#these bitches shop at hot topic/spencers

[bitchboi-gogurt]

guys i have a theory

[lynn-writes-things]

jjk characters as types of emos

wc: 2.9k

this was a silly lil idea I had, I had way too much fun writing these lmao

mentions of nobamaki (nobara x Maki), inuokku (Inumaki x yuuta), Miwa x Mechamaru

Tokyo Kids:

Megumi Fushiguro:

- DEFINITELY HAD THE “iTs NoT a PhAsE!!1!1!!” edgy bitch boy phase (ily Megs I’m sorry)

- my chem stan first and foremost (not big on danger days tho; three cheers is his fav album)

- also waterparks and bring me the horizon

- had a BIG black veil brides phase, probably tried to style his hair like Andy biersack and did the makeup to match (but his fav member was probably Jinx if we’re being honest)

- modern day, he fucking loves corpse

- lives in hot topic + spencers every time Gojo takes him to the mall

- you know the leather chokers that kinda look like a collar but they have the spikes on them? yeah

- and the spiky bracelets? yeah 😌

- RINGS!!!!!!

- was mildly invested in creepypasta, not as much as Yuuji, but he definitely has read most the big stories (eyeless Jack is his fav)

- also Yuuji absolutely forced him to watch marble hornets and he might’ve caught feelings for Tim (didn’t we all-)

- OH I ALMOST FORGOT THIS MF WENT THROUGH THE EMO BOY WOLF OBSESSION HARDDDDDDDDD

- let’s be real here….

- it’s his greatest shame to this day, but he’s totally growled at people before

- oh he also totally went through the vampire phase

- HAS ABSOLUTELY READ THE VLADIMIR TODD SERIES

- IT WAS HIS FAVORITE SERIES

Yuuji Itadori:

- ok first of all..

- LOVED creepypasta forums, probably wrote a couple himself

- BUT this mf binge watched the entire slenderverse main ARGs on YouTube (probably watches Night Mind religiously for the in-depth coverage)

- tried to do a spin off Marble Hornets with his friends in the occult club but it didn’t work out ://

- evermanHYBRID was his favorite and now he has a major soft spot for Evan since he too is now occasionally puppeted by a scary ancient evil curse/god

- also likes buzzfeed unsolved! tries to get Megumi to go with him to haunted places cause together they’d have the Shane/Ryan dynamic

- Sleeping With Sirens stan!!

- so needless to say he also loves Pierce The Veil

- totally used to listen to Never Shout Never too

- now…. I HATE saying this…. Truly I do… but I think he would’ve been the type of guy who USED TO occasionally listen to blood on the dance floor BEFORE shit came out about them, he would’ve liked to hyperpop type beat ya know?

- he knows every single word to the phone song by JJ demon

- journey’s is his favorite store, hot topic a close second. not a super big fan of spencers tbh, I think it’d intimidate him and the sex toys would make him uncomfy

- even tho he looks like (and is) a sunshine, the emos gravitate towards him (cough cough, Megumi and Junpei) so he’s always been into all of it

Nobara Kugisaki:

- bit more scene-leanin’

- I think this goes without saying…

- Paramour stan

- has a crush on Hayley Williams (don’t we all-)

- LOVES Halestorm too and has a crush on Lyzzy (again, don’t we all-)

- listens to fit for rivals (Maki introduced her to them)

- she also really likes twenty one pilots!!!

- I feel like she’d favor Spencer’s over hot topic, but she also shops at journeys

- idk I think she’s the type to claim hot topic is TOO mainstream/for posers/etc (but if Maki wants to go, suddenly she’s never loved a store more)

- jelly bracelets of her favorite bands

- TOTALLY had the scene kid neon arm fishnet glove things ya know?

- PON AND ZI COMICS

- “I made you a cookie 😊…… but I eated it😞”

- not super into creepypasta stuff but she PROBABLY read at least some creepypasta x reader fanfics on specifically quotev

- GIR BACKPACK GIR BACKPACK GIR BACKPACK

- tried to learn how to skateboard to impress Maki

- it didn’t really work, but Maki did give her some cool bandaids

- peach monster ONLY

Maki Zenin:

- controversial… hello kitty obsessed emo

- she had the stickers, the bandaids, probably even a purse/backpack

- black veil brides stan!! used to make fun of megumi for dressing up like Andy, but let’s be real, she helped him do the makeup

- I think her fav member would be CC (girl has taste)

- fit for rivals stan also

- she found the Damage music video on YouTube and became a fan of all their music real quick

- has a crush on Renee Phoenix (don’t we all-)

- I think she’d like the slenderverse ARG’s a reasonable amount, not like Yuuji tho

- not big into creepypasta, but she’s read Jane the killer, and probably cosplayed her at LEAST once

- Spencers > hot topic, not a fan of journeys

- flirts with nobara through pon and zi comics

- ALSO went through the vampire phase big time, Megumi got her into the Vladimir Todd series and she borrowed all of his books

- her biggest shame is that she’s read My Immortal and actually didn’t hate it

- homestuck fan!!

- monster energy emo

- I think she could rock a snapback ngl

- skateboards, she’s pretty good at it, not as good as Toge tho

- has a collection of cute bandaids, ranging from basic neon ones, to designs, to characters (has several boxes of hello kitty ones)

- (it is a high honor for her to share the hello kitty ones)

- (this is an honor that nobara is lucky enough to receive)

Toge Inumaki:

- eyeliner!!!!!!!

- does he know what he’s doing? not fuckin’ really, but it works out for him

- probably tries to make his eyes look darker underneath cause he wants to look perpetually tired and depressed like Yuuta

- has absolutely done purple frosted tips before

- you think he was allowed to buy the hair dye to do it? fuck no, he used sharpie and made Yuuta or Panda help him

- paints his nails, I’m thinking black and a purple accent nail

- also wears rings, but daintier ones than Megumi wears

- three days grace stan tbh

- other fav bands include: asking alexandria, falling in reverse, waterparks, the maine, pierce the veil, sleeping with sirens, etc

- my point is, he’s a big time music emo

- he can’t really talk, so he listens to a lot of shit, constantly

- his and Yuuta’s song is black butterflies and deja vu by the maine :))

- skateboards!! he’s really good at it :)

- Yuuta was SO impressed

- shops at Spencers mostly, but if he’s in a mall, he’s usually hanging around the food court trying to look cool (and dragging his friends to chill there with him)

- SUPER into creepypasta, he’s on the same level as Yuuji

- his fav is Ben Drowned

- so obviously he did the cleverbot shit religiously

- did the whole monster tab thing to Yuuta (the KISS one, these are PG headcanons today bitches)

Yuuta Okkatsu:

- “yOu DoNt UnDeRsTaNd My PaIn!!1!11!!!” whenever something minor goes wrong type bitch

- shy boi

- clings to Maki in public cause she always stands up for him

- Maki and Toge have absolutely beaten up bullies for him

- wears chokers!!

- sometimes he borrows rings from Toge

- fall out boy emo

- actually, scratch that, he was big into the fabled 2013 tumblr “holy emo trinity” of fall out boy, panic at the disco, and my chem

- “I’m Not Okay (I Promise)” is his anthem

- not into creepypasta really, but he’ll watch/read whatever Toge shows him

- Maki’s homestuck buddy

- watches Dan and Phil!!!

- I also feel like he’d watch markiplier

- FNAF stan (also got Toge into it)

- as far as stores go, he prefers hot topic

- he’s like Yuuji, Spencer’s intimidates him (but he’ll go in with Toge or Maki if they want to)

- literally LIVES off of caffeine, fruit punch Rockstar is his fav drink

- he’s read the Vladimir Todd books, but tbh I think he’d be more of a werewolf guy

- idk man

- cried watching twilight and this is a fact no one lets him live down

- did not understand the monster tab proposal, but when it was explained, this boy combusted (but absolutely did give Toge a kiss)

- this became their thing :)

- also!!! he doodles!!!! he gives himself and his friends sharpie “tattoos”

- let’s Toge paint his nails 🥹

Kyoto Kids:

Momo Nishimiya:

- only mildly emo tbh

- goes without saying, but

- witchcraft emo

- got that 2014 tumblr witchy aesthetic

- sleeping with sirens stan

- supernatural stannnn

- this is canon tho right?

- Halsey stan!!!! taste!!!

- absolutely reads homestuck

- zodiac OBSESSED

- hot topic shopper

- jelly bracelets!!!!

- invader zim fan, has a lot of gir merch

- fake tattoos, 100%

- really really good at gothic makeup

- her fav thing to do is a big batwing liner paired with black or purple lipstick

- watches Dan and Phil, probably ships them tbh

- not into slenderverse ARG’s, but she’s subscribed to Night Mind and watches his explained series on other ARG’s

- don’t hug me I’m scared

- also?? I think she’d like FNAF

- it would scare her, she’d have to watch it with Mai and maybe also Miwa, but I think she’d enjoy it

- oh oh oh, totally gives herself fake (and real) piercings

- buzzfeed unsolved with the homies

Mai Zenin:

- CONTROVERSIAL… BUT!!!

- she at least USED to listen to Die Antwoord

- had a weird crush on Yolandi (I might be projecting)

- I’m dying on this hill, fuck you

- secretly very into creepypasta but hides it from everyone

- the concept of her and Maki having the same favorite band is too funny for me to pass up, but I do also genuinely think she’d love Fit For Rivals

- to throw an even rarer band into the mix, she listens to Icon For Hire

- bring me the horizon stan

- shops exclusively at Spencer’s

- not a skateboarder, but she rollerblades

- I can see her wearing snapbacks, I think it’d look good

- either has or wanted gauges

- watches buzzfeed unsolved with the other Kyoto kids

- proooobably used to watch Brian Starz interviews before.. ya know

- used to watch jeffree star makeup tutorials before, ya know

- fruit punch monster for the winnnnn

- she does stick and poke tattoos!!

Aoi Todo:

- no emo energy, sorry

- I think if anything the MOST he’d classify is that his gym playlist is full of metal music

- MAYBE got a tattoo from Mai

Noritoshi Kamo:

- “yOu WoUlDn’T uNdErStAnD 🙄”

- MY BOY IS A MY CHEM STANNNNNNN

- has to keep it all secret cause of clan stuff

- wears eyeliner, looks damn good in it

- CHAINSSSS

- neck chains, finger chains, belt chains, etc

- his ears are pierced shhhh

- he did them himself with a safety pin

- loves corpse, probably has a lil bond with Megumi about it

- Spencers > hot topic, but still shops at both, not big on journeys

- wants so many piercings, but alas…

- let Mai give him a tiny tattoo somewhere that’s easy to hide

- SUPER into vampires

- he had fun with his cursed technique when he got into vampires lmao

- not real into energy drinks, but he likes coffee

- sometimes he’s been known to nurse a plain monster to look cool

- this man…. writes slam poetry

- probably posts it online under a pseudonym

- he just has too many feelings and he is not allowed to express any of them :((

- wants to dye the tips of his hair red, but he’s not allowed :(

- part of the unsolved club

- creepypasta fan, his fav is ticci toby

- has ABSOLUTELY read My Immortal at some point

- gets upset if someone teases him about it

- he strikes as the type who has read every single goosebumps book in middle school (and honestly, same, good for him)

Kasumi Miwa:

- scene kid!! look at those bangs and tell me otherwise!

- “rawr XD” type beat babey

- Pon and Zi comics @ Gojo (who does not get it)

- but also @ Kokichi (who does get it)

- wants to be edgier, but alas, she is a sunshine

- Never Shout Never fan

- also really likes sleeping with sirens

- likes my chem but danger days is her fav album (she also read all the comics)

- Journeys > hot topic, spencers scares her

- super into creepypasta and slenderverse ARG’s!!!

- her and Yuuji probably talk about them together tbh

- FNAF fan!! probably got Momo into it, consequently also got Mai into it

- she LOVED homestuck

- totally read My Immortal, unironically enjoyed it

- tumblr kid through and through

- probably got super into Superwholock

- also probably watches let’s plays, specifically markiplier and achievement hunter (Gavin is her fav, she misses Ray ((don’t we all-))

- Danganronpa fan!!!

