#theyve had few chats tho

[zerguette]

Oh god Madd took such a time to design...(Hours compared to Konrad, given this man has more lore than i intentes to give him ), hehe sunglasses boys deserve more love!!!

Also a hc, Bukowski twins are 190cm tall (Calvin 190cm, Konrad 191cm) while Madd is 197cm-198cm, so they are part of the tallest soldiers.

(psss psss they like to mock on Rupert, tower over him, loom ominously bc Rupert is 173cm tall, Even Charles is 187cm tall. I'll write more in the tags as I die)

[uh-niran-really]

OMG I COULDNT RESIST REQUESTING AFTER THE CLASSROOM FIC AHHAHSHD

FEM reader as always x niran pls🤭

But this is heavily focused on satya 🫶

So reader is niran's girlfriend, theyve been dating for a few months and niran obvi has alr introduced his best friend satya to reader

Satya and reader talk to each other normally but isnt super close to one another

But then one day when reader was in their room, sitting by the sofa, niran had to leave to do a quick errand leaving reader and satya alone together.

Satya has been going through alot the entire day and has been really overwhelmed, just wanting to go to her best friend for comfort. And not seeing him anywhere in their dorm was basically pushed her off the edge and she began breaking down infront of reader

Reader panics and asks her whats wrong but satya isnt able to talk, i entrust you with this breakdown bit bc idk how to write it 🥹

But basically- the reader is super similar with niran in which shes able to guide and help calm her down almost the same exact way niran would.

Satya eventually calms down and when she does she looks up at reader while wiping away any stray tears that fell from her eyes and thanks her, awkwardly giving her a hug just like she normally would with niran.

Niran comes back at that exact moment where they hug and gets all emotional and happy that his 2 favorite people in the world are getting along so well.

Bonus points if we do a small little timeskip where the 3 of them are all best friends and satya is a bit more comfy with reader than she is with niran (bc reader is less clingy to her) and it makes niran all pouty, playfully tho because hes super happy they get along. She tags along with their dates every once in a while, still keeping her distance to respect their relationship but is super welcomed by the couple to join them even during dinner

SORRY IF THAT WAS CONFUSING I JUST WANT A SOFT MOMENT BETWEEN READER AND SATYABWHAHSHEH 🥹🥹🫶🫶

Fem Reader, Dating Lifeweaver x Symmetra (Platonic) - Shutdown

Content: Fluffy Fluff Fluff! Sweet fluffiness with very small Angst for Satya

Word Count: 1,200+

A/N: Ahhhh we love Satya so much! Such a sweet best friend who wants to fit it!! <3 Love her so much I swear 😭🙏🏻🫶🏻

It was rather quiet without Niran by your side. He had a tendency to chat away whilst you often smiled and nodded along, loving how your boyfriend hyper fixed on little things. You hadn’t been dating long, but you had fallen head over heels for the man. He was kind, caring, and such a gentleman.

He’d been called away to deal with an urgent matter, leaving you in the apartment along with this roommate and best friend, Satya Vaswani. She often kept to herself, but she was a sweet woman. Niran adored her and their bond was admirable! At first you were a tad jealous of the attention he gave her, but after hearing about their past and her autism you eased up and started to see their friendship as something beautiful.

You didn’t want to bother Satya, she had been going through a lot today, stressed over work and the current state of things. Niran said it was often best to leave her alone when she was feeling this way. Sometimes talking to her made it worse and neither of you wanted that.

“Bua?!”

She rushed into the living room searching for him, finding you alone on the sofa. She freaked out and froze for a moment staring at you, seemingly processing that he wasn’t there.

“Oh he left to go- Are you okay?”

She said nothing, but stumbled back, landing on the floor against the wall, body seizing up. You had seen this before. Niran called it a shutdown, a situation where Satya got so overwhelmed she was essentially trapped in her mind, unable to move or speak. You had seen Niran help her through these and since he wasn’t here, this fell to you now.

“Oh no.. Satya...”

You were about to reach out when you remembered that Niran often liked to ask permission in a way, before acting. It was more like a forewarning before a slow and gentle movement. She responded better that way. It didn’t frighten her so much.

“I’m going to get closer to you okay?”

Slowly you shuffle over and crouch down in front of her. You aren’t sure what to say to help her, but you know you have to keep her reassured she’s in a safe space. Niran was so good at supporting her and pulling her from these shutdowns. He had been doing it for years, they had such a close bond.

“It’s going to be okay Satya. I’m here for you and this is a safe space. You’re safe with me.”

She didn’t move or speak. It was common for these to last a while, the main thing was to stay calm. Something was bothering her and she needed to work her way out of it. It was a scary thing to go through and she often felt so overwhelmed after.

“Niran loves you Satya, and you know what, I do too! You mean the world to him and that’s beautiful.”

She twitched slightly, not a full movement but enough to show you she understood your words. A smile appeared on your face and you kept going, telling her positive things about her and Niran. She already knew all of this, but hearing it now resonated with her.

“Whatever you are going through you aren’t alone. Can I hold your hand? I want to comfort you.”

Slowly you reach your hand out for her to take, not wanting to move too fast and startle her. It almost made you jump when she snatches your hand, squeezing it for dear life. Her body was trembling slightly now and it made you sad to see her this way. You thought about calling Niran, but you really didn’t want to worry him. You could do this. You knew you could.

“Take your time Satya. This is a safe space. Niran will be home soon, I know it’s scary and I can’t imagine how you must feel, but I’m here.”

You sat with her like this for the next 20 minuets, rubbing her hand with your thumb. She began making little grunt noises to reply to you, and was starting to come out from it. She was able to move now and that was a big step.

“That’s it Satya, you’re doing so well. Niran would be so proud of yo-“

As if she were a cat she pounced on you, wrapping her shaking arms around your waist and sending you falling backwards. It scared you at first, but she was just showing she was grateful. It was an awkward hug, but it hardly mattered to you. She didn’t have her words back, but just kept hugging you, tears streaming down her face and onto your shoulder. You sat up slightly, unsure if you should hug her back, but figure it was probably fine. She let out an almost purr like sound when you do, rubbing her back softly to comfort her. It was a beautiful moment for Niran to walk in on.

“Oh my..”

His heart swells and he can’t help but shed a tear at the sight of his two favourite people sharing a tender moment. He makes his way over crouching down and planting a kiss on your forehead. Satya begins to stim, making you both giggle.

“Is everything alright Satya dearest?”

“Yes..” She peels herself from you slowly, blinking rapidly, before pulling Niran into a hug. “I like her..”

It was lovely to witness her and Niran interact like this. It was even better when it came with a compliment. Niran takes her hand and plants a soft kiss to the back of it. He gives you a wide smile, eyes full of love and adoration for you.

“Thank you.” He mouths, continuing to comfort his best friend, who was overcome with joy and other heavy emotions.

——🪷💎——

Satya held your hand softly as you walked through the park, on the way to a dinner date. She had taken such a liking to you, so much so that she actually tended to stick with you over Niran. Niran of course, ever the dramatic was pouty about this every time it happened.

“Heyyy! Come on you two, I want some love!”

“Too bad Niran. I’m having a wonderful time with Y/N. You’re lucky we even let you come.”

Niran pretended to faint, his hand swiping over this forehead as he let out a dramatic sigh.

“You wound me with such words Satyaaaaa. At least Y/N loves me! Don’t you petal?”

“I don’t know Niran, if you aren’t careful I might end up with Satya!”

Niran let out a little squeal before scooping you up in his arms and spinning you around lovingly. Satya, who had been forced to drop your hand and step back, smiled. Niran had dated others in the past and most tended to ignore her or be rude. It was the main reason Niran never found a partner for life. With you, she felt nothing but safety. You cared for her and it showed.

