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SKUNK WHY ARE YOY SUCH A SQRIMMBLE
#ask skunk and jason#theyre just mean im sorry anon#FINALLY NOT SICK ANYMORE SO IM GETTING TO THESE:3
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I love the way you drew Sam and Max in your art style! I hope you do more tk art of them (no pressure though draw what you want)
there is nothing id rather draw for you anon!!!! i LOVE making art of these two <3333333333
(dont worry, sam's got a sneaky way of escaping)
(ns//fw and/or fetish blogs please dni🙏🙏)
#tickle art#my art#SMAX!!!!!!!!!!#see i promised you all id draw them :p#i went through a phase in like 2021 (and again in 2022) where like. ALL i drew was art of sam getting wrecked#havent drawn these guys in ages tho!!!!!!!!! thanks for giving me an opportunity theyre genuinely some of my fave guys to doodle ever :3#max is fine at the end btw hes just being a Drama Queen#sorry for the empty space around the images btw. i considered cropping it but i honestly just didnt feel like it lol#anyway#sam and max tickle#ler!max#lee!sam#thanks for the req anon!!!!!!!!!!!!!#snm is one of the 3 things im super into rn (the other two things being rick n morty and adventure time)#sooo......if you wanna see more of these guys or any of the guys from those listed fandoms then i would be down B)))#i mean i take reqs for anything in my fandom doc. im just more likely to do them if im super into them lol#like i have reqs for dh///mis stuff thats been sitting in my inbox for months#but i answered this in less than 24 hours#SORRY i have adhd blehh
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to that anon who asked me for gifs a couple of hours ago where i had no idea what they wanted ive decided to just not do em cuz i really dont get it
#sorry#if u dont mean to spoil me anon its ok im sorry but the leaks just make me so anxious of everything lately 😩#and my greatest fear is that its an asshole who wants to spoil me and everyone else who follows this blog#time to turn off anon asks#even other ppl didnt get it so yeah#sadge bc i like anon asks theyre funny#dont make me turn off asks all together you guys :)))#personal tag
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Me: I don't know if my ideas are worth sharing, I'm losing engagement from my readerbase these past few months so I must be doing something wrong, I don't think I've really accomplished anything as a writer.
Some person in my AO3 comments hyped as FUCK for the Risen Lamb/Fallen God rewrite:
#hannah's rambles#negative kinda#I've been really feeling down about nearly everything i make lately and it's bothering me a lot#There was this not quite-well-meaning anon I got a few months ago that seemed to compliment me on the surface#But seemed very backhanded#Basically informing me “oh youre basically the most popular writer in the fandom. here are some ways im going to compare you to others”#and i tangentially kinda knew how readers viewed me as a good/semipopular writer but i just ignored it#because i primarily do it for fun#but it made me realize what readers actually do consider in works when theyre looking for a fic they want#and i feel like i've peaked already in a lot of ways#ugh#sorry for kvetching at yall but i feel like y'all deserve to know part of why im just not writing as much lately#sometimes i try to hype myself up so i can still feel like anything of mine is worth reading or writing in the first place#but it's not working anymore
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Hey, just felt called to let you know that your MQF from SVSSS doodles give me such life and inspired how I write MQF in my fics. I love how you depict him and your art style is so refreshing and cute!
Just thought you should know. Hope you have a good day!
HELLO HI THANK YOU SO MUCH??? 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 GLAD TO BE OF SERVICE HAVE A FANTASTIC DAY OR NIGHT
#THANK YOU ANON I WILL GO EXPLODE NOW#jbfkdjh#sorry for caps this actually means so much to me you have no idea#thank you for stopping by to tell me i really appreciate it 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓😭#my specialest little guy...........im so glad that ppl like him hes so dear to me#im literally in the middle of making myself a bag pin with mqf cuz i had to go 'fine i'll just do it myself' hahjkhfd#to be entirely honest i have made more small bits with him in the meantime and i have lots of bigger projects in mind with him but#i kinda hit an art funk this past month and felt p bad about my art in general#so not much posting have been posted and not much more even made#but this ask watered my crops and cleared my skin hdfjkdhfgkdf thank you#anyway cant post the older doodles cuz theyre tied to something thats still a wip and kinda embarrassing cuz im trying something new lol#but maybe ill post some lazy crumbs that i have and try to get back into arting#sorry for rambling this just made me really happy i need to explode something with my mind#i literally went to bed cuz its way past 1am here but then i noticed the notif and threw myself out of the bed lol#but now im going back to shreep#but anon im sending you good vibes and wish you good times with your fics :))) thankyou again for the kind words#asks
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I haven’t read your books yet, you know how it is, money~, but I bet they’re pretty good and I am planning to buy and read them, they’re on The List, and I hold you in high regards as a person I kinda vaguely barely know. I say this first to preface, because, from the kindest most adoring place of my heart okay, this reminded me of you, no offense: https://www.tumblr.com/pjackk/721300009283420160/whats-up-tunblr-basically-i-just-wrote-this-book
Ouch.
