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smushedmuffin · 1 year ago
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where did all 6 of them come from??
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rp-partnerfinder · 2 months ago
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🐉 hello everyone! 21+, she/her, looking for 21+ only. i’m dying to explore a roleplay in an east-asian setting—perhaps ancient china, wuxia-inspired? also open to drawing inspo from feudal japan & joseon (ifykyk). the options are limitless when it comes to worldbuilding, and i would love for us to develop it together. i’ll list a couple of my ideas, though i’m not set on anything specific and i’m more than happy to brainstorm together! 
an isekai-esque / reincarnation plotline, political intrigue, dark themes. muse A rose through the ranks from concubine to a cruel villainous empress, and met a gruesome fate at the hands of muse B, her stepson—only to wake up and find herself years in the past, before she met the emperor. this time, with her memories intact, she’ll do everything in her power to avoid muse B and the palace altogether, only to find that her efforts are futile
 i would love to explore a route where muse B becomes unhealthily obsessed with her.
a world of political intrigue and poisonous courtly schemes, in which the childless empress / queen is widowed after her husband is assassinated, and is forced to marry his vicious younger brother. 
other potential prompts. 
low fantasy, a classic arranged marriage, an assassin disguised as a concubine sent to murder the emperor/lord, vampires and malicious devils, elemental powers, political intrigue and poisonous palace courts, a peasant catches the eye of a fearsome prince, or a foreign princess, held hostage by the emperor to keep her kingdom subservient, captures the unwanted attentions of his bloodthirsty brother/son
 
honestly im open to anything!! if you have any ideas, don’t hesitate to tell! đŸ«¶
mxf pairing preferred, in which i write f. real-life and art [manga/manhwa] fcs are more than welcome, also pinterest boards n playlists. hit me with all the aesthetics hehe. dead dove elements [no đŸȘ] are also welcome, and limits and triggers can be discussed in private. i write advanced literate to novella level and i am looking for detailed prose, so if you’re lit to semi-lit, this might not be the ad for you. 
like if you’re interested and I’ll reach out! đŸ«¶
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darkrpfinders · 2 months ago
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🐉 hello everyone! 21+, she/her, looking for 21+ only. i’m dying to explore a roleplay in an east-asian setting—perhaps ancient china, wuxia-inspired? also open to drawing inspo from feudal japan & joseon (ifykyk). the options are limitless when it comes to worldbuilding, and i would love for us to develop it together. i’ll list a couple of my ideas, though i’m not set on anything specific and i’m more than happy to brainstorm together! 
an isekai-esque / reincarnation plotline, political intrigue, dark themes. muse A rose through the ranks from concubine to a cruel villainous empress, and met a gruesome fate at the hands of muse B, her stepson—only to wake up and find herself years in the past, before she met the emperor. this time, with her memories intact, she’ll do everything in her power to avoid muse B and the palace altogether, only to find that her efforts are futile
 i would love to explore a route where muse B becomes unhealthily obsessed with her.
a world of political intrigue and poisonous courtly schemes, in which the childless empress / queen is widowed after her husband is assassinated, and is forced to marry his vicious younger brother. 
other potential prompts. 
low fantasy, a classic arranged marriage, an assassin disguised as a concubine sent to murder the emperor/lord, vampires and malicious devils, elemental powers, political intrigue and poisonous palace courts, a peasant catches the eye of a fearsome prince, or a foreign princess, held hostage by the emperor to keep her kingdom subservient, captures the unwanted attentions of his bloodthirsty brother/son
 
honestly im open to anything!! if you have any ideas, don’t hesitate to tell! đŸ«¶
mxf pairing preferred, in which i write f. real-life and art [manga/manhwa] fcs are more than welcome, also pinterest boards n playlists. hit me with all the aesthetics hehe. dead dove elements [no đŸȘ] are also welcome, and limits and triggers can be discussed in private. i write advanced literate to novella level and i am looking for detailed prose, so if you’re lit to semi-lit, this might not be the ad for you. 
like if you’re interested and I’ll reach out! đŸ«¶
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novella-writers · 2 months ago
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🐉 hello everyone! 21+, she/her, looking for 21+ only. i’m dying to explore a roleplay in an east-asian setting—perhaps ancient china, wuxia-inspired? also open to drawing inspo from feudal japan & joseon (ifykyk). the options are limitless when it comes to worldbuilding, and i would love for us to develop it together. i’ll list a couple of my ideas, though i’m not set on anything specific and i’m more than happy to brainstorm together! 
an isekai-esque / reincarnation plotline, political intrigue, dark themes. muse A rose through the ranks from concubine to a cruel villainous empress, and met a gruesome fate at the hands of muse B, her stepson—only to wake up and find herself years in the past, before she met the emperor. this time, with her memories intact, she’ll do everything in her power to avoid muse B and the palace altogether, only to find that her efforts are futile
 i would love to explore a route where muse B becomes unhealthily obsessed with her.
