#they make me wanna kms but atleast he makes it better

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[blueskiesfillmymind]

what’s your opinion on each Blue version ? 👁️👁️

I was waiting for another ask!! Oh my god you're gonna be here for a while!! Cuz I'm gonna gush so much!!

Btw im gonna use acronyms for most of the titles of the animations and such so incase u need context.

KM - Kiss Me

LDT - Look Dont Touch

LF - Love Fool

SUASWM - Shut Up And Sleep With Me

BBYHL - Baby Hotline

WIW - wutiwant [one and two]

OTF - On The Floor

KMY - Kuruoze Miy

BMTHD - Bring Me The Horizon / Drown

LTH - Let It Happen

OL - Ordinary Life

So with that out of the way, Here. We. Go!

Kid blue [PRE-TRAUMA]

Blue's baby photos are just adorable!! Makes me wanna give his cheeks a small squishy squish,, I also wanna just- take him to an arcade,, he feels like such an arcade lover,, I wish to pamper him and treat him so much better, I remember when we were kids, we made mud pies and played in the rain together, and honestly those childhood memories makes me all the more happy that we've come so far,, I dont have much else to say other than he's a cutie patootie :3

Adult Blue [PRE-TRAUMA | KM - LDT -SUASWM]

My oh my,, he's such a flirt! His warm soft smug smile, his smaller more awkward moments when i flirt back with him are pure bliss,, the way he peppers me with kisses and always leans on me whenever he needs breaks from his work,, he's my handsy handsome boy!! And he loves me sosomuch,,, The way he'd give me sly glances whenever possible,, and his lovely tooth gap- Have I ever said how much I love his tooth gap? God he's seriously so lovely,, hearing him whistle simple tunes while we walk side by side,, hhrrgsggs

Mild Blue [SLBB - WIW1]

He has such a wounded heart,, it makes me wanna bitch slap pink even more whenever I think of this version of blue, even without his mouth he's quite kissable, he's more quiet than most of the other versions, yet all I can do is softly caress his cheeks, and passionately kiss him, mouth or not,, the way we'd lay together in comfortable silence as he boops his no-mouth against my own mouth, he actually loves doing that with me, kissing my cheeks even though he has no mouth, aside for his devilish smile ofc,, it's like he kisses me through a face mask,,

Heart Blue [BBYHL]

Sly,, Playboy,,, Bnuy,, BLU- no joke he's such a slut for pampering me,, and I mean that in the most loving way ever. I mean cmon, he wears a light pink sweater layered over a button up shirt, his sleazy black pants and lastly his lovely fluffy hair,, his heart glasses adorning his framed face as he looks at me with his tinted glasses,, gosh I'd be here for Years just to gush about his eyes,, The way he sometimes slips his hand near my waist to pull me closer sometimes,, gives me butterflies everytime!!

Hypersexual Blue [KMY]

The fact that when I've fallen for blue,, he was my first taste of- HOLY FUCK HIS TONGUE- May I say that his tongue knows how to knot cherry stems,, his tongue dancing along mine whenever we make out is pure bliss,, sure his mouth tastes like alcohol and booze,, but my god it makes me want to get drunk by his sensual touches,, and whenever we have that special moment,, its all like a wet dream,, his tongue is not only talented but he's surprisingly flexible, in a way he is a little stiff in some places, but he's still flexy,,

Cyan Blue [BMTHD]

Fire, Pain, just his pure denial ignites his rage, the way he sees himself is such a sad feeling, aswell as the way he's stuck in this episode of denying his entire abuse just pains me so so so badly,, During it all, he was so afraid of touching me.. almost isolating himself from me and other awful things, we ended up taking a small healthy break from one another.. but then after he healed,, he apologized for his manic behavior,, and I accepted him in a heartbeat,, having to finally feel his face again was such a blessing,, and I could tell he missed my touch aswell,,

White blue [WIW2]

All I'm going to say,, is I'm proud of him atleast,, finding his scars all over his body made me feel so sorry for him,, and when I watched the video, I felt so hurt.. the way he was silenced for being a man? I'd say that's rlly sexist. but that's not what I'm gonna touch on. I've had to comfort blue, we ended up cuddling when he got back,, I sang the two of us to sleep, and when he woke up, he kissed my cheek softly and mumbled a soft "Thank you",, aaughhh,,,

[Side note 4 paranoid: Whenever blue had those paranoid episodes, I've found another way of comforting them with my voice,, and now whenever he goes through those episodes, he'll either stand there frozen or just get to me for my comfort]

Grey Blue [LTH]

