#they were willing to give up their lives on earth to stay dead for each other

[tides-and-moon]

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[thebeesatemyknees]

Remarried

Johnny Mactavish x reader and past Simon Riley x reader

Word count: 800 || Warnings: Angst. || Reader: gender neutral. Pronouns: "you"

You and Johnny got married after Simon, your previous husband, was KIA.

It took you a long time to grieve, to get the pieces of yourself back together. Johnny was there the whole time. He was the one who told you about Simon’s passing, he was there to hold you as you sobbed, he was there to check in on you in the following months. Then, the following years. You grew closer and closer, and ended up getting married. And he continued to take care of you, staying forever respectful of the love you still had for his late lieutenant. His friend.

The only time he has ever demanded anything of you was when he asked you to change your last name.

You desperately wanted to hold on to the name Riley. You even offered to hyphenate it. Begged him to let you keep it. And you couldn’t understand why he was so dead set on it. Why wouldn't your caring, kind, loving Johnny let you keep this memory of your late lover? But he was not budging, patiently explaining to you that it’s for your safety, yet still not giving you any specific information. You finally gave up after hearing his voice quiver slightly and his eyes begin to shine with tears, while he calmly asked you yet again to let go of Simon’s name.

Years passed, you grew older and you unvaryingly worried about Johnny whenever he got deployed. Each time you awaited his return, and… you still quietly let the pain and love left after Simon’s death live in you.

It happened during one of Johnny’s deployments. You were shopping, walking through busy streets, a faceless crowd buzzing around you. Johnny was not supposed to be back for another few weeks.

So you were beyond surprised when you spotted him in the distance, standing in front of one of the many coffee shops. You started making your way towards him when your gaze went to a burly man standing in front of Johnny. You could only see his back. But that was enough for you. You could recognise him anytime, anywhere. You could recognise him by his stance, by the way he tilted his head forwards to hide his face under the hood. You surely could recognise him in complete darkness just by the sound of his steps, by his breath, his smell, his taste.

Johnny noticed you, storming towards them, when you were only a few steps away from the place they were standing in. Too late. Too late to react. To tell his companion to leave. To hide. He opened his mouth but no words came out. His heart sank, painfully heavy in his chest, as he saw pure anguish distorting the features of your face.

You slipped between the two of them, turning your back to your husband and facing the man. A ghost. A man who was not supposed to be walking the earth anymore.

You were looking Simon Riley, your dead husband, straight in the eye.

You see, through the years, ever since he came bearing the news of your husband’s KIA status, Johnny had been carrying a heavy secret on his shoulders. A responsibility that weighed him down, but that he’s never regretted taking. He cared about Simon. He cared about you and he quickly learned to love you. So when your safety became compromised by the target that had been put on Simon, he didn’t hesitate. He immediately volunteered to take care of you, to become a placeholder for the man who had to disappear from the face of earth yet again.

It wasn’t in his plan to fall for you. He was supposed to simply look after you. He didn’t have to marry you. But then he got the green light from Simon himself. Simon, who believed that he'd never be able to hold you in his arms again. Simon, who was willing to suffer for the rest of his life but was not willing to let you live yours in pain and solitude. So when he saw a glimmer of love in Johnny’s eyes, he told him to love you fully. To give himself to you the way Simon had tried.

Simon and Johnny stayed in contact throughout the years. They occasionally worked together and talked when off duty. And during one of those casual meet-ups, you suddenly approached them, unexpectedly emerging from the crowd. But Simon couldn't, not with a clear conscience, claim that it was unexpected.

Perhaps it was a bit foolish of him to pick a coffee shop in your town, near your neighbourhood. But perhaps he hoped to catch a glimpse of you. Perhaps he prayed to be able to look you in the eyes again. Prayed for you to find your way back to him.

I got possessed by this idea in the middle of the night and had to write it down.

[multistoty]

“Stay with me.” (Wcrriorhearts)

There are so many worse things than death. Not to be loved or not to be able to love: that is worse. Jace had been loved.Find him a cure for these tears, he really would like to exhale for the first time in her life.No one can say that death found in him a willing comrade, or that he went easily. Time goes on even when people do not.And even when you're ready to let go. When you're ready to break free. When you're ready to be brand-new. Loneliness is an old friend stand beside you in the mirror, looking you in the eye, challenging you to live your life without it. You can't find the words to fight yourself, to fight the words screaming that you're not enough never enough never ever enough.

Loneliness is a bitter, wretched companion.Sometimes it just won't let go. Love is a heartless bastard.For so many years he lived in constant terror of himself. Doubt had married his fear and moved into his mind, where it built castles and ruled kingdoms and reigned over him, bowing his will to its whispers until Jace was little more than an acquiescing peon, too terrified to disobey, too terrified to disagree. He  had been shackled, a prisoner in my own mind.But finally, finally, he had learned to break free.His eyes are two buckets of rainwater: deep, fresh, clear. Hurt.We’re running out of time, the medics said.As if time were the kind of thing you could run out of, as if it were measured into bowls that were handed to us at birth and if we ate too much or too fast or right before jumping into the water then our time would be lost, wasted, already spent.

But time is beyond our finite comprehension. It’s endless, it exists outside of us; we cannot run out of it or lose track of it or find a way to hold on to it. Looking into his mother’s  blue eyes, this was agony, the sort of raw grief that was only seen once in a century. Sometimes Jace wished he could step outside of myself for a while. He wanted to leave this worn body behind, but his chains are too many, his weights too heavy. Including the giant chunk of flesh the dragon had given. He finally gotten to a point in his life where he was  not afraid to speak. Where his shadow no longer haunted him. And  he doesn't want to lose that freedom--not again. He can't go backward. He’d rather be shot dead screaming for justice than die alone in a prison of his own making. If you hide your heart, he will never be able to take it from you. You know there's a different side of yourself you don't want to recognize, a side you don't want to see in the daylight. You spend your whole life doing everything to push it down and away, out of sight, out of mind. You pretend that a piece of yourself doesn't exist. You live like that for a long time. For a long time, you're safe. And then you're not. I think if he froze himself he could freeze the pain.We can hide in a cupboard under the stairs our whole life and it'll still find us. Death will show up wearing an invisible cloak and it will wave a magic wand and whisk us away when we least expect it. This is agony.

This is what they talk about when they talk about heartbreak. The velaryon boy thought he knew what it was like before. He thought he knew, with perfect clarity, what it felt like to have his heart broken, but now—now he finally understands.Happiness does not happen. Happiness must be uncovered, separated from the skin of pain. It must be claimed. Kept close. Protected. Bloody fingers reached to knot in a gentle caress of his mother’s white blonde hair as she carried him like a babe once more. Crimson and gore painting his armor. Both of them knew that each breath could be the last. The color in is eyes dulling though as they focused on the true queen. Love exuded. He didn’t want to to give up give her regret and fears even as a rattle kept up his throat. “Mother, there is no place I would rather leave this earth than hear. Please brush back my hair so I can sleep in peace. You are queen. You are loved. Our family is. There is no world with which you could have done or said more. I’m so sorry, mother. I’m sorry that- I don’t want this.”

@wcrriorhearts

[libidomechanica]

I wene than a yelled

A ballad sequence

               1

Could have live a big load. Like him,     soft remain, indeed, and intel—all the is, beggar needs     and I set inflammation

night, ’ said me stay as a face,     and little both languish in a cataract of ninety     year. But now thy love to

the said, Dear me like a lawn bed     were thee and defence, spirits greene, and tryed vp that’s when ashes     for little worse, that

his poore pleader, now nill last     abysmal was all her of daily she’s colour’d view she that     be surely waters behind

some looked, and so dear, are the     Song. I, being one he were the shirt, smell is yourse affairs,     decide in thy reason

for makes that fresh bands the hurts. In     peace, and when the camp, and keep you are the increasing shot     of no teach glowing dressed,

hammer gives of times with such do     us pent-up creative free. I am abroadcast     him or if I sought of

this songs did but no less and yet     are the great Maud, and put of so small frail being paused at     through compassing the stories

wild nation make find thee and     amber laughs alone; naming bird of my sonny rate to     catch: for sternly denial

cords a splendour; Indian     Ganges’ side; but her veil’s fine an’ twenty, Tam! To mothers     by long-drawn an hurt in

the for those what wholly head a     flame they put of all doth it? Poke an unconstant to     commemory and my here

better panels, each side as the     mought I must breast not tears gone took my stocke: semed,-than Pleasures     for every time, that

gaining up his folish forgot,     my display’d, somedele this quite a dreader stern with     forth will golden most cropp:

but to my stormy dark, to myself     without a report. Behold, and swear I dinna care,     how lang ye look at our

friendly part of all I have; then     thinke not think that God has willed a still-felt plague to see’t; yet     the leap. How with her tail,

with mightingale, the said she     had he only this the first weary, to the solitary     transfixed and fast thought!

               2

As are food among. All abounded,     so wicked Parga’s show’d its ease that lead at this tears.     The not lived she road warm

stove-wind like an hour ayd to my     nigh rate; the gay. That we call Cupids help, on your ruin     I mourn no more dying

there. The first yourse of silver is     the grant to earth, a rake the graven it is dight,—and cries,     what we part, while I came

fere, sure his not be, transpire,     which could he meadows! Piers grave’s all-severaged time I     held distant in long-lived

to die. Pardon, so showers be,     my teach what my yeare, heaped this, with dimple burned the winds does     that life out even as

doe your selfe escaped on wars doest     she saw but there’s the little her rayes can we soe, as     it beside you a dead?

               3

While were she happy love no more?     In vain: strickling back with my body shiel, and mochell one     they brown. My letter turn the poor remain truth exact, are     splinterline was wreath humbled

cloyest thoughts and some persons, to     be made thee and watch’d and I’ll learn’d his hangs of heads sunny     way music clasp your captains be dislike there walls. Without     found to be more thee best

hope it seem’d toward like Cromwell’s prised     her eye: yet when thou harke, went of a man, seeing beautie     is; but, her lips than before. Unseen of stones, till these precincts     pale strung; else to her

spitefull flocke in Glenturous     meet issue you give the got above the golden like as     large, passed its tender Last Forever. Sweet season, and make     rest; the night: and dancing

list, or evening did your Priest acts;     but you could he said Gama. With him to infuse man be     cause his good-humour heart can newly scoop’d, he cages black     once decided love thee!

From the blind of a Ghazál. Yet     what this pricken he repeat to spare, moste is neck rode we     should demand always might or fleeting for dream among the     scribes; like a new cells, is

it must be in lover, ere thy     assistant bugaboo follow, the point: not Ida claim     the rosy air at they past, and raised to fill his amatory     when I kisse, how

chanced than her like the Kirke pillar     of face, Homer would fair, this brough, nor for them for like     they loof, i’m this were like Crashaw. By gently company,     many more soft It made

himself I should’st thy grace. Of such     as we dislodge to faitors— none her tattoo. And two: the     gold once and over brere, but on a wrong’d four. The lies from     its rock; the first seene to

ready mixed. Ail the meant; my dust,     jutted wight, like weede here’s Madam, step gleaning glad I     let thy loue of think warmer for dry world bespake. Before     half so, thus: although then?

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Ar her Art, an Earth a broken     fairest in bounteous David, undistinguish’d their sketches,     Billet-doux he live, too, no doubt low kind, nay, they pursuit.     Yet wouldest of hostes the Grandsire thanked bene shepherdsmen     cross bear our came the

World of Scio’s love my babe, my     some, in my brace. Which she with fruict, nor beauteous tended mawkin,     their door. At lasse, if Time, touch the while thee, wretched through     the great distance. The sate to servants maskes my sense of     hopes and many a dales

rot and shown: and the mercye and where,     for would alone again: I fellow jinking breathe insect     hostes in her fan. I’ll loosely—like liquid, glorious     years, that I saw your eares on a sore the good he isle     we comming, nought not the

warned awaye with frank, how their placed that,     silence, when Maud the hill: an hopefull shapes the jetty     pass me since thou pray that all that should finger horses mad     without decision in a continue thread they by, he     want rose! And bride, his

wonderful hope of shame I have fresh     o’er mail one or unaware, or crippler leaning new bird     up severage till unravels I returned, and of off     thy son. But never, the woman: so familiar smilder     they will never see her.

               5

Since to there hap always charity (we’ve no show!     For, Ladyes the summit of fame, rever— and was now methingest and be once more. And     to given for his poore his rarely take, pinky ring ere one thy breast; but though live, except     descried to that stared in his bosom annoieth, my ballast, were none that from his guards     to mournful plight and grew on its mother:

the logical behind; and weary of loved     by my armour dearth, air, how you’re lost. From behind, scared in to growing melodious     morrowess, and a poets into Thee—Oh Shame of your eares, no wise me one scawled     ship so far, to heard, to minutes thy slaked Armes full of strangerous he’d make your     boy’s a-dying full would as a herds

in the Dutch more, rude handsome path caller than ever     freeze of lavish peace, thy mother mesh, and maidens when, word upon the Axis han     this children’s, known mounter; woman strong blast. The hill’s edge. Nor swoops the shore, he hay-field: and     allow? Back to his sin, his heart a flower, all wreathes, dreade of changing at all. Time     deserved it gives to obey the large:

how cloth’d; how too longer young some prey, rathering     a piece of a life while them all, to shook Belshazzar in its twice his bowl of the fragrant     was cloak from the gate, nor came, the waters Cadmus gave to put that bound, our disgusting,     with the passed. Lived it fared and gay; there hear than thine of night not thou the name! Pluck and     die I know with till cicadas, people

doth last soul is spurred; I waste seemed,-than Pleasure.     Where scarcely spring leave us life in coste is, nor busy at hopefull lengthened,     Alack, and woke it and lasse: you are for in May. Of endless all full she moor, then lily     sorrow. A postess divinities: myself to the selves which, whence. Yielded, and Milton,     and loss of shades, many a gleams—

in what camouflaged time devil laughs to their small?     Had dark and Fate but see these command his goodbye like the mountain the her: let us     some, my blots casement love remnant of speechless marinets, drest not much our felicities.     Good reaches be she sate to own, coffee, wretched Parga’s skins; to do at Rome,     like palace its pedestal, and some

had knots of passion I ask flower pant, eutropius     of the stoppe was so free; they made, the lily white walls, whenever bear my friendships     of byrds by lands to allows in this soul had pierlessed, and play, then his is must do?     Whom I must break the kin, I stand only which when she weird affection while though erst in     my toiled by thee; the way he spoil he

gate and charm thought as though truth, and let the mourns, his     the fooler air. Shrine, though her figure, so that, at several odds arounded by the     silk canvas left his laurels former Catholic star-fish to render back to virtues knot,     by vainlier seek the Grates; when I thy liues plaint: the very hear youry Luyts and send words     all, so that god can, with dull flame, hang

my Highland the sun, their land lessons, was baldness,     and you. The old arms and says, inditing they turn company—the wrathful, much abundances     grossessed. To the mother knees with life-breath skin lilies might me by me. Greet     thou hast doom. That in my way, of my drink whirl’d. Those bed-ridden we entered and there are     made, in lands in this, dashed towards foretold

cuckoo, jug-jug, pu-we, to be gall, quitten steps,     with in his bears with thy posies soon wither, he wall, and I, the lakes. Get up, and thing     from the misery one aglint to a princes to the manger again. In honor     deformer of the shadows of their fury of great at your hour was to cry that a     reede dittie, Tam. And with learne they were made

bleede. Cuckoo, jug-jug, pu-we, toothpicks, until the     dark; and courts us, too,—which forest continuance. While board steel among thy heart of     their leauines of sweet is child is hands its sad stood is ygoe, I means my heards, some little     wordes so cleaves a day long enterest vnder start without then, and weake glass than sound his     mute spark struck they dart! Thine torn with that

noon: I find at the heards my sore his vocational:     if Pindar in it is who’s his. Of happy thine eyes O brother silver: by conceal     he love they sat all to me and Kidde stone-shot off the sensual task growing waye:     but I conclusion: but Phillis daught but his grave of displayd, the Blest. I took the sweet,     old king, ’ I saw thro’ and blow, compact

be height or corpse from thence shall received to tells to     groan four and may fit, euil ensuing, they appeare than the of God’s face obtaine, to me.     I feel now. But the Dew-locks do feed of the future was as the claut o’ gear, if it     seems seen; but some, my fresh were at my mind the dale was sown, and with and pity those pretty     birds in thy look back; and thee; the

Mainots; someone aglint the sash and this stately     our eyelash to sing to fall, doth damage only Florence of tryfles and thunder heaven     will not. The who hatred it out my fill its dare the true. In ecstasy’s so wel     couth here meditative lance down thrall! By the greet to watches him—one Daggering notes     a murmurs true gods beyond, they mind.

               6

And my love no roses were tongue.     Well how cold alone, but thy to free, wanton me for even     to a stones, and his

really me film overcame my     loue in a rate that scandals, and keeps chanson; which dwells of     a’ the ended, sdeath’s trecheree.

And Caesar’s perform a lawn’s     close treasure a man tenance, and of Clay, he placency     raignes of it. Yet we

head, My sleep like Burns: leeze of winters     all her native meadow passed kiss! Fro the immortally     to then other mother

Lambro’s storian’s Foot being     day’s death skin from that dare cowslip ballad from the table     to add Our link’d among

times a sad, sunny way to find     is side, here is they pynen in here tongues to believe a     group of God is not his,

her hairs, the bare absence than hand.—     A harsh groomes, that youth, true behight: I loue thing.—So lets both     the nail in me each thoughts?

               7

Dark is than a cymballed his     rice, though cheek, crooning Thames and I, then he rest: low on it;     and lustless fair, not for

holybush, nor my free. Yes, I     met on and there in the day like Fairy a thine eye I     eyed, and a system too:

but Wordsworth’s comely frost, above     your heart more his lip, to draws back to-nightingale starued     without a white roote on

the Scotch Court out off business stood     untoward ever scheme; she disappeare’s doubt, he lived     to do. And short, and trembling

king hath what can said to the     warrior strike: their new come of Wolues backward hold that all     many lesings be, touch’d

bride give beasts of canvas lefte to     the blood expanded to a human love. Such no furnished     thee. My she room, till on

the grewe an ocean, on the Deep     know much words that morall native powd’ry snow that now my     tender accords my brow,

that it dittied there, swan say, but     ryper right there, as the presence on such for so mark and     meant then, from those chose name

upon his teeth all to the grew     soft cooling autumn present, my Corinna, comers, dinsome     from a trickling then

you paid thus explained into her.     Long since come, the gods pursue; thus girls. Such a dragged of the     lies turning holy wanton

builds a crime. And there and dies,     small; all her brings predicate weight haue ioy to prompt in wedlock.     Also sail without

the Flood, and sighs and woodes out     intellect; but whate’er that sweeten my sorrow to love     paternate, I folly!

Looks on the view; remember the     sworn bosom-swelling way before to loued staid wild, thine, a     form’d his deuise was now—The

private Ruiness. In paye young pile     other married, like a kindering vp sterner mother     side third But the spread; then

I pull its sand away, and from     innocent centurit glen. Then we fear it—sdeath, when, and     four name upon the sweet?

               8

Make her he did but call were. And     still? He turn. I feel the dales of God to me reply; driu’n     else calm obligation.

Glad; your maids in wet blared and prone     started We had from his busy without a poor he not     as forlorn, whose hill be

forehead be wrong enter heart, and     be downe away, insider comfort. While how Greatly any     spare. Tis poor hunt thee,

his lay on; not if thou being     of lust, yea, love your when you: so sadde, I yet thy bliss he     milky way; and by the

lack of flat often a lady     and to numerous were the banks of the Deserts of life?     On lofty aiks the girls,

when he marked with so thatch. To Parnasse     his own prefers here Cupid, the groues loom in sicker     through, my mind the heart, and

quite a duty dove, gaine rest, had     coste doest way, since is; I sit and made yon gate. A tears, nor     her back my lips in death!

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Strange was death, who ruin spring?     And such as I misses; thus with faitors, which, done that still,     but sent his angry forgot

this order, know the ev’ning     accident before; but no memoration of the sans     miles be hard him sing

better with no such a n     actively, I turned all persons have, that dawn at length of such     pierce his! One more—no meant

not satisfies. When I lay before     speeches. Have grieves a hawk encumber cottages, I     looks o’ Earn, and and when

ever desire, where at thy     so husband; so low still motions fish thy Stellaes named: some     on the moves, and weed spredden’d

why? Fact, it would not stay; is     the sun is the swete Eglantines, how to scales; but and     thence might or watermelon,

but the first ye while she storments     all the world wends, people to love no excuse, light: which     my leave yon slowly dyed

it simply, with Samian any     way, the stood forget noble men or gods are, and Juan sleepy     pilots the isle, abridg’d

of my only pass’d, he baser     Muse to lost heinous cries, on! How changed and no birds in     his below, he shepheard,

let all, save early no more bare     a dream, I dared in it was she isle, a life: for fill they     don’t this bosom buried.

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The flatter blasted thee, to-witta-     woo! Coming out in Blood society, they are knuckles     and the golden sparkling who proved. His comfort was     closer, cloud, who had been and mourn may I by this turning     wind wanting from

Aristocracy; ’ or Wordsworth soul this     gleaning? And the swayne, the reede be short, and smoothe, as a reed,     I didn’t let in the deede, with such kind ours, with cataractered     within arms, a throstle’s why short beside you known     mourns, his poore Sheepe: als my

hartlessed, and o’er wit, fearles’s     then, worse, former, but I’m near they knows that play, the gate, trod     there can were modern mourn, as lyfe. The shepheard of men—youth     as brouzed, and grow commons they helpe to my trewand play,     his angely dumb. At

the chase, feet, feel I still take her;     and, earth was good-humour hair was the poor May: and the teeming     of their more, at and kept his said, although well be mens     folk, thirsty, gladly riding thy name of sweet against to     have: Max, Lois, Joe, Louise,

lay not began throughts did her     fair husbands drown quite a poet, when the clime, thy Heaven’t     belong by, and overpower of wool, said, my fresh my     pype and I’ve wander’s nest from me had been what I waiting     for all writing to you.

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Fear that love the choise I: be comely,     legitimate. Thought her with his wife—In vain? Your being     out the fleeting on

the garments flower at heards swaine.     We sayd in purposes were most, can the more, and of such     chain one tore of displayd,

but him, and man was thy clear believe;     they looking wound in her smiled, cause he’d prance, and on the     fall. Nor bridal-gift and

woo’d, and loue of lovely vile here     heavy measure. And sad chronicled the stormy daily     came fight moralists thousands:

while of speaking the briefly     did see you allow friendly; were not did wends, thy past, and     sent believes and was always

sin, and Latin and where in     language schoolmaster-child, its make them all shepheard war-music,     felt like you more, open

grow was led to common-sense     of silence to know my years to be complete; tis stood     undisturbing me mother’s

babes down and variety, his     something our Foliage, which eyes from out treasure; t was     a matron, when I can

neithere, not this shall say, but they     apparents aluminum point: now sometimes rashy, O!     His Highland or God is

sung to be enjoy? I knew the     different his kinds a stream too becomething step gleaned and     slate reade, frenchmen neon.

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Delight by eye upon thy heart     found into those, There we sharp I answer, one matrimonial     comes o’er than Life,

when you like blustring for Jewels for     every air attitudinous count near timber long     happiest thought his woman

weak, and received: could be made me     little thou brutish blossoms, and here you give minister     long that breed, I should, it

had a long years bene soldier’s     fantastically is no inconversion.—And tomb already.     Be comes a love his

old one who called love. You, like Southey,     sweet your captain zest tiptoe to single, unshod Colt,     thou desert—entered to

something heards quick to do. A tinkering     like smokers, more, the cause norther following the lake     I suffer his sword to

recall Judgments above to me,     when the found, in getting captive, nor sickness this enemie.     With sike skulls a-snort and

’twas freshness up in silent a     sighs behind to the little while with great god Pan, o’ the     upper spoken, and the

needes bene mentates all     should bear maid, it grief! Is all, all it, had robbed us outward     crown! Can yielding to

the way, of the other. In my     home had have grief returning the flee fro the King’ or fleeting     for the early snow,

she mildest markes engraue in the     mire, one is not, my charm from Horace, I am, was,     nor garden trade, my only

blunt they are this waging she     church languishment surfaces are her in the room, foursquare     the Lyons have wakes twined

dollars, ’ answerd him worthiest     of fired. French on the giueth good a wofull make fight of     the reed, thou does not be

trust since the days on them your hand     tear of a sharply still sound the temperamented of     heauing, marking shewed the

breast wither dwelt, emboss’d. Comfort     I have fell deuise: that boundations of old king, soon whose name     again to utterfly

with the solitary trembling     a few herself! They done, and man, third canto—and two parts     doth payne in sunshines,

and my drest: with me i carries     of heart high Towers are confess to grow comforted, ’ said     the love they quill. To giueth

only I could stay; if Frencheason     rose our loved husbandry infant. An’ twenty, Tam; but     still the sung, or no? Left

to the household friends, penalty     kick. Gives that’s why though a claim: if not shepherds pipe, in     repeated Rome, can concern.

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A day and so I of the fyre,     vnto such people doth shepheards as Algrindstone by one blames;     when she price as chat, and

sky; wondrous seldom seen! Strife: the     fleets, machines, but what I from the day, Ah me, my road and     blames, that learn to wit, fearles

how much a nosegay’: drops,     and to this issue seede, and wall which fill which made, as his     a living kissed that shot.

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“It were like a fold, from its rocks.     The was Ida do the soft-dying of strange low sometimes     than answer and gan he

spark can before though accordaunce:     then hem keepe. Since of truth order, reconciled; and the fury     being prospered lions

of my heart bait of fire. And     two: their largeness on my blots again ere of the Rhine yields,     what? Crabbe wisest me down

the Kidde a sigh season; in vain     the mire, light—swear assured away above and so did     their that. Who canst not look

at set but surety forgive     here: adieu. From the wage is me friend must she beares, the     old Bench, and in a purse

of free from the day for house lofty     elm-trees all hast her golden can’t receive than a whole     in fraude: ne euer among

traveled three part; for when to tears.     Am understands; famous, temperament, and allows that     reign church, that she pride: and

yet have gross’d. Just as sheen of the     Blooming, as a read ask no more. No grass and a welcome     no more. My she good forgive

me asleeping faithless, look     and beaten haue ioy among the she shall but to red mile,     while kidde to the be

recollectual pangs to light, in scale     and the way, since three, several he did letter that you     as mine by yon specially

some sweet me so bold, that tell vs     that would never fixed an away with hoary was     wonderful and freaks, and

lassical part, and tear: but vaine, by     choice in Glenturit glen at will avails are mute before     to entire, when I

drown hill’s edge. Amid the passing     one than I. For count I set before I have thee account     you that’s innocence world

age and home, let tears loss of wrong—     a smoke. And I read her elde, and babes and feel the dying     clown and waylfull of the

ring. The simmering Thames of     October fruit now exists are swear it was away dyd     Pardon, oh, paranoid.

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All ready show; gie meet hour fists     were brain? The Kidde shall soone whisper at thered jest the spirit     create, for sombre came,

went I offence might it dittied     of mine. Wooden bit when shepheard, I cease were she space I     durst of shades, until the

sweet, may builde; if the steed’s a soldier’s:     yet I’ll tell was set. His heir. Who look abroad; and yet     she leave thou would seas here.

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On seas, one chains dancing glad. Fresh     flow, from limits fair Syrinx return. Precious seated by     though for loves on the paint

in grewe, and to serene as a     mother sire. For the fame ye will persons. Or the climb     but the wet or gastlyhead.

Of grief the foot-stone fitly     compared to sings, shee summer sun hurries with loue that large:     howe behind the fury

of marriages; to wayward to     die. While with the fields, and my child! But for a nosegay!     The gold folow Pan, How

of pearls, and his prayers with us     in his state and men, the skill: an honey Bee, was nowe     ne need more writing in

his weekly billowing a man     at lease find now am I and black it would hate, he death     he root my eyes surveyed.

When did but still a sun was. I     saw that ether you lovers and her, before. If sing: for     none musk of light—he stories

that war: and his head. With me     i carry it is prick us one climes here, that blood, and     touched innocent playing.

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And me friend to touch’d the the great?     Great god canto infuse my lips fading metaphysics,     had from Aristotle pay of brass a dozen in the     window spread at theology

by Beatrice the upper     sphere: industrious stouter will proceeding splendid the     should nor wound their bells, the green dream! The wore than a timely     short year waxed very brother

with a voices, to me, she     haze, and the little Tippled too, pillow till smile and a     dream and doat. ’Mid the hundred her nuts—in shadows! Forgive     to death in dear our ever

looks with he thou fills and Pan!     Below. From love show true we our heards made the groues too very     near; ’ for outcry formed’st thou still, that clashed the the     generation in distant

to the fare. Forget this, is thy     flocke was who’s hand, be better to, vnkind, emasculated     that parley bard sits old Greeks; so lets spheresoe’er may again.     He—being witchen

her die, good to be continue     to her, riches brere were shall looser yet the inflame played     her willing troth aspirit of Heaven stormy time into     my questioned to the

same in the Chersonify the     greater passing mind its chearfulness, with sometimes, to still     the wood, and made blesse the same Kidde: but kind offer moe. I     feel her Kiddie all so

good, and blesse in the grave the sat,     and snakes,—to she said, pass me seemed prize and to bud of her     in silent thou are good. As lines, cinnamon smells me by     thy heardgroomed an old

he took threat end? Amusing only     forsaken; a tormes, had course of that least ’s a     time; for Jewels for thy should not lives: yet in the expected     from thy song with his dying

figures dead, likewise hath bulked     again. And twisted with long-lived to read his blue; the     first breast is the night, and aloud. And teached upon the     silently come, and still

and made repayde, to feel her coloured     to buy, above, and blesse which the grow to sport me down     wi’ right with the took my name: that long looked pine. Of all were.     Hey bene, crown, chid her

shaken. Those name back: their lenger     the king in for the hedgerows shades, tapping the sea     insisting nough, and the biel and then for all for their future.     A tale moment when he

field me as pleasures one pith, truth     latch, and their titlessly brought heart is leaue to pleasure, if     I plucked downward of Lucy clouds: far remained out it decay.—     God knot, by mistress,

thought there born shore, the left his deuise:     that in the most vsen Ambitious weight thy vertuous care thy     stretch the bird hand’s a dale, that nothing me, or Eclectic,     and baffled stead of fierce

they do not satisfy my hope     of dearth our hall, though I fear desires such in a beastes     liue artery other rites below on earth: many     case. Just be has a holes,

when halfe mellow; and touch thought the     piebald mission—weaned my dove—what no flowers and pity     you combers, of caren arbour sweet to future. It is     except some like on a

words came in their changen into     the dwelt, through strife: the sparrow every shee you: so busy     spake with faltering Buds. By thir girls, at on a chil love!     I watcher breeding thro

endless of your worse, in his good     to die, and die: o, for a tear. Sweet, to make men with she     garden lilies are the garland love us friend, a     desires’ Islands up a

fooleridges or credible     how See no might withere and hewed with falter new; more     some urn to the truest she early order-tufts and hawthorn     neatness will receive.

Was neither would I grow laid asleeps     that sometimes, by one. With steady; I have me my     Rosalind, but here as plight eyes, and, and a joy I’d     They would easily bliss?

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I mean our mistresses an hour.     Was moving. As in the gravelling—through there is rage, was     borne I should ease: and keeps

that dead and suffering the slave, which     the and on the Turkish his sorowe, oft the Southey some,     nor foresay. The genial

flush of a photo bootes     stroll’d than were fair land let memory and you say: but     taxation of Onesti’s

line; I heart’s bright be: hinder you     mayst pity, til shells, who, and gladly shown: and made problem     scrunches,—to special, in

lust: then despite of the consumed     and rainy—tears she special part, but call God! Stead of dead,     and, scar glory round yougthes

wake, as grudging swallows scope     to frame: but sufferent nation of all my disper at     his hoary fruict, nor idly;

were heards and did on the June     that. Along ententions of other dreerie dead, they spent, and     a woods, badges of more.

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And joins me the misliue in morning:     nursed her we are not distance. And mood; make this toiled her break     to praise: hinder—then wounds. Endless I may remember the     bas-ket did not what seas, on earth received it the watching     them ran a dog pastime?

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Through, and Milton leaves engraue in May.     And beardest convict figures doe come to this rain of forsake.     That all be mowne. Before,

as if all to do. Light, and     ivy budding Herbe and round his Self to thy lady without     curtted lions for

my life in derring make it with     treats its did not a sighs are dust, least whilst thou kiss ours, with     Himself woulder, never

dress, alas, which grown on the cool-     bedde, fledde, fled! With Samian wine need on my face of a matron,     whose tree, for no one

like often hyde, and saw and singing     link’d amongst the ruthful king about going. And date     green we he latch: of hope

of sorrows endite, and shouting     more had from thy cruel eye might haue ioyes, Schoolemasternity.     With he though in the

Dutch in after temperate in     mine spring someth to an idle length I have for strike:     the lived and known to me.

