#they are independent ladies who dont need a man !!!!

[didhewinkback]

Reread something old (again oops) and can't find the birthday boy blurb, the link gets me out of the app and if I search directly on your blog it doesn't appear. Anyway, was YN the first call Harry made to announce the big 1D break? How did she get along with the boys when she was on tour during the summers? Would she hang out with Gemma too when both of them were in London getting closer over their shared love of Harry/missing him?

omg thank u for rereading !! the link is still working for me ? so idk whats happening with that. i'll tag it as birthday boy also so hopefully it appears then ! ill answer your questions after the jump to not clog the dash however one thing i need to say here and now is that mc and gemma have been family friends since they were kids and their friendship and lives do not revolve around harry pls enjoy my LONG answers to ur questions below:

1d break: they had been having a lot of late night phone calls across the pond about the state of the band since zayn left / talked about it in person whenever he was home and she was on break from uni, so she knew he was making moves and things were on the horizon and he was feeling so overworked, tired and creatively stuck, in need of something new. when it was officially officially announced, he gave his family the heads up first and then let her know with a "looks like we're both graduating this year" text and she went to their london show and obvi she was at the last show in that act my age conga

the boys: she wouldn't be at the tours for more than 2 weeks at most during the summer, and usually was with gemma or johnny hanging out with them or members of the crew. she got along with all of them quite well, they were very familiar with her and comfortable around her but got along best with niall, he'd join them on some late night adventures sometimes, always up for a laugh. there was one year she flew over by herself & harry was poorly one night but he refused to let her stay in with him, so she and niall hit up the bars together even though neither of them were legally allowed to drink in the us yet, sending selfies to harry with every new drink they had much to his annoyance. they don't really keep in touch anymore apart from the occasional instagram story reply, but he did make a point to message her after he and harry hung out 2 years ago saying he was buzzing that they were finally together and he hopes he can see her soon

gemma: she and gemma have been family friends since they were neighbors when she was 6, though she was always closer to harry obviously, she and gemma grew closer as they got older and the gap between their ages felt much less significant than it had at 11 and 15. they both went to uni in london and would meet up every few months to catch up. their lives and friendship don't revolve around harry though he comes up in conversation, but they're never hanging out because he's not there and they've got nothing better to do. she was quite nervous to see gemma for their first solo hang since the wedding, harry really wanted to come with but she knew she had to do this bit on her own. it was several months after the wedding was called off, just after christmas time when they told their families they were together and she was bloody nervous about it, prepared to get reamed only for gemma to hug her the second she saw her saying "i always, always wanted it to be you" before doing the classic styles smirk, "i just figured you two stubborn bozos would never get your shit together." and now gemma is very much in the loop with the engagement, she's harrys right hand woman, but she's the best secret keeper in the family and you haven't a clue

[rowretro]

𝐋𝐄𝐎

✧Warnings: kissing, mafia hoon, blood, suggestive, dead body, detailed murder

✧Synopsis: Sunghoon is a very innocent man, a beautiful, sexy wife, 3 kids, a 12 year old girl and a 4 year old boy. He's a perfect family man who owned a homely café. He's just an ordinary person.... until one of the most feared mafia men paid a visit after a dreadful incident.

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Sunghoon woke up, a few loose hairs covering his forehead as he leaned over to his wife who slept soundly beside him, straps of her nightgown both down from all that tossing and turning, her arm hanging off the bed. "Such a beautiful sight to wake up to." he cheekily said as he kissed her collarbone, hearing her whine softly. "Not now babe~ the kids are probably up" she groggily said, sitting up as she sleepily rubbed her eyes.

"One half caf non fat white soy latte to go" Sunghoon called out. "Wow you got that first twy?" His son, Ryuu asked stunned as he smiled "What can I say, daddy's perfect" Sunghoon cockily said as Y/n rolled her eyes, and packed the order. "Yoi sexy- stop with the eye rolling.... mommy married me for that reason y'know?" Sunghoon added as Cherry gagged "Dad shut up- that's gross" she commented, clearly disgusted.

That night Sunghoon closed the cafe, locking all the doors as he carried Ryuu "Cherry go sleep. you have an exam tomorrow" "I know mom just let me be will you? Im jsut finishing up my homework" she whined as the woman sighed "Fine. but go to bed straight after" she warned as Ryuu came up to y/n, in his cute jammies, making grabby hands with a pout "awww what does my cutie want noww?" she asked as he smiled "a lil sibling to pway wif?" he asked with big eyes.

She blinked, then noticed Sunghoon hiding by the fridge "I see where this is coming from... if I give you a lil sibling now, that baby will become the cutest in the family-" she pointed out as Ryuu frowned "I dont want a sibling anymow!" he pouted as Sunghoon groaned. She snickerred to herself as she carried the littlun to his room. Sunghoon followed behind closely, resting his chin on her shoulder as she tucked the little boy in.

It was dead night, stars scatterred across the night sky, the kids asleep, y/n on Sunghoon's lap as he snuggled her. "Why do you want another baby?" she asked as he stared into her eyes. "Look at how independant the kids are becoming... I want a little cutie that likes me more than me" "maybe dont be cocky, and spoil the kids more" before he could say anything else, his phone rang "hello?..... what? how- I'll be right over there." he said his voice dark as he called Jay "Bro... can you look after my kids, I need to go visit the cafe.... yeah the police are there, they found a body... I know yeah- see you there" He cut the call and turned to y/n.

"What the... why our cafe what is going on hoon?" y/n asked as she glanced at him, the man stunned and confused "I don't know... but we haven't done anything wrong have we?" he asked as y/n thought for a second "aside your cockiness no nothing serious." she said as he glared at her. "Sir, we've concluded it's not a suicide, he has open stab wounds, he had died before being hung on your building... he's a part of the Park mafia, one of their men... is there any chance you've seen him around or anything suspiscious in your area?" Office Lee asked as Sunghoon frowned, shaking his head as he explained truthfully.

About a month passed and they were back in business, everything back to normal, as they went about their day, though y/n was still a little shaken from the previous event that had taken place. "dad- that lady gave you this note- and some old guy is waiting outside-" Cherry said as she pointed at a hooker, who smiled at him, waving the drink and giving a thumbs up as she left with it. It's so weird. He read the note "someone you love is waiting outside" it read. Sunghoon sighed as he left the cafe and went to the bench outside with his notepad and book.

There sat an old man, he looked scary, a scar on his eyebrow, yet fairly attractive for an old man. "Sir, may I take your order?" he asked "You know what I like son..." he said as Sunghoon snickerred "How would I know sir?" he asked, genuinely confused "One Black coffee... with a shot of jack daniels" "Sorry sir but we don't have alcohol" With that the man snickerred. Sunghoon left briefly then came back with the black coffee, placing it before the man "Would you like sugar or no sugar?" he asked kindly "you should know son" he said again as Sunghoon sighed "Im afraid I don't" he said, patiently.

The man comfortably sat in his chair, pulling out a small alcohol bottle and pouring it into his coffee as Sunghoon watched, he pulled out a cigarette "sir no smoking." he said pointing at the sign as the man let out a hearty laughter "ah Leo... you remember this? Black devil, your favourite flavour that you created... smoked it everyday since you left." the man said as he stared at Sunghoon. Confused, Sunghoon looked behind him "Leo? I'm sorry I think you mistaken me for someone sir... My name is Sunghoon owner of this very successful cafe... by the way that black coffee's 3.79." he said as the man laughed yet again.

"Still my cocky little son hmm?.... this act you're putting up for your pretty wife and lovely kids will not last long. trust me on that." "Ah son.... a father knows his son... you know... you always loved going hunting... specifically for that eagle... It didn't ever get caught in your trap, nor by any of the arrows or guns yet it died in my coffee remember?.... It died in MY hands... LEO..." The man said as he stared directly at him "Leo Park..." The man said, his deep gravely voice enough to scare the shit out of any human before him. "It's Park Sunghoon" He interrupted as the man laughed "I see you believed that you have died.... but until you come and admit you are Leo Park... I will be here..." .

he said as he left, leaving Sunghoon confused. Yet Sunghoon just shrugged, thinking he was a crazy old man. He went back inside to find Y/n staring at him "Who was that?.... are you ok? he seemed a little off..." she asked as Sunghoon kissed her forehead "just some drunkard babe, its fine I dealt with him, he was calling me some white boy name-" Sunghoon explained as Y/n nodded. That night he did the usual, lock the café, make sure all is safe, carry Ryuu back home and get Cherry to go to bed without her bitching at him. The male sighed as he lied down in y/n's lap. "First day back in business and things are weird-" he sighed as y/n ran a hand through his hair.

That night they met officer Lee, a close friend and a trusted cop. "I sent a picture of this Black Devil cigarette pack to the higher officials, the investigation team say its from a very large mafia gang ran by Park Daeheon... He had a son named Leo, and many claim his death was part of the cause behind a very big murder and the burning down of their factory-" Sunghoon cut him off halfway "Heeseung Im sorry but what am I going to do with this information?" he asked as Mr Lee picked up a file with an image. A picture exactly like Sunghoon, but with more silver hair "This is his son Leo... he looks exactly like you..." he said as Sunghoon frowned.

"From what we believe the officer's need proof, from your memory, at 11 years old, can you tell us everything backed up with proof-" Y/n cut him off halfway maddened by the claim "We're the victims here he came to us, he's the one who's harrassing Sunghoon claiming he's his son!" Sunghoon kissed her forehead as he calmed her down "Sweetheart its ok... I know you're asking me as you're concerned... I grew up in an orphanage Lee hee, im still good friends with the Sir who ran the place, sweet old guy, Eventually I got around asking my long-term crush out, my beautiful wife then we chose to move into a cute cottage, like a house in a snow globe, got married as we had our first child, and now growing our sweet family along with her family business... " He explained as Heeseung nodded.

The following day, Y/n was out running a few errands, picking up some medication in the pharmacy, Ryuu by her side, and Cherry in school. Sunghoon suddenly called her "Honey I just left my car at the motor shop, what are you up to?" he asked "Picking up your meds sweetheart." she replied. "You could've waited until my car got fixed, why leave Ryuu at home alone?" he asked concerned "Sweetheart, these things need to be done ASAP, you've been pretty anxious lately and don't worry, Ryuu is with me kay? I'll take the bus home it'll be ok" she reassured as Sunghoon said he loves her and hung up.

The woman walked out carrying the bag of medication and her 4 year old, unaware of the dangers lurking behind her, a man ready to pounce at her, sharp, clean knife at hand. He lunged forward, as he blocked her path, raising the knife to stab her. Scared, she hugged her baby close, turning away as she shut her eyes. Nothing.... Nothing but the sound of flesh ripping, the gory sound of blood spilling and some muffled groans. She opened her eyes as Ryuu whimpered at the sight. The old man from yesterday, had slashed the attacker's neck.

She stares up, frightened as she snuggled Ryuu protectively "Don't worry honey... I mean no harm... why would I hurt you?.... you know who he is?" he asked pointing at Ryuu "My grandson..." he said as Y/n frowned "Sir if you don't leave me alone I will call the police..." She respectfully warned as the man smiled sweetly. "I don't mean any harm... I just want to tell you, you're a sweet lady from what I've heard a sweetheart, won't even harm a fly, and you fell for the innocent Park Sunghoon... Im sorry but Sunghoon is just a mask for who he really is. My son Leo Park, the one to take the reins for my tobacco factory... He's vile, violent, won't hesitate to kill." He explained as y/n backed away.

