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dracaelus · 2 years ago
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"I know how you love your promises"
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Batman: The Knight #6 by Chip Zdarsky, art by Carmine Di Giandomenico // Batman (2016) #106 and #116 by James Tynion IV, art by Jorge Jimenez // Batman Incorporated #5 by Ed Brisson, art by John Timms
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peachywrite · 4 years ago
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Unpleasant Pleasantries
Rohan Kishibe x JosukeSister!Reader
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Trigger Warning: inappropriate stand use, mild suggestive themes
Rohan thought this to be the perfect opportunity to get back at that imbecile with the hair of a 60’s delinquent, but instead found something more fulfilling than revenge.
It was your first time meeting the famous mangaka, but Koichi insisted that you introduce yourself to the newly found stand user as a formality.
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“It’s better to make friends than enemies, y/n! So please do this for me.” He begged, clasping his hands tightly together as he bowed.
“Koichi-chan, he ripped out pages from your face and tried to do the same to Okuyasu and Josuke. I don’t know if I trust this guy.” You sighed, nervous and even a little scared.
“It’ll be fine, when you tell him you’re related to Josuke, he won’t even think about trying anything!” Koichi’s eyes glistened, still silently begging you to go.
“Fine, but if I don’t show up back home in an hour, call Josuke please.” Koichi nodded enthusiastically, shouting thank yous while he ran off to find your brother.
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Thanks to the written address Koichi had given you, it was easy to find the large Victorian mansion that belonged to the isolated artist.
“Come on, y/n. You can do this. Just a quick hello and you’re done.” You tried to psych yourself up, taking one last deep breath before approaching the walkway that led up to the door.
Knock Knock
You waited, your heart rate a bit too quick for your liking.
You could hear the steps on the other side slowly approaching and suddenly stopping, only to find the door creak by.
“Now who would be disrupting the Great Rohan Kishibe?” The man spoke in a sinister tone, swinging the door open.
Rohan Kishibe looked nothing like how you expected him to. He was built slim but still toned, his green hair neatly styled and face slim and sharp with a cute dolphin bandage placed on the bridge of his nose. His green eyes stared at you intently, as if he was trying to analyze your face as well.
“I-I’m really sorry I didn’t mean to cause you any trouble. My friend Koichi wanted me to introduce myself. I’m Y/N Higashikata. I’m a stand user and I go to school with the rest of the boys.” You stammer out, guilt hitting you for interrupting the presumably busy manga artist.
The man eyed you with a devilish smirk, clapping his hands together like he had discovered something amusing.
“You’re Josuke’s little sister! Oh how fun! You know, you’re too cute to be related to that boy. Now please come in, I’ll make you some tea and we can talk.”
“I’m actually the same age as him, and I’d love to join you but I got... study plans with K-Koichi!” You tried to avoid his stare but as he made eye contact, you knew you had lost.
“Nonsense! I’ll give him a call and let him know you’ll be studying with me, now please come in already.” His smile grew while he pulled you into his abode by your wrists.
The house was lightly decorated with manga related memorabilia on the wood carved shelves and many original panels from famous mangas hung framed on the soft toned walls, but the home still held a grand Victorian feeling to it.
Your original unease disappeared as you took in the grandeur of the mansion and the interesting items that adorned it so carefully. Rohan smirked at the curiosity in your eyes and the quick movements they made while you focused on specific areas of his home.
“Would you like a personal tour of the property before we study? I will warn you though, not all the rooms have been styled by yours truly yet. It’s a work in progress at the moment.” The smile he bared had you suspicious again, but you didn’t want to be rude to the owner of such a magnificent estate.
“As much as I would love to, your home is absolutely stunning, I sadly only have an hour to study. My mom would kill me if I got home late again.” A hefty sigh escaped your lips and you gave him your best upset expression you could muster.
You hoped he wouldn’t key in on your lying, remembering the warning Koichi had given you about his ability to discern genuine emotions from fake ones.
The mangaka squinted his eyes for a moment, causing your heartbeat to speed up substantially, but his face returned to its usual smile that you swore held a bit of deviousness underneath.
“Oh! it’s alright, dear. I understand. I’ll save it for your next visit. Let’s get to your work now, follow me to the kitchen. I’ll prepare us something and you can take a seat by the window.” He gently took your hand, guiding you to the kitchen and carefully pulling out a seat for you at his dining room table.
A beautiful bouquet set in a hand sculpted vase caught your interest on the table as Rohan busied himself with brewing a fresh pot of tea. The flowers were bright in color compared to the muted ones of the vase, but the contrast made both appear unique and appealing to the eye.
“I see you even appreciate the smaller details of a home. Though I am a mangaka, I do dabble in other forms of artistic expression. Take pottery for example, I glazed this vase in a muted color pallet so it could stand out on its own when beautifully bright flowers were placed in it. The two compliment each other nicely, don’t they?” He set down two tea cups and began to pour.
“Yes! And I especially love the bright purples in the lillies you picked here.” You gently touched a petal, Rohan now lightly tapping his cheek, pulling out a chair for himself to sit right beside you.
His closeness and unwavering gaze brought a heaviness to your chest, making you stumble over your words.
“Um-m thank you for treating me so well and letting me study in your home, Rohan-sensei.” You began to unpack your notes and textbook, Rohan scooting closer to analyze what you had written.
“No need to thank me, my dear. Now let’s get to your studies. What is it you need to work on today?” The smile he shares with you is comforting, but you can’t help but feel like he was plotting something.
You set your pencil bag down and prepare your notebook, trying to make yourself busy by setting up.
“Biology. I’ve only just recently started going to school in person, but I tested well enough to be placed in the highest class. Today we’re supposed to label all the organs in this frog drawing.” Your tone comes off as annoyed and Rohan picks up on it, tilting his head to the side while he reads your frog diagram.
“You aren’t a fan of biology? I’ve got a few anatomy sketches of animals you could use instead of this photocopied worksheet. Maybe that will help peak your interest?” He stands and saunters out to find his sketches, leaving you alone in the kitchen.
When Rohan returns, the two of you work on your Biology homework for about an hour, finishing the entire pot of tea in the process. You found out that Rohan was quite skilled at anatomy, having an entire sketchbook dedicated to the anatomy of many living things, including the likes of frogs and flowers. He was extremely helpful and fun to talk with.
As you packed up your bag, Rohan remained seated in his chair, playing with one of the lilies from the bouquet. You weren’t sure if you should head towards the door and leave Rohan or wait for him to stand and lead you out. You were about to speak when the mangaka interrupted with a swish of his pen in your direction.
“Heaven’s Door.”
You felt a sharp shove of air to your midsection, sending you onto the floor. Every movement you attempted was futile as the grinning artist looked down at you. A deep chuckle haunted you while he leaned in closer to your face. His hands gently caressed your cheek, opening it up like a book.
“I’m sorry, y/n. You’re interesting and I’d love to learn more about you, but I’m impatient. It’ll be far easier for me to just read you. Don’t fret, my dear. I’ll make sure you don’t remember this.” He flipped through your pages, ignoring the tears that ran down onto the very paper he was trying to read.
“Now let’s just read the juicy bits today. You were hospitalized along with your brother when you were only four, a strange parasite made up of Dio’s cells attacked your immune system at age twelve and had you bedridden until fairly recently.” The curiosity he held for your story excited him, the pen he held in one hand quickly wrote onto the notepad he placed on the floor beside your head.
You felt like sinking into yourself, ignoring his quips and teases as the embarrassment of the mangaka reading your thoughts and feelings enveloped you. It wasn’t fair. Why did he have to be this way? He was so kind before and just like a flick of a switch, he changed.
“Oh, now how did you escape that? Here we are, thanks to Mr.Joestar’s Hamon lessons, you not only came back from your illness, but gained a proper stand and the ability to wield Hamon just like your father and great grandfather! Wait, what’s this new paragraph about?” He squinted closely, reading your page out loud again.
“I have to visit Rohan Kishibe today because Koichi told me to. He practically begged. Even though I’m scared, Koichi gave me his word that nothing bad would happen. Rohan Kishibe looks very different from what I imagined a mangaka to look. Well, what did you expect me to look like?” His smirk grows as he continues on.
“Ah, another new bit is here! Rohan Kishibe is very good at anatomy, he’s been kind and helpful, I’d like to get to know him better. I think Josuke was just overreacting when he called Rohan Kishibe pure evil. I could see us being friends.”
His smile disappears skimming the next sentence, his usual tone of voice changed as he starts to read. He sounded upset, hurt even.
You were the one being wronged here! Why would he get upset? He doesn’t have the right.
“Josuke was right. Rohan Kishibe is not nice, he is terribly mean. He’s using me for his entertainment. He doesn’t care. Rohan Kishibe is not kind, he is not helpful, he is cruel, I don’t want to get to know him. I want to forget him.”
“I hate Rohan Kishibe. I hope to never see him again.”
Rohan paused, looking away from your pages, trying to focus on anything else for the moment.
“W-well, I’ll just fix this last paragraph and erase it from your mind. You’re being dramatic, I’m not as terrible as you describe me.” Chuckling to himself, he tries to laugh off his obvious pain and attempts to regain his composure.
“No! I won’t let you erase my emotions!” You shouted, a wave of Hamon spreading through his arm as his pen touched your page, his attempt to rewrite your memory foiled.
The mangaka was sent flying back, his right arm dropping the pen and your face finally shutting closed, returning your ability to move. Although you were upset at the betrayal of trust you gave the man, you felt a twinge of guilt in your heart when you spotted his still form draped across the wood floor, cradling the arm you had burned with your Hamon.
Running to his side, all thoughts of malice left your body while you attempted to get a better look at his injury. His arm was still intact thankfully, but it was badly burned and needed to be set correctly and quickly if he ever wanted it to heal properly. You took a deep breath and turned Rohan over to see if he was still conscious.
“Oh god, Rohan I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened.” Your eyes fill with tears again as you see the artist weakly rest himself against the wall, still holding his arm close to his chest.
“No, no it’s alright. I brought this on myself. I accept that.” He grimaced, trying to take a peek at his injuries but too frightened to actually check.
“You read my thoughts and history, it wasn’t right but you didn’t physically hurt me. I don’t know how that happened, but I promise you I’ll fix it.” You swore to the manga writer, now searching through your backpack.
When you found your pair of scissors, you went into full first aid mode, removing the sleeve from his right arm by carefully cutting the loose cloth off. After tossing the short sleeve to the side, you cut the bottom of the skirt you were wearing off into a long bandage-like shape of clothing and ran it under the cold tap water from the kitchen sink, returning to the injured Rohan.
“I’m going to wrap your arm with this, it won’t be painful if you let me use my stand, but I’m going to ask you first before I use her on you.” The man nodded, accepting your offer to erase the pain.
“Under Pressure. She’s a stand that has the ability to manipulate emotions. She can change them within a radius or focus on only one individual. When she focuses on a single person, she is only able to change their emotion to the opposite of what is being felt.” You began to wrap his arm, nervous about what he might feel when you placed the wet fabric loosely around it.
All Rohan could do was bite back his lip to avoid making any embarrassing sounds. Instead of the immeasurable pain he imagined to come with dressing a freshly burned wound, he felt a wave of euphoria. He now understood what you meant by the “opposite” emotion would be felt.
The artist never knew wrapping his burned arm would feel so good, every touch caused his breath to hitch in his throat and his eyes to water. It confused him, even though he understood that the opposite of pain was pleasure, it still startled him every time you did one more pass of the homemade bandage.
He tried his hardest not to be flustered, but when you finished off his arm by tieing the last bit with a knot, he let a small whimper escape his lips. His hand shot up to cover his face, it’s hue now a bright crimson.
Your cheeks turned bright pink as well. You turned away swiftly, to avoid eye contact.
“U-Um just stay put. I’m gonna borrow your phone for a second and let you catch your breath.” Scratching the side of your cheek, you stand up and make a b-line for the phone, dialing your home and hoping that Josuke would pick up. You glanced at the clock set on the wall, it read 8:15.
I’m late.
As soon as the phone line rang once, you spotted the front door to Rohan’s manor fly across the main hall. Peeking your head out from the kitchen, you see a furious Josuke with Koichi in pursuit.
“ROHAN-SENSEI! WHERE IS MY SISTER YOU CREEP?! SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE HOME 15 MINUTES AGO!” He yells out, his voice echoing throughout the home.
“Josuke! I’m here! I was just about to call you. Listen, I messed up bad and hurt Rohan. He’s in the kitchen bandaged up but I need you to heal him all the way.” You run to Josuke, giving him a tight hug while trying not to cry from the stress of the situation.
Josuke squeezes you once and let’s you go, looking you over from head to toe so he could make sure you weren’t injured as well. When he spots your torn skirt, his aura radiates a dark malice you’d never seen him show before.
“Wait Josuke! I did this to myself, we didn’t have bandages so I cut some cloth.”
He looks you over again and sighs heavily, the purple hue that was full of rage, leaving him.
“Ok, fine. Where’s that jerk? I’ll fix him up real quick so we can go home.” He grumbled, following you into the kitchen.
Even though Rohan wanted to refuse any treatment from Josuke, he finally accepted the help when you threatened to cry on the spot. His arm had returned to its previous state, unburned and fully functional, thanks to Josuke and Shining Diamond.
Josuke picked up your backpack and held the now fixed front door open for you, while Rohan stood and waved goodbye. You awkwardly returned the wave and made your way back home, your thoughts chaotic and confused.
On the one hand you felt guilty for putting Rohan through such an immense amount of pain, but you were also upset at the humiliation he put you through by reading your life with Heaven’s Door. These thoughts plagued your mind as you laid your head to rest for the night.
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It was roughly two in the afternoon when Rohan Kishibe knocked on your front door. A short but older woman answered, complaining about the loudness of the knocks when she looked over the artist.
“Oh, my apologies. You’re that Rohan Kishibe my kids talk about. How may I help you, Mr. Kishibe?” She asked with a warm tone to her voice, leaning against her door frame and smiling up at him.
“Is y/n in? I’d like to deliver this to her personally.” He spoke softly, shaking the box he held in his hands.
Your mother couldn’t help but chuckle to herself. He appeared to be anxious and uncomfortable, most likely it was his first time gifting something like this.
“She’s not home yet, but give her five minutes. Why don’t you come in? You can wait for her up in her room, just don’t go raiding her drawers or anything.” She joked, Rohan’s cheeks turning vivid scarlet.
“I’m only pulling your leg, sweety. I know you’re better than that. Now come on! Have a seat at her desk and I’ll bring you up some lemonade.” Rohan followed her inside.
When they reached your room, Mrs.Higashikata opened the door and waved her hand to your desk seat.
“Pull up that chair there and I’ll be back with some refreshments.” Her smile gleamed at him. She walked off to the kitchen, leaving the artist alone in your room.
Rohan browsed around your room, taking in the personality that was apparent by the many bits of decor that gave your little private space a peculiar style. Your walls held photos printed on Polaroid film, sketches presumably drawn by you, and posters of your favorite video games and shows.
When he glanced around your room, he was immediately caught off guard when he spotted two volumes of his very own manga, propped up and on display in your bookcase. To say he was flattered was an understatement, he was completely floored. You were a fan of his?
His heart was heavy all of a sudden, he felt a dreadful pain in his chest while he held the book in his hands. He turned his head toward the doorway when he heard your voice greet your mother. To regain himself, he quickly skimmed through the pages of the manga he was holding, hearing your distant conversation come to an end.
You entered the room. Dropping your bag at the corner of the closet, your eyes never leaving Rohan while you take a seat on your bed. The mangaka gently placed your copy of Pink Dark Boy back in its original position, turning around now to face you.
“I’d like to humbly apologize for my abhorrent behavior and actions yesterday. I was terrible. I know it might be asking too much of you, but I brought you this as a peace offering. I want us to start over. I’d like to get to know you the right way.” He passes you the box he was carrying with him, nudging you to open it.
Casually unknotting the bow and removing the lid from the bottom, you slowly lift what appears to be a white sundress out of the box. It was beautifully made and looked to be just your size.
“I know it’s not the skirt you tore, but I felt like you deserved something a little more unique.” He averts your gaze quickly when you attempt to gauge his reaction.
The mangaka appears to be flustered, apparently not very used to apologizing. His eyes held a fear of rejection but also a glimmer of hope. A breath you never knew you were holding was released with a quiet hum.