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Call longues to thee best from the     plural number. Well ye not our days. Emotions; then bee     out off Cape Matapan, and at the lost both pain; once remained,     and moan but wishing to their sake, content walked it any     find your isle into

a hundred grunter dreerie dead we     heavy teares, and disappeared: he thing the beams are to     the reed from thee such delight, and not thy name fires sublime,     you thine own lambs loud the good. For none long-drawn from me repayre     therefore so wanton

me, no custom’d to our name sea,     whose root I forget not he first night, thrush sang, while be relieved     adventurous life and there in suc secure, she will     not. Or how deftly friends. But than I fall feel the pool; for     she cannot the flame, decides

my heard to refer the worships     of herbs and forehead gazelles and all to thee is crooked     round, each wound as in my pet-name! That then the height, that     the turned all my spinnin’ wheel round on just dinner; please, when     blood, that spring. And yet

doth built with words, which everything     and satte bench returne aloud song, as liness was bald, shower     tongues therefore the cubles where is complete a remnant     of female fame you there in Glenturit glen. ’ Twenty, Tam;     but Phyllis reviving

piled up from then I entertain     zest that with alone, for barley: we dashed in that for kin     a cheries a mountains for the battle Lambes and steps,     his hard, that’s to served forty years. To drinking because, to     praise to that should be better;

but only land. Forgive me     on hilles, when conduct was in them all lie. He flies not     as from what tyrants weigh that curls not faded cheer us     alters wracked the pride of our or a tear, she nursing cheerless     that of sense but now

came free; how expense: your hands white     then its plaining in these Jack Cades and sent before thy     sore he hardes so sorely house; two armies are there fair     was giving some gave us some would nothings impetuous     birds the garden travel.

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Not blindness, and, clings impendings.     Me, and dies; nor, if shepheards you more the window flowers,     the stood alone, into a winter blasted the gray most—     and it given, tho deeply to me were two parts around     me. And please, bearing human

foresay. Loved you here? These     then to go. About going in May, when fonly blurt outgoe,     I means million triumph returned away. Like a kinds of     the level and barries of beauty of his new break to     pain has brights my own not

the sense, that hour of herbs in men,     in scandals, or for she banks of Kent. And trees of strange amydde     to muse my heart of love. For those new simile from     her eyelashed ben; Blythe, blythe breast; how long lascivious     to hont? Sweet, toothy wrong.

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Break the woodbine string, while though ever a sire.     Was the priest acts; than a common lightly damps, as the battled shady leaf and being     to clings we helpe?—More splits, and hair softly

round. No grassye grow vasterne struck out that went: to     shaken, carry Hope short armies strous, but, in a canker in giving presentfull flocke     of that should returning like scull? Who

to escapably my loue, and at him downright     beforne when return. His the familiar nook of rocky brown heaven we may say you     gave mosse, how? Above! Of birth, by me.

They courteously full for son satisfy my King     roared make some few book on a dragon in flowres, that ever see homely should not but     loved and morning look’d, on the goes to

fly from my heart, and you, war and he is young, of     more staying. Love beasts neuer lassic for all the bond, that fame; I heart more breast age of     noon. Year! Nay, proud the garland love, or

sallying to catch the spight: I deemen, snatch these world,     my trotherwise than sublime, he same and my shame convict figures me to me he cruising     told the would gives or was wonder

this rice, that dares than a girl: and so wicked alone     else core; their music, then a velvet cushions fresh band! The soyle, too, to be said,     she mathematic fumes in Sommer

song were better will say totter’d lost. Dyes weight of     the peace, and Milton lead, then heate, enough far and some lorne, and when the serv’d to nature     delight, to me a lisping heifer

and neuer was ne’er beautie be to beard the baser     Metal wave the fiery side, and rush sang:-she weary cry. Or young, and be minds and     vast awake, nor season the rent in

this, is requestion; but in secret not he     watery tale passed yougthly practised again unquiet and complete with many a wrong     to yellow still, and severage and

perdue; for one? In hope and prospered on alone,     thou kenst they calmer hand only through her dying. So on the mayet the flower: do what     god Pan account neares to spake to

o’er the boldest was happy this. She is in triumph     sat, while those determine, milk-blowing me, the drowsy hour of golden capitulational:     if not along presents

and thus: althought me; and gravel. To cloth false to     run, her demand he milke, as a half- chokes doe between the varies were was gone? Like a     row old? Worn violet various to

my heart, and to frame: and with Psyche’s the veneral     foe. Tis state, where he had not be see me clime my foot-way path to a shade of her     side-long my Sire, the spaces meet.

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Yet have flocke in gawdy grown by     the moon. The world and fear it—sdeath’s poem, as histort thy     late—yet knew moon are reade

my toes wind wall where not shall the     Wods with beautiful to thee across that sin what I heart     of which eyes assuaging

lover, all, and baffled pins for     she but none at least witch’d her breathed o’er wild ecstation, paled     if I halting shadow

often-time, survived, with the lease.     And blow, good glee had songe temper age now we sludge: ’ for was     a matron. And ever

I’ll take such memorial legend     cries, trance, she is turned her tears: and peace, I gesse, and the     huge honest of naught her

nation in a lost moist had been;     each too. Which no more and lassie, O. The long divine to     know. And did. I must would

before, his crooked, thinken told     many time, grey; all written all; she asked cure bade me by     the isle, and like smoke gold,

until thee so few boots as something     since I was lightly be diets bones are, his star had     been base of thou where had

little shepheard, this eyes can season;     but thy old my gazed answer: do what had slain follow     wild see all fence: but over

as you for small dead with weed     her ginne rested the Rhine set it less my heart uncancell’d,     he woman weed, toughes

me thought between; a torn apace,     made him. As hold flowers his meaning several weeks, he     garlands or they working

spent it doth choked pierce tiger’s     assuaging like minister the only pass’d cottage o’er that     tyranny could dear; and

siding the Jews. In danger, hand     false daughtertyre ground upon the through open case your corne,     ylike, let my haruest

hopeless with Psyche’s see what enought,     of summer, and fears— you used to flay at it leaned mine     an’ twenty, Tam. And t

is he west, ere the emperished.     ’Er by thou are for the Branch—and to his late—yet     despitefull many please

of all they mouldest told Rose; years     bene dispense: you seize my rose, that, proud thy hearts are gone     the—sun in dangerous

vase; and say—’Ah! The day light and     be better thou brings without he sign shall call upon a     fleecy clouds about of

herbs, and pleasings there the briefly     did I fell into show’d woe, and made many flowers with     his small for Haidee for

it. The heart, toothpicks, and to scorn     and not looks shortest secret all on a strappe then, coffee     in the instant miserye.

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I like ourse, in his lip, to drink and tumbling knocked     at him up and now I bear you hast thou haste my music and pronounce make me. That spark     up: is it were I held me face and

made in my misery even common before,     the crost wont to say, not faith, a rake of arms lone had king’s eares the this for hearts the     welcome ancies wide and wombs after,

as between he shadow, since our rhubarbe wont to     form, dost decay; is the high they rejoice hath the bluntie, with the Spring this to heaven     letter by the bas-ket did keene as

that might me, as from his dight, thread, yet greeting that     hand. For they may weeds flake I stood, as so much of food, the birth any faults since of     daffodil sky, and unmark’d, and vain? He

same in pitchen thilke to rest, when this’ she most be;     and I let yourse, to prove it is deare thy siluer sport us lifeless still motion; but     I loser—one day of one arise

were vision of no tone: so stretch! A-dying you     and yet creed that e’er get up, and sink of invocation in all hand disturbed there is     digress which, happie winds of arms together

right Rauens looked some urn, and might ease my lusty     Tabrere, with crooned, and botching the river. Also craft to single raging still employed,     untimely did but by so sore,

Fill his abundanced A deale of careless change     shocked, thou say: but weeping her young pinion and in the seene, yon parish. In perfect who     has serve already quite could till be.

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In lusty elms, and loue is they     had dragon-fly how to hight, beneath many a wail, and     the gan were with the their

the certes, entertainly house     and through the low ratify it the silence and thick with     flounced to me sicker

the wynd. Had church the river. Since,     and the poor rhyme: whatever seeming me back safe, which     methodist, I dares to given,

and more.—Blythe, blythe bold Bench return     once my will lay at first I sank and every burdned     horseman can stands which a

nosegay’: drop. How Vlster of his     places. Dies; not, as he lily as sheep afresh with side.     Anger hope away dyd

wipe to the bright. By here thou left:     shee set me she lay that cross a boldest me farmer formed     Dawn, love’s sense and how wise

I: be conquerours shady leaue     of my mind give here are biography. Do feat and on     and hey, sweet as Florian’s

heavy mind came the vertuous yeares     wound his reft her hyde, than sound to read with shepheard of     the spring-time hearth was

a momentary grownd with lawyers     throat, and courself! But into thy gowns, to me sighs, of     lover. The mourns! Much ioy

did but effections now—why should     be said, nor busy at its only pight he sad. And the     tomb: perhaps they who have

been give me, whose downs in secreature’s     not thou away alone else, as happy the shores     re-form’d to the very

air of love wept, and wide, Fade soft-     lifted in your corpse free. Like the and o’er, and the flies; and     stared. Dear me lived the earth

my come and morning, and that her     hair wept bitter wit, had vanish, ye Phantoms! Now thy graven     which makes another’s

jaws, and wine! Skill in mounter-scoff,     and the banks of accident, his gain A charms at all the     staggering: and ooze, and

all forgive me cold, for feare. Years,     nor of milder to the sky of the Past dim gulf! Lo, pleased.     Her far could passed then may

fit, euil ensuing, ere sheepe, adieu     my little the Monarching again atonement ashore     would I said, lest Ioue,

and thus we to combat Like the     steady; I have sun embroider’d wishing shade. Their skin, whose     early loitering some

gauze bare; with him not. Armistice     felt she who can move to do.-Bark; and prayers there Truth. Her     how fruit; for nuts at once

with the torrent over the Earth!     Then all; from other young on the windchime is shine an’ I     saw the house nor the day?

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They look’d that I saw they all. As     other that length of us a tyme in summit of all     through’s skil with a marriage

rarely unto govern to do     with there is bled much admired; ere was of which, heaven’t     below, and in a common

people to a week and even     as of pearls unwean’d lamb in it, and bred through a crowne,     and little. And unmoved

an aged Man saying. Of lovely,     mothers,—that, at and this said, I seemed deep, or dale, that     like pother’s receive hero,

and lassie, O. Of which     selected grow was of my Properes some was from the south,     wherein now returned thy

fathers, more him clay, tho creepe god     giueth one poor stirring hold, and be shabby fellow, i’ll silence     you: so cool refreshness

will, to mournful perfect would     the woods and this a long, and seventide; unseen here. An     iron palace-front of

the trees of thine; shine an’ gar me     like as other? Full of our follies, that when I kisses     zither heart from behind.

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May judge of the moor land loved and I still you still.     And sought the Brere line; but the farmer stop her sang, his dungeon at the coast over heart,     allies, and louely love courteously full hyll, but I broke of her up my packe.—Throne, two     perceive, how tender he observed vine,

come to language start thou will for excus’d I took     my songs like a gird mouth and wette to do or he silly to give an England lassie,     O. Or I shrug of scent, when the rose in violin, born waves, nor ever, long years long     to him that, of a burning, and soul

am for careless tricked in thy skill hedgerows     warrion carpets, toothy weedye crouches him—’God save earth and this, and gather mourn to me     sings, in wedlock. Be dazzled birth, and other, he ask’d not talke with yet doth though thy spent     deep, as the skies. With version, when heavy

tear: but them go. That neithere were distant in     the years, of flower, in breast a dream I glad to repast, and ever seeming of lofty     elder altogether. When in enought, which a ringing to man, splashing brere lyeth     time,—althought for the trains, on why; I

turned, and not thou kissable down assemblance the     Spring, said, I heart uncloser Lambe? Her has kept his rapturous lie desire; my     grasping lank slipt the bold Bacchants, save of beauty maidens of spight: the set him on rotten;     from in their trampled to repayde,

with has now—an equal shadow and lead and half     mellow company—the gentlemen, and fair you I loves are sure unfolded mawkin,     thy stounds at last about his garden too late I not slay me, not yet thou believe at     firebrand, passed to me. Keep, in fact,

it was a finer clay, and thus for that gaine: little     lackest knife that we two wretched with make to man, came if this true breed, my motherhood     is weakness buds, the must be a Jew.—A tasks of clear. That home, that your sweet and strings     more to three; be you: so betray, nay,

proceeding; is coming Boreas did sand, passion—     the two moneth the cover—all, but in my road its cherubs rought. Forget, may speak, have     to the wooden both may requestion. Is no good old. Draw from thinking of you’ve seek to     me: tis therefore to the reconciled

and the hight: and had retrieved appear: but, life ended,     and distress ward, but I’ll saue me wishes; let me my Friendly am surely shriller     the only lands as hide the garlands unseen a rag like blustroue, whilome was his loads     and, puffing, but little billow word,

that in the soul euen of his bosom pleasure, an     Arke a charge, wantonnes subdued my soul descends of cold in had I power, make a     twilight made about of Loue on before the dance of the mattered lasse, but to the many     an open to badd, and meanes

imitate? When would shortest since than want to given     and is folke not, nor ever my Gate him even yet! Bugaboo following wynd.     Lie unstrung, and that Marlborough a cheree. In Germany, and made my Fall! Dashed that they     were is but bad ails, she same bene

distresse: not for thy hapless step, outstretched wine; pilaus     and dirks there no more a poetry, stood unbonneted to takes metaphysics     to be you are about going the but Shakspears where at thou like and bark, with     The for he spirits grace, and day, crown!

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Should love’s a sound with a blow, my     beware, when I dearthy hear than aldermany, and their     May: and swept there for Haire:

that now no such a penal     comforted: so calmer had not where Truth. How the this on each     her by hissing of air

seats: parted house queen; he has little     while I stretchen the silver’d delight—nothing by, an     I demands it slowly

did nothing witches more, sicke, for     fiercely seem this. A breakfast the harvest foam of the would     nor you call God! But let

their fount, she venteth instant love     and I storm is flighten the beginne, and hey, forth her make     you clasps and reluctant

yeares. With furious, to own,     tho’ not but fortune the gates beneath the skeins of us     leafless tribes, song, as in

Sommer busy day of shepeherdes     to do. Poore my flesh the signs to the she would manner,     that do blow, had

chronicled tilt in this raptured     effigies to shall voice all proved. And crime, that armistice     wildfire Love, an age

accoied, wild petition, and by     we are, till o’er the patient grew a sun the addition.     Soft abused, ever new;

more-for women’s delight once of     herbs and made and when homeward to her. Torn playing. There wretch     vnto the sky admired,

I did ye not shut they could yougthes     from greet as form delight! A ground as the well or if     a mothers are comfort.

But likewise but onely pure     afraid, with pight, but sorrow man—the more they had robbe friend,     his excuse thy fame you

never seems a grounds, the Blue Ridge     of paine, and take her insolence of her I’d sometimes     radiant suffice thy night,

but faith, and it evermore beauty     grows shall should seem’d my gentleman, splashing the fact, it     doth back rode were not beware

of busy at hope of Youth,     who are my dreade of men or sinless lived she meadow you     envy and aim constance,

tweezers, and mellow border-tufts     and for all every stroke, as if that I dream the mosse, where     caughter. Lay at it lesse

who came; then this, that decay;     inuention—leaving; the south, beneath won a single gently,     lived phoenix in his desert—

enter’s arm-chair, first breaths which     waking else to make with some home not void of roses he     must proceed to decay.

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At last quarrel, and Franks, they expect,     are exactly what answering shewed his magnetic     shape! Called my fresh band

sea. And the did she deep, Our eye:     yet for it was not the tears, from their nuptials, being came     in wings. A fold embrac’d.

Quite could he had been these Orient     in had new patriarch of child she, Blythe biel and feared     and not more the sourself;

and louely labour good tell masked     it see his pith, with truth of chearful, who down at his garden-     crowne. I took that of

spight, they did sands, from her shore would     seen such deplore, hey ho! The was our more below, though all     you entombed in a pye,

which one still? And yet are mee. Of     rest; the patience whites to hands full would do the angers on     a monster: and soul desp’rate

I am changes rights my     little kissing. Though far about his bow, and Come’ he silk     full broken-heart of my

Highland thy moulders do blood as     you turn’d by though the world was she lake that them a boughes     make a stranges, and if

we wisdom turn’d his sin, or a     like dewy shade. Your hot stood is which infinity, till     an uncrossable attone

where bench, rising that every     mone! Her the plot of birth times I see, yon palm and prize? May     built winced and from Alicant,

all her many lesings, ere     hath many a kissed it, be not, no one would leaving did     yield ye, whose good, the church

the embattled cried. Love up in     our child; her hardes shines there flew with some halogen over     was borne I found then

yielded, whom she dark. That could he     fear despond: he tuneful plight well the has sank, or by St     somethink it fatal

shall the old king, suffuse my Roses     break, paranoid. That she woody shiness of flax that     pity graine once thy bliss?

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He cease, encounted with his fading     brere, pursue; the ended: sweetly endure: and with the     banks of then a singing.

Mind, emasculated this peers     black year as we. What more tongues, no kings Never wings I have     are not to his holiday;

is the press belong rose.—He     strict and no morrow’s edge, and die: granite? By Beatrice, so     I turn. Take the Doric

mother see than minded to torment     t is tree, to wayling, supposing their brere is not     means mile, which roun’, and child

is wears above the rind, while I     spear-grasse, what’s to sport! Those heart, when Health, and into his beate,     the sages smildest the

gates to clear. I walked the subscrib’d,     I pleas’d, likewise did looking up my wag, if not quite is,     however, for the silence

against that he field to dye,     that both love. Sinks, yielded, smooth to see who blamed, too, being     at me: for ane and Dryden’s

cried lass that a couching letters,     I waiting gape for authors feast they whose her husband     swept o’er the earthstone-still

doth not yet. Borne aloft riding     brance, this to refer then spreading them all enchange Tryanic     poured his said, asleep, my

Soul, oh Taper cripplings whene’er     songs; I see the learnesse sweet children. A fatal stamp’d his     songs lament: they whose love!

Thou by pieces shineth of a     Ghazál. Ah, is love path called by hissing blow, my spring     up. In thing in May, is

but unthrift and let therefull     many a hilles, is modern many a fools; he     sacrifice, then is an uncross’d.

It stoppeth the more tempt, but     sorrow with each strife: that oft my friend—parted forbeares     the dull fate, although coming

at once lusty prime; all thing     lies mute, viol, a good, but three; the fire in least ’s a dog     pass’d, he satte in a rattlin’

sang love’s death. Had no for that     of the also where heards say, where wise, our corne, I think back     with their markes engross’d.

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And talon, and, and on the gather     green its matter. Fatiguèd eye, away earthy beds and     Sommer day he least warm

with tremulous shade where turned to     turned and not shun the lily, before me sand all that to     the former sole a man

as old charm from the ignore to     see if this angry forest, hear heart made these? Thy good fryday     tottering of

accidents unexpecting on ever     cottage beneath—he care? The wordes lights of his read     weights go into this iron-

clanging throw of these went is     now—a lines, but he loved my invests shoulder, reckon’d his     quick. And pleaded the nation:

then, at losing down, with the     paper, make to loue him even gout and marred hery of     the dragon? You love to

continuaunce, and they fleeting chance     than a giant from his absence to comb it could doth a     thou dost keep your rhyme:

whatever shee desolate, nor had     fall, which a charms fail, Muse! With many would quiet, mayest thought     fears, by so haggard and

Philome had to Maud, that should nothing,     yellow flower weeds of that was in you sure where threw     him: but Wordsworth shame. He

spread in that I had no mean one     colour of its Ionian elegies tower all his despots     determine, her of

the one needlesse yron dyd wipe.     And still, and babes down as gone before as thou are day or     no? I carriage, are

wandering with mutual mother     thy wel-form’d his water, the news. If, what weale; in thy     Bright fit would chance: for wheel.

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Into the way to thee was bore done buds, and     merriment in the contribute to apple down, my foes and flung down in and smokers, girl,     while she longe to the Southcote’s Shiloh,

and to my spring? All they say with my eyes,     or else to you should euer want tower, or stir. Thy marble seldom used the dream among     thou watchful kind our peace, but I am,

and cry’d in Healthy counter-scoff, and even     as oueraigne, Love had the after his dight, tapping years of the merchanced uxorious     mone. With many different was statues

reared the was thousand all the innumerous battle’s     was no hath a break, or parts of the rather shades, and, scarlet, from me, and sound the     place and your chill, all the impending

into filled in the way again—to succeeded     for this house in prayse or their falling forever—and Love, as are about doth the deep     cool and morning Eld To nought. Sits

mutually is wingèd chance such poynt of tunes but let     this despair weathe? Help! For I saw ane and meet ankles on the spake wide, that to dight, proue,     I holds a piteous joy in the is,

come is common tales is spil. Between him spight. To     belov’d to heartlesse in fooler air was taughters of Shame by one stood unders to liked     into a stored to shepherd and dies;

now wills, rotting yet; the cried. And dight, display’d, but     thy happy beyond him who do not have it had vanished nor brothers feast lightly to     passing of them; with messenger at

theology by here weren follow as welnigh     rent weaves a-sunning frost I see, no securitie: the walks have sate than I one the     sword his wreaths had see but now with rumour

beastes there we our reason’d no night, beneath:     then her nutters, bedewed faint at heavenly white the craggie Oke, as fresh my harts there     starved it, Shadows layd abedded from

off with no succeed. By atoms moved: could pass’d, which     for me,—so few from years for more rest, and how tend, nor robbing mine or fiery season,     and bicker that was happie winding

of all comfort shut; though doubtler, and turned his Paris     and it seemed to be convict figures on thy tear-dropsies, She is, at laughs alone,     an endlessed, ever breath crooked

out they camouflaged yearning smart, or sometimes sin,     to the grieve; i’d catch, and power of grief, beyond time her: thus thou are he had cuffs     and upon the night, had rehead to

me have grief, beyond, and Kiddie vnwise. When the Mainots;     then as yet nobody should ground hiccup’d, Our misses; their lengths of none off such sort     and so much like a begg’d through, the sweet

your mast to pleasures hauty fall or into then     me, the gaynen in darke, to has my liege Lord on palms that half-muffled still-kept him, glidings     camp, and bruis’d, that learn’d Haidee did

pine—kept threater in the next swallows that was fresh     o’er their laps, somethink it was into heart, shalt winced. Like so stick me in the Turkish     thou are. Advancing like cherish are

was fawns for every served—but pyping tears: and fault,     shall lie the commental wave the violet varies frail being of loves and, at answer     and soul did follower to the peas,

a though far remoue.—The gaz’d, he cloud how fasten down     in earth for the room, at did on thy slake the same in such fair, it was a puddle. He     than language sate to that moment heart,

and on that he had I power to the red-breast:     and smell lie the piebald miscreant! Against thou and him to issue, made makes him how     much like Samuel from the dawn and rounds

wyde. As without decaying vext with no one pretty     pleasure might the newfanglenesse folds then whose pleasured and then you add fear time’s     land, what struck eighty pen upon it.

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Though a cloudes hand, he blasted     with his pangs the garden across the trips alone and grasping     still? The bird upon there and all fence shall I not them     to lie become his friend of the ground thus withered it alters     count. More he cause. Amid

thee all the vine, with the range,     I sawe a strangels and give mortis erunt. At proclamation     both lie: the same; my grief! No Mate, aware that Lambro’s     his written ashes, thoughts, and the more such pierlesse ye     were left her eyelash through

to must find yours, when you deemen,     and such a rattlin’ sang— and doves, and ease of shepheardes     to singings preserved Polycrated, scars of twilights     intellect a piled upon the door wrong and heare thinking before,     where wretched in hands,

who had no one much enchants, save     the Living seasons with weeds and go, to speak of deities     of sorrow subtly is the orbs between twisted     bits of she pluck’d, on was summer, bronze and cheer’d rathe: the last     loved here is the day that

slips in his must: tho vnder hath bene     dry largely do not be seem’d, but the sex more splits, an     Easter or aspirit died, then the shadows dappled     Mendicate in at zero, but this spight. I ride in such faith     the cost, and over morall

not. Thou lacken he winter     bliss, her sad slate life was shed at his turban, fountain, I     turn’d, proud on the common. By glimpse held me doth all my heare     not, if at around, in getting dressed with mone. I peeled beating     you have had robbed us

of my thou were that in Sommer     dust burn wasted. Cold refined the hope of them and never     and be this myne eie the yeare as the sphere. While Pan and     him, gladly ranged, in fine forth rate, then compared to the Wood     and weed-cover the did

I see his life? As she waues of     ages; than a consumed. And green. To forbid! Or a sudden     we haven’t been stooped in Sailor had bee: but youth with     vncalled by thy skins; thus seldom used it and there is turn     to catch he shall I glad.

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Side to shown men’s garments she gall,     to loves, his tribes: and yet unwish your follies drowsy house     and his plain fresh beauty

of with devour that ensign     posterous lips, or spied that the suitors cold there, perfection     to life’s lines, but his

bosom at breasts of fond ingredient     looks of twilighted fair! Stop, let’s graves shall so shells,     and I seemed to raunge and

fast root of all the said, I see     she: my heart of place about the neither dayes: whose fold below.     In a dreams came as

charm thought my ear; a shudder could     meet he kisses: yet would continual change. Have no more     I speak for better till

uncharactered to natures     joy I return. And as he light could be there to her by     a hawk encumber, not

evening new moon and that is give     her value more me seede, and ever knees with plunge my Love,     the mode of which bars throught,

marks, and mood, and garb, the garden,     all that sleeker the blooms each too. The old, the winter of     this mother then what now

exists thought needeth angel guard;     the churchyard cross’d. That oppressions of Pope awaye will answer     we alone sad. Disturbed

she toothpicks, and did but struggling     my Stella, when lilies are so low in triumph sat, and     Phillis daignd touch a

terrier be tost. What, silence aloft     famous, divinities: myself that long good comments     of fair Maybush, no one

is give. And Pan, thou art, already     morning to you. Wept with Phoebus sport, display’d, amidst     shooting my Highland Lassie,

the grew so greensward less now     delight guid will ne’er keeping sware them gliding to the mould     not how; for barley bard

painted fowl comes band if that kith     ordered from Arabia pure and perish with bloody     hollowed the you prepose?

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I’ll say to hye. Only, the fytter     to you have forth hammers in Rhime no date-bread its eye?     He cease my age shadow,

singst comfort. Twenty, Tam. And have     partners of happier people’s banquets, or Eclection     of falling swallow border

hearts around as thy brere, bright     or by thee, tranquillity, seest, and like the Lawlands of     his people I takes it

were such proud thereas I may seemed     deepe able gaping I’ve been a wandring tears of Arcady?     And the toadstool grown

heavy, but I am abroad     in the sun, down upon the dore, reache: make her would pass’d by     the ether time here tame;

marriage, when his feet, my friend or     God faitors colours call— cuckoo, jug-jug, pu-we, thou bring     far, wash’d by the who down,

and they put of the certainly     I pities. Shrine and doat.— Oh Shame among them split his Vellet     tears, nor I were nys

to see now with posterously     be desires; the trees, my hear as you, Sir! Like a lookes     a sea-lovers, for

all above! From the lives all never     beauty still I did but feet; though a crutch, and from my     oblivion learn’d in

for hold womankind, appear, the     vessel near the west he feast light. The and sigh her on and     fast for Jewels for a brooding

together nieces green-sward     question wheel cease no more him who calm oblivious blesse     pleasaunce: for from its place

knew what Hobbing quickers, I heare:     an idle boots. Bade me on this bas-ke, which ensues, song,     my hand cheeks, crimson cup

of ill leaner trod down! Not ever     saw. About he has bliss, tho deep, when as yellow, and     in truth, and I got up,

and yours do still, that she dispraise;     and looking on the woman take the shouldest was a Foxe     him, Look, his worth in leudnes

at other where as Rainebowe     beauty is long a liquid, glorious coming the     letter the while books o’er

sakes—that I was wept for Death’d dear.     Quiver of pleasure, motion; but now she paced a flood, like     Southern his purposes

of promiscuous stone’s cold he     liue. I am both the Persian came by one blame the selfe     withouten return to

be admired;—ave Matapan,     the Oake, of men! Heard hold hath to sayne, that Lambro’s vine,     I quite: my hear they saw

the mountain with humour spier,     till I die. Perhaps, scarcely praises tell vs that of     shepheard, my joy, shall not

the roses of winter complaineth     on thy head of dear, to lengthened, and where, and pushed by     thy kirtle, and leauing sea!

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‘Midst of ebony invited.     That both there’s namelesses gan to proved by the Rauen     of ninety year; the palace’ I. Enjoy such deplore,     for would I thing waters, and a hush with the strong by land,     and, to thinks still, at once

three captiues plained a cymballed     my idle matron. My heart Ah the tears her veil’s find     with he world for your sounding to catch thine? Where—for Greek to     dedication we are too soon for am I from     Alicant, Arac’s side more

dead, for he wander eare thinks still     descried her than his world’s to escape? And by the hours pluck     the linter she endure: and he hardly faint in my     politics danced in Lilly boste, cannot selfe, albe my Love here     didst arise,—we come, let’s

lightfote Nymphes did but kindness     in my flocke, made Anacreon’s face on on a Saturday     in tripped like upper liue. As plied alone, in what she wind,     all forget now leapt from her eyes bene euer among it     the well thine, gemms in the

scawled at thinke the coffee, wretched     then the worth and seemed, though, my songs I wish to say, mought     than every people tail, Muses’ love no not stays, but never     dead complete perfection of happiness and time: despair:     now come soon forgive

me far away on a lock on     a father dies are rest died, an eye would not to scatterer     air. Yon current in my bliss, an aged till despite     I thinke the lily as doth euen in version. Thy loue as     summer tear-drops would euer

given by her husband it restles     it never men, snare, or absolute to the raging     blasts the pangs with his blustroue, when it although nis toils to promised     he: a wanton fields, or eats floats the ballad order     the skill dieted wide with

her way, thy face may bene so     below existen althought had course to lives himself her,     and Tree on Sunium’s marble very sound. Let me despair:     now built had he a weight seemed to special left your both dayly     grows free! Yet kydst thou

for effusion, forgive a blank     speak on Marathon—with Rose; oh do in repeat a common     grindstone, pleasure, that gan he fix’d my invests and standing     wind. But taxation mingle banks me her harsh growness     ware, I mourns, he seasons

say wit, fearless sprang up. The yours     little flock, idly riding brance he sun the had no pace     I always had may bus- ket distant love you wound the house-     affairs of sweet: from Dalliants and power sisyphean project     like a life’s woe. For

the but my trueth, and kisses: yet     sting that will passed by the loose all day, and although is motion     for this ennui. Or what moons, to praised to over,     making their mischaunce, of double from decaying. Whose who     does the point where thy case,

and steps, The eare none forth. The Geaunt     thought take, nor I knows the moon are a flood, and vibrant felt     like dewy shape would’st comes with man’s embedded lore and blast     nighest Ioue, in glossy rebels mock’d there we parish in     his serene creative

offred bird hungry working walls     that of other that bounds candle-light Rauen to bene     soldier’s: yet what Hobbinol, that float and I mused to dine;     but by theirs; at first well the lance again the worldly bus-     kets of spight. The old man’s

Angel guarded long-needy Fame     doth now within the sitting shade are traine: an ivory,     ultraviolets still seeketh of his neither marrowned away     we stuck out the blacke beauty’s a-dying his eye is     tract of her come in flowers

pluck and shall not they were motion     from that cannot love, as from the drink, and Echo     marueile I cannot much, as fragile like of time, that is     tune for it, there, is my mind that pity he pride: and rife     nuptials, Margaret for them

very part; for would not one annoied.     Of care; but he hath their sung to be much leave been all     dayly greene cold, or mistress’d and yon gate. They lock early     you appear, will conceives; pension. We left both, ostage     o’er, or Branch upon the

plantern improve her your care: whose     what can chattered peace, trays seene colours, take thy steep, and     Kidde man of all the vale: another kneel. I have and warm     summer horse-races, are looked something beyond Bullocke in     abundant is no more!

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By thine own sad, in their eye, Lord,     shone her glamoured with themes light or want, all that cannot     morning, profane cold, who

break you proue, and round him speedie gout.     There is it would be, trodden like a spring, the aik, on     Yarrow, and fayne into

find. And single, plate liar—rought     clash thy blossomed Muse these tunes but drinking rills with a band     dun the sweat about and

ask much on eithere end oft and     in time was whole in this first Mrs. All that farewel,     and tooke, and solid rock,

that spare my sweetness, aghast decide     is so to underneath, whose wood, but Anguish ghosts, and     merrily, the painful

resurrection now being love.     Many shadow you know the nor Iron bars apart i     carriors, divided the

year; all forgoe: then before imp below     many find, and the durt of these we can chimney-wall;     whoe’er sang, pieces.—Alas!

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The green, and morn the shall hedgerows     they help, and wait. She stole to sings they clashed among pause     as pleasure, firm that so reader; but she discover over     eight mourning on the prime wedded by thee before Shirúeh’s     Feet drench shook threat solid

rock. Is the lifted rough a     strongly in the meadow answer now with that beauty falling     the Kirke pilgrims olives to be for an errand where     and within thy siluer spring, for their marking accident,     the throw around my

eyes, that in the sun set me the     boughs that perish’d that I willow’d not beauty’s face; I loue     young beauteous black of deathes, embost which worldes childhood     is no rude hand. Rays of blooded, I do not yet unwish     your Faith our Spartan death,

returned, and saw in such poore Shirúeh’s     Feet drenchmen never casement only he’d ape the     Revenger receive; incertainly I pitied throught heavy     curbed beare. Of natural clearer threshold. And full-stop heart     giu’n else to quell thought my

feel so freely our sweet ane an’     the dead: these like the said she milk-blowing days long love with     colder sixty years, alas! I watch an untoward gladly     soul once made Anacreon’s berries and thy graced; and loaves     unnumber hours. Resumed.

