#thing ofc so theyre like just sitting there like i even thought if the church had windows venti like passes

[thequeenoffishburrito]

Regardless if you do or dont ship them, we all know kaeya and rosaria have fucked at least once in their life.

They were also likely drunk af...

And possibly inside the church.......

And someone definitely saw them and walked away out of fear/disturbance (either the dark knight hero on a mission and had the misfortune of being there, or the venti himself who heard a commotion in the church (who's also likely drunk af)).........

[castlebyersafterdark]

I guess I've never really referred to a courthouse marriage the same way as a wedding ceremony. But that could just be ignorance on my part, since I've never been involved in that? I've always understood that to be eloping, and then maybe later they have an actual wedding. Getting married without the wedding. Like you don't have to "run away together" to elope. Could be colloquial differences.

im about to ramble cos this is really interesting and youre phrasing it so sweetly!!! i can see what you mean by you dont have to actually run away together to elope, but thats not true; its kind of the definition of eloping lol. usually people elope if theyre forbidden to marry, and so they would go somewhere like another country where its legal to marry (gretna green in scotland is famous for it, just over the scottish border). courthouses arent always for eloping nowadays.

i only know more about 'courthouse weddings' as you call them, because my sibling had one! i also remember seeing pics of my aunt and uncle getting married when i was a child, and wondering why she didnt have a big dress on, and its because it was her second marriage so she wasnt allowed to get married in a church. so she dressed a little less flouncy and it was at a registry office.

but for my sibling, they didn't want a big ceremony with vows, mainly because of the expense, and like i mentioned, not religious. in a church you have to say what they tell you to say lol.

there are actually a few places here licensed to marry outside of a church where you can write your own vows (they both gave a speech at their party instead which was vow equivalent), but my sibling didnt want this either. they said they just wanted to be married to each other and didn't want to show it off to people, for them it wasnt about flaunting wealth or even their love to others.

its all so personal and im honestly fascinated by weddings. i dont think for one second yours is going to be about flaunting, but for many, it really is. and that always makes me cringe.

i also think there's a thing where people feel anti-traditional and don't want to do the whole nine yards because it feels unoriginal. that sounds unromantic but its more like... i dont want to be just another woman who thinks she is a princess for a day, y'know? i'd want it to be about our love, and if you as a couple aren't flashy, sometimes a big ceremonial wedding doesn't feel like you. even if it's small and low key.

i am a romantic like you, so would hope to have a lovely wedding, but seeing the reality of close friends get married, i was honestly surprised by just how much the stress almost outweighed the joy. typically in het relationships, the groom just sits back and lets the bride choose everything because theyre less bothered about how it goes, but the downside of this is the bride carries like 90% of the stress and organisation. ofc this is not always true but culturally women are so conditioned to think of their wedding day since childhood, that even if youre not into flaunting yourself (like me), you get sucked into the fantasy lol.

i for one am terrified of who i might become if i was planning a wedding. i know myself too well lol! probably not the best reason to avoid getting married but i understand my sister for not wanting a year's worth of sleepless nights and overthinking. i think she just thought the money could be better spent on something else, like building a life with her partner, instead of all splashed on one party lol.

to each their own!

See, not that the traditional definition of eloping is incorrect - but definitely a difference in colloquialism. Maybe it's a shift in societal standards, culture, etc? Depends on the people around you. Because elope the way I know it kind of catch all means what I was talking about that prompted my confusion into calling it first wedding/second wedding. Like its kind of lost the connotation. For example, a coworker had engagement photos done recently and we were looking at them and they're gorgeous, asked if she'd use the same photographer for the wedding, other details etc. She said nah, they're just eloping at the courthouse, skipping a wedding all together. I know she's not running away or doing it in secret. They have a date set and everything. Elope at courthouse, out to a nice dinner with the fam, using the money saved on the wedding for a house down-payment. So... I might call not having a ceremony/reception eloping. Again. Semantics!