The woman took the bus with her son, hastily rushing inside the house, locking the door she called Sunghoon, firghtened "Babe! what the fuck is going on?! he's here- he followed us home! Cherry's still in school and Ryuu is with me." She managed to breathe out as Sunghoon frowned "honey who's he? what's going on?" he asked "That man from yesterday-" she replied "Lock the door's im coming over with Cherry. If anyone comes through the front door, slash him, use one of the display swords, im sure they'll work ok? I'll be right over there." He said as he ran.

Upon arriving, he came through the front door, the point of the sword only inches away from his chest as he slid down the wall, cherry smacked it away "MOM-" "No its fine- she thought I was an intruder... " Sunghoon sat down as he calmed his breathing. "What's going on here Hoon?... that man comes up to us, slashing another man attacking us, before me and Ryuu- claiming you're Leo and calling our son his grandson?!... What the fuck?!" she asked as Cherry stared in shock, her first time hearing her mother curse. Sunghoon looked up as he reached his arms out to Ryuu, yet Y/n held the little boy back "Don't Hoon.... he's already traumatized as is... after that man showed the picture of Leo, I don't know what he's thinking now...." she said as she carried the teary eyed, little boy who was exhausted. He turned to Cherry who walked away...

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A/N: Part 2 coming out soon!!! sorry this was long hope u liked it, im writting the second part rn<3 (BASED ON THE MOVIE LEO, sorry for not mentioning it b4, I RLLY WANTED TO SEE HOON IN THIS ROLE NGL)

[ae-neon]

Acotar is Maas before she fall in love with Rhys. She created rhys, explore.more and let herself grew detach of Feyre. I can feel her love and wanting Feyre to grow into something else. Her resentment to Fae is very interesting too since maas made her trapped with a fae. An interesting dynamic.

Then she grew attach to rhys. I sense of this because of her pattern with Rowan and Aelin. I read somewhere that originally , it was not Rowaelin endgame. Rowan as just suppose to train aelin and that was that. Then Maas say that she wrote fanfic of Aelin x Rowan turns out well..

I would say Rowan x Aelin is a susccess. Yeah this man is hell to Aelin the beginning. But buttttt Maas dont water down Aelin to have her propaganda "rowan is perfect, rowan is most powerful fae" pushing to the reader you know. Aelin is still stubborn, she keep her plan to herself and refuse to share it with rowan.

It drove rowan mad if I remember them correctly. At least, we can see Aelin taking time and do according to her desire. Not blindly agree with Rowan. Then we have aedion in their family dynamic. Then rowan wanting to have allies, goes to each Whietorn ship and begged them to support Aelin. He said it jn the book, he wanted to support his queen and make her.proud.

And then the famous "where is my wife" scene. Wecan see them both as individual character. Very different character. Aelin is an ass a lot of time, selfish and a pick me. I know, but her character does not change simply for rowan. Water down for rowan. It took another whole book to shift their dynamic from stranger to friends to partner to lover. It feel long and develope to me. Then the scene Aelin share her favourite place in Adarlan, showing Rowan how to play the piano. It was small but sweet moment.

Rowan, slowly taking his time to calm Aelin after the mask and torture by maeve. Offering ring, telling aelin to eat and take break from training. It so diferent you know with Rhys and Feyre.

Feyre from headstrong, stubborn and independent water down to suit Rhys. I feel like she is over sexualized at one point and it feels each of their interactions is solely for sex. Even the reading moment "you look delicious today, feyre." Fuck off rhys. Can you chill and not make everything about sex? Let this girl breathe, read properly and learn about the world will you.

The only moment I like both of them have is when bring Feyre observing map sort of? Even that interaction is cut off. I want more interaction of Rhys sharing with Feyre whathe know. He seem to have this potential 'tutor' vibe. He is old, surely he learn a lot. But all we got is their interaction in the lbrary and attempt of having sex.

Then Maas keep worshipping Rhys and feyre lose all her personality for Rhys to check all he need to be the most powerful male in history. Tf, your wing get hurt ashes and you already dying.

I am not saying rowaelij is 100% but they have something rhys and feyre dont. Independent of their life from being water down by each other. They can stand on their own character because we all know, what is Aelin if not for her stubbornness and being pain in the ass? You just need to say blond, stubborn, confident and an edgy teenager. Everyone knows it is Aelin.

Something feyre already lose back in book 2 for rhys. I no longer recognize this feyre.

Hello anon

I think sjm is really attached to Aelin as a self insert. It's understandable since she developed the character from a young age.

But I don't see why she also has to self insert into Feyre? It's obvious she doesn't care about her.

So why SJM didn't just choose a different sister to carry on the second book. Anyone who knows my blog will know why I think it should have been Nesta but acomaf is supposed to be Hades and Persephone right? So why not Elain?

Acomaf Elain is exactly who post acowar Feyre turns into to suit the position of High Lady.

In acotar, it's possible to think of Feyre outside of her relationship to Tamlin. If you were making a moodboard or aesthetic edit you could include archery and painting, the forest and a wolf etc and all of that would be about Feyre.

If you try to do the same thing for Feyre from acomaf onwards, what comes to mind? It's hard to picture who she is outside of Rhysand's influence because it doesn't exist.

In acotar Feyre's love story is with Tamlin but also as an individual she is developing her relationship with the world around her. Lucien, Alis and, even Prythian itself, is something Feyre must work to understand on her own. As a result she is a different person by the time she goes home. She has matured. She sees that she was wrong about Nesta and she is able to let go of the promise she made to her mother.

In maf and war her relationships with others is dictated by their relationship with Rhysand. She meets people and is almost instantly friends or enemies based on if they are Rhysand's friends or enemies.

Feyre only knows 3 Illyrians: her mate and her friends who are 'brothers' but she hates Illyrians, why? Because Rhys does.

Feyre instantly connects with Tarquin on a really good vibe but still betrays him and almost dies stealing something important to his court. Why? Because Rhysand says so. Feyre could have told Rhys to give her a few more days to earn Tarquin's trust and then asked him to let Amren stay in summer and decipher it so they could nullify the Cauldron and save lives in the war. Tarquin wouldn't have said no. But she can't even think for herself.

At the end of tog, more than half the people who fight in the battle are there for Aelin. Her connection to them has made their appearance special. Aelin also shares the books with other pov characters.

In acotar, during the war, after 3 books of only Feyre as the main character - who shows up to the battle for her? No one.

Her sisters aren't there because they choose to be and Feyre's father doesn't even have a name. Maybe the Suriel is there for Feyre but they immediately die after only 2 or 3 interactions the whole series.

Bryaxis? Doesn't become Feyre's monster pet afterwards. Stryga and the Bone Carver? Useless and dead. And it's not like Feyre has been building friendships with these people.

Friends, enemies, allies - they show up for Rhysand. Even the king of Hybern mostly speaks to him. He is the main character.

Even in the end, I think the only person who helps revive Rhysand just so Feyre is happy, is Tamlin.

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

Hello, hi, i started following your blog recently and I just wanted to that it feels so nice to see someone talk about the harm of sex work and that it’s actually exploitive and harmful WITHOUT the “purity culture filter” and with actual care towards the women.

Context: I grew up in a Christian conservative environment so I was obviously bombarded with the good ol’ “Your body belongs to your husband” and “sex is something that you give, women get pleasure from giving themself to their husband” and so on. Even at a young age I always felt that that was wrong but I didn’t have the knowledge to argue against it.

Being taught that “sex is a duty/chore” really messed me up.

I was taught why sex work was harmful and exploitative and I understood that those women needed help. But, instead of empathy or kindness towards the exploited women, the old conservative ladies would shame them, saying that “these women are stupid, they should get married and belong to their husbands instead!

So I turned to feminism. But that quickly died when the, dare I say, trend of OnlyFans and “sexual empowerment” started. It was the same things I was taught as a kid but with a “liberal filter” on it!

Liberal feminists scream that “actually, sex is just an act that you can give to someone for money” “Sex isn’t sacred or personal, it’s just work!”

And that’s when I lost hope. I felt like women would always just be their to “give sex”. Like it really was out only biological purpose. And the worst part is I genuinely started to believe that.

It wasn’t until I discovered radical feminism through the “terfs tag” (I looked it up because I was curious) and literally all the problems and questions I had about women and womanhood were answered! I started to dig deeper and I’ve never been happier, I actually found a movement where we women get to be women and actually have our biology be acknowledged and also our autonomy and so much more!

This got a little wordy but I do want to share my gratitude towards you and other RadFems out there 💕 thank you for not letting the loud people get you down, you are doing an amazing job, all of you guys. 💕 💕 💕

omg girl i love that you shared this! 🩷 and im eternally grateful for everyone who goes out of her way to tell me my posts resonate with her. it gives me so much hope.

and your personal story is very interesting! since i didnt have a very religious upbringing i dont know this side - but it makes total sense! liberal feminists fall for the madonna-whore complex without even realising it. for them its either be monogamous and save yourself for one person or have sex with random strangers who dont give a fuck about you, no inbetween. and as you say, both conservatives and liberals treat sex as a service and chore a woman does for a man! thats not fucking sex positive! sex positive feminism teaches women to discover our sexuality independent from men, through masturbation and talking about our experiences etc, and demand equal satisfaction when with men, enthusiastic consent and saying no if youre unsure or uncomfortable or dont really want to!

radblr helped me so much. i identified as gender fluid for the longest time because i felt like i didnt fit in with the girls in school and the women at work, and radblr helped me see that there is no wrong way to be a woman, that im good the way i am. it was healing. and when i was in prostitution it helped me to have this community to vent to, and now that im out it helps me to work through my experiences, and to engage with likeminded women in this society where all sides of the political spectrum try to manipluate us into serving men!

much love to you have a great day 🩷

[autogynocrat]

Everything you do is related to your fear of ageing. The reason you feel trans is because the hormones will delay the ageing process by a few years. The reason you’re now into ddlg/abdl is because you are desperate to feel younger than you are.

That’s also the reason you want a partner to baby you and make your decisions, and why you’re into being controlled mentally and financially, and why you’re into chastity and being denied sex. You’re not scared of being male. You’re scared of being an adult.

All the issues you have are related to your obsession with ageing and the compulsion you have to feel and act younger. It’s a type of OCD. So in your mind you have created solutions and workarounds to feel better. We call these “ritualistic beliefs and behaviours” when related to OCD.

You also have quite pronounced “mommy issues” due to the way you were raised in such a closed and doting environment with homeschooling and little social interaction, as well as being treated like a child for far longer than others were. That is likely the initial trigger.

