#theyve both been my bias for so long

[eunhos]

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[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

[cod-thoughts]

Ghost for the character ask !! (or Alejandro if Ghost was asked already 👉​👈​)

waaaa thank you for the ask omg (i say scared you're in my inbox /lh)

Neither has been asked yet so ill do both i guess lol (this got very long so im adding a read more, i ramble when im bored whoops)

favourite thing about them

ooo this is hard actually but i think the way ghost just is exactly who he is. As traumatised and as gruff as that man is he just kind of does what he wants for himself. The mask, the gloves, the behaviour, its all just for him. no one else benefit and idk i think theres something to be said about that.

least favourite thing about them

hmmm i dont know. This is more of a fandom nitpick than about ghost but a lot of people i think picture him with a certain body and my gym rat ass self is just there like??? theres no shot he has abs hello?? (is this a personal bias? maybe but shhh) I also do wish we got more of his backstory in the reboots or really any backstory at all.

favourite line

OOO this is hard, part of me wants to pick a dad joke but the first one that came to mind is when Soap is introducing them to ale and rudy and Ghost just goes. "Tha'll do." dont know why. but it is pfft.

brOTP

everyone. Ghost is actually just friendly but standoffish to me. I think he'd make friends easy once they get over the fact that its him. Yes he's a loner but that doesnt mean he's lonely.

OTP

this is so hard oooof. GhostPrice is just so incredible i love their dynamic so much but also Ghoap although the most obvious one is kind of hard to deny hmmm. I will say tho NikPriceGhost is an OT3 ive been toying around with and lets just say i LOVE the potential there. (not so secretly think Ghost is a poly king and is actually able to navigate it well)

nOTP

Ghost with any woman im sorry that is a gay man (to me at least)

random headcanon

He has a really really big sweet tooth that he doesnt tell anyone about. (been thinking about this for ghostprice week hehehe)

unpopular opinion

hmmm i guess i said a few while answering the others lmao

song i associate with them

cirice - ghost. Not because the band name but the lyrics are just so ghost. And freak on a leash - korn for the same reasons OH and undertow - tool

favorite picture of them

i just love his eyes holy shit, brown eyes ghost > blue eyed ghost

favourite thing about them

hes just so loyal. Something about that unwavering loyalty is so cool to see even when he's wrong about something he's just loyal to a fault. good or bad its an interesting thing

least favourite thing about them

i cant think of anything, we dont get to see enough of him for me to think of something

favourite line

and who the fuck do you think you are, cabrón. My men are inside!

brOTP

him and ghost. i think they understand each other in a way thats unexpected but welcomed by both.

OTP

alerudy, like come on. To me not only are they together, i think they're each others first everything kind of relationship, theyve been together longer than theyve been without the other, i think thats the only reason for how they act like the other being there is a given without it being implied to be romantic and instead a deep friendship.

nOTP

him and valeria. i get it as exes or smth but i just dont see it in their interactions sorry 0_0

random headcanon

I think he's secretly a musician or a music nerd. Any kind of music at all, he'll try to learn any instrument he can get his hands on and its not uncommon for him to be singing in his office as he does paperwork.

unpopular opinion

i dont think i have any?

song i associate with them

this is actually really hard so im gonna pick artists as vibes or like his favourites: Haken, karnivool, queens of the stone age, the gulls and the marías for when he wants smth soft (i also think him and rudy dance to ale singing something from any of these artists)

favourite picture of them

widows peak my beloved

[werewolfsonpage211]

trans and autistic

this is just my personal account of how i feel being autistic has effected my transition. these experiences are in no way exclusive to being autistic and trans. i havent seen a post like this so i thought why not make it. cw gender dysphoria.

change. i dont like change.* unfortunately its kinda what transitioning is all about. when i first realised i was trans i thought i would never tell anyone. when i realised i wanted top surgery i cried. i kept questioning for years if top surgery was right for me because the idea of purposefully changing my body like that was so foreign to me. and yet i wanted it. it felt wrong to want it. it took long to get over my own bias that plastic surgery is unnatural or selfish and to accept why i myself wanted and needed it. after all that soul searching it was comparatively easier to realise i also wanted hrt. hrt means many small changes happening gradually, which made it easier for me to get comfortable with the idea. the fact that you can microdose it and that you can stop the treatment whenever you want to absolutely helped. it also helped to "try out" some of the effects. do i want a lower voice? i could feel it out by lowering my voice and doing voice training exercises (ofc not the same result as hrt but you get it). do i want more body hair? i reflected on how i felt about the sparse but present body hair i already have, and how it felt to find new hairs (euphoria!!) also ngl the tiktok beard filters helped. *thats a simplification, but many forms of change make me feel uncomfortable.

communication. i felt i needed to be absolutely 100% sure about my identity before coming out to Anyone. i struggle with unclear communication/instructions so i tend to assume other people also prefer more details rather than less details + i fear that other people will missunderstand me if im not clear enough. and in order to be clear i felt like i needed to Know beyond a doubt my gender, pronous and name. this lead to me being in the closet longer + seeking care later than i probably would have otherwise.

emotions. i struggle with anticipating other peoples reactions to stuff. i feared how my parents might react - would they cry? would they argue with me? would they think i was weird? and theyve literally been so chill about it. i would say my bar was on the floor but there really was no bar, i had no expectations at all because i couldnt even guess.

change again! asking people to use new pronouns and a new name. i first came out with using all pronouns. i now use he/they. saying i used all pronous felt easier because it meant no correcting people. turns out it wasnt right for me, and i kinda already knew that when i came out. but i felt i had to take it in small steps. i was never the one to cannonball into the water from the diving tower. i walk in slowly, one step at a time, rather putting my body through every small shock of cold against my skin than that one big shift. to some it might seem like self torture but to me it is the more comfortable choice. i wanted to come out but i wasnt ready to ask people to stop using she/her. so "all pronouns" became a stepping stone, one i am very grateful for. some people want nothing to do with their old name. im changing mine to the masculine coded version of my old name. calling it a new name is rich seeing as im just removing a few letters. i want the change to be as undramatic as possible, for both me AND for everyone else. other people being uncomfortable makes me feel Super uncomfortable. with the small change im making its easy to cover up if the worng name slips out. to me, my old and new names dont even have to be regarded as different names, just variations of the same name. yeah, i prefer the masc version, but tbh i will answer to anything that sounds remotely like my name. i just want it to be uncomplicated. in the same vein, my prefered pronouns are he/they, but im not going to correct everyone who calls me she/her. when and on whom i use that energy will be highly circumstantial.

special interests. ive done a lot of research. ive read a lot about gender affirming care, what it can (and cant) do, where and how you can get it, what people who have gotten it have to say. ive watched a lot of trans youtubers video essays and commentary, a lot of top surgery vlogs, and several videos made by medical professionals documenting the surgical procedure of detitification itself. ive joined several internet communities on facebook, discord and reddit to take part in other trans peoples knowledge, experiences and thoughts. ive prepared and held presentations on being trans on tdov. and i tend to forget that not every trans person ...does all that. (which is not a critique, i know its a lot.) (which is not a brag, i know im weird.)

societal norms. gender roles are weird right? and the whole concept of gender? thinking about it can give me a headache. i think autistic people are slightly more likely than allistic people to question the gender binary, simply because were more likely to not conform to social/societal norms. i initially identified only as non-binary. now i identify as a non-binary trans man. i do still wonder why i identify as a man - what makes me a man, what makes anyone a man, what makes me feel like a man. and i hate to say it, but i havent come up with a satisfactory answer. i just do. it doesnt completely make sense to me, but it makes more sense than anything else. at this point ive just accepted that some things give me gender euphoria, some things give me gender dysphoria, and all in all i think "man" describes me fairly well. i also think if id been amab i wouldve still identified as non-binary, just not had as much dysphoria nor required as much gender affirming care. i could go into further detail on my exact gender identity, but i also dont feel the need to be super open about it. not everyone needs to know every part of my identity. most people only need my name and pronouns. and as i said, i like it uncomplicated.

