#theres not a very big fandom so any likes/reblogs are very appreciated

[spacebugarts]

I personally think Visitors should get silly cat/lizard pupils in their human disguises as a treat :) and that means Saucer Eyes

Also if you wanna read the text in the background it's written in the alt text :)

[rw-ship-showdown]

hi i want to run a rain world region showdown but i don't know how to get voters could you possibly give some advice?

(hope its okay to answer this publically)

hello! im not quite sure what advice i can give- in all honesty, id reckon i mostly got voters from

having a not insubstantial following on both my main and rain world sideblog from recent rain world posts, so i could funnel my newly active following into the rain world blog. i also specifically kickstarted my rain world sideblog by posting rw shipping content/requests, so my following there was exactly ready for this blog

a lot of very active popular members in the fandom do rw shipping and so further funneled attention towards me

which is like, what can i say except.. have followers? which sucks for advice!!! im not sure if there are any big names who specifically rave about regions that could help you boost engagement, either... your best bet for something niche might be to put enough flare into what you post to catch peoples eyes- if you just post "vote between industrial v chimney" or something people who have no strong opinion would just look it over- if you included propaganda images displaying what you feel best encapsulates the region + short blurbs on what can be found there, itll get people thinking and likely sharing to add on. (this is also why i encourage propaganda, it helps get more engagement from the posters following/if someone wants to argue- though again, as this is niche vs the popular generalized fandom, theres little opportunity to get like.. visual fanart propaganda). id also recommend if youre in any rain world groups advertising and trying to hype it up there? at the very least if you tag me in anything ill reblog it!

TLDR; i am very thankful and lucky that rw shipping is popular enough to get substantial voting. i am not sure exactly what advice i can port over from shipping to region appreciation.

ill also tag. @rainworldroompoll as they similarly are doing something niche?

[4uru]

Narcissistic art rant

Tw: anti cc

[I only take constructive criticism if u don't like/agree with my post either keep scrolling or *politely* express your opinion, i am a fragile little tea cup who doesn't like conflict and i will cry and overthink]

I know i might sound egotistical, but i don't like how any official art (the art posted by cc) of alastair carstairs looks.

I will 100% reblog an Alastair Carstairs fanart that maybe doesn't fit my vision of him, i wont criticise it or anything bc they did this from their heart. They were passionate about it. I will shut my mouth and appreciate the hell out of it. Also i know that my fanarts will also clash with some ppl's perception of him

But, I actually hate coming across official art of Thomas and Alastair, here are my reasons,

> the proportions are always wack on these two specifically for some reason. If y'all remember thr scarf one, i remember trying to figure out the proportions there, Alastair's arms were short and it just irks me. Bc ppl are paid for this. This isn't a fanart, this is a Commission prolly, and it just takes me out of the whole piece immediately.

>Thomas doesnt have a single, solo art that actually looks nice. One that i actually like started to bother me for some reason, so i tracked the proportions and his forehead was too big, and just the whole thing tuned me off from the piece.

He also has a chariot (?) fanart, (him on top of a chariot) and im sorry to say that was one of the fucking ugliest of Official art of thomas, his whole thing was off, it was a perspective drawing, and it just failed, his head looked to big, his face was stiffer than wood, his body' perspective made my brain hurt, it was just not good.

>for some reason only the alastair and thomas are non sensical (im talking their solo character drawings) like why is Alastair

Evilly reading a book? Why is thomas just flexing?? It makes no sense compared to the rest, matthew is laying there like a girl boss and that makes sense for him, like just these two are kinda awkwardly standing or sitting

> they make Alastair a twink. Theres nothing wrong with being a twink. But Alastair is literally a shadowhunter. An ACTIVE shadowhunter. And its not even that he looks like a twink compared to Thomas, no they actually make him a petite little boy. Wtf???? It feels like they are trying to put Alastair and Thomas in a heteronormative box. Doesn't help that almost the whole fandom agrees on the opinion that Alastair is the bottom. (Trust me i tried searching for bottom thomas lightwood....i found a barren land)

Their art feels forced to me...i dont feel jack shit. And these are my favourite fucking characters i have seen absolutely beginner stuff, and i have cried over it. I just dont feel anything when i look at these official arts.

Here ends my very narcissistic rant. At the end of the day...cc can just make characters and fuck em up, i will take them, put them.in a box and shake it violently until i like them.

I will have to say, i love the coloring of these fanarts, even the ones that make me want to die, but yeah the drawing is just not there, they feel hollow and wonky, and i dont care how smooth and cool the colors looks when it feels completely emotionless.

[the-kipsabian]

you're genuinely a great writer, and you've improved a lot since i've been following you. you're really very talented! you get low engagement because you write for a rarepair, in an already not-so-big fanbase. the whole thing with fanfiction is that people read about what they know, stories that expand the media that they already like. if you want to write about something you're passionate about: continue going the way you are. you're improving, and learning, and getting experience. if you want engagement, write for a popular fandom. you have to choose your path. i understand it's frustrating, but not even the most skilled, perfectly articulate and endlessly evocative writer can get engagement in a tiny fandom. 's just how this works, man. it sucks.

like see. i totally understand this. trust me this isnt my first rodeo with stuff like this, unfortunately

the thing thats mostly frustrating to me is that the interactions have stopped almost entirely. that they used to be there once. yeah most notes in any of my posts are still my own reblogs, but there used to be actual interactions there. there were tags in reblogs. there were reblogs and likes. now theres barely anything when i do share something

like yes i get it, this is a very small rarepair in a niche fandom, and im not expecting a lot. im expecting the bare minimum above nothing. and for the most part there isnt anything there anymore. i know theres a lot of reasons for this, and im not blaming anyone or whatever, i dont want it to sound like that - i just want to be seen and i dont think that should be too much to ask even in the case of a small rarepair in a niche fandom

that being said, yeah no im not changing anything im doing. this is where my passion and my heart is and this is what i enjoy doing and what makes me happy. i never wanted to be "popular"; again, i just wanted to be seen. and seeing the curve of interactions going down from the previously already small numbers just makes me sad. ive thankfully gotten into the mindset of wanting to really only write for myself and one other person who i know genuinely likes my work, and thats good enough for me. which i guess is contradictory to what ive been saying, but i think despite that im allowed to be a little sad about this whole thing. i think every artist just wants to be seen and heard at times, no matter what

anyways, i appreciate you nonnie. im just sad cause the amount of energy it takes to put something out there and then not getting anything back, when im already hanging by a thread at almost all times so its very taxing. so like. i dont know

[demonlike-judge-of-fire]

Prev for ur reblog.