None of that means you’re a bad person. You just need to identify the cause of your issues before you can start recovery.

some of these things may be true but i dont think its the reason im trans, bc when i started taking hormones i made peace with the fact i would still age but i would age more like a woman, i would rather be an old lady than an old man. i cant stand feeling masculine it is icky.

i definitely feel robbed of my childhood and i definitely have a lot of mommy and daddy issues yea i never deny this i feel like i do talk abt this alot i have been overly controlled my entire life which probably has produced this weird dichotomy of wanting to be super independent but wanting to be super submissive for my partners bc its what makes me feel loved

anyways such things like diagnosing i think i should probably discuss with a professionally trained person therapist more so than on anon, i dont think i have ocd i have a friend who has ocd and its very debilitating in his life and the symptoms are very different from whatever i have. i think other than occasional crippling dysphoria, executive dysfunction, and sensory overload, most of my brain problems just make me a little weird, but they've never substantially affected the quality of my life or my ability to function in work or academic environments i can be Normal™️ when i need to be

[butch-bakugo]

I would have an ounce of sympathy for Zionists if they didnt:

make islamophobic circa 2013 jokes

repost racist propaganda about arabs to the point of charicatures

make a million claims about "innocent Israeli counter-protestors being attacked!" With no videos (beyond a lady who was going around randomly punching pro-palestine protesters then got mobbed LIKE SHE SHOULD to stop her from hurting others. But of course, no one can find out who she is to verify, they never say the location in question and they conveniently leave out the fact she was the instigator and agitator. Hell there's videos of a Zionist rabbi professor running into an encampment and trying to beat up the pro-palestine protesters. Litterally knocking over their food, kicking them and eventually just starts swinging. Edit: another rabbi professor got caught running around an encampment with an agitator student putting up mein kampf posters and tried to claim it was the protestors... While this man was actively Holding freshly printed ones.... With tape... Then when the protestors and cops found him, he tried to run in the encampment and throw the unhung posters and fight protestors until the members of the encampment blocked him. He then whines about how Jewish men can't even walk on campus anymore and left without comment.) proving the supposedly shouted anti-Semitic remarks (with videos of counter-protestors randomly trying to shout out "kill all Jews" and other remarks then claiming it was said by the pro-palestinian protesters then whining when they got arrested. Oh and there's two of three of those videos circulating)

make a million claims of seeing posts on here with "straight up nazi rhetoric" and other "examples of leftist antisemitism" to the point of claiming their saying nazi slogans but never with any screenshots or proof then call you antisemitic if you dont automatically believe them

a whole account by a token pro-zionist "2nd gen American from gaza" who essentially wore a "all lives matter shirt" about " just wanting peace" and walked through an encampment and, just like that video of that little white girl crying when protestors gave her a wall of silence, said he felt "threatened" because the protestors wore masks, side eyed him and ignored him. He even accounts how many people were nice to him, asked him if he wanted food or water and generally left him alone. He Litterally said he felt threatened because he went in to agitate and no body took his bait. I'm sorry but masks dont make people violent. He kept saying he felt like he couldn't talk about his views or felt like "they could do anything to me and I wouldn't see their face" like this is Karen level paranoia bro.

Spout pretty much every alt-right insult in the book to the point I have to wonder if they are trolls but have to toss out my suspicion cause their either too low key to be a troll or just remembering its a fachist movement. Calling people whores and sluts, saying they are giving Palestinians their "OF money", calling the Palestinians "immigrants who need to get out", calling people retards/n words/various other slurs, calling leftists litteral snowflakes and wokes. Like wtf

Snuggle up, reblog and like from alt right American blogs with bios like "pro life pro guns pro liberty", litteral pepe the frog icons, praise the fact Republicans like Matt gatez, tom cruz and other famously terrible and racist people support their movement.

Own up to the fact they want all of palestine and more and talk about Palestinians in a way that feels very familiar to me as a native American. Calling us backwards, primitive, dogs and other horribly racist shit.

Say they deserve an ethnostate because the Holocaust happened. No.

Like.... Wtf? Why are y'all cuddling up to diet Nazis right now? That's independent of any news source I saw, I saw that shit with my own eyes scrolling your blogs. I knew you liked fascism but like? Wow.

[hulijingemperor2]

The Soiree is still going on~~~

Zixuan and Yanli just has a large family lol.

Announcer: entering Miss Luo!!

Luo Qingyang, aka Mianmian is now rich and married with one daughter.

As she's Zixuan's friend, he gifted her a silk company ~ that she named Luo Silks. Her husband however owns a vegetable stall. But technically Mianmian is the one taking care of her husband. Well we already know that she believes in being an independent woman, who can and will stab a sexist idiot with her sword.

Yao: Miss Luo is here.

Zixuan: Mianmian!!

Yanli: it has been so long.

Wuxian: is she going to make back up with Lan zhan.

*cries*

Lan zhan called his other woman.

Lan zhan: *confused*

Jiang cheng: first of all you're a man. Second, she's married, and you're married to Hanguang Jun, you a*hole.

Lan zhan: mn, love Wei ying.

Mianmian: Huangdi!

Zixuan: how are you, Mianmian? I missed you.

Mianmian: I'm good for now. Congrats bro!

And congrats sister-in-law!

Yanli: thanks Mianmian. *hugs*

Mianmian: how are you feeling?

Yanli: fine.

And I'm happy that my family and friends came to visit.

Mianmian: aww. *cups face* and look how you're glowing. Congratulations, meimei!

Yanli: thank you!

Mianmian. Can your daughter and my child become sworn siblings?

We did the same with A-ling.

Mianmian: of course! You don't need to ask.

Yanli: that means a lot to me.

Mianmian: I can't wait to see Huangdi as a nervous wreck again.

Remember when A-ling was a baby.

Yanli: hahaha.

When A-ling cried in his arm for the first time, he was like, how do you turn this off?

Mianmian: what a mess!

Zixuan: hey! That's embarrassing.

Yanli: this is what we must talk about in the Soiree, Zixuan. Heehee.

Mianmian: lol.

Yanli: when he cried again, he let him play with the little tassels on his sword.

Zixuan: I didn't have any other option. And at least it worked.

Worked a little too much, because the kid uses my sword a lot.

Mianmian: Huangdi you spoilt him.

Oh Yanli, do you remember when A-ling was hungry, and Xuan was like, A-li A-li, help! How am I supposed to make milk when I dont have breasts!

Yanli: oh gosh.

Yao: *laughing in the corner* I think I'll pray for Zish.

Mo xuanyu: who's gonna blame him. He was a first time parent.

Mianmian: yas. A first time wreck.

Zixuan: stop. Lol.

Meanwhile with Huaisang......

Huaisang: *serving him some more tea*

Jiang xiong!! Love.

Jiang cheng: you're working here?!!

Huaisang: *dramatically* yes!! And working for Zixuan isn't a piece of cake.

Jiang cheng: I know. He's a diva.

Huaisang: maybe if someone carries me to lotus pier with them. I can be saved from this torture!

Jiang cheng: Huaisang, you're just an attendant. Nothing is stressful about that.

Huaisang: can we be engaged again, Wanyin?

Zixuan: how dare you flirt with my guest!!

Huaisang: *runs away*

Wuxian: Huaisang is into you lol. And want to get into you as well.

Jiang cheng: shut up.

On the other hand, Rusong and Jinling were immediately swarmed by young ladies when they were in the city.

Aww hulijing Dianxia!!

Rusong Dianxia is soo cute!

Did you see his baby face and dimples!!

Ling Dianxia is so adorable as well. But I'm afraid of his uncle.

Aw Ling Dianxia.

Rusong Dianxia, can you take me back to Jingjing. I'll he a dubious wife.

Rusong: *smile* sorry. I'm still dedicated to my work.

But you're too kind.

Jinling: leave my cousin and I alone guys!

But you both are super hot.

Rusong: thank you.

Jinling: A-Song, let's run back home!

Rusong: yea.

Jinling: you're a complete chick magnet.

Rusong: *punches playfully* you're the chick magnet.

Jinling: are dimples a curse.

Rusong: no. But a weapon. Hehehe.

Ok maybe sometimes.

Jinling: and the jianghu is already submerged in Xiao shushu's dimples.

