#they need more of a fandom on here bc they're brilliant!

[merthurians-prat-and-idiot]

This is probably a bit niche but- Shoot From The Hip are so good!! They're an improv comedy group- who share clips from their shows on youtube. They uploaded a full length show earlier & it's brilliant! Check them out if you've not heard of them, they do games, scenes & fully improvised plays (my favourites!) And they're super funny, I've been a fan for a while now since I found them.

[herogers]

Top 5 fics you’ve read this year?

I was meant to answer this forever ago and now that ao3 is back I will celebrate by finally answering (ik you sent me this at the end of last year but forgive me I finally have a laptop now and getting the hang of links!) Also my dumbass has only recently started bookmarking and I was late af making an account so I'm in the trenches trying to find these rn, some ik by memory because brainrot anyway..

Endgame, Not Checkmate by @geekymoviemom I could write an essay on how much I LOVE this fic, this was a gift for moi for the 'a second chance' mini exchange and this fic is all I could've dreamed of I highly recommend, its beautiful well written my heart does flips just thinking of it, absolute FAV, this is my canon now, the healing I needed, God is real I know because this fic exists. Read this it's for your own good, ok?

this charming man by @imperialstark THIS FIC consumed my entire brain and everytime it gets updated it ramps it up again and I get mega stony brainrot, one might say I'm obsessed ANYWAY, its still being updated and its the highlight of my day week whatever when it does, very much recommend if you love a bratty young Tony Stark, hot as fuck, 90's, and just ugh the exploration of Steve's emotions, just the way both of them are written is chefs kiss dude just read it, this definitely tugs at my heart and is also a lot of fun chefs kiss 10/10 already, author makes me feel all the feelings.

this love came back to me by meidui a lot of feelings for this one as it was one of the first stony fics I read and probably the first one I truly fell in love with, massive soft spot for this one and ugh I just love it, they're so soft and AGH, big big sucker for the canon divergence endgame because yes this is just how it should've gone and yes this is how it did ok! Just beautiful I love them, I love THIS! READ IT

Love Bites by @cowboyhorsegirl oooooo I love this one, also a massive sucker for biting :)) ok sounded very vampiric of me anyway this is just beautifully written and aaaa I'm reading this again and its making me feral all of it just ALL OF IT its gorgeous intimate beautiful just fucking read it okay I am terrible at these summaries and if you've made it this far you already know but yeah, this is all the feelings i love packaged nicely in a fic 10/10 nice B)

choke on me by @imperialstark yes this author has ruined my life(in the best way) anyway last but definitely not least ho ly shit do I love this fic, again one of the first fics that made me fall in love with stony fics and here I am now! Writing is just magnificent I can FEEL these characters feelings man this is just so good, still being updated so more to come guys please just fucking read it its so beautiful, it gets me in my feelings so hard, Steve and Tony are written so well, this fic absolutely captivates me!! The dialogue, the BEAUTIFUL writing the gorgeousness of it all AGH PLEASE read this my silly summary gives absolutely no justice I swear this is one of the best things I've read chefs fucking kiss 1000/10 highly recommend

ok ik you only said 5 but I found some more favs on my journey of finding the fics I love so v quickly i recommend

Paradise Blue in 1872 by @cowboyhorsegirl beautifully written, love love, love. Religious symbolism and pining and ugh short sweet and beautiful. Brilliant relationship study! GOD I'm in my feels again.

speak novels like beat poetry by meidui MASSIVE MASSIVE sucker for Steve's brooklyn accent in fics holy shit yesyesyes and this is just perfect I'm in love, very sweet very AAAAA i love

This is my first reclist I hope I didn't fuck it up bc its so late here right now and- oh shit the sun's just come up, check out all these authors they are so talented and yes there is pattern here I love to be absolutely crushed knocked down and swaddled nicely, I love fics that make me feel so hard man and these writers are amazing, makes me love this fandom youre all very talented dude it inspires me sm

don't let my dumbass rambly summaries fool you these fics are genuine works of art pls I am so in love