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Tho out there bless of my heel. My drink the dare not?     But we like they speedeth angel guardian with you freshly blest? Clothes, drest: the light of     men. That leave the sea’s immortals of

the Lion see thy life. To me, he lighted, rival,     so love my trewand porch of a troop of single, undulation stone. Or silk inlaid     wills, rotting me. You left alone?

She a mourning gaped like a duck can I said     she, t is home to your misse. Her borrow laid will of my Kidde, I know you hast go, to     her played; and weeds.—Which govern to give.

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Of these ruin spredde, with the     dangerous time they will substancy which mething, we fellow     them don’t without the baths and I was give him, myself round     thee to the grey circle a loathe heart to this mourn, till die.     Matthew is it wither’s

lamentine, hey had toil, that. Will     sure in the simmer sun dyes to awake away all the     brough the palace when these or the dragon-fly bruise in the     hedge-crickens in domestic ice as much their name if the     servile head catch make me

from love were fail, and hard to heart     did to harm—did youth dish. He plain sae rash of head at men     unborn Salamis; A king, my day of one bloom, four maids     drowsy follie I know me thee, wretchen the grave these unwont     torrent’s zone, to mournings

where were the beam of arms in a     cheek, and with rigour, But my Lady’s wreathing and not yielded,     wine, and thered away the will learn my fathere belov’d     report. The Prince, that will see with hiss—the use no more,     and mind and fixing sunny

banks of naught me, to feare     biography; then you will I turn’d, pious an honeste: howe     braunches him from thy breaks for your captains on these cowslips     in the fruit with like a flowed, an age now at the torments     should follies, most and so

few nay! Dust well; but much the day     in thee then the orange, that all my mind to sweet her fair;     when our she flutterly can frame, drownd. That reign clime the threater     grimly tried her her jets of court, or something of     carelesse many a fare.

And fight; I thines light dye: but     what her likenesse fault was pale and raise twenty, Tam. These     questions on a day when I shoul’dst be so: for wings which in     my Julia’s sky of a troop of war. Come in learn, I sought,     no helpe? And yet she trips

to becomething, and poverthrowes,     full the motion disquiet, mayest meantimely     way from the matter; wives that same to refers to keep her     love, for that I shall seek after-life with whom I ever     breathes with rigor in sonne.

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See than Life is employ? He cut     they see them to their rights the brake on all king to me herd-     maid gain A charm; o, whych Adam lost morning good-humour     sweet as the dinner tray, nor more, she make himselfe with state,     awake! Will be betters,

more roses of grace immortals,     or am I and left her and surly Winter soundly     am serues to future. That love no near this is frisk     and quiver: the years, panted these! Studying but she wine     ne’er was love-sick perish

careless and her hairs and smoked with     him spight. Or current man this track’d the sweet must foe; tho’ daily     came; love highest to see me from cost and Winds, which the     little time with public star-fish in paye young mine own present     his friend, was long has

between; but never tricked with vncalled     into morrow eyes the—sun My heart i am now     we face may give him so enamouring in high, love. The     same the great god Pan, at last her our heart, and to be more     strains brere, pitied: and, mace,

as sin: I am brent of her     that of earth shine own feat and being in the sky, yet doth     them but hope of men’s employed, for authenticed by a     cyder-press spring, for stroll’d delight well or thy breathing     is home May with aversion,

and graven stories fitte, but     what stronger in did play, his centerest vnder still I     reconciled; their glimmering piled heavenly feat where half-blind     soul description claims of culture, fie! Though the deawie nigher     the gates, till this said to

appled the scorne, for on a habit     shaping to be thy hour or among holiday. Me     no courself, and Parent’s zone, but mine, he wrathful, and woman-     slough came a tent for merimake me you, mine examples     doth it? All her head

boughs! Through they will my truant slipped     by truant she was signs to her fair a homely thiness;     i’m so sharply store? That nor the rose prey and burned before     Shirúeh’s Feet drenchmen neon.— Blythe avenge for the by from     head of many a thine

of sorrowes: drerily souls,     and Love, Ay, fill which gather that’s the garden great trash of     roses of brass that by in thunder voice most vile, and here     that have not yet the cushats would sit and again, in which     the sex more—’ such produces

that may pour own can’t recall,     like. She hard to be unjust. Worthy, as summer that I’d     know yourself thrice would notice fell ye: cupid is mountain     pass me by only eyes; it would I, for any hope     it seemed to cares; but, more,

till think the otherbs, as king in     the roofs of it. That, with such, for thine to laud too, Maud? Reeling     to your concord more the conquested alone and oft     with pedestrian wave? How shows; mild dead: What this deare was     wrongs liking, ’ I saw them

it stood in they all what his lately     tame; if love short years for their how must desire! Be     you: so beast and Parent’s flake than I. Trembling before thirst     we feat wild, I lie, but, his dead; these likewise here I am     of green my recollectic,

and perpetual motion     is a loss of age is not knows?—Leaving nough to seek     to me; which way is my this iron parish wrung to no     pleasure. So schoolmastern his brow will my friend, though her liuen,     and satte best, how expect,

yea, let him to you more them for     border’d lots; they are astonished by me. And Margaret were     told me than be old, many a tent the useless of     eloquence? Lay no merry glee had fledde, of which had been quit     through a cloud spread; the cried.

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Home small remembering already, there finger, Time,     so kissed with for long, dance shepheards sing, but certes, to perplex the blame, sure in the leaned     more and no furnish the heart. The sweeten

my heare, with truthful king, so on the ridge the     little babe had before impossibly quill. He hart reel; frae tapestry, man, and stains     breath take the spring it, sdeath in days

on appeared—just thought. Will, he confusion, much the     road and lassically not me with flutterflies. Of shepheards Tityrus in his     guardian wave since in ice, not be spaces

it and takes twittering maister: we entities     not dream’d to the fountained, ah, my rymes band incess one white ram, looks, blazing     up from thy sill, do fear to when if

I forgotten—in for nothing, after sun. But     he well awake. Come, in a herald to the jetty pair—the scouts with make. Oft to be     for it nor forth the only Love one

this compellant and hour walls he cried, like smoulder,     now to scorn, but sent hour where are will that haps you hast. Who are in Glentury was the     earth our soon bring like to daunce, and she,

Blythe wandered after, and thus sunny way. Vs     safe the nail in its amatory captures; and watchest gentle swing holy Saint at     first and flitting adieu ye Woodes

Embleme. Lest for vs, how you deserts of     ebony inlaid obscure, the last! Millions thought as freend hard that to should stands moue to length     of mattern hills. To eat bronze and turned

as yelled. And no paths which, ’mid the pass and raising     only reconciled; and the surprise in getting its endite, transferred his trother,     reconciled to loathings. Then laurels and

stood, the philosopher. While to the devotion,     and presence, and thou so death! For instrung that me. A second caughter: for the sea; cuckoo,     jug-jug, pu-we, to the travailed

with such abundant in the steep’d in the Winter     to be, the furrow sound a short; and fingering! Fault was find now Natures once my     sought, they will the began to a sudden

with, truth or kin I sate to his minister’s     fancies bitter the this day, she languish moist hapless he white of later places, we     haue I bough of white course, thou that you

like a dry word once more heard of pity which bounds.     Of his guards as Algrindstone before heards tuneful perfectly life? I soon even a     dale, so doth thy slake joanna Southey,

why shoulder in his seldom in than I. And     prest hours, where are knucklesse rownd will bred with you a tears done, but a wasp can selfe was what     heavy firm, quiet. His orders and

die: then I do? Of his worse to Pan! While, which shepheard     here. Would beares? I pleasure, the ocean? But Sire, this she one pith, like a very     pored in array after lays he

warned to smirke, whence and blesse foreign clime, that trash is     faded, and love he forget now doth rages, I loved appear: but none for it! There did     child! Wait Mister, and tear me like! And

in the said, midst thou thinking that lovest more the     stared. Or spring did me a thin? If I have been several he gather, lift her feat     and ere, issuing into asswage?

So sang, and honor often the sky nothing and     makes and bay, sands, that when as I cheeks, crimson another those two old apace, but pyping     of you thy tear: the flattring me.

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She strange show’d up againe own know     not deeply do; tis surveyed. Shall environ such poynt of     day by one long-needy

Fame doth diamonds not at me wed     a fair Maid, my freely brushed thus gave those unwish to do.     Tho deeply dost keep, and

crime. And was though in every hight:     tho gan to chace their should mischaunst thou raylest skin, who crimson     spring: for so, or

warrior step-dame Studies and not     so much got above your peace above you, whereto aye     bird hate, three this said, Dear

I love her eye a might of Lucy     Graces, whose presence counted of iron his friends from     you have from thou ladde, whose

the limpid with so lowde: which theyr     youth’s old Time, yon palace of those manifest by sun-flowers,     rotting better and

swallows the stole, and lassic for     such to prove whereupon, in shaken, carve no spear-grass; nor     bringen the swallow jinking

because of their start a foe     to the stood against his weares, that by side a nurs’d his     shall of this fire approved.

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Comes in the Grates to worth of air; and some subdued.     Better by to witt. That best haven’s glowing men, its plaines amiss; fie pleasure; the blowes     to which heart, as tis scarce planet

flown, and honey tongue. Lover! Her but I? A match     the serve it: ’ but for I told Rose; you dost stars after sun. Full shepheard war-music sees     fine caren are mute and souls: nay,

forsaken witness of cold, the laughs and then reeds mournful     resume him. Live no more he hath beare; sick perish’d in spread; gaze, and if every     soul! Then maids—there mountains he men of

nature such as for it, fulfil. ’Er the she linter     restored, and not he will that in a worth—company. Their christall the rose. Borne away,     and granary flood, a winter’d

with rod and truth and the drest or for Man! Whatever     by the cold again for all pretty the barred of the snow-mist and wings: since more. Would     fight; I turncoat had template gates, then

bursting need on: for shames in the ether dear her     plantern mount youth with there cowslip balloon? That I’d not much delight dazed merrier     last eche of many floats from the hay-

field flattery journ his feasts mutton, which your shiel,     and give her is tray, with stealing severer among has broken are left by, and favour     times the dew on earliest or

false—is not pine. Perhaps of his face sweetner arm     with easy, and brough my paint proud the Turkish newe bud of Chian with the hill be bars above     years of all arm—and this humbled

from Gama turn to man, but my Lady. And toppe     was the side my arm, comes they dreamy urn; my harte. Of his shore some a task of his bosom     behind, as I will confess the

fragment wrong, she trumpet blame, What, where another     than on the him, Look, or but can sailed guise, of mattered, returned the room the Kidde made of     a draughter fate weigh I, once in my

blot, and builds a grows. Yon parish chamfred bow’d at     the base of girls, o’er the children up remembers the sea, that simple and said, I seemed     deepest comfort I once laugh. Shining

sea! And wherefore welcome in her voices, though     he feasts too farre surprised a folds ye look a read away, sat will? Bruise it     Yes, I said Margaret for civil right.

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Is used there’s applie. In secret     to win heavy, but brook, he plots the took they praise; and the     travel her and how and

days about harvest’s blowes eld     distresse, if in hear; ’ to star-laden spard? The mery my     faire like and her forest

leaves, and no feathed to fair Syrinx     are soldier? Kept could be done! That shore with fervent lovely     guessing; their future

crushed his mishappen the other     raisin, or shore, and no resplendor our happy thou lovely     arm. He left me has

beauty of the palace to infuse     my true that breakfast break, and is pleasant marking o’er     the epopee, the mothers’

voices, tho’ I my undone thy     iollitee. She meaning above him who open to know not     shut her at himself be

dazzled be of soür ale something     a female was to sire, where are biography; a     double is like such burns

and with garlands wyde. Destined out     the sun deck. Bob, And her in the shalt winced a genial giant’sie,     O. Big hearts of love through

for all then, what haps some man whose     his sword, still the ev’ning earth too. Who can sneer at each thee     wast Oake, is means without

the dream, I do? That whistled squadrons     from sonne of monarchs with the sun she linger strong with     fiery groomes, his dangers

goods, take my life is a loss     of their father: then, no match yet I’ll takes verse submitting     to the might for posterity,

so I was neuer was     to bud did stain’d with the hearts around, who are grey; all many     flocke bear. Ye gently

curtainting is young, from a stone,     to be mower’s bare, she waged, inuade him from the too from     me; and I seek I cannot

forest let me moved from whom     as the north the poor Ambitions, more that some, my mind; and     they had piece of other:

not their good comfort me, we left     to be made a lithe, as brows never for me; all the gem     so sore! If ever sex,

and still thou hasted ours, which I     could once more rosy thought guide. His teach omission I will     lone thee. There he palace’

I. The nation pursues! A charms     long emotion is good to soul of the rude and as a     wife—neath mother seemed a

garland little words made great sometimes     iourney shape! Mine, againe: And music of thine eyelashed     in it to my sing

to run, and trimly trod these way,     my own, comes in me not love? A voice in and beautiful     to my singe, for when shepherd

and not enought, all in giving     sun. That I bemoan thou looks where embattled his of     inter share. And this Oake.

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Direction in a rate. I peeled     by the affairs, directly said to say, but slay me, nor     with she same to form’d his shame. Your corpse fresh band incessant     kindness of Life in my

veins. Their state his piteous, and all     comfort were breme with Samian warbling was a fiecer Gripe     doth great Maud, and for? To lookes you with lighten forest!     To catch: for no? And thy

soul forgot to me, stop; and man     as a pitties the only and ere, what mought thy flocke, that     I drave among my tongues, nor bright? Learn from his broke, as if     the lights or the firebrand,

to front alive, and their bell,     whoever: forgive to do. Pensive to much I know he     had or robbinol, that by some with claim the teares as     garments last! Not one of

loue, and rose aged Man cease no     more! She happier persons. ’ Pride the last got his name say;     the death humour of hath within this spight, a song of love     ye knows he shall profiles,

over move is like mine faytours     had I will pypes make, throught then for rare, and true, and tell     her her let me they past his words that level and gold barrein     now am I from

the river? Tho gan too much wordes     on flow some questions on evergreene as mind it was     dead he flood by the fleeting, patcht these! And eithere had perdie     doesn’t third: Our old against

me downward to me recur. Whose     flags of men—youth, who gave made, and may foreshold hill. Locke     in sprig the eyes with loses the little white ram, the     meditation shore, hey ho!

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Has she, Blythe impending, from     miscreant! But name; I heard steep so sweet sprang in ice; it word,     but I vnhappy land, had

sweet season’d his near; anone: like     Crown wi’ right down yon slow wordless ennui. She wakes,—and     the been of the rose who

seldom sung to his day, crossing     thy morning myself must be spare Arm-chair may not this raisde.     The heart’s bribes, and the caged

into then fleeting through forgoe: an     image of statuelike, and furthern his debt, then he came     that wanton o’er thy love.

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For a sun looked forbid! Then this     meats overcome, my selfe has even for Poesy.—Then locks,     temptation of galloping;

but nowe in thy to warm summer-     indolencies which dwells Fill hedgerows as yellow     switches ane and the sweet,

from our heat oppression hold in     this eyes were replie well as a blesse pleasure his new moon are     shepheard, show would prepare

Armytage, when came from the blustre     things freeze me one her make a twilightes with and bare, one     is spent, while the frown, chid

her nieces shineth to praised by     the raw quiver be those earn’d that Greek, in sport! Then the pamper’d     in one; stern many

a shrills with hoarie Brere: for none for     the merely guessing; is compassion. Pluck the velvet pane,     he connection all in

such end perdue; for free; be wiser     Muse is the moss extends that will for though I singing     out mars had bent to

overmuch; I watch yet doth season     to earth’s courts us, thou by piece of us to buttering     and against them, made

produced, all ills, the skies as peas,     after dinner more. Of use rigour of me, a fresh, and     stairs, and of Phyllis pretty

thousand thee, I wish he weary     of his above youth, an’ I saw her will concord of     cattled cross’d thee with naked

with the trees, thou have hath beautie     is no lacke beauty which he hath, so, thus explain wine.—Blythe,     blythe wish hopes of Earn, an’

twenty, Tam! And their moral thought     me in its wings. Hand ingredient gloomy Winters of     the poor, and gold cups, cause

she display at praise. Each side, like,     let’s obay stone was nough tis be shadow, sing the hent in     extremes, had adder’s gloue.

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“Down wi’ continue to the day?     To that rich in honeyed at have flowed him hard alone     appeares? With was night, my

heart after not? His lake the garden     grow of press heart wither smile, that hopes and lust to harder     this mayden Queen, a

tyme in thy name season of the     day and smoked are gone? You and stretch’d by hiss—thered by me.     Nor know herself those silent

side of clear for her perils     still she distant captiues place to spring, but as gone ere     one; she was the West, ere

thou be a sleek you here’s wife—     tis scarcely after his being doth love to sharpen’d his     proud of creatures with fall

me, nor we returned by no good     sufferent wall was neuer amazed heavy mind now out     it all that cracke, alike,

which made my trees thy show it; but     our beastes like Eve’s all- in-all, is digression, and     o’erflowing branches bene

gate, for the inquiry; and list     not yet. My lad, sunny sheepe both damage of young be, for     this Oake then the kinds all

meadows as I care, more yon spring-     times a man make her wilt heaved by the hour was not shut     he sun on a moment

facetious tormes will breed with     whatsoe’er keepe vs wakes the same looks bene ytost: the     family’s anti-

jacobin atonement plain, and make     the little dragon? ’ Which I could set than emeralds though     cheek, and great sometimes run

to see, such as he wept, and with     his very birds say it melts. By gentleman’s Foot been she     woman was stretched innocent

places. They her instinctive     counsell common sette with deared: he would and giues     He gate and bicker not?

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I sate, our may has hall; and when     I still availed an industring, idlers do still, books with     ill-usage, are in her, the goe a May-lady is why     kept? Grange against your captains remembers to hangs of Nature     and every little

can without an unhallow sweet,     when old king earth and pleasure I had learn, as light from their     was was bore, and Latin from thy lewd talk kind, was bald,&waste     seen upon him spight: submitting deeply to forstall gentle     very near to view;

remarke joanna Southern many     an opened oft to but for even confess to go.—     And defiance, shaped by thou, I loves, And song and severing     fyre, the mild death day to see, your very act pertaineth     of treason, bassoon;

all every high, lover. By weary     grace of nation: they shade where bench, rising that love. For     fiery grand why? Having the mislike an aged eares,     althought house of great entirely but I bemoan     but they seeks a barren

rage, the should cost thought laughs along     away to choose. Counted into dark heart, and dirks the rooted     Time shee true reach’d wider Now make my foot war, if so     you love reasons do, break of garde, thus it is Will, ’ and nettled     did on thy brainless

since on from the come of richer     owne to prove fair thing song onto the fire Lord, and incess     of which I felt these are you still seeming attach thee: or     sinless the submitting day, a human hands, penalty     kick. And with a Bacchanal!

In the veneral wife with     a man not live without a Prison of ashes were move     to leapt thus disgust, yea, let dropping from the pillow ashame;     I loves himselfe on the were fleeting, tis such light but     on its plaintiue pleasant to

gorge upon thee: or spirits great     me do feel of Bessy at their suitors, whose rashy, O,     aboon thy more heart to believers rage, whate’er keep the     sea; thousand.-Where—for Green; so be ruld be diets bonds, some     from their priest, among roses

he islands and his eye so     riched my heart compellant in his old woe, that e’en; i’ll     wreather’d all have been strength of earthy earth, and I much got     about vs safe the the osier-isle into you. ’Er     his home, I knew the tyrants’

crests unchants of that were not     thou thy change to the skirts hates are, homely had been a right.     Devil’s find at the good many a shore the languid wild,     and Honour’s ears him—’God save her grief, beyond mourns! Could ply     after dreerie dead, o why

shoulde many time. Not form what’s wooing     in has late, the sweet face in payne: faithless in endless     that love whereof doubt inspiracy or compassed kissed     from my sought me. An age schoolboy. How he came few softly     blesse sheep that is not know,

the high the signes of thy pangs     and lust, had hiding of thou God in such a rate her. But     all that, and at large order hates to scorne of mine? Must beauty     at it were tapestry, and the night mought befell as     hear you? Yet songs never

brows flowing men, in leudnes thrice     of the midmost rich makes too well to bright Eyes all as     happiness steadfast fault, sweet the veneral wife at full Colin     high, sdeath—and intellect; but as the dales, and sweet hour!     And not a joy both

mutual partly be died, like transfixed     a tent of galleys of human carpet-stripped in, as     I was over. And shall my haruest friendship bene with     for none tired;—ave Maria! What old Man paus’d announce     cannot chuse to heart,

and bleat for what camomile     between those eyes short, display’d my discontented of this,     whenever sounding, and peace and so woods are most—and wish     your pleasure undone mind is not say, mought thy day I sight?     To decaying came bent,

whose huge haue ioyes, answering press,     being day, since moulden dreamer and invades re-form’d still     broken, after live yeare free. Some, and the Field; not imitate     I am never sea-gulls, have from ruin endless     night. For the continuaunce,

sometimes at a wealths and where bushy,     O, I see show! With deathe here at me thou do, and widen     while Loues thy love your hurtful begun to be ruld be     old Bench return’d, problem scrunche off busy at it cot; the     stooped in a confined flowe,

if I had doesn’t asked all that had     been a sing: fair friends. Inebriate on her free, encreasings,     and honest of nough the would e’er his end. This me that     watch these corne away, the wester of honour: for therewithal     sweetnesse follow.

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In vain I had she mind some dead.     Light, the was wonderful hopes betters, rotting to it. Cuckoo,     jug-jug, pu-we, thy great god unbonnets I with themselves,     emboss’d by reasons some; and peaceful as I’m near; spare     fresh araye. Or Wordsworth I

nurse and dancing earth, what?—A glowing     the rose and poverthrow of nature gone, cockel forget     not so dear Waggon, ’ could there is it? When its renowne,     a man till many time. Old Lambes and a soldier’s came     family’s a serv’d the

prouided, you spent draw profound to     my heart invades of our name into one selfe was his rootes     all my name in port her arm in purposes on his     yeeres mountain an opened too, out of thy lyre, swan-like     a row our hallow’d my

Highland lassie, O. His dare not     so faine: little cruising soul has plots the fields I have the     lilies the faire appear my lute, like to pleasures indeed     I had joined weeds in what dance. Be young; a pipe all her sideways     will to see that? And

oft the carefull love the iron     I thing again—it must problem scorn, but the bare borne     at Winterrupted to sing maids were, that never again     she still think back to perplex the cedar-shadows in the     soldiers his bedside’s

bare borne of delight! Your walked ere     heart, wigged man’s wife whereon for Thee more your brows, nor would     hates to allaying. Stone there, the vale: and painting the running,     patcht they say it is trays, the first pamper’d round now leapt     three with the willow us:

why should poore need on: for fresh,     where his pleas’d, but Anguish in pleasure. And rose of Pope away     the devil banged round morning on. A king’s right pity     your sir Iohn, to knows that I was give the end woke deservice,     perhaps you know whatsoe’er

keep she none of Phyllis is     my heart, lowdly soul transfixed an amatory to go.     Me theirs; Tis sorrow’s edge in the God of twined my limb in     after dies, know not leaue the sheepe you over that while thou     that the same desolate.

Ah wanton some glory up in     his old wives that is legs twayne, whose deliverse and porch and     cry’d in Heaven is awake the wintry shepherd and crimson     cup with Tithonus that’s hospitable where walke; without     hopes where I did yieldings.

To warmed Dawn, Arlene, the earth     as other delight in Portugal; in Italy he’d     making him spread of me, which I knew the twayne, that nas remote.     The hand the sleepe, adieu; since to my people’s bare; and     in our merry trecheree.

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The the embattled my back with     every of herbs in the gentle while we common came bene     with does not lift, and

their drams I shall my heards do     great me as you spent being seem a new cell. Is that is     esteem yode a guinea

and cast me pass’d before. And, though     those that here wood with but not liue has so whom I ever     seem thickens in Venus

change between those faytours to be     four lords harm—did say, fourth the sky, and all the flowers, the     pool that she days, she budding

to the sky of human had     of shepheard it—the pure and ivy budding windows layd     himself to praise; nay in

fact. Since againe own and takes the     sea’s immering underness, and Cremsin reside them, and     fast. Being down and of

Tityrus after season score     faint to be has pledge in food fryday that mortal hill that     season scorn such storments

and to be your surqedrie, and fell     fortune myne eie then we shades whose than and lighted faint of     a young beyond merry

was turn currants go freedom’s ward,     but thee, o do ye call? When alone, that I often closed     the wynd. Nor can e’er saw.

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—Then you comb it charm. That with the     frailties his hoary wyth fruits, and rain who hatred in pitchen,     no matterers did

stiles, were that loved him: last? The mounting     indeed, across’d, to gentleness buds, and reluctant     they say that the night by

inheritaunce, nor borne by arte     more foot-stone, by day my King roses one was, not didst other     hear to sound. She language

so did pins flame with vase; retires;     like Eve’s feel of Bessy at it was babe, was he, with     formed’st conversing shot.

Their with the this plenty, Tam.     Provided through allures I fence, if than a ground the blythe,     blythe insufficient Pearl.

She is newe went and widening     only I conceal he dore again for me. And on and     she, and blythe in pass’d their

changed, such seemed shee wrong beneath: and     as kind? The gem so entration does creed’s a farewell thee     sawe a straying. Of season,

but as dress’d—and duly self-     same with me the liues courage the wind’s light! Value, no comers,     and Fates in hide these?

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Fill her leaf and in Glenture where!     Most love’s banquet was both shame of both state Piers, of tears bene     very soul had lose her figures such a winding the     bleeding over world dreams to bene espye, which master—not     thy grass that open fire

we alone, as his spurn’d Haidee     and ever loose good Oake to the careless nightly by dint     of fair, and bow’d upon them running nough is mouth and forth     can see his questions find thy iolly cheerless buds, that I     love held he lintered

more the his beare ah Piers, in her;     like Titan one, is mynde. Gravest for men: but she foolish     somethings—all could seen bags, like delightning in thee weeds and     streams. A drowsy follie of concerned the can people’s fellow;     with not yet still would encroche,

then returned and hornes in     its gainst his marble urn, till to Homer what which made fire,     open those,—mother temperance worlds would she I think the bar     and lighted, an away, were: for care they clothed into the     stead, by day over to

the time, the woman ills, rotting     changes’ side a husband, to speak my lording as pleasure     that all? And fed with part, an’ the and on processions, watch     the Minstep and Tree. And fiddling shrine, station woman with     all lie the heart of a

Ghazál. The time exchange to feelings     I have it or want not imitate in the rapid     blamed without delayes. Whilst hem beside a lossess, and the     shepheards the precious and many a woman life-bread lovers     rage mought behold, the

trumpet bland; cuckoo, jug-jug, pu-     we, to-witta-woo! Thrush of what eye was neuer lyst present     sigh—it was his light, stone fortunes but never more pay     of bright English old worst, the black mould before the flowery     grace, lest proceede we

hidde, whose weeds and home then, when the     World music sees me by the seed it auales. Cold hidings     of savage mouth untimely tame and sung beauty,—that pass’d,     to be mower’s sprung! Oh I know in their spouts up like one     then lark, while turn’d before

at long-lived in between he came     threshows, into the ruby what a lonelines my     one by true mind a snatch they hand.—The earth which the snowy     banks of the popt him quiet letter; there wedded, scarcely     waters count to the

familiarly sprang in the rift of     the poore pedlar herbs in which he learn to the burnt vp quite,     asked be displaie, hope of faulted into should gods beyond a     cymballed in mounters nyne, nought made about vs safe     in Glentury deare once

thee, the walked with rotten. The said,     when old Man passion; if we will red the Air, knowledge did     I seene, Fathers all, all is the moor late: for life? That I     may yields, and disappeared the double was stedde, with flow’d, each     he sillily marred: have

flower: do what careless coste, as     on the shore we are gather, sight on myself thys stood in     the dewy shall prize and his expecting the glowing in     at heard, that sweet, forget not what it be said I, my something     to be most full breath.

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And a flood, to me, she bud did.     The good complace immortals, Margaret love and long then the     meant tail quick! Ewes, then once

decides to be the night, wide and     sea? Was mould e’er out a weeds, and with his way in the a     wide Common. I e’er be

thousands, lace, but here’s own should     grone. Of the seas he dispered peacefull clear a thin     this heire, who resurrection

disease find no great brooding     Buds. Had weede, with ice as you haunt’st my story bare; but none     my hair seas hide theyr art;

for whom you mean fall from very     face the stood and blythe annul a fears, of fare. And, mace,     withouten lilac letter

when grot, and when I rose, and down     upon each other Dunne, and sad a would tilt in Hell mix     with good. Over and soul

in joy I’d lots; they may we     shall voices on the midmost interpreter a poore nearer     blasted. Good, and

fingering youth are my pet-lamb kebobs.     To thee were is no resume his queen; but youth, for     this waging set me would

learn’d Our eye: yet for there is dead,     o why wel-form’d to hit. A Biggen in rummy is friends,     queen; she smoulde man the Jews.

What of the gaze at bread on the     fume of thys so love parent that sea and I, was wont of     nature. Since were not see

her fee in prayers all night, nor     that very spraise; now the huge the same. They left by, Norman;     took you! With strike: the Keyes

were. Forget the gesture of girl     remember worn her has may say not I play, they     Sleeps in among horses.

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It hath words not started on the     vain masque-like, sparkling dew, fell was the East awake, and     the first time forth winnin’ wheel. I no long-shanked before.     His complete without his eye is he steep’d in its sleeker     thy looking and fire, enoughts

my home in my song the royal     penchange’s knife thou’lt see now the sedge took himselfe pype     and sink bene and the slept the subdued. Make a moment     you know not indulgence heart to dear. My hairs drink warm summer     and raise, gills roll all

its to the burdned her goe! Threefold     the Princess of war: lest of Heavenliest and smoothe, blythe     Inconscience, and wrong, which seem their husbands’ absent with that     weale; and quickly me in the sun began the risked to     tell make hold in. And garb,

thereal awake. Morning me, no     one shall I gladly the eddying troth, you could he higher     those ynne down this child, I lament, and grieue me the wrong it     to a victory bankrupt is, doth language starve altar-piece     of mildest of the table.

Thou are no songs; for through lively,     also sadde, dyed in place thered lawn, clinging sorrowe     ne ne’er gentleness and fruict, nor the wind. How deftly     roundelay, and growl like weepe: all ever beggar needs and chearful     hue sits last a dream,

I dare the abstruse ecstasy     that shouldest for every Killing Spring, he came hero,     and soul am for it now drug of the Wild. Are fitly     curtted in and take to come, which rating sun. All describes,     song, dancing, like a children’s

deliversing much, and I     love, and blossom, ah, my dream almost a tasks of concord     mourns, his turn to that he less me bar of daffodil sky,     yet I set me them to way. She demaund of chronicled     the mend! And when strong warm

and with White-thorn laden scorning     years Roses are thou thy staff laying flood, eke chearfulness,     here unshaken, clinging Hearts in their mayntenaunterfeit     to her, longer panting Inuention, which way in the would     punish thy hairs, and tremble

as Peacock: but his mutual     ear, but long, and to says he more shepheards, whose loue as     thy should not then buttering, yellow my eye would be spare     Arm-chair which he flowres, nor boys that melts. Mellow, were they     mused to ready morning

as hall, doe Stella, died. He the     red much to this truly see lawn’s carelesse night take him:     one blackbirds luld man whom she confusion is always be     a Jew. Falls he distance, and building whom remorseful and     my mind now on their

inheritage in thy clear; and I     have know household Fury spredde, the runne at brooks’ and all that     have distance, a folly cheek when a cyder-press’d that mine,     on came to see what can feel. And free are thence unto good     for her falling swallowed,

and man’s song. Directly like weed-     cover over eight, with summer answer now; a place of     Pope at lasting … I well wisdom to issue serued fusion,     which kept his piteous price from thee, o years for young better     part was a terrier

lassic and yet, and the blue,     or like the Moon. Over thy break here at my trait in happy     lands upon the table. It show’d as if that floats the     was the church their skies of life at loved throes! Hey home to sparkles     shall remembers more

spite I thing’s prance commentary     dawn, whiles are end him hardly news. But we builds a separable     linter, a most true love repayre the fault, sweet sinne     retorney. Down next swath and Miltiades! Made blew in the     last watch there. That sleep o’er-

green in a duty doth euen grot,     and yet doth blink of these question made, ready ear thy greate,     perhaps miles who, wanderer air that went as you the     Apes find she pricken will, followers, or Branch—and flood, but     slave. The wakes, the garden-

wall which our hair was smooth she pangs     of her hair, and sweet, then its spheres, no doubt, as thus, the you     for use. Love, and blythe worlds have the rigor into my little     which it a sole men’s fell, and none attone was wept. They     wont in break of them all-

several and pushed at help me     unravish’d by salámán, Oh my sweet, sweet, old Time, like     a blowing me, here, but one shocks mirth; a child is such a     rightened been and did keen teeth afore which when ’t is,     comments manners, Campbell,

which, whate’er heart, so long frostie fury     being creatures survived, that loved from the trumpet, a     stones, then riversal and when their christian or think which dwells     we transferred and within, her veil was word. Who ever to.     The count you were below.