I've always always fantasized about being married, being someone's husband one day. I know that about myself. And the wedding... it's more the idea that's its a celebration of that, a party for a new chapter where we formally get to commit to each other for life. So I know our wedding is going to be very untraditional. For sure, I mean, that rings true for most gay couples, I think. Though, I've been to some weddings where they're near indistinguishable from any other except it's two men. That wedding planning stress to make it fit into so many boxes. To each their own. But I kinda had it in my head my whole life that no one would ever really want to marry me so this... I'm just really happy. So when you break it down, a wedding is such a funny concept. "Hey friends and family - we're really happy and in love so we want to chill with you for a few hours because the two of us really want to tell each other that while several dozen people listen." 🤣

At least, that's what I've joked about in our case. And I think that's kinda what it should be! Traditions are traditions but shouldn't be rules. People should truly do what they want. Courthouse and done. Actually run away and return married. Big traditional wedding if that is what you really want. Or fuck it, have the two weddings in the exact way that confused me! Or, friends and family gathered in the backyard or a lovely park. All good ❤️

[softboyscully]

Public School Stuff I Wanted to Share

public school is both beautiful and horrifying am i right

so ill just go by the grades i guess

Kindergarten, first year

i did kindergartden at a catholic school in a relativly big city so this one’s got some shit

we went to church every wednesday, me and best friend (lost track of her when we moved, wish we’d stayed in touch, she was awesome) would giggle the whole time, pretty sure we made fun of jesus once, can’t remember why, possibly the hair

i had the nicest teacher, she was (as i remember her) young, blonde, and super sweet, that was the first and last year i ever had naptime

SPEAKING of naptime

i never slept during it

once i found what i remember being a nut of some sort on the ground, probably came off someone’s shoe

i grab it, turn to sarah (my best friend), say something about putting it up my nose

sarah, apparently having common sense, says, “no dont do it!! we’re supposed to be sleeping!!”

i put it up my fucking nose

try to get it out, just push it farther in

im crying a little bit now, that shit hurts

go up to my teacher

“you’re supposed to be asleep!”

“i have a nut up my nose and it wont come out”

teacher tries to get it out, but it wont budge

just. sends me back to my mat

that was it

the art room was tiny

like re-purposed broom closet tiny

there was a copy of the mona lisa in the hallway, someone had drawn ray bans on it with a pencil, never got replaced

there was a creepy-ass basement i went down to after school, we ate cheeseballs and sandwiches with some kind of meat, mayo, and that kinda yellow bread

someone broke his leg down there once, think an older kid threw him at the ceiling or something

we learned how to play Silver Bells with actual bells in music class

Kindergarten, second year

i remember these two teachers as the evil step sister-type look, but it might be my little kid imagination

but seriously they were horrible

we learned stuff in a room that was more middle-school styled, except everything was green or black and it was v dark

me and sarah attained a new friend, john

honestly i think we would’ve stayed friends for a while if i didnt move away

i have two vivid memories

one is of me really wanting to go home, so i walked by the teacher’s desk and did a fake sneeze

they laughed at me and told me to go sit back down

the other is  john leaning his chair back and then falling, so me and sarah went to help him back up

it was funny, so he did it again

and again

me and sarah were laughing, had the time of our lives

after the maybe fifth time the teachers said “john can get back up by himself. sit down and stay there.”

one of the reasons we moved was bc i got sent a letter from my fourth grade buddie

most of the words weren’t spelled correctly, many letters were backwards

my mother was horrified

ofc now we know it was probably a learning disability 

1st grade

this is when i moved

beginning of school i was ASTOUNDED we didnt have uniforms, one of the best things ever to happen to me

nothing wrong with this teacher, she was cool

thing is i was a little shit

told everyone my dogs died (they did but i was maybe three when it happened, i remember it not)

all my personal narratives were bullshit (only one sticks in my memory, wrote it about celebrating christmas AND hanukkah with my dad’s friends who were jewish, i have never even met those friends)

had a crush on this kid, best friend (she was terrible and helped wreck me emotionally) told me to kiss him in music class. me being a stupid ass bitch, i did it, aND HE GOES TO THE TEACHER AND CALLS ME OUT. at the end of class she gets both of us to stay for a bit, AND I DENYIED EVERYTHING. i walked across the fucking classroom, kissed him on the cheek, ran away giggling, told my teacher i didn’t do anything, AND GOT AWAY WITH IT. i’ve embarrassed myself further with this child but thats another story

2nd grade

i loved this teacher but honestly he was absolute shit

like. all he did was play the guitar and sing with us

never actually taught us stuff???

middle of the year, my mom goes in for a parent-teacher conference, he tells her i dont pay attention is math.

