#theyre just terrified of becoming the person they feared

[icamefromthepinterestscreenshots]

Whumpee who, when rescued, doesn't want anything bad to happen to whumper.

Whumper who's in prison, on death row or being tortured by whumpees team.

Whumpee who keeps begging for people to be nice to whumper, to not torture them, to not kill them, to just leave them alone in a cell.

Whumpee who is so scared that they'll do anything even slightly bad and become like whumper, or become the living weapon whumper had wanted them to be, that they'd rather nothing happen to the person that had tortured them for months.

Because if something bad happened to whumper, it would be whumpees fault. And they couldn't live with that.

[early-october-skies]

Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees

[arolesbianism]

Oh also I made some new salmonid ocs recently 👍 I was thinking abt how I wanna fit fish sticks into my hcs and then realized my ideas actually have a basis in canon so I'm running with it, time to make the world's most codependent toxic polycule along with the shitty deadbeat gaslighter that bosses them around

[lycankeyy]

Fc!Penilians are inherently polygamous. Family structures center around a "head-of-household" and several subordinates. This is the closest thing they have to gender roles and why astrobiologists on earth sometimes categorize them as a matriarchal species, as the head-of-house is typically the one who has kids ("birth-parent") and the subordinates are the ones who fertilize and proceed to care for the resulting young ("care-parent"); all these roles have nothing to do with Gender Roles or whatever as Penilians are unisex, it's mostly based on personality. Also in modern times as culture evolves it's not unheard of for these roles to be broken anyway, especially if the head-of-house doesn't have an important job or anything and can afford to take care of the nymphs, though more conservative penilians see this as self-demeaning

Anyway all that is to say penilian-human relationships aside, fc!Cassandra's kinda-committed relationship to the rest of the Goth Punks is relatively standard for penilians, while Damien eventually forming a monogamous relationship with Otis, especially one with unclear "roles", would be considered . Very Queer HDKAJDK

Really funny how fc!Damien makes fun of Cassandra for forming a "family" unit with aliens and then proceeds to turn around and form a monogamous relationship with an alien. Both of which are equally unheard of in fc!penilain culture

[nyashykyunnie]

Oki so I saw tjat you were open to brajnrots so I hope you enjoy them urbjdbfk sorry if it's long but I need to get these out before I go insane sibddnjdjdb 😅😅

I kinda think that Jinwoo would tease the hell out of their partner if they start getting super flustered after their second awakening, ESPECIALLY if reader was with them pre-awakening and was kinda shy woth affection before too (shout out to my shy peeps akbdjbd) ofc he's respectful about boundaries but it doesn't mean he enjoys how cuter his s/o has become wjbdjdnd Not only that, I think Jinwoo would definately use their new height and stregnth to his advantage too! Like if his s/o was taller and could lift him before when hugging, what stopping him from picking up his s/o to cuddle now?? Mf has the audacity to be smug to 🙄🙄

I think he even finds his s/o' weight on him incredibly comforting, especially with the fact that his s/o trusts him completely no matter how he's changed. This is especially so if his s/o knows how terrifying he is as a hunter, and is not phased in the slightest

(Jinwoo has jumped from E to S-rank. Having to fight his way up tooth and claw, doing whatever he has to survive. A man that even monsters fear. Here? He's just Jinwoo. nothing more nothing less. Safe and content with s/o acting as his guiding light during his darkest of hours. Before, he was worried how he couldnt protect his s/o's happiness when he was an E-rank. Now? He finally has the stregnth to protect them and his family, and will do so with everything he has)

Acheivement unlocked: Jinwoo's s/o has now become his weighted blanket sjdbudnd

Jinwoo pissed after a raid, eyes glowing purple, emitting an aura that even scares his shadows: The world is harsh and cruel.... Jinwoo 10 min later, eyes normal, deadly aura gone, cuddling s/o with his head nestled into s/o's shoulder: s/o soft and gentle.

Wdym he can't have his lovely s/o on his lap while he's on his rare breaks in the privacy of his own office??? Unless there is a s-rank dungeon suddenly appearing or an emergency, this man will be enjoying his BREAK.

Don't get me started on his shadows too sksbudbj. I think it be funny if his shadows also start acting like puppies for s/os affection too. Yeah sure they can absolutely decimate enemies but to their Monarchs beloved, theyre lovable guard dogs. (I think that they would be even more charmed If s/o is actually aware how dangerous they can be but still treats them so kindly)

Jinwoo would also get secretly jealous if his shadows gets the privilege of using his shy! s/o's lap as a pillow too (kinda like how a small pet sits on their owners lap or large dogs put their heads on their owners lap for pets too). Especially if its BEFORE he gets the privilege to abdjdbdnkd

I bet once this man gets a taste of using s/os thighs a pillow , he is a changed man. Brain alterd. dbjdbd

The man's personal heaven? His head nestled into s/o's lap with their fingers running though his hair. If his s/o stars humming? Man's purring in content.

(Anyways, if you read it, thanks! I hope it makes you feel a fraction of how happy I feel when I read your works ajbdjdb)

Cheer,

//Warning: kyunnie having a mental breakdown over Jinwoo NO BECAUSE I GENUINELY THINK JINWOO'S LOVE LANGUAGE IS BEING A TEASE!!! HE'S A BIG OL GRUMP AND AWKWARD BUT I GEN THINK HE LIKES TEASING BY TOUCH!! YOU CAN TELL WITH THE WAY HE INTERACTS WITH JIN-AH LIKE SQUEEZING HER FACE OR PINCHING HER CHEEKS IT TELLS A LOT!!!! I GOT THE IDEA OF A TOUCHY JINWOO JUST BY SEEING HOW HE ACTS AROUND JIN-AH AND KYYAAAAA PRE-AWAKENING RELATIONSHOIP EBHJGRWFE!!!!! I LOVE THAT IDEA SM BECAUSE THERE'S A CERTAIN POETIC ROMANCE TO IT WHEN YOU'VE SEEN YOUR BELOVED AT THEIR LOWEST POINTS AND LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY REGARDLESS!! My fave novel of all time is tgcf and there's a whole interactions between the main cp like this!! “That person saw me at my worst", Hua Cheng said. "Then I'm very envious of that", Xie Lian replied.” IF IT'S A SITUATION LIKE THAT IK JINWOO'S ATTACHMENT WOULD GO BEYOND THE ROOFS AND HEAVENS!!!! Jinwoo would first be oblivious to his sunshine's(reader is giving me sunshine vibes, and I love sunshines sm) at first but he slowly started noticing from the jumpy reactions and the shy expression!! He'd test out the waters by his body language likelike purposely moving closer to reader unexpectedly, grasping hands, lightly brushing a finger on their ear— And when he confirmed his suspicions he went "Oh?" like lIKE HOLLYY SIJJDBE WN CFEAAAAA KGGRAAAAA!!! HE'D BULLY THEM A LOT AND CHUCKLE EVERYTIME HE CATCHES SUNSHINE READER GO BBRRRR BRAIN LAG WHHEEEE PRINCESS CARRIES USED TO BE A DISTANT DREAM NOW JINWOO CAN DO IT ANYTIME HE WANTS!! HE EVEN LETS THEM SIT ON HIS ARM PERCHED SO CUTELY LIKE THIS!!! IT GETS READER SO FLUSTERED THEY HIDE THEIR FACE ON HIS NECK AND HE'S LIVING FOR ITT!!!!