He was in such a spiral,, I felt super super awful for how the aftermath definitely made a number on him, every night he'd cling on me, to which I'd always nuzzle him to remind him how much he means to me,, every night he tears up and cried, whenever I'd see his dried tears, I'd clean them up for him,, aswell as brushing his hair that he was growing out, ngl I missed his mullet,, but hey, I'll love him no matter what <3

End Blue [OL]

... i felt so awful, and absolutely depressed when he began thinking of the things he's always been comparing himself to,, "My existence makes everyone uncomfortable, I'm a peice of shit!" Yet here I am. Thinkin the polar opposite, we both have had therapy times and during the end of it, I'd always ask for a hug, if he accepts, I'd rock him back and forth and hum a soft comforting tune,, if he dosnt want a hug, I'd ask for an alternative, and usually most time we'd always end up cuddling afterwards, I'm apart of his healing, I never want him to go through that ever again,

I'm not gonna talk about the abuser version of blue, he's nothing but a figure of his imagination, he isnt real. Not to me, and never will be real to blue,,

Anyways!!! Yeah,,, as you can tell i love blue :3

[videostak]

supposed to go driving later today but iiim nervous ugh.. not even abt driving just abt being in a car being criticized by my dad lol.. the driving is easy well like theres only so many mistakes i can make like especially driving on lilttle streets when its not busy like its def rly best (atleast for me) to learn by just driving alone once i kno like the basics of how it works. am planning on taking it to the record store 2mrw :) but am gonna see cause my dad seems busy and said we might not drive tonight but like regardless i think i should try cause like its a 3 min drive and if i go at the rigth time theres no traffic so its like chill. soo like regardless htink im gonna try unless like my dad like says for me not to which i doubt he would since he tends to push me more than anything to just do it. buuut ya also wanna go cause foooor like theee longest time theyve had beatles 65 on the wall and no ones bought it and now that i looked it up its like the US equivalent of beatles for sale which i think is a great somewhat uneven album and wonder if beatles 65 is like better overall. love the moody stuff on beatles for sale like the john kms stuff but hate eight days a week being thrown on there and just the use of standards as a crutch so i wonder if beatless 65 paints a better picture it has two non album singles im unfamiliar with so yeas.. if its not there its cool tho cause like u kno it was priced how a beatles record would be priced LOL but also he would give me a discount since im meee :^)

[mingyulovergirl]

I wish I had died that day instead of my uncle. He atleast had people that loved him and he was of actual help to people. I'm just useless and got no one to love me. I don't even know why I should exist anymore. I see no use in me being alive. im just a burden to everyone, every single living thing around me, every person that ever knows me. I really wish someone would like come hit me till I bleed out n die. I'd actually like that pain. I wanna feel something, literally anything atp. I just wanna stop existing maybe then everyone else around would stop hurting me or stop being burdened by me I just idk idk what I wanna do anymore. The one thing I know is I don't wanna exist. i wanna kms so bad but I honestly don't think I have the guts to do it myself. I'm stuck with a really toxic family and I'm not able to leave them behind coz idk, they're old? They're sick? I still kinda love them? After everything they've done to me, after all that trauma I've gone through because of them. I just wanna leave everything behind and run away and stop existing magically. Idk if I'm even making sense atp, but this is basically a cry for help ig? I even got a tattoo on my wrist saying "euphoria" as a reminder that maybe life would feel a bit better someday and so I should wait and not kms before that, but nothing seems to be working these days. I really just wanna die.

[jojonokimyounaboukeneyesofheaven]

idk if ill msg u on ur bday anymore im super conflicted abt it and U in general and i dont think i like should try and get back into ur life but i also like idk i wanna check in plus like i dont want u to think im gonna forget jt or somethin so idk idk idk idk what im gonna do idk if i want to know u anymore but idk if i like can live anymore without u so idk what im even doing ahahahah

idk everything abt everything sucks i hate u but i miss u and when i think abt u i can feel my chest rotting out but i also like just continuously yearn for having u back and i like every other day am so completely suicidal that i feel like i meed to msg u just to get some sort of stability thru u back but idk if thats what i Need but i also know i am like a complete mess i have nothing but u were never going to be able to be anything to me anyways and so like

idk anything… i feel u are a lost cause but i dont want to think that but i think i Should think that but then i know i have like nothing .. so….. i think my life wouldve been better if i did kms like 4 years ago or if all my psychosis incidents actually did make me schizophrenic already cause atleast then maybe i could like find sollace in knowing i am completey fucked and will never have a life and itll be okay because i was crazy but rn i like am too vlose to being like not mentally fucked but also so incredibly burdened by my own mind that i am like