hey share your own experiences of being trans and autistic if you like? in tags/just add on to the post! i probably will if i think of more

[wri0thesley]

my fave hurt/comfort scenario will ALWAYS be arguments.. especially in poly relationships. its a guilty pleasure of mine, being the third addition in bruabba’s relationship, arguments are inevitable. and since bruabba have been with eachother longer, its obvious that a little bias would be present. maybe its something abbacchio said, and bruno taking his side feels like theyre both ganging up on you until the floodgates take over and they realize how wrong they were and how theyve hurt you in the process, possibly making you feel more isolated from the both of them.. the rest of the night will obviously be filled with hugs and kisses and tear stained apologies (most likely from abbacchio)

ohhh i’m a sucker for an occasional hurt/comfort but i can’t take too much of it, i am soft! i think with poly ships where you come into an established relationship the jealousy aspect is very interesting to explore too; they’re always going to have been together longer, seem to understand better . . . it’s best when the other two realise what’s going on and it ends with lovely soft reassurances and kisses and the reminder that all three of you are equally important ;_;. 

i can definitely see abbacchio’s occasionally sardonic and acidic nature being the cause of a couple of arguments; especially if one day he does let slip something about how ‘you wouldn’t know, you haven’t known him as long as i have’ about bruno and he realises he’s overstepped the mark . . . bruno chides him and he apologises immediately, his stomach twisting into knots that you’ll remember this and hold it against him forever, before all of you realise that the way you know each other is different from the way they know each other, and what makes you work so well as a team is that balance . . .

[rqs902]

on one hand im happy that this means there’s gonna be a lot of official content since the eps are supposedly so long that they gotta cut them in half. 

youku has been pretty consistent with giving us a relatively good amount of official content. but on the other hand im always slightly concerned that by splitting up perfs, those whose perfs get aired first will have a competitive voting advantage since (as long as they do well) those kids will have a full extra day of persuading people to vote for them through their stage performance. It’s not as huge of a deal as when other shows split performances across weeks, because a whole week ahead is a much bigger advantage than one day ahead. but every day can help those who need the votes. at least akey and zhan yu got aired today.... feels bad for jin fan because he really needs the votes. 

also another down side is just this show’s eps are SO LONG they’re eating up a ton of my free time LOOOL but thats how these shows always go for me... because I always end up taking like double the amount of time to watch an ep, just to pause, digest, rewatch sections that i like (sometimes multiple times), make sure i understand, etc. i feel like these shows always consume my life during the few months they’re airing so i’ll just enjoy it while I can HAH

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anyway ep 4 starting with singapore buddies huang junrong and sun yinghao speaking english with their singapore accents!!!!! lol can totally relate to yinghao tho, like when you cant read chinese you gotta find someone to translate for you

yang chaowen with dog!!!!! i wonder if the dog really likes him LOL they seem to appear together on camera often. akey with chen junhao!! and zuo linjie!! making friends!!!

lol i feel like the group leader choice method is some sort of extended advertisement for knock off apple products lol.........

HAHAHHAHAHAH LIN MO’S VIDEO STARTING OFF ALL FORMAL AND NERVOUS AND THEN XUE EN’S CUTS HIM WITH HIM BEING STUPID. I LOVE IT. there’s two types of people. how did they not vote for xue en HAHAHAH

interesting that they picked the songs for the self-composition group ahead of time, rather than make them make the song as part of the competition (looks at produce camp... fireman is my jam but the east binhe road team ran into complications with that, so I can see why it’d be more risky to let them do that again) but lucky for zheng renyu and li chenxu tho! I’m interested in hearing their music so i dont mind, just kinda wondering what the other kids who picked composition would’ve brought to the table

oh theyre still giving yan an screen time... every time i see him im happy but then feel oof

oo zhanyu’s first stage look is just so nice oof xikan talking to lin mo but lin mo looks ded and is all eye patched up :( 

LOL su er all jubilant over a sexy concept song - good luck with that

oooof this shot of jin fan’s perfect side angle 

aw akey being bested by shaopeng at every match... but im so excited to see what they can do together, theyre both so good at making music!!!! the resident music makers for each of their respective groups, tyger and coreone, theyre both so talented! def shaopeng has and deserves the credit but hopefully people will see akey contributed too bc im sure the two of them really led together, being the most experienced rappers hahaha

WHOA csp opening up to qu boyu and saying he has older step brother and sister who have a different mom from him and encouraging him to just be real when writing because there will be people out there who connect with his lyrics awww hes really taking this child under is wing and teaching him from zero, hes really like a big bro taking care of him and enjoying watching him grow. im glad csp is opening up and is self reflective enough to realize that he hasnt done so enough in the past and that he should involve himself more with the others. 

im happy cui shaopeng got to feature in the bts clip for his group, he deserves it and hasnt gotten much screentime relative to his talent before. im happy akey got a little time and some recognition for his skills too. honestly just happy akey FINALLY got to do a rap stage..... wish we couldve gotten more huang enyu and huang junrong but im happy they got to show off their vocals!! for being young vocals in a rap performance, their stage presence were both really good too! csp’s entrance is epic wow. 

wow this is the most hyper performance ive ever seeeen wow im so happy for akey because we know how long hes been waiting for a rap stage and wow csp’s leadership must be top notch to get this group to somehow be cohesive with such a not cohesive song LOL i respect that csp really respected akey’s skill and let him shine too. akey was a second c if ive ever seen one lol. they both got to shine and so did everyone else in their group, which is telling of his leadership and why this stage turned out so well that even all the teachers like jackson were so hype LOL 

OOF shen bohuai and lin mo talking about how akey’s lyrics are so moving like lin mo wanted to cry and bohuai felt like he could tell akey’s been through a lot

lol xikan and bohuai being all tough and lin mo being like lol i feel the pressure. shaopeng smiling like a proud parent when boyu gets good comments c: oof rip akey and shaopeng’s votes tho :c 

lin ran’s look tho LOL but zhan yu’s is so questionable?? why is he in this group ?? LOL but i guess its his turn to do something cutesy. mannnn why does zhan yu look like hes surrounded by children but hes not even that much older//?? hahahha ooooo is this the center zhan yu of legend?? ?hahahah yayyy hopefully more people will notice him! you know when i heard zhan yu was gonna be center, this was not the type of song i was imagining, but hey if it takes a cutesy happy song and a bunch of little kids around to get zhan yu a chance to be center, ill take it! i wish they’d show us some practice footage?? im confused why there isnt any?? i think sun boran’s stage presence is good! zhan yu’s voice so powerful yess somehow he managed to show off different aspects of his vocal skills in this very plain song LOL  im surprised lin ran didnt stand out a lot but when they pointed out that he purposefully put himself in the back to protect his team members i think that makes sense bc he knows being cute isn’t going to be able to win them as many votes but if the less popular kids in his group dont get votes, its a lot more devastating for them than for himself. lin ran didnt want this song and he didnt want to be cute but he really didnt want kids to suffer from choosing his group. lin ran has a cute image but i appreciate that this time we got to see a more serious side of him. isnt it ridiculous that theyve literally trashed zuo qibo and lin mo about being old but then literally i didnt realize until now sun yinghao is the oldest??? (he looks really young wow and so tiny aw) but also like they never bring up akey being old either?? some sort of weird bias going on... but i mean good for yinghao and akey lol 

but aw im glad theyre giving yinghao some attention... 10 years and starting off with jackson? oof... 

ayy zhan yu getting the most votes!! 

kou cong being older bro to zlj but also ultimate mentor to cxh aw yay for him getting some recognition from the judges and jin fan supporting him too heheh but it says a lot that he recognizes cxh’s efforts and wanted to put in his own effort to help him

i wonder if them giving zlj less audience votes is an elaborate scheme to get him more pity votes from the general public lol.... well im excited to see the rest of the stages tomorrow! 