“what do you mean?”

“she doesn’t listen, she just takes out a book and starts reading.”

“........have you.... tried taking the book away?”

“sure, i could try that.”

“o....kay”

he also told her i’d be a girl who’d grow up to love spellcheck (which i do lmao)

like ???? why not just??? teach me to spell????

there was this one dude who one day showed up, gave me a pink stuffed cat, and then asked me where i lived

funniest thing was he lived on the same street as me

something that is vivid in my memory is showing up to class one day and realizing that i was wearing my regular clothes over my pajamas

also we had fish

every day someone else was in charge of feeding them

one of the times it was my job, i grab the fish food and walk over to the tank only to find all of the fish floating on the top

i screamed “THE FISH CAN FLY?!?!?!?!?!”

everyone ran over, all of us scarred for life when Mr. G walks over and goes in the most normal voice ever “no theyre dead”

we held a funeral

the cause of death is still undetermined

3rd grade

this year just draws a blank for me

all i know is that whoever the teacher was, they neglected to teach me how to tell time from a clock

also we learned the Cotten Eyed Joe dance in gym around here

4th grade

i had two teachers this year

one was the same one from 1st grade, the other one was a total bitch

made a girl named hannah ball her eyes out once, never apologized

i was (and am) and avid reader, so my reading skills were high above average

instead of being proud of me she told me i was weird, not normal, and too smart for a 4th grader, so i MUST be cheating. 

she was the start of a lot of self confidence issues for me ngl

this was around the time i went and got tested for ADHD (me and my grandmother almost broke down on the highway but thats another story), Mrs. M (the nice one) was super supportive when i told her why i was leaving early but Ms. S (bitch) told me ADHD wasn’t real and i just wanted to be special for once

she sucked, Ms. S

5th grade

this is getting super long so this’ll be the last one i do

but my teacher..... Mr. F was A+++++

he legitimately taught me math

we had i guess like,,, a buddie class we switched with sometimes

the teacher of that class was Mrs. R, who had crazy red hair and many freckles

at one point she referenced a meme and my entire class started screaming

also there was another Mrs. S (to differentiate this one will be called Mrs. Su)

she was kind of crazy

she was the astronomy teacher and she told us many times that the moon landing was faked

once she handed out sunscreen and had everyone put it on their whole body (this was in december, fyi)

Mr. F also hosted an ‘archeological dig’ which sounds cool but in reality he had a bunch of arcade prizes from his childhood buried in little flower pots we dug into with plastic spoons

also heres some stuff i cants pinpoint the time of/happened in multiple grades:

someone held a who-can-scream-the-most-like-a-goat contest

a guy named Makenzie won

remember we planned it while the teacher left the classroom so the teacher walks back in and one by one everyone in the room starts screaming, there was some applause, a few kids got a standing ovation

we cleaned out our desks in the middle of the year, i found 3 socks and a dog treat in mine

like how the fuck did any of those things get there

and where’s the fourth sock

b o t t l e f l i p p i n g

but no seriously there were at least five water bottles stuck in the ceiling in the cafeteria

my sorta friend charlie was obsessed with paper airplanes

one time he might’ve broken the world record for longest time in the air but he was counting in his head and it was at recess so there was no video

four square and gaga ball would be played no matter the setting, time, or conditions and it was super competitive

like if you could get to king in four square you got the everlasting respect of everyone

and everyone was super educated on four square special rules, special plays, that kinda shit

no but guys i grew up with bus stop, candy store, haunted house on mondays, haunted mansion on fridays, zombies was fair game unless it was Zach, Ryan, Chrissy or Vee

me and one other guy named andrew were the only known pjo fans, had the time of our LIVES making refrences

“HEY ANDREW IM NOBODY”

“I HAVE WAITED YEARS FOR YOU, NOBODY, COME HERE AND FACE YOUR DEATH”

“hey annabeth, i thought you looked like a princess when i first saw you. i printed out a picture you sent me casually and kept it with me. i snuck along on a quest so i could save you, endangering myself immensely. i held the sky for you. when you talk about your crush on luke, i get jealous. beckendorf understood, but hes dead.”