Satya often tagged along on your dates, you preferred having her around, knowing she was safe with you both and could get the support she needed. She was fine a lot of the time, but a part of you would always worry. Was this how Niran felt? Most definitely. But he loved her all the same! She respected your relationship and was happy to sit at a different table, yet you loved having her sit with you both. It was a great feeling for Niran too. He had never seen his best friend so happy, and that was one of the reasons he would be popping the question to you tonight. 💍

[just-a-demi-bean]

ramble under the cut :)

so i forgot to tell cute guy/twitch streamer that i got surgery on saturday (oops) and for the past few days ive been feeling a bit of pain and altogether been pretty mopey :/ (im feeling loads better now tho!!!!) so ive been texting friends asking them for photos of their pets for a bit of a pick-me-up, and theyve dealt with me spectacularly even when i was loopy off pain meds

but i didn’t tell cute guy because i. forgot. so i didnt ask him for photos of his cat because i felt weird about it so instead i was complaining to a mutual friend about how cute his cats were and how i wanted photos of his cat but didnt want to ask for them (i was kinda delirious at this point lol) so they. texted him. asking for photos of his cat.

he was kinda confused abt it so he texted me like “someone just asked me for photos of my cat” and i was like “fuck. that might be my fault” so i explained everything and he was like “oh shit why didnt u tell me???” and then spammed me with cat photos

and then the next day he asked me if i was a baseball fan (am i a BASEBALL FAN?????) and i was like “yes i am a baseball fan and im totally normal about it too” and then we chatted about the yankees

he asked me to another date on monday wanting to take me to a game but i CANT cause im still on crutches so i had to apologize a million times and say that im so sorry but i cannot walk rn and im still so upset about this but its ok ;-; he sent me a good night and told me we’d talk tomorrow :))

he sends me all sorts of pretty photos from his trips too :) i’m very happy :)

[eyefocusing]

pls tell me abt jenni and mon el i know nothing abt mon el

OK SO from what i usually see a lot of ppl only know jenni thru her appearances in impulse+flash!!! which is a shame bc shes sooo good in her actual main series (legion of super heroes v4 and legionnaires)!! shes the resident speedster of the team (ofc) and shes kinda shy and excitable and develops crushes really easily and shes just. adorable!

mon-el/lar gand is a little trickier because hes got two origins depending on which version he is! the one jenni knows went by the name valor rather than mon-el. the one that the thing that both versions share tho is the daxamite weakness to lead, which leads to him being put in the phantom zone ("stasis zone" for pzh lar) to keep him from dying. after being trapped there for 1000 years he was released by the legion (with kons help!!).

due to certain things he did in the present/past, lar is uh. seen as a religious figure to people on various planets, which makes the 30th century feel just as stifling as the "stasis zone" to him. because hes not some great figure, hes just a guy, and he just wants to be a guy. so he takes up a new codename, m'onel, to disguise himself and give him freedom to explore the galaxy.

so!! due to the whole "space jesus" thing, lar has a bit of a strained relationship with a few legionnaires. but not jenni! theyve been shown hanging out and having friendly chats and jenni is just soooo cute when she had her lil crush on him. i love it a ton

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom season 2, ep 12-16 thoughts! these episodes, in comparison to the first 10 or so, felt way more laid back and low-stakes, which I appreciate sometimes. I didn't appreciate how lazy jack's halfa design was in masters of time, it made me so annoyed I redesigned it. 👎🏻 u_u

see prev episode thoughts in this tag <3

-'picking a fight with me and my upgraded form!' 'you upgraded to a mullet?' DANNNNY. YOU CANT SAY THAT TO TECHNUS. YOUVE HAD A MULLET TWICE NOW ('fun' split danny, and evil future danny BOTH HAD THEM). I HAVE THE RECEIPTS.

-danny seeing technus hurting valerie and yelling I AM GOING TO BREAK YOU IN HALF. SAMEEEE <3

-axion labs is now a part of vladco. FUCK YOU VLAD. hes not even really IN this episode, but just thought I'd throw out a nice fuck you anyway.

-'capable of blasting a single person into space in (2) minutes!' tucker. that would kill someone. i mean yeah they might get to space, but theres NO WAY THEY WOULDNT CATCH FIRE, OR THEIR ORGANS WOULDNT LIQUIFY BECAUSE OF THE STRAIN. THEY'D PROBABLY PASS OUT BEFORE THEN, BUT. ...no, okay, I get why vlad bought this company. this is RIGHT up his alley.

-danny KNOWS VAL DIDNT DO THIS, THAT SOMEONE STOLE THE SUIT. AND SPENDING ALL NIGHT CHATTING WITH HER. <3 and val is a 9TH DEGREE BLACKBELT?? danny's mom is, too!! omg and she hunts ghosts, his parents would love her. and her fav fruit is kumquat bc its a funny word. im so with danny val is amazing. I love her and I Do Not Want To Hear It From Sam.

-I knew danny wanted to be an astronaut, but the bowling tidbit is like. yes give me more useless info abt these characters, I love tiny details that make them feel more human, and im glad hes got hobbies aside from ghost stuff, we dont really see a lot of that!!! (I mean, we knew 'fun' danny from when he split himself in half liked bowling, so obv it makes sense he LIKES it, but hes very GOOD at it. so proud of him, bowling king) val calling him neil armstrong and them teasing each other. LOVE THAT.

-technus you are my favorite grandpa for setting this up. SAM WHY ARE YOU BEING SO CREEPY BE HAPPY FOR YOUR FRIEND!!! STOP SPYING ON THEM!!! who actually cares if technus did 'set them up' together, theyre having fun and enjoy each others company!!! 'you think the universe wants you two to be together?' 'i dunno, but maybe /I/ do!' EXACTLY DANNY!!! SOO TRUE.

-and valerie being happy sam said she wants to try and be happy for them and make room at the lunch table for them. and hugging sam over it. VAL NEEDS MORE FRIENDS.

-VAL GOING AFTER TECHNUS IN HER SUIT WITH (1) MILK, AND (1) TREE BRANCH AND KEYS!!!. I LOVE YOUUUU BEST GIRL. her new suit kicks ass

-dannys like 'HEY IM AN ASTRONAUT :D' AW. ...HES IN SPACE... the fact he's actually intending to give her the ring. with SAMS NAME ON IT?? IM CRINGING DANNY NO. YOU CANT DO THAT...thank god he didnt. thank god valerie cut it off and said they can just stay friends for now. tbh, they both have a lot on their plates!! they obv both still like each other...it can be a future thing!! when she knows about phantom! youre 14 theres no need to rush. I just want her to have friends and be happy :(

-...danny struggles to do (1) pull up. SAME. but all the ghost fighting in phantom form REALLY doesnt carry over at ALL? that sucks

-sam being as fit as she is, is not just a goth. shes a goth jock.

-honey I Shrank Our Kid, One of his Enemies, and his Bully: the episode

-dash's crush on phantom is So Obvious. fitness buddies :) watching them interact always makes me laugh. also, phantom, with PANTS. 'how many costume changes you gonna go through, what is this, vegas??' DASSH DJKSFHASKDF

-MADDIE GOING AFTER THE MOUSE WITH A BROOM, WHAT THE FUCK. AAAH. JUST BUY SOME KIND OF MOUSE TRAP.

-danny likes lime and vinegar chips. which sound very good.

-'our boy finally has the physical prowess of a 60 year old president!' ...poor danny LMAO

-'what's wrong with beauty pageants' oh tucker you sweet naïve child. what ISNT wrong with them. who approved this for a high school?? (I mean, yes. unfortunately child pageants exist, but...) also danny and tucker once again treating the pretty girls like objects. I need to meet the grown man who wrote this, I just want to talk...

-prince aragon's dragon form reminds me of maleficent (color scheme wise) which is always a bonus. considering the episode is called beauty marked, I feel like the sleeping beauty references are deliberate

-sam with the fake fangs. once again her accessories never miss. hate the 'not like other girls, girls who get sucked into this kind of thing are all shallow and all want to be carbon copies' bs tho.

