#they should have been twins istg

[lux1fer]

guys the encanto brainrot is forming anyways mirabel and camilo are definitely besties esp when they were like 10

[dearmistermuse]

Shipping culture is a disease cuz why are you shipping a grown ass man with a teenage girl??

[jeahreading]

Year-End Moots Post

@glorfie394 - Honestly, i don't think i need to say much other than the fact that you were probably one of the very few people I consider my best friends irl. We've been talking less and less and I really hope we can talk more this year.

@1indigoisles You used to say that I shouldn't consider you a good friend because we haven't even known each other for a year. Well now it's been more than that, so we should also be really good friends, while we didn't talk for most of this year that's only because of academics and I can't promise it won't happen again but I really REALLY want to talk more with you, even if I take time responding once in a while.

@pb-dot - quoted from you, last year "You and I seem to mostly pass as ships in the night, but sometimes the distant sound of a foghorn can be just the thing, to torture the metaphor a little" Honestly you were the first blog I sent an ask to and your clockwork boy amazed me to bits, we're still ships but maybe not so much in the night anymore, dusk?

@mycatisatool - I still remember how we talked last year just a few days before New Year's and how I ranted to you, a random person. Talking to you has never and will never feel foreign, I hope we remain friends or even acquaintances for many more years to come!

@joytri I'm not sure what I should say except the fact that YOU'RE SO AESTHETIC, omg I wish i was even close to how pretty your blog and posts are dffsnbsjdhjf I so wish i could by your stationary T_T.

@chichihuahua1413 - MY SISTER FROM ANOTHER MISTER, nobody can convince me that we AREN'T twins separated at birth. UGH, I wish I had come to that gathering it's been SO LONG SINCE WE'VE MET. Wow, can you believe we've known each other for 9 years now?? seems absolutely surreal.

@clarablightt - we met unexpectedly and I am SO glad we did, we didn't talk much at first but now when we do I am happy the whole day. Sometimes we talk for hours and it feels like minutes, I wish you all the happiness in this world and someday we're gonna meet istg

@owlsandwich - O yem GEE, even though many years separate us talking to you has never felt that way, you talk with a young soul if that makes any sense, and of course, you being absolutely adorable doesn't help. Heard somewhere that pets represent their owner and seeing Miss Zero, you both seem carefree and loving. I hope you have the best year ever!!!!

@fangirlghost-19 - Found your blog in the most detective way possible hihi, but so glad I did, you're absolutely amazing and you just have that pizzazz not everyone has!

@shua-f4lmings Started talking to you because I really wanted to talk to someone who likes skz, no regrets, I am in LOVE with your aesthetic, that blog change was ICONIQUE.

@baxieblur-turnip Heyyyyyyyy we met on chance and babe that hexagone is hexagoning so hard, we need to talk more frrr

@ek-ajnabee-haseena hamari jugalbandi honi zaruurat hain!! we should sing because i just know it's gonna be so freaking good!

@hxart-of-thx-ocxan - bestie so aesthetic i quacking in my boots, looking at your blogs makes me want to float away on a boat into the ocean and never look back again 🤤🤤

@book-girl4evaaa - I'm pretty sure we first talked because I thought you were desi but you are AMAZING all the same, seeing you talk about the heather is adorable asf and you're fashion sense makes me jealous 😭😭

@dinnerbug - saw you on my side and you actually genuinely intrigued me so much I followed you and honestly you are one of my most curious mutuals. I'm pretty sure I once sent an ask to you telling you to drink less coca cola lmaoo

@zeherili-ankhein - CHINIIII!!!!!! top 3 best persons i've met on this app fr, the mark of true and honest friendship is that we KNOW we disagree on many things but that does NOT stop us from being such close friends, i don't think you realise how badly i want to be irl friends with you istg 😭😭

@no--net - If someone asked me one thing I wanted for you, I'd wish you could understand bangla, i just know I would recommend SO MANY feluda and byomkesh bakshi. 😫😫

@paloma-ascends-into-hellfire - I don't quite remember why we started following each other but I glad we did all the same, my first thought seeing you was literally that one song by Paris Paloma, solely because of the name, which btw hold you high HIGH in my mind!! Wish you the absolute BEST year ahead!

@anonymouse-is-here We haven't talked much but YOU'RE SO ADORABLE!!!! And also your blog is just 🤌🤌

@im-on-crack-send-help CHOTIIII!!!! you're like the sister i never had and i will kill to have 😀🔪. You should really be on less crack and more happiness cuz you deserve it :D. Also beware at night because I will come to you house to steal your eyes and hair and wardrobe, beware.......... ily uwu<3

@telugu-girl-13 - Honestly you're going to be the 2nd reason why I read pjo. You're blog gives me old b&w vibes and it's just top tier imo <3 adorable kwnekjfrnkjnr

@inhachoi0901 - we need to meet more often cuz YASS talking to you is so freaking fun, we also need to like sing together!<33(you also need to tell what shampoo you use)

@mi-stress-of-chaos - you're blog 🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇🙇 teach me how to be aeshtetic like you sensei. Also, I'm grabbing a bucket and taking the stress far FAR away from you. you need a vacation i swear<33

@shadowseductress - omg you're like really beautiful, like beautiful like I'm gonna start singing apsara aali and then promptly trip and fall on my face, you're so badass ngl i kinda idolize you 😀😀😭.

@shinchansbitch - you need a shiro in your life, one that talks fr. You're weird but like the really fucking awesome kinda weird. I need tips from you, we need to sit down and you need to tell me your autobiography babe.

@no-idea-where-i-am-lost - Oh my god you're like dangerously adorable, like i need to put orange traffic cones around you, when you and @wulfricnavy get married invite me to the wedding, ashirvaad aur atta dono deke jaoongi.(cutie pie cutie cutie pieeeeeeeeeeeeee)

@natures-marvel - Solving that scavenger hunt with you was so freaking fun!!!!! you're amazing to to talk to and I think we have an mutual want for episode three 😭😭😭

@ineffable-bastard - You're so cool omg, LOVE that fact that your hair always a different colour and please NEVER stop tagging me you're like my no.1 source of tag games and tag games are a straight path to love <33

@hellincarnation - honestly in terms of you, i just don't know what to say, you are kind, you are sweet, you care, you are cute and adorable and with just the correct amount of spice, you're like god's perfect recipe, we met late in the year but it's like we've knows each other for years, getting to know you made ,my year infinitely better and holy shit i just want to minimize you put you in a jar and carry you around with me everywhere, you're an A+ dipshit but also a brother, please take care of yourself and keep showing up so that we can fight more.<333

@mireyaaaaaaaaa - you're not just a ray of sunshine you're the whole freaking sun, you're like and endless energy reserve(stop hogging all the energy give us peasants some!!), you love book and I love book, and now I love you<333. Let's interact more this next year, and all the very best for your 10th you will do well I just know it!!

@fujimomozane - I'm pretty sure we haven't talked yet but, you're always there, for that I thank you(psst you afk art gives me life<33)

@your-reluctant-optimist - you, I'm gonna put you in a little terrarium and I'm going to keep your pocket sized everything in my pocket<3333333333333333

@randomx123 - Dada !! Your art is just *chef's kiss 🤌🤌🤌* and the durga pujo at your house is "bhalobasha", this year we didn't talk very much but whenever you're on my dash I always get happy :D. Don't worry shob kichu bhalo jabe, relax and keep doing what you think is best 😁😁.

@hj-lives-on - yo! i don't think we've talked about anything relevant lmao, but i will say good music taste and let's like, talk about things that are...normal :D

@lyrebirb - You are ADORABLE period. i need to know more about you i swear you are utterly fascinating, we should 100% talk more please!!!<3

@androgynous-bhajipav - i can't believe we became such good friends in this short time!?? Payneland brought together and our dymanic kept us together<33

@mersinia - Us meeting was the best coincidence of this year lmao, the amount of tumblr things we have in common is baffling, we REALLY need to talk more.

@shubhadeep385 - Gave me gangster vibes from the beginning and turns out i was right 😂. But you're also an older brother, like fr. In the proper sense lmao, you told me to never trust boys and also told me the boy I have a crush on is *chomu*, if this isn't proper bhai behaviour i dunno what is. Take care of yourself next bochor, I'm always there 😁😁.

@sittininthepoopchair - I also saw you on my side blog and your adorable ass dad vibes were just too adorable for me to ignore. I might not be your target or comfortable audience but you're absolutely amazing and Seeing you talk about your kids always has been smiling <3.

I'm soo sorry if I missed anyone, but if you are someone I missed just know I love you I love your blog you are adorable as fuck and HAVE THE BEST NEW YEAR EVER!!!!!<3333333

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

[starberry-cupcake]

I had time to read just one chapter but I wanted to make a recap anyway because the next chapter is like 360000 pages long (I may be exaggerating slightly) and I'm not sure if tomorrow I'll be able to update, so we're doing just gideon tonight (I have a feeling she'd love that wording)

previously, in harrowcita del 9:

this happened

CHAPTER 48

gideon tells harrow that she should have probably killed off mercygirl but she wasn't "thinking straight"

when has she, though

she decided to keep going further into the emperor's infested bolthole

she finds a lot of corpses of bees that have been killed already

and thinks harrowcita would have appreciated how bad and nasty everything looked

then follows the corpses and the scent of despair and murder and finds yandere twin at the end of it, standing like a pulp fiction killer

gonna illustrate with a susan denberg movie poster I find appropriate

yandere twin gets emotional and goes "harry, you're—"

to which gideon answers with "Alive, bitch"

gideon says that she "had long since ascended to the rank of double douchbag" which I consider another memorable instance of chad catching strays

and gideon has some Issues to Resolve with yandere twin

and by resolve, I mean fix them with Violence

she starts getting upset at all the things yandere twin did to harrow, which include "faked to your fucking face like she couldn't see a corpse that was obviously there"

I SAID I THOUGHT SHE WAS GASLIGHTING HARROW

gideon is very determined to fix all of this diplomatically

by beating the crap out of her

they start a banter that will be an incredibly entertaining thing to witness for the next pages

I can't make it justice in a recap tbh

I was just basically like

gideon will, in a very persistent way, throughout the conversation, tell yandere twin that harrow will never love her

yandere twin wants to give gideon funny nicknames, like who would do that, that's so disrespectful, I can't even fathom doing that at all

not to gideon, anyway

yandere twin says that mercygirl disappeared, augustine dropped out and gideon the first is trying to handle the stuff on his own, kinda?

she's surprised by the fact that mercygirl tried to kill harrow

"why did you ascend to be a lyctor?" "ultimate power—and posters of my face" "Fair"

they find augustine being useless in a hallway and, when he sees gideon's eyes, he panics and bolts out of there

these lyctors are all a joke istg each and every one of them

except for, I think it was cassiopeia, who had the ceramics collection, she's fine

well no, I don't condone planet murder for ceramics, but she gets a bit more points than the rest for them

there's a lot of talk about buttholes between gideon and yandere twin and I'm not above that, since I've been making bolthole jokes this whole time

gideon is living for the nudes in yandere twin's room

nobody is surprised about that

but there's no time to think about the nudes or buttholes anymore when yandere twin pulls out a harrow letter for gideon

gideon is going through it even before opening it, as are we

she finds her glasses and a note that says

"one flesh, one end"

"Fuck one flesh, one end, harrow" "Because all I ever wanted you to do was eat me. Which is, coincidentally, what your mother said to me last night"

always so poetic, ortus can't even get close to this level

gideon keeps telling yandere twin that she has no chance with harrow

"I hated those eyes in her face; I kept expecting to smell hair gel."

chad catching strays at every turn, I live

gideon explains about harrow being in love with ice cube barbie

"I know the signs of Nonagesimitis"

and yandere twin goes "All that fuss about the Saint of Duty. What a little hypocrite"

which I guess is because of the whole gideon the first and not!dulcinea thing? but that's like totally different form whatever this is???

there are layers to the corpse and lyctor relationships, you guys

it's a very wide spectrum

gideon says that her connection to harrow has to do with her being her cav which...ok, gideon

"Nonagesimus, you hating me always meant more than anyone else in this hot and stupid universe loving me. At least I'd had your full attention"

gideon rn:

yandere twin isn't deterred by all of this information and thinks harrow and her have an eternity to bond because they're lyctors

as if they weren't doomed right now but ok girl, go for your dreams, I guess

gideon threatens yandere twin not to be nasty with harrow and to get away from her with her nasty necro ways

yandere twin goes "What can I say, I love a little gall on gall"

which absolutely wins gideon over for a sec

"Reverse everything I just told you. Let's get married"

I knew the horny puns would help them bond

it's the little things sometimes that bring us all together

yandere twin says chad used to say she would "go to hell and get fucked" and you know what, fuck that guy

this is why he's still catching strays on a regular basis 9 months later

yandere twin wants to take gideon to see dr reverend emperor john

gideon goes "No, thanks. I'm good"

that's what I would have said, I approve

but she has no choice, because harrowcita is still gone and whatever's going on is ??????

so, out she goes to follow yandere twin to see this asshat

who maybe will, at the very least, give us a little more info on gideon's demigod status

fingers crossed

hope he dies

And that's it for this update!!! It's a short one but we're moving forward!!!