“ikr we’re literally the best of friends”

“RIGHT”  

also the first time we finished mark of athena we were in the same classroom and we individually dropped the book, stood up, looked at each other, and screamed “WELL FUCK YOU TOO RICK RIORDAN”

[dilfhakyeon-moved]

yO i was abt to write to you abt the new modc ep (what's going on with the weird cuts at the beginning jcbjfbjb im crying) but i saw your post so!!!! tell me abt your dream bro i wanna hear abt it!!!!!! -✨

OH I HAVENT SEEN IT YET RIGHT I FORGOT IT CAME OUT TODAY!!! Let me watch it then we can talk abt it !!

And well my dream is pp long so bear w me 😔 i don't have the 'read more' function on mobile so i apologise in advance for everyone who comes across this !! I'll edit the 'read more' into it when I can 😊 ( i hav edited it hehehehe )

SO . actually there are several parts to this dream and I woke up between the first two parts but ... YEA.

At first I was home but a cat had gotten inside my house, I already had two cats ( my current cat and the one that will have died one year ago exactly tomorrow... yes five days after my birthday december is a cursed month for me. but if u wanna know abt him just search 'tchoupi' on my blog ) and I don't think my girl was okay w that new cat ? also new cat looked wonky sjhsjsh ? I wasn't sure abt its behaviour bc it seemed like it cld get irritated fast. In the end my mother told me to throw it out so I did against my will but when I saw it walk away... it had a missing leg.... I was like oh shit dude no come back... so I went and opened the front door and it came back running !!! I couldn't leave it like that w/o food if it already was incapacitated in a way. so that was my new cat. everything ends well ( I'm pp sure I forgot a part of that part but it's not the one I'm interested in )

SECOND PART... THE CÅSTLË. i was in a castle that was more medieval than renaissance styled or whatever the fuck i didnt study architecture but yes this. it had a courtyard with a fountain and that courtyard had a beautiful view on The Unknown ( aka fields and forests and stuff yknow just. The view ) but there were also bridges ( not the rock kind the "we use it in movies to make a character dramatically fall after the villain cut the rope" kind ) and little paths to go to The Unknown. there was a built-in church ( not a christian but i guess that was a smart choice given most attendees were fire emblem characters and they were definitely christians ) and also stables i guess ? but the front stables were empty and i didn't get to see the actual stables. the front stables had a pathway going around them ( there was a front stable on the left and on the right, with the courtyard being a little pushed back ? like if you left the end of the stable pathway you were already past the courtyard )

so now picture all ot this but suddenly the sky is super dark and everything is grim and gloomy. like a typical halloween movie. everything that was neat feels now worn out and the pathways are definitely scary, nobody wants to go there !

i was looking for my friends ( aka mercedes from fire emblem three houses ) but somehow couldn't find them, a fight broke out between ingrid and annette ( also fire emblem three houses ) and i don't like rich horse girls nor do i like racists so i was about to beat ingrid's ass. this big dude comes in and threatens me so i scold him and he and ingrid both go away. i win. i talk to more people but they're all acting weird except annette i guess. whatever weirdos i'm out

next i keep looking, but now i'm not alone - i'm not sure of whether it's a real presence or just a spirit until the end of this sequence where this boy tells me where to go and what to do to fix things a little, so i go into both stable pathways and end up being possessed twice ( demonic possession isn't as bad as they tell you i turned out fine ) so when the boy tells me where to go next i'm like "are we getting possessed a third time ?" he chuckles. ( i am gay so that was cute )

but we don't get any time to do that third thing ! we get out of the pathways and everyone is planning to go fight whatever is beyond The Unknown ! i look at the boy and awake me now pictures him as kraam from the stranded. cool i have a nice partner in crime i'm okay with that. the others leave, there's a lot of them but a second group is getting ready ! so kraam-but-not-quite grabs my arm firmly but like he doesn't hurt me or anything and we start going into The Unknown as well. im like hey wtf do we do now. and he tells me oh these two groups are going mad that couldn't be us let's go find the stray kids ( awake me now realises this is ~cringe~ but dream me was like whoa a solitary group of ppl who fight bigger evils ! BC YES THAT WAS WHAT SKZ WERE DOING IN THIS DREAM but i never met them ) so we can join forces w them and defeat these ppl. i look back. i see the second group from afar bc they have torches. im like wow this is like beauty and the beast.