[memes-saved-me]

Ok hear me out- the suffer brothers are great and all. The story they have written so far is great and look at all the attention it got. But sometimes they’re put on this pedestal like they’re gods. Yes they brilliant, but they ARE human. All the theories going around talking about ‘What if they made it look like this, for a big twist’ ‘what if they actually didn’t forget wills birthday and it’s gonna be a plot line in s5’ Like cmon, not every single detail in the show is relevant and some big conspiracy. Like how everyone’s mad abt them forgetting wills birthday, shit I would too! They wrote that what?..4-5 years ago?? Maybe longer? Would you remember a small detail like that? Like I’m sorry but the writers are allowed to forget tiny details. It’s not affecting the main plot in any way. Maybe the fans will be mad bc it could’ve been something more, but they are literally human bro. If they come up with some insane twist, props to them. I bet they could. But they are not gods! Some ppl need to give them a break..🥴

Not only referring to Wills birthday, but just all the crazy theories suggesting why certain ppl died, or aren’t dead, etc etc.

I follow this blog that had insane theories abt Billy coming back and at one point believed them, but can we as a fandom just face the fact that maybe the writers actually have never even thought of that? As fans of certain characters, we will pay more attention to them. As writers they are looking at ALL of them. Not the specific tiny details of every single one. That turned into a rant and I wasn’t gonna make this so long but damn it had to be said. My Ted talk is over 🤗

Also I love your blog btw <3

My biggest problem with what you said is the fact they don't rewatch their own show. Like yeah, they created something brilliant and are good writers in some areas and I agree not every detail is intentional or important but they have twisted a bunch of stuff from past seasons to fit s4 and I hate that.

It comes across as careless especially the whole Max and Billy relationship which feels disconnected from S3 as if it didn't happen anf Billy died in S2 when they were at eachother's throats. The forgetting Will's birthday I laughed at but in S1 Winona Ryder had to tell them certain songs hadn't been released yet because they hadn't bothered to do some research. Fic writers do more research than that.

I agree that they're human and aren't masterful geniuses but damn google is right there. They claim they spent all of lockdown perfecting S4 and it was really good but they fucked up certain parts and that's fine to point out.

They're not going to write what we create here and that's fine because I enjoy what they have done and what we have separately. I enjoy their 80s fanboy story and they're not interested in exploring certain characters which is a shame but fair enough.

I do think they get shat on and praised too highly at the same time. Some areas they do brilliantly and others they lack concerningly so but same lol.

Some of the shit fans pull up is insane. They really aren't that thorough and Billy is well dead. I didn't even expect his cameo. That's why people believing Eddie is alive make me laugh. They said he was written to die, that's why he was so likeable. Which in and of itself is lazy because they're scared to kill of the main cast and almost killed Max.

Most of the heartfelt character driven moments are from the actors themselves. Billy's dad, Robin coming out and El's hand on Billy's face. Amazing moments they didn't think of but that doesn't matter because they happened.

I mostly agree with you but I do think they need to at least google a few things every now and then lol

And thank you! I really appreciate that and love that you came to me with your rant. Send me one anytime haha

[lonelier-version-of-you]

You said you where having s bad night, and as much as I normally love that tumblr doesn't have date stamps, right now I wish I knew when you posted, bc I'm scared I'll make an arse of myself... (if this post was years ago, I'm sorry!)

Favourite fandom?

Favourite character/s? -& why/ is there a reason they're your favourite?

Any fandoms you wish you were in?

Any fan fic recommendations?

Indoors or out? Daybreak or dusk? Book and a cozy blanket or netflixs in bed?

I posted it only 2 hours ago, you're fine. :)

Favourite fandom:

Do you mean the media itself, or the fans? If the fans - then the Eagles (a Swedish teen drama... yes, I know, it's obscure) fandom are pretty nice. (Sidenote, I really need to catch up with that show.) For the actual media - definitely Holby, I'm way too attached to that show.