a world of political intrigue and poisonous courtly schemes, in which the childless empress / queen is widowed after her husband is assassinated, and is forced to marry his vicious younger brother. 
other potential prompts. 
low fantasy, a classic arranged marriage, an assassin disguised as a concubine sent to murder the emperor/lord, vampires and malicious devils, elemental powers, political intrigue and poisonous palace courts, a peasant catches the eye of a fearsome prince, or a foreign princess, held hostage by the emperor to keep her kingdom subservient, captures the unwanted attentions of his bloodthirsty brother/son
 
honestly im open to anything!! if you have any ideas, don’t hesitate to tell! đŸ«¶
mxf pairing preferred, in which i write f. real-life and art [manga/manhwa] fcs are more than welcome, also pinterest boards n playlists. hit me with all the aesthetics hehe. dead dove elements [no đŸȘ] are also welcome, and limits and triggers can be discussed in private. i write advanced literate to novella level and i am looking for detailed prose, so if you’re lit to semi-lit, this might not be the ad for you. 
like if you’re interested and I’ll reach out! đŸ«¶
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theabyssthatsetsmefree · 4 months ago
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I've been thinking a lot about all these ideas, so now I have more detail:
Littlewood
I want to write a hero vs. dark wizard adventure, except the hero and dark wizard are former best friends and the dark wizard's possession is kind of intermittent, with the original person surfacing just often enough for the hero to still believe they can be saved. At the end both of them lose their memories in some kind of shared sacrifice. Like, probably the dark wizard's memory has to be wiped to get rid of the possession, and the hero refuses to leave them, and finally they unleash the spell together and promise to meet again in another life.
Cat Quest
I've been looking at the wiki a bit and I think maybe I want to write about the original dragonborn and the time when the dungeons start to appear.
There's a thing in manhwa where 'gates' start popping up around the place, and they're portals into pocket universes or something. They suddenly start appearing after a cataclysm, and some of the people are given 'hunter' abilities and start exploring the dungeons. I think Solo Leveling is the original version of this concept, although there are a lot of similar worlds in other stories now.
So, my idea is to have the dungeons as the battlefields of the Dragon Wars, with the dragons creating the dungeons. I think the 'great old ones' or whatever they're called would have created the dragonborn some time ago - maybe there was a dragon that came through the first dungeon or something, and so the dragonborn were created and told to prepare for a full-scale invasion. Drakoth and some of the villain-type characters from the game would be a secret group trying to harness the power of the dragons — using Drakoth's desire to bring back that one 'great old one' who cared for him.
Dungeon Crawl/Slash'EM
I have this idea about a kind of time loop exploration thing, kind of like The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling mixed with that one Doctor Who episode with the castle and the story about a bird. It's player vs. character, and the dungeon is littered with signs that this character is the latest in a long like of explorers. Also maybe hints that the characters are being generated by the player, who's trying out many different character builds in an attempt to find a path through the dungeon.
Die In The Dungeon
I'm not really sure what I want to do with this one. Possibly the same general concept as what I'm thinking of for Dungeon Crawl/Slash'EM, except that it's the same character each run. Maybe not, though. I also have this other idea floating around that's inspired by the 'facility' in Gideon The Ninth, so maybe I'd send Lisver or Cinder into the dungeon accompanied by a necromancer/healer and pile on a nice load of angst about a warrior who has the staying alive ability of Kim Dokja and a healer who feels like they're the one who hurts the warrior most.
If I write something like this, the first song on the playlist will be 'Zunya' by Lord Of The Lost.
Mewnbase
I guess this would be some kind of seemingly simple horror/survival thing like the main character stranded alone on an alien planet, and then starting from just a few basic items they have to find a way to survive long enough to be rescued. Only, there's no rescue on the way, no orbiting ship receiving their transmissions, and sometimes they think they're not alone on the planet after all.
I'm making this list because I have ideas for the Littlewood pre-game story and then I started wondering about ideas for other stuff I play.
Littlewood: pre-game hero vs dark wizard.
Roguelikes: I don't know how to explain it exactly, but if you've read The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling, kind of like a fantasy version of that.
Cat Quest: a hunters vs. dungeons thing, sort of inspired by stuff like Solo Leveling.
Die In The Dungeon: might actually be a better base for that cave exploration idea
Mewnbase: okay, I don't actually have an idea for this yet, but it's a good survival/base-building framework.