[nimmie-nugget]

~Hantengu Clones x Disgust Clone Reader~

Reminder: drink water and eat a full meal! Turn on dark mode if it’s currently night where you live~ wouldn’t want ya eyes to hurt right?~ —go to your profile and press the icon that’s on the VERY right, then click “General Settings” and scroll down a bit till you see “Color Palette” and there should be a few options for ya there!—

Warnings: ooc, not proofread, your not gonna like Karaku’s part, you might shit your pants

Note: I’ve had this in my mind for quite a long time!!! Google better be right for the kanji’s I have next to the clone’s names or Istg- This doesn’t mean I won’t stop doing Tokito twins content tho! I’ve been posting some other things instead of Tokito content so i just wanted to reassure~ don’t worry Tokito enthusiastic’s! Your emotion is disgust and your color is a mix of Yellow and Green~ Platonic ofc or else self love has a new meaning💀 Enjoy <3

Masterlist+Introduction

Masterlist

Sekido 怒

You CANNOT come to me and tell me this is not toxic. 💀🖕

Both of you argue the most out of the clones

There was a time your argument got WAY out of hand ‘n both of you started using your BDA like crazy!

Your always pointing out his lil flaws

Tho Sekido’s clothes are more tolerable.

You tease him but not as much as Karaku

Long story short both of you want each other to die 😣

“Why not you fix your hair before you start talking?”

“WE HAVE THE SAME HAIRSTYLE YOU BRAT!”

These two lines kinda giving sibling energy- 👆

Karaku 愉

Your grossed out by the fact he doesn’t wear proper clothing.

Just one touch and you go

“AHHHH!!! THIS IS UTTERLY DISGUSTING!”

Teases you A LOT. You and Sekido most likely teamed up once just to get him to shut up 😬

I think he just considers you a whore at this point-

Considering you always look at his abs ‘n shit but your just trynna tell him to wear some clothes in the most judging way possible 😭

How did he even miss that gaze full of disgust!? HECK it’s your emotion-

“I know you like this Y/n~” he says as he licks his hand. Bro’s a cat fr💀

You gave him the most disgusted look ever that day.

Urogi 幸

He’s too much for you to handle-

Your losing your sanity yeah tots like you didn’t lose it years ago😃

Let’s just say your BDA is to be able to mind control-

The moment he uses his BDA you instantly use your BDA on him if your near.

Tho despite you literally being disgusted of him in every single way, you still hold some respect for him.

“A,IS)EJWAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO” *Activated BDA*

You groan as you activate your BDA “I don’t have time for this! And keep ya mouth shut would ya?! Your voice is disgusting.”

Aizetsu 愁

You must admit he is quite tolerable then the other clones but that’s what makes it more disgusting.

You two have a pretty decent relationship.

Tho his outfit…it’s disgusting.

You don’t really hold…much disgust towards him???

Tho it’s just probably because he doesn’t annoy you much as the other clones.

OH YOU WERE VERY WRONG 😨

Your the only clone who doesn’t tease him or act serious.

That’s the explanation to him latching to your arm 24/7 👆💀

“UGHHH!!! GET OFF ME! YOUR FUCKING HEAVY!” You yelled.

“…Y/n don’t yell…that makes me sad…” he said clutching onto his staff

“This disgusts me. You disgust me.”

Yep, ya had to use your BDA to get him off.

But why ya gotta be so mean!!? >:(

But hey! Aizetsu’s confirmed to be a cat 😼

Zohakuten 憎

Let’s just say ALL of the clones are in a black void when Hantengu is in control 😶

Never though I’d say this but this relationship is WAY more toxic then yours with Sekido 😰

Your always commenting on how disgusting he is.

Roast him like a Roblox kid 😎

Tho you won’t be getting away just easily.

Considering he’s the STRONGEST of the clones you’ll def be beat to pieces 😭

“Ngh!…is that all you got? Your unreliable dragons can’t do shit to me! Utterly disgusting.” You say with a grin.

Hell you faced so many tortures that day- tho what scared ya the most was the fact that your regeneration slowed down 😰

Like- HOW!?!?

You swore to never go overboard with HIM ever again 🫡

[its-freaking-jordan]

Hello there :) I hope you’re having a fantastic day :) would it be okay if I could request headcanons of the upper moons + muzan finding out their lover has been reincarnated with no previous memories of meeting them 💙💙

Yess I cannn.

Also, Ima do Hantengu and his clones as well, including Zohakuten, but platonic, same with Daki and her brother.

Upper moons + Muzan finding out their lover has been reincarnated with no previous memories of meeting them.

Modern day AU

Muzan

Considering him and Kagaya are somewhat related, he works at the Kimetsu Academy, as Vice principal. I know Nakime is vice and Kagaya wife is principal but just role with me here.

Once he heard that there is going to be a new staff member, he didn’t care at all..until he heard your name.

He was completely skeptical about it actually being you at first, until he saw you.

Istg he was in denial upon hearing your name.

When you came in, his jaw dropped completely. He wanted to approach you, but he still had work to do until he was on break that’s when he was going to speak with you.

Once his break came, best believe he was running through them halls trying to find you. When he did, he found you alone in the library just reading a book.

You heard the library open, looking up to be faced with Muzan. You swore that he looked familiar but you couldn’t put your finger on it.”Umm..May I help you sir?.” Muzan looked dumbfounded that you didn’t recognize him but he sucked it up, to just have a small conversation with you. Once his break was over he excused himself and walked off. He was pissed honestly that you didn’t recognize him in the slightest but you remembered everyone else.

Kokushibo

One word..hate.

He blames himself every time he sees you.

He knows it’s not you fault, that you can’t remember him but he still takes the blame.

He never knew how to approach you, he had to take advice from Doma and Akaza..because he’s socially awkward..

How yall met was actually because of Muzan, he found you and, drove where ever you was staying at, back to Japan to meet up with the “Demons.”

But back on board.. He takes you out as a date, but you just don’t know it’s a date.

You both were sitting on a bench by a lake, watching a sunset. Kokushibo(Michikatsu) noticed the you kept on staring at him. He didn’t know if you felt uncomfortable around him or what. “Is there a reason why you are looking at me?…” “Sorry, Michikatsu..You kinda remind me of someone, you know that right?” Upon him hearing that, he had a little hope that you remembered him, but then again he has a twin brother that you can possibly be talking about which made his heart sink. But that doesn’t stop him from taking you on those dates.

Douma

He thinks your playing with him.

He still keeps that fake ass smile on his face, but on the inside he’s fuming.

Still makes efforts to talk with you, which he succeeded in.

Once he figures out that you actually don’t remember who he is, he literally stops when he was doing, stopped smiling and just stares at you.

“Ah you always know how to make me laugh Y/N…(he’s heartbroken.) How about I take you out to eat tomorrow?” “Sure! There’s a new place that opened up actually, I didn’t know who else to take, so why not you?” You both waved off goodbye, and he just felt like tearing up a little but he refused to let that happen. But you both grew into a new relationship in your new life and he wasn’t happier than before.

Akaza

He has a wife…Idk if I should do it poly or he broke up with her honestly… Poly

When he heard that Koyuki found a new friend who was new to Japan, he didn’t think much of it, but he was happy that his wife made a new friend.

One day Koyuki invited you over to her house, to introduce you to Akaza(Hakuji).

Once he saw you, he wanted to walk out right then and there, he was too stunned to speak. He tried to speak with you, but you didn’t know who he was, so you only did small talk.

It made his entire body itch.

You would often hang out with them whenever they go out.

You ended joining their relationship after a whole year of knowing them better.

Hantengu

He wanted to cry, when he saw you.

He had no hope that he would actually see you in a new life, until he was proven wrong.

I think he like too much of a coward to actually approach and talk with you, so I think he had his sons (The clones) to go in and ask for you. (He sent Karaku and Aizetsu)..

I think he would like to take you on small walks and buy you gifts here and there.

Yes he still shriek when he’s scared, so you would often comfort him at those times..

Sekido+Karaku+Aizetsu*Urogi

(poly-ish and Zohakuten sees you as a sibling)

They all were visibly upset, but Sekido was fuming.

Believe it or not but Zohakuten found you. He was leaving school, walking to his brother house and you offered to drop him off home..

Sekido is furious, he thinks your joking with him honestly.

Aizetsu is depressed. He would try not to break down in front of you, or the others.

Urogi is devastated. He puts on a fake smile around you, but when your not at their house he’s just frowning..

Karaku is flat out heartbroken. He’s wondering if he or his ‘brothers’ done something that you forgotten about them all.

Zohakuten is just mad at himself because his ‘sibling’ doesn’t remember him at all.

They will still make efforts to try to revive their relationships with you, without them showing any signs of sadness.

Aizetsu would just want to cry when he first approached you, and you didn’t remember him.

Gyokko

I kid you not this mf is a comedian and a artist. But you heard him say a few jokes to a crowd and then he saw you.

He was unsure if that was actually you until you introduced yourself to him.

He was shocked that you forgotten about him..

But he brushes it off thinking that you had a-lot of stuff to do so you probably forgot about a-lot of stuff, which he understands.

But it broke him honestly.

He still take you out whenever he does his art of goes out all his way just to make you laugh.

Like I said..Mf is heartbroken, whenever you leave from y’all little “dates” he cries almost all the time.

But yall slowly build your relationship, but he still feels sad that you forgotten about him and, feels as if something was still missing.

Daki and Gyutaro

They both were confused about the whole thing at first… Daki was happy honestly, she approached you all happy and bubbly but you just had a confused look on your face and, shoved her off not hard.

Gyutaro then apologized to you saying “I’m sorry man.. My sister thought you were somebody else.. But what’s your name? I never seen you around here?”

He lied obviously, he knew it was you, but he needed a lie to not embarrass his sister as much as she did already.

You actually believed him and then the three of you started to hangout at school normally.

Daki felt a certain way that you don’t remember either of them, she would just cross her arms over her chest and huff.

Gyutaro actually kept a his feelings hidden quite well around you.. Back when you were Demon/Human, you would always compliment him, because he was insecure about himself and it would boost his ego, along with his sisters as well.

Daki is terrible at hiding her current feelings, once you said that you didn’t know who either of them were, she was shocked.. and then cried, saying that you’re a liar and you were just playing games with them.

But now it’s almost the same as how it was in y’all previous lives, you still close to them but they still feel a certain way that you don’t remember a thing about them. But they are also happy that you don’t remember anything about being in a terrible world back then.