Kokichi Muta:

- I’ll be honest here I do not have a strong grasp on his character so bear with me here cause I know damn well he belongs on this list

- possibly the top of it

- rivals Megumi for top emo

- creepypasta fan ofc, needs something to read

- probably came up with his own, either posted it in the forums or he just wrote his own creepypasta oc fanfics

- Miwa introduced him to Danganronpa, he got super into it

- they play it together :))

- doesn’t shop :// but he’ll go along with his friends if they want to go

- wears a bracelet that Miwa made him 24/7 (its matching, they have little pon and zi charms 🥹)

- read homestuck, wasn’t super into it

- really likes being included in the buzzfeed unsolved nights!!

- similar to Toge, he listens to like… everything

- is it mean if I say his favorite song is I Am Machine-

Now onto the elder emos:

Suguru Geto:

- in his early years he 1000000% was similar to Megumi with the “iTs NoT a PhAsE” phase

- chilled out with age

- (still listens to the same music tho)

- probably worked at Spencer’s tbh

- he really likes my chem!!! Frank is his fav

- also listens to a lot of Franks other bands (Leathermouth was his fav)

- three days grace is his shit tho

- also big into Green Day!

- tbh I think he listened to a lot of dragonforce for awhile

- butterfly knife skills for dayyyysssss

- HAS teased the shit out of his hair at least once in THOSE days

- honestly he probably had a raccoon tail in his hair at some point or another

- the gauges are a given, mf still has them and wears them proudly

- paints his nails black!! sometimes with a red accent

Satoru Gojo:

- not super on this list, he ain’t super emo, might’ve had a teensy bit of a scene phase

- If you’re wondering where Megumi learned to growl at people tho it’s bc Gojo barks

- you read that right, this mf barks at people

- still does

- makes fun of everyone for their taste in music, even though he also listens to some of it

- makes fun of Suguru WHILE BEGGING TO LISTEN TO HIS MUSIC WITH HIM

- steals all Suguru’s band tees, past and present

Kento Nanami:

- has grown out of his emo phase

- every now and then he falls back into the music tho

- DEFINITELY was a my chem stan, super invested

- knew he wanted kids after watching them become parents

- edge lord extreme in his youth, love that for him 🖤

- has the intro dialogue to I’m Not Okay memorized

- he got caught by Suguru while sneaking out of school one night to go to some punk rock concert

- Suguru gave him a ride cause he was also on his way to the same concert

- had the leather spikey bracelets and matching choker like Megumi, gets WHIPLASH when he sees Megumi rocking the same shit years later

- fills him with pride tbh

- he listens to what The Kids are listening to these days, out of curiosity

- doesn’t hate it

- tbh he’s just happy watching the young emos do their thing

- has probably caught SOME of them sneaking out to go to a concert

- obviously drove them himself and told them to call him if they needed a ride back

- protector of the future emos 🖤

Shoko Ieri:

- we’re here for a good time not a long time vibes

- listens to a lot of the maine

- loves halestorm, has a crush on Lyzzy Hale

- has smacked Gojo for making fun of her music taste before and will do it again

- regularly jams out with Suguru

- used to work at Spencers with him, probably stole some stuff and got fired

- piercings!!!

- had her tongue pierced

- probably briefly had her septum pierced too but it got infected from all her smoking and she was too stubborn to quit so she just took it out instead

- I bet… I BET she has her nipples pierced, hot bitch shit ya know?

- honestly probably got them done at the same time as Utahime on a dare

- she doesn’t show it much but seeing the current students getting into the scene makes her happy

- makes her remember all the shit they used to get up to when they were students

- quite literally survives off of peach redbull

- she mixed it with her coffee one day and the boys kept joking that she was a bad example as a doctor

- SILLY BANDS!!!!!!!!!!! The boys steal them from her all the time

Choso Kamo:

- MY LOVE!!!!

- HUGE my chem stan, three cheers is his fav album

- thank you for the venom is his favorite song

- asking alexandria is another of his favs

- likes bring me the horizon too

- Yuuji showed him modern emo bands, he showed Yuuji old emo bands in return

- caught Yuuji in one of his old band tees once, literally gave him some and made him listen to at least one song from every band

- smokes cigs cause he’s old enough to do so

- not too big on energy drinks but can be found drinking coffee nonstop

- HAS SO MANY CHAINS BRO

- has a choker that looks a lot like a dog collar

- call me crazy but I think he could rock a bridge piercing if he wanted to

- pretty rings that will hurt like hell if he punches you while wearing them, do not mess with his brothers 🖤

- smudged eyeliner and black lipstick has ALWAYS been his fav look, probably blends a bit of purple in the middle

- also purple eyeshadow

- black nail polish!!

- overall just sweet elder emo who will protect Yuuji and his friends from anyone who tries to get in their way

[coffeebuoy]

so i recently thought up a mall au, where many nart characters all work at the same mall, and i got a request to share. here are their stories. (law and order noise)

team 7 sasuke - manager at hot topic naruto - cashier at either spencer’s or hot topic (purely cause i’m not sure if i want the dynamic of same or diff workplaces between sasunaru) sakura - bath & body works or lush sai - as you wish (a pottery painting shop, not usually found in malls but shhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

team 8 kiba - spencers  hinata - forever 21 shino - sunglass hut

team 10 shikamaru - fuckin. a VR testing store. he’d find something interesting but also easy to let customers do their own thing so he can laze around chouji - gamestop!!! ino - bath & body works or lush

team gai rock lee - cashier at dick’s sporting goods (gai is a manager) tenten - one of those asian gifts stores with all the swords neji - lululemon (or some other rich bitch high end designer clothing store)

sand sibs gaara - another manager at the same hot topic kan - boxlunch tem - an indie store with imported gothic fashion that i’m definitely not making up just because i love her so much that i want her workplace to do her justice :)

akatsuki itachi - store manager at sephora dei - makeup consultant at sephora (the rest do not work at the mall, they cannot be trusted, even dei is deibatable (heh) about how well he works w customers. it’s just that he’s so good at selling makeup that itachi can’t justify firing him without losing profit)

[golbrocklovely]

colby's halloween costumes 2013-2020

certain things that i planned to post fell through, but luckily for me an anon asked "I feel like you'd be the one capable of doing this. Can you make a compilation separately of Sam and Colbys costumes over the years?" and since it fits right in with what i've been posting, i figured i would post this instead of what i was planning to post because not everything works in my favor, apparently lol

so now i present to you, colby's halloween costumes thru the years

(i might have missed one or two, but i'm pretty sure this is all of them)

also... i'm gonna rate them for shits and gigs lol

here's a bonus one out the gate. apparently, he dressed up as andy biersack back somewhere in between (what i think is) 2010-12

honestly.... he kinda just looks like any kid that shopped at a mixture of hot topic, spencers, and zumiez so... i guess that can work for andy sixx

rating: 2/5 literally just looks like something he and i would wear now lol

starting off in 2013, colby had an... interesting choice of a costume. i think he's supposed to be a sexy lumberjack.

i'll be honest, even tho the costume itself isn't anything more than clothes he already owned, the idea is interesting. so i'll give him the benefit of the doubt with this one. also... he looks like a baby so i have to forgive him.

rating: 3/5, cute, kinda silly, much like his younger self lol

while i couldn't find out what costume sam wore in 2014, colby apparently dressed up as a... vampire baseball player???? it's hard to tell what exactly he's going for. bc in one photo he's wearing the fangs, and then in the other he now has on a royals shirt (i'm pretty sure he went to a royals game... but still i'm confused lmao)

while i don't understand what he's trying to be, i give him props for it. also it's the only time he wore fangs and tried to look like a vampire so... i guess i'll take what i can get.

rating: 3/5 just for the fact that he was a vampire alone. also contacts are a bitch so he deserves some credit for that.

in 2015 he and sam dressed in a couples costume. they were mario and luigi.

the fact that both of the boys used black tape instead of buying suspenders... is still funny and weird to me. plus they got the outfits wrong.

but again, i'm giving them the benefit of the doubt with these costumes bc i can see the attempt.

rating: 2/5, dumb costume, but an enjoyable execution lol

2016 was the beginning of colby using face makeup to have that skull face thing. he also rewore the sexy lumberjack costume.

sorry for the trash taylor jumpscare.

i think the face makeup and the eyeliner really brings out his eyes. i don't think it looks that bad, and it's kinda cute to some degree. the sexy lumberjack costume got more matchy so that's fun. both costumes are lazy, but in basically the same way. but at least the face makeup took time lol

skull face rating: 3/5

sexy lumberjack repeat rating: 2/5

2017 he had no costume because he was in egypt with tfil.

2018, i would say, was the most interesting costume he has worn in recent years. it's so fucking weird, but i kinda love it for that reason.

idk what strain of ~devil's lettuce~ he smoked to either make this outfit or think up this outfit, but... give me some next time when i can't come up with something creative lol while this costume is barely a costume, the fact that he straight wore a pig on his head is just hilarious to me. i need to know so much about this costume. did he come up with it himself? did he make it? did someone else make it for him? does he still have a piggy headband? can i have it if he does?

rating: 10/5 so fucking stupid i love him lmao

i think 2019 was weirdly confusing as a costume, but it made sense once 'country road' came out.

i'm assuming his costume is an emo cowboy. yallternative if you will

at the time it didn't make sense, but i will say this is probably the hottest he's looked in a costume. and again, i gotta be honest, i love eyeliner on him. it brings out his eyes and also it's hot.

this is what happens when pete wentz has been your crush since you were 10 years old.

rating: 4/5, creative, kinda lazy but in a fun way

and finally for 2020, he repeated himself once more and dressed up as a skull face. but fun fact (and i completely forgot this happened) there was video of him, sam, and kat on some bus being driven somewhere with other ppl dressed up. his costume was just... his harness??? and idk if he was really wearing anything else that would be considered a costume. knowing him, he probably just called himself the dark lord or christian gray or some weird shit lol

while i think the face makeup this time around is nicer, repeating the same costume again... super fucking lazy.

i was literally thinking about this the other day, but he could easily make a grim reaper costume out of the clothes he has, by the weapon from a halloween store, and that would be more interesting than him painting a skull on his face.

throwing a bunch of random shit you have in your closet isn't a costume colby !!

skull face rating: 2/5

bondage/whatever the fuck he was dressed as rating: 0/5 no effort whatsoever

overall: if colby doesn't do something crazy this year with his costume... i'm flying to california, showing up at his house, and fighting him in his garage. mark my fucking words yall. how can you say halloween is your favorite holiday/time period, but not even remotely dress up??? you have all the fucking money colby, use it !! dress up like sora from kingdom hearts you pussy lmao

[sweetyyhippyy]

Part of You. Spencer Reid x OC! Character. Chapter 4.

Chapter 4: 864 days

(Not my gif.)

Summary: Bridgett brings a date to a party at Rossi’s house. Spencer gets extremely jealous and angry. While working a case with Bridgett, he says some words he doesn’t mean. He goes to Bridgett’s apartment to apologize, and those 3 little words are finally said. 

Pairing: Season 5 Spencer Reid x OC! Plus size character, Bridgett Mendez

TW: Alcohol mentions, Spencer being mean, language, I think that’s all!

Word Count: 4k

A.N.: This is season 5 Spencer, like tail end of season 5. Please reblog! Italicized words are inner thoughts. 

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“So Rossi needs a headcount for how many people are coming over tonight. He said he hasn’t heard back from only you, Bridge.”

JJ says, joining Bridgett and Garcia gossiping at Bridgett’s desk.

“Oh yeah sorry, I was kinda waiting to hear from… this guy I’m bringing along tonight.”

Both of the girls eyes get wide, staring at Bridgett.

“You’re bringing someone? Who is he?! I need to know everything, now.” Penelope squeals, leaning back in her chair.

Bridgett laughs, knowing that this was going to be the hot topic of the day.

“It’s this guy I’ve been dating for like 2 weeks. His name is Angel.”

“Okay, okay, Angel. Angel and Bridgett… Bridgett and Angel. Doesn’t necessarily roll off the tongue but keep going.” Penelope says.

“I met him at the coffee shop by my apartment. It was that one morning Hotch needed us to come in at like 6am so I grabbed some coffee and they were getting a delivery while I was waiting and the delivery guy noticed me, I noticed him after the third time he passed me by. So I smiled at him and he stopped to talk to me on my way out. We've gone on a few dates and he’s really nice.”

