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Sebastian Vettel Giving Me Gender Envy - Part 3

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No because if Raichi just shut up he’d pull LMAOO also if he didn’t say weird shit like “man I can’t play my sexy soccer”??? I guess that’s more tame already for bllk boys but uh

Ouu ok now that you mention it I can imagine nsfw accounts probably get more hate comments…like in a way just because it’s nsfw it’s more polarizing in a way where people can use the fact that’s it’s nsfw as an excuse to talk shit and whatnot….tbh I also think you’re probably safe?? But either way I got your back tho o7

LMAOO no literally it’s impossible to not throw at least one meme moment out there…but also HAHA I can’t wait not only to read it but also to see how long it ends up being LMAOA I’m placing my bet here and saying 15k for now

AHAHAHA honestly when I first started diving into the “manga only” characters I also felt that way…but hey I mean who’s stopping you from having two men to dedicate your blog to!! My b for fueling those thoughts LMAOAO the Karasu ideas were just too good though hehe

I’m ngl I completely forgot notes were a thing HSGSHS ok but yeah honestly really just a matter of popularity because that Sae tag is overflowing (also just generally even on social media like tiktok almost every other bllk post I see involves the Itoshi bros like) trust once people are shown tabieita it’s over for your notifications…(bro I’m STILL not over them not showing Karasu in the trailer??? We just got his chin like NO I need to see the hair too please Otoya did look majestic in that though!! Also in a recent interview some animating director I think acknowledged how s1 had to be a bit rushed because of deadlines but they have more time producing s2 so I’m hoping that means animation glow up?!?!)

YEAH HE WAS CAPTAIN IN FWTKAC!! But literally like honestly he should’ve been captain for the u20 match too Rin was NOT leading anybody let’s be real…also I was under the assumption that captains didn’t have to be the aces or main strikers of their team either? Like aikus a defender too ugh we could’ve had captain Karasu but whatever!!! I’m fully believing that in some point in time he was captain of Bambi

LOSERSEXUAL LMFAOOOOO TRUE!!! Something about the sad loser boys tugging at y/n’s heartstrings…I’m crying because literally Hiori canonically does NOT leave the house and Karasu would be there like “babe I can deal with all the taxes and finances and I’m captain and I style my hair and I’m smart and can read social cues too and I have friends and-“

Sassy younger sibling who humbles and puts their older sibling into place when they get a big head due to popularity >>>

LMFAO MALE PATTERNED BALDNESS I did not know that was the name for that type of buzz though so, the more yk!!

Well you guessed correctly I was giggling kicking my feet like “omg the smash reference and Otoya finding out sheik is a girl mentioned” HAHAH Otoya not realizing his own feelings is now my favorite>>>

Ok wait but the real question is HOW MUCH WERE THOSE CUPCAKES?? I’ve seen many a ridiculously priced dessert and I’m curious about how much you imagined them being LMAO

No me too I can never imagine myself being with a cheater or even being much more than surface acquaintances with one!! It just doesn’t really make sense to me but FR honestly you wrote it really well because when I read that I could FEEL the teenage dumbassery like this is definitely more so a stupid boy still in puberty limbo who doesn’t really know how to go about actually loving someone and is kinda just recklessly having fun in a way that society has kinda established

I LOVED IT it had the exact vibe of “oh no that’s just my homie that I like spending every second of everyday with nothing more than bros though” that I had imagined Otoya would have if he ever actually loved someone SHSHS CANNOT WAIT have fun writing the Karasu one I just KNOW it’ll be a delight to read

Also wait I’m gonna mash the light novel thoughts here too

And yeah I know a bit!!! Definitely not 100% fluent by any means but enough to be able to consume media and have most everyday conversations I just mainly can’t do super niche technical terms LOL It does take me a bit longer to read than if it were in English No you’re not dumb at all LMAO that’s exactly what I meant when I mentioned translating earlier on HAHA

As mentioned before though I’ve only gotten through like chapter 1 of yuki’s so far partially because of slower reading but also because I got sidetracked doom scrolling after trying to dig for a tiktok LMAO

BUT I almost cried looking at the index though one of the later chapters for yuki is “a lifetime’s worth of tears” GOODBYE I think we all know what that’s about :,,,)

