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David Gaider on Shale, under a cut for length:
"Oops! I realized I'd moved on from DAO but missed one of the companions I'd written. Which checks out, honestly, because I almost didn't write Shale and, even after I'd written her, she almost didn't happen anyhow. Then she did. Prepare yourself for... PIGEON QUEST. 𦤠So... I'm wracking my brain, but I don't recall how Shale began. I have this vague memory of us wanting a "weird" party member who didn't conform to the normal classes (this was back when Dog didn't need to be in the party), and I think my mind drifted to an old indie comic character named Concrete."
"Now, your reaction to that is probably "who?" That's OK. When I explain that HK-47 in KotOR was inspired by an old Canadian TV show called the Littlest Hobo I get the same perplexed response. đ
In short: Concrete was just a regular dude. Who happened to also be a walking hulk of rock. Cue hi-jinx. The problem here is I don't remember whether the Concrete thing was part of the original inspiration or something I thought of at the point when I started writing the character. Because I didn't, at first. That was later. Shale was initially taken on by Jay Turner, then one of our junior writers. Jay had an idea to make Shale more of a robot, an emotionless automoton killer... think HK-47, but without the layer of sarcasm. I was leery, and told Jay he'd have to be very careful. "Emotionless" can very quickly turn into "boring", after all, unless you're VERY careful. But Jay was determined. Sigh. This was a fail on my part, as his lead. There's been a couple of times in my career when I've let a junior convince me with their enthusiasm to take on something my experience said they shouldn't. And then watch their confidence crumble despite every effort I made to reassure them it was OK. This was one of those times. Jay, no idea if you'll read this but: I'm sorry. Even an experienced writer would have found that a daunting challenge. Tonia, my other Big Fail on a similar situation in DAI: I'm sorry. Both times, I should have known. You did your best, but I set you up to fail. đ"
"Jay did his best, and this version of Shale was certainly interesting... but, when he was done, it was one of those peer reviews where every writer had that look of "I'm REALLY sorry to say this..." It felt flat. Jay tried numerous revisions, but the issue wasn't his ability - it was the concept. I only allowed my writers a certain number of tries before I take it away. This hearkens back to an earlier time at Bio when writers would hack away at something that wasn't working 6, 7, 8 times or more until finally their soul was dust. Mike Laidlaw can attest. Revision isn't always the answer. So I moved (a much relieved, I think) Jay onto something else, and the question arose: what do we do with Shale? Do we cut it? It was already very late. Then Shale dropped in my lap. I don't remember if it was me refusing to let it go or maybe Brent (Knowles, Creative Director) giving it to me. I suspect it was the latter, because I recall being a bit bitter about the whole thing. WHAT am I going to do with this character? At the time, they'd moved me out of the writers pit to instead be in a big office with the other leads. I had this corner desk by a window (yay) with an awful view (ugh) What was so awful about it? It looked out onto the neighbouring roof, where there was only an HVAC unit to see. In the winter, pigeons would gather around it. They pooped all over everything - there was this alcove around the access door, right? The pigeons roosted there and it was POOP FAUCET city."
"Not only that, the pigeons used the HVAC like some kind of sex den. Angry, ugly pigeon sex. The only respite was when a hawk would appear and the pigeons scattered. Then I'd get maybe a day when there was a single pigeon corpse, like an exploded ball of down, to act as a scarecrow. Good days, those. What does any of this have to do with Shale? Well, there's me, staring out the window trying desperately to think what I'm going to do. But I CAN'T stare out the window because, gross. But what else am I going to stare at while I think? It was making me furious. I hated those pigeons SO SO MUCH. And then it hit me: Shale is basically an animated statue, right? Something that pigeons are rather notorious for also gathering on? And so I wrote. I wrote like the angry, angry wind. I had zero time to do this so it was basically me vomiting all my annoyance at everything into a single character. Not that it helped much. There was a battle going on over Shale - first, as I recall, it was the art team. They were going to make every doorway in the game EXTRA HUGE because they were worried that Shale was too large and might clip. So, yes, let's alter the whole world to fix that. Good idea. đ Eventually, they compromised by making Shale smaller. Sten-sized. Or Brent went Akira mode, but I don't really know. This was a battle happening above my level. Yet Shale got cut anyhow. There wasn't time to do her abilities and we were short on cinematics time. There was never enough time on DAO."
""Oh well," I thought. "That's that." I did what I could, but cut content is almost never resurrected. The idea was floated of making Shale into a DLC but I scoffed. Yeah, right! But... it happened. That's why the "almost" is there. Enough of the team liked Shale they made it happen this one time. This meant I could finish up the writing once we'd more or less wrapped DAO, and the rest of the team (cinematics, in particular, who were pressed the hardest for time) could move onto the Shale DLC once they were ready. It was supposed to come out well after release, but you know. Shenanigans. This particular shenanigan was EA deciding to sit on the finished DAO a few months in order to delay the release. Why? Again, not my level. To get closer to Christmas, maybe, or maybe for sim ship. It did mean Shale ended up being ready for release day. Unexpected confluence of events, honestly. Cue some fans getting upset that "cut content" was sold to them separately, which... fair, I guess? The alternative would have been that Shale was simply cut, period, and it just worked out this way but... yes, fair. This was back when DLC was the main beef of hardcore gamers. Oh, the good old days. Overall? I have a soft spot for Shale. She has no soft spot for anyone, being... you know... made of rock. It's why I put her in Asunder, and why she was also going to be in the - apparently now notorious for its Fenris murder - cancelled fourth DA novel. Also, if you're a pigeon fan: not sorry. đ"
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Slytherin Boys Break-up Blurb: Part 2
Part 2 of the break-up series. This one is filled with groveling and begging for forgiveness. Enjoy little stars.
Mattheo: You walked through the common room, seeing your friends smiling.Â
âWhatâs gotten into you three?â You asked as you made your way to your dorm.Â
As soon as you opened it, the heavy scent of flowers hit your nose. They were everywhere. Your favorite flower filled the room. There were petals all over the floor. Candles that casted a yellow-ish glow. And right in the middle was none other than Mattheo Riddle.Â
âI am so, so sorry.â He finally said as you looked at him. You could hear his voice cracking as he spoke. It had been a rough last month without Matt but you werenât sure you were ready to forgive him. Not yet anyways.
âMattâŚâ Your voice trailed off. You were unable to form words as you looked at the transformed room. This was something Matt always did to you, take your words away. In both good and bad ways. Perhaps this was a good way.
âI know. I know I messed up and I know I donât deserve you, believe me. But please. Please let me at least try to make it up to you, Princess.â Matt pleaded, something you never thought youâd hear before.Â
You were staring into eyes when you finally noticed the little box he was holding. A red one with a white bow on it. He held it up and you walked closer to open it. Your hands shook a bit as you undid the bow and opened the box. Inside was the most beautiful bracelet with your birthstone set right in the middle.
âYou know you canât just buy me back.â You finally managed to say. Matt smirked, the smallest chuckle escaping his lips as he stared at you.
âAnd Iâd never expect to. This is just the first of my many apologies to come. Because you, Princess, you deserve this. You deserve this and so much more.â Matt explained through that cracked tone once again. But this time it wasnât just a crack. It was a full break. Tears sat on his waterline and you could feel your heart breaking.
You werenât quite ready to forgive him but this was a good start. You placed one hand on his cheek as you kissed him softly, knowing that youâd give him that second chance. And you would be forever grateful that you did.
Theo: It had been weeks since your fight with Theo. Usually he apologized right away but this time you haven't heard from him. Maybe you two really were done.
You were walking through the castle when your phone went off. A text from Theo telling you to meet him in the forest. You almost didnât but something told you to go.Â
As you walked through the dense area, you saw him leaning against your favorite tree. It was the large one right next to the babbling creek. He had the faintest smile on his face as you approached him.
âWhat is it Theo?â You asked sternly and you saw how sad his eyes looked. There were dark circles under them. He wasnât sleeping. You could tell.
âI canât eat. I canât sleep. I canât get that stupid fucking fight off my mind.â Theo admitted after a minute of staring at you. He pointed to the tree, seeing the initials the two of you had carved into it months ago.
âI come back to this tree every day and I stare at those letters. I canât do this, cara mia. I canât be away from you. And Iâm so fucking sorry I ever thought I could.â He admitted before looking back at you with the most solemn look on his face.
You could feel your heartbreaking listening to him. He hurt you. He let you walk out. Fuck. Maybe this was a bad idea. You shook your head as you looked at him.
âItâs too late, Theo.â You whispered as you started to talk away. You took two steps before you felt a hand on your wrist, pulling you back in.Â
Your eyes shot up to his blue ones. They stared into your soul, begging for forgiveness.Â
âI let you go once. I wonât ever make that mistake again.â He said firmly. He was pleading through his eyes, hoping you would just give him a second chance. He didnât deserve it. Fuck. He really fucking didnât deserve it. But you missed him. You missed him more than you cared to admit.