“Just nice? Are you not completely into him?” JJ questions.

“I don’t know, he’s nice, and he is cute. But I don’t know it’s weird, I know you’re both going to say I’m selling myself short but he’s out of my league. Our connection is good when we’re together but I can’t help but think that maybe he’s just putting a front on. It’s all probably just in my head… right?”

“If it’s only been a few dates this is all still new. The both of you are trying to figure each other out. I wouldn’t discredit him just yet, sweetheart.” Penelope interjects, rubbing her shoulder in comfort.

JJ’s phone rings from her pocket, her groaning and leaving out the door to the elevator.

“Do you think it’s a good idea to bring another guy tonight? I’m not judging, I just don’t think that there’s *someone you didn’t think about.”

Bridgett knew who she was talking about as soon as she said it, and she was right, Bridgett didn’t think about Spencer.

“You don’t know for sure if Spence likes me, Penelope.”

“Um, Earth to madam profiler! Bridgy, the boy is beyond in love with you. You don’t see what everyone else in this office sees when you talk to him, or when someone talks about you.”

Bridgett sighs, rubbing her temple with her fingers lightly.

“What am I supposed to do? I’m genuinely asking I’m not trying to be a bitch but, am I supposed to wait, god knows how long, for him to make the first move? I don’t make the first move. Ever. That’s not me and it makes me want to physically puke even thinking about it. What if he never does it? Then what?”

“I know, beautiful, and I didn’t mean to make you question dating other people, but I just want you to think about it.”

***

Bridgett felt off the rest of the day after her talk with Garcia. She almost wanted to just call Angel and tell him that there had been a change of plans and she wasn’t going to the party anymore. But he had told her on the phone a few nights ago he had gotten a special outfit for the night.

Bridgett sits on the couch, her hair flowing down her back, makeup fresh on her face, and a dark maroon dress clinging to her body, the dress ending mid thigh. While she was staring at her phone deciding on whether or not she was going to call Angel and cancel, it starts ringing, his name appearing on screen.

“Hello?���

“Hey you, I’m on my way to come get you. I’ll be there in about 5 minutes.”

Her stomach turns, but in a good way.

“Okay. I’ll be waiting. See you in a bit.”

She slips her heels on, leaving them for the last minute knowing they were going to kill her feet by the end of the night. She paced back and forth, double and triple checking she had everything in her clutch. there’s a knock at the door in a rhythmic pattern, one that Angel frequented when he came over to pick her up. Bridgett walks to answer the door, opening it with a smile. He smiles back, handing her a single red rose.

“For you.” He smiles, kissing her cheek. Bridgett’s cheeks get warm, a nervous laugh coming from her mouth.

“Thank you. You look very handsome.”

He looked so incredibly handsome in the dark brown button up tucked into black dress pants he was wearing, everything head to toe was on point and it made her swoon a little bit.

“Are you ready to go? I’m definitely going to need directions to your coworker’s house.”

***

“This is going to sound very shallow, but how much money do FBI agents make? This house is huge.” Angel whispers to Bridgett, walking up to Rossi’s house.

“He used to work for the FBI back in the day, he retired and wrote a couple of books and he started doing book tours and signing, lectures. So he always hosts parties because this is his house. He’s a great guy, you’ll like him.”

Bridgett was beyond nervous for everyone to meet this new guy. Especially since he was so new in her life. And since the conversation she had with Penelope, she was nervous if she was right how Spencer would react.

She rings the doorbell to the large house, waiting for someone to answer the door. Derek opens the door, a surprising look on his face.

“Hey Bridge. Come on in.” Derek studies Angel up and down.

“Derek, this is Angel. Angel this is Derek. He and I work together at the Buerau. He’s our resident badass and big brother.”

The front of the house fills with the rest of the team members; Emily, JJ, Penelope, Hotch, Rossi, but no Spencer. She introduces everyone to Angel , Rossi handing both of them a drink after the introductions are done.

***

The mood was light while everyone was inside sitting around a large table, everyone talking and laughing.

“I gotta use the restroom. I’ll be back, if I’m not back in 10 send a search party.” Angel jokes, making Bridgett laugh.

“Hey pretty boy made it!” Derek calls out, everyone’s attention turning to Spencer. He smiles and waves awkwardly, coming to join everyone else. He had a nice plum colored button up on with a skinny solid black tie, and of course his converse on. He looked really handsome. Bridgett waves at him from her seat, Spencer walking over and sitting on the opposite side of her.

“You’re late. What took you so long?” Bridgett teases.

“The subway. It randomly broke down right before I was supposed to get off for 15 minutes.”

“Well hey, don’t worry about taking the subway home, I’ll just take you. I’m sticking to one glass tonight, I’m not going to be drunk.”

Spencer smiles at her, nodding his head as he takes a drink from his glass, “Yeah that would be great thanks Bridge.”

Bridgett feels the chair on her other side slide back, Angel touching her bare shoulder as he sits back down. Spencer’s eyes fixate on the stranger, his eyes flickering back and forth between him and Bridgett.

“Who’s this?” Spencer questions.

“Oh I’m Angel, I’m Bridgett’s date.”

The room fell quiet, everyone watching the exchange. Spencer’s jaw clenched, taking a longer swig of his drink.

“Date huh? Nice.” He says under his breath.

Bridgett’s cheeks getting hot, getting through this dinner was going to be interesting.

Spencer was beyond fuming, but in the back of his mind he knew he had no true right to feel this angry.  But seeing that the girl he’s in love with be touched and goggled over made him seethe with rage.

If you weren’t such a goddamn wimp, maybe Bridgett and you could have gone together as a date, but no you have to be afraid of fucking everything.

Spencer knocks the glass of wine back, asking Rossi if he had anything stronger., to which he offered him his best scotch and Spencer took. He quickly shoots that one down, instantly regretting it once he feels the fire in his throat.

Bridgett watches him cough after hearing him swallow the shot, in the few years she’s know Spencer, he’s had maybe half a sip of champagne, and again… it was half a sip. “Woah, slowdown, I can’t carry you out of here.” Bridgett comments, laughing slightly.

Spencer pours another shot full, keeping his eyes on hers the whole time while he slowly sips, finishing yet another glass.

“Slow enough for you?”

***

Spencer didn’t speak one word while everyone was eating , anytime Bridgett spoke to him, Spencer wouldn’t look at her, he just nodded his head and take a heavy drink. He got more and more angry throughout the night, nobody else could tell if it was the alcohol or Angel.

Not too long after dinner was over some of the team started to leave. Angel wraps his arm around Bridgett’s waist, kissing her cheek.

“What do you say we get out of here?” Angel whispers in her ear. Bridgett giggles, smiling at him.

“Okay. I told my friend Spencer I would take him home, so I need to drop him off before I get home. Let me go find him.”

Bridgett walks to the backyard to try to find Spencer, not finding him with the rest of the team that was still here. She walks back inside, finding Derek and Penelope before they leave.

“Hey, have you seen Spence? I was supposed to give him a ride home.”

Derek sighs, throwing his jacket on. Penelope stares at Derek then back at Bridgett.

“He uhh… got a call from his mom’s care facility. He left like 10 minutes ago.”

“Oh my god is she okay?”

“He didn’t say. He was… upset.” Derek states, rubbing her shoulder in comfort. “I’ll see you Monday morning, mama.”

Bridgett walks to Rossi and Emily chatting with Angel, her coat in his hands.

“Hey, Spence took off because of a family emergency. So if you still want to head out, we can.”

Angel nods his head, helping Bridgett put her coat on and saying his goodbyes to the pair before walking hand and hand out with Bridgett back to her car.

***

Bridgett walks through the elevator, pulling the door open to the dugout. She spots Spencer at his desk, not expecting him to be at work this morning.

“Hey, you’re here. How’s your mom?”

Spencer barely turns his head to give Bridgett a dirty look, going back to scribbling something in his notebook.

“Fine.” He says plainly.

“Garcia said that you left Rossi’s party the other night because you got a call from your mom’s care facility that something happened. And you didn’t answer my phone calls all weekend. I was worried about you.”

Spencer gets up from his desk with a sigh, whizzing past her toward the conference room. Bridgett stands there, completely confused why he wasn’t speaking to her.

“Hey mama, we have a local case, Hotch said a briefing in 5.” Derek says, passing by her quickly.

Bridgett sets her bag at her desk, taking her notebook and pen with her to the conference room, sitting in her usual spot next to Spencer.

“Hey, are you okay?” She asks quietly.

Spencer visibly rolls his eyes, fidgeting with his pen between his fingers.

“Yup. Just fine.”

Bridgett opens her mouth to ask him another question but everyone grabs their seat as JJ begins briefing everyone on their case.

***

Hotch had Bridgett and Spencer partner up to examine the crime scene and Spencer was beyond annoyed. Bridgett could feel the anger and tension between both of them the car ride to the crime scene. She wanted to ask what his deal was but she didn’t want there to be more anger in the air when they got to their destination.

While they were examining the crime scene and talking with the town sheriff, Spencer undermined every single thing she asked, said, or thought and it was pissing her off.

After a few hours they were ready to head back to headquarters and Bridgett was furious.

“Hey, Spencer, could you have me a tissue please?” Bridgett asks, motioning to the glove compartment. Spencer sighs loudly, opening the drawer and slamming the door closed hard. That was it.

“What the fuck is your problem?!” Bridgett yells. “Why are you being such a fucking dick? What did I do to you?”

“What are you talking about?”

Bridgett bites her cheek, putting her turn signal on and pulling off to the side of the road.

“What are you doing?” Spencer asks, raising his voice.

“No, what are you doing?! I don’t know why you’re pissed off at me, but you making me look like I don’t know what the fuck I’m talking about when we’re working is not okay. This attitude you’ve had with me all morning is starting to piss me off and I’m over it! What did I do?”

Spencer sits quietly, gathering his thoughts.

“I don’t want to talk to you about it.”

Bridgett was about 2 seconds away from screaming in anger, her hands grip the steering wheel, knuckles white.

“So instead of being a fucking adult you’re choosing to act like a child and not tell me why you’re angry with me? Real mature Spencer. You know, for a genius, you can be real dumb sometimes.” She fires off at him.

“Nice to know that’s what you think of me.” Spencer says quietly, grabbing his satchel, opening the car door and walking away from the car.

Bridgett sits dumbfounded. She gets out of the car, running after him. “Spencer! What are you doing?!”

He has his back turned to her, his cell phone pressed to his ear.

“Spencer, Spencer, Spencer, Spencer.” Bridgett repeats his name over and over again, getting under his skin.

Once he hangs the phone up he begins walking away again.

“Goddamn it! Where are you going?” She shouts, Spencer stopping in his tracks.

“Going back to work. I’m not riding with you back. I called a cab”

“Why are you being like this? What did I do Spencer?!” She was pissed, getting upset, and tired.

“You’re being a shitty friend!” Spencer yells, visibly taken back at what he even just yelled.

Bridgett stares at him, tears clouding her vision. “I’m not a shitty friend.” She says with a light voice. “You really think I’m a shitty friend? All the nights I spent on the phone with you because you were having bad nightmares, the time I went to your house at 3:30am because you called me inconsolable, was there for you because you got a call that your mom was having a bad day and you felt guilty for putting her in a mental hospital. All of that I was there for you and you still have the audacity to call me a shitty friend? Really?”

Spencer doesn’t make eye contact with her, his feet kicking the pavement under him. Bridgett walks back to the car, tears flowing down her cheeks at his words. She sits in the car, watching Spencer sit on the sidewalk, waiting for his cab, his head turning every so often to see the car still parked several feet away. Bridgett openly sobbed in the car, she was sensitive enough as it was, but having her best friend call her a shitty friend broke her. She waits in the car until she sees a yellow cab pull up next to Spencer and him get in it. Even though he just pissed her off, she didn’t want him to be by himself in the middle of nowhere. Once she sees him get in she drives off toward the office, still sniffling and the occasional tear rolling down her cheek.

Once she pulls into the parking spot back at the office, she slowly walks inside, trying to get her mind together before having to go back and face the rest of the team. She walks through the doors, throwing the case file on her desk and grabbing her bag to go home.