Always on the cusp of it and so i like i feel like a boat just too big and light to ever get sucked into a whirlpool but just stuck spinning and the only way oht would be to try and swim but thats like a 99% chance of me dying and i like as much as id love to escape life and knowing i will never be able to retain any real human contact or relationships and never be able to really wver feel happy and content because of how i always fuck up every thing i have with anyone i would rather atleast like feel like maybe oneday ill have something but it feels impossible for me to ever like

be anything, either for myself or for someone else. i am too depressed and completely checked out in life to make any of my own dreams a reality and everytime im with someone and want to help make their dreams something i find a way to like fumble hard and end up alone

only reason i havent commited soduko yet is social anxiety of finding a bridge and idk what my suicide note would be to ppl, idk if id even wanna leave my family anything because i am sort of checked out of them emotionally but u and blake like atleast Knew me but idk what id say to either of u, thanks for atleast talking to me ahahahah but also fuck u both for not being perfect which is like INSANE mentality but like i also am completely unperfect and cant even like say anything so idk idk idk, idek what id say to blake he was atleast always a good person i just fucked up a lot and wouldnt settle down but for U misha like, idk.

i hate u but love u.. and ik if i told u i was gonna kms itd fuck u up or atleast id Hope ud be able to feel somethin abt it, hope u stleast stalk my accts or something and arent just like completey detatched feom the past 2 years already, i hope u miss me too.. i hope u feel something too, i hope u arent moved on i just want to know u loved me its been ao long since i felt any affection from u even before we ended everything

why couldnt u just talk abt ur peoblems anymore u said it was a bad thing that u didnt feel like u clukd talk to me but like that was 100% all u all u had to ever do was Try to talk abt it but u just clammed up like u alway do and never opened vack up and ig just locked urself away by ur own anxiety and ur problems just compiled and u never like tries to resolve shit and ik i wasnt oerfect at all like helping u and Us get thru stuff sometimes but thats cause all ur problems were always like.

i want the freedom of being able to be with other ppl ahahahaha and like then u harked on me like i was gonna be the one to cheat and shit when like ALL ur problems was ALWAYS like U wanting to.. and its so fucking stupid like bro why do u think i was so angry abt our breakup and ur reasons cause like all u ever wanted to do was be away from me and then u were like Wow.. i cant believe u talked to blake.. bro thats cause u like made it impossible to talk abt anything with u, u stopped being a person to me u stopped like even trying anymore and then tried to make it up as me having failed and thats why we ended when u just couldnt care enough to get over urself and ur stupid shit to just open up to me anymore and just like wanting to try and thats what i hate abt u u always made me feel like i was mever good enough to even talk to u and then ud just do the worst shit and always cause ruckus in our relationship and then u stopped even wanting to try n resolve shit because it was always U at the center of the problems because U couldnt fucking control urself u always did so much shot without thinking and IIII always felt like the impulsive one even tho u would just like ausefhhgsghh why fi i love u why fo i miss u why cant i just be done with this shit and accept that there was no way wed ever work in a million years why cant i stop being tortured why cant i just be dead

[sugainmycoffee]

{2016} A Year of Yoonmin pt. 2

{2016} A Year of Yoonmin pt. 1

July

the airing of bon voyage!

jimin’s lost bag yoongi teasing jimin again

“rapmonster and suga will plan it”

jimins lost trust jimin teasing yoongi again

when all jimin cares about is beating yoongi

160711 airport pics black and white yoonmin

ot7 for epilogue but still touchinging

jimin casually holding yoongi tight and yoongi casually enjoying it :’)

aesthetic yoonmin fantaken from epilogue

when tae accidently revealed jimin’s soft spot for a certain min yoongi on vlive

“it would be fun with suga” yoonmin bickering in dialect rip me

yoonmin cuddling yet again for summer package in dubai teasers

episode 3 of bon voyage where yoonmin were hella obvious: from this, to this, to all of thissssssss, this, this, and thiss

they make each other laugh and it’s the most beautiful thing :’)))

two cuties posing for star1

a smol hug for encouragement on stage during baepsae (epilogue)

ot7 for youth japanese album but still stuck to one another

August

bon voyage episode 5~

yoonmin reminiscing the good times they shared in sweden

the release of summer package in dubai blessing us with another yoonmin photoshoot!

but also the video

and the gifs

and the amazing solo shots

plus their diary

what jimin wants 

supportinG A TO THE G TO THE U TO THE STD

another bon voyage date why is every bts variety show actually just a yoonmin show?

an old interview that resurfaced because what the fuck?? jimin thinks about his hometown and nuzzles his head on yoongi’s chest???