“It’s beautiful, thank you, but do know that buying me things isn’t going to repair my trust in you. We can at the very least start over though.”
Rohan smiled to himself, thankful for your empathetic nature, and nodded a quick yes.
“Now that the pleasantries are out of the way, how about we take that dress and enjoy some tea at the cafe? My treat.”
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river-bottom-nightmare · 4 years ago
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“You need a new superhero name.” 
Damian brought it up unexpectedly, eyes still trained on the security camera he was dismantling. 
“What?” Jon was sifting through the footage, using superspeed to catch every little detail of last night, but at Damian’s voice, he paused the recording and looked up.
Damian was still digging inside the camera, having removed the back panel and a good chunk of wires, and was now sifting through the piece of tech with a pair of tweezers. Nonetheless, he continued the conversation. “A name. You’re not going to be Superboy forever, are you?”
“Um,” Jon could honestly say he’d never thought about it. He’d always been Superboy, ever since he could remember. He wasn’t one to place much thought into birthrights or heritage, not like Damian, but he also wasn’t overlooking the fact that his father was Superman. What exactly did that make him? Superboy was the obvious answer. “I don’t think I can be anything else, Damian.”
“You have an older brother who also goes by Superboy.”
Jon shrugged. “We share.”
“Still. You’re graduating high school in just a few months, Jon. Though it’s surprising to say, you’ve outgrown the title.”
Jon’s lips instantly turned upward in a smirk. “I’ve outgrown the title, huh?”
At that, Damian turned to glare at him. Pointing a finger, he said, “I will taze you. Shut up.”
“Whatever you say, short stack.” Jon chuckled at Damian’s little growl. “But honestly, what else am I supposed to be? Everyone knows me as ‘Superman’s Son.’ I mean, Dad’s name is so big in the League, I don’t think I’ll ever separate myself from it.” And if he was honest, Jon didn’t know if he wanted to separate himself from it.
Damian hummed. “Not true. Look at Richard.”
“Dick? What about him?”
“Well,” Damian paused to move the tweezers to his other hand, “Richard started out as the first child hero, working under Batman. And unlike the other early proteges, he didn’t simply work as his mentor’s sidekick. He created his own legacy. And then he became Nightwing.”
“But Nightwing was already a thing,” Jon pointed out. “It’s a Kryptonian legend.”
“Yes, but there hasn’t actually been a Nightwing, has there? Even if there was one on Krypton, Richard was the first Nightwing on Earth. You wouldn’t call him a sidekick, would you?”
“What, no!” Jon’s reaction was immediate. “Nightwing’s, like, one of the most well-known guys out there. Literally everyone knows him, and literally everyone trusts him. He’s not a sidekick.”
Damian turned to smile at him. “Some would say he was. Do you understand my point?”
Jon pouted, took a deep breath and let it out. “Yeah. Yeah, I think so. I don’t know, I’m not even sure how to go about doing that.”
“Well, to start off, find a new name.” Damian hunched over the camera even more, suddenly focusing in on something.
“I guess so. You got any ideas?” At Damian’s lack of response, Jon asked again, “Damian?”
Damian straightened, holding up the tweezers. Clasped tightly between the tongs was a miniscule data chip. “Here’s the footage we’re looking for.”
Jon stared at him, eyes wide. “How did you even know that was there?”
Damian shrugged. “Simple matter of deductive reasoning.”
“Tim told you, didn’t he.”
A pause. Then, “Drake may have mentioned a while back that a certain trafficking ring was hiding the data chips inside the cameras, and that others were catching on to the trick. I simply tested out his theory.” Damian looked physically pained, and Jon laughed.
“Cool. Put it in, I’ll look through the footage.”
Damian handed the chip over, then laced his his fingers together, put his arms above his head to stretch. Jon, still holding the chip, stared at the line of Damian’s muscles. When Damian quirked an eyebrow, Jon quickly cleared his throat and took the old data chip out of the computer, replacing it with the new one. “So, any ideas?”
“For your name? A couple,” Damian said. “Of course, you need to have an idea for what you’re thinking of.”
Jon nodded absently, pressing rewind on the footage. “I’m not sure if I want to separate from the Super name entirely, though.”
“You don’t want to, or are you scared to?”
Jon snorted. “You probably know the answer to that better than I do. I think I got a name, it’s on the side of the truck.” He zoomed into the footage. “Yeah, it looks we were right. The pharmaceutical company’s related somehow. There’s that stupid gremlin looking thing again.’
“The griffin?” Damian asked, peering over his shoulder. He made a contemplative noise, brows furrowed
“Is that what that thing’s called? Looks like a half drowned bird.”
Damian laughed, and batted Jon’s hands aside. “That’s not what an actual griffin looks like. Here.” He pulled up a couple pictures on his phone.
Jon swiped through a couple pictures, eyebrows raised. “Yeah, those are a lot more impressive. What are they though?”
“Mythological creatures from a variety of different places. They have the body of a lion and the wings and head of an eagle. They’re quite majestic.”
Jon squinted his eyes at him. “You’re implying something. I know you’re implying something.”
In response, Damian nodded his head towards the phone.
“What?” Jon asked.
“Griffin! It’s a perfect name.”
Jon raised his eyebrows skeptically. “Oh yeah. Because I’m part cat and part bird. Perfect analogy.”
Damian slapped his hand lightly. “No, you moron. It doesn’t have anything to do with the eagle or the lion.”
“Then?”
“Your dual heritage.” At Jon’s uncomprehensive look, Damian sighed. “You’re half-Kryptonian, half-human. And it shows. When you fight, you’re fierce and unafraid, much like your father. At the same time, though, you’re endlessly curious and inquisitive, like your mother. God knows I’ve been on the end of that far too often.”
“Oh. That, huh. That actually makes sense.”
Damian shrugged. “I’m just saying. It would be a good homage to your roots, and you’re honoring your parents, without being too overt.”
Jon looked down at the phone again. The lion part was strong, muscled, steady. The bird’s head was curved and fierce, wings spread majestically.
 “Griffin. You know what? I kinda like it.”
OKAY SO THIS WASN’T ACTUALLY MY IDEA i read a damijon fic a while back on ao3 where the author had jon’s name as griffin and i thought that was so so cool so i wrote a thing and i tried to find it again to give them credit but i couldn’t find it!!! so if anyone knows the fic i’m talking about, or if you yourself wrote the fic, please let me know so i can link you in the thing. it really was an incredible idea.
tag list: @comicsandhoney @birdy-bat-writes @elles-shitposts-personified @subtleappreciation @yesboopityboop @dangerduckjpeg @astroherogirl
and i know you’re not actually on my tag list so sorry for bothering you with this but @iamwhelmed i thought you would appreciate this
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nomoregoldfish · 5 years ago
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Imagine Pacho Sends You as a Gift to (Spy on) Amado 3/3
More smut (but I’m really bad at writing it, :////). Plot twist guaranteed. And I can’t believe I wrote 6K for this, FML. What has Chema done to me? I also made a few changes in the first two parts, read the whole thing on AO3.
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You are woken by a phone call in the middle of the night. But you neither move nor open your eyes. You hear some numbers, Amado sounds irritated. It could be something related to tonight's dinner?
Your patience is wore out minutes after minute and Amado still hasn't returned to bed. You make a bold decision to wake up, and the Mexican is smoking by the window. Something keeps him up at night? That doesn't sound like the Lord of the Skies, the man who has had the world at his feet.
"You wanna talk, more sex or a bath?" You carefully propose.
"I was expecting for late night snacks you pull with some Asian witch shit." Amado lets you sit on his lap. "Hang on, I've got some leftovers from the kitchen."
You two settle for sharing the jacarandas mochi from a small food container in the bathtub.
"You like it?" You don't really need validation from Amado. It's just you spent hours coming up with the idea of improvisation, trying to make a traditional Japanese dessert more appealing to the Mexican guests. "I made the bean paste from scratch, less sugar. I understand most Mexicans are not used to sweet bean paste..."
"They don't deserve it." Amado suddenly claims. You don't get it. Who are they? "They are just a bunch of pigs in expensive suits, corrupted, stinky pieces of shit." Then Amado tells you almost everything. He invited the tequila exporters with the hope that the cartel could use their affiliate companies in the States as front to launder more drug money since tequila is one of the largest yet least regulated businesses between the US and Mexico. And the politicians are officials from Mexican Customs Bureau and SHCP.
"Fucking idiots. They thought I was gonna ask them to smuggle coke under the tequila crates. With all the fucking Pier 1 sofa and Ford pasenger seat manufacturers in Juárez, I've had more than enough trucks to move products across the border." When Amado brought up money laundering, the tequila exporters expressed concern regarding possible investigation of tax evasion from ATF, putting more pressure on Amado to increase their cut.
They eventually made a deal less favorable to the cartel and that's why Amado's a bit pissed when he's on the phone.
"Why are you telling me this?" For the first time that night, you ask softly.
"Those cabrón. They don't deserve what you bring to the table. You pour your heart and soul, making the best feast I've ever had. You deserve to know what happened." 
You've never thought you'd hear that from Amado. He didn't have to tell you anything. It makes you lower your guard. You want to get closer to him, without any agenda.
"Does this mean my body won't be put in the trunk of one of your auto collections tomorrow?" You try to lighten it up.
Amado kisses you from behind. The position is awkward but neither of you care. 
Making out with Amado in the bathtub makes the night better than your wettest dream. 
The Mexican's gonna make you cum again with those magician hands of his.
"You...haven't told me if you like the jacarandas mochi." You're so screwed. Maybe you'll never get the answer because Amado's too busy sucking you tits.
Amado clears his schedule the next day. He brings you to the Asian boutique where he bought the Japanese painting.
"One of my guys found this place. I thought you might be interested..." That's cute from a drug lord. But you're not that kind of person.
"A) I don't need a Buddha artifact home to find my inner peace, and B) only Pacho wears shirts with Chinese characters taken from a poem back in the Tang Dynasty. Seriously, he's ridiculous. Come on, let's go."
Instead, you two spend the day trying different Asian food you can find in DF. From hotpot to Peking roasted duck, from pho to char kway teow. Amado seems to enjoy the Chinese food more than others.
"Most Asian restaurants in North America are run by the Chinese, from San Francisco to DF. Since you guys can't tell if an Asian cook is from China, Japan, Vietnam or Thailand, he or she would quickly learn dishes from other Asian countries. We are always the most hardworking people." You explain to him.
"Oh, I love hardworking people." He's so full of shit but you can't help smiling. 
Amado finds a fortune cookie note saying "Happy New Year of Monkey." Then you explain Monkey is one of the Chinese zodiac signs which repeat every 12 years. 
"So 1956...I am a monkey? Cool." He's surprisingly quick with math.
You write the Chinese character of monkey on a napkin and Amado seems fascinated by it. So you suggest that he could get the Chinese character tattooed, "Next time you can show that to Pacho. He probably would get one, too."
Holy shit, he's really doing it. 
The way the tattoo parole Amado brings you to is cleared makes you believe it's part of the cartel business, which makes perfect sense. 
"You don't have any tattoos? Not at all?" You're surprised when the tattoo artist prepares Amado's skin on his forearm, first cleaning then shaving.
"We've fucked three times, once in a bathtub," Amado grins, obviously in a good mood, "Don't you think it's a bit late to ask? Or I fucked you too hard you didn't notice?"
Thank God the tattoo artist doesn't even flinch.
OK, you have to get back at the fucker. So when the tattoo artist asks you for the character to make a design, you write pig in Chinese instead of monkey.
"Hold on, that doesn't look like what you wrote on the napkin. Let me see it." Right after the tattoo artist places an outline of the design on his skin, the Mexican stops him.
You're 100% sure Amado doesn't speak or write Chinese. How the fuck does he figure it out?
"What is it exactly? Tell me the truth or you will have an honest conversation with my brother." Amado makes the threat more scary by pointing at Vicente, who stands next to the door with two guns and a pink lollipop. 
"Wait. He doesn't know shit. It was me...I wrote a different character." Your confession is quick, you don't want to see anyone get hurt over this beef.
You thought it's just a silly prank. Now you realize you're dealing with the most notorious narcos of the country. Amado may look like a businessman, reasonable, even decent. He's still capable of getting violent whenever he thinks it is necessary, to an extent you really don't want to know.
You take a deep breath, then apologize to Amado. You are ready for the consequence. 
"Apology accepted. On one condition, you'll have the exact same tattoo as I do when the new design is done." Fair enough.
But you're a chef who often needs to cook right in front of customers. You can't let them see a tattoo on your forearm. 
"How about here?" The Mexican is touching your breast as if no one's around.
It's a small tattoo, just one character. But it's near your heart and you're sensitive as fuck.
You can't move but your nipples are hard almost through the entire process. Amado's right beside you and he sees everything. Someone please help you ease the pain FFS.
The fucker doesn't act on it until you get into the car. Amado shuts the soundproof panel between the front and rear seats and the next thing you know, you're riding the man who just makes you get a stupid matching tattoo. It fucking stings, and itchy. Yet the pleasure is undeniable when your tits being teased, bit, sucked. Amado carefully avoids the tattoo, which makes you want him to scratch the itch even more. You scream his name when you cum with both extreme pleasure and pain.
Amado puts an arm around you when it's over. Two matching tattoos are right next to one another. Your heart is still beating fast from the afterglow, echoing his pulse.
You feel the caress on your beast, it hurts a bit yet the body warmth is nice. Is it how it feels to be marked by someone else? Not many people will ever see it, plus it's not a specific name or symbol that would embarrass you later. It'd be a secret.
"You know what? You won't be able to find a dead body to stand in for you when you eventually betray me, sweetheart. No one else would get a tattoo like this." 
What Amado just says feels like a kick in the stomach. It's cold and absolutely right. Have you been sloppy? Has Amado figured out something already? "Why would I betray you?" You ask, but he doesn't give an answer.
It's the last day of your stay. You have a very special package delivered from Japan.
You gonna make blowfish sashimi tonight for Amado.
Everyone knows it's toxic so it has to be handled with meticulous care. You make Amado watch every step —  a set of fuguhiki, knives with thin blade is unwrapped, you pick them one by one to gut the fish, remove the deadly liver and ovaries, skin it and cut off its head. Then instead of cutting outward like most people do, you turn a knife to cut inward. 
"Careful! You shouldn't hold knife like that." Amado almost jumps in to help. But you assure him it's OK. Then you show off the technique to cut extremely thin and translucent slices of blowfish.
To make the white meat more attractive, you set the slices in a large plate with red poppy flower pattern. They are so thin, the poppy flower is still visible when all's done.
"An ancient Chinese writer used to say, 'The taste of blowfish is worthy of death.'" You joke when you mix the sauce. "Don't worry. I'm a licensed blowfish-preparation chef."
Amado squints, "So you're testing me."
You want to tell him to just trust you, but you don't know how.
"There's no antidote for the tetrodotoxin. But I'll eat it, too. If it's poisonous, our muscle will be paralyzed bit by bit when we're fully conscious, eventually we won't be able to breathe. We're going to die slowly, painfully and desperately."
You take the first bite, Amado follows.
"Why are you so loyal to him?" Amado breaks the silence, "For one, you don't sleep with him. You obviously are not related. And as far as I know, money can't buy loyalty."
"I'll answer it if you answer my question first." The Mexican agrees. "You didn't want me for me, you barely knew me. You made the decision when Pacho said I was the best, he wouldn't last a week without me. You want him, or something that makes you his equivalent. Except being gay, I don't know. You won't fuck his boys, so I'm the next proxy. Am I correct?"
After a pause, Amado nods. Then it's your turn.
"How many female chefs do you know?" Amado is confused for a few seconds, then he gets it.
"There was no place for you in your line of work, just like there was no place for him in this game controlled by men, men who have multiple wives and fuck whores. He sees himself in you. So he takes you under his wings."
"Yes. Pacho is the only one who's believed me. He's also the biggest shareholder of my first restaurant."
Amado then asks what you gonna tell Pacho when you return. "I'll tell him you give really good heads. Maybe he should try it himself." You wink, "No, I'll let him know you're not a cold-blooded bastard. Even though you sometimes make awful choice by dipping sashimi in guacamole, you're appreciative of other people's work." You really mean it, you like Amado. But you'll probably never know if he buys it or if it matters.