(Source: How to win my husband over) BUT WE CANT FORGET THE JINWOO THAT GETS TIRED AND ALL PISSY AFTER DEALING ITH GATES!! Ik our boi gets annoyed over some sht but he doesn't voice them out most of the time!!! His best therapy is when he has reader cuddled up on his lap or him laying his head on their while they tousle their hair around. I Genuinely think Jinwoo's soft/sensitive spots are on his head!!! Fingertips brushing across his scalp tickles him in a pleasant way that he just goes Zzzzzz..... Jinwoo is the type of boyfriend that looks so expressionless and stiff but put his lover and his eyes immediately turn into the most gentle lovestrucken-fool look in an instant that whoever witnesses it thinks their lives just flashed before their eyes because wth the hunter coULD DO THAT KIND OF FACE??????? HELLLOOO!!!! I am an intj simp and coincidentally I have so many intj husbands that I did not ask for but goddamn the consistency. The patten I see with INTJ's ik is that they love acts of service!!! From brushing your hair away from your face, holding their hand out to you so you wont get lost, instinctively doing something to help you WITHOUT EVEN REALIZING. And my god, they have the most MOST INTENSE EYE CONTACT EVER!!!! Jinwoo has proven that side in the manhwa I do not need to pull up panels for this surely YA'LL KNOW WHAT I MEAN PEOPLE. If Jinwoo is whipped, HE IS WHIPPED!!! He mostly keeps a straight face BUT CANNOT CONTROL HIMSELF FOR HIS BELOVED( lets be fr he doesn't intend to in the first place he's that downbad and I love it mWAH) Cuddle session breaks with sunshine reader is a must if not he will wreak havoc in the office or the gates or something WHEEZE OMG THE SHADOWS WHAKJSDEQBKWEF, HE'S A PETTY BASTARD I TELL YOU!! HE'S CHAOTIC AS HELL!!!!! HE DEF THROWS BERU AN EYE-ROLL WHEN HE GETS PATPATS FROM SUNSHINE READER AND IT ENDS UP WITH BERU HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN ITS SO SILLY JWHNFWEPIOEJFND, HE MAKES HIM DO FOREHEAD ON THE FLOOR PUNISHMENT 2 DHWEJAFKE HE'S A PETTY BASTARDDD!!!!! HIS BIGGEST RIVAL IS TANK BECAUSE HE IS THE FLOOFIEST BOI IN THE SHADOWS AND IT JUST MAKES JINWOO GO INTO A TANTHRUM ITS SO SILLYYY!!!! AFTER THE WHOLE SULKING WO GOES TO SUNSHINE READER'S LAP AND GRUMBLES LIKE A TODDLER!!!! Also the thighs man, he had done it once in E-rank days nEVER MOVED ON I TELL YOU, THAT'S WHY I KEEP SAYING LAP SINCE EARLIER WHAHDHWGR. The first time he did it he felt like he was thrown into heaven literally and figuratively he's such a silly simp AGAIN YES, JINWOO'S MOST SENSITIVE SOFT SPOT IS HIS HEAD!!!!!! OUR SILLY LITTLE FLOOFY BASTARDD!!! He purposely messes his hair up so sunshine reader would be forced to fix his hair, and when they look away he begins ruffling his hair up again for more attention— ALSO EARLIER U APOLOGIZED FOR MAKING SOMETHING LONG BESTIE DON'T I MADE IT LONGER IT'S OKAY DON'T FEEL BAD DAFOHLJMWLEJDNM Also owejii uueeee, now I'm all shy and flustered aisupohdjqbl,emfdn AAAAee ee er w ddw sakjlsdlafrgshdf I'm so glad it makes u happy uueeeeeee, I honestly just write for myself but I'm glad it makes you happy too uueee<3333!!!!! Ty for activating my jinwoo braincells that should have beem stayed dormat anywei!! (They never rlly sleep anyway i just keep them in my head)

[mejomonster]

Finished sherlock holmes chapter one. In some ways its got the same appeal Drakengard 3, specifically Zero's emotional character journey did. At heart its about Sherlock trying to protect and love himself (and that itself parallels what Mycroft did in a way), hating himself and blaming himself, terrified of caring about anyone again and unsure how to care in a way he's not scared would somehow hurt them. Its a character study of one particular What If version of what makes the man John Watson first met that day looking for a flat. What would that man be like before, perhaps why, and how did that interpretation of a young sherlock grow enough to risk opening up to others to the extent he eventually will. Its all about trauma, childhood, growing up, accepting yourself and fighting to love yourself when your experiences have made you want to abandon yourself, trust, fear. The story's about sherlock holmes the character. Like one big character study of who he might have been, could become, does become, and the emotions and internals driving it.

The way Jon is creative, brave, supportive. Loves the supernatural, stories, mysteries. The escapism, the joy fighting to exist in a scared life, the emotional support ever present (sherlock giving to himself basically) because hes too scared to let anyone else real in. Theres tons to be said about Jon the character, and also his existence for what it says about sherlock's own personality and needs. Thats for more articulate people than me. The main of it is: Frogwares games, if theyre mostly going to be of this writing quality, can handle the characters both faithfully and in adding new ways to view them which was a joy. A heartbreaking joy. I really enjoyed the story.