[like-twilight]

My 100 most listened to songs this year (that are on Spotify) :3

Ateez: Twilight (not even surprised there, its my favourite song ever)

Ateez: Wave (even though I’m an Illusion type of gal Illusion is usually for when i feel good, and Wave is when I want to feel better and keep my spirits up at work so. hence)

Ateez: Say My Name (she’s perfect)

Ateez: Illusion (AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE)

Ateez: Aurora (shut up its hONGJOONG’S SONG)

Ateez: Hala Hala (DEEP IN MY HEART, DEEP IN MY SOUL)

BTS: Boy With Luv (lies and deceit, this is NOT my most listened to BTS track, last.fm can back me up)

BTS: Dionysus (SHE WAS MY MOST PLAYED BTS TRACK AND thats the periodt on that tea i just aged fifty years)

Ateez: Utopia (WE CAN TOUCH UTOPIA WE CAN REACH THERE UTOPIA)

Ateez: Dancing Like Butterfly Wings (WHOUOOAH WHWOAUHAIFD)

Ateez: Pirate King (for the hundredth time, Hongjoong, i WILL be your friend)

BTS: Make It Right (no)

Seventeen: HIT (listen………………………………………….. shouldve been the title track)

TxT: Crown (i am so happy my most listened to txt track isnt….. something else…. *gulps* good job, hatchlings. and when will i stop calling you hatchlings? NEVER)

Ateez: Sunrise (HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHONGJOONG’S SONG - listen this song is cheesy and im absolutely in love with it. i want. joy. my heart Seeks it, i cant help it)

BTS: Mikrokosmos (like i said fuck joy)

Taemin: Stone Heart (im being called out for being a sad thot. or a horny emo. idk)

GentleBeatz: Cold Night (pls im crying)

ATEEZ: Precious (MINGIIIIYYAAAAAHHHHH. fuck it up, son)

BTS: Home (im exhauussted man. guess wat. i jus wanna go home. ME TOO, namjoon)

Day6: Beautiful Feeling (its the tragedy of my life that there are no caps in hangul. this is truly. the most beautiful song and it brings me so much happiness. and dowoon. it brings me so much dowoon.)

Seventeen: CLAP (*vibrating at a frequency that could shatter glass* bbbBAkKKSSsUUUuu)

Sunmi: LaLaLay (this is why i think this list definitely has a limit on how many songs you can have from an artist on this list because LaLaLay is like my fiftieth most-listened to this year according to last.fm and has a lot of BTS and Seventeen and more ATEEZ before it so idk. anyway sunmi good, release a minialbum pleaaaase?)

BTS: Jamais Vu (its jins song :<)

Ateez: Crescent (*closes eyes* nO)

Day6: Like That Sun (BOIIII day6 really is something else)

Seventeen: Home (honestly? i cry. awh i cant believe this year started with seventeen, it was so so so so nice to become a carat x””””) and this song, man… warmth ♥)

BTS: Intro: Persona (WHO THE HELL AM I)

Ateez: Treasure (hoOOOOBOI thank fuck i watched the dance practice that made me appreciate this song better x””))

Taemin: Want (quote from myself: “I’m not sure about the song but Taemin is a really beautiful man” oKAY)

Seventeen: Our Dawn Is Hotter Than Day (my actual favourite svt song :”””) its. peace ♥)

Lauv: I’m So Tired (bitch i am)

Ateez: Promise (NO ONE TAAAKE YOOUUUUU DOOOOOOOWN)

NCT Dream: Boom (what are these foetuses doing here lmao)

BTS: I Need U (whats THIS motherfucker doing here x”) fuck off)

BSS: Just Do It (the Only Song)

Ateez: My Way (this Hongjoong rap……. i swear, my LIFE)

Seventeen: Boomboom (the LEAST LIKED SVT TITLE TRACK??!?! kiSS MY BUTT)

BTS: Mic Drop (u kno, the steve aoki one)

……………. TxT: Cat & Dog (listen…… its Yeonjun’s rap, i swear! IM INNOCENT!!!)

Ateez: Stay (me: its the Wanted intro song! x”””))

Seventeen: Don’t Wanna Cry (ulgo shipji anha bitch)

BTS: Blood Sweat & Tears (last year’s most listened………. still as horny as ever)

NCT 127: Superhuman (they do have a lot of songs that i love but i feel like this is the song?! like The Song?!?!? The Comeback? its just so well put together and i love LOVE the choreo. doyoung ate the vocals)

Ateez: Desire (another song i really didnt appreciate in the beginning but. I changed my ways, i promise, tHAT OUTROOOOOO)

Stray Kids: Miroh (fine, fINE THEY GOT ME WITH THIS ONE)

Seventeen: Lie Again (bitch. also i realised my favourite line isnt even said by mingyu its said by mr. scoops. anyway im in pain)

BTS: Anpanman (i still cant believe how Actually good this song is x”””))

Ateez: Wonderland (you know for a song that was only released two months ago! only one of which was measured by spotify, its p good! gAJAAAAA)

Taemin: Sexuality (that one perf. you know the one. yeah.)

Apink: 응응 (this was released in JANUARY and its still one of the best songs this year)

 BTS: Trivia: Seesaw (he has a CHOREO)

Ateez: Light (yuNHO’S SONG)

Seventeen: Getting Closer (fuck them haters, this is the most well-put together svt song that exists fight me about it)

Shinee: Symptoms (this song is Beautiful, i remember going through shinee’s discography and being FLOORED)

BTS: Go Go (yoloyoloyoloyo)

Ateez: WIN (AAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEE)

Seventeen: Bring It (Hoshi: imma kill everyone in this mofakin house)

Taemin: Artistic Groove (”oh i dont like this song that much” she said “Im a fucking LIAR” she said)

BTS: Pied Piper (why nOT DIMPLE)

Ateez: Mist (WOOYOUNG’S SONG)

Seventeen: If I (The Hip Hop Unit Song)

Taemin: Move (its Her)

BTS: Epiphany (:< lovely jin ♥ i remember getting into bts and deciding to bias jin Immediately and then five days later this bitch drops you ain ever seen an emotional rollercoaster like that)

Ateez: Thank U (dude when yunho and yeosang go hAL MARI ISSEO and the jongho goes nEOL SAENGGAKHAMYEON BYE)

Seventeen: Moonwalker (this is so random x”) WHY NOT ROCKET since i have to be tormented by my sins anyway)

Taemin: Shadow (fair, fair, this was my favourite from this album for a long time)

Trivia: Love (nae sarang sarang sarang) 

Ateez: Dazzling Light (CHOREO!??!?!)

Seventeen: No F.U.N. (this is such a random selection of svt songs spotify put in here x”””))

Taemin: my current fave from this album :””))

NCT 127: Touch (BITCH IM SO SOFT FOR THIS SONG ITS SO CUTE)

Ateez: With U (cOFFEE SHOP MUSIC)

BTS: Begin (why this. i dont even like jk)

Block B: Very Good - Rough Ver. (of course this is on here x”””) LETS GO)

Day6: Sing Me (that one live did it for me where jae just Goes Missing and then he’s in the middle of the crowd suddenly yes very good)

Ateez: If Without You (little known fact the OOOOH and WhoOOOAOaa sound effects in the background are all Me)

Taemin: Danger (neolhumchyeogayohumchyeogayo)

BTS: Dimple (finally! anyway this choreo was a mistake)

NCT 127: Simon Says (”i dont like this song that much” sHE LIED AGAIN)

Ateez: Beginning of the End (why lmao)

Day6: Somehow (ahhh this used to be my ultimate favourite day6 song and its still v close to the top ahahhHfdjhkéfdosdjágf I love IT)

Seventeen: Hug :<

Oneus: 가자 (GIVE ONEUS THEIR WELL-DESERVED WIN THEY HAD THREE KILLER TITLE TRACKS THIS YEAR THEYRE AMAZING)

NCT U: Boss (jungooooo ♥♥)

BTS: Reflection (Kim Namjoon Made Me Cry In Public????!!?!)

Seventeen: Highlight (get. out. of. my. sight.)