Glad you preceded this with a compliment...
But brutal.
For what it's worth, I also hate having to reduce my books to tropes...and I try not to, with any of my promotional posts...
But uh...good to know this is how I come across :S
But in my defense...and in defense of other authors... it's super easy for people to make fun of how we have to promote our books, but in this terrible digital economy...I mean.
It's hard to keep people's attention, and it's hard to sell books.
It's not like selling art, doing commissions, making animations, or well-edited videos. Books are inherently harder to sell and market and build an audience for, because they're an investment of time and focus.
They aren't as easy to dive into and enjoy. A webcomic chapter you could read in twenty minutes. A pretty picture you can reblog, and you can commission the artist if you love the style. A Youtube video can be ten minutes of investment. Maybe an hour, tops.
But a book?
Books will always struggle more than shows or animations, because it takes a certain kind of person to read books, and in this day and age, attention spans are shorter than ever.
You spend fucking years writing your books, and you edit, and you revise, and write some more, and edit some more, and revise some more, and then you have to promote.
All the time, in every way you can imagine. Using whatever tools you have... all the time, every way.
Otherwise, you don't see any sales at all, and then it's like you wasted three years of your life fiddling around, while everyone you know is making bank on crypto or whatever the fuck.
If I was good at fucking BookTok? I wouldn't be fucking here promoting at all.
I could leave my blog as the little meme machine it's always been.
But I'm bad at fucking TikTok.
And I mildly resent being compared to a TikTok author, because if I was any good at that, I WOULD NOT BE HERE promoting my books at all.
Tumblr is the worst place to promote anything, ever.
That's part of why I like it...but at the same time, that's why it's such a torturous practice, trying to promote my novels here.
No one here gives a fuck. And I'm fine with that.
I'm ok with that.
But I can't throw away hard work without at least trying.
I don't really get the criticisms of authors in those comments anyway.
What have those people tried to put out into the world?
You think self published authors are just jokes, or that they aren't marketing themselves well?
Maybe both are true, but someone who makes something, no matter how shit, has still MADE something.
It's easy to tear others down. It's not easy to make something that you care about, and put out into the world for others to see and judge.
And for those people in the comments too, I have to ask.
Is a book only good, if it's published by a company?
Because books that are self published are actually a LOT LESS likely to be made up of tropes and cliches.
People who self publish tend to write weirder and more out of the box things. They RESORT to tropes because they feel you won't pay attention to their books without them.
they feel you won't give their concept a try, unless they dumb it down for everyone.
They pretend the book is something it's not, out of sheer desperation.
I market 7 Deadly Habits like it's a fucking adventure action romance comedy...?
It's actually pretty fucking dark and grim and sad.
the main character is fucked up, and so are all his exes. So is the entire world they live in.
It's really not a funny book. It has dark humor, but it's hinged on an unhinged concept, one that I find darkly interesting.
But I lie and say it's a funny adventurous romp of sex and violence.
Because that's how I have to market it.
I try other things, of course, but I have found most people would rather read a romance than an anti-romance, which is more of what it is.
People don't want to try new things. They want more of the shit they already have.
to make something new, or different, or non-conventional, is to accept that you will have to water it down when you're trying to offer it to people.
So yeah.
I get it. Authors who blaze their book promotions are desperate losers and weirdo freaks with very bizarre interests and isn't it funny, how hard they're trying?
But you know.
What else can we be?
Leigh Bardugo?
Trust me. I wish I was a good writer. I wish I wrote straight YA fantasy books that kids and adults and everyone can enjoy. I wish I had a literary agent and five star publishing houses giving me 20 million dollars for my next book.
I wish I was a multi millionaire white woman, in an industry of rich white women, who write sexy murder mysteries and cozy thrillers and steamy vampire eroticas.
But I am what I am, and that's a queer self published POC author, who has no one in my corner, but me. Whose only means of promotion is my own efforts.
So no, I don't really look at other self published authors with disdain or wry detachment.
I know how they feel.
I know how much it sucks.