[lemmetreatya]

Hey Hey Hey! I guess that I have a simple request of FWB!Jotaro having passionate sex with his best friend in his lil twin size, college bed during a loud thunder storm and he like ends up confessing to her when he's a couple strokes in cause he's gazing at her while she rides him in all her ebony beauty and he's just like "Damn, I love this girl."

istg every time you send me a request its so fucking jewcy and really just gets my head drumming 😩😩 im sorry, i just really had to self indulge with this

stay (so i have you with me) — Jotaro x black!fem reader

Word count: 3k+

Content: afab!reader, fwb, smut, size kink, cowgirl, riding, vaginal smut, motorboating, nipple play, passionate sex, sex with feelings, breeding kink, babytrapping

Like clockwork, Jotaros pulling you into his embrace whilst already sitting up on top of his bed, and with swiftness, your bag is dropping to the ground as you slink down to join him.

Instantly you guide your legs over his thighs so that you could sit prettily within his lap. The first thing Jotaro does is lean forward to capture your lips in his.

He’s no stranger to your warm press — you yourself weren’t any less familiar to the mould of his mouth, but there’s a bit of resistance to his beckon on your end.

“I told you,” You mumble between kisses. “I’m just here to give your USB back…then I’m dipping.”

You make no effort to retreat, especially not with how Jotaro’s hands have already found themselves up the inside of your baggy tshirt that he’s pretty sure is his. Either way, he doesn’t care, as he’s already tugging the material off the top of your head.

“It’s raining.”

Jotaro grumbles, as if that’s any better explanation for you to ditch your prior intentions, but he believes it’s good enough reason, good enough excuse, to get you to reconsider.

“So?”

You sultrily say as you automatically begin to grind against his crotch. You don’t fail to acknowledge the new chill that dresses over your shoulders at the progression of no top covering your chest.

Jotaro makes a gruff noise.

You’re more than aware that irritating his already restricted cock through his trousers was what sets him off the most. For someone who was adamant they need not stay, you seemed more than willing to fire him up past the threshold of no return. But Jotaro doesn’t need to say anything, or reprimand you for intending the opposite of what your words were saying, because he knows your games.

It’s not like you play hard to get but it’s evident that you never allow him in easily.

Still, Jotaro plays along.

He’s come to realise that he doesn’t mind playing your games because you always ensure that you both end up winners.

“So stay.” His teeth nip against the hollow concave between your breasts.

You take a deep inhale at his initiative, your hands coming round Jotaro’s nape so that you could guide his head deeper into your chest.

“Okay.”

You softly reply, your verbal confirmation hinting that your mind was made up. But Jotaro knows your mind was made the moment you knocked on his door.

Before long, the both of you were stripped down to the mere mesh of warm exposed skin.

Undressing wasn’t easy but when was it ever? Jotaro’s raggedy twin size was way too small to fit the both of you let alone just him. He really should invest in a bigger bed, you occasionally tell him — one more suited to his height — but he says he doesn’t mind if his feet have to dangle over the edge a bit.

Still, it’s never been a hindrance for the two of you. It proves, seeing as you easily found yourself hovering over Jotaro’s tall standing dick, one of your hands guiding him towards the honeyed folds of your entrance whilst the other sturdied itself on the headboard besides his head.

God, he could never get tired of seeing you like this.

Jotaro’s ocean teal eyes glass over the silhouette of your body, drinking in as much as he could see. It wasn’t dark per se but the thundering storm outside didn’t help with the leverage for vision.

But Jotaro thinks to himself that it didn’t matter if the sun never granted him light to see you ever again. He’s sure that he’d still remember every curve and delicious shade to your darkened skin, your elysian form burned achingly on the insides of his eyelids and within the deep crevices of his mind.

Of course, Jotaro was just being dramatic; He really could just turn the lights on at any time, but Jotaro also guesses it was okay to be dramatic about you. You were worth being dramatic about.

“Fuuuuuck…”

Your soft curse pierces through the room as you finally lower yourself down onto the man’s cock. If you didn’t know any better, you’d think the lightning that crashed from outside his room had struck the both of you at the same time, causing electricity to strike through your bodies.

Jotaro didn’t didn’t mean to, but because of the shivering warmth of you around his cock, he accidentally bumped his head back too far and hit it against the headboard.

With an airy laugh, you endearingly caress the back of Jotaro’s head with one of your hands.

“You okay?”

Jotaro grunts in reply, his head keening forward in pain but all you do is soothingly rub at the tender spot. Even whilst trying to handle the colossal stretch of his girth, you still had concern for his wellbeing. Jotaro hates that he feels his heart (and cock) twitch at the sentiment.

“Just…move.” He dismisses as his hips are already in motion to buck upwards into you.

You try to steady yourself by pressing a hand to his bare chest, your laughter still radiant as you notice the signs of his eager embarrassment, but you try and adjust to his request. You continue to mould yourself down onto his shaft, his tip feeling every ridge of your ribbed canal.

”Easy, big boy.” You breath. “Just gimme a sec to adjust, alright? You’re not exactly the smallest in size.”

Jotaro didn’t voice it but you knew he had heard you. You could also tell that your implicit comments were going to his head — It was evident in the way he poked his tongue out of his mouth to wet his lips and the affirming grip his fingers buried into your flesh.

Now fully sat on top of his dick, you felt your stomach and walls concave inwards, as if wanting to create a second skin around him. Jotaro leaned his head back again. This time, more carefully, but he did so in order to be able to watch your face more diligently.

He’s not sure why, but he found himself entranced by the workings of your features. The soft curve of your nose, the way your eyelashes just about fluttered over your ebony cheeks or even how plump your now smudged glossed lips looked. As if nature was on his side for once, lightning struck again and the flash of light allowed Jotaro to catch a shadowed glimpse of your face above him and god, was he mesmerised.

Even whilst only temporarily cockwarming, your features were screwed as they already showed signs of being too fucked out to function.

The laboured breathing between the both of you mingled against one another but you were suddenly feeling a wisp of self consciousness at how fiercely the man’s eyes were peering at you. To save face, you dipped your forehead against Jotaro’s.

“Aite.” You whisper into his mouth but more to yourself.

It was obvious you were still preparing yourself to ride him. Even after all this time, his size would never be something you could easily adjust to and so in all his understanding mercy, Jotaro offers his support by running his thumbs over the skin of your stomach.

Weirdly, the reassuring gesture worked.

Rolling your lips inwards, you slowly lift yourself up quarter way off of Jotaro’s dick to then sink back down. At just that, the both of you let out the most desperate of moans.

Jotaro can’t help momentarily close his eyes, the pure sensation of a cunt wrapped around his cock would never get old but there’s just something about you, yours, that sent him reeling. How you felt so supple under him; your peppery whimpers only his to hear. Jotaro doesn’t think he's a possessive man; what wasn’t for him, wasn’t for him. If it was, then it’d find a way back.

But then when it comes to you, Jotaro finds that he’s jumping hoops just so the same principle doesn’t apply.

It doesn’t matter if you were meant for him or not, Jotaro needed you to be for him. He hates himself even worse now because he catches himself thinking that if anyone else was to have you, he’d probably feel heartbreak. But how could he feel heartbreak over someone that wasn’t his?

You only made little spouts of forward movement, the position not entirely the best for maximum speed, but the way you laid one hand back to the side of your tail bone so that you could move your hips more made the black haired man groan. Jotaro reached his own hands down but towards your ass — splaying open the meat of your hind to help give you more of a stretch, to help you take his fat cock.

And gosh, did that help.

You swivelled your hips forwards in a slow gyration. You didn’t even move upwards but rather you kept all of Jotaro inside of you as you grinded on him back and forth.

With a low moan, Jotaro met your stroke quota, his hips passionately grinding up into you as his eyes shot open.

“Fuck. Fuck, I love you.” He mumbled down towards where the both of your sexes met.

It’s only as the words left his mouth that Jotaro realised what he had said.

He felt your pussy clench over him at them and in retrospect, he regretted that he had imposed such a heavy statement onto you. But alas, as understanding as ever, you made the situation light hearted.

With a laugh humbled by his large girth, you hautily grinned down at the man.

“Pussy drunk already, huh?”

“Shut up.”

Jotaro’s face is screwed in annoyance but he reaches forwards to take a swipe at your clit. Instantly your jestering words are caught within the back of your throat and suddenly Jotaro has a sick smile on his face.

Taking that as a reigns for control, Jotaro plants his feet onto the mattress and his knees at 45 degrees. With one hand still grappling at your ass, Jotaro uses it to help lift you up and down over his cock. You take the aid with ease, using the leverage to lean forwards and simultaneously twerk over his dick every time you come into landing.

This helps a lot with pace and so once you’ve adjusted to his sizing, you both speed up the sex, the action becoming more robust and raunchier than before.

“Shit, I really wanna cum on this dick today.” You mumble.

You slightly lean backwards so that you can look down at Jotaro, his lusted out expression making his handsome face even more delectable. If you had time, you definitely wanted to ride it.

“Just wanna cream your dick up. Wet it with this gush ‘n’ make it all dirty so I can… fuck, so I can lick it clean for you.”

Jotaro lets out a grumbled huff through his nose. His concentration was focused on bopping your cunt over his cock but he was listening, you know he was, because the way he was gripping your ass cheeks was with deterministic attitude of a man in agreeal.

Still, you wanted to hear the word from the mouth of the bull itself.

“You gon’ let me do that? Gon let me make a mess on you then clean it up?”

Jotaro makes another grunt of a sound, his attention briefly unhad but not for long as he takes the time to glance up at you.

“Do what you want.”

With a fresh new wave of wanton, you dance up and down onto the man’s slick dick. Your concentration was so fierce, the black haired man thought you’d scream at him. But alas, your voice cooed only the sweetest commands — his proof of ownership.

“Yeah, take this pussy, baby. It’s all yours. Use it like a personal fleshlight if you have to, fuck. Just use it.” You almost sob.

Jotaro loves how dirty you speak to him, how your rumbustious attitude riles him up. If anything, he loves watching the two of you fuck even better — the contrast of your beautiful brown to his cream tan; it’s ilicit and works more than too well together. It’s addicting, it’s sexy.

But despite having you keen over his fat cock, Jotaro wants more of you.

The man bends his head forward, mouth lax as he makes several attempts to latch his warm mouth around your bouncing nipple. He succeeds on the third go but once he’s there, it makes all the difference.

A new type of glorification leaves your mouth at the raw feeling of Jotaro swirling his wet tongue around your now perky nub. He suckles and bites — but never too hard — always just enough to send electrifying strikes throughout your synapses.

“Fuck, Jojo.” You whisper, the heat buried within the pits of your stomach brewing by the second.

At the mention of his nickname, Jotaro looks up at you with furrowed eyebrows and darkened eyes. You know he doesn’t like it, but he refuses to unlatch himself from your breasts to complain and so he looks anything but intimidating.

Still, it makes him look all the hotter. Like an angry yet domesticated canine trying it’s best to establish dominion. He wanted power but he was too conditioned to your heed; he’d eat anything from the palm of your hand.

“Ouuuuh, yes, yes, yes, yes. Shiiiiit, Jojo right there. Yes, right there. Right there, baby, right there.”

Jotaro briefly glances down to see how there’s already a frothy ring of cream around the base of his dick. You were always so juicy and excessively wet when it came to him. If anything, he wonders whether you were ever this messy for anyone else?

He wouldn’t admit it, but he absolutely hates thinking about someone else having you.

You’re already whimpering in his ears despite having just got here and still using the name he so called ‘hates’, but Jotaro can’t even get himself to feel angry at you. Not when he thinks about just how much he wants you.

“Ouh, fuck, Jojo. I’m so close.” You drone.

He moans back but his voice is grumbly, despite how deep he’s still fucking into you. Another flash of lightning outside contours the shape of your body and reminds the man that he’s particularly fond of you — more so than other people.

“You’re so di-disobedient sometimes.” He ponders against your breast.

And Jotaro suddenly realises that he wants to keep you closer than just an occasional cockwarmer despite your mischievous strides.

Your head was dipped, belly caving and pussy walls clenched — no recollection of the words Jotato was muttering at you. Although none of it mattered as feelings of ecstasy started to race up your spine and branch out to your limbs and the orgasm that you knew was coming couldn’t be delayed any longer.

You needed to get him out.

“Jota…Jo’daro… I said I’m close.”

“I know.”