Rusong: lol yes, exactly.

~~~

Next day!

Well, everyone went back to their residences, as it's the next day.

Yao: lipsy.

Xichen: yes my A-Yao. *cups face*

Yao: *hugs* Am I the cutest and richest hulijing?

Xichen: of course you are, A-Yao.

Yao: do you care about me?

Xichen: more than life.

*squishes his dimples*

want do you want?

Yao: I want some new robes, and diamonds. As well as some black gloves, for the fox aesthetic.

Xichen: *kisses* of course, my love! You'll get that.

Yao: thank you!

Huanhuan, I didn't know that Lans had a reset button.

Xichen: who told you about that??

Uh.....

Of course not, A-Yao.

Yao: *kisses* don't think about that.

Xichen: *nosebleed*

A-Yao, where's team dimple?

Yao: they were bored so now they're torturing the new prisoner.

Xichen: ah, as team dimple must. Why do team dimple behave like vultures.

Yao: because I'm death to my enemies.

But....At least I'm cute.

Xichen: so powerful and cute of you.

Yao: right! *kisses*

Xichen: my adorable Huangdi.

Yao: my adorable Lan!

Xichen: mn.

Yao: I'm going to wait for Zixuan. He'll arrive shortly.

Xichen: anything important?

Yao: kind of. But you don't worry.

That new prisoner was staging a coup against my empire.

Xichen: oh my. So sad to hear that. But good that you got it under control.

And Zixuan is helping you.

Yao: as always.

Xichen: you're so smart.

Yao: *blushing*

Gonna wait for him in the conference hall.

Xichen: ok, go ahead then, Huangdi.

Yao: but your arms are still around my waist.

Xichen: oh *blush* now you can go ahead.

Meanwhile with team D.

In the dungeon 📍.

Zixun was chained and spent the night behind bars. Unruly fox spirits however scratched him all night with their claws.

Su she: good day.

Xue yang: slept well?

Mo xuanyu: you look very uncomfortable.

Zixun: where did you three idiots come from.

Mo xuanyu: *grinning*

Su she: did you miss us?

Xue yang: or do you miss being mauled by wild fox spirits?

Mo xunayu: look at you. All caged up.

Xue yang: someone with a bird brain should be in a cage, right?

Su she: good one yangyang.

Mo xuanyu: lol. Brilliant.

Mo xuanyu: ugh! something stinks in here!

Su she: maybe because he's sleeping in filth, yuyu.

Xue yang: ohh poor guy. Hehe.

Zixun: keep you sarcasm to yourself!

Mo xuanyu: maybe if you please Huangdi then he might get a better cell for you.

Su she: one with its own toilet.

Zixun: I won't reconcile with that bastard!!

Mo xuanyu: aiya. You shouldn't insult him in this condition!

Su she: would he ever learn.

Xue yang: never.

Mo xuanyu: Xuan and Yao gege will deal with you!!

Zixun: Zixuan knows about this?!! How?!

Xue yang: Jiggy maybe told him by now.

Su she: for some reason they're brothers who share everything. I'm not really sure.

Zixun: shit!! I'm fried!

Mo xuanyu: you already are.

Team d: *staring ominously at Zixun*

Zixun: *terrified* team dimple! Mark my words! I'll break out of here and kill you, your Dianxia and your huangdi!!!

Let me out!!

Su she: he has lost it.

Mo xuanyu: ew.

Xue yang: what a disaster.

Mo xuanyu: yangyang, I'm bored. Torture him some a little nah.

Su she: he looks a little too comfortable.

Xue yang: I got this guys, don't worry.

Xue yang: *takes off one of his shoe.* you miss sucking guangshans feet right. You can suck on mine if you want.

Zixun: eww!! You mad man, get your foot away from me!!

Mo xuanyu: *laughing*

Su she: when last did you clip your toe nails?

Xue yang: like. Last month-ish.

Su she: oh my goodness.

Zixun: I don't suck people's feet!

Mo xuanyu: dude you have a foot fetish and can't hide.

Xue yang: I like to call my toe jam salted caramel. Do you want to try?

Zixun: *screams*

Mo xuanyu: so guangshan is Ruohan's side chick, right?

Zixun: how did you guys know?!

Su she: Huangdi told us.

Xue yang: Ruoruo had the entire Jianghu simping for him like Jiggy.

Mo xuanyu: maybe this dirty Zixun sucked Ruohan's toes too.

Su she: eww. You're very very sick.

Xue yang: I didn't even do that, man. This guy is on another level.

Feng: *entering with some guards* team dimple.

Huangdi requests that we carry this criminal to him.

Su she: right, go ahead. It's Huangdi's orders after all.

But is Xuan Huangdi here?

Feng: on his way.

Mo xuanyu: that's good. My two geges won't spare you.

Xue yang: hope you have a nice meeting with them.

Su she: piece of thrash.

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Zixuan: Yaoyao. I'm here. I came as fast as I could.

Yao: have a seat.

Zixuan: certainly, A-Yao, now spill.

Yao: well someone tried to stage a coup, and they got some of my people held hostage, as well as executed.

They threatened to kill us and overthrow me.

Zixuan: what?!!! Who dares!!!

I want them flogged!!!

Yao: soon you'll see who's the culprit.

Zixuan: we're the most powerful persons in the Jianghu! Who dares to challenge you.

A chained Zixun enters with some guards.

Yao: I found him. *smile*

Zixuan; *furious* Zixun! That's where you went!!! Don't you have any shame!!

You tried to sabotage the hulijing Huangdi!!

Zixun: that hulijing shouldn't be Huangdi! And I'm tired of you two getting all the fame, glory and success. I come from a wealthy family! Why I must compete with that son of a wh*re!

Zixuan and Yao: *furious*

A guqin wave came out of nowhere and knocked him in his chest.

Zixun: *spits out blood*

Yao: Song'er.

Rusong: you should know who you're speaking to, Zixun!!!

Zixun: kid!

Rusong: Rusong Dianxia.

And you must have respect for Huangdi.

Zixun: let go of that thought, you privileged brat.

Rusong: *hits him with a guqin wave again* treason is an offense.

Yao: A-Song, don't go near him! I don't know if that animal will try to choke you.

Rusong: I got this A-Die.

Zixun: oooo, you don't want anything to happen to your dear Rusong. Watch how I would break out of these chains and kill him myself.

Rusong: try. I dare you.

I'm not afraid of a little troll like you!

Zixuan: face it. We three are very powerful. Now give up.

Team D: *entering*

Su she: *grabs Zixun by his collar.* how dare you misbehave in front of them! Especially when you're a prisoner!

Mo xuanyu: very bad.

Yao: kill him!

Xue yang: wait Jiggy. I want to send him mad, and control him with some resentful energy.

I'll teach him how to respect you!! In my xue yang way.

Yao: hmm. I like that suggestion. Alright then. Lock him up.

Feng: sure Huangdi.

Rusong: *makes guqin disappear*

Zixuan: good riddance.

Yao: I know right.

Zixuan: at least Huaisang is my attendant now.

Rusong: *hugs A-Yao* A-Die. Are you ok?

Yao: I'm used to it, Song'er. But this time *cups face* I wasn't hurt, because I was caught up on your confidence. It touches a parent's heart whenever their child stand up for them.

Rusong: as I must. I must protect your image. No one should insult you like that.

Yao: Song'er, everyday I see a little bit of young me in you.

Rusong: you told me that you have always tried to protect Nainai. So I consider it a duty to stand up for the ones you love.

Yao: awww.

*hugs* Song'er.

And where did you learn guqin combat?

Rusong: from you, A-Die.

Yao: heehee, I know. *kisses his forehead*

[sweetkakashihatake47]

But I dont think him asexual either! And for Icha Icha ..its both ..its surely for the plot ..as the pleasure as well! This man is so secretive ...mostly when it comes to those things ..that it cannot be said for sure ..what goes on inside of his mind. I agree ...he treats women respectfully and decently! He respects all boundaries. He is not overly the touchy guy ..so he doesnt seek it either. But that does not mean ..that he has no interest into ..women! He is only very confidential about it ..and doesnt show it off! And he is somewhat shy ..towards females. Because he is such an overthinker ..and reads all kinds of books...and is an introvert ...for him ..its more the intellectual part ..that is interesting for him. A Lady ..who thinks for herself ..is independent and loves to read ...that is his type. But he can be as well attracted to an extravert ...like Naruto . Kakashi manages to handle Naruto just fine. If such a woman accepts that he needs his space out time ...then all is fine wth him. If an extraverted woman ..can manage to have time by herself ..all is well! 🥰

I might be the only person who doesn't see Kakashi as a pervert or perverted thinker but it's because Kakashi doesn't really show signs of being so.

A pervert Leers at the people they find attactive. They try to sneak peeks under skirts, stare at breasts. It's a huge issue and it's gross. Kakashi isn't depicted as doing this and actually seems to dislike seeing Naruto transform using his sexy no jutsu while others react they way Naruto wants (The big nosebleed and huge surprised eyes)

touching inapporpriatly is just...he doesn't do it. he just doesn't. that's a jiraiya thing when he throws an arm around a girls shoulders or gets a little too close when they clearly don't want him to. Kakashi doesn't do that.

Never talks about sex. ever. Or people's bodies. He actively looks uncomfortable when Jiraiya mentions Tsunade's boob size to him.

not a peeping tom. We see both Jiraiya and Naruto trying to peep on the girls side of spa's as diffrent times, but never Kakashi. If Kishi wanted to make Kakashi a perverted character, that would have been the easiest way to show it.

Hatake Kakashi is not a pervert. Pervert Kakashi is 100% Fanon, 0% canon

[bougiebutchbitch]

Sakura has one of the best developmental arc of the whole flippin' manga and is wonderful and beautiful until that final chapter that I did not read so it never happened.

She literally was like "I DONT NEED NO MAN" and went to the baddest lady around and told her to make her her bitch and grew into an independent women who can crush fucking mountains and FUCKING KILLED A MAN and who is like "we gotta kill Sasuke!" And "ok! Let's try again!"

She's wonderful! She's Grace! she'll punch you in the face!!

*deep breath* That's all.

:VERY LOUD APPLAUSE:

Especially on that bit about the final chapter. I'm still soooo disappointed by how her arc ended, and I think I always will be.

It seemed obvious to me, as a young afab person who grew up watching Naruto, that a great arc would be for her to move past her unheathy obsession with Sasuke, past her sense that she's in the shadow of Sasuke and Naruto and the 'weak point' of Team Seven, strike out alone and make her own way (and have hot and sweaty make-outs with Ino or Lee or maybe both - okay, so maybe that was just wishful thinking). I'm forever going to be pissed that we didn't get that, because it could've been amazing.

Despite this, she's such an interesting character to me - both in her canon content, and in the gaps that are left for fanon to explore! I do appreciate that Kishimoto was working through, uh, some very cringe misogynistic views when writing her, so though it's a low bar, I appreciate that he didn't overtly sexualise her, and let her be a physical badass as well as a healer.

At the end of the day, I understand why people dislike her. But I also think that the fandom are very quick to excuse & infantalise Sasuke & Naruto for some of their choices because They Were Just Children, while also condemning Sakura for hers, despite them all being the same age... Even if we’re going fully Watsonian in our critique, she’s a 12-17 yo kid ffs, living in a military state and trained to be a child-soldier from pre-puberty. She’s fucked up. She’s messy. What do you expect???

But really, all I want is for haters to keep that hate off my posts! I don't care what they do on their personal blogs! They just have to stop adding shitty comments about Sakura to my art & writing! It's really that simple!

[libbee]

VENUS IN 8TH HOUSE/VENUS IN SCORPIO/MOON IN 8TH HOUSE HEALING AND WAY FORWARD

1. A lot has been said and written about venus/moon in 8th house and how their feelings are intense, deep, stormy and they feel the highest of highs and lowest of lows. 8th house venus and moon also give obsessive tendencies, addictive personality and issues with subconscious expectations. 8th house is the house of transformations and identity changes. So, you will NEVER feel at ease if you have your venus and moon in 8th house. Period.

2. If you are self aware and notice your own actions, you would know how USELESS it is to act on your feelings. Feelings are like clouds, they pass, you are not your feelings. But since our feelings are so intense, we cannot distinguish between facts and feelings. So, are we destined for a life of obsessions, repeated toxic behaviours and living at the mercy of 8th house?

No.

3. After healing from my 8th house antardasha, I have been contemplating a lot on the nature of love and romance. Since my emotions are intense, I cannot think rationally when it comes to relationships. And honestly, girls... men are not worth the effort! Seriously! Men are not worth the "effort". I repeat, men are not worth the effort, no matter what the media tells you. This doesnt mean you have to be "strong independent girl who needs no man". NO! You have to figure out what you want/need from a man and be very very clear about it. For example, I need financial security, I need exclusivity, I need social status. I want empathy, I want good conversations, I want good sex. Remember - I am not referring to normie placements lol, I am referring to MOON/VENUS IN 8TH house placements - INTENSE EMOTIONS.

4. For girls who have venus or moon in 8th house or scorpio sign, a very good idea is to devote significant time to spirituality! Be a polymath and learn a lot of things! Read books and have 100s of hobbies! Read about Buddhism, there are millions of websites on internet who will tell you all about our emotions and feelings and how to tackle them like a Buddhist monk!