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saintobio · 3 years ago
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hi saint you absolute bodacious goddess, thank you for another beautiful chapter
i have some questions pertaining to your writing habits and whatnot, idk if you’ve ever answered an ask about this but if you did then disregard lmao
as a fellow writer myself, i have trouble finding time and motivation to update my stories and i noticed that you literally update sn/sy chapters in what could be like 7 chapters worth in a short amount of time
so i’m curious what your writing schedule looks like, for instance if you go to school, have a job, other priorities, then how do you balance out everything since i know writing/editing takes a huge chunk of time
and oh my god what motivates you to write ‘cause i try to come back to a chapter to edit and after a paragraph i ditch the app HAHA, anyway thank you luv
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the intro pls 😭 yes, i did answer something like this before but i’ve searched through my whole blog and still couldn’t find it, so i guess i’ll just redo.
but before that, i’m just gonna say that sy currently has 25k words with only 2 chapters out and i was actually so shocked when i added the revised chapter to my docs lmao it’s basically half the total wc for wastelands! i think the reason why i can write this much is bc i also have many side stories for sn/sy, so i wanted to capture as much of those backstories as i can.
anyway, here’s what my daily schedule looks like (i’m not proud of this schedule though, very unhealthy and mentally draining). i do have a 9-5 corporate job, but i only go to the office like twice a week, then the rest of my days i work at home.
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a day in saint’s life !
weekdays
5:00 AM-7:00 AM — i wake up and spend some time in bed scrolling through tumblr, answering asks, etc
7:00 AM-9:00 AM — i prepare for my day, eat breakfast, check emails, go to work (or start work at home)
9:00 AM-3:00 PM — work, work, work i usually am not online around this time
3:00 PM-5:00 PM — around this time work gets less hectic, i chat with my colleagues, go to a nearby cafĂ©, walk around, sometimes i go online on tumblr, basically anything to kill time
5:00 PM-7:00 PM — i go home, relax and take a nap, or i usually spend this time catching up on my fav manhwas, watching movies, etc. it’s my personal time
8:00 PM-12:00 AM — i write 2-3k words for my current series, research data, edit
weekends
FULL DAY — self care lol i go shopping, do some errands, go to my appointments if i have one, then for the rest of the evening i either go home to write the fic or meet up with my friends to have a drink
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to be honest, i don’t know how i can manage to squeeze a 10-14k word chapter with this schedule but it’s kinda what drained me the hell out for the duration of sn 😭 on the other hand, i just naturally crave writing and i don’t feel fulfilled if i don’t at least get to write like 300 words a day.
how to stay motivated — well, first of all, ask yourself: how willing are you to commit yourself in writing this series? if your answer is something between 60-80% then i’ll be frank and say that you’re not gonna manage finishing this series consistently, if at all. you should have a full 100% when it comes to both ‘dedication and inspiration’ in order to have that motivation to update regularly. because otherwise, having little motivation will make writing feel like a job and it’s eventually gonna make you lose interest in accomplishing a chapter or two.
find all the right inspos that make you wanna write — watch movies related to ur series, read stories related to ur series, listen to a playlist that remind you of ur series (ie. reading tre was half the reason why i’d been so inspired to finish sn). find what brings that spark of inspiration in you. maybe read ur old chapters and get inspired to do better than the last. also, just wanna share that a writing habit of mine is to take a nap before i actually start writing. i don’t write without enough rest, bc once i do wake up from a nap and then i open my laptop, that’s when i feel the most inspired to write. my brain’s usually full of ideas after a good nap (kinda like recharging đŸ˜č) i’m sorry if my advice won’t work on you, but this is basically how i find the motivation to write + dealing with a hectic schedule :)
wish u the best, my love! you can do this. don’t give up on writing but don’t force yourself either. if you really don’t feel motivated, then that’s okay. take enough time gathering your energy into something else first, then try coming back a few hours or even a day later and see if you feel like writing again. the quality of ur writing will be affected if you force yourself. so instead, take the time to have that momentum back by indulging urself on various forms of media. we all work in different ways so don’t feel pressured to have the same work ethic as another writer <3
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jae-canikeepyou · 5 years ago
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| bad boy | j.jh | sequel
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pairing: jaehyun x fem!reader genre: au t/w: slight violence and blood. a/n: a sequel was requested for this scenario & to be very honest i thought it’s best to leave as it was.. but who am i to turn down my lovely readers? đŸ„° as promised, here it is! blame my lazy butt for procrastinating to post it. it’s not proof read too woohoo! 😂 anyway, enjoy! :3 ~j
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“...i’ll be happy to see you again.”
it was the only sentence that stuck into the back of your mind. a similar feeling to when you liked someone and his very existence wouldn’t just leave you alone. you thought you might go insane because every time you think of nothing at all, that dimpled smile of his reappears and your brain immediately sends all kinds of signals that maybe science couldn’t explain, let alone you.
the students who walked pass you and him had questionable stares. you were well aware that jaehyun was fresh from returning back to town; though according to him it only had been two years. even the faces of the neighbourhood gave scoffs and looks of disbelief; unconvinced that he had changed for ‘the better’. honestly people still avoided him— maybe it was due to the fact he wasn’t seen as often by day, only at dusk.. doing stuff that jaehyun himself chose not to remember.
coming out of the university, an annoying tug on the shoulder caused you to turn around to identify the doer, jolting you back to reality from your thoughts. however the tug was too familiar that you already knew who it was, even with eyes closed. he bugged you during training— though it was not in a bad way.
the regretful look on his face made you pinch his cheeks with his dimples as the support. he was one good-looking lad with now good intentions to help people. ever since that encounter with him at the alley, he never really left your side; stuck with you like glue. your parents joked about how he was as loyal as a golden retriever would be to his owner. he followed you everywhere and even if you didn’t mind, you had to remind him about boundaries.
and boundaries meant when he accidentally followed you to the toilet that one time.
leaving that aside, jaehyun smiled and this adorable puppy with chocolate eyes made you snap your fingers. “jaehyun, i told you not to stare at me like that.”