The man however kept on pounding into you, the sound of his balls slapping viciously against his ass and your sexes slightly out of sync.

A small whimper leaves your throat at Jotaro’s lack of recognition.

“I-i-i-it means pull out—”

“I know.” Jotaro growls at you.

Your cries become more exuberant as Jotaro doesn’t relent or let up. He continues fucking up into you, the tightening of his balls indicating his own impending orgasm but he doesn’t voice it.

He has no need to, especially not with the hidden corrupt intentions he had for you.

“I need to have you…for myself. I can’t let anyone else…have you or brand you…spoil you.”

Jotaro lifts his head up to kiss just underneath your chin but he doesn’t land them because as he’s nearing his limit, his physical control is faltering too — especially because he’s so excited for the gift he has for you.

“I’ll give you…fuck, fuck, I’ll give you my seed. Then no one else…no one else can even think of touching m-my property. My family.”

It’s too hazy, too exhilarating to comprehend what Jotaro’s telling you but you know it’s something possessive. Something that is an attempt to solidify your place in his life.

Your moans become more feathered, heightened in pitch as you end up stilling your pussy in a tight clench and then rutting yourself to completion over the man’s cock. A crazy warm warmth spreads all over your body, mouth lax as you keen forward in eye rolling orgasm.

As your body jolts in sporadic washes of post-orgasmic waves, the black haired man’s eyes almost pop with how possessive your clenching pussy walls keep him connected to you.

That was pretty much all Jotaro needed before he himself was stilling inside of you, hips flushed to your ass as he firmly pumped his hot cum straight into your womb — no denial that it would conjure with your eggs and form a sign of marriage between you both.

As the two of you came down from your high, the settling feeling of what Jotaro had enforced on you went about unsaid.

You didn’t even decide to unlatch yourself from Jotaro’s cock. You think maybe if you let him think long enough about what he did, he’d unplug himself from your painted canals, begrudgingly get up and chuck on a pair of joggers and his black anorak as he mumbled something about ‘being back in five’ as he goes to retrieve you ‘an alphabet plan’ from the convenience opposite the road.

But he doesn’t.

Instead, all he does is soothingly rub a hand up and down the expanse of your back as he coerces you into a litter of slow and sensual kisses, his cock occasionally hiccuping inside of you.

And you comply because you believe Jotaro, more than anyone, knows what he’s done.

This was your best friend you were talking about. If this was what he wanted, then who were you to deny him? Sure, it might have complicated a few things but you’d deal with that crossroad when need be.

If anything, the rain outside reminded you that really, you could be anywhere else, but instead you had chosen to be right there and then within a special friend’s particularly warm and filling embrace.

[mymoshangthoughts]

i knew with my pattern of fandom it was inevitable before i became obsessed with the og owners of the bodies. i was already highkey obsessed with shen jiu, but i knew it would be only a matter of time before i started to hyper fixate on og!shang qinghua, but man, when it hits, it hits me like a freight train lmfao

i should rlllyyyy stop reading transmigration stories, this always happens to me pfff

gonna just obsess about sibling au's, as is my normal comfort food, and curse the author for not giving me their fucking NAMES so that i could just say "shang jingqi" and have everyone automatically know that i mean og!shang qinghua, the same way that i can just say shen jiu (very fucking grateful i got that at least man)

that said, not necessarily sold on "shang jingqi" as a name for him 🤔it was just kinda a random name i threw out for convenience sake. i saw "shang hua" and "shang houhua" and that one could work, altho im not 100% sold idk

this is why i just wish there was a damn canon name for me to obsess about 😭i overthink fan-names A LOT and i just want to have a canon name. or at least a super commonly accepted fanon name urrrggghhhhhhhh

and like

it's the worst with shang qinghua oki

because it's not even JUST trying to figure out a birth name that satisfies me. because it's like, three fucking names i need to figure out

og!shang qinghua's birth name

airplane!shang qinghua sibling au birth name

airplane's og name from his og world

technicalllyyyy i can prolly combine the last two (and i intend to) but it's still kinda this nagging plot hole in my head that BOTHERS me, because obviously he would have a different name!! oargjauhtiehri

until i see something better though, my answers are gonna be

shang jingqi (no meaning to this, head empty, jingqi is a cute name and i like him so i gave him a cute name)

shang feiyu (yes im trying to be punny with "fei" being from "feiji" (airplane), altho not using that character. i miiiight wind up leaning into the pun 100% and just go with feiji even tho thats a really fucking weird name, maybe make the excuse that the system is making fun of him)

????????????

i might just lean into airplane can't remember his og name because man, this is giving me a headache. istg i have not have been this frustrated since the time i was trying to figure out twin names for lcf twin!cale au's. and like, i had a lot of names to choose from back then! the big problem back then wasnt that the characters didnt have names, but rather that og!cale didn't "own" any of those names in the eyes of the fandom so it created confusion lolol

anyway im getting off point

back to babbling about og!shang qinghua sibling aus

i'm thinking of three types i wanna explore

twin au's. already dipped my toes in it and i like twin aus. it's my normal go-to for this sort of thing lol

older brother og!shang qinghua. ngl, people sold me with their fanart LOL im a weak man to adorable fanart oki

adopted brother au: oki bear with me, but what if baby airplane just gets... dropped into pidw with no family and he gets adopted by one of his scummy canon fodder villains? no blood relations for reassurance (not that airplane gets all that much reassurance from blood relations) just some one who has no obligations to him, who airplane KNOWS has a shitty personality, choosing to adopt him and take care of him? get found family'd, idiot! i just love airplane being the family that someone actively CHOSE

oki so the next thing i need to consider is og!shang qinghua's personality, because lbr, the barebones we get from svsss is noootttt a lot lmfao (og!shang qinghua extra when?). butttt from what we do know, he's supposed to be the sort of person who would work for two bosses, backstabbing either one or both of them

there is actually the potential for og!shang qinghua to be a bit of a su xiyan in this regard 🤔because of the lack of information we have, it's possible he could have actually been a double agent working for cang qiong while pretending to work against it. im not sure i like this path, bc im ngl, i kinda like the characterization of him being a self-serving greedy worm (i have a weakness for characters who are like this okay). but it's worth considering. he could also be playing the game from all angles. cang qiong think he's infiltrating the northern desert on their behalf, mobei-jun thinks he's infiltrating cang qiong on his behalf, and ultimately, og!shang qinghua is 100% his own man who's backstabbing them all LOL

there's also the uncle of it all to consider. linguang-jun is the most viable ally for anyone who might want an upper hand against mobei-jun, and if og!shang qinghua is gutsy enough, he might consider working for him

there's also the possible iteration of him thats 100% cowardly victim who literally never had a choice in any of it and died pathetically after being betrayed by everyone. again, the lack of actual canon info about him makes this possible? and it wouldnt not match up with airplane's pattern with tragic villains. that said, im not a fan of this route bc frankly i'm here for villain-fucking, not for "he was actually the most uwu baby of them all!!!" but i gotta acknowledge the possibility of this category, to actually take into consideration og!shang qinghua's personality. if we think of airplane's pattern with villains tho, none of them are absolutely innocent or kind. shen jiu is undeniably a victim of his circumstances annnnnddddd he also tried to rape ning yingying, so clearly he's not a good dude

there is also a line in the novel where shen yuan says that "shang qinghua was written the same way as shen qingqiu", specifically with regards to being lustful. so it's very likely that og!shang qinghua is into brothels and sex and might be a bit of a horndog

so

with consideration to the above (and anything i forgot that people wanna remind me of because i have the memory of a peanut) the things i wanna consider for his personality are

self serving and greedy (personal preference but it's canon compliant so shhhh)

slutty in at least one way (very likely brothels considering the context and very likely hetero in those slutty ways)

a very good liar (a necessity of the position of a double agent)

good at logistics (thats how you become the an ding peak lord after all)

probably has a tragic backstory (as is airplane's penchant with canon fodder villains)

had a bad relationship with mobei-jun (otherwise canon events dont make sense lol)

alright then theres shipping thoughts to be had >:D bc im shipping scum and this is who i am inside

theres the obvious og!moshang and im definitely here for that, but my airplane x mobei jun obsession is currently consuming me from the inside out sooo lolol so very likely to do some ot3 shenanigans with them at the moment if anything, which works for aus where theyre not related, but since im crawling my way down the shang sibs rabbit hole (and im just not much of an incest shipper lol), i'll table that one for now

shen jiu is worth thinking about, put my slutty canon fodder villains together and see what happens >:D

liu qingge could be hot (also ot3 with liujiu cuz my obsessesion with liujiu is only matched by my moshang obsession LOL). definitely love pairing liu qingge with morally corrupt characters who make him scream "WHY DO I LIKE YOU?!?!?"

sha huling might be kinda hot ngl, i could see them scheming together and also og!shang qinghua resenting the fuck out of luo binghe that he's got the woman of his dreams on retainer and she aint even his main squeeze

wei qingwei is a particularly tantalizing option bc if he was also in charge of the rescue party in pidw, then theres the potential for og!shang qinghua (in contrast to our lil airplane) actually feeling super relieved to see him and developing a really cute "my hero" crush on him~ this is something i will definitely percolate on. might become my fav pick tbh bc the more i think about it, the more i like it >:D

luo binghe is also potential, tho it doesnt fizzle in my brain the same way that bingplane does lol. but i could see potential there

zhuzhi-lang would be pure cracky "i like these two characters so i think they should kiss" LOL. but bear with me, the terminally loyal zhuzhi-lang paired with the terminally disloyal og!shang qinghua equates to a lot of conflict and i am HERE for that oki like the sheer incomprehension of "why the fuck would you be loyal to them at the cost of yourself?? are you stupid?" vs "how can you be such disloyal scum??? what is wrong with you?" (except politer bc zhuzhi-lang lolol) is a combination of contrasting values that i adore to see in a ship

obvs theres airplane x og!shang qinghua and again, i'm here for that, but im currently in sibling au hell so i'll table that for later, but believe me that i see it

qi qingqi, look, my only justification for this one is "it would be hot" and i stand by it LOL

thus far, upon considering my options, i still think i like wei qingwei the most but thats mainly bc i have a canon basis to branch off of and while i love crack (clearly) i also like having a jumping off point. after that, i think it's a tie between zhuzhi-lang and sha hualing (those shang bros sure do love their demons LOL)

conclusions:

og!shangqinghua's birth name is shang jingqi

brother aus are very good, airplane is the best bro a villain could have

he is a greedy, lying, and self serving person and also at least a lil slutty with a tragic backstory

he should totally fuck wei qingwei, zhuzhi-lang, and sha hualing

i am satisfied with my considerations lmao altho i'll prolly make a whole post about how i envision the sibling dynamics between the shang bros because i have THOUGHTS

[lexicorp]

Transformers Earthspark: Another Place, Another Prison

Unicron is ultimate cosmic boogyman and it's great and I rlly couldn't resist getting him in the lore-

The opening scene for this chapter is decently inspired by that one scene in TF kingdom with the disk bs. I like giving him both those intense and subtle notes. It's really the TFP vs Armada for me again lol.

Other than that fun stuff, the rest of the chapter is Starscream interacting with Jackie and a couple of the Maltos. Our lad is struggling so much with all the slag he's got in his processor. It was /so/ gd tricky writing this chapter with it's style of pacing and reflecting his fragged up mental state with him being dissociated and jumping between points in time in his head. Navigating the other's character's behavior and his towards it is certainly wild af too istg.

This chap got so long-

Previous Chapter: Obligation

First Chapter: The Need For Read

Next Chapter: Distractions

Chapter 14: Not All Scars Can Be Welded

There was this surrounding, choking, all consuming pressure. Then, Starscream’s optics fell upon the planet-sized force looming before him. He was capable of nothing but to stand in limbo amongst the shards of metal, rock, and dim stars who were the only promise of anything else beyond this carnage.

It was Unicron. 

This couldn’t possibly be real. The Planet Eater, Chaos Bringer, harbinger of doom, and twin to Primus himself. Here? Now? Impossible. Yet his cursed spark dared to foolishly argue otherwise.