And the scene at the very end, watson and holmes first meeting. A scene in many adaptations, of course in the original. I loved that sherlocks actor added a raw emotional reaction to the sound of his voice, something thats easy to pretend might always have been able to be there its just from Watsons pov maybe he never would have noticed. And since sherlock holmes chapter one is sherlocks game about his internal emotions, it lets it end with a raw show of emotion we'd notice after seeing everything hes gone through inside. We'd also see it as a potential positive. In that he'd ever open up enough to share even that small part of FEELING with another person, in the presence of another person and trust that its okay to feel it. And the way the game plays with the meaning of art in its interpretation, the world maybe being more mysterious than humans can ever understand (with all the use of supernatural love from Jon, and Matista at the end and her own magic practice in a way paralleling Sherlocks creating of Jon), the game ends with a game model of John Watson with similar eyes to Jon, with John Watson introducing himself and Sherlock comparing the name to Jon. Recognizing the coincidence. Maybe some small part, the part of sherlock that IS Jon and made him and drew comfort from him, seeing the magic in hearing such a meaningful name in a meaningful coincidence of meeting od a real social partner that will end his isolation significantly by living with him. It makes the ending feel almost magical, as mundane as it is, and as much as Watson is not Jon (because Jon was in many ways just Sherlocks own self comforting himself). Its this conclusion of a whole game of realizing its the interpretation that matters at least As Much as the truth (which the game enforces both with cases with multiple possible answers and making You sherlock pick the consequences then seeing the city always reacting mixed to such outcomes). A whole game of seeing sherlock belittle emotions (especially his own), unable to open up to anyone except himself occasionally with the help of Jon (and that easy open emotional expression Jon has), and finally Sherlock is facing his own feelings a bit. Has integrated some of who Jon was, has let himself feel his own feelings, is more self aware and brave, still hurting but also more able to not reject himself. And its just feels so lovely to see played. Its a simple moment, the same scene I expect, but it has emotional payoff from the chapter one story fully realized in seeing sherlocks changes when he finally gets to the moment of meeting watson. Payoff of chapter ones whole character growth of one from childhood to adulthood.

[magicalgirlagency]

So we have ideas and concepts about putting traditional Maho Shoujo characters (the magical girls, mascots and goddess, etc.) Into grimdark setting to help the grimdark MGs. How about the opposite, putting about 4-5 Grimdark MGs (im going to call them DMGs for short) into a light and hopeful setting?

Im imagining a scenario where five DMGs - our main characters- from a grimdark dimension, who were victims of a cruel magical system controlled by some sadistic gods that feast on the sufferings of humans - but tricked the DMGs into their twisted situation by pretending that They have some righteous and for-the-greater-good reasons for what Theyre doing. The DMGs arent part of a team, maybe the Gods encourage fighting among the grimdark MGs for Their own amusment and to prevent them from uniting to defeat the evil Gods as well. Maybe the main DMGs got into some magical portal mishap while being stuck in the same place, and got suck into a portal while threatening each other (but not actually fighting, just throwing threats around out of fear and stress) which take them to the more hopeful dimension. Btw, the portal immediately close after they got suck in, and leave no trace of its existence, so the evil gods dont know about the DMGs escaping their controll, nor about the existence of a portal or another dimension, nor are they able to chase after them - if they even care enough to notice the DMGs disappearing tbh, they might not even know they were gone until the Good Goddess come to personally kick the evil Gods down to Hell. Basically, the DMGs upon coming to the light dimension is now completely safe from the danger of the evil Gods.

After the DMGs escape their grimdark home, they got directly into the Sanctuary of the hopeful MGs (a place where the light dimension MGs come to relax and essentially their secret community, its where MGs teams along with their mascots meet and enjoy their time with other team or the Good Goddess) They actually werent awake when the main light MGs trio (our second set of main characters) found them and brought them to the Medic for emergency check up. Their mascot reports the odd situation of a group of MGs randomly appearing in an unconscious state to the Good Goddess, and She come with the mascot to see the DMGs.

When the DMGs woke up, their reactions, from the youngest to the oldest respectively, was: terrified, shocked, confused, "WTF is happening", immediately try to threaten the Goddess (whom was in their medic room at the time). The mascot tries to comfort the DMGs, seeing as theyre in distress, and ended up nearly losing his head to the oldest DMG had the Goddess not stop her attack in time. The mascot then waited for the Goddess to calm the 5 DMGs down, but wander to the youngest DMG to help her get less scared by himself (despite being rather shaken after what just happened, but it did work and he wasnt attacked this time). Im not sure how exactly this would happen, but the Good Goddess eventually calm the DMGs down, assure them that theyre safe here, talk to them for a bit and promise to visit them again the next day after theyve rested. She and the mascot then left the DMGs room, leaving them alone with each other.

Cue some angst, "I dont trust you but I dont have a choice here", some scared interactions and staying up all night out of caution and fear. The two younger DMGs did ended up becoming (sort of) friends though, relating to each other due to their closer age and being equally terrified of the older DMGs. The pair sit and whisper to each other throughout the night, with some of the older DMGs occasionally asking and talking to them.

Come daytime and the Goddess did come back to visit them (bringing some small gifts like clothes and snacks). The DMGs actually werent expecting Her to keep her promise, nor for her to bring them gifts. She said something along the line of "Im a Goddess, ofc Im keeping my promise! Why would I not keep my promise?" Some of the older DMGs was cautious and ask Her if Shes here to make them join in some twisted "game" ( the evil Gods made them played these "games" where theyre forced to fight other grimdark magical girls). The Goddess comforts and reassure them that theyre safe here and that She'd never hurt them, or let any harm come to them (Shes somewhat confused about why they ask such questions, but choose to not pry too much seeing as theyre uncomfortable). Things continue with Her visiting and giving them small gifts for a while, and the DMGs slowly learning more about this new world through Her, and also went out to explore on their own sometime - some of them went very far while other stick close to the Medic place. Also, they discovered that the Light dimension Earth is now in a state of World peace and is essentially a Solarpunk world.