“why can’t i? i already told you you’re pretty.” he smirked, nudging a tease with his brows. “it’s worth staring at, even for a whole day.”
“uh-huh.” you hum in faux agreement. “and you told me that a month ago, which was after your friends broke my door. you’ve been calling me that nonstop.”
“it’ll approximately be thirty two- no, thirty three times i complimented you, today included.” jaehyun took your bag with him. as gentleman as it sounds, your own friends once had to pull your stuff away from him when he did the kind gesture the first time.
“hey, give it.” you attempted to retrieve it back when he raised it higher.
“maybe i’ll consider if you give me a kiss.” he poked his cheek, leaning into your face. you gave him a disgusted look before it turned out to be more so when he pointed his lips instead.
“in your dreams jaehyun.” you rolled your eyes, nudging him to leave the training centre.
you both spent the next two hours chilling at a local coffee shop, doing some recaps of what you learnt earlier. to your surprise, jaehyun was actually quite studious. it was a little difficult to approach him whenever you had questions. who knew that behind the acronym the townspeople gave him, ‘bad boy’, was a very hardworking and intelligent guy. sometimes you would think he was a real-life manhwa character, where he’d ace a test despite worrying over whether he’d flunk it.
on the bright side of jaehyun’s reputation to everyone, some students would arrive in crowds after your training; which was, how you’d call it, fanbase. they’d usually giggle to themselves and ask for a picture, but jaehyun declined their requests.
whilst at the cafĂ© with chill jazz music playing, and despite feeling uneasy and worried for no reason at all, jaehyun sighed deeply, indirectly asking to call it a day— it was already 10 pm. every friday night, he’d go with you to the orphanage to read books to the children; or go along with them to give medical care with a stethoscope just to satisfy the curiosity of the kids.
jaehyun fumbled his bag to look for his keys. you waited for the lad, skimming through the university’s fountain and statue. you looked at the far distance, and the unease came back just when you thought it went away. “okay i got them. let’s go.” he tapped to us shoulders.
you soon hopped onto his car, fastening your seatbelt as you propped your arm onto the edge of the window rest. “tired? me too.” you heard jaehyun ask, his car keys clashing towards each other before being put onto its place.
“yeah i kinda am.” you lied, still having that uneasiness stuck in your chest. at the night you met jaehyun, you would say that the encounter with the screwed-up man traumatised you; the sound of gunfire rang in your ears, the man’s grip onto your wrists left a bruise, jaehyun’s flirtatious moves to his favourite couple’s daughter.
“well, we can go to the riverside if that’s what you’re looking for. tell your parents we’ll visit the kids next week and that you’re on a date with me.” he started the engine, rubbing your head with the other hand as he began to drive.
“a date with you? i’ve got other priorities.” you eyed him with a grin.
“change it then. put me on your top 5 or something.” his proud giggles put a confused look on your face and his lips flattened quickly at your response. jaehyun hoped you at least felt butterflies, but maybe it hasn’t developed yet. “what? i gotta be on your list somehow.”
“oh wow jaehyun you’re really determined.” you soothed your temples and he just laughed. “fine, uh. top 10?”
“agh man i gotta work nine bars higher to be your top 1.” he faked a hiss, earning an airy scoff from you.
“you’re not gonna be my top 1. my mom and dad are. education’s second.”
“then third?”
“no. that’s my bunny’s place.”
“ugh bunbun’s before me.” he whined. “anyway i’m gonna be part of your top 5.”
the car turned to a much narrower road. jaehyun insisted it was the shortcut and that the longer way was going to take minutes. not like you wanted to assume highly of how he knew some paths, but maybe he had dealings or encounters before at 17 years of age. heck that was him in the past. he was different now.
he reached out to the stereo and made a few taps onto the touch screen, sliding his fingers to the side to maximise the volume. it was a playlist full of jazzy, chilling instrumental tracks to hype up the mood and taking your heads off of studying. you never really heard him sing before, but you knew he was a good one in just humming.
as you listened with the playlist he tuned in, your eyes stayed on the road for a good minute before the car’s side view mirror flickered with lights, catching your attention. to be exact, they were red laser lights.
was something there? or were you just tired?
you brushed it off, telling yourself continuously that it was a result of staying behind the laptop screen too long. jaehyun didn’t seem to notice so maybe it was really just you. the car finally reached a stoplight, you sighed heavily at its disappearance when you looked at the mirror of your side.