-sam trying to be the Worst Bride, being rude as shit. DORA IS GOING TO GET KILLED. DID YOU MISS THE PART WHERE SHE SAID THE PRINCE WILL HAVE HER HEAD IF YOU ARENT THE IDEAL BRIDE. YOU /KNOW/ DANNY WILL COME SAVE YOU. JUST ACT CHILL UNTIL THEN. even if you were doing fine to get him to take off the crown, consider maybe not letting his poor sister get punished also?? sure, she could also take off the crown and has dragon powers, but did you know that for sure?? dora didnt even really realize it until you guys talked!! (or at least, she was scared to stand up to him. you had no guarantee she would...) but. good for dora. ANOTHER friendly ghost to add to the List :)

-tucker is so under appreciated in his time. if he was doing a tech-based campaign today he'd have a better shot. people in 2004 had NO IDEA how much tech would be a part of our day-to-day lives...altho. tbh if you're going to be running for student council president, maybe you should..focus on things to actually improve the school? since he's going for a tech angle, he could say like, he would be running fundraisers for the schools computers to be upgraded, etc? we've already SEEN he can be good at money-making entrepreneur type stuff!!

-oh my god wait. this episode is JUST YUGIOH?????! A REBORN PHAROH USING A TEENAGER AS A VESSEL?? YESSSSSS

-tucker using his new minion to feed him grapes and carry him. AND LOCUSTS ONTO THE BULLIES. I love how when he's possessed, he gains winged eyeliner.

-this episode is giving me big 'plankton makes everyone in bikini bottom his slaves and build monuments of him from the spongebob movie' vibes. and the pharaoh has a traitor who works for him? VERY big yugioh vibes. aknadin confirmed

-I like that danny is still completely exhausted after using ghostly wail. (still patiently waiting on him to get duplication)

-LOVE the fenton's 80s outfits. I get hes 14 and embarrassed by everything they do because theyre his parents, but. cmon, this is one objectively cool thing theyve done. love 80s fashion.

-...was vlad just standing on that streetlight waiting for danny to come out? how'd he know they'd be coming out the back? how long has he been up there???

-oh, wait, his ecto-acne has flareups? that SUCKS. danny was...well I dont want to say he was LUCKY HE HALF-DIED, but he was lucky his was pretty instant (I'm assuming that had to do with the power/scale of the portals being different?) I remember in the ep we met him, vlad made a point of saying he was stuck in a hospital for a long time, so. that really actually sucks and I feel bad. not that it excuses anything he's done...but like. it does suck.

-vlad being so sure danny wouldnt help him he made it somehow contagious to his friends to make sure he'd get help? danny is a nice boy, he wouldve helped if it was anyone else. the only reason he wouldn't have is because of the shit vlad did to him, on purpose. vlad 100% dug his own grave by being the biggest asshole, so it is very hard to feel bad for him.

-clockwork is back!!! and making danny learn lessons The Hard Way. Uhhh, okay. I kind of get Danny’s logic, that time traveling this far back would prevent vlad from becoming a halfa also, ergo no arch nemesis or ectoacne to worry about. But the fact that was basically the first solution Danny came up with to solve this problem is actually so funny. It’s so extreme

-APPRICIATION FOR THESE 80S LESBIAN BG CHARACTERS.

-vlad telling maddie in the lab (in the 80s) he has something he's wanted to tell her 'for a long time'...how long have they known each other? I assumed they met in college, since jack always calls vlad his college buddy/roommate, so jack and vlad for sure met in college, but did vlad know maddie longer? thats surprising if so. Tho we don’t know what year of college they’re in so they could mean they met as freshmen and a few years have past…speaking of maddie shes crushing the 80s look.

-vlad blames jack, but. maybe dont stick your face 2 inches from the portal??! THIS FEELS LIKE LAB SAFETY BASICS. IF SOMETHING HAS POTENTIAL TO BE DANGEROUS, DONT GET NEAR IT. WITH YOUR FACE UNPROTECTED IN ANY WAY. (altho jack didnt really give a Big Warning besides screaming BONZAI. so. also that, but cmon.) also, they need gloves, goggles, and to pull all of their hair back tbh. but fuck lab safety, I guess!

-cryyyyinnng at how lazy they were with jack's ghost form design, its just plasmius' design on jack!!! you couldve given him his own design!!

-there. I did that in about 10 minutes and its somehow less lazy than what made it into the show. embarrassing! better yet, I think the episode would've been better if maddie would've gotten the ectoacne. or maybe its just me, wanting to see her design! anyway. I'm sure people have already done redesigns of them both as halfas. I have to go look after I finish this watch through. Also mildly frustrated jacks resentment and bitterness is basically also a copy paste of vlads backstory. They’re different characters, I really don’t think jack would stew in bitterness and jealousy the same way vlad would!! I also don’t think he’d give up after one time of trying to hunt ghosts and getting laughed at. Our canon timeline says different…I dunno, I get it was for laughs, but I’m annoyed because the POTENTIAL this plot has…

-did vlad really wear a stupid cheese hat to his wedding. ok actually that kinda rules. and the cheese door knocker. the dairy-only buffet table. vlad still got rich, just on being the New Dairy King. (Assuming that means he owns a lot of dairy businesses?) ok! this actually is great. hope maddie isn't lactose intolerant!

-'no matter how hard I tried, I could never get rid of my ghost half, the half I knew Maddie could never accept' ohh, ouch, what a horrible thing to say to her HALF GHOST SON. 'YOUR MOM WILL NEVER ACCEPT YOU' BASICALLY.

-maddie strapping danny to the table with a lazer pointed at him in a secret lab she keeps from vlad that she makes a point of saying is sound proof so he can scream all he wants...CHRIST. DANNYS POOR PYSCHE.

-also, not to feel bad for alternate vlad (because, he did lie to maddie saying jack blames her and never wants to see her again...) but. being married to a woman 20+ years and she immediately goes back to jack? if she didnt love vlad and feels like she had to hide shit from him, and says she wasted her best years with him, WHY MARRY HIM. it feels like leading him on!!! cannot believe im feeling bad for vlad, but. this alternate timeline vlad is significantly Less Horrible than Our Vlad. did she not think she'd get funding for her ghost stuff? (which, fair assumption since they're considered 'ghost fanatics/nuts in canon...but...) why did she think jack or vlad would be her ONLY OPTIONS? be like your sister. be single. Actually, this au could’ve been really interesting if after the accident, vlad lied to her and said jack never wanted to see her again, but she stays single. Imagine how much that would bug vlad… like, in her mind, it was never a competition it was jack or no one type situation…

-danny being like 'leave him ALONE' this jack is a HOMEWRECKER, DANNY. let them go to court and settle this at the least. ...or just throw vlad into the portal. (100% human, defenseless vlad) CHRIST, MADDIE THATS BRUTAL. THATS MURDER.

-danny seeing his mom immediately accepting him and his dad being half ghosts in this universe, if I was him this would be a great sign that his universe's maddie would also.

-*maddie voice* "clockwork will help!" *2 seconds later, with clockwork* "I will Not Help." TOUGH LOVE KING. YES LET DANNY SEE THE SODA HIMSELF AND DEVOLP BETTER OBSERVATION SKILLS.

-when clockwork ""reset time to the way it was"" just before danny "meddled"" ...did he really erase a whole alternate timeline? ...damn. because maddie and danny both called it an alternate timeline by name, it splitting when the college incident went different, so it wouldnt have really mattered if he reset it, right. like because danny's timeline is on a different stream? why didnt clockwork just. show danny a replay and not Reset That Timeline. wh...I wonder how many people that Erased From Existence. Anyway! once again stating clockwork is casually terrifying!

