something happened in my mind that even i cant put into words, because quite frankly, even i dont understand what happened in between everything

then everything went from being in a dark void, to this

an angel came and was so bright i only know its this kind because how many eyes were there. i had to convince the angel that i would be able to cope with being alive after that day, and i was allowed to come back on account that i see a priest and a therapist. (and something i thought was strange to mention that: if you bleed on something, you yourself have to burn it) another part of the agreement was that i post on my socials about the encounter, and while i had done that previously, i figured making as comprehensible of a post as possible now that ive had a bit of time to process it all would be a good idea

so as you can all tell, this it getting very triggering for me.

the week or so that followed that night could be comparable to a personal hell, as any time i wasnt around any human, i would be tormented by the demon in ways that i cant even mention out of fear of t.o.s. as they tried as much as possible to keep me in my room as if to keep me hostage

until one day when i broke down to my mom

she got me holy water from the church and i proceeded to sprinkle it all over while praying as best i could

but since that night ive felt like the worst hypocrite of them all. since i was little i had wished to die, in fact, as a child i had no intention of making it to my double digits, and yet, here i am. and when i was nearly out the door, for some reason i decided to stay.

anyways, even though i went around with holy water and prayer, my bedroom hasnt felt safe, and ive been sleeping in the living room since. because being without privacy means no personal hell. so i see it as a win in my books.

throughout all this, ive seen my faith as this small campfire, and any attack against my faith as gusts of wind that i keep having to protect the flame from so it doesn't get blown out.

[multinumbnessx]

BACK TO USING THIS AS MY DIARY

basically, i have been really slacking lately. the past few days have been going better. i have been a functioning human being, taking care of my shit and being responsible and present in my life and my duties. which always makes me feel better about myself. but that hasnt been the case for the weeks prior to this. some days are better, some days i just want to disappear and stop being myself. 

i can usually tell when something is going south as soon as i start doubting myself and everything i do. its really hard to stay present and cheerful and hopeful when i feel like i have been lying to everyone around me for the last year. my relationship with food is like, fucked up to the point of no return, and i am constantly lying and deceiving my parents and friends to keep up the facade. i am not ready whatsoever to recover and start being normal. that is not an option right now. BUT, i am ready to feel less neurotic. more like a human being, more normal. 

so, i will use this space to share these thoughts. i still want to look a certain way, that i dont know is the healthiest but i know makes me feel great. in about two weeks i can get there, and maintain it. looking forward to it, to be honest. i hope i dont fuck up again in a very long time, and i hope i can keep myself accountable. right now, i have to finish a project for school and i will wrack my brain for ideas on possible projects for the magazine this month. tomorrow i will start working on the exams i have coming up, and hopefully, i can keep myself on track for this month. life can be fun when you know when and how to have fun and where to put your energy. what is woth it, and what isnt. a lot of stuff is going on in my peripheral, but i have a set goal, and i can get there with will power and the right mindset. i cant wait to meet myself at the end of this. hopefully feeling less lonely and insane (or just the right amount of insane).

there is a light inside of me. i can get it to shine brighter, i know it. 

it is the anniversary of my granddad’s death, and a weird day all around. another one of many to come. i will still be myself through it all, that is all that is for sure.

[diskodeaky]

soft asks!

tagged by @deacytits — hey it’s me @dont-touch-my-satan 😎

rules: answer the soft qs and tag 5 of your most recent followers and 3 of your biggest fans, fave blog/users

1. what’s the smell of your shampoo?

argan oil and lavender

2. what’s your aesthetic?

kind of a hodgepodge of many things—old books, flowers, pretty pictures of the sky

3. what’s your favourite time of day?

definitely twilight, i just think it’s so beautiful to see the end of a sunset and a few stars peeking out too

4. what do you like most about the beach?

probably all the good memories i have when i go there. when i’m at the beach i always think of when me and my cousins were little and we used to travel down to the outer banks to visit our grandparents during the summer!

5. what do you worry about constantly?

whether or not i’ll be happy and successful in the future

6. what is a song you’ve cried to before?

“atlas: two” by sleeping at last

7. what are some relaxing tips for your followers?

focus on your breathing, drink some water, read a book, get those emotions out of your system (talk to someone, write them down, etc.)

8. what are some things that make you tear up?

seeing other people in pain or distress, especially if i’m unable to help them

9. what is your favourite from each of the five senses?

sound, 100%! partly bc i love music (listening to it and playing it!) but also bc i find it fascinating to listen to people speak? like different dialects and vocal tics and speaking patterns are just really cool to me

10. what is one alternative reality you’d want to be in?

probably one with telekinesis or telepathy, the thought of being able to control things with my mind is pretty cool lol

11. what are some troubles you face on a day to day basis?

the standard issues that come with anxiety and ADD

12. what is one scene of a book that made you really sad?

dumbledore’s death in HP! when i was first reading the series i had NO idea what happened and i remember when i read that section of the book just sobbing

13. say something to all of your followers

i love and appreciate you all very much!! plz don’t be afraid to send me asks or messages, i love them

fave users/blogs: @take-me-to-the-dreamers-ball, @im-inlovewithmycar, @queenbrianmay

new followers (bOLD of you to assume i have five lol, relatively new account heyooo): @excusememecouldyoupleaseleave, @freakydeaky71, @hurricane-rogerina, @dancindeaky

[purpletyrant]

re: kittys imaginary sburb session

or, "this mspfa has been tagged as 'nonsburb' for years, these are all the scraps youre getting so let me just overexplain them now in a post that would be better suited for patreon if a KITTYQUEST patreon was something i was remotely interested in maintaining"

now, i know what youre thinking: didnt KITTYQUEST just get its climactic upd8 featuring major character death and a huge mood shift? shouldnt you be talking about that??

well, sure, maybe ill do that someday in the hypothetical KITTYQUEST retrospective video i have floating around in my head. it took long enough to finish - two and a half months, that is. but this panel alone required me to take a ton of personality quizzes while roleplaying as each one of kittys friends, so god damn it im going to analyze all of this right now. read below the cut to learn all about how kitty and her friends (and cousin) would disastrously fail in a doomed sburb session that was never meant to happen

in the most recent upd8, kitty explores the shell of a dream bubble that hasnt been taken in by the black hole yet. this black hole is the one caused by the collapse of the green sun, with lord english at its center. the black hole is devouring everything, as ramona? explains, including the furthest ring, every universe created by sburbs many sessions, and the entirety of paradox space. its an awfully long process, and kittys earth c that we know and love isnt in any imminent danger, but ramona? indicates that many alternative timelines are meeting their end as we speak. in the epilogues, the black hole deposits its garbage onto earth c. in KITTYQUEST, we know as much about where the black hole ends as we do in real life. personally, i view it more as like a Big Crunch. the opposite of the Big Bang, where quadrillions of years from now the last atom of the last molecule will be erased. take from that what you will - KITTYQUEST has never been a story that is interested in grand cosmic abstract ideas. its priorities are much more pedestrian and intimate. who cares about the ultimate fate of the universe when these middle schoolers over here are feeling kinda sad?

ramona? is the vergil to kittys dante, taking her on a journey through hell as kitty processes the traumatic deaths of her parents. a dream bubhell, if you will, the contents of this dream bubble merge the familiar with the imaginary. we see pieces of scenes we recognize from homestuck, but new scenes are introduced as well. most notably is the land kitty wakes up in - the Land of Unicorns and Fractals, a vaporwave dreamscape torn straight from her sburban account. someone once asked why kittys planet isnt a land of Frogs since shes a self-assigned Space player. well, sburban is an mmo. thousands of players cooperate in a massive medium, so not every Space player needs a Forge. but really, this was foreshadowing that kitty is pretending to be a Space player. she wants to be a Rogue of Space because it makes her feel more equal to her parents. but she isnt one, and the name of her land gives it away very early. in addition to LOUAF, we see illusions of ramonas planet, the Land of Wax and Altars, and the lands and god tier forms of her ghostly friends. neither kitty nor ramona? react to these illusions, suggesting that only we the viewer can see them. like ramona?, the reality of them is nebulous. its more likely that they are not real ghosts, but illusions created by the somehow still-functioning mechanics of the dream bubble. like memories of lusii and loving parents, these projections are not real. or perhaps they used to be real - and they are remnants of an alternative timeline doomed from the start

kitty will never play sburb, and she isnt meant to. sburb will only be played on earth c once, by caliborn a billion years from now. anything else goes against the continuity established by homestuck. as such, a session played by these kids will never succeed. but what if the cult of the witch planned better? what if they werent all bark and no bite? what if kitty was thrust into sburb properly, and what if the cult cared enough about her friends and family to ensure she had other players? this is the result we would get. lets take a closer look

Nat Eglish | Sylph of Space | Prospit Land of Dust and Frogs Denizen: Echidna

yeah you heard me right, nat stole kanayas classpect right out from under her. what gives, isnt her family historically tied to the heir of breath? well, take it up with the quizzes that diagnosed her with kanaya disease. i dont know how to classpect, you want me to do it MYSELF? get real. besides, it figures that someone linked to june through her ancestor would be a space player

nat is a go-getter, her mix of interest in both STEM and the arts makes her a formidable student and an excellent sburb player. shes the perfect candidate for the frog breeding task, because even though its a little more organic than the science shes used to, shes great at planning things out and being organized about it. LODAF is a planet originally covered in desert. its frogs are in a fossilized/mummified state. the LODAF we see in this upd8 has been overtaken with ocean and lilypads, indicating that she was successful in terraforming her planet and initiating the frog breeding process. great job nat, we never doubted you for a second. i wonder what her interaction with echidna was like? nat is a pretty easy going individual who steers clear of drama, so maybe she and her denizen were able to strike a deal. why kill a giant snake when you can work together?

nat spends a lot of her early session trying to spur her friends into action. as we will come to find out, the welfare of the other planets is directly tied to her own. so nat is tasked with being the one in the group project who reminds everyone to do their own parts of the assignment. this is hard for nat because she is so laidback by nature. being pushy isnt her thing - she likes to be perceived as cool headed. if her friends dont get it together, nat will risk having to crack her knuckles and start laying down the law

as a space player, her helper is the knight in the session, who loves to be helpful more than anything else. you know him, you love him, its....