but then it flashed again.
as if you both were being followed.
jaehyun spotted your discomposure and the frequent shuffles in positions to find comfort of the seat. “y/n, need a break? wait a little because we’re almost there-”
“i- i think we’re being followed.” you find your palms clenching the sides of the seat, avoiding to look at the mirror again. the feeling you had that night at the dark alley came back; chest pounding and breaths so uneven. you didn’t tell jaehyun what you felt that night and kept it to yourself so of course he wouldn’t know of your situation now.
jaehyun’s brows creased inquisitionly, his pupils shifted to his side of the mirror in an instant. they grew wider at the sight of a familiar vehicle and logo that was overlapping the car brand. he thought he’d never see them once more, but unluckily he did tonight. he cursed in whispers and although he said it softly, those alone made your worries shoot up like rockets. the circular light emitted green. you felt your body being pressed back against the seat at the force and speed jaehyun drove. “we’re gonna have to skip the date and rush home, okay?”
he tapped the stereo’s touchscreen to mute the track that coincidentally matched the tension you both were feeling now. “you’re driving fast~” you said with your sarcastic singing. a hum from him raised a tad more worry. “why are you driving fast~”
he only chuckled.
“jaehyun, the only time you drive fast is when we receive an medical emergency!” you panicked in all high pitches your voice could ever give.
“uh- this is kind of an emergency y/n!” he still gave a giggle despite being in a frenzy.
“it’s not medical! we’re not in the ambo!” you huffed in excessive breaths to attempt to calm yourself.
“i know but-”
gunshot.
it wasn’t once.
it was five times at most.
you gasped then squealed, unsure whether to cover yourself with your forearms or still hold onto the seat. jaehyun pulled over the car to a stop, making you shiver and the feeling went down to your spine then palms while your grip tightened onto the seatbelt. you let the window on your side lower for some air. it might seemed strange to some people passing by, but you were muttering words as if you were enchanting a spell to summon the supernatural; where as in fact you were really, really scared.
at times like these, all you wanted to do was to head home and forget that this ever happened.
“why did you stop?” you asked, sounding panicky and jaehyun didn’t seem to do the same. “we’re being chased and you decide to-”
the scratch of the tire from the vehicle following you hit from behind, plunging both of your torsos to the front and stretched the seatbelts. your eyes blurred for second and as the clear began to come in, jaehyun signalled you to bend low. when you obliged and cowered down, he took off his jacket and placed it above you. “y/n, don’t get off the car. i got this.” you felt that he grabbed something from the drawer in front of him, later putting it in his pockets.
you hitched a breath. “w-why? where are you going?!”
“shhh.. if you did, i won’t forgive you.” he warned and closed the door.
“stop cutting me off!” you gave a little tantrum that you hit your head onto the pull-out drawer. “stupid jaehyun!”
you heard mumbles of exchanged dialogues between jaehyun and two late twenties men. the patience you’ve always had had run out and carefully your fingers pulled the door handle to head out. soon you found yourself tiptoeing and crouching all at the same time; just like how you used to sneak to the kitchen at midnight to grab some snacks. the air was cool, much to your surprise jaehyun and the two men were just, talking.
in the two weeks since knowing jaehyun, you hesitated in asking more of his past. not that you couldn’t tolerate the endless stares and whispers from the public, but you were just curious about the man who evolved to b.a.d boy. 
“jaehyun.” you whisper-yelled but there was no response from him. he had his hands behind him. though relaxed, there was tension shown in them. based on his gestures he knew of your presence. his hands formed to a ‘thumbs up’; turning sideways, telling you to head back into the car.
you had your palms onto the door handle when the conversation became clear to you.
“what're you both doing here?” he asked the two men, later their surnames revealed to be park and jang. “i thought i said i’m resigning.”
“you resigned before boss made his decision. he wants you back in the group.” park said, handing him an envelope. “accept this and you’ll get all you asked for; your own room at the base, the money from-”
jaehyun took the envelope and tore them to pieces. “i’m not going back to that life ever. knowing you lot, pisses me off up until now, you tried luring me into dirty money.”
it wasn’t like you wanted to get involved with jaehyun. it just seemed you were just caught in the wrong time and in the wrong moment. even that night in the dark alley. you mumbled and grumbled to yourself, profanities spoken internally that maybe you shouldn’t have heard something so private-
“then i could just guess you’re now using her for dirty money?” jang caught your collar and pulled you from behind the car. “you really think you could earn money without our help huh.”
“y/n, i told you not to come out.” he turned around so quickly that the scowl from his lips made you regret breaking that order. 
“who do we have here? jaehyun you seem to get yourself a hottie-” park walked closer to where you were.
“let me go.” you spat him, disgusted at their assumption. 
“let y/n go, she has nothing to do with this.” jaehyun grabbed your arm, putting you behind his large, broad frame.