something happens, idk what, but kraam starts running ! i'm a slow runner so i thought oh fuck not again but i ran after him anyway, the next bit is us running through a sort of jungle ( the sky is clear again ) and like its CRAZY i fucking loved that bit bc WOO ADVENTURE !! ( im a sagittarius )

then we slip between two trees' leaves and end up in a facility. we keep running bc if we stay there We Will Die. suddenly i am slowed down ( which leads me to believe before that he was holding my wrist but released my wrist when he slipped between the trees ) but he checks on me which i appreciate because that means he would rather die with me than survive without me, romance luv

his father ! the bastard. tries to kiss me in front of his mother. im like lmao dude thats disgusting die n go to catholic hell. i push him away and tell him off, he gets pissed but i cant go look for kraam bc his brothers r telling me abt how we're gonna go on a road trip. im like ? the world is abt to end tho ? but apparently my dream rly wanted a drama plot so fine.

his brothers have, allegedly, caught on to an alleged potential relationship between us. no im not gonna complain abt it im lonely and sad and gay so my dream fills in for me. theyre talking abt how theres not enough room for all of us in the van unless i sit on kraam for the trip but they ( specifically the one brother who oddly reminds me of dbk rain ) somehow make it into a sexual joke ? being me tho i didnt get it KSBSKDH... they were like talking abt legs ?? i remember it was abt how it wouldnt work with smth with four legs 'unless i could go with three' and like i dont even know what the hell that was supposed to mean we're talking abt a van not a horse ygwim ?

idk if i woke up after that but my brain did picture both me complaining to kraam abt his dad doing that and him getting quietly angry and just telling me to not come close to him again just in case hed try it again AND the beginning of the 'road trip' where i was indeed using kraam as a seat. and i was sleeping bc idk maybe i was tired from the running ! i hope my next dream is the continuation bc boy that was a whole drama episode

also i gave up and started calling him just kraam but it wasnt kraam ofc he just had kraams face from what i remember ! but he wasnt kraam at all

[christineoh]

It’s only been four days since I got to Japan but I feel like I’ve already done so much and…spent…so..much

I got to Kyoto Seika University and settled into my dorm the past few days. There was a little mix-up with my room when I got here but everything ended up well and I’m really happy because everyone in the program is really chill, just like the weather

(Honestly though, it’s been pretty cold the past few days. Today was probably the nicest weather, and it was still around 49 degrees F.)

We had a welcome party the second night after a HECKA LONG orientation that lasted literally 5 hours total. I couldn’t grocery shop and I’ve been pushing it off since then

Being an introvert meant that I had to take baby steps to include myself into ongoing conversations. But doing so, I was able to meet a few people here and there, and it was so awesome because PEOPLE ACTUALLY WANTED TO TALK TO ME!! And we were all so interested in each other and it was so awesome. 🙂 🙂 🙂

I’m honestly surprised at how easy it has been to make friends. Like I said, everyone in the program is really cool and we all want to go out and do things and it’s really cool. Also everyone who I’ve met so far in the university is really cool too. My roommate and I met this one girl who is SO GOOD AT KOREAN like SO GOOD. She’s really cute and I really like her. This place is kinda sorta really awesome

OK ON TO MY TRAVEL DIARY

-April 7th, 2018-

We went to the international center thing of Kyoto (Kokusai-kaikan), where they hold UN meetings and stuff. Apparently you never get to go inside, but there was a special event thing going on that allowed us to! AND we also got to see a short program of a ten-string-tet (idk what it’s called when it’s ten strings) performing some pieces about spring. Here are some pictures:

some koi fish in the pond thing

the outside of the building – as my friend said, “it’s unnecessarily cool”

sakura when sasuke came back

sakura when sasuke left

the inside of the hall where we saw the performance. little name plaques and cool chairs for the important diplomatic people

CUTE CANDLE CHARACTER HE GAVE ME STICKERS UGH SO CUTE

ME AND JACKIE BC HE WAS SO CUTE

  After we went to Kokusai-kaikan, our Japanese friends who came along took us to the Downtown market of Kyoto (Shijo)!! IT WAS LIT. I had okonomiyaki for the first time and my tummy was v happy. If you follow me on ig you probably saw all the stuff about the game center and the random parade when I was there.