Like. It kinda has. Its big in the korean Twitter and there's some famous non korean artists there too. But here on tumblr? There's barely any posts, especially about chapters that arent translated and in ao3 theres very few fics. The fanarts are either only from 1 popular artists and there's only 3? 5? Other fanarts that arent made by them.

Theres no analysis posts or many memes or even incorrect quotes. For me the fandom is just like me, some mutuals who once posted about twsb in the past, one person with the cedjess url and that popular artist/writer/person who carries the fandom and is a walking propaganda spreader (i love them and i appreciate their work)

It's getting a lil better. Im im this fandom since it was barely popular on twt and there weren't any fic at all or fanarts. So like i should be greatful. But still.....its too small....

(Also bc of that i still half want to change my url to cedyesechris and go full mode on spreading propaganda. Unfortunately, im too attached to my url....)

(Anyways my dream is that it becomes big as orv internationally <3 like. Its on par with orv. Its just that good. A masterpiece. It deserves more recognition)

i have all the translated chapters downloaded so far so i might as well get to reading for u :)

[exatse]

Hey! Anon from earlier! If it makes you feel any better I got blocked too 💀💀💀, like I saw it happen live. I followed her and then like 5 mins later I couldn’t see her writing or personal blog anymore. I had my age in my bio and everything, I’m pretty she blocked me because I’m a silent reader (usually don’t leave likes, comments or reblog fics on my blog)? She has a rule that I didn’t see at the time I hit follow: “blogs that do not reblog or interact with fandom authors are iffy to me so i would block, too.” She doesn’t like spam likes either and she’s expressed on her writing blog:

“it's in my rules that I don't allow blank blogs to follow me because fandom spaces are already becoming very one-sided as it is. likes don't do anything for writers who work hard to put their content out. if you're not comfortable posting content, that's your prerogative, but I prefer if blogs like yours would not interact with me because it gives off the vibes of only seeing me as a content machine which is not what I want in my space :)”

She also said under a different post:

“writers here are real-life people with jobs/school/university/families and we do this for free bc we want to share our creations with the world. but let's be real, these works that we put hours in often don't even get rb'ed in the first place (or worst, at most we'll just get spam liked) so is it really such a big deal if we want to indulge in our own hobbies and enjoy fandom life with moots that don't involve writing?

you're not entitled to give us your reblogs but neither are you entitled to demand content from us when you don't even engage with it in the first place.”

But ummm yeah sorry for the long post. It sucks because I really liked her writing and she is a great writer. Sorry you were also blocked :(

omg anon thanks for reaching out again!! also dont think i saw the rules cause i only ever open tumblr at night (not that its an excuse). i found her fics while digging through tags and just followed her right away, i usually like or reblogs even followed blogs to keep the post from disappearing and comment later after i read/checked the whole thing out 💀 i get her point, i totally do and i guess as much as i love her works/writings theres nothing much i can do when thats how she views silent readers/blogs. i was actually about to check her whole blog after that rin fic but it was just so late and i ended up falling asleep lmaoo i feel sorry for both of us help me t____t its a shame that it has to be like this because theres so much more form of appreciations to writings and arts on tumblr. now i not feel bad for all the writers out here in tumblr because a lot of creators here are so talented and i would totally want to see them grow. i hope that they know that :(((

[fromthefishbowl]

Oh i love you for saying Lazaefair's name outloud.Not just you, I appreciate everyone in this fandom who had the guts to call her out.I understand people who are hesitant to call her out, cause she's a snake who have an exceptional knack in gaslighting and turning anything and everything in her favour. Lazaefair, Len and their cronies have hurt so many people inside and outside tog fandom and i won't be surprised if people come out saying they had suicidal thoughts because of these people.These racist antisemitic people needs to be called out ( and i loved the way how you mentioned the cronies without saying their name) . Their 'All and more' discord server is the most toxic racist discord in this fandom cause all they do is cover up all the racist and antisemitic bullshit done by their mods. (well, people do have reciepts of all the things they said in that server)

They should be held accountable for the things they did. They should apologize for every horrid things they did to poc, muslims,jews, writers, content creators and even fans.

Then there are the 'silent ones' ( theres a lot) or the blind devotees (yeah they too follow lazaefair and lens bible) who just keeps on making their cute little posts and a reblogging posts as if nothing happened in this fandom. All i have to say is they are straight up racist. Its like they are all part of this cult.

I am really holding myself back from naming the cronies because its not my place.But they all need to be called out by their victims.

Remember these people have been decieving and bullying people in the tog fandom for a year. For a YEAR they disguised as adults engaging in race conversations and fighting racism but they were like actual 12 year olds making "lists" and sending death threats to people.

But i have to warn you a particular "newb" or a different crony is gonna send you some death threats for mentioning lazaefairs name. Just be prepared to fight that anonymous 12 year old.

They better not start sending anon hate or threats or nasty comments, because everybody will know it's them and their reputation is already six feet under as is. Making it sink even lower would be embarrassing even for their standards.

And I have already mentioned this to a couple of friends, but... it's hysterical that these people are literally know for sending death and rape threats - across multiple fandoms too!!! -, pushing people out of fandom, harassing, bullying, and vagueblogging, and yet they took time to create a secret Discord server to recruit people into and "make the fandom great again" or some shit, as if they weren't the ones who ruined it in the first place - also by spreading actual misinformation and accusing actual MENA people of not telling the truth, with Lazaefair who worked real hard to spread the rumor that one of the MENA bloggers who were writing informative posts was actually an evil sockpuppet, and rejoicing when they wrote their last post before leaving fandom after receiving weeks worth of death threats, because we can't forget that! How dare anybody cross the ignorant American woman and her equally ignorant French bestie and their shit takes???

I was never in A&M, literally the only TOG servers I've ever been in are Top!Joe and the Zine one, but... if things are how people told me... whew, guys. And they are supposed to be the good guys? The righteous ones who put us on the right road and teach us how to be better people?

Them having a secret server also explains how it was possible that all the "big names" in the fandom who supported discourse, from Miss Finland to Miss Racefaker and their little cronies too, went real quiet just before the beginning of Pornathon and the day the event began they suddenly began yapping and whining about racism again, reblogging from each other, spitting out the same two takes - I loved, loved, when I pinned Len down when she was trying to shit on people for being """antisemitic""" and reminded her that Lazaefair is actually antisemitic, and Len pretended that she didn't know her lmao. If I were Lazaefair, just for that I would've thrown her under the bus as soon as the exposé was posted. Now that I think about it... was I the catalyst that caused her to write that racist as hell post? The one with the MENA boys who conveniently look like Majid because that's totes how all MENA boys look like in Europe?