After a while, you finish the whole plate of blowfish sashimi. "Seems we're not dead." Amado's poking your cheek with chopsticks.
"No, we are not."
"Last question, why did Pacho send you?"
"Amado, you would've done the same. You know that."
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snarkymonkeyprime · 4 years ago
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Okay, I had the scene of Ethan carting Kai in my head yesterday and it spawned this.  Please enjoy!
    “Look at him.”
    Ethan followed Chernov’s gesture to see Kai face-planted on the table.  He snorted and sipped from his champagne glass.  He didn’t think Kai had been drinking that much but by the way he was muttering into the table, it’s clear he’d done a number on himself.
    Ethan patted Kai on the back, chuckling when the other man lifted his head up wearily, squinting.
    “Wazzat?”
    “Having fun down there?” Ethan asked.
    Kai made a noise and planted his face back on the table.  “Spinny.”
    “Suppose I can’t blame him for wanting to be drunk; he does work for Xerynn,” Chernov stated.  He lifted his coffee cup.  “That’s probably been pent up for months,” he added.
    Ethan laughed at that.  When he’d first learned Kai worked for the that lawyer, Xerynn, he’d been shocked and fully expected to discover that Kai was as cutthroat and duplicitous as the black-eyed bastard.  Instead, he’d met a nervous man with no filter who spent most of his time bad-mouthing his own boss.  A welcome surprise, for sure.
    That even Chernov tolerated him and his antics spoke volumes. The lieutenant hated Xerynn and typically avoided anything to do with him.  Kai, however, managed to fracture that quite quickly, becoming an oddly common occurrence at the precinct.  Even now, celebrating Ethan’s promotion to Grade 2, Kai was a welcome addition to their little shindig.
    Jess had already called it quits an hour earlier and Lisa, a few hours before that.  Now, it was simply he, Chernov, and the drunken Kai at the bar.  Ethan, honestly, wouldn’t have complained if it ended up just being him and Kai.  Both of them had opted to get a room at the hotel so as not to worry about their drive home.  And Ethan might have entertained some steamy fantasies earlier in the night. Fantasies now firmly squashed given how out of it Kai appeared.
    He’d been surprised by plenty in relation to Kai over the year.  Kai had a tendency to speak his mind, accidentally, which had been only one of the many charming things Ethan discovered about the other man.  He was clever and more than once, he’d found information that helped out the squad on several occasions.  He had the oddest roommate and he still hadn’t quite figured out what he did for Xerynn.  Kai himself only stated he collected things; so, a messenger?  Not that it made sense and Ethan was aware enough to know that Kai was keeping something back.  
    As he sipped his glass, he watched Kai as he mumbled into the bar top.  As a cop, he knew better than to rely on face value.  The fact that he knew Kai kept things back should have been a warning sign.  Should have kept him firmly on the side of acquaintance.  There were times when he felt he’d nearly seen beyond whatever barrier Kai kept up but he never was able to fully rationalize what he thought he was seeing.  But, Kai himself had wormed his squirrely way into Ethan’s resolve and at this point, he didn’t quite know where he stood.
    Chernov yawned and set his mug down.  “You should get him up to his room.”
    Given Kai was now singing a mumbled, off-key version of “Evacuate the Dance Floor” to the bar top, Ethan had to agree.  He set down his glass and patted Kai on the shoulder.  “C’mon, Hot Stuff; time for bed.”
    Kai propped his chin on the bar, blinking slow at Ethan. And then smiled.
    “Okay.  You know, you’re too pretty to be a cop.”  He blinked and shot Ethan a set of finger guns.  “Pretty Cop Man.”
    Chernov barked a sharp laugh.  “Confirmed: he’s smashed.”  He pulled out his wallet, fishing for his credit card.  “Get him to his room before he does something really stupid.”  He wagged his card.  “I’ll settle the tab and call it a night.”  He rose and patted Ethan on the shoulder.  “Well done, Ethan.  You deserve it.”
    Ethan smiled weakly at the thanks before turning back to Kai who still blinked at him, deep in his drunkenness.  
   Pretty Cop Man.  That had to be the worst part of all of this.  Kai was . . . downright adorable on a good day.  He’d been fully prepared to distrust Kai when he’d learned of his connection to Xerynn.  Instead, as he’d gotten to know the other man, he’d developed more than bit of a crush on him.  Kai was shorter than he was, with shaggy brown hair and wide brown eyes.  And for as much as he grumbled about his job, he was quick to laugh and joke, often pulling Ethan along into his misadventures. Which meant he spent a lot of time with Kai and spent a lot of time thinking about Kai.  
    Years of work as a police detective had given him fine skills at maintaining a poker face.  And while Ethan was typically able to keep such thoughts to himself given their odd working relationship, that didn’t mean he didn’t ponder things.  A lot.  Possibly more than was healthy.  And while he’d never asked, he’d always assumed Kai was straight.  Possibly less straight when drunk?
   “That sucks,” he muttered, getting off his stool.  He tugged on Kai’s arm, coaxing the same.  “C’mon.  Pretty Cop Man wants you to go to bed.”
    Kai blew a raspberry in response but complied.  Sort of.  Mostly he fell off the stool, colliding with Ethan in the process.
    “Easy there,” Ethan murmured, righting him.  “Just got to get you upstairs and let you sleep it off.”
    Grumbling and rubbing his forehead, Kai stumbled along beside him, frequently colliding with Ethan in the process.  Eventually, in an effort to save himself from further bruising, Ethan latched a hand to Kai’s collar, attempting to keep him walking a fairly straight line.
    They made it to the elevator and Kai leaned against the back, staring up at the lighted panels above.  “Hey, Ethan?”
    No more Pretty Cop Man, I guess.  He turned slightly.  Kai was still leaning his head against the elevator wall but he’d angled his head enough to meet Ethan’s gaze.
    “What’s on your mind?”
    “Thanks for inviting me,” he murmured.  He shut his eyes, rolling his head back.  “And good job, Detective Policeman!” he added, holding up a thumb.  He dropped his hand and pushed away from the wall.  He stood for about a second before teetering forward.
    Ethan lunged and caught him, pushing him upright.  “You don’t drink this much that often, do you?” he asked with a laugh.
    Kai squinched his eyes shut.  “No,” he moaned.  “My head hurts.”
    Ethan looked at the elevator dial.  He and Kai both had rooms on the twelfth floor.  Five more to go.  He let go of Kai and immediately grabbed him a second time when he nearly crumpled.  “Okay, gonna do this the hard way.”  He turned around and squatted down a bit, sliding his hands under Kai’s thighs.  “I don’t trust you not the end up on the floor.”
    Kai flopped against his back, his arms draped over Ethan’s shoulders and down his chest.  
    “M’yank you,” he mumbled into Ethan’s hair.  “It’s all spinny,” he whined.
    Ethan hiked him up a bit, settling Kai a bit more comfortably against his back.  “I’ll bet. Maybe don’t try to drink an entire bottle of rum?”
    “Not rum, tequila,” Kai corrected.  He sighed, blowing air against Ethan’s neck, which unfortunately left Ethan shivering.  “Tequila, tequila, tequila,” he babbled, soon singing the word over and over until it slurred into nonsense.
    “I have to admit, you’re pretty entertaining when drunk,” Ethan stated as the elevator arrived to their floor.  He stepped out, grunting under Kai’s weight.  
    Kai’s singing faded and he sighed, wrapping his arms loose around Ethan’s neck, and nuzzling him.  “Comfy,” he murmured.
    Ethan swallowed, his face reddening.  “So, uh, Kai?” he prodded as the headed down the hall.  “Question for you.”  He took the babbled noise in response as an affirmative.  “You, uh, you seeing anyone?”
    “Nuhuh.”  He hummed a new song for a few steps and then sighed.  “I wanna though.”
    What am I doing?  Ethan licked his lips as he rounded the corner to the corridor where their rooms sat.  “What’s your choice?  Women?” He cleared his throat.  “Men?”
    Kai shifted and propped his chin on Ethan’s shoulder.  “Women are pretty,” he sighed.
    Well, that answered that.
    “Men are prettier.”
    Or not?  He considered.  “So, you’re bi?”
    “Bi, bi, bi!” Kai sang, mimicking N’SYNC this time.
    Ethan rolled his eyes, mouth quirking.  “I think that’s an answer then.”  And so damn heartening that Ethan nearly whooped.  Until the last second when he recalled he was carting a drunken man on his back.  That would probably not have earned me points, he thought.
    He reached Kai’s room and halted, letting him slide off his back.  Kai wobbled again and Ethan held him up by the shoulder before digging into Kai’s back pocket.
    “That’s . . . my ass,” Kai intoned.
    Ethan snorted, coming up with Kai’s wallet.  “Sure is.”  He plucked Kai’s room key from its confines.  “And this is your key.”
    “Key!” Kai exclaimed.  He took back his wallet and beamed at Ethan.  “My knight in shining armor.”  He tried to tuck his wallet back in his pocket but it thumped to the floor instead.  He turned clumsily, staring down at it.  “Aww.”
    Ethan burst out laughing.  When Kai turned to look at him, he shook his head.  “Sorry, Kai.  You’re a bit of a mess right now.”
    Kai yawned and shrugged.  “I’m a bit of a mess most of the time,” he said.  He rubbed his eyes.  “I am sorry to have thrust my mess on you,” he stated, holding his arms out. “It travels.”  He leaned in, cupping a hand around his mouth even though his volume didn’t change.  “Blame Xerynn; he started it.”
    “That, I can believe,” he replied.  But he sobered quickly.  “For what it’s worth, I don’t think you’re a mess, Kai.  Far from it.”  He bent down and picked up Kai’s wallet before returning to the door and swiping the key card.  Not risking a glance back, he added, “And if you are a mess, I like your mess.”  He pushed the door open after the beep, holding it for Kai to walk through.
    After a second’s hesitation, his eyes unfocused but direct, Kai shuffled his way in, swatting at the wall to flick on the light.  “Bed!” he exclaimed.  “Oh, bed; I love you.”  He trotted forward and flopped face-first onto the neatly made bed.  “Bed!” he repeated, voice muffled.
    Ethan dropped Kai’s key and wallet on the dresser and leaned against it.  He couldn’t stop grinning.  Even though Kai was about a second from passing out, he lay prostrate, his legs kicking behind him as he repeated “bed” over and over again.
    Shit, I never stood a chance, did I?  He cleared his throat and stood.  “Kai, get some sleep.  I’ll see you in the morning.”  He reached out and grabbed one flailing foot, shaking it once.  “Try not to overdo it next time.”
    Kai stopped kicking and turned his head, cheek against the pale blue quilt, hair a complete mess and eyes bloodshot.  He smiled at Ethan.  “Thank you, Sir Knight,” he mumbled.  He yawned again, eyes drooping shut.  He burrowed into his bed before adding, “I like your mess, too,” he mumbled.
    He’d nearly missed the words, honestly.  But Kai had cracked open one eye, once again direct, if bloodshot.  “Good night,” Ethan husked, turning to go.
    He stepped out into the hall, letting out a sharp breath. He didn’t know if Kai was so drunk that he’d forget their conversation but Ethan, at least, wasn’t about to.  If anything, it gave him a bit of encouragement that maybe there was something more there.  That, friendship aside, Kai might see a bit more between them like Ethan was beginning to.
    He paced to the end of the corridor and swiped the key to his room.  It had been a long day and an even longer night.  He’d received a promotion, free dinner and drinks, and a hint that he had a chance at something with a man he was fast falling for.  
    All in all, not a bad day, as most things went.  
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canumoveurseatup-no · 6 years ago
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Pop-pop’s Babysitting Chronicles
Part 3 of the Honeybee Series!!
This part was requested by: @blueoz
Don’t forget you can request what you would like to see in this series!!
Summary: You and Bucky took some time for yourselves and went on a little vacation. Annalise wants pop pop to babysit and this is just a peak into the Babysitting Chronicles
WC: 2.5K
Pairings: Tony x OC!Granddaughter ;Bucky x Black!Stark!Reader; Bucky x OC!Daughter (paternal obviously); Avengers x Black!Stark!Reader
Warnings: none, it’s all fluff and cuteness this time!!! (Jk just a tiny bit of angst if you squint)
A/N: I’m so glad y’all enjoy this series and everything else I write!! I can’t thank y’all enough for the support! If YOU LIKE IT, PLEASE REBLOG AND COMMENT IT MEANS A LOT!!
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“Dad, you know her bed time is 9:05 on the dot,” you were literally making a list for him and he waved you away.
“That is such a specific time,” he waved you off
“It’s really 9. But she spends so much time with you, and picks up your vocabulary so she just loooves grace periods because ‘pop pop always says it’, so I say 9:05,” you handed him the list which he throws away right in your face and picks Anna up and kissing all over her face causing her to giggle and squealing.
“Dad! You might need that list,” You exasperated.
Tony just rolled his eyes at you yet again and look at you dumbfounded.
“Y/N. I raised you for crying out loud. I’ve watched my granddaughter plenty of times. Just because it’s an extended period this time doesn’t mean I’m incapable,”
You sighed and nodded your head, “I’m only worried because she’s not like other kids, dad. She has super strength and we have yet to see if she can do what I do and I just want her to be safe,” Bucky came in the kitchen with your bags ready and Tony nodded.
“Sweetie, you were two when you started Shadow traveling, I think I can handle my granddaughter for a few days,” he kissed your cheek and patted your head, “You worry too much. Relax. Have fun”
“Okay okay. Don’t let Sam or Clint get a hold of her during their football marathons. We don’t want a repeat of when she was a newborn,”
“Fun times,” he looked up at the ceiling and sighed happily.
“Dad!,” You swatted his arm and he just laughed at you.
“Mama, I’ll be okaaaaay. I love spending time with pop pop. He lets me in the lab with him and fly around in a mini suit he made for me,” Anna admits
“You weren’t supposed to tell her that!!,” Tony whisper yelled. Anna covered her mouth and muttered “Uh ooohh”
You wore a worried expression on your face and whined, “That’s it, we are not going anymore,”
“The hell we are! Babe, we need this and you know it,” Bucky came up to you and held your hand, “That’s her grandpa, she’s gonna have adventures with him. You forget that she can barely get hurt. And when she does it goes away quickly. She’ll be fine,” Bucky’s words calmed you down some and he looked to Tony.
“Don’t forget, her Honeybee Scouts tea party is Wednesday at 1:00 to 2:30, she was in charge of the cookies and napkins. We’ll be back later Thursday,”
“I keep up with my Honeybee and her tea parties. I got this tin man, now go so I can fuck shit up with my granddaughter,”
“DAD!!”
“Oops,” Tony tried to keep the smile from appearing on his face but there was no point. He pushed you and Bucky to the elevator and pressed the lobby button for you, “I raised you just fine. I can handle a mini you all over again. Have fun and be safe,”
You sighed and kissed Anna all over her face and she giggled while pushing you away, “I’ll miss you guys but gooooo! I love you, mama,” she grabbed your face in her little hands and kissed your nose. “Papa” she raised her arms up and he picked her up effortlessly.
“I love you, papa. You two better make it back safe,” she waved a finger in his face sternly with a frown.
“Yes ma’am,” Bucky’s eyes glowed at his daughter before kissing her cheek and the elevator dinged.
Everyone else had already said their goodbyes and kept it short knowing you’d be back in like, less than week. You were supposed to have left like an hour ago, but you being the worry wart you were, you stuck around and lectured your dad about how to watch his granddaughter when he’s done it millions of times. You were lucky you were using one of his jets or else you’d be screwed.
Anna climbed out of his arms and went to into Tony’s, wearing a big smile, and they waved back at you two as the doors closed, “we’ll try not to eff too much shit up!” She smiled
“ANNALISE LILLIAN STARK-BARNES!!!,” you and Bucky’s yelling could be heard through the closing and descending doors.
Tony shook his head and told her to watch her mouth, “Watch it, don’t want your parents to beat my butt for you repeating me,”
“Oopsie, sowwy,” she smiled sweetly.
“Now... what do you wanna do first? Prank wars or help pop pop on one of his projects?,”
———
She picked pranking first. She had painted Sam’s wings periwinkle with glitter and literally wrapped all of Clint’s weapons in gift wrapping paper.
They ended up pranking Steve as well by adding pink hair dye to his already pink shampoo.