âPlease, tesoro. Please justâŚjust sit here with me?âÂ
And you did. You spent the rest of the evening sitting with Theo against that tree, yours and his initials carved just above your heads. Maybe he didnât deserve this but you didnât mind letting him talk, explain his side. Apologize. And god did he apologize. He did nothing but apologize over and over again. Maybe heâd get that second chance after all.Â
Lorenzo: You still couldnât believe the way Enzo had acted. It was months later when you finally saw him for the first time. And he looked awful. He wasnât eating. Wasnât taking care of himself.
Good.
You didnât even look his way as you walked past him. The closer you got, the faster your heart started to beat. The pain and anger started to bubble inside of you once more.
âY/n, wait!â Enzo called out to you but you didnât stop. You kept pushing forward as your shoes squished across the courtyard grass.Â
âStop! Please, I just want to talk!â He shouted once more, now following behind you. You could feel everything boiling inside of you, not sure if you could hold it back anymore.
âCome on! Just stop!âÂ
That was it. You couldnât hold back anymore. You stopped but not because he asked. You stopped because if you didnât, you were going to boil over and explode. You turned to face him, your hair spinning around you as you whipped around quickly.
âNo! You donât deserve a conversation. You donât deserve my attention. After what you did, Enzo? Seriously? You deserve nothing but the scum on my shoe.â You shouted at him, much to his surprise.
There was a small moment, a moment where the two of you would stare at one another with a longingâa longing for something that has now been lost into the past.Â
After a few moments, you finally turned and walked away. Lorenzo watched you leave. He watched you until there was no you left. His heart was breaking, knowing heâd messed upâknowing he had lost you forever.Â
Over the next few months, you received the most lavish gifts, the most detailed letters. Every day, Enzo sent you something. Even if the two of you never spoke again, it made him happy knowing he was still in your life somehow. And you enjoyed it, even if you didnât want to admit it, you enjoyed how much he was wanting to earn your trust back. And maybe, just maybe, he would.
Draco: It had been five weeks since your break-up with Draco. The pain was still raw but you were trying your best to push through. As you made your way to your next class, you realized you hadnât seen him much and you wondered why.
You walked into the classroom, heading to your desk before noticing a book on it. It wasnât a book you recognized. You picked it up, feeling the black leather in your hands and noticing the pages had gold edges to them. Beside the book was a small piece of paper that had your name on it, noting the book was for you.
You opened the book and recognized the handwriting immediately. Draco. A part of you thought maybe you wouldnât read this, shouldnât read this. It would only hurt.Â
That didnât stop you. You started to read the words, slowly realizing what this was. The first page detailed Dracoâs upbringing. His relationship with his father, his mother. All of it.
You moved on to the next one and with each new page realized he was opening up to you. Maybe he couldnât say it, but he could write it.Â
You read it until you reached the end, noticing how only half the journal was full. There were still plenty of blank pages left but each one was numbered as if it was continuing.Â
âI see youâve found my gift.â Draco called out behind you. You turned around quickly, seeing him standing there with his hands tucked into his pockets.
âDraco, what is this?â You asked, still slightly confused why he would give you something like this. He walked a bit closer, his eyes completely locked with yours with each movement.
âItâs me opening up in the best way I know you.â He stalked a bit more forward before stopping right in front of you, âYou deserve that, Y/n. I was an idiot for not realizing that earlier and Iâm sorry.âÂ
An apology from Draco Malfoy? You never thought youâd see the day.
You glanced back down at the book, flipping it in your hand before opening up to the blank pages. Draco pointed to it, the silver ring with his family crest in the middle shimmering as his finger touched the empty page.
âAnd the blank pages? Thatâs for us to use together. For our new memories. Weâll write in it every day if thatâs what it takes to earn you back.â He said softly before finally moving his finger from the page.
âDracoâŚâ You said softly, closing the book. The effort was sweet, the gesture appreciated. But you were nervous. Was this all for show?Â
âI promise. I will be as open with you as I can, even if itâs through letters.â He said softly, taking his hand and wrapping it through your hair.Â
How could you resist this? You werenât going to fully cave for him just yet but this was a step. It was a very welcomed first step to getting back to what you once were.
Blaise: You hadnât heard from Blaise in a few weeks. In fact, you hadnât seen him at all which was shocking. Blaise was everywhere all the time or so it seemed. Not seeing him on campus was something that should cause concern.
You were walking back to your dorm one day when you saw smiling faces and little giggles in the common room. What the hell was everyone so happy about? You opened your door and there in the room stood Blaise.Â
He was standing in pajamas and holding your favorite flowers. All of your favorite snacks covered the bed. Soft music played from the speaker. Your eyes went a bit wide as you tried to take everything in.
âBlaise? What the hell are you doing here?â You asked through a bit of shock. You were trying to process what was happening but it was almost too much. Almost.
âApologizing. Iâm so sorry for what I did. And I know, I know I might have lost you forever but, ma, even if I just have you as a friend thatâs good enough for me.â Blaise spoke softly. You could feel your heart racing with every word.
There was something about this moment that made you think, perhaps, you would remember it forever. It wasnât anything big or special but it was important. To you, it was important.Â
âBlaiseâŚâ You said softly, letting your voice drop off at the end of his name. His eyes searched yours and he seemed to wonder if you would take his gesture.
âWe can spend all day in here. Watching movies. Talking. Eating every snack the house elves could manage to find for us.â He said as his voice ran off into the smallest chuckle.
Always joking, that was Blaise. Even in the most serious moments, he could make you laugh. It was something you always enjoyed about him. He took a small step forward, still holding the flowers in his hand.
âAll I need is you. No parties. No outside world. Just you. So, what do you say, ma?â He asked quietly. You thought about it but there wasnât much to think about. What he did was wrong, yes, but this? This was a great start to making up for it.Â
You walked towards him, taking the flowers and giving them a small sniff before setting them on the nearby desk. Your eyes went back to his, those dark eyes that only seemed to sparkle when you were around.Â
âA day in here with you sounds perfect.â You whispered before feeling him wrap his arms around you in a hug. You hugged him back and as you did, you felt as if your life problems all seemed to disappear.
You would spend the entire rest of the day with Blaise, talking and laughing about everything possible. It wasnât a confirmation of a restart of your relationship but it was a push forward. And Blaise loved it. Even if it was just the tiniest bit of attention from you, he loved it because, at the end of the day, you truly were the only thing that mattered.Â
Regulus: It had been a year since you had heard from Regulus. There was a part of you that perhaps thought you would never hear from him again. There were rumors he died. Rumors he ran away. Rumors he joined the dark side, fighting for Voldemort. But you couldnât believe any of it.
You knew Regulus. He would never do that. If he had joined the dark side, it was only to fight from the inside. The worst rumor was the one that he died. You couldnât bear that thought. You would have to see him, see his dead body before you accepted that truth.
You were walking back from Hogsmeade one afternoon when you got caught in the rain. You were rushing, trying to make it back to the castle when suddenly you heard your name called out.
The voice was familiar, one that sent waves through your body. You turned around to see Regulus standing in the rain, drenched. His long and curly hair was plastered to his forehead as he stared at you.
âReg?â You asked, almost not believing it was real.
âIâm sorry.â He replied through the rain. Your heart was racing, there was a building of tension between the two of you as you stared at him.
âIâm sorry I left you. But itâs over. Itâs done.â He explained and your mind started to race with a million thoughts. He did it. He won. And he came back for you. Just for you.
You dropped your books, rushing up to him and jumping in his arms. His arms wrapped around you tightly, holding you close before he pressed his lips to yours in a heated and passionate kiss.Â
âDonât you dare ever leave me again, Regulus Black.â You said as you broke the kiss but stayed in his arms. He looked down at you with the softest smile on his face.Â
âI wonât.âÂ
And he wouldnât. Heâd never leave your side. For as long as the two of you lived, heâd be right there. For you were the only important thing in Regulusâ life.
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His Heart
Just some good ol yandere Neuvillette content. I don't support yanderes irl, etc. @trancylovecraft
"You look at me with cold eyes. You see me me and turn away as if you didn't know me."
"...Do I know you?"
"You know that I couldn't have shown you me. Gave you me. I couldn't show you my weakness so I put on a mask to see you but I still want you. A flower that resembles you blossomed in this garden of loneliness. I wanted to give it to you as I rip off this mask. But I know this can't go on forever."
Her eyes still gazed at the ground. Her body small but still so strong as to crush his soul. Rip his heart out to serve on a platter to herself but somehow still rejected the notion she could do that. The whole world sitting in her grasp yet she was completely naive to it or didn't care she had it.
"I will not satisfy your desires for more than what was agreed. I can accept your apologies but I cannot forgive."
"I have made peace with that notion. But I am not here to beg for forgiveness that I will never receive, for I have hurt you and I accept you're stubborn enough to always hold that grudge."
Her form was ever calm. Looking at him for what felt like a millennia of wait. Time vanishing and space darkening except for the gravitational orbit of beauty that revolved around his mind and shown through his sights since the day he laid his eyes on her visage.
"Then what is it do you seek from me, Neuvillette?"
"It's not what I seek. It's what I desire. Wishing that love is as perfect itself. Wishing all my weaknesses are hidden." The room fell sideways in his mind. An oozing feeling on continuous falling for her over and over again. Swallowed by the monster that demanded he claim and the beast that roared at him for everything he did wrong to be made right again. "In a life where nothing was ever genuine, you carved a piece out of my heart that will never feel complete unless you yourself abide by it's beating."