#writing#writers on tumblr#thanks for the ask anon#im sorry#i know you were trying to be nice#but i dont know#that post is mean spirited#i get the urge to disdain blazed posts and all#but not for novels or artwork like#why would you make fun of creatives using blaze#its not like theyre promoting their fucking cryto scams#or some suspicious link to the dark web#or their damn kik or paypal or whatever#they made something and theyre throwing it out there for everyone to judge and mock#i have had nasty comments in every single post ive ever blazed or even posts my friends have blazed#i dont mind them#i just find it odd that youd share this post with me and expect me to find it amusing#i mostly find it cynical and disdainful
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playing an ongoing game called ‘learn whats acceptable to say in someones tags or get blocked’. a lot of you are losing.
#i know i can be cringe or annoying but like. theres a difference between joking on something vs fucking insulting someone you dont know#is this person talking about something they enjoy that you dont? filter the tag and post content and go on with your day#if theyre too annoying then just unfollow for a bit and check back later even#is this person a fan of a character you hate?? put it on your own post instead of coming onto someones account to bitch in their tags#you are literally insulting a real life person over a fictional character. over a show. over a comic. what is wrong with you.#unless the thing they like is actively rooted in real life hate (racism sexism misogyny ableism transphobia etc) that will reflect#and cause real life harm then it literally doesn't fucking matter if you disagree with someone.#youre not making me want to read and consider your opinion about something i literally consume for fun and because haha autism s/i#by calling me an idiot or by saying how i (a disabled person) am ‘braindead’ because i have a different opinion or whatever.#youre just being mean because you feel like you have an excuse to pretend youre superior to someone#like idk how to break it to you but dick grayson isnt going to suck your dick despite you insulting a real person over him lmao.#anyways. im going to block you if you insult me. im going to block you if you see my post on something i like thats harmless and tell me#how much you personally hate it or disagree. i dont care. make your own post because now you cant make it on mine.#and my anon is temporarily off (sorry shy mutuals </3) because a lot of ppl dont have common decency on what's okay to say or demand lol
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there's only two things on this godless fuck of an earth i care about and one of them is kazumaji and the other is minedai which means half the time i am eating well and thriving and living my best life and the other half of the time i am clinging to your blog like a lifebuoy and devouring anything even slightly minedai related i see so what i'm saying is thank you for existing and doing what you do, it keeps me sane
my god you really are starving i'm so sorry my sweet summer child i'll do my best to take care of you. very happy to have you around Very Joyed to hear i can keep you afloat my brother
#snap chats#just posted a minedai fic so i mean. if pwp your speed go have fun go check that out LMAO#NO BUT REAL IF YALL LIKE MINEDAI BUT ARE LIKE. /ALSO/ 'PICKY' LIKE ME WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER#despite minedai technically being one of the more popular ships in RGG its just... not really portrayed in a way i like#i could just be really particular tho cause there are minedai fics i absolutely love to bits#tbh it just the n/sfw thats never done in a way that i like BUT that's why we learn to cook yk cooking's a life skill#gotta make what you like <-- cannot write for his life#like Truly most of the sfw minedai fics i read i love so much theyre so cute and lovely or hit me in just the right way#otherwise tho there really is not. minedai stuff huh#like there IS and i am also slorping and sucking on the crumbs but yeah compared to kazumaji uhhh good luck LMAOOOOO#JPN twitter comes in clutch tho they keep /me/ fed.. love the art over there so much UGH i bust at 6AM#and anon my dear im so sorry you gotta see my cringe msada| postings when i do them. unless you got that tag blocked then gg AHA#very unfortunate the western freak makin a bulk of minedai stuff is also cringe very sad day we're all mournful about it#i do love minedai tho. theyre special to me.. i feel immensely about them..#ok i have to speedrun my morning jesus christ i have to drive two hours back to school uuGHHHGH I DONT WANNAAAA#I HATE DRIVING DRIVING SUCKS
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What would you say are the essence of mick and prophet as characters and as a couple? I've tried writing them before and I've always felt like I got their dynamics wrong. You're who I think of as the keeper of these characters so I thought I'd ask you and see what your thoughts are on them.