Here's the thing: you don't suddenly go online and become antisemitic or racist or xenophobic because you read rambling posts that barely make any grammatical and syntactic sense. You don't suddenly begin sending death and rape treats, insults, threatening people to post about them on KiwiFarms - someone is trying to be edgy here lmao - if you are a decent person. And you don't go out of your way to defend people who are. They were always shitty, they were always antisemitic and racist and awful people. Len and Lazaefair just gave them the authorization to let it all out.

And I agree with you: they absolutely should apologize for the shit they have done and said in the past months, but would that be enough? Would that repair the hurt they caused? Like... apologies are nice, but will they delete Len and Lazaefair's posts from their blogs? Write down that they are awful people who say awful things? Because at this moment I've seen a looooot of excuses but not a single apology - and I very much doubt that any is gonna come from any of them. Their little antisemitic, racist, xenophobic hearts cannot bear to have been proven wrong and that their savior is a flavorless, privileged French lady who is paler than the people they have harassed in her name - me included, which is so, so funny.

[illfoandillfie]

I have to say I joined the fandom properly as it started to get smaller because I always found big fandoms overwhelming and I get sad when I see writers it getting as many notes on their new stuff. I'm so thankful you guys create, reading fanfics is always my way to decompress and I get sad that I don't have the motivation or creativity to write so I appreciate what you do more than you can know. I hope you know I really love your writing and love that you're staying around!! 📷

small fandoms can be so great! it feels like everyone knows each other and its harder to miss inside jokes and new content that gets made because you’re probably following the original sources! But man, as a creator, it can be frustrating lmao. 

I think some of the blame lies with how tumblr itself is. The tag function doesn’t always work so your content doesn’t always show up in the tags so people who don’t follow you have no chance to see it unless people reblog it and unfortunately theres currenly a culture of liking over reblogging. you read a fic you click the like button you keep scrolling. Sometimes you see a new fic and click the like button to save it for later and then forget to come back to actually read it or when you do you still don’t reblog. If this website functioned better it wouldn’t matter half as much. Likes are great. Every like is a person who took an interest in what you posted and that’s fucking incredible. But when reblogs are what spreads your posts, when reblogs are the thing that gets your fic or art or edit in front of other people, it’s so disheartening to not get any. And likes quickly start to lose their value. Because your fic is going to die in your circle of the fandom. If you’re lucky it’ll pick up a couple of random notes in a few weeks time when someone sends it to a friend or remembers they saved it for later or when someone finds one of your old fics in the tag and checks out your masterlist. 

And I don’t want to come across like I’m not grateful for the attention my fics do get because I absolutely am. Anonymous messages, direct messages, replies on posts, they’re all wonderful (even if i suck at replying to them with more than 🥺 you’re so sweet) and I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve gone back to reread comments people left. Obviously not everyone feels comfortable posting particular kinds of fics on their accounts and I totally get that and I will happily take some kind of message in response in those cases. But you look at the notes and the likes so far outweigh replies and reblogs and anonymous messages. It’s kind of a bummer.

But yes I love reading a good fic at the end of a long day of work and I get so excited when I see writers posting things, especially at the moment when I know how hard it can be to finish fics. And I really do love the community we have. In my experience it’s a kind space, very welcoming and encouraging and just so wonderful. So I am definitely not leaving that any time soon.

[millennialzadr]

WHY I LOVE ZADR!!!

HEY GUYS WHASSUP? LMAO

So this is a whole ass giant long post of me absolutely spewing my feelings of love for ZADR, it was the very first thing I wrote when I made this blog and I think it’s a nice, positive thing for my fellow shippers to inhale and enjoy 👌👌

it was originally a reply to mitarashiart’s post about why HE loves ZADR (link in replies) but I decided to delete that and make my own post since MY WHOLE ENTIRE TEXT WALL WAS SHOWN IN THE REPLIES and drowned out anyone else who was trying to talk (thanks tumblr mobile u fuckin idiot)

I had also posted a summary of an AU that I’m working on in the original post, but decided to remove it since it just about doubled the length (I’m thinking about posting it separately along with the wips I’ve been putting together, we’ll see 👀)

But ANYWAY, here is about a million reasons why I think ZADR is the fucking best, so if you like reading gushy gay ship feelings, please enjoy ❤️❤️❤️

[Posted June 2019][WARNING, LONG ASS THOUGHT BARF]

SOOO, holy hell y’all my journey back into this fandom has been a wild and unique experience for me, i went from adding invader zim to my bookmarks on kisscartoon, rewatching the series, finding out theres a movie coming out, finding out there was a shitload of content i’d never seen before (commentaries, lost episode scripts and audios, panels, the COMIC, episodes i’d never seen because the dvd i used to watch was scratched!! and a FUCKLOAD of quality modern fan art like oh my GOD) and finally curiously googling ‘zadr’ (which i was way into when i was maybeee 13/14) to see if there was any interesting new art, and holy hell, mita (the artist above) singlehandedly THREW me down the hole into modern zadr hell, first with his absolutely stunning IZ art (all his art is dope tho check him out yo), then reading the above explanation put the final nail in the coffin like, 100%

so i wanted to add onto his post here on why this ship got me so fucked up, both for anyone who might be wondering why on earth i’m shipping two characters from a kid’s show (i’m very aware how weird that is at first glance trust me) and also so i can get some ideas down for possible future reference (will i ever draw them? maybe)

(first of all, a disclaimer, and this is not pleasant to write but it’s important to address for clarity’s sake: I have no interest in romantic or sexual relationships between minors, and do not ship zim and dib as they are presented canonically in the show (as children). what i’m interested in is the conceptualized relationship they may have as modern adults, and i view zadr more as taking the concepts of existing characters and experimenting with them with different interpretations, which i personally think is a constructive and fun creative outlet, especially if these characters hold personal significance for you (childhood faves of course). growing up together is an important facet of their relationship, and certainly they were important to each other even as children (see: mopiness of doom) but as an adult i’m personally curious about what kind of adults they might’ve become, and that’s the focus of my interest. i’ll still be reblogging regular IZ art because it’s dope but if you see shippy looking art of them as tiny lil beans its either friendship or chibis (and i personally headcanon zim as getting taller with dib but some people stick with his canonical height when drawing them as adults, which is super short. it still doesn’t mean he’s a kid). aaand i wish i didnt have to write this and it would just be obvious but we live in a sick sad world and it is sourced from a children’s cartoon so i feel its necessary. end of disclaimer)