[wizisbored]

still kinda got teacher's pet on the brain,,, i don't have any specific questions tho, i just wanna hear about some Antics™

im probably not going to write about it because its more of a background thing, but ever since the accidental soup incent theyve been trying to learn to cook, to varying degrees of success. there have been many a time when theyve had to take the batteries out of the smoke detector. they have given up and had cereal for dinner a few times but theyre gradually improving. theyve found a good way to keep morale up while its all going to shit in the kitchen is to blast music and loudly sing along through the stress.

also going on in the background but will probably be written about at some point at least once: the biology class continues to find this entire thing fucking hilarious. the hidgens & perkins comedy double act is the most interesting thing going on for most of them. most of the time its just their general Vibes that are unintentionally hilarious but sometimes if theyre particularly bored theyll plan a particular bit to perform to fuck with the class, since the whole ‘emma is hiding in the lab’ thing was quite fun. theyre trying to make lockdown more entertaining for the class but also just enjoy fucking with people. one such bit involved emma standing behind hidgens the whole time and moving with him while he pretends to not notice and blatantly ignores everyone that points her out. another time, when emma was visible on his camera feed, he pretended not to be able to see her and have no idea who the fuck ‘emma perkins’ is. another time, over the course of a lecture, they slowly made the class start to believe that hidgens had done some sinister experiment on emma. thats the day that the class learnt that theyre both genuinely good actors and could never quite trust them again.

bonus: deleted scene via a chat between me and my friend

[recordmcqueen]

👉👈 Every ship ask for the boboiboy fandom? please? thank you //sad cape whoosh

aha now we’re talkin

1. What was your first OTP? boifang- my sister had only about a thousand screenshots of them before she finally managed to drag me in so its not like i had a choice--

2. What is your current OTP? answered this already

3. Do you have any OT3/OT+ ships? What are your favorites? hmm the only ones i have rn are goboifang and manramen x kaizo x pirate soldier guy. oh but like lowkey ayu yu x kiki ta x ejo jo dont question me okay-

4. What is/are your favorite trope(s)? idk if its a trope but like i want some brotp in my otp yknow and monsta does that right i just hhh bless. but also like the whole yin-yang thing going on with fang and bbb is just ahhh im weak

5. What is/are your least favorite trope(s)? hmmm in the fandom its mostly the hetshipping like i have no hate on any ships but a lot of times it does feel like theyre shipping for the sake of straight than dynamic which is really. unfortunate.

6. Do you have a certain kind of ship you’re more attracted to? bros being homies okay im so weak for the idiot memelords who all share one singular braincell its wonderful.

7. Are most of your ships “pure” or “problematic”? uhh i think as far as this fandom goes none of my ships are actively being bashed on and theyve all got pretty wholesome dynamics sooo nah? but then like i go and angst them all up so idk if that makes them problematic lol--

8. Who is the most shippable person you can think of? ...fang. probably because i think about him the most and also cause he got one of the best character development arcs and that just gives him a really solid dynamic with other characters //now im just making excuses hes my favorite okay

9. Are there any fandoms you don’t have any ships for? kind of? im kinda neutral on ships like i dont Need them (esp not in canon i actually prefer canon to be shipless bLESS MONSTA) and i don’t bash on any for the most part i can See all ships. but i dont necessarily actively Ship ships all the time yknow? so ig the answer is no...

10. Do characters have to have canon interactions for you to ship them? lmao nope (see kiki ta x ayu yu and probs a dozen other ships that dont come to mind at the moment)

11. What makes a great ship in your own opinion? uhhh dynamic??

12. What drives you away from a ship? lack of dynamic-- shipping for aesthetic is nice but i just appreciate the good art without really connecting to the ship itself yknow

13. Is there anything you ship but refuse to interact with the community for? mm yes. idk i feel like the fanbase is polarized between “soft pure bean with no or few ships” and “thirsty simps 18+ only” and both categories scare me too much to chat ships with lol

14. Has a fanbase ever made you ship or not ship something? Why? yES but not the bbb fanbase thankfully cantsaythesameforthelastfandomuhm

15. Do you like/participate in ship wars? Why or why not? already answered this one

16. Are there any ships you just can’t/don’t understand? What are they? boya. also saifang, come to think of it (the latter is significantly less popular). in both cases i consider them as a familial bond and cant really see them any other way? like i see bbb and yaya as mlm wlw solidarity and sai as an older brother to fang more than anything else so yknow hshsh

17. Are there any popular ships that you just don’t like? What are they? i mean the collective fandom otp is boicest so yknow. not my jam uwu

18. What is your favorite unpopular ship? bruh my otp is unpopular ToT

19. Do you prefer fluff, angst, or smut for your ships? angstangstangst *cough* ill take a nice order of fluff please and thank you kindly uwu

20. Do you prefer bigger fanbases or smaller ones? big fanbase have more content and its easier to find ppl to talk about rarepairs with. small fandom already have so few people its near impossible to find anyone to talk about your toiny ship with and even harder to find fellow fans irl. big fandoms have more potential toxicity tho--

21. Have you ever received hate for a ship you liked? lmao yeah but not for this fandom //probs cause i rarely talk about bbb ships in public anyway lol

22. Do you have any ships that you ship, but would never want to see as canon? all of them. i praise monsta every day for making their content 100% gen and i would never want it any other way bLESS

23. Have you ever had a ship become canon, but you didn’t like how it was portrayed? not in bbb for obvious reasons lol but in another fandom i Guess? idk how canon is “canon”

24. What is your favorite canon ship? *sweats intensely* captain kaizo’s dragonfly ship looks badass wish they kept it instead of the new round thingy he has that looks like it could impale someone- okay but papa zola and mama zila are heckin wholesome i love them and im so glad pipi has good loving parents

25. What are your favorite ships from a dead fandom? i dont think any of my current fandoms are Dead per se..

26. What are your favorite shipping scenes? “the captain praised me, what of it?” “open the door to my heart!” but also mONSTA WHY WOULD YOU DELETE BBB INVITING FANG TO STAY OVER AT HIS HOUSE FROM BBBM2 OTL //at least it meant we got it released internationally early so i could enjoy that much from canada

27. What are your views on reader x canon ships? already answered

28. What is your best shipping advice? whats with all the ship hatin ToT even if yall heathens cant understand multishipping, surely “mind your own damn business” and “live and let live” are easy enough pills to swallow??

29. Do you like OCs (Original Characters)? already answered

30. What are some of your favorite shipping blogs? are there bbb shipping blogs? i know theres the ramenzo one.. i dont think boifang has any active ones and my other ships are too rare to be considered lol yeah im pretty sure the only fandom shipping blogs (if any) would be boicest rip

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Hi, I am so here for all this ambition content right now. I check this page every day! I remember u guys mentioning about a rl and dasher road trip and I was wondering about that! Thank you!

hello pal!! literally so honored and happy that you’re enjoying ambition and the fact that you check our page every day... ugh you’re too sweet. hopefully the nonsense we do around here is entertaining! very happy to have you in our fandom community <3

so yes, rl + da road trip! i hope it’s okay that i took a bit to answer this, bc i wanted to ruminate on it for a bit before typing it up. so as y’all know we refer to the summer between s1 and 2 as “cruel summer” (thank u tswift), and similarly we have a code name for the summer between s2 and 3 which is “summer of love.” this is admittedly mainly because of rl, but also because a majority of the characters are in such a better headspace this summer than they were last.

boppin the rest under a read more, because i just go on... and on... and on............. (i really love rl & da)

-- Maggie

one facet of this summer is that around... july sometime, dylucasher decide they want to take a trip down to virginia beach (or the beaches in that general vicinity) because they want to check out a beach that isnt grey and cold like the ones close to them in ny, and because a trip before their last year of school together seems like a fun and Classic idea. originally they plan it for just the three of them, but somehow riley comes up and all of them agree -- especially dylan -- that it would be way more fun if she came along too. so they try to convince her to come along, which doesn’t take much convincing, it’s more so about figuring out how she’s going to get around cory because if he knew she wanted to go on a like week long trip with her boyfriend (who he doesn’t really trust) and two other boys he would probably have a heart attack.

you know, it would be like “you can’t go on an overnight trip with three boys!!!” “dad, you know dylan and asher. they’re gay. they’ve been dating for three years. they’re GAY. i do not think i’m at ALL at risk in that scenario???” fsdfSDKGDL

so riley devises a plan / cover story that involves like “going to stay with mom” for a few days, maybe a lie about staying over at isa’s or yindra’s for a couple days in there, you know, she lays out the whole lie and then bribes maya to go along with it and help cover her tracks (rl have very inverse influences on one another -- where riley sort of tames lucas and helps calm him and make him less feral, she develops a bit of a rebellious streak from him or just better identifies the nuances of which rules should be followed vs which were meant to be bent or broken..)

the good thing about this road trip is that it’s what truly cements riley’s friendship with dylan and asher. they’ve been toeing the line of friendship for like two years now (as riley said in cruel summer, she regretted not taking the time and establish a friendship with them in sophomore year before everything fell apart), and it’s kind of like it’s bound to happen. riley and asher takes a little more time to grow and develop just because of the kind of person asher is, but on this road trip dylan and riley just Click. like they were basically made to be best friends, dylan is the first person who kind intrinsically Gets riley and they match each other in terms of enthusiasm / personality / brightness. again, a friendship that’s just been Waiting to happen, and this trip really brings that to the forefront.