Nornsa Moirai | Knight of Life | Prospit Land of Bleach and Coral Denizen: Charybdis

have you ever met a girl more suited to be a knight than nornsa? as the knight of life, nornsa is the unofficial/official sidekick of nat as she runs around turning frogs into slime. he may not be a time player, but he tries his best

much of nornsas performance in sburb is going to depend on whether his family comes with him. hes fiercely protective of his twin sisters, and raises them perhaps more than their perpetually busy father does. if all three come with him, nornsa will likely be too distracted with ensuring their welfare to properly undertake the duties required of him. keeping them safe competes with killing underlings, completing his planets quest, and helping out nat. he would no doubt be stretched to his breaking point. on the other hand, being separated from them isnt much better. though he isnt being held back by the needs of his family, nornsa centers his identify around his ability to help other people, especially his family. the crushing guilt of leaving them behind - perhaps to certain doom - prevents him from performing at 100%. he may fail to live up to his friends expectations, prompting a similar nervous breakdown. there arent many sunny sburb outcomes for nornsa as someone who doesnt live for himself, and this is reflected by his planet

LOBAC is a dead planet covered in bleached coral. nornsas task is to revitalize it for the consorts, who will surely die if the reefs are not restored. moreover, the water from this rejuvenated planet will be necessary in terraforming LODAF, so nat relies on nornsa to complete his quest to complete her own. nornsas planet in this upd8 is restored to full color, which is natural since nats planet is also in full health. the process of revitalizing LOBAC likely involves themes of making sacrifices and being selfish. in other words, nornsa has to make some tough choices to make himself happy. he has to learn how to prioritize what he needs instead of conflating his sense of worth with what he can do for others. ironically, though, once he makes this breakthrough and finishes his quest, his success immediately benefits nat rather than just himself

Capable Greenhorn | Rogue of Light | Derse (you heard me) Land of Chess and Towers Denizen: n/a, later revealed to be Cetus

cg is a slippery creature who defies me whenever i try to get a good idea of who they are. first a hope player (buzzer error noise) and then a mind player, cg finally settled on being a light guy, which i think suits them. cg keeps their cards close to their chest. as a resident of a chessling dormitory, they know how to live communally. they certainly enjoy their alone time, but they are more familiar with being part of a unit rather than an individual. this is all to say that cg is a great sburb hopeful, studious, team-oriented, observant, and slow to act if they arent certain what path to take. theyre very deliberate, and in a sburb session i think theyre easily the brains of the operation. the problem is that theyre... well, a carapacian!

how does sburb deal with a player whos a member of its designated npc species? is it capable of treating that carapacian as an autonomous being? it appears as though it cannot, because LOCAT is a mishmash of skaia, prospit, and derse. little of cgs actual personality shines through, which im sure is frustrating for them. cg is not a person who often experiences the spotlight or special recognition, and being shunted to the side by sburb is demoralizing to them. the only pro to this situation is that LOCAT is able to serve as a teleportation/save point for cg and their fellow players. from the towers rising from its chessboard, players can easily move around without needing to go to sleep or use sburbs other portals. this is perhaps how the water from LOBAC was able to be transferred to LODAF

cgs sburb journey involves finding out who they are as an individual. being cut off from their dormitory siblings is like losing a limb or one of their senses. not only that, but theyre also a derse dreamer - despite being a prospitian. dreaming is dangerous and scary for them, and they have trouble coping with the old carapacian culture that rules the dreaming moons. they dont belong anywhere - prospit will not accept them, derse even less so, and their friends just dont understand. often sleep deprived from the danger of sleeping (i think its also highly likely their dream self would be assassinated), cg struggles to complete their planets quest. at the end though, cg will be delighted to receive the quests reward. LOCATs chessboard will overturn to reveal its true form - a planet that actually reflects who cg understands themself to be. just as carapacians will change their name to signify a new stage of their life, LOCAT will bear a new name as well - the Land of Cathedrals and Turrets

Malibu Tempra | Thief of Heart | Derse Land of Tech and Smog Denizen: Lamia

even before malibu got diagnosed with thief disorder, i knew it was coming. just as nornsa is a knight through and through, malibu cannot beat the thief allegations. she also cant escape being a heart player. trust me, i tried to make someone in this cast be a time player. she just wasnt having it, so i let her be whatever she wants

malibus land is riddled with neon segmented lines reminiscent of a motherboard. its bisected by a neon seam that keeps it together, and at its south pole is a giant mechanism coughing up smog in the colors of malibus psiionics, giving it the appearance of a giant spherical spaceship. its a cyberpunk nightmare, dystopian and colorful and loud. being held back by something loud and colorful is nothing new to malibu, as someone who has a strained relationship with her high-maintenance lusus. malibu is a lot of things. shes edgy and brash and quick to anger, but shes also quite sensitive. she hates feeling forgetten or useless, leading her to put too many eggs in her basket sometimes. this is the same girl who wants to go to both fashion school and a batterization academy - lets pick our battles, malibu. though shes whip-smart and fearless, shes easily discouraged. accomplishing her planets quest will be difficult for her, should she choose to see it through at all. 50/50 on whether she attempts it just because everybody else is doing theirs and she wants to fit in, or ignores it in favor of leveling up and getting that tiger (do the kids in the fandom these days know about 'got tiger'?)

her quest, should she choose to accept it, is clearing the pollution from the pipes in the planets center. like the bleached coral threatening nornsas land, the smog that gives LOTAS its name is a potential killer. previously, i suggested that LOCAT is the planet that helps water flow from LOBAC to LODAF. i think its just as likely that the mechanisms running through LOTAS allow for the same action. the planet itself may have to move across the medium to deliver water to LODAF, and a smog-coughing pollution-riddled land is no good at this task. if this is the case, malibu will have no choice but to put aside her own rash desires and put some serious thought into solving her quest. if not, nornsa and nat can always pass the ocean between their planets bucket by bucket through the towers on LOCAT

our next two players need no introduction. lets start with:

Ramona Flamel | Seer of Hope | Derse Land of Wax and Altars Denizen: Medusa

engulfing ramonas planet is a sea of hot, red wax. it would be more evocative of blood if ramona were human, but nonetheless it evokes a gloom all the same. from pockets in the wax, great columns of smoke rise in a haze that covers the planet. the experience of being on LOWAA is like walking into a church that has been burning too much incense. its consorts are in perpetual mourning - when ramona arrives in the medium, the flame at the heart of her land has been extinguished. the rising smoke from the sea tells us much the same, and LOWAA is at risk of hardening over if ramona cannot reignite the flame. the sea will solidify, and the consorts way of life will be forever altered. you could say this planet is experiencing a flame-L. anyway,

even if ramona didnt have enough mommy issues to level a city block, there is still the looming problem of her chronic illness. TPP is the specter that haunts every aspect of her daily life, and ramona is well aware that on alternia, she would meet a swift and early death because of it. remaining in a state of physiological stagnation is her reality for many years, a neverending nightmare of being trapped in a body that she cannot use to communicate her needs or defend herself. her majority human family cannot understand her, merely chalking up her many medically-excused absences from events as unfortunate but expected. her quest on LOWAA will force ramona to grapple with the trauma she has endured throughout her life due to TPP. living on borrowed time is a major theme of her session. the idea of achieving god tier and potentially curing herself intrigues her, especially since she has a limited amount of her medication left. but this goal competes with the time-sensitive task of reigniting the flame at LOWAAs center. save herself, or save the consorts? or could she save both? her abilities as a seer of hope will certainly aid her, but ultimately ramona will have to do the unthinkable to complete both of these tasks at once: she will have to ask for help. what the fuck, am i right? is that allowed?