After fully recovering from the damage of unstable dimensional travelling, the Goddess give them a place to stay in the light dimension Earth - under the care of the light MGs Trio (theyre adults btw) who found them in the first place. This part of the story is full of SOLs about the 5 DMGs recovery from their traumas.

The other part of the story is a plot about finding a way to reach the DMGs original dimension - theyre scared but the Good Goddess assure them that theyll be okay, after all Shes going to absolutely murder the evil Gods and rewrite the magical system there herself. They did succeeded and the evil Gods have no idea that they wont be seeing the light of day anymore.

Anyway, its Happy Ending for everyone but the Bad Guys basically.

TL,DR: 5 grimdark magical girls escape into a hopeful magical world where they heal from their traumas with help from a Goddess, a trio of adult MGs who adopted them and a mascot whos trying his best to help them. After finding a way back the grimdark dimension, the Goddess destroy the evil Gods and rewrite the cruel magic system. Cue Happy Ending after a while of recovery and rebuilding.

What do you think about this concept?

Plenty of Magical Girls could totally benefit from joining an union, really. We shouldn't be pitting bad bitches against eachother, they should be combining their strength. One of the genre's characteristics is friendship, after all.

[nonbinary-sticks-the-badger]

how dadow is in my head:

this is quite optimistic tbf, dadow to me is very much a guilty pleasure thing, even if i believe it as a theory. this also shouldn't get into characterisation mostly, seeing as ive gone over shadow and silver plenty of times before, but im a very character-focused person so i might accidentally.

they live in a little cottage in a wood. it's based on this cottage in the lake district that my extended family own because i cant imagine original interior layouts for the life of me. in better timelines, there's a garden, while in worse ones, there isn't even a wood, just the ruins of an old cottage. i dont know much canon content with silver other than in idw so i could be getting his powers entirely wrong, my apologies.

shadow is all over the place. he can be terrifying, he can be goofy. i think seeing as he's spent a lifetime growing as a person and even longer in solitude, he's going to be quite a different person. he shows silver love right off the bat and continues to do so forever. also hes wrinkly because hes hundreds of years old (for gods sake stop giving him eye bags, a single worry line and calling it a day, at that point just dont give him wrinkles)

silver visits from the past frequently upon becoming an adult and is really close with his dad. theyve had their moments, but mostly get on well with each other. from a certain point onwards, he decides to move in with his dad.

omega (and any other robots who made it) arent particularly thrilled to raise silver the hedgehog, of all children. theyre more like weird uncles/aunts/whatever to silver. for an example of another robot, if belle somehow survives, she's probably been stripped to her mechanical components by that point. she'd probably fix things for silver and things along that line, but she's already been through enough, she doesnt want to have to deal with that nuclear bomb of a baby.

i think shadow sees ghosts sometimes, although im not sure if silver can see them or not. of course, they're all restricted to the building they died in, however a lot of those buildings dont exist anymore, so can visit shadow. maybe he can only see them when silver isnt there and he can definitely only see them sparingly. i like fluff and thats what dadow mostly is for me, but for something like this i definitely need a tiny bit of angst. only the tiniest bit though.

as silver grows old and shadow is forced to see him die, shadow fears moving on. thankfully, silver dies in shadow's house, so he can still visit his son.

(im gonna be honest the ghost thing was entirely for sonadow purposes and then slowly turned into other things like being able to see team dark)

[funshinebf]

i think in order to understand knives trigun you must first recognize that at his core he is a very very scared little kid. and after that everything else sort of clicks into place

i think at a glance it seems sort of ridiculous because he's such an insanely powerful dude that it seems hard to believe he could actually be afraid of anything, especially humans that are so much weaker than him. but in reality the power he's gained for himself was because of his fear all along. he was a young child who saw something very horrible done to someone like him, and he felt betrayed by someone he loved for not preventing it. and he became terrified that it would happen to him too. so he lashes out. he makes himself into the bigger threat, the higher animal on the food chain. he tries to destroy everything and everyone that could betray him and hurt him too.

and i think his obsession with vash is really interesting, because its very clear that it isnt even about vash for who he is as a person, he's become more of a figure to knives. because while knives is so terrified and doesnt want to be hurt, he also doesnt want to be alone. he wants to be cared about and he wants to be understood. and he believes that vash is the only other person in existence who can give that to him. yet again he falls into behavior and thought processes of a scared child, he wants his brother to lay with him and hold his hand and tell him that theyre safe now, that knives did the right thing, that he made sure they would be safe. and i think its incredibly tragic that the comfort he so desperately wants is something that he cant get, neither from vash nor humans. because he would never allow any humans to get that close to him again. and because his fear has blinded him to who vash really is as a person, to the fact that vash could never agree with him and the things he's done. and he's constantly denying any truths he doesnt like, anything that contradicts what he believes to be the only way to truly become safe. he denies the fact that vash's ideals are truly different to his, he acts as though vash is just naive and needs to be shown the truth, or that he's only opposing knives to be petty and childish instead of out of genuine belief and love for humanity. he denies the fact that he cared about rem, that she cared about him, because if one human can be good then that means all of them could, and that means that he's been wrong all along, that he's done horrible things for no real reason. that he's the reason his mother died. that he's the reason vash lost his arm, that vash has been hurt so many times, that so many innocent lives had been taken. he cant handle that reality, he doesnt want to, so he refuses to entertain the thought of it. he lies to himself so thoroughly that he doesnt even realize that he's doing it. it makes me feel sort of insane how absolutely tragic he is

[meowsticmarvels]

im curious. who are your fav characters from each mainline persona game that you have played 🤔🤔 (take this as an invitation to ramble about them)

YIPEEEEEEEE here we go will be long so im hiding it under a readmore again. also since you said mainline im not including toshiro or eri but you Know...... im abnorma, abt them

i have NOT played p1 and i've just barely started p2is (though ive watched snippets of someone elses's playthrough) but i will say. based on my limited knowledge i rly like hidehiko, ayase, naoya, tatsuya, jun, eikichi, yukino, maya, and lisa

p3 and p4 are difficult bc theyre the ones im the most autistic abt and the main entire casts as a whole are comforts for me. but anyways. going to talk about p3 first Yes I Will Include SLs too. im abnormal. top 3 main insaners for p3 though are akihiko, yukari, and junpei. for me

makoto/minato sooo so gender envy. im obsessed with his design a lot. his character i do also like hes a little goofy and so mecore but mainly his design is something i love a lot

same with kotone. also love how she has a sort of distinct personality that you can tell with slight dialogue changes that her counterpart doesnt say. shes rly real. love reload but i miss her...