“sure will, jung. but she has something to do with you.” park laughed, his hands reached for his pocket. jaehyun didn’t seem to see that, but you were aware where this might escalate to. you plunged forward that you were in front him, hugging him fully before your friend realized the frightful action.
bang. bang.
the tightness and uneasiness in your chest wasn’t the car chase nor the two men, nor the fired gunshots.
it was the men’s bloodlust for jaehyun.
they cursed and yelled as they left the scene, saying that they meant to shoot him, not you. it took a while for jaehyun to process what had happened. he looked down at your collapsing body, blood dampening his hands as he touched the wound to stop it from bleeding further. “y/n?.. y/n! stay with me, okay? don’t you dare close your eyes on me!”
he saw you attempting to caress his cheek with a pained smile before it turned emotionless. 
“y/n!”
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it had been exactly a week since you were shot, because of that jaehyun avoided you. people looked at ease when they saw you alone and you weren’t used to it. he would always be there every second of the day, either already buying you lunch or carrying your bag. not even your parents heard of him when after jaehyun brought you to your apartment. having parents work in the medical field sure was convenient.
the morning’s sun shone your room and you stood in front of your mirror, still in your pj’s. turning slightly to the side, you lifted the fabric to see the two sets of stitches just below the bra strap line. your mom knocked onto your door, smiling in relief at the sight of recovery. “breakfast’s ready.”
you smiled back, remembering the worries plastered on their faces. in most cases, a patient would want to see their parents once they came into the conscious. for you however, wanted to see jaehyun. “yeah i’ll be down soon.”
the smell of toast and hot chocolate smacked you in the nose and you started walking slowly down the stairs. your groggy eyes caught sight of the one you didn’t want to see. “ah, she’s awake.” your dad nudged the male. jaehyun looked up at the loft, his ears shading from pink to red. 
he gulped, and your dad laughed. “wow that was loud. chill jae, she’s walking down the stairs, not the aisle.”
“i didn’t think of that, sir.”
jaehyun got up from the dinning area to help you. his fingers felt the bandage wrapped around your torso and immediate guilt flushed his body. “y/n i-”
“don’t apologize. it wasn’t your fault.” you smiled and he flattened his lips, surprised that you knew what he was about to say. as you sat down, your parents were all dressed and ready for work. “i just got here and you’re leaving me alone?”
“that’s why we called jaehyun here. he lives just across the street. we’ll see you tonight sweetheart.”
silence consumed the house once the door shut to a close. jaehyun rested comfortably on the chair with his arms behind his head. hungry as you were, you began to eat, cautious and carefully. you told yourself you should be used to having him around. however, it was today that you felt nervous. even his exhales got you on the edge. you tried to look at him, only to avert your eyes immediately when he caught you. “how’s the wound?” he asked.
“well i never thought i’d experience it myself before i’d treat actual patients.” you said, soon grasping the situation that you didn’t mean to put it directly at him. “ah i’m not saying this because i blame you for what happened-”
“i know, but.. you did treat me when i was shot.” jaehyun took a sip of his cup. “so your answer’s invalid.”
“you asked the damned question jaehyun!” you scoffed and slight stood from your chair.
jaehyun saw a brief shade of pale onto your lips and went beside you. you looked up to see him with eyebrows narrowed. “get up, i’m checking your wound.”
“my wounds are perfectly fine! mom just fixed it.” you angrily munched on your toast when he suddenly knelt on the floor, back facing you. “what the heck are doing?”
“i’m giving you a piggyback ride.” his hands gestured you to get on.
“what am i, five?” you ignored his offer.
“what are you, ms. stubborn? if you move now, you’ll widen the already opened incision.” he finally turned around to carry you and when he placed you on the sofa, he grabbed the first aid.
“this is so awkward.” you sat in front of jaehyun as you lifted your shirt. 
“not at all. i’m treating a stubborn patient who apparently is very cranky early in the morning.” he carefully cut the surgical tape and held his breath when he saw the two stitches from gunshot wounds onto your flesh. “look about this..”
you waited for him to speak, but he didn’t continue further and treated the wounds. “why are you blaming yourself?”
“because you got hurt.” he gently dabbed with a cotton. “when it was supposed to be me. i didn’t see that he already got it out and before i know it, blood was spilled.”
“but you didn’t pull the trigger.” you bent your head down.
“but i’m the cause why it triggered, okay?!” he raised his voice, making you flinch at his tone from behind. “i ran away from my past so that i could live a good one! yet it still haunts me and every where i go, i’m always caught in their web! it’s been like this! then when i met you, i was afraid and i knew that i’ll eventually put you in harm’s way. deep inside me, i saw it as a sign that being with you might protect me, that they wouldn’t do anything to me when you’re with me. then when the gun fired, there you were saving me from my mistakes and-”
you felt a heavy weight onto your head, teardrops dampening the nape of your neck. “i’m so sorry y/n..” 