Bastille: Bad Decisions (is…. is this the first (and possibly only…) non k-pop song on this list,!??! hahAhfddéjfdk)

Day6: Shoot Me (DEI SIKSEU DEI SIKSEU WHOOOOOOOOOO that was the fanchant)

Steve Aoki (feat. two random people): Waste It On Me (kim namjoon stop telling me to eat you)

Seventeen: Oh My! (ah when i used to listen to this every morning to give me Good Mood)

Oneus: Twilight (taEYANGI TTEOREOJINDA)

Taemin: Thirsty (same)

Editors: Barricades (oh good, save me, tom, sAVE ME. this song is actually amazing. i love uhhhhh uUUUHHHH frankenstein and the other new ones (i know their titles) but this one is just up there too ♥♥)

Seventeen: Good to Me (and then mingyu outthotted everyone and the world exploded, the end)

Day6: 121U (the song that first got stuck with me!)

Baekhyun: UN Village (this is so random but i mean i wont lie.)

The Boyz: Bloom Bloom (im so happy this is on here. these guyz deserve so much more love and recognition ♥♥ both bloom bloom and ddd are amazing and. theyve had a year)

Seventeen: Very Nice (you could say this song is… aju nice ;-))

Momomeme: Gogobebe (oh does this mean i can be bisexual? since theres a gg on this list? PLEEEEEEASE)

[madisonrooney]

so.........um........clueless!!!

uhhhhhhh ok so first of all

I MET THOMAS

i was almost sure he would be there and in her typical fashion, my mom spotted him first lmao. i caught him by himself so i went up to him and told him im a huge descendants fan and wanted to say hi and that i was there for dove and he thought that was so cool and we got a picture and i told him how hype i am for D3 and he said its gonna be amazing

then the show and THE SHOW WAS FANTASTIC. and like listen i know im technically “biased” but hey i fell in love with the girl initially bc i love her acting skills! so like...i dont call that bias so much as personal taste? if that makes sense? but really she was incredible. hilarious, adorable, and girl can SANG. like we been knew but gurl can SAAANG ive had few other opportunities to see her sing live for that long. well technically one other time being mamma mia and that was from quite a distance, this time i was in like the fourth row. the whole show was just hilarious and adorable and lovably 90s. the whole cast was great. i finally watched the movie about a week ago and i think it REALLY kept the spirit of it. i think long time fans will be satisfied. it even kept a lot of the same dialogue, beyond just the most iconic lines.

and during intermission i spotted....the producer of jersey boys??? listen ive watched their tonys acceptance speech one too many times so i was like um i know that guy. and i told him how much i love the show and how i saw it for the 10th time last night and he was so cool.

went out into the lobby after the show to look for dove. caught thomas’ eye and smiled at him and he waved at me :)

met a lot of the cast and they were all great!!

then spotted dove and hfjghdfjkghdfjkh

her mom spotted me from the line and smiled and winked at me :D

as i moved closer dove spotted me and her face lit up and she waved

then i got up to her and got the usual “hi baby!!! so good to see you!!” and hug! gave her flowers (WHICH SHE LATER POSTED ON HER INSTA STORY????) (and when we got our picture she was like ‘let me put these beautiful flowers on display’) and told her the whole “my mom and i said like a year ago that whenever you inevitably made it to broadway we would be here for the first show” and she was like “oh yah i saw you in the audience!! in the front on the left, right?” and im like “..............YES??? HOLY SHIT????” (i thought id seen her look my way at one point but im like i doubt she saw me BUT SURE ENOUGH)

she even gave my mom a hug and thanked her for making all this happen. lots of hugs and i love yous for both of us as usual :)

WHJFKGHFJDKG so my mom said “we finally got to meet thomas for the first time! hes so cute ;)” and thomas was right by there so she was like “oh yah hes the best. hey tommy! they approve of you! and theyve been around longer than you have!”

THEYVE BEEN AROUND LONGER THAN YOU HAVE

ARE WE DATING NOW OR WHAT

then i was like “so im graduating college next summer and i miiiiiight be seeing light in the piazza opening night” and she was like “you have to!” and i was like “no i mean like i AM i have tickets” lmao and she was so excited and gave me a high five

either during a hug or picture she like....put her head against mine

and as i left she said “see you in a few months!”

then my mom congratulated her mom and we said bye to thomas

and then i walked through the cold of new york city crying

so.......yah

you know the drill. every time i get to see this girl, even if i dont get to meet her, is beyond BEYOND special, but this is one of the most special experiences weve ever had. its one ive dreamed of for so long. not only to get to meet her but to see her work her magic on stage!!! she is incredible in film and tv, but i think theatre is really her calling, and i know thats what she was most exposed to growing up so it stands to reason. this is only the beginning yall (literally. with light and the piazza around the corner.)

bittersweet that its over, but for the first time in god knows how long, i actually know when im seeing her next!! and its for something super special!! it may not be for a while, but i almost like it better that way, bc i get to spend these next 7 months getting to look forward to it, KNOWING im seeing her again soon. and knowing how things work out, i very well may get to see her beforehand. (RDMAs? book signing? maybe something else? who knows)

not to say they weren’t amazing, but the last handful of times ive seen her have often had a downside (hocus pocus i could see her but couldnt meet her, mamma mia/bellami hair/build i didnt know when id get to see her next, build we didnt get to talk much, etc.) but this was just perfect in every way. we got to talk for the longest weve gotten to in nearly a YEAR, and i got to see her in her FUCKING OFF-BROADWAY DEBUT!!!! AND KNOW WHEN IM SEEING HER AGAIN! AND SEE HER MOM! AND MEET THOMAS! AND I HADNT SEEN HER IN EIGHT MONTHS AND SHE RECOGNIZES ME RIGHT AWAY! WOW!

so. yah. i love my gf and SEE CLUELESS IF YOU CAN

[yeoldontknow]

Hiiii! I read on here that you’ve been super busy so I hope you’re doing well

hi sweet anon!! im so so sorry for the delay on this. i took a big step back on tumblr during the month of march because i had so much happening. it was difficult and so im sorry im behind on this cute ask. YES I ULT CHAN WITH THE FIRE OF 1000000000 UNIVERSES. hes literally my heart and soul. AND YES SWEET HOSEOK IS MY SUN AND STARS OF THAT UNIVERSE. im so excited to match my mutuals. i love these theyre so much fun. i got lots of rest, thank you so much bean

yoongi + @daegusoftboys: ive said it before and i will say it again: joongi is my otp. i know she has other biases in other groups but like...theyre passing fancies. joongi is the moon that hangs in the night sky. they are such a strong yet soft power couple. like the coolest couple in the room. delicate and pure and sweet, while also so deeply intense in the way they communicate and understand each other. theres a lot of earth and air energy in their partnership, and i just get so delighted knowing they would be each others rock. together there is literally nothing they cant do. SO with that said, joongi are going out on their 5000000000000th date and i guess are engaged at this point? they are going to a dog park, where they are going to sit and play with doggos and hug them and then have a picnic on the water with a lot of cheese and wine and laughter and i and all our friends will sit 100 yards back crying about how much we love them

taehyung + @from-dae-do-dae: i have also said this before and i will say it again: fei and tae are going on their third date to an art museum. its starting in the morning and its going late into the night. i imagine them at the met in new york, looking at classical art and moving between movements until they get to american mid century pastorals. this is where they discuss light and the movement of light in the styles of paintings. then they move to the photography hall where they spend FAR too long, discussing filtering, development techniques and mixed media. then they go to the hall of instruments where they both shed a few tears, and fei goes on to discuss how caravaggio, as amazing as he was, was mostly a painter of music and tae swoons so hard he almost goes blind. at 5 the museum is about to close so and they realize they havent eaten, so they go to dinner at a nice restaurant to have tapas and seafood fare with wine. they talk about the art they saw, and then move on to discuss deep thoughts, hopes and dreams. they expose each other raw but in a gentle fashion, the kind where you ask a series of questions no one can follow until they arent even sure why theyre discussing the reasons its difficult for them to accept and receive love, but there they are - two bottles of wine in and still they dont want to stop. so they walk through central park along the water and for some reason they dont need to talk anymore they just want to be together. /this got out of control/

jimin + @yeol-stole-my-soul: these beans are going to disney world and universal. fight me about it. jimin needs to loosen up and have fun and maria sleeps even less than i do, and needs to be somewhere she can bang pots and pans as loudly as she wants and no one will mind. i fantasize about them running around, going on all the rides, eating everything, screaming at everything, and then staying out until the park closes. the park empties early of kids around 10 so thats two hours of no lines and running around the park doing everything twice. fun. pure fun. FUN AND - romantic. dont think so? jimins face lighting up at the fireworks over the castle - thats fucking magical. marias face when she realizes not only is the food in epcot delicious, but it tastes just like how her mother makes it. trust me. thats magic, and thats real shit. no one is ever as vulnerable as when theyre delighted because happiness is difficult to hold and this is something they get to hold together. when joy and nostalgia mix, that is when you really learn a person. its easy to see them scared and angry - see a person caught pure delight and that is when you see their soul. 