Starscream squinted into the light emanating from the serrated pit that illuminated him, and someone else. Meridian. That wretched creature in the state he’d been when he should have perished. Hardly human at all, with all his disgusting augmentations, combining what bit of organics he had left within his mechanical frame. It was impressively worse than his original body. Mandroid indeed. He should have stayed in that smelting pit where he belonged. 

Unfortunately, Meridian remained. Talking with Unicron. As if the pest could offer anything to a god. 

What were they saying?

Against Starscream’s better judgement, he attempted to drift closer. Although he still made certain to find a sizable asteroid to hide behind. Perhaps they were distracted, and hadn’t noticed him yet.

“There is no need for you to come here yourself, Unicron.” Meridian was apparently attempting to uselessly plead his case. “With what power you have given me now, we are perfectly capable of ridding Earth of any remaining Cybertronians. That is all that matters.”

His answer was a chaotic cacophony of hissed whispers that could hardly be parsed out from one another. Some words. Some screams. Some cracks that Starscream could practically feel what, or who, they belonged to. The noise attempting to strangle his processor with its weight. 

Then, a proclamation distinguished itself with cold certainty. 

“You fail to comprehend my purpose. Meridian.” 

There was a chilling silence. Starscream had gripped his optics and forced them shut. But he could still see it. Those whispers too, still reverberating in his audials.

…

Then suddenly came Meridian’s voice in turn, croaking out his demand yet again. The ignorant fool. “Your purpose is no concern of mine. I only need you to help me destroy those Transformers. MY purpose, is to rid the human race of their vile influence. The destruction of Earth as a whole is hardly an option. If you want to devour a planet, why don’t we go for Cybertron? Surely that would be more worthwhile.”

 “I will spare your pathetic planet, IF…you destroy the Matrix.”

The Matrix? Why would Unicron make any sort of bargain with this mandroid? Did the Matrix of Leadership hold power that threatened even the Chaos Bringer himself? 

A flicker of amusement came to Starscream at the thought of Unicron being afraid of a glorified, privileged trinket. What, would the Prime opening his chest plate to flashbang them into oblivion all it would take? He couldn’t help but laugh. Out of all the powers of the Primes, and Primus himself; that was what the Planet Eater was fixating himself on now? Sure, Optimus Prime was insufferable, but Starscream thought it absurd that he’d again be set to be a savior against the oldest evil in Cybertronian history. 

“Of course.” Meridian stated with falsely placed confidence and a trace of annoyance. “I’ll make sure to leave nothing left of them, this time.” 

Such promises. 

Did this arrogant hunk of flesh and scrap really believe he had the capability of doing such a thing? Starscream hadn’t been able to destroy the Autobots with the power the corrupted stone had given him. How dare this fool think he could do any better. What advantage did he think he had? The pathetic glitch was only a figment of Starscream’s impressive imagination. With what army? With what weaponry? Clearly Mandroid’s plan had only gone so far as “I want them dead” and nothing towards how he was even going to accomplish it. If he thought that he’d suddenly be able to single handedly take the Prime and the others down–just because he had weaseled his way into Starscream’s circuits by some will of Unicron–he was going to have a rude awakening. 

Starscream wasn’t going to be a part of this nonsense. This story his processor was concocting in his recharge this time was certainly a unique one, but hardly believable. He was quite certain now that this was only an odd nightmare. Visions of Unicron and this Mandroid conspiring some slag about the Matrix? Please. Ridiculous. How unrealistic can you get?

He didn’t need to stay here. How did lucid dreaming work again? Did he only have to think of a door or–

“S t a r s c r e a m.”

Meridian was gone. Starscream was now where he had been instead. Right in front of Unicron. And getting closer. Like he was the next in line to be devoured. 

Unicron spoke Starscream’s designation like it was a javelin made of frozen titanium. Sent straight through the spark, and pulling him forward as it remained locked inside his frame. Forcing his attention directly into that Primus damned Pit. Clicks of those jagged spires within Unicron’s maw were like ticks of a metronome for the encore of harsh whispers echoing from within it. Talking directly to him. The chaotic bouts of knowledge urged themselves to be known in a way a parasite ached to feed on its host. Taking more than anything that was given. It constricted any of Starscream’s own thoughts with only this visceral, impending promise. With a command that aimed to carve its way into his code. 

He didn’t want to hear it.

It wasn’t real. 

Unicron wasn’t real. He refused to believe any of what he was seeing would happen. It couldn’t. He wouldn’t be a part of it.

“Y o u  W I L L  s e r v e  y o u r  p u r p o s e.  T h e r e  i s  N O  e s c a p i n g  i t  S t a r s c r e a m.”

No.

This…WAS real.

And yet. As his optics and audials burned and glitched wildly to spite him. As his vents refused to open. As he felt the sickening sound of the entrance of the destroyer’s mouth closing behind him. 

Starscream ripped his helm from his servos, and as soon as he truly witnessed what was inside with unwanted clarity; he woke up.

***

Starscream shot straight to attention with a sharp gasp paired with an intense need to transform, and jet out of wherever he was now. But when he attempted to do so, his systems countered the command as soon as the blasted thing on his ped got in the way. Instead, his thrusters sputtered and launched him back against a wall.

The crimson lightning was flickering erratically, some of it taking on an oddly more violet hue. Starscream attempted to focus on his servo, feeling out the solid surfaces at his wings and peds. Then began refocusing his optics to what was around him. The berth in this ridiculous room the Malto’s made him. The posters with his seekers and that one with Megatron getting shot in the faceplate. That stupid Bumblebee lamp he now recognized he held a shard of. There were those two human adults, too. Twitch, and the hum of her rotors. She was holding a rather protective stance in front of her guardians... 

Then there was Wheeljack. “Primus Starscream, ya always know how ta make an entrance, don't cha?” His servo was extended carefully at a respectable distance with no weapon in sight. “Ya really gotta stop tryna break my things as soon as I fix ‘em, y’know.” Wheeljack nodded to the device that’d interrupted Starscream’s escape. Right…

He stared blankly at the servo and the mech attached to it. There was a mech attached to it. Starscream was in the Malto’s underground residence. The future still plagued his processor, no better than the past. Yet what he needed, was the present. He needed to know that THIS was what was real. No Megatron. No Unicron. 

Starscream’s wings shuttered and he managed a shaky in-vent. That strange strategy Hashtag had shown him, could only do so much it seemed. It was painfully hard to focus. He felt numb. While at the same time like he could purge his tank at one wandering thought. So, he tightly gripped the sharp fragment of that porcelain lamp until he could feel a light drip of energon from his digits, while he lifted the other in an undecided attempt at taking Wheeljack’s offer. Part of him wanted to know with concrete certainty that it wasn’t an illusion. Another dreaded the thought of the potential, undesired answer. 

So he hesitated. Locked in place. His gaze focused on scrutinizing Wheeljack’s faceplate. Searching for a clear solution that could give him the confidence to take that chance. It shouldn’t be so hard. Starscream was air commander, and leader to the Decepticons; he could take a mech’s fragging servo. It’s never killed anyone before. Wheeljack was harmless enough anyway. Unless he had a shock switch in his palm or somehow rigged it to blow. Although the former sounded far more like something Skywarp had done. There should be nothing to worry about. Acknowledging this mech’s non-threatening gesture wouldn’t be the end of the world.

“You alright…? Are ya gonna take my servo or what? Did ya knock your processor loose again?” Wheeljack fidgeted as he was apparently not too fond of the staring contest that Starscream was clearly winning. “Y’know ya gotta get up for me ta take a look at that.”

Starscream shuttered his optics and finally took hold of Wheeljack’s servo, who instantly helped pull him up from his awkward position. Even moving to intercept when Starscream faltered with a wave of dizziness. It was odd. Not just the uncomfortable air of concern, but the physical contact itself. He was led back to the berth to sit down again, and he began to recognize the toolbox and energon pack hovering nearby on a cart. That was why Wheeljack was here. Starscream had gotten into an altercation with Megatron, of course he’d needed repairs…

He released the lamp shard and remembered how his servo hadn’t been there in his last memory file before he went offline. Now, the only thing wrong with it was his minor, self-inflicted cut. Starscream distantly wondered if his buzz saw had been replaced. When he attempted to transform it out–nothing. Unfortunate, but unsurprising. 

Wheeljack took the shard and gave him a firm look. “I’m gonna need ya ta say something Screamer. I ain’t exactly an expert on processor damage, but your helm was pretty banged up there. You can hear what I’m saying right?” Twitch, too, flew up to land on Wheeljack’s shoulder and held an inquisitive, expectant expression.

Starscream looked up at them and attempted to operate his vocalizer. He couldn’t have forgotten how to speak. That would be absurd. But he couldn’t think of the correct words. What was he supposed to say?

 “Uuuuhh…” After a ridiculous moment of frustrated confusion at such a simple thing, something clicked, and he finally remembered. “Yes! Yes. I am…present. I’m fine. I’m sure your repairs were quite sufficient, Wheeljack. Although I will say I am surprised I have not found any experimental augmentation in place of my servo after your tinkering. How unlike you.” He smirked at the inventor with an air of disappointment, and a hope for any sort of entertaining conversation.

There was a predictable glint in Wheeljack’s optic at the prod. “Oh you bet I thought about it!” He pulled up his holoscreen and sifted through a slew of blueprints for potentially devastating or overly equipt servos. “Like this one! How cool would it be if you could have a built-in grappling hook?? A magnetizer ray? A projectile shield generator? Or! Or, get this. Each digit could activate a different function if you clicked it right! You could have a little blowtorch, a welder, a scalpel, a screwdriver with adjustable sizes, a laser pointer, a tiny little gun that shoots paint or condensed notecards–”

“Oh!” Twitch inserted herself in front of the screen excitedly to select a servo of her choice. “Don’t forget this one! A super stinger based off of Bee’s! It’d stasis lock ‘em for twice the time, and could have melty laser ultra charge mode!!”

Wheeljack sighed wistfully. “Aw but Prowl didn’t want me givin’ ya any more weapons. It’s a waste of a perfectly good opportunity to upgrade if ya ask me. I for one think that they should have allowed me to at least beta test my newest blaster model. I mean, what’s the fun in fixin’ things if ya ain’t gonna make em better?”

Starscream examined his plain servo again. He didn’t particularly have any urge to change it. He only wanted his own gear back. All the same, such additions could be quite interesting. “I couldn’t agree more. It truly is such a shame that they would continue to restrict your creative instincts in such a way. I certainly wouldn’t be opposed to offering my services, if you so wish.”

“Eh, eh. Don’t make it sound like a deal now. You know I can’t resist testing my tech; but even if it pains me, and I don’t like it, Prowl might have a point.” Wheeljack paused as he seemed to only be attempting to convince himself of this so that he wouldn’t defy his superiors orders. He squinted his optics, “About the weapons at least…”

“Yeah, I mean, Scream can’t really be trusted with a firearm—But you know who totally CAN handle it Dad 2??” Twitch fluttered next to Wheeljack’s faceplate with pleading, mischievous optics. “Me. It’s me. Please. I want a literal firearm. I need it.”

 “Oh nuh uh, young bot.” Dorothy spoke up as she came closer to them from the door, and looked up with a stern glare. “You are not getting a flamethrower or some unstable laser arm attached to you. Do you realize how dangerous that'd be? No. You are perfect the way you are. No experimental upgrades.”

Starscream scoffed. “What, do you not find her capable of operating anything more than a meager base form blaster? If she is not given the opportunity to even attempt it, it is quite insulting to assume. Sure, Wheeljack’s device could backfire, melt the rest of her arm off, or send her flying into oblivion; but isn't that the thrill of discovery? Why not let it play out.” He looked to Wheeljack expectantly. Such a remark would surely get him revving. If not in some form of defense, then perhaps he’d even agree with him. The explosive technician had always been one for pushing the boundaries of practicality. And, he knew it often came with the sacrifice of equipment through trial and error. A loss of a limb was nothing if only an annoying inconvenience. It’d be an informative experience for the little drone. 