“Hey, where’s Spence?” Derek asks, popping up behind her.

“Fuck if I know.” Bridgett mumbles, turning to walk out for the day.

“Wait! Where are you going? What happened? Are you crying?” Derek rattles his questions off one after the other.

Bridgett continues walking out, ignoring Derek talking to her. She presses the elevator down button, waiting for it to come. She feels someone next to her, Derek. She sighs, folding her arms over her chest. The doors open, both of them walking in.

“What’s wrong?”

Bridgett clears her throat, choking back a sob.

“Spencer and I got into it… he got out of the car on the way back and called a cab to come get him because we were yelling at each other. He called me a shitty friend.”

“He’s going to kill me for saying this, but the reason he left on Saturday was because he was angry that you brought that kid with you to the party. He sort of has a thing for you.”

“Everyone keeps telling me that, you, Garcia, but he hasn’t made a move on me. I’m not going to wait for him to do it. I know that sounds mean but I can’t wait forever.”

Derek nods his head. “I know. I’ve been trying to tell him. And I told him the other night too. I’ve never seen him so mad. It definitely didn’t help that he was drinking everything in sight. But I can tell you that you’re not a shitty friend. Spencer just says what’s on his mind when he’s mad.”

“So that means he has it in his head that I’m shitty to him.”

Derek shakes his head, giving her a tight hug.

“No, that’s not what I’m saying. Let me talk to him. See if I can get him to calm down. Go home, I’ll tell Hotch you got sick on the job and take the rest of the day to make yourself feel better, alright?”

Bridgett nods, giving him a hug.

***

Bridgett grabs the plate of her favorite comfort meal, breakfast food drenched in hot sauce, and takes it over to the couch, flipping through the tv channels to find something to watch for the night. Her favorite movie was already loaded into her DVD player from the last time she watched it, and that was probably what she was going to settle for. As she takes a huge mouthful of eggs there’s a soft knock at the door. She groans, quickly chewing her food, opening the door quickly. Spencer is standing there, his head down, fidgeting with the leather strap across his chest.

“Hi.” He says quietly.

“Hello.” Bridgett responds, a hint  of attitude in her tone, still a little bitter at him for his earlier outburst.

Spencer bites his bottom lip, awkwardly fixing her doormat with his foot to straighten it out.

“I was wondering if I could talk… if we could talk.”

“What about?” She asks, crossing her arms over her chest, still not letting him inside.

“I wanted to tell you I’m sorry.” Finally looking into Bridgett’s eyes.

“Oh really? Okay well I’m listening.”

Spencer sighs, tapping his fingers on his bag.

“Derek told me that you went back to work crying… about what I said to you and I didn’t mea-“

Bridgett interrupts, just to get under his skin. “What did you say to me? I forgot.” She questions, her voice thick with sarcasm.

Well she isn’t going to make this easy.

“I… I called you a shitty friend. And I didn’t mean it, Bridge. I was angry and I should have never said it because it’s far from the truth. You’re the only true friend I’ve ever had, and I feel like such a dick for saying it to you. I probably can’t ever apologize enough to make up for it, but my apology is genuine.”

Bridgett continues to stare at him for a few seconds, she could tell he really was sorry for his harsh words, and even if she wanted to, she couldn’t be mad at him.

“Come in.” She moves from the middle of the doorway, letting Spencer in. He walks in, following her to the couch.

“I want you to be honest with me, because I already know the answer to the question.”

Spencer nods his head, playing with a loose string on her throw pillows.

“Do you have romantic feelings for me?”

Spencer’s eyes grow wide, almost in a cartoonish way. He drops eye contact with Bridgett, his heart beating a million miles per hour.

Tell her. Tell her now. She already knows. Tell. Her.

“Yeah.” He says, no sound coming out of his mouth, his vocal chords frozen. He clears his throat, “Yeah, I have feelings for you. I have for a while now.”

“How long is a while?” Bridgett questions, feeling a bit of relief that he finally admits it.

“476 days. Since the night at the hotel… in Idaho. Well actually 388 days before that, it’s kinda why what happened in Idaho… happened. So 864 days total.”

Bridgett nods her head, trying to hide the smirk on her face, remembering very fondly of what happened in Idaho.

“And why did you feel the need to hide the fact you had feelings for me that weren’t just sexual feelings? Why do you think that you couldn’t tell me you liked me in a romantic way?”

“I don’t know. I was scared that you were going to laugh in my face when I told you that I fell in lo-.” He stops himself before he says the word.

“Fell in love with me?” Bridgett asks, finishing his sentence.  

He nods his head, afraid to say the words.

“I wouldn’t laugh at you. And to be honest with you, I would be lying to myself if I said I didn’t like you too. I haven’t been in love with you for 800 days, but I do love you.”

Spencer stays quiet, smiling to himself. “864 days.”

Bridgett rolls her eyes and elbows his arm playfully.

“Oh, so sorry 864 days. Since we’re talking about how many days we’ve been in love with each other, I've been in love with you for about…” Bridgett pauses as she does the math in her head, not anywhere close to how fast Spencer’s brain worked. “730 days.”

“Really?”

Bridgett nods her head, “Yeah, it’s kinda hard not to love you. You know what solidified my love for you? Do you remember when we were flying back from Seattle, and you were exhausted, we were sitting together, we had barely been in the air for 20 minutes and I felt your head rest on my shoulder. I looked over at you and you were passed out. I put my head on yours and I fell asleep too. When I woke up, Emily had a picture on her phone she had taken of us and I knew that I loved you.”

Spencer touched Bridgett’s cheek with his thumb softly, staring at her deep brown eyes. He takes Bridgett’s hand in his, holding them close to his chest.

“I love you Bridgett, and I really want to make you happy.”

She lets go of his hands and places both of them on each side of his face, giving him a smile.

“I forgive you.” She says softly, kissing his lips. “And I love you too.”

“So does this mean you’re my… girlfriend?”

Bridgett kisses his lips softly, smiling at him lovingly.

“Yes, yes it does mean I’m your girlfriend. You good with that?”

“Very. I’m very good with that.”

[the-lack-of-errors-in-star-trek]

MIDNIGHT FLIGHTS - 0.2

Chapter 2

It had been a few weeks since the strange night had occurred at the bar, and Anna seemed to move on from sleeping with Derek as she had with other partners in recent years.

"He was just too cocky and sure of himself." Anna complained to Nastya over a coffee last week, noting that his lack of being around often, plentiful attitude, and unwillingness to settle in any measure became a turn off for her, "Note to self, don't sleep with Feds." Anna laughs.

Still despite this, every once and a while Nastya would receive a shopping invite from Penelope, her excuse that with the blonde's line of work, some people outside of a federal building would do her some good. They had actually become decent friends, not seeing much of the others, but it was definitely enough to be invited to a friendly brunch. So this is exactly why she had met up with Emily and Penelope five hours after they got back from a cross country flight, a healthy 10am brunch to cut loose and hang around civilians for once.

Nastya was the first there, the reservations under Penelope for four people, leaving the young teacher to wonder who the fourth person would be. Emily is the next to arrive, spotting the table by Nastya's brown hair in a twisted updo exposing her gold necklace over a white sweater, jeans, and heeled boots like usual.

"Privyet," Emily greets her, the two standing to kiss on the cheek, a nice welcome to Nastya who could read that Emily tried wholeheartedly to respect and not insult Nastya's background. "How are you doing?"

"Privyet, I'm doing well," Nastya answers sitting down at the same time as Emily, "How was the great state of California?"

"You know we barely see anything except the crime scene." Emily laughs.

"Yeah that's fair, maybe you ought to go there on an actual vacation, lord knows you all need it." Nastya suggests, while keeping an eye on the door for Penelope to come through with the mystery person. She turns back to the agent in front of her, "Seriously, I don't know how you all do it, that long in a career like this? Anna finds Derek insufferable. It has to take its toll on all of you?"

Emily nods along, readjusting in her seat, "I think Derek coming across as a hot-shot is more to do with his personality than his job, but I do see what you mean." The last part leaves her lips as a laugh.

The conversation between Nastya and Emily picks up the longer they wait, most of it by sharing details of the previous case, save for all of the gore, focused mainly on Emily's gripes with the local Californian PD units butt-hurt that they couldn't handle a serial killer by themselves.

It was during Emily's rant about the police that Penelope walked in with the tall man who drove her home just a few weeks ago, Penelope eager to hug Nastya and sit down, Spencer more awkward just by waving and selecting the seat across from her.

"Is that really true, Pen?" Nastya asks her as Penelope settles into her seat and starts looking at the menu, "Do these people really give you hell just because you're not physically there?"

Penelope nods in response, "Yeah, they don't like how big government can just swoop in and learn everything needed, but it's whatever, I get what I need every time."

Nastya nods along and turns to Spencer, "Nice of you to join us, how are you doing?"

"I'm doing alright, how about yourself?" The answer from him is short and feels scripted, and suddenly Nastya understands Anna, all of these FBI men are very curt and guarded in basic conversation.

"I've been doing good, glad everyone is pretty good given the circumstances." She answers, while understanding that he could have been barely listening. Much of the brunch consists of Natasha interacting with the other women present, and Spencer not really adding much to the conversation. The drinks come and go, as does the food, and for the most part everyone is enjoying themselves.

Spencer can't help but run through an internal monologue, questioning why Natasha puts him off, and why he can't seem to be engaged in the conversation like he would have been at work, or at least without Natasha there. Spencer settled on the possibility that she was just too new to the dynamic, and didn't appear to be a stable fixture, considering it took many months for him to open up to Prentiss, let alone Rossi. Was he really expecting himself to open up to her after a few weeks? It seemed impossible, and yet when she looked at him, and honestly looked him in the eyes, he couldn't help but to feel like he should. Hell, she had all of their numbers, even Morgan's who had stopped seeing Natasha's friend only 6 days and 15 hours ago.

Natasha's voice rang clear, "What's everyone's plans for the rest of this fine Sunday?" She smiles, glancing at everyone in the room, taking notice that Spencer was staring at her passively.

Penelope was the first to answer, "More than likely go home, play some online games, and relax before we get that inevitable phone call from Hotch." To the last part Emily and Spencer chuckle. Emily is the next to speak up.

"Mainly spend some quality time with Sergio and watch chick-flicks." She smiles at the end.

"Your boyfriend?" Natasha asks, causing Emily to laugh.

"No, my cat. But if any man could be as great as him? That'd be a miracle." The response is warm and filled with humour, keeping the topics light. "What about you, Reid?" Emily attempts to rope him into the conversation.

"Library." It's a short answer again, like he just wants to leave the table now. In reality, he'd rather be with his work friends than alone, but can't bring himself to stay interested in much.

Emily raises her eyebrows slightly as a reaction and turns to Natasha reposing the question to her. "And what about you?"

"I'll probably just go home, keep the fort held down while my Mama runs the store." She answers. "Maybe have Anna over to make sure she doesn't get the idea to call your co-worker again." Penelope and Emily can't help but to laugh at the idea. Natasha then looks at her watch. "Speaking of, I should probably foot my bill and take leave, I didn't realize it was already noon."

The table says their goodbyes as Natasha packs up and leaves her payment on the table for Emily to close up, and walks out of the restaurant glad she was able to spend good time with her new friends doing something other than shopping.

As usual, the trip back to the home and store was uneventful. She greeted her mother who was working, by waving to the window as she walked up into the apartment. As she entered the home, she took a moment to really soak in her life, how insane it was to be casual friends with federal agents, as one would just be casually friends with military members in Russia. Sure she knew if any of them came around to this area of D.C. it would spur odd looks by an untrusting immigrant populus, but for the most part all of the people she had met were kind and non judgemental. It would be a lie to say she was unaffected by mob activity on the East Coast, it's mob activity that killed her father, yet somehow even just knowing that her and her mother kept to themselves, their work, and their church created an air of enough safety to at least make those types of friends.

It's on this train of thought she remembers to call Anna. She picks up on the third ring of course.

"Privyet, what's going on?" Anna answers the phone, sounding slightly rushed.

"Privyet Anna, do you have plans today? You could come over, or I could go to your apartment." Natasha keeps the request short but it takes Anna a moment to respond.

