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gojinka · 8 months ago

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"much to Valentine’s dismay." oohhg can I know more...I got a bowl of rice to offer

Valentine is an Octarian elite who has no interest in abandoning her role as such, she is undyingly loyal to the Octarian Army and excelled in military school and was placed in a school designed for elites, she was constructing weapons for as long as she can remember and has ZERO thoughts of ever abandoning the domes. She has made something of herself here and she has issues with communication and comes off blunt and aggressive at times so she struggles keeping/making friends, so the approval of her superiors and the trust the army puts in her is a love good enough for her.

Until Satua, at least.

Valentine, also, has no idea how they found themself in the metro, she woke up with a sense of urgency and a few strange blank memories that made her piece together— with Craig telling her he needs help— that she (probably) needs to act, and help the people around her in order to save something. She has no idea what, and has a building frustration inside her that she can’t name. She thinks she’s doing something bigger than herself. She acts, for a moment, as a hero— an agent 8 in the metro, she plays into this role and feels angry and needed and vital, then more of her memories come back and she gets hit with the Guilt… feeling like a bystander who is trapped inside their own body, watching themselves do and say things they can’t control as her memories idly return, clueing her into the person she is, or was.

#they’re just a little freaking guy… is what I’m getting at…#they never do remember how they arrived in the metro #but they keep seeing themself cold. uninterested and so much better than everyone else. they always look lonely.#I think when their memories return they have trouble sorting them… trouble figuring out a timeline. but they FEEL #what they FELT #yet- despite that— still feel a lack of vindication in their actions . she’s just sort of ashamed #they feel cheated by the NSS for forcing a dazed elite to do the work of the Inklings. and they hate the Octarian #army for making her the person she keeps seeing in her memories #and she hates the NSS for being the NSS and she hates that the Octarian army sees her as a deserter and #she hates life outside of the domes where she has no plan or direction #she thinks the feeling of sunlight on her skin is burning.#she’s in a cycle of feeling bad for herself and that it was out of her control. she is the same person. she keeps doing it. the cyclerepeat #s #asks #homerun au #valentine (agent 8)#and she hates satua for her grandiose dreams of seeing the sky and starting a life outside the domes. she hates her for trying to desert #Valentine isn’t the type to survive alone. Valentine is NOT the type to SURVIVE ALONE!

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