NOW THAT THAT’S OUT OF THE WAY

- ok, first reason’s a bit obvious - the nostalgia. holy hell, the feeling of rediscovering a ship that was popular when i was a preteen during the mid 2000s and discovering a totally new perspective on it as an adult comes with an almost totally overwhelming sense of nostalgia and comfort, as well as inspiration!! the kind of art that seems so common for zadr, these sketch pages of scenes and expressions and visual gags where artists would just scribble every idea they had and LOVE doing it, this was exactly the kind of art that made me so passionate about drawing as a kid, and it still sparks such a powerful feeling of love and admiration for me to this day. fan content of iz and zadr is simultaneously achingly familiar and totally new and fascinating, and it just makes me SO damn happy to consume, it is most definitely my new comfort content. and just, GOD. THE ART!! SO GOOD. FUCK

- now for the characters themselves: for some reason i just really love the thought of a mid twenties, modern Dib?? lanky goth dork, disaster bi, depressed as shit, uses bad sweaters and memes to cope?? when i was a kid i didn’t even LIKE Dib, but now i totally sympathize with him! he’s just a hyper obsessive nerd wishing there was more to life than the situation he got stuck with, how wildly relatable. he was a pretty big asshole as a kid (even to people besides zim) but he was also totally isolated and constantly bullied, so there’s a lot of room for growth. i feel there’s a lot of juicy character development potential for that boy, and there’s always been a special place in my heart for characters who are totally sad and screwed and hopeless, but there’s one thing, or person, that means the world to them and could possibly save them…

- aliens. Zim. i love nonhuman characters, i love monsters, i love aliens, i love characters that don’t understand human shit (and thus have much less room for shame or fear bc theyre just totally oblivious the negatives of modern society) and need guidance (bonding!!) from their human. i also love morally grey characters and characters with skewed logic, they’re always really interesting, and Zim himself just has such a unique personality and set of mannerisms, he contradicts himself a lot and you can never quite expect how he’ll behave, and i love that in a character, it makes them super versatile and fun, especially since there’s so many different possibilities for their development. Also, Zim is a gremlin, a little shit, and a disaster. I also love those traits in a character. And don’t even get me started on his character design?? big sparkly eyes? expressive antennae? monster teeth? complimenting colors? he’s adorable.

- mutual obsession. for someone like Dib, who seems almost repulsed by how boring and slow the people around him are, Zim quite literally personifies Dib’s  escapist fantasies, both as an inhuman entity from beyond the stars, and as a person who’s knowledge, charisma and mystery far exceeds that of anyone Dib has met in his entire life. (so basically what i’m saying is that for a shunned, jaded misanthropist, an actual alien is terribly alluring, even if said alien is dangerous, stupid, and possibly insane). not to mention Zim vindicates Dib’s entire life passion, the supernatural! Even when their relationship is totally negative, there is not a single inch of room for Dib to get tired of Zim. as mita explained, they validate each other. for Zim, WHO AGAIN, IS TOTALLY SHUNNED, ISOLATED, AND HATED BY EVERYONE HE KNOWS, Dib is the only person in the universe who gives a single shit about him!! he gives Zim credit as a threat, a capable invader, which if you ask me is the sole thing Zim is after (he’s hellbent on his mission because it would win him the approval of the tallest, all he’s ever wanted is recognition from the people he thinks so highly of). He literally gets depressed when Dib isn’t around to pay attention to him, not even the tallest were enough to motivate him before Dib came back. these two have no one and nothing without each other, and while lifelong nemeses is fine and dandy, i personally prefer friendship, affection and love, cause i’m a softie like that. how could they possibly get there after years of actively trying to kill each other?? well, i think under just the right circumstances it could become a possibility after a long, long time.

- growth. i. love. me. some. good. character growth. especially for characters with trauma/mental illness, bc again, relatable. these boys have issues, and as mita mentioned, their canon stories are actually INCREDIBLY sad! but the happy thought is, they could recover! they could help each other recover, for little reason other than the two are the only source of happiness for each other. now of course this also opens the gate for angst lovers, but at the same time offers potential for comforting, uplifting content of the boys supporting and inspiring each other, maybe even to the point of becoming happy and healthy enough to create the lives they want for themselves (as in appreciating life and doing things that make them actually happy instead of the delusions of grandeur they both sought when they were younger). gimme that positive shit and let the poor beans be happy  щ(ಠ益ಠщ)

- LITTLE THINGS. LITTLE THINGS THAT ONLY COME WITH CHILDHOOD FRIENDS. WITH HUMAN/NONHUMAN. WITH THE SHOW’S WEIRD LOGIC. Zim being the person Dib knows best and vice versa. Zim having an involuntary respect/admiration for Dib because he’s tall. Learning each other’s needs, limits, and communication methods, both emotionally and biologically. Sensitive antennae. Affectionate bickering. Being less insecure bc your partner literally has no idea why you see your flaws as flaws. Laughing at the flaws they do notice because they make no sense. Zim only wanting to eat waffles and chow mein. Dib being forced to overcome his depression lethargy and stay hygienic/keep the apartment clean because Zim has a sharper sense of smell and is afraid of germs. Endless conversation about anything and everything because they’re from literally different worlds, and endless intrigue. TOUCHING. TALKING. DOING EVERYTHING LIKE ITS THE VERY FIRST TIME AND ALWAYS NEEDING THE OTHER TO GUIDE THEM. HOLY HELL THERE IS SO MUCH POSSIBILITY FOR TINY LITTLE MOMENTS THAT MEAN THE WORLD. FUCK. GOT ME FUCKED UP.

so that wraps up the why. fuck man. its just such a good ship. if you read this big ass text post, thank you for indulging me, i hope you enjoyed it! because i enjoy it very much 👀 so stick around if you’d like to for a shit load of IZ and zadr content on this blog, possibly (MAYBE) even from me!! come roll around in alien hell with me why dontcha ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ its a fun time! thanks for reading!!!

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SO THAT’S MY MANIFESTO Y’ALL, FEEL FREE TO REPLY WITH YOUR OWN REASONS!! I WOULD LOVE FOR THIS POST TO JUST BECOME A BIG GIANT PILE OF LOVE AND YELLING!! GO NUTS! SCREAM ABOUT IT! INFODUMP! DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! I’LL READ EVERY LAST REPLY! Y’ALL DESERVE TO ENJOY YOUR SHIP BC IT’S LITERALLY THE FUCKING BEST!!! LOVE Y’ALL!!!!!!