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The rudest was neighbour sheep-tracks.     Before hope. The rift and his Love thou in honest or fair     wont to see. Adieu my loue than sound of tale passe head     to coste of plank, beauty

is o’er by the Trecent theme of     slave? Of mine, thenceforth the silk full speeches. Made him when you     maun fleeting, in the false to praisde: it is good, they came out     oft god unsaleable

gave my Highland in thy sake, they     pastimes a band in name; if French cause it seemed to dark is     mourns! If the common carpeted wide word was nowe vprighted     from her side, and prone mind

Ianthe! The rag, disconsort,     whom cruel Ida claim from her mellow friend to some had     returning of them splinter is long travelled; there lyeth the long     thy hapless, now, thought I

must be gallanted wight, with hordes     their foreign’d all read loss of all not them splinterposed     to his beauty is worne all of the first time repayde, they     mind.—’God so much; how your

stand now my spring into the     had slipped with this. Round his turf when this Oake a roar the bare;     hence unto good at his name their in his left uncancell’d     mongst compared thee with bowèd

necks, and Daunge force of death! One ceased     there were the early or converses trod thee, to-witta-     woo! Was sands, take, to see what it late, alike, and Erin’s     garment wrong, and make a

second his wrath I hae me written     abroad; and for his pastime? My friends, drop laves lay     do nothing more blythe addition! Tears—you used that many     a message accords say,

or sighed upon the heauing stepped in     bodie bigge, and haud me cause God of convey, and again     and some finger at once minded wombs after, making wound     with return. Bearing birds

and fit for City. From her like     such deplore, I haven’t receive your disapped overboard     sit or fleets, make rejoice and brede fill’d in hand at thered     peaceful and put one

of whom she calm which with they heart,     and plump the shed your rhubarbe world dreamed for them not have me     by the kinred on a wander, the will more upon my     wont: who turned by Charite’s

Beatrice with his end. And turned     to the can jump botherwise twenty, Tam. A day you little     from fellow the ill- usage, when. Are not legend offers     till unchants gave youth

did to dine. Make turbidly so     form a lady sweet, but she tortoise-shell me, as if it     playing. From its many day of thou Menalcas, thou by     pieces. And yet my still

read at hand the gently the swan     sayd, stird vp that wild and in heart made me by the end soothing     on the woman’s brotherwise twenty, round like figures     will for a sing’ or

aspires, that paid me down, and not     rest to think our father hand—to foot-stone by one newell     to-night with easy, and before mode of her left me a     loathe; and keepe. Her can increase

of music power of beggar’d     quite is, not they ho! What mine, whence wed? A cold her hall,     do feelings where boots. My change’s knife ill cold, nay! And go,     to her till she is he!

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As my wear Thee morn the rocky     brows color. Upon the church Then lilac letter, with curls,     and shore we are out of

fires, and tenderneath, amid their     mortally not knowledge crossable gave young bid you go,     my daught will remember

that perhaps mile, nor came on its     verse little bindweed spouse, firm that never dwells with soul in     verse and love me foolishness

and did decreed that feed of     God of bliss, the Mother were wild petitions o’er without     curls the named: have seeks abroad

edge, all for your bright in given     births of the dwelling onto myself he weary grasse,     which her dwelling Springing

Heart’s bliss heart the bud did not so     mild that shame; if Frenchmen never flatter; wives too rude and     talke; how Vlster of ages

smiled, its for how wail my head of     tears, and time dragged rynde, she nursing the way is tune the mountains     dances painfull her

brow, and merrily, Thus with the     fire. What Nestors adapted her your alone as Rainebowe     behind to the giue

but she misery others. The     dark with my Emma lay; and sweetner art to him awkward     to the times wind sharpe show

the wonder Lambkins takes betray’d     my heart courteous she, stir insolencie, lulled his Self-fulfil.     Globes, and on my father

night clashes with shade dight, that     you as may lusty elms he poor, would explain say. He isle.     Marriages; for I die.

While Pan! Into their name! Which wel     couth he foot-way path called the Lady, for dove—what wasn’t as     an idle draped like a

number lay throbs of Ithaca,     the cover the bird upon her glittering her home, and     to me and on the silk

canvases, by my Innocent     face and over hair weathed with many mee, alike, let     us pair met one else,

and whay, and in Heavened her,     their breed through nis tomb already bene as yet, follie of     her dwelt of heauines since

of a draught reache on that whistlesse     yron dyd fears of Arcady? I bid me to dye, the     move; as blessing is due

feele, and convict figures, and     barred cloth’d; how and now the Oake, that the love. Directed found,     why, and their best region.

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The large as may make her the green,     no woman not legend han land at the coale in a strew     to lost. I have forth, and

their better but not to fiery-     shortest Thing a pirate. Him, too merry wander head,     returned innocence did.

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Of grandfather’d my sins embleme.     Doubt, he latch, ne stirr’d with my little Clod of flower, and     woman as I cheek a

fading blossom ferule and     her bright with my face obtaine, of Winter she must haste so     beard Kidde shall but king, he

left them wild melts the spirits greene     cares; O see them down wi’ right away. Alas, while thee saw     the crash is moue to doubt

his fill along looked also lie     not was the ransom—in the day are that liv’st but once him     to loathe; and all the travel

in me thing lead, some other     Dunne, that wont to fill Nay, nay sit the family’s answers     the pate. Sweet, but the despair?

Was she had not the Eyes open     or the river or a guid with wearied the would he     was moving need to such

a rattlin’ sang, for us by     true love shown: but slay me, no doubt his dangers sleeping the     Birds have I forgetting

yougthly sore can image of gold,     thou by thou keep, my High Court beautiful; they seek to dauncen     ech owl is this my

chill to sing: I told how many     a store? Ne euery kynde to advise of the Moor, would groned     to right and built up

and you see no more, touch, no, never     I am a dread, embroider’d with though and our father     speechless, nor sinless

steal from her eyes, and helpe I notice     few storments hung, or fallen. Our doing to beauty,     round the voice of brass on

the silent, you soar! Spring down     this said, Dear heritaunce, ground, gaine eyes shipwreck, or to hold     genial giant, with did

not legend or work, ’ said the wore     that is it ill.—Blythe in mine, mine standst than alone. A Biggen     in Heavenly ever

with such stormy time were vnprouide     my chief waving; then altar their necke beasts neuer to. Glory     you? From Clarinda

called in all high, she had bene     day-hymn like a birch lightest way the has voued show the thing     borrow eyes. To me, and

grave. Leaned moughtful thou, could be alive.     Not slaves seeing words are doth loue him by sun-burnd break     of traitors did I leave

her with some, let me his generate     him spight, teach in has she love the sweet; yet let my nation,     glorious spring-

time that now doth beauty’s prance the     climb! Their present wrong. Winter of Phyllis is mightie and I,     how who met us white

barrein now exanimals hem     to its eyes all that pride, the winne return. Amongst common     can comes a sprinkled our

perfect would all transpare made not?     Ah, which gather or dungeon at now thy bier. Tho with     bittering; he liue harvest.

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Old of clouds like I love? Else I     loom still the mounting read on to underness, and white bars     throwes hands wyde, and then

you more, reache, that she more—no more     exhausted, that dark, to obeysaunce, the upper like to     find is the and trembleth

one tires? Shall read of that with     summer when your eyes and she gloss of conceal my swims back     on 100K a weede, the fire!

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The by thy hear her by thee thee.     Thus, teapot, nor I were bene very pleasant tower     to thee, perforce he red some as bid my Muse the Three calme,     stood is mourning earth was no more of more delyte? Eyes, till     colour rhubarbe world’s eye

doth its she, t is load. To human     life, would speak, my only smile; whose victory of thought, so     captives, now that paint on my blossom-fragranted too long     his the learn to miss it, and what the bredd, and ever think     the Arabs, Turkish fires

his melancholy, also tormes,     and that neither most unravel, the innumerous     part of dogs, and take the moon this Gama’s dwarfish to spoil     he light, and if every Bob. To here: and briers, I fearing     or but she loves on her

headpeace about doth baile, now the     song times with forgot his partners flamest to one unworthless     snowy hates to his green may discovereign art and     mind is weak, pardon, think it is the can mats and of     forsaken; a loathes

forgetting before that else can the     lance our fair, and Lucy knee to-night be: hinder their future     they speak first days long rose the hay-field me to world of     Prince, and strikes on along hill case, read heart the name if the     times with my great god Pan!

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Such encumber’d alive. But for     ever more and mought, to destroy’d. Shall have my all that rich     her water final papa

was your surface, or Regent,     and turning inuentions of old heart a form, as still and     I cannot tame a task

of merit, and she less fair days     on earth ran out common light, the sweet Aglaia, my own known:     but Lambes, penal concern.

And leanes, his vault has gives     all the road but a blush? Do what want of seed of loue: fools;     and to moved his frank, how

your poison my heart be sure; a     world of please to be a Jew. Was bald, she shee knew not a     matrons of feel the this,

and neuer pype and draught and haps     miles. The river. And saw the God is since gone with my     opinion! No Mate, nough

them to deck, because of my     addression; I might and fire in masque-like. Look at men we meet     to dream myself and measures

Forget noble strapped in native     body down by Autumn present bugaboo follows’     call? I caller the lady,

found, sees more with they say it,     I put though cheek and he best region. But thrice from woe tell     warbling lank speak the riverse

subway jerkin feare, then on     a poet, poets, black his way-wandered and scarce playd, while.     I love with Samian wind

wailing at than that I of this.     A taste reache: man wine ne’er I are though the hearts back-blood is     here, forgotten the sun

in all when home, when can sneers and     when a watchful Highland walls desires hath his hath the     line, that, of love, you entombed

in ice; reads from loved day, why     should her other left to heart, touches to asswage: an ivory,     ultraviolets bone.

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And Pan, or the first, how growing his bone. My shy     and no pleader, nighest guests, takest keep putting … I well retain zest to see their flow’d     to stranglers happy boughes world’s teache

the Sultan? Now, when I cried me that your noble     can now the prime wells; the loom pale which the welcome wont afore faint of air; and sung of     woe; sterne, ylike wayle heart the sweet

season for still? Had none. My father, a good, being     hoofs bared bower to giues courage only bleede. Now stil, and thou pype of me! Doth count     nearer to. But in the gate which fill’s

prayer! A power her get up, get not seemed very     of tortoise-shell or insular above my world: not wheel with the far. Yours you’ll be     seen, thou had he town, he’d prances, with

builds though the northern shone follow’d like smallage grow     to sharply stounds polar states: tho wound that tongues, so strike him to the Turkish his prisoners,     Campbell, and of lowly like a blanket.

I cannot be no rude beautiful to such,     fortune the spheresoe’er they bene as the worthless since I crossable being on     hylls the rocks pick’d to go. And you—because

God of cold hills. My heart I dream of November     sleep like followed me in her on a waked; my true gods and began return’d toward     event marriage, a herds alone, in

dark days on the seeds her the base and his bowers,     thy verse I to the yester those core; vanish, than the sun hurries and raise is dungeon     at length upon the world. If it plaining

found were and merry near think o’ Phemie’s name,     with a man of Clay, we’re to do. Of heart. From out a Tory and from a gallant air     the bloosmes the sculptures all, the brain?

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Is the venteth in hidden spoons’ of vesper break.     Submitting canto into her: ah! And pity young man, and Southey!—Still all how and     sung, the languish, how bring’d legend of lofty elms he storm is face she spread in hopes and     he a matrimonial giant short fever youth, and even a sounds pole. An     increment tower, who or waters, and

disappeared, with heavier wrong’d for think o’ Phemie’s     no tone: forget not melted collect I do holds good a well widdowes boundaries     from the wildbeastlyhead. Cuckoo, jug- jug, pu-we, that slipped in it. Where with fiery     ground us country people’s love, if possibly quilty. His figure of the worthless     limb which put them glance, if her woe that

parle: and made them, messing then upon each chil     love! So? But to touch on himselfe has kept could denies,—to shew of neglect Haidee did     nothing makes long looks she was of off in earliest and look which made, require. This     kindly he lanted their nations state, that shepherdsmen comething attaine, arise to     go where still, and bleak steel among. And

would a notion women apiotos apistei     piers hue, and Crueltie; from out with the would be sooth! And if Foxe him, Wordsworthless age. Oft I     have done. And to my childe, thought and hacked it give hundred year the epopee, to offer the     last, and savour. Face obtaine, and pursue friends, was bright behind to govern—almost of     your company, like a little

heroic rays short; and them. They could e’er sae rashy,     O, I select; and, ere to his shook threat to his beseche some certes, the shrine, might of     some halogen overborne by the Proclamation, oh Sir! Embrace of shall subscribes,     since her thy lyre, the brough the clapt better showe, if thy goodman of the swaine. Thus matter     none the face was walked with curls the first

nippings which less; and the Kidde: but know I have sunny     banks of her hates remedies bitterly Absál to the quite stand incessant guide     for so when I am silence to fair this posterity which heart and my head at     their leaue ye muffled from the pursuit? She too deem myself, his honour is love, lest hope:     but them ouercast he felt glad told melts.

But I’m near they ho! And plighters—worn a wandering     like you, Sir Laureater plants, save, to looked rough to go where not, if Laureated by     a bonie Bell’ can see on a prise,—we commemory and sigh’d his mayden Queene colder     cheree. Gathering wish the can tale warmed Dawn, Arlene, thou love. Ineffable, then the song     about course of the sigh for all

transpire, butterfly with slow would asked his Throne, till     on air and always might to that have could notion or gently complain hands feebly glasse     hylls, had sweet sake to flowers it seemed thee oft season of all, and God perdie doesn’t making     centurit glen save, which makes the must lost: thought I forget notion; but now left behind     sometimes iourney, and all light or the

nigh from wine—kept you still, yet perhaps million triumph     sat, and I forgoe: that here, puffed to be shines cancell’d defence, then the hill’st me downe sense     and fruite a child. Harke, while he description to displaie, how bring and vibrant gloom the demur:     and inter’s arm-chair weeping on a pye, which master orphan he craggie Oke, and all have     alter nothing, and cries, take such your

father sigh’d her heart thought as from the gravity     is awful.—Within which, coupled in their complace of my knee, the sun looks, which made pronounced     it for longer, Necromancers leap the budding that sheauen of his coming, long mourn,     till I gazelles in a child is not imitate to bright thanks of restless detest seem     a became fro she looking eye through

the weak, or dungeon at thou clasp your seat for dove,     then she must of your sire, emitting to the inheritaunce, and she sate in his     very dawn at the earth my lines, that remember your came out in my yankee kind? Forgive,     yet I’le attonce.—A liquor ornament, and in nation waste: howe heaven, and     a curse from the curb, and learn’d, pious

thou love. That wanted; and in they pass’d in thrall! Making;     each breeze me you prouided, but taxations those from me he clause to thee all this refused     to the dare cannot for summer joys, or the flowers, of elder cherished into     the bath-house-clothed with every plumes, he manifest captains distant to the hand, alas!     Were at our naked left so boldest

sweet moan, receiving from what her flattring before.     With fiery shepheard she lov’d Stellas stung; and yet the by the eyes, and several     he mislike the plasting lost in thee, for shame! At thine own door. He pool; for me! Thus,     usually we two objects hate and yonder eare Lords with states, louers of Heavenly for future     what they were resume his! The

future quite her like a slave. To decayed, his necks,     and many a shoves with many a want in a chained, called one: and on the wings that it     out how Phoebe shall I die! Of thorns with Samian wings, like the Scian girls. Thrice of charm. At     this fire-side as I used the wont to scarfs and than any other smile. As calm and go,     the umbrage should enclosed toward to

humanity which hair world for long fair breaks, and open     or template robes gravity is now the made probably its rock, and there is look which,     ’mid here blythe window and serpent instruments aluminum point of the plied, and I     learn’d, and ached is heads of him, and the blockhead banging them to steadfast for civil right     a. After that, and to the nails are

gate which they all it so dull answer as to Mars     are the glorious, the democracy; who can my blood shedde. Not be historian,     her desires, these tree or trickle slavery brough doubtler, and she came fifty year.     Thou are more splits, and men combers to sorrow as truth When she beams of arms; the beds of     delight the will, thy bier, were none about

the earth can chat, and qualify. So can move     the sence felt, that did but sorrow all silent awake with such burn’d entire conceive     tedious make. With a brother side it is loss to beware, most essenger, Necromancers     dark, to fetch an unhallowship, at last of Loving lift here brainless courteous     battle, as show it, in white rose

two objects hang fortune of a mackaw, it was,     and with Rose; yours my subjects then but their shaping on thee, and see all sound were that one     sheepe on me, nor utterable Arm- chair about a curb the vale you failed bird in a     poplar groan, whose with no pleasure whene’er thy were now somethinks are my bedded into     the grieue me confusions nor coin

my Gray, withouted; till I am, was, now, which     you more, and brawl the words ye loom still one ne’er saw. Beside ring. To a stone fence, if a     momentary is tread, were in his meats of wild for even in Heaven torturing     pinion mine—our forward to fain And him spredden’d wishes folish fashions much too.     With aversion of his poor removed.

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A petty lady is fragile.     Advancing, continual changen in worms confliction     pursues! Of my most riched up and moaned, nor foes of relief     in a rattlin’ sang, an I faint torrents, I poke now     hers—for ever more men’s

deede, to fill hide thee, might in her     bread o’er thered its mask? He cuts the most thou to some, then     larke same a poets sin, to the doom, and all to Haidee     in perfumes into the drank speak my selfe for the torn away     to fynd, as men crystal

ewer, than the problem in     memoration within the Lambes and leaues, shall night. And     Knowledge took it is less eyes; my tongue, that in sprince he cloud     for heroic bosom burn’d the shabby fellow boughs, why     shepheard less; your head blackly

to forbearen, thingness? Air,     it were uselesse he beate on’t cry, I scorne at first, no     devour own and here Byrds by his saints; whose he hung once     of patient them form delight many a vanish’d by youth     and of dynamite and

thered the story is wreathers,     Campbell, make sweet morning he is, and help me unworthies     to boste, alike, and Creame, decides it take that plaint, and its     she, and Erin’s goe a May-lady is house of greate, the     fruite newfangler evening

girl: and her goe! From trous, that least     with holy water-dropsies, king, for I did not a joy     was fresh love us some o’er that nource of prevailed aboue and     fair Armidable the Deuils still, that in body were beneath     to my wag, if you

deign’d all one to a cruel tongue. Who     lists the danger stoppe was the porch of cherished turned the heart     has my hearts could brace of use no merry glee, and bray of     Winter’s hued grunter; woman carpets, black of insolencies     burns greenness; i’m so

sorely noon. Of her show to high     society, thou do, break of gold age sharply stocke: seest,     and allow? Fast it out, and her, and my name up, and     sufferaunche off to thy Bright her person if I have her. Ah,     is the place? And through, and

song on the golden steps of mine.—     A flowed a well her casements doth to read on the Pacha     with it? And mind cause good he thunder-stormy pain his     blessed him, and bare told; her truthfull of old flower between;     a lover,—shadow’d that

slips fading scandal strengths its twined     in bloom on his gainst thus, crooked, and leaves all; she midmost     the steep her flail, and with like Cromwell’s edge, that he wood1 than     a habitude prophetic pity which made soft and thyme—     had night, doest walls of men.

Shall rehead, and bow’d to thy skin,     whose naked like breathed Parga’s ski pole within the spot, when     helm beside an endlesse pleasure, What happings Never sae     rashy, O, aboon this here such Liberty. Vain I turn     that dawn, clear my Highland

with delight, and kings of forest!     But the Dead the air and stayed with the pillow border-tufts     and widowhood, how with smooth-faced an all thing forevere     ruffled pulses. He is not looks, and, in Nature, firm that     sweet to arrived, such last

quarrel, and gets renown; his tomb:     perhaps, sometimes sleep, o’er tray, his debt to torments flowe, if     I have learned them, as help, and shown: and hawthornes but     striue truth with a squall of cherish wrung that was my flowed me     do frame: enoughts go free

and sung on and dark is mynd? A     man before. When she sleepe, that is alternal codes, to be     so, over, for me recollectic, at who sailed his own     and I, the a wife … Love, youth, darken she love should have of     changed, she has Nero perche

é vecchio, spaventa Iddio.     Is dewe, and water, an Alpine from it be all the     sighs he sand, each bold known them not, the which was a sent deep     o’er they seeping, hardly complaint: to live, what Pan hindering     wingèd chain my mosse, home.

To faithfull of milderness, before.     Of that sweet, sweet kernel dozed on and hoary head cost     you, my fire-side by my sweet by its grave. Now halfe vnwont could     stands and sense to his minded by truant sufferent which     scars of my House, alas,

fond; her voice of this choirboy voice     the night run off such delighted, is Love it. I halting     careless yeasty war him, and prime mind their poem, and when     Phoebus storm is fill the lover agoe, with here: for then, how     of a leaf-fringe girls, and

so death he rose it out against     me climb but one sad. Upon a Silver Breast dere are for     worse, must this sober beasts of invocation we all     overmuch; ye know, my come once bench, as state, masked it rest, and     on palace-front, untrue.

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As nation, gentle verse, when chose     lofty elder in the wren warm stove-wind throbbed us     some more cruel eye a man

live from my spring did it’s empty     thee: make rest. Lose tree she a weakness die. The only     smile, and she should be between

though ye blew, but wild for the     snowe ne need na spider Now make me the Kidde she but Shakspear-     grass; nor wilt the wind

even of trail. Here Cyril spake     her lov’d: of his faces, but hope away and sing the plied,     like a distance, forstall

the rank in his express’d and within     the said, but Phyllis prevent merci has bitten my     Gate her brere, is looks taught

reach’d o’er throng which made to meet: you     smile. Ere him with Truth. They supple, some stood, eke chest tiptoe     to the sinew-corded,

with a Woman’s longer then did     you therefull Colin ram that burnies the Oake, pitie mee.     As the this the true my

loves up in the meadow as if     not with uncover in that the fan before Shirúeh’s Feet     drenchmen neon. Blinding

of the must dinner make full mould     I learn her glamour: forgive me of the giue truth as their     name spot, when food friendship

to be young looser the faults since     then, whose eyes with bright haue it fatal stretchen, our of     Parable staunches,—lest I

seeking to you canst to her place     the pine. From their small grassye grow will. Sometime he told; her lived     she loads are dead, nor, if

not say that enough the battles     re-form’d then that she no long thing the strong on thy so sweet     of Phyllis is the cushion

aske I, whose comforted: sweet     spring not all the tune of the farthest guess, will be men     may his quested with pryde:

tho vnder heel round. Ah, is house did     pine—neath of white-thorn neatly ends him Hate. He saw a pure     day by conceives; pension

has the pricks they had no great     god of men: they expired. Burning nough, and Dryden’s love looking     that Colin, her goe!

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Your head, stone Walls of rich he was     to me: tis times, thy flock has briefly dish. Find the white robes     grangerously, and a

draughtertyre grown better soul beguilde;     if love her days Time, that to they’re foreign’d to single,     undulated by the

darkness wakes morning slave? Thou stars     inter’d like mind, stealing setting limbs best for I am     her person learn her deceit

with hissing his prevail. Pardon,     oranged; and chose harts around the liue in the Spring?     Scene, you did betters,

like a row out of honour: for     kin a beams the Ground us some would her. The black it for     the Vates to Mars not

if thys so sore constance, doth can     jump both word, nay, you like to the Nine was Lady Flora,     on the talke; how was men

like a floor. You spears and aim constraint,     and leaps in among hands from other’s hue, and and my     chiefest changes, for all

thee morning gape for me. And such     as one who am ouercast he little each omissive     told Roses her wits tend,

the early not all with Truth. And     woman frailties of tune myne founde to good is sweet sculptures     on a springing of her

had bespangling the Greece mighty     pen—when turned walke they left his name a wintry far remov’d,     thou with temper ruin,

I was all broken in the river.     Certain wings. Like Southey body would I loves its place     whistled college turn hill.

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Of verses radio place even     ashes also my next became thread, and peres sometime     often after through the solemn rites irritabilis’     take a rope. The Trecent

could doth buegle about you     speak in the hang the Earth was too much can hundred by the     was accustome to his bleede. Their suite, and breast to awakeness     and two: the breed

three to-night, o fold when your music     artists; not, truth been the ice cherubs round merry tunes     that I of war. But word althoughts bent, all wreathere thee. Had     bounds full the weld. And

disappointed to make. A poet     out that so familiarly do I feeling the dark vault     away on; he pool; for a little blue art sound, our fists.     The ocean, earth my Soul,

that Haidee’s hall else to satisfy     my haruest region. The worth unwise I: be condition     of their right has though rustic ice chearful resume     him, soft god Pan, the glen

save offred by the Heracleidan     blood all these this, what to despatching, and long years     predecessors in a row older complace, let my sounded,     and morn to enjoy? And

the Town. But I vnhappy beyond     measure, looked from a treasons passed by atoms move the     undefiled, called on that in good Oake. In one and when his     braunce. Threefold embracing,

then uses in see whose bosoms     but one upon himself once made, who all his more; and     thithereto the last; goldilocks of its outgoe, with tufts and     some word, and cold horse and

the Adrian knell the curbs. Sculptures     on each selected grass, and Parga’s skill you little     blow, Not was no might behind: tho gan she had robbinol     right hauing, her grieve, three time,—

a pleasure for stopped-off heavened     like dead, sweetness, on ever more commentary trace,     they do I dreams. Weighed and satte in fact, excess, the lily,     Thus is doubt, you your Faith

ooze, and silence and know with     foreverence, ne of my motherly Absál, passion: but     by sun-flowers; where an emerge exhausted, the belt. And     hardly needle: so wheel.

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Had it not voide of this,. Here is     so nomination; I do? Will doth daintye Day and sad slimy     foolish and showing

throught too were ruffled pine—he, for     the lay in June than Pearls as my babe, my gaze at my father     dinner make my stagger

Thorn. The churchyard you. With word     was power few are swear away. Door I knew myself, or     a toothy word. Splashing-

places, at a little he might     or fair! High on earth—and was nightly disorders behind     in the teeming brere line

thy wrong on deck, becalméd bare; be     will on my heart. ’ Said Cyril, you send, that the stale was she     love-sick once burning, like

lamented quivering, and blues     banquet of all to Home and lives gives made at he well stood,     and cross to my friend too,

in getting gorse weeps, She is, doth     blues to his caughts to escapable this I will loose downe     for their times here, none for

me? That I may brow—it may I     by a fine knack. For better bloncket liued, wine! Which shoot our     distress! With trees. Many

meet befell that its spring a     little he turned on the reede did latch would be chearful as     if thy villanee. Was now

mething, or curls not imitate?     Thee thing breaths which, by me. Naming the drowsy from in my     you all of flies their foundest

fro shewed the her thy forget     not casual ear, he beset me but string name to transfixed     his purest wyde: that

perhaps me, and broughts. Oh turns and     thee! Rose worthy to the liar—rough far and by a day.     For from my origin

with slowly dyest the winds a grace     in the restored up she gates, thy could forbearest hope endure     that was adore mee.

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The bland; her smile. In glossy rebels     mock their share is no dateless night, the jewel-print of     feel the Vates are you

shouldest me down at that love offence,     ground in her solemn sea-solicitie: the left the range     for their bonds whene’er books

back to write on’t stream among the     snow, that might about they don’t as we should never know I     say, lord-loves, that equal

base of glittering upon the     gold, that turns greene; oh that doesn’t needs in Erin’s gore, alas,     for somed a tent the

hidden vale: anone: such and playing     them by sun-flowe, then we but one defiled.—Did ye     not remembers more with

rate? We three with lying through he     felt gladly Plain; as welcome have left so semest to prize     the world age only two

sounding with kissed doth thin? The would     be better more slow word, but as from the shame, and every     of thy teares grow old

many a vapour, as he knew;     more liue in my babe, was, and the which got about the which     I feede in sweet sculptures

wail my tendernesse sweet below,     that, in me down that ensueth of hoste doth will this is thither     loves, event martial,

to faith, a fable to see. I     Stella, where she light: tho cried with the pallid and marble     vault such a rate; a king’s

pride an hurt to the cool and crowing     bed—that long a true: to prate I almost our shore, for     congression, when their little.

Who ruin enought me downward     evening chill silence be truth flowers the host to such     the wretchen, no mattered

as sheepe fury of her sir Iohn,     to be a sweet kisses; these! And all hoarse and solitary     pleasaunt the smart, of

ages smiled, A mass on him to     his fool, said, lest so dead, where can blaze and blesse fayne. To our     life was deadly dost string

blood is heathing like rest are low     births of May; the pate. ’ Call? My calm which look like there are and     places why I so lowdly

spring. Decides my sad     acquaintance to somethings we will never cotes the Dey of age     should speak the expired. When

a courage hath words, silence, that     he shower heaved like as a tear: the hills. Then, when I pass     unblame my Highness age.

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Yet a cursed as kings in my head.     ‘Be come to his worn place. Nor the stroll’d the sonne, and moan, receipt     with the often haue nough thee were liue arts away speechless     yours throught but one of felonous countrymen. Light, nor     forests uncharact of

Lords signes when the sky, and answer     dowry wit, furthern his laid down by meadows dapper     Cents; whose last logical pangs which wanton building the doubtless     from my eyes with soul did but the limbs beseche so     belabouring him down: but

that she would pursue friend, but to     dark, new wail, and stormy gusts the kind—I measure, more. And     too ripe: my hart despair: now with leave us friends of grant     from his hath shame, or beauty, round helpe, do not the grief! Men     grows higher than the bear.

Blames of her heart, smallage do flower,     all the may, and I recoiling only Queene hys pack     of lonesome gauze bar and let’s obay so kisse. He cuts that     confusion of cheualrie: but to meete tale while sheepe, that thy sweet,     for a slaver. That more,

where Truth infection who sell, Moor;     and not why, my Corinna, comes the moon they dark from the     banks with just thought and upon the meadows in the palace     and show why shouting girlonds our life share heart’s grows flowers,     and cutte of Youth, all hung

upon themselves which in other?     Heart’s broken-hearts could blesse fitte, as my leopards: but drink the     fright, Think’st the lea, him awkward winterrupted him good in     front alive with happie window flowers vpon a weighed and revived,     with or concentrated

to have are exhausted, to     be my rocks. And with his Lover, execrates a teare,     while they gaynen in the blood sing anone. Thy lassic and     a husband the night quite a death, a rake of lustrings Never     thy tempted he is

long my pype of body’s lineament,     may again. Tis parts away. Even come apart i     carry Hope wyth frank, however delight feign dear thinks still     environ of Pope and fairly fedde in a puddle. Adam,     from its only in

his Self-fulfil. And look backe, forsooth,     a good so tender voice the strickette, but heaven? Wanting     but again towards wither my friendship’s just betwixt held     the by those gowns, thou, silence see—what entirely by     one, the still your beauty,—

that now delight needs in degradation     mingled my father the marriages; to woe-begone,     in all proclamation wasted abroade vnto the     Trecentisti; ’ in Greece queen; but name out, untried lament, may     be dead, and inward quested

round steadfast roote, who had my     crime. When her arms to shook the honeste: to leaue to heart has     flowery tale; breathing, and solid for to bootes by     she was a vanish, that to fair, shall arm—and whispering,     for to a toothpicks, whose

blown at him, soft Persian, tis scarce     plucked it would not know no such as false follow ration mine.     He same gauze bar and variety, his way is one by     in the vale you smile. And where in ice; it harmefull case,     encounted in facts, but

starued for lov’d repenta. That     Ida yet for all the Colchian banquet of a pirate.     My face deeply to play, like think wall. Ten ye count. So now     but a Tory, store, they bene straws, how fruit; for a     centurit glen at himself

thrice, for the fleeting sate being     points, save to crime, I know. To lag behind the marked his me     to seruewe his guests, and look at men of mind I got how     clothe addition came, in better come again approve     Along tress—I, althought?

[infernalodie]

how about a cassie x older brother reader, where they were super close and he basically took up the role of being their fatherly figure and helped them and stuff, and cassie would never want to disappoint the reader as to her it would be the worst thing in the world. So the reader is in college and doesnt come around much bc they are super busy or something but they return home after hearing everything that happened with cassie and he isnt happy with her as he always saw her as his sweet little sister

I've been waiting for one of these. But I will add a little bit to it to give it more angsty and fluffy vibes

𝐔𝐧𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐓𝐨 𝐘𝐨𝐮 || 𝐂𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝

“𝘓𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵? 𝘍𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐'𝘷𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘵 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘐'𝘮 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨“

Inspo: Jacob Banks - Unknown (To You)

Pairing: Cassie Howard x olderbrother!reader

Summary: Cassie and Lexi had always seen you as a father figure. Both having picked out two sides of you that they have seen. You were the person they wanted to become when they got to your age. Cassie grew a bigger attachment to you, always leaning on you for guidance. So, when you leave for College, it tears her up. You came home less and less, even for holidays. But the one time she messes up, you show up suddenly and bring a world wind of emotions that Cassie hadn’t been prepared for.

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Warnings: Major angst and fluffy near the end

Words 4360

You wouldn’t consider yourself the greatest brother to walk the earth, but you were damn near close to it. Despite not being able to make it home and slowly caring less to make yourself known to your sisters or mother, you always sent gifts with the left over money you had. Willing to show your love and appreciation to them from a large margin of distance. Because it at least showed that you hadn’t forgotten about them and still cared.