i feel like there isn't a lot of ways you can go wrong with these two because aside from the very basic facts we don't know much about them at all. like yeah they have these backstories and interactions to some point but it's up to you to fill in the blanks and interpret it as you please so, don't think too hard about whether or not you're getting it "right". As long as it's not THAT visibly out of character (for example Mick is a sniper and you can make a lot of guesses about his personality based on that) i say just write them however you want. sometimes rewatching the show to remind myself of their dynamic also helps me write. i would also love to help if you ever need a second opinion about the way you write them^
as for their essence. (p sure i got the question wrong but?) They're like two sides of the same coin to me. they're so different but also very similar. they complete each other. i like this contrast of two very opposite people being so close to each other. like a welshman and an american, a non-believer and a devout man, the younger extrovert and the older introvert type of deal. but then they're also best friends. they share similar experiences, both have pasts they don't like talking about, two wounded men uniting in their grief. also when you think about it, they were both starting a new life when they joined the red cell, Mick straight out of the army (maybe not right away) and Prophet straight out of jail, a new work, a new environment, a new life, and being the first two recruits of the team, they had to get to know each other and grow close. and seeing how well they do together now, id say that worked out pretty great. (i mean, Mick is new in the US and Prophet is starting his life after 6 years, it's not like they're gonna have much friends or family. i think it's safe to say all they had was each other when the team was first formed (and cooper) lmao)
and as for what i think makes them a great couple is that, the potential they both have to heal and grow if that makes sense? the idea of mick learning to be vulnerable and letting someone get close, or prophet letting his walls down and learning to love someone again. as i said, half of these are just how i interpret them based on their backstories , but yea. i just feel like they have a lot of potential. a lot of things they could learn.a lot of new experiences. it wouldn't be easy for them to carry their relationship to the next level but that's what i like about it. can you imagine the yearning, the angst and all the other things we'd see if any of this was real JSHSKAHEKD LIKEE
i apologize if i didn't answer your question in a way you wanted, sort of just rambled there. feel free to ask if you want me to clarify anything or have another question. sorry
#i just searched up what essence means and its basically the opposite of what i did here#well#if ya want a shorter explanation basically theyre dumbasses who are in love and they have so much to learn from each other#was i supoosed to talk about like characteristics or soemthing i really dont know im sorry#hope this helps a bit though#also im flattered you think that i know about themshsgajdh#please do write about them though god knows we need more 🥺#they are honestly such a great pairing its. a shame no one knows them. they deserve so much more#god i cant shut up today can i#once again#sorry#i really appreciate the question and ily anon#im here if u need me<3#answered#cmsb
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Honestly, I'm tired that any flashback Robin story is either about Dick or Tim. These guys already had such long runs, like let's explore Jason's or Steph's time a bit more? Or maybe, you know, let Damian, the guy who is supposed to be Robin, have Robin stories?
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#dc confessions#asks#anon#u: comics#u all are just haters dick and tim were the BEST robins (steph solos overall though)#jason is uninteresting (NOTHING important happened while he was robin except him dying. he was cute but thats it)#steph was robin for all of five minutes and she solod#the only think u can get from these two is cute memories/bruce being a dick to steph as usual/characters being pissed/loving each other#dc needs to know what theyre doing with damian first to give him robin stories like williamson should STOP writing my boy#but damian HAS had consistent robin stories since he appeared so idk what u mean. hes even had team books#everything to do with interacting w characters and making history happened with dick or tim#dick was the first so it does make sense#and Tim was Robin for so long and did so much (important or not) shit that it's only natural#kid got AROUND. made many enemies and even more allies#sorry im v passionate about this anon i disagree w you#u dont HAVE to like those two but they ARE important as ROBIN. steph was/is an amazing batgirl and she had spoiler#she was arguably more influential as those two than robin#sorry ill stop now#r: robins
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5, 9, and 14 if u please :D
5. do you have a favourite film soundtrack?
not one thats coming to mind right now unfortunately </3 only one i can think of is sound of music but i think thats mostly just bc i love sound of music so !!!
9. are you an organized person, generally?
KINDDD of. kind of. im not ridiculously messy but im also not super organized So. shrugs.
14. what is your opinion on poetry?
literally everything ever is poetry forever and ever. to me
#to elaborate on 14 i LOVE poetry but i didnt always and i think part of what i love is . just how beautiful the language is and how much#meaning poems have if theyre well done. like when you just have to sit and Think about them. and theyre like. bite sized writing#& also because theyre so much smaller its like. every single word choice has to be Deliberate and everything has to be done on purpose so#the end product is always INCREDIBLE. & this is something im still working on with editing but i think its so so so so cool and provides so#much opportunity for growth. and also i think everything ever is poetry completely#sorry i have a lot of thoughts about poetry forever and ever its like a lover to me#asks#anon
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Hi, saw your tags on a stede post: do you have advice on how to take good care of the need to be helpful-people around you? there's someone i like and enjoy spending time with but they seem uncomfortable when there's nothing useful for them to do and they're surprised and a bit insecure when i show gratitude and try to reciprocate their kindness. i'm more of a low maintenance wallflowery person myself so asking for or getting help isn't always easy to handle gracefully.