jungkook + @queenoftheimpala: these shy beans are taking a painting with wine class. sure, kook probably wont drink and if he does hell be super slow about it. but ali, my delightful beautiful best friend, will take to the bottle like shes drinking gold and will finally let herself open up. when she lets herself go, hes done for. truly, you cant see ali being herself and NOT fall in love. his ass will swoon so hard hell fall through the floor, covered in paint. together, theyll make art. see why they pick the shapes and colours they choose, learn why they make lines different from one another. ‘my hand is shaky,’ hell say without any confidence, even though his lines are perfect. ‘ive always been terrible at art,’ ali will laugh, sheepish, even though she gets it right without trying. they dont really need to say anything to one another, they just need to exist in one anothers orbit and they will realize 1. they are so incredibly similar 2. they are both the most adorable messes and 3. they were made for one another. again, ill be standing in the back crying saying ‘this is my favourite movie.’

namjoon + @joonbird: these brilliant beans are going to a pottery class. theyre going to make something with their hands and then they are going to dinner with wine and cheese and theyre going to have conversations that range from personal history to metaphysics to philosophy to the weirdest shit theyve seen while traveling. joon will be amazed by her intellect and her wit, amy will be impressed he manages to make a mug that looks more like a bird house. she doesnt ask questions, just admires his artistic intent. at dinner the conversation carries over, though this time theyre mostly silent - making yummy noises as they eat their food and smiling across the table. this is when they start talking about places theyve been, things theyve seen, food theyve tried - experiences - delighted that now they get to experience each other.

jin+ @2seokforyook: this other power couple are going to take an improv theatre class. kim is shy and sometimes so is jin, but this is where he shines. hes delighted to show off and engage, to open himself a little and, by proxy, watch kim open up by impressing her and making her laugh. kim will be tentative at first, but the comfort and warmth he radiates on stage will be infectious and soon, with a few laughs and awkward pauses, she will find her flow, playing games and enjoying being free of any real focused thought for at least an hour. for a while, its light hearted, laughing so hard they cry a little, but then, at the end, its time to get vulnerable. its seemingly impossible, but again, theyre together, warm and in a bubble of comfort created simply because theyre together and theyre learning to have fun without any restrictions. and so they talk - really, truly talk - without words or a script about everything and nothing. and when its over, when they finally get to leave, they realize that they werent acting. not even for a second. 

THANKS ANON!!! THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN!!

[barbieqribbes]

Idiocracy Part 1

Really tired of the media being allowed to say shit that just isnt justified. Why do they have voices to spread disinformation and no one else does? I have though and fought about this for a long time starting as early as 35 years ago. If I get comfortable here I may have an ongoing breakdown of these nonsensical articles.

https://news.yahoo.com/fighting-election-results-trump-employs-131336725.html

Link provided above. Not sure how long any yahoo links are good for. The article is below with my commentary embedded here and there.

Part 1 of the article:

WASHINGTON — President Donald Trump, facing the prospect of leaving the White House in defeat in just 70 days, is harnessing the power of the federal government to resist the results How is that? The article doesn’t go on to state….of an election that he lost votes are still be counted people so this presumptive, something that no sitting president has done in American history.

In the latest sign of defiance, the president’s senior Cabinet secretary fueled concerns Tuesday Please tell us how he did that that Trump would resist handing over power to President-elect Joe Biden after legal challenges to the vote. And his opinion is news? “There will be a smooth transition to a second Trump administration,” Secretary of State Mike Pompeo said.

Trump’s attorney general has at the same time authorized investigations into supposed vote fraud; his general services administrator has refused to give Biden’s team access to transition offices and resources guaranteed under law; and the White House is preparing a budget for next year as if Trump will be around to present it.

The president has also embarked on a shake-up of his administration, firing Defense Secretary Mark Esper as well as the heads of three other agencies while installing loyalists in key positions at the National Security Agency and the Pentagon. Allies who?? expect more to come, including the possible dismissals of the directors of the FBI and the CIA.It would be about time those corrupt jerks were fired

But the rest of the world increasingly moved to accept Biden’s victory Bidens what now? votes are still being counted and prepared to work with him despite Trump’s refusal to acknowledge the results. Speaking with journalists, Biden called the president’s actions since Election Day “an embarrassment” that will not serve him well in the long run. “How can I say this tactfully?” Biden said. “It will not help the president’s legacy.” Because that’s what liberals do when they dont get what they want is call people names and denigrate them anyway they can

The standoff oh we have a standoff now? is that an admission the election isnt over? left the United States in the position of the kind of country whose weak democratic processes it often criticizes. WE are a constitutional republic Rather than congratulating Biden and inviting him to the White House, as his predecessors traditionally have done after an election changed party control VOTES ARE STILL BEING COUNTED AND CERTIFIED HELLO, Trump has been marshaling his administration and pressuring his Republican allies into acting as if the outcome were still uncertain it is, either out of faint hope of actually overturning the results or at least creating a narrative to explain his loss. It aint over until the fat lady sings. Many margins have been too close to call. Real Clear Politics at this time while showing Biden in the lead, does not show a Biden victory. Contradictory to what Yahoo shows you. All counts within a certain percentage will have to be recounted. There have been MANY Allegations of fraud and corruption. No one is saying there has been an orchestrated movement except for the Democrats themselves who have done nothing since the Russia collusion dissolved except try to turn this election in their favor.

The president’s efforts to discredit with false claims These are not false claims both the election results and the incoming Biden administration is in many ways the culmination of four years of stocking the government with pliant appointees you havent been paying attention at all in the past 4 years have you? while undermining the credibility of other institutions in American life, including intelligence agencies Theyve proven themselves to be corrupt, law enforcement authorities What ?!? The people that endorsed Trump? I dont think so, the news media didnt have credibility in the first place just as I am demonstrating to you here, technology companies again - it’s very clear to see their obvious bias. one only has to look, the federal government more broadly well yes Trump is here to drain the swamp. and the more success he has, the harder they fight and now election officials in states across four time zones. 

I would be here all day breaking down news articles left and right for you. Here is a taste. Feel free to read the entire thing if you have that much time but some of us like to work.

[occult-castiel]

Exactly. The whole core issue of their relationship being addressed is the corner the writers are backed into.

Dean doesnt say how he feels, Cas thinks hes an ends to a means, so he hides things or makes choices that separates them, and then it hurts Dean so he continues to not address his feelings.

He loves Cas so much it ruins him when hes gone. Brings out the worst. Cas is and always will be Dean's faith, and now that hes had it he cant do without. I'd say he can keep going as long as Sam's still there... But we saw that he couldnt the episode before Cas came back in 13. He wanted to die, actively tried to make it happen. The attempted suicide was criminally underplayed and seriously just not addressed like I wish it was.