Instead, Dorothy’s stupid conjunx inserted his extension to her opposition. “While I am just as excited about the idea of the stinger of the future–that does not sound safe. Couldn't you test it out from a distance? Or without attaching it to yourself?” 

Wheeljack hesitated a moment in contemplation. That was far more boring than his sudden bouts of incessant rambling. “I suppose my drones respond quite well to field testing. I don't see why not. Twitch could still be my assistant, from a safe distance.” He winked at her, and Starscream felt a touch offended at being ignored. 

He glared at those disgusting humans and an image flickered in his processor. Meridian as he was with G.H.O.S.T, and Mandroid as he was in the end. He was there one moment, and gone the next as Starscream adjusted his optics. Primus he needed to realign his attention on whatever stupid slag was being discussed beside him…

Twitch was apparently happy with that compromise, and now was energetically whirling around them in her alt mode. The others seemed to find something amusing. Then his servo was lifted by some force he didn’t immediately connect the source of. He felt that constricting, weightless pressure again. He tried to focus on the material being wrapped around the insignificant injury, but his digits felt strange. He gripped the edge of the birth until he could finally feel the scrapes his claws dug into the metal.

The clicks in his audials suddenly turned to snaps of another mech’s digits. “Hey now, stay with us here Screamer. I really gotta take another look at your helm.” Wheeljack reached for a scanner and dent detailer. “Twitch asked ya a question.”

Starscream blinked to shake the odd lighting and blurriness from his optics. “What?” 

“I asked what happened with you and Megs!” Twitch abruptly popped up far too close to his faceplate with her servos on her hips as she leaned forward.

He flinched and instinctively pushed her away. “Why don’t you ask him? It’s not as if you will believe my tale of events anyway.”

Twitch scoffed with a rev of her rotors and crossed her arms in a huff. “Maybe I will if you’re gonna be a jerk about it!”

“Hold on Twitch.” Dorothy of course needed to assert her own opinion on the matter. Clearly she was gearing up a backhanded affirmation of her bias for her pet warlord. “Starscream, we still want to know your side on the matter. If we’re going to make this work, we need to be able to trust each other, be honest, and work it out when bad things happen.” 

Or…not? Why would Megatron’s agent be interested in playing the part of an impartial judge? What was this slag? Make WHAT work? He still couldn’t figure out what this even was! They say one thing, then flip around with some other fragging angle like they couldn’t even decide what they’re own intentions were! He wasn't the one misunderstanding these things. Right? No. No, they just…were trying to mess with him. This was some sort of trap. 

He’d love to play along, really. His first instinct had been to do just that when he’d first entered this little box of familial load of scrap. But it was an impossible charade to keep up for long. They wouldn’t believe him. Especially if he constantly got hung up on every little nonsensical sentiment they threw at him.

Starscream again found difficulty in parsing out the words from all those chaotic bouts of data in his processor. “...You can’t be serious.”

“Why not?” Wheeljack retorted plainly as he reached over to meddle around with Starscream’s helm. “The whole point of this is for ya to eventually come on our side, right?”

“You expect me to believe that’s what you all are doing this for!?” He smacked away Wheeljack’s servos and attempted to stand, but only fumbled a bit of distance between them on the berth. “All for your sudden interest in becoming allies!? This only came about because you realized that I wouldn’t remain a passive prisoner so easily. With whatever had infected my spark from Quitus’ blasted Emberstone, you’re afraid of me. Admit it. And you couldn’t think of any better way of keeping me in line than this slag! I’m not stupid. You can’t–” He was shaking again with those sparks of lightning being incapable of deciding whether they wanted to be crimson or violet, and he choked out a laugh. “You can’t make me believe this again. I…I know Megatron only wants me around to–to be his–I–all any of you want is to control me for your own goals! Well I don’t! And if I said that I was only trying to gain some distance between myself and that deranged tyrant, you’d call me a coward. If I said that I had only defended myself, you’d justify his actions like everyone always does. Because, oh right, it must have been Starscream’s fault–Megatron never lashes out unprovoked! I TOLD him to leave me alone! HE NEVER LISTENS!”

Wheeljack held his servo’s up defensively. “It’s alright Starscream, calm down. We’re listenin’, promise. Ya don’t needa yell. I’m right next to ya.”

Starscream put his own servo up to his helm and forced his vents to cycle in a rhythm he tapped out with a digit. He was calm. He was a professional at keeping his Primus damned composure. They were the unreasonable ones. 

But…it wasn't growing into a screaming match. Wheeljack wasn't throwing any of his tools. Dorothy, for whatever reason, had actually advocated for hearing him out. That just didn't make sense. It all didn’t feel right. It was wrong. They were…wrong. 

“I’m not yelling.” He snapped defiantly, and maybe he had been, but no one ever heard him otherwise.

“But–Megs HAD to go and get you ‘cause you ran off!” Twitch sounded confused and upset, even as she began to detail that same slag yet again. Now that made more sense. “You guys didn’t have to fight about it! Megatron wouldn’t–”

Then, Dorothy interjected again. “I know Megatron is better with his fists than his words on some days, and I know you two have quite the history of this sort of thing. So, it sounds like you weren’t even trying to defy our arrangement, but just got spooked and bolted when Megs showed up. Is that right?”

Did she really…well, even if she did, clearly all it would take was one little thing for her to show where her allegiances lied once again. All the same, he felt a different sort of pain within him at the thought. He wanted so desperately for anyone to listen to him, to understand. He’d thought Hashtag had understood, but now he wasn’t sure where they stood, and couldn’t shake the feeling that it was his fault. Like he ruined one good thing he could have had with her. Now, his helm and spark was a slagging mess, and he couldn’t do it again. He didn’t want to sabotage even the mere chance that…maybe this human might actually be more than he first thought. As unbelievable as it may be.

Starscream couldn’t look away from her. It was absurd. He couldn’t get himself to respond. He didn’t want to admit he feared Megatron. He didn’t want to appear weak. He was already shaking and probably looked stupid. 

He tried to straighten his posture and pull his servo from his helm to tightly grip the other on his lap. He fixed his wings to be neutral. Everything was still spinning, but he could handle it. He could answer them, and maybe Twitch could achieve a similar understanding as her guardian. 

“...Something like that.” Starscream adjusted his expression to be professional, paired with his calculated presentation. His claws began to dig into the minute lacerations through the patch, and it aided in focusing his processor. “I had assumed he was here to enact some sort of repercussions for my lackluster performance in this whole redemption slag. Surely I’ve crossed off a plethora of deplorable actions over the course of this trial period. Attacking Bumblebee that one time over a stupid game…I’m sure plenty other things as well with whatever parameters you discussed with him when I arrived. Although he certainly doesn’t often require an excuse to toss canonfire in my direction. So, my intent was to avoid that, then my condition instigated things. A warning shot does not equate to an invitation.” His vocalizer was distant, although he could still clearly define it as his own, which was an oddly comforting thought. 

“I…guess that makes sense.” Twitch looked uncomfortable as she folded her arms across her chest plate in a similar manner Hashtag often did. “But he wasn't going to do that. You haven't been THAT bad. I expected worse honestly.” Her snark returned with a smirk as she tilted her helm.  

Dorothy sighed. “I admit I did as well. THAT was what me and Megatron had been discussing that day. He was actually trying to convince me to give you a chance, Starscream. Calm my nerves. I was…hesitant to let you near my family.” She held onto her conjunx’s servo more tightly, and he returned her cue by leaning closer before watching Starscream carefully again. “But, I agreed because it seemed important to him. And…I remembered what I had told Nightshade. Everyone deserves a second chance. I promise that we aren't keeping score of every little thing you do. As long as no one gets hurt, you are allowed to be, eeh… well. You. We’re all navigating this “redemption slag” the best we can.”

“Yeah! Megatron isn't gonna beat you up for calling Uno stupid, that’d be dumb!” Oh the little drone would be quite surprised to hear the stupid things that had elicited that reaction from her beloved buckethead. 

 “Ah yes, it would. Wouldn't it?” Starscream acknowledged Twitch’s ridiculous comment before turning his attention back to the human. He had to force his wings to be neutral again when they attempted to tense with that Primus damned electricity behind him. “It’s equally difficult for me to believe that a human would be so willing to offer such patience, and not jump at the chance to put a bot in their place. It seems to be so invigorating for you, after all.” Mandroid glitched across his optics again, and he glared at the spector as he gripped his servo more harshly. 

Dorothy’s faceplate wrinkled in an odd way. Perhaps she was offended. “G.H.O.S.T doesn't represent all of us. They're gone for a reason.”

Wheeljack was beginning to pack up his tools. “Yeah those folks were quite the control freaky type. Always in my business and worryin’ bout my inventions like I was trying to blow us all up or something.” 

“And Dr. Meridian was…troubled.” Alex added. “While I may not like you Starscream, I’d never enjoy inflicting that sort of punishment. That's just wrong. Although I am certainly not above grounding a grown bot if I have to!” 

“I’m already grounded.”

That made the human falter. “What? No you're–well–were we going to ground him for running away?” He looked to his conjunx for guidance. 

Dot blinked in confusion before coming back to her senses. “No. No, it was just a misunderstanding. Honey–” She was apparently actually referring to Starscream with such a ridiculous pet name. Humans were full of surprises– “grounding is like when you lose privileges after doing something wrong. Like when Mo and Thrash broke her window, we took their electronics away. That sorta thing.”

Starscream squinted his optics. “That still sounds quite accurate to my current level of restrictions.”

Twitch began to laugh. What about this was so funny? “OH MY GOD HE IS! Screamer’s grounded!” She began to absolutely lose it over this revelation. Did she have a screw loose?

“Huh…” Dorothy also seemed to be doing quite the equation. Her effort to correct Starscream on his knowledge of their terminology, only seemed to make her question her own. “I guess…wow.” She pinched the bridge of her nose and shook her helm, looking a bit amused herself. “Okay, I guess that's about right. Theeeen the worst you’re gonna get is a timeout in your room or something, I don’t know.” This made Twitch laugh louder. “If anything, we’re just going to talk about it. Alright? There's no hitting each other. We use our words in this family.”

“Hm. Unless you count Megatron under that classification, I’m not convinced.” Starscream crossed his arms. Tapping a digit to an irregular rhythm as soon as he felt himself drifting again. 

“I promise Megatron isn’t going to hurt you. He just wants to talk. We were actually discussing before you woke up about deciding on a good time you two could try and figure things out. He really does want to fix things, and regrets what he’s done in the past. You just have to give him a chance.” She seemed…genuine. Even so, it was a foolish wish for him and Megatron to come to any sort of understanding.

Starscream scoffed and rolled his optics. “Megatron feeling any sort of regret for his actions? You’re joking. The slagger is a professional at rationalizing any inane decision he makes. He might want to talk to me, but I certainly do not wish to speak with him.” A malicious grin grew on his faceplate. “Let the mech suffer if he so desperately wishes to bask in my presence. I don’t owe him anything.”

Dorothy looked disappointed. “We won’t push it on you if you aren’t ready. But you two do need to talk at some point. You know you can’t avoid him forever.”

Then, as Wheeljack was beginning to exit the room, he was intercepted by Twitch. “Aw, are you leaving already??”

Wheeljack and Starscream locked optics as a moment of pause permeated the room. “‘Fraid so Twitch. My work here is done and I still got plenty of things to do back at base.” He looked away and disappeared around the corner with his supplies in servo. “You’re welcome to come with if ya want.”

Twitch looked to her guardians for permission. “You guys okay with uh…Can I?” She gestured back towards her mentor with a clear want to follow but laden with uncertainty.

Dorothy nodded. “You have fun dear, we’ll be fine here.”

Twitch hesitated another moment before disappearing as well.

“Heh.” Starscream chuckled as he leaned down with a servo on his knee to get a better look at the two humans he was now left alone with. “Confident little creatures, aren’t you? Do you not realize how easily I could crush you right now?” This only strengthened his assumption that this room wasn’t some innocent little box for him to stay in. Why else would they feel so secure? Or perhaps they simply underestimated him. That would be a fatal mistake.