as stated yukari's one of my favs. she didnt Use to be (i did like her but Not as much) but she's slowly become one and man. i love that silly girl. her haters will not survive the winter actually. it does piss me off though because like. yeah shes not perfect no character rly is but she's a traumatized mentally ill teenage girl with a dead dad and a neglectful mom cut her some slack maybe? god forbid women do anything. idk. but im obsessed with her. her character is actually so interesting to me and not a lot of people talk about it? like her whole fear of death causing issues with summoning her persona like at the beginnning, her dad being involved with the kirijo groups shit, how she puts on a cheerful front but is actually deeply really lonely :(, her kinda playful insult friendship with junpei (deep down they do care abt eachother. i wish that was explored more. i found a rly good fic abt it once.) and etc etc. idrk what to say but shes sooo. i also love how she initially HATES mitsuru and is super jealous of her and then. Well. gay tension is real. anyways shes a transfem lesbian to me btw. yukamitsu ftw

junpei's also become one of my favs. somehow. in a similar vein to yukari in that he wasn't initially my main fav character but i think his character's also pretty interesting and has. a lot of unexplored potential. he's very silly and i love him for that a lot but something i don't see many people talk about is like. his Issues. like yeah hes silly but he's also got some fucked up self-worth issues!!! remember the scene on 5/9 where he kinda gets really upset and goes off on his own and stuff. for example. like i think him being imperfect and having these moments where he's NOT cheerful and goofy all the time and actually deeply really jealous of you because he feels that fighting's all he's good for and he's not worth much else is what makes him interesting. do you get it. like him being tbe silly funny guy isn't all he is as a person yk!!!!! also as far as characterization I point a lot to the scene where yukari's more than willing to go confront the people in the alley while junpei's worried, or scene near the end of the game where yukari teases junpei and he snaps at her, confessing that while he doesn't show it he really is terrified. they all are, at that point. yk what I mean? also people don't acknowledge his trauma with his father enough (maybe because it's only really discussed at all in femc's route... his SL is so good but not enough ppl see it... BUR YEAH did not think I'd go off on a tangent about junpei fucking iori tonight but he's real. hashtag brokeback tartarus. also he's an adhder to me. (oh yeah also want to point out this line in his SL where he says "maybe I have anxiety or something". yeah. that's a line!)

akihiko fucking sanada. ohhhh man. this guy. where do i even START. he's so so crazy like what if your local high school upperclassman boxing champion guy was also really gay for his dying childhood friend and autistic as hell and also traumatized. and he's doing boxing in the first place to overcompensate because the death of his sister made him fear losing anyone else again snd he needs to feel like he has power. he needs control. yk? like this guy made me insane for like several months straight in 2023 and he still makes me ill. to this day. as you can probably tell by my distaste for people seeing yukari and junpei at face value you can probably gather that I hate the protein jokes and i Do. he said it like. Once in p3. it never rly was funny????? and what they did in spinoffs esp p4a to just make him look like a gym rat and nothing more makes me upset bc of the REASON he's obsessed with fighting. he's not just a dumb jock (he also isn't dumb lol he canonically scores very high on his exams) he's overworking himself because feelings of self doubt from trauma have caused him to feel the need to overcompensate so he never loses anyone again. you know? it would've been interesting to see him relapse in p4a if theyd actually done it well. like he doesnt rly give himself time or room to grieve in game (theres rhat onw scene on 10/5 and then he barely talks about it again. man i wish it was developed more...) so realizing that grieving isnt a linear process that he can just repress for a long time and even years after it can still hurt would go INSANE. but no they just turned him into i love protein joke number 20. okay!!! (im very angry) thinking about when my non persona friend after hearing me explain some of the plot described p3 as like a greek tragedy because like. damn. he and shinji were doomed from the start with personas like polydeuces and castor huh. anyways. yeah. continuing writing now that i've watched october 4th in reload AND akihiko's breakdown as a reuslt and i wanna scream and cry and throw up that will be for another post but ooh man it mad eme cry like 3 times. and I KNOEW WHAT HAPPENS. THEYRE SOOOOOOOOOO if you know me im an insane akishinji truther. im just. i wanna talk abt other charactrs so ill stop here but always ask me about akihiko + akishinji + ships i like in general. i am really normal. oh btw transmasc akihiko is forever real to me. also he's autistic and a ptsder. to me (tbf what persona character Doesnt have some form of truama but like. this guy in particular). up there with my highest blorbos

i dooont wanna go on for too long abt every other character in p3 so ill keep this next part short and sweet but if u wanna hear me talk more abt any of them. feel free to. starting with fuuka i love he rmy transfem autistic girlie who has every disease. i also love mitsuru a lot who i Wish had people acknowledge her deeper aspects more. like. she was experimented on and also very sheltered and also a little bit of a girlfail. shes not fully the girlboss you all say she is shes also just a teenage girl!!!!!!!!!! koromaru can do no wrong hes forever the best. i love that dog. ken makes me so so sad he is just a kid!!! what the hell!!!!!! :(. and oh man. shinji. guy who is so wracked with guilt. guy that is dying no matter what happens. guy that dies in his lover's arms

as far as non-sees characters. i rly like strega. esp jin and chidori. dont think abt them enough. also as far as SLs i like keisuke, hidetoshi, bunkichi and mitsuko, kazushi, yuko, and etc etc...i need to see rio and saoris links too they look real. oh also i LOVE ryoji

p4 time !!!!!!