Once I finish read them in their entirety I’ll come back and slap more formal summaries of each chapter but basically YUKI IS SUCH A SENTIMENTAL BOY SHSGSH basically first chapter details his first day of elementary school/entrance ceremony (he’s got a loving set of parents thank god) but basically he’s a rather mature boy and is pretty stoic and shy so he worries about making friends. As he’s walking in there’s Sakura trees in the yard that are causing petals to fall and yuki grabs one and stores it in his pocket (that’s where he gets his “fetish” from ig LMAO) In the end he befriends his seatmate and another girl, and ofc the way they first meet is just via self-intros and reading each others name tags and the name tag part is highly emphasized in the chapter!! His seatmate makes it a point to stare at his name tag and the girl literally like yanks his shirt to get a better look at the name tag (LMAO). Anyways, first day goes well and yuki goes home with his parents all happy and whatnot until he gets home and starts changing into home clothes and realizes his name tag isn’t with his jacket like he thought it was supposed to be!! He gets all frantic because the name tag was really special to him, since his mom had handwritten his name onto it and (this next part is more implied) it was a memento of his first day at school where he managed to make friends! So he literally runs out like mom I can’t find it and his mom’s like “oh no! We’ll just have to order you another one then” and yukis like “No..that one was special..” so literally right before they plan to eat dinner he runs out back to school to try and search for it and ofc (as the non negligent parents they are) his parents chase after him!! They end up going back and forth tracing their steps from their home to school like three times and yukis like on the ground searching under cars and just checking everywhere and after their third try his parents are like “it’s time to go home kenyu…we’ll order you another don’t worry! You must be hungry now” and begrudgingly on the verge of tears yuki’s like ok…and goes to take some sakura petals from the ground at least to make up for it but turns out his name tag was buried under the petals shdgshsh he’s so happy he’s crying tears of joy* and he’s glad he didn’t give up and his parents are hugging him as he cries and he thinks to himself “God was looking out for me, as long as I don’t give up, these sorts of wonderful things will be sure to happen” and it ends with “His honesty and determination gave birth to a small miracle”

It was so cute he really held that name tag close to his heart even after just one day!! And he’s very perceptive..like when his parents were getting ready to go back home he realized that they’re probably also exhausted and you can kinda feel that he feels bad about that which is why he reluctantly agrees to going home! He was also really nervous entering school LOL even his parents were a bit worried that he was too quiet/stoic to make friends

Ok onto reading more so I can come back here or maybe by the time I’m done I’ll have just decided to compile a large list of summaries LMAO

-Karasu anon

please ignore how crazy quickly my chronically online ass is responding to this LMAOAOA but yes i feel like raichi is missing a certain smth that would allow him to get away w saying bs?? like if we look at the unholy trinity of making sexual comments while playing soccer we have shidou which like ok that’s just shidou, karasu who is so chill normally + established as a menace that it kinda cancels out, and aiku who’s hot enough that it’s acceptable somehow?? raichi doesn’t have any of that going for him plus we have literally never seen him play “sexy soccer” a day in his life so what is he even talking abt 😭

i agree i think nswf/dark content accounts naturally are more susceptible to hate just because they’re writing abt things that may or may not be acceptable to the general public so people freak out abt that and their automatic response is to hate…honestly it’s a shame LMAO i’ve also seen a lot of stuff on tik tok where younger people in fandom make fun of older members of fandoms and it’s just like 😭 who do you think is making half of the content you consume 😭 because it for sure is not your fellow twelve year olds who are still learning grammar 😩 personally i am many years away from being even close to thirty so i don’t take it PERSONALLY per se but idk it’s just sad i wish people would abide by the whole “live and let live” policy because why is it hurting you that some random adult you will never interact with irl likes watching anime or writing fanfiction?? HAHAHA anyways rant aside yes i think i’m in as much of a green zone as you can get in terms of being safe from hate so i try not to worry too much 😩 like what would people even be mad abt…sorry for writing too much abt karasu ig???