“you really *coughs* are a bad boy.” you said so suddenly that jaehyun shot up. your coughs made him to kneel in front of you, checking if you were alright.
“what?” he asked.
“a baby and dumb boy.” you giggled through breaths and though it got him taken aback, he was assured, somehow. “did i ever blame you for the gunshots? did i say it was you who hurt me? i never thought of you as the guy everyone thought they saw two years ago. so why are you still sticking with the fact that i might change after that night? i know you grabbed a gun too, but you didn’t bring it out. if you ran away from the past that just means you’re willing move forward to the new. if you’re afraid of ever hurting me, i know fully that you’ll never do that.”
he sat onto the carpet waiting for your next words; like a golden retriever, you told yourself. “i was looking for you when i woke up and besides, when i took the bullet.. it’s kind of..” you paused. “..returning the favor for saving me too? if you were shot, it might ease the people who were judgmental of you but.. not me. i wouldn’t be able to sleep if that happened you know? like-”
you saw his torso moving closer to yours. it was brief, but you saw the warmest smile from his lips before he hugged you. his hands caressed your head as if he was doing it to a child. “ah.. so i topped first?” 
“ha?” 
“i was your top 1 after all.” he smiled that his cheeks formed those damned dimples. “you thought of me before your parents and bunbun.”
“n-no! i mean i-it’s normal, right? the last person i saw before fainting was you so i-”
jaehyun rather than listening to your excuses longer, he preferred to hug you before you catch his ear turning redder. when he let go of you, his eyes twinkled as if a shooting star reflected in them.
“y/n, do you know you’re extra pretty when you’re flustered?” he teased, going back to treating your wound.
dumbfounded, you scoffed at his easy-goingness. “do you know you’re extra flirty when you think i like you?”
“you don't like me?” he whimpered how a puppy would do.
“i don’t.” you replied so proudly.
“that’s so mean.” he began to take the scissors to trim off the extra strand of tape. “i compliment you all-” 
you closed the gap in between. “i love you.” you closed your eyes as you said the three words you planned not to tell him. 
jaehyun gasped but he smiled afterwards. “my dream’s granted already?”
“urgh don’t make me more embarrassed than i already am jaehyun! i hate it when you’re always having fun and-”
“i love you too.”
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November Favorites 2020!
 Hello!
So as you may have seen I have been uploading a bunch of art all of November, not every week because of my crippling job at the moment taking away my sanity.lol. But i did try my best to update whenever I can. I do have so much more to complete so please look out this December for more digital art being pumped out
How are you all doing?  I'm holding up decently, I'm trying to avoid talking about covid since that's all i've been hearing from work and home and it's really making me anxious since i'm not able to work from home due to the nature of my job. I hope you all are holding up hope and taking care of your selves, let's all remember that there is a time after this and we will get through this.
with that being said I will have a lot more time to spend on my art after January since my work term is going to end and I don't plan to stay for an extension, so maybe then I'll catch up on all of my previous art that I was supposed to upload, a.k.a my hero academia ones.lol
also I'm still chugging along reading more manhwa (web toons ) from korean and chinese artists, i'm so disappointed in myself for not discovering these sooner, these stories are really good and so much effort was put into the art panels, as I have said all I've read was manga so i'm used to just seeing black and white panels, so i never really dove into web toons though I have appreciated the work put into it, now that I'm down the rabbit hole I am discovering really good story lines that are different from the manga I've read thus far and I'm really enjoying it!
so i'm excited to share my thoughts on everything I've been liking
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so previously in last months recommendations I have talked about a few of the manhwa I've been reading so I'll briefly list those below since they are all still ongoing
1) who's baby is it
2) to be or no to be
3) social temperature
4) salad days
all of them are still ongoing and i'm still in the process of reading them so I can't give a full review till it's completed but so far I am still enjoying them, that's definitely a good sign since i tend to just drop something after I don''t find it interesting anymore at some point in the story. If you have not read my October favorites journal please do so for my initial thoughts on these manhwas. Now i'm actually going to talk about some of the ones that are completed   , so you can definitely read all of them without waiting for the an update from translators, lol
this is in no particular order, just fyi
1) Path to you
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"When almost college dropout Jensen attempts to drink away his problems, unemployed Nathaniel( Neil ) suddenly pukes on him and ruins his night. As an apology, Nathaniel offers to help Jensen with his studies. Despite Jensen's difficulties in getting along with people, the two become friends and something deeper begins to grow between them...”
this is the summary from one of the manga websites I was able to find, it does not even describes the emotional plot line that goes along with this later, this is ones of my absolute favorites! I love this manhwa so much, its a great depiction of a coming of age story for collage students going through their life journey and slowly getting though life's difficulties  and challenges, one character is going though emotional trauma and trying to over come it for years and another character is going through anti social disorder and discovering his sexuality, it's a plot line that portrayed human aspects in life quite well. I love the relationship between the two main character and how their relationship developed over time from being friends to being a couple. there is a lot of relationship building and minimal drama, which is really refreshing from mangas that I've read, so if you are just starting to delve into BL webtoons, please read this first! you will not be disappointed
with that being said, I love Neil, so much.... you don't even know. lol. He's so precious, literally like an actual cinnamon roll. LOL. i'm exposing myself ...so i'll leave it at that, i’m also wondering why his name is neil instead of nathan or nate...? lol.