i quite like the idea of all the lands in this session interacting with one another. if ramona succeeds in lighting the flame and saving her planet, perhaps the heat will be key to clearing the smog from LOTAS. what do i know? maybe thats how pollution works in sburb. perhaps the cause of the smog is the smoky breath of malibus denizen, lamia, who is curled up inside the center of the planet. the flame would be a great way to scare her off and clear out the pipes

and finally, the girl of the hour,

Kitty Harley-Leider | Mage of Rage | Prospit Land of Unicorns and Fractals Denizen: Chimera

many old homestuck analyses will point out that the lands of the beta kids are seemingly opposite to how the kids outwardly present themselves. im not sure if i 100% buy this, but kittys land definitely breaks this rule. LOUAF is a perfect depiction of how kitty presents herself in the beginning of KITTYQUEST. cutesy and loveable and pastel, this planet is covered in cotton candy clouds (literally, i used cotton candy as an overlay for this lands clouds) and is populated by starry unicorns and alicorns. these creatures play a similar role to the angels on eridans land - they are not consorts, but something else entirely

i dont have to tell you that kitty is... kind of a mean girl. how aware she is of this fact is up for debate, but kittys saccharine facade that she puts on for her doting family is just that - a facade. kitty is not a bad person by any stretch of the imagination, but she has lived a very privileged life. she is denied nothing, doted upon by all who know her, and has been fed the narrative that she is special and precious. i am not entirely sure the extent to which kitty uses her latent rage powers to her advantage when it comes to manipulating her loved ones - or if shes even aware shes doing it - but regardless, kitty is a girl who knows how to keep an act going. whether its pretending to her school friends that shes a normal kid like them, or pretending to her family (sans ramona) that she is a perfectly innocent "CINNAMON ROLL," shes no stranger to the idea that looks can be deceiving. the same is true for LOUAF

kitty will find out the hard way that the uni/alicorns of LOUAF are plaguing it. theyre mean to the bone - they bite, they buck, they kick, and theyve chased the consorts out to sea. she doesnt want to consider that something so pretty could be so dangerous, shes got a unicorn on her shirt for godssake. but despite how bright and colorful LOUAF is, its arid and desolate. the unicorns have eaten all the vegetation, and the land has become a desert. the remaining life is below the sea, where the consorts have grudgingly adapted. the activity underwater produces fractals across the waters surface, giving the land its crystalline appearance. even so, the unicorns are getting antsy with a dwindling food supply, and may take to plucking the consorts out of the sea to eat. kittys quest (heehaw) will be to accept the nature of the darling creatures she loves so much, reclaiming LOUAF for the consorts and earning the approval of the denizen. the consorts, once they repopulate their old home, will thank kitty by giving her the solution to ramonas quest: the remains of the unicorns can be used to stoke the flame in her planet. something something magic something something miracles. the consorts of LOUAF are satisfied knowing theyre helping the consorts of LOWAA, whose lives are also being threatened in a different way

so we can see that all the lands are tied together:

unicorn infestation on LOUAF is exterminated > flame on LOWAA is rekindled > smog on LOTAS is cleared > LOTAS can be used as vessel to carry water from LOBAC to LODAF > LODAF is restored and frog breeding can begin. and LOCAT is the save point and backup to LOTAS

why cant this session work out? well, we have already established that it goes against canon. sburb cannot be played on earth c, not yet at least. though everything fits together decently well here, this session is missing a crucial component. it does not have a time player. there is no equivalent to the beat mesa, no way to initiate a scratch, and no time player to fix fatal errors. not that a scratch would help anyway, because none of these kids were made with ectobiology save for cg. it is simply a nice hypothetical to think about, and a compromise for the folks out there who really, really wanted KITTYQUEST to be a sburb mspfa. sorry! hope this is enough for you

this was an awful lot of words and took a few hours to type. thanks if you read it! i hope the most recent upd8 wasnt too confusing. if it was, just read it a couple more times? our psychopomp ramona? is trying really hard to make the dream bubhell make sense to you

[cynettic]

Hellooo, I hope you don't mind if I request something a lil nsfw-ish but could I ask for Kaeya, Diluc and Childe reacting to female reader asking them jokingly if they would hold her big boobs so she can have a moment of relief? I always joke about it with my friend so it would be interesting how would they react haha Thank you in advance and have a nice day 💜

Summary - You ask some of the genshin boys to hold your breasts for a moment of relief.

Pairings - Reader x Kaeya / Diluc / Childe

Warnings - No real NSFW, just boob touching and a bit suggestive… if you’re okie with that it should be fine.

Penpal - Have a nice day as well! I’ve joked about it a few times myself- but I hope you enjoy the hc! I didn’t make it nsfw tho.

A/N - I’m unsure about Diluc, I feel like he’d be more confident about it, but at the same time compared to Kaeya and Childe his reaction would be more hesitant?

A Moment of Relief

Kaeya

Uhm… he literally would??

Like ask and he delivers. Kaeya values your comfort and happiness, especially as his s/o. If your boobs are getting heavy and you ask him to give you a moment of relief, he would.

He might be a tad surprise you asked such a thing at first, but he quickly adapts, and you won’t notice the hesitation before he walks towards you and does just as you asked.

If its a joke, be prepared for quite a surprise.

“They just feel heavy,” you stated, adding to the joke as you continued to wash the dishes. You and Kaeya had just finished a meal, and as he cleaned the table you were finishing with the dishes. You didn’t honestly expect him to do anything, and took a deap breath in before beginning to say it was a joke.

You didn’t quite get the chance to tell him that.

He leaned against you, and you could dimly feel his toned chest against your back. That wasn’t the main source of your attention though, not when his hands slide up your shirt.

“Kaeya.”

His hands are cold, you realize that when his thumbs slowly slide up your stomach to your chest. He’s gentle when cupping your breasts, holding them and lightly rising them enough to relieve you of their weight without making it uncomfortable.

“Feel better?” His voice is right next to your ear, breath fanning your neck. You automatically jump up, cheeks slightly flushed. You hadnt actually expected him to go this far, which was endearing in its own way- but way too much of a shock.

You found yourself leaning into his touch anyway, not feeling guilty in the slightest. “It was a joke,” you simply grumbled. After uttering those words, you flinched when he began to rub his fingers along the skin of your chest. His contact earlier had been soft and comforting, but now it had turned playful and… good.

It wasnt hard to imagine the wide smirk on his lips when he continued to play with your breasts. Either way, he was still holding them up if it accounted to anything. “A joke?” Was all he answered with. After that, he released them, pulling his hands back.

“Yeah you jerk,” you puffed out, grabbing his hands. “I never said you could stop though.”

Diluc

Uhm… no?

Diluc would take a long time to scan your face, wondering if you really meant it or not. Be prepared for his wide eyed flustered face that no one gets to lay their eyes on. No one except you, because if you ask questions like this you probably get to see it a lot.

He’ll ask you if you meant it, if you really meant it.

Diluc isnt embarrassed to touch you, quite the opposite, it depends what stage in the relationship the two of you are at. At the beginning yes, but later on the issue wouldnt be the contact, well… he would just be surprised.

If it came down to it, he would, maybe a little awkwardly at first, but he’d get used to it. If there was someway to make you feel better, he would take it. Maybe a little more hesitantly than Kaeya when it comes to physical contact, but yep, he’s got you.

His cheeks were tinted red, eyes wide and fingers fidgeting on the fabric of his coat as he stared. “Hold your breasts?” He repeated, sounding faint because the request just about knocked the breath out of him.

You, unbeknownst to his current condition, kicked off your shoes. A fluid motion accompanied by your jacket and hat after a long walk outside with Diluc. “Mhm,” you hummed absentmindedly.

Now Diluc is just standing there like “oH-”

Cue in his inner panic.

But either way, he’ll slowly approach you, wrapping his arms around your waist and leaving his hands resting on your stomach. In contrast to Kaeya, they’re warm, a perfect contrast from the night breeze you’d both been walking through.

Before Diluc can go any further than that, he leans his head into your shoulder, cheeks still slightly flushed. “You’re sure?” He asks again, and you realize he’s actually gonna go through with it-

“It was a joke-” you begin, slightly breathless with the knowledge that he was gonna…

Okay now you just regret telling him it was a joke ;-;

He doesnt back away immediately, leaving his hands on your stomach as he chuckles, slightly relieved and slightly… not? He wouldn’t have minded holding your breasts thats for sure, but thats a contact he hasnt initiated yet, one that would still make him hesitate and flush.

Oh well, his red face is worth it.

Childe

“They hurt? Okay, c’mere.”

Would literally sit down and beckon you to his lap.

Childe is easily comfortable with physical contact, and he definitely doesnt mind having his hands under your shirt just to hold up your boobs. Its not like he hasnt touched them before anyway-

He’s always concerned with your needs, and if it involves touching you, all the better!

Might ask you a few questions about them just because he never considered they would hurt or feel heavy in general-

You stared at him, eyes wide when he leaned back into the wooden chair, legs wide and waiting. Nothing you were expecting, it was a joke.

Childe could literally sense your hesitation a mile away, you were pretty obvious.

“Hm? Having secondthoughts?”

“No… it was a joke.”

“So they dont feel heavy?”

“No… thats not it.”

“Then get over here.”

He somehow gets you to play along, sit on his lap and let him coax you against him. His calloused hands are gentle when pulling your waist into his, hands slipping underneath your shirt. Much similarly to Kaeya, he rubs the area of your stomach before reaching for your chest.

But he won’t simply lift up your boobs like you asked him too, instead he’ll probably fondle them. Knowing him he thinks it won’t make a difference… well, not that you mind. His curious touch feels good, and he still raises them, so it is relieving.

[bnhaficsforthesoul]

BNHA characters and their genshin experiences

I've been way into genshin for the past couple months, if anyone wants to play with me message me (I'm lvl 45 rn) but be warned I have shitty internet and am a partial razor main

but this is mainly characters I can see actually putting time into genshin

Bakugou

Mains: Yanfei

his main has probably been most every pyro character at some point

he wants diluc so bad, whenever someone else complains that diluc ruined their pity he wants to ruin their existence

before yanfei his main was probably hu Tao

hed definitely play klee if he had her lmao but he doesnt and is patiently waiting for her rerun

he has a lot of 5 star characters and is f2p, he can always get banner characters within at least the first pity, but for standard 5 stars hes gotten keqing and qiqi way too many times and hes livid

especially as a previous hu tao main, he was begging for Jean, still has yet to come home

hes probably a very high level, not fully maxed out considering he hasnt been playing all that long, he was probably forced to start when the rest of the bakusquad started playing it and he just took off

has really shitty artifact luck though, like his characters arent bad or anything but they could be so, so much better

and ugh hes livid

explores everything, has 100% exploration everywhere, but hes not bored hes still got artifact farming to do and he enjoys terrorizing enemies

in co op he will set you and everything around you on fire. cope.