I LOVE THE KARASU IDEAS DON’T WORRY LMAOO he’s my king nagi just gets the “first bllk character i hyperfixated on” award so he will probably remain number one for a while just because of that 😭 although like as much as i love him i know for a fact that irl i WOULD be going for karasu because as much as i like taking care of other people i have been too spoiled for my entire life to ever go for someone who wouldn’t continue a that trend i fear that nagi may not fit the bill 😫💔 he’s still my man though it’s ok

HAHAH we avoid the itoshi bros here as you well know 😌 unless it’s a request or they’re a second lead i will NOT be writing those mfs!! on this blog we care about side characters only 😍 and nagi…he’s kind of his own thing though LMAOAOA and yes it looks like the animation will be much better which i’m super excited abt!! i didn’t hate the bllk animation for s1 that much either so it really can only get better for me

OKAY I THOUGHT SO and yeah i feel like karasu lowkey acted like the captain for the whole u20 game too?? like he was making calls and plays on the field (even though lowkey isagi stayed ignoring him KDCJSJS) as well as arguing w the ref got injured AND ego called him the heart of the team so idk why he wasn’t the captain…rin being captain made no sense bro didn’t even like his teammates 😭 i think it was just to further show that he’s the “best” but he did not have one captain-like moment in the entire game 😩 i’ll cry if he’s the captain of the u20 world cup squad…give me captain karasu/aiku or give me DEATH jinpachi ego ik you see karasu carrying pxg and bossing everyone around pls give him what he deserves (i wouldn’t mind aiku though just because he’s the oldest out of everyone and def has experience as a leader)

LITERALLY KARASU IS CRASHING OUTTT what does hiori have that he doesn’t (besides an erotic left leg) like he’s sobbing on the floor BEGGING y/n for a chance and she’s just like 😍 you mean that man hasn’t seen the sun in a week ⁉️ i NEED him 🤤 (hiori is none the wiser he just thinks karasu is up to his usual nonsense and he doesn’t have enough social intelligence to realize a girl into him)

heheh i love throwing little references to our convos into my fics i think they rlly add a certain layer to them (otoya sheik scene vs karasu drowning scene who will win) i’m glad you appreciate them!! and YES oblivious otoya my king i love him sm

$50 USD is what i had in mind!! that’s why y/n freaks out like otoya is hooking her up with the GOOD shit meanwhile he can’t even be bothered to spend $10 on the girl he’s actually dating LMAOAO he is actually insane a little bit 😓 the way the bakery wasn’t even having a sale so he had to have KNOWN y/n wanted cupcakes from there, went inside for specifically that purpose, texted his sister to make sure he was getting the right ones, and then spent a lowkey ridiculous amt of money all because he “wanted her advice” like i need him to be so serious rn…

yeah that’s also why i didn’t have y/n actively pining for him until he decided to better himself!! ofc she very clearly liked him a lot but she was far too aware of his nonsense to do anything abt it until he fixed himself and came to HER as a better version if that makes sense?! ofc it was her advice that made him realize what he had to do but she didn’t put in a drop of emotional labor it was all him!! i think that’s the only way to handle a character like him without devaluing the mc or making her seem stupid for getting w such an obvious red flag

that’s the vibe i wanted to give off like he thinks they’re such good homies that his strong emotions are because of their friendly bond!! i bet you he mentally little-sister-zoned y/n for a hot minute because there was “no other explanation” for why he liked her so much and she was best friends w his little sister so it only made sense to his dumbass

OKAY YAY I’M GLAD I DIDN’T MISUNDERSTAND that’s rlly fun!! japanese is such a cool language there’s so many intricacies to it which i think are so fascinating (but make it rlly hard to learn i’m sure). i’m bilingual too in that i can speak hindi fluently (and better than a lot of people who actually live in india can) but sadly i cannot read or write it so i’m always jealous of people that can read another language

the doom scrolling on tik tok is unbelievably real my tt screentime is so bad 😰 it makes up for it by being the source of many of my greatest ideas (that’s how i justify it) as well as my favorite edits…just the other day i saw an edit of marc snuffy (the ubers coach) and his one friend that committed suicide to the song “forever young” i lowkey teared up (not actually but ykwim)

STOPPP MY HEART YUKI IS SO SWEETTTTTT and he actually had a kind and normal family YAY!! i feel like this reaffirms what we were talking abt where he just doesn’t care about random people’s lives which is why his egoist bible entry is what it is but he’s def rlly caring for the people he’s close to 🥹🥹🥹 ugh the way he invented greenflagism…also PLS he started young w those cherry blossoms jeez 😭 yes pls keep me updated w the ln idk how long it will take for it to be translated so i am relying on you 🫡 in return i will give you bfb karasu’s version 😈 i think that’s a fair trade 🤫

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How to be English

Exorcism

‘The House?’ The house is a school. Didn’t you know? It is a school.