“TONYYYYY! ANNAAAAAAA!!!!,”
Anna and Tony hid away in a secret passageway in his lab and laughed their butts off, “He’s gonna be even more upset when he finds out his suit matches,” Anna’s hands covered her mouth as she was hysterically laughing.
“WAIT UNTIL I FIND YOU BOTH!!,”
“We got an angry old man on our hands!!” Tony laughed even harder. Anna took her pop pop’s hand and led him to the lab after a while of cracking jokes and hiding.
“I wanna fix some stuff up. Mama and papa won’t let me in here any other time,” she immediately took some wire cutters and working on a panel for his suit, “you still haven’t put this in your suit, pop pop?,” she asked
“I left it fo you, I didn’t wanna finish it if you started it. This is our thing, I wanted to leave something for you to work on when we finally got back in here. Plus, whatever you did right, I can’t figure it out to continue,” he booped her nose and she scrunched her face up at him while giggling.
“You just had to readjust the digitizer and reboot the program. The white wire was also in the wrong circuit. You had to switch it with the orange one,” she was so nonchalant as she worked. He stared at her in awe as she continued to split wires open and rework them.
“What do you wanna do when you’re a big girl?,”
“I am a big girl, pop pop,” she sassed. He threw his head back in light laughter and shook his head.
“I mean when you’re a bigger big girl,”
“I want to work for NASA,” she simply stated.
“Really?,” he became intrigued as he worked on yet another project.
“Yes, the ESD to be specific,” she took a pair of tweezers to work with the wire, “That’s the Earth Science Division in case you didn’t know,”
“I already knew that, Honeybee,”
“Hey, I’m just making sure!,” she shrugged, “I want to focus on climate change to be even more specific. There are a lot of human related causes and Earth is hurting. So I want to help fix her up. Not just put a bandaid on her and turn my back on her, I want to cure her pretty much,”
“You are definitely my granddaughter,” Tony adored how smart she was. He adored her drive for things and how sure she was of her future plans. You and Bucky raised her right.
“You think I can do it? You don’t think that’s something only boys can do? Like with space and stuff?,” she paused for a second to look at her pop pop and he frowned.
“Of course not. You can do whatever the hell you put your mind to. Did someone tell you that you can’t?,”
She huffed and nodded slowly, “Queen Bee Eurena, our new scouts leader, said that stuff is only for boys. But you all always taught me jobs don’t discriminate, it’s the people in charge that do,” she continued working on the panel but she didn’t realize how pissed Tony had become. How dare someone tell his granddaughter that she can’t do something just because she was a fucking girl?!
“Ya know... I know a guy who works at the ESD,”
Anna slammed the wire cutters down on the table, “YOU WHAAAAT?!,” she screamed.
“One day I’m gonna let you meet him. Let him know there is someone special who would be a great asset to the team. I can even get you a tour of the place,”
“NO WAY!,” she squealed, her little braids with beads clashing together to make noise.
“Yes way!!,” Tony gave her enthusiasm right back.
“But I wanna work for it! I don’t wanna get the job just because I’m your granddaughter. Trust fund babies do that,” she said.
“Honeybee, it’s okay. I know you’ll work so hard that you won’t even need me to put in a good word,”
She nodded and told him to lean down so she can kiss his cheek, “I’ll always need you, pop pop,”
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“Honeybee! Do you have your sash?,” Tony called from down the hall as he packaged up the expensive cookies and napkins. Tony has to go all out.
“I can’t find my crochet patch!,” she called back.
“In your room, by the your crafts box!,”
“Found iiit!,”
He heard the pitter patter of running feet, “I need help,” she pouted.
Tony took a knee as he pinned her crochet patch on her sash, “We’re gonna have to sew this on,” he mumbled.
She pointed to a patch on her sash, “I can do it! I was the first one to get the sewing patch. Up next is the worker bee patch!,” she exclaimed.
“You got this,” he fist pumped her and picked her up as well as the bag of cookies and napkin. “Off of the beehive we go!,”
———
Tony sat back in the picnic chair and sipped his lemonade as he watched Anna run around the park with her best friend Adora. They were connected at the hip and they defended each other like sisters. It was a great friendship to see.
“A-are you new?,” a tall lady came up with the same uniform as Anna, “Queen bee Eurena, transferred to this hive like a two weeks ago” she held her hand out.
“Tony Stark and yes I guess you could say I’m new. Anna is my granddaughter, her parents usually attend but they’re on vacation,”
“Oh she is such a pleasure to have!,” Eurena clapped, “She works really hard and helps everyone, everyone loves her! I bet she’ll make a great nurse someday,”
“Nurse?,” Tony frowned, “Anna doesn’t want to go into nursing. She’s a NASA nerd,” she chuckled.
“Yes, well we try to teach our girls to have attainable goals,” she nodded. Tony took his sunglasses off and really looked at her like she was stupid.
“NASA is totally attainable!,” he exclaimed, “I’m not sure what you taught your previous hive but this hive doesn’t belittle their bees’ dreams,”
Eurena frowned at Tony and put her hands on her hips, “Well sure but that’s no place for a lady. Especially a wonderful one like Anna,”
Tony was mind boggled. This woman was really talking out the side of her neck.
“I can do whatever the hell I put my mind to!!,”
Tony and Eurena turned around to see Anna looking up at her with a frown, “What you have been teaching us goes completely against the Hive dynamic and beliefs! How dare you put me in a box! I will not be put in a box!,” Anna kicked Eurena in her shin, everyone heard a loud crack and Eurena cried out in pain. Tony swooped in to pick her up.
The other families gathered and agreed with Anna. This new Eurena woman was teaching these little girls that they need to be on a short leash.
“I will be contacting your superior,” Anna best Tony to it, “Let’s go pop pop,”. Tony walked over to the table and grabbed the rest of the cookies that hadn’t been opened yet and put them in the bag before storming off. It was a domino effect. Once Anna and Tony left, everyone else started to leave.
No wonder Eurena transferred, she clearly didn’t do too well with her other hive.
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“Dad, she kicked the woman in the shin, fracturing it! In multiple places!” You screamed, “Not only that, she cursed, dad. In public, at her scouts party with other kids!,”
“I’m not arguing with you about this, Y/N. She stood up for herself! That’s what we all taught her! To believe in herself and not let anyone belittle her potential,”
“Tony, that’s not what we’re getting at,” Bucky sighed, “It’s the fact she kicked a grown woman in her leg. We teach her not to resort to violence, because only we know how strong she is,
“That’s why I was worried in the first place. That’s why I didn’t want to leave,” You rubbed your temples and Anna came into the kitchen.
“She was mean to me and you don’t even get it!,” Anna fumed, “She was talking to everyone like that. Telling them they couldn’t be scientists or crime scene i-investigators, or surgeons! She was telling us we would be good teachers or nurses or receptionists!, clearly there’s nothing wrong with that but she swatted our arms away when we reached for more and that’s not fair, mama!,” her bottom lips started quivering and she was shaking in anger, “not fair!”
You looked at her and sighed, you did always tell her to never let anyone talk down to her, that she was more than what anyone ever said, you guess she just had enough of this woman in her short time knowing her that she acted out. You kneeled down to her and saw how she was controlling her breathing as best as she could.
“You’re doing a great job with your breathing, Honeybee,” you whispered, you taught her breathing techniques when she got worked up, “I’m sorry I was yelling but you know we don’t condone unnecessary violence,” you rubbed her cheek.
“I understand, mama. But she frustrated me more than I’ve ever been and... and I couldn’t help it,” she slapped her hands on her thighs in frustration, letting out a loud groan that worried you.
“Buck,” you called over your shoulder. Bucky came up behind you and lifted her in his arms and she let it all out.
“I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to hurt her, I didn’t!,” she clenched her fists in his shirt and he rubbed her back, “Pop pop stood up for me. He believed in me and I just acted out,”
Tony came over and tapped her shoulder, making her turn her head to look at him as she cried, “We all believe in you. But I must admit the kicking and swearing is wrong, okay? We’ll even apologize but I’ll be damned-,”
“Dad!,”
Tony cut his eyes at you and sighed, “We’ll apologize but I won’t allow that woman to be around those little girls taking to them like that,” he glared at you and you flicked your eyes to Bucky who agreed, “Now give me my Science bee,” he made grabby hands and Anna gave him a watery smile while moving into his arms.
“We are sorry,” She said to you and Bucky. You both gave her a kiss and a stern reminding that she can’t go around kicking people who offend her (even though you both are guilty of that.)
“You’re fine. Just make sure you apologize for kicking her. But not apologizing for verbally defending yourself,”
Anna nodded and Tony carried her to the lab to set up a date to tour NASA and the ESD.
She kissed his cheek and smiled, “Told you I’d always need you,”
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Pop pop Tony defending his granddaughter warms my heart, and we love Anna no matter whose shin she fractures!
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April 6th-April 12th, 2020 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from April 6th, 2020 to April 12th, 2020.  The chat focused on  Adventurers’ Guild by Phillip MacArthur.
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BOOK CLUB START!
Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Adventurers’ Guild by Phillip MacArthur~! (https://adventurersguildcomic.com/)
You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace until April 12th, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Discussions are freeform, but we do offer discussion prompts in the pins for those who’d like to have them. Additionally, remember that while constructive criticism is allowed, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic! Whether you finish the comic or can only read a few pages, everyone is welcome to join and chat with us!
DISCUSSION PROMPTS – PART 1
1. What did you like about the beginning of the comic?
2. What has been your favorite moment in the comic (so far)?
3. Who is your favorite character?
4. Which characters do like seeing interact the most?
5. What is something you like about the art? If you have a favorite illustration, please share it!
6. What is a theme you like that the comic explores?
7. What do you like about the comic’s story or overall related content?
8. Overall, what do you think the comic’s strengths are?
Don’t feel inspired by the prompts? Feel free to discuss anything else that interested you!
RebelVampire
What I liked about the beginning of the comic was just the overall pacing. The comic really takes it's time to introduce the world to you and the first set of characters, and it kind of hits that right beat for me where there's a lot of information where I don't feel overwhelmed since the pacing slows to the right tempo to make it work. My favorite moment in the comic so far is probably the battle against Razoku. Without getting too specific, I love just how epic that fight was in general, and also that a character I didn't expect was down for the count for that fight, leaving everyone else to compensate. That is not something you see in stories everyday, plus I liked getting to see Jack do some work since Jack tagged along for the quest. My favorite character at the moment is probably Li, because I have a thing for enigmatic mysterious dudes who I know so little about. Plus, he's a sorceror and I always 1000% support magic classes. As for characters interacting, probably Klaus and Li. I love the hints that they really have some history here, and I like just kind of how they balance each other out. Like sometimes Li is dumb and Klaus is the smart one and then sometimes Klaus is dumb and Li is smart. And it goes on like this for a bunch of different traits, so I like that theyre both kind of on an even footing and that they have this bond and understanding the other characters don't have with them yet. So it's like this warm thing of comfort.
RebelVampire
What I like about the art is just kind of how well it emulates RPG pixel games. Especially how dialogue and other elements are handled to replicate the UI. It's a nice touch that really just kind of sells that whole game feel aesthetic. I liked that the comic explored the moral choice between helping someone vs. fulfilling your obligation. And the tangentially related "Is it okay to lie if it's a stupid noble who wants a thing for aesthetics and frivolous reasons?" Some pretty common themes, yet still important themes always worthy of discussion. I also liked how the noble knew the lie and still just accepted it anyway, since that was 100% now the outcome I was expecting. So it really takes the exploration of that theme a bit differently. What I like about the story is the same thing I like about the art: it really nails the game feel. Like I really do feel I've been watching just an epically long cutscene to some game, but as someone who does like games and RPGs, that really appeals to me. Honestly, I'd be excited to play this as an actual game so I could use Li and cast all the magic. As for the comic's strengths, game feel which I've already discussed. But in general, like the beginning, pacing. I've seen a few comics like this one, but for most the pacing usually isn't that great since pixel art really only allows for so much action to be depicted. So pacing for these things needs to be epically different than it does for most comics. I think this one really nails it, especially with combat. The comic really shows how the combat will be epic, but it doesn't try to pad it out either and just kind of embraces the limitations that come with this specific style.
warriorneedsfood
I am having a hard time engaging in the comic. The layout wasn’t very intuitive for me and it’s very small on my tablet. When I play old school rpgs I look past the interface to get to the story, but this comic embraces the format. It makes me wish the author made a game instead of the comic. However, I didn’t get very far on the first pass. I will be hunkering down with the comic later on this week to read it to get the whole impression of the story.
RebelVampire
Once I adjusted to the layout, I actually found it way easier for mobile personally.
Since I didn't really have to zoom or squint, and the panels were very responsive to touch controls
But it is definitely far from the standard so I can see it as a point of alienation
Eightfish (Puppeteer)
Gotta say, never played this kind of game so this comic isn't really for me, but I did think the format was really unique and cool
I don't have any problems reading it on my phone
Feather J. Fern
I think this premise for the layout is really interesting. I actually think it would have done really well as actually an Instagram comic due to it's scroll, square shape.
I do also have to agree if this was an actual game done on RPG Maker or something, it would fit it a lot more. But I do love the feel it is giving me.
I do have to note that the font is making it hard for me to read, since that font isn't really good for me. My own personal problem though.
I can see why they went with that choice for the old RPG feeling
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DISCUSSION PROMPTS – PART 2
9. Why do you think Myra came to Knolton, and why is she hesitant to talk to even fellow Nemians about her backstory? Additionally, why is Jack equally mysterious about his origins? How do you think the truth will change the characters’ relationships with each other?
10. Do you think Klaus will allow Kidd to join the party? If so, how will that change the current group dynamic? Additionally, how will Cedric’s secrecy effect how much trust the other’s put in him?
11. How do you think Klaus and Li met, and for what reason do you think Li joined Klaus’ clan? Additionally, what do you think Li’s backstory might be in general? Do you believe there are secrets that might change how the group sees him, or is it something more mundane?
12. Do you think the group will see Edmund or anyone else they’ve faced against again? If so, what do you think will happen? In general, how will the group’s growing fame affect them and the quests they take on?
Don’t feel inspired by the prompts? Feel free to discuss anything else that interested you!
RebelVampire
I feel like Myra probably got exiled or something. If only cause Myra does not seem like she'd have come to Knolton by choice, and you don't conceal your backstory unless you've got embarrassing shit to hide. I assume Jack might be in the same sort of situation. I actually think if Myra and Jack talked about it, though, it'd bring them closer together, as well as the whole group. The truth sets you free and all that. As for Kidd, yes, I think Klaus will let Kidd join. Klaus seems nice like that. As for group dynamic, I think it will simultaneously make Cedric a better and worse member of the group. I kind of feel if push came to shove, Cedric would ditch the others to save Kidd, making him unreliable. But at the same time, if Kidd goes with, Cedric would probably have increased loyalty. As for Cedric's secrecy, I think it'll be a long time before anyone fully trusts him again. I get the impression that Klaus must of met Li when Li was down on his luck, and since Klaus was such a bro and a friend, of course he joined. As for Li's backstory, I actually don't have any theories, although I kind of feel Li is less secret cause of something to hide but more maybe no one asks. Though I'm sure there is at least one secret in there that will make the audience gasp. I do think the group will at least see Edmund again because Edmund seemed an important and noteworthy character who'd come back. I could also see silver lotus noble coming back for silver lotus part 2 only now its a gold lotus. Either way, in regards to Edmund, of course theyre going to fight, though I feel like someone will try to convince Edmund to join their part instead, which Edmund might be convinced somehow. In general, though, their group is definitely gonna attract big baddies and great evil, cause fame comes at a cost.
GuildmasterPhill
Hello, author of Adventurers' Guild here! Just want to chime in and say it's been a real pleasure to read all the analysis of my comic here. It's good to see some of you really getting into it, and I think this whole tea party thing is a wonderful idea. Adventurers' Guild's week is almost up, as I understand it, but I'll be around here for the last bit of it if anyone has any questions for me! (I'm REALLY cagey about storyline spoilers, though, so don't expect any of those!) Thanks again!
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DISCUSSION PROMPTS – PART 3
13. What are you most looking forward to seeing in regards to the comic?
14. Any final words of encouragement for the comic?
Don’t feel inspired by the prompts? Feel free to discuss anything else that interested you!
mathtans
Hi! Our modem died, so my internet capabilities are real limited at the moment. But I had a quick look at the start of the week and just wanted to say I think the format is really neat, since I see some back and forth debate about it. All the best with the comic!
Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn)
Jumping in late -- the tip about mobile reading helped, it also works on desktop if you put it in a narrow-enough window!
I like the intro, the comedy of "we've only stopped one thief, and technically the quest says it's plural", the awkwardness of Klaus trying to say "I have pointy ears, so that gives me some insight into the discrimination you face as a full-on catgirl" and Myra not having it. Reminds me of the tension in X-Men between the "normal-looking" mutants vs. the ones who are, say, blue and scaly.
Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn)
Just got to the bit with the cat brothers, and Klaus's reaction is...puzzling. He did all that outreach and effort getting Myra and Cedric to join the party, even getting rejected by Cedric and then following him around until he was talked into joining...but now there's two people enthusiastically volunteering to join, and Klaus is shooting them down?
Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn)
I mean, they were obviously shady, but it's not clear why he was so convinced the others weren't. Maybe he just has Hero Plot Senses.
Seconding that I like the outcome of that arc, though! You think the party's just coming up with excuses for why they can slack off and do a second-rate job and not feel bad when they get away with it...and then, surprise, they don't get away with it, but it turns out their excuses were right and they don't have to feel bad about it.
Won't be surprised if it comes back to bite them down the line, though. Say, that noble uses it to make a fake healing potion, then lets a rival die while appearing to make all efforts to treat them.
And on to the next traveling montage! I like the lighting/colors in the campfire effect, but I feel like it should be built with squares and triangles rather than being a perfect ellipse, so it fits with the rest of the tile-based scenery. (Which is very cool and well-done in general.)
Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn)
Unrelated to anything, I do love when Myra's sprite does cat-poses.
Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn)
All caught up (full disclosure, I skimmed through some of the long battle sequences). One burning question...is there ever going to be more than one female character in this world? Myra isn't just the only woman in the party -- all their other allies are guys, all the enemies are dudes, everyone who hires them for a quest is a man, every random encounter on the street is a bro, every NPC with a speaking line is a fella...
Two of the guys so far have talked about their mothers, but one mom was sick/asleep for her entire on-screen appearance, and the other hasn't been seen at all. (And she was presumed killed...is there some big underground conspiracy to poison and/or murder all the women in this world? That would also be a reasonable Backstory Thing for Myra to run away from...)
RebelVampire
I am most looking forward to learning more about Li's backstory here and seeing all of the components that make Li awesome. My final words are is that I really love how unique this comic is with its presentation. It really stands out against contemporary styles and just overall, was an entertaining read. The comic feels like a true passion project and that really shines through, and while it may not be everyone's cup of tea, it didn't have any of the problems I usually find in most modern comics. So I was glad for that
GuildmasterPhill
To answer your question, @Erin Ptah (BICP | Leif & Thorn) , yes there will be more woman characters--do not worry. ^^
@RebelVampire Thank you so much for all the comments, you seem very insightful! I certainly hope you will continued reading as I go onward.
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BOOK CLUB END!
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Noragami Analysis: Ebisu and Iwami; Guideposts and Familial Relationships
This post is a continuation/elaboration of my last one on Ebisu’s theme of crying, but instead of focusing on a central motif, this one branches out into more related elements in the plot. Please bear with me if some things are repeated!
We know Ebisu’s (more widely believed) origin story of him being thrown away by his parents Izanagi and Izanami because he was born without bones/arms and legs. Yet, self-destructive tendencies aside, Ebisu is a comparatively well-adjusted god in Noragami. His maturity, ability to function well as a god and overall benevolence make him an ideal role model for Yato on his journey to become a god of fortune. @echodrops has an entire essay written on how Ebisu is such a good father figure to Yato- please go check it out (along with the other essays) it’s incredible and thoroughly researched.
So how does Ebisu, himself abandoned by his birth parents, manage to become who he is in the present day?
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We’ve been shown instances of gods taking fatherly/motherly roles towards their shinki (Yato, Bishamon, Arahabaki) and plenty of domestic spousal relationships between gods and shinki (Kazuma and Bishamon, Kofuku and Daikoku). But we don’t usually come across the parent-child dynamic between shinki and gods (note the order), which we’ve only seen with the gods who reincarnate and are raised by shinki: Takemikazuchi and Ebisu.
It’s shown that Ebisu values (or in the very least, shows understanding of) familial kinship.
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Whether he’s saying this to Izanami as his supposed ‘biological’ mother or to the Olive Ken lady he looks up to as a mother (and who Izanami takes the form of to him), it’s clear that he does long for the mother he never had growing up.
And get this: besides fishing and commerce, Ebisu is also a patron deity of expectant mothers.
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He gets prayers from people who want children (unlike his own mother), and sees how happy humans can be with families. He’d want to know how it might have been if his parents hadn’t thrown him away (still, I doubt that things would have been as rosy as he may imagine- just ask Kagutsuchi).
While the previous Ebisu’s mother figure had been a human woman (who will eventually age and die), he’s had a consistent father figure throughout his incarnations: Iwami.
As turbulent Ebisu’s existence is with his high reincarnation rate, Iwami is a dependable constant for Ebisu who will never change. And some part of this dependability is what Ebisu would want from a guardian: the kind his own parents had never shown him. While Izanagi and Izanami had abandoned him, Ebisu can trust Iwami to be there to guide his next incarnations even if he dies. (inserting a bit of headcanoning here, but adult Ebisu’s bluntness really looks like he takes after Iwami)
But before I go into anything specific about the Ebisu and Iwami dynamic, let’s run through the fundamentals of the Noragami world: what gods’ natures are and what shinki/guideposts are for.
In Noragami, gods are born from human wishes: no matter how big or small. The nature of those gods then depends on that wish, and it is sculpted specifically to enable them to fulfil the wish. However, gods have no innate concept of right and wrong and are therefore “justified” in doing anything their nature dictates them to do.
This would have been disastrous for the mortal world if it were not for shinki keeping the god they serve in check. Because shinki were once human, they can guide their gods to act in ways more acceptable to humans. We can call this the “nurture” to the god’s “nature”.
A guidepost is given an additional task besides their usual duties as shinki, and it’s Ebisu himself who introduces to us to guideposts.
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A guidepost's responsibility is to show their gods the way and protect their name. Well, what exactly is the way? Isn’t it a bit vague? But that’s the whole point. There are infinite ways a god can be true to their nature. If we look at Yato for instance, his recurrent urge (and perhaps nature) to “cut things up” has manifested itself in killing people for centuries under Father’s instructions. 
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It’s Yukine who points out that he can use this to “slice and rip chaos itself into shreds” after he consults him. He isn’t changing who Yato's nature to cut things: all he’s doing is interpreting it for him to better suit what he wants.
There are as many ways to be a guidepost as there are ways to be a god, because each guidepost interprets ‘protecting their god’s name’ differently. That’s how we go from Kazuma, who will do anything to protect Bishamon, to Kiun, who would kill Takemikazuchi to save his master’s good name. That’s why it’s important for a god to have a guidepost after their own heart: so they can be led the way they want to go (and also why having someone else choosing a god’s guidepost for them has such a serious impact).
When it comes to bringing up a god, Iwami’s certainly had much more expertise over the average guidepost/shinki. Be it trial and error over millennia or just old-age wisdom on Iwami’s part, Ebisu receives a pretty comprehensive education on being a god from Iwami.
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Because we’ve seen Ebisu before and after reincarnation, we can compare the effects of his inborn “nature” and Iwami’s “nurture” on him. An example would be this (this is still a bit rickety logic-wise, but I thought it might be worth some discussion): one of adult Ebisu’s defining characteristics is his strong will that drives him to extreme lengths to make humans happy, even if it means sacrificing himself.
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But from what we see from our newest Ebisu, patience... doesn’t look as “in his nature” as he says.
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And if you squint, there's something interesting about Iwami’s lectures to restless, impatient teenagers:
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Ebisu doesn’t seem to apply the virtue to himself (as an adult, he never does learn to tie his shoes or take care of himself, with Kunimi around) but we see this strong will reflected in his efforts to tame ayakashi. A lot of determination goes into putting himself through intense pain and eventual death just for a shot at reducing human suffering. Iwami teaches Ebisu to persevere so he won’t give up on what he wants to accomplish.
And think about a guidepost’s responsibility to nurture a god’s potential, teach them to know right and wrong, give them advice they need, especially the way it’s done for a god who is a child/young man for half the time... these duties are eerily similar to those of a parent's. 
Everything Iwami does is to supplement Ebisu’s nature: equipping him with all he needs to achieve his goals. However, for how instrumental he is to Ebisu’s upbringing, a crucial duty Iwami fails to do for Ebisu is being a proper guidepost: actually giving him his purpose as a god. 
Iwami’s line of thought as a guidepost is very passive: in fact, it’s so passive that the important instructions he gives to Ebisu are never from himself. 
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These panels sum up Iwami’s philosophy. Seeing that Iwami had been a very old man for his time when he died, he’d want someone as young and (technically) full of life as Ebisu to live his life being free to do what he wants, without interference from someone who has already lived theirs. So fearing that his words might force Ebisu down a path he wouldn’t have taken otherwise, he passes down instructions to Ebisu only if they are “as per his previous incarnation’s wishes”, which in a way ‘preserves’ Ebisu’s wish across reincarnations. He thinks of influencing Ebisu’s decisions as a sin, and only dares to support him through complementary means: behaving more as his servant than an advisor.
Despite having to keep a healthy distance to avoid appropriating a god, a guidepost’s role is still, at its core, active. In Yato’s aforementioned dilemma, it’s Yukine who thinks up of a different path when Yato is at a loss and helps him figure it out together.
It’s easier to think of guideposts as actual tour guides. While a guide who drags you astray from your intended destination isn’t helpful, neither is a guide who assumes that you’re the one who knows better. Nobody needs a guide if they already know how to get where they want to go.
Iwami’s reservedness extends to the point where he doesn’t share about himself with Ebisu even when directly prompted to:
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Ebisu wants to know about who he was, what he did, and how others saw him, but he doesn’t want the answers delivered through books and journals.
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He wants to hear it from others so he, in turn, can get to know them better through conversation with them.
Ebisu just wants Iwami to talk to him.
For all of his devotion to his master, why does Iwami remove himself from Ebisu like this?
His explanation to Ebisu is that he doesn’t want to change his fate, but can we suspect more to that alibi? There’s a scene in the earlier chapters where High Sentinel Oushi guilt trips Ebisu’s shinki into betraying him:
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The context here refers to the physical pain of Ebisu feels when his shinki are killed, but honestly, for the most time in Ebisu’s household, who's really the one going through “the pain of a child passing on before him”?
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To Iwami, every Ebisu is the little boy he’s raised from childhood (how does that tiny Chibisu up there not remind you of “dad! dad! look!”). Iwami’s there to meet Ebisu when he’s newly reincarnated; he watches him grow, then watches him die. And once Ebisu reincarnates, he can’t even remember his name. 
It’s painful enough for a child to have a parent forget who they are or to have their parent pass away, but the exact opposite happens in Ebisu’s house. It’s Iwami who has his “child” forget him, who has his “child” die before he does.
And after Iwami outlives so many Ebisus, he has to raise him again and relive the nightmare. Ebisu has the ‘luxury’ (if you can call it that) of forgetting Iwami; Iwami doesn’t. The worst part is that Iwami exists to remember everything about the past Ebisu for the next one.
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If Iwami keeps building close relationships with every Ebisu he serves, it’s only going to make his inevitable deaths and reincarnations more painful to bear. For the sake of carrying Ebisu’s wishes across incarnations, Iwami has to detach himself from his master so he won’t fall apart from the emotional toll that comes with it.
Iwami probably doesn’t even have the heart to directly tell Ebisu about his past incarnations and their wish to tame ayakashi. Instead, he’s always told Ebisu to read his predecessors’ journals, which inevitably include information on the subject. And precisely because Ebisu isn’t shown an alternative way to be the god Ebisu (and especially since his journals are all the pointers he has about who he supposedly was as an adult), he ends up thinking that taming ayakashi and carrying out his previous self’s wishes is the only way to be Ebisu. After that, Iwami can rationalise that it had been Ebisu himself who made the choice and that he is now obligated to help Ebisu to achieve it.
While Iwami has his own reasons for not sharing too much with Ebisu, Ebisu reads this silence as coldness towards him, that he’s not important enough to Iwami to be allowed to know him better. The flashback of Ebisu with the books shows Iwami facing Ebisu, but in Ebisu’s mind, it’s as good as though Iwami had turned away from him there and then: remaining both physically and emotionally removed. Iwami is abandoning Ebisu to himself.
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No matter the incarnation, Ebisu still bonds much quicker with Iwami than other shinki, even Kunimi, his current guidepost. It’s clear who Ebisu’s favourite is.
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Ebisu constantly looks to Iwami for guidance, but Iwami keeps silent, thinking it would be best if Ebisu lives his own life without input from him. The flaw in this approach is that its result hurts both Ebisu, who doesn’t want to die, and Iwami, who doesn’t want Ebisu to die either.
This vicious circle keeps them trapped in lives they are unhappy in. Unless Ebisu is shown a different path by Iwami, he can’t change from the one his predecessors took. And unless Ebisu changes what he wants to do, Iwami can’t show him anything else but what his predecessors have always done. 
The circle has long-term effects too: with each passing incarnation, Ebisu feels even more pressured to follow in his predecessor’s footsteps, and Iwami has to keep withdrawing himself from Ebisu, all while receiving the reinforced impression that Ebisu does wants to continue this self-destructive work.
By telling Ebisu to live and act on his own wish, Yato has already dealt a significant blow to the circle. But reforming only Ebisu’s mentality isn’t enough to permanently get rid of it; Iwami’s mindset must also change.
Up till now, Iwami’s been “protecting Ebisu’s name” by supporting whatever Ebisu decides to do, letting him finish what he had started in his previous lives. But after Kazuma’s confrontation, Iwami finally acts on a desire to protect the current Ebisu, not just Ebisu's “wishes” anymore. 
Father’s defeat is as important to Ebisu as it is to every other character.  Notice that when Kazuma tries to get Iwami to give him something helpful to stop Father, he tells Iwami “the root cause is clear", and that he could put an end to Ebisu’s fate of living short lives by helping destroy Father.
From the flashbacks, Ebisu has been tailing Father's work ever since he retrieved the first Koto no Ha (the flashback where baby Ebisu discovers a mask is from the Heian era, which approximately when Father starts using masks). Father has been using his masks to wreak havoc in the mortal world, but because Ebisu is right behind him learning how to tame them (even if it’s from scratch), Father has a form of check and balance, no matter how crude or underdeveloped it may be. Though Ebisu himself doesn’t yield much success in actually taming ayakashi, his accumulated knowledge about it alone can help other characters take Father down.
There are many reasons why Ebisu follows his predecessors’ wishes that stem from inertia, but Father has been the active reason why Ebisu cannot afford to stop taming ayakashi. 
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What’s especially tragic about this set of panels is that Iwami’s wish for the young Ebisu had always been for him “to be whatever his heart desires”. Instead, in his efforts to preserve Ebisu’s ‘wish’ across incarnations, he’s ended up achieving the exact opposite.
And that’s why Iwami agrees to help Kazuma, even if it means breaking an old promise to Ebisu. Change starting to happen: from someone who had been afraid of deviating from the previous Ebisu’s wishes, Iwami now hopes to save the current Ebisu from having to die continuously by betraying his predecessor.
Once the sorcerer is stopped, Ebisu’s fate won’t be limited to taming ayakashi, and he'll be able to be a god of fortune without having to die for it. Iwami will finally be allowed to raise a single Ebisu, one who will no longer die young and forget him. And Ebisu could really use a father who can show that he cares for him.
(sorry this is so long I got pretty carried away with this lmao)
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imagineclaireandjamie · 7 years ago
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So I have an idea what if Claire was a 21st century woman and not a 20th century. Then meet Jamie how wpuld that go
A continuation from Part 1.i - envisioning Jamie as a 21st century man too but with his 18th C morals and values thrown in
As Yet Unread: Prologue - Part 1.ii:
With the back of the house now done, and the lounge on the cusp of completion, the weeks began to fly by. Steadily, Murtagh and Jamie ticked off another two rooms until all they had left to work on was the hall. In two and a half months they had successfully replaced and maintained all seven rooms and had even managed to resurrect the smoking room floor without having to fully replace the boards.