again gonna cut this short so i can actually Fit it all in one post. but wow. i do like all of the IT so so much but im just focusing on my favs. anyways i love yu so much his autistic swagger esp in the animation is amazing. like he is not a "chad" he's just an autistic teenager. ok. also the animation broke me when nanako gets kidnapped he sounds fucking distraught there. love when people delve into yu's issues also bc hes a bit fucked up but Man. ouch. just like me fr tho

i love yosuke in a similar way to why I like junpei because he's kind of a loser /pos snd has some insane issues that his shadow delves into that are Kind of Insane for the FIRST shadow of the game. like ok damn. i really do love his social link in general tho his was the first one I maxed out in my (unfinished because i didn't want to finish it) p4g playthrough so!!!!! many things wrong with him and also the lgbt community has forgiven yosuke hanamura. also similarly to junpei he's adhd as hell. souyo ftw

naotos probably my fav p4 character I think which is Pretty Painful Sometimes. sometimes I need to kill both other persona fans and atlus if ykwim. but anyways i hc him as transmasc for one thing but also if atlus weren't cowards and actually made his story abt rhat it would've hit so hard. his shadow in general is often overlooked apart from that bc what about the part where he talks about being mistreated by others and feeling utterly alone and not allowing himself to act like a kid!!!! it fucks me up!!! he's also super autism btw like god damn. but YEAH point is I love naoto so much and i hate how both some fans and atlus tjemself treat him because his whole arc and shadow had the potential to be super compelling

apart from who i listed above i do like the rest of the IT so much they're such silly friends (i love you chie i love you yukiko i love you kanji i love you rise i love you teddie.). can't think of any SLs off the top of my head that were crazy but I do like daisuke and kou. OH ALSOO the dojimas..... 😢💧😢😢💧 love them

p5 time :3 I'm into it less so than p3 or p4 but Still

yusuke's my favorite p5 character probably. i domt know what it is apart from the common trend of my favs being autistic as hell (see: akihiko and naoto) but he's like. such a fucked up guy. he's traumatized. he loves art. something is deeply wrong with him. obsessed with this gug

i also do like ren/akira, ryuji, futaba, and also mishima (unfortunately. but in my defense there is something deeply wrong with him slash positive). i don't know a lot abt all of p5's confidants but i like iwai I think.... this reminded me I need to make more progress in p5 what the hell. i miss you futaba (i haven't even got to her palace yet im still on kaneshiros LOL)

but YEAH! thank you for asking!!! from the ones I've played my top favs are akihiko + naoto + yusuke respectively so👍👍👍 loved answering this :3 if u have any thoughts on a particular character feel free to ask and ill elaborate :3

[kiisuuumii]

some introspection this morning abt a feeling from last night abt social interactions, letting ppl in, fear of everything coming to a sour end, and hope

up until this past february, i hadnt allowed a completely new person into my life, like really into my life, for quite a long while; the last person was an old coworker, who id met two years ago now. and ive always been the sort to struggle w social interactions and connections of all types, so when i made my first blog and decided to start posting poetry there, i had prepped myself mentally somewhat to interact w others (last time i put myself out onto the internet was in 2020 lol), but i dont think i was as emotionally ready as i shouldve been, to the point of letting my emotions get the better of me and hurting myself and others twice now since march

its safe to say that im scared, of letting ppl in, of my emotions taking over, of hurting someone else again. its safe to say that i dont trust myself to not let any of this happen again. and maybe its a control issue thing. i know that nobody's perfect, let alone me, and yet i find it difficult to extend the sort of grace id give to others, to myself.

so when someone reached out to me last night to tell me that theyre there if id like a friend (and hello friend if youre reading this sorry im making an example of you), it brought up the question of whether i felt i /could/ let someone new in. and ik that its not like i have to be vulnerable, spewing every little thing abt myself, right from the start, and ik that how connections progress varies from one to another. i think the question really becomes whether i trust myself to know how navigate new connections in ways that are not only true to myself, but also with my highest good in mind, and whether im willing to take the risk that someone's presence in my life wont last forever

thats another thing with me; when i grow fond of someone, i want them to always have a presence in my life to some degree, because i love them, and i want to not only be apart of their lives, but also them apart of mine. but thats not what happens every time; people come and go, thats just how it is, and i struggle horribly with letting go, even since i was a kid

but i dont want to let the fear of losing someone keep me from letting people into my life. i crave connection, i crave understanding. i cant have those things without letting someone in and letting them try, and letting myself try.

i want to live this life with as few regrets as i can. yet it seems like ive just been piling them up over the past four months. am i just going to regret letting other people in going forward, too?

theres only one real way to find out. and im terrified. genuinely terrified. bc im sick of hurting others. im sick of beating myself up. but you have to do the thing scared. you have to. or else you wont do it at all. you'll keep making excuses for yourself, saying you arent ready, but when will that be? are we ever truly ready for anything, let alone change?

you have to hope that the next time'll be different. statistically, its not impossible. you have to hope. how else can things change if you dont have hope that they will?

hope doesnt have to mean trusting yourself completely. it just has to mean believing in the small part of you that wants things to change to do what they can with what they have to bring about that change.

i'll always believe that so long as i have the hope that i can change, i'll be able to find whats the best decision for me, in whatever moment i find myself in. that, that hope will eventually usher in the change im striving for, someday, one way, or another.

[anyatomy]

TOP 5...................... tma fears :3

this is so difficult because like. these are abstract concepts i have so many different thoughts on that just sorting them on pure opinion is DIFFICULT and so subject to change (even though there is a consistent cast at the top of my list but like… gahrgehrha theyre all COOL!!!!!!!)

but. ok. take all this with more than a grain of salt bc these all shift and also IDK. IDK. but:

1) the flesh: gore of any kind from medical to Fantastical both utterly fascinates me and also makes me so incredibly queasy. i am a very queasy person im easily grossed out. but GOD. GOD. the flesh is SO COOL. conceptually the flesh garden is my absolute favorite episode. God i wish we had a cool avatar people think is hot instead of the fucking homophobe

2) the buried: hezekiahs statement. does something to my brain. i dont know. im so terrified of being buried alive and the statement about the guy being stuck in that box for 4 days freaks me out Utterly but its just. Being crushed is so cool. And it can be used more metaphorically in SUCH INTERESTING WAYS!!! GRAHHH

those are the entities i hold the most tangible feelings on. after this it becomes even MORE nebulous

3) the slaughter: associating music with violence is literally so fucking cool that was such a smart move. i wish there was more canon exploration of things in the vein of grifters bone instead of just. war. but its just SO COOL and how melanie experiences the slaughter is so >{~£]^~*]€~*]£ ITS SO COOL

4) the corruption: bugs freak me out so much in ways i cant describe so this isnt as high up bc i jsut Cant deal with it BUT. Associating love with bugs and rotting on a cosmic scale is so fucking sick. winslow really got me thinking abt the corruption man