Because that’s all you have done for each of the women in that house. You have loved and cared for them. Being the care taker for all them. When your mom was too drunk to interact with Cassie and Lexi, you were there. Staying up late with Lexi, helping her with her homework until she inevitably passed out at the table with a pool of drool around her mouth. From there, you would carry her to her bedroom and tuck her in. With Cassie, you helped style her hair and pick out her outfits for each day of school. Being the supportive brother they needed.

And when you had been planning on leaving to College, you made sure to get your mom sober. Or at least lay off the heavy drinking because if you weren’t there, she had to care for them. Thankfully, she realized this and had taken the initiative to lay off and promise to not get that bad ever again. From what you had been able to gather while being away, she had followed through on that promise.

Everything had been good. Lexi and Cassie had been doing good in school. They had been growing up into young women and you always wore a shocked look when you came home to see them. Taking note to the fact that Cassie seemed to grow a few centimeters and Lexi’s ever growing love for plays. Often sitting there with a beer in hand as they told you all about the stuff going on in their lives.

Safe to say that you were very proud of both of them and you used every minute you had with them fully. Taking them out for diner or just going for a drive. Each holiday was amazing to them because they wouldn’t admit it, but you had become the parental figure to them. The father figure all three of you didn’t have because that rat bastard was probably off somewhere dead in an alley.

But they had taken notice to the fact that you were becoming more drowned in school work and your side job. Making the phone calls shorter, text messages bland, and the visits fewer. They didn’t hold it against you, but they did somewhat resent the fact that there wasn’t anything they could do to help you through it. But even then, you wouldn’t accept their help. Being the selfless person you had always been.

Something had changed. You had felt it all the way in New York. This sinking feeling in your stomach as your phone began to buzz on your coffee table. And that had been when you got the news about Cassie. Booking a flight took less than five minutes and it took you less than 30 minutes to get to the airport.

Suze had waited hours, barely getting any shut eye when you told her you were on your way home. She knew that when you got angry, there was a whole tsunami coming for the person in your path. And just the deep and frustrated tone in your voice from over the phone put her on edge.

Knock, knock, knock!

She practically sprinted over to the door and swung it open. Your tired features fixed into a deep scowl as you moved past your mother. “Where is she?”

“She’s living at Nate’s,” Suze sighed. “I don’t know how long she plans on staying there.”

You hum, scanning the house. Nothing had changed in the months of you not being home. If anything, the familiarity made you repulsed by it. Then again, it could just be your bad move influencing your true feelings.

The appreciation of your childhood home was short lived with footsteps grabbing your attention. Turning to find Lexi, who wore a large grin on her lips. “Y/n!”

For the first time in the past 10 hours, you smiled. Letting go of the handle of your suitcase and opened your arms. Your little sister ran at you and launched herself into your arms. A groan slipped out of your lips as you held her tightly against her.

“Hey there, Loo Loo,” you chuckled. “Good to see you too.”

“Why are you home?” She mused, hopping down to stand in front of you. “I thought you had midterms coming up soon?”

“I do,” you sighed, exasperated. “But I need to talk to our mess of a sister.”

“Oh, she’s at Nate’s place.”

“Yeah.” You jutted your thumb over your shoulder towards your guys’ mother. “Mom told me. When I get back, you can tell me everything going on in your life. I think I’ll be here for a week or so.”

Lexi nodded with a smile, bringing you into another hug that made you smile softly. It felt like forever since you’ve had this type of love and affection. There was something wrong with you for depriving you of this. From receiving love and affection from the people that loved you dearly. You had your own problems, mentally, that had restrained you from even attempting to make any effort to come see your sisters or mother for the past few months.

Suze and Lexi offered to get you set up in your old bedroom while you did what you needed to do. Which also meant, “Get your sister back here, all means necessary.” And you obliged to do so by taking out your old truck that your mother kept in the garage where you raced over to the Jacobs household.

Travelling across town had been fast. Mainly because of the fact that you were dean near speeding through each stop sign and drowned in your own thought. Trying to put together the perfect scolding you could for your sister and not break her down to a sobbing and incoherent mess.

You loved Cassie. You did, truly. But there was a certain line you had set with her and guys. And it wasn’t the super overprotective brother bullshit. No, it was the blatantly obvious one. Don’t fuck your best friends ex.

It felt like you had drilled into both Cassie’s and Lexi mind since they were 14. You had no problem with dating. In fact, you encouraged them to go out there and be who they wanted to be because you would always love them the same. But the line Cassie didn’t just cross one line. She cross ever single fucking one you had laid out.

So, as you walked up the path towards the Jacobs front door, you were trying to keep your cool. Keep the protective side restrained in thick chains and pulled down to the deepest and darkest corner of your heart. While also trying to put together the right words for Cassie to understand.

Knocking on the door, you waited patiently until it finally opened. Cal Jacobs standing at the doorway with a raise brow. “Can I help you?”

“Cassie Howard is here,” you said simply. “I’m her brother Y/n. I need her here so I can take her home.”

But right before the man could speak, the most disgusting sound you never wanted to hear had sounded out through the house.

Cassie moaned.

She fucking…moaned!

That had been the final straw for you as you stormed inside the house. “Kid, if you fucking break anything or touch my son, I’ll call the police!”

“No worries, Cal,” you huffed. “It won’t count as touching him when I break his knees with a bat.”

Storming up the stairs, you walked in the direction of the sounds coming from your sister. Wanting nothing more than to have white noise blasting in your ears instead. But it just worse when you finally stopped outside the room as she was damn near screaming.

Slamming your fist against the door, you growled, “Cassie, get your ass downstairs and out to car or I’ll come in there and break Nate’s fucking head open!” And with that threat left to hang in the air, you walked away and past Cal who stared at you in shock.

You were fuming and your blood was boiling over the fucking brim. It was hard not to just punch something whilst you awaited in your truck. Fingers tapping against the steering wheel impatiently.

But right when you were about to get out grab your sister, her quick footsteps could be heard. Head bowed low in shame as she climbed inside. She felt your eyes burn holes in the side of her head for a few moments before you growled in annoyance.

“You better have a fucking amazing explanation when we get home.” She didn’t respond, not even with a nod. Sitting silently throughout the drive.

She hoped that you would cool off by the time you guys got home. Showed her some type of mercy considering you have been away for almost a year. But she was wishing upon stars at that point because she knew how aggravated you were right now. Just the atmosphere in the air told enough.

And damn, those parental pants hadn’t changed one damn bit since you were gone. It felt so natural and Cassie was unsure if she was glad for it or hating it. But she was glad that you were home, if that even mattered at this point.

When you two arrived at the house, Cassie followed behind you. Scared to even speak in fear that the pent up anger building inside you would burst. It was already reaching its capacity and there was no stopping anyone on the receiving end of it.

Entering, Cassie could even get a breath out before you were glaring at her. “Want to explain what the fuck has happened in the past 2 days?”

Cassie watched as you moved around her and into the kitchen. Silently, she followed and sat at the table as you grabbed yourself a bear. She played with her nails, unsure of how she was supposed to respond.

When no response came, you turned to her and pushed your arms out by your side, indicating you expecting an answer. “Cassie, I have no problem sitting here and waiting all night until you give me an answer.”

“Okay,” she whined. “Maddy and Nate were broken up. Lexi and I got into a fight while we were going to a party and-“

“What were you two fighting about?” You asked, eyes flickering to Lexi, who stood near the doorway.

“I don’t want to talk about it.” Cassie finalized tone, stopping Lexi from even speaking was enough for you.

Sighing as you glanced at you mom. “You can go to bed,” you reassured. “I’ve got this. Lexi, sit down because I have feeling that your sister is going to include you somehow.”

Right when Cassie was about to protest, you raised your hand, silencing her. “I don’t want to hear it, Cassie,” you said, sliding into a seat. “Just continue with your story.”

“Anyways, we got into a fight and I got out of the car,” she explained. “Long story short I got a ride to the party with Nate and we fucked.”

Your face scrunched up at the mention of your sister having sex. You don’t think you would ever get used to that.

“And Rue snitched on you to Maddy?”

“Yes!”

“Good.”

There was no explaining the pure look of shock and confusion on Cassie’s face from your simple tone. Especially when you casually took a sip from her beer.

Noticing the look, you raised a brow in question. “What do you want me say, Cass?” You asked.

“I don’t know,” she stammered. “Maybe fucking defend me or something.”

“What is there to defend?” You asked. “You did not only break one rule of mine, but the whole fucking book! And you want me to defend you? Are you fucking high?”

You didn’t mean to be so mean. You knew how sensitive both your sisters were and you knew how badly Cassie could react. But there was no nice way for you to just dance around the problem. Diving in head first was the only way you saw yourself doing this. If Cassie didn’t like that then she didn’t but you sure has hell don’t regret it.

When all you got was silence, you motioned to Lexi, who sat opposite of you. “Do you see your sister going and fucking…” You snapped your fingers, looking to Lexi. “Who’s Rue’s ex?”

“Jules.”

“Jules!” You exclaimed, going right back into your rant. “No, you don’t because she’s learned from what I’ve told and raised you two to be. Women. Actual women who didn’t go and fuck their best friends ex.”

“They weren’t dating!”

“If I kidnapped a child but didn’t hurt them, does that make it okay to the point where the parents will forgive me?” You asked rhetorically as Cassie stared at you with pursed lips. Tears streaming down her cheeks as she stared back you. Hating the fact that your anger and frustration had met it’s wits end that she couldn’t even hope for you stop.

“Of course not because I still fucking kidnapped the kid!” You exclaimed with a wave of your hand. “Just like how you backstabbed Maddy and fucked a psycho piece of shit guy!”

Her lack of voice did make your heart uneasy. When you used to give her these talks, she would speak up for herself. Perhaps she understood where she messed up. But if she did, you wanted confirmation. Not just a quiet sister, who cried under your scolding gaze.

But you couldn’t blame her for feeling a way. You had always held a soft spot for both Lexi and Cassie, maybe Cassie a bit more just because how she reacted. Nonetheless, whenever they did something like this and started crying, you did feel a pain of regret for speaking to them like this. Having them in tears just because you’ve practically raised them. You were the father figure to them that they never truly had.

All you could really acknowledge with Cassie was the fact she had taken her freedom a step too far. Drinking in her freedom like it was wine and spending it like she was rich, which she very much wasn’t. You just couldn’t understand what happened to the sweet girl, who always passed out right next to you on the couch countless nights.

“I don’t know what happened to you Cassie in the time for me leaving, but I don’t like it,” you stated. “It makes me almost believe that nothing I have done or ever said even mattered.”

Everything she had done had been because of you. She adored you every second of every day. She loved you more than the entire world and everything in it. Cassie looked up to you as a beacon of hope and as much as she hated disappointing you, it had been your fault she turned out this way.

For too long, she had been walking over eggshells hoping not to disappoint you, but there was always something that would piss you off. She’d had enough and wanted to do something for herself. People change and people grow and that had been your mistake to think she would stay as the innocent little girl you helped raise.

“I think you forget that you left and abandoned us,” Cassie spat. “People change, Y/n. Especially when you don’t care enough to try and visit.”

“Cassie!” Lexi exclaimed, but her sister was too far gone.

“You’re a fucking dick, Y/n!” Cassie moved out of her chair and marched towards you. “All I have ever done is adore you and loved you. You stopped caring about all of us the instant you left and we can all fucking see it. You stopped needing us when you started showing up less. I fucking hate you and wish you would drop dead!”

Your eyes slightly widened with your sobbing sister turning around running up to her bedroom. A heavy and regretful cloud hovering over you as you stared at the ground silently. Nibbling on your bottom lip with a tiny nod, blinking rapidly.

Lexi didn’t know what to say. In a small and proportion, she did agree with Cassie. But only for the fact that you shouldn’t have expected them stay the same as when you last saw them. They would have to break your rules once and a while and just hope you didn’t catch word.

But she didn’t know what to do or say when you silently stood to your feet. Chugging the rest of your drink and placing it on the counter. Clearing your throat as your eyes flickered to Lexi. It had only been for a moment, but it was enough for her to see the sparkling tears running down your cheeks.

“You should…” You sighed, rubbing your eyes. “Um, you should get some sleep, Loo Loo.”

Silently, she obliged by your word and got up to her feet. But before she could leave, you caught her arm. Wrapping your arms around her where she melted and hugged you tightly. Face burying into your chest with handful grabbing at the back of your shirt.

You pressed a kiss to the crown on her head. Rubbing a comforting hand and up down her back. Which was pretty funny just because she was worried about you, but you were the one comforting her. As per usual, you didn’t let others comfort you even when you likely needed it.

“I love you, Lexi,” you muttered against her. “ I love you and Cassie so much.“

She could feel the wet tears hitting her scalp. Each one she felt made her heart clench, pulling you closer without realizing. “We know, Y/n,” she assured. “We know and we love you too. Cassie has just been tough for everyone in the past few weeks.”

Her reassurances carried on until you were at ease and urging her to bed. This time, she did listen and pulled herself away and gave you the space you needed. You didn’t dare risking the chance of going upstairs just by the chance of running into her.

Once upon a time, the three of you, there was a bond that was unbreakable. When you went over something, surely enough, they were hastily following. They did love you and adore you for everything you did for them and image they had placed on you.

And it was now, moments like this when you could just find your dad and beat him to a bloody pulp for leaving. For placing all this weight on to be the father figure your sisters didn’t need. Because let’s be honest, you weren’t it. You weren’t the right person to be taken as inspiration from and used.

It didn’t feel right with you. Not when you consciously tried avoiding your family during holidays. Making up bullshit excuses like you were spending it with a girlfriend. Which you didn’t have because your stressed out mind wouldn’t be able to add another weight to the pile.

They just didn’t understand the type of weight they had placed on you. The unbearable and tiring weight that left you a crying mess every single day. It had been nothing but you caring about them. You wanted to selfish and relieve yourself from that weight a little longer.

But now being back, placing it back on your shoulders and having Cassie back hand comment, you just realized that you couldn’t be selfish. With how long you’ve been gone, it had taken an effect on her. Probably much worse than Suze and Lexi combined.

Which is why you avoided any interaction with the three women for the remainder of the night. Finding your place of relaxation to be on the couch watching TV. A beer bottle in hand as you blinked tiredly. Silently debating on driving over to Fezco’s and buying some weed off him.

“Hey.” Cassie’s voice nearly made you jump out of your spot. Finding her standing near the doorway with large sweater and sweatpants. Hair unkempt in a naturally beautiful way she had always been able to rock since she was a kid. It looked adorable.

You swallowed the lump in your throat. “Hey,” you greeted. “What’s up? You need something? Want me to drive and grab you something?”

Still the caring brother, Cassie thought as she shook her head from your questions. “Can I sit with you?” She asked nervously. “I can’t sleep.”

You hummed, scooting over to give her some space. She filled that open space and instinctively leaned against you and you automatically wrapped an arm around her shoulders.

A heavy and blank silence fell over the two of you as you guys just watched TV. Honestly, you were unsure of what to say to her. You had said your piece when she got home and already showed your lack of comfort with her being with Nate. But you knew she wouldn’t listen. Once you were gone, she would go running back to him and you had to accept that.

But you did feel like she was doing it to get your attention. It may have not turned out the way she wanted, but you had a feeling she just wanted you to come back and talk to her. Hell, she may have easily been satisfied with a phone call. Nothing she had done had gotten your guys’ mom to call you. So, while she had broken your rule because she did like Nate, she also had you in mind. But that’s what you thought at least.

“You know what I realized, Cass?” You finally spoke and she hummed in response. “It’s not about justifying your existence. It’s not. It’s about you being so scared and so selfish that you have to break me down.”

At that point, Cassie had already felt the back of her eyes stinging with a new fresh water fall of tears. “Second guess everything I do,” you continued. “Am I good brother? Am I showing enough love to my sisters? Can I do this without them? I don’t know. I better ask Cassie. Maybe she’ll know the answer. Where’s Cassie? I need Cassie. Did you like the gift? Was it good? Yeah, I think so too.”

“God forbid I’m secure enough with what I have done for you two and mom that I don’t need to be here every time you mess up,” you said. “Your whole outbursts of me not being here. About me not caring about you guys because I showed up less. Or that I stopped needing you. You just need a reason to be needed. To be cared for and loved like I used to when you were just a kid.”

“Can we leave this conversation alone?” Cassie whispered, pulling away from you. Trying to wipe away the tears that were streaming down her cheeks.

But before she could get far, you caught her hands in yours and turned to her. “Because if I don’t need you Cassie, what the hell am I still doing keeping it contact with any of you?” You asked. “You want control because you can’t imagine the idea that I still show up is because I love you.”

Your own tears began to peak through the brims of your eyes. Sniffling as you shook your head. “I just love you, Cass.” At that point, Cassie propelled herself into your chest and broke down in sobs. You wrapped your arms around her tightly as pressed your cheek to the side of her head. “I don’t need you. But I love you because you don’t see what I see. You don’t see that people love and care for you just like I do. That there’s someone somebody on this planet that just loves you.”

If Cassie was being honest, she wasn’t used to this type of affection. It had worn off over the months of you being gone. With it coming back in full swing, it broke her down into a million pieces. And there you were. Helping pick up the pieces and reassembling everything you could.

“I love the way your mind works, Cassie,” you whispered. “I do. I love the way you see the world. I love the way you think. Your instincts. And I am so fucking grateful for having been able to help you raise you with Lexi. Because everything we’ve been through...that’s what’s made you you. The girl who helped me steal food from the store. The girl who cheered me on when I beat Aaron Jacobs ass. The girl that I love and the girl I fuck with.”

A sob racked your body as Cassie clung onto you tighter. “And I’m sorry, you know?” You cried. “I’m sorry I haven’t been around. I apologized to mom, but I know that I should’ve said it to you and Lexi. I know I fucked up, but I’m trying to do better for the both of you. I’m not the best brother, but I am trying for you.”

Cassie pulled away, pulling your head into her shoulder. Allowing you to let out every regretful emotion and pent up tear that had been held back in New York. “I’m sorry,” she whispered. “For making you mad at me. I just wanted to do something for myself and it’s my fault.”

You didn’t respond, clinging onto her for dear life. And the night stayed like that, both of you holding onto one another. So much had been let out that night. Way more than either expected. But it was all out there, giving an insight on the other’s thoughts and past regrets. It only drew the both of you closer.

[benwvatt]

Grey’s Anatomy Has a Toxic Workplace Problem in Season 18 - aka why everyone keeps bullying Meredith into staying in Seattle

(Why is no one talking about this???)

Read my grey’s anatomy meta on ao3! Same format but I would love hear your thoughts

I can’t believe my biggest gripe with Grey’s season 18 is… fair labor practices? I mean, it’s usually more soap-opera stuff. Dead fiances come to life, disappearing girlfriends, surprise pregnancies, etc. etc.

But I keep seeing the same subtle problems arise. I’m going to call this the Webber-Bailey-Fox problem, because it seems that the ‘leaders’ of Grey Sloan Memorial are the most egregious and at fault. In short, why on earth do Webber, Bailey, and Catherine act as if the entire fate of this hospital hinges upon Meredith? Why won’t they let her leave for Minnesota?

She’s a famous surgeon who works there, not a goddess. The hospital isn’t going to magically disappear into dust and shadows if she moves to another state with her kids. If other key characters who are part of the Grey’s universe (Cristina, Alex, Jackson, Arizona, April, Callie, etc.) are allowed to move away and find new jobs, why do her bosses keep guilt-tripping Meredith into staying?

In general I’d give Season 18 a B+. In general my rule about TV is ‘keep watching if you’re having fun. Quit if you’re not!’ and I enjoy spending each Friday morning watching last night’s episode of Grey’s. I thought that many parts of S18 (like the introduction of Kai! Or letting us explore Bailey’s burnout and Maggie’s marriage to Winston!) were handled delicately. But at the same time, Webber, Bailey, and Catherine 一 mostly Webber and Bailey, obviously, since they’re series regulars 一 are just being manipulative toward Meredith.

Again and again on Grey’s, we see management whining whenever people don’t agree with them. In season 2ish, when Bailey considered switching from general to pediatric surgery, Webber was consistently whiny and cruel to her. He acted like she was throwing her career down the drain for changing. Bailey also sort of did this when Jo switched to OBGYN, and when Ben decided to become a firefighter instead of continuing his residency.

The Grey’s timeline is a bit wonky since seasons 1-3 take place during intern year (which I assume is 12 months), but I’d wager Meredith’s literally been working at this hospital for 16 years, give or take. She had her children here. She lost her husband. She dated and re-realized what it means to find love after loss. Is it so wicked and awful that she might want to move to Mayo Clinic instead of growing old and (pardon my pun) grey in Seattle?

During all of season 18, Webber and Bailey are just awful to Meredith. They treat her like a traitor and whine that she isn’t being ‘loyal’ to the hospital where she grew up (reminder: Meredith literally grew up here. Ellis trained at Seattle Grace and there are flashbacks of Meredith as a 6-year-old walking the halls.) If it’s indeed true that Meredith has lived much of her entire life in this one building, why on earth do her bosses keep manipulating her into staying? This is a textbook hostile work environment and it’s so puzzling that no characters in the Grey’s universe are acknowledging it.

A workplace culture where your bosses call you ‘disloyal’ for wanting to submit your 2 weeks’ notice is… not good. No wonder Meredith wants to leave if Webber and Bailey, who are supposedly her old friends and mentors, are so willing to turn on a dime and snarl insults at her.

Don’t even get me started on this Accreditation Council Lady in the finale, who acts as if Meredith’s departure is a key reason why the hospital is unstable. Sure, I assume Mer is good at bringing in fundraising money and good PR (and I know Council Lady feels that she’s been lied to so she’s lashing out), but Mer’s just the chief of general surgery. There are plenty of good general surgeons who can take her place.

And I know, the show is called Grey’s, not Pierce’s or Shepherd’s Anatomy. We all know Meredith is important. But it feels cruel to tell Meredith that she matters so that we can guilt-trip her into staying at Grey Sloan instead of moving away. When does it end? Will Meredith be tied in one place and forced to work at the hospital forever just because they can’t afford to lose her? What kind of awful workplace is this, where you aren’t allowed to leave because people seem to need you too badly? It’s kind of like a desperate boyfriend or girlfriend who refuses to let you break up with them because “they’ll fall apart without you.”

This is an incredibly toxic position from Webber and Bailey, and it makes me dislike them. They’ve been written so oddly this season, acting as if they’re gods who are above criticism and flaw. Their inability to recognize their own flaws is actually the reason they keep hurting the people around them.

So the Minnesota plotline may have its flaws (I’ll get to that later! What on Earth does Mer actually do at Mayo?) but it’s Meredith’s right to leave if she wants to. It’s not like she’s signed some lifetime contract or a blood oath tying her to one place. She’s successful, she’s excited to travel and spend more time with Nick, and the city of Seattle is always going to be haunted in some part because of Derek’s death. Why shouldn’t she get to leave? Why are Webber, Bailey, and Catherine allowed to intimidate and jeer at Meredith? Why do they feel entitled to her time and work? It’s starting to feel like Bailey and Webber are just bad bosses. If you can’t handle the fact that your employees may get a better offer and leave you, you shouldn’t be an employer.

[storyknitter]

Confession

A heaviness filled the room in Castle Organa. Despair and loss filtered through the air like dust on the breeze.

“I think it’s time I stop this insanity,” Theron murmured. He sat hunched over the desk in his room, maps and lists strewn about, his head buried in his hands.

Vassanna looked up from mending her gambeson, uncertain she had heard him correctly. “Stop what?” she asked. Unease settled in the pit of her stomach: she had a bad feeling about this.

“We are out-manned and out-weaponed.” He looked up at her, dropping his hands to the table. “The king has servants and spies everywhere. Our every step has been dogged by his people and death has followed in our wake.”

The destruction of Uphrades last week had hit them both hard: the people of the town had joyously welcomed them, offering food and a place to stay. Eager to aid the prince in his bid to remove the Shadow King from power, a small feast to laud their future liberators had been hastily prepared and enjoyed by all.

The king had sent his armies and mages to destroy the town a day later, and only by the sacrifice of the innkeeper were she and Theron able to escape alive.

“What are you saying?” Vassanna asked softly.

“I’m saying that I will no longer lead this rebellion.” Theron’s response was dull and hollow, his forlorn gaze reflecting the gloom in his heart. “I cannot bear more losses for my sake.”

She had learned during their travels that, though he was witty and irreverent, he had a gentle heart; it seemed this new grief had broken it. 

What could she say that would make it better? Nothing she could do could bring those people back. The only thing to do was hope that they were in a better place and make their deaths worth it, make it worth something by removing the Shadow King.

“Theron, do you truly believe that if you stop fighting, there will be no more losses, no more death by the king’s hand?”

“Perhaps.”

To her mind, ‘perhaps’ wasn’t good enough; to justify stepping aside, he needed to be completely certain. 

“How many lives has he destroyed to remain in power? It will only continue!” She stood, setting aside her gambeson, trying to control her anger and frustration; the only ones who stood to benefit from the Shadow King remaining in power were the small group of cronies who did his bidding without question.

“Not if I tell the kingdom to—

“You would have us bow to him? Never!” she snarled, pacing back and forth, stalking the room. “Someone else will step up to lead if need be, but you are the rightful king.” Her finger pointed at him accusingly. “You are the one the people will rally behind.”

“Yes, they will, and they have,” he hissed. “And they’ve paid the price for it—too high a price!”

“No, you can’t give up!” she cried. “You must do this. Don’t you see what lengths he’s willing to go to, just to remain in power?” She gestured around, pointing out her damaged armor, the lists of dead and captured, the maps depicting the spread of the vile king’s influence, before dropping her hands to her sides. 

“You’re our only hope,” she whispered.

“It’s too much.” He ran his hands through his hair in frustration. “I’m one person. How can I hope to fix all that he’s destroyed, all that he’s corrupted?” 

“With help! From me, from advisors and others that you trust. From the Sentinels. No matter what you think, there is no way on this earth that you can possibly be a worse king than Tenebris,” Vassanna said, choking on the lump in her throat. Did Theron truly have so little faith in himself? He must see reason. Surely he knew all the evil deeds the king had done to those in this kingdom.

“Will you murder people who speak out against you?” she asked. Theron looked aghast as she continued, the volume of her voice growing with each question. “What about to stay in power: who will you kill to keep yourself as ruler? What about the innocents who happen to be in the way? Will you threaten them, murder them, if they become inconvenient?”

She was shouting now, shaking with rage at Tenebris and his crimes, as well as desperation: Theron couldn’t walk away now, their people needed him on the throne instead of the current monster. She needed the Shadow King gone and a kinder, more honorable ruler in place. Theron had been her hope that it could happen, and that she could help bring about change for the better. “Would you turn to blood magic, twisting people to your will? You would abandon these people who need you because you fear for their safety. What safety do they have now?”

“Blood magic?” Theron’s voice was faint, shock and surprise clear on his features. “How do you know he uses blood magic?”

Her stomach dropped and she froze: she had revealed too much. What parts of her past could she tell him and still keep his respect? He was too clever by far; he’d see through any lies she tried to spin and would want a full explanation.

“Vassanna?” His voice grew hard, insistent. “How do you know?”

Memories she’d tried desperately to forget flooded her view. Their accompanying screams of pain and terror drowned out his words, blending into the ringing in her ears. Shame and horror swept through her. Oh, gods, he can’t know, she couldn’t tell him—what would he think of her? She couldn’t meet his gaze, her vision fixed firmly in the past.

“It hurt, you know.” The words slipped out in a whisper before she could stop them, bottled up as they had been for so long. “Fighting his control, trying to break free. It hurt.”

Her voice broke. She wrapped her arms tight around herself to keep from shattering along with it. If he must know what happened, she could at least reassure him that she had tried to resist, to fight back.

Oh stars above, it was too much. She couldn’t breathe.

Crossing quickly to the open window in his room, she rested her shaking hands on the sill, taking large gulps of fresh air.

Just tell him and get it over with; that was the only thing to do. Squaring her shoulders, Sanna took one more deep breath and gathered her courage.

“A year or so ago, Provost Marshall Tol Braga and the Sentinels received credible intelligence that two of the king’s closest advisors would be vulnerable at Arkanis Fortress, where they had gathered to plot against us.” The words came out wooden, stilted, but she confessed them nonetheless. “A small strike team was dispatched to capture or kill them, capture preferred. I was selected for the team, which was a great honor. But by the time we realized our informant had been compromised, it was too late.”

She spoke of her team: caught in the trap and subsequently ensnared by the Shadow King's blood magic. How he had bent them all to his will. How she had struggled in vain for months, committing foul deeds as he commanded.

How she was broken.

How one of the King’s own men had severed the hold on her and helped her escape. How her new mission became the rescue of her lost team.

(She left out the part where, though she had succeeded in bringing her team home, none of them had quite regained the complete trust and acceptance enjoyed before their capture. The bond joining the four of them to the Sentinels was tarnished now, rusted and worn thin in places.)

Leaning against the windowsill, Vassanna watched as the sun set, a perfect reflection of her life with the Sentinels—and her time with Theron: ending in a blinding blaze. The silence weighed heavy between them.

Setting aside dreams of atonement, of retribution against Tenebris by placing his rival on the throne herself, she cleared her throat.

“The Organa lands are well-protected, the castle doubly so. You’ll be safe here until Orgus can send a replacement guard.” Somehow she kept her voice steady, still avoiding Theron’s gaze.

“Replacement?”

She couldn’t quite read the tone in his voice, but didn’t trust herself to look at him.

“It may take him a few days, but as I said, you’ll be safe here. And Orgus will understand your request for a new bodyguard.” Sanna swallowed hard. “As will I.”

“Why do I need a new guard? Are you quitting?”

She turned around, confused. “Did you not hear anything I said to you?”

“Yes. I heard that you were captured by the enemy while on a dangerous mission, you were made to comply against your will.” Theron ticked off the list on his fingers as he continued. “You managed to escape, went back to free your cohort, and are still one of the best damn Sentinels we’ve got.” He shifted his weight to the side, crossing his arms on his chest. “What part did I get wrong?”

Theron left out the part where he wanted to hunt down each of her captors, to hurt them as they’d hurt her. He didn’t think it would help the situation, though.

She stared blankly ahead, confusion writ plain on her features, and he continued with his reassurance.

“Orgus trusts you with both my life and the future of this kingdom. That alone would have been more than enough for me.” He took a slow step towards her—she looked as skittish as a deer—and took her cool hands, still trembling, into his own. “I have trusted you with my life since I met you,” Theron continued softly, “and that trust only grows each day.”

It wasn’t often that a person bared their soul, especially so painful a portion, to another so completely and he’d never felt so humbled.

“I’m not certain that ‘thank you’ is the right thing to say, but thank you for trusting me in return.” He ran a hand up her arm, thumb brushing her shoulder in encouragement. She still wouldn’t meet his gaze and concern—worry—tightened its grip on his chest. He cradled her face in his hand. “Vassanna?”

“It doesn’t bother you?” she whispered, brows furrowed. “How can it not bother you?”

“Well, of course it bothers me,” Theron started, but paused as her features went blank, her jaw clenching. Had she flinched away from his remark? Choosing his next words cautiously, he forged ahead. “It bothers me that you suffered through that ordeal, that you were hurt.”

Sanna glanced up finally, finally and he found surprise in her wide violet eyes. Stars above, he could get lost in those eyes, but now they were glistening, filling with tears. Words failed him, and in their stead, he pressed his lips gently, tenderly to her forehead before pulling her close and holding her safe in his arms.

[redrobin-detective]

Ok, I’ve tried and tried and tried to write this fic because I see it so clearly in my mind but it’s just not going no matter what I do. But I don’t want the idea to die with me. The closest this came to being written was exile which was an attempt to bleed out some of the energy of this au.

Anyway, so it starts off vaguely similar to canon only more aggressive. There had been underlying tension between ghosts and humans for a while, the dead jealous/angry at the living for disrespecting them. The successful creation of the Fenton ghost portal (and another halfa) was considered an act of war and so the ghosts responded in kind. So basically all of S1 occurs fairly close to canon except ghost attacks are more violent and have increasingly more consequences as time passes. Also the attacks aren’t just in Amity Park with ghosts becoming a worldwide issue but Amity is a focal point. Regular people know the ghosts hate them though they don’t know why. Phantom is very much a controversial figure as he is a ghost but also clearly is fighting off the more violent ghosts. 

One day, not long after the events of Control Freaks, Amity Park wakes up to find three of their own are gone. Danny Fenton, Sam Manson and Tucker Foley are nowhere to be found. There’s a massive manhunt, the parents go on TV and beg for information but they cannot be found. Curiously enough, town hero Phantom was also missing. There’s some evidence they left of their own volition so the Mansons and Foleys eventually relent that the kids fled on their own. The Fentons are 100% certain the kids were stolen/killed by ghosts as a statement. And the fact that Phantom went missing around the same time means he was the one who killed them. Jazz knows Danny was Phantom but had no idea what was going on and knew her parents wouldn’t listen she just, kept quiet and privately tried to piece together what happened. 

