#theres literally nothing 2 help me im broken forever actually. theres nothing anyone can offer that would help its so sad. like babygirl i | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

gaysaito · 2 years ago

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i love (mental illness) why do i randomly go completely fucking delusional ????? i swear from my point of view i make complete sense but the people i talk to just get very confused n concerned ?//1/11/

ok girl! anyway anyone else ever only able to express their feelings through acts of extreme violence n destruction either inflicted on others or themselves. why do i express love through literal downright abuse n mutilation. ohhh i love him so much i want to gut him n feel all his warm organs in my arms ^^ < babe that is NOT normal behaviour

#aughhghhhh #one day ill post normally again i swear.#i used to be an artist ... goddamn #theyre not even giving me any medication for my bpd like besties u saw my leg ^^ im gonna completely carve up the rest of my limbs again-#in time. like ermmm ok. ^^ cool. keep delaying that mental health report #im still not allowed back in my college campus from when i climbed their roof n broke their window n stole knives #n im expected to finish all my course content in 11 weeks or ill completely fail!#with nothing for the 3 assignments ive already submitted that have been graded. killing myself #theres literally nothing 2 help me im broken forever actually. theres nothing anyone can offer that would help its so sad. like babygirl i #wanna live actually!#i have a future i want for myself (literally just being able to make it n have a stable home somewhere)#n thats so impossible for me !#ud think they could at least give me more hours on my course.... i literally have a disability that means i get less time i can work on thi #things #n they literally dont . they havent given me any sort of accomidation since i started here #n this fuckin college is the best shot i have at completing a course they literally specialize in “special kids”#killing myself #god

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