Dean didnt open his mouth about Cas saying hes been brought back to fight because, when Cas says things like that, it reconfirmed for Dean that that's what Cas thinks is important. It isnt for Dean, it's for the fight and for duty. I dont think Dean thinks that Cas thinks he isn't wanted. And honestly? Both of them were raised, programmed, to think of themselves as soldiers. Ends to a mean. They both think of themselves that way, just not about each other

Like.... from the first time Cas chose Dean, theres no way he couldve ever thought he deserved it. The amount of self worth Dean had from the get go of their relationship wouldve ensured that Cas chosing him over Heaven would've physically hurt as much as it wouldve been an earth shattering relief. And yeah theyve been through a lot and havent always been on great terms, but that lingering self loathing that was there from the start you don't think you deserve to be saved never really let up. Too good to be true, so any sign that it indeed isnt is automatic confirmation bias.

And Cas? God, he was never supposed to be in this situation in the first place. Humans and Angel's dont mix like this, and somehow he managed together a taste of the purest version of humanity in creation. Fantatsic, fleeting, humanity. They change so much, are always here and gone quicker than what hes been able to register for all of creation. So of course he thinks this is all temporary. They'll outgrow him. Dean doenst need him, and I bet every time Dean has said he needs Cas, it twists a bit of a knife in him. Because in Cas' eyes, hes the one that needs Dean, some broken angel that doesnt fit in Heaven or earth. He isnt like his siblings, but he fails at humanity every time he tries. He wouldve went on for eternity being an angel with broken foundation and nothing to show for it if Dean hadn't shown him how to be something greater than his orders.

So Dean might say he needs him, but Dean doesnt need him like he needs Dean. And he says things like being a solider, and it isnt to see if Dean eoukf object, but he never does because it also reconfirmed his confirmation bias, so Cas never gets his assumption challenged.

And the kicker is they both know they care about each other. Both consider the other blood. So this lack of communication isnt about that kind of relationship miscommunication, not thinking that kind of bond isnt reciprocated. It's purely the "you actually complete me please let your face be the first and last thing I see every day, you utterly complete me and nothing else makes sense when you aren't here, god I love you" kinda bond.

Anyway destiel IS canon. And the empty deal will force all of this stuff to be addressed. It is the ultimate version of Cas thinking he isnt the center of Dean's world.

"You fought for this whole world" so dont fight for me

Cas, you are his whole world. And maybe him not knowing that right then will also make it clear to Dean hes been wrong too. Then he'd see Cas doesn't think he deserves to be saved either -- theyve had the same issue all along. Felt the same.

Anyway thank you for coming to my stream of consciousness Ted talk. I'm sure this is a mess and I refuse to reread it. Destiel is canon, they love each other, and their issue is literally that they arent married

This user is crying about the empty deal again

Cause like. Sam already made the choice to not put Dean in that future in The Trap when he saw taht Dean just lost himself again when Cas died.

I mean they also lost to the monsters in the end, but if that was it, if he didnt think they could find a way around the excess monsters after the fact, then I dont think he woudlve even postured to consider. But he did. So it was because Dean lost himself again in taht future, lost Cas.

And Cas is on the way out anyway

So when the empty deal does happen. God Sam is gunna be heartbroken too. Cause he already chose the future where they all stay together too. And he'll be properly heartbroken for Dean too

[radgeorgie]

Are you still answering for the kpop question thingy? Can you do bts!!! Btw I loove your blog :)

of course I am!!!!!!!!!!!!

my time period as a fan / since their dark & wild and danger days! I got into kpop late 2014, and I became an ARMY not too long after!!! (so, roughly, 3 years......wow)

my bias among the members & why / yall..........you should know this by now.......lol - im not sure 100% why I love him. Is it because of his intelligence? his ability to switch from cutie pie big dork who breaks everything to philosophy god who knows the answer to every riddle & every question asked? or maybe I love him because of the strength he’s given me throughout life. sharing about his past, letting me relate to him, helping giving me a voice throughout the darkness? or maybe it’s because he taught me to follow my dream, even if it seems unsure or unclear? or maybe because he taught me that there is a future, that if I give up now i’ll never achieve anything i want and hope for? or maybe it’s because he taught me that change can & will happen for the better, that as time goes on you’ll grow & develop into a better person? or maybe it’s because he’s teaching me to love myself, that throughout his years as an idol he’s always looked out for us, armys, through thick & thin & everything else? whatever the reason may be, I love him, with everything I have & everything I will have. not even in a joking sense, but Namjoon has literally given me so much strength and happiness and love throughout the years of me joining the ARMY. I can’t think of a better idol to bias.

favorite song / I never have a set fav, lmao, but look here from their dark & wild album has been fucking me up recently!!! its such a hidden gem!!!

favorite mv / !!!!!!!!! good question, probably either Run or Spring Day - but are so aesthetically pleasing, and both songs are such a jam omg

favorite choreo / dont @ me........but I lowkey really like Just One Day??? like.....its simple enough to be beautiful, but skillful enough to be remember & cherished. I feel like a lot of ARMYs tend to forget about it, but its literally so pretty bye. Spring Day’s choreo is really good too tho!!!!

favorite era / SPRING DAY BITCH HOLY SHIT OMFG THAT WAS LITERALLY E V E R Y O N E S E R A BYEEEEEEE

cutest member / dont @ me.......but maknae line holds cutest member spot for me! Between Jungkook’s baby bun looks, Jimin’s mochi aura & Taehyung’s boxy smile................im soft for them all

sexiest member / @ my babies Rap Mon & Suga where u at

best friend member / hoseok!!!!!!!!! my baby hoseok!!!!!!!!! look me dead in the eye & tell me this sunshine wouldn’t 100% be that friend to call up at like 3 am & eat ice cream together on top of a rooftop somewhere. also def the friend to make sure you always leave with a smile on your face!!!!!!

best smile / imma have to go with my boy Hoseok again.....have you seen that smile????? im always dead thank u

favorite rapper / yall........................its namjoon

favorite vocalist / jin!!!!!!!!! his voice is always so beautiful & pure, I feel 100% better about anything whenever I hear him bye

favorite dancer / ........i literally cant think of one????? like..... every members has their own style that fits them perfectly??? like, i feel if I try to explain it it wont come off how I want it to but, they all look really good when dancing & kill any choreo tbh

what i see for them in the future / i dont mean to sound bias, but I can only see them going up from here!!!! theyve done so much already, I can 100% see them doing so much more in the future!!!!!!!!! I can’t wait to see what they’ll do & how they’re strive & shine in the upcoming years ^~^

also - p.s. thank u for loving this shit blog!!!!!!!!! i really appreciate it cutie!!!!!!!! ^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^~^

send me groups!

[tr1via-seesaw]

ALL OF THEM FOR THE BTS ASKBOX MEME!!! heart emojis!!!

Holy mackerel here we go

😍 who is your bias?

Jhope and Suga!!!!!!!!

😈 and your biaswrecker?

jin!!!!!!

💿 hyyh or wings?

hyyh but by like less than half a step theyre both My Eras tbh like wings was my first era and i love the story and the aesthetic but hyyh is my home tbh

🎶 what’s your favourite song at the moment?

mama!

💙 hyung line or maknae line? 

HYUNG LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

💃 who is your favourite dancer?

ahh hard one i think just bc i really like the modern dance style id have to say jimin but i really like the way hobi does his style so im like????

🔥 RM, 1VERSE or Agust D?

Agust D!!!!!!

🌱 your favourite member in maknae line

Jimin i think???

🌳 and the hyung line

yes

📆 how long have you been a fan?

swathi got me into bts august of 2016 i think like i remember getting into them right as school was starting (good timing)

👬 your otp

yoonseok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

🎤 your favourite cover by the members

Fool by jungkook i think or rainism yeeeee

♋ do you share a zodiac sign with any of the members? 

YES SUGA N I ARE PISCES FAM IM SO BLESSED

👀 your favourite part in cypher 4 

suga’s rolex :’^)

💞 ot3 war: vminkook or yoonminseok

vminkook im so soft for the maknae line ot3

👽 describe taehyung with 3 emojis

💚🍭🐶

🗣 what’s your favourite solo song?

Mama, Awake, or First Love!

