#they're both pretty accurate though ouch

[natasha-in-space]

What are your headcanons for Vanderwood having a female cousin who resemble him ?

Okay so, we pretty much don't know anything about Vanderwood's background, where they come from, did they have a family, ect. The only passing notion we do get is Saeyoung talking about them coming from a British background, but we honestly have no idea how accurate this information is. Judging by their involvement with the underground agency, though, it's fair to assume that their past is not a happy one... After all, the illegal organization that both Saeyoung and Vanderwood become a part of specializes on using those who need their services to hide their true identities from the gaze of the law. Everything else is pretty much up to fan interpretation.

If we do imagine Vanderwood having a family... well, it could go two ways for me, and none of them is a particularly lighthearted one. If their family is, in fact, alive and well, I'd assume that Vanderwood's involvement with the agency was in a desperate attempt to keep their loved ones safe. It's a heavy thought to consider... and it puts a completely different spin on their relationship with Saeyoung. Just imagine selling all of your life away in order to ensure a secure and happy life for those you love the most. It's a thankless sacrifice to make. Their family has no idea what happened to Vanderwood. It's not that far off for their loved ones to simply come to the conclusion that they're dead. Still, there's a glimmer of hope ahead after all! Once the agency is all taken care of, we can imagine Vanderwood coming to the decision to seek out their family once more. We have no idea how that would look like... but it's definitely a long process to go through.

The other scenario is a bit more dark in its nature. Vanderwood might not have a family whatsoever. Perhaps, they lost it due to a tragic accident that pushed them to hide away in the shadows with the help of the agency in the first place. Maybe they're an orphan. We simply don't know. Either way, it makes my heart ache to imagine them going through such heavy grief all on their own... life made them sturdy, but this does bring about questions concerning the very events that lead them to become the person we get to know in the game. This makes me view the relationship they share with Saeyoung in a new light as well. Especially concerning his tragic history with his twin brother. Tragic parallels, you know?

So, when it comes to them having a family member that resembles them so closely... If his family is, in fact, alive, and they end up reuniting with them in the end, they might be a bit taken aback by meeting someone so similar to themselves. This both makes Vanderwood feel a bit more at peace around their cousin and makes their heart ache with a dull pain. For their own family to resemble them this much inside and out... what did their cousin had to go through to end up this way? Well, whatever it is, now they have each other, and they don't have to fear the agency coming to take away everything they hold dear. They have all the time in the world to figure things out in their own time and begin anew.

If their family is nothing but a distant memory, however... While Vanderwood would never admit to it out loud, they do find themselves reminiscing about their loved ones more often than they'd like to admit. If they saw themselves in their cousin... it makes it this much more painful to loose her in such a tragic way. It's like they lost a piece of themselves that they can never get back. Reminds me of the way that Vanderwood refused to let Saeyoung give up on finding Saeran in V's After Ending.

Ouch.

[arcanalight]

what kind of herb are you?

Akira’s result

Dandelion

You grew up too fast and all you know is the calluses on your fists and the thousand invisible scars that you pretend don't ache. Your anger burns so bright, so hot or maybe not at all, so deep you could never tell it was there. You are yours and you will defend that to the death after so many years of being ripped apart and denied your own agency and maybe you are still facing the bastards who stole your innocence but you will survive because that's the only thing you know how to do without breaking, the only thing you know besides protect, protect, protect, protect, yourself or sometimes those few others you claim as yours. You are a thousand sharp edges but impenetrable, a traumatized child so covered by thorny armor that you promised yourself you're grown now, you're stronger than anyone who has ever hurt you. You're safe. Nothing will ever hurt you again. You're so alone though sometimes, in a world that sees you as too much or too broken or too angry or too hurt, and you want to scream with the too-much of it, prove that you're okay, that you're self-reliant, that you are strong enough to stake your claim on your body, on your mind, on your heart, on your people, and protect it from any who dare take it away from you. You are the sea in tempest, a howling sky, a tsunami in motion, a force of nature, no matter how much you sometimes yearn to be still, to be safe, to be small. You are a dandelion, stubborn and determined to grow in the rockiest of soil, and bloom again in spring.

Yosuke’s result

Oregano

You are home to so many people and yet you're not at home with yourself. Everyone needs something from you and you desperately try to prove that you're enough but you're never enough, never good enough, never even you despite all of that. Your hands shake but only when you're never looking at them and your smile is so ever-present you can't help but wonder if its fake, wonder how much of you is real. You're a caretaker, but are you even good at that, or are you faking yourself out into believing you're something that you wish you could, someone that someone else needed you to be when you were small and so full of need and hope and fragility? Who are you underneath the need to be someone's home? Who are you when you come home to yourself?

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