5. If you are tired of intense, confusing, abusive, obsessive tendencies, devote yourself to spirituality. Do yoga. Read about Buddhism, Advaita Vedanta. Read world mythology. Read about occult, do tarot, read articles and posts on astrology. Have 100s of hobbies (sketchbook, plants, animal welfare, collect items, read books, manifestation, writing, journaling is a must for ALL THE INTENSE GIRLS GANG, paint), put your energy out there with your hands, use your hands. Make yourself a priority. You dont have to follow the rules of movies/media/novels/society because you are an INTENSE LADY so you need personal rules that suit your personality. I hope this makes sense.

6. Scorpio sign and 8th house are spiritual powerhouse. They are shortcuts to spiritual progress. If you learn to master the 8th house, you can get free boosts in your spiritual journey. We are born as humans to attain enlightenment and escape the cycle of death and birth. Anyone who has been through the transit of 8th house knows how it takes everything from you and forces you to build something new. It can take your personality, your job, your marriage, your health, your savings AND it forces you to make a new personality, start a new career path, get into a new relationship, start saving again, changes your health status. It is like the death of your old persona and birth of a new YOU.

7. Venus in 8th house/scorpio sign girls have a natural charm and magnetism. Even if they sit like a panda, people will still be attracted to them. So you need not worry about keeping your man, because you're a literal magnet. But you must learn to redirect your energy to yourself. Instead of wasting your free time on internet or men, just sit down and meditate. This will enhance your intuition. It will give you spiritual insights. It will open portals to the secrets of life.

SPIRITUALITY is the name of the game. Thanks for reading.

[rarebritney]

okay so im a 23 year old woman and recently I have been feeling more infantilized by others than ever before, which seems to go hand and hand with sexualization. when I was younger I was obsessed with growing up fast and everyone would remark on how mature I was. now everyone seems to remark on how much I look like a baby or make other comments on my appearance. i work at a fancy bar and people often assume i’m not knowledgeable or just a waitress or make comments when I wear braids or pigtails about how young I look. i am currently dating a man who is 10 years older than me (who i have known for a while, all my friends are older too) and i feel like it has changed peoples opinion of me. the strange thing is I feel myself leaning into it a bit, but I could go without the weird comments and condescension. so what if I like to look cutesy doesn’t mean I am not a grown ass lady who is independent and competent at her job. i guess im curious as to your thoughts on agency, infantilization, sexuality and relationships with men. much appreciated ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ̀ˋ love your blog<3

Cont: following up to the last anon… i find myself interested in older men for a variety of reasons (men my own age are too immature, older men are generally more sexually competent, I am just around them more, etc) i feel respected by my partner and enjoy our dynamic and feel very comfortable being myself (which is to say very girly and cutesy- I love skirts and pigtails and pink and ballet and flowers) i am just wondering about the psychology behind leaning a bit into infantilization in the bedroom when it bothers me so much professionally.

Ok so I should probably address the fact first that it is a bit of a red flag for a 33 year old man to be dating a 23 year old. Obviously I don't know either of you, so I won't preach about it, I'm sure others have mentioned this to you but I have to say it. You are so young, and a man that age dating so young reflects a desire for control that I find alarming. However, you are your own person and an adult, so far be it for me to dictate what you should do. You may want to consider the way the dynamic of your relationship affects your self esteem bc I have experienced that while having that feeling of approval from an older man can be really exhilarating, it can be equally crushing if it is rescinded. I'd be a hypocrite if I advised you not to lean into a hyper feminine and submissive role in your relationship, but I would warn against letting it bleed too much into the rest of your life. Make sure to practice saying no whenever needed, and I mean that really seriously!!! As for your friends and coworkers, I would say don't worry too much about being underestimated, just make sure to hold onto yourself and dont let it get you down. I've been underestimated bc of how I look my whole life and I've learned you can't really keep it from happening . its not worth changing yourself or your aesthetic to avoid judgement. But be sure to stand up for yourself consistently!! tell people to fuck off when you need to. Overall I really relate to what you are going through. My main advice is to make sure not to lose yourself. Best of luck to you💖

[itspufflehuff]

According to Plan - Bucky Barnes Imagine

Summary: You like Bucky and Bucky likes you. So whats the problem? The answer should be nothing but when Bucky tried to ask you out for Valentine’s Day things dont always go according to plan.

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Thank you so much @not-another-fangirl​ for putting a request in! I always have fun writing out the ideas you all give me so please if you ever have anymore send them my way! 

Happy Valentines Day everyone! I hope you all have an amazing and safe day with your friends, family, and/or partners! This is one of three imagines I will be posting today.

Word Count: 3,143

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There was no doubt you and Bucky liked each other. Everyone could see the way he looked at you and you looked at him.

Well everyone except you two.

The moment Bucky saw you he thought you were the most beautiful person he'd ever seen. Then when he saw you fight for the first time it was like Cupid struck him. You were strong, beautiful, smart, and independent. The perfect girl for him.

You read all about the Howling Commandos and Bucky Barnes when you were in school. You saw his pictures and wondered why a man like that couldn't live in your time. Then to your surprise, a man like that was living in your time and it wasn't just any man, but Bucky Barnes himself. When you first met him you played it cool but inside you were screaming with excitement because the man you crushed on from the history books was standing right in front of you.

However despite the lingering looks, the partnering up on missions, and the touched shoulders every time you sat next to each other neither of you could see just how much you liked each other.

This would be your first Valentine's Day as an Avenger. You and all the other single Avengers were planning on spending it together as a group. What Bucky really wanted was to spend it with you alone, but he was too unsure of himself to pluck up the courage to ask you. That was until Steve talked some sense into him, "What is wrong with you?"

Bucky looked at his best friend confused, "Excuse me?"

"There is a beautiful girl a few rooms down who is clearly into you like you're into her, yet you still don't ask her out?"

"I don't know what you're talking about," Bucky stuttered.

"Oh come on!" Steve threw his arms in the air, "Everyone can see the way you look at each other. You're clearly smitten. You should as her out for Valentine's Day."

"You really think so?" Bucky asked unsurely.

"Yes. You need to ask her out before someone else does."

So he set his plan into motion. Valentine's Day is less than 24 hours away so he'll make the most of the time he's got to ask you to be his Valentine and set up a date.

No pressure.

First up on his checklist: ask you out. As the day went on it turned out to be easier said than done. His first attempt was to send you some chocolates with a note attached. He walked to the nearest store selling boxes of chocolates and picked the biggest of the bunch. When he got back to his room he found some nice parchment paper in one of his drawers, ripped a piece off, and wrote, "Will you be my Valentine? -B" Using one of Tony's robotic helping hands he sent the chocolates to your room. He told the machine to come back to him once it was delivered so he could walk in and ask for your answer.

However, things did not go according to plan. Somehow there was some miscommunication and the chocolates got sent to Natasha's room. Upon reading the letter she assumed the 'B' stood for Bruce. Natasha happily visited him in his lab agreeing to go out with him. Bruce was very confused but decided not to ask questions, whatever happened got him a date so he didn't care!

"I hate technology," Bucky whispered to himself when he saw Natasha eating some of the chocolates on the common room couch.

His second attempt was to buy you flowers and ask you face to face, seeing as how that was the only trustworthy way to get it done. He put on his nicest shirt, making sure to save his fancy outfit for the big day, and went to the florist that happened to be a few streets away. He wasn't sure why but he was not expecting it to be so busy when he got there. Workers were running around to get orders, loading flowers into the back of trucks, and people were trying to cut in the line.

Bucky was ready to walk right out of there but then he thought about you. He sucked in a breath preparing for the chaos inside. The further he walked into the shop he saw the abundance of roses seemingly covering the whole shop. He didn't want to give you the same bouquet every other girl would be getting for Valentine's Day. You weren't like every other girl to him, you were special so he wanted to give you special flowers. The bouquet he picked out for you was yellow poppies with pink coral bells mixed in. He felt so proud of himself and was ready to ask you out.

Confidently Bucky walked back to the tower and straight to your door. He knocked three times and waited as he held the bouquet in his hands and swayed back and forth on his feet.  

When you opened the door you weren't expecting to see Bucky. The only time he went to your room was when he walked you back after training. "Bucky, hi." You smiled at him. Although you weren't expecting him you were glad to see him.

"Y/N, hi. Um, I got brought you some flowers." He said holding them out to you shyly. The moment he saw you all of his confidence flew out the window.

You were so distracted with being happy to see Bucky and excited that he brought you flowers you didn't pay attention to what kind of flowers he brought you. The only thing you noticed was they were yellow and pink. You took them flowers from him smiling as you felt your cheeks heat up, "Thank you Bucky you're so sweet."

"I was also hoping to ask you something."

"Yeah, sure. What is it?" You leaned against the frame of your door as you held the flowers close to you.

He was starting to get nervous and stumbled over his words, "Well you know tomorrow is Valentine's Day, so I was thinking, well hoping actually that maybe-" He didn't get to finish his sentence. When he looked up at you he noticed red blotches on your hands and neck that were definitely not there before. "Are you ok Y/N?" He looked to you concerned.

You were confused about what just happened, "Of course why?" You furrowed your eyebrows and tilted your head.

He took your hand and laid your palm flat against his, "Look."

Still confused you looked down at your hands finally seeing the rashes. You gasped as your eyes quickly turned to the flowers. "Poppies."

"Please don't tell me you're allergic?" He pleaded.

"Not deathly, I just break out into hives."

He took the flowers from you not wanting to cause any more damage, "I'm so sorry Y/N I didn't know."

"It's ok Bucky, really. But if you don't mind I'm going to shower and put some cream on to get rid of this." You rushed back into your room closing the door.

Disappointed, Bucky walked back to his room setting the flowers down on his desk. He threw himself into bed with a sigh trying to come up with attempt number three.

What would the old Bucky do? He thought himself.

He would just walk up to the girl, flash her a charming smile, and ask her. The old Bucky had no problem with the ladies and he radiated confidence. That's all he needed to do. Be confident. Ask her out. He spent about half an hour building his confidence and hyping himself up. When he was ready he held his head high and walked to his door.

As soon as he opened it he saw you standing there. Your hair was damp and the rashes were fading. You had your hand up ready to knock on the door instead, you were face to face with his chest. You lowered your hand, took a step back, and looked up at him, "Hi, again. I thought I'd stop by so we could finish that conversation we were having before." You smiled sweetly at him.

He chuckled, "Once again I am so sorry. But um," He felt himself growing nervous again so he took a breath in. Confidence. "Tomorrow is valentines day and I would love to take you out as my Valentine."

"Yes. You can pick me up at 7:00." You smiled then turned to walk away. As soon as you got back to your room you jumped in excitement as you silently squealed.