5) the stranger: i dont have many thoughts on the stranger this is here because i think the circus and nikola and just the whole plot of season 3 is the best the show ever was and i feel like ive gotta rank it high for my pure enjoyment of that storyline

final tidbits on entity opinions under the cut ^__<

the spiral, eye, desolation, and lonely are cool but they are so overused and often interpreted in ways that just make me mad. youre not a lonely avatar because youre alone you would be taken by the lonely. youre a lonely avatar if you cultivate it. eye avatars arent just curious they are curious to a fault to the point of pain and disaster and destruction. GERRY ISNT A DESOLATION AVATAR BECAUSE HE BURNS THINGS. Their whole purpose is to hurt people as deeply as they can and make them loose everything in the worst way possible. Gerry sweeps up the ashes of a desolation avatar he kills and apologetically hands them to a nurse while covered in burns that should be deadly

i wish i could like the hunt bc its cool conceptually but its too tied to cops for me to like it.

extinction scares me too much. so does the vast kinda and the dark a little. but the darks also boring to me Sorry manuela dominguez 🙏

the end and the web are cool enough but i like their avatars more than the conceptual Entities so they dont score.

[acredb]

you guys are cool

*gives you my everhood au ideas*

spoilers for after arm getting so its after the cut

its very long i apologise

context: at this point, reds killed the forest spirit, the mushrooms, slim jim shroom (the sprunkel fight), the maze monster and gold pig

(this is literally just bc during a playthrough when i got to this point i figured "...yeah, this would hurt them mentally." so i MADE it hurt ;3 ) (they killed gold pig out of spite, they were the only person red WANTED to kill not counting maze monster)

they couldnt bring themself to kill their friends so they quit. they didnt let the lost spirits know that they were quitting the murder rampage, they just did. ofc the lost spirits weren't happy about this, so they started to 'punish' red for this. they appeared in their dreams, *fucked up* their dreams, and every so often one of them would appear and just...lecture them, using their mental state against them, so this hurt

nobody alive knows about them, not even blue

reds become a lot more protective, meaning theyll get mega pissed if someone hurts blue, green learned the hard way (they decided to prank red into thinking theyd killed blue (dumbass) and red almost killed them they were so upset)

a few weeks? go by and red decides theyve had enough of constantly fearing that they'll hurt their friends so they decide 'What's the point of keeping this stupid arm if all it does is hurt people?' and casually drop it into the incinerator where it burns to a crisp

the lost spirits did NOT like that.

(zoom in to read details but im explaining it more so uh) the lost souls got a lot more direct in how they were making red regret this. they appeared in their dreams *every night* instead of just when they felt like, and warped them more and more until red would wake up terrified

the spirits started following them everywhere, always just out of sight. every time red's seperate from the rest of the group, they appear, multiple at once.

this ended up driving red mad, and they go bezerk, running away into the Peaceful Forest (peaceful my ass) because theyre so afraid to hurt their friends now that theyre not taking any chances

because theyre so unstable they act like a scared animal, if they cant run theyll attack. literally the only person they wont try to hurt is blue, because even in their madness they know they care about them too much to hurt them

after a month and couple weeks of looking for them, rasta beast finds them in the forest eventually, very much scuffed. red does the whole regular run away thing, until they get cornered. a small (physical, not dance) fight breaks down, rasta fighting back in self defense, until they manage to knock some sense into red. for the first time in a while, red's comforted

this does nothing for their fractured mind, but it gives rasta beast a *little* more protection, because they can snap red out of it for even just a couple minutes

rasta beast goes back and tells the others (everyone hangs around prof.orange's lab cause protection) and prof.orange wants to get red into the lab maybe to study them or something so he sends green and purple mages to get them cause theyre magical and shit

after a mad goose chase the two lose red, but green finds some gnomes (the psychadelic ones) and asks them to get red high out of their mind so they and purple can bring them to orange

(little about the gnomes in this au, they can emmit pheromones that stimulate the mind like weed does because there is NO WAY red wasnt high for 'you want gnomes'. also whenever red is high theyre too overwhelmed to do anything so they eventually just flop over and see god until it wears off, which is why green got the gnomes)

it works and now purple and green are bickering about the morality of the drugging while dragging a practically passed out red to the lab

(ive come up with everything until this point, ill make a part 2 whenever i add to this)

(oh yeah and i forgot to mention but prof.orange has a machine and using it seperated pink and red so the vessel is sentient and the soul lives, orange also made a machine that translates some of red' thoughts into audible sound, they were so fucking happy when they heard their voice they cried)

[frothingatthemaw]

i see, i respect the maturity in respecting your partner slash best friend's boundaries in that way :). im not the best conversationalist lol but uh.. i guess im the slc punk anon so i can talk a bit about the movie :D

i first saw it a few years ago (maybe three?) when i was super into the punk subculture, going to shows and making my own clothes and everything, and of course i had heard of it since i was into punk, so i decided to watch it. instant classic, i love movies where it feels like an exclusive peek into someone's vibrant and rich life, and all of the interesting people around them.

my favourite characters are sean, mark & heroin bob. sean's just so endearing... his story in the movie fits a lot of the common themes of the stories i tend to like, honestly i'd love a movie just going in on his life. get some more context to the attempted matricide and the homelessness and whatnot. mark's such a strong character, really awesome writing mixed with an awesome performance! he leaves such an impression. he seems like he would be so much fun to hang out with ... i want to be given a tour of all his expensive useless items i love expensive useless items. heroin bob was my #1 favourite before sean was, i think in part because he is so similar to who i was at the time. i was a straight edge punk with issues with mental health and anger and stuff. apart from the straight edge thing, i think we're more similar these days though lol.

id love to hear about your favourite character(s) and why theyre your favourite :D (i think i could guess but ... you know lol)

thank you :] that means a lot nonny!

honestly i wish i had known matthew lillard sooner, or at least have known of his incredible acting and movies. it’s embarrassing to be a fan and known of him from the fnaf movie. like i feel like a matthew lillard fan poser 😭

i agree with everything about what you’ve said with your favs. i’d love a movie on sean! honestly, the gun scene with mark and stevo and bob was terrifying. i understand stevo’s fear in it badly, it always makes me uncomfortable to watch. i see myself in stevo so much through that scene. mark does seem fun though! and, too, i’ve always loved alt culture, at least the fashion aspect. the most i’ve actually looked into deeper things about subculture is the emo one, but it was really fascinating to see a peek of punk stuff!