Thank you!
i have no idea but if you figure it out let me know thanks
Hi! This is something you should talk about with this person (yes, I know. It's hard). I don't know what need they fulfill by being helpful or how exactly you feel your attempts at reciprocating aren't appreciated. I don't know enough about the situation or either of you to give any advice that might be helpful.
But! I can give you a bit of my perspective on these feelings and how I deal with them. Because my self-worth is basically wielded to being useful to other people and that's not a good way to live, for many reasons.
First of all, when I get really down into a self-loathing spiral (because that's really all it is, feeling like I have to make up for my existence), I imagine someone other than myself saying those things to me. Ideally someone I dislike. Then I get offended. And then I look at my own brain like
What helps me with accepting help and nice things, is thinking about how giving those things to people makes me feel. Which is very good. And thinking about how it would make me feel if someone I cared about would always refuse favours, get uncomfortable at being given gifts, brush off my compliments. That would feel bad, wouldn't it? Like maybe they don't like me back at all.
I try to look at myself from outside; like, what if I were someone I know? I am not special; I'm just like everyone else. If helping others, giving gifts, etc makes me feel good, the same is true for others. If I'm honest when I compliment someone, others are honest when they compliment me. If it makes me feel all giddy inside when I make someone smile, the same is true for people who make me smile. And so on.
We're all just guys (gn), you know? No one has something uniquely horrible at their core. Everyone is just a person who deserves help and kindness and nice things. I know it can be hard to accept that. And I can't really give you any tips for helping that person you care about accept that. But eventually, we all have to ask for help and then we'll get help and we'll see that people are there for us, and we deserved it all along.
#and i know! its hard! and you cant *make* anyone understand that its a journey everyone has to undergo by themselves#and im actually very bad at this. i hate to ask for services. compliments make me intensely uncomfortable#esp when i feel like i asked for them & my brain will take any excuse to try & convince me that someones just being nice & doesnt mean it#(which?? even if someones just being nice theyre still BEING NICE and they dont have to be ok so fuck off thx)#ANYWAY#all the best for you anon. & your person. youll figure it out and theyll figure it out <3#anonymaus#message#sorry if thats rambly. or doesn't make much sense. head hurts and i am tired
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Your breakup really really reminds me of my first (and only) wlw relationship/breakup everything you're saying hits home a lot. You will get through it but tbh it's so hard to heal and it still grinds my gears when I think about her and how we broke up. Idk if that helps but I understand what you're going though
YEAH MAN ITS TOUGH OUT HERE FR!!! its not my first queer relationship but like something about this is genuilnely the most world-shattering romantic experience ive had cuz we went into this soooo head over heels for each other like we were literally moving SO fast. and at the time i was like is it ok for us to even be moving this fast (probs tmi but we were literally making out shirtless by like 2nd time we even made out) (probs not a big deal to most people but i experienced a LOT of new things with her that id never experienced befoer & the fact that i was so WILLING to do it so fast was what surprised me the most) but then i was like okk whateverrr i really like how fast we're moving. and i was like 'damn if were moving this fast & if im feeling so good it has to end soon right like theres no way life is going to let me just be happy w this' and then i was like 'no elts not think about it' and then what do you know 5 months later she brekas up w me. and neither of us did anything wrong but it was so random??? like i dont understand how one moment shes telling me how excited she is to spend the entire semester with me and then literally 36 hours later tell me shes not feeling an emotional connection but wont even give us the chance to work it out. i know she also broke it off for personal reasons but its like... this was something we could have TRIED to work out you know!!! maybe it wouldnt have worked in the end but literally nothing felt off to me at all & if id known she was feeling this way i wouldve done my best to make things better. the entire breakup was so sudden and honestly im really not mad at her because i know how nerve-wracking it is to be in your first relationship. i think its just that im really dispapointed she gave up on us so easily you know??? didnt even give us a chance to figure it out