~~~~

That night Bucky called around trying to make last-minute reservations until he finally found a restaurant with open tables at 7:00.

After such a stressful day Bucky needed to let off steam so he headed down to the gym. He didn't even realize how fast time went until two and a half hours later the sun was gone and he was sweating profusely.

He got back to his room and went straight for the bathroom to wash off the days' troubles. As he was getting dressed he looked over to his desk seeing the flowers he got you were gone. He just shrugged it off assuming one of Tony's robots threw it away. He spent the rest of his night planning for the next day and set out his outfit.

He tossed and turned all night too excited to finally be able to take you out.

~~~~

Seven o clock came sooner than expected the next day. Bucky was dressed in his finest clothes, a white button-down long sleeve, a black vest, and black dress pants. Very 1940s fashion.

You wanted to surprise Bucky by wearing something similar to what would be worn in the '40s. You put on an army green dress that was belted around the waist and had a collar at the top. You paired that with tights, or pantyhose as some may call it, and t-strap heels.  You slept with curlers in your hair to get the authentic 1940's curl women had back then. You lightly brushed them out and pinned your hair to the sides.

When Bucky saw you he felt like his breath was taken away. In a way seeing you dressed like that made him feel like he was back in the old days. He was James 'Bucky' Barnes the man who loved to goof off with his best friend and live his life to the fullest, no Bucky who had a dark past and a metal arm to show for it.

He held his arm up for you to take, "Shall we?"

You smiled sweetly at him quickly putting a coat on before lacing your arm with his, "We shall."

Steve let Bucky borrow his motorcycle for the night seeing as how Bucky needed it more than him. Bucky was ready to have a romantic evening with you, that was until you got to the restaurant.

"I'm sorry sir but there is no reservation for a James Barnes." The hostess said.

"Are you sure? I called yesterday, Sydney helped me over the phone."

"Sydney? I'm sorry we don't have a Sydney here. If you don't mind me asking what number did you call? I may be able to help you find the right restaurant."

He pulled his phone out, reading the number back to her. She held back a smile as she spoke, "I am sorry sir, that is a California area code."

Bucky felt his neck heat up and his heart drop. Why can't anything go right? He thought for sure the night was ruined and he would have to find somewhere else to take you or just take you back home.

"Damn, I really hate technology," Bucky said to himself. You stood behind him trying to hold in a laugh at how adorable he looked. You knew he was already embarrassed, you didn't want to make it worse by laughing at him. Instead, you put a hand on Bucky's shoulder feeling the cool metal through his shirt. You moved your hand up to his skin so he could feel you behind him. He turned his head as you stepped forward to speak to the hostess. You leaned close to her so Bucky wouldn't hear you, "I'm not sure if you know but my boyfriend here is a man out of his time." You both giggled, "And clearly has not gotten used to the internet. Is there any way we can take out food instead of dining in?"

You pulled away with your eyebrows raised in question. She thought for a second before she smiled, "I'll see what I can do for you." With a quick wink, she walked into the restaurant.

Bucky wouldn't tell you this but your attempt at whispering failed as he could still hear what you said. He felt his heart flutter when you said 'boyfriend'. When the hostess left he acted like he didn't know what was happening,  "Where did she go?"

"Oh, she just had to grab something from inside." You acted casual.

She came back out about ten minutes later with two bags full of takeout containers, "For the lovely couple."

"Thank you so much!" You smiled at her as Bucky took the food. You were so glad you stashed some cash into the belt of your dress. Taking it out you tried to hand it to her but she waved her hands at you shaking her head. "Don't worry about it. Anything for our favorite heroes."

Thanking her again you and Bucky made your way back to the motorcycle. "Where are we going to eat this?" Bucky laughed.

"In my room duh." You said as if it were obvious.

"How will we take it? Were on a motorcycle."

In response, you opened up the seat of the bike pulling out the folded backpack. "How?" Was all Bucky managed to say.

"Steve always keeps a backpack in here. We just put the food in and I'll wear it."

When you got back to the Avengers tower you and Bucky walked in laughing. You still had the backpack full of food on as you both made your way to the kitchen to grab some plates and utensils.

"What're you two doing back so early?" Steve called out.

"Change in plans we're having a picnic in my room!" You called back.

Bucky held onto the plates with one hand and put the other on your lower back as he walked you to your room.

You walked in feeling giddy about having a picnic. You grabbed an extra blanket from your closet and set it out on the floor. As you did that Bucky looked around your room. His eyes landed on a clear block that stood on your bookshelf. What caught his attention about it was that inside the block looked to be the flowers he gave you yesterday. "Y/N? What's that?" He pointed to it.

Following his fingers, you stopped throwing pillows on the floor and blushed, "Oh. It's the flowers from yesterday. I figured you went through the trouble to get them and they're so beautiful I didn't want them to go to waste. I had Steve get them from your room and I poured resin all over them. This way I can have them and not break out in hives."

His heart warmed. He was glad you liked the flowers so much to keep them preserved in resin.

You sat on the floor first then Bucky followed a bit hesitant.

"I’m sorry, nothing has quite gone according to plan for me. I doubt you've ever had to save your past dates like you did tonight." Bucky joked.

"No," you laughed shaking your head, "but I never cared much for those dates like I do this one."

You started opening up the food containers, setting them up around the both of you to serve yourselves.

"Whoa, it looks like they gave us the house special," Bucky said impressed.

"Anything for their favorite heroes." You quoted the hostess with a playful smile.

"I'm no hero." Bucky shook his head looking down.

"You are to me." He looked up at you with surprise. Ever since he escaped Hydra he wasn't able to see himself as the nice charming man he was before. He liked hearing you call him a hero, even if he didn't believe it.

"So, why did you join S.H.I.E.L.D? Well up until they fell and you became an Avenger." Bucky asked curiously as he started eating.

You let out a small laugh, "Um, well it was actually because of you and Steve."

He tilted his head, "Huh?"

"My parents loved Captain America and his Howling Commandos. I grew up hearing about your heroism, and we learned about it in school too. You guys weren't just about fighting for your country. You were about fighting for people everywhere and doing what's right. Then I read about Agent Peggy Carter. She was the only woman there throughout it all. I wanted to be like all of you. I worked my way up into S.H.I.E.L.D and worked hard alongside Natasha."

"Incredible. You know we would've loved to have you in the Howling Commandos."

"Really?" You said a bit too excited. Bucky noticed this and chuckled, "Yes! You're a great fighter. You have so much heart, passion, and ambition. You probably would've kicked all our asses."

"You're just saying that." You laughed.

"No, I mean it!"

The both of you finished your meal with lots of talking and laughing in between. It was the best date you'd ever been on, even if it took a while to get there. By the end of the night, you were both sitting with your backs against the foot of your bed. Halfway through diner, you put on some jazz music to fill the air as you two talked and it was still playing as you two sat there soaking up the sound. You were so close your shoulders were touching. There was a pillow laying on your lap, on top of that you rested your hands. Your eyes were closed and your head was facing the ceiling. Bucky looked over at you and smiled at how peaceful you looked. He looked down at your hands. You were sitting to the left of him, the side where his metal arm was.  He wanted to hold your hand but was nervous. After debating about it in his mind he reached out and grabbed your hand. You didn't flinch, instead, you interlocked your fingers with his cold ones and smiled still with your eyes closed. Even though he couldn't feel your hand on his he smiled too.

You both sat there for a while hand in hand, eyes closed, enjoying the music and each other's presence. You were the one who finally broke the silence.

"Just kiss me already."

And so he did.

[a-deadly-serenade]

so here are some of my favorites ive watched over these past 2 months :) i’ll even add little summaries too because why not!!

Going in Style (2017), stars morgan freeman, michael cane and alan arkin as 3 lifelong best friends that plan an elaborate heist to steal from the bank thats screwing over their pensions. super funny super charming, i had an absolute blast watching this.

The Kindness of Strangers (2019), is a more independent film, with its most notable stars being bill nighy and jay baruchel (he voiced hiccup!). however, the star of the show is zoe kazan who plays a mother who takes it upon herself to protect her two sons from their father’s systematic abuse and heads to new york city to try and make a new start. its raw and i think an amazing piece that shows the hardships domestic violence victims deal with, but, as the title suggests, it also shows the beauty of kindness and human connection. fantastic film but, i’d one i’d recommend u double-check to make sure youre personally ok to watch :)

Cloudburst (2011), is a Canadian film, starring Olympia Dukakis and Brenda Fricker as an elderly lesbian couple that go on a roadtrip up to Nova Scotia to get married. super funny film, brenda fricker is hilarious!!! and their relationship is so natural and soso sweet. 

Catch and Release (2006), has an absolutely stacked cast you got jennifer gardner as the leading lady, timothy olyphant, juliette lewis, & even fiona shaw. it followers garner’s character dealing with the death of her late fiancee and the secrets she uncovers after moving in with his 2 best friends. its got a couple low-hanging jokes but, it was a romcom made in 2006. other than that, its really a fun movie. i mean u get olyphant as the cocky, yet sappy loverboy. what more could u want ?

Hellboy (2004), has another stacked cast but, imma be honest, the only reason i decided to watch this and its sequel, was because they were both directed by guillermo del toro. but!! man. do you guys remember when comic book movies used to be FUN?!? this movie is so fun!! the plot is crazy you’ve got this elite fleet of immortal russians (??) that used to work for the NAZIS trying so summon these eldritch monsters and start the apocalypse and in order to do that, they need to capture hellboy. AND IT RULES. this movie is allll practical effect work and allll makeup work and its soososososo sexy. everyone learn from senor toro. see? this is how a movie should look! anyways. ron perlman is hilarious and a fantastic lead, rupert evans is great as the little human sidekick, selma blair is a badass and doug jones is AWESOME. love u abe 💙 the sequel isnt bad, i just dont think the plot is as strong, however, definitely worth checking out if u enjoy the first one.

Blade Runner 2049 (2017), i hesitated a little to put this one on the list, because i believe the viewing experience is greatly enhanced by seeing the original 1982 film, since technically this IS its sequel. however, the original was. ok? the effects and atmosphere are fantastic, ridley scott never disappoints, but it did tend to drag a bit in my opinion, the last 15 or so minutes in particular. ANYways. 2049 is strong enough to stand on its own, so i’ll leave it up to you to decide if you want to watch the og. with its own fantastic mix of practical vs computer effects, great cast and solid story, you follow k on his mission to track down a miracle that was once thought to be impossible. super solid movie and the attention to detail to keep the feel of the world on par with the og is very impressive. 

[skullkid1410]

"We are in this together Brodie. Just you and me"

Brodie and Paxton met each other on an orphanage where they spent a big deal of their lives together. The orphanage was far from being the best one, and Brodie isnt the kind of kid you can tame easily. Reckless and too independent for his own good, He always lived by his own rules and decided it was time to leave.

“I don’t need a stupid family to come and save me. Nobody wants to adopt teenagers and you know what? I’m no fuckin lady in distress and I dont need them, I can take care of myself - Always did and always will”

Paxton was the funny little kid that would follow him around, everywhere he went. Brodie would be annoyed at first, but somehow in his heart, feelings of love and care started to grow. He would watch out for him and protect him from the bullies of the orphanage. He would give him his meals when the food was too little. He would embrace him in his chest when the nights were too cold, and sing him to sleep when he woke up from nightmares. Brodie loved Paxton as if he was his younger brother - the closest thing he had from a real family. And Paxton knew that, as dangerous as the streets could be for two young and unprotected kids, with brodie by his side he would be safer than anywhere in the world. So he decided to runaway with him.

"You must be insane to think that I'll let you go alone Brodie. Never in a lifetime! I'm with you man, wherever you go I'll follow. We are in this together"

In order to eat, they would search for scraps. Any valuables they could find, would be changed for some coins.

Sometimes they would also try to beg. That was the worst scenario tho, since they knew chances of getting food for free were too low.

And of course, begging was WAY easier for Pax. Who in the world can resist those puppy blue eyes?

But luck drains out sometimes, and the main course of the day would be an empty stomach

“Man, those nachos seems to be delicious. Why people deny helping others even when they can?”