Favourite characters, & why/is there a reason they're your favourite:

Henrik Hanssen is my favourite fictional character of all time, if you haven't already figured that out by my blog.

As for why he's my favourite... I identify with him more than I have with any other character, ever. Queer autistic abuse survivors with OCD and depression aren't exactly a super represented group in media, so what were the odds of me finding a character who's all those things, and not only that, but such a character whose autism presents in pretty much exactly the same way as mine (all the way down to his low empathy)? Even his body language and way of speaking are so similar to my own.

TL;DR it's just very important to me that Henrik exists.

Fandoms you wish you were in:

I'm not sure I have any, now that you mention it.

Any fanfic recommendations?:

YES and I'm so glad you asked this!! Most of them are Henrik-centric, unsurprisingly.

"The Analyst" by muireanncaitlin is one of my favourite Holby fics - a brilliant Henrik and Jac friendship piece, exploring the similarities between them that drew them to each other. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8866879/1/The-Analyst

"All Good Things Must End" by brandstifterin is a canon-compliant (well, compliant to the ORIGINAL canon story of how Henrik and Sahira met and how he felt about her, not this stupid "childhood friends" retcon the show threw in recently) fic, depicting the events of Sahira's original exit episode (S14E27) from Henrik's perspective. It's pretty fantastic, and the last few lines are so memorable. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9208046/1/All-Good-Things-Must-End

"You Will Be Folding Stars" by eden alice is a wonderful shipfic about Jac and Connie having a one night stand - despite the premise, it's not really smutty, as it focuses on describing the emotions involved and the more metaphorical kind of friction between Connie and Jac. It's so good. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6111183/1/You-Will-Be-Folding-Stars

That's about the extent of my FFnet recs, but I have some more favourites on AO3...

"Ash" by CommanderInChief was written based off the trailer for Group Animal, when we knew there was going to be some kind of disaster at the hospital, but we didn't yet know it was a shooting. Henrik, trapped in his office during a hospital fire, contemplates the situation while waiting to die - it's dark, but so, so good. https://archiveofourown.org/works/12806334

Another dark-but-brilliant fic of CommanderInChief's is "Pink", a Johnrik fic that manages to give Roxanna an even darker end than she got in canon (no mean feat). Definitely not the sort of thing to read if you're one who is easily disturbed, but if you're not, I highly recommend it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/16178060

"Should Have" by wallofglass (albionsolutions on here) is another Johnrik fic - short, and sad, but classic. Trigger warning for self-harm and suicide though. https://archiveofourown.org/works/15966497 (In fact, I'd recommend any of her Holby fics. She's the ultimate Johnrik writer.)

"Gordian knot" and "I love you, I trust you" by crispycrumblycrust (same username on here as there) are two more great, character-study-style Johnrik fics. Trigger warning for self-harm in "Gordian knot" though. https://archiveofourown.org/works/15804603 https://archiveofourown.org/works/15415680

And now for possibly my favourite fanfic ever: "The Weight Of The World" by PrincessBethoc (same username on here, again). It's a Henrik character study, and it's utterly amazing. So perfectly in-character. Seriously, I'm begging you lot, if you only ever read one Holby fic I've recommended, make it this one. https://archiveofourown.org/works/20234926

Okay, now I've got all those out of the way, now for the other questions...

Indoors or out?

Outdoors, I guess.

Daybreak or dusk?

Most people who know me would be surprised to hear this answer, but: daybreak. While it may seem otherwise, I am a morning person - I'm just a morning person who has a lot of sleep problems, so unfortunately, I rarely wake up before the afternoon...

Book and a cozy blanket or Netflix in bed?

Book and a cozy blanket. Although, unfortunately, I rarely have the focus to read books anymore. Just my luck, I guess, lol.