Randall had returned, praised them on a job well done and promptly disappeared again on another one of his long business trips.
“Do ye think he’ll be back before we finish the job?” Murtagh asked one day as he swept the dust from the floor before they packed up and left for the day.
“He meant to be,” Claire interrupted, appearing as if from nowhere with a tray of sandwiches. Her visits to them had been regular but between Murtagh’s constant glare and Claire’s newly discovered shyness her and Jamie had adopted a level of formality that allowed them to dampen the closeness they’d developed before. “He sends his apologies, but he doesn’t think he’ll be back much before the end of the month and I assume you’ll be done by then?” She added kindly.
“Gi’ us two more weeks, lassie,” Murtagh said, leaning over to pick an egg and cress butty from Claire’s selection, “and we’ll be done, packed up and out of yer hair. Ye’ll be glad of it; you’ll literally be able to let the dust settle.” He joked whilst munching on his early evening snack.
“Have you got anything lined up for the summer?” Claire asked, making small talk as if she didn’t want them to leave for the night. She seemed more antsy than usual and Jamie had to keep his hands secured in his pockets so as not to stride across the room and pull her against his chest.
“Actually…we do!” Jamie announced proudly. “Glasgow University need a wee restoration jobbie that we’re going to once we’re done here.” Having only received the call for the job at the weekend, Jamie and Murtagh were still riding the high of it and it had given Jamie the boost he needed to drag him out of the minor slump he’d found himself in. At least they wouldn’t be unemployed.
“That’s great news!” Claire said excitedly. “I know how happy Jack has been with your work, you really are extremely talented - to get all of this done in three months to such a high standard, the university would have been silly to hire anyone else. I mean, the craftsmanship you’ve displayed here has been exemplary.”
“It proves that word of mouth is pretty powerful in this city,” Murtagh added, “Wi’ Lord Thomas and Mr Randall as clients, others are really starting to take notice of us. And thank ye, Claire. Yer food and cups of tea have gotten us through many a long day, aye? I think you can take some credit for our speed and finesse.”
Claire blushed madly before covering the remaining sandwiches up with cling film and stepping backwards. “I-I’m sure that’s not true,” she stuttered, placing her hand on the bannister as she placed her foot on the first step, “though I’m glad you’re not at the mercy of the horrors of builders brew.” Shedding her nerves as quickly as she acquired them, Claire smiled at the men as Murtagh picked up the weighty toolbox and handed it to Jamie wordlessly. “See you tomorrow then?” She added, giving them both a short wave before rushing off back upstairs.
“She’s going to miss ye,” Murtagh said as Jamie turned the van towards the main road and home.
The moment the words left his mouth he kicked himself. Since Jamie’s phone call all those weeks ago neither of them had discussed anything in relation to Claire but Murtagh had been delicately (with Suzette’s advice) assessing the situation to make sure that Jamie wasn’t leaning towards anything daft.
Jamie, though, was often a closed book. He didn’t wear his emotions on his sleeve and he was amazingly good at silently working through any emotional hardships he might be experiencing. However, he had learned those tricks from his father, Brian, who had -in turn- learned them from Murtagh -his wise older brother.
“I get the feeling Randall willna be away as much once we’ve decamped. She won’t be alone for long, I’m sure.” Jamie returned nonchalantly.
Murtagh squinted questioningly. “Aye, yer right, of course.” He answered keeping his voice even. He couldn’t be sure whether Jamie was fibbing to deflect his real feelings or simply being honest. Choosing to trust in Jamie, he shrugged off any concern he might have had and plucked another of Claire’s triangle cut sandwiches from his pocket. “On that note, do ye think you’d be able to close down the project alone? Susie wants to take us on a long weekend and the best deal we can get is next Thursday to Monday…”
“Ye trust me for two days on my own?” Jamie quipped, elbowing Murtagh gently.
“If it means I get to take my lady away wi’ our protege, then aye, of course I do.” Murtagh replied snarkily. “It’s only the edging on the hall boards that ye’ll need to neaten. No’ too difficult job for a wean, aye?”
Pulling the car up beside the curb, Jamie put the van into neutral and pulled up the handbrake. “Go and book yer holiday, uncle Murtagh,” Jamie said quietly, giving Murtagh an honest grin as he waited for him to exit the van. “Ye’ve earned the break after the stress of our first big project combined wi’ the madness of the flu.”
As promised the last pieces of the manor’s floor puzzle came together in two weeks. Murtagh helped with the major work, meaning that Jamie only had the final small tasks to smarten up. With his uncle’s absence, Jamie gave himself not only the Thursday and Friday but the Monday as well, just in case he didn’t manage everything that needed doing.
Sliding his hand over the two hundred year old renovated wooden boards of the sitting room to the left of the hall, he placed his head against the floor and looked across its great empty expanse. It was flat and clean, just as it was meant to be and Jamie felt his chest swell with pride at the sight of it. The edging was done, the boards had been sanded and re-varnished where necessary and the whole ground floor looked as good as it would have done had it just been laid.
“Do you take photographs of these jobs, Jamie?” Claire asked, her floral skirt swaying in the breeze that was flowing through the open door as she stood waiting for him to stand.
“Oh fuck!” Jamie cursed, pushing himself up from where he knelt and holding his hand over his mouth. “Aye, I do. But I’ve left the camera back at my flat. What a stupid dolt!” He self-flagellated, his feet tapping at the fresh panels beneath his feet as he searched his pockets for his keys. “I don’t suppose you have one?”
“No, sorry,” Claire apologised, “I’m sure Jack has one, but he usually takes it with him and even if he’d left it, I couldn’t tell you where it might be kept having no use for it myself.”
“Nay bother,” Jamie continued, his ire decreasing now, “there’s enough daylight left. I’ll just have to go home and get it.”
Just as he’d said the words, his brain ignited with an idea that he knew he’d regret but his heart suddenly took control of his mouth and before he could reason with himself, he’d made the suggestion public. “I ken ye dinna leave, Claire, but ye could come wi’ me…if you like? Ye dinna even have to leave the van, I just–”
“Yes,” Claire answered, her eyes alight with eagerness as she interrupted Jamie’s rambling.
Jamie hadn’t expected her to answer in the affirmative and certainly not so fast and his jaw hung open in shock as he nodded and pointed towards the doorway. “Alright then, excellent.” He said finally, taking hold of her hand and rubbing her shaking fingers beneath his own.
Before he could talk himself out of it and before reason returned to him, Jamie led Claire out of the front door and unlocked the van.
Turning to her, he placed his free hand against her chin and kept his eyes level with hers before asking her the only question that was important now. “Are ye certain, Claire?”
Swallowing audibly, Claire nodded, unable to speak to answer the question.
That was all Jamie needed to open the door and help Claire in.
Handing him her keys, Claire twisted her hands in the material of her skirt and she turned so that she could look up at Jamie. “H-here,” she said anxiously, “please, Jamie, lock the front door for me.”
Smiling softly at her, he did as he was bid, leaving her to contemplate her rash decision as he closed up the house. Jamie could see Claire through the windscreen as he returned back to the van, got into the drivers side and started the engine. He waited for a moment, giving her ample opportunity to change her mind should she wish.
Sitting stoically, Claire couldn’t bring herself to think of the consequences - not whilst she was still in Jamie’s company. She hadn’t been able to contemplate what she’d do for conversation once Jamie and Murtagh left for good and all reason had flown out of the window the moment Jamie had asked her to go with him. She was drawn to him and for reasons unbeknownst to her and even after all the years hidden away, Claire was willing to risk it all for one more hour with Jamie.
“Okay then, Claire?” Jamie asked one final time.
“Okay.” She replied.
Pulling out of the drive and onto the main road, Jamie took one easy breath and then another as the miles disappeared, putting Claire’s prison behind them for the time being. He hadn’t wanted to think of her trapped there but as the fresh air swirled around them in the cab of the van it seemed more and more likely that she hadn’t any anxiety issues keeping her indoors -other than those relating to her relationship with Jack Randall.
“Have ye ever seen the city before, Claire?” Jamie asked, breaking the silence that had enveloped them as the roads began to widen in front of them.
Jamie simultaneously wanted to know everything about Claire whilst knowing so little that he didn’t contemplate stealing her away from that place forever.
“No - not that I can actively recall.” She answered, using formality as an attempt to cover up her apprehensiveness. “I’ve lived here since I was about seventeen or so…” she continued, trailing off as she left the rest to Jamie’s imagination. Staring out of the windscreen, Claire basked in the sunshine as it filtered through the glass keeping her warm and cosy. It was beautiful, even as the houses started to take the place of the rolling fields.
Her silence spoke louder than her words and as he drove them into Glasgow, watching surreptitiously as she glanced this way and that, his thoughts turned more sour. She wasn’t uneducated, that much was clear, she knew enough about the world without ever actually seeing any of it that she could probably adapt quickly but that only reminded him of her position.
As he hit the dual carriageway, his speed increasing exponentially as he hit the accelerator, headed towards his home, Jamie saw Claire hunch her shoulders in shock.
“It’s safe, Claire, I promise. It’s the limit, no faster.”
“It’s alright, honestly,” she replied, although he could tell that it wasn’t.
In no time at all, though, Jamie had pulled off the short stretch of fast road that led to his flat and had adopted a more pleasurable speed. Indicating right, he drove the car slowly into the off-road parking facilities and brought the van to a stop.
“Do you want to come up?” He asked calmly, injecting as much ease into his words as possible. She was starting to relax again but he wouldn’t push her. “You dinna have to.”
“No,” she replied, as quickly as she had back at the manor, making choppy decisions so that she didn’t have much time to think at all, “I’d really like that. I’ve come all this way. I’d love to see where you live…if that’s alright with you?”
“O’ course it is! It’s a good job I threw the hoover round the other day, aye?” Jamie joked, jumping out of the van and rushing around to the passenger door to open it for Claire.
“Oh, you don’t need to worry about that,” Claire returned joyfully, “I’m sure it’s just lovely.”
Linking his fingers through hers, Jamie walked Claire across the asphalt and in through the side door of the newly refurbished flats. They didn’t talk as he took out his keys, guided her through the thin corridor and pressed the button for the lift. Ordinarily he would have taken the stairs, but it was a long way to the top and he wanted to watch Claire’s reactions carefully. Climbing four flights of stairs wasn’t conducive with him being able to do that.
“How long have you lived here, Jamie?” She asked,  her voice simply curious now as they entered the lift and Jamie pressed the button for the fourth floor.
“Ach, only about three years if I remember correctly. The whole block was gutted and rebuilt from the inside out to make it more comfortable living. Murtagh did a lot of work here actually, he taught me all he knew from doing it and him and my da then got me a really good deal on a property. Just wait until ye see the view, aye?” He said with a massive grin plastered across his face.” I’m verra lucky.” He added, not just meaning his good fortune on affording an ample living space.
Only a few short steps away from the lift, Jamie opened the door to his apartment and showed Claire down the long hallway. At the end was a bedroom, with a bathroom just before it and to the right, just next to the entrance to the bedroom, was a large lounge. Ushering her through, Jamie gave Claire the whirlwind tour as he opened doors to show her the various rooms.
“…and just at the end there is the kitchen but it’s here in the lounge where the views are best.”
Sliding open the curtains and pulling up the blinds, Jamie showed Claire the view of the park. The spires of the university sat proudly in the distance, the orange glow of sunset lighting up the familiar red brick spires. It was truly awe-inspiring and Claire, in a bid to get as close to the view as possible, stuck her nose against the glass to get a better look.
“It really is beautiful,” she whispered, misting up the glass with her breath as she spoke.
“Aye, it is.” Jamie replied, standing in the doorway and watching quietly. “Can I make ye a cup of tea, Claire?” He asked, wanting to return the favour. “Maybe a cake? I have some bakewell tart or lemon drizzle. Both handmade. My mam and sister make them and then Jenny, my sister, brings them down when she brings her bairns to visit me and Murtagh. It’s good cake!”
His joy was infectious and Claire almost forgot herself entirely. Pulling herself away from the window, she turned and nodded at Jamie, all thoughts of Jack and her previous life evaporating in an instant. “Homemade cake? Yes please. Anything lemon is wonderful. B-but I’ll just have water if that’s alright with you? I’ve never been much of a hot drink fan.”
Jamie gasped theatrically. “No hot drinks, lass? No tea!” He exclaimed with his hand across his heart. “Are ye even British, Claire?”
Sniggering, Claire covered her mouth as she wiped the nervous sweat from her brow unconsciously. “Who knows, maybe I’m just a ghost.”
It was meant as a joke, but it made both of them stop in their tracks. The statement was partially true. Jamie had assumed that she was a legal British citizen, of course, but locked away in that house, rotting behind closed doors, she might as well have been a figment of his imagination, a spectre that haunted the old halls of the Randall residence.
“Water and cake coming up,” Jamie said, breaking the newly formed tension, “take a seat, aye? I’ll bring it over for you.”
Early evening turned into dusk fairly quickly and before Jamie and Claire knew it, it was dark outside. They’d both consumed a slice of cake each and Jamie had relayed more stories of his family. He’d told Claire about each of his siblings, Willie, the eldest, who’d inherited the family farm. Jenny, the next in line, who’d married her high school sweetheart and started her very own family in one of the cottages on the family land and his younger brother, Rabbie, who was just about to take his A-Levels.
“We’re all so different really,” he said nostalgically, “Willie was always the one I looked up to. He was the wise one. Jenny and I would follow him around like his shadow.”
“They all sound wonderful,” Claire said with a sad smile on her face, “it seems like you had a brilliant childhood.”
“It was loud, that’s fer sure.” He added, clutching his cold cup of tea. “It was only when mam had Rabbie that we realised the value of our wee family, to be honest. It was a stressful time. Mam went into labour and wi’ us living so far away she’d always had home births. But wi’ Rabbie she couldna. Weel, she tried, but–”
The sound of the doorbell ringing echoed through the corridor bringing both Jamie and Claire to a complete standstill.
“Odd,” Jamie mumbled, “Murtagh’s away and nobody else has the access code to get up here.”
Claire’s heart stumbled in her chest as her blood ran cold but she stayed sitting on the settee quietly.
“Might be a neighbour, I willna be long, aye?” He said, standing to see who’d come calling.
Jamie’s hands clenched tightly into fists as he opened the door to the infinitely cool figure of Jack Randall. Smiling that cold smile, Jack tipped his head to the side a little - dissecting Jamie where he stood.
“Mr. Fraser,” he began with veiled nicety covering up who knew what, “may I?” He asked, lifting his arm enough to point into the flat.
Nodding, Jamie moved out of the way and followed Randall down the hall and into the lounge.
“I take it you’ve finished the floors?” He asked, looking only at Claire as he spoke. Jamie tracked his gaze, looking between the pair as if to catch any hint that he meant to cause her harm and somehow finding none. Randall seemed collected. He didn’t appear angry or shocked, simply accepting of the situation as he’d found it. “I’ll have my secretary send you images should you wish to add them to your portfolio, is that alright? You don’t need to come back over then - no need to waste more fuel, is there?”
Putting his hands into the back pockets of his jeans, Jamie nodded again, his mouth too dry to speak coherent words. He knew just by looking at Randall that the man had suspected such an outcome but he had nothing to base the assumption on, no verifiable proof, only the look in Randall’s eye as he smiled across at him.
“Excellent. Come, Claire,” he said, indicating with one flick of his index finger.
As if compelled to go by some invisible string, Claire slid to Randall’s side and bit the inside of her lip as he wrapped his arm around her.
It seemed loving enough, but Jamie felt something utterly feral pass between him, Claire and Randall as he bent down to kiss the top of her head lightly. “Time to go home now, say goodbye to Mr. Fraser.”
“Goodbye,” she said so quietly that Jamie had to strain to hear her.
“Take care,” Jamie added, more of a prayer to the universe to keep her safe than as farewell gesture, “and thank ye for yer hospitality.”
“Good luck, Mr. Fraser,” Randall said, turning just enough so that Jamie could see the dangerous look in his eye as he opened the front door, escorting Claire further away from him as he closed the door calmly behind him.