Todoroki

Mains: Xiao or Ganyu

probably only started playing because Izuku asked him to

kaeya has also been on his team since day 1 and he is never leaving doesnt matter his friendship has been level 10 for weeks now who cares

was f2p until xiao, who didnt want to come home at all, and he finally got him on his 180th pull

now he doesnt care and will buy primogems whenever hes bored

he has a lot of constellations on kaeya and hes so proud of that, probably c4, is considering buying way too many primogems just so that he can hopefully get his c6

now his artifact luck is godly, you'll go into a domain with him and be like ugh I got nothing and hes like I got a 4 piece set with all attack or crit rate/damage main stats like haha I hate you

but yeah his characters are very strong cause of this, but he doesnt put effort into building a lot of them, he only levels up and gives good artifacts to his team and a couple other characters he likes but everyone else just sits there for a while

hes not super obsessed with the game, but he does think its funny seeing bakugou get so upset whenever they do domains together

doesnt even bother doing daily tasks really unless hes trying to save primogems

Midoriya

Mains: Venti

hes so good at building characters, like he looks up builds online and watches those "do INSANE damage with these tips" videos - and he sets out to get them done and he does

bakugou is once again livid whenever they play together, because Izuku barely has to try and can do so much more damage than him

he does have to put in a lot of work for his artifacts though because he doesnt settle for the okay ones he needs the absolute best

he builds his favorite characters the most ofc, but he evenly distributes things to other characters he knows can be useful- those characters might not have insane stats but they're still good

will not kill timmies pigeons, hell hunt birds in the wild for fun though

definitely a food hoarder

also does a lot of exploring and probably has at least 90% for each area

Kaminari

Mains: Lisa

he is 1000% in love with Lisa, he took her quest very seriously

and so many people say shes horrible, he hates it, hes made her crazy strong out of spite

his team consists of only his wifus- meaning lisa, beidou, rosaria, and mona

for a long time beidou was his second but then rosaria came along and hes like ugh big tiddy goth gf, but lisa still remains queen

these are the only characters hes built though, save for a couple like probably razor and xiangling that he used before he fully got this team

is an ayaka saver

he doesnt care too much about most 5 stars but will sometimes get them just to say he has them, but they end up just sitting there rotting away because he never puts work into them

he does have hu tao though and would get ganyu if she ever had a rerun

Kirishima

Mains: Diluc Razor or Beidou

they're all on his team, the last person switches out but it's most likely zhongli or childe

hes all about dps, support who, he just wants to hit hard and do insane damage , so yes he made dps zhongli

except his builds arent that great, with some help his builds are decent, but on his own hell be like ugh that's some sexy 300 damage

probably didnt know what 90% of the stats even meant and just put random attack ones on people and went yeah that looks good

doesnt really care though and is just having fun so hell play how he wants (as he should) but he does have to ask for help when farming bosses

loves exploring but misses so much, hell get distracted easily and end up just messing around

honestly probably hasnt bothered to ascend his world since he got to level 35, if he did the quest hed probably go straight to 45 and even then hed still have extra exp because hes been there for so long oml

but eventually he would have to and hed be trying to do it like :,) this is fine and it takes him a lot of tries but he gets there eventually,,, only to immediately have another one waiting for him poor baby

Mina

Mains: Klee or Xiangling

thinks baizhu is hot (and is correct) so shes desperately waiting for him

was a I must play 24/7 player until after the last story quest, then she got kinda bored but still plays frequently so she can save primogems and likes playing co op

goes into random peoples worlds a lot

shes got some pretty strong characters and is proud of her account

definitely makes tiktoks of her playing with the bakusquad cause it's always v chaotic (it's probably only denki and kirishima most of the time, but sometimes either bakugou or sero will join in)

does all the genshin tiktok trends

shes a pretty high level since shes probably been playing for a while and has most everything done

she loves helping lower level people though she thinks it's so cute and loves the power she feels when she one shots things

Sero

Mains: Xingqui

hes a pretty casual player, kinda only plays when hes bored or the others make him play with them

but his stats arent too bad, they're fairly average but he gets by

has so many primogems because he doesnt bother to wish on anyone, probably wants kazuha though

he does get super invested into the story though, hes so curious about the world and where the story is gonna lead

probably watches a lot of genshin theory videos and now he over thinks everything in the game

he explores a lot, not so much to find every single thing but more so just because he likes looking at everything, hes very excited for all the new places

Shinsou

Mains: Childe

hes a very thorough player, he explores a lot and puts a lot of work into building his characters

most of them arent all that great but he has plans to fix them

his main team is very well built, not the best, but still good

he struggles when he has to switch someone out for a domain or something because his other characters are so painfully mediocre right now and he feels so bad

shinsou, playing a character that can do like max 200 physical damage and biggest damage is like 2 thousand, repeatedly saying I'm sorry, I'm sorry, you deserve so much better, I'm so sorry

even if it's not the worst damage by far, he feels bad about anything under his main team's stats because they're just so much higher

broke. has no primogems. spent them all on childe and his constellations. does he regret it? well he sure does appreciate his c6 so- hell manage

yes he spent real money on his stupid mass murderer who he loves very much

fights childe every day even though he already collected the treasure, he is but a humble simp

probably decently lucky with wishing like he can beat the 50/50 almost every time

Tamaki

Mains: Chongyun and Sucrose

he only started playing recently, probably kirishima got him into it, but he immediately fell in love

kirishima was like tell me when you're level 16 so we can play together !!! and 2 days later tamaki was level 16 and kiri was shook because how the hell did he do it so fast

hates domains, the dread he feels when he realizes the lower level isnt going to give him anything anymore, and he has to move up to the next, and the next,,

asks kirishima to help him only to realize he isnt much help, is too nice to say that so he let's kiri keep trying- one day kiri gets deku to play with the two of them and tamaki almost cries because finally he can get through the level 90 domain and actually get things ugh

cannot get xingqui to save his life he refuses to come home and poor tamaki is so sad he wants him a lot hes even got all his materials saved up

Monoma

Mains: Ningguang

honestly doesnt play all that much but takes pride in making his account seem v good, is a whale

but hes very good at the game, didnt know what the artifacts were for at first and gave people ones based on how they looked but once he figured it out hes fixed them

is a very standard player, logs in every day to do his commissions and use his resin then logs out, he doesnt put too much time into the game and doesnt worry if he misses a day or two

worships ningguang, also really likes xinyan, his other team members are probably venti and albedo

has every single banner 5 star that has come out since he started playing, probably doesnt have klee though and is v upset about it, and is thanking the heavens for all the reruns lately

also doesnt have keqing and wants her a lot cause he likes her

accepts every single co op request he gets, and despite what a lot may think hes actually a very nice person to play with, not toxic at all - unless you're someone he knows then he might be mean to you shshshsh

Shigaraki

Mains: Razor

haha isnt it so odd that they sound so similar haha (if you dont know they have the same japanese va and I'm guessing hed play it in Japanese)

obviously he can be kinda busy ya know being a criminal and all that but when hes not he puts a lot of time into genshin

sadly doesnt have very good luck when it comes to characters or artifacts, but hes doing his best even with 0 primogems and his 50% crit rate

doesnt explore all that much, most of the exploring hes done came from him trying to get all the oculus

his razor is so good though, except that's the only character hes put tons of effort into

except for now zhongli, hes not replacing razor but ugh does he love zhongli

but his other characters are pretty mediocre at best, he could build them if he wanted to, hes good enough at gaming to figure it out, he just doesnt have the time to spend to do it so he focuses on his main team

also (spoiler alert kinda) when we had to go to the wolf spirit to fight the abyss herald and razor was there, afterwards how razor was saying how he was too weak and stuff and was super sad, at that very moment shiggy decided the entire abyss order had to be destroyed - sorry aether (he chose lumine) but razor is more important than you

[littlx-songbxrd]

Chain of Iron:Death theory

As the awaited release date for Chain of Iron approaches and the fandom decends into pure madness, I want to put in my last two cents of overthinking before I stop having coherent thoughts

So we all know this is a second book, and second books bring the absolute pain in the shadowhunter chronicles. There is likely going to be a death from the mains considering the theme of this book, and I am here to throw my theory and reasons as to who I think it might be. Im here to sadly theorize about why I think Christopher Lightwood might not make it past the last hours

1. Tatianas revenge

Right now, Tatiana wants revenge after all our main families: the carstairs, herondales, fairchilds and both branches of the lightwoods. For the lightwood-collins theres barbaras death. For the herondales her daughter has been manipulating their son for over 6 years. Theres a theory that the fairy poison Mathew bought that caused Charlottes misscarriage could be traced back to her. And there are other theories that Elias dissaperance between chog and choi could have something to do with Belial. As of right now the only family who is yet to recieve any permanent damage or tragedy are the lightwood-herondales. Which is really ironic considering its the only family that has two bloodlines Tatiana wants to harm. Not only that, but theyre also the children of who Tatiana blames directly for her fathers death, Gabriel. It seems fishy to me there hasn't been any permanent damage in their family, and I dont think that is gonna last for long