(on that note, i once joked that when dylan and riley get really into chatting about something and lucas zones out, they start sounding like the villagers in animal crossing to him. like if he stops paying attention for even a second suddenly dyley sound like this. and i stand by that claim.)

as for the trip itself, its not like i have the whole thing perfectly plotted or anything like that, more just... musings and ideas. oh and a playlist, of course i have a playlist. obviously they’re really good about swapping around drivers and sort of organizing their time since they only have a week, and i think it’s mainly funded by dylan’s youtube vlogger coin. asher helps and riley chips in her fair share, but dylan basically covers lucas because obviously he can’t pay but they all want him there. he makes up for this by driving the most even tho the other three insist its not a big deal.

when it comes to sharing space, the quartet of them are pretty good at it. obviously when they stop for the night they just share beds by couple, but it is interesting to think about how different these two relationships are in terms of like... you know, where they’re at. like its super easy for da to share a bed because they basically do that all the time now, but for rl breaking that boundary would be a kind of unspoken big deal and lucas would be so cautious about it. like they spend most of the summer in riley’s car (can’t hang out at her place with cory there and no one is going to lucas’s) and so theyve probably like fallen asleep together there once or twice and maybe napped ONCE at riley’s place when maya and cory were both gone in the 2.5 months they’ve been together, but it’s still... not the same. so at first lucas would be really nervous about it, but after the first couple of nights he’d relax and realize its really not that big a deal -- esp since riley seems pretty confident and comfortable with it. by the end of the week, lucas wakes up in the middle of the night and riley has cuddled up next to him and he’s like... okay MAYBE sharing a bed with someone makes points. perhaps.

one of the nights on the way down the coast, what truly breaks the ice for dylan and riley is that they break out a SMALL amount of alcohol and both get tipsy (which for them is just like. giddy and giggly and very chatty. they’re both happy drunks without a doubt). lucas and asher don’t indulge bc lucas doesn’t trust himself getting intoxicated and asher is just wary of it in general, but they figure dyley can do it as long as they’re both supervising. so dylan and riley talk A LOT that night and truly form their Kindred Spirit bond and also lucasher end up regretting letting them drink bc for like a half an hour dyley do this thing where they just pretend to share secrets with one another. like they theatrically whisper in one another’s ears and look at lucasher while they’re doing it and then start laughing and they’re literally not saying anything Important (like it’s probably like riley being like “psst... i think lucas is... hee hee... lucas is hot”) and then dylan cracking up and agreeing but bc lucasher don’t know what they’re saying they’re like ha ha very funny........... but y’all aren’t talking about us doe right. wait, what did you say. hold on --

a lot of the trip is also based around being in nature and the outdoors, since they don’t get to do much of that day-to-day in manhattan. considering one of their favorite spots to hang out as a group during senior year is at central park, they’re all definitely fresh air outdoorsy kind of people to a degree. so like, stopping at parks, going on hikes, and of course the beach itself. i made an instagram edit of one of said hikes when i was testing a template i made:

naturally, and i swear this happens at least once on a long road trip whether it is with family or friends or any combo of people, but you hit a point where you get irritable and start to get a little sick of one another. i think in this case that mainly starts between lucas and asher, because although they’re Best Friends i think lucas has a knack for finding ways of irritating him. and also lucas probably gets irritated by dylan’s high energy after too much time with no breaks, so he’s also snappy, and as they’re on the way back up to nyc people are spatting at one another or getting snippy over stupid things so riles is like. here’s an idea! how about we split up for the day when we get to philadelphia. this is an excellent idea and none of them are opposed, so when they arrive in philly, dylan and asher split off to go explore the city + historical sites.

what do riley and lucas do? well, riley takes lucas to meet her grandparents, of course.

at first lucas is like ummmmmmm no because he’s SUPER nervous about meeting her family -- the only family he’s met is cory and we know that’s... unideal, and eric, both of whom have a completely different perception of him bc of school and his behavioral record. he’s yet to meet topanga or auggie yet or anything like that -- but riley assures him that her grandparents are chill and she has no doubt she’ll like them. they’re also meeting lucas with a completely blank slate (i.e. no preconceived notions about him like those who work at aaa), so it’s not hard for lucas to make a good impression since he really is like... a good guy. not to mention no way is he snarky or deadpan in situations where he doesn’t feel comfortable or like he has the right lmao, so he’s on his BEST behavior around amy and alan.

the good thing is that alan himself kind of had a similar background and run on the wild side that lucas does (kind of like jack, altho jack was never as troubled as lucas), and so i think he would kind of... inherently Get him. like he’d strike up a conversation with him and at first lucas would be like omg why is this man speaking to me please i’m invisible pretend i’m not here... but after a bit he’d find it’s surprisingly easy to talk to alan. and they’d talk for like an hour and get on pretty well. meanwhile, amy is talking to riley and is like so... let me guess. cory does not know you’re traveling with your boyfriend???? and riley is like... perhaps. maybe don’t tell him? pretty please? and once amy convenes with alan and is like how is he and alan is all “he’s fine, we can approve,” then they agree not to rat riley out.

riley and lucas also climb up into the matthews tree house and take a look around and they comment on how strange it is that cory and eric once used to like, hang out in there and in that house and were once teenagers (lucas: be careful this is humanizing your father too much for me). and i’d think they’d sit up in the treehouse for a little bit and just talk and riley would talk about how nice it must’ve been to grow up in the suburbs like this, and she’s surprised when lucas agrees and he admits he fucking hates living in manhattan. and that kind of prompts this subtle internal thinking in both of them of like hmm well... maybe in the future when things are different and we can make our own rules maybe we’ll move out of the city and into a quieter life... they don’t say any of that out loud, but they’re both thinking it. and at the tail end of that conversation riley kisses lucas which turns into a Really Good Kiss... but then they’re interrupted by amy calling for them to come down for dinner and its kind of like lmao, they’re both a little bashful but in a casual silly way

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BNHA AU Ideas : Online Besties Meet Cute

Also on AO3!

TL;DR:  What if Shinso and Midoriya had been internet friends before UA? Cute moments at the sports festival is what happens.

shinsou had a tumblr/yt channel and he did art and stuff + talked about hot he wanted to be a hero, had like a mask on sou you couldnt see his face

izuku had a tumblr/yt channel where he did hero analysis + gave quirk tips and talked about training/studying for UA

you know those commentators w the lil talksprites? izuku has those and shinsou is the one who draws them

he and shinsou become friends

shinsou posts a video about how he got into gen ed and izuku freaks out like "I GO TO YOUR SCHOOL", this is news to the both of them bc they have been chatting in English

so they set up a game of trying to find the other without having any idea what the other looks like, and only izuku knows shinsous quirk bc he asked for tips

they both thought they were from diff countries

the sports festival

shinsou says 1 thing and izuku starts vibrating w glee

izuku just points and shinsou, yells "YOU", hugs him and suplexes him into the ground

shinsou is just shook

shinsou is like "whO aRe YoU"

and izuku just grins and throws him out of the ring

and like, the second shinsou crosses the line izuku shouts out shinsous screen name and shinsou loses it laughing as he rolls away from the line

"FUCK You!! I CouLD hAve WOn"

"I FOUND U fiRST THO"

"sSIUSHIHUS SHUT UP"

and midnight is So Lost

shinsous not even mad, izuku runs over to help him up and shinsou drags him onto the ground as well and they laugh like idiots

because at this point theyve been online friends for like 4 years

izuku has self esteem bc he n shinsou are kinda popular creators online

shinsou should have won the "find me" dare

he knew izuku was in the hero course, of which their are only 2 classes and then he knew he was in 1A because of the USJ and he knew he was a guy, so that like 13 people to pick from

and izuku still won

bc shinsou had a "purple sleepy vibe"

shinizu podcast, it’s just 45-60 minutes of shinsou being salty and izuku wheezing

izuku and shinsou just conspire to get shinsou into the hero course by making shinsou look as good as possible like