The old man is pulling the roots of ivy from the walls of his house.

Yes? Is it really a school? I answered.

You cannot cross the river. You cannot cross the river.

Did I say I wanted to?

If you do…

Sorry but I didn’t say a word.

They all want to cross the river. It is not possible.

Is this your house?

It is.

How long have you lived here?

Long enough…

And you have never crossed the river, here.

It is impossible to cross the river.

Bloody daft… too much for that lad.

I once swam across.

It is a strange house. Gothic. When was it built?

When I was a child, Sir.

Don’t call me sir. Peter Collins. That’s my name.

Leeds Museum. Bond Street.

What is that Butterfly called, Sir. It is Black Molly.

It seems sad to pin the butterfly Sir, I said.

Did it hurt when it died Sir?

But Sir did it hurt. Did it hurt…

It’s all done in a bottle with some liquid.

Do they kill it with that pin, he asked. Straight through the body, like that. That would hurt.

They do that after Collins, to mount the butterfly for exhibition.

It is rather like a Crucifixion, really, Sir. Just like Jesus Christ with a nail through his hands… and he wasn’t dead.

That’s a blasphemous thing to say boy…

Yes Sir.

Poor thing. I feel sorry for that butterfly Sir.

Little girls feel sentimental about dead animals.

Collins… more along now…

You cannot cross that bloody river, son. I keep telling you, you can’t. I’m sorry. I didn’t hear what you said.

I don’t want to be Bald.

I have hair-treatments. Costs me a damn fortune. And it is all waste. There quacks at the Imitov Hair Aimin in the town. If any of you are faced with premature receding hairlines then don’t go to those quacks for treatment. When were we? Yes, but it is bald as the bare mountain tops are bald, with a baldness full of grandeur… Continue to read Finch from grandeur.

And Finch read. The lesson Wordsworth required reading for “A” level examination.        

As ingratiating as ever to some arch insult to Sucksmith “A” level. English hit, we were reading Wordsworth from the Study of Poetry of Mathew Arnold.

“If that’s true then shall we nickname you Eiger, Sir?” and the Eiger had been climbed.  

The old man had returned to pruning the ivy along the walls of his terrace cottage.

Go away will you. Clear off now. I‘ve told you, you cannot cross the river. Will any one else know?

Ah get lost… will you be told.

The Eiger. Last year I had lost my way driving from Bernina to Zurich and stopped at wild house.

Height and Swiss for sky and private… I walked along the paths behind the onion-domed churches, on along the fenced and walled paths to avoid the caws clattering those interminable bells. I follow one of three paths and climb up the path aside the stream kicking my ordinary shoes against the rocks as I clambered up, looking back over lake Larius from below, across the valley to the opposite range bouncing the valley back onto itself.

I reached the top wheezing and unaware of the meaning of the Swiss-German greeting passed as solid weekend climbers allowed me to pass them as they came down, which seemed more difficult going than my upward stretch. Hell! This is near vertical and how on earth do I get back.

The well booted, sweetened and lederhosen climbers move on and they invariably giggle at me who belonged on the Bahnhof-strasse hot this gulley.

But I managed to reach the grassier fields above and there was a private valley mountain either side, and a small farm-building where they make the cheese in the laze beyond.

I am small, so small and insignificant. I feel unimportant. And the mountains sing that music ingrained on our group consciousness that honorific omnipotent music the simple cliché symbol of inexplicable presence that defies explanation or interpretation.

The houses farm into a simple square and the road between them runs diagonally from one corner to another. I came down that road I know but that road leads from the river. I do not know where it leads. It exits this group of houses behind me now as I stand in the middle of the cobbled square into which the road runs and exits again. Turning a corner.