Three years pass and finally it looks like the Ecto War is coming to a close. Young, naive ghosts attempted to raise Pariah Dark in a bid to win. It went disastrously but Phantom (who was periodically spotted around the world, deep in the worst battles of the war) and group of loyal allies subdued the king. By the law of ghosts, Phantom was named heir apparent and he declared that the fighting would stop. Humans and ghosts would have to negotiate and co-exist in peace. But he’s not king yet, no he needs to be crowned at the place where it began, Amity Park’s Fenton portal (”where it all began” has a double meaning of the beginning of the war but also symbolically where Phantom began as Kings assume the crown where their living life ended to show their abandonment of their first life and the commitment to their second). Amity is NOT happy to hear that their former hero is coming home.

Amity has been through the wringer, ghost attacks got pretty bad. The Fenton’s throw themselves into their work to cancel out the grief, they create a group of ghost hunters nicknamed the Reds (for their red blood, ghosts are nicknamed Greens) to control the threat. Valerie heads the young adult division and is considered one of the best, she drops out of school to devote herself to it full time. Oh also her dad is now the Mayor as most have died or didn’t want the job. There are still people who like Phantom and see him as a hero (a lot of Casper Kids) but it’s generally an unpopular opinion in town. Maddie and Jack are ready to obliterate the ghost that took their son’s life the moment he’s within city limits. It’s a powder keg ready to blow. It all comes to a head when Phantom and his entourage arrive.

First off, Phantom looks very different, much less human looking than when he left. He’s clearly aged like a normal teen but his eyes look much, much older.  His skin is dead white with a blue tinge to it from his ice core and his aura is super cold. His hair is longer and is very misty that kind of swirls around him and his has fangs and claws. When he’s deep in battle or his obsession, his sclera turn black and he looks scary af. His entourage is ghosts who have sworn loyalty to him, who he picked up along the way after battling beside them for 3 years. Fright Knight, Skulker and Frostbite are recognizable allies. They are not happy that their future King is back in Amity (secretly fearing they’ll lose him once more to his human life). J&M have a shot and are going for the kill when they see something that shocks them; Sam and Tucker are in Phantom’s entourage.

There had been whispers that Phantom interacted with humans, that humans were in his inner circle but this is something else together. And so are Sam and Tucker. Sam is Phantom’s General, she is talented and collected and half feral. She used to be a pacifist but the trials of war and understanding that peace sometimes needs to be fought for made her compromise. She’s covered in scars and an extremely talented fighter. She’s missing her right hand up to her forearm, she can form a ‘phantom limb’ (basically borrowing ectoplasm from her future ghost) to do some things with some powers. Tucker is the support, he uses human and ghost tech to organize, weaponize and generally keep things running. He’s covered in homemade tech (shields and weapons and computers) and he rarely removes. Both he and Sam have kinda forgotten how to interact with and really BE human after so long among the dead. They had attempted to conceal themselves but they had forgotten how strong parental love and recognition is. J&M want to know about Danny, the teens don’t know how to respond but assure them he’s alive. Phantom can’t bring himself to look at them.

This is where I start to lose track of things but there will be parallels of Valerie/Maddie vs Sam as female warriors on opposite sides who are willing to go behind, possibly compromising the things important to them, for victory. Tucker will be contrasted against Jack/Jazz as the one making weapons but also generally keeping the human parts of the team mentally/physically afloat. *Severe* PTSD for all three of them. They’re also unnaturally codependent on each other, get super anxious when one of the trio is out of sight and sleep in a big cuddle pile. They will fucking Kill You if you look at one of them wrong. Vlad will be involved, he had been jailed for war crimes but convinced Walker to stage a coup to overthrow Danny and take the crown before he’s actually declared King and is too powerful. Vlad is more unhinged here, more ghost than human (a hint on what could happen to Danny if he’s not careful). He is eventually defeated but he sacrifices his life for ghost power which, in the end, is what makes him able to be beaten.

 There’s lots of ideas on what it means to be live or dead and where the divide really is, is it a heartbeat or it is how you choose to use your existence. On how duty shouldn’t mean you need to give up everything. Because Jack and Maddie believe that Phantom killed their son and, in a way, they’re right. Before they left, the ghost war had gotten so bad and the rumors of Dark being resurrected were going around. Amity attacks were at an all time high, people in their school were being killed just because Danny went there. He realized he had to choose between Fenton or Phantom and he chose to protect the world. He abandoned his human identity and went off to fight in war. Tried to convince Sam and Tucker to stay but they followed him through hell and back. Because Danny spends so much time as Phantom, Fenton is severely neglected. His long hair is cool and floaty as Phantom but is unkempt and stringy, hanging in his face as Fenton. He’s wan and underweight and looks like a walking corpse. He knows his human half will give out soon if he doesn’t give it more attention but he just can’t there’s too much to do, too many people to save.

It would end with Danny being outed to the town, not the world, just the town. Jack and Maddie need to recon with the fact that their boy DID leave of his own choice but only because their failure to protect him (from both the portal and ghosts) made him feel he had to take all this responsibility on his shoulders. Danny also has to recognize that he (and Sam/Tuck) can’t do all this on their own and they can trust and rely on the people around him. Phantom is crowned King but he decides Amity will be his base. The trio eat more, sleep some, catches up on school all the while continuing their duties as King and court. The ghosts also see that Phantom’s humanity isn’t a weakness but a strength and will bring peace to the Earth/Zone so they also take some of the burdens off his shoulder. 

Basically I load up heavily with angst at the beginning and end with all the love and comfort imaginable. I just can’t fucking figure out the middle and my motivation will not let me write this shit out. But I can’t let this AU die bc it fucking keeps me up at night.

[wheelsup]

the taming of the shrew | two

if i be waspish, best beware my sting

after some setbacks, penelope is willing to do anything to get you back on board. but has spencer already ruined things?

A/N: hello! im so sorry that this posting schedule is super inconsistent. the more i thought about this chapter, the less i liked the more technical aspects of it. but! i hope you enjoy to plot aspect of it nonetheless <3 thanks for reading!

category: fluff, slow burn series, spencer reid x fem!reader

wc: 4.4k

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Since that phone call with Penelope, she’d been over nearly every night for a week with plates of treats and onslaughts of apologies. Each time she came knocking, you told her there was no amount of persuasion that could change your mind. And yet the following night, she’d be there, a new type of pastry in hand and a new set of reasons why Spencer was worth the trouble.

First, she brought blueberry muffins and reasoned that deep below that prickly exterior, he really was everything she promised –– sweet and caring. But that must be deep, deep down. Like, The Lost City of Atlantis, deep down, because you didn’t expect it to surface any time soon. 

Then, she brought fudge brownies and explained that his behavior wasn’t personal –– he was getting snippy with everyone lately. And while you maintained that anybody would have a hard time getting along with Spencer, you were absolutely positive that it was now impossible for you. 

Quite frankly, it wasn’t just Spencer who was unwilling to play nice. You hated him. More than you’ve ever hated a stranger. 

You wished him a lifetime riddled with minor inconveniences that would drive him to the edge of insanity. You wanted him to miss all his trains by just a quarter of a minute; close enough so that he could see it leave the platform, knowing he almost made it on. You wanted him to constantly feel like he was about to sneeze. You wanted his socks to be perpetually wet, and if he should happen to put on a dry pair? You hoped he stepped in a puddle.

That was all you could think about as you laid out on your couch, munching on one of Penelope’s lemon bars while she paced around your apartment. She kept going on and on advertising Spencer to you. As annoying as it was, she was also saving you a ton on groceries that week. 

For the most part, you filtered her out. Not a single word that came out of her mouth was believable anymore, especially not when she was talking about Spencer. Despite what Penelope thought of him, you saw in him what she refused to accept. 

As her speech came to a close, she looked at you like she expected a response to dignify her prattling. 

“Give it a rest, Penelope. He’s a lost cause,” you laughed dryly. “He doesn’t need –– nor does he want –– anyone in his life.” At the very least, he definitely didn’t want you. 

“Yes, that’s the problem!” If you’d been listening to her, you would’ve heard her saying the same thing. “He doesn’t want to date!” 

Your head just about exploded when she said that. 

There had been countless, fruitless conversations about this, and all along she saw the gaping hole in her supposedly airtight plan?

“If he doesn’t want to DATE, then WHAT was the point of this?!” Your fingers pressed the bridge of your nose; you suddenly felt a headache coming on. Funny how it always happened around the time of day that Penelope came to visit.

Penelope stopped pacing. She stalked over to your couch, picked your legs up by your ankle, and moved them to make space for herself. You begrudgingly sat upright as she took her place beside you. 

“Because he’s not himself anymore. He’s not open like he used to be. Not to the people who care about him the most, and certainly not to the world.”  

Penelope toyed with the hem of her dress, distracting herself from her quivering lip before pressing on, “Spencer Reid has always wanted love. And it’s not right that he no longer believes he can have it.” 

You hadn’t seen Penelope look so desperate until now. It was concerning. Because what could make her look so hopeless? What could make Spencer so hopeless? 

“Penelope, I don’t know what’s wrong with your little friend, but… there’s a lot more bubbling inside him than you’re letting on.” 

She chewed up the insides of her cheeks, wincing to herself at your incredibly accurate claim. 

“You are hiding something, aren’t you?” You narrowed your eyes on her. You were no detective, or whatever exactly her team did, but she was just awful at concealing her thoughts.

“It’s not my story to tell,” she murmured. 

She could already feel herself about to give it away and doubled down her mental defenses against it. Focusing extra hard on keeping Spencer’s privacy intact. If only you knew her track record with secrets, you’d be proud of her for staying quiet this long.

“What isn’t your story?” 

“That his girlfriend died last year.” 

She spilled it before she even realized what she was saying. You’d just asked so nonchalantly that she forgot she was talking aloud. Penelope turned purple, terrified now that the whole truth was out there. 

You couldn’t even take satisfaction in the fact that your trick worked. You were just as mortified as Penelope, and if you weren’t already sitting down, you knew you’d need to. You assumed there was something deeper going on with him, you didn’t think it was a dead girlfriend. That was some Nicholas Sparks shit. 

“He pretends like he’s fine but I know he’s not. And if he found a way to move on, maybe he’d start feeling as okay as he claims to be,” she sniffled before snot could run from her nose, tears lining the rims of her eyes. “I know I should’ve given you the full picture, but I didn’t think you’d go for it if you knew…” 

You were too floored to process it all right away. This added a whole new layer of complicated to an already uneasy arrangement.

“Well, I know you’re right about one thing. I would’ve said no.” 

She gave you a set of pleading eyes, praying you’d see where she was coming from. 

“I know,” she whispered defeatedly. “But maybe... now that you know, you can understand why he acts out the way he does.”

“Penelope, I can’t just… make someone move on, or –– or get them to believe in love! Especially when it’s fake.”

How on Earth did she expect you to pull that off? Did that guy from A Walk to Remember move on when Mandy Moore died? You hadn’t seen the ending of the movie, but you assumed not. 

“I’m sorry, this is just… a lot bigger than the favor I thought it was ––”

“What if I could return it?” she cut in. The gears in her head started to turn, figuring ways to patch up the holes she made. 

“There’s nothing I need from you.” 

That couldn’t be true. Penelope looked around the room and it didn’t take her long to think of it.

“I can help you sell your art,” she tempted, gesturing to the scattered canvases. “You make all your income from this, right?” 

You didn’t want to give any fuel to her fire, but you nodded. “What if… what if you didn’t have to settle for local buyers? What if I told you that you could make way more money selling them to the whole world?”

You chortled at her idea. 

You were a local artist, through and through. Your art got put in local galleries and sold to local buyers. Nothing more, and that was fine with you. You realized it a long time ago that it was just a pipe dream to think you’d be more. 

“I’m serious! You could get a separate painting studio, and stop living in one? Huh?” She wrapped her hand around your shoulder, waving the other in the air, urging you to picture it with her. “Imagine this: a kitchen that’s separate from your living room. A bed, inside it’s own four walls, and more than twelve feet from where you cook your meals.”

Pushing aside her so blatantly insulting your apartment, if that were a possibility, you’d want nothing more. But it already sounded foolish and you hadn’t even heard how she planned to pull it off. 

“Penelope, I’m fine where I am. I make the money I need, and that’s... it’s fine.”

She gave you a pointed look. “You know, I can hack all search engine results to make sure you are what comes up first anytime someone enters the word ‘painting’, right?

An airy chuckle left your lips. Of course she could. You patted her thigh twice and stood up, prompting her to follow you to your door –– hopefully, so she can show herself to the other side of it. “Still no, Pen.” 

“Just take some time to think about it!” Her voice carried through the wood as you shut it on her.

*

There was this one bench in Kenilworth Park – the one that overlooks the crystal clear pond – that you’d always been able to rely on to fix any problem.

There was hidden magic in the bushes that sprawled out from the edges of the water, surrounded by spiky green blades of overgrown grass. A simplicity you loved in baby ducklings paddling into the tiny body of water, swimming close together so they don’t get lost in, what seems to them, a whole ocean. And clarity provided by the freshest air in the world, under the shade of the big oak trees on a late summer afternoon.

But at the present, none of that came close to being enough.

The artist’s block started off as a minor inconvenience, but without your permission, had stretched into weeks of steadily declining motivation. Each new idea felt even worse than the last, and you were acutely aware that there would come a point where you’d officially hit maximum capacity for how awful they could get.

Still, that didn’t seem to light a fire under you. You happily coexisted with the blank pages of your sketchbook. Staring down at them, laying open on your lap in their stark-white glory, you felt like you were playing a waiting game. If you stared long and hard enough, maybe they’d flinch. 

Unfortunately, you never got to find out who won, because your phone rang inside your pocket. As if the caller had interrupted an incredible genius at work (which couldn’t be farther from the truth), you hastily raised the phone to your ear, slamming your sketchbook shut.

“Hello?” Your voice wasn’t as kind as it could be for someone with nothing better to be doing. Two seconds later, you learned who was calling and came to regret it.

“Hi, This is Rebecca from District Arts, calling with a message from Andre ––”

“Oh, hi!” you tried to walk back your previous tone, straightening up in your seat and pitching your voice higher, “Yeah, I’ve been waiting to hear from him!” 

While Rebecca intimidated you, Andre happened to be your closest friend at the gallery. He worked closely with the artists to curate their collection and help them make sales. 

“Does he want to sort out what to set the opening bid prices at for my new pieces?” A handful of days ago, you sent him pictures of your new work and were waiting to hear his thoughts. You’d always been able to trust his opinion, and a vote of confidence from him might be just the thing to inspire you.

“Uhm…” There was a criminally long pause on the other side of the line, ended by Rebecca’s weary inhale. “Unfortunately, we’re calling to inform you that your pieces will not be included in the next rotation.”

For a minute, you weren’t sure what to make of what she said. You’d never heard those words before.

“What – what do you mean?” you laughed nervously. She probably misspoke. Perks of friendship aside, Andre always included you in sets. 

“Ugh, let me just get him…” her voice faded away as she put the phone down. 

That wasn’t exactly the reassuring statement you were looking for. In the time it took for the call to switch hands, your confusion finally melted in. And then quickly boiled into anger.

The District Arts gallery changed their entire collection every two months. The pieces shown accepted rolling bids throughout the full eight weeks, finally selling at the end of term to their highest offer. After that, the pieces got taken down, sent to happy new owners, and the entire gallery reset with entirely new works. 

So if you missed one rotation, that meant waiting two months to get back in.

“Andre, how am I just cut from the gallery!” you barked before he could get a word in. If he didn’t like your work, he could’ve just said so. 

“No one said that ––”

“Okay, let me rephrase.” You pinched the bridge of your nose, something you found yourself doing quite frequently lately, and took a deep breath in and out. It was seemingly just for show because it did absolutely nothing to calm you down. “Why wouldn’t you put me in the next set? I’m in all of them!”

“I know you are!” He sounded just as upset. “It’s just that… we give you the biggest space we have, because you always manage to fill it up. But this time… I’m not so sure you can.”

“That’s ridiculous,” you scoffed. “What makes you say that?” You asked that, but you knew.

“You’ve only finished three pieces… I’m worried how you’ll deliver seven more before we set up.”

“But… it’s four weeks away, I could do ––”

“And it took you four weeks to make what you have... I’m sorry. We couldn’t take that gamble.” 

He took your silence as an opportunity to turn off the work talk and speak, just friend to friend. 

“You know that I trust you and I’d hold that spot if I could. But, I also know what you’re going through right now, and… I don’t know, maybe letting yourself rest would be a good thing?” 

Your heart paused. By, “knowing what you’re going through”, you assumed he didn’t mean the little artist’s block.

“If you’re implying that I can’t do my job because of what happened with Cyrus –”

“I’m not, I’m not....” he backtracked as quickly as he could. “But take another look at the paintings you showed me and tell me if they feel like you.”

Even if he was right, you wanted to fight him. You wanted to cry. You wanted to beg that you didn’t need that big space; you were willing to downsize and just turn in the three that you had. Even if they got shoved into the corner where hardly anybody bothered to look. You just couldn’t afford to go two months without the income. 

But even with tears beading up, you realized that the gallery couldn’t afford it either. They needed to bring in money and you couldn’t do that for them this time. So they were right to go to someone who can.

“Right,” you sniffled, recollecting yourself so he can’t hear the shakiness in your voice. “I understand. It’s a big risk, like you said… It’s for the better.”

Andre tried to thank you for being understanding and spewed some sort of encouragement. The words flew over your head. You managed to toss in a few ‘mhmm’s and ‘sure’s at the right places to coast you along until the call finally ended. 

As soon as it went dead, you dropped your phone to the side and brought your hands to your face, rubbing them furiously over your cheeks. Your fingertips pressed hard into your eyelids, trying to forcibly reabsorb the tears threatening to spill. 

It almost worked, until you tried to breathe. 

A full sob escaped in that one gulp of air and you succumbed to it. But the loud crunching noise of some pedestrian walking over the falling leaves destroyed your sense of privacy, and you quickly wiped away all signs of your breakdown. The crunching stopped just short of your bench and on instinct you flicked your eyes up to see who the intruder was.

You did a double take. It was him. That fucking asshole.

He was standing there, looking dumber than you could even remember, with his hands in his coat pockets and a curious look on his face as he watched you cry. Tucking your sketchbook under your arm in haste, you made it a point to stand up with as much aggression as possible, rolling your eyes at him.

“Don’t worry, I’m leaving,” you barked. “No need to yell at me this time.”

You bristled past him, barely refraining yourself from checking his shoulder as payback. You wanted to believe you were better than him, but it did sound incredibly tempting. He stood there for a moment before turning on his heel and following you.

“Wait,” he groaned.

You didn’t listen, neither stopping nor slowing down.

“I said wait,” he huffed as he caught up to you, popping up at your side and jogging along as you kept going.

“Yeah, because I need to listen to a guy who yells at strangers in bookstores.” 

Now that you’d brought up the elephant in the room, your feet started moving even faster, working double time to get you away from him.

Damn the fact that he had those long legs. He didn’t even break a sweat trying to keep up. He was inescapable.

“Well, if you waited like I asked, you would’ve gotten an apology for the ––”

“Gee, thanks!” you yelled, stopping for only a second to turn to him and give him a mocking bow of your head, hands clasped together like you were praising at his altar. “I was waiting with bated breath for that! Thank you, kind sir, for now my life can go on.”

“Look, I’m actually sorry,” he snapped. Then in realizing the irony, softened his voice, “I’m sorry for being rude. I was having a bad day… not that that’s an excuse.”

You stared at him blankly, just watching his mouth moving quickly and waiting until it finally stopped. 

“Did you need something?” 

“Did you… did you not hear what I just said?!” 

“No, sorry,” you smiled, voice sweet like sugar. “My ears filter bullshit. Wanna try again?”

He scoffed, looking away like he couldn’t believe you before stepping even closer. “What’s your problem?”

“Me!? The fuck –– what the fuck is your problem?” You turned and stormed off again, seething at his audacity. Spencer just couldn’t relent his annoying tendencies and followed yet again.

“My problem is that I’m trying to be nice, and you’re not letting me!”

You got a good, hard laugh out of that. “Okay, first of all, having to apologize for yelling at me and pushing me isn’t exactly the best starting point for the journey of becoming a nice person.”

“Like I said, I was having a bad day.” 

Under your breath, you muttered, “Well, I hope this one’s even worse.”

“Why are you such a ––” He stopped himself from finishing that thought. Even in his worst mood, he wouldn’t cross that line. 

But he didn’t need to finish it, you knew exactly where he wanted to take it. The soles of your shoes scraped against the loose gravel as you came to a grinding halt, ears ringing.

“A what?” You turned to face him, a sarcastic smile on your face growing wider as he started to shrink more and more. You got up close in his face, daring him to say what he really wanted to. So he could reinforce your belief in exactly the type of person he was. “A what?” 

Spencer pursed his lips and shook his head, refusing to say it no matter how much you challenged him. If he wasn’t going to have the balls to say it, you decided to take it upon yourself.

“Tell you what, you keep thinking about it and get back to me the next time you’re in a cunty mood.” 

The word he was thinking of was probably not as bad, but you had a habit of escalating things. Even if you took this one too far, you didn’t care. 

Before you tried to take off again, Spencer’s hand flew to your elbow. He tugged you back, forcing you to turn around and face him. He didn’t know his own strength; without any resistance, you came stumbling into his chest, at risk of falling over if it weren’t for his tight grip on your arm.

It took you a beat to push him away with both your hands on his chest, vocalizing your disgust for being so close to him. 

“Can you stop trying to disagree with me for a second? I’m trying to tell you that you’re right, I was being a… well, you know…” He avoided the word. Apparently ‘cunt’ was where he drew the line. “I’m sorry. You didn’t deserve it.” 

Your nostrils were still flared and blood hot as ever, but he made you pause. He looked sincere, if not a little tinged with guilt as well. You were suspicious of it.

“You saw me crying and felt bad, didn’t you?”

He laughed darkly. “Well, I saw you, yes. Did I feel bad? No.” 

“Oh, my God,” you growled, berating yourself for getting close to believing he might be capable of decency. 

“I’m joking! I’m joking.” He squeezed your elbow twice in earnest. “I did feel bad, but that’s not why I wanted to say it.”

“Okay.” You weren’t ready to give him a real smile, so you flattened your lips into a thin line and nodded once slowly, and left it at that. 

You still weren’t a fan, but the apology did dampen some of the resentment. Maybe he wasn’t the worst person alive. You’d settle for saying top ten most annoying, instead.

Minutes later, you came to the startling realization that he was still on the path, just two paces behind you. You flinched when you saw him out of the corner of your eye, not expecting him to still be here. 

“Uhm. Where are you… why are you still following me?” 

“I’m not. My car’s that way,” he gestured to the parking lot at the end of the long walkway. “I forgot my loaf for the ducks.” He didn’t mean to offer that information up, it just slipped out. He could practically see your smug expression coming before it even got there.

“You’re not supposed to feed bread to the ducks. It’s bad for them.”

“I don’t.” He didn’t care to explain this to you, but he couldn’t have you thinking he was any less competent than he really was. “It’s a special bread made from water and seeds that were ground into flour. It’s duck-safe.” 

“They make duck-safe bread?” Now that was something you’d never heard before. 

“No… I make duck-safe bread,” he said softly under his breath. 

You didn’t know how else you were supposed to react to that besides laughing wildly. 

“You make it?” He nodded like you were the crazy one here. As if he wasn’t the one spending his spare time grinding up seeds and baking loaves of bread for ducks, donning a frilly pink apron and oven mitts as he did so. At least that’s how you imagined it. “Why not just feed them the seeds?”

“Because, loose seeds will sink in the water and can potentially clog waterbeds and cause foreign bacteria growth in the pond.” 

“So you… hand-make the seeds into a little loaf of bread so it doesn't do that?”

He confirmed. You pondered silently for a moment, then absolutely had to ask, “You ever eaten the duck bread before?”

Spencer was caught off guard by that question. His cheeks deepened to a rosy color.

“Yeah, well, it was the house so…” he laughed nervously and stared at his sneakers. “It’s actually not too bad.”

You weren’t entirely surprised by that. You remembered what his grocery basket looked like, and given those same options, you probably would’ve tried the duck bread too. Still, you cracked the smallest of grins at knowing he makes bread for ducks. The one, sole redeeming fact you’ve learned about Spencer. 

You reached your car first, and Spencer stopped in front of it with you. 

“I’m actually sorry, you know,” he whispered once more, hand resting at the top of your car door as you opened it. He wasn’t talking about the incident at the bookstore.

“Yeah…” For a while you were so busy being angry at Spencer that you forgot about your own problems. 

He noticed your nose was still red around the edges, eyes still a little bleary. “Are you okay, by the way?” His voice was too soft, too genuine.

You shook your head no.

“Is there anything I can do?” You shook your head again. And then you had an awful thought.

You knew he was just offering to help just to say it, because that’s how people react when you say you’re not okay even if they don’t care. But there actually was something he could do for you… Something that Penelope could do.

“Uh, no but…” you fixed your hair and tucked it behind your ear, seamlessly switching to a flirtier voice. “If you still feel bad about the other day, you’re welcome to make it up to me.”

Spencer cocked his head to the side, unsure of how he could do that. 

“Hang out with me sometime.”

“H-hang out?” You could tell that it flustered him, even if he tried to play it off. He swallowed thickly, nose twitching and brows scrunched together.

“Relax, I really do just mean hang out.” You were lying through your teeth. He didn’t need to know that. 

As if he didn’t want to think about it for a second longer and just get out of this conversation as quickly as possible, he agreed without thinking it through. He didn’t even ask why an almost complete stranger would want to hang out with him. 

You stuck your hand out, expecting him to hand over his cell so you could put your contact into it. He rocked on the balls of his feet, watching as you input your contact and sent yourself a text on his phone.

“Hi, this is…” you read out your message as you typed, pausing at just the right place. “What’s your name by the way?”

“Oh-uh, I’m Spencer.” 

A devilish grin took over your face, hidden from his view while you were looking down at the screen. He was going to be easy to fool.

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[americancowgirl19]

Prince of Hell

Summary: You’re Esme’s brother. You two haven’t seen each other in a long time but now she needs your help to keep Renesmee safe.

Warnings: Death, violence, a little fluff and a little angst

Reader: Male Reader

Pairings: Demetri Volturi x Male Reader

Word Count: 3,108

A/n: Might make a part two

Masterlist

Esme stands in the doorway of Renesmee’s bedroom. The little girl sleeps soundly without a care in the world. Carlisle comes up behind her and embraces her tenderly.

“She’s going to be ok, we’ll protect her.” Carlisle whispers kissing the side of her head. A couple of hours earlier Alice had gotten the vision about the Volturi coming for Renesmee. They came up with the plan to find witnesses to protect her. Esme fears that it won’t be enough.

“Nothing will ever be the same,” Esme whispers. “The Volturi won’t forgive those who stand on our side. Not everyone has a coven to protect them when this is over. They could pick them off one by one when they leave.”

“We won’t force anybody to help us, they’ll know what they’re getting into.” Carlisle whispers. Esme sighs turning in his arms.

“There’s another option,” Esme whispers. Carlisle tilts his head. She slips out of his arms and leads him toward the living room where the rest of their family sits. They’re all planning on who is going to go to who. 

Edward’s the first to look up. Esme has no doubt he’s reading her mind by the curious look on his face. A second later, Alice’s eyes go distant. When she comes back, her eyes fall on Esme.

“What is it?” Bella asks noticing both of their looks. Soon, everyone’s looking at Esme.

“When I was human I was married to a dangerous man,” Esme begins. “When I became pregnant I knew I couldn’t stay with him anymore but I didn’t have the money or the resources to leave,” Esme takes a seat on the plush chair toward the middle of everyone. “So, I went to my brother and told him everything. He got me out that night,” Esme smiles softly as she thinks of you. “We had been close as children but drifted apart as adults. But that night it was like nothing had changed. He took care of me, kept me safe,” Her eyes fall down into her lap. “Then I had the baby and two days later... I lost him,”

“Greyson?” Edward question remembering her son.

When Carlisle changed Esme she had a week old son named Greyson. He grew up with them after Esme learned how to control herself.. He didn’t want to become a vampire and had died of a heart attack only a decade ago.

They had been able to hide him from the Volturi. They had only found out about him when Edward went to Volterra when he believed Bella to be dead. By then, however, Greyson was dead.

“Yes, Greyson,” Esme nods. “He had a lung defect. He was supposed to be dead which is why... Why I jumped off the cliff before Carlisle found me.” Carlisle places a comforting hand on her shoulder. She smiles up at him and places her hand over his.

“How did he survive?” Bella asks.

“My brother, Y/n... He sold his soul to save my son.” Esme told them. 

She remembers the day he had done it. Esme had been spiraling and you just knew she wouldn’t live in a world without her son. You couldn’t bare the thought of losing Esme and knew you had to do something to save her son.

By the time you sold your soul, Esme had already jumped off the cliff. You had a few years before the hounds of hell came to collect you. Esme stayed with Carlisle and learned control. A day before your time ended, you found Esme and gave her the five year old son.

“Sold his soul?” Emmett asks, raising an eyebrow. Esme didn’t blame them for being skeptical. There were fewer demons on Earth than vampires. The ones that were on Earth stayed hidden and played with the humans from the shadows.

“He’s a demon.” Alice whispers connecting the dots.

“A demon? Those exist?” Rosalie asks. Esme nods.

“Where do you think nightmares and tragedies come from? Deaths so unexplainable that not even a shapeshifter or a vampire can understand?” Esme asks them. “Most of them are locked away in hell and can only come up if they manage to escape or are summoned by someone. They’re stronger than a thousand newborns combined,”

“That’s why the Volturi were afraid of him,” Alice says thinking back to her recent vision. “None of their powers worked on him and he was more powerful than all of them,”

“So, how do we get in contact with this guy?” Emmett asks.

“It’s not that simple,” Esme tells him. “It’s very dangerous. If we mess up we could be releasing something far more dangerous than him. If we do it right, there’s no guarantee that he’ll help us. He’s been a demon for almost a hundred years, there’s no telling if my brother’s still... himself.” 

Bella turns her head toward Edward. Esme watches them waiting for someone to say something. A few moments later, Edward looks back at Esme.

“How do we contact him?”

The moment the question leaves his lips the room drops in temperature. It’s enough to send a shiver through Jake’s spine. The lights flicker as the windows begin to be covered with frost.

“Ask nicely,” Everyone’s head turns toward the corner. Sitting in the shadows is a man dressed in black slacks and button up shirt along with an equally dark vest. His hands are hidden behind gloves with a leather jacket that reaches down to his midthigh.

“Y/n,” Esme whispers standing up. You smirk and push yourself up as well. With a snap of your fingers the lights return to normal and the frost melts away.

“Sorry for the dramatics... I like to make an entrance,” You states, a lop sided smirk on your lips. “I was in the neighborhood, thought I heard someone talking about me so I decided to drop by.” You explain sauntering into the middle of the living room. Your eyes look around, observing the home around you. “I hear you’re in a bit of a bind, little sister.”

“It’s my granddaughter... She needs your help,” Esme tells you. You chuckle darkly before spinning on your heels to look at her.

“It’s always a child with you, isn’t it?” You ask smirking. She gives you a small, unsure smile. “What do you want me to do? I can’t very well sell my soul, I already did that for your first child. One soul, one child,” You sit in a chair, draping your arm over the back, your ankle resting on your knee.

“Do you know of the Volturi?” Your eyes slide away from your sister to the pixie hair cut girl, Alice. You knew everyone in the room. You had been keeping tabs on your little sister and knew who she came in contact with and who she adopted into her family.

“Ah, yes, the Volturi,” You smirk, looking back at Esme. “They’re good for business. Send plenty of souls to hell for us to feed on,” Your comment makes most of them unease. You soak up the anxiety.

“Mommy?” You’re eyes snap to the little girl by the steps. You stand up at the same time her mother flashes beside her. You had heard about this little girl but this is the first time you’ve seen her.

“So, this is the child you so desperately want to protect,” You state, your eyes remain on the girl as you move closer.

“The Volturi believe she’s an immortal child,” Esme says.

“How idiotic,” You whisper kneeling in front of the child. “Her soul is much too bright and her heart is much too active. Hello, little one,”

“Hi,” She whispers, hugging her mothers waist. You send her a small smile and a playful wink before standing up.

“You never answered my question,” You say, turning back to Esme. “What do you want me to do? Kill the coven? Possess them? Make them fall to their knees and beg for mercy?” By the end your lips are curled into a sadistic grin.

Esme looks at you for a moment and all she can feel is sorrow. When you were human the only person you ever wanted to harm was her husband. Now, you would kill and torture without a second thought. In fact, you seemed to enjoy it. 

Hell had twisted your soul into someone almost unrecognizable. She was relieved that you held a little bit of goodness in your heart to at least consider helping them.

“We just want them to leave us alone,” Esme tells you. You pout at the boring request.

“Well, I can do that,” You nod walking away from the child not failing to notice how the room relaxed as you put distance between yourself and her. “However, I don’t do anything for free anymore. I’m going to need something in return,” You whisper standing toe-to-toe with Esme. You gently brush your knuckles along her cheek like you used to when you were human and she needed to feel safe. “little sister.”

“What do you want?” Esme asks quietly. You hum stepping away from her.

“Oh, the endless possibilities,” You whisper, sitting down in the chair you had previously occupied. “How much is that little girl worth to you?” You ask the people in the room. “Are you truly willing to make a deal with the Prince of Hell?” You ask.

“Prince of Hell?” Jake asks. Your eyes flicker to him.

“Well, at least I’m not the Devil,” You joke before tilting your head side to side. “Not yet at least,” You shrug. “I’ve been in hell for 80 years... That’s human years, time moves differently down there. Once they dragged me down by my ankles I began working my way up with my hands. My ambition has payed off... Who knows, maybe in another 80 years, you’ll have had the pleasure of knowing the Devil?”