#sorry you didnt ask for a rant but man im not even going to lie the main reason i even rant about this on tumblr is cuz its so much easier#than talking to my friends#not cuz theyre not kind & underestanding and stuff. i mean just generally ive always been better at saying things by writing anonymously#like i never cry on my friends but this was the first time ive ever done that and even then#every time i tell someone i broke up with her i generally dont feel anything i feel like im just retelling a story#other than that one time i cried on my firend#like its just so much easier ranting on tumblr than telling my friends. also if eel really bad ranting to my friends#cuz i know they care abou tme but also like how much of 'i want her back' are they going to take yk??#every time i get tipsy i start complaining about how much i miss her and these past few weeknds my friends have heard an earful of tipsy me#like i jstu dont wnat to burden them like that#but yeah anyway. i feel you anon this shit is so hard#and i feel like the other thing is when its a hetero-presenting relationship friends find it easier to be like 'fuck him / her!!'#and obviously thats not always going to make the person feel better cuz EVERYONE is complex but in a way its nice feeling that support from#friends. but my dating experiences have always been queer and i feel so guilty any time someone says 'fuck them! youre out of their league'#because like the thing about queer dating is i feel so much more understood and it all feels so much more intimate#and when you cant even get a 'fuck them' from your friends it just feels so alienating in a way#idk how to explain it#obviuosly if the ex is a cheater then its valid to be 'fuck them' but in my case none of them have cheated & theyre both very copmlex peopl#weve all done probelmatic things to each other yk#i think its just like. how am i suposed to get over her when our relationship doesnt feel like it should have ended at all#like it was NOT our time!!! NOTHING felt off or wrong or anything!! i thought we were really happy!!#i think she broke it off in part because she was afraid of the moment things went wrong but man this hurts much worse#cuz at least if things started going wrong it would make SENSE to break it off. but BEFORE things go wrong? this pain just feels unnecessar#anyway heres to hoping my insta stories trying to look hot convince her that she messed up and she should totally date me again#and well live happily ever after for at least a few more months#anon tag#asks
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lol it’s hard for me to believe any of the negative stories ppl have abt Dan or Bastille, like I just see them as angels and perfectly nice all the time
yeah I mean same kind of. I can't really imagine them doing anything actively mean or trying to be rude to fans or anything lol, but also they are people so there are gonna be times when they're tired or busy or just don't want to be bothered and, even though that's obviously like fine and allowed, i can see how that might rub people the wrong way.
idk i think part of it is that they, and particularly dan, have such a reputation for being super nice and also the way dan comes across as very down-to-earth and kind of accessible (?) for an artist of his size can lead people to feel veryyy entitled to his time and a certain level of friendliness ig, so if the interaction doesn't go the way they want it to then some people will take that out on him even though he's literally just a person lol
also they aren't angels and perfectly nice all the time they are literally just people pls don't think that about anyone ahaha lol
#ask#anon#i have so many thoughts about like fan/celeb interactions and like#that interaction is always going to mean sooo much more to the fan and so the expectation and pressure on it is way higher for them#and i think especially if you have an image of how someone is going to be in your mind#youre gonna be so much more sensitive to anything they do or say that doesn't align with how you think they are#and that can lead to some people being like oh theyre a horrible person actually#i will say everyone whos told me theyve met them has just said theyre super lovely#and the one girl who said it was a mistake was just cause she was like 13 and i think was more cringing at herself#but yeah thats one of the reasons i dont want to meet the band like i know it sounds dramatic#but i kind of think the idea i have of dan or the other members i have in my head like they arent real people yknow#and i already get stressed in social interactions i really dont need to be in any with that much added pressure lol#sorry for the essay this is just a topic i find very interesting lol#and kind of a tangent but i do see some fans behaviour where im like hmmmmm youre a little entitled and weird#in the end there will be people whove had negative experiences with them cause thats life#its not necessarily a reflection on them or their personality but also i think someone is entitled to that feeling#if that was their experience#if that makes sense
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like i really dont think ya understand the severity of the abuse- even aside from the sexual abuse-
i have bpd and come from a home where im not validated very well (obviously, bc thats what makes ppl bpd in the first place). i meet this person who validates me in every way i could possibly imagine or want (love bombing). they pretend to like me so much that they start to become like me and pick up traits of mine they like the most. they know they have a hold over me and power over me bc i didnt know how to validate myself and they were the only source of validation i had. so then they go ahead and start invalidating me and acting like im less of me and theyre somehow more of me. i knew who i was deep down but suddenly i felt unseen again and silenced and pushed into a corner. and then they act like im a horrible person (discarding phase) and serve me an entirely different version of me thats not who i am, but bc i didnt know how to validate myself and was reliant on them (something thats particularly important for this type of abuse to work), it made me question myself and who i was and what i was like and what my intentions were and what my actions were and if i could even trust my own reality all over again when i really didn’t fucking need to since i knew who i was deep down, but they somehow convinced me they knew me better. because i was reliant on them. i dont think you understand how much that fucks with you.