Dorothy crossed her arms and looked unimpressed. “You won’t do it. You’re smarter than that.”

She was right. Although Starscream still leaned back again in a hint of surprise.

“Now. I’ll let Megatron know that you aren’t ready. We’ll just focus on making things better between us here. You still need to make up for what you did, and we will help you get it right. For now…how are you feeling?” 

“What is that supposed to mean?”

Alex was the one to answer. “If you don’t tell us when something’s wrong, or explain your…different thought processes; we can’t help.”

“Plus, it’s to show that we care how you’re doing.” Dororthy added, “Y’know, encourage a bit of that “think about other people’s feelings” biz that Bee was trying to tell you about.”

“That’s an odd thing to fret over in words.” Starscream flicked his servo dismissively. “I already said I’m fine. What else do you want?”

“More than just an “I’m fine”, maybe?” Dorothy gave him a bit of sass with a grin like they were having some sort of banter.

 “An extensive list of my condition would be excessive. I’m sure such a thing would only bore you.”

“Try me.”

Starscream attempted to analyze any hint of deception in her stance. Anything that would allude to an ulterior motive. Surely this gesture couldn’t be as plain as she made it out to be. Besides, he still couldn’t understand why she cared. A flat assurance that one’s state of functioning was stable, was satisfactory enough. Why would it matter the specifics? He was operational, that’s what mattered. Sure, things weren’t exactly optimal, but expressing such things only served as a show of weakness. He wasn’t going to give her any details that she could use against him. Yet clearly she wasn’t about to back down. So what could he say to get her off his back about this “feelings” slag?

“...I…admit I am a byte shaken by recent events. My current situation isn’t exactly one I had anticipated. Certainly FAR from anything I would like. Your bunch of brats are constantly either avoiding me, or throwing any amount of scrap in my faceplate they find amusing. Or would you rather me say how absolutely delighted I am for this gracious opportunity?” He quirked an optical ridge and crossed his legs with a servo to his cockpit. “Your unyielding hospitality knows no bounds! My fleshy little friends. I’m sure that my accursed spark will be righted in no time with such noble creatures at my disposal.”

Dorothy shook her head, a note of fondness growing in her expression. “Yeah, sure, alright Screamer. We’ll work on that.” She and her conjunx began to leave as well. That was far from the expected response.

He wasn’t quite sure what he HAD expected. Annoyance? Defensiveness? A proclamation of his response being horrid, and dissatisfactory? Perhaps he had expected for their conversation to escalate in some way that would require him to up his suck up meter. Or throw a bit of extra shade their way. Not such an artless statement alluding to some assurance of improvement! Bland is what it was. Bumblebee was far better at this.

Then she continued from the doorway, “Why don’t you get some rest? You’re welcome to join us outside when you’re ready. But don’t push yourself. Bee has a small stash of energon in Nightshade’s lab. If you want any, just don’t go and hoard it all or something.” 

“Yes, yes. Stealing bad, and whatever else it is you are insinuating.”

She rolled her optics at him with a grin before the two humans vanished from view just like the others. He’d attempted to keep them in sight as long as he could. Part of him didn’t want to be left alone with his thoughts. Sitting here, alone, in this blasted room didn’t sound particularly relaxing. He’d much rather DO something. Perhaps he would take them up on the offer to get some fresh air.

Embarrassingly, as soon as he tried yet again at the effort of standing on his own, his stabilizers immediately flared warnings in his processor that sent him crashing down. He couldn’t possibly be this disoriented still. That was pathetic. 

Starscream maneuvered towards the wall, and used it to guide his direction as he stood. Then traced it towards the exit. At the very least, he could scope out that energon to store some of it away in his berth’s compartments. Not enough to be overtly obvious, but enough to ensure that if they decided to withhold fuel as a means of indirect punishment in the future, he’d be prepared. 

He needed something to focus on outside of all the useless slag riddling his processor. Anything else. He didn’t care what it was. After he acquired his stash of fuel, perhaps he could find some sort of object he could lean on for the surface. It needed to be inconspicuous of course. It wasn’t like he needed assistance walking…maybe he’d just rely on structures for stability instead. 

There was no Megatron. No Unicron.

Things actually seemed to be improving. Somehow, he seemed to be winning the favor of that odd human femme. This might not be going as badly as he thought. Maybe he could work with them. A strange thought indeed, but not a new one.

He just needed to not think about everything that could go wrong.

[sunnyhvnny]

My Thoughts on House of The Dragon Season 2 Episode 2: Rhaenrya The Cruel

The first episode was a little disappointing so I hope this one is better. More fast paced maybe or things that are done on purpose rather then things happening by a misunderstanding (I’m looking at you Blood & Cheese)

Spoilers below the cut.

Things I Liked

TGC’s acting as Aegon as he grieves his son is 😚 🤌🏽*chefs kiss*. We don’t get anyone else really grieving this so I’m surprised we got it from Aegon.

“I can’t trust you, Daemon.” Probably the smartest thing Rhaenrya could possibly do.

The scene between Jace and Baela was cute. It also kind of gives the vibe that they’ve talked about things like this before.

👀 Addam of Hull is fine. He’s got daddy issues but don’t we all lol.

This show does a lot of stupid shit but this episode there’s a good amount of focus on secondary characters and small folk and I like that. It makes the world feel more well rounded.

Erryk and Arryk. I have no more words.

The writers may not care about Aegon but TGC sure does and that might just be enough.

Things I’m Unsure Of

I don’t like the procession to show off Jaehaerys. However, I understand why it’s being done. I just think it would have been been better if it was Aegon and Helaena. Because 1) they’re the king and queen now and 2) they’re the parents. I don’t see why Alicent had to be up there.

I wasn’t the biggest fan of Daemon in season one but I did still find him somewhat fascinating. So far this season he’s just pissing me off.

Criston Cole projecting onto Arryk is bullshit. “The white cloak is a sign of our purity” he says even though he was busy not being pure with Alicent. Blaming Arryk for his twin being on the other side makes me so mad because last episode Daemon was blaming Erryk for his brother siding with the greens.

I’m liking Mysaria. I’m just not sure if they’ll keep her consistent or interesting but for now I like her.

Just gonna drop a Dearon mention in there. Alicent isn’t even the one to mention him either!

Things I Hated

Why can’t they just call him Jaehaerys? Why do they keep calling him ‘The Boy’. I feel like not calling him by his name just dehumanizes him and makes what happened seem like it’s not that big of a deal.

Aegon and Helaena could have grieved together. If not as husband and wife then at least as brother and sister. Istg if that stairway scene is all we get I’m going to go batshit.

Aemond taking Daemon trying to have him killed as a compliment is crazy. Like he should be mourning his nephew and being there for his siblings but he’s just like “😍 Daemon sees me as a competitor.”

Alicent and Criston really don’t have any chemistry.

Overall Thoughts on Ep. 2

6.5/10

[Highlights: Arryk & Erryk and TGC as Aegon]

[bemtevis]

Istg at this point I'm just going to rewrite tlh out of spite for how awful cc treated them

James all of the sudden is this asshole who we barely ever seen reading AND WHERE DID HIS CUTE GLASSES GO😭😭

Christopher gets like zero acknowledgment even tho at the academy Thomas and Matthew were constantly backing him up(and sure we see this in chot but after ignoring him for two books and then killing him with zero grief :/)

Matthew...I actually don't have an issue with Matthew BECAUSE WE NEVER SEE HIS POINT OF VIEW, and I also feel his character might be the most realistic to the situation aside from Alastair and Grace

Thomas...she literally gave all his creativity to James. He writes poems and songs?? Where did that go?? We also never see him read or spend any actual page time with his family for more than a passing sentence

Jesse was fine ig until that scene with Grace...it's giving the Matthew and Alastair scene at the end of choi

Ari felt in character but I wish we could have seen more of her growth that wasn't just coming out and moving out

Anna is probably the one I'm the most upset about though because like, she was so nice in her original short story. And now she's just this straight up bitch who takes women's virginity for fun? CECILY AND GABRIEL'S DAUGHTER? I think fucking not.

And I hate that everyone moved past how creepy Charles dating Alastair and Ari was like, dude was a whole ass ADULT with a JOB preying on barely 16 year olds(we all know he waited for Alastair to turn 16 for consent laws😒)

And also why are all of the tid parents not present in their kids lives??? Tid and gotsm will, tessa, gabriel, cecily, sophie, and gideon would NEVER. And about the fairchild twins, I fucking hate that she did that. They already fucked matthew up by forcing him to either raise himself in order to take care of his dad or was babysat by the herondales, and he's probably going to be forced to take care of the twins too(yet another math/alas parallel)

Sorry for the rant I just have so many angry feelings about cc as a fellow author rn, like how fo you fuck up your own characters THAT badly-

oh pls do, I'm sure whatever you come up with will be better than canon

I mean he was kind of an asshole beforehand but I figured it was because of the gracelet and all, but his behavior barely changed after it was off! it was so pointless

JUSTICE FOR CHRISTOPHER! he was done so dirty! cc tells us the merry thieves love each other like brothers but then one of them dies and they barely grieve! show not tell, it's one of the first things you should learn as a writer

while I'm sure I would've glazed over most of them, I'm sure having matthew's pov would add a lot to the story. instead, his development is seen only through other people's povs and it falls flat, imo.

something I noticed while reading was that if it was one of thomas' povs, it would be about thomastair. I don't recall any instance in which it isn't. there was the night at matthew's flat, but that ended up being thomastair as well. we barely see him interact with his friends or family or hear about his interests and dreams! cc had something great with him and she threw it away, and for WHAT!

Idk why cc bothered to write james and jesse and everyone being so mad at grace, only for there to be only a few paragraphs in the epilogue about her forgiveness. it was such a cop out, tbh.

same as with thomas, all of ari's povs were about her love interest, except for the first one maybe. look, I know there is a huge cast of characters and it's hard to balance it all out, but cc's books are so filled with amatonormativity that it's hard not to see the pattern.

the thing with anna is that in chot, she feels more like what she should've been. same with matthew imo. they're flawed characters, yes, and don't always make the best decisions, but they're closer to what the narrative wanted me to believe from the start. I loved eet anna, but chog came and ruined her! then cc tried to retcon it, Ig, and it was such an abrupt change that it felt off putting!

yeah yeah absolutely! I've said this before, but the problem with charles wasn't that he was closeted! it was his weird predatory behavior, and that was completely unaddressed. he, like anna and matthew and grace, had his arc rushed so the consequences of cc's writing couldn't catch up with her, but WE READ THE BOOKS! we know he's fucking creepy!

tbh if you told me all of the parents were trapped in a bubble for most of this trilogy, I would believe you. they were not present at all. gideon and gabriel lost their kids to their own sister, and they don't even process it. same with sophie and cecily. it's like they don't even exist.

dw about it! sorry for the equally long, if not longer, rant lol. completely agree; cc's great at creating great concepts then not knowing how to execute them at all. it's so sad

[wxvzkk]

i love my friends so much, i dont wanna seem biased but this post IS specific and targetted shhh 🤫

bro genuinely makes my life better and like, i love them so much. like i dont even know how to fr express it but all i feel is joy around them? its weird because with everyone else im overthinking or worried or just not in the moment or slightly off in some way, but i could be tweaking out, having the worse day of my life and then i see them and talk to them and my life is joyous, its like ugh idk shes my GOAT istg. im tired of trying to be anonymous of who it is YERALDY MY GOAT. i fucking love her so much and she's genuinely my best friend and like i love all my friends and i dont wanna say i prefer one over the other but like whoever else is seeing this like i love yall too and like youre amazing but its about her 💔💔 its weird because ive never had a friend that i can be authentic and them make me happy at the same time but like behold?? idk like when we text and talk irl im just laughing or enjoying myself and like i'll get sent paragraphs about things and i like sob and im so grateful for her? im so happy when i get those fuckass photos with a snapchat filter or when she sents 2 minute long voice notes and its just full of jokes and stupid shit, and we both agree on a lot of things and like thats my twin 💔 istg i havent really ever met anyone that i feel like i get along as well as i do with her and its so joyous, like im just so joyous? and my aunt and uncle like her, like a lot, like i think my aunt prefers her over me because shes always talking about her and thinking of times to invite her to things, or places to take her, and like we'll be doing something and then "you should invite yera here" like OK auntie jaz you wanna sneak her out of school to go play centipede but not ME?? YOUR CHILD?? THE CHILD THAT LIVES IN YOUR HOUSE?? 💔💔 but in all seriousness im really happy that they like her and im happy that i have her. like idk i feel like ive always been such a loner and like now im not? not just with her but like everyone and idk im just really really happy to have her as a friend and i hope i never lose her and if i move, or we graduate, it doesnt change how close we are? and ik i might not be her best friend or she might not feel this way around me at all but i dont really expect her to and i honestly dont mind it. i'm glad i have someone like this, even if its not the same for her ykyk??