But life in the city is not just about starving or missing a roof above your head. Paxton and Brodie are troublemakers by nature, and they were always pranking and goofing around, in order to keep themselves entertained.

“Here’s the plan Pax: see that bald dude over there? Ask him for directions and keep him talking. I’ll sneak behind and pull his underwear”

And some beautiful surprises could be found all around, in every single corner

But the nights on the city are cold

and tough

and cops are not really fond of homeless kids, especially troublemakers like them.

"I swear if i see you both trying to steal on the spice market again JESUS CHRIST I'll BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU TWO, fuck it that you are just kids. San Myshuno is not a place for scum like you".

Brodie started feeling very upset with how bad things were going for them on the city. It was their third stop since they fled from the orphanage, and he started missing the things they left behind, like his warm bed, the hot showers, even the bullies and the undercooked food.

But paxton reminded him of an old man they met on the subway once, telling them about the place of his childhood - a small and idyllic town, nestled between rocky shores and tall green mountains, where people are warm and always willing to share a plate of food. Brindleton Bay

"Wasn't your dream to see the coast Brodie? We can make it! Of course, things won't be easy on us, they never were. But come on, there's got to be a place in this world for us"

"You know what Pax, I think you are right. Screw San Myshuno. Maybe we could find a spot in the woods, start farming you know? Build us our own place. Just me and you. How does that sound?"

"That would be a dream come true Brodie. We got this...

...I can tell”

they would have to be brave once more and take a chance. There's a boat leaving the docks on the first hour of the next morning. That would be their golden ticket to a new chance of starting over

"Us against the world my man, us against the world"

"Wild at Heart" evolves around the lifes of three families from completely different backgrounds, whose paths end up crossing on the highroads of life. A story of love and hope, but also pain and sadness.

I started writing mainly because I love to write AND to play. I would only share them with the dearest Dunkin at first. But he really motivated me to go ahead and share them with the world. So here I am!

I have ZERO pretentions of this becoming big. I don't even expect anybody to read them besides me and D. But if you found my simblr and gave my stories a chance, gosh, you already made my day.

The sims I'll use in this story, some are my creations, other Dunkin's (You can even think of my story as a "Spin Off" of his world haha). Unfortunatelly I won't be sharing any for download. BUUUUUT you can check Dunkin's GOOOOORGEOUS creations right on the link below. You might even find some familiar faces there ;)

Link to Dunkin's CC - https://creamlattedream.tumblr.com/

Link to Dunkin's story Simblr. Some people just have it all you know. And Dunkin's writing is AS GOOD as his creation skills are - https://asliceofcakesimblr.tumblr.com/

Now, enough of chit chat. Let's jump straight to the chapter 1

[ramuoto]

TOP 10 MANHWAs

if anything good came out of 2020, it’s my discovery of manhwas. 

well, it’s not like i’ve never read a single manhwa in the past 15+ years but tbh, the ratio of manhwa:manga i consume on a weekly basis has jumped exponentially this year. previously it was like 1:99 and now it’s like 90:10 LMAO. 

so, just to remind myself that the world is still full of good things, i had to make this list. which i will probably edit in the future, if i can be bothered to. :) 

anyhow, this list was not made in any particular order, just whichever came into mind. it’s loooong so be prepared! (I’ve read way more titles than mentioned but just included the ones worth checking out)

for whoever stumbles across this list, i hope some of these resonate with you and i hope they make you as happy as they made me. 

pic credits: https://geekculture.co/geeks-guide-to-transmigration-novels-avoid-death-at-all-costs/

1. Ebony

https://mangadex.org/title/41838/ebony

Bahahah omg he looks evil there! But our dearest archduke is hardly that aww. Soz, I just ripped off the covers of the manhwa cos I can’t find a panel I liked more than another. I mean, this manhwa is a GEM. I can’t even begin to describe this because everything about it blew me away. This is not something you read when you are craving for fluff, or just wanna have something brainless after a hard day at work or if you just wanna have some eye candy lol. This is something you pick up on a weekend, when you have time, because you need those hours to digest, appreciate, clutch your chest, tear a little because you find yourself falling in love with these characters. It doesn’t have any of that cliche isekai, romance, revenge themes going on. It has a solid plot, backed by incredible characters, beautifully woven by the authors and artist with incredible pacing that keeps you on your toes and keeps you looking forward to the next chapter. Maybe I would have been happier if I found it after it was completed lol. HAVE I CONVINCED YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU WANNA READ IT?! like, idk, just go. JUST GO READ IT GDI. 

p.s. it says there romance but naaaaaaah, dont go in with that expectation. :) this story is so much more than that. 

2. Bring the love

https://mangadex.org/title/44472/bring-the-love

This...this!!! THIS MANHWA NEEDS MORE LOVE. If you need a lot of fluff, a little, ok maybe quite a bit of sadness and tragedy, sweet sweet romance, cutie pies, please, look no further!!! Again, pacing, character development are so important to me and this manhwa aces it. I love the 2 MCs very much. And the side characters too. :)

3.  A Stepmother's Märchen

https://mangadex.org/title/39474/a-stepmother-s-m-rchen

When I first read this, i fucking cried. like please don’t ask me why. it’s not like its an absolute tragedy but I was just rooting for the MC so much and I really want for everything to go her way. That’s how much I adore this MC!!! I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER MORE THAN YOU DO NORA! HAHAHHA. okay soz. I need to keep this spoiler-free.

Anyhoo, there is nothing typical about this time travel plot. Sure, she goes back to try to undo the stuff that went wrong but phew, she certainly changed things so much everything that comes her way have made it so her previous experiences can hardly help aaaaaaand that’s what makes it fun! I sometimes wish the pacing could be a little more consistent, and there could be more characters I could love a little more wholeheartedly (so i wont have to be in so much despair when i read this sometimes lol) but omg the art, isn’t it pretty?! I’ve re-read this soooooo many times but the art blows me away all the time. And have I already mentioned how much I love her?! I LOVE YOU SHULI! AND I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY!

4.  Lady Baby

https://mangadex.org/title/34691/lady-baby

I literally LOL-ed when I saw this cover. WHO THE HELL ARE THEY. WHAT LADY BABY?! ehehehe. okay anyway, uhm, this is already incredibly popular. im not sure if i need to elaborate but yes, it’s adorbs!!! i dont think i like the MC as much as i love her family lol. and everyone else who adores her. im looking forward to when they get older. :) actually not really. please stay cute for as long as yall can! but yeah, i do wish the plot can move a lil faster. i want to see more character development in the other kids too COME ON! 

5.  Death Is the Only Ending for the Villainess

https://mangadex.org/title/47754/death-is-the-only-ending-for-the-villainess

am i allowed to reveal how shallow i am rn? like the previous choices were all like ‘wow-deep-plot’, ‘wow-character-development’ and this one i just included cos of AESTHETICS ALONE?! the novel covers are breathtaking!!! the manhwa art is amazing as well. and the harem is great! LOL. as for plot... uhm... it’s alright. it’s pretty engaging and i quite like the MC, she’s smart and independent and i love how she views them all antagonistically at all times HAHAHHA. her past is kinda... weird though and i do wish they’d stop referencing it. cos... girl why do you wanna go back to reality!!! stay here! it’s way more exciting! 

i love the whole isekai/reincarnate/transmigration theme and this is honestly one of the better, not-so-cliche or cheesy ones HA.

6.  Beware of the Villainess!

https://mangadex.org/title/47286/beware-of-the-villainess

do you already see the whole villainess theme?! am i suppose to start feeling embarrassed about my choices?! NO! cos this one is AWESOME!

again, another wildly popular title. for good reasons. it’s hilarious, our MC is as real and candid as it gets and LOOK AT THAT BLUE HAIRED BEAUTY. DO YOU SEE HIM?! IMPLANT HIM INTO YOUR MEMORY NOW!

it’s highly entertaining and breaks all isekai-reincarnation-villainess plot stereotypes. definitely one of the titles i look forward to every week.

7.  Who Made Me a Princess

https://mangadex.org/title/32506/who-made-me-a-princess

what? why did i choose this?

BECAUSE OF CLAUDE OF COURSE. ahahaha. okay aside from the amaaaaaaazing art and the beautiful people, the plot is not too bad. a little extreme at times but it’s interesting enough to keep me going. it’s currently on hiatus though and i was highly annoyed by how the first season ended. (YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? NOTHING.)

i hope the plot can move faster in the next season! and that our dearest MC athanasia can you know, finally be a little more useful... like omg just tell lucas already!!! and tbh girl, no matter which guy you choose, i approve. :D 

8.  The Flower That Was Bloomed by a Cloud

https://mangadex.org/title/37648/the-flower-that-was-bloomed-by-a-cloud

i featured this before, mostly out of frustration HAHAHA. do you see why i chose this cover?! yeah, i support this (unpopular) pairing okay! the other one is doomed!!! no matter what the author is trying to do now!! I DONT SUPPORT IT!!! lol.

anyway, i had to feature this cos the art is unique! and the story is great. :) and i looooooove listening to the ost while i read it. it starts out kinda slow but as the pace picks up, you won’t be able to stop. and you find yourself conflicted at various points. it did win an award for a reason. 

no matter what, i still think dowun is best for her okay. it’s dowun or nothing. he’s devoted to her, we all know that! he just needs to ditch that annoying female guard!!! ok yknw what, maybe nothing is better. :/ *cries*

9.  Solo Leveling

https://mangadex.org/title/31477/solo-leveling

why do i even bother? this manhwa is popular enough. 

the art is great. the MC is great. i use him and his gang as my wallpaper. 

im just not sure i like how this season’s plot is progressing. :/ but i guess it brings us nearer to solving the mystery in the first leg of the manhwa. i just enjoyed the whole part of him leveling up and now that he isn’t really leveling up anymore... idk. am i hoping for more plot shit like bleach (oh wow now u quincy?)... idk man. anywho, no regrets starting on this series and marathon-ing it to death. 

cross fingers the plot picks up and doesnt get too complicated for its own good.

10.  The Reason Why Raeliana Ended Up at the Duke's Mansion

https://mangadex.org/title/31606/the-reason-why-raeliana-ended-up-at-the-duke-s-mansion

okay, tbh, by the time i reached 10, i still have like 15 other series i was considering LMAO. i even considered lengthening this top 10 to top 15. but that would just be more of me and my nonsense. so... why did i choose this?

COS I LOVE THE 2 MCs!!! they’re adorable. the plot is again, kinda far-fetched at times (i literally laugh my head off at some parts) but it’s isekai-reincarnation okay! anything is possible in whatever magical crap country you end up in! lol. and i like how straightforward it is... in the sense there’s no 2nd lead. like okay i mean they are there but we all know they have no chance. oops. sorry!

and cos i can’t give up on the other titles i have, imma just list them down, without pictures... cos im tired. HA. 

11. Doctor Elise 

https://mangadex.org/title/29474/doctor-elise 

Kudos to the huge improvement in art style lmao. The good... lovable MCs, engaging plot. The bad... sometimes lengthy, incredulous medical moments (i work in the medical field so i... idk. sometimes this borders on iryu LMAO and i need to remind myself this is romance) otherwise, this is a highly highly entertaining read.

12.  Seduce the Villain's Father

https://mangadex.org/title/46775/seduce-the-villain-s-father

This is another of my ‘father-love’ whims. MC is adorable and ML is handsome. enough said.

13.  The Villainess Lives Twice

https://mangadex.org/title/49644/the-villainess-lives-twice

This is like a lesser version of Ebony and Bring the Love combined HAHAHA. The plot and premise is great and it’s awesome to marathon! I don’t find myself loving the MC as much as I should but the ML is a darling! I just find her a little toooooooo gloomy. Like come on girl, be more spunky! 

14.  The Stereotypical Life of a Reincarnated Lady

https://mangadex.org/title/46790/the-stereotypical-life-of-a-reincarnated-lady

I dont know why I like this so much HAHAHAHA. It hardly has a plot. I just find the MC and ML amusing i guess lol. 

15.  I'm Stanning the Prince

https://mangadex.org/title/45586/i-m-stanning-the-prince

Sometimes I wonder if I should be ranking this higher but I kinda feel this manhwa is trying to achieve too much with an underpowered MC. I love her... but I just don’t like how she’s just a pawn of everyone else and I dont know how she can change this situation of hers. It’s cute though. the MC and ML.  and the ML reminds me so much of american/jap Mackenyu. 

16.  The Villainess Reverses the Hourglass

I HAD TO. the art is so pretty! but girl, dont use the hour glass so much! you look a little too old! i would appreciate it if MC stops basing too much of her moves on the “past” tho like idk you are gonna sound unoriginal soooooon like develop your own thoughts soon okay? <3

17. Inso's Law

ANOTHER ONE. omg. im a lil on the fence regarding this but i like MC too much. and her harem LOL. i dont see where the plot is going either but i just hope for a happy end... ):

18.  Why Are You Doing This, Duke?

HAHAHA. this is sooooo sooooooo cute, i would have ranked it top 15 if it wasnt licensed by tapas tho cos they are a joke. WHY NOT TAPPY GDI. 