Her answer a head tilt. Eyes grazing the state he was in. Clawing through bodies. Ravaged by freezing cold. No doubt such a sight she disliked but was more than ready to accept given the circumstances.
"What desire do you want that I haven't already given to you?"
Blood ran black fading to a possessive desire. A stark contrast the dripping liquid made compared to the delicate object the palm held out. Staining it purity by the blood of the slain and war. Presented to her gaze which widened slightly at soft petals. A beacon of softness in the blight around them. A roseÂ
"Accept my devotion and become my wife. A place not beneath but beside me. For we were lovers before we were ever born in this world. My name shall be your own, your blood shall be mine, and all combinations of life will be one. Accept all of me, as I already have all of you."
She stared at him like that he told her was the most foolish thing he ever said. Heart racing. Eyes staring. Her hand slowly reaching out to him. His eyes widening as the desire he's been wanting finally being fulfilled- Until she stopped.
Her lungs filled with a shaking breath. "Kill me if you insist on finishing what you started, but I have no intention of bowing to a king who wears a crown studded with the jewels of every sin he committed."
For once he looked taken aback stopping just a few steps away from herself. "Kill you? Oh, dear me. Is that what you thought I came here for?" His head shook swaying ivory locks. "No, no, no. That wouldn't be beneficial to either of us."
"Then why?"
"Why? You have got the arms I want to be wrapped in. You have got the eyes I want to get lost in. You have the smile I can never resist. You have got the voice I want to listen to for hours. I decided on you. I want you and only you."
"I fell in love with your words! Unfortunately they were all lies!"
"No. That's not true." That gentle smile was back as he approached her once more. "I didn't lie that I love you. It wasn't a lie before and it certainly isn't a lie now."
Her body did not give him the satisfaction of an embrace nor the courtesy of a smile as his hand caressed her cheeks.
"You're a dangerous man."
"Ah. But you see the most dangerous person is the one who listens, thinks, and observes."
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Iâm sorry to jump in your inbox with that long af rant, but Iâve been lurking and loving every Meljay post of yours since day one and I need to scream in the void.
Iâm inconsolable over how bad the writing of acts 2 and 3 was, it literally feels like it was written by a completely different team. What even was that conversation, it sounded like they asked ChatGPT to write a scene based on top 50 tweets about Mel and Jayce after 1x05 aired back in the days.
Iâve never in 15 years seen a ship so cruelly ruined, because how are people supposed to continue at all tolerating Jayce with that idiotically out of character dialogue in 2x08 between him and Mel? What a fucking bad way to treat fans, having them invested all the way until literally the last moment, it already was bad with how the majority of people (fandom, reactors, obviously the artists too) were âinterpretingâ Mel (if you can even call it that, cause interpretation requires media literacy), but now they have left us so burnt that I'm betting there arenât even going to be fix-it fics because they. Just. Ruined. Jayce, so bad. And I still love the well written (still flawed tho!) Jayce from 3x01 (setting up a way more natural conflict-to-be-resolved path when he made those weapons five minutes after Mel vowed to protect his dream), but damn, I love Mel so much more, I really donât know how to cope with all that. Only people whoâve had the luck to not have been treated as that husk of an AU Jayckass treated our girl canât see the amount of PTSD that scene can trigger in a woman. I am so frustrated with how the creators treated her trauma and slashed the wounds wide open with both that and âYou are the wolfâ, I genuinely donât know how to cope.
And the worst part is all of this could have been resolved with a single touch and him being open to her â like he always have been â just tell her heâs doomed instead of showing us a highly specific and unrelated two frames of the voidy-looking infection on his forearm spreading every time he is on screen. Even if that is one of their âyes we meant that all along we just wanted to show not tell itâ like with the whole idiotic Sky/Viktor backstory that Overton âspilledâ the other day. Jayce has been able to see through Melâs shields the moment he saw her painting and was always shown to admire her intellectual prowess, heâd never leave her hanging like that.
If they wanted to write a Shakespearean tragedy so bad they made this intro scream âlook at us, we gave you Greek last time, now itâs all about good olâ Billyâ why not have Jayce make the same impossible choice (as they brilliantly and am starting to think accidentally?) made Silco do in 1x09, having him choose between his love for Zaun and his love for Jinx, drawing one final parallel between the two men and closing that loop with Jayce/Silco carrying Viktorâs/Jinxâs body and infusing them with the deus ex machina. It was right there staring them at their faces, have Jayce choose between his love for Mel and his love for his brother.
What a spectacular failure of writing, what an even more monumental failure of the artists to come out with those comments, so now I donât even want to praise their talent, because they should have kept their mouths fucking shut and stuck to drawing.
Sorry to dump this in your ask, can you tell Iâm still reeling.
Please, please, do you have any headcanons, I need crumbs, I need to heal my soul and Melâs.
Lovely anon you've but into words what all Meljay fans are feeling, I think. I cannot lie, I've been trying to let go of the ship. Withdraw sort of, especially since that was the ending we got. But I've had them for three years, and they've sunk their claws too deeply to me. I'm still thinking of them even now. I'm going to make the most of their divorce era, and I'm going to make them return to each other in ever single AU ever. Because Arcane S2 act #3 is not my Meljay. Also, AU Jayckass had me bursting out in laughter!
On the topic of headcanons. I have one in which when Vik tells Jayce to go back, Jayce does. He returns to Piltover but too much time has past, Mel has already burned his name and departed across the waters to Rokrund. Jayce knows he's done her wrong, realizes he's been blinded, and he does his best to atone in Piltover and Zaun, writing letters to Mel. Letters that go unanswered. And then eventually, he goes to Rokrund, and finds a different woman, one stronger and colder than he had known. He loves her anyways, and spends his years winning her back. And when he has groveled sufficiently, Mel takes him back. He sort of grounds her, so that she does not remain the wolf all the time. So that she does not become her mother.
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i had been made into an archer, the shadows suiting me best; you were a sun-bright girl forced into immortality, eternal servitude to chosen sacrifice for the people.
i think the first thing you taught me was absurdity. no one that knew me ever daredâ through these years iâd become as much of a man as the rest, and it was rare for someone to think of wanting me. not that you didâ did you? did you want me, wen xiao, or did you not think so much and just trusted that i would catch you?
sleep was always restless when it came. the heartbreak in a-hengâs new-blue eyes always marked the end of my dreams, because i was too afraid back then to turn around and see the rest of him. one month was enough to grow sick of my chambers, and i retired only when i could no longer keep my eyes open.
but then: a forest, a sea. fog cleared and the ink of you kissed my palm, calling me awake.
xiao, for daybreak, but if i allowed my tongue to loosen just the slightestâ xiao, for you.
was it then that i became unable to see much else? was it then when i started seeking you first in every room, your voice in every pitch, your hands, arms, fingers touching mineâ and me racing to reach you before you changed your mind? was it then that my heart wavered, and i thought, perhaps, that the dark wasnât so lonely after all?
i never intended to keep you. i knew your eyes strayed elsewhereâ i always noticed you first, but so did he, and him, and everyone that has ever met you. the fate of a goddess, maybe, to be beloved by all, to spill her love as floods to the peopleâ but i knew you had long found your home in the soul of one. bloodbound by contract, kindred through heart and mindâ how often iâd find myself rushing to stand before you only for him to already be there.Â
the place by your side was never meant to be filled by me. but wen xiao, iâm no less absurd than you taught me to be. i would pray to a false god if it would make you safer; i would shoot even at the heavens if they tried to take you. flesh and blood is all i can offer youâ is it too much to let me shield you with it?
later the worst of winter stole away your beloved, your closest friend, but kept me. still alive, rosy-cheeked and frostbitten on my knees in front of you, but the snow might as well have buried me too. live with me, die with themâ and you picked up the dagger.
what does that mean, wen xiao? what am i supposed to do about what that means? you pulled me from the abyss, but am i not worthy enough to do the same for you?
the cold began to cling to me. one by one we lost the best and bravest of us, and i could do nothing to stop it. i thought myself useless, a drag, but you took my hand and said, so earnest, so warm, so thawingâ i need you. you wouldnât lie to me, but how badly i wish it were the truth.
it had been at least four fortnights since iâd ceased being afraid, since the fears in my heart stopped festering. they never disappeared, but i could stare at them head-on now, knowing that what a mortal lacks is only the difference of a body. you said that you thought of me as irreplaceable, and so i believed thatâs what i was.
a foolâs tenacity is, perhaps, the strongest of all.
i woke to everyone but three gone, your tears pouring from the skies. he left to him white streaks in his hair, horseback roaming, world seeking; he left to you an age-old vow on paper, in jade, an impermanent parting, a once-more isolation.
and you left to me not even a farewell.
how is it that the demon hunting bureau is fuller than ever yet so grave with silence? how is that what i guard is no longer home to anyone that used to live in it?
i must be going mad, sometimes, to hear bells that no longer ring, bickering that never ends, idioms iâll never be able to correct; to smell food iâll never taste again, wine iâll never get to drink, sulfur from cases unsolved; to see golden eyes, the rustle of notebook pages, the swoop of a brushâ and feel the lilt of you, so willing for me to stay.
and so, absurdly, ridiculously, stupidlyâ iâm still here, wen xiao, and this is how iâll remain. come and see me just once, and ask me what i asked you. three hundred years in a sundial: was it hard? the rest of my life with only your memory to keep me companyâ iâll answer you the same.
donât you want to know what my big-as-him secret is? iâll give you a hint: if you see him in the rain, i see you in stone. just as pillars hold up these roofs, this cityâ the cliff i hung from was too-steep, yet you held me by the soles of my feet, dug yourself into my palms, and said look up, pei-jiejie. dawn has come.
the morning will always return after night. but wen xiao, when will you?