"oh aizawa sensei, can shinsou and i train outside? he was going to teach me some new moves"

Or

"wow shinsou's quirk would be so good for this - insert scenario here- "

a villain attacks 1A and izuku just turns to aizawa

"dont you just wish shinsou was in our class?"

aizawl has all the paperwork ready he just hasn’t turned it in bc it’s amusing to see how far izuku will go to get shinsou into this class. he has told shinsou this and shinsou is telling aizawa to let it keep going because its bringing him joy

in this au izuku's arms dont get as messed up bc he and shinsou have been training to be heroes since they were 12 so instead of just "punch harder" izuku can punch smarter

also cause izuku has a habit of telling people about ofa because he thinks they should know, not -because they need to izu tells shinsou about it

shinsous like "ahh,,, shit oops"

izuku is just like "honestly it was wild someone being mad w me because i had a quirk lmao"

ok but shinsou going up on his dorms roof to think he looks over n izuku is looking at him w a "wtf" expression on the other dorm roof

shinsou: your,,, not gonna jump right??

izuku, looking sheepish: no? you?

someone yells at them to do a flip

izuku looks sad

shinsou: yOU dO a fLip BITCH

also: mic has openings to take kids out carolling thanks

-        a few 1a girls, izuku, shinsou, ibara and a few random other first years singing christmas carols in the city as mic conducts thanks

izuku begging shisou to let him study his quirk and they work out that if you join into a song shinsou was singing, that counts as a response

shinsou learns all of the most catchy songs he can

thats how he catches the traitor, he sings be prepared n the traitor joins in

the i want it that way scene from b99 but it’s just shinsou

aizawa is convinced izuku and shinsou are dating

they arent but they also have had like 0 close friends before and a very huggy because they have had like no human contact

shinsou, peacefully taking a nap w his head on izu's lap

aizawa, who just walked in: ,,,,,,,

[siirkaian]

its about time i actually started designing the antagonists instead of just daydreaming about where the protags occasionally meet them

i dont generally put warnings here but. some talk of suicide below def. worth the heads up............ the read more is just because its Fucking Long tho lmao

this one has actually been slightly fleshed out in my mind? they dont have a name yet, and its hard to know what Rank they are since ive been moving the story away from violence and A Coming War for a few reasons, most recent one being my friends story (tho they dont know about mine) has gone down the route of having a war at the end.. mostly tho i want to explore telling a good and worthwhile story without a focus on just who can beat up the other team better. The main protag Barren, for example, im bringing down the route of using their visions and ability to see inside peoples minds (in cryptic, symbolic landscapes and stuff) to take down people from the inside out, generally by working through their reasoning and traumas and whatnot to enable them to see clearer and with more empowerment........  and then one protag (Kindle) who joins later knows how to fight, and the third protag (Stardust) keeps them out of trouble, but later reveals that, well, spoilers that have already been seen a million times, hes actually one of the gods who fought in the huge war that happened in the past, and when thats revealed its when he has to fight again but......... he avoids it due to carrying the trauma and issues surrounding that war, as well as his own virulent self doubt and self hatred. so. this character to get back to the point? Wouldve been like a general or something, but im not sure how far I want to take them away from that, maybe to being a high priestex or something? the gods are supremely important to the story, and, spoilers, the main goal of the main antagonist is to bring back the original creator deity of the world, Siirka

I actually have a lot of appreciation for this particular antagonist character, they werent involved with Barren’s mistreatment when Barren was raised in their city by their masters so..... Theyre very much blinded to whats going on, I guess when youre raised in a city which glorifies what the leaders are doing and you get the chance to work for them, and you havent seen the depths of their evil youre going to work extra hard and...... push little red flags out of your mind............ They were extremely loyal and fully or. Mostly. on board with everything happening that they were told about, and worked super fuckin hard to get to the rank theyre at, always pushing boundaries and training and improving and grasping for any sort of genuine praise and signs theyre doing good that they can get, wanting to do their absolute best for the cause and. be worth something to someone. it gets very obsessive, especially as doubts and red flags start actually encroaching on their goals

As Barren and co start causing more trouble, this character’s storyline actually develops separate to the protags. Definitely influenced by them and their continuous defying of the antagonists, which doesnt plant seeds in their mind but waters the ones that are there....... They start realising things arent as peachy and golden as everyone was teaching them it was, they realise their betters either dont really know what theyre doing or may have selfish intentions, or, god forbid, intentions that could land everyone in a fucktonne of trouble - basically all the views they were raised on start having major cracks and Plot Holes in them and they have to come to terms with that. They do a lot of inner work struggling both with their crumbling view of reality and with the fight between either breaking it down more or trying to patch it up with lies, the sort of lies that even the person telling them doesnt know are lies. They get more and more frantic, more detached from reality as much as they try to hold on, struggling with their own identity and with dissociation, and with their mental state unravelling under stress and the inversion of what they were taught as right being morally dangerous, and what they were told to hate being morally good, until finally their boss is killed to further the protag’s goals......... before the protagonists can get to him............ by them. and then they end their own life to prevent themselves being tortured and imprisoned by their masters. I had a scene in mind where the protag’s spend a little arc trying to get to him because they need to take him out, and this character knows theyre coming, so the protags finally get to him at night and find him dead with this character standing over him. They get a brief chat before telling the protags to run, that theyll take the blame for it and the protags will get away without being harmed if they go quick enough, and then they step out of the window BUT its very fuckin important that its made clear that theyre left with no choice - or, more importantly, that theyve finally made their own moral choice in life with their own mind and own feelings - that theyre in their right mind/not acting on despair and need to go before theyre captured - both for theirself but also so they cant be interrogated and have no chance to spill that the protags were there. They basically redeem all the bloodshed and indoctrination theyve had a hand in - and oh, i forgot this bit of important context. Because of the whole staying away from violence thing, they do it to redeem themselves, to stop at least their boss spreading anymore shit, partially also to get revenge for all the lies and stuff, but also importantly because they dont want that on the protag’s conscious. They can handle it, and since they intend to die, they will bring it to their own grave. Death happens rarely in the story, because I want it to be as heavy and serious and soul-destroying as it is irl. They do the traumatising act of having to kill someone and live with the blame because theyve already planned out that they’re going to die to avoid capture. 

Im really.......... wary of portraying suicide in Siirkaia but given Stardust is heavily implied to be back from the dead (having the god of death, Mercy’s, black hair which only he has, though for most of the story its ambiguous as to whether hes working for or is Mercy ((its neither they were lovers lmao))) and Barren and Kindle’s mother Inferno also killed herself its............... im just gonna have to cave and realise im gonna need to address it. I mean, the protags already show (as being the grandchildren/children of and a suicide victim) that its a fuckin tragedy not a solution to anything, but, look. the story is intricately tied to my own mental health and thats shit ive dealt with for years so its going in the melting pot baybey! Also. as if i will EVER write this....... but i still want however i portray it to make clear that..... its a fuckin tragedy and honestly Not The Right Choice IMO