👥 and the duet

I ate well with Sope :’^)

🖊 who do you think is the best song writer?

rapmon or suga! I really like all the intricate language and metaphors that rapmon writes, but suga really shows his passion and emotions in his songs

💣 we are bulletproof 1 or 2

………………… 2 but tbh i cant listen to those songs bc im reminded of rapmons shitty hair 🕳️ 🚶

🤗 if you could spend the whole day with a member who would it be and what would you do?

haslkjf this is really self indulgent but honestly id love to spend a day at a museum or aquarium with jhope ;w;;;

🐰 describe jungkook with 3 emojis

🖤🌟💃

👺 who do you think is the meme-iest one from the meme squad?

jinkook

🗺 where are you from? had they ever been there?

I’m on the east coast USA! im a few hours from it but theyve been to NYC and i got to see them live //cries

🏝 which member would you take with you on a deserted island?

jin or jungkook :L

💰 do you have any merch?

…….. i may have impulse bought an army bomb at the concert……….. hglaskjf im actually really happy i did it was the only merch left by the time i got there and i said i wouldnt but i did and its awesome i love it. i also have like. a shit ton of posters, both parts of the HYYH photobook/album, and a few photocards

🔪 your favourite part in cypher 3

suga’s rap aka the reason im a Bad Lesbian :’^)

🐕 choose the bts dog

taehyung :^)    (mickey!)

🍑 describe jimin in 3 emojis

❤️😚🍡

🗡 in hunger games who do you think would die first and who will survive to the end?

jhope dies first probably jin lives till the end against jungkook through sheer force of will

🍻 which member would you want to grab beer with?

rapmon tbh! id honestly love to just like talk to him abt deep stuff for a while i feel like hed be a really cool philosophy buddy :P

👣 have you ever tried to learn any of their dances?

YA BOI I KNOW BAEPSAE AND BLOOD SWEAT & TEARS ALL THE WAY THROUGH!!! i know most of Fire as well and im very lowkey learning i need you!!! im also doing jimin’s live version of Lie!!! theyre really fun dances but a lot of the moves take a lot of practice OTL

👓 describe namjoon in 3 emojis

💜🌃☂️

🐻 ryan the bear or kumamon

ryan!!!

👔 what’s your hogwarts house? where do you think each memeber belongs?

Hufflepuff and they already confirmed where so im happy to be in the same house as hobi lolol

🏃 in scale from jungkook to namjoon how fast do you run?

suga sleeping :L

📸 concerts or fansigns

ahhh idk i think concerts in terms of the whole experience and also if i ever got the chance to go to a fansign id probably be too excited to even try to say anything

😇 describe hoseok in 3 emojis

💛☀️🌻

😸 are you shy and pure like jimin or freaky and naughty like taehyung?

okay first off who made this that though jimin was pure what the fuck???? 

💣 what’s your favourite bangtan bomb (video not lightstick)

🛩 bon voyage or american hustle life

bon voyage!!!! they had so much fun with each other im !!!!!!

📖 do you write fanfiction?

not technically??? i mean ive done a few drabbles on their characters from HYYH and WINGS but none of those like “BTS x reader” or anything tbh those kinda weird me out 

📣 which cypher do you like the most?

cypher 3!!!!!

🐢 describe yoongi in 3 emojis

💙🌦🌌

😪 what’s the best song to listen before falling asleep?

2! 3! Hoping for better days, Butterfly (prologue mix), Awake (ironically :P), love is not over, or whalien 52

📚 share your favourite fanfic

dont have one

🎬 if there was a movie made about any member what kind of movie would it be?

tbh id die for an adpatation of demian with the boys like that’d be So Good also i read the majority of the book imagining Pistorius as yoongi so,,,,,

🙋 have you ever met them in person?

does being within a hundred feet of them at a concert count :L

💁 describe jin in 3 emojis

💖👑📹

😓 war of hormones or boy in luv

war of hormones!!!!

🌈 most to least Not Straight in your opinion

yoongi (the big bi), namjoon (the big bi pt 2), taehyung, jhope, jimin, jin, jungkook

🖍 who’s drawings do you like the most: jungkook’s or jimin’s?

jimin

🤔 spring day or not today? 

spring day 

[fluffi]

so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.

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#OscarsSoWhite Was Important But The Oscars Were Not

In todays social media driven, viral culture, its not uncommon for a singular story to dominate the news cycle, only to be completely forgotten about shortly thereafter. If you haven’t overdosed on flakka or been poisoned by lead, think back to a couple of weeks ago when Jada Pinkett-Smith and Spike Lee announced, via their Instagram accounts, that they wouldn’t be attending Sundays Academy Awards over the exclusively eggshell pigment of the nominees.

Thanks to social media, their boycott then became a movement with momentum. #OscarsSoWhite, the movements popularly elected Twitter banner, was trending for a matter of weeks which is basically the highest validation something can receive nowadays. Joining their call for more diversity in films were: black people tired of not being represented in films, black actors tired of being racially type casted, and white actors apparently tired of being over-represented.

The movement to boycott the Oscars got so popular that some called for Chris Rock (the man doesn’t need an introduction), to join the cause and step down as host. As a result, Cheryl Boone Isaacs, the President of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences, issued a statement saying that she was heartbroken over the lack of diversity and that she would do everything in her power to fix it.

All of this and more, came to a head Sunday night at the ceremony. Leonardo DiCaprios prayers were answered and Chris Rock showed up, making the event a go. This was despite George Clooney among others, but namely George Clooney, being absent.

With his opening monologue, Rock wasted no time in addressing the racist elephant in the room. While his opening monologue was comedically brilliant, it will be remembered as the best opening monologue of all time because it summed up the current state of diversity and representation in the entertainment industry so well. Like much of Chris Rocks comedy, the genius of it lay in between the lines. Sure the punch lines slayed, but the subtexts made you really think.

ith his opening monologue, Rock wasted no time in addressing the racist elephant in the room.

In regards to the shows opening sequence, which included snippets from many of the years snubs, Rock said, Man, I counted at least 15 black people on that montage. Im here at the Academy Awards, otherwise known as the White peoples Choice Awards. In this choice line, Rock prophetically calls out the Academy for its after-the-fact attempts at diversity. I say it was prophetic because it just so happened that every commercial belonging to an Academy sponsor featured a mixed race or black family. However, the most painfully contrived example of pandering came at the end of the show, when Public Enemys played over the credits. My eyes were rolling so hard, I almost passed out.

After letting the initial shock, caused by directly calling the Oscars racist die, Rock pointed out the inherent irony of the #OscarsSoWhite movement by saying: Why are we protesting? The big question: Why this Oscars? Why this Oscars, you know? Its the 88th Academy Awards. Its the 88th Academy Awards, which means this whole no black nominees thing has happened at least 71 other times. O.K.? You gotta figure that it happened in the 50s, in the 60s you know, in the 60s, one of those years Sidney didnt put out a movie. Im sure there were no black nominees some of those years. Say 62 or 63, and black people did not protest. Why? Because we had real things to protest at the time, you know? We had real things to protest; you know, were too busy being raped and lynched to care about who won best cinematographer.

This is what makes Chris Rock a genius. His comedy operates on multiple levels. What hes saying, most clearly, is that the Oscars have never been diverse. But what hes really getting at is the systematic racism in Hollywood. Through further implication, hes also exposing the nearsightedness of people who don’t agree with the #OscarsSoWhite message. People in other decades never protested the obviously racist Oscar ceremonies, because they had other things on their plate like trying not to be killed. But that doesn’t make the Oscars any less racist.

That being said, the Oscars aren’t diverse because Hollywood doesn’t offer good roles to black actors on a regular basis. Not because the voters are racist. When he hilariously pointed out that he didn’t want to lose another job to Kevin Hart, the implication was that as two comedic black actors, theyre offered the same roles. It also says that there aren’t enough jobs in Hollywood for the both of them. He revisits this point later when he says that Jamie Foxx was so good in that Hollywood killed the real Ray Charles because they didn’t need two of these.

That being said, the Oscars aren’t diverse because Hollywood doesn’t offer good roles to black actors on a regular basis. Not because the voters are racist.