"Ummmm, I'm not exactly sure if now is a good time, Nastya. I'm a little caught up in something at the moment." She finally answers Nastya, her voice quieter than usual.

"You're busy? At 2 in the afternoon on a Sunday?" Nastya questions her, already knowing the outcome.

"Look, don't be mad, but he's in the shower, and I need to go before he comes out." Anna rushes the answer, knowing Nastya would berate her for this later.

"Anna! We agreed!" Nastya switches into Russian. "You dumb bitch, kick him out!"

"Love you, bye!" Anna laughs at Nastya's temper, blowing a kiss before hanging up the phone.

The blunt hanging up makes Nastya shake her head, settling down onto the couch to pass her time watching the TV. She knew her mother would be closing up the shop in a few hours, and decided against going back out.

Later that night, as Nastya and her mother sat down to eat dinner, the obvious questions about the day are expressed over the meal.

"How was work?" Nastya asks, savouring the meal in front of her, it was basic, just pan cooked chicken and potatoes, but it was good food with the weather only starting to warm up.

"It was good, thank you Lisichka." Her mother answers after swallowing her mouthful. "You know how that shop is, busy until it's quiet, and quiet until it gets busy." More chewing fills the living area until her mother asks a question. "How was your time out?"

"It was good, the man who drove me home went along with Emily and Penelope. The girls are very welcoming, the men not so much." Nastya answers, fiddling her piece of chicken around on her fork. "I think Anna saw Derek again today, I called and she said she was busy with 'him' but I didn't get a name."

"That Derek boy isn't good for her, too flashy." Natasha's mother laughs. "But she'll do what she wants, I only hope her parents don't throw a fit."

"You never throw a fit when I sleep with someone."

"Because you have good taste, Anna needs a good Russian boy in her life, none of these so-called agents. It'll only make life more difficult for the Lebedev's. They already lost one son, no use worrying over a son-in-law who could also die." Her mother's commentary on Anna's life makes Nastya laugh at first, but then settle due to the nature of the rest of the comment. That was the one aspect of conversation that always made Natasha irritated, of course mothers always loved their daughters, but sons were just revered more, and a son with dangerous work? Anna better plan on having children fast if she were to ever settle with someone like Derek.

"It'll never go that far, Mama, Anna loves fun too much." Natasha covers for her practical sister. "She won't nest a home until she's in her 30's."

"A waste of her youth if you ask me. And what of you? When will you settle down on your fun? Teaching is nice, but I want to see our family name continue as well." The conversation had usually always gone this direction, causing Natasha to lay her fork down.

"Mama, I love you, but please. This isn't Russia, I can marry and have kids whenever I please. Anna too." Natasha leaves the answer stinging in the air, talking about tradition and culture was always a point of contention with her mother, and just as she went to open her mouth, the home phone rang. Natasha went to answer.

"Privyet, Semyonov house." She answers. Thankfully it's Anna on the other end.

"Nastya! Listen, I got the apartment cleaned up, come over?"

"I can't, I have work tomorrow, Anna." Nastya eyes her mother knowing staying here is the only option mentally.

"Jesus, I do too, but you're all caught up no?"

"Nyet Anna, I can't go. We can talk after work tomorrow but it's best if we just stay in, yeah? It's dark out and not the safest. If you need anyone just call Derek again."

"I would but I can't, these fucking agents and being called at any hour of the day, any day of the week. You were right."

"I know I was," Natasha chuckles at her friend's antics. "Stay in, we'll get dinner sometime this week."

"Okay, bye."

"Love you, bye." Natasha hangs up the phone and goes back to the table to discover that in the brief conversation, her mother had finished her plate and started on dishes.

It would be that later in the night, she found herself hovering over the contacts in her phone as she laid in bed trying to go to sleep. Spencer was saved as "Dr. Reid," a note to their acquaintanceship having more merit than a friendship, and she wondered what would have to be done in order to even have a shot at being friends. Sure she had her own, from work, from the church, the people she grew up around, but there was something about Dr. Spencer Reid that made her want to at least try to get to know him.

[tsmallau]

Ages ago I pitched this idea to a friend about the sides working in a mall, which was inspired by my mall, where a Spencer’s is right next to a Build-A-Bear and a Hot Topic next to a Claire’s. I told her that Patton, Remus, Roman, and Virgil would work there. And then I was like “Logan works at a GameStop and Janus has a job at a bubble tea place that he absolutely despises because he only got it to get some extra money, but now he can’t just quit because it’s well paying.

(It’s sad that I haven’t edited this for this long, normally I’m constantly revising. What’s sadder is that this blog has existed for longer. In case your wondering it’s April when I’m posting this)

Anyway.... NOTES!! (Some of them anyway, this is kind of plotless and just for fun.)

Virgil works for a hot topic.

Remus works for a Spencer’s

Patton works for a Build A Bear

Roman works for a Claire’s

Deceit works for a Bubble Tea shop.

Logan works for a GameStop

Why do they work where they do?

Well, Virgil is the embodiment of Hot Topic. He’s worked there since he was sixteen, literally on his birthday.

Same with Remus and Spencer’s. Has been there since he was almost nineteen, but not on his birthday.

Patton works at a build a bear because he loves kids and loves the stuffed animals, and during the heart ceremony thing, you can make a child do whatever the heck you want them to do and they HAVE to do it. He’s been working there since he was nineteen.

Roman works at a Claire’s because of all the sparkly stuff. He loves the sparkly stuff. And all the pink. Besides, he needed a job. He has been working there since he was nineteen

Janus works at a bubble tea shop. He isn’t sure how to feel about it, but he’s been working there forever and hardly ever missed a day (he has been working there since he was eighteen.)

Logan works at a GameStop because like Janus, he had worked there for a very long time, and he took the job because it’s easy to search for games, and stuff (he really just has to manage stock and catalogs and angry gamer boys) so he had that down and hey, at least that means discounts on strategy games. He’s worked there since he was seventeen, almost eighteen

Age wise, at the start of the AU:

Virgil is 20, a young boy (almost 21 tho)

Logan is 22, an oldER boy

Patton is 23, eldest boy.

Deceit is also 23, a slightly younger boy.

Remus and Roman are only slightly older than Logan, also at age 22

That means:

Patton has been working there for four years

Virgil has been working there for almost five years.

Deceit has been working there for five years

Logan has been working there for four years

Roman and Remus has been working there for about three years. Remus longer than Roman.

Remus started working there bc he went into Hot Topic one day, and like... he was looking around and bought disney Merch for Roman bc their bday was soon. And then he talked to Virgil and stuff and they were having fun talking because there were surprisingly not a lot of people in the store.

So Remus and Virgil were talking and then as business started picking up, Remus was like, “Well, I wish there was a way for me to stay and talk longer.” And Virgil was jokingly like, “Well there’s a job opening at Spencer’s.” And Remus is just like, “I take that as a challenge.” So lo and behold about a month later, Remus gets the job.

Deceit was working there because he needed a job and didn’t expect it to be long term, but it ended up that way, he encounters many basic bitches.

Patton needed a job originally just so he could remain financially stable, and now he’s actually doing pretty good. So he’s fine there, and he likes his job.

Roman got a job at Claire’s because it’s easier to carpool with his brother (who he lives with, begrudgingly) and he’s the perfect amount of sassy gay to love it there.

Logan just started working there because, “if I want to buy science things and pay for college, we’re doing this.”

Virgil had always wanted to work for hot topic, and as soon as he was old enough? Fuck yeah.

Deceit and Virgil have an unspoken rivalry that only Remus knows of because he always stuck around the mall and observed it before he got a job. (He hung out in the food court, babeyyyy)

[euphoriarps]

❊ ◜ORLANDO.// demographics

population //. 2.57 million median age //. 37.3 years median household income //. 59k languages spoken //. english, spanish, haitian creole, portugese popular occupations //. administrative/office, sales, management, business/finance, education, healthcare most popular industries //. tourism , hospitality , food service , health care , retail , arts and entertainment commute time //. 30 minutes

the greater orlando area spans a total of 4,012 square miles which makes it the third largest metropolitan area in florida and the seventh largest metropolitan area in the southeastern united states. with a population of 2.57 million people , orlando offers a diverse community where residents speak a number of languages and come from a number of different places around the world. 21% of the population was born someplace outside the united states, while only 45% of the population was born in florida (and less were born specifically in orlando). while many think of florida and think of the beautiful beaches, orlando is nestled into beautifully flat central florida and there is not a beach nearby. that is, unless you count typhoon lagoon or volcano bay. to get to the nearest beach, you must travel either an hour eastward to cocoa beach utilizing the 528 east, or an hour and forty-five minutes westward to clearwater beach utilizing I-4 west, fifty five minutes eastward to daytona beach utilizing I-4 east, or an hour eastward to new smyrna beach utilizing I-4 east. don't let the lack of a nearby beach disappoint you, however, because approximately forty percent of florida homes have a swimming pool ... and pool cultural is essentially a florida way of life (even though floridians bitch about cleaning the pool like it's their job). it is no secret that tourism is orlando's most powerful industry, with orlando being home to the walt disney world resort, and the universal orlando resort. there is also seaworld parks and entertainment, not to be forgotten ... and the fun spot with honorable mention. walt disney world resort employs approximately 70,000 cast members with universal orlando resort employing significantly less people at around 23,000 team members. as of 2019 it was reported that orlando had approximately 144,125 hotel rooms spread between 450 hotels and resorts. orlando boasts the second highest number of hotel rooms in the world. orlando has both the orlando international airport (MCO) and the sanford international airport (SFB) to shuttle people in and out of florida to destinations all across the united states, and the world. there are parts of orlando that give off that distinctly college town vibe, which makes sense considering there are five major institutions of higher education within the greater orlando area. they include: the university of central florida, valencia college, rollins college, seminole state college of florida, and full sail university. the cost of living in central florida is astronomically high, so a large percentage of orlando residents (40%, actually) report living in an apartment with one or more roommates. it is a constant competition in orlando to build the biggest, most luxurious apartment complex so that you can tack the words "luxury" or "resort style living" onto your community to lure people in. for those that don't live in an apartment, the greater orlando area does feature sprawling suburban areas with luxury gated neighborhoods, neatly pruned lawns, and continued attempts to truly be the most decadent and ostentatious. don't believe me? real estate search winderemere. there are a great many ways to entertain oneself in orlando. if the theme parks and the questionableness of international drive and 192 don't do it for you, you have two malls to entertain your time. the florida mall is located in the southern part of orlando, featuring your commonly recognized brand names such as hot topic, spencers, and one of the only remaining build a bears. for the more wealthy, there is the mall of millenia where the poorer residents can window shop at stores like kate spade, gucci, and burberry. you'll find a great many walmarts throughout orlando, but they are usually crammed full of tourists and orlando residents tend to avoid these places like the plague. essentially every walmart in orlando has a shrine to our lord and savior mickey mouse at the front of the store, where tourists can purchase discounted disney merchandise on the off chance they forgot to spend $25 on mickey ears for their great aunt susan. the millenials and college age students are most likely to spend all of their money at target, and there are dozens of them throughout orlando for you to squander your entire paycheck in the bullseye's discounts section. you'll find your whole foods and your trader joes for those who are health nuts, but there is no denying that the shining gem of orlando shopping ... is publix. it's a grocery store with locations dotting every few blocks, with familiar employees donning mint green vests every day to fuel orlando residents with the gloriousness that is chicken tender pub subs. can an employee at walmart tell you where you can find chilis in adobo sauce? probably not. but a team member at publix can. it's aisle three, mid aisle, second shelf. orlando has a large arts community, and an equally as big and active lgbtq+ community making orlando a truly diverse place to live. if you want to get out of orlando? never fear, it's only an hour and a halfs drive from orlando to tampa, and three and a half hours drive from orlando to miami. but perhaps the best part about living in orlando? the legend, the myth, the millers ale house zinger mountain melt. fuel for cast members and broke college students at the low, low cost of $13.99. so what are you waiting for? move to orlando, adopt a pet alligator, get a disney annual pass, and watch out for florida man ... he bites.