I came to exorcise childhood memories. I played here. I know I played here once some fifteen years ago. But the houses were empty then. Empty. I remember searching out the oddly patterned earthenware tiles now crossed with ages.

It had been forbidden to play here, just as it was forbidden to play in the quarries, where one boy had drowned in the stream-filled wells they dug there.

But the quarries have gone, blasted out of existence and overgrown with the seeds of which we once collected to pop them whole when they were sufficiently dry. Wide fields, as numerous as rhubarb. But they are both gone full of mindless houses concrete street and corporation-issue concrete lamp standards with their bland iodine light and rows of precisely rectangular pre-cost arcade and granite paved houses with their bordered and sickly private-lodge, like the houses we drew in powder paint, flat with acknowledgement to perspective or the three dimensional nature of our elders and their dogs and their cars.

We are making pictures out of broken eggs-shell and I make a ballet dancer on pull point arms outstretched.

A ballet dancer isn’t the proper thing for a boy to do. Boys make football-players.      

But these houses were empty then. Their rafters had gone and the floorboards were up and we had played secret boys games and there, there in that corner of this square they had pinned me down forcibly and one, always, always leader sat on my stomach my arms fixed immobile under his bare knees, the first delicate sign of body hair disappearing into his trousers legs punching, punching, punching and urinated at either side of my contorting face. And they would chase me or I with them, chase another with indiscriminate conscience or compassion, down the hill but then there was the river and was caught between the nettle patch and the inviolable farmers corn. And one is caught and it is the source relentless punching or spitting, or throwing compassionately small stones.

The river that is fixed immovable, it is at one tranquil where the willowy full from bulbous adulterated by dye from the hill downstream trunks to foul and smelly watering waterfowl and we steel abort theirs and other eggs and aborted them for swap for comics and masturbatory image heroes.

Lean, hard and rugged with their inviolable code of truth, and goodness and evil and the explicit code that murder is a social instrument. And we murder furry caterpillars or we murder ourselves, with the ultimate aggression restrained only by fear of parental reprimand, where the fantasy is real and the reality easy. This river I can not have crossed moving with those water rats, kept company with sticklebacks and redbreasts male and female but the same to a-sexual insensitive progeny of parents fearful of our intuitive discoveries.

A river that will stagnate its life of those chrysalises and snails and coots and moorhens as the dye destroys all vestige of life and we wonder but are insensitive.

I broke my arm when I fell over that damn sliming mossy and into the water and my red sandals are ruined and my socks un-washable. I am afraid to return home, I momentary rage when children fear to offend parental authority, unaware of parental compassion.

We kill that life as unaware of the consequences of our actions as the mill-owners and their various noxious dyes they ooze out of their dirty noisy factories ignoring any sequential condition their violation of that purity may bring.  We continue to kill in our imagination. Germans, Japs and North Koreans for adults only, the bogyman of my childhood. Or hybrid monsters, mutations of imagined nature. Or Reds. Or sweaty easy Mexicans, or the greatest slack of modern history the genocide of the N. American Indian. At least Negroes were allowed to live. We have them without reason and we kill their buffalos. We kill like automatons. For picture frame by sicker frame conditioning as experience read brainwashing.

I take home in triumph sticklebacks and redbreasts buried alive in tap water filled Robertson’s jam jars from which we collected gollywog labels for tin lapel badges lorry before plastic imitated nature as free-gift flowers and linen-look table clothes. Even the bees are fooled. Then we have a very sensibility just to fool these bees, which have more right to flowers than we do.

We mark those fish unaware that they would die and not rebuked by our parents who knew they would.  The insignificance of small fish is of that attitude which rich pollution of our environment.

But the damn has gone. The mill is shuttered and there is nothing but my breathing and the occasional noise from the houses.

Listen would you mind if I use your toilet?    

There was a man sat by those houses then. I approached that man and I intended to accuse him to criminally assault me. He did not. He may have done. He may have been found and arrested, charged and convicted of an offensive in which two play. We are not taught the consequences of our actions, only guilt it is considered an instinctive reaction. Ignored for the duration of childhood, intended to flourish in maturity.

I have to know why. I did tint.

My wife gave birth to my first child, a son, ten days ago.

Peter Gadd Collins – 1968.