[dreamworld-1997]

A Story of Dreams and Deceit -Chapter 2

Prompt: Feysand Gangster (Peaky Blinders) AU, set in 1919, New York

Fandom: Acotar (acomaf characters in a peaky blinders setting)

Part 1

Feyre got into the car, careful not to catch her red dress at the door. It was a beautiful dress, extremely elegant, a dress too nice for her to afford. Looking at herself in the mirror she caught a glimpse at what she could have been, had her mother not been killed, had her father not lost his fortune, had her life not gone to shit ever since. But she shook the what ifs and decided to make the best out of the situation.

"Your brothers aren't joining us?" She asked after a while.

"We'll be meeting them there."

Rhysand hadn't said much ever since she got into the car. He'd been drumming his fingers on the wheel and kept on checking his golden pocket watch.

"You'll be Lady Thompson, you'll be introducing me as the family stewart."

"Role playing already?" Feyre joked.

Rhys' lip barely lifted to form a smile. The gesture had been subtle but Feyre had caught onto it. And she also caught onto the importance of what they were doing if he wouldn't counter her comment with something equally playful. It made her wary. He always wore masks but now, he was too agitated to bother with one. Something big was happening.

Maybe she should have demanded more information before decided to join. She didn't even know where specifically they were going. Nothing apart from the races, which could be anyway as far as she knew.

Surprised that no one asked for any sort of identification papers, Feyre walked beside Rhys, venturing into what seemed like a private party.

"I thought we were going racing. Where are the horses? Or the tracks?"

This time he did smile. "I have to talk to the man running this race track. I plan on buying one from him."

"A race track?" Feyre was dumbfounded.

"Yes."

"But that's...legal business."

Rhys chuckled. "I know. My father would turn in his grave if he knew about it. But don't worry, the way I'm acquiring it isn't legal."

Feyre lit herself a cigar. "Call me relieved. I was beginning to panic. Rhysand Orfeo, businessman, upstanding citizen. Next thing I'll hear is that you're helping kittens get down from trees."

He took her cigar and inhaled the tobacco. Feyre watched as his soft lips wrapped around it. She banished that image from her mind as she took her cigar back and brought it to her own lips.

Rhys' gaze however remained pierced on her mouth.

"So, who's this mysterious man you plan on fooling to make business with you?"

"Oh, I won't be fooling anyone. Do you care for a dance?"

Feyre placed her hand in his and followed him to the dancing floor. She had thousands of questions to ask. Like who was he meeting? Was this man a fair businessman he planed to trick? Was he another gangster he would start a war with? Or an alliance? Why was he dancing with her instead of going about his business. But she didn't voice any on those questions. She let herself enjoy the music and the carefree joy of dancing, of being unbound. Of being just a woman, dancing with a man. Nothing more, nothing less. For a minute, that was all that it was.

And then, Rhys started moving them towards a table. And the dream ended. And now it was time to put back on the mask.

And hold on tight to that mask especially when she saw who they were talking to. For she could not betray any shock, not at the sight of the man's face, and definitely not at the sound of his name rolling of Rhys' lips.

"Vanserra"

"Orfeo." The red haired man replied.

And Feyre tried very hard not to stare. The similarities were uncanny. If it weren't for Lucien's scar she might have doubted her sight. For the man before her, while holding the same name and similar features had his skin intact, not even a small scratch.

"I've come here with a proposition."

At that, Vanserra's eyes traveled down her body appreciatively. Her blood froze in her veins. Surely, Rhys didn't plan on selling her like a mare to breed.

''Excuse me, while you're at it, I'll go fetch myself a drink," Feyre interrupted and scurried off. She needed to gather her wits.

Finding out Lucien's brother was a gangster had been shock enough. She needed a brief break before going back in.

The first time she'd met Lucien they almost bit each other's head off. She didn't know why they didn't get along, if they were too similar to too different for any kind of friendship to work. But in time, as her mission seemed to be working and once he'd realize she could put two sentences together without giving herself away or getting herself killed, and especially once she'd started bringing actual information, a sort of unspoken mutual respect seemed to grow between the two of them. They weren't by  any means friends, they did not spend any time together but when they were in close proximity they stopped trying to bite each other's head off. Which was an extreme improvement.

Lucien Vanserra was the only detective in the force knowing about her undercover mission. No other copper, with of course, the exception of the Commissioner who had offered her the position, knew of her involvement with the police. She wondered if that was because of his family ties or because of the strange partnership he had with Commissioner Burnham.

As she pondered all of this, she felt a gentle tug on her left arm. She turned her head and was faced with the familiar violet eyes she craved to lay on a canvas. They didn't quite meet her eyes. Rhysand Orfeo was hesitant.

Huh.

"I still need to finish some business with Vanserra's accountant and then we'll be coming to his house to close the deal. You and Eris will head there now. We won't be long behind you."

The arrangement was strange and it made her uneasy.

She assumed Eris was the name of Lucien's older brother. The one she had heard nothing about.

Picking up on her confusion, Rhys added, "Eris added 2 hours alone with you in the conditions list. He fancies himself a ladies man. Just flirt a little with him and then let him down gently."

Feyre held tightly onto her drink, explaining to herself why throwing champagne in a gangster's face was a bad idea. She took in a deep breath, exhaled softly and headed towards Eris Vanserra ignoring how the whole situations made her skin crawl.

Part 3

Tags: @ dreamerforever-5

If anyone else would like to get tagged, let me know in a reblog/reply. 

Next chapter will be sometimes next week, I have like 4 exams this week so there’s now way for me to write another chapter that soon. I don’t know yet, I literally just destroyed my laptop (advice: never let it fall off your desk) and I had some scenes written there. It might take a bit longer to post now.

[incorrectrunningman]

hello!!! (long post about me, my page, and what i post! skip if you want, though i suggest reading!)

i’ve noticed that theres a ton of people new to my page, so here’s a bit about me!

• my name is janey!!! hey!!!

• i’m open to making any new friends, regardless of any fandoms you’re in

• i like variety shows, kpop, and kdramas. my favorites are tvxq, super junior, btob, ikon, bts, epik high, ailee, zion.t, dynamic duo, gary, bewhy, and i’m down if anyone wants to chat! i’ve been a fan of kpop since 2008 <3

• my main is @smhsenpai but i’m usually on here. if you wanna talk, i suggest that you message me through this account

• i have other social medias like twitter and instagram, which i’ll link soon

here’s a bit about my page:

• submissions and suggestions are GREATLY appreciated! you can message me about any questions/suggestions if not through asks

• my inbox is ALWAYS open! if you wanna talk about running man or any troubles you have, i’m down to chat. i want to help as many people as possible!