2. The family tree

The family tree states that Grace Cartwright (Aka Grace Blackthorn) marries Christopher Lightwood and theyre the ones who continue the line that leads to Alec and Isabelle. Now Cassandra has said varius times the family tree can be misleading, and I am a firm believer this is one of the misleading ends. Why this lie was created, I'm not sure, but lets analize some things. As of right now there are 5 lightwood children. At least 3 of them can pass down the lightwood name. Of those three, if we take into account that Thomas may not have kids due to being gay, that still leaves two branches of lightwood kids that may continue on. As of present time we only have word of one line, Alec and Isabelles. And Robert isnt said to have any cousins, theres no mention in the future of another lightwood line. So the idea that both Alexander and Christopher have kids is pretty unbelivable considering theres only one lightwood line in the future. Unless Alexander goes on to have only girls and Christopher has only one boy, it seems more likely the family tree is wrong. Isabelle and Alec are confirmed as of the bane chronicles to be decendants of Gabriel lightwood (Isabelle makes a reference to looking up her great great grandfather Gabriel Lightwood and telling magnus he was hot in the last story of the book)

So its already confirmed they're a) the last decendants of the lightwood line and b) that line stems from Gabriel. If we based ourselves solely on the family tree and Christopher being the one carrying the line, that would have been believable enough not to raise any red flags. Christopher IS the son of Grabriel Lightwood, able bodied and seems to have a general attraction to women (I mean, we all know hes aro/ace but lets stick with canon). There isnt anything pointing to him not being able to marry and have kids. Where the red flags raise for me is with Alexander

Alexander wasnt in the original plans for the family tree, he was added when Cassie started writting the last hours. If you take into account his role in chog, there really was no reason to add Alexander Lightwood. He doesnt seem to do anything, hes a 3 year old kid, you can very well delete him from the narrative and nothing would change. So why did Cassandra add him?? Why did she decide to make Cecily and Gabriel have another kid ?

To me, it seems a lot like the baby carstairs situation . The family tree says Alastair carries the carstairs line, Alastair is a gay man so he cant have biological kids, theres another unplaned baby to carry the line. It seems to me Christopher carrying the lightwood line is a lie, and Alexanders role is to carry it in his place. I even found a little info from an ask wayy before chain of gold came out where it said Alexander had green eyes, but in the book she changed it to blue eyes. The exact same shade the modern day lightwoods seem to have. A trait hes more likely to pass down than his lavender eyed brother who supposedly "marries" grey eyed grace

3. Character Arc

Characters in literature need goals, things to work for or work towards through the story in order for them to develop. We call those things character arcs, and it seems we have all ignored how christophers may have indirectly ended. If you read his short story, or just overall analize his character, his main goal is simple. He wants to create something that will help the nephlim through science. His personal character arc is that he wants to prove himself and his skill to the clave using his passion to be a hero.

An arc that could have been expanded all through the series, and ended with him using his skills in the end to defeat belial in some way, proving his passions worth. Through the story we could have had a glimpse at his struggles, how he was put down, the failed attempts, fustrations etc. This all could have rounded christopher as a character, and brought more satisfaction to the end goal of his arc which is proving the value of his science. But instead, his arc in book seemingly already ended? Because he did it, he figured out a way to combine science with his duty and saved the entire enclave from the demon poison. He is now acclaimed a hero for his skills. All the other characters have things to finish going into chain of iron, Christopher doesnt. Why would she end an arc that could have taken through the entire series in just one book? Christopher is the only secondary character with a defined personality and a lack of arc to look foward too in following books. This could all point that his arc was rushed because it was being cut short

4. Lightwood blood

There has been a lot of theories going around about Thomas being the one who gets killed in this book, which is resonable considering the unerving amount of forehsadowing we've had to him getting himself caught up in something. But I raise you this, why would CC be giving us so much assurance that Thomas was going to get hurt if she was going to kill him? Not only would she be reaveling one of her most devastating murders, she would basically be spoiling a very big part of her own book. Thomas death would affect everyone, if she WERE to kill him she wouldnt be indulging us in our Thomas death theory as much as she has. Itd be too expectable, I actually believe that by giving us all the info she has she has more or less confirmed he wont die.

I believe this is all a decoy. Shes giving us foreshadowing towards something bad happening to Thomas, to cover up the very big reality shes planning to kill someone else. Theres a very big chance that for the resurection, theyre gonna need Jesses families blood. Same way Malcom needed blackthorn blood to raise Annabel. As of rightnow there arent any blackthorns (by blood) left alive, the only blood relatives Jesse still had are the lightwoods. So we already know Thomas gets captured by the murderer (referenece to the art), but it is most likely he gets rescued. People speculate he most likely got captured for the resurection Tatianas trying to do, because of his lightwood blood. But if Thomas escapes, Tatiana still needs her families blood. And I'd like to point out this is also where the fact she hasnt taken permanent revenge on the lightwood-herondales would come in. Theres a good chance that if the murders are releated to her, and she cant have Thomas, she wont stop at just Thomas.

5. Story relevance

In all sense of story, Christopher is the perfect candidate to kill. As hard as that is to say: he's a secondary character, who has a well defined personality, loved enough by the fans that there would certainly be a shock factor following his death, important enough to the story that there would be a big impact to the narrative, and interwined enough with the main characters to cause emotional distress in the story. His arc is indirectly done, this author has a history of killing lightwoods, there isnt much to discourage the possibility he might be killed besides the faulty family tree. And as I said, that tree has been stated multiple times to be misleading

Bonus prove

6. Christophers cut-out

Same way were analizing the hell out of a broken spear, why are we not talking about the skull on christophers?

(Sorry couldnt get better quality pics)

The truth is, I hate this theory as much as everyone, Im genuinly hoping chain of iron proves me wrong. But there are 5 deaths comming, and not all of them can be side characters. Cordelia Lucie and James all have main character protection. I already explained why Thomas dying is unlikely. Anna, Ariadne and Alastair have gay protection (and I think some asks about Alastair dying were pretty much answered with a discreet no)

If there are mains dying, Christophers the most likely to go

[deansawthetvglow]

eternal skyline of a spotless mind- or the one where the first 5 or so minutes of 15x20 are the only minutes i accept. 

in which i ramble a whole ficlet on accident and y’all i need the full fic. yes there’s a tinnnny bit of smut. also spn 15x20 spoilers slightly 

now i want the fic where dean applies to be a mechanic, gets the job, does real good. he and miracle live in the bunker, sam and eileen moved out a year ago now to follow a job opportunity for eileen. it’s a big place to be alone in. he keeps watching over and over all of the movies he has in a file entitled ‘cas’ favourites’ he sips whiskey, a responsible amount, and pets miracles head while his head is on his lap. sometimes he dives into the lore, he’s glad sam isnt here to give him shit about finally doing his research, but he’s trying to find a way to cas. to save him. and one day he tries to mix up a spell thatll open a portal into the dark nothing and his ingredients sputter and spark and he thinks it’s gonna work this is it, and it just doesnt. the smoke clears, the sparks stop popping, and there’s nothing. and so that night he goes into the dungeon draped in one of cas’ old trenchcoats and he sits in that spot he had to sit years ago and he cries, and miracle sits beside him and he cries because he’s trying he’s trying to live for love he’s trying to do right by cas and he just....he cant...cas died thinking dean didnt...didnt love him. and god, does dean love him. so he cries and he whispers iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou and he falls asleep on the concrete, uses miracle as a pillow but dean doesnt think he minds. and he wakes up in the morning, eyes puffy, and he drags himself to work, and he’s back to square one. and this continues for a while, dean doesnt really remember when he tried the spell, but it’s been a while. a month, maybe more. and he goes into work, and there’s a new car for him to work on. it’s old, a classic, but dean kinda thinks she’s more junk than classic, sue him, and he starts working on it, and he opens the trunk to pop a particularly stubborn dent out of it, the client’s not paying for that but he just can’t let the car be driven around all beat up, and there, right in the trunk, is a trenchcoat. bundled up, and tan and big and dean grabs it, he shouldnt but he does and his heart is beating so fast as he brings it to his nose and smells it and it’s cas it has to be and so he rushes to the front office, demands to know who the client is, when are they coming by and as he’s going completely wild wanting to know everything it suddenly goes calm. because there, in a worn flannel and blue jeans, is cas. castiel. and dean just looks for a moment, to convince himself its real, and then hes rushing to a wide eyed cas and saying ‘you stupid son of a bitch’ and crashing his lips into those ones which he has wanted for and then cas isnt really kissing back so dean stops because he...he cant take anything more from cas, he needs to give and he...he stops himself because what if...what if this wasn’t what cas wanted, so he pulls back, lets his hands linger on the soft of the flannel, and then cas is speaking, head quirked, ‘do i...do i know you?’ and fuck. his heart drops right out of his ass. his knees buckles and hes on his way down when castiel catches him, pulls him up, hand on his shoulder, and he holds on to him. and dean lets out a ‘you don’t remember?’ and castiel says, ‘no. i...i dont i’m so sorry.’ and dean thinks all hope is lost until cas asks, ‘i know this is too much to ask but it...appears i know you, and i kind of just, woke up one day in a field and i...i dont really have anywhere to go..and um’ and hes rambling but he’s determined to get his little angel back, all the way back, so he says, ‘you wanna come home with me, angel?’ and cas grins and dean wants to see that grin everyday of his life. so he finishes cas’ car, lets him trail behind as they drive to the bunker. he doesn’t explain it really, just opens the door and says ‘well, heres the place’ and cas walks in and looks at everything with such wonder. and he brushes his fingers across the gold embossing of an angel on one of the books there and dean just watches, listens to cas breathing, aches to touch.