Jamie waited until he heard the familiar ding of the elevator before he ran his shaky hands through his matted hair. Flopping onto his sofa, he rested where Claire had been sat only moments before. Part of him had no clue what had just transpired between him and Jack Randall. On the outside, to a bystander, the conversation seemed pleasant, nothing untoward about the offer of photographs being sent to a carpenter, but underneath that, buried in the context of Randall’s words, Jamie had detected a darker meaning.
Glancing at the phone, it only took him a moment to make the decision. Picking up his landline, he dialled 999 and waited for the options to kick in. “Police, please,” he said as directed by the friendly machine on the other end. As the receiver clicked through to the call centre situated somewhere in Glasgow, Jamie wasted no time in waiting for the operator to introduce themselves.
“I need to report a crime,” he said, standing to pace the length of his lounge now, the nervous energy pouring out of him as he spoke. “Or a crime that is about to take place, aye? Do ye, can ye do that? Report something ye think *might* occur?” He rambled into the void, his heart pounding mercilessly.
The line crackled a little.
“Of course, sir,” the woman replied, clearly now, “can ye tell me what this is in relation to.”
“A woman, a friend, she’s trapped, I think. She’s going to be hurt, I ken it…”
“Can you give me any names, sir?” The call assistant asked, tapping her pen against her pad as she waited patiently for Jamie to talk.
“Och, aye, a Mr Jack Randall, he’s holding a lassie in his house. We were there, I was there, doing a job for the man. She’s never been out, aye? But it isna because she doesna want to. She came out wi’ me, I took her away but he arrived here, took her back to that house of his and now I’m worried that he means to punish her for leaving.”
“…and the name of the lass, sir?”
“Jamie,” he said quietly, his tone sounding much calmer than he felt, “call me Jamie, aye? And it’s Claire. Though I dinna ken her surname. Randall introduced her as his fiancée, but he didna say her surname.”
“There’s no priors for Mr. Randall, sir, in terms of petty crimes or domestic violence. Did Claire say she was being threatened? That she was being kept against her will in the property, s-Jamie?” The operator continued, the tapping of her computer sounding down the line as she spoke.
“No.” Jamie answered, his head falling forward in resignation as he realised that the likelihood of the police investigating his claims were microscopic. “I just….know, aye? I canna explain it. She didna outright say it. But I dinna think she’s safe - especially not now I coaxed her out of the house and he had to come looking for her.”
“Then, I’m sorry sir,” the woman replied apologetically, “there isn’t much we can do. I can note your call and take a number, if you’d like. Just in case. But if you have no actual evidence of a crime -whether it’s been committed or is about to be- then I canna send an officer out.”
“No’ even for a wee keek, to be sure?”
“No, sir. Sorry, sir. It’s just not in our remit to investigate members of the public on a whim…and Mr Randall has a rather large standing in the community. No’ to say he’s above the law, sir, but we canna send our officers around to question a man wi’out some form of proof. Are ye sure she didna say she was in danger, sir?”
“No,” Jamie sighed, regretfully, “she didna.”
“Can I take yer full name, Jamie?” The operator asked kindly, sensing Jamie’s despair, “I’ll make a note on my system about it just in case.”
“Aye, thank ye. It’s Jamie Fraser and ye can call me on 0141-2002893 if ye need any more information.”
“Thank you Mr. Fraser, goodnight.”
Placing his phone back in the cradle, Jamie closed his eyes and fell against the wall that stood between his bedroom and the lounge. He felt the fight flow from him as his head hit the plaster over and over again. Feeling useless and helpless he thought back to his final moments with Claire, the subdued fear that lay behind her irises as she’d smiled softly at Jack and obeyed his orders.
Jamie hadn’t even offered for her to stay, he’d just let her leave.
Regret coated his tongue as he slammed his fist once against the wall and then stomped into the bathroom to brush his teeth.
“Why,” he muttered to himself angrily, “why didn’t I ask her no’ to leave…”
The week between finishing the old job and starting the new one at the university passed slowly. Jamie received a package with a number of photographs of the floor at Randall’s place along with a pen drive and a small typographically perfect note that only read: ‘For the attention of Mr. J. Fraser.’
Murtagh smiled from ear to ear as he flipped through the photos, his eyes alight with glee as he saw the high quality finish in print for the first time.
Jamie hadn’t breathed a word of his escapades to Murtagh. He hadn’t heard anymore from the police and, although he was desperate to share the burden with someone, he didn’t want Murtagh to worry - either about him or Claire. For now it was his problem. All he could do now was hope that she was safe.
“Did ye hear me, Jamie?” Murtagh asked, slapping Jamie on the arm with the empty brown envelope. “I said; aren’t they good?”
“Yes, sorry Murtagh,” Jamie replied, stirring his mid-morning coffee slowly. “Definitely a grand addition to our portfolio.”
The dull buzz of Jamie’s phone made him jump and he stood, pushing by Murtagh whose mouth was open - poised to ask Jamie what on earth was making him so miserable when the irritating ringing curtailed him.
“Hello, Jamie Fraser of Fraser’s Fixings, how can I help ye?”
“Mr Fraser?” The stern voice asked slowly. “Ye made a report about a week ago and left your number with one of our hotline staff?”
“Aye,” Jamie replied, his heart leaping into his throat, “I did, what of it?”
Crossing himself, he prayed Claire safe again, his palms sweating at the mere thought of her coming to harm because of his actions.
“There’s been a development. A Claire Beauchamp has been admitted to Glasgow A&E, Mr. Fraser. We need you to come and make a statement, if you wouldn’t mind…”
“How is she?” Jamie interrupted, sweat sliding down his spine as he tried his best to stay upright.
“Claire is in intensive care, Mr. Fraser. As of now it’s quite serious,” the officer on the end of the line confirmed, his tone sorrowful and low as he spoke soothingly to Jamie, “she’s critical, I’m afraid.”
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qwertythepopstarian08 · 7 years ago
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Tick and the Moon
Edit: This is part one of a series taking place pre-canon
RPG?! and all related characters belong to me!
Contains RPG?! spoilers! Read at your own risk!
Warning: Angst, spoilers, Celestials, Breeze being rude
Word Count: 1487
Description: Over the course of several Starless Nights, Breeze discovers something strange about her best friend.
The tense in this one jumps around a bit, so be warned.
Breeze had only gone Celestial once in her life. 
She could remember the night strangely clearly, hearing herself screech and cry, kicking and clawing at nothing while her siblings, terrified, tried vainly to hold her down. Her own parents had backed away from her, watching as their little flying fox kit hissed and snapped at them, practically deaf to their pleads. 
She remembers running outside, static and color buzzing in her vision, tears streaming from her eyes as the unnatural tantrum ran its course. They’d called the Order of the Moon to take her, to scrape inky runes into her wings, to siphon the magic away and bring her back to her senses for good. 
It still haunts her, and she’d never wish it on anyone, not even Index.
Even so, the bat could hardly compare her own trauma to Tick. 
‘Sparkyrs don’t go Celestial,’ she’d thought. ‘They can’t.’ 
That’s what she’d been told hundreds of times, on Starless Nights, walking through nigh abandoned parks with her Pix friend. He’d reassured her, each and every time, that he’d never be one of them, even when she broke down recalling her horrific experience, when he sat down with her at a bench, cupping her tear-stained face in his paws, whispering reassurance to her. 
But words could do nothing to stop the moon. 
The moon had no qualms against hurting people, even on Movie Night.
A mere thirty minutes into the first movie, Breeze’s nightmare came true.
She’d only had a moment to react as Tick’s violet eyes filled with a distant fear, his entire frame quivering. Concerned, the bat reached to pause the television, but a spastic flick from her axolotl friend’s tail sent the remote flying.
“Tick?” the name left her lips breathlessly, worry and terror swirling and settling into the pit of her stomach. “Are you okay?”
“Get out,” he hissed. His screen glitched, and the axolotl creature shuddered, dozens of fizzling images dancing across the interface. “Now.”
Breeze found herself stepping closer, reddish eyes stinging with tears. Millions of questions buzzed through her head, and she absently touched the scarred rune on her good wing, feeling the protective magic blossoming to life. 
“Tick, what are you-”
“Breeze, just get out!” It was then that he shoved the flying fox, a little harder than he meant to, error signs filling his screen. 
Blind with fear, Breeze could hardly recall what happened next. 
She could vaguely remember dashing through the door just as the last bit of sentience left the Sparkyr’s eyes, her own discolored gaze blurring with tears. Phantom sensations of scraping and clawing ripped at her wings, and she slammed the door, barricading it with her own body. 
Inhuman, electronic howls bellowed from within the room, and the Gothic bat buried her head into her wings, whispering reassurances to herself. 
“Tick, please don’t do this...”
The Celestial only responded with a horrible shriek, a ragged, animalistic cry alerting the flying fox to how far gone he was. 
“You said you’d never slip.” Breeze’s voice was hollow as the corrupted Pix clawed at the door, her mind swimming with hopes that his sapience hadn’t remained enough for him to figure out the door handle. “You said you wouldn’t, and I believed it.”
This wasn’t the first time an empty promise had hurt her. Harmful memories of a friendship gone wrong stabbed at her heart, and the flying fox sighed shakily, listening as the Celestial axolotl’s raging cries started to calm. It wasn’t sunrise yet, but Breeze reasoned that the less than reliable battery life of Sparkyrs was shining through, even with the added adrenaline. 
“I’ll never forgive you for this,” she hissed. She knew that he couldn’t understand her now, but it felt good to vent, easing her worries as she talked over the creature’s pathetic growls.
As the remaining noise began to quiet, Breeze stood, wiping her eyes. A bit of fear crept in the back of her mind, and she sighed, turning to face the door. Without a second thought, she opened the door, ready to face whatever was inside.
The second time is at the park. Breeze is a bit wiser, a bit more cautious, watching the moon with a glare even as Tick carries on, almost oblivious of the impending danger. 
Not even Azalea has shown its glow, and the flying fox silently hopes that Tick won’t be impacted by Celeste tonight, if only to rekindle the trust between them. She won’t admit it, but a foreign sensation of fear sends chills down her spine when he looks at her now, as if he was dangerous. 
She has to stop herself from screaming when the first error message pops up. 
Tick swats at his own face, as if he could shoo the glitch away, laughing nervously as the pair crosses under some low-hanging tree branches. Normally, Breeze would have laughed when her tall friend’s solar panel gills got tangled in the branches, but she can only stare as more and more fizzling images flash across his screen, annoyance painting his bright features momentarily. 
“What’s wrong?” She doesn’t know why she asks, but the question leaves her blankly, a small frown curving at the corners of her mouth. 
Startled, the axolotl looks to her, a trace of paranoid worry flickering in his eyes, which are already starting to look vacant. The corruption’s slower this time, and Breeze squints when she catches a glimpse of a half-done Moon Rune messily scratched into one of Tick’s gills, as if he’d tried to do it himself. 
Despite herself, she grabs him by the arm, yanking him down to her level to see the messy shape, ignoring the fear building in her heart. 
“What did you do to yourself?” she growls. Her eyes dart between Tick’s hollow gaze and the pattern, skepticism welling up in her even as the rune glimmers weakly, vainly attempting to ward off the impending Celestial transformation. 
“I wanted you to trust me again.” 
He knows Sparkyrs aren’t supposed to be affected, even as the lights on his screen and around his wrists and ankles begin to shine unnaturally. Breeze wants to scold him, but it’s too late. 
Tick whimpers, “I’m sorry,” and then he’s gone, the Celestial yanking his arm from Breeze as it collapses onto all fours, electronic beeping filling the air. 
It’s as if the axolotl’s AI has been overwritten, the concern and regret in his gaze fading quickly into rage, all of which directed at Breeze. 
The Moon Rune scraped into his gills pulses weakly, but Breeze knows that it can’t affect him anymore. It shouldn’t be able to; he’s a Sparkyr.
Screeching, the corrupted being narrows its eyes at the flying fox, who backs away, the flashbacks already resurfacing and blurring her vision. 
“Tick... it’s me...” she tries, but the lumbering victim only hisses, its only warning before it starts to race towards her. 
Breeze can only remember the adrenaline rushing through her, her wings pumping the air as she flew, far from her friend, taking to the sky for the first time in years. 
The memories of the last two times were enough to send Breeze running when a third Starless Night fell. 
Surely it was justified when she fled, slamming the door in Tick’s face. 
Surely it was right to block his desperate pleas out with angered screams. 
It had to be okay, had to be the best choice to pretend he wasn’t there, if only to block out the memories. 
But when minutes passed, and no screams were heard but her own, the bat began to question her own fear, doubting herself when all she heard was a small tapping noise, like the sound of someone drumming their fingers against a table when bored. 
When she stopped yelling, voice hoarse and dry, all she heard was tapping...
She cracked the door open, expecting a Celestial to be found. Her heart quickened with anxiety as moonlight poured from within the room, almost like a haze as something within shifted. 
She didn’t dare call out to Tick, forcing her shudders to cease as she peered inside, eyes narrowed. The magical light around her was siphoned away the longer she stood, the crescent moon on her wing glimmering. 
It wasn’t until the flying fox stepped fully into the room that she saw him, sitting cross-legged on the floor, his tail swishing calmly. Not a single glitch or error marred his screen, the tiny, messy Moon Rune on his top-left-most gill shining. It’s a bit less scribbled now, Breeze having helped fix it, though she knew it wouldn’t help anyway.
Breeze had always wondered why a supposedly pure-blooded Sparkyr had been able to go Celestial, why it had taken so long to take effect. 
“Hey, Breeze,” he greeted softly. 
Something about his serene smile wasn’t right, and the Gothic bat had to suppress a scream when he grinned widely to reveal a mouth full of shining fangs.
“I guess the Where genes finally showed themselves. Um... care to join me for some tea?”
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Lance puts his foot down, and Shiro/Slav have a long overdue talk.
Shiro never figured Lance for the snapping type. They all had their moments, under the constant stress of intergalactic rebellion, but Lance kept a reasonably calm lid on it – his self-titled “rivalry” with Keith aside. Looking at him now, there is only surprise at the way he’s holding himself, the set of his expression: Lance looks both nervous and pissed off.
‘Keith – could you give us a minute?’ he says, in a deliberately calm voice. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees Keith hesitate, as if reading the tenseness of the situation and worrying that it might get out of hand. ‘Now, Keith. Go check on Slav’s sector.’
Reluctantly, and with a suspicious look at them both, Keith exits. Lance looks even more nervous when he does. More so when silence settles on them, and he raises a brow at Lance. Well? says the look, say what you have to.
‘I just… you’re way too hard on him,’ Lance repeats, a far cry from the irritated way he’d snapped Can’t you just cut Slav some slack? ‘He’s trying to help, Shiro. I-it’s not… he doesn’t mean to annoy you. It’s just how he… is.’
‘Excuse me?’ His previous calm turns to surprise. He keeps his voice low, not meaning to menace – but Lance scowls a little deeper, mistaking it for nonchalance. ‘Don’t, Shiro. You sound just like Iverson when you do that, a-and he was an ass,’ Lance says, voice rising only in pitch. Angry and nervous, like a cornered cat. Shiro takes a small step back to give him breathing room, but Lance stays tense. ‘Slav only wants to help. You treating him like a nuisance isn’t – it’s not fair, okay. He can’t help being jumpy; he was a prisoner for ages –’
It takes a second or two for that to sink in. When Shiro goes quiet, when his stare goes vacant as he processes this, Lance steps forward, speech picking up momentum as he grew more defensive.
‘– and it’s not easy to adapt out here,’ there’s a note of hurt in his voice, and it hits Shiro more than the chastising. ‘Slav got taken from his people and thrown into a war just like we did. He’s handling it different. YOU handled it different, we all did. I thought you’d understand him because of it, since you both got tortured by the Galra.’
That’s almost an accusation, and now Shiro fully understands what has Lance so fired up, so recalcitrant. And that understanding brings with it a sense of guilt, especially with the way Lance had said I THOUGHT you’d understand.
Looking back on it – on every time he’d spoken with Slav – how could he have missed this one glaring fault? Shiro had always been so discerning before, so willing to be patient. That was a trademark of the Black Paladin, was it not? Wasn’t it supposed to be? But Lance is right. He’s been short with Slav, and reactive, and hurried. However much it irked him that Slav’s panics and interference slowed them down at inopportune moments – hadn’t he been the same, once?