Basically, as a character theyre very hardworking, very Very ambitious, slightly obsessive, and i guess Unhinged because oh boy i am just giving out free personal issues to these characters huh. Their story is ideally going to be a bit more fleshed out than the other antags, because theyre meant to be a bit of the protags in that side of the story. Theyre like.... a case study in the complex and not black/white concept of redemption. The Demos, the people of the story, are at their core defined by submission and being led to terrible things. They were all originally created by the terrible god of life and chaos Siirka to be entertainment. Siirka had passed by Earth and took a liking to the pain and suffering of humanity, specifically loving the way they scream, and so built a fake Earth out of his own substance/power (in universe his body and hair) that was an unoriginal almost exact copy of Earth with.... absent details, like all the animal species being just identical copies of one example of each species, in all white, and a submissive race that looked like humans so that he could rule over them..... The Demos have since been taken from Siirka’s reign, since Siirka was banished in a war by Mercy and the trio of Stardust/Moonshine/Midnight (Siirkaia until i change it roughly translating to “Siirka’s absence”/”no Siirka”/etc), but its still central to the story of the world that the Demos are susceptible to being taken advantage of - though strangely they arent Super different to humans - and to being oppressed, since thats what they were made to be............. Like, Cool Backstory Bro, but its central to everything, it represents whats happening now both metaphorically and literally, the race thats susceptible to being betrayed and used is now starting to be betrayed and used again. Cycles of abuse continuing, learning the worth of the spirit, thats all the story of Siirkaia. The protags of the story represent the spreading empowerment, thats what Mercy gave to the Demos, the power to choose, to exist, to create your own path........ And this character represents that right to choose. Theyre a flower beginning to bloom in a garden full of frost. Theyre hope, and hope taking root and being received and acted on, showing that even if your actions just help one person they were worthwhile. Of course other Demos receive that enlightenment, but this character represents the hope in the Demos, but also the “good” in the “evil”, that, while most of the antagonists’ actions are unforgivable at worst and in no way exempt from criticism at best, theres a reason people are driven to do evil things, and theres a lot of corruption of the mind and personality that happens to drive people to those points. People can act in horrible ways, but its always for a reason, whether its their own trauma or not....  Even “I wanted to” has heavy implications of reasons behind it. This character is one of the few that did the work to begin to escape the cycles they were born into and its important they have their part in the story be heard

as much as i want them to be understood by everyone, as a schizotypal person i see that most people............ do not even try to Start understand people they find slightly odd, so making them “understandably mad” as in showing them show some of the Odd traits of being detached from reality/humanity with the reasons those things come about, and, you know, with the appreciation that its not just “ooo crazy random, unpredictable, youll never know what theyll do next!!” its....... actions that just seem different to those who dont do those actions..... Either way, however i push their character in regards to being misunderstood, i really want their end to be understood, or rather. I want them to be understood in the end. Barren can be incredibly empathetic and understanding, id really love for their final moments to be..... mutual? They did what had to be done for things to change and get better, and in the moments where they meet Barren/Kindle/SD, they finally get seen for what they are, they finally get seen as an entity beyond all the lies pushed onto them, a person who was led astray, who had the goodness in their heart and found the strength to multiply it, to try and right their wrongs, who was, although it looks on the outside like they had it all, actually been manipulated and mistreated by their higher ups and used as a pawn so they didnt have to get their hands dirty, they could just pass on the work to someone else. I really want them to, while they cant really be redeemed because of the damage thats been done, have a few moments of actual peace at the end of their story

.............................or maybe they could run away with the main trio lmao but no, that cant........ really happen because of the important dynamics and the personal (as in interpersonal not about me) nature of the protags and also. while i want the Demos to be revived again at the end, they do get swept away into Siirka’s hair when hes brought back through the big boss of the antags, Ka-UrenKa-, oo spoilers. so. i dont really know if i want to kill a protagonist it seems cheap (the main trio survive because they werent made by siirka........... literally a long fuckin story) because. at current, Siirka being brought back happens out of nowhere, and while the audience technically know its coming should they piece together the symbolism of Barren’s visions, its supposed to be unexpected and. idk man. 

anything else? Oh yeah i think they were originally conceptually conceived to Brutus by the Buttress so you fucking KNOW that i couldve skipped ALL this writing just to put that song in but hey. i would say its their theme song but while inspo was taken from theme and lyrics its actually not accurate to their life beyond a few lines?? and also the overall fucking Mood

[hanjisungz-remade]

the new plat chat ep came out and they were talking abt nyxl and,,,,,, excuse me while i just rant abt owl/nyxl for a second,,,, putting under a read more,,, if u wanna see me yell abt smth useless that u probably dont know/care about, you were warned 🙇🏻‍♀️

OKAY SO first of all im annoyed we got rid of flow3r,,,, i think his doomfist was very average and could have been developed into a top tier one if we had a better coach. pine was just bound to leave tbh and like,, im upset but im not that upset bc he did nothing for us this season ://///

AND MEKO LORD MEKO I MISS U BUT LIKE THEY WERE RIGHT meko is arguably an amazing d.va and within the few sigmas in owl he was very good but idk,,,, i think that this move was very good for us and signing hotba was just *chefs kiss* ive loved him when i watched him on charge and tho charge didnt make it past playins he was still arguably the best player on that roster besides nero

and i think nyxls play style will be extremely more dynamic, theyve constantly played passive and defensive and like,, i know in football its like ‘defense wins championships’ but like,,, that is not fucking true in owl,,,,,, like you need to have amazing players, a solid coaching staff and with overwatch you have to be aggressive and the players rlly carried the fuck out of nyxl with their skill but i like that we signed hotba because with him we can play offensive but we can also choose to play passive (which is our wheelhouse) when we want like we would have the best of both worlds ??? so im excited for that 

whoru,,,, hes a wild card honestly BUT i think that libero (and they pissed me off saying libero wasnt top tier bc stfu) can carry with genji and doom which whoru can play,,, and i think that having the two of them on the roster allows for one to play home games and one to play away games or even just have a rest ya know and then sbb and nenne can carry on widow and tracer and other dps that libero and whoru cant play as well so like,, our dps is solid tbh

im still so fucking annoyed that we havent signed a support yet,,, like besides the starting two we have an underaged player that cant play until over half of the season is over like ?!?!?!?!?! yea jjonak is a fucking machine and anamo is... anamo,,,, but like they need rest,,,, you cant just have them play so many games back to back,,, travel and train like ??? theyre gonna get so fucking burnt out and then we will shit the bed

so the casters put us at 2 (for now) and like,,,,, im actually thinking we will be top 5 and we will still be a top tier team but like,,, every time the fans get comfortable with nyxl they just throw some wrench in it and just are bad and i dont wanna get too comfortable but they also said that nyxl dont have that pressure anymore from s1 bc of jjonak getting mvp and everything that happened in s1, going into this season there isnt really any pressures, i mean they wanna win but now its like theres no super high expectation (like they is for shock and i sincerely hope shock shit the bed this season uwu) but im actually excited and i think they will get more wins than they got this year (they got 22 wins this year and 6 losses)

so like,, this was a useless rant but i wanna say i love nyxl and my esgb and lets go for another atlantic title bois 🥴🤪

[unfortunatecookie]

I feel so ugh rn. Its weird idk, i just. i have these frens ive known for a year and these were the first ones ive had in this new environment. When i talk to them sometimes they just dont reply even tho theyve seen the message and i feel insecure,,,,, am i like not enough for them??? Add the fact that they made a separate group chat without me labeled, in our languange, '*myname* isnt allowed here* which i learned about a few months ago, but they then added me and the name changed into '*me* is allowed now!* and we dont even talk there at all. A different fren told me that its not me whos the problem but i kinda think it is me, im way too paranoid, i might have anxiety idk,, its just generally scary, the thought of me returning to school and not having any frens like i did when i first started

This just might be me being too paranoid for my own good or i have a legitimate problem and that i shouldn't have frens such as the frens ive talked about on this post because im just not enough??? They're good and funny ppl who help me and i help them, they laugh at my jokes and take me seriously n shit but god, i was just trying to help them and then they just ignore it? waiting for me to actually just say, hey im sorry if im being to expectant of your time of day because its either that or yall hate me, and they don't confirm nor deny that!! I just,,,,, i dont like this situation

[orlamccools]

ok so he came in just as i was and like we passed each other in the hallway and he said hey and that was cool and good and all and then even before checking in w the guy he was replacing he was chilling up at the desk w us and just chatting w me and my coworker

and then like abt an hour into the shift one of the uppers mark was getting ready to leave so he came up to customer service to call back to someone else in the store via the store phone. as he was walking up wbnt was walking over to the desk but then did a little spin bc he probably didnt wanna get in trouble for chatting w us. as he did tho mark was like “hey wbnt, dance for us!” bc of the song playing so he did a little awkward dance and it was cute ngl so i like laughed an smiled. and mark looks over at me and is like “hes such a character isnt he?” and i was still sorta blushing and had this wide ass smile and i was like “yeah he really is” and mark just smiled more at that in a knowing way. and like part of me is like “oh shit maybe he thinks theres something here too” but another part of me isnt worried bc he met his longterm gf at hyvee and theyve been dating for like eight years now so like. hes in no place to judge imo

anywhomst we talk a lot and complain abt customers until its finally the end of the night and im in the safe room and i hear a bunch of yelling and wbnt walks in a few minutes later complaining again but we make like crazy eye contact and talk and as im leaving i tell him to have a good few days off (bc hes using his paid vacay time) and he was like “wait before you go do you work next weekend?” so i was like “yeah next sunday” and this man deadass said “great cant wait to see you then” so like!!! and as i was finally walking out of the store he was on a register checking someone out and he looked at me and like CHECKED me out like full up and down and normally im not a fan of that but YALL. i smiled at him and as i passed him it just grew it took up my whole face i must have looked insane

yall….☺️☺️☺️☺️

[rezby]

reminiscions, so to speak

I’ve been thinkin about this for a while, but havent really sat down to try to formulate this. But a lot of people whom I knew as teenagers or early 20s, when I was a teenager. There are sooo many people who are now (publically) trans, or at least not-cis, that I remember from back in jr high or high school, before anybody had really figured out The Genders. It makes me really glad, to see how many people are self-actualizing. I love to see the updates in their lives that they post on fb, at least the ones who haven’t defriended me. (This enjoyment is only a little vicarious, truth be told. It is mostly genuine happiness for them).