• hate towards running man members, staff members, or just in general is NOT tolerated! this includes in tags in reblogs, replies, and personal messages! i GREATLY APPRECIATE any constructive criticism, but blatant hate is never appreciated

• homophobia, racism, transphobia, etc isn’t tolerated no matter what the issue is

• i tend to post in spams every so often because i’m busy with work and my studies, but i try to post as often as i can

• asks are greatly encouraged!!! i love interacting with you guys and seeing what you have to say. let’s chat, okay?

lastly, a bit about what i post:

• this account is for fun, and everything here is a joke and was Never said by any running man member unless said otherwise in a tag on the post! please don’t be offended by anything on this page, as it isn’t meant to be taken seriously

• as i try to keep this page as chill as possible and stay away from offensive/triggering things, please DO message me if you have a problem with any of the posts and i’ll take it down. if there is something that could hurt anyone, i try to put tw in the headings of the post

• i try to stay away from ships. i personally do not ship any ship in running man, and if i do post ships, it’s monday couple because they’re widely accepted, or kwangsoo/somin or kwangsoo/joongki because they’re close same aged friends. please do not suggest anything that includes ships, even though i know a lot of my followers like spartace :( it just makes it easier for everyone!

• i try my best to include every past and present running man member. every single one of them means a lot to me and if i accidentally leave someone out for a long time, i’m very sorry!!!! let me know!

if you read all of this, thank you! a big shout out to everyone who follows and supports my posts <333 here’s to creating friendships and positivity in the tumblr running man community and let’s run together for a long time!

[fantasy9nation]

[PROJECT] FANTASY SURVEY COMMENT REPLIES

Thank you all for submitting in your comments! We’re truly grateful for all of them so I’m gonna reply to them here! I apologise if I miss out your comment! Thank you to all who are supporting and sending love to us!

bless you bless you too fren

You guys are doing amazing. Keep up the hard work ❤ thank you so much for supporting us!

i love u! love you too~~

I love your blog it's my go to blog when i want sf9 updates! thank you so much! sorry if we are a bit late with updates!

I think the blog is great exactly how it is and have a great day/night !! thank you lots! have a wonderful day/night yourself~ 

I'm a new follower but I love this blog already! You guys do a really good job of avoiding whitewashed pictures, at least from what I've seen, and you post a good variety of the members rather than a ton of just one at a time. we just share the pictures the fansite masters post without editing as it isn't allowed and we respect them :) and thank you!

Thank you for always providing quick updates on the boys! I really enjoy this blog and I hope you guys have fun running it (: Fighting! thank you for your support!!! <3

You guys are doing so great thank you for all your hard work ilysm ❤❤❤ thank you so much!! we love u too <3 

Translations of tweets would be convenient? But not necessary its a really nice blog already :) we’ll try to add translations on all of them!

you guys run the blog amazingly and i love all the work and effort you all have put into it !! thank you so much! your support means a lot to us and it motivates us to do better!!

Keep being awesome :) Thanks for your hard work! thank you for your support~~ :D

Keep being awesome! you too!

You're doing an amazing job! Keep up the great work! thank you so much!!! <3

Maybe change the theme? I know it's too much work but yeah it's an suggestion i changed it again recently but I realised it has no search bar :/ I change the theme of the blog during sf9 comebacks 

i love u guys :) we love you too :)

Maybe just be a little faster but the speed of updates is perfectly understandable. we will try our best in the midst of schedules and wild timezones :) 

:) ;) 

I would prefer it if the way preview photos were sourced was different, if you click on the gear button on the top right there’s a place where you can link the content source and you just put the fansites url in there!! the link to the source then comes up on the bottom left of the post. but that’s just my personal taste bc i run an fy blog too, feel free to post as you already do!! another thing would be what photos are put together in posts, like sometime i feel they don’t match ? but anyway thank you for running a great blog!! love you guys keep up the hard work!! we are now using that method! thank you for your suggestion and support! we will try our best to continue running the blog!

hi ily guys and youre doing an amazing job! we love you too and thank you!! 

I think the team is great and I think you all work hard, and I'd just like to thank you for your work and tell you to keep it up! thank you so much it means a lot to us!! :D

Good job on running the blog! it makes me super happy and ilyall a lot for running it <3 eat healthy and stay in good health!! thank you for loving the blog! we hope that you're always healthy and happy as well!!

Great job for always updating us!! thank you!! :3

keep up the work and thank you! thank you to you too!! <3

Keep it up sweethearts! thank you angel <3

You guys are doing amazing keep up the good work guys ilysm ❤❤❤ thank you so much!! we love you too❤

I think it would be better if you guys posted previews before posting any hq of a certain day! bc it gets confusing when you go through a tag of a day and there are previews after hqs if that makes sense? i run an fy blog and if there are already hqs before i've posted all the previews i just save the hqs as drafts and then post them after posting all the previews! But i love that you guys work so hard with this blog and us fantasies appreciate it! Love you guys <3 we will try to!! thank you so much!! :D ❤

you guys are doing the work of lord here. thanks for the updates. yea man theres 6 people here and we can barely keep up :’) thank you!!

Thank you for all of your hard work!! thank you for your support~~

everything is great!! y'all keep us all well fed!! thank you so much!! well you should thank sf9 they’re basically feeding us everything anyway

Since I don’t run an SF9 blog I don’t have much content of them on my tumblr dash so you guys fill the sf9 emptiness nicely :))) Don’t get stressed you guys are doing a great job!!! thats nice to hear~~ thank you so much for loving our blog!! 

Just keep doing you boo♡ back at you boo❤

I love your blog!! I'm not someone who sends asks/messages a lot so I don't interact with others often but all of you are doing great 💕💕 thank you so much!! I'm so glad you sent a comment to us! <3

You guys do a great job of keeping us informed, and I really appreciate it! thank you so much love!! we apologise for late updates!

everything is great!! y'all keep us all well fed!! thank you so much!! well you should thank sf9 they’re basically feeding us everything anyway

i do like the way u guys post updates and stuff but i think its better if you dont tag the fansite in previews so that the tag is just their hqs? also if u could post all of their twitter posts including videos bc theyre very funny and cute :)) very sorry but i cant be sure about that, we try not to post too much previews and focus mainly on hqs so its easier to navigate and we hope u understand! our fandom is not big and we try to give more credit to the fansites as much as possible! and i also apologise for that because we don't post their twitter vids and we won't be doing so :(

This is just my opinion/preference but I think sometimes you post too many fantakens in one post, if it's more than 2-3 I usually won't want to reblog it. the most photos we group in a post is 4 and its standard, its hard and takes too much time to post one or two in a post :( and since there are 9 members we have to coordinate the blog well and all of us are busy too so we hope you understand! we respect you opinion too and we will try to do it! 

