#they would always keep the cycle of pain n suffering going. bc hed only keep getting more bitter n bitter. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

woodlandscab1n · 9 months ago

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Man. I'm glad I have Bishop as a character, they were a character that I used to beat the shit out of myself for what I considered my "bad traits", a complete extreme of this side I didn't wanna touch even with a stick.

But then I did. And, it's just...wild? I guess, I never thought I would even come close to redeeming this character, or making him any more sympathetic than what I established as the base. And it ended up happening anyways.

Through out the writing of their character I put myself the rule of never, ever change his core of being...because I wanted to make them irredeemable, by them never wanting to truly change, they'll never be redeemed but, I was wrong.

Redeeming him wasn't about changing his core, about making him more human-like, making him love and feel like other people do, completely overhauling his way of thinking. It was just... accepting it, and that doesn't mean you're doomed to be a bad person and hurt people just because of how, what you are.

I still have a long way to go to fully accepting those parts of myself, as well as seeing it on other ppl, but this character has given me a perspective I honestly didn't even know I needed, or even know it was a possibility for me.

#i do not have aspd/npd that i know of but im aware cptsd/autism can hold some traits. i never wanted to say bishop had those bc #he is absolutely horrific for the first part of the story. absolutely horrendous and i didn't want to put more stigma and im still #not sure I wanna do that? but it's very obvious that I gave him a lot of traits subconsciously.#there's a lot about bishop i'd like to talk about but wo context it sounds so wild #im just glad in the end. he got a happy ending as well. despite everything #because man i am a fucking PUSSY my heart cannot take unhappy endings for my characters .#it took so long for me and...uh... a certain character for me to be able to genuinely want something good for bishop #i kinda thought that bishop needed to stay dead for everyone to be happy. bc a world with him in it just wouldn't be a good one #they would always keep the cycle of pain n suffering going. bc hed only keep getting more bitter n bitter.#but nope. i realized all they needed was to get fucking therapy and accept their past. their brain and who they are.#and also be kept in a literal soulbox for about a decade. bro needs his eepers #anyways. love this motherfucker i HOPE HE DIES !!! /lh

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