I know its very likely that I’ll never reconnect with any of the people with whom i’ve grown distant (not through any fault of their own. it really is 90% circumstances (everybody moving across the country, to either like boston or ... seattle? portland? Big Oregon City, or for those who are still local just issues of me not having a lot of free time with which to hang out with them) and 10% my hell brain self-sabotaging relationships/avoiding everything), but I often think about them and how they’re doing.

One of the people I’ve mentioned hasn’t defriended me on FB, and I still interact with their posts every now and then - I think a lot about the time when I was 16 and said some really horrific things to them without realizing just what I was saying. I’ve been feeling terrible about it, but I know I’ll never actually send them the apology I want to send - they deserve better than to be reminded of it out of the blue.

At one point last October, I was on this other person’s FB wall, i dont even remember why. sometime in like january or Dec, I saw a comment on somebody else’s status by somebody with the same last name as this person, with similar viewpoints. I click around, and figure out that this person has defriended me, and also publically came out on fb as trans. Last week I saw a photo posted of them with their sign at the chicago trans liberation march (which obvs I didnt go to, i’m not Out and I dont intend to be, until the time of my choosing, so i dont interact publically with Trans (tm) things. i’m fb friends with both my parents), and they looked really happy. Not about the occasion, but as a person, it looked like they had let an awful amount of weight off their shoulders. I remember them being as deeply unhappy as many of us  were, back in high school (a lot of us were deeply depressed. It just turns out for a few of us that the depression was tied to the Genders so getting stuff done for the one helped the other). So, I’m glad that theyve realized their gender and are happier for it. I also wonder (a lot) if thats why they defriended me - I’m not really out on fb, and since I haven’t spoken to this person in years they probs wouldn’t even know that I’m also non cis, so maybe they defriended me when they did their official fb transition stuff. I get it, it would make sense to, but... it still wounds me, a bit.

those two were a couple years older than me and I was never that close to ‘em in high school. this third person was in my grade and a couple classes with me, and.... I was a horrible person to them. Not intentionally, I’ve always had the best of intentions, but that doesn’t mean the actions i had done weren’t horribly misogynistic or racist. A few things I didn’t even realize until years later, what I actually had been doing. They defriended me a couple years back. They’re non-cis as well, but I dont know anything more specific than that.

That was the Complicated Feelings w/r/t the non-cis folk i knew in high school. I had some online friends whove also come to realize their own genders as well, who I’ve also grown apart form. This one was largely due to MSN messenger no longer being a thing, and then me getting busy with irl stuff and basically never being online anymore. I don’t really got any Complicated Feelings for most of this group, its mostly that I miss them but realize there’s p much no feasible way to get back into regular comms with them, and I’ve accepted that.

There was one person, who knew they were trans all the way back when I first met them. But they never talked about it with me. At least 85% of our conversations were political. At the time, I was in early high school, where I was a libertarian at the time. They were staunchly communist, I figure marxist is probs the best term for their beliefs but I’ll be honest, I know jack diddly squat about the academic details of the different schools of communist thought. Anyways, we chatted a lot on MSN back when that was around. At one point I started FB friending the other online friends I’ve got, but this person never actually accepted the friend request. its still in their inbox. I last talked to them about 3 or 4 years ago, I believe in my 2nd year of college. I asked why they hadnt accepted the friend request and they said somethin to the tune of ‘im an asshole lol’. this persons typing style is completely different from that but thats the effect my memory has of that message. Our conversation at the time also turned political. Now, after getting to college and having my eyes opened at, well, a lot of stuff, i’ve since become fairly leftist. probably communist? socialist? idk. Anyways, at the time, I was pretty caught up in the politics of one tumblr user Moneycat. If you weren’t around for that, the gist of it (as i recall) was that... actually, i honestly can’t recall the minutae or which parts werent very good. there are other posts going around from some years back that go over her politics and the flaws thereof. one of their ideas was that gender is a social class, inasmuch as bourgeoisie or proletariat are, and that trans women are a distinct social class from cis women and men. I had recently read one of her posts about how gender theorizing had led her to become a communist, and how the two were inextricably linked, and tbh she was this huge popular rly smart trans lady blogger so i p much hero worshiped her and adopted as many of her politics as i could understand. So I tried explaining this gender theory of communism to my old communist pal, and they were very displeased by it. I did a poor job, to be sure, but they disagreed staunchly. I dont remember the other details of what I was arguing but I do remember it was more out there than just what i’ve typed so far. Cuz I opened the conversation with “hey did you know that i’ve also become a communist now?” or somethin like that, and they were like ‘oh nice, how did you come to this conclusion?” and I went into moneycat’s gender communism and they did not agree. And that was our last conversation. and idk how to start conversations. Even tho we’re not fb friends, i can still IM them via fb, so the option is always open, but I never do it. I miss this person a lot, and its been hurting me for years that they never accepted the friend request. we actually had been decently close online (as far as I recall. i have poor memory at best in general, and there’s a good chance I actually have brain trauma that’s making my memory even worse but that appointment is in may). and they’re fb friends with all our mutual online friends. so its just me. i’m not good enoguh.

And I know if I actually ever made a snapchat I could probably easily get back in contact with literally everybody ever, I know for a fact that all but the last person have snapchats, and I’m p sure that they’d all be receptive to at least messages over it, but.... I tried making a snapchat once, and was immedietely conflicted. Do I go with my IRL name and snap with my family and classmates and colleagues? If I do that, I dont want to have my snapchat available online here cuz I want to maintain at least a veneer of separation between my online identity and my “family” “professional” identity.  Or do I go with my online name, but then refuse to snap w/ like my mom and sis? I ended up deleting the app and never doing anything with it. so I basically refuse to have a snapchat, and p much only have fb these days, which... is not the best method of communication.

Compounding this is my awkwardness with people i’ve known for a while - my memory really does get atrocious about some things, to the point where i’ve hung out with people for years before actually knowing 100% their name. this is deeply embarassing for me, and I dont wanna hurt em, so I dont let on that I dont remember their names. especially if i’ve known them for forever, but havent had a ton of meaningful interactions with them, theres a v good chance i’ll know them, i’ll recognize them, but i wont be able to drum up their name from the depths of my mind. this is awkward. so i sometimes avoid going to places where there are people who might fit this bill. some people from high school who I kinda knew and hung out in the same friend group as me, and a lot of my not immediate (step)relatives. so at the photos for the trans march, where I saw the photo of the one person from 2nd bullet point, I also saw a lot of other people from high school who I’d be awkward around. altho this reminds me, there was a 4th person actually, from high school as well. i think... they blocked me? i dot remember. i know they werent on fb a lot, but they were fb friends with me. i just went through my own friend list as well as that of 2 people who i thought would be mutuals with them but... i dont see them. I’m p sure i recall seeing like,,,, last year or 1.5 years ago that they had changed their fb name from their birth name to a feminine name, as well as changed their gender and all that other stuff that comes with coming Out? but I dont recall and I cant find em anymore. if they have blocked me.... oh well. nothin i can do about it. about any of it really. nothing that i’m going to do anyways.