[revengeerafrankie]

A fun ask game - 3, 13, 21, 28, 29

3- What would be the title of a book about your life?- Yikes, Swipe Left...The Story of a Frank Kinnie

13- Share a story about your childhood- Ooh, I don’t have many stories. But in kindergarten I was known for coloring people purple. Everyone is coloring their little people standard colors and I was like “This bitch looks magenta”. It was not fun because I though my character looked cool ;-;

21- What is your favorite type of weather?- A slightly breezy, sunny day

28- What time do you usually go to sleep?- Like 10 at night....then I sleep FOREVER mwahahaha

29- Where are your favorite places to shop?- Spencer’s, Hot Topic, and anywhere that involves books <3333333

thank you for the asks!! :)))))))

[jiaraendgame]

😈 🙌 🎭 🎭 - Courtney ♡♡

Girl! I thought I told you to go to bed haha! As always thank you love you!

😈 One bad thing you’ve done?

Okay so the FIRST thing I thought of for this is very bad so we gonna pretend like I never thought of it and go with something WAY more minor haha. Back in the day young teenage me who was very broke would go to the mall basically EVERY weekend cause it’s just where we would hang out. We were there so often that we were friends with ALOT of the mall store workers especially Hot Topic, Spencers, and Journey’s cause we were all little emo and scene kids haha. Well, I was a broke bitch and really wanted a couple of new nail polishes so when we went into one of the shittier mall stores my friend and I would find the colors we wanted then grabbed a few random pieces of clothes to try on and when in the dressing room we would pocket the nail polish then leave the store. Little clepto bitch we were not cool at all. I NEVER stole anything big though, but regardless this was still bad. Again I was a stupid angsty young teen so PLEASE don’t steal shit it’s straight-up stupid okay? Also for the record, I only ever stole nail polish a total of 3 times before I decided I was being dumb and shouldn’t do that.

🙌 One thing you can’t live without?

I don’t even care how cliche this is but music. I can’t live without music nor would I quite literally be alive if it wasn’t for music. Music has always been an important outlet for me it helps me cope with any and all feelings. Happy, sad, angry, anything I need music has and when I go to concerts I feel so fucking free it’s the best. Music is so important and without it, I would not be the same person I am today.

🎭 One favorite musical or play?

Ooh okay so this one is a bit weird and out there but I absolutely love the strange and entertaining horror musical called Repo! The Genetic Opera! If you haven't seen it I highly recommend it if you want something strange and unusually unique.

🎭 One favorite musical or play?

Another big favorite of mine is the musical Little Shop of Horrors! Found my love for this one when I was in 7th or 8th-grade my high school decided it would be our big Spring play. It was so much fun being in that cast. Unfortunately due to some circumstances even though I went to all my practices I was told I wasn’t able to perform. I was just in the chorus but regardless I grew to love the material as well as the people I met working on the play together. ALSO fun fact my high school was lucky enough to be able to rent and use the actual Broadway props from their production of Little Shop of Horrors. It was so fucking cool. We had the small plant, medium plant, and ginormous plant form of Audrey II. The quality was so killer.

[dkcrimeape]

alright bitches, it’s time for a story. so i went clothes shopping today at the mall and had a very fun little adventure with my friend maya and her little brother travis. we went to hot topic first because it’s right next to the food court and i wanted to get some new buttons and while the cashier was ringing me up she asked if i had a rewards account. i was a bit timid to tell her that my email for the account was twinkiesdippedinranch, especially because she’d just watched me stab myself five times while i was trying to find a “that’s what she said” button that had a tag on it. no i didn’t find it. but it’s hot topic so she got a kick out of it.

next we went to american eagle because i wanted to get some nice shirts on clearance and while the chashier was ringing me up she asked “do you have an american eagle rewards card” and i go “nope, i wish!” and maya, who just had to deal with this at hot topic, goes “jesus christ” and fully walks away from me, taking travis with her. the cashier doesn’t really register any of this at first because american eagle employees are always just a little zoned out and when she goes to put in my email she looks up at me with an expression of slight disgust and asks “twinkies dipped in ranch?” and when i confirm that she heard me correctly, she just shrugs and gives me my total, all the while two very obnoxious hawaiian shirts are sitting on the counter.

lastly, we go to spencer’s, this is where things get good. since spencer’s is basically just rated R hot topic and travis is only seven, maya and i told him to stay by the shirts in the front so we could still see him and told him “if anyone tries to kidnap you, scream.” once we picked out our stuff, maya and i waited in line behind this guy who was clearly a very confused dad who was just there to get his kid a gift or something and was being very careful not to look at the “toys” and their respective cleaner that were displayed right next to the register. i’m an immature teenager so i found the toys very funny and said “hey maya, think we can get a deal on these?” i did not, however, notice that the guy in front of us had just finished paying or that the cashier was gesturing for us to come up and both of them heard me. the dad gave me one last look of despair before promptly leaving, maya was trying not to die of embarrassment, and the cashier was like “i can not legally sell you those” all while travis is staring blair witch style at the t-shirts. so i slap our stuff down on the counter and maya walks back over to travis but then the cashier says “hey, you could get another pair of socks for 50% off” so i yell “maya!” who’s 5 feet away from me “get another pair of socks!” in an almost new yorker accent, and she’s like “you sure man?” and i yell “yeah they’re half off!” so she’s like cool and throws a pair of rainbow socks at me, somehow my unathletic ass catches them and slaps them down on the counter and i say before the cashier can even ask “i would like a spencer’s reward account, my email is twinkiesdippedinranch” and she says without missing a beat “that is the second worst email address i’ve ever heard, the worst being nickalback is bae” and i’m like “that is definetely worse” and then we paid for our stuff and left, yes we remembered to collect travis.

[vampryn]

im that anon who asked what u work as lol i asked bc im tired of having to switch 180 degrees from how i normally look or avoid looking how i want to even on the weekends bc work so i was looking for ideas as i assumed you at least keep your piercings out while ur working

i avoid food places while looking for a job, most places haven’t had problems with my piercings. i’ve worked many a’place. drop off resumes to any close-to alternative store, try to look “normal-er” during the hiring process until you read the policies and talk to management(i dont just go to work looking like a goon!!! i asked my manager first!!! she said do ya thang bitch!!!)9 times out of 10 youre going to have to tone down your look if you’re working a regular job, places like hot topic, spencers, west 49, journeys, thrift stores, the body shop, adult stores, walmart, and locally run stores etc. will let you keep your piercings and have policies that try to protect all people from discrimination

[nat-der-kunstler]

my friends and i skyped DSOD in the middle of the night to celebrate my birthday and here are some out of context quotes

I’d like to clarify that my friends don’t know ANYTHING about yugioh. They only know some basic names and everything about ryou bakura. But that’s only bc I can never shut up about bakura. I only started writing things down consistently like halfway through so whoops. 

“Oh wow Nat are you a part of that fangirl brigade” “yeah, i’m bakura fangirl kin, you got me.” “oh wow, blue hair I wonder who’s important” “Could you imagine sitting at your desk and suddenly you look over and there are five assholes staring at you from the front of the class.”

(So I stopped writing them down for a while at this point and picked it up again around the part where joey’s being consumed by the plana-verse or whatever) “Just throw a dab joey” “DO ONE LAST COOL THING BEFORE YOU GET CONSUMED BY THE VOID JOEY” “throw the plana oFF A BUILDING. that’ll test its strength.” “Kaiba!! KAIBA!!!” “Who the FUCK is kaiba” “This giant pile of garbage that I adore” “I don’t understand why he’s dressed like that.” “Kaiba could just stomp on yugi and kill him and he refuses to do this” “Mockumaba” (Intermission because it hit 12 AM and they wanted to sing me happy birthday. We did and then I made them join me in singing happy birthday to bakura.) “Get out the way yugi” “Beep beep BITCH” “Wouldn’t it be funny if Kaiba just left him in the middle of the road and he can’t go to the tournament because he’s dead” “Kaiba’d still make him duel in a hospital bed” “No he’d dump yugi’s corpse into the stadium” “Yugi’s corpse would still win tho” “Why is this 14 year old working for the company” “Oh bro. he’s the vice president” *BOTH MY FRIENDS BURST INTO SUDDEN LAUGHTER* “Yes Diva, you’ve forgotten what you are...a bitch” - My friend mimicking sera “Lemme d-d-d-d-duel ya ass” “Oh damn he sent an entire stadium into the void” “Could you imagine being at home and watching this on TV and all of a sudden everything’s red” ”Why’s there a fuchsia filter on my TV” “Take a shot every time someone says vijam” “Diva is the only person that says vijam” “STOP TRYING TO MAKE VIJAM HAPPEN DIVA” “What the hell are they doing? Why is it all card games? I just need someone to be like: I summon. My glock.” “Don’t you mean you dimension summon ur glock” “Yeah, it attacks ur lifepoints directly bitch” (At one point my friend just started repeating everything Diva said in a mocking voice.) (one of my friends disappears for a while and my other friend  and I are concerned and when she comes back she says) “Yeah no, Diva showed up into my room and sent my ass to the shadow realm” “Straight into the void motherfucker” “Oh you had a tough childhood? So did I. I just dealt with it through my crippling depression, get over yourself” “Sera is the worst anime waifu ever” “Yugi shreked his ass in TWO TURNS” “Sure didn’t fucking FEEL like two turns” “c-carl. CARL COME BACK THE TV’S FIXED IT’S NOT PINK ANYMORE” “oh my god GUYS I just remembered it’s bakura’s birthday today!!” “Nat. It’s your birthday. That’s why we’re watching this” “I suMMON MARSHMALLOW BUTTPLUG AND PUT DOWN TWO CARDS” “Blue eyes white dragon? That’s racist” “Kaiba has dragons and Yugi decided to bring sentient beauty blenders” “Dark Magician just DODGE HIS ATTACK” “This isn’t pokemon sean” “oh my god yugi haS A SQUAD OF LESBIANS” “Kaiba has belts wrapped around his arms and that’s why he deserves nothing but death” “I wanna give a shoutout to my sister sera for being absolutely FUCKING USELESS” “Is anyone going to call the police” “There’s police?” “Why do they have to duel this monster they could just go up and slap it.” “Fine sean. YOU go up there and slap it” “Yugi’s short enough to jump and knee it in the box crotch” “My strategy as a duelist would be to distract my opponents and then beat their ass” “Someone tried that and yugi sent his ass to the shadow realm so quick” “Man it’d be worth it tho” “Everyone. Shhhhhhh. Kaiba’s about to do the first good thing in his life” “Finally.” “Oh that’s really gay” “Oh he’s a flaming homo” “I cannot believe yugi just summoned a club penguin puffle and murdered it.” “That is kuRIBOH” “Puffle.” “Which yugi is this” “Goth hot topic yugi” “I know. They’re both goth hot topic yugi” “Why is he ripped he has NO REASON to be this ripped” “So Yugioh-” “U know his name is Yugi right sean?” “The show’s called yugioh so his NAME is yugioh” “It’s yugi-OH because yugi is always surprising us” “Oh shit yugi’s two yugi’s now. mitosis.” “Who are you.” “I’m you if I went to planet fitness” “No no NO, I’m you, but you shop at hot topic and I shop at spencers” “Great now they have to go back to begging because diva’s stupid ass lost the plana” “Sera’s plan is probably just to ask yugi for money but be super vague about it and then just stand around ” “Oh by the way sean. Kaiba’s got a giant space station” *deep sigh* “Mokuba’s a better sibling than kaiba deserves” “DID HE JUST SHOW UP TO 800 BC. TO JUST. FOR ALL THIS EFFORT HE BETTER JUST BE PHYSICALLY KICKING THE PHARAOH’S ASS. KAIBA HAS THE HIGHER GROUND. LITERALLY” “Maria, where did sean go?” “Um he just texted “I can’t with this fucking petty bullshit. it’s like being back in high school but so much worse” in the group chat and now his phone is off.” “mood.”

[clinicallyfreezing]

You can hate me and unfollow...

If you want after this story but honestly I don’t give any fucks.