he sets cas up in his old room, cas quirks a head when he sees all the suits and ties in the closet, says something like ‘now i understand why i woke up looking like a tax accountant’ and hes being good old cas, sticking so close to dean and he’s sitting beside him to watch a movie and miracle is sprawled across their legs and cas says, ‘i could get used to this’ and dean says, ‘yeah cas, me too.’ so they sit and they watch and they repeat that day in day out and the bunker isnt so lonely anymore, and he and cas do everything together, and dean researches spells to get cas’ memory back. he thinks it has to do with the fact that his grace got ripped out in the process, theres a small nick on his adams apple that he recognizes as the place it must have left, but he coughs himself out of thinking about that neck and those lips and that hair and those thighs and- he hasnt kissed cas since the first day, he longs to. he sees the way this cas looks at him and he wonders. he wonders if maybe...maybe this castiel can learn to love him again. and it’s going on a year now. cas works down at the local flower shop and has an apiary on the hill above the bunker, deans still in his same routine of life, and they’re not...they’re in the same place they were before cas confessed. just, in this middle ground, this unspoken something, so as he lies beneath a car he decides, the happiness isnt in the having its in just being in just saying it, so he goes home that night, picks up flowers from a competing shop bc he doesnt wanna spoil the surprise, and sets up the table. cas’ name is still carved there, cas had laughed when he first saw it because “what kind of long name is that,” and dean was bursting with fond. and anyways he lays down a table cloth and lights a candle and waits. shaking in his skin just waiting for cas to get home, and then cas is walking in saying ‘hello, dean’ and running down the stairs, groceries in paper bags overflowing in his arms, and his hair is disheveled and dean helps grab a bag and puts it in the kitchen and waits for cas to follow and see...the set up. and cas asks, what’s this about? and dean looks at cas and takes a deep breath and says, ‘someone once told me there’s happiness in just....fuck...in just saying it so here goes. and its okay if you..if you dont but...’ and cas is getting closer, his head quirked and deans heart is beating out of his chest and he says ‘i love you.’ and then cas is rumbling, ‘dean, look at me’ and so he does, looks up into wide blue eyes and cas is smiling. smiling so big and beautiful and dean wants to hear it he needs to hear it he needs- ‘i love you too, dean winchester’ and then theyre kissing again, kissing and holding and deans a little embarrassed but hes crying and then theyre skipping dinner entirely and cas has his hand on deans bare shoulder and hes shivering into the touch its so overwhelming and he fucks himself down onto cas’ cock and cas digs his fingernails into deans thighs and looks up at him blue and beautiful and overwhelming and deans pretty sure he blacks out when he comes except, he doesnt, because his eyes are open and the lights in the room are all busted and cas is lying there under him looking up, dean thinks so at least, he can’t really see him and so he laughs and he laughs and he’s not really registering what happened, a beautifully timed power outage like something divine saying this is how you met and he’s here still and you finally have him and so he climbs off of cas and grabs something to wash them up and a candle or two from the table and when he comes back, and wipes the damp cloth gingerly across cas’ body he notices cas tense and he sees in the candlelight cas is looking very serious and he stops being sweet just asks ‘cas? whats wrong’ and cas says, ‘dean? dean. dean winchester... dean...righteous soul the one i fell for and will always fall for the one i love the one i have always...’ and dean dives back on top of cas and kisses him senseless because now cas remembers everything before and he remembers everything after and everything now and its perfect

and honestly they still arent really sure what happened except that maybe the spell needed angel mojo so it snagged it from cas or maybe the empty curled itself around cas mind and all it needed was the Loud of too many emotions to overflood it but all that matters is that they are here together.

and then one day, at the dinner table, cas looks at dean and he says ‘dean, will you....’ and he shuffles inside his pocket and presses a box into deans hand and its- ‘will you marry me?’ and dean is practically leaping over the table to kiss cas and saying “yes yes yes of course of course i wanna grow old with you i wanna be with you always in life and death in everything always together”

and cas is crying because he could have what he wanted, he has the one thing he wants most and dean wants him most too.

and then dean is pulling back and cas is looking pensive and he says, ‘there is one thing, dean.’ and dean looks worried so he places his hand on his knee and he says, ‘i want to be human, all the way human.’ and dean looks like he wants to protest or cry and hes not sure which it is but then dean is crying and saying ‘ill help’ and then the next day theyre out with the bees, because cas thinks his grace will do them good, and dean holds cas’ hand in his tightly and follows that little nick on his throat and opens it ever so slightly with the angel blade and tries not to think about how hes hurting the person he loves and he loves and he loves and then the grace is flowing away and dean captures it in a bottle, hands it to cas, who later pats it down in the ground so they can grow a new tree, and dean gives cas two little stitches on his throat and kisses all around them and washes cas hair for him in the shower and then

when the day comes, they go together, they get to live with one another and watch the sunsets on their front porch with miracle and jack and sam and eileen all looking out over an eternal skyline.

[elriell]

Answer to my LONG ask friend, posting it like this because I imagine it would be way to long or else! 

hi i hope you dont mind me asking, but perhaps any elriel meta will be willing to cover the whole berons alliance with the queen? because i think thats our winning argument in favor of elriels endgame. and i wish im not reaching or overthinking this lol.

why it will be our winning argument? becaue the whole beron pledged alliance to the queen dont mean anything just yet, it hasnt been flushed out yet (sarah left it open ended), and it will definitely be the main conflict in the next book just to set up the final book and war where all the sides has been established whos with who.

because in my perspective, elriels story really will trigger that conflict and rhysands warning in az pov is literally the set up for that conflict.

when i read acosf, i was thinking there is literally no point of beron making alliance with the queen aside him wanting to be the high king, more power, why would he do that when the queen is in the continent and him in prythian, other high lords will surely oppose him being the high king. thus its two (if the queen indeed would help him) versus six since koschei is still trapped in the lake. plus, his alliance is still a secret, surely other courts will learn of it, wont they?

now however possible consequences from elriel, beron perhaps will use the rejecting mating bond—the blood duel—as a reason to declare a war and have other courts against the night court or eris will finally dethrone his father and be the high lord. and with eris being the high lord, isnt that going to be one of the key topic for morrigans book? sarah also confirms morrigan book and she admits that she doesnt know what the novella is going to be, so its same to assume that mor will get a full novel.

fyi, i cant see lucien will challenge azriel though, he is decent and will respect elains choice, but beron as cruel as he is will surely do something sinister.

and i stumbled across an account on twitter and they compare elriels story to helen of troy and the set up of the trojan war is literally the same as elriel. also, beron reminds me of agamemnon in troy movie (2004), both of them want more power. there are a lot of similarities, imo, between elriel and the set up of iliad. in iliad there is also a duel between hector and achilles (this is me reaching lol).

thus, aside from elains connection to the dread trove, elriels conflict also has the logical conflict that tied to the whole overarching plot for the plot of the series to move forward toward the end, because like i said the whole berons alliance need to be addressed and in acosf it hasnt been addressed yet, at least not enough.

im really sorry if i come off as rude by asking this. i would do it honestly, but i dont have the confidence to post anything online (hence, im anonymous) and im not as convincing as the others in terms of flushing the arguments.

also, you are literally keeping me sane when all of elain antis trying their hardest to discredit elriels.

thank you❤️❤️❤️

Hi! I’m that anon who said that Elriel’s conflict with Beron could be the winning argument for our ship since they are tied closely with each other based on Rhysand’s warning in Azriel POV. If you decide to answer that question, would you mind if you answer this one instead? As I’m pretty much still stand on that point however I’d like to add and correct some statements that I think I don’t express clearly in my previous question:)

If you don’t mind, I’d like to post my theory here, anonymously, since I’m not confident enough to post my thoughts online yet as I’m afraid I’ll be judged harshly lol. And perhaps other metas such as you would like to elaborate more on the matter since I think it is a vital plot for Elriel’s book. It’s quite long, I do apologize for that:)

Like I said, Beron allegiance with Briallyn didn’t make any sense to me and it also took me by surprise when I read ACOSF. Why?

A. Briallyn lived on the continent and Beron is in Prythian. Wouldn’t it be better for him to seek an ally that is closer to him instead? We know that Beron wants to be an ally with her because he heard about her ambition. And I suspect that Beron wants to be the High King or kill Feyre since he knows that she has his power. But one thing for sure is that he wants more power.

B. If he indeed wants to be High King or kill Feyre then I don’t believe that the other high lords would comply with him. Therefore, Beron wouldn’t stand a chance against the other high lords and lady in Prythian since it is two (before the queen was killed by Nesta) versus six. Plus, Briallyin lived in the continent thus her allegiance was not something that he could hold on to, imo.

So obviously we know that Briallyn is dead and her allegiance doesn’t mean anything anymore. However, from her allegiance with Beron we now know that Beron for sure set to be the other villain of this new overarching plot alongside Koschei. And I also think that Beron would be the main villain for the next book because a villain as big as Koschei would likely be dealt in the last book.