[kindlyfunkn]

how the fuck does telling someone she should reheat the soup already on the stove instead of making a whole box of kraft dinner (which i find disgusting so i wouldnt even be able to eat it myself) warrant any sort of fucking attitude. istg it feels like my OLDER, ADULT sister is a goddamned five year old

and she turned the burner on medium high, with very little left in a bigger pot, went and sat down while i used the washroom because i ASSUMED shed be watching it, and acted surprised that it was boiling so fast already. how she didnt smell or hear the thing is beyond me. oh yeah and there was less there than i thought, only enough for one bowl, so since she initially said she wasnt in the mood for any i took it up for myself because that was also why i wanted the soup heated up. and i fucking.

"are you having any?"

"yeah i guess"

"oh theres less than i thought."

"i thought you said you couldnt eat it all?😒"

"yeah because i thought there was more here. and i didnt want to have to throw any out. doesnt matter i'll eat this now and you can make your stuff."

"no i dont want to."

"didnt you say you havent eaten today? make your stuff."

"changed my mind."

christ almighty. chiller convo and paraphrasing but shes like a child. i feel like a parent to a teenager not the younger brother to a 21yr old.

and of course theres a million dishes to be washed and she wont do them because for the past three days im the only one whose done any. and when i was doing them if she was home she would not help or offer to take over. and i cant tell her to please to the dishes because she'll get pissy over that because everything is sarcasm to her apparently. actually yknow what not even just her i try to use any sort of manners around my family and every one of them sans my twin sister takes it as me being angry i dont understand. i hate telling people to do something because i dont want to seem like im ordering people around but istg its bare minimum shit that ive been doing myself for a while and i ask ONCE for someone to do it instead and its another argument. i dont even say anything like "could you do this for once"! or anything passive aggressive! i just ask "hey could you make supper" "could you please wash the dishes" and its a fiasco.

god and she was literally just about to cut my hair too that shes been putting off since friday (and shes the one who said she needs to cut my hair, i never asked for shit). Guess whats not happening today!!

[mari-guri]

IDOLiSH7 Ep. 4 - A Pro’s Resolve | Lotus Reacts

sorry this is late!!! been a little busy with streams! i've been playing pokemon violet recently and just finished up all the DLC so I'm on that pokemon high right now!

It’s been several days but I’m back baby

Had to step away for like an hour as I started the episode 😭

I don’t remember the opening LMAOO

Is this new

Okay yeah I remember this

Just not the beginning I guess LOL

LMFAOOO there’s like an extra in the op and he’s just vibing LOL they’re at an airport

Yeah I kinda wonder what preventing them from doing this does

FOR FREE????

Trigger better be the best fucking idol group ever for them to have to stop like this frfr

Oooh does riku have some beef with trigger

Why’s he in the hospital WHAT

IS THAT A FLIP PHONE

This concert starts pretty early

Holy shit these mf GAY

LMAO did that get lost

HOLD UP HOLD UP WHAT HAPPENED?

ARE WE JUST GONNA FORGET THIS HAPPENED????

Damn how coincidental is this

What’s happening to everyone

Is Riku… OK I see

This tenn guy is pretty interesting to me ohoho

Ahhhh so they’re twins

When I was looking up tsumugi bc of course I would, I saw a lot about gaku and how he likes her so I’m interested to see where it develops (if at all)

THIS BETTER BE FUCKING GOOD ISTG

uhhhhhhh

Oh ok that one part is catchy

But uh

Hmm

I should stop setting my expectations too high

BUT I CANT HELP IT WHEN THE SHOW KEEPS TELLING YOU THEY’RE HOT SHIT OKAY

Just a whole practice in the subway I see

Oh shit another trigger song

This song feels better than the first one BUT like by margin

BRO IS HE OK

Oh the episode is over

I still don’t have like an oshi yet

maybe i like tenn the most tho rn surprisingly (it’s actually tsumugi) i think nagi’s super fucking funny tho lmao

but we’ll see in the future. i’m only 4 episodes in

END

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my movie ratings ( my taste are questionable)

Suzume - live laugh love suzume 10/10

Waktu maghrib - shouldve learned my lesson from Qodrat im never watching Indonesian horror movies 3/10

Pengabdi setan 1 and 2 - i actually liked this , i watched it bfr waktu maghrib and qodrat. 8/10

Luckiest girl alive - 8/10

Re/member - an 9/10 girl the way it was perfect but there's a slight plot twist that makes zero sense

A good nurse - 10/10 based on a true story

A chalk line - going in expecting nothing but it gave everything 8/10 i would say its decent

The host - 7/10 Hunger - shes a ten. loved everything about it the acting, metaphor, cinematography and the plot love love love

The sadness – 8/10 if you like gory movie go watch it . I love zombie movies but this one is fucking disgusting cause they still can talk like normal humans. And the scene with the one eyed girl in a wheelchair ughhhhhhhh.

Hard candy –8/10 i feel like it could’ve been better if they actually prove what the guy did and there was this one scene where elliot page castrate the guy it was so disturbing. I love elliot page‘s acting i love the way she talks ughh i just love her. The ritual - 8/10 i usually hate horror movie thats based on a cult or ritual but this one was good and fast paced . Plus there was minimal jumpscare which what i really like in a horror movie. AND what i love about this is that the demon or wtv looks real and was fucking scary . like if i saw that while hiking i wouldve shat my pants and literally let it kill me and rather than being chased by it istg. Dungeon and Dragons - shockingly a 9. the humor and the characters i just love it. they didn't unnecessarily squeeze any romance or whatsoever. love the the cgi i think looks real enough for me. the red witch i think sofina was scary af ngl . would i watch it again on purpose probably not. kids and family friendly approved. even if this love disappears from the world tonight - 10/10 fuck i watched this without knowing what I'm getting myself into. it was so good that i wrote this while watching it. It was all happy and shit IN THE BEGINNING. love the change of POV mid movie. Not for the soft-hearted girls. Definitely will recommend this if you wanna watch a tearjerker. Honestly i relate to izumi so much that it physically hurts me to watch this. in another life they got married with twins and adopted 3 cats. Btw at first i didn't wanna watch this cause the fl and ml used to act together in a drama where the were BESTFRIEND like super platonic, their relationship was like siblings. so yk it feels like incest at first.

your name engraved herein - 7/10 watched it cause people said its sad and suprisingly it actually is the ending was cute tho but i feel like it couldve been shorter plus one - 10/10 manifesting a relationship like this please they are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo funny together.

the hangover -10/10 this would be one of my comfort movie if i need a laugh or just to look at dilf bradley cooper

something borrowed - 7.5/10 I FEEL LIKE THE COUPLE IS CUTE but bcs the guy is engaged to her best friend so its wrong okayy tapi idk theres no way to justify it and wtv. but there was a small plot twist and now everyone is happy . plus ive been searching for 2000s romcom for a while now glad i stumbled into this. plus the FL is so cute.

inception - 10/10 watched it bcs of christopher nolan stayed because of Elliot page if i had known he was in it i would have watched it sooner. plus the cast ,top tier istg.

life - 9/10 watched it for ryan reynold and jake gylenhall. it feels weird watching ryan reynold in a serious movie even though he was still acting like himself. the ending thoooooo i was speechless

made of honor - 5/10 when the guy wears a skirt that shpuld have been a red flag not in a fashionable wayits just doesnt suit him. and honestly the male lead should have realized sooner that he likes hannah. btw i bet hes gonna cheat on her given his history.

bullet train - 1000/10 I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCH THAT I WOULD RECCOMEND THIS EVERY MOVIE NIGHT AND SLAP PEOPLE WHO PLAYS WITH THEIR PHONE

[artemisfowl-chaos]

I get that it was never going to happen, but seriously, Artemis should have been confirmed as autistic in canon. Not just in terms of representation and diversity, but narratively.

The AF series has themes related to the "changeling" trope in folklore - Artemis (and the humans around him, but that's a different post) is changed by the People, and by the friendships he forms among them. So much so, that perhaps if you had not been following his journey, you would not recognise the boy who sells a lemur as the same person he becomes near the end of the series.

Artemis is very much the odd one out in his family - whilst his parents and siblings are concerned with "normal" things, and very much seem to be a "normal" family, Artemis still has the traumas of his childhood which cause him to find it harder to relate to this image of family, partially because he has found his own family, which does not include his parents.

The changeling, in folklore, is a child stolen by the fae, and will never return as themself - they are replaced by a faerie child. They are also ungovernable, and therefore their parents must eventually get rid of them.

Perhaps the part of Artemis's story which most resembles the changeling's is his journey to Limbo, and his return three years later. When he leaves Earth, he is a normal fourteen-year-old boy. When he returns, he is part fairy - he has magic, and Holly's eye.

Perhaps Artemis's cloning also counts - he is again no longer wholly human.

In Deny All Charges, we see Fowl Sr cast away Artemis as a child, saying that Artemis is no longer his son. Although in the Fowl Twins series we don't get to see Artemis's relationship with his parents, we can assume that it isn't great.

As an adult, Artemis is not close to his parents. He is not the son they wanted - either of them. He is too unwilling to change as suddenly as his father did, and he will not forgive them for his childhood. So perhaps, as with the changeling, he has become too unruly - not in a traditional sense, but in the sense of causing too much upset to the new structure of the family.

So Artemis is very much the quintessential changeling child - he is isolated from the rest of his family, preferring the company of others. He leaves, and returns not quite human, and his parents will never see him in quite the same way.

So where does the autism fit in? Well, many people have theorised that the changeling is actually an explanation for behaviours which today would be cause for an autism diagnosis.

One main characteristic of the changeling child is that they "display intelligence far beyond their apparent years, as well as possess uncanny insight."

Having unusual intelligence is not representative of all autistic children, but the second half of that statement stood out to me especially. Autism is often explained as "a different way of seeing the world," and that is precisely what this seems to be describing.

A child who preferred to stand in a corner, listening and observing, rather than joining in the conversation.

A child who had trained themself to notice people's emotions (since it did not come naturally to them) and so could tell when someone meant what they were saying.

A child who could not understand implied instructions, and had to ask questions until they found out exactly what they could and could not do.

A child who found telling untruths difficult, and so learnt to twist their words so that they could mislead others whilst uttering not a single falsehood.

A child who refused to touch a certain item, saying that it felt bad on their skin.

A child with a detailed, long-lasting memory, who would remember what you had promised, whether it was to them or to another.

These were the changeling children, who today we might diagnose with autism. (Each example I described is a legitimate autistic symptom, by the way, and most of them can also be linked to fae lore.)

These were the uncanny children, who were perhaps not quite human - perhaps they were faeries, then?

As babies, these children could not articulate their needs, or the ways in which they were different, or the way they saw the world - so perhaps it is no surprise that their parents saw them and thought their baby had been replaced by a faerie.

And many of the examples I described, I can, off the top of my head, think of places in canon where these symptoms (and many others) apply to Artemis.

It would have been so narratively satisfying if Artemis had been confirmed as autistic. I'm not surprised it didn't happen, but damn, I wish it had.