#vent#this is why i kind of find it hard not to cling to the term 'narcissistic abuse' since this is verbatim what happens in that type of abuse.#based on everything ive read.#again. i dont personally think it necessarily has anything to do w ppl with npd. narcissism as a term existed before the diagnosis.#it means someone whos selfish and only looks out for themselves and will do anything for themselves even at the expense of others.#and literally EVERYTHING ELSE people online have said about this type of abuse happened.#the smear campaign. the sending people after me to stalk me and get info out of me. the apparently never leaving me alone as evidenced#by that anon recently.#oh and- cant forget accusing me of everything they did but 10x worse somehow.#if a certain type of abuse can be predicted so well and so many people have had the same experience or similar enough experiences#i dont see why it doesnt deserve its own term. we just have to divorce it from the idea of npd. maybe give it a different name.#because its really not *just* emotional abuse. sorry.#its so much more than that and so much more strategic.#and this is why even though i didnt think of them as being exactly like zero before i still thought of them as being vampiric.#bc they tried to drain me of my energy and who i was.#but nowadays i can really see the similarities. if only they were rich and had institutional power and paid politicans to oppress#minorities. then theyd be the same person. but im not gonna sit here and pretend thats the case. they're similar to him in so many ways but#theyre not the same person. im obviously able to fucking recognize that.#in spite of them pretending like i cant.#now if that ends up secretly being the case... well....#might be harder for me to divorce them from being similar lmao.#but so far i dont have enough evidence to confidently say that.
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vicious I ln4
pairing: lando norris x reader, a little of charles leclerc x reader🫣 summary: lando's fans always attack you yet he does nothing to defend you, inspired by vicious by sabrina carpenter notes: if youre the anon that requested this sorry it took so long lol! but you were so sweet ty masterlist, part two
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yourusername lil getaway
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user wait is she dating lando??
user there's been rumors of them dating for months but neither of them have confirmed user hopefully not lol
user i had no idea she went on this trip
user yeah cause lando never posts her or even likes her posts lmfaoaofda
user am i the only one that finds her annoying...
user nooo everyone else does lol shes always leeching off lando
yourbff ur perfect babe liked by yourusername
user pls dont let this be a hard launch🧎♀️lando get UP
user of course she has to post lando🤣she needs him for the likes
maxfewtrell spent more time on the ground than actually skiing
yourusername SHHHH it was my first time
user why are all these comments about lando?? im only looking at her😍
f1gossip
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f1gossip Y/n Y/l/n spotted in Bali celebrating New Years at Martin Garrix's show, possibly with Lando Norris. The two have sparked dating rumors for a few months now but no confirmation has been made from either of them.
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user we might have to start accepting that theyre dating☹️
user I REFUSE
user wait im new to the fandom, whys everyone hating on y/n i love her music...
user shes always posting lando for attention and he clearly has no interest in her, he doesnt even like her posts user plus his ex >>>>>>> y/n
user she doesnt deserve him, he needs someone lowkey and y/n is such an attention whore
user not surprised shes there, always leeching on him
user right like girl give him space, he aint yours
user im a y/n defender idgaf. everyone in these comments are just jealous liked by yourbff
user yikes... user defending someone who needs a man to stay relevant lol ok
user i miss luisinha😭
user im convinced theyre still dating and shes using lando for pr
y/n hey lan, i safely made it back to the hotel
lando 👍
y/n i still dont understand why you wanted me to leave early though, its not even midnight :(
lando y/n, we talked about this. there was lots of paparazzi there and if they saw us together on midnight they would think we're dating
y/n we ARE dating... why are you acting like we arent?
lando yk what i meant im just trying to protect you from the craziness that comes from dating me baby
y/n im already getting hate, hows hiding me any different?
lando lets just not do this tn. yk how much worse its gonna get it if we confirm anything listen i love you, isnt that enough?
y/n yeah, ily too
lando ill see you later tn❤️
lando baby where are you? come on it was a drunk mistake, yk i only love you it was just martins friend, you know her
y/n oh the girl you told me not to worry about?
lando it didnt mean anything why are you acting like this?
y/n because you fucking cheated. im leaving and im moving out of the apartment
lando please dont, im sorry baby i love you
y/n you say you love me but you can never prove it you hid me away for a whole year, was it so you could hook up with other girls?
lando of course not wth but since there's clearly no trust in this relationship maybe we should end it i wish you the best y/n read
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yourusername new year same me, wasnt ever the problem
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yourbff YES WIFEY liked by yourusername
user she unfollowed lando omg.