AH, QUICK NOTE BEFORE MY NEXT PICTURE SPILL: Kyoto background!! Kyoto is Japan’s best picture of historical and modern Japan. Many World Heritage sites are in Kyoto, some of which I’ll be talking about (Kin/Gin-kakuji), because many of Japan’s historical events took place here. Also I don’t really have pics of the uni I’m at but it’s in the middle of the mountains and it’s small lol OK PICS AT SHIJO

ok last pic of Kokusai-kaikan JAPANESE BATHROOMS HAVE BIDETS AND COMPLETE PRIVACY like if you want to poop you can TURN ON THE WATER SOUND AND THEY CANT HEAR YOU #poopinpeace

pretty much what Shijo looks like! shops on each side and i swear you can hear the whispers of evil “buy me! buy me!”

OKONOMIYAKI WITH MY FIRST FAV FRIEND JURI

game center but i didnt have money which is good and bad…sed

I LOVE KIDS THEYRE SO CUTE random parade idk

ME JACKIE AND BRANDON BOUGHT MATCHING SHIBA INU COIN POUCHES bc in japan coins will pretty much rule the world

And the day concluded with us going back home to play Codenames. I slept around 9 and prepared for the next day…

-April 8th, 2018-

It is Sunday. After much contemplation and research I decided to try going to a church. The nearest one is 30 minutes by bus, and service was around 10:30 so I was gonna try to go, and then visit the Golden Pavilion (Kinkaku-ji) in hopes to find sakura trees that survived the rain, since church was in the middle of the uni and Kinkaku-ji. BUT ofc i got lost bc i didnt know how to bus in japan and the driver was a little annoyed and lol i got off and wandered for like an hour lol so me

SO I missed church but somehow made it to Kinkaku-ji. Do you want some background?? I guess I’ll give background.

Kinkaku-ji means “Temple of the Golden Pavilion,” and it sits in a little lake which sometimes reflects the temple. It’s plated in REAL GOLD (ok tbh idk if it’s real gold dont quote me lol) but REAL GOLD and was said to represent the Pure Land of Buddha in this world. Long time ago, it was  also used as an official guesthouse for an important emperor. You can’t go inside because it’s blocked off, and you couldn’t go even if it wasn’t because of all the PLEASANT tourists that keep shamelessly getting in front of your pictures lolol im a tourist too tho lolol

Overall, Kikaku is representative of Muromachi-period architecture

i copied alot of this from the tourist brochure lol (except for the gold part………………………….WAIT IT SAYS GOLD FOIL ON LACQUER COVERS THE UPPER TWO LEVELS but is it ALL gold tho ok idk) also there’s a cool phoenix on top of the temple

such beauty! much zen! i c the reflection

the ticket looks like a seal to ward off bad spirits

ive been taking lots of pics of people bc they look good lol is that bad also this is the entrance-ish area

here’s a new layout for pics: click the pics for captions, theyre descriptive lul

KIN = gold, KAKU =….pavilion???

failed attempt at a selfie…i lost the temple

wowWow

what even is this lol looks nice tho

peekaboo

this is my fav stranger pic. they looked so good and made my heart so full :’) i love them even tho idk them…i love them. also i think the structure behind them i used for their backdrop is important too, it’s like a part of the ritual lol

OK this wasn’t the end of my trip today but it’s getting late (it’s 9:30 LOL). Some of my friends also came so we rendezvoued (thats correct spelling) and went to the Silver Pavilion (Ginkaku-ji) after. Kinkaku was definitely more majestic, but we all liked Ginkaku-ji much better. It’s setting was just amazing. I’ll write a new post for that bc this one was longer than i thought lol so stay tuned!!

also i bought so much stuff today lol did i mention i’m spending money

ok goodnight peeps, I hope you get a taste of Japan from my travels 🙂 And come for yourself next time!!

-CGO

PS, here are some words you will frequently use as a Californian college student in Japan:

samui: it’s cold

takai: it’s expensive

nemui: I’m sleepy

kawaii: it’s cute

oishii: it’s yummy

SAMUI: it’s FRACKING cold

Really. I say these at least 60 times each per day (y)

Japan – 04.07-08.2018. (Kokusai-kaikan, Shoji, Kinkakuji) It's only been four days since I got to Japan but I feel like I've already done so much and...spent...so..much…