thAT DAMNED GARTER and couple jeans

some things never change

matching outfits for Arirang arirang~Arariyo~~

Daegu Boys are meant to fall in love with Busan boys

probably holding hands on yET ANOTHER bon voyage date i love this show

tru luv aka when park jimin lost a game and chose to suffer his frozen punishment with yoongi all that hand holding

relaxing in the hot tub together

min yoongi looks out for his boyfriend

agreeing that they dont know shit (well atleast you have each other)

yoongi can’t take his eyes off the gem that is park jimin

when chuseok isac rolled around and we got rly emotional over our fave cupid duo

the touchinG

the side hugs

the media picturessss (x, x, x, x)

the BACK HUG returns

fooling around together :’)

September

“since Jimin is cute, Suga can forgive him for his immature image“

yoonmin + tae for puma

yoonmin for smart making us wanna cry yet again

the airing of isac and more yoonmin content

video of the back hug :’)

mini mini cupid duo

concentration

yoongi wanting jimin’s attention

obvious jiminie

more touching

precious jiminie and yoongi

hmph x x x

behind the scenes with park pd nim

constant bickering

WINGS SHORT FILMS LIE AND FIRST LOVE AND THE BLATANT CONNECTION BETWEEN THE TWO

puma joining in on the yoonmin comeback fun

an undeniable similarity

yoongi embarrassing jiminie...

september 30 2016 - also known as yoonmin day - when yoonmin concept pictures came out and so did their puma bogsock commercial

a parallel

the best concept

October

when we realized from young forever / wings they swapped hair colours but what does it mean and things got a bit difficult

some fantakens from the busan one asia festival

the blood sweat and tears mv teaser which was literally just aesthetics and kinky yoonmin

fantakens from DMC Festival and an onstage hug???

a lil something sweet during the wings preview show before they slayed us with that mv and album drop :’)

and then the bst mv dropped and we all died

but especially us ym stans bc of this this this & this

snow app filters blessed us and yoongi finally asked jimin out

bst mv reaction where yoongi only sees jimin (yet again) and jimin is soooo flustered

we all wished we could be jin for the album shoot behind the scenes

jiminie’s birthday! (ofc yoongi is the first to post a beautiful selfie of jimin making kissy faces whY DOES HE HAVE THAT PICTURE WILL WE EVER KNOW)

yoongi’s suggestive birthday present for jiminie...

smol touches and deep understanding for sbs cultwo show

the disrespect during bst promotions

dispatch glo up

yoongi still teasing us by telling us to wait a bit more for that song he wrote jimin .-. (still waiting min yoongi still waiting)

sitting unnecessarily close

#EXPOSE HIM 2k17

jimin confesses he spent chuseok break at the min’s cooing over yoongi cooing over min holly :’)))

despite all these km

why its relevant

allll the headcannons

161014 soft touches and giggles

161017 fansign moments (expectation vs reality)

161028 fansign where jimin mocked yoongi and also wanted to whisper sweet nothings in his ear

beautiful fantaken

yoongi abt jimin, making him laugh at fansigns, and wanting to name a dog “dooly” (aka jimins previous nickname)

“it just looks like i hit him hard”

ym fooling around behind the scenes for bst  (and holding hands?)

another win for the ot7 (but also the otp)

yoongi just wants to take jimin on a honeymoon when will they let him

skt returns with another cf for the love of minimini

the end of a beautiful era

November

one last selfie to wrap up promotions

goodbye stage softness

tony montana collab!!! (aka yoonmin subunit lowkey debuts after all this pining)

yoongi is a supportive bf

but also a jealous one

push push fall in love

jimin teasing yoongi on twitter for the 1392028th time

shookga

ym autumn aesthetics

minimini mc duo

tryna kill us w their aegyo

yoongi flustered af remembering jimins iconic contribution to mama 2014

December

yoongi’s proposal! mama 2016!

soft touches n hugs

shared smiles n explicit flirting

jimin cant contain himself at all after winning the daesang

lovely fantakens of a beautiful night

lost in their own world

when will the teasing end

when we finally got the HD for that isac back hug :’))

the cutest pair

jimin reminding us he knows more about yoongi than we ever will in seasons greetings

“i knew you were good” 

move aside orange mint, a new era of tomato peach is born

wow i love captain of the ym ship, kim namjoon

so soFT

not so single singles

pup jimin knows exactly what he wants

end callout culture 2k17

when yoongi wanted jimin to carry his standee and jimin was being a lil shit

yoongi’s injury :< which led to all this disrespect

“you dont have to hurt yourself”

“namjoon hyung does it better”

yoongi’s tweets....

and a lil something sweet too #neverleavingoutminyoongi

another award = another win for the otp

anddddddddd that’s a wrap. lets hope 2017 is an even more eventful year for our boys ❤️��