I’m also going to clarify something: this blog never started as a fyeah and never will be. we apologise if we don’t operate like how other fyeah blogs do. this blog’s aim is to share more about sf9 and allow a platform for FANTASYs to have a greater understanding of each other, the fandom and sf9 themselves through various projects and our posts. we are not as formal as other fyeah blogs and we update at our own flexibility, and you can constantly get in touch with the team through this blog and not through our main blogs. i started this blog so many people could get to know sf9 and i really love the boys with my whole heart so we hope you understand! thank you for all your support again!!

[sleepymouses]

okay for the dashboard osmosis thingy: i gotta go twenty one pilots because i'm the person that i am, but i'm also gonna go Psych as well maybe?? (ur right it was really hard to try to think of one for you, esp one i could fact check lol)

(from this ask meme)

ahh ok, osrry for the wait, i been a busy bee, but here we go!

21p is not an amount of money in the uk (ok, well it is) but it’s also a duo of two best buds named tyler joseph and josh... something with a d maybe? durran?? i feel like googling would be cheating, and admittedly i only remember tyler’s surname bc of ur thing last night lol

anyways, so they are two best buddos and one of them is really cute with his wife, i wanna say josh but it might actually be tyler.. i think wife’s name starts with a j, like jenna or jess, and theyre like really cute #relationship #goals, like best friends in love, so that is real cool and nice! (and i also know tyler has 3 younger sibs, but u are also the only reason i know this so i wont go into that )

and idk their type of music, like.. i wanna say alternative, but that is a pretty easy generalization lol. i know one song was a vid of one of them strumming a ukulele and singing on his ownsome to increasingly bigger groups, i think i reblogged it like 500 years ago without knowing who it was, but i have since remembered/recognized it, (also i think it was a cover of i cant help falling in love with u)

and their fandom is relatively smol i think, like 1d really is an anomaly compared to the rest of bandom, in terms of the amount/variety of fanworks created, even for bands i thought were really famous and stuffs it’s like way different? (i was curiously googling panic! and fob’s fandoms the other night actually and 21p popped up a few times as like a crossover thing with them, which i thought was interesting, tho i dont know how much theyre actually linked irl?)

anyways, being a smaller fandom is probos not a bad thing tho! i imagine its got a bit more cozier, intimate feel and in an ideal world there’d be an awful lot less drama too, so i hope that is the case.

i also think that 21p fanworks are less likely taken for granted bc theyre more rare, like i feel like fans are more likely to leave comments than jsut a like or a kudos, yunno? bc they really appreciate every bit they get :)

(also lol, i rlly didnt intend for this to be as long as the les mis one but whoops)

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and then there’s psych, which im quite annoyed to notice has been taken off of netflix now >: (i never actually saw all of it, just watched a bunch of epis in random order)

psych centers around unofficial (im p sure? cos gus also worked at a pharmaceutical company too) detectives and life long (as shown by lots of flashbacks) bffs shawn and gus, the latter of whom shawn always comes up with super ridiculous fake names for when theyre interviewing witnesses and whatnot (his name is actually burton guster tho), but that was one of the running gags

psych is a fairly light crime show, like theres murder mysteries and whatnot, but theres also lots of good banter between the leads (esp shawn n gus) and jokes and

and their main dealio is that shawn is a psychic, even tho he actually is Not, hes just extremely observant and (sometimes) smart, and gus is in on the con too, and they work for the police station together, and theres also a cop named lassy except thats not rlly his name its a nickname but i dont rmr his actual one, and his partner julia/jules, who was in a very slow build romance with shawn over the like.. 5? 7? seasons it had, it was a good big amount, & i think it had a very good build and character development n stuff bc of that, i get the feeling it was lucky enough to have a natura run of things, im pretty sure it wasnt cancelled when it ended,like it got to do everything it wanted with the storylines n stuff before it decided to wrap up? and there was a lot of different stuff in the episodes, they werent all just typical solving mystery stuffs

but fandom wise again, i think itd be quite small in terms of fanworks produced about it? it doesnt rlly seem like the type of show to have much fanfiction written about, altho im willing to bet that shawn and gus, like any pairing involving a black guy and a white guy, dont get shipped together hardly at all despite all their screen time and chemistry together. (and yes ik julia/shawn canon, but thats never stopped shippers before, so.) actually i bet shawn and lassie are one of the bigger pairings in fanfic, tho again, i dont think psych would have much in the way of that somehow?

anyways, i rmr it was goofy but enjoyable, and there were lots of episodes that made homages to other things, actually i think im gonna go try2 find an ep to watch rn tbhh, except Not on netflix anymore i guess !

[scarletrebel]

im very conflicted about that video going around of markiplier talking about the people who react negatively or ‘faux’ negatively to all the ego stuff because

straight off the bat he’s completely valid in feeling the way that he does about it, im the last person who’s going to invalidate someones feelings on that. its an audience reaction to his content that weighs on his mind and if anything, i have massive respect for him to acknowledge that and say that it wont actually effect his content in any way. its difficult to be honest about how you’re feeling creatively, and very brave to be able to compartmentalise and still go ahead with what you’re making because you believe in it. 

however, theres some context missing here. because mark has said before that he doesnt mind the whole ‘fishfuck’ names and the like, i remember a post he put on tumblr saying that he didnt care. which may be irrelevant in fairness because maybe its actually starting to grate on him now which is more than understandable. people change, words over time can wear you down.

but im also curious to know what content hes referring to that is causing this reaction thats obviously getting him down. it cant be wkm, there was an outpouring of love for that. so i can only think that its everything in between then and now, all the suspeeshy stuff he’s been doing and the van videos and honestly, mark? i think you may have to take on a bit of responsibility here.

you did spooky livestreams during tour and then the whole mask thing happened, you never addressed how out of hand it got (or at least ive never seen it addressed) and then admitted that it was all bullshit that wasnt going anywhere. you’ve poked fun at theorists in ways that toe the line of just joking, to the point where several theorists made open comments about it and had to encourage other people to not let it dishearten them.  

when you have ego content, when you tease things in a build up, if you do it again people are obviously going to be let down when it turns out that actually this time it was nothing. so its not that they dont trust you, its that they dont believe you and they’re more likely to be cynical about any potentially ego related content.

the bottom line is, how are your fans, your most passionate and engaged fans who are theorists, supposed to take your ego content seriously when they feel as though you dont take them seriously?

its a two way street, and when you act suspicious and then give no payoff, whilst also saying that you have thick skin and that being called names doesnt bother you, what are people supposed to think?