2) Here U Are
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"Orientation of  the newcomers is a task for YuYang, and he ends up helping the unsociable and towering LiHuan, the kind of person that does everything to be disliked. But after better knowing each other, he discovers that the giant isn’t that bad of a person at all...”
I really wish I could find better summaries, lol. but it's to the point without giving away too much so i'll take it. This is one of the most popular series and I can totally see why after reading it, this story has every possible human aspect and relationship building  between the two main leads, I actually teared in some parts of this manhwa and I've never done that before! such a good story and plot line, if I were to pick any series in a web toon to be animated then I would choose this series hands down. There's also sub plots between different characters as well and how they deal with their interpersonal relationships and relationships between the two main leads, I love it! This is everything I want in a story, so please check this one out
also yuyang looks a lot like miyuki Kazuya from Daiya no ace and that just made me drawn to him.I really liked his personality and in the manhwa he has girls and guys in love with him and dude...I get it.
3) BJ Alex
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"Every night at 10, Dong-gyun locks himself up in his room, grabs a box of tissues, and watches a live cam boy show hosted by Alex, a BJ (broadcast jockey). Timid Dong-gyun admires not only Alex’s ripped body, but his candor in sharing his sexual experiences with viewers. One night, Dong-gyun downs too many drinks at a school networking event and passes out. When he wakes up, he’s in bed staring up at a shirtless hunk. A hunk who looks an awful lot like...Alex.”
so um...this is more yaoi than shounen ai cause of all the graphic scenes in the manhwa, if you are veteran you may have already read this one cause its really popular. It also has a lot of comedic elements to it too so it's not too serious, but the relationship developed between the two characters later on is really sweet despite the infinite amount of sex scenes. Not much else to say about this story, it's easy to follow and the only abuse in here is the emotional kind
I'm not really entirely sure how i felt about it in the beginning but the end is really good
4) No way, vampires don't exist
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"Four college housemates — Juwon, Eunho, Seongjae, and Gyumin — are in desperate need of a fifth person to fill a vacant room in their place. But their main concern isn’t about paying rent: they’re ravenous vampires, dying to sink their teeth into a fresh, live human! So they can’t believe their luck when Dongha, who grew up isolated from society, eagerly moves in with no idea of what awaits him. To the vampires’ dismay, however, Dongha doesn’t weigh enough for them to suck his blood! As they shower their unsuspecting new housemate with food and attention to fatten him up, have they gotten too attached to their would-be prey? And is there more to sweet, naive Dongha than meets the hungry vampires’ eyes?”
I have to preface by saying that ever since my twilight phase, I didn't consume anything that had to do with vampires for a very long time, for obvious reasons, but this one I just came across after reading path to you and thought I would at least check it out. It started off really comedic and I was like...what am i reading?  but it gets really light hearted and wholesome later on in the story. What I like about this is the character juwon, If you look at him he's that type of character that would look like the stoic a-hole of the story and those characters never appeal to me. But turns out he's the sweetest person most decent person of this story, it makes you want to route for him  and another thing I like about this story is that it looks like a harem but you can tell that there’s only one person the main character doungha treats differently from the rest and how the two are compatible with one another.  in these kind of stories, it’s always treated as every character is a possible route that leads to their own story but in here....there's only one...let's be real. This is one that is an odd ball cause it's technically completed but the translations are not...so i had to read the rest in korean, which makes it a good practice for me since i'm learning korean at the moment, it’s a good exercise...lol
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Not going to lie this department is lacking...lol. I have only been watching Heavens official blessing as mentioned in the last journal
but I have just found out that there is a remake of Shaman king in the making....and my little girl heart is screaming cause I loved shaman king when i was younger...so I can't wait for that
as for dramas, I've tried watching Start Up but I didn't like it so I dropped it, I might try watching crash landing on you since my best friend was obsessed with it, I watched a little of it but I left it since I was busy so i may get back to watching it from the beginning
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i'll put together a play list for you when you read these manga/manhwa...lol. cause that's what i've been doing
Playlist
Crush- No words
Sam kim - Breathe
Crush - let us go
Kim feel - falling
Paul kim - Dream
Kim feel - Hallelujah
Davichi - please don't cry
Yoo mirae - say
taeyeon - a poem called you
baek yerin- Here I am again
I wish tumblr has a way to play music on your page, without copy right..lol. I would share all of these songs cause they are so good
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so that's it for the month of November, lets' see what i get up to for December, I will be updating as frequently as possible so please look out for more art from me and follow me on my social media , I will see you all next time
bye!
Sheena
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