#haha im so normal about jingxiao [i trip and several jingxiao fic wips fall out of my pockets] oh my god [you spot my 500 screenshots] umâ#i literally love them so much my brain is just them. all the time. i canât escape#i was actually going to make this more like. overarching of the two of them but then pei-jiejie pov spiraled into madness & she took over#who knows maybe ill make a wen xiao pov version. lets see how this one does#fangs of fortune#大梌ĺ˝çŚť#my writing#pei sijing#wen xiao#pei sijing x wen xiao#jingxiao
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The old bird didn't comment on the caretaker, but the fact certain parties in Sol had never made a move on the clock. Was probably a good indication that he was correct. Eternity was no ones fool, and had existed since before time began and started the great wheel of time. Morpheus was not convinced the old primal had died, but rather was waiting for something or perhaps trapped somehow? Thoughts that he'd have t dwell on later. For now he focused on his sister and this stranger from another world.
" Greetings Sister, i do apologize for the sudden visit... though, we have Vistors who wished to speak with you. "
Sol gave her brother a courteous nod as she turned her eyes to Blitz, her tail swishing from side to side. She seemed quite comfortable in her guise, and could only smile at the stranger, a kindness flowing from her like a river. Though a smile could mean many things, she gave the impression of a wise woman on a mountain rather then some all powerful goddess.
" Oh, pish posh! walking as a great flame as true as it might be. Isn't the best way to greet someone. It can be rather uninviting... and i will have no one say i am not a gracious host... "
She placed her hands behind her and gave the other deity a moment to speak his mind. She seemed to never stop smiling but perhaps that was the unsettling part. Despite what was asked she didn't seem to betray her emotions, and kept herself quite calm. Morpheus could never quite tell what his sister was thinking and knew should she be upset you'd never know unless she decided to punish you.
" AH, i see... i did tell my daughter there would be consequences to her decision... and then she went and brought dear poppys whole family as well. While i have no issue with this act, i imagine its quite a disruption for your world... "
She made a motion with her hand as the realm around them shifted and churrned until they stood within a little cottage deeper within the island. A simple little home with a little fireplace, a stove, and many herbs dangling around the rather primitive cottage. The goddess motioned to a small table where Tea waited for them, the perks of a dreamscape--- it was what she wished it to be.
" Let us have tea, and we can discuss what it is you wish to change. Though i admit i do not have power over fate here... that would be the timekeeper... Eternities realm. Though they has been missing for many generations now. His caretaker Archimedes is the one to speak to on the matter. But before i allow this i would like to know details... it is my daughters fate after all and she's important to me..."
As the conversation turned to herself she seemed to smile warmly at the offer. Though there was something about the smile that was both sad, and warm at the same time. She found a seat at the table and picked her own Tea up and stared at it. She was silent for a long moment as if searching for the right words to speak.
" ... the Spark of Life, it's a peculiar thing don't you think? Have you ever stopped and watched a mortals life, just watched them born, live, struggle, love, and be loved... and die? I'm connected to all life by proxy all mortals on soul are part of me. Like them i am part of a great cycle... "
She paused taking a sip of the tea and gazing at blitz with that same smile though she did look quite tired.
" That Cycle is coming to a close, to rekindle my flame now... i'd be defying my own cycle... it would be unnatural, and go against my very ideals. My time is coming to a close... soon my daughter will be fully prepared... She believes she is kindling, to be consumed by me in order to fuel my pyre and reignite the spark of life. That she will end her own existence for me... "
Sol smiled again though was more genuine and proud, as if she was very proud of her daughter. She couldn't think of a better reward for her, a better way to say she loved her. A better way to give herself to this world she loved so much!
" That kind of loving selfless sacrifice is what this world needs... But, you see it will not be her that is consumed. But rather my essence shall enter her... i shall cease to be as a new Goddess of life is born, and she shall be my living legacy... so you see, i can't accept your offer. As generous as it is... my time comes to a close... and i am content with that... But i appreciate your concern, and am flattered by your kindness...but i must also ask that this never be spoken to my daughter--- she must never know least she may not be willing to go through with it..."
"Nothing to gain in all honesty, expect maybe for the fact if a certain specter attempts to weasel their way in this universe, she can incinerate whoever they try to send here in an instant. Other than that, it just comes down to the fact that I could possibly help so I figured I should offer it." Blitz only needed permission to slightly alter Blaze's timeline so anything else was simply him wanting to try and help.
"Well, I certainly hope he made this caretaker powerful as well. It wouldn't be very wise to leave something that can control all of time without someone strong enough to crush anyone trying to control it." If the time God of here was as smart as Morpheus made him seem then wouldn't be surprised if the caretaker was packing some serious fighting power.
"It's not that I don't have a need for it, I'm just storing up energy. Even as we speak it's building up, higher and higher. It's not something most look out for, though if you look closely enough, you'll see me slowly soaking up cosmic energy. If things go well, I'll have a rather powerful ace up my sleeve for when things get real crazy in the universe that I'm from." Seemed he was gearing up for something big.
Blitz didn't seem phased by the voice as he looked up at Sol, and then having to look down a bit, though still up. "I was expecting something intense. I don't mind if you chill in your true form. I'd do the same thing if I had a crazy cosmic form, though this is the only one I've ever had since I'm not your typical primordial. If I don't end up kicking the bucket down the line, I'll tell you about it." Blitz better move on to business.
"Only name I got is Blitz, mainly because I can't remember my own. As for why I'm here, the God of Time from my universe needs to make a small adjustment to Blaze's timeline, only because it sorta crosses with Poppy's now. Nothing crazy, just the time Poppy ended up here which would add more detail to what life was like in Flora. Also, if you can make it so she does remember the unaltered timeline that'd be cool. I'd rather her not we did that."
"That's about the only thing I really need your help on. Other than that, if you'd like I can help restore your flame back to its prime. I also know a guy who can hopefully make you a physical body to connect to so you can freely and safely check on things easily. Oh, and if you want, I can throw a few tests at Blaze to improve her skills. Nothing crazy or dangerous, though it'll push her. She could also land the Forger making her a divine weapon."
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Having a real autism moment over the idea of doing fieldwork
#my brain just produced the thought 'they should have a class that teaches you how to talk to people before you go to the field'#sir i don't think anyone else needs that class. i don't think the people are clamoring for bulletpoints and flowcharts of social interactio#i'm just. i don't. i don't know how to do it#i can make friends fine when we've been in a protracted situation of working together but when i have to go out and meet people???#a thing you guys have to understand about me is that i WILL just stand and stare at people like the autism creature for 10 min straight#and then walk out of the room without saying anything more#or like i will start a conversation and then i will just Not Know What To Say#and like yeah it's social anxiety maybe but it's honestly more that i can't figure out how to have normal conversations#anyways. i am anxious i will say that#like i'm really excited too and i really want to meet cool people and work with them on developing the project#but also i am not sure how this is going to go. hmmm#maybe i should have just majored in cs and sold my soul. at least then i could be weird and off-putting in peace :')#(<- should not have done that. it is good to make attempts to be social and not put myself in a bubble)#perce rambles#this makes very little sense but you can ignore me i'm just having A Moment
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thinking about changing Lucy's whole "parent" situation.
I actually kinda wanna project a bit onto her about having a pretty bad relationship with her dad? And maybe finding a better father figure in Herman. I've been thinking that maybe she could be close to her mother but have a very emotionally absent and just uninterested-in-parenting father.
(there is a lot of stuff in the tags uhhh sorry)
#lucy stuff#lucy flowerhill#sso oc#projecting on my ocs because I am mean to them#but like#I dont have a good relationship with either of my parents#but I'm closer to my mom than my dad#and that's because of a lot of shitty things my dad has done and said to me!#if I ever write anything about lucy and her father just know it's probably a vent fic or something#he's not abusive or anything he's just#bad#I want Lucy to try very hard to get his attention to make him say anything good about her#or say that he's proud of her or ANYTHING#and only getting like a blank stare or something#and for Herman to be someone she eventually looks up to and starts referring to has her father#kind of without even noticing#and when the soul riders mention her dad she's more cold and just hollow when it comes to him#like she doesn't want to talk about him because âwhat is there to talk about?â#I want her to long for the kind of father figure Lisa has#and I want her to find that somewhat in Herman#sorry for the long tags I'm just feeling things
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*spits out the tea*
*sigh* do you want to see my shitty attempt at giving catwalk a nipple piercing
Y E S !!!