Alright hi, so. Let me start out by saying that I’m talking about shop lifting here and like it’s fucked up to steal andplease don’t steal anything but I genuinely have lifted and still do from time to time. I’ve stolen everything from food to stupid shit I didn’t need and I have NEVER gotten caught while stealing by myself or with people who weren’t lifting. But EVERYTIME and I mean EVERY FUCKING TIME I’ve been with people who are stealing, I fucking get caught and banned from stores so quick. This is such an aggravating thing to me because I have a genuine issue with stealing due to kleptomania. If I want it and dont have the money I’m stupid enough to steal it and I do it with fucking ease like SA’s, LP’s, sensors, and cameras don’t scare me even though they should. However, as of today (12/17/2017) I am permently fucking banned from Spencer’s Gifts at my local mall BECAUSE MY COUSINS WERE CAUGHT SHOPLIFTING AND I FUCKING WAS WITH THEM. Now I didn’t even steal anything today! I was good and fought every urge to take anything because I know that during the holiday season large stores in malls are on top of bitches to make sure they’re not concealing anything. Cameras are rolling, people called secret shoppers (who are like loss prevention) are walking around and keeping an eye on large ticket items and the people around them (the sex toys toward the back in Spencer’s case) and employees are up people’s asses if they’re being suspected of theft. And I was caught with two shoplifters who stole fucking sex toys and toy cleaner because they were stupid for stealing a week before fucking Christmas. Now I’m not mad that they stole (because we’ve been slipping shit in bags together since we were children.) I’m just mad that everytime shoplifting happens around me and I’m not the one doing it I get caught and get kicked out of stores.

Regardless of being a person with serious kleptomania and theft issues, I’ve NEVER been caught with items on me. I’ve even walked back into stores with stolen merchandise in my purse or pocket and still not gotten caught. But because of the stupidity of people around me that I’m with, I get kicked out of stores for just being with them. Even when I dump out bags in front of people to prove it wasn’t me. This has happened now three times, where I’m not the one who concealed but I’ve still been kicked out. And twice it wasn’t even to my knowledge that those people were concealing in the first place (yes today was one of those days). I do NOT believe in being “guilty by association” or that by being with someone concealing makes you an accessory to the crime. If I have zero merchandise on me (meaning anywhere on me) I am fully innocent and should be let go. I am not an accomplice, especially if I’m fully unaware of the theft taking place in my friends purse. They apparently had me on camera slipping something into my cousins bag. Which is completely made up as I didn’t and stated that I didn’t more then once. I might be a thief from time to time when I can’t hold back from my stupid klepto urges but I do NOT lie in situations where I’m an innocent person.

I actually got mad about the woman who was being VERY rude to me and it got to the point where while being targeted on the store floor I had to dump out both my purse and the hot topic bag I was holding with a recipt to prove I bought those items out on the store floor. I refused to go in the back room because I was not the person stealing and I wasn’t going to be criminalized for something so fucking petty. The woman targeting us went as far as to wave an empty vibrator package around to try and embarrass me and my 16 year old cousin infront of other shoppers. I said to her and I quote, “I have shown you my bags, and you clearly can see that I was not the one who stole your stupid fucking vibrator. Now if you do not let me leave the store I’m going to start swinging and that’s gonna be ugly because you will have a reason to arrest me.” The entire front of the store cleared and the women continued to stare me down so I continued to raise holy hell. No I didn’t hit anybody but they held me up front on the store front for more then 20 fucking minutes and I went off the entire time. I don’t have an ID because I don’t have the money to even begin to get one and that was the one thing she was focused on. My other two cousins were giving back merchandise in the back room while this bitch up front decided to bitch at me FOR BEING 18 YEARS OLD AND NOT HAVING A FUCKING FORM OF ID and would rather use me (the 5ft 2in red head with a fully visible health issue) as the target BECAUSE I WAS THE ONLY ADULT WITH NO FORM OF ID AND I SHOULD HAVE BEEN WATCHING THE MINORS THAT I ENTERED THE STORE WITH AT ALL TIMES TO MAKE SURE THEY WERN’T TAKING ITEMS. I will be calling the store and their corporate office tomorrow to lift my ban and if it isn’t lifted I will be pressing charges for falsely accusing me for theft and using me as a scape goat/target. I don’t drive as I’m night blind, legally blind and disabled and I don’t have the money to get a non-drivers licesnse here in the state of New York because I’m not only living on SSI but my family that I reside with lives paycheck to paycheck. I’m lucky I had the money for the things I bought at Hot Topic today because one is a Christmas gift for someone.

Last thing: don’t steal vibrators or sex toys from Spencer’s. (or anything from anywhere ftm) it’s not worth it, you will be caught, and if you’re with someone stealing in Spencer’s (even when it isn’t to your knowlege) you will be criminalized and you may be humiliated by staff on the store floor in-front of customers for the other person’s actions.

[theotomemaiden]

Okay but why do Carla and Azusa's weird problems sound scarily close to problems I have. The only difference is that while Carla walks around, he has no anxiety lol. It's like I can't go anywhere by myself, especially when I shop at places like Victoria's Secret or Forever 21, I don't fit in at all and everyone else shopping there just stares at me like they either find me weird or scary or both. Only stores I usually fit into is Hot Topic (Of course, I mean I work there) and Spencer's and MAYBE Sephora lol. But when I go into these places I get so much anxiety that I have absolutely no idea where to go or what to do. I'm always nice to others though, unlike Carla haha, even if I'm shaking in fear or the way they act or treat me. I wish I had a friend to walk around with, I'd feel so much better and feel okay even if I still don't fit in lol. I always follow whoever I'm with because I never have any idea myself. Social anxiety is a bitch.

And for Azusa, well....let's just say I'm a bit of a masochist 🤷🏻‍♀️

things in dialovers that I’m never going to get tired of

reiji being confused and somewhat disgusted by healthy sibling relationships

ayato misunderstanding extremely common words and phrases

carla wandering around places where he doesnt fit in, like festivals or amusement parks, having no idea what to do

when a character describes some terrible experience and azusa is like “that sounds great”

kino getting away with LITERALLY anything just because nobody cares enough to stop him most of the time

ruki’s weird kinks, especially when other characters are around to judge him

[myaekingheart]