Rock then offered a caveat to the criticism of the Oscars by specifically addressing the people who started the movement. But what happened this year? What happened? People went mad. Spike got mad got mad, and Jada went mad, and Will went mad. Everybody went mad, you know? Jada got mad? Jada says she not coming, protesting. Im like aint she on a TV show? Jada is going to boycott the Oscars Jada boycotting the Oscars is like me boycotting Rihannas panties. I wasnt invited. Oh, thats not an invitation I would turn down.

While he agrees with Jada and Spikes message, hes a comedian and cultural commentator, so hes paid to tell the whole truth, even when its unpopular. Jada is basically a television actress who is paid millions of dollars. Will, her husband, is an actor who has reaped the rewards of being the most bankable black actor in Hollywood not the most prolific. The Smiths are not a relatable family with relatable problems. Moreover, is also not exactly the movie to scream racism! over either. Its a PG-13 Sports drama not exactly Oscar material. That being said, Rock doesn’t mention Spike in any of this because was a great movie. But Spike Lee is wellSpike Lee. His films are too controversial, too real, to win Academy awards. Im not saying that its right but the Academy doesn’t often reward risk takers.

Rock then goes on by saying, Not everything is sexism. Not everything is racism. The Academys membership is mainly comprised of old, wrinkled, white men. So whats happening here isn’t exactly police brutality racism, its more, old-lady-clutching-her-purse racism. Its the summation of unconscious bias and the result of archaic perceptions of highbrow art.

This is what an organization that is totally out of touch with the public, looks like. This is what Rock is getting at when he points out that Hollywood is home to the nicest, most-liberal, white people; theyll vote for a black president, yet they wont hire black actors. Despite their liberal sensibilities, their whole way of thinking about entertainment has been shaped by an archaic system that deals in white stories. After all, the institution theyre part of still refers to movies as motion pictures.

This is what an organization that is totally out of touch with the public, looks like.

How many old people do you know saw How many old people you know of, know who the hell the N.W.A. are? As for yeah, its possible Oscar material, but its also a Netflix movie. Why the hell would the Academy of Motion pictures nominate a film thats made by the same company (Netflix) thats ravaging their industry, for anything? Oh, thats right, they wouldnt.

Despite the Oscars boycott, the general point of the #OscarsSoWhite movement is accurate. As Chris Rock puts it: We want opportunity. We want black actors to get the same opportunities as white actors.

It seems that the only way a black person can be nominated for something is by playing a mammy or a slave. While its truly fucked up, its nothing new, and blaming The Academy misses the point.

Who we should really be mad at, are the studios. The studios decide what gets made and what doesn’t. Theyre the ones who only want to make films dealing in the stalest of stereotypes. Theyre the ones who only want quality movies made with all black casts.

When Rock talked about Paul Giamatti playing someone who hates black people one year and playing someone who loves black people another, hes inferring something about the industry. He later says it out right: white actors get great roles, real roles, all the time. Black actors dont. They are confined to the archetypes and stereotypes created by the older generation.

Only in a Hollywood thats racist can an insane monologue about fucking fried chicken happen ina movie that won a bunch of Oscars (Only in a totally out of touch Hollywood could that god-forsaken movie about that white guy who saves the inner-city black kids from themselves, keep being made. You know the movie that Im talking about. The one with that white guy the black kids dont trust him at first, because of their rough upbringing and all that bullshit, so they treat him badly. But eventually he wins them over and they learn to trust him. He then teaches them about the beauty of learning or creative expression. He gets them out of the projects, they teach him how to dance. These movies are tired, embarrassing, and insulting.

However, the studios are only interested in making money, so they dont care about the cultural or societal repercussions that their trash movies are having on America. Theyve been doing it for so long that these stereotypes have become embedded in movie-watching language without most people even knowing it.

Its not an accident that we dont have an Asian American or Native American Ryan Gosling type of actor. To these old, white, wrinkled men, white is the norm. White culture and white people are considered the mainstream audience, which is where most of the money is to be made. Thats why the media has labeled Eddie Murphy and Kevin Hart, two of the biggest actor-comedians of all time, cross-over artists. As in, they successfully crossed over from the niche (black) market to the mainstream (white) market.

Getting mad at the Academy Awards is pointless. Yes, theyre celebrating their craft but its also an award show of made-up importance. All it is, is an event where beautiful people, who are already worshipped by the culture, further exacerbate their self-importance by giving each other golden statues of no inherent value. It only takes about $100 to make one of those creepy things. Giving them any more attention than that is a waste of time and energy.

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if your favourite mutuals had children with their biases, how many children do you think they'd have and what gender would they be?? and how many would you have with your bias??

hi cutie anon! ive had this sitting in my box for a bit just because of the amount of time it would take to focus on it. BUT NOW. I HAVE TIME AND AM SO EXCITED. this is really cute. i saw some of my other mutuals doing this too and aw. in every iteration this is adorable.

OK HERE WE GO! putting this under a cut to not clog dashes

@kollectionn and jongdae i think would have two kids, a boy and a girl. if they werent fraternal twins id think theyd have them close to one another, likely 24-36 months apart so they could play together. theyd raise them well and it would be adorable, like cute teasing by the brother to his sister but c would make sure it never goes far. and their daughter is a total, complete daddy’s girl - just. like. her. mother. i imagine he sings them both to sleep and sunshine handles bedtime stories. wow im soft. 

@kpopfanfictrash and jimin would have one child - a daughter. shan i think would probably want another but jimin would be so enamored with his baby girl that hed be like ‘no. you cant duplicate perfection.’ hed probably put her in pigtails and make sure she always has the softest dresses. every trip breeds a whole new stuffed animal and he has to enlist shans expertise in building a castle in the back yard - shan designs and he builds. also horseback lessons come to mind for some reason. just. the cutest little family trio.

@knockknocksoosthere and kyungsoo have two boys. fal really wants a girl at first but the boys are so good and so sweet that she finds she doesnt mind. like their dad, theyre both quiet and bookish, whip smart. one learns to read very quickly and cannot stop speaking. he climbs into the bed to wake fal up and tell her all about how he learned morse code. like fal while the other is worrying if only because he is 4 now, doesnt really speak, but yesterday he programmed the car’s bluetooth so hes probably fine; this boy doesnt have a first word, he has a first sentence. CUTE.

@rudeboywonho and yongguk dont have children but they have three dogs whom they dote on like children. this counts, dont you dare tell me otherwise. lilly is the eldest and she looks after the other puppies. their bed is filled with passionate F*****G and cute doggy cuddles; one of them is named tigger but only because yongguk begged. the other was a christmas gift for nic and was so tiny she fit in the stocking.

@kpopandlock and jongin have a daughter and three dog sons. coulson looks after the baby and the puppies like a proud uncle, and is very worried when the baby cries. nini hums her to sleep while letting coulson stay close to the crib because he is protective and whines if he cant see both of them at the same time. jongin gets very withdrawn on his daughters first day of school but when she comes home, the first thing she says is she missed daddy before launching into stories about her new friends. just like her mother - she is chatty and friendly, and also tells her father about how many dogs she pet on the way to the park. this is nini’s favourite conversation of all time.

@kimnamwho and johnny have three kids, two girls and boy. the house is NOISY but filled with so much laughter. all three of the kids are witty, almost to a fault, but terribly obedient. they have moments of being naughty, but dont receive much discipline because, like their parents, they feel badly if they realize theyve done something wrong or hurt someones feelings. their daughter likes to pick flowers and put them in her fathers hair, while the oldest boy likes to build model cars and hopes to one day be an aeronautical engineer - this will change in one week.

chanyeol and i have one child after a very, very, very long conversation about children as i have spent the better part of my life not wanting any. we have a boy, and my heart literally breaks every time i see him because he has his father’s ears. we may have one child, but we could run a farm with the amount of animals we keep. chanyeol and our son often come home from walks in the woods, or along the creek, with frogs and turtles or rabbits they would like to keep, and i, being precisely the same, never once say no. we are terribly, incandescently happy.

thank you cutie anon! this was fun and ive never been so soft in my entire life.