#WISH YOU SAW MY HONEST REACTION#SITTING AT THE TABLE IN MY OFFICE CHAIR LOOKING AT THE SCREEN#OPENED THE UNDERCUT -> THREW THE PHONE AT THE TABLE -> PUSHED MYSELF AWAY FROM THE TABLE -> HIT THE BED WITH THE BACKREST MY OFFICE CHAIR#HE GRUMPY BC HE JUST WOKE UP đĽđđĽ#HEARTBREAKING#STARS THESE ARE STARS OML#AAAAĂAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSMSGDSJSHDJHCANYRWHSJDHSJS#seemingly im actually straight! /j#they are starting into my soul and i am staring at them#wait is that the show accurate chin???? with a hint on double chin?????????#'drawing shirtless people doesn't equal sexualizing them' THIS WAS MADE TO LOOK AT AND GO AWOOGA SORRY NOT SORRY#đ tummy detected#HAIRY ARMS AND A BIT OF HAIRY CHEST đĽđĽđĽ#his hair is stuck in this position even when he just woke up#gruuumpy gruuuuump with his tiny cuuuup#cursed my evening đ /J /(J IT ACTUALLY BLESSED IT)#đ sweety youll catch a cold đđđđ <- these are buttons#live laugh love nox's art#i love my fandom#yeah also#cw barechest
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#starting to feel the sadness from after a ritual#like feeling lonely#when i was going to the concert my parents asked for a few recommendations and i gave them like...the safest i could think of#since they are so HARDCORE evangelical and Christian#my step dad said to me today âcab i hate to tell you but i think these guys might be demonicâ#i just stared at him and he was like âim just worried about your soul!â#like dude my soul is already halfway to the fires of hell according to what you believe BUT OKAY#anyway...just starting to feel the burnout and adrenaline crash and i just really want to see sleep token again and make more friends#but i am but a shy bean...its hard for me to reach out without feeling like im bothering people#anyway...if you read this mess thanks#cab shoosh
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I've been thinking about women lately so imagine yandere! sugar mommy đ¤¤đ¤¤đ¤¤
because i love ceoxpeasant, imagine you're some broke ass barista selling coffees in a tiny coffee shop that's on the brink of closing down. you're living from paycheck to paycheck, scrimping by and skipping meals just to pay the ever rising rent of this capitalist world you live in.
suddenly, you feel the trajectory of your life change when an obviously rich, gorgeous and... very well endowed lady walks into your establishment and gives you 100 dollars for a simple black coffee.
"um here's your change-"
"you can keep it darling."
you were stunned, obviously not knowing what to do other than to awkwardly keep the money back into the cash register as you turn around to make her coffee.
that was until she spoke up.
"you look pathetic. be my sugar baby."
"???"
you drop the coffee beans at her words, staring wide-eyed as she looks you up and down. her expensive suit fitted against her body like it was made just for her, the shining patek watch that glistened under the dim lighting of the store... more importantly, the stern gaze she had and the slight smirk as she leaned towards you.
you had never felt so... naked before. and she wasn't even doing anything other than moving her eyes and stance! wait, did she just call you pathetic?
"hahaha... um, funny joke-"
"i'll pay for all your rent and groceries if you become my pet."
"meow."
and that was how you found yourself leaving your old trashy job and life behind.
you found out that this lady was actually a successful business owner and was older than you were. just a little bit :3
your life had done a complete 360 and you were swimming in riches, going to expensive restaurants as you allowed yourself to be spoiled rotten by your beloved sugar mommy.
sure, some of your friends slowly started to distance themselves from you and you were confused because you did nothing to offend them...
but your sugar mommy told you not to worry about it. not when you had her.
so you listened. you didn't know what it was about her (her money) but you felt this strange urge to just listen to what she said. if she asked you to bark? you'd bark. if she asked you to crawl on all fours? you'd crawl on all fours.
until she made this ridiculous request.
"marry me."
did she actually love you? what? you thought this was just a mutually beneficial relationship you two had! like, you please her and she throws money and riches at you?? why is she asking for-
"hahaha... um, no?"
"funny way of saying yes, my love."
she stares ta you, eyes burning into you soul as you nervously shift in front of her.
gyatt damn what were you supposed to do? you couldn't disagree now could you? as much as you didn't want to marry her- wait what is she doing? why is she grabbing your hand and placing a pen-
"I've grown exceptionally fond of you, my dear. my heart belongs to you."
wait wait wait, what is she doing?! is that marriage documents?! stop stop-
"just the thought of seeing you with others brings me immense discomfort. so much so that i physically feel ill, darling."
her voice is like honey, yet her actions feel like claws digging into your skin as she forces your signature onto the paper.
"i am afraid i cannot let you go."
oh no, what have you gotten yourself into?
#yandere#tw yandere#yandere x reader#yandere drabbles#yandere scenarios#yandere imagines#yandere concepts#yandere sugar mommy#yandere sugar mommy x reader#gn reader#suiana rambling#suiana brainrotting#female yandere#female yandere x reader
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My Wife is Real
IMAGINE: MY WIFE IS REAL~ GOJO X WIFE!READER GENRE: FLUFF cw: not proof read. use of y/n. use of she/her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
âWho do you think heâs texting?â Nobara whispers to her two classmates, Yuji and Megumi.Â
Their teacher, Gojo Satoru, sat at his desk. Legs kicked up onto the desk while he was on his phone, giggling here and there.Â
It was questionable if Gojo even knew that class had started.Â
Megumi didnât even bother to pay attention. He also sat on his phone, scrolling through social media.Â
âI donât knowâŚâ Yuji ponders. âUgh, he has to be harassing a poor soul.â Yuji gasps at Nobaraâs response, âno.âÂ
Nobara sits up in her seat, âGojo-sensei,â she calls out. Gojo peeks up, âoh. I didnât know you were here.â âMaybe if you stopped bothering people, you would notice.âÂ
Gojo places his hand on his chest and gasps dramatically. âI am not bothering anyone.â âThen who are you texting?â âMy wife, duh.âÂ
Nobara bursts out laughing, âhahaha, yeah⌠yeah right.â She wheezes. Tears left the corner of her eyes as she tried to take him seriously, but she really couldnât.Â
Yuji just stares at him in confusion, âyouâve never told me about his wife. I donât believe you.âÂ
Gojo gasps in shock and disbelief at his studentâs words. âHuh?! I do too have a wife. That hurts my feelings that you donât believe me!âÂ
Gojoâs full focus was on his students now. Trying to convince them that his wife is indeed real. âSheâs literally the best person in the whole world, and the prettiest.âÂ
Nobara scoffs and rolls her eyes, âstop making things up Gojo-sensei. Itâs getting sad at this point.âÂ
Gojo pouts at her words. He then grabs his phone, typing something in his phone. He puts his phone down with a triumphant smile on his face. âYouâll see.âÂ
âYeah⌠weâll see.â Nobara says to Megumi and Yuji.Â
Megumi on the other hand was not paying attention to a single thing that was going on. He assumed something stupid was going on, so why even bother to pay attention? Yuji just has a thoughtful look on his face, trying to remember any mention of a wife. But there is no mention of one.Â
âYeah⌠I think youâre making this up⌠sorry Gojo-sensei.â âThis is just getting sadâŚâ Nobara whispers while shaking her head.Â
âI canât believe my studentâs have little faith in me.âÂ
Only five minutes passed of slight bickering between until a knock was heard at the door. The bickering died down and all heads turned towards the door.Â
Nobaraâs and Yujiâs eyes widen seeing a woman at the door.Â
âWho is that?â Yuji whispers to Nobara. She shrugs her shoulders, âhas to be someone he hired.âÂ
Gojo jumps from his chair, a huge smile on his face. âWifey!âÂ
He runs over to you, pulling you into a tight hold.Â
You let out a strangled gasp from the impact. âGojo,â you start, âthis is the second time you forgot your lunch⌠and itâs only Tuesday.âÂ
Gojo pulls back, a faux pout on his lips, âIâm sorry.â You narrow your eyes at him, âI bet youâre just using this as an excuse to see me.â âWhoops, you caught me. Well, while youâre here. Let me introduce you to my students.âÂ
âWait wait-â You didnât get a chance to stop him because he dragged you into the front of the classroom.Â
You eye the three students. Megumi had finally put down the phone, giving you an apologetic look. Nobara and Yuji were looking at you in shock.Â
âStudents, this is my wife, (y/n).â Gojo basically shows you off with a bright smile on his face. Hands in a jazz hand formation. You nervously smiled at the students.Â
âHello.âÂ
âHello Gojo-san.â Megumi quietly said, but it was still loud enough for everyone to hear. You gave the boy a sweet smile, nodding at him.Â
âWhat?! Do you know her?â Nobara and Yuji ask him. âYesâŚâÂ
âYes, theyâve known each other for quite awhile nowâŚ. Sorry guys. Sheâs a bit shy.â Gojo says while you continue to smile at them.Â
âThey didnât believe Gojo-sensi had a wife..â Megumi tells you.Â
You hum before turning to Gojo, âI see⌠I donât blame them.âÂ
âHuh?! What is that supposed to mean?â You roll your eyes. âEver so dramatic.â â...so mean.. How can my wife be so cruel?âÂ
âUgh, no one cares,â Nobara sighs, âcome sit down with us (y/n)-sensei. I have so much to ask you.âÂ
You just smile at the girl and move over to the desks.Â
Gojo looks at you with a shocked look. Not believing that you were leaving his side.Â
âWhat are you doing?â He asks you. You look back at him, âwell, you wanted me to meet your students. So Iâm getting to know them.âÂ
You give him a little smirk and Gojo knows that type of smirk. The one where heâs going to regret his actions later.Â
Maybe not now, but he knows that this decision will come to bite him.