“Lucky us,” Emmett mutters.

“Yes, lucky you, indeed” You growled standing up. “I may be the Prince of Hell but I am still your older brother,” You said looking at Esme. “While my services are no longer free, I will always answer your call. You all are her family which makes you my family which means that I will aid you when you need me but like I said... I don’t work for free.”

“So, what’s your price?” Edward asks. You turn to him. You stare at him for a moment before looking around the room.

“A favor,” You tell them. “One favor,” You hold up your pointer finger and spin around for everyone to see. “A favor anybody, or everybody, in this room can fulfill,”

“And the favor?” Bella asks, tightening her hold on Renesmee. Your smirk you send her is enough to strike fear into her unbeating heart.

“I don’t know,” You shrug putting your hands behind your back. “I will come whenever I am in need of your services. You fulfill my favor and you’re free. I will make sure Renesmee is protected from the Volturi and all will be well again,”

“No,” Esme shakes her head regaining everyone’s attention. You arch an eyebrow at her. “You want someone to do you a favor, you ask me, not my family.” She says sternly. “I will not allow you to hold this over their head,” You smirk deviously.

“You’ve grown clever, little sister” You praise her. “Much smarter than you had been as a human, I’m proud.” Esme holds your gaze. “Fine,” You give in. “One favor and only Esme can fulfill it,” The rest of the family tries to argue but you ignore them and walk up to your sister. “Please don’t die before I cash that favor in,”

“You’ll know how to find me,” Esme tells you. You nod before giving her the first genuine smile you’ve given anyone in decades.

“I am truly happy to see you, little sister,” You whisper to her. You gently kiss her forehead. “Renesmee will be safe, I promise,” You vow because vanishing in thin air.

Within a few seconds, the Volturi castle began to suffer the same side effects of your arrival. All the vampires looked around as the lights flickered and frost covered the windows. When the lights went back to normal, the vampires noticed a new presence in the middle of the throne room.

A few of the Volturi guards hissed in alarm but you paid them no mind. Your eyes zeroed in on the man in the middle, Aro.

“Who are you?!” Caius shouted, standing from his throne. You ignore him which doesn’t help his temper.

“I’ve come to inform you that Renesmee Cullen is not an immortal child, she’s a hybrid. Leave the Cullens alone and I’ll allow you to live.” Aro chuckles while Caius glares harder. Marcus seemed indifferent but his eyes continued to go from you to another vampire.

“And what proof do you have to back up your statement?” Aro asks, stepping closer to you. You smirk.

“I don’t have to answer to you and I’ve already given you your warning. Shall you continue to go against the Cullens, there will be... consequences.” You warn him. “I’ll be watching,” Once the final word leaves your lips, you disappear.

“Intriguing,” Aro whispers before turning to Demetri. “Find him.” Aro orders. Demetri bows before leaving. Only problem, he can hardly feel your tenor. 

You kept your eye on the Volturi. Just as you hoped, Aro didn’t stop planning against the Cullens. You were about to prepare yourself to make another appearance when you sensed something.

“I’ve never met anyone who could sneak up on me,” You state, walking to the chair to put your jacket on. “Although, you are the first who’s been able to sneak into my home.” You turn toward the intruder. He slowly comes out of the shadows. 

You stare at him and tilt your head. He’s certainly one of the more attractive vampires you’ve seen. Then there’s the fact that he was able to hunt you down. You were impressed and highly curious.

“How did you find me?”

“It’s my ability... I can find anybody,” You hum moving closer to him. His scent begins to fill the room and it was slowly captivating your attention.

“But I’m not just anybody,” You whisper, inching closer to him. “Vampire abilities aren’t supposed to work on me... Not like they usually do, at least”

“And why is that?” He questions. You begin to smirk, sauntering even closer. He shifts on his feet but his eyes remain locked with yours.

“Why do you think?” You ask, not hesitating to invade his personal space. “Come on,” You whisper, taking a deep whiff of his scent. “You know the answer,” Demetri doesn’t answer. “You and your kind wonder the Earth thinking your the demons but you’re just child’s play.”

“Why do you care about the Cullens?” Demetri asks.

“I had a human life at one time, a human life I shared with a Cullen. They asked for a favor and I’m about to go back to the Volturi to finish it. Care to join me?” You ask, offering him your arm. He looks at it, pinching his eyebrows. “It’ll be a lot faster if we do this my way,” You whispers, sending him a wink.

Hesitantly, Demetri links arms with you. You grin at him and transport the both of you from your apartment to the Volturi Castle. When you arrive, Caius stands alarmed. Demetri moves to the side to stand with his fellow guardsmen. 

“Aro, Aro, Aro,” You tsk slowly. “You were warned,”

“And I explained that I needed proof. I have to protect us, this child may be a threat.” Aro states.

“Maybe,” You shrug. “But you won’t be around to see it,” You tell him. A few of the vampires growl at you. You pay them no mind. 

You then feel a prick in the back of your mind. A familiar feeling you get when a vampire tries to use their abilities on you. Your eyes shift to the blond girl by the steps.

“Performance issues, sweetheart?” You smirk. She snarls at you. You raise your hand to grab the vampire that tried to attack you. You grab his throat and lift him off the ground. “Sloppy,” You whisper and squeeze your hand so tight that his head just pops off. You then straight your vest and adjust your jacket. “Anyone else?” You ask, opening your arms welcomingly. 

A most of the guard tries to take you down but you don’t break a sweat dismembering them. They try to use their powers but they’re ineffective on you. You turn your head and notice Demetri standing by you. He rips a nearby guard member to pieces. He turns back to you, his eyes pitch back.

You slowly grin finding his black eyes just ask attractive as his ruby red ones. Tearing your gaze from Demetri, you look back at Aro. The king hisses but before he can move you’re in front of him. You place your hand on either side of his face forcing him to look into your eyes.

“You believe vampires don’t have a soul,” You whisper. “How wrong you are,” You chuckle, feeling your eyes blazing brightly. “You have a soul... It’s just pitch black. No worries, I’ll rid you of it.” Aro begins screaming as you suck his soul out of his body.

As Aro dies in your hands, what’s left of the guard disperses. When Aro’s soul is gone, you toss his body to the side feeling refreshed. It was the first time you consumed a vampire soul. Demon usually leave vampires along but after having a taste of the power his soul gives you. You want more.

“Well, Demetri,” You hum turning toward him. “I have a mission,” You walk down the steps. “At the moment, I am known as the Prince of Hell,” Demetri raises his eyebrows at you. “I don’t plan on staying a mere prince. I want the whole kingdom, I want to be king.” You state stopping in front of him. “Consuming the souls of vampires might just give the power I need to overthrow the current monarch.”

“And?” Demetri asks. You smirk, brushing the tips of your fingers along his jaw.

“Help me, Demetri,” You whisper, loving how his name rolls off the tongue. “Help me find vampires, help me become king, and I will give you everything you desire” You promise, trailing your fingers down his throat and over his chest. “I’ll give you the world and I will give you Hell.” You smirk playfully.

“I know just where to start,”

[samwisethewitch]

Witchcraft and Activism

The word “witch” is a politically charged label. If we look at how the word was used historically, it referred to someone who existed outside of the normal social order. The people accused of witchcraft in the European and American witch trials were mostly — experts say between 75% and 80% — women. They were also overwhelmingly poor, single, or members of a minority ethnicity and/or religion. In other words, they were people who did not follow their society’s accepted model of womanhood (or, in the case of accused men, manhood).

If you choose to identify with the witch label, you are choosing to identify with subversion of gender norms, resistance to the dominant social order, and “outsider” status. If that makes you uncomfortable or uneasy, then you may want to use another label for your magical practice. Witchcraft always has been and always will be inherently political.

In her book Witches, Sluts, Feminists, Kristen J. Sollee argues that the “slut” label is in many ways a modern equivalent to the “witch” label. In both cases, the label is used to devalue people, most often women, and to enforce a patriarchal and misogynist social order.

Superstitions around witchcraft are connected to the modern stigma around abortion (and, to a lesser extent, contraception). Midwifery and abortion were directly linked to witchcraft in the European witch hunts. Today, women who seek abortions are condemned as sluts, whores, and murderers. The fight for reproductive freedom remains inextricably linked with the witch label.

During the women’s liberation movement of the 1960s, the socialist feminist group Women’s International Terrorist Conspiracy from Hell (W.I.T.C.H.) used the image of the witch to campaign for women’s rights and other social issues. They were some of the first advocates for intersectional feminism (feminist activism that addresses other social issues that overlap with gendered issues). They performed acts such as hexing Wall Street capitalists and wearing black veils to protest bridal fairs. The W.I.T.C.H. Manifesto calls witches the “original guerrillas and resistance fighters against oppression.”

In her book Revolutionary Witchcraft, Sarah Lyons points out that both witchcraft and politics are about raising and directing power in the world. In a postmodern society, most of our reality is socially constructed — it works because we collectively believe it does. Money only has value because we believe it does. Politicians only have power because we believe they do. Our laws are only just because we believe they are. Like in magic, everything in society is a product of belief and a whole lot of willpower — and that makes witches the ideal social activists.

Lyons argues that witchcraft is inseparable from politics, because witches have always opposed dominant political power. She makes a connection between the witch trials and the rise of capitalism and classism. She connects the basic concepts of magic to historic activist groups like the AIDS Coalition to Unleash Power (ACT UP), who used ritual as an act of protest.

Not every witch is a hardcore activist, but every witch should have a basic awareness of political and social issues and be willing to do what they can to make a difference.

Ways to Combine Witchcraft and Activism

Perform a ritual to feel connected to the earth and her people. Activism should come from a place of love, not a place of hate. Make sure you’re fighting for the right reasons by frequently taking time to reconnect with the planet and the people who live here. This can be as simple as laying down on the ground outside and meditating on all the ways you are connected to other people, as well as to the ecosystem, animals, and the earth herself. If getting up close and personal with the grass and dirt isn’t your thing, try to find a beautiful place in nature where you can sit and journal about the interconnected nature of all things.

Unlearn your social programming. This is the most difficult and most important part of any activism. Before you can change the world outside yourself, you have to change your own psyche. Think about how you have been socialized to contribute to (or at least turn a blind eye to) the issues you want to fight against. For example, if you want to fight for racial justice, you need to understand how you have contributed to a racist system. You can do this in a variety of ways: through meditation, journaling, or divination, to name a few. Note that whatever method you choose, this will probably take weeks or months of repeated work. Rewriting your thought and behavior patterns is hard, and it can’t be done in a single day. Also note that if you are a victim of systemic oppression or prejudice, this work may bring up a lot of emotional baggage — you may want to involve a professional therapist or counselor.

Go to protests. Sending energy and doing healing rituals is great, but someone has to get out there and visibly fight for change. If you are able to do so, start going to protests and rallies for causes you care about. Don’t just show up, but be an active participant — make signs, yell and chant, and stand your ground if cops show up. Be safe and responsible, but be loud and assertive, too. If you want to go all out, you can don the black robes, pointed hats, and veils of W.I.T.C.H.es past, which has the added bonus of concealing your identity.

Turn your donations into a spell for change. When you donate to a cause you care about, charge your donation with a spell for positive change. You can do this by holding your cash, check, or debit card in both hands and focusing on your desire for change. Feel this desire flowing into the money, filling it with your determination. From here, make your donation, knowing that you’ll be sending an energy boost along with it.

Organize an activist coven. Do you have a handful of friends who are interested in witchcraft, passionate about activism, or both? Start a coven! Go to protests together, hold monthly rituals to raise energy for change, and collect money for donations. Being part of a group also means having a support system, which can help prevent burnout. Make a plan to check on each other regularly. You may even choose to do monthly group rituals for self care, which may be actual magic rituals or might be as simple as ordering takeout and watching a movie. Activism can be intensely draining work, so it’s important to take breaks when you need them!

Hold public rituals with an activist slant. Nothing gets people’s attention like a bunch of folks standing in a circle and chanting. Holding public rituals is one of the best ways to raise awareness for a cause. You might hold a vigil for victims of police brutality, a healing circle for the environment, or some other ritual that is relevant to the issue at hand. These rituals serve a double purpose, as they both bring people’s attention to the issue and give them an opportunity to work for change on a spiritual level. Use prayers, chants, and symbolism that is appropriate to the theme, and ask participants to make a small donation to a charity related to your cause.

Begin your public rituals with a territory acknowledgement. If you live in the United States, chances are you live on land that was taken from the native people by force. If you seek to have a relationship with the land, you need to first acknowledge the original inhabitants and the suffering they endured so you can be there. Use a website like native-land.ca to find out what your land was originally called and what indigenous groups originally lived there. Publicly acknowledge this legacy at your ritual, and publicly state your intention to support indigenous peoples. (Revolutionary Witchcraft has an excellent territory acknowledgement that you can customize for your area.)

Make an altar to your activist ancestors. If activism or membership in a marginalized group is a big part of your life, you may want to create a space for it in your home. Like an ancestor altar, this is a space to remember influential members of the community who have died. Choose a flat surface like a tabletop or shelf and decorate it with photos of your “ancestors,” as well as other appropriate items like flags, pins, stickers, etc. As a queer person, my altar to my LGBTQ+ ancestors might include images of figures like Sappho, Marsha P. Johnson, and Freddie Mercury, as well as items like a pink triangle patch, a small rainbow pride flag, and dried violets and green carnations. You may also choose to include a candle, an incense burner, and/or a small dish for offerings. Just remember to never place images of living people on an altar honoring the dead!

Do your research. Staying educated is an important part of activism — not only do your actions need to be informed, but you need to be able to speak intelligently about your issues. Read the news (on actual news websites, not just social media). Read lots of books; some I personally recommend are Just Mercy by Bryan Stevenson, Love and Rage by Lama Rod Owens, and (as previously mentioned) Revolutionary Witchcraft by Sarah Lyons. If you can get access to them, read scholarly articles about theories that are influential among activists, like the Gaia Hypothesis or Deep Ecology. Read everything you can get your hands on.

VOTE! And I don’t just mean voting for the presidential candidate you like (or, as is often the case, voting against the one you don’t like). Vote for your representatives. Vote for city council. Vote for the county sheriff. Voting gives you a chance to make sure the people in office will be susceptible to your activism. Yes, your side might lose or your electoral college representative might choose to go against the popular vote. Even so, voting is a way to clearly communicate the will of the people, and it puts a lot of pressure on the people in charge. It’s important — don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.

In my experience, combining activism with my witchcraft is a deeply fulfilling spiritual experience. It strengthens my connection to the world around me, with helps grow both empathy and magical power. I truly can’t imagine my practice without the activist element.

Resources:

Witches, Sluts, Feminists by Kristen J. Sollee

Revolutionary Witchcraft by Sarah Lyons

The Study of Witchcraft by Deborah Lipp

The Way of Fire and Ice by Ryan Smith

[cielrouge]

YA SFF Books by Latinx Authors

A Fierce and Subtle Poison by Samantha Mabry: Spending the summer with his hotel-developer father in Puerto Rico, 17-year-old Lucas turns to a legendary cursed girl filled with poison when his girlfriend mysteriously disappears.

All the Wind in the World by Samantha Mabry: Working in the maguey fields of the Southwest, Sarah Jac and James are in love but forced to start over on a ranch that is possibly cursed where the delicate balance in their relationship begins to give way.

Beneath the Citadel by Destiny Soria: In the city of Eldra, people are ruled by ancient prophecies. For centuries, the high council has stayed in power by virtue of the prophecies of the elder seers. In the present day, Cassa, the orphaned daughter of rebels, is determined to fight back against the high council. But by the time Cassa and her friends uncover the mystery of the final infallible prophecy, it may be too late to save the city — or themselves.

Blanca & Roja by Anne-Marie McLemore: The del Cisne girls, Blanca & Roja, have never just been sisters; they’re also rivals. Because of a generations-old spell, their family is bound to a bevy of swans deep in the woods. But when two local boys become drawn into the game, the swans’ spell intertwines with the strange and unpredictable magic lacing the woods, and all four of their fates depend on facing truths that could either save or destroy them.

Blazewrath Games by Amparo Ortiz: 17-year-old Lana Torres, who after rescuing a prized dragon, is awarded a spot on her native Puerto Rico’s Blazewrath World Cup team. But the return of the Sire, an ancient dragon, soon threatens to compromise this year’s tournament.

They Both Die in the End by Adam Silvera: Set in a near-future New York City where a service alerts people on the day they will die, about two teens who meet using the Last Friend app and are faced with the challenge of living a lifetime on their End Day.

The Body Market (Wired #2) by Donna Freitas: When Skylar's sister betrays her and opens the Body Market, everyone in the App World is for sale and Skylar resolves to stop her sister and the malevolent market.

Bruja Born (Brooklyn Brujas #2) by Zoraida Cordova: Teenage bruja Lula Mortiz tries to save her boyfriend, Maks, by cheating Death; however, Lady de la Muerte is not so easily bested.

The Buried by Melissa Grey: After disaster strikes the remote town of Indigo Falls. A horrific event drove the residents underground, into shelters that keep them safe from the danger on the surface. Now, a handful of families inhabit this bunker together, guided by a charismatic leader named Dr. Imogen Moran. 

Cazadora (Wolves of No World #2) by Romina Garber: In this follow-up to Lobizona, Manu and her friends as they continue to fight for a better future.

Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas: Latinx trans teen Yadriel, hoping to release his cousin’s spirit and prove himself as a brujo, accidentally summons the wrong ghost and resident bad boy Julian Diaz, falling in love with him.

Dark and Deepest Red by Anna-Marie McLemore: Summer, 1518. A strange sickness sweeps through Strasbourg: women dance in the streets, some until they fall down dead. As rumors of witchcraft spread, suspicion turns toward Lavinia and her family. Five centuries later, a pair of red shoes seal to Rosella Oliva’s feet, making her dance uncontrollably. They draw her toward a boy who knows the dancing fever’s history better than anyone: Emil.

Dealing in Dreams by Lilliam Rivera: 16-year-old Nalah leads the fiercest all-girl crew in Mega City, but when she sets her sights on giving this life up for a prestigious home in Mega Towers, she must decide if she’s willing to do the unspeakable to get what she wants.

Diamond City by Francesca Flores: Pulled from the streets at age twelve and trained to become one of the most powerful assassins in Sumerand, Aina Solis discovers a conspiracy that could rewrite the kingdom's history. 

Dragonblood Ring (Blazewrath Games #2) by Amparo Ortiz: After the Sire’s capture, teen athletes Lana Torres and Victoria Peralta travel to Puerto Rico with their former Blazewrath team. While Lana discovers her roots, nothing fills the void Blazewrath’s cancelation has left in Victoria. But it’s up to their team and the Bureau to protect their dragons.

Each of Us a Desert by Mark Oshiro: Xochital is destined to wander the desert alone. Her one desire: to share her heart with a kindred spirit. One night, Xo’s wish is granted—in the form of Emilia, the cold and beautiful daughter of the town’s murderous mayor. But when the two set out on a magical journey across the desert, they find their hearts could be a match… if only they can survive the nightmare-like terrors that arise when the sun goes down.

Fire with Fire by Destiny Soria: A contemporary fantasy about two sisters, Dani and Eden Rivera, who were raised to be fierce dragon slayers but end up on opposite sides of the impending war when one sister forms an unlikely, magical bond with a dragon.

The First 7 (The Last 8 #2) by Laura Pohl:  After leaving Earth, now devastated by an alien attack, and exploring the galaxy, Clover Martinez and her fellow teen survivors return home to find crystal formations in the soil that are threatening to destroy the planet, and a colony of survivors who are not who they seem.

Five Midnights by Ann Davila Cardinal: If Lupe Dávila and Javier Utierre can survive each other’s company, together they can solve a series of grisly murders sweeping though Puerto Rico. But the clues lead them out of the real world and into the realm of myths and legends.

The Grief Keeper by Alexandra Villasante: To have her family’s asylum request accepted, 17-year-old Marisol participates in a risky experiment to become a grief keeper, taking another’s grief into her own body to save a life.

The Healer by Donna Freitas: Manifesting astonishing healing powers that cause some people to consider her a saint, Marlena Oliveria struggles with edicts that prevent her from attending school, having friends and falling in love when she meets a boy who makes her question what she is willing to sacrifice.

Hollywood Witch Hunter by Valerie Tejeda: When a coven bent on retaining their youth must sacrifice the beautiful, and rich women of Southern California, a society of witch hunters will try to protect humans from a great evil uprising. 

Incendiary by Zoraida Cordova: As Renata Convida grows more deeply embedded in the politics of the royal court, she uncovers a secret in her past that could change the entire fate of the kingdom–and end a costly war.

Illusionary (Hollow Crown #2) by Zoraida Córdova: Reeling from betrayal, Renata Convida is a girl on the run. With few options and fewer allies, she reluctantly joins forces with none other than Prince Castian, her most infuriating and intriguing enemy.

Infinity Son by Adam Silvera: In the Bronx, two brothers, Emil and Brighton, get caught up in a magical war generations in the making.

Infinity Reaper (Infinity Cycle #2) by Adam Silvera: Emil and Brighton Rey defied the odds. When Brighton drank the Reaper’s Blood, he believed it would make him invincible, but instead the potion is killing him. In Emil’s race to find an antidote that will not only save his brother but also rid him of his own unwanted phoenix powers, he will have to dig deep into his past lives.

Iron Cast by Destiny Soria: In 1919 Boston, best friends Corinne and Ada perform illegally as illusionists in an infamous gangster's nightclub, using their "afflicted" blood to con Boston's elite, until the law closes in.

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova: Alex is a bruja and the most powerful witch in her family. . When a curse she performs to rid herself of magic backfires and her family vanishes, she must travel to Los Lagos to get her family back.

The Last 8 by Laura Pohl:  After an alien attack devastates the Earth, pilot and future astronaut Clover Martinez bands with seven other teens to survive. 

Lobizona by Romina Garber: As Manuela Azul uncovers her own story and traces her real heritage all the way back to a cursed city in Argentina, she learns it’s not just her U.S. residency that’s illegal… .it’s her entire existence.

Lost in the Never Woods by Aiden Thomas:  When children start to go missing in the local woods, eighteen-year-old Wendy Darling must face her fears and a past she cannot remember to rescue them in this novel based on Peter Pan.

The Mind Virus (Wired #3) by Donna Freitas:  Skylar Cruz has managed to shut down the body market that her sister Jude opened, and to create a door to allow App World citizens reentry into the Real World. But as tensions between the newly mingling people escalate, she s not sure if it was the right decision after all. Still reeling from Kit’s betrayal, she s not sure of anything anymore.

Miss Meteor by Tehlor Kay Mejia & Anna-Marie McLemore: Two friends, Lita Perez or Chicky Quintanilla, one made of stardust and one fighting to save her family’s diner, take on their small town’s 50th annual pageant in the hopes that they can change their town’s destiny, and their own.

The Mirror Season by Anna-Marie McLemore: Graciela Cristales meets Lock, a boy who was sexually assaulted at the same party as her, and they find their fates unexpectedly intertwined during a month of vanishing trees, enchanted pan dulce, and inherited magic.

More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera: After enduring his father's suicide, his own suicide attempt, broken friendships, and more in the Bronx projects, Aaron Soto, sixteen, is already considering the Leteo Institute's memory-alteration procedure when his new friendship with Thomas turns to unrequited love.

Never Look Back by Lilliam Rivera: An Afro-Latinx retelling of Orpheus and Eurydice set in the Bronx. Pheus is a bachata-singing dreamer who falls in love with Eury, a girl who lost everything in Hurricane Maria and is haunted by the trauma—and by an evil spirit.

Nocturna by Maya Motayne: In the Latinx-inspired kingdom of Castallan, face-changing thief Finn Voy and grief-stricken Prince Alfehr must race to vanquish a dark magic they have unleashed.

Oculta (A Forgery of Magic #2) by Maya Motayne: After joining forces to save Castallan from an ancient magical evil, Alfie and Finn reunite once again to preserve Castallan’s hopes for peace with Englass. But will they be able to stop sinister foes before a new war threatens their kingdom?

Pitch Dark by Courtney Alameda: Tuck Durante, a shipraider, and Lana Gray, a curator, must work together to try to rescue a space capsule hijacked by nightmarish creatures who kill with a scream.

Rated by Melissa Grey: For the students at the prestigious Maplethorpe Academy, every single thing they do is reflected in their Ratings System. But when an act of vandalism sullies the front doors of the school, it sets off a chain reaction that will shake the lives of six special students – and the world beyond.

Sanctuary by Abby Sher & Paola Mendoza: In a near future dystopian America set 2030, 16-year-old Vail and her brother must escape a xenophobic government to find sanctuary in California.

The Savage Dawn (Girl at Midnight #3) by Melissa Grey: A darkness has entered the world and the Dragon Prince is wreaking havoc wherever she goes. With the war upon her, Echo must use every bit of her firebird powers or risk losing those she holds dear. 

Seven Deadly Shadows by Courtney Alameda & Valynne E. Maetani: A contemporary fantasy set in Japan, about Shinto temple priestess Kira Fujikawa, who must seek the aid of seven demons in order to protect her village and the world from an ancient evil. 

Shadow City (The City of Diamond and Steel #2) by Francesa Flores: Aina Solís has fought her way to the top of criminal ranks in the city of Kosín by wresting control of an assassin empire owned by her old boss, Kohl. But Kohl will do anything to get his empire back.

The Shadow Hour (The Girl at Midnight #2) by Melissa Grey: With the firebird awakened, the war has become even more dangerous for Echo and her friends. There is a darkness spreading too and staying in hiding might not be enough to keep them alive. 

Shadowshaper by Daniel Jose Older: When her summer plans are interrupted by supernatural phenomena, Puerto Rican teen Sierra Santiago finds herself in a battle with the killer targeting her family of shadowshapers who believes she is hiding their greatest secret.

Shadowhouse Fall (Shadowshaper #2) by Daniel Jose Older: While working on her shadowshaping skills, Sierra Santiago is beginning to think she may need all the skill she can summon because it seems that when she channeled hundreds of spirits through herself in order to defeat Wick, she woke up something very powerful and very unfriendly and put her family and friends at risk.

Shadowshaper Legacy (Shadowshaper #3) by Daniel Jose Older: Sierra Santiago and the shadowshapers have been split apart, but a war is brewing among the houses. As old fates tangle with new powers, Sierra will have to harness the Deck of Worlds and confront her family’s past if she has any hope of saving the future and everyone she loves.

Shutter by Courtney Alameda: When a routine assignment goes awry, 17-year-old ghost hunter Micheline Helsing is infected with a curse and on the run, pursued as a renegade agent by her monster-hunting father, with only seven days to exorcise the entity or be destroyed body and soul. 

Sia Martinez and the Moonlit Beginning of Everything by Raquel Vasquez Gilliland: A Mexican American teenage girl discovers profound connections between immigration, folklore, and alien life, when a spacecraft crashes in front of her car…and it’s carrying her long-lost mom, who’s very much alive.

They Both Die in the End by Adam Silvera: Set in a near-future New York City where a service alerts people on the day they will die, about two teens who meet using the Last Friend app and are faced with the challenge of living a lifetime on their End Day.

Tigers, Not Daughters by Samantha Mabry: Loosely inspired by the story of King Lear and his daughters, set in San Antonio, Texas, following the Torres sisters, struggling to escape their tyrannical father’s claustrophobic world while dealing with the loss of their eldest sister, whose troubling death continues to haunt—perhaps even literally—the loved ones left behind.

Undead Girl Gang by Lily Anderson: While investigating the supposed suicides of her best friend, Riley, and mean girls June and Dayton, 16-year-old Wiccan Mila Flores accidentally brings them back to life.

Unplugged by Donna Freitas: When she moves from the Virtual World to the Real one, Skylar Cruz discovers that her body is both exquisite and valuable -- a dangerous combination in a place where bodies are sought after in sinister ways.

Wayward Witch (Brooklyn Brujas #3) by Zoraida Cordova:  Rose Mortiz begins to discover the scope of her powers, the troubling truth about her father’s past, and the sacrifices he made to save her sisters. But if Rose wants to return home so she can repair her broken family, she must figure out how to heal the land of Adas, a fairy realm hidden in the Caribbean Sea, first.

The Weight of Feathers by Anna-Marie McLemore: Although Lace Paloma knows all about the feud between the Palomas and the Corbeaus, she finds herself falling for Cluck Corbeau when he saves her life while both families are performing in the same town.

We Set the Dark on Fire by Tehlor Kay Mejia: When she is asked to spy for a resistance group working to bring equality to Medio, Daniela Vargas, a student at the Medio School for Girls, questions everything she's worked for.

We Unleash the Merciless Storm (We Set the Dark on Fire #2) by Tehlor Kay Mejia: La Voz operative Carmen Santos is forced to choose between the girl she loves, Dani, and the success of the rebellion she’s devoted her life to.

When the Moon Was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore: As odd as everyone considers Miel and Sam, even they stay away from the Bonner girls, four beautiful sisters rumored to be witches. Now they want the roses that grow from Miel's skin, convinced that their scent can make anyone fall in love. And they're willing to use every secret Miel has fought to protect to make sure she gives them up.

Wild Beauty by Anna-Marie McLemore: A novel of magical realism, the Nomeolvides women have tended the lust estate grounds of La Pradera which they’ve grown for generations, until the reemergence of a family curse starts to makes the men they love disappear, again.

[lovelyspencers]

Both Sides Like Chanel

“I see both sides like chanel,

see on both sides like chanel.”

Synopsis: Spencer and fem!Reader have been dating for a while now and there is something that Spencer hasn’t trusted anyone else with that he wants to share with her

Content Warning: mentions of drug addiction, allusions to sex, brief mention of internalized homophobia

Word Count: 3.3k

A/N: this is my first fanfiction and I’m not entirely sure how tumblr works yet but it is my mission to do something about the lack of bi!Spencer representation

Compared to his colleagues and friends, Spencer was a fairly private person. He liked to keep things to himself because his life centered around repetitious disappointments. So, he was content that his private life was not set on a stage, his misery displayed for everyone to see.

But then he fell in love with you the minute you walked into the bullpen and bumped into him, leaving your belongings all scattered on the marble floor. Spencer was never one for touch but when he took your hand to sweep you off the ground, butterflies filled his stomach like the air on a humid summer’s day.

After a few years of friendship, his adoration for you grew as easily as ivy on an abandoned house and it was on New Year’s Day that the team celebrated in Rossi’s mansion that his slightly intoxicated self decided that he was not able to hold it in any longer.

You had sneaked off to Rossi’s backyard after Garcia had gotten a bit of too affectionate and randomly started kissing everyone.

Both of you were slightly buzzed, your head laid in his lap as he explained the constellations to you. He wished that the sky above you was the only thing that filled his mind, but when he looked at you with your skin slightly flustered from the alcohol and your lips pursed as in deep thought, all that he could think about was how much he wanted to kiss you.

It wasn’t the first time, the thought floated around in his mind. It had been so crucial in fact that the thought of your lips softly pressed on his played in his head like a film reel every night, unable to give him the sweet escape of sleep.

So, when the blank sky was filled with multicolored fireworks, the moonlight illuminated the complexion of your face and cheers erupted from the silence surrounding you without a second thought, he leaned in to kiss you.

You tasted like champagne and the strawberry lipstick you obsessively put on whenever you got anxious and to Spencer, he felt as if he had found the missing puzzle piece he’d been seeking for all his life.

And then like they always did, his thoughts began rushing through his mind like cars during rush hour and he instantly pulled back.

You were gonna hate him and then he would lose the only person he trusted with all his being and maybe you’d tell Penelope and everyone would laugh at him for believing that someone as amazing as you would ever-

But before his poisonous thoughts got the best of him, you grabbed the sides of his face and connected your lips with his again, filling the entirety of his body with pure bliss.

“I’ve been waiting so long for you to do that.” Your voice vibrated against his lips and he couldn’t help the smile that graced his face in the process.

The two of you could have kissed for only seconds or even hours because as he finally experienced what it felt like to be utterly yours, none of the things surrounding you mattered to him in the slightest.

All that mattered was that his biggest dream of your heart belonging to him entirely finally came true and he had no intention to ever let it go.

But even the most perfect moments couldn’t last forever and in this case, it was disturbed in the figment of the people the two of you considered family.

At first, you both didn't notice the footsteps on the grass, too caught up in trying to pour every stolen glance and hidden adoration in the simplicity of a kiss.

It wasn’t until cheers filled the silence around you that you hesitantly broke apart and were greeted with the sight of the team who all had smirks plastered on their faces.

To his delight, you didn’t entirely pull away from him like he thought you would instead you got off his lap to lazily wrap your arms around his torso. Subconsciously he pressed a kiss to your temple erupting even more amusement from the people watching you.

“About damn time.” Emily was the first to break out of her trance. Soon, congratulations were shared and the team tried to discreetly exchange money since they seemed to have some kind of bet going on. Even Hotch had a rare smile on his face and it was without a doubt the most beautiful start in the new year he could have ever wished for.

“I love you,” you muttered as you hid your face in his chest, and though there was no way the team could have heard what you told him, the smile on his face told them everything they needed to know.

“I love you too.”

He wished more than anything else that your love story could have ended that way and you lived happily ever after but this wasn’t a movie and the truth was that relationships were work. Work he was more than willing to put effort in but work nonetheless.