summer road trip 2018 ; day six

So, thankfully today went way better than yesterday. Big plus. I woke up super early (much to my chagrin) thanks to a growling stomach so my parents and I had our breakfast and then got our showers and got dressed, all that good stuff. My hair was much more cooperative today and didn’t look nearly as bad as I feared it would (though one picture my mom took of me would seriously beg to differ). While my grandparents went down to the clubhouse for the bocce ball tournament, my parents and I decided to hit up the nearest mall. I was on a mission to get this t-shirt from Spencer’s that I saw on their website a week or two ago, but ended up getting a little more than I expected. My mom nearly had a heart attack when I told her I didn’t pack any jeans (all my long pants are leggings these days) so she suggested I go buy another pair or two to have on the trip. So we headed to the mall, stopping at the local CVS to buy me new shampoo beforehand, which is also another story. One of the only things the girl who fucked up my hair did right was let me know that a very potential reason behind my dry scalp issues could very well be because of the shampoo I use. I’ve been using Suave shampoo and conditioner for years, which she said apparently caused her to have dry scalp issues and highly recommend I change it. When I told my mom how I was thinking about this a lot lately, she said that she stopped using the same brand because she saw something about a lawsuit from years ago that their hair products caused people to have really bad dry scalp and lose their hair. So that was a definite reason for me to change. I ended up getting the same shampoo and conditioner that I had used back in middle school, Herbal Essences Body Envy, because as far as I remember that never gave me any trouble and it smelled really nice and made my hair bouncy which, with my current haircut, I think might help. I definitely would love to see some more volume in my hair, to be quite honest. But anyways, after that we headed down to the mall where I got a little sidetracked and admittedly spent way more money than I ever intended. We stopped at Charlotte Russe first because I really like their Refuge shorts and pants. The only issue with those is that the sizing is so goddam finicky, it’s hard to buy a pair of pants you know you will fit without trying them on first. I didn’t necessarily want to go through the hassle of filtering in and out of dressing rooms but I knew if I didn’t, I could very well buy something that, once I got home, I’d find didn’t actually fit. I cycled through a couple pairs of pants ranging from three different sizes. Only one pair fit, the one I ended up getting. Funny enough, I actually already own this same exact style in the same exact size just in a different color. At least the positive part then is that I already know I like this particular style of pants and they fit me pretty perfectly. Trying on pants like this was kind of taxing on my ED recovery, though. I have been eating but I still feel like I’m not where I should be, and because the sizing on these pants are so finicky, after a while it got really old finding every pair being too large on me, even some of the size zeros. It makes me wonder what the fuck I’m doing wrong, like how can I be so fucking far gone that a size motherfucking zero is too big? I just have to remind myself it’s all about perspective. I have size zeros from this same brand that are tight on me, and size fours that fit well, so I don’t know what the hell they’re doing. All I know is that all of this would probably be completely solved if I just gained some motherfucking weight. But let’s not get into that again. This is supposed to be a positive story. But anyway, I did at least find one pair that fit nicely, which was actually a pleasant coincidence because they were tan jeans which I needed. I tried to buy a pair of tan corduroy leggings a while back to wear with one of my Violet cosplays (that pink outfit she wears at the end of the first movie) but the smallest size was still way too big on me and they wouldn't shrink in the wash so they were kind of a lost cause. I could certainly wear a belt with them, regardless of whether they had belt loops or not (they don't) but you could always tell when I did because there was some unflattering bulk underneath. So finding a pair of tan pants that actually fit was awesome. I also found a really cute loose crop top that I ended up buying, as well, which was a double score since I've found much of Charlotte Russe's clothes don't appeal to me like they used to anymore. I feel like these days they cater to that basic bitch style which I definitely do not fall under whatsoever. I only really still go there for their incredible leggings, especially when they're on sale for $5, and their shorts/pants. Other than that, I probably wouldn't be caught dead wearing anything else in there except the occasional cute shirt I find. But anyways, after this I decided to stop in Hot Topic just to look around. Truthfully, I stepped foot in there mainly because I wanted to see if I could find any Violet Pop Figures, and maybe get lucky in finding a Chase figure (but let's face it, they're practically impossible to get your hands on). I unfortunately didn't find any but I did find something equally as great. I love the band Beartooth and I've been wanting a t-shirt for a while now, but I had a hard time finding a good one that I liked that was affordable. I found one or two cute ones on their official website that I wouldn't have minded ordering but when I looked on Hot Topic's website, they only had, like, one and I didn't think it was really worth getting. Well, as I was perusing the store today my eyes drifted upwards to the t-shirt design display on the back wall and lo and behold, there was a really cute Beartooth t-shirt. I wasn't sure if I wanted to spend another $20 but I fell in love with the shirt and I had been wanting one so badly that I couldn't resist. So I am now the very proud and pleased owner of a Beartooth t-shirt and I am outrageously excited about it.(There was also this really cute interaction with a 12 year old boy who was in line in front of me that you can read about here).  At this point, I wasn't sure if it was worth even stepping foot in Spencer's to get the one thing I intended to buy on this trip in the first place, seeing as how I felt I had already spent an obscene amount of dough on stuff I didn't plan on buying. However, I also really wanted this shirt from Spencer's. And I mean, hey, I'm on vacation. I can afford to live a little...right? So basically I bought the shirt from Spencer's anyways because fuck it, treat yourself, making for a total of one pair of pants and three shirts acquired on this very successful mall trip, plus new shampoo and conditioner from beforehand. After that, I told my dad to restrain me from buying anything else because I knew my wallet would kill me if I did anymore shopping. I honestly don't even want to look at my bank account right now. We left the mall around 12:30pm and then headed back to my grandparents' house for lunch. Lunchmeat sandwiches and chips, just like every other day. This time, however, they took care to present the meat and cheese on a plate rather than just tossing the packages on the table. I guess having my parents here makes them step up their game a bit or something. Lunch was alright, but afterward my grandparents quickly became...kind of a nuisance. I know that's horrible to say because they're old and should be respected, and this is their house, after all, but they've been scrambling to prepare for this big high school reunion (that hardly anyone is probablyg going to be at because the list of names of everyone whose passed away is, like, three pages long) and the stress from their hectic planning is very palpable. My Pop Pop is the kind of man who is very set in his ways, and he likes to do things the old-fashioned way, so when he had to type up some labels or something, rather than doing things the easiest possible way and typing everything up on the computer, he broke out his electric typewriter. My Pop Pop is also the kind of man who never learned how to properly type, so jams the keys with both of his index fingers and it takes him fifteen times longer to type anything out because of it. So after lunch he sat down at the kitchen table with this archaic machine and began slowly and loudly typing out whatever he needed to do. And then my grandmom had a fit because she was typing up something on the computer and when she went to go print, the printer did that thing where it makes some of the lines of texts a little squigglier than they should be and she was freaking out about saying she didn't know why it was doing that when it looks fine on the computer and wondering how to fix it. She legit had to call the label company yesterday because she was trying to type the names of everyone in the reunion onto label templates in Word but whenever she typed the first line, it was always in the center of the box and she didn't have room to put anything else. It legit took three hours and a phone call to the company for her to figure out that the lines of text moved up when you hit enter. And then she doesn't know you're supposed to save your work multiple times while you're working on it, so when Word stopped responding she first walked away and said she was going to wait and see what happened, and then when it finally shut down and restarted she lost all of her work. Today, though, was perhaps even less tolerable, though, because of the loud clacking on the typewriter from my Pop Pop and my grandmother freaking out about the squiggly text and then they were shouting to each other from across the house and they're old and have hearing aids so they have to shout really loud and it was just absolute chaos, truthfully. Hence why as soon as we could, we ran back out of the house to go do some of our own stuff. Seeing as I've been cooped up here for the past two days, it was nice to get fresh air and some relief from their insanity. We went down to this historic little shopping village not far from my grandparent's house where we honestly had the absolute best day. Because we went on a weekday in the off season, there weren't too many people there which meant peace and quiet. The weather was wonderful-- a little chilly but not so cold that it was unbearable, and sunny as all hell but not hot enough to be unbearable, either. My only complaint weather-wise was probably just the wind, since that was pretty intense at certain points, but that's a small complaint, really. We wandered around and peeked in a lot of the stores. There was a candle store and a Christmas store with all of these really cute, kitschy collectibles and a sweet shop where we bought some candy and a little store selling cute little yard signs. My favorite, by far, however, was this place called the Underground. It was kind of like Hot Topic's hipster, less popular cousin who outgrew their teen emo phase. All the walls were bright red and there was punk rock music blasting from the speakers and really cool t-shirts, a lot of which were punk rock themed representations of love for the state. There were two racks of t-shirts that were on sale for $5 that I couldn't resist looking at, and lo and behold of course I found one I fell in love with. And seeing as it was only $5, obviously I could not resist. It was really fucking cute, though, okay? It says "Stay True" on the sides and in the center has a silhouette of the state made up of skeletons. It overall has this very rockabilly, old-style tattoo look to the graphics design that's really fucking cute. After this, we wandered into the Ireland store and checked out what they had in there, which was nice because my family's Irish and so we're very connected to our heritage. And then I found a celebrity memorabilia shop that I just had to wander into with the hope of finding something Audrey. Fortunately, my hopes were not unwarranted. There was a small corner of very little Breakfast at Tiffany's merchandise that I was kind of uninterested in but there was a Holly Golightly magnet that I decided I liked that my mom offered to get for me. As we were checking out, the woman working the register pointed out that in the glass display case at checkout, she had tons of souvenir celebrity driver licenses/ID cards and that Audrey was one of them but that she sells out fast. At first she didn't think she had any left because she had trouble finding it in the collection, but then she was mistaken and did, in fact, find that she had one left. It was super cheap and I fell in love with it so my mom offered to buy me that, as well. The rest of the afternoon, I kept joking that I finally got a driver's license and that if I got pulled over, I'd just flash my Audrey card and be on my way because I look so much like her already anyways. Not that I'd ever actually do that, of course, I just thought it was a funny thought and I was really in love with the purchase. The entire place was honestly really nice, though, and all of the buildings were beautiful little colonial houses. There was a lake with paddleboats and a shop in a building with a waterwheel and quaint little bed-and-breakfasts. There was an even an arcade where my mom won me a little purple rubber duck from the claw machine and I paid a dollar to play a Fast and Furious motorcycle game in which I got fifth place. Overall, it was just a really wonderful day and I had so much fun, it just completely made up for my shit emotions from yesterday. Before we left, we stopped at this little seafood restaurant in the middle of nowhere where my dad used to always go with his parents as a kid and they each got one beer at the "boat bar." The place was pretty quiet, so it was very relaxed which was nice. There were a lot of windows, as well, which meant great views of the lake and wide open fields surrounding the place. After having lived in a busy college town for the past nine months, it was honestly so fucking refreshing to go someplace so rural and secluded for once. Someplace where I don't have to hear cop cars and shitty rap music playing every goddamn minute. Just absolutely peaceful. My parents desperately wished they could stay longer, and even eat at this restaurant since it holds such fond memories for my dad but we had to get home for dinner as my grandmother was making a roast and we'd never hear the end of it if we were late. She was going to make it last night if my parents' were back by dinner but since they were out and didn't get home until 8pm, we had spaghetti instead. Dinner was so much fancier than I expected. Because of how many people we now have, and how small the kitchen table is, we ate in the dining room instead with the fancy lace table cloth and the tall pink candles and fake flower centerpiece. We had the roast, baked potatoes, broccoli, and dinner rolls which was pretty good, but seeing as I'm not a huge fan of roasts to begin with (or broccoli that's not smothered in cheese), it wasn't my favorite meal. I still tried to eat as much as I could fathom anyways. For dessert, we had cherry pudding cake which was honestly fucking delicious, and my mom broke out the Bailey's chocolate malt ball things she bought at the candy store. I had never had Bailey's before so when I tried one, it was a totally new experience. I just wish someone had told me how much Bailey's tastes like coffee. I despise coffee and so the minute I stuck the thing in my mouth and bit down and all the liquid in the center filled my mouth, I felt like I was going to be sick. I had to run to the kitchen and spit it out in a paper towel, then chug some water and scarf down the pudding cake just to get the taste out of my mouth. So at least the pudding cake was delicious and definitely did the trick or else I would've been in huge trouble. As for my parents, or at least my mom, she was a hot mess by this point. One of the friends she met up with the other day has a father who makes his own wine which is dangerous enough for my addicted mother. She had two glasses of red wine at dinner that she had bought...somewhere and then with dessert, she had her friend's father "Chocolate Cherry Truffle" wine and damn was she feeling it. My mom doesn't get "drunk" anymore, necessarily, so much as she gets "tipsy." Her usual plateau is at three glasses of wine and I guess she's built up a tolerance to it to where she doesn't really get hangovers anymore, at least from wine. She used to, though. Funny how drinking something so much stops giving you the adverse effects after a while. But anyway, I could tell my mom was reaching the tipsy point and I was truthfully not very pleased. I hate when she gets like this, and fortunately enough living far away means I don't have to deal with it every day like I used to but that still doesn't mean I'm not bothered anymore when I do have to deal with it. I don't know if it was that or something else but after dinner, I honestly got really crabby? I kind of kept to myself the rest of the night, sitting on my air mattress in the formal living room and doing whatever. My grandparents watched the newest episode of NCIS tonight which honestly was really emotionally taxing and I didn't even fucking watch it. When I was in middle school, my best friend and I were in love with NCIS. We'd have sleepovers where we'd watch the episodes together and then we'd play pretend. I was always Abby. Always, always, always. She was my absolute favorite. I even remember one time we slept over at my best friend's grandmother's house and we made little fake NCIS badges and mine had Abby's name on it. I just loved her so fucking much, everything about her: her goth style, the music she'd play in her lab, her farting hippo. She was just the absolute coolest and I desperately wanted to be like her. I guess in a way Abby was another vehicle into my transition into the type of person I am today, since I wasn't really very alt back in middle school-- I never had the typical emo phase, though I became friends with emo kids in eighth grade-- but I feel like there was always something pulling me back into that scene that, as a little kid, I always yearned to be a part of (when I was four, I decided that as a teenager I would paint my walls black and listen to Green Day and Evanescence all the time and that I'd cut my hair shoulder-length and dye the tips bright red). Even though I haven't kept up with the series, and I haven't sat down to even watch reruns in years, Abby still holds such a special place in my heart and means so much to me so when I heard Pauley Perrette was leaving the show, I was admittedly a little sad but it didn't register in my brain the potential ways they would have her leave the show. As her final episode drew nearer and nearer, I kept seeing things on facebook about her saying goodbye to the character and the high-running emotions, how everyone would need multiple boxes of tissues, and something calling her an "angel" on the show's official facebook page. I suddenly grew terrified that they were going to kill her off. I was in the other room when the episode started, and I heard gunshots and people saying Abby was in horrible condition or whatever. I was convinced she was going to die and that was something I could not stand. I started envisioning her in the hospital bed with Gibbs at her bedside, and suddenly she'd start struggling and her heart rate would increase and then she wouldn't be able to breathe and then she'd flatline and that would be the end and Gibbs would tuck her hippo under her arm or something, and then at the funeral someone would make a quip about "Now we're all dressing like Abby" wearing black to the funeral and I just...my mind was racing and I couldn't stand to think that they'd actually do that even though I was 99% positive that would be the way things went. I was so anxious about it, and the thought of this was so goddamn intolerable, that I shut myself out from everyone and plugged in my screamo loud enough to block out the TV so that I wouldn't have to see or hear anything. I wanted to avoid Abby dying at all fucking costs. I didn't want to know. The hour in which the episode took place in felt like fucking forever and I kept checking the clock to see how much longer I had before it would all be over and I'd know if my suspicions were correct. The minute the episode was over, my mom came over and captured my attention with the verdict (spoilers ahead): she didn't die. For a second, I thought she was playing a trick on me. I thought she was only telling me what I wanted to hear so that I wouldn't be upset because let's fucking face it, if she did, in fact, die, we all know I would've treated it like I just lost a best friend I hadn't spoken with in years and would've cried my eyes out and been depressed for three days straight. My grandmom and dad confirmed that this was true, though (as well as the internet) and a gigantic swell of relief just completely washed over me. I was just so fucking happy she wasn't dead. Because of how panicked I was during the show's duration, though, it left me kind of emotionally drained a little short-fused the rest of the night. I stayed on my air mattress on my laptop for the rest of the night listening and waiting for when I could finally get some alone time. I desperately needed time to myself to recharge, and to recount the day's events like I'm doing right now. My parents went to bed around 9:30pm, which is typical. They can't stay up as late as they used to, and when they do it feels weird and unnatural. I was hoping my grandparents would head in shortly after but...nope. Of course not. Why would they? Instead, they were up until almost midnight. They can't hear for shit so they had the TV blasting all the negative bullshit on the news and I wanted to lowkey shoot myself. Despite how much fun I had today, I woke up way too early for my own good and didn't get enough sleep last night so by the time 10pm rolled around, I was super tired and was contemplating not even journalling the day so I could just get some sleep. It's hard to do that, though, when the old folks have the volume up to 80. It wasn't until 11:30pm when my Pop Pop decided to turn off the TV and head in, but that didn't mean my grandmom was following him. She was up for an extra 20 or so minutes dealing with the dishes so I still didn't quite get solace and silence. When she finally did head in, I thought I was finally in the clear but, again...not quite. Their bedroom door isn't far from where my air mattress is situated, and because the walls are thin and they can't hear for shit, I could hear their entire 20minute conversation before bed. Granted, I wasn't paying close enough attention to make out the content but I heard the droning voices just the same. I didn't get true quiet until about 12:15am which quite frankly drove me completely nuts. I am a very introverted person and I very desperately need at least peace and quiet in order to rest and recharge. The longer I stay at my grandparent's house, the more I'm finding that peace and quiet is hard to come by here. I love them to death, I really do, but at the same time a part of me is kind of excited I only have two days left here so I can finally get back home and fall back into the groove of my regular, everyday life where I'll be with my boyfriend and we can have our own alone time doing our own things and it's the same routine sounds that I can easily block out rather than elderly banter. I don't know, man, I know I sound insanely bitter and I really don't mean to. I don't want to be that person, you know? But I just...I get frustrated sometimes. At least now everyone is in bed, though, and I am the only one awake so I can just lay back and relax and spend some alone time...for the next five minutes before I completely pass out, at least. Because I have to wake up early and do it all again (the running around) tomorrow. I guess keeping busy is just a double-edged sword.