#theres also the bodyguard aspect. i will protect you. because i love you. not because of some warped deal like gisela did.

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had a vision and u guys arent ready for it (rayni x flori)

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⭐⭐give us ⭐ the tea ⭐⭐

Aahhh okay thank you 💕💕 I’m very excited. Anyways, the Jason bodyguard au (which consists of these two fics so far) is very dear to my heart and I love talking about it. I’ve stated this before but its not a series in the traditional sense its more of an anthology series although a few of the future works I have in mind may connect loosely or be a part one-part two sort of thing.

And starting off with some more structural tea lmao i guess you could say, I’m definitely hoping some of the world building aspects that I think about all the damn time do end up showing up more in furture works. Like how Bruce and Jason’s siblings play into this world. Because I do want to establish a rough background/past for Jason that wouldn’t really differ between fics and the reason is, that although this is an anthology series I’m not doing it to have different version of Jason so to speak. I just want to be able to create scenarios without having to connect them into a larger story (partially because I’m lazy) and to look at the different points of view this au can provide.

This is because there is this very implicit trust that is naturally established between the reader and Jason in a sitatuon like this but I definitely want to explore different aspects of this trust. Maybe a version where the reader is completely trusting of Jason which I seen in the 4am Drabble while there could be other works where the reader does not trust him and the dynamics that lead from that.

And to me, Jason isn’t someone who would seek approval and although it does sting that you don’t trust him, he doesn’t dwell on it. That is until something like a near death incident takes place and that hard conversation has to be had. Or even after something that should prompt you to trust him more and you don’t could allow for a deeper insight into you and him. Maybe he sees part of himself in that hostility and even the reason the reader needs protecting, who are you, etc are other aspects of this story that can change parts of it, but the core idea and bond that is in the root of all of this gets to be looked at in different lights.

I also really like this au because provides an interesting look into the duality of Jason I guess. He isn’t necessarily the softest or kindest of characters and having to protect someone means theres a certain established amount of care for both parties. I think Jason learning to care for the reader by you teaching him is something that is quite sweet and also makes me want to scream because he’s really out here protecting you when your vulnerable and your allowing him to BE vulnerable aah. It isn’t just about Jason keeping you safe it’s about the trust and love that forms from it.

And on the flip side to all that there is the question of when does it end? The relationship, the protection, etc. This is mentioned in la douleur exquise, “You knew you couldn’t ask Jason to stay, there was a fear that money was his true motivation for all of this. That once that ended so did every bond he had with you.” This part was something I thought about a lot because in some part of this au I may write about the end of the relationship and with the aspects of world building I’ve been keeping in mind there is not much of a chance Jason would stay with the reader.

It’s also the part that I think works the best with the title. “the heart-wrenching pain that one feels when they love someone they cannot have” this statement is really good at overall letting the reader know that the relationship with Jason is sort of doomed from the start, its one that isn’t really built to last and the dynamic of the relationship if it were to continue after you stopped needing protecting would be so different. I also think this phrase isn’t only for when the relationship is likely to be over, again if there was a romance continued after you didn’t need protecting you both may still long for how it was before.

And there’s something absolutely heart breaking and devestating to me about being with the ones you love, and still longing for something else or more. Like if you can’t have what you want with them who says you’ll ever have it? And that idea is kind of heavy in la douleur exquise much more then the other drabble and it’s something I’ll probably explore more, but don’t worry I’m also gonna have fluffy, sweet, fun, etc works in this au because there is still a lot of fun to be had with this idea.