The Galra, God, those bastards, trained it into him. To always be on guard, to always be wary, to survive was to keep your wits about you, and know the consequences of every action. His bionic arm clenches its fist, the internal whirr of it under his skin reminding him how long ago his own escape had been. How uneasy he’d been following Ulaz, and trusting his surroundings. Not a far cry from Slav, he realises, with another pang of guilt. Was that why he was so sharp with his fellow survivor – because they were alike, but still miles apart in reaction to freedom? The fist clenches tighter, unwanted memories threatening to flood his mind. How long had Slav been locked up? What did they do?
Stupid questions; questions he could guess at. Questions he asked himself when they rescued Slav, and things he was always dimly aware of. One survivor to another, always aware. But he let his temper get the better of him regardless, and the shame of it sits tight in his gut.
‘Shiro?’ Lance’s voice reaches him eventually – hearing it as if it were a picture blurred out at the edges. Shiro blinks, and the horrified look on the blue Paladin’s face swims into clear focus. ‘I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have mentioned the Galra tortu – I mean, I shouldn’t have said that –`
He’d gone quiet for so long, Lance must’ve assumed he was remembering something awful, or worse – reliving it. Shiro takes a deep, steadying breath, and straightens up. Lance continues to fret.
‘I’m sorry, I’ll just shut –’‘Lance…’‘I wasn’t trying to upset –’‘Lance.’
There’s a little something of Slav’s mannerisms in Lance, Shiro notes. If he weren’t so sure their blue Paladin was protective and fair by nature, Shiro might have assumed he was speaking up for more than just Slav by standing up to him. Who knew? Perhaps he was. Either way, Shiro knew what he had to do, now.
‘It’s okay,’ he begins, to which Lance looks startled. ‘I’m fine. And I should be less harsh with Slav.’‘W-wait. What?’‘It’s not something a leader should do, and I need to speak to Slav about it. Apologise, too. Thank you for standing up on that point, Lance.’
His voice is tired, and he knows. Lance still looks as if he’s worried Shiro might throw him in detention, or worse. Yell at him. That thought makes him pause, another inkling settling into his head. That day he’d yelled at Slav, Lance and Pidge had seen him lose his temper. You sound just like Iverson when you do that. Oh, God.
‘You’re not… mad?’ Is that relief in Lance’s voice, or confusion? ‘Doesn’t matter,’ Shiro replies, briefly touching a hand to Lance’s shoulder. Gratefully, solemnly. As if saying Don’t try and be apologetic for doing the right thing. ‘You were right. And I need to do something about it.’
Shiro assumes the shoulder-height pile of assorted wires, metal panels, and lenses contains Slav. The shrill voice emanating from within the mess, all loaded into an open panel of a metal hull, echoes around the empty construction room. ‘Who taught the green one to set wires? Now I have to re-set –`
‘It’s me, Slav,’ He knocks on the hull thrice, hoping not to startle, and the clatter inside the metal puddle stops instantaneously. ‘Have you got a minute?’
Slowly, Slav’s antennae poke through the wires. The whites of his eyes are just visible in the shadow, and soon, his whole head emerges, bearing the look of one extremely displeased with the interruption. Shiro clears his throat.
‘Time is of the essence,’ Slav points a finger as he says it, and the consternation isn’t lost on Shiro: a sharp twinge in his chest tells him these are words he’s most likely said to Slav, when urging him to work faster, or just stop stalling. ‘You want an Earth minute?’‘Just – just a moment of your time,’ Shiro corrects hastily, gesturing for Slav to come join him. He does, after a few tics of staring at Shiro with the greatest suspicion. Badly hidden anxiety.
More guilt, that. Shiro’s shoulders droop when he notices.
‘Is it serious?’ Slav asks.‘No,’ and then, ‘I mean – it is, but it’s a personal matter. Not rebellion-related.’‘Then I do not see how it is relevant. We are wasting valuable tics –’ ‘I wanted to apologise,’ Shiro cuts in, aware of how sharply he’d said it. Immediately, he softens; Slav recoiled ever so slightly, both in shock and bewilderment. ‘I wanted to… say sorry for being so rough these last few days.’
He used to be better at this. Better at levelling with other people, one-on-one. He could talk Keith out of a huff, talk Iverson down from his stretches of temper at Keith’s occasional flare-ups. He could reassure Matt on the impending separation from earth, from his sister, from home. He used to be more patient. Was there no reality that Slav could see, where he still was? He’d have to try for that reality to become THIS reality.
‘You’ve been doing amazing work,’ he continues, after a long pause. ‘And doing it for us willingly, at great risk to yourself. I’ve been less than civil on a number of occasions, and I… would like you to know, I am very sorry for it.’Slav squints, the feelers on his head and chin quivering anxiously. Unsure if it was a trick or not, apparently. After a hesitant few attempts, he speaks.
‘You… do not like my input on matters,’ A statement, or a question? He seems to be demanding something of Shiro: an answer, or confirmation. ‘It annoys you.’
Shiro doesn’t know what to say. It’s true, Slav’s little idiosyncrasies grate on his nerves sometimes. He nods, sighs, then hunches over where he sits, elbows resting on his knees. Slav coils his lower half to sit near, still staring intently at the frustrated Paladin.
‘When we met, I – it was such a tense situation, trying to escape,’ casting an apologetic glance at Slav, who’d looked uneasy at the memory, Shiro barrels on. ‘Trying to navigate you through those halls, especially when the other Paladins were in trouble and needed me… it wasn’t easy keeping my cool. And after that, too, it never stopped being tense.’
He thinks about it more than he ought to now. He’d never stopped to ask what attachment Slav had to that blanket he was so determined to smooth the right way. He’d seemed so docile until a dangerous possibility presented itself – the frenetic energy rolling from Slav then had been aggravating.
‘But it’s not an excuse,’ he says, at long last. ‘I pushed myself so hard when I escape. Kept telling myself I had to make every moment count, to not waste time because… because I have to lead this team, stop the Galra… I pushed hard to get over what happened to me. I didn’t,’
Slav, tentatively uncoiling to lean forward, is looking more and more tired as Shiro continues. Perhaps he understood the need to fill every space in his brain with their mission, to not let a single minute go to waste, to minimise all risks… To cope, the best way he knew how. Shiro looks Slav full in the eye, the barest flicker of recognition in him when he sees the exhausted look mirrored back at him.
‘I didn’t get over it. I don’t expect you to, either. What they did… it… it’s been so long since I was freed, I guess I forgot how much of a mess I was when I first escaped,’ Slav slumps a little, antennae twitching. Shiro pauses only to put a hand over Slav’s clasped ones. He flinches, but doesn’t pull away – Shiro takes that encouragingly. ‘I forgot how hard it was to come back. But I understand, now, how different all this has been for you… and I’m sorry.’
The coiled body shivers, the bowed head not rising an inch. There is a beat of stillness so worrying, Shiro thinks he’s said the wrong thing again.
‘I wish I could forget,’ Slav says, slowly. ‘It’s a comfort to know there was a time, in some reality, it never happened. To either of us.’‘I know. But what we’re doing here, it’ll make sure that reality doesn’t occur in any more lifetimes here.’
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The Flies
It was always raining when I walked to work. Some days thick, fat droplets oozed from the sky onto my face; other days I was pelted with hard, fast raindrops, more like hail, which soaked me to the bone and left me with a chill that lingered long after I had dried off. Today the rain was almost unperceivable to begin with. It wasn’t until you had been outside for a few minutes that you realized the thin blanket of mist that coiled itself around you had completely encased you in a thin layer of precipitation.
I passed an old, run-down shed that had been abandoned and left to rot many years before I was born. Someone had spray-painted “STEVE LOVES JENNY 4EVER” on it in bright red. Steve Waters had gone to high school with me. We had gym class together my freshman year and he walked around unabashedly naked in the locker rooms. He was not the Steve who professed his love for Jenny on the side of an old, run-down shed that had been abandoned and left to rot. Steve Waters had killed himself last July. One morning he had taken his dad’s shotgun, locked himself in the upstairs bathroom, and shot himself in the mouth, painting the eggshell walls a bright red. His mom didn’t find him until the bright red blood had dried and changed to a dingy brown. She said he looked peaceful, that he was wearing a halo made of chunks of brain matter and shards of skull.
I didn’t think of Steve Waters that particular day. I hardly ever thought of Steve Waters anymore. I reached my destination, a small grocery store called Smith’s Groceries. It was shoved between Johnson’s Hardware and Brown’s Liquor. Smith, Johnson, and Brown were all dead by now with the exception of George Smith, the owner of Smith’s Groceries. George was my boss and he was very old. The only thing I could ever remember about his physical appearance were his hands—wrinkled and gnarled, covered in liver spots and always shaking.
I worked at Smith’s Groceries most days of the week. Sunday was my only day off but today wasn’t Sunday. Today was either Wednesday or Thursday, I wasn’t sure which. I always got those two days confused. On Wednesdays or Thursdays, it was suggested that I arrive around ten in the morning. As I opened the front door, a little bell above me jingled. The clock on the wall said ten fifty-five.
The store was very small, very cluttered, and had a poor selection of food. Most days, especially Wednesdays or Thursdays, I stocked shelves, did inventory, and bagged groceries. George said I could work the register on Sundays but Sunday was my only day off so I never worked the register. Most of the time no one did and sometimes, when George ventured out of his office on the second floor, he did. Today the register was left unmanned. When this happened, which was more often than not, any customer who was unfortunate enough to wander into the store and want to purchase something would have to be turned away. The customer would stand at the register, growing increasingly irritated as the minutes ticked by. They would brandish whatever item they desperately needed to be in their possession and call out to me, “Hey, you!”
I was always sweeping the floor when this happened. I didn’t see the point in responding to them. I only would have known how to work the register on a Sunday and this was Wednesday or Thursday. Unfortunately, silence was not known to appease the customers. Often they would come close to mine, their faces only inches from me, and shout, veins bulging from their necks and foreheads, their faces turning a bright red. Little beads of spittle would fly from their lips to mine. No matter how loud they yelled, I never heard a word they said when they got this close to me. I often ended up staring blankly at them, unable to meet their gaze, only able to focus my eyes on their mouths. Eventually, when their throats became raw and they lost their voices, they would tire and leave. By that point, there was no reason for me to continue sweeping—all the customers had left the store—and I would begin inventory or stocking shelves or counting how many dead flies were on the windowsills.
Five customers came into the store on this particular Wednesday or Thursday and five customers left empty-handed and empty-voiced. The hours ticked by. There were four more dead flies on the windowsills than there had been last week.
I had been taking inventory for about an hour when the clock stopped moving. I put down my clipboard and made my way to the old staircase hidden in the back of the store. It was behind the produce section, in between the withering lettuce and blackening bananas and soggy cucumbers. The fruits and vegetables glared up at me with wide, accusing eyes as I tried to squeeze by them. They knew I was to blame for their slow, torturous deaths. They knew that I had brought them here to rot, that I was the reason they had been ripped from their homes and their families. I avoided eye contact, slipped by them as quietly as possible, and began to ascend the narrow stairs.
They were rickety, worn, and surprisingly steep. With each step I took, they let out a moan of disapproval. It was no surprise that George seldom left his office to make the treacherous climb down the stairs. Someone of his age would surely slip and fall to his death and, as the office doubled as a small apartment for him, he rarely had any need to leave. At the top of the stairs was a door with a panel of frosted glass on the top marked “PRIVATE” in large, faded, official-looking letters. Big band music played softly from behind the door. I knocked. There was no response. I tried a second time and again, nothing. When I turned the doorknob, I found the office had been left unlocked. I let myself in.
Inside, the room was dark. George had drawn the shades (or maybe he had never opened them). I flicked a light switch and faint light cascaded down from a bulb hanging from the center of the ceiling. The office was just like the rest of the store—cluttered and small. The lighting was so dim that I had to squint to make anything out. The desk was covered in paperwork. The floor had half-empty food containers scattered all around it. And on the small cot that I assumed was George’s bed, a figure lay.
I moved closer to the cot, careful not to disturb any of the discarded food. Upon closer inspection, the figure on the cot turned out to be George—or, more accurately, what had once been George and was now simply George’s body. Whatever spark that made a human animate had left him hours ago.
I knelt next to the corpse. I could hear a fly buzzing in my ear. George’s eyes were open and he was staring at the ceiling. A faint smile danced on his lips. His hands were resting gently by his sides. They were still wrinkled and gnarled, they were still covered in liver spots. But something was off about them, something that disturbed me far more than his vacant stare and lifeless body. The fly began to buzz louder. Irritated by the sound, I swatted it away. My palm collided with its small body and it fell to the ground, stunned. George’s hands were completely still, no longer shaking as they always had when he was alive.
I stood up quickly, crushing the fly under the sole of my left shoe. I backed away from the corpse, knocking over pizza boxes and Chinese takeout containers. On the floor of the office, the fly’s legs waved brokenly back and forth. I stared at the fly, my eyes focusing in on those tiny legs, unable to step on it a second time, unable to put it out of its misery, unable to do the humane thing and end its suffering. And yet I couldn’t tear my eyes away from the small, almost lifeless body on the floor. After a minute or two, the legs stopped waving and I was the only living creature left in the room.
I ripped my eyes from the bodies in the room and turned around, exiting the small office. I didn’t shut the door behind me. The office tended to get stuffy and I didn’t want George or the fly to be uncomfortable. Down the stairs, past the vegetables (don’t make eye contact, they know what you did), past the register, past the flies on the windowsill (was that your fault too?), and finally out into the cool, evening air.
Lola Cassidy was waiting for me. I had known Lola since eighth grade. Lola was very, very thin and did not eat. She waited for me every day after work, except Sundays because I didn’t work on Sundays. Tonight she was holding a green apple in her left hand. She smiled when she saw me, a vague, dreamy smile as though she was miles away. I had a theory about Lola, that something had happened between eighth grade and now, something that had switched her dreams and reality around. When she was asleep, which was often, that was when she truly existed. The world I knew Lola in was just a placeholder, something to keep her conscious mind occupied and entertained until her subconscious was ready to take her home again.
We began to walk. All of the streetlights had burned out weeks ago and no one had bothered to fix them. Everything was cloaked in darkness, giving an eerie feel to even the most familiar things. I knew Lola was preparing to speak by the way she pushed her hair behind her ears and tugged at the sleeves of her sweatshirt. Her voice was soft and faint, almost breathy, as though someone had once cut her vocal cords and she was only now learning to talk again, and I had to tilt my head slightly to hear her.
“You know how I was worried about what was gonna happen when the sun burns out? Well, I was watching something on the Discovery Channel or Natural Geographic or CNN or something and there were all these scientists in everyday clothes but really nice everyday clothes so they look like us, like whoever’s sitting at home watching, and we can relate to them but their everyday clothes are nice so we trust them, you know? Anyway, I was watching something and these scientists were saying how—and this isn’t gonna happen for six billion years or something like that so you don’t need to worry—they were saying that the sun’s gonna swallow up the Earth. Isn’t that crazy? We’re all gonna be cremated. I think they even said the Earth’s ashes are gonna get blown around space or something.”
We were still walking. Lola entwined her right pinky with my left one.
“That’s not the saddest part though. The sun isn’t hot enough to become a supernova or whatever so it’s only gonna be able to be a white dwarf in the end. Isn’t that sad? All those years of life for nothing. To just fade away into the background. Humans are all gonna be dead by then so we won’t even be around to remember the sun and it won’t even be able to go out with a bang. I just think it’s so goddamn sad. Doing all that for nothing.” She laughed.
We reached the old, abandoned shed where Steve proclaimed his everlasting love for Jenny. Lola pulled her hand away from mine and handed me the green apple. She smiled at me for a moment, her hair falling in front of her eyes, before dipping her head slightly and looking down at the ground. “Bye,” she said. I watched as she turned and walked back in the direction we had just come from. She didn’t look back.
That was the last time I ever saw Lola. I think she moved to California or her boyfriend stabbed her or her father started touching her again or she overdosed on heroin or she just stopped fucking eating. They were all true or maybe none of them were; I couldn’t remember what they said in the papers and anyway, it didn’t matter because she was gone and the reason wasn’t important because she was gone.
I started walking again. It wasn’t raining and I didn’t think about Steve Waters or George or Lola and I didn’t even think about the flies
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