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#oneshot#gojo fluff#gojou satoru x reader#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen fluff#satoru x you#gojo x reader#gojo x you#gojo x y/n
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Speaking of therapy, I say, as though we're old friends, and you're not a stranger trapped in this metaphorical elevator with me and you can hear the suspension wires starting to fray.
I've been doing a lot of work recently that's focused on imposter syndrome and the feeling that no matter how well or how much I do, I'm not good enough. That I'm somehow tricking everyone into thinking my work is actually good.
Some days it's a minor niggle in my head that I can gentle and soothe with logic and affirmations. Or smother, depending on the mood. Other times it's loud and all-consuming and the mental anguish it causes me is so real I can feel it twitching in my muscles. This desperate fight-or-flight instinct with nowhere to go and nothing to fight but myself.
Anyway, because I'm several types of Mentally Unwellâ˘, I was switching between workshop sheets ahead of next week. Filling in different forms. (Trying to get a good grade in therapy) And I got my "recognize your harmful ADHD coping mechanisms" worksheet mixed in with the "you're not actually lying to people, you just feel like you are because your brain is full of weasels" worksheet, and seeing them side by side made something go topsy turvy in my head, and I just had to sit and breathe for a couple of minutes until the urge to scream passed. Because it clicked, it all suddenly clicked.
The reason the imposter syndrome workshops and therapy sessions aren't sticking was because I do routinely trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not.
Because I'm masking my ADHD for their convenience.
I've always known there was something wrong with me. My neurotypical peers made it abundantly clear I didn't fit in or was failing in some way I couldn't see nor remedy, no matter how hard I tried.
So I compressed myself into a workaholic box of hyper-competence in the hopes they'd stop noticing the flaws and exploit like me instead. And then subsequently lived with the daily fear that if they looked too close, they'd realize I'm a monumental fuck up with enough personal baggage to block the Suez Canal.
If you ever need someone to burn themselves to ashes for your comfort and convenience, I'm your gal.
Or I used to. Until I had a bit of a breakdown, and the rubber band holding my brain together snapped and pinged off into the stratosphere, never to be seen again.
Unfortunately, the trauma of living like that didn't also fuck off and instead left a gaping maw where my personality ought to be, so now I get to deal with that aftermath.
And it's that aftermath that's affecting the imposter syndrome shit. Because yes, I am hyper-competent and good at what I do-- but it doesn't feel real because that is how I mask.
And the truly frustrating thing is I am good at what I do. I am not pretending. I worked hard to be good at this. It just feels like I'm dicking around because 90% of my personality turns out to be trauma masquerading as humor in a trenchcoat, and having people genuinely like something weird I'm doing is so foreign my brain has decided it's just another form of masking.
I'm pretending to be a good author so people will think I'm a good author, and my brain thinks we are in Danger of being found out. We are in Danger, and writing is Dangerous because then people will know I'm Weird and not whatever palatable version I've presented myself as for their NT sensibilities.
Like the neurotic vampire with a raging praise kink wasn't an obvious giveaway.
Anyway. I got nothing else. Thanks for listening.
I'm going to go be very normal in another room and not stare into the abyss of my own soul for a bit.
#adhd#mental health#mental illness#trauma#imposter syndrome#sorry for the wall of eratic text#feeling jittery af#possibly hypomanic tbh#either way#aaaaaaaaah
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Hey pookie, love your work and I hope youâre having a great day so far. I would like to request Haikyuu men x reader but instead of them giving reader silent treatment, weâre giving them the silent treatment. I would also prefer if itâs the same guys too. Hope this isnât too hard and itâs totally fine if you donât want to do it. Sorry if in any way it sounded rude, love your style and all of your posts â¤ď¸
SILENT TREATMENT PT 2 !
pairing: suna, tsukishima, ushijima, osamu, sakusa, and iwaizumi x fem!reader (separate) note: hiii lovely!!! u donât come off as rude at all so donât even worry!! if anything Iâm glad to write this. Itâs just what I needed after coming back from my break. summary: men can be so irritating sometimes! what better way to deal with it than ignore them? (donât do this irl, communicate is key!!!) content: slight angst to fluff, silliness, established relationships (marriage for a few + plus the same babies from the prev fic), cursing, reader is sassy, not proofread!!!! wc: 3.3k
SUNA:
âAre you seriously ignoring me right now, babe?â Rintaro stared into your soul waiting for an answer. He knows the answer already but heâll do anything for you to talk to him.
Instead of giving him answer, you just scoff and make your way to the bedroom, where you will most definitely lock him out.
âCome on, Iâve already apologized. What else can I do?â The brunette is right on your tail. Sometimes you forget that his height allows him to cover more space than you. Heâs practically right behind you.
âYou can leave me the hell alone, Suna.â Last name treatment? Yep. Heâs 100% fucked up. You know in his eyes itâs not a big deal but you see it as a big deal.
Your boyfriend was supposed to pick you up from work today but he had forgotten, and one top of that he went out and got drinks with his friends. Not to mention you waited a whole hour thinking maybe he was running late or something. Once you called him and realized he forgot, an uber was called and you went home.
Just as youâre about to reach for the doorknob of your bedroom, Rintaro grabbed your wrist forcing you to stop.
âLet. Go.â You say through closed teeth.
âPlease listen to me,â Heâs⌠pleading? Your boyfriend never pleads for anything- well thatâs an exaggeration, he rarely pleads for things.
âStart talking.â
âAs I said earlier, I am very sorry, baby. I felt like I was forgetting something today, but I couldnât put my finger on it. Next time you need me to come get you, send me a text an hour before you get off work, okay?â His voice is tender and soft. Nothing like his usually snarky and playful attitude.
Thereâs a petty urge to not forgive him just yet, but at the same time, heâs being super sincere and honest. All you do is sigh and take your hand out of his grasp.
âIf youâre really sorry, buy me dinner.â His mouth ticks up into a small smirk.
âWhat do you want to eat?â He asks.
TSUKISHIMA:
Kei tries to go in for a kiss, again, with no luck. Heâs looking at you with the most lovesick look, because you always fall for it.
âI wasnât laughing at you.â He says AGAIN, which is a lie. He was laughing at you and of course youâre mostly immune to Keiâs quips and remarks, but you were feeling a little butt hurt after he laughed at you.
âYou WERE laughing at me, Kei.â His long, pale arm reaches for the baseball cap on your head, but before he can take it off you grab his hand and squeeze it as hard as you can.
âOw- shit, that hurts.â He says trying to pry his hand from your grip.
âYeah well thatâs how I felt when you laughed.â You let go of his hand and turn away from him. Youâre both sitting on the couch but youâre facing away from him.
âIâve already told you, I wasnât laughing at you, it just caught me by surprise.â A little âhmphâ leaves your lips and you cross your arms.
Before Kei went to go get the groceries you told him you were going to do something to your hair, a slight adjustment. Heâd only been half listening at the time, so when he walked in to see your hair, he started to laugh on instinct.
Of course you felt insecure and went to put on a baseball cap to cover it up.
âCan I see it again?â He asks very softly, his hand ghosts over your shoulder and you donât lean away from his touch this time.
âFine, but I swear if you fucking laugh, youâll have to asking Yamaguchi if you can stay over at his place cuz Iâll kick you out.â His angelic little chuckle blesses your ears.
âKick me out of the place we both pay for?â He asks, quite assumed at your statement.
âYes.â Before he can get another word in you slowly take the cap off for him to see.
His hand creeps toward your head, he hesitates right when heâs about to touch your hair.
âCan I?â Heâs so polite despite how mean he can be.
In an effort to remain salty you say, âI donât care.â
His fingers are so gentle when touching your hair that you feel little tingles in your body.
âItâs really cute, babe. Let me just-â He moves a baby hair thatâs sticking out, then his eyes meet yours. Theyâre so beautiful, but so are yours.
âIâm sorry for laughing.â
USHIJIMA:
It had been an accident therefore he didnât even realize you were ignoring him. He thought that maybe you just wanted some time to yourself.
You waited hours for him to realize you were upset with him, but it never came. If anything you thought he was ignoring you. (That wasnât true at all though)
Nao notices his parents havenât talked to each other most of the day, so he comes to you. Itâs almost his bedtime and you see that Wakatoshi had given him a bath and heâs got his pajamas on.
Little Nao climbs up your bed and crawls up to you, âHi baby, whatâs up?â
âYou not talkinâ to Daddy?â Nao is very perceptive for a three year old.
âUm.. no.â He tilts his head at your response.
âWhy?â How can you explain it in kid terms??
"Mommy's not happy with Daddy right now." He nods in understanding but proceeds to ask another question.
âOh. But why?â Now that youâre thinking about it, itâs kind of childish.