(and i want to repeat because that last bolded paragraph makes me sound like im ‘victim blaming’:  people change, words over time can wear you down. if these kinds of comments are getting mark down, thats completely valid. i just want him to think about the things he says. he’s reblogged art with not flattering captions at the bottom. if he’s thick skinned then fine, but be honest with us, goddamit. we love you and we want to take your content seriously. thats the most frustrating part of this whole situation for me, we do! or at least, from what i see we do. but that could just be one perspective, which i can appreciate.)

now. this is NOT an excuse for anyone in the fandom who’s taken it too far. but thats an extreme that mark himself didnt touch upon so i dont want to get into it. just know that you cant use this post to justify being an outright dick to mark, he’s still a human being at the end of the day, and im not making this to call him out. i dont even think him or anyone of note will see it.

im making this to shed some light on the other side of the fence, and to get my thoughts out there because all this miscommunication can get upsetting. especially as someone who loves marks content and the egos and is really inspired by marks work ethic. 

ego content, the idea of characters on youtube channels isnt a new concept, but the way that mark has implemented it is something wholly new that i dont think he’s quite mastered yet. gone are the days, unfortunately, where he can do scary shit for the hell of it. because unless he says so (which would be fine! i dont think anyone would mind him saying ‘hey this has nothing to do with any ego’ if he wanted to do something spooky, we could and can appreciate it for what it is) the immediate suspicion is going to be that its ego content. that communication is all we need. 

anyway. ive come from fandoms where creators seemed to just not care about their fans unless they were blindly following their work, which is NOT whats happening with mark let me make that ABUNDANTLY CLEAR. so i just wanted to hammer home the point that communication with your audience is so, so important. and it doesnt need to be a big thing! it can be a small comment, doesnt need to be a 10 minute video or a wall of text on tumblr. let the respectful ones of us spread the word and go back to working as hard as you do. trust us so we can trust you. 

[illfoandillfie]

hi 🥺 i saw ur post abt feeling like people are moving on and i completely get what u mean. part of the reason that i haven’t been active is because i feel like everyone’s disappearing, and the nostalgia for the golden days of my blog in this fandom makes me sad, so i prefer to stay away. it’s a terrible feeling tho. just wondering where people have gone. in my case, i simply haven’t been feeling the inspo to write, so coming to my blog makes me feel kinda guilty about not having any 1/2

🥺🥺🥺 el ily. I hope you know that post wasn’t like an attack on you or anyone else. It was a bit of a vent when i was in my feels and i probably should have deleted it the next morning.

thats such a mood tho, it’s so hard to keep up the energy and enthusiasm for writing when it feels like you’re not getting the same amount of feedback or interactions in return. And we’re definitely not. I just compared notes on the first rog fic i ever posted and the most recent (which i would 100% say is better writing overalll) and the first one is sitting on 295 notes - 259 likes/36 reblogs - and the last one is on 139 notes - 113 likes, 23 reblogs. And as much as I enjoy the feeling of finishing a fic and creating something for myself, part of the reason I post is for other people and if it seems like they don’t want what i have to offer then why am i bothering when writing is such a fucking process.

I mean, it’s tough because there was always going to be a decline in the fandom. That’s how fandoms work. A movie comes out and theres heaps of hype and people jump into it and then the movie leaves cinemas and people move on to other fandoms or other stages of life that don’t allow as much time for writing smut fics or creating gifsets or whatever. I’ve been on this idiotic website for over a decade and that is a pattern thats happened with every fandom i’ve been part of. There will always be people who do create stuff for it (and i mean the queen fandom has been going for 50 odd years now lmao) but the number of those people will always decline after the initial hype dies down. I also think the decline has been exacerbated by covid19 because there aren’t any tours happening so you can’t even be excited about new videos of q+al and movies aren’t filming so other than a couple of things we know are in the editing process theres not much new content coming from the borhap cast (especially since none of them are big uses of social media). And everyone is struggling with changes to living situations and work conditions and just fucking surviving this thing and its any wonder people are struggling to find the energy to make things now or even just be online here. 

And I know there are people out there who want to read and share my fics. I have some really lovely followers who are very generous with their complements and encouragement. And 139 notes is still 139 people who were at least somewhat interested in what i wrote. But it’s hard to not feel that it used to be more and a lot of the familiar names don’t pop up so much.

Also what you said about coming to your blog making you feel guilty omg yes so much. I haven’t been on anywhere near as much for the last few weeks, partly just because things have been happening at home, but a lot because every time i pop in im like god i should be writing why aren’t i writing and then i feel bad about not producing new content as fast as i used to. And then on top of that it can feel like you’re just writing the same things over and over and it’s hard to feel inspired about something you’ve done before. The fic I’m most excited by right now is one i’m working on with an aromantic reader. because it’s different. It’s a different approach to a relationship and it requires different things and i don’t have many expectations for people reading it because a lot of people are gonna be like ‘can’t relate’ and won’t open it and i’m fully prepared to be a little disappointed when it gets 2 notes but it’s something i care about and want to finish. But there is still that guilt when i work on it and not one of the other hundred wips i have. 

idk. idk how to stop comparing how many notes my fics get. idk how to find that inspiration or interest or passion to create so much again. idk that things will ever be how they used to. Maybe if netflix announces a queen mini series or something lmao. But I also don’t think finding that magic again is something that can be forced. I think there are a lot of things that effect how much you can create - both internal and external factors - and i think in a lot of cases it’s just about time and being kind to yourself and finding the Right thing to work on. And accepting that sometimes just writing one sentence is an achievement, even if it’s not a particularly good sentence. The fact is we do this shit for free. It’d be different if we were paid and had deadlines to meet but we aren’t and we don’t unless they’re self enforced deadlines. And y’know what, watching tv or reading a book or playing a video game is so much easier than writing. 

I don’t think we’ll ever get back to the same level of activity this fandom used to have. I just don’t. But there is always going to be people here creating and sharing what others create. There’s some really fucking wonderful fics and stuff being posted, the creators appreciation day thing is happening soon and there is still an audience out there (even if half of them seem to be under the impression the fandom is dead. it’s not. it’s just smaller and struggling to be seen when the website we use doesn’t work properly and people refuse to reblog our shit). And, hopefully, as we get closer to next year situations ease and people who haven’t been as active lately are able to rekindle the passion they used to have. I really really hope you can find it again because I adore you and your writing so much and I could say the same about a number of others. I’m going to keep trying to get back into the swing of it. Maybe when work gets back that’ll be the push i need. Or maybe the rest of 2020 is going to be slow and hard. But in the mean time I’m going to do my best to share what others create and try to come up with stories that make me want to write because that’s not been happening much lately.