user WAR IS OVERRRR
pietrapilao out of sight out of mind🧘♀️ liked by yourusername
user is this about lando omg...
luisinhaoliveira99 😍😍 liked by yourusername
user ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE??? user WHEN DID THEY MEET??? user I NEED THE TEA RNNNNNN
charles_leclerc 🖤
user OH?
user what is going on in these comments omg??
user shes finally realized lando will never date a girl like her
user hahaha fr she finally deleted all her posts with him user probably gonna go for piastri now🤣
yourusername
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yourusername took some time off music but dont worry, im back and ready to prove i dont need anybody to stay successful
vicious is out now💌
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user OH NOWWW LANDO LIKES HER POST
yourbff sooo back baby
user this has to be about lando...
user the lyrics are heartbreaking omg
user you all owe her a big apology for the way you treated her
charles_leclerc you look good in red this comment has been deleted
charles_leclerc love it! this comment has been deleted
charles_leclerc congrats on the new song!!
taylorswift 💌❤️
user yall better not start switching up!! if you were hating on her, stay away
user are we just going to ignore charles' deleted comments??
user bro was NERVOUS
user we dont know if this is about lando!! they were just friends
user you toxic lando fans need to stay away🙄 she was never seen with anyone else this past year so its clearly about him. hes not some saint you paint him out to be user exactly!! you guys are acting like you know him
user her shirt saying loyal🫣thats gotta be a diss
landonorris
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landonorris pretty vicious life im living rn
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user the caption??? the hard launch??? oh thats not-
maxfewtrell bro. no.
user his own best friend doesnt approve of his behavior😬
user this winter break drama is something else
user lando i cant keep defending you. why would you caption it this.
user IS THAT NEW YEARS KISS GIRL ON THE THIRD SLIDE???
user yess i found her @ shes martin garrix's friend and she was at that party
user anyone else notice luisa unfollowed him??
user she chose her side HAAHAH user pretty ironic cause so many fans were comparing y/n to her and now theyre friends🤣
user whys everyone mad?? its his private life why do you guys care
user oh so now you guys are giving him privacy?? but when he was rumored to be with y/n you were hating...the hypocrisy
yourbff alexa play obsessed by mariah carey🥱
user OOP user the girls are fightingggg
user not even a y/n fan but this was a bit unnecessary...
user "you dont feel remorse, you dont feel the effects" 🫠
f1gossip
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f1gossip Despite hard launching their relationship just one week ago, Lando's new girlfriend has been spotted getting cozy with a different guy! The leaked pictures have already caused for her to go private on all social medias😬
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user karma is A GOD
user i know y/n is having a good day today
user omfg poor lando :(
user womp womp
user i bet he is regretting his decisions rn😭
user y/n nation won today, ln4 nation taking L after L
user we cant catch a break😩
user WHAT IS GOING ON WITH LANDO RN
user craziest winter break yet jeez
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charles_leclerc hey y/n! i know we havent spoken much but ive seen how lando treated you the few times you were at races and i apologize for never speaking on it i just wanted to tell you you're a great person and your music is so amazing if you ever need anything please just shoot me a text!
landonorris y/n you blocked my number? im sorry about everything baby can we please just talk?
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yourusername im soooo sorry for your loss😊
my new single feather is out now!! special thanks to @charles_leclerc for helping me out in the music video, had so much making it <3
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user this mv was so hot omg
user I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS BUT I LOVE
user i know a certain someone is FUMING
luisinhaoliveira99 on repeat already!!
yourusername 💋💋 user im convinced luisa reached out after she saw all the comparisons with her and y/n and they became besties user wait that makes so much sense
user f1 twitter is going insane rn
user Y/N NATION KEEPS WINNING
pietra.pilao AHH youre so talented bby liked by yourusername
charles_leclerc had the best time on set with you❤️
yourusername ❤️ user i ship it........
user i want them both
user ofc now shes going for another driver🙄
user oh you guys are OBSESSED with her, get a job user y/n still has them mad LOL
user l**** would never agree to anything like this
user im literally never getting over this, ive watched it 5 times in a row already
landonorris
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landonorris a toast to my real friends
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user if this is a charles sneak diss i will cry
user we got carlando content....but at what price
user oh he definitely got blocked by y/n😭
user dw we're on your side lando
user who is we?
user just take the L and move on bro
user the way 2 songs got everyone to switch up on lando HAHA
user not just that but his shady posts too
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user the girls are OFFICIALLY fighting oh gosh
user next season is going to be interesting...
user my roman empire
user IS THIS A HARD LAUNCH???
user what is happening.
user PARENTS
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