This morning when the two of you woke up, Wakatoshi had asked if youâd seen his wedding ring. Then, proceeded to explain that he had taken it off when he went to work, because he left the chain he usually wears it on at home. So, he assumed it was somewhere in his bag. Of course he found it, but it just ticked you off that he had taken it off with little regard for it.
âA little disagreement is all.â Your son nods again and gives you a hug. He doesnât like when you guys get into the occasional argument.
They donât happen often, because you two are able to work stuff out. When they do happen you both agreed that they shouldnât be in front of your son. Not only because itâs not right, but because Wakatoshi had grown up in a household where his parents constantly argued with little regard for how he felt on the matter. He would never subject Nao to that.
âItâs time for bed, Nao.â Wakatoshi says. How long has he been standing there?
âOkay, Daddy.â Nao kisses your cheek before scurrying off of your bed. Since heâs not good with noise control yet, you over here him asking Wakatoshi to make up with you, because he doesnât like when you guys are unhappy with each other.
After twenty minutes your husband returns. âSo you were upset with me?â Itâs so like him to get straight to it.
âYeah, I was kind of ignoring you until you came to me, but I forgot you canât really pick up on those queues.â He nods, almost abnormal like. He rids himself of his shirt and turns the lights down.
After heâs done doing that, he joins you in the bed.
Right as youâre about to explain yourself he speaks up, âitâs because I had forgotten my ring, right?â
You open your mouth, but no words come out.
âYes, and I see now that it was childish of me. Youâre human, we all slip up.â
âNo, no, I understand. I think I would be a little upset if youâd taken your ring off and tossed it somewhere.â He says, olive colored eyes looking into yours.
âYou tossed it?â He shakes his head at the misunderstanding.
âI did not. I was just using it as an example.â Relief washes through you and you scoot closer to hug your husband. His skin feels so warm.
âOkay, good.â
âAre we alright now?â He asks hugging you back.
âYes.â
OSAMU:
Never in a million years would you have thought youâd be staying at Atsumuâs place instead of your shared home with his brother, but yet here you are.
Speak of the devil Atsumu knocks on the guest room door and you tell him to come in.
âWhatâs up?â Youâre pretty sure heâs going to ask you to talk to his brother. Heâs been calling and texting you for the past three days. Heâs probably been calling Atsumu too.
âCan ya just talk it out with him? âSamuâs been blowinâ up my phone, ân I know heâs probably been calling ya, too.â He looks tired of the both of you and you feel bad putting him in the middle of this mess, but thereâs no way youâll be talking to your husband anytime soon.
âNo.â Atsumu sighs almost knowing you would say that.
âHeâs worried about ya, ân Iâm sure heâs very sorry too.â
Three days ago Osamu had a very busy and stressful day at the shop, it was just awful. When he arrived home it was evident that his day was shitty, so you tried to cheer him up.
That only made matters worse, as he proceeded to yell at you to âleave him the fuck alone.â and âyour voice is making my head hurt.â Even though you knew he was saying that in the heat of the moment and he didnât mean it, it still hurt to hear.
You yelled back at him telling him that you were doing what you could to make him feel better and that he was an asshole. When he didnât say anything in return you rushed to the bedroom to pack a few days worth of clothes and get the hell out of there.
Was that a little bit extra? Yes. You could have probably just slept in your own guest room or on the couch, and then talk it out in the morning, but you were so pissed that your logic went straight out the door.
âWell⌠er⌠I-â You could see the guilt in Atsumuâs eyes when a string of loud knocks were heard.
âYou called him over?â Atsumu looked away as not to meet your eyes.
âI caved when he said he was worried about ya ân ya didnât even tell him where ya were goinââ Atsumu faked a cough before excusing himself to get the door.
Within seconds you see your husband standing at the bedroom door and your heart breaks when you see him. It had only been three days (2 nights) and he looked exhausted and miserable.
Before you could get a word in he dashes over to you and embraces you in a tight hug.
âBaby âm so so sorry.â He chants over and over.
âPlease donât do that again, ya scared the livinâ shit outta me.â Osamu was always better at hiding his accent than Atsumu, but when he was really stressed it would come out.
âI didnât mean for you to worry like that, âSamu. I didnât really think when I left.â He sits himself down on the bed not letting you go, he places you on his lap and youâre basically straddling him.
You squeeze him back just as tight. âI was so mad that you talked to me like that.â
âân Iâll never do it again. Even on my bad days ya donât deserve that.â
You take in a big whiff of his cologne and you audibly relax in his arms.
âYou better not because I might slap you next time.â
âFeel free to.â He says.
Atsumu ruins the moment with the most obnoxious fake gag, âAre ya straddl- actually I donât fuckinâ care. Do that at yer own damn place!!â
SAKUSA:
When you woke up to your alarm, you realized Kiyoomi already left for work. Which that in and of itself wasnât a problem. It was the fact that he left without dropping your daughter off for school.
Not to mention that you had a very important meeting with a client today. You got ready for work thinking about how you were doing well on time⌠until you noticed your daughterâs lunchbox sitting on the counter with nothing in it.
In breakneck pace, you ran to your daughterâs room to see that she was peacefully sleeping. âOh baby, wake up weâve got to go.â She starts to gain consciousness, her eyes squinting open when you turn on the light.
âHuh? I thought Daddy was taking me today.â Your little girl rubs the sleep from her eyes.
âHe was but I guess he already left,â you search frantically for something simple but presentable for your daughter to wear.
âOh, youâve got your fancy business outfit on⌠is there something important today?â Youâre so grateful to have a daughter who can read between the lines.
âYes, there is but Mommyâs gonna be late.â She frowns up at that.
âSorry.â
âHoney itâs not your fault, your father was the one who was supposed to take you.â She nods.
The two of you work together to get out of the house quickly so you wonât be that late.
Your daughter will only be running a few minutes late for school⌠as for you, your meeting started four minutes after you started driving to her to school, and the school is a twenty minute drive.
Youâre gonna fucking kill your husband for this.
When you get to your daughterâs school she hops out immediately and says her goodbyes.
âBye sweet girl! Have a great day at school!!â Of course you wonât let your anger get the best of you⌠for right now.
Luckily, your client was kind enough to excuse you being almost thirty minutes late, but it was still embarrassing nonetheless.
Some of your coworkers teased you a little bit afterwards.
âSlept in?â One whoâs particularly close to you (he calls you his work wife and Kiyoomi hates it) asks nudging your arm.
âNope, my husband forgot to take our daughter to school this morning.â A loud sigh leaves your lips and you pinch the bridge of your nose.
âYikes, bet heâs gonna be in the doghouse for awhile.â He snorts.
âHell yeah he will be. Iâm just wondering, how in the world did he forget?? Heâs better at remembering things between the two of us.â And thatâs the truth. Youâre curious as to what his excuse will be.
âWell heâs human too, âcourse heâs bound to screw up at sometime.â Even though heâs right, you let your pettiness take over and decide that you wonât give Kiyoomi the benefit of the doubt.
âIâm home,â you hear your husband shout from the genkan. Your daughter is at the table doing homework and youâre sitting with her browsing through your phone.
âHey, sweetheart.â He walks in to the kitchen greeting his daughter with a kiss on her forehead.
âHi, Daddy.â She says with a small smile.
âHey baby.â As he leans in to kiss your forehead too, you dodge it.
His eyebrows furrow in confusion, âYou okay?â Kiyoomi smells like his body wash and shampoo. Usually youâd be happy to have your nostrils filled with the smell of his post practice shower, but right now it just upsets you.
You got up from the table and walked away without answering his question. He obviously attempted to follow you to the bedroom, only for the door to be shut in his face.
âHey whatâs up with you?â You can hear the irritation in his voice through the door. He has no right to be irritated though.
Instead of answering him you make yourself comfortable on the bed.
After ten minutes of him trying to ask you what was wrong and literally begging you started to feel bad enough and open the door.
âWhatâs wrong is that you forgot to take our daughter to school this morning, causing me to be late to a very important meeting with a client.â His eyes widen in horror at your statement.
âShit, Iâve been so focused on how I was going to go about this upcoming fan event for the past couple of days, that I completely forgot. You have every right to be mad.â Right, your husband still isnât very social, and he still hates receiving gifts from his fans. Of course heâd been trying to figure out how to make an appearance, but not interact with anyone.
âDamn right, luckily my client was nice but it was still embarrassing.â He frowns.
âI apologize, and Iâll make sure to do better next time.â You roll your eyes and pull him in for that kiss.
âYeah yeah, I guess you forget things too.â
IWAIZUMI:
Iwa hasnât realized it, but while helping out this girl at the gym (heâs an athletic trainer and he couldnât sit there and watch that girl screw up pull ups any longer) he was so oblivious to her obvious flirting.
She would bend over in those tight leggings, or hold onto his bicep for support. And yes, it was dumb for you to be upset with him, because one, youâre his wife and he only has eyes for you, and two, he didnât even realize she was flirting with him.
âHow are your sets coming along, baby?â He came over to ask you while the girl was getting water. Yeah, you know how to do all of these work outs, but you like having your man right there to spot you and correct your posture in the slightest way.
You pretend you donât hear him, because youâre listening to music in your headphones. To sell the deal, you even mouth the lyrics of the song.