19.  Miss Not-So Sidekick

Uh-oh. Is this a top-20 list now? anyway, the MC for this series is GOLD. im not liking where it’s currently heading tho thus the lower ranking.

20.  IRIS - Lady with a Smartphone

omg IVE NEGLECTED THIS FOR TOO LONG. lemme go buy more chapters hahahaha. it’s a tad too lengthy... otherwise i like the MC and yummy ML!

still not enough?

Special Mentions - Okay, these will be unranked cos I don’t think these are that good but probably still worth a read.

I've Become the Villainous Empress of a Novel - this is new, im looking forward to how it progresses wheeeee.

Lady to Queen - It’s a ruthless manhwa. There was a point i started reading all sorts of sadistic content (i was running out of content i swear) and this was one of the better ones. I appreciate the MC very much. the plot now is a little weird and im a bit wary of the MC’s sister... hopefully the ML can be more useful. he’s pitiful though. but dude come on, dont rely on the wrong gal.

Goodbye, In-law - I’m not sure if i like the current progress buuuuuuut MC and ML are cute so who cares.

The Duchess' 50 Tea Recipes - plot is still engaging. MC and ML are cute. i dont know where the plot is heading towards though. 

A Falling Cohabitation - this is interesting and fun but a lil lengthy.

Light and Shadow - the sequel is out!!! i highly enjoyed this entire series!!! i would have probably ranked it a lil higher if i did this post earlier but too many series have overtaken this in my heart lol.

This Girl Is a Little Wild - is the hiatus ending yet? i would add it back to top 20 if it came back LOL. it’s highly entertaining tho. ML is adorable.

The Duchess With an Empty Soul  - pretty nice. MC and ML are a little boring. i think it can end soon. LMAO.

A Capable Maid - it’s amusing how she gets her powers for all sorts of situations lol. the prince is creepy tbh. and im secretly rooting for the other king hehe.

Beware of the Brothers! - it’s cute and heart-wrenching at the same time! not too sure im digging the latest plot development but okay... i’ll take it. they’re all cuties.

Living as the Tyrant's Older Sister - hehehe. it’s cute. duke is kinda silly but the latest chapter made me squeal!!!

The Evil Lady's Hero  - idk where the plot is going but MC and ML are adorable!!!

The Dragon Next Door - HAHAHA. it’s hilarious.

The Youngest Princess - she’s growing uppppp noooooooooooo

Virtues of the Villainess - ginger is hilarious. i dont see where the plot is going tho... and cant say i like the ML yet. i dont even get to see him much, hello?!

The Justice of Villainous Woman - pretty wholesome... i like the MC! (the ML is fine. no one else to contend with so...) can u end already?! lol.

Amina of the Lamp - hey, what happened to this? it’s pretty inconsistent but i do like the MC and ML... and the art...

The Villain's Savior - this is some sadistic shit. i reserve it for when i feel sadistic. i pretty much wanna see MC happy but idk if she’s making the right choices. :/

I Don't Want to Be Empress! - HAHAHAHA uhm it’s getting interesting. i just want ML to step up more... 

La dolce vita di Adelaide - I FINISHED THIS! and it’s wholesome, feel-good and cute. some parts felt a lil extra but ah whatever.

The Black Haired Princess - plot. move. faster!!! otherwise the MC and ML are pretty cute.

The Abandoned Empress - im a lil on the fence but i know how popular this series is. it started out HORRIBLE. i hated the ML so much. and then i found the green hair boy creepy. like MC, you need better taste in boys. it’s certainly getting more interesting now though. so please, continue to make my money’s worth!!!

Lucia - i. am. not. guilty. of. anything. *smut warning* anyway go read the novel. it’s better. hehehe.

What's Wrong with Secretary Kim - i do not need to elaborate any further. 

Past loves 

I created this section just to remind myself, that what i could like one day, i could hate the next LOL.

The Monster Duchess and Contract Princess - I know this is wildly popular. but i lost interest in it once she grew up. i dont think she’s particularly lovable. soz.

Survive as the Hero's Wife - another popular choice. I find the plot kinda boring now. MC and ML are cute though. 

Sincerely: I Became a Duke's Maid - another popular one. again, boring plot. like cant it end yet? oh you mean we need to wait for the real female lead to show up? dont need luh.

I Am a Child of This House - wow. the plot is shit now. and i do not support the MC and her guard. soz. she’s OVERPOWERED tbh. 

This Is an Obvious Fraudulent Marriage - idk what happened but my enthusiasm for this died.

Charlotte and Her 5 Disciples - i don’t get it. i dont get their obsession for her. 

[marsmoonqueen]

I would die for and with you

WinterSoldier!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Warning: Bucky being mean in the beginning, and I think thats all.

Prompt / Summary: Red helps Winter discover who he really is.

Note: It starts a little angsty.  Also, this is the third part of “Red” and “ I could take you anywhere you want”. But you dont have to read those to understand this one.

“What the hell is wrong with you?!” Her scream was the first thing he heard as he entered the apartment. He ignored her, hoping she would drop the matter. “Oh, no. Oh, sir no!” She said as ran from her spot, in the sofa, to him, taking his metal arm with both hands. “You cannot do this! You can’t walk away in the middle of the night, not comeback for an entire day until morning and then ignore me!” With an abrupt but calculated move, he shacked his arm from her grip.

         The young man who had rescued her months before looked at her, dead in the eye, and went straight to her room. Initially, he slept in the guest’s room but given the fact that he had nightmares every night and she helped him come back to real life, they had started to sleep together some weeks ago.

         “Winter don’t do this to me man! Open the door!” She yelled when she realized he has locked it. “Look, I know our research has not gone the way we wanted but-”

         “Go away (y/n), this is not about that” He didn’t need to yell to make a statement.

         “(y/n)? So, I am not Red anymore?” Not a word. “I am asking you nothing more than to tell me when you go out! You can’t just walk out, research purposes or not, and expect me not to be worried”

         “Why do you care?” His voice sounded rougher this time.

         “Why-? Why do I care? Why do I care?!” (y/n) screamed indignant. “Because you are my bloody friend! That’s what friend do, we worry and care for each other! You would feel the same if I did what you do… you would care if I was gone” The young woman didn’t yell her last sentence, suddenly too tired, maybe it was acknowledging the fact that she cared what drained her in the moment; instead, she let herself slip off to the floor, her back touching the door.

         “No” His response came after a minute of silence.

         “No what?” She had her head between her arms, that were resting on her knees.

         “I wouldn’t”

         “You wouldn’t what boy? Speak clearly” (y/n) asked, now irritated, resting her head against the door.

         In a swift move the door was open, and with her back in the floor she saw those blue eyes she liked above her. “I wouldn’t care. I wouldn’t care if you were gone”. She didn’t know how to react. Her heart stopped. Dead silence in the room. She sat on the floor and crawled close to her room’s exit.

         “That’s not true” She whispered, again.

         “Yes, it is, now… be gone” And with that last words Winter, her friend, closed the door in her face, and locked it again.

         “Very well…”

After her last words (y/n), confused and heartbroken, took her backpack, a bottle of water and left the building. She decided that a walk was what she needed, but to where… she didn’t know.

         Her feet took her to the nearest park, first. She spent good four hours thinking, watching her shoes, the kids, the animals, anything. But everything reminded her of him, and the probability of him not being there when she came back home. In the park, she noticed a kind of parade, it was a commemoration to every war that was fought in the planet.

        War.

        She was on a war with herself at the moment, how accurate. To pass the time, she decided to investigate. Different countries, different wars, different motives. Independence, revolution… everything seemed the same for her at that moment though.

        (y/n) was about to go to a café or something when she heard a group of girls gush about something.

        “Oh, good lord! He was super handsome!” One of them said, holding a pamphlet against her chest. Her and her friends were in front of a large column that had ‘world war II’ in red, and below it ‘USA heroes’, there were other columns of the same war but with the different countries´ ‘heroes’.

        At one of her history classes, (y/n) had hear that there was a WW2 soldier that looked vaguely like Harry Styles, so following her curiosity, she decided to investigate. She went from Germany to Mexico, looking for her favorite singer’s doppelgänges. Sadly, she found nothing of the sort. But after two hours and a half, she came to stand in front of the column where the girls were before, and hoping they were gushing about someone with green eyes and curly hair, she gave a look to the column.

        Soon, she found the man the girls were blushing about, and went speechless. There, in front of her, were the answers of all her questions, of all Winter’s questions. In front of her, was a picture of a young handsome sergeant, with beautiful blue eyes, short brown hair and a boyish grin.

        “He was a handsome one, wasn’t he?” An old lady surprised her. (y/n) turner to her. She looked like a teacher, and had a pretty green dress and a lovely smile.

        “Yeah, very handsome” She said, but the old lady’s eyes weren’t on her any longer.

        “A great man, also. He lived and died for his best friend; you know?”

        “No, not really, I am not familiarized with his story” (y/n) kept her eyes on her.

        “Oh really?” She gazed at her with disappointment “Quite a popular this one, at least in the states; by the look in your eyes I would have thought that you knew his story”

        “Why? Why is he so famous I mean?” Instead of answering her question, the old woman pointed with her jaw at some pamphlet on a table. “Thank you” (y/n)’s voice was a little painted with sarcasm. On the table were a lot of pamphlets from the different soldiers, but guided by his eyes (y/n) found his easily.

        “The kids did a great job with his and captain’s research” The woman said, giving a last look to the column and walking away.

        “Captain’s? What captain?” But the old lady got closer to a bunch of college kids and started talking with them.

 (y/n) wasted no more time and started to read every single detail of the paper, it was long, but after finishing it, she realized that the captain’s, was probably longer. There was an excitement around her, and she laughed sterically. All the answers she was looking for were there, in front of her.

         “Winter” she whispered and looked to the sky. It was late, pretty, pretty late, so she did the first rational thing that came in mind. She ran.

         She ran to her apartment excited to share her discoveries with her friend. She passed trees, dogs, nearly crashed into people; she heard the sky roar, a storm was coming, but she couldn’t seem to care. She had to catch him. She was praying that he was there, still there.

        At this point it didn’t matter that he didn’t want to see her. It didn’t matter if he was gone after that. What mattered was the information she had about him. He had to know, he deserved to know. Twenty minutes later, she saw her building, many of her neighbors’ lights were off. But her flat’s wasn’t. They were all on, and there was a figure standing in the window, looking for something. Looking for her. She ran faster as the rain started to pour on her.

        The receptionist gave her the dirtiest glare when he saw her running in his halls, but she didn’t care, she took the stair to the 4th floor, and nearly tacked her door. Inside, Winter was ready to jump at whoever came in with such force, but she was quicker and ran to him, crashing with the sofa in her way.

         Winter’s arms cached her, before she could hit the floor.

         “Red! Are you alright? Is someone following you?” He asked, worried. (y/n) contemplated him for a second. He had a black tank top and lose joggers, his hair fell around his face; there were scars in his right arm and his left was metal, but without a doubt he was the man from that photo. “Hey, hey, what is it doll? You are freezing” He whispered, moving her hair from her face, and tucking her closer to him in a try to keep her warm.

         “I know who you are… James” she whispered, their foreheads touching.

         “What?” His voice came out broken.

         “Look at this young man… does he look familiar to you?” (y/n) took the paper out of her pants pocket and gave it to him. James’ eyes filled with tears.

         “James Buchanan “Bucky” Barnes… Bucky, Bucky!” His eyes lighted up “That’s how that man called me! The blonde! Bucky!” James was excited

         “That should be Steve Rogers, Captain America” (y/n)’s excitement matched his. They looked at each other and laughed loud, and after a few seconds, Bucky made their foreheads touch again. Bucky’s smile fell.

         “I’m sorry about this afternoon Red, I-” (y/n) interrupted him.

         “Don’t worry, I know how your nightmares make you behave sometimes” Bucky blushed, ashamed. “I won’t say I told you, but I would like to hear you say it…Bucky”

         “Say what? That I would worry?” Bucky asked unsure, his friend nodded embarrassed; he took her face between his hands “I worried today when after a while I came out of our room and you weren’t here; I worried because I thought you wouldn’t come back; and when I saw you running as if your life depended on it, I worried even more, because I care about you, because you are my fucking best friend and I would die for and with you”. He said they were friends, but their lips were touching.

         (y/n) swallowed, and looking at him in the eye said: “You are my bloody best friend and I would die for and with you”. Bucky smiled and hugged his friend, and they stayed like that, wet an all, until the sun shined through their window.

@jessyballet​