Now, why is it tied with Elriel? I think Rhysand’s warning in Az’s POV explains it plainly, and I can’t help but think that it is a set up, a foreshadowing, of what would happen in the next book, especially since Koschei’s plotline is not foreshadowed enough in ACOSF and we only know of his onyx box which we get from ACOWAR.

If we acknowledge that Elriel is endgame and their story is next, then Beron surely comes to play in the next book. Their relationship will push the overarching plot one step closer to its climax.

FYI, I can’t see Lucien invoke the Blood Duel himself, he is a decent person so he will respect and understand Elain’s choice to be with Azriel since it is definitely where we are going in the matter of endgame. But, Beron, as cruel as he is, will surely make use of the situation to profit himself, to reach his ambition that is momentarily squashed with Briallyn dead.

These are possible results of what could happen with Blood Duel plotline:

1. Beron would ally himself with Koschei as Briallyn did before because he knows he is outnumbered if he declared a war against the Night Court.

2. Beron could convince other high lords in Prythian to go against the Night Court if Lucien was killed in the Blood Duel, I pray that it will not happen though Lucien deserve some peace and happiness with the woman who wants and loves him voluntarily.

3. Eris would rebel against his father's order for Lucien to invoke the duel, and Beron would be dethroned by Eris and he would be the next high lord of Autumn Court.

I personally lean more on number three, because with Eris being the high lord wouldn’t it be one of the key topics for Mor’s book? It is already confirmed that Sarah pitched Mor’s story as one of the books and she admits that she doesn’t know what the novella is going to be. So, it’s safe to assume that Mor will get a full novel, not a novella one. Seeing her sparse appearance and development we’ve seen of her in ACOSF, then it is also logical to assume that Mor will not be the next book main character.

In conclusion, Elriel needs to happen to address Beron's situation and bring the overall plot of the series a bit higher before it reaches climax in the final book. Is it also possible that Beron’s scenario still can be addressed without it being tied to Elain and Azriel? Yes, but, I will say it again, Rhysand’s warning is a clue, a foreshadowing, of what conflict will be covered in the next book. For an author to drop something as big as that but not happening is a lazy writing in my opinion.

In the previous question I also mentioned that Elriel’s story is kinda similar to Iliad. Their set up is pretty much similar to me, however, I don’t think Elriel’s story will end in tragedy since Sarah doesn’t like to read, write, sad endings.

I’m sorry if I come off as ordering you around, but I really appreciate it if you and other metas also put your thought in the whole Beron/Elriel situation since I’m 95% sure Elain book is next and Azriel will be her LI seeing there is no progress with her and Lucien yet.

And I still stand by my point, you and other Elriel metas keep me sane when all of Elriel antis trying their hardest to discredit all of Elriel’s interaction and feeling in order to make their ship endgame. Thank you so much❤️❤️❤️

Wowza! This has got to be one of the longest asks I have ever received, hahah, congratulations and thank you for taking the time to write it to me! 

I would definitely consider doing such a meta, I am working on my Elriel debunking one currently, chipping away at it slowly! It’s a big boy.

I definitely agree that it is a very important and key point because like you said Elriel will be the trigger that pushes this story forward, giving Beron the push he needs, and also it will give or potential for Eris to step in and also Lucien by proxy. It would as you said accelerate the whole plot.

I have said before and I will say it again, Elriel brings so much plot to the story and ties in so many different characters, that say Gwynriel for arguments sake, doesn’t. I have no doubts at all who are the next POVs.

Agree with literally every ounce of your first ask, they have all the ties. There is no point mentioning The blood Duel if it is never going to come in to play, whether they actually do it or get close too it has to happen now. And if that is the case then Elriel clearly has to happen to get there! I don’t think Lucien would participate because I think he would respect Elains decision but who knows...

I feel like their is potential for his hand to be forced by say Beron or someone else, like you said though all ties roll back to Elain. And her ARC. 

I am so sorry you don’t feel like you can post it yourself, because you clearly have some great well thought out perspective, and you are well spoken. I am sure the fandom would love to hear your thoughts from you, when you are ready of course. Until then you are always welcome to come here and share with me!!

Going to answer your second one separately because I didn’t read the second one first and now I see you said to answer the other one ahhhahaha

[yeoldontknow]

❧ check in tag

tagged by the sweetest angel @propinqxity to do this little tag. this is such a cute list of questions, and some of these i dont think ive been asked before. thank you so much for the tag and the tumblr crush mention lovely. you truly are a bright spot on this website and i mean that sincerely <333

going under a cut because im certain i will ramble ~

1. Why did you choose this url?

its sort of like a pun between yall dont know and the fact that, hopefully, sincerely, chanyeol does not in fact know that i run this blog lmao i changed to this after a long time of being bread-jinie and i wanted to rebrand. i will, however, do my best to never change URLs again because the masterlist switch over was a complete hassle

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them

i have a fic recs blog called @yeoldontknowiread. as to why i have it, i know it hasnt been updated in ages since ive been kind of on hiatus, but i think reading and sharing work on this platform is immensely important. i actually read quite a lot of fanfiction, and i try my best to share the things i read. im very very behind on recs at the moment cause i try my best to write something substantial for every recommendation i make. as a writer, i know exactly the kinds of thoughts and feedback on fics that make my heart soar so i try to put in the same energy to my recs. community is only fostered when there is reciprocation

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

hmmm since april 2017. i actually had my 4 year anniversary this year and i did have plans for things but i got roped into real life things and couldnt celebrate the way i truly wanted to :(

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no but sometimes i think i should. i view tags as a library on top of my knee jerk response to things. most of my tags are just my initial thoughts or feelings at any given moment, so those take precedence over a specific queue tag

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

when i was getting into exo, i was reading fanfiction like crazy. i used to write fanfic quite a lot in other fandoms, but at that time i hadnt written anything in about 2.5 years. exo was the first re-introduction to that feeling of excitement and inspiration. after about 3 weeks of straight reading, i decided i wanted to write again. i wrote the prologue to hero in about two hours and tried logging into AO3 to post it. sadly i forgot all of my log in information because it had been years, and was getting frustrated. i really wanted to put it somewhere out of fear that id lose interest if i didnt do something with it, and everything id read had been on tumblr. so i made a tumblr just to put hero lmao i didnt have any mutuals. it was a blog with straight 0. i hadnt even created an account to interact with writers before that moment, i really thought id be a silent reader forever. but exo woke me back up and for that i am eternally grateful.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

the yours music video is...so stunning? like the colour theory throughout the whole thing is truly so inspiring and gorgeous. and this shot of chanyeol looking at the painting took my breath away, truly. tulips and the color of peach, like do you know how evocative that is? ugh

7. Why did you choose your header

my header was made by @jamaisjoons for my birthday this year because shes literally the most talented person when it comes to graphics. and this was so kind of her to do, i cried a lot

8. What's your post with the most notes?

uhm....either the body through time or truth i cant remember which but i checked recently and its one of those

9. How many mutuals do you have?

honestly at this point im not even sure. i know ive lost a bunch while i was on hiatus because i was basically a dead blog, and some people do dash cleanses. and im certain others have left, too, for their own reasons. still, i have a good core of friends though who are active and that is enough for me

10. How many followers do you have?

more than i probably deserve

11. How many people do you follow?

399

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhm i guess? there was a time when nng was not updated and every wednesday id post the days go by music video in sadness and grief but im not a big shitposter. if i make a text post its usually a life update or me crying about chanyeol, theres no inbetween lmao

13. How often do you use Tumblr every day?

tbh i havent used tumblr that often, not since march i think. i used to use it many times a day, checking in on friends and stuff, but once i started focusing on my phd applications i was only here sporadically. i didnt make an announcement either, just let my blog run on queue so i wasnt totally gone. i think i was checking in twice a week or maybe once every two weeks to refill my queue and check mentions etc. but now that my interviews are done im trying to get back on here daily to reconnect

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

ive had my share of disagreements with people and any details about those situations shall remain as they are meant to: private

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

in what context? like, you need to reblog this or your wish wont come true? or like, please reblog this to spread the word/spread awareness, etc? in the case for the former, i scroll right by. in the case of the latter, if im around and see someone raising a go fund me or some major event is occurring and i find a post with good sources or charities i will reblog. mostly though, the full extent my activism isnt really on this blog. its my escape from reality. my activism is usually placed on other platforms.

16. Do you like tag games?

i doooo!!! theyre so fun i love learning about my friends

17. do you like ask games?

i love those too! theyre so cute and usually a nice way to have interaction immediacy with people in the community

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

no one. can we please abandon this notion of fame on tumblr? arent we all here to write about some dick and some smut and some fluff and then hang out together and log off? lmao tumblr isnt reality and followers/fame is so arbitrary on this platform, no one has any control over any of it

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in love with so many people here. let me name a few:

@yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @inkedtae @kookdiaries @yoonia @dulcetvk @kithtaehyung @imdifferentshadesofpurple @ditzymax @sugaurora @sahmbtsficrecs @junghelioseok @yeojaa @augustbutwinter @joonscore @btssavedmylifeblr @cutechim @sunshinekims @kimtaehyunq @ouvuo @delhyun @exo-stentialism @sooibian @softyoongiionly @jinseunie @zibermuda @bratkook @1kook @luffles424 @xjoonchildx

and so many other people and mutuals that i am certainly forgetting. love is such an expansive feeling, and it encompasses platonic ardor and creative desire. i admire every single person listed for so many different reasons, and cherish and treasure them or what they provide to the community. love is such an important and broad experience. truly, i hope they feel adored every single day x

[sunasrintarhoe]

Cat got your Tongue?