He raises a brow in concern. As soon as he goes to say something, the woman returns, âIwazumi-san? Iâm ready to continue!â
âIâll be back.â He says, running back to that woman. You roll your eyes as you come down for a squat with a 25 lb kettlebell in your hands.
By the time youâre cooling down on the treadmill, Iwaizumi returns to you.
âWhatâs wrong with you?â He knows you can hear him, because even when youâre working out together, you keep your headphones at a reasonable volume, so you can hear him.
âWhatâs wrong with me? Whatâs up with you letting that woman touch all over you?â In an effort to ignore him again you turn the speed up on the treadmill.
âReally? Baby, you know my job requires me to touch people.â
âGod, I know that. Iâm not even talking about you, Iâm talking about how she was all over you, and you didnât even notice or anything.â Heâs laughing? You just told him how you feel and he laughs?
He walks over to the front of the treadmill where all the buttons are and slows it down to a walking speed.
âHoney, I told her to stop touching me more than what was necessary. It was indecent and inappropriate. Then I told her I was married to you and I think she decided to keep goingâŚâ He pauses for a second waiting for you to come to a walking pace.
âWanna know what I told her next?â He takes your silence as a sign to keep going, âI said âI suggest you stop provoking my wife, she knows how to fight and I would hate to see her behind bars for something like this.ââ He smirks at you and you look away in embarrassment.
âAnd you were really going at it during your workout so Iâm assuming she took my word for it.â
You stop the treadmill and hop off to stand right in front of your husband.
âSorry for being so petty.â He just smiles at you.
âNo donât apologize, I donât blame you babe. Iâd be the same way if some guy was all over you, with no good reason.â You grab him by the collar of his compression shirt, âYouâre so damn hot. Letâs get out of here.â
âYeah?â He asks.
âYeah.â
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Note: last purple post!! 𼚠since i started this while my theme was purple. the hardest part of writing this was coming up with something sensible to be upset about đ
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âHey, Cutie. What's your name?â
Buck stopped digging to look up at the man, using the back of his hand to wipe the sweat from his forehead. âBuck,â he replied simply, sucking in a deep breath.
âBuck?â he questioned. âJust Buck?â
Buck sighed. âEvan Buckley. Most people call me Buck.â
The man smiled. âEvan's nice. I like Evan. I'm gonna call you Evan.â
âMy boyfriend's really the only one who does that.â
The man stepped closer, invading Buck's personal space. âYou're already taken?â
âI- I am,â Buck replied, tripping over his words. Now that he was closer, this man did have some beautiful blue eyes. They nearly stared right into his soul.
âHm.â The man shook his head. âThat's a shame,â he looked Buck up and down. âYou're really... really hot.â
âPr- Probably from the wildfire th- that's nearby.â
The man laughed. Damn, even his laugh did something to Buck. âMaybe,â he shrugged. âBut I think you'd look good no matter what.â
âI really, um, I need to get back to digging, so the fire doesn't spread.â
âLooks like you could use a break to me.â The man pulled a bottle of water from his pocket, and the sight of it nearly made Buck's dry mouth start to water. âIce cold, just for you.â
And well, it would almost be rude not to take the water. So he did.
He twisted the cap off and drank nearly half the bottle down. He couldn't help but notice the man watched every gulp, staring at his throat like he wanted to lick the sweat right off.
âThank you,â Buck said once he finished. He went to hand the bottle back, but the man shook his head.
âThat's yours,â he said. âCan't have a man as handsome as you passing out from dehydration. Someone may have to give you mouth to mouth.â
Buck swallowed hard. âTh- Then why'd you give me the water?â
Buck watched the man's blue eyes darken, his breathing picking up. He reached out, tugging on the collar of Buck's wildland gear to fix it. âYou've gotta be careful, Evan. I don't usually go for taken men, but I might have to change my mind.â His hand slowly ran down Buck's chest as he pulled away from him.
Buck's breath hitched. He couldn't look away from this man. Couldn't help all the feelings bubbling up deep in his gut. âI... I don't even know your name.â
âMight be better that way,â the man replied, taking another step closer. His eyes moved down to Buck's lips. âI'll be able to remember you forever, and you can go back to your boyfriend and forget I ever existed.â
âI- I don't know if I could do that.â
âWhat? Go back to your boyfriend? Or forget me? Cause-â
âDear God,â Eddie interrupted, exasperated. âYou know other people can hear you, right? Get a room, or better yet, get a truck. I'll cover for you if it'll get you two to stop... whatever the hell this is.â
Buck sighed, resting a hand on his hip as he turned to Eddie. âWe were just getting to the good part.â
âYou've done this before?!â he exclaimed.
âTwo days ago,â Hen informed him as she passed by. She gave a wave to the man. âHey, Tommy.â
âHi, Hen. Eddie,â he greeted with a nod and a smile.
Eddie groaned. âYou two are pathetic.â
âOh, are they doing that weird roleplay thing again?â Chimney asked as he walked up beside Eddie.
âYou've heard it too?â
âI think half the firefighters in the county have heard it by now.â
âThree weeks!â Buck reminded them, holding up three fingers for emphasis. âWe've been here for three weeks without more than a few seconds alone. Let me have this.â
Eddie raised his hands in surrender. âI'm gonna go get me a water since, apparently, it doesn't matter if I pass out from dehydration.â
Tommy rolled his eyes. âI'll bring you a water next time.â
âWhat about me?â Chimney asked. âBecause, if I remember right, you'll have to give me mouth to mouth if I fall to the ground.â
âI will bring everyone water next time.â Tommy spoke loudly, so everyone around could hear.
âThat's better,â Chimney said. He patted Eddie on the shoulder. âCome on, let's give the lovebirds a minute.â
Tommy turned back to Buck. âAs much as I'd love to finish the scene,â he said once the others had walked away, âI do have to go. I told my group I'd only be five minutes.â
Buck couldn't help his pout, but he also knew he had to get back to work too. âWhen we get home, if we ever get to go home, we're not putting on clothes for three days.â
Tommy smiled, nose scrunching up. âDeal,â he agreed. He leaned in and gave Buck a quick peck on the lips. âI gotta go. Love you, Cutie,â he said with a wink.
Before he could walk off, Buck grabbed his turnouts and pulled Tommy back for one more kiss before letting him go. âLove you too. Be safe.â
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Alastor's Birdy
Alastor wasnât a good man.Â
In fact, he was no longer a man at all.Â
He was the Radio Demon, an overlord of hell, owner of souls, and host of the Hazbin Hotel.Â
The only evidence that he was ever human was the gold band worn around his ring finger. No one seemed to notice it; if they did, they didnât dare ask.Â
Not much was known about the terrifying radio demon. The others at the hotel often wondered about the origins of the great Alastor Altruist.Â
Well, not until Mimzy comes along.
âAlastooor, Sweetie, doll-face! So good to see you. Howâve ya been? Good? Good.â
Alastor hugs the small woman while everyone stares in confusion.Â
âListen, I was in the neighborhood! I heard you were staying at this ritzy ditzy slob factory-â
A glint of gold catches the light.
âOh! By the way, whereâs your little birdy?â
Alastorâs who? The confusion only continued to grow in the room.Â
âOh, Mimzy, you know she would never have ended up down here.â
Who are they talking about?
âAh yes, she was such a kind soul. The best of the best.â
Finally, someone asks.Â
âYo! Lady! Who ya talkin' about?â
âHis missus, of course!â
His what?
âYOU WERE MARRIED?!â
Alastorâs eye twitched as private information about his life came to light.
âI am married; we never divorced.â
Everyone stared in disbelief. How could anyone marry Alastor, of all people?Â
Wait-
âYou said she would never have ended up down here. Does that mean that your wife is in heaven? Is she an angel?â
âCharlie, donât be ridiculous! No one that good could have married him!âÂ
Mimzy pipes up,
âSheâs right. Y/n Altruist was too good for the world and sang like a canary!âÂ
That she didâŚ
âI fell in love with you the first time I looked into
Them there eyes
You've got a certain little cute way of flirtin' with
Them there eyesâ
All eyes gazed upon the stage. His little birdy was much like him in how they entranced others with their voices. If all he heard for the rest of eternity was that beautiful song of hers, then he could die a happy man.Â
âThey make me feel happy
They make me blue
No stallin', I'm fallin'
Going in a great big way for sweet little youâ
It was never supposed to last. It was just for a while to make him seem more normal. To hide his less than socially acceptable hobbies. But she was light, and he was a moth to a flame. As he felt the weight of the box in his hand he wondered how someone like him got blessed with someone like her.Â
âMy heart is jumpin', you sure started something with
Them there eyes
You'd better watch them if you're wise
They sparkle, they bubble
They're gonna get you in a whole lot of trouble
You're overworkin' them, there's danger lurkin' in
Them there eyesâ
Her eyes brightened as they landed on him sitting at his usual table in the back. He was done with work early and had come to pick her up so they could walk home together.Â
âI fell in love with you the first time I looked into
Them there eyes
You've got a certain little cute way of flirtin' with
Them there eyesâÂ
HIS. She was his. He was hers. They were each others.
The only proof that Alastor was ever human was the gold band around his ring finger.
A/N: Here's the fic lol @mag-chan
part 2
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