bob and stevo’s whole relationship does a number on me. i could go on and on about the tragedy for hours. and especially stevo (who is my favorite, you definitely know that lol), who had to find life after bob’s death. the tragedy that is stevo levy makes me feel impossible to explain things. it makes me feel insane. i also think i relate to him a lot, especially how he dealt with things, because of my suspected bpd. i think stevo having the disorder as well explains a lot. his fear of losing bob, his coward ways of not wanting to confront his feelings (maybe because he feels less important or inadequate of having problems because of where he comes from, yk being a rich boy who took prelaw), his burst of anger onto bob about things because he didn’t address them sooner so he just exploded, the attachment to bob even to begin with (definitely his favorite person, which is shown by his breakdown at his dead body and saying he doesn’t have anymore friends depsite having others in his life), having trouble connecting because he feels his emotions are different to others (bpd and having emotions be 0 or 100, the black and white thinking), and adding upon the black and white thinking, how he went from being so wrapped up in punk stuff to hating it. i think it all explains a lot. but this is just scratching the surface! i love stevo so much and he’ll forever have a place in my heart, my special fucked up boy

and! did you hear that in another movie (fat kid rules the world), in some deleted scenes, matthew plays stevo and he’s a high school counselor instead of becoming a lawyer like at the end of slc punk. i have so many thoughts on this and it’s been plaguing my brain for the last few days. the brainworms have taken over

[andreabaideas]

In a superhero au,which power would each DJATS character have?

Wow, cool and tough question! Are we basing their powers on their personalities ? Or just random powers they got cursed/ blessed with?...

Anyways, here I go :

First lets start with..

• Teddy Price has the power of detecting other people talents and / or super powers. Maybe he can read minds too. He is like Eleazar from Twilight (has the same power: detecting other peoples superpowers) , but in personality he IS very much the Xavier from Xmen or Gandalf from LOTR : The wise leader who can see the true Spirit and Hearts of the others.

• Rod Reyes : He has the power of organisation and order, he always can get everything done just in time magically. He always gets everything rightly done. As a manager Its useful

• Graham It's an empath (like Jasper from Twilight or Will Graham from Hannibal ) he can feel other peoples feelings and manipulate them too...Just in Graham's case he can Only calm people and give them peace .... He has like an anti-stress little ball.. Very needed tbh.

• Julia Its able to detect líes and see the truth , also know as intuitive perception , like the guy from the mentalist or even House from Dr House, she always see the patterns and guess correctly and always rightly when someone IS lying, she sees though people, and always calls out bullshit... Which Its very usefull for her as writer and journalist (I headcanon her as both as an Adult).

• Karen's power Its being a runaway , escaping of everything (trouble) and detecting danger, as she is very independent, I think It fits her.

• Lisa's power is being attractive and liked by people, everyone likes her always, everyone does what she needs them to do, they like to see her, her voice...Its like mental manipulation ...Only it isn't voluntary, she doesn't intend it, Its just like that.

• Warrens power Its super strenght and also being chill, because why not?

• Eddie's power Its super fastness, like the Flash, very ironical, because Billy being slower than him, always seems to get everyone and everywhere before him. Ouch.

• Simone's power Its seeing the future, she has visions. She cant control them, and they always become true. They are unavoidable they are like fixed images in stone. She doesnt know if theyre going to happen in 10 minutes or in 10 years, but they are always true. When the visions are tragic It hurts Her. Her vision of Camila's Destiny, as she can't do anything to fix it, It haunts her forever.

• Bernie Its able to manipulate electricity and Air, that way she can control sound waves thus Its a DJ without machines. She can hack into everything . Its cool, both Julia and Bernie together are terrifying , they know everyones secrets and use them for their benefit.

• Camila's power : None, she's just a nice human. Alternatively, her talent Its , pretty much like in canon, just being nurturing and nice. Everyone feels welcome with her and Happy. She exudes good vibes. Its a beautiful power but not very flashy or useful. She is Anti Bad vibes... Cool, but what about what she feels?? No one fixes that :(

• Finally ....Drumroll : Daisy and Billy, the tough ones.

Daisy Jones Its a SHIELD like Bella from Twilight, she survives everything always mostly unscathed, no one can harm her with their powers, she IS immune to other peoples powers. She IS the most powerful. Undestroyable, but tragically ironical she IS always very hurt by peoples non magical actions (her Mom particularly).

Billy Its to me the most complicated, he IS haunted and also angsty, so i think he should have a better reason than fear and his shitty dad, so i made him be a telepath, he reads other peoples minds,both by touching them (Aro from Twilight ) and by hearing them at distance (Edward Cullen from Twilight and Sookie Stackhouse from True Blood) but as he can't stop hearing them ever, except when he IS drugged and drunk as fuck (like Xavier in Xmen Dotfp movie) he IS a mess. Camila makes him fell better, but he can read her thoughts about being jealous, deceived and betrayed by him, Graham makes him peacefull and sleepy, but he IS scared of his addiction and annoyed by his power, and Daisy...Its what he longs for, a bless for him, because she can block his power, thus giving him pleasing needed silence, but she is also a curse because she IS: 1 - forbidden fruit and temptation, 2- a mess just like him if not worse, 3- also never shuts Up around him (except for kisses, again forbidden because he IS like... You know, Married?) thus they argue all the time, so no silence. All that makes him extra angry and angsty...and longing watcher too . Plus 4- they are both idiots in love and... Its ruining their lives ( Taylor Swift Its a Queen❤️ and TTPD is phenomenal)

In the end, everyone and everything keeps being the same and nothing changes at all. Djats keeps being the same, mostly.

What a cool ask!! Thank you so much!!

Quoting Bugs Bunny:

[rabbithaver]

its dumb but i feel like the only ones who truly get me and understand who i am as a person are the friends who realized im not a good person. the ones who got to know me and realized that im actually just really fucking good at manipulating people into being my friends just so i can use them

you know. the dozens of people who figured out that im inherently toxic and rotten to the core and tried warning others