Pairing: Kuroo Tetsuro X GN!reader

Word Count: 2K

Summary: Maybe summoning a cat demon wasn’t the greatest idea… TW: Demon summoning and fluff

A/N: This is not accurate what so ever . I just really like the thought of summoning a cat demon named Kuroo. I really wanted to get a little something out before my inactivity gets too obvious lmao, feel free to request because requests are now open!! I will be putting out a list of Characters that I am willing to write for, so be looking out for that. Anyways I hope y’all enjoy!

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Every night since you had completed the ritual, or so you thought, you had been having this one weird dream. It always started out with a black haired man with bright yellow eyes looming over you with a small smirk on his face. He always said the same thing.

“You know, for someone so smart, you really don’t know how to read instructions all the way through…”

He would laugh and walk away from the side of your bed to your desk and pick up the old, dirty paper that contained the instructions to summon a Bakeneko, then scoff and you would hear the faint sound of a piece of paper being crumpled and thrown onto the floor.

The man would walk back to your bed and lean over you again whispering, “Offer me something, (Y/N). Pictures… Memories… You…”  He would lean over further almost as if to kiss you, then you would wake up. Your heart racing, your palms sweating. Sometimes with a headache, but that could have been because of the seasons changing. Your alarm would go off after about five minutes and you would be forced to get out of bed and get ready for work. 

Working at a bakery, definitely wasn’t the worst thing in the world. Especially when your boss was the one and only Miya Osamu. You two had grown up together and became best friends over your mutual love for food. Like Osamu, you dreamed of opening your own restaurant, but when you did, business was slow and hard to come by, which forced you to close down. Since, Osamu had opened Onigiri Miya a few years prior and was looking to branch out, he offered to buy your bakery, along with giving you a position as a manager. Of course you happily accepted and the next day you were sitting pretty with 15 million yen in your bank account. He had the place remodeled and within a month, your bakery was changed to Pastry Miya. 

It seemed like you were always busy. The name Miya certainly made a difference and sometimes you wondered if people ever realized that the bakery was run by the same person. Today was different though. Today was the day that Osamu wanted to release the fall exclusives and you just weren’t feeling it. Despite going to bed early, you felt like you were running on no sleep. Coffee didn’t seem to help and you seemed to be swaying on your feet. 

Sluggishly, you walked into the building and back into the staff room. As you were putting on your apron, Osamu walked in. “Yo, (N/N). I need you to- Are you okay?” He asked, concerned, to which you replied with a small smile, “Yeah, I’m fine. I’m just a bit tired.” “You certainly don’t seem like a bit tired” He put the back of his hand up to your head and hummed. “ You don’t have a fever, do you feel sick?” You pushed his hand away, “Not at all, like I said I’m just tired.” You tried to walk around him, but he grabbed your wrist. “What happened?” He asked, pointing to a small bruise on your hand that you hadn’t noticed. “Oh? I have no idea, I don’t remember getting that…” You noticed the beginning of a bruise under your sleeve and pulled it up, only to be met with what seemed like a hundred more bruises. 

“Okay, what the fuck, (Y/N)? You’re not okay. You need to go home.” Just as concerned as he was, you looked up at Osamu with wide panicked eyes. “This makes sense.” “What does?” “The bruises, the tiredness, the recurring dreams about the incomplete ritual. It all makes sense.” “Ritual?” Osamu practically yelled, “What ritual?” You smiled sheepishly. “Well, you know how my cat died like six months ago?” He nodded,”Well, I’ve been really lonely and I saw this ritual at an antique that is supposed to summon a cat and I thought I should try it out…” Osamu’s jaw hit the floor. “YOU SUMMONED A DEMON?!” “yes…” He turned you around and untied your apron. “You can’t come back until you fix this.” Osamu pushed you out the door and slammed it shut.

“I guess I’ll go home then.” You mumbled to yourself and made your way to your car.

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When you entered your apartment, the first thing that you noticed was the darkness. None of the sunlight seemed to be streaming through your light pink curtains. The next thing you noticed was the pentagram in the middle of your living room with the instructions on how to summon a cat demon in front of it. “Well shit.” you mumbled and sat down in front of the pentagram. You picked up the instructions and read through everything. “Ah, here. You must offer the demon something precious to you.” You looked around, “Something precious to me… something precious to me…” You turned to the first thing you saw. It was a picture of your cat that had passed away six months prior. “Oh, baby… How I miss you.” You placed the picture in the middle of the pentagram and sat on your knees. With a puff of smoke, the picture was gone. “What the hell?” “A cat? Really?”  A deep voice spoke from within the shadows. You quickly turned around only to be met with two long legs. Looking up, you gasped. Standing before you was the man that had been appearing in your dreams. “You!” “Me!” He mocked. “ Who are you?” The man smiled and crouched down to you. “The name’s Kuroo Tetsuro. I was partially, now fully, summoned by you.” He winked. “But I thought I was summoning a cat…” He got up and walked a few paces away. “You did.” In an instant a black cat appeared in front of you and Kuroo had disappeared. The cat sauntered its way in front of you and sat down. 

“I will be with you for as long as your cat stays precious to you, once the cat loses meaning, I will go back to my realm and take your soul with me.” The cat spoke. You froze. “FUCK! OF COURSE I’M STUPID ENOUGH TO SUMMON A DEMON AND NOT EXPECT FOR MY SOUL TO BE EATEN.” You yelled to the ceiling and Kuroo ran behind the couch, startled. 

Kuroo crept out from behind the couch when he realized the screaming was over, “I never said your soul would be eaten, I just said if your cat loses meaning to you, your soul will be dragged to the demon realm.” He blinked. “Same difference!” You snapped at him. You got up and sighed. There wasn’t anything you could do about it now, but at least you weren’t so lonely.

Kuroo had turned back into a man and wrapped his arms around your waist. “What are you doing?” You asked, trying to push him away. “You’re cold. Humans can’t stand being cold from my experience. Your cells don’t do well with the cold and start to shrivel up and die causing irreversible damage-” You tuned him out as he began rambling about the different effects of being cold. “-I just want to make sure my human is okay.” He purred.You relaxed and just let him hold you. It had been a while since someone had held you like that and you weren’t complaining. The purring made you feel like you were holding, your sweet, little cat. You felt Kuroo freeze at your lack of movement. 

“Are you okay?” “Yeah… Can we just stay like this for a bit.” Your voice sounded tight and you felt emotional. You were so touched starved and it was taking a toll on you. Kuroo just sighed and hugged you tighter. “You can’t get too attached, you’ll end up dying.” You shook your head. ”You remind me of my cat.” Kuroo chuckled. “The purring helps.” After a little bit you jolted. “Oh, frick. I’m sorry.” You bowed in apology and Kuroo just waved it off. “It happens to the best of us.” He walked away and shifted, “Besides, We’ll be together for a while.” 

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Once the whole fiasco with Kuroo was finished, you were able to work and life went back to normal. Well… With the exception of having a nerdy cat around. Kuroo was exceptionally great company and was very cuddly as a cat. He never allowed to be alone. Always following and watching, he didn’t allow you to be alone for more the five minutes at a time. He would make you cook almost every meal for him and make you sit down and eat with him. He slept in your bed, laid on the toilet when you showered and basically took over your entire life. This continued for six months until one day Kuroo stopped. He stopped talking to you, eating with you, sleeping with you. He completely isolated himself from you without explanation. He stayed in your guest room, only coming out to see if you were still home. It sucked.

You were fed up. The next time you saw him, you were confronting him.

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That was a month ago. He hasnt come out his room for an entire month. You now moped around you house and cried over your cat’s picture. Sometimes you sobbed out loud hoping that Kuroo would hear and come to your rescue, but it never happened. He had gotten you so used to affection and care that when he ripped it away from you, you were becoming depressed. 

You decided enough was enough and knocked on the guest room door. “Kuroo… Can I come in?” You asked softly in fear of rejection. The door slowly opened and you entered.

You were met with sad yellow eyes and a frown on Kuroo’s usually smug face. You reached out to him and he seemed to fly into your arms. “I thought you were begin to hate me and I thought if i isolated myself you wouldn’t hate me.” He whimpered and you breathed out a laugh. “I thought you were beginning to hate me, Kuroo. I was worried that i was getting too attached and you were trying to tell me that you didn’t to be around me anymore.” Kuroo gasped and looked into your eyes, “That’s not true, you love for your cat is still as strong as it was when you summoned me.” He buried his face into your neck. “If anything I was the one gettin attached…” He mumbled into your neck and you smiled. “So, I’m assuming that its okay for me to get attched too?” Kuroo looked up at you and smiled, “Of course…” He whispered while leaning in to kiss your lips.

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A few months passed and your relationship with Kuroo had grown strong. You constantly reminded yourself of your cat that had now been dead for over year and you still mourned him like it was yesterday. Kuroo never minded, he understood. Not wanton to be the cause of your death, he encouraged your grieving and gave you the proper space to do so. When you were done, he would always come back to you and comfort you until the left over feelings were gone for the most part. 

Kuroo had been the most patient and loving boyfriend you had ever had. He made you feel loved and secure, he made you feel wanted and welcomed. He told you random facts about chemistry every moring and jokes about physics every night. He always made sure that you felt more than enough and tried his best to fill the void that your hardships had left behind. All in all, Kuroo is the best boy and makes sure you know that.