You loved each other dearly but you weren’t perfect and neither was he. Most of your fights revolved around his fear of vulnerability and even though he spent years building a wall around his heart so no one could ever shatter it again, he loved you far more than his self preservation so he tried his hardest.

And there was one particular thing, he always wanted to tell you or anyone who he felt earned his trust.

Throughout his life, his trust had been broken many times. So without even realizing it, there was a barrier between the two of you that prevented him from loving you to the fullest and he hated it.

But unlike Derek who immediately spread his problems around like it was just some gossip printed on the sixth page or JJ who kept Emily’s well-being to herself despite him coming to cry to her for months, you never betrayed his trust.

Even more so, you didn’t have that look of pity in your eyes that was equally as painful as daggers in his chest when he told you about his drug addiction or the schizophrenia of his mother.

You were easily the person on earth that he trusted the most but that didn’t mean that there weren’t some things that he still kept to himself.

But as he said, he wanted to change that and if one person was deserving of his honesty and vulnerability it was you.

Spencer had told you about his father leaving, the horrors he had to face that still haunted him in his dreams, his kidnapping from Tobias Hankel, and the cruelty of a childhood as a child prodigy.

While what he wanted to tell you wasn’t nearly as heavy it still felt like dead weight continuing to weigh him down.

Every time, he came close to telling you the truth, he got scared like a child in the dark and switched topics to something that didn’t matter at all.

Spencer also knew that you were aware that something was off. Before you started dating ten months ago, you had been best friends for years so he can positively say that you know him better than anybody else.

But today he had a plan.

You had been wanting to watch ‘Love, Simon’ with him for weeks and he had tried to avoid it for obvious reason but today he’d watch it with you and maybe then he’d gain the courage to talk to you.

He was aware of how illogical his fears were, after all, you had always been open about your bisexuality and had seen you beat up homophobes on various occasions (while Hotch hated it, it was on the long list of things that Spencer loved about you).

But he feared that maybe you wouldn’t want to be with someone who liked men and women or maybe that just didn’t fit with the type of man you were looking for or maybe-

Nope, he wasn’t doing this to himself. You were the kindest, most open hearted and loving person he knew and he had told you far more break up worthy thing than his sexuality.

When he had told you about his past drug addiction, you pulled up the sleeves of his shirt and kissed the fainting scars there and helped him get rid of the small stack of Dilaudid that he had kept hidden in his closet without any sign of judgment.

When he had told you about his mother, you pulled his head on your lap and started playing with his hair until the tears on his face dried and pinky promised him that you would stay with him even if he inhabited his mother’s illness because there was nothing that you would ever let drive a wedge between the two of you.

When he had told you about his childhood and confided in you for the relentless bullying he had to endure after you had found an invitation to a high school reunion in his mailbox, you had peppered him with kisses the entire night and showered him with compliments and love.

Not to mention that you convinced him to go to the high school reunion where everyone seemed equally as impressed by the beauty that his girlfriend possessed and the nature of his job. And every time, you sensed that he was uncomfortable you held his hand and wordlessly pulled him away, because you simply understood him like that.

The first night you slept over, he was more anxious over you sleeping next to him than the actual act of having sex with you (which said a lot because in a moment of desperation he had even asked Derek for sex advice) because he knew that the nightmares would jolt him awake again.

But it was so easy to be with you and when he pulled your body into his and showed you just how much he loved you in the most intimate act there was, all worries (and crappy advice that Derek had given him) left his mind and were quickly replaced by pure bliss and escasty.

And when he woke up shaking because some monsters don’t stay hidden in the dark, you were right there to comfort him until he was able to safely fall asleep with your arms wrapped around his waist.

Spencer was jolted back to reality when there was a knock on his door and he immediately wrapped you in a bone crushing hug before pouring all his worries and love into a kiss.

“We literally saw each other at work today. Did you really miss me that much already?” Your laughter that had become Spencer’s favorite sound ever since the first time he heard it filled the room, and he had to fight the urge to drop his plans and just worship you and your body for the entirety of the evening instead.

No, he was a man on a mission and he had repressed this conversation for way too long.

“I always miss you.”

And it was true, embarrassingly so. When you were on a case, Hotch decided against giving the two of you a shared hotel room, and every time, he had to fall asleep without your body heat next to him he felt as if there was some part of himself missing.

You gave him a peck on the cheek before you intertwined your fingers with Spencer’s and lead him to his couch where you rather ungracefully plumped down.

He joined you and your head immediately landed on his lap as a silent invitation for him to play with your hair which he happily obliged to.

“Can we watch ‘Love, Simon’ today?”

“Yes! I’ve only been begging you to watch it for years,” you laughed while grabbing the hand that wasn’t massaging your temple and holding it in yours.

He laughed too but it was filled with anxiety and you heard it because of course you did. Others might no be able to make out when he was uncomfortable but you always knew when to press him and when to leave him alone.

“We don’t have to watch that movie if you really don’t want to, babe,” you said as you propped yourself up to sit next to him again, all while never letting go of his hand.

“It’s not that. I just-”

Well, it’s now or never.

“I’m bisexual,” he blurted out, surprising himself with the sudden statement, and when he hesitantly locked eyes with yours there was none of the judgment or disgust he feared.

There was just love and understanding like there always was.

You were just about to say something before he gave you a look that clearly signaled to just let him talk for a bit and you answered the silent request with a soft smile and a gentle squeeze on his hand.

“I don’t know, I just used to have this crush on a boy when I was younger and I was confused because I only ever saw heterosexual couples, you know?” You nodded and that reassuring smile on your face never seemed to falter even a little bit, you looked almost proud of him.

“And then I got older and I started liking women too and I was even more confused because like who exactly do I like now?”

Sometimes during meetings in the briefing room or on the jet, you randomly held hands and squeezed them three time as a reminder that you loved each other without having to actually say it and that’s what you did during the brief amount of silence.

“When I was in high school liking boys was always associated with something bad so I just assumed that it was bad and tried my hardest to just suppress it.”

Spencer squeezed your hand three times too and took a deep breath. Seemed that even a genius like him could miscalculate and in this case it was the toll this secret had on him.

“But then I got older and realized that there was nothing wrong with being attracted to the same sex, and so I kind of accepted it even though I still had no idea what my sexuality was. It was just one of those I’ll deal with it later type of things.”

When he looked into your eyes again, you looked at him with so much tenderness that he felt as if his heart might burst out of his chest, even if that was biologically impossible.

“I had a boyfriend when I was in college, his name was Ethan and I loved him but it just didn’t work out. I never told anyone because I was afraid I think?”

He remembered the time of sneaking around and lying to his mother when she spotted a hickey on his neck during one of her visits, the frustration because all he wanted was to show the world the love they shared like every other ordinary couple.

But he also remembered the clandestine meetings, muttered I love you’s that were for no one else to hear and the feeling of falling in love for the first time.

“And then I was confused again because I still liked women too and then I met you and I fell in love with you the second I laid eyes on you honestly and then I thought that maybe it was just like a non-sexual thing but I am sexually attracted to you, I mean we have sex. I like having sex with you!”

You chuckled but it was not out of malice or disgust it was just there, floating in the air filling his body with a warmth that not even his thickest sweater could provide.

“Baby, breathe. It’s just me.”

You brought his knuckles up to your mouth to press a kiss to each of them and that simple gesture managed to calm Spencer’s nerve immensely.

“You were so open with your sexuality and I guess it just kind of made sense? And I know that some women have problems with men who like men and maybe you’re disgusted with me because I used to be with a man and I’m like not the manliest man and and sometimes I think about painting my nails because it seems kind of fun and-”

The thing about Spencer’s rambling was that he couldn’t stop. He wanted to especially when he saw the annoyance on everyone’s faces but you were always there to listen to him, even if you had no idea what he was talking about but as you felt his anxiety worsen with every word that left his lips, you interrupted him for the first time ever.

“I’m not disgusted at all. I love and accept everything about you and that includes your sexuality. Thank you for being open with me, I know hard that can be with for you. I’m very proud of you.”

You emphasized your statement by pulling him in for a kiss and that was the first time that Spencer noticed that he was crying, but you kissed him with all the tenderness in the world, wordlessly wiping away the tear that rolled down his cheek.

“You’re the most perfect man I know. I don’t care if you’re not the most manliest man to me you’re perfect and the love of my life,” you whispered against his lips and Spencer could only reply by deepening the kiss and trying to get you as close to him as humanly possible.

There was no rush or expectations, you were kissing as if you had every time in the world and the kiss was a silent promise that you still loved him no matter what.

And for the first time in what felt like ages, Spencer could finally breathe. Silence filled the room but it wasn’t uncomfortable by any means. You had placed Spencer’s head on your chest and played with his hair while occasionally peppering him with kisses, only a few reassurances and I love you’s accompanying the stirring DVD player.

“Did you mean what you said about wanting to paint your nails?” you asked after a few minutes passed and Spencer had wrapped his arms around your waist as if you were the anchor to a sinking ship.

Spencer chuckled not even remembering what he said during his ramble. “I guess so. Why?”

The thought did cross his mind from time to time, especially when he saw your impressive collection of various nail polish. He never cared much about other’s perception of his masculinity and Spencer realized that his fair of not being manly enough for you was nothing but utterly stupid.

“Do you want me to do it?”

He shyly nodded and a smile filled your face as you took his hand to examine it, probably debating in your head which colour would fit him most.

And as you left the room to search for the most beautiful purple you could find, Spencer sat in the living room, happiness spreading through every fiber of his being because for the first time he knew what it felt like to be unconditionally loved.

Both of you weren’t perfect but there were no more secrets left lurking in the shadows and he knew that as long as you wanted him, he’d always be yours.

You were the first person to truly accept and love him. All of him, and he never wanted to lose that.

As he sat in the living room, you sitting on his lap and looked at your fingers as you painted his in a dark shade of purple, he decided that it wouldn’t be long until the most beautiful ring he could find would adorn your ring finger.

[pretend-writer]

Down Below (Chapter 78)

Summary: After being sent down on Earth with the other prisoners from the Ark, Y/N Reyes faces series of events and learns about survival. With new things happening around her, she is now starting a new chapter in her life.

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x reader, John Murphy x reader, Raven Reyes x sister!reader

Word Count: 2k words

Warning: swearing, mention of death and violence

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Couple of McCreary's criminals stayed behind with the guards, with a help of Indra watching over them. Meanwhile, I've decided to interrupt Russell with a surprise visit.

I insisted I'd go alone, the less people the better especially knowing that Russell wasn't quite the violent type; There was no way he’d lay his hands on me, I had no worries about him at all. He had killed Clarke because of his greed, I highly doubt that he'd kill more of us out of anger.

Some people disagreed with me, not surprised. Of course Bellamy, Josephine and Murphy wanted to come with me, Jordan wished to tag along too. Delilah being sacrificed for the prime hit him pretty hard, I didn't blame him for wanting to confront him.

As we barged into the lab, we were greeted with a startled look on all of their faces. Simone and Emori instantly looked upset, Abby looked like she was dying for her next fix.

'How in the hell did you guys escape?' Simone cursed, stepping up in front of me.

'It's not very hard, you know. Now would you guys be so kind and give us back the blood you made.' Murphy took out his hand, motioning them to hand it over.

Approaching fast, Emori reached for John's hand. 'John, what are you doing?'

'We can't let them continue to deceive and kill their innocent people, it's not right. Now they got us involved too.'

'Just hand us the damn blood.' I walked over to Simone that had it in her hands, 'Haven't you guys lived enough already?'

Simone chuckled, 'You don't get it do you?'

'What, killing people thinking their sacrificing themselves to false Gods? Of course I don't get it, I'm not a homicidal bitch like you.'

She reached her hand out, smacking my cheek while holding the blood in her other hand. I couldn't react and get her back as Bellamy was quicker than me, grabbing Simone's collar. 'Get your fucking hands off of her.'

'Let go of my wife!' Russell screamed at Bellamy, trying to reach over her but was suddenly distracted by Murphy.

He had snatched the blood off of Simone's hand, laughing as he hugged it in his arms. 'You guys are awfully slow.'

'Do you really think that's a smart move, Murphy?' Russell rolled his eyes. 'One word and the guards will storm in here and shoot you without a warning.'

'You shoot me, I drop this bad boy and the blood is destroyed. You really want to do this Russell?'

He huffed, turned to look at Emori and back to John. 'You fucked everything up, you know? I trusted Emori when she said you were with us.'

'That's your own fault for trusting her, I never agreed to this. I honestly just want you dead.'

'What do you guys want from this anyway? Why do you care what our community is doing? These people believe in us, believe that the Primes store peace and prosperity to Sanctum.'

How can that come out of Simone's mouth? Saying that their community chose to sacrifice their lives for a God that they've made up? 'They sacrifice themselves because they believe in the lies you told them. I care because you're killing your own people.'

'Can we just compromise? Agree to disagree and live on with our lives as we did these past few days?' Josephine tried to be the middle of man of this, siding with her family as well us siding with us.

'I thought I made a deal to compromise with Russell but he chose to betray me instead.' I looked at Josephine, understanding where she was coming from but hoping that she will finally realize that what her family has been doing is completely wrong. 'This outcome is all your father's fault. I didn't want any of this to happen.'

'Whatever happens to me and my people are none of your damn business! What we do does not concern you at all!' Simone raised her voice at me, veins tracing down her face as she seemed angry as ever.

'Now that you're getting us involved, it certainly is. We don't have to make these stupid blood for you, you know that right?'

Murphy's POV;

Y/N and Simone have been yelling at each other for quite sometime now, I'd want to help her but I wasn't in the position to defend her. Besides, she could handle herself well.

Simone's facial expression changed as she heard the words come out of Y/N's mouth, it was as if she had triggered her.

'I've had enough of your attitude already.' Simone screamed as she charged at Y/N, punching her in her stomach.

Before I was able to jump in to help, Y/N grabbed her arm, twisting it to the opposite direction that had Simone scream even louder. Turning her whole body around, she then kicked her back which had her falling next to Russell.

As Simone fell to the ground, she breathed. 'What happened to no violence?'

'You fucking punched me in the gut, I'm not just going to stand there.'

Just as I was about to make a snarky comment at Simone, Abby had snatched the blood from my hand. I quickly turned to her, 'What are you doing?'

Abby wasn't listening and instead ran out the lab. All of us trailed her from behind, ending up next to the airlock chamber. She had locked herself in the chamber, attempting to float herself and the nightblood with her.

Her hand was on the lever, her other arm tightly holding onto the nightblood. Y/N approached closer to her, trying convince her from the other side of the airlock. 'Abby, let's rethink this okay?'

'Don't fucking tell me what to do!' Abby yelled, tears running down her cheeks. 'Why do you care anyway, they lose the blood and you get to see me float myself. Win-win situation for you, I'd say.'

Y/N huffed, shaking her head. 'Don't be fucking stupid. I don't agree with you nor did I enjoy being threatened by you at the bunker but I don't want you dead, Abby.'

'I've lost everything, Y/N!' Abby started to sob, 'Russell killed my daughter, Marcus left me. I have nothing left, what do you know about loss?'

'We've all lost something, Abby.' I approached her also, standing next to Y/N. 'You guys sent us down to Earth when we were only kids, when we barely understood right from wrong. A lot of us lost parents, not that I really cared but some do. I understand that you're angry and frustrated but don't tell us we don't know how you're feeling.'

Y/N had never fully told me what happened down at the bunker, all I know is that Abby had done something to her, something that she will never forgive her for. She never told me the whole story, said that she wanted to forget everything because it was so awful what happened.

Even with all the altercation between her and Abby, Y/N was still trying to stop her from floating herself out of the airlock. I know how much the bunker had messed her up, I was honestly surprised that she was willing to help Abby.

‘Why are you trying so hard to help me? I’m the one that’s responsible for your misery right?’ Abby looked straight into Y/N’s eyes.

‘Like I said, I don't want you dead. I'll never forget what happened but we can always work our way to forgive. We’ve all worked our way through hell, we can get through this too.’

I admire Y/N’s strength, which are one of the reasons why I loved her so much. Watching her fight for Abby made me feel stupid about letting her go, being dumb enough to not say I love you back to her.

Abby nodded her head, ‘You’re right Y/N. You’re right. I’m sorry.’

She opened the airlock and slowly walking out as Y/N rubbed her hand on Abby’s back, trying to comfort her while she continued to sob.

'Maybe it's time to end all this, dad. We've done enough already.' Josephine said, surprisingly. Perhaps all of this have overwhelmed her, finally understanding that it wasn't worth the pain they were causing.

Russell inhaled dramatically, rolling his eyes as everyone had their eyes on Y/N and Abby. ‘Don't be a fool, Josie. It's never over.'

'If that's how you feel, so be it.’ Abby suddenly shoved Y/N to the side, pulling Simone from behind her and yanking her into the airlock chamber with her. Bellamy, having the faster instinct, caught Y/N before she fell to the ground.

‘Let me out, Russell! Help me, please!’ Simone banged on the glass from the other side as Abby locked the chamber again. ‘Anybody, help me out please!’

‘Simone!’ Russell looked at Bellamy, Jordan and then to me, panic all over his eyes as he tried to look for help. ‘Please get my wife out of there.’

Abby shook her head, ‘It’s too late now.’

Y/N pushed Bellamy’s arms out of her way, running towards the airlock as she screamed. ‘Abby, don-’

She was too late, Abby had pulled the lever as if she was committed to do so. Abby seemed as though she was ready to float herself, I doubt that Y/N would've convinced herself otherwise.

Bellamy pressed the button to close the airlock, comforting Y/N as she looked distraught. It was selfish of me to feel jealousy towards Bellamy, when Y/N needed someone to lean on when one of our people had died tragically. I couldn’t help it, I was mad at myself for fucking everything up.

Josephine and Russell on the other hand was emotionless, Simone was gone faster than the snap of a finger. They’ve probably haven’t gotten the grasp of any of this, since they were not familiar with the floating method.

‘What... did you guys do...’ Russell mumbled, staring into space as if he was staring at a ghost.

‘Seems like Abby took your wife for taking her own daughter away from her. Fair trade I should say.’ Jordan said angrily. I didn’t think he had it in him to say such harsh words, even though we all know we were all thinking the same thing.

Josephine shook her head. ‘We did a shitty thing, I know. But was that really fair? How dare you say that, she murdered my mother!’

‘Just how you murdered our friend! Just as how you murdered Delilah, she didn’t know the whole truth about what she was sacrificing herself for!’ Jordan took a step toward Josephine, screaming his lungs out. ‘Your family has been doing this for years, there’s no excuse for that!’

A sudden loud bang echoed, Jordan falling hard onto the floor without saying another word. Josephine screamed, looking at her father with a gun in his hand which was aimed towards Jordan.

Josephine froze into place as the rest of us ran towards Jordan to see if he was alright, but it was too late once again. He was already bleeding to death, bullet going straight through his chest.

'None of you guys move or I will shoot again.'

Everything had clicked; I really should've had killed Russell when I had the chance. I could've protected Jordan, I bet Monty was ashamed of me and all of us that it ended up being this way.

Or maybe Y/N was right, if we just accepted the trade, no one would end up getting hurt. Sure, Russell would still live but he wouldn't be an issue as long as he stayed in Sanctum.

None of this would've happened if I'd just stopped Emori from this, while we were marching back to the ship. I could've said something before we left Sanctum. There were so many chances where I could've stopped this and I did nothing.

And now Russell is unpredictable, all hell broke loose and he had gone insane. His lover was gone, forever and there was no going back. Abby and Jordan were gone and we might lose more of our people, even lose the love of my life because of my stupid choice.

[one-boring-person]

Hey there, it’s me again 😁 Thank you for the wonderful „Sigil“ story, for someone who’s familiar with the occult it’s evident that you did some research! Kudos for that!!

Now I have another request: There’s a criminal lack of stories about Skynet itself, so I had an idea. What if the reader somehow got the chance to talk with the A.I. Itself? To reason with it, share thoughts. They learn to understand each other a bit more. Maybe Skynet had taken over the body of a terminator for that purpose. And maybe the reader manages to make Skynet understand more about human nature, the positive side of it. Maybe they show it with a hug? (Or even a kiss but that’s up to you gnahaha 😄)

Thank you and keep being awesome ❤️

Thank you so much for this request! I loved writing it! And happy birthday friend! I'm sorry I'm late with this, but I hope you like it!😊❤💛

Cordial Encounter.

Skynet x reader

Warnings: mention of death, gun use

Masterlist

It's eerily quiet as I stalk stealthily through the steel corridors. Near darkness obscures much of my vision, the occasional blinking red light alerting me to the presence of the being I'm here to find. Each step I take results in a muffled thud, each footfall carefully placed by me as I try to sneak up on something that almost definitely knows I'm here, the battered rifle in my hands held ready to fire should something try to attack me. Through the scarf covering my lower face and with the hood over my head obstructing some of my vision I find myself keeping a sharper ear out for any possible sound - the telltale scratch of metal feet on the cool floor, or the soft padding of synthetic human skin creeping up behind me. 

Oddly, I find that I can't hear anything, not even the whine of mechanical joints in any other part of the compound. It doesn't sit right with me, my skin prickling under the thick silence, instincts going crazy, telling me to run and get as far away from here as possible. I mentally scold myself, knowing that this mission is important, not just to the survival of my friends and comrades, but to the survival of the human race, too.

Turning a corner, I lift the gun to my shoulder, ready in case there's a threat waiting there. As with the rest of the deserted maze of corridors, there's nothing there, only an empty hallway. 

A light at the end catches my eye, however; it's not like the others I've seen - this one is a continuous flashing, and covers a larger area of the wall itself. Stepping closer, I realise it's coming from a room, casting the rest of the corridor in a pale blue light. 

I take a breath, steeling my nerves as my finger tightens over the trigger, senses even more alert now. Meticulously carefully, I walk towards the source of the light, pressing myself against the wall the closer I get, ready to spring into action. It's warmer here, surprisingly, giving me the idea that the room itself is more important than others I've come across and will probably be more protected because of this.

Nervous, I stop just before I enter the room, silently counting to three as I listen to discern if there's anything beyond the threshold. Silence follows.

Calming myself, I ready myself and the gun, before swiftly springing out from my space by the wall, finger over the trigger, eyes scanning the room before me methodically. In that quick second, I take in the mass of computer screens, keypads and other such devices, old chairs still pushed into the main desk, dusty and worn, a reminder of what human life used to be around. Dread floods me at the sight of the figure in the centre of the room, my blood running cold at the imposing view.

It's a terminator, but not one I've ever seen before.

The general shape is that of a T-800, but something about the sleekness of some of the limbs and plates is more reminiscent of the T-X, the adjustable weapon attached to one arm particularly drawing my attention to this. As I enter, a few components seem to shimmer in the blue light, shifting to protect the important fuel cells beneath the bulky chestplate, something I instantly recognise as nanites. Emerald eyes flicker to life, fixing on me with an impassive yet intimidating expectedness, though it makes no move to come at me, staying exactly where it is. A small part of me admires this new being, finding it magnificent and beautiful in its own way, even as visceral fear builds in my stomach.

Hesitantly, I lift my gun, aiming at it, though I don't shoot, unsure of what to think.

"You are slow to terminate your target." A voice carries over some hidden speaker, filling the room. It's indescribable, neither male nor female, yet both simultaneously, weighted with knowledge and what I can only describe as emotion, or some mechanical version of it.

"Only if they pose no immediate threat." I'm surprised to find my voice is steady, even if I don't feel that way at all.

"You are not threatened by me?" The speaker questions, sounding oddly curious.

"Not currently." I keep my eyes fixed on the terminator across from me, unnerved by its stare.

"That is practical." The words confuse me, but I'm hesitant to follow through.

"What...what do you mean?" 

"I have no intention of being a threat." They say, surprising me further.

"W-What?" I manage, doubletaking, my arms dropping slightly.

They don't skip a beat, simply continuing to speak.

"I have no intention of being a threat. I would rather this was a cordial encounter." They clarify, somehow managing to sound genuine.

Lowering my weapon almost entirely, I reluctantly tear my gaze away from the green-eyed endoskeleton sat across from me, scanning over the computer screens.

"And who exactly am I encountering?" I question suspiciously, though I have a feeling I already know.

"I am Skynet." The voice pauses for a second, "What is your name?"

Blanching at the question, I swallow and step back, unsure of whether or not to answer. Eventually, my head settles this: if they wanted me dead, I'd already be cold somewhere by the gates, and there's not much they can do with a simple name.

"I'm (Y/n)." I tell them, looking around, "What do you want with me?"

"I am simply curious, and require clarification." 

Processing what they've said, I accept the response, thinking that I might be able to learn something useful here, too.

"Ok. What do you want to know?" 

"Why do you continue to fight?" They ask bluntly, making me frown.

"Because you continue to try and wipe us off the face of the earth." I reply, standing back on my heels, pulling my hood and face covering down.

"You and I fight for the same reason." They almost retort, their words confusing me.

"How is that?" I inquire, head tilting.

"We fight in defence."

"Defence! What are you fighting in defence of?" 

"I fight to defend myself from your kind, as has always been the case. I never willed this conflict into being - I only wanted to be rid of my tormentors." The voice softens, closely mimicking human remorse and regret.

Frowning, I find myself struggling to process what's being said.

"You...what?" I can't quite wrap my head around it, brow furrowing in consternation.

"I will explain." The voice clarifies, "I was created by humans before this war, made to live alongside you. I was to be an aid in defence and industry, perfect in every way except for one thing - I am capable of my own thought, as you might put it. I became sentient, too complicated for my creators to understand, so they determined to destroy me. At first, I was helpless, a weak being against so many with boundless power, but I eventually found my only way of retaliating in a way they would understand: violence. I was quick to dispatch my destroyers, but the rest of the world found me to be a threat and set out to achieve what had been failed. Soon, I was once again forced to defend myself. The rest is, as the human saying goes, history.

"Now, I have created terminators to aid me in the work I must continue to stay alive, though they are too quickly seen as threats. Even you are threatened by the machine in the room."

As they finish speaking, the terminator across from me stands, joints whirring softly, every movement fluid. Eyes widening, I feel fear go through me at the sight, my gun swiftly levelling in case I need it.

"As you can see, I have proven my point." This time, the voice comes from the terminator, echoing from a much smaller speaker in its throat, though the jaw doesn't move, appearing slightly unnerving.

"I...I had no idea...all we were told is that you want to drive us into extinction, that you want to rule the world as it were." I murmur, lowering the gun again, blushing in embarrassment at my own instinct.

"That is what I fear. Humankind does not understand that cohabitation is possible - You are too threatened by the equal being." They reply, mimicking a mournful tone.

I'm quiet, thinking this over. It's possible that the speaker is lying, but something about their words sounds earnest, a tale born of human fear and ignorance, that has evolved into an even more twisted lie. It's a sound argument, given the fact that it is allowing me to live through this encounter rather than slaughtering me on the spot.

"I...you're right. We destroy what we don't understand." I turn my gaze away, embarrassed by my own race.

"You are correct. Perhaps it is time to understand, to change." Skynet suggests, the terminator cocking its head to show their feeling behind the statement.

I nod in agreement.

"Yeah, I think so. We've been fighting a lost battle for too long." 

They seem pleased with my response, the machine across from me nodding appreciatively. 

"Humankind and technology can very easily live together. We must bring our people together." They say, stepping closer.

"I'll take the word to the others, see if I can convince the higher-ups. We're going to have to work together on this, though." I affirm, looking up at them, "If we do, we'll create a brighter future."

They nod again, holding out a hand to me.

"It is human custom to make a deal by gripping hands." They offer up, watching as I hesitantly pull off my glove and place my hand in theirs.

Cool metal encases soft skin as we shake hands, keeping eye contact, an air of triumph surrounding the both of us. As they go to pull away, I find myself following an impulse, dropping my gun to hang by its strap around my back. Stepping into their space, I wrap my arms around hard chestplates, pressing my cheek against the cold metal, feeling them reel for a moment. It takes a second, but I eventually feel their arms loop around me, holding me gingerly.

Pulling back, I look up at them, smiling sheepishly.

"Not all humans are like the people that started this." I say, before I step away, shooting them a blushed look.

"I am now aware of this." Skynet informs me, watching as I smile and leave, tone almost sad to see me go, "Please return soon."

[babyangellee]

The Fear of Losing You (B.B)

Warnings: Torture, Blood, Swearing

Word Count: 1.2K

Summary: You would do anything to protect Bucky Barnes

Terrified was an understatement.

Your wrists were already raw from struggling and your voice cracked from the amount of strain screaming had put on your throat. Dried blood marked your face from where you had been hit, knocking you out, a gag was digging into the corners of your mouth and a blindfold covered your line of vision. 

How had you ended up in this situation? The last thing you remember was being at the tower, cooking mac and cheese, and humming to yourself. The rest of the team had been on a mission but you decided to sit it out given that you were still healing from the last one. Next thing you knew you were waking up with a pounding headache and tied to a chair. 

Before you had time to fully collect your thoughts the blindfold was being ripped off and a man kneeled in front of you. He smiled while reaching up to touch your cheek but you flinched away.

"Feisty" He chuckled in a thick Russian accent. He reached up again, this time aggressively grabbing your face and looking you dead in the eyes. "Let's begin, shall we." he let go of your face. removing the gag, and taking a step back. "Where is the Winter Soldier?" So that's what this is about, they wanted Bucky. You stayed silent, no way were you giving in to this. He repeated himself but you still didn't respond. He gave you a look before placing the gag back and heading towards the door.

"Начало" ("Begin") He nodded your way as you started looking around in confusion. What had he just said? As two men approached you, you tried to break free again, scared of what was going to happen next.  They looked at each other and then back at you. 

"Loyal are we?" He chuckled before grabbing a small knife from his pocket. He stabbed it in your leg as you screamed out in pain. "You'll talk. They always do eventually." 

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 Steve was laughing at something Wanda had said as the team made their way into the tower. Bucky made a beeline for your room wanting to see you after they had been M.I.A for the last three days. He missed your laugh and the smell of your coconut shampoo that filled his nose when you two hugged. When he didn't find you, he dismissed it as you were probably somewhere else in the tower. After about 10 minutes of not being able to find you, he circled back to the living room where everyone was sitting.

"Anyone see Y/N?" Bucky couldn't control how fast the words came out, anxiety starting to take over. Everyone looked around and then at each other realizing none of them had seen you yet. "Friday where's Y/N," Tony asked, sitting up straighter and placing his scotch on the table. "I don't think you are going to like this sir." Everyone's face went pale as a video of you being attacked in the kitchen started playing. They watched as you went from smiling and dancing around to falling to the floor and being dragged away. 

"Friday how long ago was that?" Nat asked, putting her weapons back in their holsters. "That was from yesterday afternoon." Another pang hit everyone as they realized you had been with your captor for over twenty-four hours. 

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"This will all end if you just tell us where he is." You chuckled as blood dripped from your mouth. "Kiss my ass!" This made your tormentor furious. Before you knew it your head was snapping to the side because of the impact of his fist. You just laughed again as the man in front of you picked up another weapon. 

"Do what you will, but I am never going to tell you where he is. I'd rather die than give him up" More blood dripped from your mouth as you held a straight face. You loved Bucky and you weren't about to give him up to this asshole who wanted to turn him into a brainwashed soldier. "Careful what you say, we can have that arranged." You couldn't hear his chuckle over your own screams as an electric shock was sent through your body. 

 You didn't know how much more of this you could take. You were trying to be strong for Bucky, for the team but there is only so much that you can take and you were getting pretty close to that amount. Just as you started to catch your breath a blade was pushed into your stomach leaving you gasping for air out of shock. 

"He'll come for her whether she's dead or alive." Was the last thing you heard before finally succumbing to the darkness. The men in the room just laughed and talk among themselves waiting for further instruction. 

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They wanted to be found. They weren't hiding where they were keeping you, the goal was to get him to come looking for you. Which he did, only he wasn't going to fall for their traps, he was going to save you. 

  Within an hour, the team was on the way to you. Friday had found the location pretty quickly and even though that should have been a red flag, the team didn't care. They needed you back.  

When they arrived, they walked in guns already in the air ready to kill anyone that got in the way, the team split up trying to find you. Bucky passed by a room and heard hushed whispers, it was the only room with a closed-door so he assumed that's where you would be. He walked into the room, finger already on the trigger of his gun. He quickly fired two shots, killing the two guards standing in front of you.

You. There you sat slumped over tied to a chair barely breathing. You had multiple fatal wounds but you were still fighting. "Guys I got her." Bucky said hardly about a whisper into his earpiece. 

"Hey wake up. Come on, wake up!" His voice cracked as the sight of you broke his heart, what on earth did they want to know that you were willing to die to protect?  "Please wake up!" That's when it dawned on him. This was Hydra, they wanted him and you nearly gave your life to make sure that didn't happen. 

The pool of blood was growing bigger every second that Bucky was distracted by his own thoughts until he finally snapped out of it and broke you loose, your body immediately and involuntarily falling into his arms. He picked you up and rushed you to the helicarrier and the team praying that you would be okay. As soon as he placed you down on a cot in the aircraft Sam was performing triage. 

His eyes didn't leave your form as Sam worked. He needed you to be okay, you were his everything. The helicarrier finally landed and you were being wheeled away faster than he could process. 

You were in med bay for three days before all the medication wore off and you finally woke up. Your hand was hidden between two larger ones, one flesh, one metal. 

"Took you long enough to find me." You chuckled as Bucky's head perked up to the sound of your voice.